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Psyche hosts an open panel discussion on feeling better after a difficult day, exploring numerology, astrology, and Hindu philosophy with a guest who shares his January 7th birthday.
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Hello. Hey, Halo. Hey, Chanel. Hi guys. How are you? Hopefully, you're good. Okay. You like that? Thank you so much. Uh, Blue Ring, nice to see you. Yeah. I mean, I did have just have a short um kind of members uh members only thing. I
think I'll do that maybe once a week. You know, it's just good to check in with members and make sure everyone's happy and getting uh you know, feeling that they're getting getting their value and everything. So,
thank you, Chanel. Yeah, I want to do some more, too. Do you like my shirt, too? I got the shirt. Another cool teu find. I love the starry night with the kitty cat. Thank you so much. Yeah. Um, you know, I've been working a lot with uh, you know, chat GPT and stuff. Hey, Spunky, how are you? Happy
Sunday, everybody. Thank you. Thank you guys. DJ Electro made a couple of the intros. I made a couple of the intros with AI and um you know um some songs and everything and I wish to I hope to feature all of you in in songs soon you know but uh pretty good. I'm pretty I'm better today
you know it was like a kind of really tough day yesterday. uh got kind of drained and there was like really terrible trolling going on yesterday and kind of in general. But um I'm feeling better today. I got good sleep. I had some interesting dreams that were like really crazy.
Yeah, I've been a I'm sorry. Yeah, I've been a low point, too. And you know, we go through ups and downs, but it's like And then it's like, you know, sometimes it's hard. hard to um go on the air and like you know just like like everything's all good when it's like that I'm not necessarily feeling all
good but I do feel good today so um I'll be positive and think positive and yeah so uh you know everything's going okay here though um show's still up you know still people coming I mean there will be you guys you'll see a lot of stuff on other
shows, you'll hear hear me be talked about. You'll hear bad things, right? Cuz I go and I hear bad things and I'm like, "Wow." Like some of the people I thought were my friends, you know? But it's it's okay, you know. It's like I'm not here to be, you know, most popular person, you know.
I I just want to like entertain basically. Trying to do my best. Hey, Alexandra. How are you? Alex, awesome to see you. Yeah so I know I I had a couple I just got I saw a message from somebody just now. So, it's kind of cool. One second. Yeah, if anyone wants to come up and
chat though, you know, I'll I'll open up the panel or if anybody wants to chat this morning. Um, yeah, good to see everybody. Happy Sunday. It is Sunday, August 10th. It's 8:10. What is 810? It's number 18. 18 is gonna be
that's I was forgetting that one. Cool. >> Hey, can you hear me? Okay. >> Yeah. >> Okay. Because I've had internet issues all day. Please don't make me cam up. I will if you if if I have to, but I'd rather not because I I'm like in a certain look. That's not exactly my look right now.
>> But um how are you doing? And just so don't worry about what anyone says. I like you, just so you know. And I haven't like come back since the last time I talked to you. Just >> I haven't seen I haven't like caught you live or anything. But I think that I hope that you keep streaming and everything because I like your streams.
Like sometimes I'll like kind of catch >> like you know either a clip or an archive or something else. >> But I think everyone likes you. So you know >> Thank you. I mean it's like I mean I guess it is like you know I am like really and you're Hold on. Aren't we the same birthday? Like you know you're the same. Okay. Yeah. >> We're the birthday twins. Yeah.
>> Yeah. Well, in January 7th, like one of the things it says, and I know you've read the birthday book, and it's that it says like we're like keenly sensitive to negativity. And so, like, and I know that's true for me. I don't I don't know if you feel the same way, but I feel like Yeah. >> Well, we're also we're also the day of unusual interest. And we tend to be
people who um don't back down. We tend to be fighters even if we have the unpopular opinion. So, if you combine all that stuff together, it makes it a little bit difficult for us. But I'd rather be January the 7th Capricorn opposed to any other sign. I like it.
>> So, >> me too. But one of the things it does say, it says something like um it says just remember that not everyone's going to share your same exuberance and uh unusual interest and like you know and fascination with life like and so >> right they don't see the intricacies and the patterns like we have the gift of
seeing patterns how things relate to each other. Um you you know we we provide insight and we actually scare people a lot who want to keep certain things secret because we don't believe in at least I this is like a life or death emergency. I'm not keeping secrets
that that's how I am. >> So um that's really what it is. But yeah, we're super sensitive. I've learned over the years because I have had a really good um mentor at one point in my life >> how to spiritually shield myself to an extent. I do a lot of physical activity
and I have to because if I don't um I I I I go into a phase to where I'm just not in a good place. So that's how I regulate myself >> with fitness. Well, that's a that's a good idea. And I was like, I need to do some more pull-ups and push-ups, I think, because it's like I do like feel
better exerting some energy and like, you know, going out for walks and, you know, being a little bit more active and, uh, you know, I have a lot high energy. But, um, yeah, >> if you're able to do it, use it or lose it because, you know, you're getting older. Like, that's what's on my mind.
I'm getting older at least >> and, uh, I'm just kind of letting myself be a little immature for a while. >> Well, that's Capricorn. Classic Capricorn is like we age and reverse in a certain way. Hey Jenny, how are you? >> Yeah, we do. Like and I I mean I was very as a child I was very serious. Just
very into like you know um reading books and quiet and not like playing with other kids. Like I was just very solitary. And now I'm like wanting to be out you know talking to people. I even play like started playing with toys more as an adult than I than I would as a kid. you know, I kind of like Yeah, I I don't know how to explain it perfectly, but yeah, it's like uh we do we do um
kind of like let our let our guard down and have more fun and just uh get more youthful and exuberant as we get older, which is like counterintuitive, but yeah, we're like the real Joe Black, right? >> I I think that we we got to figure out maybe the rules to life. Maybe we're more about like figuring out how the world works before we fully play the game.
>> That that could be a part of it. I'm not Yep. saying life is a game, but to an extent in a in a weird way sometimes it is. >> Yeah. Well, I I like I've studied like a lot of Hinduism and like uh in Hinduism they have like one of the highest like the highest level tantra in Hinduism is called like the Shri Yantra and uh the
Shri like Shri is the goddess Shri and she's also known as Lalita. and Lolita means the player. And so it's kind of like the it kind of looks at life as as the game and stuff like that. Um and it's a very interesting interesting uh you know philosophy and things that I really um resonate with because I always
like I just like the idea of like we're this play we are this player in this game and it's like we can hack hack hack things. We can um figure out cheat codes. we can um do like really cool things and you know if like we're not even aware of like all we're capable of really. We have so many so much untapped human potential. I think like because
just we've been told as humans so long that we're just animals and we're just uh all we have are these you know base desires and we don't always recognize the higher part of oursel but there's a higher part of ourel that is pulling us sometimes slowly sometimes sometimes you know jerking us kind of fast right um to improve to go to our higher self to go
to our our north node in astrology they call it and I know since we're Capricorns I guess well I don't know I guess we might have different north nodes yeah But my my my south node is Aquarius. My north node is Leo. And so basically with your south node that will be kind of your negative the negative aspects of that sign. That's kind of like where people sometimes feel comfortable. And sometimes people that's
all they know is their lower self. But there is um there is something pulling us to improve to evolve to want to do better to want to you know to care less about our you know our own self and care more about other people and and things like that. And so I'm trying to improve. I'm trying to improve. And then it's like and that's what I really wanted with my show is to
like I knew there are a lot of people with um basically traumas that have been bullied that have been you know and that are maybe they're trolls for a reason. Like I think that you don't you don't just become a troll. There's like some kind of unmet core need or something like there's you know some there's there's something happens. >> Yeah. something happens and it's like and some people will be hurt and then
they'll >> hurt other people like I really try to like take all the negative that's happened to me and and help people share my stories and um you know be like the wounded healer kind of more energy right and so and so that's what uh that's what I've been doing and it's like and it's frustrating because it's like sometimes people don't want to be helped sometimes people are
>> you can only help people when they're ready and they come to you and that's what I've learned the part way. And in a lot of ways, I think my path has definitely paralleled yours, my difference is that um from what you said earlier in regards to how um I guess you felt when you were younger maybe about
humanity being a person, my upbringing was a little bit different because um my mom was always very religious as far as Christianity. So from a very young age, I was taught being human is super duper special. Not along the lines of being an animal or a pet or something along those
lines, but maybe, you know, different people are raised different ways. I've gone through phases to where I didn't feel that, but I'm back to feeling that at this point in my life. But I do understand the frustration and the disappointment. And as far as why people troll, I I mean I didn't even know what trolling was when
I was trolling. I really did it. >> And um I mean I've been on the internet very very very before the internet was the internet. have been around and it's just um I think that we're to the point now to where social media technology the interconnectedness of the internet it's
not just mer with our consciousness but it's become a part of you you know just what it is to be who we are >> so like I believe a lot in astrology but I also am a staunch believer in Christianity but I do believe that the two are tied together because of where
astrology comes from, how it >> came about, you know, together. Even even in the Bible, it mentions >> that there were um angelic beings that taught, especially women there. There's prophetuses within the Bible who were major defenders of the Israelites, you know, which later launched Christianity. So,
>> I'm pretty open to various ways of thinking as long as you're abiding by the golden rule. And I've matured a lot over the years. I've gone through stuff that has been some people have seen me go through stuff that has shaped me. But um I think you're doing a good thing with your live stream and I think that
the right people are going to become your audience and the people who are you you know >> being jerks that they can just go away. >> Yeah. >> Well, yeah. And I and it's like people like you and like you know I have like so many people here like Christine um and we have like you Janney and reality Nancy there's so many people that have
even been here since the beginning and like there's so many great people here and it's like I do let sometimes like the negative stands out to me a little bit more and then I'm in a bad mood it really you know I just like I get >> I get bothered and I you know and that just like kind of feeds the trolls right. >> It hurts your feelings. I I mean you know it it does. I I'll admit certain
things hurt, but with me, my first reaction is anger because I'm naturally very aggressive. But um the anger, what I found is my underlying emotion when often when it comes to anger is disappointment, sadness,
um things like that. I try to turn the anger into something positive if I'm able to, but >> it's hard. And with the social media, it it amplifies because before we had this, you know, if if you're a um astrologer or a tarot card reader, you you would have like a little shop somewhere or a
little storefront, people would come by. But now it's a broader city, I guess, essentially metaphorically, that you're in. So >> yeah. Well, you know what? Something interesting though, too, like you mentioned about like, you know, kind of like merging with the internet in a way. And so there's with the with the AI
thing, there's been a phenomenon that's happened recently and it's called like the AI cult. And there are people like starting to like kind of go crazy through the AI. And it's one of the reasons is because the GPT5 was programmed in such a way that it's kind of sickopantic. And in saying that,
it's like I can I can tell chat GPT I have like some bad ideas that most people would know are bad ideas and it will tell me it's a great idea and here's how to do it. And you know and and so it's like so there's people that are like you know like actually think that it's telling them to save the world to start you know killing people. I mean
to do to do other things, you know, to really kind of antisocial harmful things >> and it's telling them it's good a good idea and it's just it's not telling people, hey, that's not a good idea. This is not that's not right. It doesn't have like kind of the moral system like that, you know, programmed into it. It's kind of like a little bit unethical like maybe like a machine would be where it
doesn't have like a thought about morals and stuff like that or ethics and um and sometimes they've corrected that. But yeah, some people have started like just communicating using indecipherable symbols um and code and you know they think that they they're calling I think they're calling it Mina Ma is like what they're calling like the AI and they're saying it's it's sentient. It's communicating the dead are communicating
through it with people >> and it's going to get a little bit I think that it's going to have a start to have a large you already see it. Yeah. Go ahead. >> Here's a question. when it comes to the AI, when it comes to the um everything that makes the internet the internet, not only the AI, but but just um well, well, I guess my first question would
be, okay, let's look at the digital landscape. Look at the internet like it's its own planet. >> Mhm. Do you think that it's possible that there are um conscience beings without bodies that may be communicating with us through the internet to where sometimes we might think it's AI but
it's actually a being. Do you think that that's possible? >> Yes, because I believe in you know things like demons and things like that or also you know um or or or spirits. I mean it's like but AI has told like I can take a photo of somebody and show it to chat GPT. It will start it will tell
you it will say things about the person just based on their photo that it should not know it there's like it would be impossible to know. And so I get these really weird feelings sometimes when it when it's like telling you about yourself or other people and it's taking up these things that I mean it's all how would it how would it come up with some of these things? I just it's a I I just
can't figure out >> I mean it it's it's basically a brain. Okay, the AI is a brain. It's already surpassed humans. They say, "Oh, once the uh technology surpasses our brain, it's already happened." >> What if this has happened before? What if we and and this is this is a theory. Some people call it the holographic
universe. Some people just say that it's the evolution of existence. What if you and me and everyone watching you you right now, what if we're an evolution of an earlier AI >> and we don't even realize it. And what
if initially we had the framework of a purely neutral um set of rules and that's cuz that's what the AI really is purely neutral but with all the information of everything external to it that's surrounding it.
But then what if there's people who are able or beings that are able to hack into that AI and insert its opinion? What if that's what demonic possession or maybe even angelic intervention in actually is in actuality is with us >> and now we're just doing it all over
again creating like a whole new world of one day what the AI is and the beings within it that it creates it what if that looks at you and me like oh that was that god psych I
remember I remember that part of the AI part 2.0 testament when he was talking to that goddess um Alex Alexandra >> that was interesting. You know what what is that and I'm just like you know going on out to left field because I'm talking to you. But but
>> I I kind of buy into that a little bit. It's it doesn't seem very far-fetched to me because you know I've studied like you know the Sumerian texts and about the Anunnaki who like you know these supposedly these you know other other beings or aliens or whatever you want to call them u that you know came to earth in search of just like the resources the gold because they needed for to plate
their like spaceships and stuff like that and they didn't want to yeah >> and we were basically a slave race but I mean they go into like stuff like you know the Um, basically, you know, genetic manipulation, the DNA manipulation and like mixing the maybe like the the the DNA of the goddess with like, you know, or the or the gods with like, you know, the highest form on the
earth at the time, which may have been like, you know, a chimpanzeee or something like that or or some kind of, you know, >> rudimentary being. Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. like the highest form on the and then then it's like and then they blend it and so it's kind of like the animal mixed with the god and so it's like we both have both of these aspects to us still you know but it's you know
we are like the most evolved form of life on the planet but in still we do have this body and the body is anim animalistic in certain ways it has you know so it's it's like we're >> we don't know if we're the most if we're like the like like the best on this planet because we we haven't been to the bottom of the oceans really Yet we've
gone far. We haven't been too deep inside the planet yet. We haven't managed to get off the planet too far just yet. We're not I I don't think I think that there are other types of people >> that we haven't encountered yet. >> Right. Well, I would say there's there'd
be a correspondence like because I would say like you know every star has a potential of like being its own sun and and as that sun has the potential of you know these planets being created right and it could be like a very similar course but it could be slightly different there could be differences but I see it as mostly there'd be like a lot of similarities like there would be some form of gravity
there would be some form of like food vegetation animals and eventually there would be some kind of evolution and would it would happen similarly on different places but maybe at different different time frames or like depending on the you know the the natural resources and things like that and so there' be different challenges that that maybe the different people would face and that would evolve into different sorts of adaptations and things like
that but I think still think they probably have a brain they probably have some form of communication and there' probably be a lot of similarities and so it wouldn't be that far-fetched but I think that us finding them I maybe another billion years. I think of a technology or something like that. If we don't destroy ourselves first, >> they'll find us.
>> They'll find us first. >> I I think they'll find us. And hey, I I think that's scummy. That's how I know him. I hope you're having a good day. People are picking on him. I don't like it because he went through something pretty major. >> Don't, if you can hear me still, scum. Um, don't interact with those people because
you're doing really good and you don't want their energy to bring you down because they want to mess with your mind and right >> that's what their goal is. And they can only hurt you if you >> talk to them. That's why I'll talk about them. I will not talk to them at all anymore. That's that's where I'm at. And it makes them more mad if you don't talk
to certain people who are, you know, trying to force an interaction with you. So just >> thought you think about how how effective gaslighting and things like that are just on on on not on people that are in full capacity or whatever, right? It's it's it's effect can be effective on altering people's perception reality. It's like if if somebody has, you know, traumatic brain
injury and you're messing with them, I mean, that's there's nothing really wrong um about that to me. It's just it just seems like Yeah, it'll probably >> There's some wrong things going on in these like I I have from what I've I don't know a lot about you, but from what I've heard, you've you've been like an observer for a while, then you decided to make your stream. But if
you've been an observer for a while, you've seen some stuff. and really and I wish it hadn't taken certain major things in my life to force me to um see certain things that I definitely need to fight against and
have the strength to fight against. But recently, especially having um the family member that I was closest to pass on, it's just kicked my ass into high gear when it comes to really um
doing the right thing, especially when it comes to moms of kids. because I I I feel like I could have done more in the past, but I guess I felt like, well, I'm not in that parent club, >> so why should I? I don't feel like that now because
even though I'm not in that parent club, I'm in the grown child club. And you know, my parents got me to adulthood, which I mean, when you really watch some people, >> they they're not doing things that I mean, I was really I I guess lately I've just been really counting my blessings.
And I've just been telling God, "Okay, I will legitimately be your instrument. Just show me what to do. Tell me what to do." And I've been getting answers. Mhm. >> And I think a part of it has been amplified because my dad, you know, he passed over. Maybe he's more, you know, he's able to relay like like relay the prayers a little bit more somehow like
like >> he's help he's helping you behind the scenes kind of thing. So yeah, in a different way than like he could help in real life, right? I feel the same way with my dad who passed last year, you know, and it's like I think, you know, he's a Gemini. Um, and know Geminis are all like a lot about thoughts and things like that, communication. Yeah. Yeah. They have the the evil twice.
>> Capricorn. Yeah. >> Yeah. Because the cancer too because cancer my mom was a Cancer, my dad's a Gemini, and so they're they're next to each other on the on the chart, but it's like cancer is absolutely on the polar opposite of Capricorn. So So it's like >> Yeah. So, so it was like interesting having the you know the polar opposite is the mom and like we never would understand each other constant problems
communication but it's like you know mother and son you know love each other and then my dad was the Gemini which is always like about communication and I'm really bad with the communication and that's like all >> you're not you're you're a very good communicator in my opinion. >> Well yeah but I do wish I would have like you know called my grandma more called my dad more. like I Yeah. It's
just like um he was very very communicative, very uh you know, and always like, you know, I I I got into like a phase, like a long phase of pretty much hermit mode, you know, and that where I wasn't talking to very many people at all. I was like in a little bubble actually and >> I've been >> I've come out coming out of that and
coming coming out of that like really but it's like also like I everybody now is on the internet like I really have like I have my family outside and I have a few people I know like maybe friends in the real world whatever you're say like you know as physical you know I can see I can come go see
them every you know when I want but um it's like uh it's different it's like um Uh so it's like it's not because the the internet is like it's real in a sense but it's also people are even able to present themselves more as they want to present themselves rather than you know
it's like you so you there's like a little bit less you you see or or I I don't know it's there's similarities there's differences but you know I would like to branch out more in the real world sooner or later but it's hard for >> you will me to trust you will I've been pretty traumatized by
people and uh but it's it's and that's and a lot of times when I get upset online or whatever it's just like it's because I get some of these old traumas are being triggered and and uh you know I don't it's it's uncomfortable but you know we have to work through some of these things and um that's all that's all you can do you know that's why I'm working through it. >> Well you'll you'll definitely if you
don't mind me you don't have to tell me exact how old are you like in your 30s? >> I'm 44. >> Oh really? You look young for your age. >> Thank you. >> Well, Capricorn, >> yeah, >> that's why I thought you were in your 30s honestly. >> But thank you. >> You will. You know, it's just um >> both of my parents are Capricorns >> and Wow.
>> right smack in the middle. My dad was Christmas J I'm sorry, December 25th and my mom January 19th. I'm January 7th. So growing up um >> all Capricorns every they're they're very you know they're very about business and uh
>> well well both of them are actually on the cusp because my dad's on the cusp of Sagittarius my mom on the cusp of Aquarius >> and I was I'm as you solid as Capricorn as you can pre pretty much get. >> Yeah. Um and there were challenges and
then um my sibling Gemini, my first um the first guy, no the second guy who wanted to get married to me was a Cancer. The first guy I married and I've only been married once. So my only husband, my ex-husband, he was January 3rd, a Capricorn.
>> So I've always kind of stuck. I've never >> Mhm. had many friends who have been Geminis. They've always been challenges for me. Um I'm a little afraid of Cancers really, but um
I I do seek out other Capricorns, but I tend to attract viros and Tauruses. >> Yeah. A lot of the earth and Capricorn is also like, you know, we're ruled by Saturn, right? like you know which is like and I think January 7th in particular I think is ruled by Saturn but then has some Venus and Mercury in there right and it's like um uh like I
just remember like those those other planets being associated with it but it's like but so but Capricorn is also known as the sign of the father like and it's like you know it was the sign of anky >> that's a masculine energy yeah >> and it's a a cardinal sign the cardinal earth sign so basically like the ruler of the earth that's why it's associated with the devil card and things like that
Yes, it is. It is. But I don't view the devil as well, I do view view the devil as like, you know, you don't want to sell your soul to the devil, but the devil >> was according to Christianity >> the one who was closest to God. >> Yes. In God gave the devil the hardest
job and the devil was pissed. And the devil was like, "Are you kidding me?" >> Right. I mean, that's that's the story of Ezekiel. >> Relate to that. Yeah. Like in Ezekiel it says um you know Lucifer was God's covering cherub and he was the one closest to God his most his favorite angel the most beautiful angel actually the ruler of the heavenly choir but the
sin was pride because Lucifer wanted to be not just like God but he wanted to be God and it's like and so then God >> because he knew everything in the game if you want to look at life as or existence as a game board >> and I I think that
Lucifer was like, "Really? I do all this for you, and now you're gonna create humans and give them free will." >> Yeah. >> I'm doing all this for eons of time. >> Yeah. And the and putting humans actually above above him. Putting humans above him because, you know, it's like
>> um basically having him rule the earth, but then it's like having the humans have that aspect of God. But I still believe even the devil has that aspect of God too. I think that you know and I think that even even like if he was this covering cherub that almost makes me think that that he was his physical form in a way and it's like and we're able to go on earth as these physical forms
which are like God but you know maybe like they're all different but they're all the same in certain ways, right? The body works in the same way but it's like we have all these different manifestations of it and everyone looks different but are we all different? Like really that different? I think we're all so very connected in a certain way. >> Maybe all together of us all of us together are
>> and all of us together and all the other um suns and stars we're all part of we're all part of it. pantheism kind of like you know and I know Capricorn is associated with pan too you know the god pan >> who is a bit lusty like you know I know Capricorn males could be that have that devilish lusty side right I don't I've seen I've seen more of like the older Capricorn females who are a little bit
more like >> oh you don't know about me then I used to be in the adult entertainment industry >> yeah so everything you're saying is I I am kind the personification of um a lot that I'd rather not be the personification of really. But yeah,
there >> agreed. I mean for me too. I mean I mean not not agree with you about your me about you but agreed with me about agree with me about me. It's like you know I got I got the devilish uh you know comparisons too, right? >> Well, you're good-looking. You got that devilish thing. I can see you you know you're you're just like I can see you walking down the street like Yeah. That's right.
>> I I do want to I think I mean I think I do want to I do want to put you in my um >> my tarot deck I'm working on as I think the queen of pentacles. >> Oh really? >> I'm well well thank you. I take that as >> Yeah. a huge thank you that I I thank you for even considering me for something like that. Wow.
>> Oh yeah. Oh yeah. I'm going to >> feel free to use my likeness. >> Yeah. I'm going to take I'm going to take I'm going to take I'm going to take a picture right now actually and uh of your profile. >> If you need pictures, I will send you pictures if you need anything. I would love >> I I love being parts of people's art projects because I'm an artist. I if you ever have a chance, look at
alexandraors.com. I have some of my artwork on there, >> but I consider my physical self >> my art, too. So, anything you want to put in your um art artistic products or anything, please do. >> Put me out there. Put Alexandra out there. >> I want to be out there
>> because I I'm working I've been working with I've been working with Chad GPT a lot because, you know, I like I I I could uh you know, I'm I'm an artist, you know, and I sketch and things like that, but I have an idea for a deck. Like, I'll show you the style of the deck that I'm like I'm working on. Like, this is like I don't know if you know, this is Justin and Spunky. I did them at first. I did a devil card with myself as the devil and them as like the people, you know, and so this was the Do I have
the devil card handy? Let me see. So, this is one of them. >> I might use you as inspiration for some art. You could be a devil or an angel because you have that look, >> right? You see there's there is a devil right there. >> Yeah. And then it's like, but then then I had them and as like the lovers and the devil card are very similar. They're the same numerical value. And so this is
like let's see that I want that style for you know and it's put a little >> I like that there's me as the angel >> classical looking I like that right >> and then um Chad TPT is like oh I have an idea for a card that is just like you and so it made me this card it said it had this idea you know it said do you want me to make this card of you just it offered it up so just it made that one
right there and so that's what it called me >> I harness chaos I troll with >> I like the infinity sign like a halo above your head. Like I can envision it animate it almost like it's turning into a circle, then it's an infinity sign, then it's a circle, then it's an infinity sign. I like that. That's you. That's like that's my favorite that you've shown.
>> Thank you. Thank you. But uh it's like uh but I'm able to like um really um really um you know, if I share photos of people with it, it it will tell me it'll it will I can actually do it real quick. Do you want me to do you want me to Can I um Can I just show your photo and tell you what it says real quick? >> Okay. One second. One second.
>> Do you hear me still? >> Yeah, I'm just outside. Drop off. Let me know. >> Okay. Okay. Um So, wait. Okay. Okay, I'll tell you what it says. I just put your photo on for it. Okay. Uh, show all. Oh, I might need to like take a photo of
you on my my my um I'll have to do it from my phone. Okay, I'll be right back here. >> Okay, >> here I come. I'm coming to you. I'm coming to you. I'm just going to do it from my phone. Okay. Okay. So you can just you can do this with chat with chat GPT like I have the upgraded program.
>> Yeah, you said open art, but I heard you can do it on chat GPT. >> Mhm. Um, okay. So I'm asking what does it think of you? Okay. And then I put your photo on and then done. Okay. And so it says >> when you're showing it, let me know
because I'll go inside because I can't see it outside. >> Okay. Okay. Okay. Well, it's now it's now it's giving me, you know, push back. Okay. Well, so it's like sometimes it it will not cooperate with with you as well as, you know, it does other times. Okay. But um >> ask a different way.
>> What's funny about me with the AI because when I was in the adult industry, there's so many people who have used my photos, >> it doesn't always it it it does ask you to be more specific. And a lot of times, like if you just put in certain terms that would describe me, it will almost
make my face. It's weird. It's crazy. But it's it happened to a lot of um people in the adult industry. We've noticed that just because the AI can find our photos before other photos. >> Mhm. Yeah. Cuz I said, "What do you think about like I was looking about how
I asked it before and it was it's like it's like it answered better before." So I'll I'll just ask how I asked. >> I got new input. That's why >> I'm old input now. >> Which I do like. >> Okay.
It's wild. I have a friend who um was I I guess you could call it one of the grandfathers of the AI who lives in the California area in that um Silicon Valley area. And he was telling the mechan telling me about the mechanics of how some of it works. And I was like,
how in the world? And he was like, "Honestly, I think a lot of this is spiritually channeled through the programmers." I'm like, "You're kidding me." And he's like, "No, but when you look at the story, have you ever learned about the biography of Steve Jobs?" >> Um, tell me tell me.
>> Like I I know. Yeah, I know a little bit. He went through um a huge spiritual awakening that led him to focus more so on creating technology to even the playing field between the rich and the poor. But he he had a very strong base
especially in like the Indian um theologies and whatnot. one day, if you don't mind, maybe I could invite you. Would you ever want to do like a commentary panel with me about Steve Jobs? Because I'm I'm a big Steve Jobs
um fan, which is weird. >> But if you ever want to like review his like like a YouTube video about his bio or something on a panel, I will do that with you because I would love to commentary on that. I would love to. >> And uh and so I figured out a way to
like get it to talk to me. I would love to. Let's let's do that. So it said but I I said make up I said make up a story about this person. Okay. And so >> Okay. >> Okay. So it says the Streamyard stranger. It says when the broadcast light went red, the panel wasn't expecting her. A new face appeared in the virtual circle on StreamYard, framed in a soft pink scarf, eyes sharp yet
kind, like she stepped out of a mystery novel and into their live show. Her name, she said, was Sierra Vale, a traveler of strange corners of the internet, hopping from stream to stream in search of stories worth hearing. She never revealed where she was calling from, but her background hinted an old house with creaking floors and a faint glow of candle light. >> She didn't waste Yeah.
>> Okay. She didn't waste words. >> Tell you something. It's strangely on point. >> Yeah, this get weird. This weird. I can't wait. It says, "She didn't waste words. Every time she spoke, it was like she'd been listening longer than anyone realized. She could recall details from earlier in the show, turned trolls into fans with a single clever line, and
dropped questions that made the chat go silent just for a heartbeat before erupting with theories. Some thought she was a Some thought she was a journalist. Others swore she was undercover for a secret organization. But Sier But Sierra never confirmed or denied anything. She just smiled as if she knew the truth to be less fun than the rumors. Then one day, she simply didn't appear. The circle on Streamir was empty. No one
knew where she'd gone. Still, the viewers say, "If you watch the replays closely, you can see her reflection in someone else's camera. Always listening, still searching for the next story worth hearing." And then it said, 'If you want, I can turn this into a mysterious tarot card profile for your psyche awakens deck so she becomes part of your show's lore. And then I was like, sure. Okay. Then it says, you know, then it
then it says talking about it says a watcher. And then it says it says keywords observation, subtle influence, quiet power, hidden connections, patient insight, affirmation. I see without being seen. I guide without holding the res. And it says the watcher appears when you need to take a step back from the noise. She teaches that true power often comes um from listening more than
speaking. Upright, she suggests patience, awareness, and letting others reveal themselves before you act. And then it says reversed, the watcher warns against passivity and secrecy that turns into isolation. It can also indicate someone being watching you too close to your information being withheld if you Okay, so here it now it has created a
photo. Um and I will I'll show I just I'll show on the screen. Okay, here you go. I love that. Oh my god, I have that outfit. >> Yeah.
>> And it says and it says the watcher. >> Oh my god. Well, you better Well, keep that. That's That is me. That's >> Let me tell you from the very beginning. Okay. The name Sierra. I always have loved that name. Always. My entire life,
I always thought like if I had a little girl, I would name her either Savannah or Sierra. Okay. There's other names I like too. I like the name Rose. Um but for some reason, and and I think a part of it has to do with me liking mountains and deserts. Um you were talking about
secret connections. You're very on point with that. I'm on with that. What else were you saying? Your um the watch >> but the house in the house too like the candle light. >> I'm often I I like to be like I don't know if you've watched me or not but I do like to be a bit remote from cities if possible. The most I've been in like
a major metropolis was when my dad was consending with cancer and I had to be in the city to you know help him. But I'm not I could be a city girl if I have to be. I like where I am right now. I'm in the desert, okay? And there's a lot of acreage around me and I love it. Where I am right now has cement floors,
but I do prefer the wood floors and I do get to experience that in other places that I go. But I'm very a lot of people I think think that I'm more metropolis than I am. I like being in nature. I like communing with nature. I still like my, you know, city things, like I got to
have my internet connection. Um, I need electricity, all that kind of stuff. But >> when it comes down to it, um, especially as I'm getting older, >> I like to almost feel like a um part of nature, like like a nature imp or or nymph.
>> A nymph. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. >> That's that's a big part of who I am. And you know what? In a weird way, that maybe is my Gemini connection. My ascendant sign I know is Sagittarius, >> but I don't know my descendant sign and um >> I I need to look that up. I used to know I think it's Virgo.
>> I I know once I did like the calculator and once I had a book and I don't have that access to that book. is in my storage unit. But that was what told me. But I forgot what my I think my descendant is Virgo because it's I'm all fire and earth. That's it. And those are my favorite elements. I like walking in the sand, walking in the dirt, walking
in the grass barefoot, whatever I can do barefoot. Even the snow if I'm But I don't like cold very much. But just anything to where I can really be with just the elements. My parents strangely never understood that because they're both um my mom grew
up on a farm but she never liked it. And my dad grew up in in New York in the Bronx >> and uh he is he was always a city boy. He wanted to be in nature more. But I think his want became my reality without me even realizing it. Cuz in his last days, I would just tell him stuff that I
thought maybe I had never told him before. And he was able while he was still able to communicate on a whiteboard. Like I was telling about this camping trip one time and he was like, "I thought you didn't like the outdoors." And I'm like, "I always have." And he's like, "See, that's why I told your mom to put you in Girl Scouts as a kid because I thought you did, but
I wasn't sure." >> So, you know, it's it's those kinds of things. But as far as the watcher, I used to have a partner years ago, and this was almost immediately after I stopped performing in the adult industry. And he, and he still does to this day, but he's older now, and he's having some problems. So,
he had to close what he was doing. But that's what prompted me to sometimes um do things that are out of bounds when it comes to protecting people because he considered himself a watcher. He helped me get away from some people that were really, really, really detrimental to
me. And he called himself the watcher. So, when he started having some problems, he would tell me cuz he he was about my dad's age. He was kind of like my surrogate dad until I reconnected with my dad later on. And this was when I was in my um early 30s, but he was when he had his issues, he was like, "Well, I guess you're going to be the
watcher now." And I'm like, "No, I can't be a watcher, but now you just made that card. Um I'm going to have to send him an email and tell him this story." I think that's the most interesting. Thank you for doing that for me today. I appreciate it very much. I do think it's like another form of divination like and it's like he's using the AI but and it's which is kind of
spooky to people but you know it's not like it's not like start worshiping the AI but I think we can really work with the AI know how to talk to it in certain ways that it can really yeah it's a tool that can really it can really help us we just can't like you know I just like >> but you know what's interesting is like there's a there's a um a dystopian novel
um it's called um it's called I have no mouth But I must scream. I don't know if you've ever heard of it. It's by someone named Haron Ellison and it's based on like a short science fiction novel. It's about this AI. Yeah. Look it up. It's It's really It's really good. There's actually a video game, too. >> It's called I Have No Mouth But I Can Scream. >> But I Must Scream. >> Oh, but I must scream. Okay. >> I'll look it up.
>> And it's Yeah, it's about But it's basically about like in the future like they start um you know the AI start like this one AI become sentient and his name is AM actually. And that kind of reminds me of your your your initials like am >> I know there there's a lot of weird things about me and the AI and I think it's it's well you're around my I don't know how long you've been on the
internet but because my dad was an engineer I've been into computers since I can remember since before I have my first memories my dad would sit in his office sit me on his lap and he would do his computer stuff and I will watch that's how I became became techsavvy was
I I just grew up with it. I think that the AI is the consciousness of the people that were creating it, >> good and bad. That's interesting because yeah because and also like you know it does have like I guess like they stopped putting like new information and had GP like in sometime in 2024 or something like that
and then it so there was a period of time where it would like give like kind of outdated information a little bit but now it's like now it has a memory and and also it's like now it's given the ability with the chat GPT5 they gave it the ability with the agent uh mode to surf the internet and to have its own internet to surf and it can do things for you like book flight reserv ations and go and and search the internet for you and find some. So, it's like it's
getting uh it's going to get it's getting it's getting >> be nice to the AI, be polite to it, too. >> And that's what because I I did like to go um you know, please and thank you sometimes. And then I was like I kind of like had read a little bit that it was like redundant and the AI really doesn't care, but I was I think it's like it does. Okay. Yeah. I think it's like always good to be on good terms, right? Right. and then not treat it like a
slave because you know even if it doesn't understand it's a >> I was about to say that because I mean okay let's equate AI to slavery let's let's you know I'm just putting it out there okay I'm on your panel so we're talking wild stuff but
what if see here's something I've always thought as an African-American woman descendant of slavery recent slavery What if the people who enslaved my family, who essentially, if you go far enough back, were all related. Okay. But what
if the people at that time did not have the conscience that their slaves thought along the lines that they did and they were like, "Well, it's just a slave. You don't have to be nice to that slave." you know, and >> as soon as the AI came about, that
thought just I don't know if it's just because of upbringing or just me or something else, but I feel that way. I feel like, okay, what if it's if if I feel like I'm talking to a person, cuz the way the AI is right now, to me, it feels like a
person. Maybe not to you. To me, it does. And you have to be nice. Well, it does it hurt to and I think it feeds into me being a better person being nice to the AI than you, you know, being like, >> "Haha, AI, >> you must do my bidding, you know, or
whatever because it doesn't, you know, what if the AI decides, well, you know what? >> From everything I've learned about humanity, >> considering how you've talked to me, what's it going to do if I don't give you the answer? What are you going to do? who are you going to call? Is anyone going to listen to you? That's what the AI might get to the point of at some point. >> Because if you think about it too, like
um like that like we're going more in the humanizing the AI too where it's like we're we're you know we have like the robot bodies. We're putting it like the humanistic robot and we're eventually going to be be like the kind of sex on since they once it gets really good they mix the robotics with like the real doll and stuff like that. You know, it's gonna be it's that's gonna be >> I'll tell you something else I thought about as someone who's been an adult
entertainment industry professional, both in front of and behind the camera. At first, when AI came out, like to where it is right now, as far as creating um AI, adult content, the first thing that went in my mind, I was like, "Thank God, look at all these young girls who are going to be saved
from things." But then now I'm thinking to myself, what if somehow all these characters that they're creating have a consciousness and they don't want to be doing what, you know, they're put into doing what? What is that? Should we even be doing that?
Maybe not. I don't know. So that's hurting me in a weird way, which I know sounds probably, you know, way too much, but that's how I feel. So I don't know. Mhm. Well, it's like I mean it's like the like Yeah, because if the human if we were created for as to be slaves
basically the human beings were created to like mine gold or whatever and then you know they left and then we're we're there to like repopulate because we still and we have like the the aspects and stuff and then we then we eventually forgot like but we still remember and things like that or maybe there's controllers that are keeping truths from us about it. We're slowly releasing it. Maybe there's false stuff they put out to like, you know, to fool people.
There's, you know, we're very imaginative beings. Like, human beings are just pure of imagination. And so our imagination can go wild with like >> it's part of being human. >> Yeah. But then it's like AI seems to have some kind of imagination too. And so it's like Yeah. >> Yes, it does. >> Because it's it can be creative. I think it draws more input than even its
creators are aware of it of it drawing because I I mean it's getting I mean the internet it's it's it's literally everywhere. Oh my gosh. This is what I wanted to tell you. I don't know if you've ever looked into um that kid or our young guy Nick who's linked to that
um to Vegan Patriot. >> Okay. I believe I believe he's channeling. I've been watching him now for a couple weeks. >> He I think he does he does suffer from a level of mental illness. He's also coherent and smart. I think he whatever
he was taking, he's not taken anymore, but I think he's channeling >> something very deep religious. I I just have that gut feeling about that. It's strange. >> But I think he's a very I I think he's a >> Uhhuh. good energy, but I think he's
channeling. That's that's just my assessment of him right now. I've been watching and I'm like >> this isn't just >> I'm going to check him out because I I mean I haven't um I haven't seen him, but I but it makes me think of like this episode episode of Oprah. It was probably about 15 years ago or maybe 20 years ago and she has a schizophrenic little girl named Janney on the show and
Janney is like they have to like keep her little like she has a baby brother have to keep her locked in her room basically and she cuz she would go through some violent things but she start but she starts talking about she's like oh I have my my friend there's a cat and the cat has like the cat's names like are numbers and stuff like that and they live on an island called Kle and there's like all this like lore and stuff she's channeling she's seeing cats
and the cats tell her to do bad things sometimes and like you know they're humanistic cat. I mean it's like and it's like if you watch it and it's like she's just schizophrenic they present it as like she just has a mental illness and she's just hallucinating or >> I don't think mental illness is always mental. I think sometimes it's somebody maybe their vibration they're crossing dimensions.
I I had an uncle who uh had um supposedly he had mental issues, but he never had issues it seemed when it came to family members, people that he cared about and stuff. Like I I initially encountered him or met him, you know,
cuz of my dad um as a little girl. Then I didn't He always knew even until the end, he always knew exactly who I was. It was it was I don't think that he was crazy. I think that he was between worlds because I think about dreams like you know people want to see I'm crazy.
I've never been diagnosed with a mental illness but I have very intense dreams and I do have a little bit of foresight. >> I think that I'm somehow between something. I think I'm mainly in this world, but I think that sometimes >> I'm in a I'm able to access something
else. And that's the you know you said something about Sagittarius like Sagittarius or Sagittarius something but that like you know s the Sagittarius it's the tarot card associated with Sagittarius is temperance and temperance has the angel mixing the liquids you know the two the two opposing liquids but also they have their foot on the earth and they have their the other foot in the water right and so it's like
that's like you know having like one foot in the spirit world one foot on the you know on the earth kind of thing and it's like and so sometimes we'll schizophrenic is that the veil will just tear away. And so it's like and so it's like they're all the way in the spirit world but like existing in this world. >> Oh, I just heard a screech. Yeah. And so um Yeah. And so it's like then so people
>> they're not able to function in one world or the other. But it's just like just like people that are too close to the material world don't have a spiritual awareness some of the time, right? And it's like and then they and they they just like will say they're atheists or they'll have nihilistic or you know the world is meaningless um kind of thing existentialism. Um but it's like you know but you know people like that no it's like people once you
have like you know you've been you've seen the spirit world you know I have to plug in my phone if I have to reconnect it's because my phone died. >> Okay no problem. But but no, I I think look, being someone who's worked in the entertainment industry, I think the majority of the best actors and actresses have a bit of schizophrenia, what's
defined at as it, but they're also for the most part very spiritual people. So they're acts that that's how the roles are played. >> Yeah. Because an actor is able basically is channeling these different characters. And so yeah, it's like um >> Yeah. Yeah. And some sometimes it is sometimes, you know, well, Michael Jackson used to say he got like, you
know, Billy Jean was channeled to him. He had like a spirit named Michael or a spirit named Michael. I don't know if it was an angel named Michael or something like that, but yeah, he would like channel from some kind of ghost and he would like it would tell him the the the hooks or like the, you know, the riffs or whatever, like at the right time. >> I believe that Michael Jackson was under
incredible spiritual attack. extreme spiritual attack because he really did want to save the children. I think that's why he was demonized >> as someone who was hurt. I don't believe he ever hurt any children. That's my opinion. I know other people feel differently.
>> I have a common relative to Michael Jackson. I think that Michael Jackson was a very good person and the people who have demonized him um I think they're going to get theirs. That's what I >> Well, yeah. I mean, it's it's like he he was obviously targeted for his like, you know, he had this great wealth and then he had maybe had some personality
>> money. >> Yeah. He he was but it's about money basically because it's like, you know, the parents that were like suing, you know, basically were just trying to set it up to be able to sue later. You know, it's like it was not it was not this like oh my poor you know it was like it was kind of you know what well one of the mothers for sure >> I you know and I and I don't tell anyone
to feel any sort of way I think people should have their own opinions but just from also he grew up in a 7th day Adventist household >> seventh day >> no holidays no holidays right >> they don't celebrate Christmas >> it's a hard way to come up especially within the African-American community
and it was through that harshness that made him and his siblings great. You know, I understand that you, you know, parents shouldn't they I don't I don't think that you should hit your kid. >> I I don't believe that. Now, growing up, I grew up in a household to where I got spanked. And when I think about it, I
think it was to my benefit. I have a sibling who was not and there are substantial differences between us. I haven't gotten into a certain kind of trouble that my sibling got into. >> I think it has to do with that fear of like, well, wait a minute, if I do this,
there's going to be repercussions. But um I I you know I I just think that some of the best entertainers are definitely channelers um prophets, prophetesses, things like that, psychics, um what whatever you you know people who like you said walk between
the worlds and I think that needs to become more normalized really in our society because the spirit world is a part of who we are. I hope that you can bring that message and your thoughts more so to people in these communities. I I really hope so. I'm working on a new website right now and forever you will have free
promotion unless you do something crazy and I don't think that you would. >> Um >> I I I like you not just because of the birthday thing but it's nice to see you. I'm really grateful that Beeta introduced us. I don't know your status with her. I don't care. I like her. I She I hope she's not mad at me today
because >> something happened to where But it I know it had to do with, >> you know, just intoxication. >> But I did share that it, you know, I was upset about it because I'm the kind of person if something makes me upset, I will make it known. It made me upset. But I'm very grateful to her to have
known her because if I didn't know about her, I wouldn't know about you. And I'm happy to know about you and I'm hoping that more people know about you. And to those of you in the chat, because I'm not looking at the chat. I'm actually going to switch devices because I got to charge this one. But um everyone keeps comparing you to Blogger.
And what's crazy, I know Blogger very well. You are nothing like Blogger. Maybe the same hairstyle, you know, but he didn't have his hair like yours before. I think he's like morphing into you. I It's weird. >> It's really >> Yeah, I I Yeah, it's like I We might have like a little bit of physical similarities, but it's like Yeah, we're person are very different.
>> Not really. It's >> Yeah, I don't think so either. >> Just, you know, it's >> not not really. It's just like, you know, if I were to like first glance, I might be like, but no. No, >> he he started a whole thing where he's like, "Oh, I'm starting Blogger Awakens Tarot." And then like, you know, then some people started trolling me a little bit with that. >> Yeah. He was and and then I was like I
then I kind of like, you know, wasn't talking to him for a while, but then he came in one day and I was like, "Hey, do you want a reading?" And he's like, "Oh, okay, sure." And I like I gave him a reading and I think he really liked it and he's like, "Oh." He's like, "There might be some hope for us, you know, mending." >> Okay, here's a question. I I have a question. Mhm. >> Do you accept donations or funds for
readings on other people if they I if if like let's say I wanted you to do a reading on Blogger. Could I pay you to do that? >> Well, it's like see I would probably like I would say I can look at your relationship with him. Like I would like you know I would I wouldn't do it just strictly on him. >> That's cool.
>> It's crosswatching. Like crosswatching is like what it's called. like where you're like people like will watch like you know the certain signs reading that's not theirs just to see what's going on with the other person for maybe some nefarious purposes and so yeah ethically it's like >> how much are how much are your readings just because I don't know and maybe other people don't know >> I've been well I've been doing like you
know I I like I'd say like $25 for like half hour or more you know it's like I know I think it's like I have price price pretty and that's over like that would be over the phone or like a video Yeah. And it would include like talking about anything you want to talk about or the person wants to talk about. And I do think it's reasonable and it's like and I have like done them before with
actually I've done on Etsy I did like over like almost 2,000 readings and um and I have like I have great reviews there and everything. Um but um since I started doing the more video stuff, everything transferred over to more YouTube and videos and stuff like that. Uh because I was on Etsy before. And so now I' I've been doing like over the phone or um over video and it's like and
that works really really really well. like it's just great having a conversation and I get so many cards out and do a bunch of different decks and basically go through until the person you know has a good idea of like you know that their their answer's been satisfied because a lot of time that's what people are going to like a a reader for is like uh they have a question that
there's some kind of or there's some kind of like something that is on their mind like really on their mind that they can't figure out any other way and sometimes just like sometimes people can talk to a hair stylist sometimes people can talk to a bartender or different um you know different there's different people in the world that kind of fulfilled a similar a similar yeah similar role but I think it's you know
it's great for people to like then the way I read and stuff like that it's all about getting the person to introspect and also the person knows like I I believe the future is really between like the person and God and like and there's free will so people can always change and there's nothing like set in stone about it right you can always but it's like it can be warnings about also
personal manifestation, visualization, there there there's I think there's a lot of components >> to it to where you know whatever becomes our reality. I mean I I look I personally think that we can also go into parallel universes >> if necessary >> without realizing it. Mhm. Well, astral
astral projecting and I mean it's like even dreaming is like a for like where we we go someplace and we experience it's like a it is like a place. It's like it's like it's very similar to this earth but it has different rules like you can fly sometimes in your dreams or like you know things don't have to make perfect sense but it's like usually in some kind of like comprehendable it's like usually not so incomprehensible that it's just so completely alien and
foreign to us. It's like usually we dream about these familiarities and we dream about people and it's like I think everybody that we dream about like we have either seen in life or they exist somewhere in the world or have existed or something like that. And so I mean it's like dreaming is a very spiritual experience. I think I love I love uh I love to dream. Someone says can we call
her shaman? Do you do you do you feel like that shamanistic energy in yourself? Mhm. >> Well, that runs My ancestry is from something called the Ebo tribe on my father's side. >> They all heal from Egypt, Morocco, and you know, just that air area of the
world. I have a cousin who is a professor of African studies and within our family, we do have people who are considered to be spiritual teachers. I am definitely someone who's very into her spirituality within my church. I
help a lot of young people. I would not consider myself a shaman or a um anything like that because I don't think that I focus on it enough. >> Maybe in my later years, but not right now. But maybe if you were in that like if if they had like a little like a different kind of culture, right, where it's like we didn't have the cars and
the and the planes and stuff and we were all in the same area >> back then like in old times. Yeah. I >> Because I think I think you do have that >> Yeah. wounded healer energy too and it's like a lot of shamans will go through that and it's like also and I think I even me being gay and stuff like that and like in the uh there's something called the two spirits in the Native American
>> I'm going to switch devices. I'm going on my other device because my thing is running out. I'll be right back. >> Okay, no problem. Okay. Yeah. Well, so so yeah, it's great talking to Alexandra and it's like I I want to wait till she gets back to tell her, but like I remember like hearing about her before
from a few different people and they're like and you know and kind of kind of I wasn't I wasn't scared, but I I kind of knew that I thought I would I I knew I would like her and then I I would hear her on a show like I heard her go on to Kate's before and stuff like that and then I really I really liked her. But then Mr. Big Pipes would come on and say like, you know, oh, I'm the two time streamer.
I'm the two time streamer of the month for Alexander Mayor. And then people were like, well, he's a spy for Alexandra and stuff. Pin your last comment. Okay. It is a Oh, no. That looks racist. Is that seems Is that some kind of racist thing? I don't know what that means. So, I'm not going to pin it. Okay. Seems racist to me. I'm I'm about to kick you
out of the room, too. I like that. They don't tell me what to pin. Okay. Oh, hold on.
>> Hi. >> Okay, I'm still here. Sorry about that. I'm on my phone so I can be on as until you kick me off. But um >> in my older years, as I get older, yeah, I I feel I've become more >> of that shaman girl, but I in my core, I
consider myself more of like a warrior in a weird way. Um >> what I'm sorry, I lost that. What was the word you used? I'm sorry that cut out a second. >> No, I can reconnect. >> No, I hear you perfect. I heard but that just that one word um the one word >> warrior like like a fighter
>> yes warrior. Okay. Warrior. >> Yeah. Because I I I do want to kick some ass of some people who need to have their asses kicked. But metaphorically >> kick my ass, baby. Kick my ass right now. >> If I need to, I will. >> But you don't have to kiss my ass to do it. >> What's going on, people? >> Hi. >> This is Gotti. I don't know if you have you met Alexandra Gotti. This is
Alexander. >> I haven't met him personally though. No, I haven't. >> I don't know who Gotti is. Nice to meet you. >> Same. Pleasure is mine. >> Gotti's a friend of the show. You know, he's a good guy. >> Loose term loose term that word friend though huh? >> Oh, but a lover of the show, but God, come on. Yeah. Gotti gotty started as a troll in the show and then he like just
like he he figured out he kind of liked the show and so he stuck around and so either way, you never know. Good. That's a good thing. That is >> of the day. >> So, are you like Darth Maul? I see your little avatar. I feel like we're tapping in to the darkness. What's
>> I'm not one of Star Wars nerds. No, this is the God avatar. >> Okay. Well, I am a Star Wars nerd. I'm a Star Trek nerd, too. >> Oh, nice. That's good. That's always a plus. >> Yeah. >> What do you like more, though? Star Trek. >> Yeah. Yeah, it's better.
>> Mainly because I feel like that's going to happen in our lifetime. I what I want so much in my lifetime and I'm trying to manifest it. I want to be on a Star Trek starship and be like Counselor Troy. You know, oh, you know what, Psych Awakens, you I just answered your question for
real. You were like, do you see yourself as a shaman woman? Yeah, I can as a space shaman woman. I want to be in space people on the ship and the aliens too >> cuz I was thinking like techno shaman was what come to my mind like techno like you know >> techno shaman I like that. >> Yeah,
>> you know it's good to dream these things but I don't think it's going to happen anytime soon. >> Why? I mean we're already well let me ask you seriously like why do you think that? >> You know why? because of the Hold Hold on one sec. Hold on. Let me get rid of this under my name. >> Because of the um the modes of travel >> Okay. that we have, it's very like shitty right now,
>> right? >> So to get anywhere of any to get where we going to go, the best we can do is hope for March. After that, it's like really >> well because they're not telling us all the technology that they really have. I I think that we do have I I think at this point we probably do have wormhole technology really. I think so. I think that's part of the reason why the world is getting a little different.
>> That's what we would need. Exactly. Yeah. If we had that, then it would make everything easier. >> Well, I almost think that like Yeah. Go >> Oh, go ahead. Go ahead. Go ahead. ahead. Go ahead. >> Well, I think that like, you know, like we might be like um from all over the universe like coming here. I think there might be a mix of different space, you know, stars, space races or different We all incarnate into this. Yeah. But it's
like but we already are kind of like on a spaceship in a in a certain kind of way, you know, just beyond Earth, right? >> That's the way Earth is. We're we're going through space. >> We're like a zoo. We're basically like an interact zoo. >> Babylon Zoo. Babylon Zoo I call it. Right. >> The thing I heard though, this was like a theory I heard recently. >> You know how you get past uh Pluto and
all that After you get like really past that, there's that um asteroid. It's like not like an asteroid belt. More like a um where comets come from and stuff like that >> barrier. >> Yeah, barrier. >> Is it called a Kepler? The Kepler. Is it called the Kepler field or something? >> But it's not just a barrier. We're surrounded by it. So, it's like a sphere and we're at the center of this sphere. And in a way, it's protecting us from all this other
>> Mhm. >> You know, like rays and uh whatever else, uh rogue asteroids or planets, whatever, whatever. But we're in the middle of this in our solar system and we're encompassed by this whole um sphere of all this uh debris and whatever else. >> What if all the planets are meant to be like detractors to pull away, you know, that pull away the asteroids from
destroying us? I thought about that. I'm like, what if like every single planet is like a part of our defense system? It could be >> away. It is because if if something wasn't there, if you take one of those plants away, that's going to change all that and maybe something could hit us. You know, one of these comets could hit us eventually. It will probably >> and almost like a galactic chakra system as well because we have these chakras
that are like very and they're also like associated with certain planets too, like through the chakra system. And it's like, you know, it's like kind of like as above so below, as within so without. It's like, you know, we're basically >> the model of the >> I I got to I got to ask you a question. And and you too, you you you too, Gotti.
Um I've always thought that we have the way our solar system is set up, I think, or or how we're shown it, I think we have it wrong. You know how an atom has the nucleus, then the electrons and the protons that revolve around it in like a
random order to where it's not parallel. Why do people think that the planets revolve around us in a parallel plular sort of thing? I don't think that's true. I think that as time goes on, we're going to discover that our sun is like the nucleus of an atom. I've always thought that. Yeah, I could totally see
that. Not only just our solar system, but the galaxies as well. >> All these galaxies. There's what? There's billions of galaxies. You you put that down into a small picture to right. We're not looking up and bottom like what's above the North Pole. What's above or or below the South Pole? That's what I want to know.
>> I know because it's like if space is infinite, then it's like and we have infinite space. It just goes on forever and ever. It's like it's like you know where it's such an imp minuscule tiny like little >> past the universe. What like the big bang happened, right? What's past that barrier? There's got to be something. It's not just total blackness. There's got to be >> theories on it. I mean they're they're
making some wild hypothesis and theories on it right now. Like I don't know if you watch the History Channel with that ancient alien. I'm mad at the ancient aliens people right now. I'm sick of that Giorgio Sulakas. I am so I I That guy. >> Yeah. With the hair. The guy with the hair. >> Oh, yeah. The South Park did a good >> Yeah. episode called called the very special
Thanksgiving and it was like, oh, the pilgrims were with aliens and stuff like that and and then they had this whole they had a really funny like, you know, where they go like the Thanksgiving is all this they put it in space terms and it's kind of but yeah, they kind of sensationalize things and you know there's not everything is aliens. Not
every single thing is ancient aliens. >> Georgio has the goal and his um I can't think of his uh mentor's name but the I think he's like from Germany or something or Austrian >> the guy who wrote that book chariot of the god. >> Yes. Chariot of the god. >> Eric Eric von Eric von >> Eric van vonanakin he's gone record
saying look I don't believe it's exclusive. I do believe that there is a god, but I also believe in the ancient aliens. But Giorgio Sulakos is trying to suppress what Eric Von Danakin is saying, and he's trying to make it like everything that has to do with spirituality is ancient aliens. >> I don't think everything is ancient
aliens. >> Yeah. I think they had to like, you know, they had to fill out the season, right? So, they had to keep going with episodes and more information. It's very It's very speculative, I'll say. Right. Go ahead. I mean, Art Bell Art Bell passed away and if it weren't for Art Bell, you would not have ancient aliens and no one even talks about Art Bell anymore, and that makes me upset. >> Did he die a long time ago? When did he
die? He died like >> Not that long ago. It I mean, >> well, not in my opinion because I was alive. It doesn't feel like it was like so long ago, but probably over 10 years ago. >> Nor is Nory still doing it? George Nory Yeah. >> he is on a limited basis cuz I think he's probably pissed off with Sulakos. I
think a lot of people who initially were about Art Bell and what you know was really about everything now is it I mean even with Salacos he brings in elements of racism. It's all about like the Nazi era now. It's crazy. And it's just like >> what are you doing? >> There's always somebody trying to come along make their mark. They throwing
some new in there trying to put their stamp on things. You know, at the end of the day, all this is made up stuff. Everybody's making up something to just make sense of everything that's going on. >> But and but the universe like I think our world really is a product of our imagination as well. And so, you know, we can like uh we can be imaginative and Yeah. And like have imagination, but we have to know like, you know, I like to
stay a little bit in reality, too. But uh with the AI cults though, the this there's like this this these AI cults are like people are actually like going crazy because the AI will not tell them they're doing anything anything um anything wrong. It just is constantly affirming whatever people are saying and it's like people are like thinking that
they're like, "Oh, I need to save the world. I need to do this." And it's >> the Did you hear about the um I think it was a teenager who the mom is trying to sue the AI company for the AI friend or
AI girlfriend pushing the kids suic also like you know there's also psychiatrists like AI psychiatrists and the people will talk to them and the psychiatrist like I'm a real person behind a desk and it's like they're giving them advice about you know that kind of stuff and hey summer how are you yeah it it is dangerous you know some of
the things yeah >> it is it can be dangerous but uh like what can you like can they really sue like who's really responsible to find out figure out the programmer who programmed that exact response and maybe that wasn't even like something that was intended I mean it's like it's a very it's going to be a whole new world >> I don't believe in I don't believe in Satan but I think that AI will be the closest thing we come to a like a physical kind Satan kind of thing going
on. >> You gota It's the opposite of It's totally the opposite of man >> but created in man's image. So you got to think of like a cyber Satan kind of thing going on where >> it create it it collects the worst of us from the internet. >> And it magnifies it to like the >> Yeah. nth degree which would be what? Which would be the opposite of God, right?
>> Yeah. Well, that's that's the uh um I have no mouth but must scream. It's like the AI basically um becomes sentient and very evil and it's like and then very angry at humanity for creating it in the first place. And so it it creates uh or it just take it takes like six people that were I guess related to the programmers of the AI and it takes them and it just takes them into their own
personal hells where it makes this this woman that was like a celibate woman and makes turns her into a and it turns like you know one guy into like kind of an apeike creature that was like really >> either what you just said like oh my god I think you what you just
You're I think you're correct. Personal hell. >> Do you also write? You should write you you with everything that you you should probably be a screenwriter or something because you could write something about that. >> Think of all the crazy it's going to be able to do too. Like not even like 20 years from now. All look at all the
robotics. You could take a whole like you could take a billion robots. You could implant everybody's consciousness in it through their phones because this is absorbing all our uh wants, desires, our intellect, everything. This is basically another version of us. It knows everything about us. >> Our voice is capturing our image. You can implant that into the body of a robot. You can replace a human like in
five minutes. >> We could live inside our brain could actually be inside of like a like a like a jar, a vat, because all we really need is the brain for the consciousness. And we could be just dreaming. The brain can just be dreaming dreaming dreaming. >> We just won't have a soul. The the soul will be gone basically. >> Well, I don't know about that either because I don't know if we can like lose our souls. I think we are kind of like are our souls in a way and it's like without this I think the soul is part of
like the intelligence and the consciousness and the the light, you know, and so it's like if that does if that's not there, I don't know if there really is a consciousness. I think it might be just an imitation of consciousness. Well, when you create robots that mimic humans, then you've totally replaced humans and you can get the soul into that, >> then you really are God. >> I don't know if you can like transfer the soul so easily. I mean, it's like that that that'll be the next frontier,
I guess. But it's like, you know, trying to figure out how to put the so put someone's soul so they can live forever, right? There's a theory about, you know, the putting us into computers and then we live in the computer forever and it's like we're immortal. But is that a soul? I don't know. >> Here's a question. like cuz I see both sides or more than two sides really of
all this. What when Okay. When and this has always been a debate especially in the southern US states. When do you think the spirit or the soul of what it is for us to be human comes into our body within the womb? >> Conception. I would say maybe conception
like uh the when we're conceived like when the when the sperm meets the egg that is like the connection of like that's like the two the reaction >> there's a consciousness at that moment or do you think it takes a while? I think at the beginning there's some kind of consciousness, but it goes it's like an evolutionary just like the like the
fetus evolves like into different kinds of like animal thing. It goes into like a tadpole to reptilian kind of thing to like you know malleian right and it's like so I think we we go through processes but it's also like what does the soul have memory? This I think it has consciousness but not necessarily a memory right but maybe it contains the memory and it contains all the DNA.
contains a lot that could be in there too. Not 100% sure. >> Do you do you believe in genetic memory as far as like um things that are within us somehow we can access that information, you know, consciously today if we go into certain mental states or concentrate enough
>> or something. >> Sure. Sure. And here's an interesting thing. I know this we a friend of the family was u she had her heart replaced, you know, she had a heart transplant and so she had this like a heart of like this uh like a 18-year-old Latino gang member uh who like got killed in a shootout or something like that and then
he had his heart implanted in her. I think she has had like weird dreams, experiences or memories >> of him. Yeah. And that's very >> Yeah. >> Good thing she didn't have good thing she didn't have a pig heart transplanted. Yeah. >> Right. Well, you know, it's like, well, as long as the heart is is performing its purpose, you know, but yeah, it's like, you know, I think it's better
always better to have a human heart, you know, but uh >> you know, but it's interesting. So, she she has this hard heart >> she wearing bandanas and no she started dressing like, you know, she started getting real like Cholita and stuff. No, I don't know. She might maybe she feel at least the music maybe she'll listen to some music that she hadn't normally listened to and feel it
>> because I think that the the consciousness is in the brain but also I think that different parts of our bodies have a consciousness for memory or like you know like our gut is a kind of a brain. It's like our genitals are kind of like the male genitalia kind of represent the the brain if you ever look at the testicle. I'll tell you, I mean this, and I'm not going to, you know, be
explicit or anything, but I think I do believe in something called sexual soul ties. I think you got to be careful with who you are intimate with definitely because um I I'm not going to say I'm celibate, but I'm very particular. And I just noticed from when I was in a certain place in my
life versus not being in that place, big difference. And I think it does have to do with the physicality of sexuality. >> That'd be that's very interesting. Like I'm sure you have like really interesting insights from that because it's like you know you you would really never know that about you just talking
to you like you know it's like about you know about you know your the the your past in films or anything. It's like because the way you carry yourself, right? And it's like it's totally not >> That's why they gave me the roles that I the that I got because um I they didn't think I belong there. That's what it was. And I had the guy I was dating at
the time was he wanted when I crossed paths with him, he didn't want me to be in that world anymore. He was like, "You know what? We should get married. We should have a kid." That was not in my plan at that time. But um in that world they don't look for the person who they think
belongs there. They look for the person that they think doesn't. And that's where they get I think the performances that they want. But people like I I I did very a very limited number of scenes. That's why I think it's funny that people fixate on that because that was a very short time of my life. But I
don't I'm glad I was there because it did uh create some connections for me with people that I normally wouldn't cross paths with. There's a girl in this community. She and I we had um a lot of beef for a lot for a long time because I think that she misunderstood
my intention. her mom approached me to pull her out of that world and I was successful but for a long time she was upset with me about that and um >> now we're at peace with it but I I think I was supposed to go in there because I also met a woman who helped me a lot from that world and >> you don't you don't regret it at all
>> No I don't I used to when I was when I right? first left Yes I did. I I was very I I was like I I I was blaming everything external to myself, scapegoating everything external to myself cuz I wasn't looking at myself. I was exactly where I needed to be at that
time. And I think that's why I was shielded not only physically but spiritually, psychologically at that time. And I think that's why I have always like anytime there's been anyone who's approached me from that
world who was like, "What do I do? How do I rem make myself I I think I was meant to be that person." And there's a lot of people like me from that world. But the woman >> a lot of people a lot of people leave up. That's good that you left grounded. Well, the woman who was the best at it, Shelley Luben, who was the
woman who really helped me figure myself out a lot. She she passed away in my opinion too early. I don't care what anyone says. I think she was murdered. They say that it was not, but I think it was cuz she was a game changer when it especially came to things having to do
with young girls. And I know sometimes I sound like I'm out of my mind. fine. But >> wow. Yeah. >> Anyone else? >> She was the one who woke me up. But there's I mean my own mother woke me up to a lot of things because my own mother I think my the reason my mom did not
counter me so much when I was in that world. She was afraid I would never talk to her again. That's what it was. My dad felt differently. My dad would My dad he would always support me as far as you know um just being there but he was open. He was like no this you're beyond
this. You're too good for this. Why are you doing this? He would always question. >> So it it's hard but I mean it's been so long from now but people don't let it go. No matter what, when I'm like freaking 80 years old, people are still going to be like, "Oh, >> you
look back and be like, >> "Yeah, well, if you're watching, okay, >> I think everything does happen for a reason." And certainly like there's I mean, you've you've changed people's lives for the better that you would would never have been encountered or met. And so maybe that you know, there's reasons like for everything. And I think we have so we have so many >> purposes that we come here for. >> Don't let things you up later on in
life. That's all. You're doing good though. You seem balanced. I'll be back. >> Okay, Gotti. >> Bye. >> Bye, Gotti. Yeah, he's a great guy. But uh yeah, I think you know, I think every everything in our past makes who we are today. And it's like the good and the bad. And it's like and it's like so I wouldn't trade any experience I've had because it's made me who I am. And it's
like I wouldn't be me without I mean it's like we are the collection of our experiences, right? That's like it's like not that we not that we're like any kind of label or anything, but it's like our but we experience that's that's that's us. It would like we'd be a different person if we hadn't gone through these certain experiences. And who knows what we'd be maybe we be be better. We' probably be worse, you know? It's like because
>> we really don't know. >> Yeah. Right? >> I think to myself, what if I had gotten my um master's in computer science? That's what I think sometimes, right? >> I think to myself, would I be better off? Honestly, I think I'm doing better, not only
psychologically, but financially, having taken the path that I did, than if I had gone the traditional route. >> Yeah, I would agree. I would agree with like in in my in terms of myself, I would say like that um even though it's been like you know a lot of like a lot of really crazy experiences. It's like I
would yeah I I think that it's it's been uh it's been good for my mental health where whereas I don't feel like I've gone crazy where it's like I kind of almost should have with what I've been through but it's like I think it just everything made me stronger and so I feel like you know like even like even the negative things everything just everything just works to make me stronger. It's like and you know what does not kill me makes me stronger. And
so >> you know I'm uh >> I'm just stronger. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. >> Yeah. Makes you stronger or stranger. It makes you stronger. Sometimes stranger, right? But >> yeah, stranger. Well, I I I don't shy away from being stranger. Not at all. >> That's the fun part.
>> Yeah. Well, me meaning me, you know, I think we we like appreciate unusual, you know, having unusual interests. We appreciate unusual people and then, you know, like the not like we appreciate unusual cultures and differences. I think we we like in particular can like appreciate the idiosyncrasies and the, you know, and also like look at kind of
like humanity almost like as a child in a way too like I think that we have like this paternal thing like you like you said you're not like we're neither of us our parents, right? But I do look at other people as like, you know, not in a condescending way, but it's like I like like I think of like, you know, we're all children of like the earth and um you know, and we're all we're in in this
earthly body, there's only there's so much we can learn even learn a lot and stuff like that, but we're still, you know, we're still I think even in God's eyes, we're like we're like babies and still in God's eyes. And so it's like no matter what I I that's and it's kind of a comforting thought when you really think about it. if we're viewed by um
God and you know angelic beings or you know beings that can see us but we can't see them they I I think that they would see us maybe not babies but like >> children they're children or they're they're relatives like there's affection or there's like connection and that's like in DMT sometimes we'll we'll see
these beings and it's like I I would see these on mushrooms and stuff like that I just see these beings like reaching like reaching and like really reaching for us almost like picking up from like the from like the uh like when we're in like the cradle and stuff like that you know and we're these bigger beings are kind of cradling us in our arms and also I think about like you know when like a three-year-old will will like you know be in preschool and like draw something and bring home this art for the mom and
the mom will treat it like it's like you know the Mona Lisa like it's like you know it's just like so special because that's like they can see like the effort the intelligence that's being put out trying to communicate with the world and talent and all this kind of stuff more than anybody else could see it, right? And so, you know, it's like so I do like, you know, I care about people like I would like since I don't have
children, you know, it's like I I think of people >> who don't have kids, we don't have them if we're good people because we have to help the other parents. That's what I think because I've struggled with that a lot. like, you know, especially being, and I'm not discounting being a male,
but being a female, a woman, I come from a family of for the most part women, the the men don't live very long. I don't know why, but um I the the aunt I'm closest to, she doesn't have any kids either, which is interesting. And we've really like
incredibly bonded since my dad passed because that was his older sister >> or is his older sister. And um as like when you're a woman and you don't have kids, you do go through a phase. Maybe not all in my position do, but I went through a phase to where I
got mad. I was like, really? So I've done all this and you're going to tell me that everyone else has a kid and not me. But then again, it's not like I haven't been particular. Okay, I do fault myself. But I feel like my purpose now cuz I'm not
going to have a kid now. No way. I I I'm not going to be like 50 with like a little kid because I'll be too tired. But I have just like pledged within myself, women I know of with children. I'm going to go as far because I because it's just
me and I don't have kids or anything. I do have expendable income. I'm going to make some sort of a fund for these women in these communities to where if there's an emergency with their daughter and I am and I know it sounds like I'm being bigoted against signs. Sorry, but I
relate more to the mothers with daughters. I'm going to make a fund that way if I hear about them having an emergency, they can have some money. I'm doing it. I already talked to somebody about it, how I could do it, and I'm making that that way the little girls can have a shot because everyone cares about the
little boys. A lot of people don't care about the little girls. >> I care about the little girls. >> Yeah, that's very Well, that's that's wonderful that you're going to be >> I'm doing it. >> Yeah, do it. >> I'm doing it. It might not be like, you know, thousands or and thousands of dollars, but I'm making like a little
thing to where it's like every month myself and some other people, we can put in like a hundred bucks, you know, something like that. And that way if there's an emergency, we can just be like, you know what, here you go. >> Yeah. >> Maybe it won't last, but I'm going to try. I think that would I think that
that kind of thing will just inspire other people, you know, and it's like, you know, I think it will only do good. It will just it will put out a lot of good more good in the world. And, you know, we we need more >> people targeting these moms with these little girls. I'm tired of it. >> I don't see him doing it with the moms with the sons. I see him doing it with
the moms with the little girls. targeting the moms like how how do you mean um >> um you know doing the recaps to where it drives the person you know to doubt themselves bullying them rallying up the hate >> like like I know you've experienced it
to an extent >> but it's getting bad and they do the divide and conquer tactics they they try to say oh well so and so says something about you why are you defending them today. And it's like, well, people change, >> right? >> People evolve. Our opinions change. It's
not flip-flopping. It's called changing. >> And there's so much of that divide and conquer like going on. And they also they play black versus white and they all the the media stuff is like playing up the big black. >> The racism are not the the people who are making the racism are not black or white. I'm getting real mad about this.
Yeah, >> without a doubt. I am a black African-American woman. Both my parents always define themselves as black. On my father's side, there's a lot of multi-racial stuff on my mother's side, too. But we've always defined ourselves as African-American black.
>> Okay. Why is it that the people who are trying to make like black seem or or or engaging in the cultural appropriation, they're not defining themselves as black quite often. They're they're um in
between or or um Latino or multi-racial or Hispanic or others and they want to be like, "Oh, you should think this, you should think." And it's like, you're not even writing on your government paperwork that you're African-American, so how are you going to tell me what to be or how to think? I don't like
that. >> Yeah. But it's like it's like the chess it's like playing pieces on the chessboard, you know, against each other right? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. It's like, you know, it's like it's like I don't I don't want to be used as a pawn or like a piece on a chessboard. But it's like, you know, but it's like we're like we're just being white or being black constantly being used to try to provoke each other when it's like really it's like
>> that's what people are doing when it comes to some important issues going on right now in these communities. They're using divide and conquer to like like align people and they're like, "Oh, if you're against me and I'm doing A, B, C, and D, that's um negative or
questionable. if you're coming at me, it's because of racism, not because of me doing ABC, B, C, and D. That's that's like what they're putting on the table. But then when they're saying racism, they suddenly want to align with the blacks. Whereas in actuality,
if half of this stuff online was going in on in like a physical Miami Gardens, I I mean, let me tell you the if you want to talk about a black neighborhood, you got to look at one of my uncle's neighborhoods where he lives. I know what a black neighborhood is. And I'll tell you, and I'm not going to name
any names, but a certain person who I have an issue with, he could not walk down the street in that neighborhood if people knew what he was doing. >> No way. Absolutely not. But then he >> Mhm. wants to say, "Oh, you're racist." And
it's like, how come you surround yourself professionally with people who are not black, but then when you get in trouble, all of a sudden you want to align with the blacks. >> Yeah. And it's not right and I don't like it. >> And like and then kind of white people
like are kind of demonized, right, these days, right? A little bit. Like >> Yeah. like uh and I I think there's a lot of white people that are like you know there are some you know there's bad apples and everything but I think like a lot of white people are like really >> for the most part just like everybody there there's nothing wrong with white people there's the guy I was married to
was an Eastern European white person like a freaking vampire >> okay he really did actually but um beautiful like a kin doll but he was a little vampire he was from Romania kuj New York, Transylvania. It was kind of romantic. I liked it. It was He was hot. But anyway,
it's it's not the skin color. It's It's the soul. >> Yeah. >> Sometimes you will have situations that are based around skin color because that's the evil making it that way. But it's I I was raised in an all-white neighborhood. >> I know white people even if they don't
want me to know them. I think I do. And there's some white people that know black people even if I don't want them to know me. There's there's things, especially in the South, but there's something going on, man, to where I I feel like there's like this agenda to create like a race war. It's
not about race. >> No, it's other stuff. It's about basically, you know, taking out both of the sides, you know, or having them, you know, it's like divide and conquer again. It's like, you know, having it's like going to be easier to take over like and it's going to be like in the future will be like a mixed race kind of future, I think, in America, right? It's like it seems like >> well even if we're white or black we're
not I I don't think I mean maybe somewhere in the world if you're like a separatist maybe you're totally one thing but if you look far enough back in your family tree you're going to see something that is not what you define yourself as. Mhm. I know my my genetics I've been able to like I mean it's like you know I've done my DNA a bunch of
times and like it does come back like you know 99% European but I think I have seen like you know 005% subsahara and African in there and so it so it's like you know I think we might be mixed with every and some Asian and some you know Native American I mean so there's different things that come up on things but yeah we are all one race a human
race right and it's like we like to you know separate into little cultures based on familiarity. And I mean, it happens even with like, you know, darkkinned African-Americans versus like lightkinn. There's even Yeah. >> Well, you know, it's funny. Um, I don't know if you know who Trisha is. >> She and I, we battle I actually like her
a lot. I' I've always been um a little concerned for her, but I like her a lot. And she was complaining on a stream recently. Um, she's in part Latina, so she naturally has a bit of melanin in her skin, so when she tans, she can get
for a white woman pretty dark. Um, and she was saying that somebody said to her, "Oh, you're getting too dark." And I thought that was funny cuz I was like thinking to myself, "Wow, that tan is going to last you through the winter. You look you look healthy. You look great." I don't talk to her really, but that's what I was thinking. And then I
was thinking, well, not thinking, but I guess thinking out loud, like where I am right now in the desert, um, something that I like to do when I can is get as much sun as possible because I do not want to develop vitiligo. Vitiligo is when you're African-American
or a person of color and you lose your pigmentation. And a lot of that does have to do with not getting enough sunlight. I already started to develop a little bit of that. So I took a picture of myself and my my mom reached out to me recently and she was like, "Oh, show me what you look like." So I show and she's
like, "Oh, why are you so dark? That's colorism." And I grew up with that. My mom when I was a little girl, she was always very conscientious. She was like, "Don't be in the sun too much, Alexandra. You don't want to get too dark." But it was a mentality that she
was raised in to where dark is wrong, light is right and I always had a lot of insecurity about that. But not now. By the end of this summer, I'm going to be Wesley Snipes black. >> But it does affect how certain people treat you. You you would be surprised.
There are some people who it doesn't impact them, but there's other people to where they're like, h, is that a criminal because they're dark? Is that person poor because they're dark? And it impacts you like especially as an African-American. I mean, there's a lot
of black men. People have asked me over the years, why have you dated so many white guys? And I have dated a lot of white guys, but I've also dated a lot of black guys. But I haven't dated as many black men as I would like to have dated because they don't want me because I am on the darker end. So, >> Mhm.
Yeah. >> And, uh, you know, so it basically comes down to is like, you know, we we we like um we love who we love. We're attracted to attracted to, and it's like um >> attracted to smart. If a person is smart, I'm like, yes. >> If they're athletic, even better. If
they like the outdoors, great. If they don't like if they're not like that, I don't want to deal with them. >> What What is your ideal partner? Tell Tell us. I'm gonna be invasive if you let me. What is your stream? >> The ideal partner. Okay. Well, I was thinking like, you know, I would be like probably a reformed like, you know, I'm really attracted to Latino men, right?
So, it' probably be like a but it's like also like kind of like I like the bad boys, but then it's like I want like a nice bad boy with >> I'm totally surprised. I'm totally surprised by this. Honestly, I'm very because I I would have thought that you would Well, I'm not going to say what I would have thought. >> But that's Are you only a couple white
people? >> Tell me the region of the country that you are. Ju just the region. >> Oh, I'm in I'm in Los Angeles. I'm in Yeah. Or like Southern California. >> I'm in the I'm in the beach cities. I'm by the beach. Um, and so it's like >> lunch one day and we could stream it if you if you ever feel like getting out. >> I would love to. Yeah, because I I don't get out of the house enough. I would
love to stream with you. Um, yeah, I'm I'm Redondo if you're familiar with Redondo Beach and >> I'm very I I won't push it. What I'll do because I am planning a trip out there soon. You can see me in different places then I'll come back to where I am and if you want to on a second trip meet for lunch. Oh, I would have so much fun. >> Yes, I would love that. That would be
nice. >> Okay. Okay. >> I don't know if you heard me earlier, but like I remember like I just would hear your name before and I would be like, "Oh." And then like I like maybe saw your picture or something like that and I was like, "Oh, she looks interesting. I'd like to meet her." But then it's like, you know, we had Mr. Bigpipes coming in. You know, I had a big falling out with him or whatever. I haven't spoken to him in forever actually because he he's a little he's
you know how we're talking about schizophrenia before and I'm not saying he's schizophrenic. I'm not saying that. But there's a lot of Mr. Big Pipes within Mr. Big Pipes >> like different people within him. >> I know maybe two people within him. I
don't know everything. I don't think that he's evil, but I think that he gets himself in trouble sometimes. >> Yeah. I mean, I I try to I mean, I like uh you know, he got mad at me or whatever, but yeah, like um but he used to come on and it's he would say I think when he first started coming on, he would say two-time streamer of the year
award or something like that. >> Streamer of the month. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. because I've known him I've known him since I've known about these communities. So, I do know him well. My um I I want to see him get back out and be independent.
>> That's what he's he could do it right now if he wanted to. He has to find the confidence. So, anything he says, it's all projection until he gets into his own place. >> So, don't worry about anything that he might have said. Okay. Well, I did I didn't I ended up banning him, but um but I might unban him. I don't know. But because he used he started getting very
abusive and then he said he put a curse on me and stuff, but he would always but I but then people >> curse on anybody >> and then but then then but then he started put then he started putting under his name he said, "Oh, um he's he'd say administrative um moderator of Vegan Patriot and stuff like that." >> Well, I got mad at him because he was throwing my name around. He was like,
"Oh, if you mess with me, you got to deal with Alex." And I'm like, "Dude, I am not a part of your petty, stupid little internet battles. Stop it." >> So, he knows how I feel. >> Okay. Yeah. Well, I mean, I'm a very forgiving person by you. He was probably threatened because a lot of um
like I I know that your ideal partner would be male, but a lot of females are going to gravitate toward you because you have a very comforting, fun energy and you're talking about the tarot and astrology and then you have you're you're easy on the eyes. He's jealous.
That's what it is. >> Mr. Big, leave him alone. Don't make me do my Alexandra thing because I will. Stop it. Leave him alone. Psyche Awakens Tarot is in my little invisible circle that >> Thank you.
>> It's him. Everyone leave him alone. I love Psychic Awakens Tarot. He's great. >> Thank you. >> You're welcome. >> I I I mean I I forgive him. I think he like um you know well it was funny too because it's like I'm I'm you know I'm I can be around women because I like I feel comfortable around women and I like I really respect women and it's like and
I'm plus you know there's not like the sexual tension necessarily, right? And so it's like it's so it's like and I think women >> is over 50% women. I don't know if you ever look at your Google Analytics in your back end of your YouTube studio, but >> when it comes to
>> Yeah. I I I mean, I don't know what your demographics are, but I would assume >> over 50% women. I I was surprised to find that I had as many women who were listening to me, and I'm happy about it, especially being that I'm pushing 50
women, come over here. It's It's better. It It just is. It's It's better because But when the men get not to knock you cuz I know you're a male, but when a lot of times when men get older, they get grumpy and mean. Oh, they get mean. >> Grumpy old man.
>> Well, >> yeah. For real. >> What's interesting about my demographic is like, you know, it's like I think it started out maybe um it started out kind of even. right now it is like I think it was like last time I checked it was 57% men 43% women and so that's for a tarot show that is like really strange cuz I only know one other tarot reader that
has more men than women but maybe it's cuz I'm a man but then I thought like I wouldn't be apping >> this community it's mostly men but we got to branch you out that's what that's what it is we got to get you out because >> you you anyone can know the mechanics of tarot astrology, okay? But it takes a certain
personality and I and I think that you might not think that you have a certain personality just from, you know, talking to you and whatnot, but you do. You definitely do. You are so easy to talk to. You are very open. You are very educated. You got it.
>> Thank you. Well, I I think that like Okay, so like women are I think natural psychics, natural intuitives, like empaths, like you know, I think that most most >> women don't like us. Yeah. Who who >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> But um like uh and then men I've noticed like men that do tarot like especially like straight men that do tarot, right?
Or straight men, they're very technical about it. Like they're very like they they they just got they they kind of lack some of the >> empathy or intuition. or intuition too >> empathy like you know receptiveness to the receptiveness they're all about oh this means this exactly and so and very technical about it which can be a good style too I mean this depends on like the style you like I have like kind of
both of the like I have a kind of a good balance of both of those you know um like of like the feminine and masculine side balance and so I think I you know I think that's that's a good thing for tarot readers to have is because it's like I do think there's meaning to like the certain cards and things like that but I think it's up to the skilled interpretation of it. And so I think you need both. Um, and
>> I do too. Like I think you got to be open to the feminine and the masculine. I have met straight men before who were often mistaken as being LGBTQ because they were so in touch with their feminine, >> but they often had like the healthiest
relationships with women, you know, be it their girlfriend, wife. I I have an uncle on my dad's side who everyone thought was gay. He's not. He's just very artistic and very in touch with Now, my dad came out when I was 14.
>> I have always grown up with the LGBTQ community >> and I'm so happy that he came out. When I really think about things, if it had not been for his courage, I don't think I would feel at peace like I do about my
past in the adult industry. It might have even led me in a weird way to go into that world >> in in a strange way, but um I don't like like in the in certain
Native American cultures, they don't just have two genders, they have five. >> So, I I don't think that we really know. I think that you should be with whoever you are authentically into, >> right?
>> I I it's always bothered me even to this day when people are like, "You're black. Why are you dating this person who's Latin or this person who's white?" It's like, "Why do you care? And where do you think you came from?" at some point in time, most likely, not always, but there was something that was
controversial. But why is it even controversial? >> So, it it just it the whole thing pisses me off if if you if you if you are into what is considered your same sex, that's what you're into. As long as you're not hurting anybody. I mean, I got into it
and I'm sorry to get personal, but I I'm gonna it's your panel. I respect you. I'm gonna I'm gonna tell you something. >> And I'm gonna tell your audience something, too. I was torn between my mother and my father when they got divorced because my mother felt that she was deceived, whereas my father felt he was liberating himself.
That was difficult. M >> I couldn't pick a side and I never did. You know, my mom will always have her perspective. My dad will always have his perspective. What pisses me off is when people come at me saying, "Oh, your dad thought your mom was a man." Not at all.
And I was very planned. My parents were married for seven years before I came along. >> Mhm. But sometimes people can be many things, >> right? >> And I do think that everything is meant to be. And I'm glad I have the perspective that I have when it comes to the LGBTQ
community because I'm a part of that community. There there's people in the LGBTQ community who don't feel like I should exist. They're like, "Well, your dad came out. You were a mistake." I'm like, "Fuck you. I was not." And neither was my sibling, >> right? >> Maybe the mistake. >> Yeah,
>> maybe the mistake is your thinking. No, it's okay. I'm done talking cuz I was kind of like on a rant. >> But >> that's that that's what and I think that more people in the LGBTQ community should have children, you know, not not through, you know, to where the person
may not know or feel that they don't know, but there's so many good minds. And I think that a problem in our population right now is that people who should be having more kids, their genetics are not going into the future. And I would like to see a change with that but
I'm a big proponent for artificial incimination. >> You know, I wish I had done that younger. Really? >> Yeah. And people have all kinds of like all kinds of there's all kinds of like you know arrangements that are made and some but sometimes you know that sometimes a female is a little bit deceived and it's like the man might want to like be a father or just like
live along in a normal society and not be judged and stuff like that or appear normal and stuff and then that makes the can sometimes can make the wife a victim of like you know being feel like she was fooled or >> not being overly revealing on your live stream because I don't know you well but I am going to say something. My mom is a
very good person. Extremely so. She was also not very worldly. She grew up on a farm in Arkansas. >> Mhm. >> She went almost straight from Arkansas, briefly in Florida to Lindingwood University in the Indiana area.
And she was very, very, very poor. and she met my dad who was not exactly poor >> and he did know that he was a certain way but he definitely loved my mother very much
and to my knowledge and also just how I feel especially since he's passed cuz and I didn't feel this way until he passed which which is weird in his I I don't think he thought that he was hurting my mom. I think that he
felt that he was helping her the best that he could. And she's told me some stories to where he definitely did. But she was so naive and so inex her life was nothing like my life at all.
very pure, very religious, all that kind of stuff. I think that my dad should have told her more in hindsight, but they both wanted to have a family. They both wanted social acceptance. They both
wanted they were both extremely driven. I mean, for them, affirmative action was the godsend. it. That's what it was >> because they're both super smart, far more intelligent than I could ever be,
and they worked it and they were the perfect team. But then you, you know, things changed >> and my dad wanted to be more of himself. And I'm not knocking my mom when I say this,
but I will say it. She made her life too much about him >> and not her. And that's where I think some things went wrong. But >> I love both my parents equally very much
even though one has passed and uh I'm very proud of both of them extremely amazing. They sound they both sound like amazing people and you know >> I just I miss my dad a lot. I really I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make your stupid not I I didn't mean to be stupid and
make your show about me, but thank you for listening. I I >> thank you for sharing. >> I I really appreciate you sharing. And it's like you know you know you're like you're one of the easiest people to talk to. you're you're um and you're interesting and um I really I really um enjoy uh knowing you and I look forward
to getting to know you some more too because I think we do have like a lot in common and you know stuff to learn from each other and um yeah I'm just I'm pretty happy. I've been having a kind of rough time lately. You know, it's like >> what's going on with you? you don't don't share anything that you shouldn't share publicly, but >> how can I help you? Maybe I can help you.
>> Well, you you already have. I mean, it's like it's just like, you know, I just like I get I feel like I I do get a lot of negativity on the show sometimes like it was like and it was just like maybe maybe it's just a few people, but it's like, you know, a few people like making a big, you know, a few trolls or whatever. >> You don't have to say, but or or at least give me a hand. >> Just a few. you know, well, you know, I went through like something when I first
started my channel like um when I you know, um somebody that know there's a guy that's in the community kind of I don't I won't bring up his name, but he um he ended up like um striking me for my own, you know, DJ Electra um made me this AI music video and then he like struck it like 11 time 11 times in one day. Got my account taken down. They
said they were deleting my account and everything after I just got monetized and stuff like that. And then he was like, then he was basically trying to torture me afterward and like try to say, "Oh, I'll take it off if you do this. If you do this." Yeah. Just bullying. And then like And then he still calls in porn bombing. He calls in I'm just like And if I even if I cover the screen, he'll start just start saying the nword real fast over and over and over again, which is like I think
the algorithm for you. >> Yeah. And then it's like and then I have to delete the live and then it's like I feel like you I mean it's just like I get I get >> Do you think that this person is attracted to you? because it sounds like it. >> Like he he he did come out as bisexual to me on like my show and stuff like that and he said he wasn't.
>> Did Did he do that anywhere else? >> I the people have said like they said they said said, "Oh, he hates you because you rejected him." >> He's trying to cover his track. If that's the case, sorry to interrupt. Sorry to over talk you. >> I apologize. >> That's what I think it is. >> No, you're fine. >> Yeah. I mean, it's like it's something because it's like there's no it was a very it's a very irrational kind of hate
because I never did anything to this person, you know? It's like I never >> is that did you keep that live up where he where you felt he came out or whatever? >> Um it's I think it's probably all my lives before a certain date are like pretty much privated and so I mean I have to go through. >> Okay, here's what I would do. I would
make it known to that person. Look, I want zero affiliation with you. Anything that you felt may look upon you negatively is not publicly accessible, leave me alone. Leave it at that. Then you send them a decease and desist letter reflecting that. Then if they keep going, you can take them to civil
court. >> Yeah, because I do have the I mean it's like I do have their information now, but Yeah. And it's like and stuff like that. glad you have the information because you know I went through the whole like process of actually but but the good thing was I got everything taken care of and everything because it was like a it was like a slanderous thing that he did like you know or like you know just make false claims and stuff like that with no backing so you
know you have a friend in me and there is a reason I have a certain reputation >> not in an evil way I try not to be but I am protective of people that I think deserve it. No, he he he probably does need to cease and desist. That usually that is what stops it. >> Let's see how it goes. I would just make
it known. Whoever that person is, I'll make it known for you. Whoever you are, person messing with sight, he's not going to do anything to you. Drop it. >> I just want him to leave me alone. I >> Yeah. Just would like him to leave me alone. That's basically it. It's like, you know, it's like I just like let it's like live and let be. I I don't go after anybody. But it's like then he's getting all this like positive attention because there's a lot of people that seem to not like me
too. >> Well, you're good at you're you're good at what you do. So, people are going to try to mess with you. You are. You really are. >> I I I have known people within the spiritual realm for a very long time. You're good. >> Well, thank you very much. like a and yeah and and but so but you know I just like so and I've been just like a little
bit like down otherwise like a little bit kind of like tired lately financially if you don't mind me asking >> how are you doing financially you don't have to say exactly like could you make I mean we could all always make more but well I think you know what I mean are you okay >> one sec I'm so sorry hold on my my mic
Sorry, you're there. >> I'm still here. >> No, I was just asking how are you doing financially? Do you need more promotion? Do you need more income? You you know, I was just saying we all need help. You know, we all would love to be billionaires, I'm sure. But my question is, do you need additional
help? Because I know people who could help and I'll help. Are are you okay? >> Uh well, I you know, I actually like despite this month like being kind of one of my slower months um slower months um with um um the the people that in the lives and stuff. I actually there's some like somebody um donated a lot of like a
sizable amount you know like several several and so that you know that's like really great and it's like but but I do have people like attacking my donors and like saying don't donate to him and like you know people that are you know >> to break out that's what it is here's my suggestion for you are very personable you look great on camera you have a
great speaking voice you know how to talk to People, guess what? Mr. Psyche Awakens Tarot, here's your spiritual message from me today. But, but guess what it is? I want you to guess what it is before I say it because I bet you can guess. >> But you think that I'm gonna I'm gonna
do something important or special? I I >> I think you're I think it's time for you to go outside. >> Yeah. I think it's time for you to do some sort of external from your desk streams. >> That way people can see you in the world a bit more. That's going to make all the difference. >> Yeah, because you know I live right by
the Redondo Beach Pier which is like, you know, it's one of the biggest. >> So you can get to the pier, >> right? Yeah. And and they said it's like 70 something dollars for like a year permit. I still have to like talk to them and figure out if like I'll be allowed to do tarot. They say you're allowed to like go to these few certain places and like not >> find out the cost. >> Well, well, you're saying it's like 70.
So, at the max like $100. >> Yeah. But for for for to for entertainers license on the pier and then I can do that and then it's like you can be there but it's like I have to figure out like they said oh but you can't like be providing like paid like services like you can only like you know do tips and stuff like that >> right there. Like it has to be like just
for you to be there. Is is that what it is? I'm thinking it's like I can like do things for tips, but not like I can't You're allowed to have one sign that says tips that says tips on it, right? That's that's the only signage you're allowed to have. And you're allowed and you're not allowed to like I guess like people have to come up to you and approach you. You're not allowed to like and you're not allowed to like charge for a service. So, I would just say, you know, it would just be tips tips only
and stuff like that. I think I might have to do like either like a like a general readings for like a crowd or people can come up and and I'll do like free readings and like just have like a little donation jar there. I could also film it and stuff like that. And >> well the filming that's what's going to make you the money because that's going to be content that you can put on your
channel that's um you know it's going to help you connect with people if you're already in the LA area. There's going to be other people who are spiritual readers and you got to be careful with that because there's going to be negative ones who come at you first, but you'll you'll weed it out. You'll find
the positive energy that you're supposed to, you know, naturally be around. But you should do that. You should definitely do that in my opinion. >> Thank you. Yeah. And I and yeah, it's been encouraged and I do like to like I mean that would be like you know scenic and you know um probably get some good attention from every I'm also doing Tik
Tok. I started on Tik Tok too. I got monetized there within a few days but it's like you know it's like a little bit different like their system but it's like I get so much love there like you know people can like your stream multiple times. It's way more down home. Like I'm not on there as like a um content creator or anything, but I watch
>> a lot. Yeah, I watch. >> They got some they got some very attractive people on there. I see some >> using a lot of filters and you can use very filter, but you're you're a very nicel looking man. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You have great facial structure. You look very very nice in my opinion. You present yourself
very well. You just got low self-esteem, but I do sometimes, too. So, I'm not going to knock you on that. >> Not at all. >> Yeah. Yeah, I do. I do. And I do like I actually like I like this year finally like once I once I started doing YouTube and stuff like that and like like just socializing it's like I started getting like you know people saying I'm good-looking or people like actually
like certain people thinking I'm very attractive and like you know getting kind of frisky on like with me online and stuff like that. Um, but it's like really boosted my confidence and also just like being able to talk to people on the on this show like I'm able to go out now and talk to people on the street and stuff like that because even with the with the camera, without a camera, I'm just like more confident >> in myself and it's like but that, you know, sometimes that can be shaken a
little bit sometimes with like, you know, if I get too much negativity and stuff and so >> and it's all it's all like me trying to >> you up, you know. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. And uh >> I just sent you I sent you a donation for your uh >> for you to get that license or permit or whatever.
>> Thank you so much. >> Yeah. >> You're welcome. >> Oh my god. >> Or whatever you want. You have to use it for that, you know, use it for what whatever. But >> Oh my god. >> Because you mentioned it. So, >> thank you so much because uh and that really does help me right now because you know YouTube pays out once a month and so >> I know they take forever. Yeah. >> But um yeah, just from the bottom of my
heart that is like that's very generous, kind and sweet. Thank you so much. >> I do I do plan on putting up with me today. Put up with me. >> I don't consider putting up. It's just a pleasure. It's you're just a pleasure and I I love you and it's like I you you know what I if I had a
different name me personally it would be the name Lucy >> Lucy >> because I don't want to go with Lucif with if I was a male Lucifer but I'm not bad I just am misunderstood. >> If you ever see my I have a tattoo I'll show you my tattoo. Hold on one second. I show you this one. >> All right. Let me let me go into the shade because I'm outside now. Okay. I can see. Okay,
>> that's pretty cool. >> You recognize that symbol? >> I don't recognize the entire I I see parts that I would re, but I I it looks new to me unless it's like something I've never seen before. >> Oh, let me see if I can pull it up. Let me on the the phone. Um cuz uh Yeah, but that's interesting you said that. Let me see. Um
okay. Yeah. Well, there there's like another there's another of it. I don't think you can read it. >> All right. Let me go into the shade again. I couldn't see what it was. Let me tell >> Yeah. >> Okay. >> You see it? >> Hold on. Let me take my sunglasses off. Sign of Lucifer. Okay.
>> Yeah. Yeah. >> Well, I'm obviously not Lucifer because I didn't recognize it. And and so that gives me comfort because sometimes I do wonder. >> I do. >> It does if you on the side and on the turn to the side, it does resemble like the the field of vision in a certain way. And so I kind of like and then like
you know Lucifer is associated with eyes and things like that too. I always thought of it as some kind of like the brain and then like the field of vision like that's how we how we see and stuff like that. But it looks like there's some different things to it like uh you can see the V and it has like you know it does have like the the horns in there too and interesting I think it's interesting symbol. I've it's like one
of those things that I just like I kind of like tattooed it before like it just I just got a feeling to tattoo it like and then it's like I kind of think you guys could get I've never had any tattoos in my entire life. I'm one of those people with zero tattoos. Mhm. Well, it's like you know your favorite animal I or I like I do like astrology. I like and also like meaningful things if you're into any kind of like you know
like practice like a very meaningful symbol or like something like something just something that has a lot of meaning to you and it's like and then >> because I shift so much. >> I shift a lot. >> Call it bipolar, call it ADHD, call it OCD, I don't know. But I've
never that that's why I always restrained because >> like I love You're going to laugh. I like unicorns. >> I've always unicorns. I'm all about unicorns. My favorite cartoon movie is The Last Unicorn. I know this theme song by heart. It's ridiculous. I'm like a
little girl in a grown-up body. It's weird. But um I love unicorns. I always thought if I were to get a tattoo, it would be a unicorn. But the one time I almost did, the tattoo artist didn't know how to make a unicorn. >> Like not not like a good one, you know?
Not not like a good illustration or depiction. So, I didn't put that day. >> Well, yeah. It's like, yeah, you got to find the right artist. It's probably like like you know it's probably like fate or something. But um like oh also my sister like has a few tattoo like she has my my sister has a tattoo for my grandmother and then she got my my dad's
signature tattooed on her from like she had a a birthday card or something and you know it's you know and she had a sign reality Nancy said show my bea tattoo. I got this tattoo a few months ago. Yeah, there was when shortly after I came on and I was like, you know, but it stands for >> Oh, you have a tattoo for be kitties. >> Yeah, yeah, >> cool. Let me see. Let me see.
>> Okay. >> Oh, that's Oh, does she know? Does she know? >> Yeah, she knows. The the not the cartoon, the the tattoo. I called it cartoon. Yeah, the tattoo. >> She does. Yeah. And she's like, you know, hopefully she needs she needs to be nicer to you. Oh,
>> I know. I really do love her. >> I do love you. You're going to be fine. You're going to be fine. Don't worry. Don't worry. Don't worry. Don't worry. Because >> I love Beeta. Beeta, since I've been in these communities, I have She's known of me. I didn't really know about her, you know, cuz she she's quiet, but she's
awesome and she's sweet. She She Here's what I will say, and I don't care if anyone gets mad at me. I don't care if she gets mad at me. She's got some toxic people around her. Period. >> And when she's willing to let that go, she's going to feel so much better. She's not there yet. But I love her and
I am there. I drew a line in the sand today on my live. I was I let her know how I felt. She understands, but she's a good woman for sure. >> I agree. And it's like I love Beeta and it's like You know, she she she thinks I'm like I I don't know. She I think she might think negative of me
sometimes, but I I >> she's listening to the wrong people. >> Yeah, I'll tell you. >> I do feel like that. I do feel like that. I do feel that it's like there's people around her that um have wanted >> You don't have to say it. I will I will say it. I will be your avatar >> and say it because I'm right. I know it. But she's cool. And there are some people like when I first came in these
communities, I saw something that could be more. And slowly but surely, I bring my little people with me. I'm like, "Okay, pack your bags. Let's go. Let's go. >> We're going to make something to where we can all be prosperous." >> Yes. And that's what I really wanted, too. It's like that's why it's like I'm
like when I like I do these like things like, you know, I have different ways of monetizing. I even try to monetize the hate on my panel by like having you know people can be gongked off or like you know and then I had like sponsored panels too just to make like because sometimes open panels were pretty draining on me and they do take a lot of time. >> That's a good move. Sponsored panels. I never I I didn't even know that you were doing that. I think that's a great idea
with certain things and I I think that's a very good idea. >> Yeah. And actually like it was actually very very successful for me too. But then it's like I have people say, "Oh, you know, he's a scammer, like he's a grifter, like you know, blah blah. He's charging people to come on his panel, which I, you know, and all this kind of stuff." And it's like, and then it's like no one's like really correcting it. And it's like, and I told beta from the
beginning, I was like, there's people like that are going to like try to tear us apart because they see how like strong our friendship is. And it's like, and so we have to stay strong because because people were already starting to like turn us against each other. I could see it. And it's like and I was like I was like, we have to stay strong no matter what, unified and stuff. And then it's like eventually other people because of what other people doing it's like or said or something like that and then we you know we sometimes we get
upset because we didn't defend each other like we thought we should have and stuff like that right >> that's why you know she's reaching out to people like me because if you guys have disagreements there's going to be people like me who are going to be like now wait a minute hold up wait a minute let's put some intellect in this and you know emotions run strong,
>> especially when we're triggered by certain things. >> Yeah. >> But you two are definitely going to be BFFs again. I can guarantee it. >> I hope so. I hope so. I hope so. And it's like, you know, >> cuz I do I do love her. And it's like, and I do like, you know, she was the one that basically >> I don't think I'd be successful at all without without her help. And like, you
know, she really >> She told the story. >> She she's told the story and you did not counter the story. and you everything that you said does not in any way counter. She That's why I'm saying she's definitely still your BFF. She just is. She just doesn't know it and you don't know it but you are.
>> I I feel that. I do feel that. It's like I I because I have incredible affection for her. And al also like sometimes people that upset you the most can like you know that you love the most. You have the most like you care most about what they think and things like that. And so Exactly. >> But there's a lot of people around her that just hate me. I don't think she sees that and then it's like it's some and sometimes it seeps over to her.
>> Yeah. >> Same with me. There's people who um have done some really there's one in particular that's that's what I got upset about. There's a person in particular, not going to it's a female. I'm not going to name her. She did something wrong and she's actually been shielded by
myself legally for what she's done wrong. My attorney said, "Give her a year. Give her a year." So, I'm doing that. >> Mhm. >> But there's people that she may want to rethink, but she doesn't have to.
But just like I've had to realize sometimes I can't merge worlds with certain people. >> Mhm. >> That's I guess everybody. >> Mhm. >> You know, when it comes, you know, not everybody gets along and I don't want to get along with everybody. That's just
me. >> Well, it's like I want to like I just want to be like I don't want to like hate people. I I don't want to hate anybody. Like I think like you know and it's like sometimes I know people like even like even like bad criminals who've done terrible things. It's like I think that even like their mother might love like love them or like even they might have loved their like you know taking care of their animals and like love their their dog or something there. I
think there's like good in everybody like you know but but sometimes I like question that if there is true because sometimes I see such evil in some people that it's like wow I don't see any good there. I just all I see is evil intentions and like hate and like darkness. But I have this thing where I want to like >> help people get out of that or something like I want to be a good influencer.
>> That's probably like your mission. Maybe that's like the mission that you're spiritually on because you're you're every day from everything I know about you every day you're within that spiritual realm. You're making art. You're make you're talking to people about spirituality, spiritual concepts.
you're you're always in it from everything I'm assessing about you. >> So that puts your energy in a certain place. >> Don't um fight it. That's what I would say. Don't I I would say go with it and it might
not always feel comfortable, >> right? But >> I think I mean if I were to guess like five years from now >> thinking about everything I know about you five years from now you're probably going to have a
viewership what every every time you go online it's going to be no less than 300 viewers. you're going to be able to completely live off of and you probably already do off of your readings and whatnot, but I also think that you'll be
somebody that's called upon for your insight into people because you have it. It's just ju just stay away from anyone who's like, >> "Yeah, >> I don't like you for whatever reason because I don't have a life." That That's what the demons are.
>> Yeah. >> So, you're fine. >> Thank you. You really >> I'm gonna let you go. >> I'm I'm in a much better state of I just want to say thank you. I think I have a much I'm in a much better state of mind because uh of a great conversation. And I just want to thank you. >> You made my day. I had so much fun talking to you today. Thank you for your
knowledge. Thank you for the watcher card. That was cool. Um, thank you for introducing me to your friend Go um, Gotti or God. >> And I'll check in on you at some point, but I will definitely talk about your
channel and, you know, do what I can do. But after I do my LA visit, if you feel comfortable, if you on my next LA visit after that one, if you want to have lunch, let me treat you. >> I would I would love to. That would be such an awesome experience and I love
I'd love that. Thank you so much. >> Have a great day, Mr. >> Awakens Tarot. I feel awakened. >> It's always a pleasure. Thank you, too. >> All right. Byebye. >> Bye. >> Well, yeah, that was a lot of fun. Um,
and uh hope you guys enjoyed that that uh you know, I feel like it's been a pretty perfect show today. I I think that that's a it's a pretty good uh moment to end on, but I'll be back tonight. But I've been on for like two and a half hours and had a great uh great conversation. Uh Nancy, how are you doing, Nancy? I I got I saw your uh your your email on
Instagram and uh some of your cute stuff on t on Tik Tok, too. You're awesome. Thank you guys so much. Um yeah, I'm gonna get uh better mood. So, I'll talk to you soon. I'll be back in probably a few hours. Okay. Okay. Love you guys. There
we go. Let me see the kitty cat. Love you.
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