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Psyche hosts a birthday celebration episode for Prairie Paige, discussing show dynamics, guest behavior expectations, and interactions with his cat Rudy, while also addressing issues with certain guests and their language.
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Browse era →I don't lectures. I learn from the flame. Touch the stove on purpose just to name the pain. Blueprint in my pocket, but I still go. I'm try I'm break it. They watch me tripping and then they whisper like a prayer. Don't do what he did, but they still
want to stare. Yeah, I took the hits so the room could see it clear. Now I'm walking out like who next I'm here. I'm not fragile, I'm fless warm. I'm the martyr in the
street light. The heretic with the clean side. Turning wrong. They project. I reflect. I survive it in real time. I'm the glitch that the upgrade watchful
when you're free. Want a savior on a leash, not a man with a key. So I took all their labels, wore them like a coat. Too much, too. Weird, too, woke. But I'm built for the crash test. Built for the reveal. Built to take the rumor and turn it into
a map. I'm not breaking. I'm not lost. I'm adjusting. If it fails, I don't hide. I come back with something. I'm the in the queen.
Turning wrong. They project I reflect. I survive it in real time. I'm the glitch that becomes the meri
stand.
I'm still the one that found the way. Let him misunderstand me. I've been misunderstood delivered. Let him call it chaos. I've pulled gold out of worse than this. I'm not here to be liked. I'm here to be effective. And
when the smoke clears, everybody wants the method.
A heretic with a ho made of razor wiring. You can doubt me, you can messle
up the rest. Call me trouble, call me teacher, call me, call me. Either way, I'm the proof that you can change anything. >> Trial of fire.
That's my That's my be.
Uh oh. Hi. I'm in a better mood because I feel better. Let me fix it. Hold on. I'll be right there. Be right with you. Here I am. Oh. Hi. Hi, Gotham. I love you Gotham. What a
nice guy. You try to fix this. Oh my god. Well, it should be a good day. I didn't get my refund yet, but uh oh, maybe today. It should be. I did call them and ask and they're like, "Well, it could take like a day." I don't know. It's never taken this long
before. Um, never. It's always been the same day. So, I'm kind of worried. But, hey, what time is it now? It's 2 o'clock yet. I don't know what time it is. It's um 12:53. I don't know. Oh, this damn gosh
darn thing. Anyway, how are you guys? I'm sorry. I had like a couple weird lives earlier. Oh god, I really like I wanted I don't understand why people just don't understand like don't say this word on my show and they say, "Oh, I'm being sensed." It's like, do I have to explain a million times
that I'm a monetized? Do I really have to? I mean, it's like, am I dealing with some people of normal intelligence that just can't like not say the N word on my show? Yeah. I hope we'll be good day. I just don't understand. I say don't say r e t
a r d. Even says that. I mean, I was like I was surprised because she was saying that calling people that the other day. I was like, I don't use those kind of words. Like, anyway, hi Katie. Is Katie here? Hi Katie. Shout out to Katie.
I hope we can work things out. I don't know. Um, okay. I have to check my list. He's making a list. Checking it. Oh, no. Okay. Well, this is shout out to Katie. Okay. Um Yeah. Um
I don't Yeah, I don't know why um people can't use Do I mean does it It's confusing especially because it's like it's not even like oh it just happened once. Oh, that's it's like that's their like and it's like do they usually I just don't understand like why do they have to say that on my like over
and over and over and over and over right time. It's fine if you say it in the chat. I I really don't care about the chat about saying it but um I think Sig is slow. I think he is. He does look like he has Down syndrome.
I mean, he looks like it. Not to be offensive or anything. And there actually like, you know, worse. Um, there's plenty of people with Down syndrome with great intelligence. I mean, it's like, yeah, it's like even I think they would have more sense than to I just don't understand.
I don't understand. But whatever. I mean, I'm so I had to keep deleting episodes and, you know, ending episodes and stuff. Hi, Justin. How are you? Just kind of bothers me though. It's like how many times do I have to explain like I'm just really going to have to stop having them on the show. I think
they just want to come up here and like cause like do that. I mean, I would hope that they'd be a normal intelligence to say, "Hey, because when you go to a restaurant right? Are you going to like take a dump on the table? No, because you just know, oh, this is a restaurant.
You're not supposed to do that here. I don't Am I crazy? Am I crazy? I don't know. So, I mean, sorry, Joe, and sorry, Sig. I mean, you're the biggest You're the biggest uh culprits, right? Hey, Justin. Hey. Hey, everybody. I mean, it's like
I'm sick of explaining it. I really am. It's like I should and I shouldn't have to. And then it's like I can't even explain it. I have to be argued with. Like why argue with me? It's like if I go on a show, if I go on a panel, the host asks me something, I'll just like instantly
I'll just behave. I don't care if it's against the toos or not against the toos. If they have a request, just add a courtesy to the show to the host. I would just try I would just like take I would just like take a step back and like say before I open my mouth or else I'll I won't be
welcome here anymore. Why do I keep welcoming them back though? That's my fault. Really is. I don't know. I I just I I was hoping I was dealing with like, you know, like most of you guys are good with it. You know, most of you guys are DJ Electra. Have I ever had to yell at DJ Electra
for saying the N word like ever? No. She just I mean, she doesn't say it. But if she did, I think she would like understand like not to say it. Hey, Rudy. Rudy's right here. See Rudy? Hi. That's Rudy. You want to see more cats?
There you go. Hi, baby. Mr. Rudy. Hi. Oh, you're rubbing on me. Yeah. I mean, it's like I don't know. I just hope I just I just hope someday they'll get it. Okay. Just as with you, wrench him. Okay. Well,
I have to open up another thing. I I will. I will. Hi, Justin. Thank you. Glad to have you here. Oh, so soft. He's a soft cat, you know. And then Sam man was like, "Oh, he's so skinny." Yeah, he's a little bit skinny cuz he's like 17, 18 years old, so he's
a little a little bit. And if you like look in the right light and stuff like that, he kind of has ribs, but does he look like he's starving?
You like that? Oh. Oh. So, so nice. Oh. Oh, rub your cheeks. Oh, baby. Oh, you're so sweet.
Yeah, he's not starving. He's happy cat. not covered in fleas. You get a couple fleas sometimes, right? Because you go outside, but I I I comb you. I mean, I don't know. He's a happy cat.
Am I Am I Am I uh my Rudy? You know, you want you want to be here or No. Yeah, you do. puts his little like foot up on me. So sad. Some people are just so sad.
If you knew how much I love cats, how much I love people. It's like I am just like I'm the last person to even ever ever ever harm a living creature, you know? I even feel bad sometimes when I when I kill fleas. I'm like, "Oh my gosh." You know? But the fleas are on the cats and so
cats win, you know. But yeah, he's a little cute little guy. Yeah, there you go. He's just old and his skin sags a little bit right?
I hope you know all our skin's going to sag a little bit when we get he's a equivalent to being 80 years old probably. You know, he's not going to look like he did when he was, you know, two years old. But he's a happy cat. He's still soft, though. He's really soft. He's as soft as a kitten, aren't you? Oh my gosh. There goes his hair
flying around. A You like me? Do you like me? Hey rude. You like me? Look.
Am I Am I forcing you to to say that I'm, you know, you're happy and good? No. Or you can't force cats to do that. Cats, if cat was not happy, the cat would not be here. Cat would be What are you doing now? You want to itch?
Okay. He has a little itch on his his head. Okay. Is that okay? Okay. Yeah. Happy birthday, Paige. Prairie Paige. Happy birthday, Paige. I don't know where she is. I know she was a beatas earlier. She came in here. There was like a little bit too much too much drama, I think, for her. She
doesn't like all the fighting and people being rude. And of course they're going to be rude. Have I read the text messages I got today? You know, I know where your dad is buried. I mean, just sick sick people, right?
Oh, keep my my father's name out of your mouth. He's too great of a person to for that person to even mention his name. It's sick.
And VA, by the way, you, VA. You want to call me Mia F A G O T? you, Okay,
for real. Probably you're probably the one sending to my house. It is in your name. Yeah. Shut the up, You call me names. You call me names, you you dumb drunk. Go to hell.
Right back.
Why Why do I Why do I even bother trying to like, you know, all I've done is be nice to her or just joke around. It's like what? Oh yeah, I really think you are a murderer. Right. It's like dumb Another white claw.
Thank you, Jamie.
Really? You're going to call me that? Why does that word Why is that word in your vocabulary? I know you're such a homophobe. I'm the bitchiest gayest person you ever met. Well, yeah, I'll show you gay. You're just a bully
and you're a narcissist. Like the like a severe severe like the worst kind. So, who knows what you're capable of? Probably are capable of murder. You certainly talk like it like you're some gangster, right? You're a real gangster
going to your 80s 80s shows. What's up, Gotti? How are you? You're going to call me a a a maggot? Really? Okay. Yeah. Happy birthday, Paige, by the way. Sorry. Sorry. Right. I mean
it's spoiler birthday and I'm sorry it's like you know come to this but really
it's a shame
even I'm just feel so stupid trying to work things out with people texting her today telling her personal thing like Oh, so stupid. I'm stupid.
Thank you. You know, it's not for a gay person. I'm not even like very gay. I I don't even have gay sex. >> >> I think I had had sex like two years ago or something like that. Not to give you too much information, but
I'm I don't have AIDS. I don't I mean, and she's fine when people say I have AIDS in her chat. She's fine with it. AIDS, right? Well, I mean, Jamie, please. It's not worth it for me. Well, for me, I mean, for certain relationships. I mean, yeah, there's
misunderstandings. This is just she's took it too far. I mean,
someone come up here and talk to me. Hold on. Tracy, Tracy, what's wrong with you? Like, why why were you so like your comments were so snippy on my on my post? I don't understand. Like, what did I do? Tracy, not Tracy, the black Tracy, like the
Confederate flag Tracy. It's 1:14 a.m. Okay. Yeah. I'm not There's no more time putting into into I mean, I just waste It's all the all the time is wasted with her. Do you hear how she talks? Evil.
Even if you're not a murderer, you're just evil. I I never did anything to you. What do you What What are your complaints about me? It's all about other people. All about what? And then you would never defend me for anything, right? Never.
But but Sweet Pea, don't you talk about Sweet Pea. Oh, it's horrible woman. Horrible woman. Nasty. Nasty.
Oh. Oh, please. Tony always loses. Tony sucks. And you're banned before you even get to get that out. Bye. Bye. Bye. Ner. What were you saying? What was that? What was that? All I see is G E. What was that?
Yep. No, you got it, too. Here you go. Bye. Yeah, we we now we know who you are and I don't care how many accounts you come on Jerick Johnson ex writer or whatever. You're a piece of trash. If I show if I show the text messages that you sent me today talking about, you know, where my dad is buried. No, you don't.
Saying my dad's name. No, you don't do that. You don't do that. By the way, I made like $60 from all the concrete I sold. Thank you. Comes in handy. Sorry you had to spend so much on it. Hopefully, you use a fake credit card or something. I don't know. Cuz uh
spending hundreds of dollars to like harass me with concrete. I hope you send some more. I I can't I can sell it. I don't care how many bags you of concrete you send. I can't lift them, but certainly I know people that can
people are some people are just trash, you know. Happy birthday, Paige. Hey, allegedly. Hey, easy. How are you? You know, and easy. I mean, if you're so mad about me not having a problem with Gotti using Michael's picture, Michael never had a problem with Gotti, nor did he have a problem with me. He was my friend like
long before this show. Um, long before Tracy, so I don't know what that deal was with that, but I'm sure Michael would give you permission to do anything I'm doing or got anything he's doing. He Michael had no problem with this. So that I have no problem with you anyway. I don't know. I
don't know why like people just take these little stupid issues and like decide to make a big deal about them. But yeah, it's Paige's birthday. Say happy birthday to Paige. We're trying to have a nice Actually, I'm I'm thinking, hey RZ, how are you next? What? Next? Well, you made the big deal about it though. I mean, you did. And then you
say yesterday on on Money420 show that was like why you're mad at me or something. because of somebody something somebody else was doing with somebody that was our friend and not even like friends with you. I don't understand. But I have no issue with you.
Yeah, we can move on from that.
Nobody knows what I go through. I don't even share half the stuff that I go through. based on based on this miss me having this show just based on me just like coming trying to spread a positive message how much I go through on this show how I have 2,000 pounds of concrete I'm trying to move on but you did bring it up again yesterday so you
move on too but I'm I really again I have no problem with
Yeah. Having somebody say, "Oh, I know where your dad is buried." Having say, "Oh, you you you hate ni ger. You're racist. Oh, you're a fake Jew." I never said I was Jewish. Oh, we all have problems. We all We all do. Easy. We all do. Do you have the
problems I have? No. Do you understand what I go through? No. I even go through problems because of you.
You go through problems because of me? No. Hey, clumsy. How are you? Yeah. Okay. Well, but it's not It wasn't funny to me. It was like It's just another thing people are like jumping on me over. It's like I don't you know you know beta calls me
f a g o t today like I like really I'm talking to her right have I have what did she have to bring up six months ago I said wow she sounded
suspicious when she said what' she Okay. You'll never figure it out. You'll never figure it out.
I mean, jeez, a woman.
I never said I was a Satan. That's one though. Yeah.
She said she she worships nature. So I said, "Well, the the god of nature is Cernos, the horn god, right? I don't know. Now she's like, "Oh, like I mean it was a joking back and forth. I said it right to her face." I mean, and she's like, "What you think?" She
says, "You called your she I called Lenor a Satanist." Do you know like Lenor is like my like like my like my you know how much I love Lenor. I mean it's like you think I'm gonna like I understand. I understand. She even like said it today. She was like, "When I had that chat earlier, all of a sudden
I get coming in getting attacked by all these people that I know, some of my mods." And then I go look at her chat. She's like, "Oh, I sent everybody over there." She's like, "I know this game. What is the game? What is the game you're playing? Bea, I want to know more about this game you're playing." Right.
Love to hear more about the game you're playing. I'm not playing a game. All I wanted to do is have a nice little like live after, you know, I got blocked from your chat by bronze chicken. What? So I have to go on the panel and like, you know, be assaulted by Bronze Chicken and Sweet Pea and all and you
know the 20 people you have on to um attack me? That's the only way I can like listen to your chat, right? I don't know. Or I can't have my own chat. I don't Plus her calling me really hate like it's hate speech
calling me f a g o t you like my worst enemy I I mean it's like I don't someone like I guess BG was saying oh well you have a f a g o t pass you're gonna say that I don't care if I have a pass I don't say that I won't even say it now.
But it just comes off her tongue really easily. Dumb drunk
Right. KZ e KZ for first time. I agree with you. Yeah. All I hear is like this terrible Persian music and a and a this drunk Persian woman slurring.
I don't even know how you guys I can't even I can barely I have to slow my the speed of my video down like 75% so she sounds like a normal person or else like neighborhood cats start coming outside in the house meowing thinking that
there's somebody. I mean I don't I mean I here's a joke I made. I said the thing that is was like, "Oh, I'm making a beat of voice. I'm making a beat of voice thing. I'm I'm taking I'm doing an A of her voice." And it was like it sounded way too like normal for her. And I was like, "Well, I made a I made a sex line with Bea's
voice and everyone asked for refunds." That's all I said. It was a joke. She She's like a gift. Like, you know, like a like a dog craping on your doorstep is a gift. That's That's like I'd rather have that as a gift than any gift she has. Right.
I was like, "Check your messages. I check your messages. Check your messages." Clumsy. I mean, geez.
Her gifts. Yeah. What was her gift? Her gift was bringing me a bunch a bunch of trolls, harassing me to this day. But is there anybody in there just my mod
that are just my mods going in there talking? Nope. Yeah, I'm not going to I'm not chasing her. All I do is just go and see her dumb dumb show on. There's a cat picture. I'm a sucker for a cat picture. I go in and I go.
That's all I hear. That's what it sounds like. Literally. Not exaggerating. I wish I was I wish I was just like being f. That's what it sounds like. That's our whole show. How do you listen to that? I don't understand. I don't know how I listen to it
for men's attention. Well, Mason comes and gives her attention and she like blocks him, right? Mason says he wants to cuddle with her. Go cuddle with Mason. I mean, she you both you both are the same level of intelligence. I mean, just you're made for each other.
No shade on Mason.
She tried to grab grab Gerslong. Don't Don't get it within radius of her. I would seriously avoid it. You don't know what she's going to do with it. probably gonna go in some Persian dish, right? Well, yeah, she thinks she's
above everyone else because that's what narcissists think. She's not even She's like not even just a narcissist. She's like a psychopathic narcissist. It's like the worst kind, really. I mean, sorry. I mean, it's like I'm not even sorry. Sorry. Not sorry. I'll be honest a little bit. I'm not I'm not drunk either. I had my second
hurricane punch like all night. I mean, I'm just getting the blood flowing a little bit.
So, I'm going to put the link up one more time. We're just having a fun night tonight. It's Paige's birthday, you know. So, it's happy birthday, Prairie, Paige. I'm sorry if like, you know, other people try to spoil it.
I mean, she can get drunk on her channel, too. It's her channel, but it's like,
she's been on for 12 hours. That's fine, too. I I mean, that was like my maximum back in the day. I used to I would go on for 12 hours at a time. Sometimes I would eventually fall asleep, though. That's why it went on so long. But yeah, it's it's it's it's over like
once. Yeah. Happy birthday, Paige. I'm sorry. Like, you know, but all all the other stuff. It's unfortunate, you know. But there's a lot of bullying on YouTube. There is a lot of bullying. So, I'm going to check out one thing. I want to show you my I do want to show you my
apps, though. Okay. So you guys, so this is my I'll show you a couple of my apps because people were confused a little bit. Okay, you guys see it? So this is called the Sandario Lahiri. It's actually it's in it's in the language of Sanskrit. Okay,
so it says 100 verses celebrating the divine mother called the wave of beauty. That's what Sandario Lahiri means. Okay, so there's Sanskrit right there has a Sanskrit. There's 100 verses of it. So 100 verses celebrating the divine mother attributed to Aishi Shankara. Okay. He's like a very famous Indian poet. Each
verse is a portal into sound meaning and sacred geometry which it is. And I'll let you listen to a little bit. So here's a little bit.
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>> Okay. So you might be saying, "Oh, that sounds weird. It sounds what what's that language?" So it's Hindu, right? And so that was the first verse. So we can just So it goes through the all 100 verses. Not all of them are ready yet, you know. It's just got the first 20, I think. Yeah. 20. So what it does is it has
that's that in Sanskrit. Then it translates it pronunciates goes
which means Shiva only when united with Shakti becomes capable of creation otherwise the Lord is not able to even stir. Therefore, how can one who has not accumulated merit be able to bow or even to praise you who are worshiped by even Vishnu, Shiva and Brahma. Okay. And so then there's a mantra. Does this work
yet? Not yet. Okay. If that doesn't work yet, there's a yantra that goes with it. It says central bindu representing Shiva Shakti union surrounded by interlocking triangles of the shriantra gold lines on boy black. Okay. And then it has a few meanings because it's tantra. So it's there's an outer, an inner and a tantric meaning. The outer meaning says the
verse establishes the fundamental tantric truth. Shiva which is pure consciousness and shakti dynamic power are inseparable. Without shockti Shiva is inert uh meaning shava a corpse. Okay. The in that's that's the outer meaning the obvious meaning. Okay. The inner meaning is within you. Awareness
without energy is dormant. This verse awakens recognition that your cap capability to perceive, move and and create arises from the union of stillness and motion within. Now, personally, I'm I get chills when I read this. Like, so I don't know if you had a reaction or there's
something stirred, okay? But it does within me and that's why I'm so into sharing it. And there's a tantric meaning. Tantric says the verse activates the understanding of um arad nash shavara the half male half female form. Meditating here dissolves the illusion of separation between observer and the observed.
Okay. There's a goddess aspect. It says Lalita as parakti in her supreme form seated in lotus posture. Radiant yet still adorned with golden crimson. the crescent moon and her crown, four arms holding lotus, noose, goat, and sugarcane bow. That's and it goes through 100 verses of
that. Okay, but if you know how profound that was, that's profound. Hey, Gotti. >> Hello, my friend. How are you? >> Hello. Hello, my friend. >> Welcome to the world of psychic. >> Hey, but did you find that interesting at least? I mean, even if you don't like understand, I mean, it's like it took me
a while and it will take other people a while to like >> Who are you playing? I like that. >> Robbie Shanker. >> Oh, Robbie. Oh, you are. I love Robbie Shanker. He does the He does the um the instrument, right? He does the >> Yeah, the the whatchamacallit is that thing called. >> I know. I know. It's the shitar. Yeah,
thear. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> >> But there's profound spiritual meaning to it. And if you just look and there's like and it gives all the because I I was taught like there's like an outer meaning like an obvious meaning. There's an inner meaning and there's a secret meaning. And so I go through all three of those. And so whatever your level of skill is in it, you'll have like some
kind of understanding. I don't know like mantra for me has just brought me bliss. And so I just wanted to share that with people and especially these are supposed these are like the most beautifully >> you got to share with people that are open to it though. You know there's there's spirituality in a lot of things. >> But I do hope that you know me being a spiritual show
people will be more open to it right it's like you know >> you know it's like if even if you're into tarot or something you might find the union of the masculine the feminine coming together. I mean it does make sense even if you just are the lowest level of it. There's some sense to it and if you can see it and I really want to introduce people to that. But of course I have that app. I have the troll
decoder app and I have another app I made too called the Mahav video um Oracle where you can get some advice too. I So u I'm really excited that I'm able to create these apps now because now I don't have to do coding. They are >> it's great because it's your outlet man. It's your outlet toward the spiritual world that you love so much. >> Yeah, you get you get it, got it. I >> I see it, dude. I see. Yeah, I see what don't
you're into. And you enjoy it a lot. It's just that the thing that it's not just you. I see it in a lot of people who are very creative. The only the only negative is this YouTube. I know it's your outlet. I know it's your outlet to the world, which is great. But the negatives is all the that comes at you, >> From all the evil parts of it, you know, >> right?
>> right? But you know what? Fighting evil, like being able to fight it or at least stand up to it or at least deal with it, that's powerful, too, because >> it is. It's very powerful. It's true. Yep. I agree. >> Makes you stronger. Hopefully. >> Right. Exactly. You get it, Gotti. I know. I know you would get it. I >> I didn't know you before this much. I
remember you said uh you're a shy guy by nature. This brought you out of your uh you know, your comfort zone. when you came on here, you started doing the the show, speaking to people, you know, meeting people more and that's great. That's great. So hopefully, you know, you became a stronger person because of all this. >> I definitely have. I definitely have. I mean, just like the stuff I deal with. I
mean, it's like maybe a year ago dealing with it, I would have just ran away from YouTube or something like that. Now I'm like everything is like the guy says my dad's name and says he knows where my dad is buried and stuff like that. >> That's some evil man. That's up. >> It's evil. I mean, but it's like, and I know a few other people are going
through tough things on YouTube, too. I, you know, I'm not going to I won't go into this one person I know, but she's she's going through a difficult time through this, too. And uh I want to send prayers to her and stuff like that because she's dealing with a ba basically a very similar thing that I'm dealing with with
beta with another woman you know that and another woman that I did did like a lot at one time and uh you know it's uh and I see how this woman is treating her and I lose respect and it's like always I always look how people treat other people you know it's like
people that can't stand up for themselves necessarily or or people that that are just so openhearted they don't understand. >> I believe you let people treat you how you let them treat you. You if you don't let them treat you like you know they're not going to. >> It's a lesson. It's a lesson. But sometimes we fall in love with people that do. I mean, even people are married to people that do that. You know, it's like >> that's the worst.
>> Look what happened to Jay Dog. Jay Dog, he got abused by his wife. He finally said, "I can't take it anymore." And divorced her. >> Yeah. Well, oh my gosh. >> You made the right move. >> Well, yeah. I mean, it's like, you know, you you actually have to like, you know, just like say that enough is enough at some point, right? And and you know, we have to stand up for ourselves like
because no one else is going to stand up for us sometimes. And we can't wait for other people to stand up for us. We have to stand up for ourselves. And it's a hard lesson to learn. It is because we because we like to be defended sometimes and we like to be have our own circle like they have they have their narcissists have their own circle of people saying yes to them for
everything. And anybody that doesn't say have that line is out is out. And we have to learn how to sometimes maybe do that too a little bit. Not not just to have people say yes to us, but to like at least have our inner circle some people that we know have our backs and it's like we can we can maybe learn something. Yeah. Give people the same
energy they give us. I But it's, you know, and it's just sometime it's just hard. It is hard. It's hard. Yeah. >> I'm I'm out here to have a good time, man. You know me. I'm out here to have laughs or whatever. So, I make YouTube what I need it to be for me. You think I'm going to put up with negative like on a daily basis? I cut it all out. Whatever's negative
coming at me on a continual basis, I I just block it. I know it's harder for you because you stream. >> Yeah, it's hard. It is harder for streamers and Well, and it's harder for people with just open like very open hearts to have like this kind of idealistic view of things like, "Oh, I can change people. I can >> bring them to my side." You can't. You can't. You really can't. I mean, maybe
some people you can get bring on your side sometimes if you're like, you know, if you are yourself and they relate to you in some way, but that's going to be the minority of time. It's going to be rare. And uh you have to appreciate the people that do vibe with you and and just keep your circle, people that have the same vibe at least, right?
>> Look at uh look at Rob Briner try to change his son. How many times did he send him to rehab? Look at how that ended, >> right? Yeah. And you know, this is a millionaire we're talking about and he, you know, he has all these he probably >> anything that his disposal to change this kid, but he couldn't do it. And he and he didn't do the one thing he needed to do was cut this kid out of his
life. >> Yeah. And that's hard if you're a child. Imagine if >> you have you have to do it. You have to do it. It's very hard. It's very hard. But look at the end result. They're both dead now, >> right? By their by their blood, you know? Imagine that. I mean, it's like no matter how how destitute I got, I would I would I
would no matter what I could never harm like I it's unimaginable to me, but it's like for these kind of people, it's always like the second thing in the back of their head. It's just one one little thing. >> Well, he was mentally ill from a young age. He was like this when he was eight. They said he was like tearing up the house and like that. >> Yeah. >> And as an adult, it carried into an
adult. police had to rip their guest house apart. How many times he must have done that? I mean, they they have so much money that it means nothing, but I I don't know how they were helping him. They were probably enabling him more than they were helping him. >> Yeah, but I mean, at some point, they probably did cut him out. Like, it's just kind of, you know, Warren Buffett, you know, that guy. >> Yeah.
>> He has a granddaughter. I think she's like half black and um he cut her out of his will or he just cut him out of his, you know, whatever. like he kind of cut her off completely and she ended up pretty bad like pretty bad but it it was like well throw her a few bucks I mean you're a multibillionaire and she's living on the streets I mean there I mean it's like
>> that's what I was thinking they should have did with that kid just give him a million dollars and say hey we're done with you take this money go survive if you can give it away or die whatever just go >> yeah yeah this is it >> we can't help you we can't help you anymore Yeah, go take this million dollars and go do drugs to death with it or something. I mean, yeah,
>> overdose or whatever because >> it's better than what's going on. It's like a slow death and it ended up being their death. >> It's a lesson. It's a lesson. And I mean, this is and this kind of thing happen happening so publicly. It's a lesson. >> I don't have kids, but I I believe in that tough love, man. You got to you got to cut them out. You can't just
Oh, that's my baby. Oh. Oh, my baby. That's my baby. Motherfucker's 50 years old. That's your baby. Your baby's tearing up the house. He's He's beating people up. He's threatening people. Your baby. >> Yeah. How about just buy like a little $250,000 house in the south, you know, far away from you. >> Yeah. Let them destroy that. Let them
destroy that house. >> And then then you have a real reason. I mean, it's like you mean you might have reasons before, but like then you have like at least like a is some at least he's far away. I mean it's like something I I mean to send him to the Thailand on the beach or something like that so he can't come >> Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Find a way back. back right? >> But um yeah, but that's a less it's a
lesson. >> Well, it's a life of those uh elites. They don't they don't spend times with their kids and they go find other means and other places to find love and it ends up being all up. >> Yeah. And it's sad. But but it's like but it's like somehow they did ask for that and I think in some karmic level
there was something that they they did very wrong with with the the raising. >> Well I believe it. I believe I believe in that um sacrifice stuff in Hollywood. I really do. >> Oh yeah. And who knows what they were doing behind the scenes. They could involve in some very evil right? >> Yeah. They made jokes about it at um some roast for Rob Riner. And you know what? They usually have to announce what
they do. >> So if they're joking about it, it's it's probably true. >> Yeah. So it's like don't don't just like feel sorry for them like they're just some innocent nice couple and stuff like that. >> Yeah. They were doing some evil >> I mean he he was a fun actor. I guess he was a good director. I most of his movies I I probably didn't see. He's responsible for a lot of good stuff. >> Who knows what he was into after that, you know?
>> Yeah. >> Last 10 years he was just hating on Trump every day. I mean that he's crazy in his own right. >> Remember he took away cigarettes from like the from like basically the whole state like basically think about all the anger generated from that like you know putting a dollar >> who is he to dictate that? Why why are you dictating what everybody has to do? It it's crazy.
>> It's that kind of mindset. >> You can't even smoke in your car. I think because of him, right? You can't even >> madness. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> meatthead. >> You know, I didn't know he was responsible for Castle Rock that uh created Seinfeld. Did you know that? >> No, I didn't know that. >> He was He's basically if he wasn't around, there would have been Seinfeld at all. He was responsible for a lot of
>> Right. But you know what it's like? Do evil and it will come back to you. Like >> came back came back hard >> and horrible things like that could happen. I know. I know. It's shock. It's shocking. It is shocking. But if you but people don't understand how evil Hollywood is like how really what they because think about how how difficult it
is to even be somebody in Hollywood like just like the competition and the uh you know just like even like most projects will fail and things like that. So to be successful Jamie are you doing zip your lips? Jamie's like shut up. Okay I'll shut up about it. But yeah, I just I do want I do like to tell the truth on my show, you know. I do like >> You never You never delved into Hollywood. You never tried to get into
it. >> Did I? Um well, when I was younger, I did want to be an actor. I was in plays and I was like, you know, my sister, my or my mom actually took my little brother to like a yogurt be in a Dan and yogurt commercial. He didn't like the taste of it, so he didn't get in, but he was like definitely like the type that could have, you know, he could have been successful. And my mom was like, I didn't feel like driving to Hollywood
all the time. And you know was it's it's hard you know getting started in even though she had like you know most adorable kids and the best looking kids you know it takes more than that you know it does take more than that and yeah it's you know she's not saying anything about Trump now Jamie says
oh Jamie oh Jamie well >> Jamie's the best she is >> yeah She is the best. She is the best. And um yeah, I'm I'm very blessed. I'm very blessed to have like because no matter how many horrible people I may have come may have come across, I have like just so many great people around
me. And I'm very lucky. I'm very very lucky. But it's like at the end of the day, no one can protect me from and I wouldn't want them to. I would I don't want anybody to be in in the front lines in front of me for anything. I I mean I wouldn't be on the front lines for other people, you know, and I would be and I will be, you know, I I will
stand up because because it's like I feel like I I I do have like a power or some kind of power like even if a little just a tiny little bit that I should not only be able to stand up for myself, but I should be able to stand up for other people, you know, and I want to and not to be a martyr, not to be like a
Jesus figure or say I'm or anything like that, but I'm just saying I'm in a better position than a lot of people are and and so I don't I don't need to be protected. I need to I need to protect people, you know. >> That's good. You see that? >> I'm very blessed. I'm very blessed. And like no matter what, I've already like I like I said, I thought I lived to
30 years old. That's like, you know, the life expect of an average gay person is like 30 years old. So I'm already way past my life expectancy by by like >> that suck. That's not true anymore. That's like old stats. Talking like the 90s. >> But but think about all the things. There's there's not only diseases, there's like the drug abuse, there's alcoholism, there's depression.
>> Yeah. But everybody has that. Everybody has that stuff. >> No, but it's it's it's a higher levels in the gay community. It's a lot higher levels. Um actually, it is higher. >> It's bigger in the trans community then. You could say that. >> It is. It is. It is >> way bigger. >> Compared to gays, trans have even worse. Yeah. I mean, it is way bigger, right? But it's still it's still way higher
than the average. Even the incarceration rate for gay people is higher, you know, than the normal population. It's like on route. It's on level with like >> Why is that though? What? They got a chip on their shoulder. >> No, because a lot of times they they are kicked out of their house. They are um you know disowned. They are put on the
streets. They are um prone to alcohol, drug abuse. I am blessed. I am I am very blessed and I understand that. I understand that and I appreciate that. I'm never I don't take it for granted. I understand it, you know. Um yeah, but there are other factors that not everybody will get right away, but if you like think think into it a little
bit more, you'll see, okay, well this per you know this person was kicked out of their house at 15 years old because they were gay or because they were trans. I mean, so so it is higher level higher levels of some of the stuff even even among the wealthy >> I can imagine. Yeah. It's not easy. this >> Yeah. >> Even if even young girls who get kicked out or leave or run away, you know, life
on the streets isn't easy. >> Yeah. No, it's not. I mean, it's horrible. I mean, I I I spent one night out on the streets and it was disgusting. I got bitten by bugs and the people were people help each other and stuff like that. I mean I just to see I mean it's it's you know I >> it's not a good world. It's not a good society to live in.
>> No >> the son was homeless too. Rob Riner's son was in that community >> full of needles. It's full of needles and stuff like that. And it's like and there's people that are just dying to poke needles in you and stuff like that. And they and are dying to bring other people down. trying to they tried to rape each other, too. The homeless all the time. >> It's horrible. >> You see you see what happened to Q? He
was living with that guy in the tent. >> Yeah. Well, he the guy that he m the guy >> Yeah. Look how that ended. >> Did the guy do anything to him, though? >> I don't know. He could have. >> Well, I don't I don't know. But the guy seemed pretty friendly. But I >> That whole thing was so surreal, man. >> That was surreal. I showed a few people that and they were like, "That guy's a dick." I'm like, "Wow." >> You remember the he hooked up
with afterwards? He ran off and he hooked up with the the gay dude or Treny. I forgot what he was. >> His name was Michael. And he's like >> Michael. Michael. Yeah. >> I don't know. Right. >> A Q, man. What's he doing now? He's probably a banker somewhere. >> Yeah. Yeah. We don't know. But I mean, I know that Q like then he eventually moved to like some gay guy's house or
something. Jamie wants a hot dog now. Try the speedo sacks hanging out. What is that? I don't even know. Oh, so I'm getting over this over this horrible cold. I didn't get to go to my family party or anything. >> Oh, was tonight? >> It was last night. It was >> Oh, >> And I We They went every year. It looked
really nice, but it's like I just didn't want to spread any germs and get anybody sick over Christmas. I >> That's good. >> Yeah. So, I missed it, but I'm gonna But actually, now I'm getting the refund for my website. I should be getting the refund today hopefully. And then that's going to be $600 I can spend toward making a new website plus getting gifts for like,
you know, I have like probably almost 20 nieces and nephews now. I'm going to get I get gifts for about seven of them, you know, like like the youngest ones and uh so I'll be able to get at least nice gifts for them and stuff like that. Um >> get give them memberships to the show. so >> Oh yeah, I'm sure they'll love that. I think I think one time my little
brother came into the chat once and said one thing. I think that's the extent of my family um visiting. >> Oh, I'd be embarrassed. I'd be embarrassed. They don't know about it. >> Oh, my sister. Like I I was showing her like I was like, "Well, look at this guy. He he like posts clips of me." And
she plays one of the clips. I say I say to Canada dry I say so what do you think about sex with dogs? She's like what are you talking about? I was like I was like I don't know. I don't remember saying that. I was like that was out of context. I don't even I was like stop looking at
that. Grab the phone away. I know it's I mean I'm glad they don't watch. >> They have watch parties. Who knows? Maybe they haven't watch parties. Just watch. >> They should have one. I mean but they might laugh. I think they they would probably enjoy some of it, but I think that most of it they would be like, "What the hell are you doing?" Like, like, "What is this?" And if they saw me in the speedo, it would be all over, you
know? But it's like a TV show people love and hate. >> Yeah. It's not It's not their thing, you know? I understand. They have their own It's It's like most people are not that, you know, it's like that's why they say, "Don't advertise your channel to to your friends and family." It's because they're not going to get it. It's like most people won't, but it's like there's millions of people in the world that will, but it's not going to be the
people, you know, usually. Usually, right? It's like usually people are going to think you're crazy that you know. >> People People sub to my channel, they tell me they sub. I'm like, "Oh, I'm sorry. >> I'm I'm sorry you had to do that." I'm like, "I don't know why you subbed. There's nothing there to sub to." >> Well, you have a channel, Gotti. I've got it. I don't even Why don't you post your channel every time in the chat, God? >> I don't need to. I don't need to
advertise my It's old. I post like one video a year. >> What's the point? >> Okay. >> Well, you will find people that really in this community that do like you. I mean, there's a lot of people that like you a lot. I mean, >> no, dude. I got videos. There's like a thousand views and stuff like that. That's just I'm lazy. I don't I don't keep up with that stuff. >> Yeah. Well, God, can you say hi to Can you say um happy birthday to Prairie
Page? You know, it's her birthday today. >> Well, Paige, if you're listening, happy birthday to you. I wish you the best in life. if I wish you everything that you want and desire. Hope you have some cake and save me a slice. Happy birthday. >> There you go. And um you know, Paige has been just like a really sweet person to me, a good supporter. Even after
everything that's gone on and all the all the mutual friends that have turned on me and stuff like that, she still comes around sometimes and says hi. >> Oh, she's great, man. She's one of those real people that are just full of joy and happiness, you know, and she goes through a lot of her own stuff, but >> yeah, >> she has a word on her sleeve, you know. >> Yeah, I know. And it's like, you know, we we don't we don't know like life can
be hard. We know there's people that we we have divorces, we have we have people some people a lot of people have kids and stuff like that, you know, I have cats and but uh you know, and there's there's difficulties people go through that we'll never even understand. And not everybody can be happy and love and light all the time, but you know, she really does um try to keep a positive.
>> Yeah, she's such a joy. >> Yeah. And so we love you, Paige, you know, and it's like, you know, thank you for just being a friend, you know, like a real friend, you know, like somebody that is not influenced so much by what other people are saying. You're your own person. And I really appreciate that about you and and I love you and just thank you. Yeah. Yeah. I don't want to I don't want
to cry on my show. God, >> don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry. It's okay. >> Tears of joy. Tears of joy, bro. >> It's all happy. It's all happiness. It's all It's all It's all just wanting >> celebration of life, man. It's that time of year. >> Yeah. And it's like, you know,
treats me so terribly. And it's like, and somebody she's somebody I like really liked at one point. That's the guy. I feel stupid. Hey, Joanie, how are you? >> Oh, yeah. >> Yeah. Don't beat yourself up over it. Just got to cut ties. >> Yeah, I know. And it's like it's my
fault for even going over there still and like, you know, trying, you know, I I try to joke around and stuff like that like everybody else does, but I can't I can't joke. If I joke it's something ser I mean it seriously you know it's like everybody else can joke thing that is is
on there saying hey I'm making an AI of your voice you know then I say yeah I made it I'm doing it too I made an AI of your voice for a phone sex line all I get are refund requests and I'm just I'm the devil >> it's like that they're trying to be tough you know because they're all around each other I'm not going to let
this dude on me I it was like it was like it was it was meant to be lighthearted and it just turned into something so bad and it was like then it was like I'm an Emma Got T you know and that's what I am to her. So I mean and then you know LA like in in a very vilifying or very like you know gleefully vilifying way.
>> You said she told you that today? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Well, there you go. >> Yeah. That's not a friend. >> Hey Summer, I love you too, Summer. Summer is a great friends and Summer's been here from the beginning, too. Thank you Clumsy.
>> She is She is a beautiful person, too. >> And that's why I say I stay because of beautiful people like that. And there are so many like there are like so many people that are here like like look I mean it's like two in the morning and there's 22 people in the room and it's like and I have I haven't been trolled like once tonight right except for that
one one time one time but it's like then he hasn't come back right he's gone he he got scared away because there's too much positive energy tonight there is some good energy tonight >> yeah something different about you man you're in a good mood Tonight >> I am I got I got some more rest. I'm kind of getting over my sickness and so
I feel better. And then today should be a good day if I get that refund today. I'm going to go be able to go pick up some gifts for my nieces and nephews which it's like something I really really wanted. I would have done it anyway. I just don't think they would have been as nice gifts. So everything kind of worked out even if my website failed. You know, it's another thing I had my my eyes were bigger than my
stomach or something like that. You know how like, you know, you want that big piece of cake and then it's like it's like too much. And that that was my website. It was like I I was putting >> Dude, you know how it is. You got to fail a thousand times to succeed one time. That's how it is. This is what they say. >> I've been trying I've been trying to get this website up since I was like, you know, 18 years old. I mean, I've been
just try I I've never been able to do it. Now finally I had a chance kind of to do it, but it's still my eyes were bigger than my stomach, you know. So, uh, but I do sound better. Thank you very much. Like, uh, I got I got a lot of good sleep today and I had a I have one more I have like half of this harder harder lemonade
or whatever. I have half of that left. So, and plus and like you know I have good people like you and all the people in the chat and you know you you guys really help me out like a lot more than you know and you know I can't even express my
appreciation enough like that's you know I that's why I don't even advertise memberships or anything anymore because >> Well, go ahead. I'll wait. Go ahead. >> >> I'm sorry. >> You know, I love adoration, man. >> Yeah. I'll give I'll give it to you. We can't change anyone, right? And then that's like, you know, and sometimes we
want to because we can we can see the potential in some people, but it's like really we can't. They have to want to change and some people are not going to change. And you know it can be disappointing because I know we're a lot of us are fixer or you know people that want to help people and like or do help people and some people we can help and we have
to focus on those people that we can and not you know there's some people that we can't and it's like we just have I have to accept that I have to accept people I can't change but at the end of the day we can only change ourselves right we can change ourselves and we can't change anybody else. >> >> Well, you got good people here that, you know, they don't require anything from
you, you know, they just want to come and support you. >> That's good. That's very rare, man. A lot of people, they they need something from somebody. They just want to suck the energy from people. >> Some are just gifted a membership. Thank you so much. >> Beautiful. >> Thank you. >> Did I get it? Was it me? Did I get it?
>> Did I finally did I finally get a membership? Who got it? Sometimes sometimes the trolls get the memberships, but I I do hope someone deserving got it and uh can someone tell me who got it because >> Samantha Avery got it. >> Yeah. Okay. Well, yeah, that's a good person. Samantha's a good person. I'm sorry, Samantha. Tonight, I accuse Samantha being uh you know, AMC and
stuff like that. And I think I think I was probably confused. There's probably like, you know, misunderstanding. I I always misunderstand. Thank you, Summer. I love you. That's really generous of you. And and Samantha, congratulations. I hope you're not too mad at me. And uh Yeah. And uh and and Joanie, there's
self-absorbed people that believe their own narrative. Yeah. We do deal with like a big narcissism e epidemic in this country, I think. And it's like and it is and and I'm a little bit of a narcissist, you know. I think >> a little bit. >>
>> little bit. I Well, I think >> I am a little bit, but I think everybody is a little bit. I think I think it's healthy to be a little bit narcissistic. Like a little bit of it is is okay. I think a little bit of it just to have healthy self-esteem. I think that's good to have a healthy self-esteem, at least a good self-image, not to like look down
on yourself because we need to be on our own side. We really do. We can't like because there's so many people that won't be on our side. We have to be on our own side. That's what I do believe that. Right. >> You do. You really do. >> But not to the level of hurting other people or >> No. No. No. >> You know, it's like I don't want any I don't want to be happy at the expense of
somebody else's happiness. I want my happiness to be part of somebody else's happiness. Right. I I always say I I you can't be happy unless I'm happy first because if I'm not happy, you're not going to be happy. That's I always tell people that line because it's true. And uh and Jod's right too, there is
like this empathic like people that are empathic and the narcissist will attract each other. Okay? Because the empath will give the narcissist all these things that the narcissist wants. And the narcissist can give kind of the things that the empath wants too at the same time, but it's always going to be
at a a net loss for the empath, I think, because the narcissist will do anything to win like that. I mean, the the I'm talking about the strong narcissist, like the higher narcissist. Yeah. And they they like to toy with people. Um, they they look at people like objects.
Look at I I like to look at people like me. Not even like me, but not like me. Like that's a narcissistic thing to say, but like look at them on like as a equal. That's what I'm saying. I like look at people as equals, not as like anybody's lesser or more, you know? And I'm not saying that I'm a perfect person. And I'm, you
know, I still struggle with some of this. I love you, Summer. Hey, Summer. I love you, too. And your love, too. Okay. Thank you. And I I mean it, okay? I love you. Thank you so much. Good night, Summer. Summer is a sweetheart. And Summer Summer has a great heart. And if if you're not subscribed to Summer, I don't know what I don't know what like what you're thinking. You know, you have to subscribe to Hot Mess Summer. You have
to subscribe to talk your ish because she's out doing some real good work. Like really good work. Okay? So, make sure you subscribe to her. Okay. >> Hey, here's Lola. Do you see Do you know Lola Gotti? Oh Oh Oh my god. I'm knocking over stuff here. Oh I just knocked my camera over. This is Lola. Do you know Lola Gotti?
>> Lola? Yeah, I've seen Lola before. >> It's Miss Lola. >> She likes to be strangled. >> She doesn't like to be strangled. I'm touching her very gently. Gotti gotty. So gently, you can't even imagine. Choke. >> She's not being choked. I don't choke my cats. Come on, Gotti. Don't start. >> Did you find that mouse?
>> The mouse got eaten. The I looked under my couch. There's no mouse there. So, the mouse either escaped >> got eaten. Yeah. >> Got eaten. Oh. Oh. Hey, can you give me a kiss? No. No kisses for me. >> What do they call this kind of cat? I had a cat like this. It's a tiger, right? Tiger cat. >> Little stripes. She's She has stripes
and she has these beautiful blue eyes. This is Miss Lola. She's Trix's mom. Lola had five kittens, didn't she? And she loved her kittens until they became cats and then you didn't like them anymore. You're like, "Get away from me." But now she's friends with tricks. And you smell each other now, huh? You smell each other and you don't get aggressive.
Yeah. You're so Oh. Oh. Oh, you like that? Oh, you like that? You like when I rub your ear like that? Oh, she's praying. Oh, you like that, Lola? And then I I woke up the other night. Oh. Oh. I woke up the other night and she kept getting under the covers with me. And I was just like I would wake up and she'd be like poking at the covers and I lift it up and she'd come get
under the covers and just cuddle up and start purring. And I love when my cats do that. >> Do you let her out or does she stay in the house? >> There's a cat door and so the cats can go in and out as they please, you know. >> Oh, okay. I have little I had a cat door made and so um they can come in and out as they please and so because I don't believe in just keeping them inside um
because there's I have a beautiful backyard. just beautiful outside. It is, you know, more dangerous because there's coyotes and there's, you know, unfortunately, one of my cats got eaten by a coyote and uh there's other dangers outside, too. But there I think their quality of life is better because they're happier when they're if you see my when I would let my cats out because
I didn't have the cat door all the time. When I first started letting them out, they would just run outside, get into the sun, and then just roll around in the sun and and there's like they just love being outside. And so I was like, >> I think they just are happier when they're able to go in and out. And so, and they're pretty wise. They're pretty wise. I I think they're they're pretty
uh good at, you know, unfortunately there's cars and stuff like that, too. There are cars and coyotes, but most of them Hey, babe. Most of them are are get get wise to it. Yeah, cats are projectors. There's Miss Lola. Look at her face. >> Cats are the best. I I ran over a cat once by accident. It was horrible. >> Oh, that's sad. I'm so
>> Oh, I felt so bad. I was like, "What the Just ran out in front of me." Actually, there was no stopping. It just car went right over it. >> I'm sorry. I think I think that might have happened to me in college, too. We were driving up to like Half Moon Bay one night. My I think my roommate was driving. We were going really He was
speeding up the H half moon bay. We I think we he might have hit a cat or something like that, but >> Yeah. >> horrible. Let it, you know, that's what happens sometimes. You know, people hit deer. People I mean, it's like >> Oh, there's tons of animals out there. Yeah. Deer is deadly. That'll kill you. >> Yeah. But people Yeah. People say Yeah. the Bay Area. I used to live in the Bay
Area for a year. But people that say like I mean it really hurts me when people say I abuse my cats and or that they say Rudy was starving to death and stuff like that. Like look at Rudy. Like Rudy is like so Oops. He's such a happy cat here. Look at Rudy. Right here. Where is he? >> They find the worst things to say to you dude.
>> They do. There he is. Right there. >> Your family, your cats. What? What the What else? AIDS. >> Yeah, AIDS. My family. I'm dirty. They're sending thousands of pounds of concrete to my house. Um, literally thousands of like there's 23 bags of 60 pound. I can't lift them, you know. >> Jesus. 23 bags.
>> Yeah. and more coming and stuff. >> you might as well build a shelter or something. >> I know. I'm I need to use it. I I I know I need to build something, but and I'm afraid if it rains and stuff like that. I don't want it to like statues when I go outside there statues formed and stuff. >> Build like a tower of babel. >> build it high to the sky,
>> man. I'm so l I'm so lucky to to like and look look my I can't believe I sold my channel got like my channel I shouldn't have my channel it was like if you know how my channel I got my channel back this time it was a it was literally a miracle because there's no way Yeah. It's paid for. It's paid for. They're sending like they're spending hundreds of dollars to do it. This guy is
spending hundreds of dollars to do it. And I caught the guy dropping it off today and I ran down and he's like, "Well, the guy's telling me he's from Bea and he's and and then and then her grandfather is inside. He'll tell me not to drop off the concrete. He has dementia and stuff like that." I'm like, "Do I look like a grandfather? Do I look like I'm anybody's grandfather?" Like,
like really? To the guy. And he's like, "Well, you don't." And then I showed him the message the guy said where the guy's like, "I'm sending more concrete to your house." Then he's saying my dad's name and saying, um, I know your dad's buried and stuff like that. And, uh, and then I hate ni gs and I'm a fake Jew and all this kind of stuff. >> You know who you know who's like this
too is uh, you met him once or twice. That guy acid. >> Acid. >> Acid. The Indian guy that came up here once or twice. Long hair. >> Yeah. He's he's like that, too. He's always threatened to call people's jobs, their their parents, their neighbors, the local police, the baker. This guy, he lives in England. This is all he does all day long. He
just threatens people. >> Yeah. That's sad. Yeah. It's just I mean it's like really like get a life. Like why do you have to like try to like destroy my life? Like really? It's like the can't you get your own life? Can't you focus on your own stuff? I mean he has a channel. It's all me, right? Only time will it is sick.
It's a sickness and it's like I think I'm like trying to explain though these people are mentally ill. I can't I can't do anything. I I can like not talk about them. It will happen. I can't talk about them. It will happen. I mean it's like it's like >> Yeah. Nick of Time says acid's a real psycho. Yeah. >> Who knows?
>> Yeah. >> Gets off on it. >> I know. I mean, it's like the people that would do that. I mean, it's just like it's like so so alien to my mind. Like, of any kind of satisfaction I can get with messing with me. I mean, I just don't have that gene. And it has to be like some kind of evil gene or some kind of It's really really
mentally ill. I That's why I feel sorry at the end of the day end of the day for this guy. I'm like, he has to be crazy. Has to be like have some kind of chemical imbalance. >> Oh, yeah. There's no moral compass at all. They'll kill someone if they could. If they could get away with it, they'd kill a lot of people, >> right? I mean, it's like that's scary that we live in this world of people
that are like that, but you know, we do have to learn that we are. And it's like not everyone has our heart. Love that. I I'm like saying I have like such a the purest heart in the world and stuff like that. I'm such a great person, you know? Like everyone has their moments of, you know, anger and things like that, but I would never want
to harm anybody like or harm anything. I mean, it's like just like the the mentality of that is just al alien to me. Like really, it seems like it's like it's just sad. It's just >> I can't do it unless somebody like throws it at me. I can't do it either. It's not a natural thing.
>> Yeah. I'm Yeah, I am selling a clumsy like like um Yeah, because like I did I did sell some today actually to this this guy came to the door looking for a um a leaf blower, you know, that was advertised on Craigslist or something. I'm like, I don't have a leaf blower, but I have some concrete. Do you I said, do you want a few bags of this concrete? He's like, sure, I'll pull my car back. And he he took a bunch of it. And then I
got another delivery of concrete. And so I was like, oh, You know, it's like this this never ending thing of concrete and it's like people are probably like, "What the hell is this guy up to?" Like like and it's like and at the end of the day, people will look at it and say, "Well, it's my fault. It's my fault. I'm doing
something to antagonize this person." I'm I really am not. I mean, I really could care less about this person. I I try not to even mention him or But he makes himself so obvious that Yeah. I get a little bit mouthy sometimes. Well, I mean, if the ATF is watching the show, why don't they do something about that? >> I really wish they would. I mean,
government agents, if you want to find some like real criminals and stuff like that, I mean, it's like you can find them in this community. I mean, it's not too difficult. So, Jay Dog was talking today about how he the ATF came and talked to him and asked him about Alexandra and they he asked them about
um all these other people, right? and and uh wow it's like the government is watching the show I mean at the end of the day if anything does happen to me it will be investigated it will be they are watching probably on my show probably other people's shows too this is a gold mine of information for any kind of I mean think about government employees
what they can they can what can they do except like watch YouTube really right they're sitting in offices are they going to investigate crimes like what do you how do you invest >> imagine being being uh told that you got to watch this show for the whole day and >> I'm sorry. The government has to watch see what's going on. my show. I'm sorry. >> This is the this is the assignment for the day. Take notes and
make a log of everybody and what they're saying and then we all get hauled into court. We have to they have to read in front of the court like what we wrote and like that in the chat. >> Yeah. And it's like but but it's like at the end but also I feel like maybe a little bit safer like that. I mean I don't mind that because I'm not doing anything wrong. So, I don't mind if they're but but please do something to the people that are doing You
know, it's like because there's a lot of crimes going on. There's a lot of people that are just bragging about being gangsters. >> YouTube doesn't give a >> YouTube doesn't. But it's like these people are like saying they're gangsters. They want to be a gangster. They should go to jail. You probably I probably spent more time in jail than these people. I only spent three days, you know, but it's like like really I
mean I love jail. It was great. I wouldn't mind going back. I I want to have a shower with like, you know. >> Well, you dated a peckerwood. >> I did. I did. I I was in the peckerwood wing. I I was and the mex I was a shower with a bunch of Mexicans. It was great. Loved it. It was the best weekend of my life probably. No, I'm just kidding. >> Did you just walk in there and drop the soap on purpose and you be like, "Hey
guys whoops." >> Gotti, I dropped the soap and it was liquid soap. It was liquid soap. Just dropped my fingers. >> What the >> >> That's why I live a clean life. That's why I don't I don't jaywalk. >> Well, the reason I >> No need to go to jail for that >> The reason I went to
jail was of course, you know, because of other people and me like taking the blame for stuff and stuff like that, you know, because I don't want other people to suffer. And I was like, well, because they would go to jail for a long time for this and I would just go to jail for the weekend. That was my mentality of it. Plus, I was like, "Plus, I get to take a shower." Yeah. I go to jail and
ask for the powdered soap, you know. Um, >> actually, you know what? At the jail, the corrections officers were nice to me, the the the people I think there was one person that was kind of mean to me. Out of like the thousand people I met, there was like one person that was mean to me. Like,
everyone was nice to me. I was like, "Hey, I kind of like this." It was like cuz they're like, "Who's this white guy? This white skinny gay guy in like the regular population." >> Dude, dude, you got to take a in front of cameras and other people. You got to wipe your ass in front of other >> I didn't take a I didn't I didn't go to the bathroom for like the whole
time I was there. I got I got back home. First of all, I had to pee on the on the lawn of of the police station or or the jail because that I had to go so bad and they they didn't have the uh the key to the bathroom. So, I I ran outside. The first thing I got released and I peed in front of the on the bushes of the men's LA
Central Jail. >> That would have got you locked up, too. >> I know. I was but I was begging for the key. What do I supposed to do? I had to go. You got to go. You got to go. >> You're free you're free to go, sir. Hey, you you >> you get on a sex offender list for that, you know. >> Well, I I mean I I I turned my back to the traffic, you know, and I didn't
>> Oh, there you go. >> I was as responsible as I could be, but you know, um it was quite a it was quite a it was quite a scene, though. Yeah. It was quite a scene. Yeah. And it was like Yeah. And I held I held whatever I had in for like several days. And so, but uh Yeah. It was just in the nick of time I got out. I I really was I was a trustee
actually and I was like I was bad because uh trustees are actually they work in the kitchen and stuff and I would like get the like there's like these specific things for these people's meals like they have like diabetics, they have low blood sugar people. I mean they have all these like I was making all these special meals packing and I would get that get it wrong. I would get
called up and like yelled at by the people and uh I was like the worst trustee employee there. You think groom gang is gayer than psyche? I think they are too. I think I think most of the gangs are groom gang. The grease gang is gayer than me for sure. You know uh I mean at this point like you know I'm not
I don't want to say any real gangs names. I don't want to be targeted but yeah I mean I actually I've been arrested with gangsters before. I was the only one not crying. Like I was the only one person not crying. All the all these hardcore tattooed thugs are crying. I was like, I don't care. I was the only one not
crying. So it's like, you know, Jesus. I was like, am I more of a gangster than gangsters? I don't understand. Maybe I am a little bit. I don't know. I don't know. I Are you still listening to Robbie Shankar? >> No, this is the theme from The Karate >> Oh, The Karate Kid. Hey, do you know Kid.
Robbie Shankar has he has a beautiful daughter that also plays the sitar? Um, >> She Yeah, look. >> no. >> She's Indian. >> Yeah, she's Indian, but I think she's American. I mean, Americanized a little bit. Let me look up her name. I'll tell you her name. >> Indian women are beautiful. >> Yes. Oh my god. Many like um many of them are gorgeous. So, her name is
>> ex was Indian. Oh, she was really hot. >> So, he has a daughter with Norah Jones. >> Norah Jones? I know that name. >> No, no, no. That's his daughter. His daughter is Norah Jones. It says >> that's Quinsey Jones's daughter. >> Norah Jones. Hold on one second. It says Robbie Shankar daughter. He has a daughter named Norah Jones. >> Quincy Jones.
>> Yeah. And it says her father is Robbie Shankar. Her mother is Sue Jones. >> Oh, wow. >> Yeah. and uh says she was born Gitali Shankar and she's an American singer songwriter. She's won several awards for her music and as of 2023 has sold more than 53 million records worldwide. >> I've never heard of her. >> Norah Jones.
>> I've heard of Norah Jones. >> I've heard of her. Let me let me look at her her >> Let me see. >> Maybe she's Quincy Jones's granddaughter. >> Yeah, she's um she has a lot of songs like to live Christmas time. Oh, she has a Christmas song. Flame Twin one's called. Yeah. And I think that's I think
maybe Norah Jones is the one, but he has another daughter named Anushia Shankar. She was born. >> No, that's not her. Yeah, I see her now. >> Oh, she's a British American sitar virtuoso and composer >> lending classical and contemporary collaborations in life. >> Anushka, >> Anushka Shankar. And so his daughters
are Norah Jones and Anko. Did you guys know that? Yeah, Jamie knows it. Jamie's heard of her. I've heard of Norah Jones. I've heard of her, but I just don't know her music exactly. But I just remember hearing like this amazing guitar music and say she has a good voice. So clumsy
heard of her. Yeah. Norah Jones. Yeah. That's crazy. If she is So So >> Oh, no, no, no. I'm thinking of Rashidita Jones. I just looked it up. Rashida Jones is Quincy Jones's daughter. >> Yeah. Well, but but look up look up uh look up Norah Jones or look up Anushia >> I just looked up Norris. Yeah, she's Shankar. totally Indian. >> Look at these boobs. What are these boobs on the screen? Whose boobs are
>> Those aren't boobs. That's an optical those? image that you're looking at. See, you think you see boobs. >> What is that? I see boobs. >> That's No, it's it's a thing. If you turn it upside down, it's totally different. Turn it upside down. You'll see something different. >> Oh, it's an elephant. >> Yeah. See >> I don't know what >> I don't know. It's a butt crack. It's a
butt. What's a >> Yep. There you go. >> Left. If you see the left side of the brain, you see a butt. Right side, you see an elephant. >> Okay. Wow. Well, well, and and is that is that you, Gotti? That looks pretty. >> Yeah, that's that's the real me, bro. >> Have you been working out? >> I got a nice I got a beautiful rack. You have a nice Thank you.
You have a nice ass. No homo. Okay. >> Remember remember that time I came up here I posted something like this and you freaked out. You thought I uh show a nipple and there was no nipple showing. You just said you you had shut down the whole channel. >> You you went ballistic. >> Yeah. It it was it was like it was like some kind of like you know it was like a applesauce on a plate or something like that.
his butt cheeks. His butt cheeks. What are those? That'd be a really handy like outfit for like, you know, going to the bathroom though in public. You know, it's like just have the panties with the butt cut out of it, right? I don't know. Put it upside down, Gotti. I'm sorry. I don't know. >> Hey, some good laughs over the years.
>> We We do. >> It's only been five, six months, but we've had some good laughs. >> Yeah, I think we have. We have definitely. I'm gonna see if I can like upgrade on my I was making I don't know if you saw the apps I was making, but I made a few apps today. I'm going to try to see if I can work on one because I want to show you this one. Oracle I'm making see if I can upgrade that. Let me
see. Hold up because I can I know I can forward it now. Let me see. Uh upgrade. Let me see. How do I upgrade? You can talk. Okay. So, okay. So, I got this. Hey. Yeah. So, I made these three apps. I made a troll decoder app. I can actually the troll decoder is a little bit too sensitive though because it keeps like flagging like comments
that are fine and stuff. Let me see if I can upgrade. Okay, so let me see account um core. I don't see account. Okay, let me see. I don't but I really want to show you. Oh, billing is there manage subscriptions. Okay, I think I can
update here. Cancel. View pricing and plans. Okay. Okay. Yeah, I can upgrade. Hold on. I can join the teams. Join the teams. Okay, I'll join the team one. Starts at 40 or Okay, hold on one second. Um, Cult of Psyches, the organization.
And I can sell these apps though, too. I can like I can actually like you know charge like a premium for them. But I want to like let everyone test it before >> put it on the Apple store. You can get money for it. >> Yeah. Because now it's what I plan to use it for. Let me see. Make building a startup. Okay. Okay. Building email. Continue. Continue. Okay. It's okay. Monthly 40
bucks a month. Okay. So I should be able only pay another 15 bucks. Okay. Let me just put this in because I really I really do enjoy this this uh the service and it builds the app for you basically. It's so cool. I just want to put the images in. Uh let me see. >> Okay. So, I'll be able to show you this
and you'll be able to get a little little uh a reading tonight from this app. Okay. So, I'm going to confirm the purchase. Oh, hold on. Payment method right there. Okay. Um, okay. I need to check my email for a code. One second. Um, because this is so cool. It's
actually so cool. Um, it's uh they they build the app for you. You just describe it, you know, basically exactly what you want and they build it for you. I mean I mean the AI builds it for you and like so it's made some really cool stuff for me. I need to like just exit out of there. How was your day, Gotti? How's your holiday?
>> Oh, I had a beautiful day, man. So far, the holiday season's been good to me. >> I can't complain. >> The holiday season. >> I'm going to win the uh Power Ball this weekend. I'm going to be really swimming in it. >> You're going to win the Powerball? >> I think so. I feel good. >> Well, good luck with that. >> Thanks, man. I'll hook you up. >> Thank you. Send code to email. Hold on.
I'll >> buy a membership. They >> send Oh, you'll buy You'll buy one membership. Thank you. >> I will buy one membership. Yeah. Gotti, that'll be the day. That'll be the day. If when I get $1 from God, I'm gonna I'm gonna frame that dollar bill on my wall. >> I have to win $1.5 billion first to
>> a billion dollars. That's gonna It's gonna take a billion dollar. That's That's Come on. That's too crazy. I would hope you would like, you know, buy, you know, fly me out or something. >> How much is the membership? Five bucks. >> $4.99. >> Oh, come on. That's a lot, dude. >> Hey, how about like how about like I buy some memberships right now because I
think I I'm just assuming that I'm going to get the refund today. So, I'll I'll buy some memberships. Hold on. >> Am I down? Will I get one if I'm up here? I'm not going to be able to get one if I'm up here. >> You'll be able to get one. You'll be able to get one for sure. >> I'm in the room. Am I in the room? Let me see. >> You're in the room. You're in the room. >> I don't want Patrick to get it over me. >> Patrick, let's see who gets it. I'm gonna give some memberships away right now.
>> Okay, good. I'm down there. Oh, who's that woman on your Is that you in drag? Gotti, >> that's Sweeney. That's what's her name. Sweeney. >> Sweeney. Sweet pee. >> The one the one who's on all over the TV. The Sweeney chick. >> Oh, Julia Sweeney. The Who's It's Pat. >> I forget her name. First name Swast name Sweeney. Something Sweeney. >> Well, this is Sweeney, >> guys. >> Here we go, guys. Merry Christmas, guys.
This is my Christmas present to the channel. >> Let's see. Let's see. Roll the dice. Did I get one? Did I get one? >> We'll see. If Patrick gets one over me, I'm done. >> Oh, look who's spying. Look at his spine. Look who's spying. Everybody's spying. Look at all Oh, Shann's here. Shannon Camp's here. Oh,
Crystal's here. Crystal's here. Crystal got one. Dank, too. >> Wow. Look at all the people spying. I didn't get >> Well, Aaron Oh. Oh, hey, Aaron. I'm sorry. Aaron didn't Aaron didn't get one because >> struck out again. I struck out again. >> Hi, Aaron. Hi sweetie, how are you? >> D IRL got one. Lisa P. Easy got one.
Easy came in earlier today. Was >> always a bridesmaid, never a bride. >> It's okay. Patrick got nothing. Okay. Well guys >> good good spirit. You know, summer was earlier. >> I don't feel too bad if Patrick doesn't get it and I don't get it. That's good. It's even. >> Okay. Well, I'm sorry. Congratulations to the ones that got the memberships,
you know. Um, and uh I love you guys. Okay, I do love >> Is it Crystal? Is that the real Crystal that got one or somebody else? >> I don't I don't think it's Crystal Marie. I think it's It says Crystal C3. Is it? Let me just check. >> I don't think it's Crystal Marie. >> No, it's some method.
>> Oh, come on. Three. >> What it is? It's some dude. >> Say some dude in in drag. >> Some dude. He's like making meth. >> Making meth. I don't think so. >> Yeah, it's some IP2 >> Well, that's crazy. >> It is crystal. >> It's sitting on my organization. Okay, now I got Okay, so I upgraded my
membership and now I'm going to tell it to fix my app. I'm going to tell it to put the AI pictures of the goddesses on my app. Let me see if I can do that. Okay Mahabas. Let me see. Cult of psyche. Okay, select workspace personal published
apps. Okay, I found it. Okay, so mahab videos and I'm going to say okay, add AI generated images of the Maha videos and then once it does that I will show Gotti. >> That's your app that you put it into or
>> Yeah. >> Oh, so your app can make images too. Oh, it's great. >> Yeah, you can. Yeah, I can add the images because everything was fine, but yeah, but there were no images on it yet. And so now it's generating the images. So there's there's images of the goddess that come up with it because, you know, Tracy was Oh, Tracy X was kind of confused. She's like, is this the devils? And now I was like, no, these are goddesses. So now they're generating the images of the Maha videos and then
I'll show you the app in a couple minutes because it'll be almost ready. I'll have to republish it and then I'll show you and then you can get your own little reading from it and then I'll probably be going to bed soon. But um what a good time I've had tonight though. >> That's good man. >> I also get a free domain. I get a free
domain to use too. So that worth it. >> What's it called? >> I mean I call it mahabijaoracle.com or something like that. Um, >> that's a long name, man. People can gonna remember that. >> It's called mahabigz.com or I'll call it >> maha. Call maha. >> Maha. >> A lot of traffic. >> Goddessor Oracle.
>> Maha is probably taken though. >> Probably is. Maha.com is probably taken. >> Yeah. >> So, but it's just making it right now. I can claim my free domain. I have to decide. I have to decide what I want the new domain to be called. But I'm going to show you this app because it is really it's gonna be a really cool app. I hope it will help a lot of people, too. Um, okay. Okay, I'm just going to have another sip of this alcohol.
>> She is Jamie. That's right. That's why that's what makes it even harder. >> If she wasn't, she'd be like an eight. But because she is, she's like a 10. >> Okay, it's it's on its way, guys. It's on its way. It's making it. It's generating the images. And then you can see how good this looks. Scotty, I think you'll be impressed. You'll be impressed because I
designed this app but it's like I designed it but it's like I didn't build it like I didn't I don't know the coding. The coding is done for me. I could never have done this before because coding is a nightmare. It's way too technical for me to do, but and I'm gonna and then by tomorrow it should have its own URL. Um, its own and then it's like I would love if you guys
would like, you know, at least try it out. And I mean, it's going to be free to start with at least. >> Mason is back. He says he came back. >> Mason beata ended. >> He was there the whole time. Yeah, he's going to beat us. He told Bea that he wants to cuddle with her and she she blocked him. >> Cuz she has tits and you don't. That's why.
>> Mason, do I need to get tits for you to be interested in me? What's I mean, what's going on? >> She's got some giant fun bags. >> She does. She has big fun bags. >> That's what I've heard. I didn't really see them up close, but I heard they're pretty big. >> Well, who wants who wants some um beatas bags? Hey. Okay, so now Okay, so we got No, now it's almost done. It's almost done. audio. How exciting is this? How fast is it?
>> Well, we got three minutes. I got three minutes before my phone dies. So, let's see. >> Two minutes. It says it says it's been working for two minutes. Okay. >> Maybe four minutes. >> Okay. We'll see. We'll see. I'm going to try to hurry up as as fast as I can. >> Well, don't rush it. Whatever happens happens. >> I can't rush. I I can't. I'm just watching it. I'm just watching. I'm just hoping. I'm just hoping that it's like it will work. But yeah, so I made three
apps and one of them is the troll decoder where you can copy paste the chat into it. It will tell you who's a trolling comment and basically why what's their real their real like motivation for posting? Usually it says they're a sad person that's like, you know, projecting and stuff like that. >> Yeah, that's pretty much it. >> Hey, there's Lola. Do you see Lola?
Are you just cuddling up in my lap? You're just cuddling up in my lap, Lola. Oh. Oh, God bless you, God. >> Are you blowing your >> She doesn't care. She doesn't care. Where you >> She's looking at you. She's looking at the camera, >> you know? Nothing. Nothing. >> Who's that? Who's that? Who's that
>> She's like, who's that pain in the ass? making? She's finicky cat. >> Hey, you're a sweetheart, huh? When I got this cat, he brought her over and I was like, I can't have another cat. I think I had like six cats at the time or something. She would be number seven. I was like I was like, please don't. I was like, don't show her to me. He was She was an old carrier. I like, "Don't show her to me because I'll fall in love with her." He's like, "Well, can I leave her
here for an hour or something like that or 20 minutes or something?" I was like, "Okay, sure." And then he was gone for like a few hours. But like within 20 minutes, I was like looking over the carrier and I heard like a little meowing and I had to open it and she came out and her eyes were all they're all gummed up with boogers and stuff like that. She had all these eye boogers and then I wiped them out and look at
her eyes. Can you see her eyes? Hold on. Can you see her eyes? Look how blue green her eyes are. They're like blue green. >> Oh, it's just beautiful. >> Yeah, she's a gorgeous cat. And I was like, I just fell in love. And then she's so sweet. And then this is Trix's mom. She's Trixs's mom. And uh she's just a sweetheart. Okay, so I think I think it finished. It says work
for two minutes. Okay, I'll republish it and we'll see if it worked. Okay, it's building it. Gotti, we're on our way. I'm going to watch it. >> Okay. But you you have to tell me what to do because you have to tell me like which which uh which button to push and stuff like that when >> All right. Let me let me finish what I'm doing. I'll be done in 10 seconds. Hold on. >> Okay.
>> Beautiful music. >> Yeah, it's good This is where Miyagi fights uh the the other dude. you karate kid fan. Okay. >> Okay, I'm done. All right, go ahead. >> Okay, it's almost ready. It's almost ready. Okay, I'm just gonna copy the link and once it's it's almost it's it's
at the stage four of it. So, it's almost done. Okay. Oh, she's purring. You're purring Lola. And then anybody else in the chat like after this either you can come up or I'll or you just tell me in the chat what you want me to push. >> Okay, it's ready. Okay, >> do it. >> Okay, so let me just copy that and it says publish. Okay, so here we go. Me sh
I'm g to copy paste it and then I'm gonna share the screen. Okay, so here we go. Gotti, this is the app. I'm going to share. Oh, there we go. Share screen. Okay, I need to stop screen. Okay, share screen. And it says Mahavija Oracle. Okay.
Okay, here we go. Do you see it, Gotti? >> Yeah. Yeah, I see the dude. Mahavija Oracle. Yep. Mahavija. >> 10 doors, one mirror. >> 10 doors, one mirror. Yep. >> Okay. So, it says open a door. Today's transmission says rights. It says the 10 thrones or the ledger. Which >> I want the 10 thrones. >> Okay. The 10 thrones. Okay. So, well,
this is the 10 thrones will show you all the goddesses. That's that's kind of like not the uh the reading, but I'll show you what that looks like. So, there's what that looks like so far. So it has all the goddesses listed. You can see like So there's like >> Oh, okay. >> So there's that. But so so >> I'll get rid of that one. >> Okay. We'll go back. So what do you want to do? Open the door. >> Let's just go. Let's do a transmission.
Let's do today's >> transmission. Your daily oracle. So it says >> Oh, again with Camala >> Kamala. Yeah. So it says lotus of prosperity, the grace of abundance. Says prosperity devotion beauty and stability. And then it says, "Theme of the day, receiving is trust. What to
notice where you downplay good things the moment they arrive. One brave action to take. Accept a gift or compliment without deflecting." And then there's a it says sigil marked or it says enter the shrine. Which one do you want to do? >> Enter the shrine. >> Okay. So there's Kamala and then it tells you about her. It says
prosperity devotion beauty stability gratitude. It says Kamla is abundance with integrity. She teaches that receiving is a skill and prosperity is relationship with your work, your values, your community, and your daily choices. Her lotus rises clean from the mud. Meaning, your circumstances do not have to define your worth. She restores
dignity to wealth and softness to success. Oracle message. Receive cleanly. No guilt. Abundance grows where it's welcomed. The shadow lesson. If you believe you must suffer, you'll reject your own gifts. Then it says, offerings, practices. List five resources you already have. Use one of them intentionally today. Make one financial
choice that honors your future self. A small one is fine. And it says, "Offer gratitude is action. Tip, donate, support, praise, or assist." And then it has her mantra, omaha lakshmi. Omaha. >> Perfect. And can you hear it? Let me see. >> Om shri mahalaka. >> Okay. Well,
>> you said it like an American. >> I need to work on that one. Okay. I need to put a I need to put like the real voice. It says and then yantra is a lotus centered mandelola. >> Is that like a tantra? >> Well, yantra is a is the diagram. It's the shape. So, it's like there's yantra, mantra, and tantra. And so, the yantra is like the shape. And so that's like literally considered the goddess or the
mantra is the word and then the tantra is the practice or so it says tantric lens. It says kamala's tantra is a sanctification of the material world. Wealth becomes a sacred current when it aligns with dharma right effort right exchange right receiving and it says the mahabija oracle is a spiritual reflective tool not a substitute or professional medical attention. Then it
says receiving. So you can draw a card too. So I'll draw a card for you. says, "Receiving is trust." Draw a card and then we open another door. Let's do one more for you. Power returns when excuses leave. It's going to shuffle it. Okay. So, you got Bagalamuki. >> Bagalamuki. Yeah. >> The power that stops the storm. She's
the goddess of um she can paralyze. She can stop speech. She can stop speech. And so, it says stillness, control, power. >> Oh, that's good. That's what you need here. >> Yeah. It says, "Pause. Silence is your strongest move. Title lesson. Agitated speech is free labor for your enemy." And it says, "Practice before
responding. Take five slow breaths. Then choose one clean sentence. Reduce inputs for one hour. No." So like for one hour, no news social drama. Protect your mind. Practice a stop gesture. Palm up. Inhale. Soften your jaw. Release urgency. And then you can seal it in the ledger which means you you can like you
can say you can add your own reflection and to the meaning of it you put put whatever you think and there you can also share you can like that you can share I can share that you know and you can share it on the >> you got to advertise this dude people love this. >> I think that's pretty cool. I think it's pretty cool. So I hope you guys will like that and I'm going to post in the chat the uh the link to the Maha Vigia
Oracle and so you can have your own Oh, this is the other one. Well, you can have your own uh I'll copy that and you can have your own u oracle reading and so she's a goddess of it's speech right but it's but it's of stopping speech because she can she can she can stop she can paralyze right Gotham is Indian so
he know he's Hindu he knows um here's the link to the u the oracle for you guys there you go you can try it you like to speak but it's like but it's like somebody's it's also controlling your own speech Right. But it's also like there's also it's like she said to like stop the speech of the enemies, but
mainly that means stopping your own inner negativity speaking. Okay? It's like and so you guys can try the app. It's free right now. And you know, I want I want to know what you think about it. If you guys can be my my beta testers for it and just tell me what you think of it or if you you know, if you like it or if you get a nice message,
you know, I I hope that you enjoy it. I think it will be a cool uh cool thing. And I'll put I'll put the uh Yeah, there's Gotti Streamard link up if anyone else wants to come up. Jamie tried it tonight. Now, now it has the uh now it has the uh not as much as you love Mrs. Clumsy aka Groo. Well, I hope you guys will like it
though. I hope you guys like it. It's >> Yeah, that was pretty cool. >> Thank you. Look Look at Lola's whiskers. You have nice whiskers, Lola. You know yours is beautiful. You know your beautiful cat. >> It's like a lynx. >> Oh, you like that? Look at her. Oh. Oh.
>> Who doesn't like that? >> She loves that. Oh, you like that. If I go like this. I go like that. I go like that. Oh, okay. Here. What are you doing? Tickle. Tickle. Hey, we have Wiggins Warriors. But Carl Wiggins is here to say hi to you.
>> You're welcome, Gotham. I hope you enjoy it. Hey, >> he's here to apologize to me. >> you. I ain't never apologizing to you. >> What the is the matter with you? >> Hi, Psych. How you doing? >> Hi. >> Hey, Kitty Cat. Hey, Kitty Cat.
you're getting tonight, Carl. I'm just kidding. That's That's not a funny It was not funny. I'm so sorry. >> Are you going to apologize or not? >> I'm sorry. >> Apologize to you for what? >> For acting like an >> you. You get what you deserve. I
treat you just the way you treat me. you. What the you talking about? I apologize. Hey, you What are you, a >> Look how mad he is. Look how mad he is. Look how >> You want to see how mad I am? Do you know what happened? The other >> I can see how mad you really are. >> No, that's what you want. But I'm not mad. You're the one who's mad. >> You're fuming. You're fuming right now.
>> Oh, yeah. I'm fuming. All right. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I got a Look at I got a joint going. I look like I'm fuming. >> Yeah, you're pissed. You're totally pissed. >> Well, listen. >> No, you listen. All right. Stay tight turned. Came into my jack. Are you going to let me talk? Are you
going to talk? Nobody cares what he does. Nobody gives a this guy. He's full of bust. You >> fat leopard. >> Nobody gives a >> You'll be lucky if you make it to your birthday. I don't care if you care or not. >> You'll be lucky if you make care if you do or not. You guys are crying over Billy. >> The sad sack. >> You're the sad sack. You're going to
apologize. You're going to >> I'm not apologizing to you for anything. You're not even a streamer. How the would I apologize to you? >> You have three days to apologize. You >> you. Go hold Logico's hand. Go hang out with your little friend. >> Look at the cat's looking at Billy. >> Congratulations, Billy.
>> He's like, look at the cat looking. >> You just gotied for the fourth time. Well, State T said that you told him >> a different story. You're not a Vietnam vet. I don't believe you. >> Who said that? >> Stay T came to my chat and him and him and Rusty went backstage with me. Rusty come up into my private chat.
>> Yeah. What happened? What' they do? >> She said I'm a spammer. She wanted me to quit spam. I'm not going to Vegas anymore. I'm not the spammer. >> You're a liar. >> No, I'm not. If you guys complain about me spamming, you better complain about everybody else. What about me with Lady Venom and all her going on with the old ladies?
>> The you guys? >> Why do you bring your here? Nobody even knows you because you know about you He probably look like a big clown. >> They probably are. You're not even a streamer. You won't even turn the camera. Well, you. Gotti, I come here to keep you
and I just did. You're downed out. You ain't never getting no apology. you. >> I'm not coming back to your channel. I'm never >> I don't give a if you come back. I'm about boycotting your channel. >> I don't need You can boycott me all you want. I don't give a I'm never going back. You think I give a >> I made your channel. I made it what it was. >> You didn't make >> I made your channel. I took the height of heaven. I to make You needed me
to make a name for yourself in hell without God. >> Well, stay tuned. Don't tell me the truth. >> Enjoy the >> Enjoy the that you're going to wallow in. >> I'm not in no wallowing I don't even need to be here. >> Yeah, you're going to roll around and like a >> I have lots of things to do. That's why I don't stream 24 hours a day. >> Happy birthday, Porky. This is what you wanted.
>> Porky, turn your camera on. Let's see what you look like, you >> Come on, turn your camera on. >> Bad boy. Nobody gives a >> Well, you are a nobody. Yeah, >> you are a nobody. I don't give a >> I'll give you that. >> What do you got, Ji? >> I really You be sucking J's ass on the
turn of the mad Wiggins warrior, huh? You better go back. >> Oh, I look real mad. >> You're going to go back and suck his ass now, huh? You're going to go try to get back into the kingdom of hell? >> Oh, I look real mad, don't I? >> Yeah. Good luck. Good luck. Wigan's not going to take you back. Maybe for a cheap laugh. >> Wigan. I unsubscribed to him. I'm not even paying you for like a month.
He'll be streaming about me forever now. He might have put a stream up without thinking about Billy. >> He might have his war laughing. >> He thinks he's got a rebuck. I don't channel the video play, right? It's not me talking. He ain't got nothing. What is he going to do? >> Billy. Billy, put your head back in the toilet.
>> you. You're not even a streamer. It's like once she said you're just a lowly side chick. You think you're just a lonely side. She gassed you up. She really gassed you up with that. No, >> she didn't. >> Our relationship is over. I said I told you our separate ways. I'm not a spam. You won't see me in Vegas anymore. I'm
not trolling you, I got everything you can never stay out of Vegas. What are they saying? >> Really? You won't see me. I haven't been in Vegas. I posted yesterday. I will not post in Vegas. You won't see me posting in Vegas ever again. >> You're full of You're full of
You're full of >> You want to bet? You want to bet? You want to bet? >> Let me know when you see me in Vegas. >> As soon as you step in Vegas, >> let me know. I'm not going to Vegas. >> Smash your computer over your head if I ever see you in Vegas. >> No, I'll never post in Vegas again. That's a chat. >> All right, we'll see. Yep. >> Besides that, they banned my my my account again.
>> You're going to be some giant. >> I'm posting away at somebody, right? Bam. Then I can't then it's not showing. They banned me. Who's going to be in your stream? Who's going to keep doing that? Rocky Goldman. Rocky Goldman's going to be sitting in your stream listening to your >> I haven't seen Rocky. They ain't been around so long. Why you got a problem with that guy, too? >> Because he's done.
>> You got a problem with Rocky and Tom? Why is that? Why do you have a problem? Hey, Psych, thanks for letting me up. I appreciate it. >> You're welcome. You're welcome. >> I come here to support this guy. He's a streamer. Gotti, on the other hand, you're not a streamer. >> Support. You're only here because of me. >> No, I'm not. >> Yes, you are. >> I didn't come up here because of you.
>> Yes, you were. Yes, you are. As soon as I leave you, >> I'm subscribed to him and I've seen he was live and I decided to come in chat and I see you up on the panel soon. And he said, "Anybody else want to come up here?" And bang, here I am. >> As soon as watch, watch. Psych. He's going to leave now. Watch. I'm out. I'll see you.
>> Mission accomplished. >> Okay, >> mission accomplished. Go back to J's chat. You suck He's He's a leech. And you know, I don't need to tell you, Psych. You're a smart guy. Hey, if I could send you a bottle of
booze and a case of beer, what what do you want? Crown Royal and Mosen Golden. I >> I would just like become a member of the channel. That's all that's all I ask, you know. >> All right. All right. Hey, I don't bank online or anything, so I can't exchange any money, but my time is the most valuable thing out here. So, that's what I offer. It's my time. >> Okay. Well, thank you, Billy. >> You're welcome. Yeah.
>> No problem. >> How old is your cat? How old is that cat? Look at the That's a That's a pretty cat right there. >> Yeah. She's like four years old, I think. >> That That's That's a mountain lion cat right there. That color on her. >> Yep. >> Yeah. Female. >> Yeah. It's a girl. She had She had babies. She's Trix's mom, you know. >> Oh, so she had babies. Wow. >> She had five babies and she took good
care of them all. >> I feed the birds. That's the only pets I have. I All my neighbors, they have cats and that. And my one across the street will come right if I leave my door open that cat would just come right in my apartment. >> Oh my gosh.
>> We when I I moved into this place about five years ago and there's it must have been like 40 pharaoh cats running around. They're all gone now. I think they did something with them. Well, I hope I hope that nothing bad, you know. >> Yeah, there's a a woman across the river
that she feeds these cats. So, a lot of them are over there. I don't see them over here on this side of the river anymore. They they'll have to cross a bridge or swim the river. So, >> well, my cats are all all indoor cats, but they're very sweet. And uh
>> Yeah, I know. I I I've been up let's see it's almost 6 o'clock so I got out of bed at 4 o'clock and I I you know I'll go and I'll check my channel whoever I'm subscribed to and that and I see you must you just went back live again so you haven't been live very long have you >> not too long not too long just been an hour or so yeah
>> did you know flirty diamond someone says you know flirty diamond you want a reading I'll give you a free reading hold on you can choose Hold on choose Uh, which goddess you want or no? Let me see. I'll bring this up. Let me see. Where is my my account? Okay, here. You can pick it.
I'll let you pick a door. Here we go. >> I don't know any of those as far as tarot and who the gods and goddesses and all that are. It's Gez. I It probably take me. >> So So you see the screen, Billy? It says it says open a door. They'll open a door for you. Says, "Name your intention." No
speeches. One sentence. Okay. Name your intention. >> My intentions. >> Yeah. One one sentence intention. No speeches. It says >> my intention is to enjoy the life God gave me. That's my intention. >> Okay. I'll begin the ritual. Says the door opens both ways. And it's shuffling. It says the door is open. It
says you got triura sundari. says, "The beauty of the three worlds, the sovereign of sweetness, beauty, harmony, desire, magnetism." And it says, "Refine the altar. Your standards are a spell." The shadow lesson is borrow desire turns into a leash. Practice. Choose one area to refine. Your space, your words, your
schedule, your offering. Ask, "Is this desire true or is it borrowed?" Write the answer plainly. And it says, "Do just one act of beauty that benefits someone else, not just aesthetics." And I'll show you what this what she looks like. We can enter the shrine. That's her. Tripur Sundari, the beauty of the three worlds is sovereign of sweetness. Tripura Sundari is not vanity. She's
alignment with alignment made visible. She teaches that desire can be holy when it is clear, honest, and integrated. Her beauty is the fragrance of coherence. When your values, actions, and longing agree with each other, she restores dignity to pleasure and artistry to living. The oracle message is refine the altar, your standard jar spell. Borrow
desire turns into a leash. And then there's the practices. And it says the mantra is omri lita namaha. And there's the yantra. It's a actually the sriantra. I need to fix that one. It says shoddashi which is her younger version teaches that the attraction is a spiritual force. It
reveals what you value and where you're fragmented. The work is to purify desire into devotion so it builds not scatters. Refinement is power. And so there you go. >> Thank you. >> I hope you enjoyed that. >> Yes, I did. >> Awesome. >> Yes. Oh, by the way, uh Tuesday is my birthday, 23rd of December. So that
makes me Capricorn. >> Yeah, I'm a Capricorn, too. I'm a January 7th Capricorn. So, fellow Capricorn, >> there's a lot of us around. >> Yeah. And we're the best, you know. So, we're the we're the we're the lords of the earth, you know. The Capricorn is the cardinal earth sign. So, we're basically in charge of the earth. We can manifest things into into the earthly
realm. And so, it's a great sign to be also really hard workers. And always never give up, you know. Just keep keep climbing that mountain, right? >> The goat. >> The goat. >> Go. >> Great. >> So, what are you going to do with all the kittens?
>> Well, I don't have the kittens anymore. I mean, I just have tricks now. So, he's he's a cat now. I mean, she had kittens probably a couple couple years ago, so >> Oh, okay. Okay. So, it's not anything recent. >> Yeah. So, she had I have one of her cats here. Yeah. So, >> hey, >> I've had three pets. All basset hounds.
>> Oh, awesome. Beautiful dog. >> Yeah, bass. If I was to get a another dog, it would have to be the Dutch hound. I wouldn't mind it. They're they're comical little dog. >> Yeah, we had one. We had We had a Dodge Hound before. We have a We have our family had one. They're >> very playful. Yes.
I love dogs, too. >> So, I hope I brought some good vibes. I see Patrick New York in the chat. All these guys, they've been trolling me, you know. >> Okay. >> They don't They don't They don't like getting timed out. They love having the wrench and timing somebody out, but they don't.
>> Oh, well. >> Oh, well. Thank you, Billy. >> You're welcome. My my chat is political, but it's also current events or whatever you want to talk about. You know, I listen to the news. I listen to the radio and it it drives a couple people crazy that I do that. >> Well, go ahead and post your link in my chat and so people can
>> I don't even I I I don't have I can uh Are you Do you know my channel name? I'm I've been using one channel when when I go live warriors or No, >> no, no, not that one. It's William Hayden-R7B. >> Okay, everyone check out William Hayden-R7B. Okay, >> most of these people are subscribed to
me. All my subscriptions are hard subscriptions. There's no buying them or anything. So, people like Andy 504 and Pat, all them guys. They're all subscribed to me, >> okay? >> They So, they they they know I'm I'm well I'm well enough knowing. So, just, you know, William Hayden-R7B, that's my StreamYard channel. >> Okay.
>> Thank you. And you're welcome in my chat. I'm pretty sure some of your friends have been in my chat. And uh Stay Stay T is is is a member of your chat right? >> Yeah, he's in here. Yeah. >> Okay. He's one of the first ones. Gotti Gotti invited him over is what he was telling me. I He was backstage with me yesterday or night before, I forget. I've been having so much fun.
>> >> Well, have fun. Yeah, this is fun on YouTube and uh and enjoy yourself and I wish your channel the best and you >> Thank you and I wish you the best. You can come back up now, Gotti, you chicken >> Okay, you have a great night. We'll see you soon. Well, I think he's a he's an interesting guy at least, you
know. Let's see. Do I have anything fun to play for you guys? Let me see if I have something fun. Let me see. Hope hopefully you guys won't just run. I I just I didn't take a pee break. Okay, let me see. What do I got here? I'll just give it a random whirl. Someone says panther. Let's watch the
panther video.
you first and what rose from the dunes wasn't prey it was prophecy
horns glowing dusk panther eyes cutting through the smoke a grin sharp as a parable I stepped from the heat like a nightmare that learned to dance you thought I was luck back you thought I was sweet but sweetest
This is a stare for men who never read the warning signings. I'm moving like a panther in the hallways of your ego. Soft footed shadow born dragging your bravado into the light just to watch it fling nowhere.
King of cheap thrones. I don't need claws to unake you. Your pride unravels with the gentlest touch of my voice. And when you chase me, I vanish. Jackal lip swift with emotion.
Your fingers brushing only dust and your own delusions. Do you want me now? Do you want to know? Oh, I know you want me now. I want is a person. I am a creature
that turns desire. Brighteyed victor say bluebodied do walk in the fall line between hunger and humor. I bless what deserves it. Hex what invites it and dance circles around every mask you thought would save you. I don't need
violence. Your illusions collapse themselves and I don't swing the rope. You twist it with your own words. I don't break by from the rafters of your pride. Kick kick kick at the ghost you try to hide. I watch with panther voice
of the in between. Taking notes on your unraveling playboy. You'll summon to my you with a creature born right and
expose the soft underbelly of bravado. So tell me, do you want me now? Or do you finally see the truth? Stuck in the dust behind me. I'm the predator you pray for. I'm the trickster you deserve. I'm the laugh in
the shadow. The heat and the silence. You never stood a chance.
Take that. Uh oh. Actually, I'll play one more because I just need to play one more. But I'll play one one that I uh Oh, let me see. Let me look. Okay, that was a good I think that was a good
one. I actually made a actual video for that one, but I already played it. So, uh I'll play one more. Let me see. This is one with me in it. You want to see one with me in it? Stronger now with me in it. This is a good one.
Ready? Here you go.
Enjoy.
I was just lost. Don't flinch. I've got the scars to prove it through a door cracked.
Every thought brought its own ghost till my mind turned into a crowded dead
now. Nowitch
the girl of light
break
>> >> performer in a ghostly space. Tired of test with no right answers. Tired of chaos playing cancer. But once I swear to hide, then hear my vow. My voice will wake in.
Stronger now. Now
>> burned my grip. Pulsing riot marching out of the dream. So quiet, not giving up hope. >> We're prisons of soul stacked. We feed each other.
Stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now. Now
the void we
wow. I'm actually kind of impressed by that. I don't know. I don't know. I think I did actually kind of good job with that. Oh my god, I'm too close to the screen. I finished my alcohol. I don't know how much how much longer I can stay up here, but
anybody want to come up? Uh oh, now like everyone left the everyone left the chat because of that. Okay, it's okay. You know, the people that stayed here, I think kind of like me. Hey Chibi Chibi and congratulations everybody that got a membership too. Okay. Well, I'm just wrapping it up now. Okay.
But guys, you can go to betas. You know, she says I never promote her, I'm just kidding. I do promote her. I do. I say her name all the time. I mean really I promote the Okay, hold
on one more song. You guys can go if you want. I'm I No, I'm not keeping you here against your will. I would never do that. I would never never never never never. Let me see one more. If If I get my refund, I'm
going to make some more videos, by the way. Here you go. Sucker
keep saying you can fix me. I'll get them profit. My shadow's already half gone. My heart beats walking now without me. Bless me break me. Either way, I'm yours. You keep calling it salvation. I keep calling it a lie. I'm stretched in the
void. Paranoid halo around my mind. If I ever swore, I rise up. That promise died under my tongue. These demons don't harm my thoughts. They live in my blood. Sleeping on my back like an offering. Watching serpents on the ceiling drip. If you don't like my apocalypse, say with your chest, don't whisper it. I'm trying to be better, but the better I try, the worse I break.
Hour by hour I saw f installments I never agreed to pay. >> Did I learn from other me?
Yeah, I'm a sucker for the burn. Kiss me, curse me, promise I'll never learn. I'm gone for good this life. Never been a man I claimed I beamed. Hit all the things had all the lines. Now the mirror won't
look back at me. She fix my fractures and the name goes out. I'm blind to every holy sign. You're the last me for me till I feel something. Break it till I'm finally born. And I'm drifting drifting with the blood on the bed. She's glistening. Sunlight through
broken glass. Like he wants to watch me listening to the last echo in my chest. If love is a curse, then I'm obsessed. >> Give me another way to make me holy in a ruin. Make the pain my only lover. I'm a sucker.
>> Yeah. I'm a sucker for the burn. Kiss me curse me. Promise I'll never learn. >> Kiss me. Tell me you wish I was a dead body. Make sure the ashes stop. TELL ME
GLORY.
I guess I'm all I lingering in a place of dying slow with the sunlight on my bed. You say you want to fix
everyone I kept in pain is the only Thought I ever get a friend. Maybe
better.
>>
>> I love you guys. Thank you for being here. I'm kind of too drunk to continue, but thank you guys for being here.
Thank you. I love you. Go to beatas,
right?
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