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Psyche announces significant changes to his streaming schedule and format due to personal conflicts and trust issues within his community.
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Browse era →>> You were carved from the lightning, born naked to the sky. Every secret on your skin, every watcher asking why. But the truth is your armor and the shadows can't compete.
You were forced to walk in daylight where the fragile fear to speak. They tried to bury your thunder, but the storm remembers its name. And every time you rise again, the cowards feel their shame.
You are the storm-born architects, a voice that breaks the spell. You guide the wild, the lost, the wrecked, the ones who slipped through hell. Your words are spears, your love divine. Your wound becomes the shrine.
You build a world from broken hearts and call the outcasts mine.
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>> Your moon is a sudden rupture. The crack in the sleeping mind. You shake the dreamers from illusions they were terrified to find. Trolls howl at your reflection for you mirror what they hide. You are the truth they long
avoided, the judge they can't fight. But the wounded hear your footsteps like a promise in the air. The fearful bow their heads to you because you actually care.
You are the storm-born architect, a fire no fear can drown. You carry voices from your blood like a relay through through town. Your love is sparked like myth and flame. Your life's a cosmic crime to speak what
others never will, to bend the bones of time. >>
>> Half in the astral, half in the gutter. You walk the veil with the priest-told heritages in your heartbeat. Justice in your spine. >> >> Your power is the punchline. Your laughter is divine.
They judge you by the ancient laws that only you recall. For you have been a god before, and now you learn to fall just to rise again, smiling like a man who knows he ruled it all.
You are the storm-born architect, builder of the unreal. The cause you lead is legacy, the bruise that learned to heal. Your wound is scripture, your pain design. Your destiny
the climb. You lift the broken into light, one prophecy at a time. Storm-born truth-teller, shadow-breaker, world-maker. You expose a waking galaxy, a myth walking on two human feet.
Rewriting fate of the coming age. Rewriting fate >> >> with every stage.
>> >> Tell me what I am. No. Tell me what you are. >> >> When I stand still. I enter like incense to a crack front page, a saint in a hoodie and a lion's cage. They paint me with rumors, they
crown me with dirt, and gasp when the mirror makes the ego hurt. I'm not here to conquer, I'm not here to beg. I'm the truth in the tremble of your shaking leg. You hate what you see, and don't call it my scam. That monster's your shadow, I just held up the lamp. I don't need a mob, I don't need a throne. I just need one honest eye to look past >>
>> bone and tone. If you ask me who I really am, I am love. >> >> I am love. Not the sugar kind, not the buy my soul kind. I am love. And I came to test this world to see what survives when the loud lie wins and when the quiet truth cries. Yeah,
I am love. And love is sad >> >> in a hostile world. >> >> They built a bright prison with a velvet sign. Trade your breath for a number, you'll be fine. They sell you a costume, they sell you a face, they sell you a hip or label taste. Mainstream
sermon, plastic halo, gilded chain. Forget your soul, but don't complain. I walk through the glamour like a minor curse, and their paper heaven starts to reverse. I'm not perfect, I'm not clean. I've been haunted by the same machine. But I won't pretend the trap is It's a leash with perfume. If you ask me love. who I really am,
>> >> I am love. I am love. >> Not the safe kind, not the stage kind, >> not the trend kind. I am love. And I came to test this world to see what survives when the screen wants blood and the spirit hides. Yeah, I am love. >> >> And I'm still
here still here. >>
>> Look past the looks. Past the >> >> Look past the click. Look past the click. Past the they said spell. Quick, quick, quick. Quick, quick, quick. Look past greed. Look past pride. >> >> >> Look past >> envy, and you'll be alive inside. >> Past the headline. Look past the crowd. >> Look past
the public opinion. Curse spoken out loud. Out if you can love what's real when it doesn't entertain you, when it doesn't flatter you, when it doesn't >> >> Then you pass. There are a few with eyes that don't rinse sight. They don't need the mob to tell them what's right. They smell the
trap in the glitter and noise. They choose their soul over cheap little toys. To them, I'm a lantern in blackout rain. Not a savior, just proof you can live unchanged. And if love's the last thing this world can buy, then love's the reason it won't die. And I am love. >> >> I am love. >> >> I'm the wound and the bomb on the fire and the calm. I
am love. >> >> And I came to test this world to see what remains when the spell says forget and the brave don't obey. Yeah, I am love. If love can live here, the whole world can change. >>
>> Change. Who I really am is what you couldn't kill.
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>> Let me see what's going on. Hey Summer. Hey Summer, I'm sorry. You can use it. Oh, thanks God them. Well, here one of the only ones. Important news ahead. Are you ready, guys? Here's the important news. Um
>> >> I you know I'm not a quitter, right? But I have to like probably change some things, right? Um So
I have to decide how how I'm going to still do lives. But they'll definitely be done on a limited basis.
It's it's like it kind of hit me like when I was like cuz I've been talking to Kate the Turtle about um she was like, "Oh, maybe I can She's like, can I meet I can maybe mediate with you and um you know, whoever that person is. We'll see if we We'll see if we you know can make up or something. I don't know. I thought I was thinking. I was like, "Oh, maybe there's a hope Maybe there's
a glimmer of hope." Then this guy Tripping Sipping or something. He was on Kate's yesterday and he's like, "Well he's like, "Well, he's going to have to you know he's I don't know if Tripping Sipping is like his roommate or best friend or something like that, but he's like, you know, well, he's going to have to like, you know
make some uh make some agree to some conditions and terms. Okay. Like really? Am I going to be like the that that big of a to to go, "Oh Oh, you're criminally harassing me. What What can I do to make you happy? No, no, no. I mean, I would have been willing to
forgive and say, "Hey, let's just like stop the But I'm not going to like say, "Okay, yeah, I'm going to I'm going to dance to wild horses and uh you know um run 2 miles." And so So So whatever. It's like if I'm just like so hated for Hey, what's up, Bush
I'm so hated for just cuz I was like, "I'll just be myself." On a I'm actually And it's like the people that will like me will like me and the people that don't like me they would they'll leave. But it was the opposite. It's like the people that liked me left and the people that don't like me all like most of them stayed. Like I mean, there's some people that like me, but
not really. Even And even my neighbor who was like, you know Christina apparently knows the whole whole story, right? Exactly what I I told but she twisted everything. She doesn't know what what really happened with it or what's happening or why. But um he's like, "I hear you I hear you I hear how these people talk to you." He's like, "They hate you."
And he's like, "You know what? And they're right. You're You're stupid." Um >> >> But uh maybe I am. I actually don't think I'm stupid. I don't think I'm dumb.
But I don't think I'm like um Hey, Tyler. Oh, hey, Ghost. How are you? So yeah. So when like you know, Ghost who's like my like who was my best friend and like, you know and Beta are saying
calling me a and I'm stupid. I'm the stupidest person. Those are my Those are my friends, you know. They were like They were supposed like not talk to me like that. I feel stupid kind of sometimes cuz I like I keep doing like the same stupid mistakes and
but uh
I don't know. It's just like it's like I guess I I I just say it cuz I guys like I kind of sense I know you did it. You did that last night. It was It was the other night, but it was like And it wasn't And I don't think it personally though, but it's like it still it's like I just now I just I keep questioning. I'm like It's so hard for me to trust people. It's so hard.
Um But I I try. I try. I try. Um I canceled my StreamYard account. My my at least the paid one, right? So I'll still have like free ones. I'll But I'll also have those those like 30 hours, I guess. Um
It's okay. And it's I mean, it's not your It's not your fault. It's like so many things There's so many things going on and it's like so many other people too involved and it's like kind of like It's like I get I'm just so like I can't do anything kind of like without getting
jumped on for anything. Well, I don't know. Maybe But I feel like it's like I'm not I'm not um I'm not doing I'm not just doing this right. I I screwed it up and It's too hard to save, I guess. I am talking about it. I'm talking about it right now.
Um I don't want to like negotiate a a deal with uh Allied Master Computer. I don't think I should have to negotiate a deal with when I'm the one like I didn't do anything to him, you know. And then I have to like And people look at me like, "Okay, well, yeah, he has to fix his cats and get to like Like what is he talking Like It's just like it's so
like so ridiculous. It's And it's like so like like not what I am or like who I who I am. And I know I've like really embarrassed myself a lot like a lot just by being myself and putting myself out there and like, you know, going through all this like You know, I've had my good moments and bad moments. But um
it's like it doesn't seem to be getting any better. And then people were like, you know, I know it's But like just Bronze Bird and Beta saying it like so it's like they're like, "Good. We don't We don't Good. Quit." They're like, "Leave. Nobody wants you here."
So I know this is like probably not 100% true. You know, some people do. But it's like I don't know why sometimes. Um But I really didn't try to I did I didn't mean any harm, I guess.
It got things just got off track and
I tried to I tried to do my best and help people. Um But it's like if I'm not able to I just Now I just Now I just kind of I just kind of feeling dumb now. Like all the
I went through all this stuff. I had all this hope. All this hope and stuff. It's It's okay. It's like And it's not her fault or be you know, it's not I'm not going to blame anybody like Everybody says every I need to take accountability, right? So I don't blame anybody for me not being able to like figure things out.
Um But I really didn't mean any harm. I didn't Like seriously, I don't It's like It's too hard for me to hate because it's like too much energy. I I kind of like can love pretty easily. You'll blame me too, well.
Oh, what I'll say with her is that I you know, went on the other the show the other day or around her Christmas and I was well, like really trying and then it's like it didn't But every time I turn on her show, it's her hearing like just like really negative stuff about me and then it's like and then um you know, then if I say anything in the
chats like I'll get blocked or like people say, "Oh, well you should shut up." Or I don't I don't know. I just like I got I got I have a like my I had a mod I have He-Man the mod who was like, "Oh my god. Well, you know, you know what? The other night you you fell asleep or something and Ghost was calling you these names. How dare you let him call
you that?" Um Um you all all you you do you do just care about money, huh? And so that's why people like that are modded. It's like It's YouTube content thing. I don't know. I mean, it's like I just would like to be like I would I would love to have like
people coming and interested in the show. It's just like nobody wants to with me. It's It's like Energy sucking monsters turn me on to chaos. Cancel the StreamYard membership. Yeah. I did. I mean it's like it doesn't it doesn't like, you know, just delete StreamYard. It actually like I just like I don't I don't need to do
I'm not saying I won't do a live stream again. I'll just it'll be on a limited basis. Like maybe like a few hours a week. Cuz I'm not I don't have fun doing those. Like really. I I love but I I mean I have I do love like having a like a good chat and stuff. You're a rising star on YouTube with
hundreds in the chat about friends like uh right, I know. Well I I figured out what she was she was just about like having a having like like a place to like go that wasn't on her show cuz it was like she was getting porn bombed a lot and stuff and so it like kind of took a little pressure off her
for a little bit but then she wanted to like get be to do do it like big again. And I wasn't making like it's so like I I make these like I >> >> I I I write the stupid songs. Yes, okay, so I put certain like lines in them, right? Like you know, she's been streaming for 36 hours. It's not meant to say, "Oh, you're a loser. You're streaming for 30 It's not It's meant to say, "Wow, you you know, this like this
crazy streamer." Like what I I I don't know. I mean I've streamed for like a long time too. It's like She's like She's like, "What? You're jealous I'm allowed I can I or I can stream so long with you and you know, have hundreds of people on it." So I say, "No, I really am not." But it wasn't supposed to like be a diss. Well it's supposed to be kind of funny but it wasn't really supposed to be like Oh my
yeah, like it was like, you know, talking about White Claws and uh it's like people just think I'm like trying to be like mean or something like that. I'm really not. I was a rising star on YouTube but like yeah, how quickly like things will change too. It's like people are really fickle.
Um so many people just go with the Joneses. I I'm really proud of the people that actually stuck with me because there's not too many of you but um deuce And then again, like you know
there's certain people like He-Man and Time and it's like they're just I don't know Time yeah, they're kind of just like Time is not not not too bad Well, He-Man was saying, "Oh, you just care She's like I'm a two-faced. I just care about money." I never did anything to her.
I never did anything. I was like sometimes I did on mod her a few times cuz I was like, "Hey, I still saw I saw you in another chat like just not defending me at all but then she's like, "Oh, well, I'm mad because of It's okay, Time. Yeah, you're fine." You I was She's like She's like, "Well, because your cats are covered in me. There's a vermin and there's vermin
and there's fleas." Like really? I mean it's like I saw her like yeah, one time at one night I I was combing the cats cuz I like to comb the cats. There wasn't like a ton of fleas or something I caught There was like maybe a couple. Uh that's why you comb the cats to get them off and stuff, right? Um
but it's turned into like oh, it's infested and my only review like you know, she you know who wrote it, right? It's okay, it goes It's not your fault. It's just like, you know, it's too hard for me to like it's all this gaslighting all the time. They are fine. They're they're I mean they're absolutely fine and it's like
it's just frustrating cuz it's like, "Oh, It's just like It's like an assumed accepted thing. Oh, his cats are starving and they're just they're you know, eating mice and like it's so so bad. I mean it's like I think it's wintertime and like maybe like the mice kind of like a little bit more and the cats cats like to hunt and they go middle of the night they like to go out and sit
you know, wait for hours and they jump on a mouse, you know, it's like Mhm. Yeah, I know. That's >> >> I mean that's just ridiculous. I mean it's ridiculous. And it's like do they care about the cats? No. And it's like so a few people have said like Lady Bathory and like some other were like "Oh my god, well we offered him help. He just refused it." I've never
refused any any kind of help. I mean it's like if someone would like to to help um you know, in any way I was I was like but like cuz someone asked, "Well, how do I support the cats and not you?" I was like, "Well, you can go to Amazon wish list. There's cat food on there. But it'll go straight to the cats. You don't have to worry about me getting you know, any money what from it, right? But um and then they're like, "Well, he was he refused
help." I'm not refusing help. Um I'm I'm always grateful for any for any help. Um but um I don't know. I just don't like the way that And it's like I know it's just maybe like a lot of people just troll me but it's just been like so like devastatingly effective in the way that other people just like
believe it. It's kind of like um kind of like took out my heart a little bit. >> >> And the like uh just like some of the things people uh say and then it's like I mean it's like and now every like really it's like not even just like not on YouTube. It's like
like now everyone hates me. Like people my family hates me. They They don't really hate me but it's like, you know I I mean everyone's everyone's irritated with me about the neighbors are irritated like I'm sitting here trying to do my best trying to like um And and everyone's like, "Oh, go get a job. You're not doing this. You're not doing that." And I'm like, "Well
like where? Like what am I I I don't like I'm going to go to McDonald's and stuff or I don't know. I mean I really wouldn't mind working at McDonald's cuz I could get like you know, free food every day but or discounted at least but I like doing this. I mean this is what I like doing. So what I'll do probably is like
um do more regular shows like like just you know, pre-recorded. I might do like um pre I I might do pre like member lives where the member where members can come and watch the live and that and then I'll just turn that into like a regular show.
I could do that. I could do like an hour of everybody in the chat and then I could like turn it to members only. Bush Bush boogie, I know. I mean it's like and they're just and then and it's like and they're little mice and I like to know what show Nicks showing. Oh my god, that's disgusting huge rats.
And it's like oh, the cats are starving. That's why they're Like I was so excited when Rudy got a mouse cuz he he like he wasn't like um wasn't like starving. He was doing it doing it cuz he was like, you know, he had he was getting like a little bit of energy like he he looked like he was getting like like happy and like with the cuz I gave him some cream and
like some bacon that night and all of a sudden he was like out running around like like maybe I should you know, maybe like give him some more bacon and cream and stuff. I don't know. Then people are like, "Oh, that's bad for cat I >> I can't do anything right, right?" >> Yeah, but it's like I don't know. Certain people up like
what? I mean it's like nobody's going to come up. I mean it's like don't the only people literally like come up anymore are like you know
Yeah, well He-Man said He-Man said that they I have a vermin I have a vermin problem. I have a flea infestation and I'm you know, I'm just like just
And it's like it's not just like saying it hey, personally like putting out a message like she she she did write a message on a message board you know, on on my on my on the on the video, right? A comment and everything. Okay, that's good but why did you go into Beta's verse and say it's everybody there? Like I don't I don't know like why why like
you you don't understand that it's these people like hate me and like, you know they they they they see my mod saying that. You're her She's her mod too right? They see my mod saying that and they're like "Oh even his mods hate him." Right?
I was trying to be nice to people's mods and you know, it's like um I don't know. I don't want to bum anybody. I'm sorry. Yeah. And I'll be okay. I mean it'll be okay. It's just like I have to I'll have to prove myself
again. Maybe if I have a chance to like prove myself without people just like saying the most terrible things. Beta said that? When did she say that? Cuz I have I've never heard her say like that kind of stuff about me before but
maybe she did. But um yeah, she's usually with I mean I've heard her defend me on a few things. Yeah. Um heard her like you know, she has a problem with a lot of things actually. Oh my gosh. What So the problem the other day was like, you know, I went I was in her chat. I was being friendly and then, you know, Arthur came into my chat later and he's
like, "Oh well, you know, they wouldn't let me up. They kicked off Ghost." And I And I was like, "I don't even remember saying, 'Oh, well, yeah, Beat is a horrible person.'" I just remember saying, "Oh well, you know, it's it's fine cuz I I can stick up for myself." But yeah, it is kind of difficult sometimes with so many people against me right? And that turned into like, "Oh, why are you tell me I was badmouthing her
again?" I was like, "Well, I'm just supposed to say, 'Oh, nobody say that name. Oh, hands up. This person doesn't exist.'" or whatever. I mean, it's like and then she And then she says, "Well, what I'm mad about you." She's like, "You don't even know what I'm mad about you about." You don't even know. And then Christine said something like at the same thing. Well, then how can I apologize for How
can I do anything? Now it's just like some kind of like What? I I don't want to play guessing games. It's like Can I apologize So I can't apologize? Like there's nothing I can say, nothing I can do cuz I've done it already, right? I've I've done it I've like apologized. Maybe I don't know what I'm apologizing for because
I'm so confused sometimes. I'm like "Well what didn't Like why is this person mad? Like why are you seeming so mad about this?" And I just don't know.
It seems like a lot of like And then it's like a lot of bullying and it's really hurt me a lot, right? Just because I didn't I don't It's not like I make so much money from this and I'm just like, "Oh, I'm just like >> >> milking my audience." Hardly anybody even donates. It's like Do I even hardly
even ask for anything? I mean, I really I mean, I know I Yes, I sometimes I have. Um when I like If I really needed something and I you know, maybe I I I didn't, you know, ask and that's like a cardinal sin or something like that. I wasn't begging. I was, you know,
advertising my services more maybe more um aggressively a little bit, right? But then otherwise, I don't even say anything. I would you wait for people to come to me and ask things. It is my channel, but um
Right. And she's telling me to go get a job and stuff and like that I'm just some loser and I don't know. It's just like How did it get so messed up? Because it seems like it seems like it's like really more It's something more than just like the things they're saying because not only because they're gaslighting and
like tip They're like and like using this code kind of language about other stuff that I hear all the time and it's all It's always referring to me and stuff like that. And then they'll then I'll then I'll be just verified that they're talking about me. I mean, it's like so it's not but it's like then it's like, "Oh, if I say if I say, 'Oh, that's about me.' Oh, you're just paranoid. You're just being like, you know, you're just you're you
you're a narcissist. You have such a big ego. Like you You think I guess you think this song is about you, don't you?" Right? It's like Well, isn't it? Like I Isn't it Aren't I what you're referring to because like I I listen to shows that I'm like I'm not even like They don't even know I'm watching. And they're constantly talking about me, right? Yeah. And then she's like, "Oh, and and
I showed her vagina on my I was like I I was like, 'Why would I put a a post of your vagina on my wall?' Like that that'd be against TOS and I'd be immediately my Why would I do that?" Is that I mean, it's just like she's just making up. Like I I And it's like I don't remember remember posting it afterwards. Maybe I did put her full screen at the time cuz I was like I thought she was showing
something, but she accidentally dropped her phone under her dress and she was I saw some big, you know, Iranian Iranian you know, briar patch or I don't know what I was looking at. It looked like a shadow to me. It was just It was just dark. I don't know what I was looking at. Apparently, it was up her skirt. But I didn't know. But she
Is that just going to be She's going to be mad at me over every little stupid thing? Like I It was an accident. She didn't She didn't know. I mean, it's So is she like She has to be trolling about stuff because how could anybody like I don't know. And I wouldn't do that to anybody. I'm not like in a It's just like I just feel like I feel
like I've been turned into made to look like such a scumbag, right? Even Christine will say, "You are scum. You're scum." Even though there is another there's another guy named Scum. Did I say sorry to her? Yeah, that happened like 6 months ago and I apologized, but I didn't It was an accident. I didn't know. We were all talking and she's like, "Oh,
hey, like put the camera on this this and then and then So I I couldn't see when I cuz I was on a tiny little cell phone most of the time. And then um yeah, I didn't post anything. I mean, it's like all I I did like at the time I like I couldn't see what she was doing and I thought she was trying to show something to the camera. So I made the screen full screen. But you still couldn't see anything, right?
But No, did I mean Hold on. Did I mean it? If I was to I you know, I I felt bad if I accidentally like pour like um you know, exposed her or something like that, but she exposed herself. I I wasn't trying to do that. It was an accident. So it's like Can I be that Can I be sorry for an accident really? I mean, it's like
I'm not really cuz it was like It was an accident. It wasn't like I was trying to be malicious. It was oh um that's not a bat cave. That's her upper skirt. And of course and I was like it was like I was like that doesn't even sound like something I would do. It's It's like
there's all these misunderstandings. I had And then I had Alexandra and it's like I really was digging her like you know, having fun. She She you know, she She like thought I had some kind of talent and was being really cool.
And she was always saying, "Hey." She's like, "Well, you don't don't say he's dirty." And she said, "You know, I mean, she's like I met him. He's not dirty. Like he He smells fine." blah blah. And then it But then it get then it turned into like a like a couple weeks later like she sees me as like some like dirty person like
whatever on the like laying on the couch like dreaming about money and cats. Like
Did you mean sorry or you just No, of course I wasn't trying to hurt her. I wasn't even trying I never was trying to I've never One time the most mad I I was at I was at at her was when I said, "Hey, thanks for coming to the show." And and you know, I Oh, I found my I found I saw one of my cats and you know, and I I hope we can work
everything out. And then she said, "I wasn't at your show. Never talk to me again." And then she told everybody that I was like harassing her by texting her and stuff like that. And it's just like So that then I got kind of mad and then I I don't I just remember when she was like, "Just do it." and just like "Just do it." referring to like, you know,
unalive yourself whatever. And then I for like maybe I then I post I posted something thinking that she was a public figure. Yeah. Dreaming about money and cats. Yeah, so there's that guy right there. See and you see that's that's why that's why it's like that's the perception
that I think that people have. And so I mean that guy's gone, but um that people might have is Goddy's saying it and like, you know, People just don't understand me. Like they don't understand me. Like uh
I'm not even like a mean I'm like I'm seriously one of like It's Whenever people say, "Oh, I'm a good person." or whatever. I know everyone thinks they're a good person. Blah blah even like a hardened criminal or whatever. But it's like I really don't have
I don't feel competition in with anybody. I don't I'm not I don't feel jealousy. I feel like I've been blessed on this and I feel like I've been doing pretty well for the most part like for you know, especially under the circumstances, right? And I and I was just like, you know, but um but just to like constantly told that
I'm I'm like this hateful person. I I treat people badly. I treat people that have donated badly. I really would I just need I just need to know like what did I do? And then it's like then then then maybe we can get somewhere because it's like I still don't know what I did. I just remember some of these people like very
unceremoniously dumped me. Maybe because I reacted or something. It's like it's like It's like I will forgive people for anything. I mean, if people If people get mad at me and react overreact and stuff like that and then they come back and like they're, "Oh my gosh, I overreacted. I'm sorry." Like of course like I I I'm not I'm going to always try to forgive like forgive if it's like
especially if you know, but it's like if I do anything it's like never talk to me again. Oh, you know, you're just some weird stalker. Oh, remember Emma? And they keep saying I like like Alyssa hates me and stuff. Like Or that or that I Oh, oh, um Beata was like, "Oh, you donated to Alyssa." Like, you know,
First of all first of all, it's none of your money none of your business who I donate to, right? Uh second of all, I I really like have not in like months, right? And third of all, I'm still on great terms with with Alyssa and and in fact, like, you know, she had she was able to see some of the some of the videos that I made and she
was like um she was like very very um very cool. She said I She said I was very talented and blah blah, you know, so Cuz cuz then otherwise everyone's like, "Oh, that's that's stupid." They actually like I First of all, like
And Beata's like, "Oh, you know, how about you just like talk instead of like, you know, trying to express yourself through music?" And it's like Wow. Cuz it's like not even music, right? It's it's like just like this uh It's like people understand Do you know what an instrument is a tool? You know, an instrument and so and it's like just similarly to an instrument, there's
certain ways to play it so it sounds better but some some people play it than other people. Like if I was to play a flute or piano, I would sound terrible, right? But I know how to write music and I know how to like come up with concepts and I know how to generate graphics and I know I know some I'm learning editing. I'm I'm trying to learn and I I know I've like maybe
some people are like, you know, really don't like it or like but it's like it's They're actually like I'm trying to like hurt Like I don't know. It's like doing something bad or I don't understand. It's like I just trying to express myself. Which I am. No, I'm not even trying. I
am. And that's why I really like it. And then it's like, "Oh, every song's about me. Every song's about me." No. And there the one song I did about her was, you know, I saw Beata kissing Santa Claus and it was a light-hearted holiday song. It didn't say "Oh, you know, Beata's like
crashing out and and and and drunk and you can't understand her and you know, being a on the to the everyone on the panel." No. I was like, "Oh, you know, Beata you know, she's like kissing Santa Claus and um you know, she has a little pyramid of white claws.
Well, butch booty, it's I don't I don't need I don't She's never been She's never been to the show. What But what I'm saying is that she's done things for me. She's done things for me that she doesn't do for everybody, right? It's like she let me promote my show on her Discord which she does not let anybody do, right? She She's just very She's been very generous, right? And um
And it was also it's not just like donating. It's like, you know, when like she has a system where she plays you can play any song and I we were like, you know, I like to share some few songs. I mean, it's like people are so so judgmental over other people and stuff and um it's just like now that the fact that
it's just getting so nasty. It's just been turning into like not very much fun for me anymore. It's like um it's getting harder. um The way people The way even people like especially the way people talk to me like I would I don't know I wouldn't if if I if I go to other shows and they talk to me like that, okay, well, that's
my fault going to other shows and stuff like that, right? And you know, and I know it's going to be hostile. But it's it's like just as hostile on my own show sometimes. You know?
And it's like I would at least like people here to like at least like me. Like but it's like it's getting a lot of hate. I'm sensitive to that. And I I am. I'm not And I'm I don't think I've ever really crashed out. I don't know I still don't know what I mean It's like does that just mean like
I mean, I fall asleep. I've gotten like upset and yelled and like that, but it's not like I'm not like out of my mind. Oh, yeah, and then so yesterday on on on Talk Your Ish, there's I think I went on yesterday to to talk to the people on the panel and answer some questions. And then all of a sudden it's like, "Oh, well, his mental health is so bad. He's under He's going through a lot of stuff
right now." Like I'm not not really. I'm like my mental health is I thought fine and it's like the most stuff I was was going through was just on on YouTube. But then the guy's like, "You know what? He's like here's what you got to do, psyche. You got to And this is just from my heart cuz I'm so concerned. You've got to go immediately and check yourself into an, you know, facility
and and go under observation." I mean, literally this is what the person said. That's the advice. It's like I need to be basically be institutionalized. I mean, I I mean, it's it's ridiculous. I mean, it's like okay I can I can maybe laugh about it now, right? But it's like I
Is people Are people being serious? I mean, it's like my I was like not even erratic. I wasn't even mad I wasn't even that mad. I was just like I was just like, "Oh, yeah, I had to enforce a rule and you know, kick someone off the panel." I was fine. It's like, "Oh, my he's he's just going crazy." I I'm really not. And And it's like it really irritates me that people are saying like Now that they know what irritates me,
they're just going to say it, right? But it's like It's hard to deal with this sometimes right? Like I try and it's like cuz I cuz then I try and it's like I I put a lot more work into it, more effort, more time, more my heart, more of like I do things I'm like, "Oh, people will love this. People will love
it." I I just I think of And then it's like, "Nobody likes anything I do." It's like they're like, "Oh, you They're like what They want me to shut up and like shut up and get you know, Joe and you know, Sig up here. Like No one say And Gotti, no one wants to hear you." Okay.
They said I They were saying I needed to be a Hold on. I was Well, that's I know that's the kind of direction it seems like things are going. It's like they're I think it was like almost like trying to have me committed or something like that. That's what I was kind of feeling. Or they're trying to get me to do it myself so that then they can say, "Oh, like, you know, I don't know." Isn't that weird, guys? I I didn't What that's the first thing for my mind was I need a mental health
professional. I've actually They're He's like, "Oh, no, he's like I know you don't have a background in psychology." Well, no, I don't I don't have a bad my bachelor's or master's degree in a with a you know, a psychological degree, but I have studied psychology extensively. I did, you know, pass it in college, right?
And they said I need to be on Oh, I see what Okay, I see what. Why? Have I said anything like that? I mean, it's like I really And even like the times people were saying, "Oh, he's threatening to do that." I said I don't want to be here anymore. I mean I mean YouTube. I didn't I wasn't meaning I'm going to go off as it's like people will just like will like to twist things like so much then it
then then it gets confusing cuz it's like twisted but there's like a little bit of what was said, but it's like not everything. And then it's like but I can't defend myself or I can't I can't explain it. It's like right? Not allowed to. It's just like it's like, "Oh, no, no." I mean, everything I do is wrong. And so so if I'm feeling like that, then it's like I'm just basically being with which everyone admitted. Everyone said,
"Oh, yeah, you're being with." Nobody cares. Sommer I love you Sommer videos. Sommer's like, "Hey, I'm going to laugh at you." He's just He's like, "You're going to You're You're going to let Ghost back up and I'm just going to laugh at you when he calls you that again." I mean, That's not very nice. But I
I love you. I mean, it's like it's just like And then you laughed at about it. I was I mean, I'm trying to like set boundaries and stuff and like same time be cool and like not have to freak out about people saying that See, the thing is with like with like the TOS and stuff, it's not
just like someone will say the word one time. It's like they'll say it several times in the in like the same minute and then they'll go on to the next TOS thing. And so I'm like, "Okay, either they're just really really really really dumb." Possibility, but I I really don't think people are that dumb. Or they're trying
to get me in trouble. Or they're trying to Like why cuz why cuz they don't do it on other shows. It's always on my show. It's always with me. It's always like, "Oh, I didn't do that. I wasn't trying to do that." Or Or then it goes "Or it's free speech." Or it's this and that.
Yeah, I wasn't terribly impressed with the
um >> I don't know. Of course, I should I have to defend myself, right? No one's going to defend me. Like I don't know and I've been told don't expect anybody to because nobody's going to defend you. Nobody I mean it's like okay that's fine. But I don't need to be like
harassed by like my friends about it. I don't know. Or what I thought was oops what I thought was prank. Yeah. I know I mean it's like there and then and then I was like okay well I can so I can tell that there's some kind of subtext what they're trying to say cuz now now like there's like all the people
are trying to make new accusations and stuff like that. I'm like okay let let and then and then they were saying oh well there's stuff you don't even know about that we're mad at you about. Okay. Well what? I mean it's like and how what? And it's like there's there's not going to be right? They also tried taking down your channel because you did a chatter bait that has nothing to do with YouTube TOS.
I would I would I would like a good joke. I mean it's like I mean Like what? Do you know people have um an O like so many people have OF on on a YouTube? It's not against the TIO. Like what what is that anybody like I I just like see it's just like a million things. It's like that isn't even like a it's not
even a rel oh like a relevant thing and it's like why are people like who? Who said that? Who's who's they? I don't I need to know who they are. And who said about the involuntary hold? I'm not sure Bush Boogie. Are you just trying to start Cuz it's like some people do and then it's like oh you're all you're so dumb cuz you just trust what people are saying. Well sometimes I I'm able to verify it,
right? Sometimes I can't because some people just delete their streams immediately but I can still like you know usually find it on a what's his names. Yeah, but I'm not a big fan of that uh trip kicking or not not trip kick but tripping sip. Not a big fan of that person. That person's a big two-face. Sam man's mod was attacking me on Sam man's panel. They came in here like saying oh well I you know I I didn't
mean I I like you I watched your journey everything. Then again there's people on Beeta's I know she I mean it's just a name. Yeah her like half her chat hates me. She's she's badmouthing Jamie and saying and then saying saying I badmouthed Jamie or said something like that but I never did. I mean it's just like I mean it's like she's she's getting twisted. If I say yeah I I don't I'm trying not to get
involved in Jamie's stuff if she asks me about it then she'll say then then it turns into like oh well he was saying that she's that you know she's I didn't say anything about her. Like I I mean it's like so just trying to start It's getting um exhausting. It's getting exhausting. Um yeah so Ally you can be happy you're
getting your wish. I'm just going to be around I'm going to be around a lot less, you know? And it's like you know I don't think I don't think that's going to slow you down. I think the only thing to slow you down is if you finally go broke from sending too many you know um too much so much cement. You just go broke from sending it, you know? Cuz it's kind of expensive and then I'll have to start selling like thousands dollars of sculptures and just turn
lemons into lemonade, right? I've already started my like my Edward Scissorhands um on those bags of concrete. I have a little statue garden outside. I have a statue of Aphrodite. I have a Cupid and Psyche in midair. I have a very unusual looking Martin
Luther King statue. Um lemons to lemonade, right? Uh But it's like it's just sad. I wish I didn't have to like defend myself. This should just be self-evident. Like some people get it some people don't. And some people just some people don't
care. They just they they're just going to hate no matter what. What is it? Did I sell off the bags of concrete? I did but then more came and they're coming now they're being shipped like through the mail and stuff. And then they put them in front of my door so I can't open the door. And I mean I can eventually open the door but it's quite heavy. Yeah.
I need a I need a breather. Hold on one second. Come closer world. Not to my mouth but to the mirror.
>> >> May every hand that offered water be met with rivers in return. May every heart that chose forgiveness find a thousand suns to warm its stern. May the ones who gave the last small blanket sleep beneath a sky that doesn't take. And may the love you put in motion come home heavy as its weight. >>
>> And if you carried hate like incense, if you fed suspicion like a pet, if you threw your wounds at strangers then pretended you forget, may your cruelty find its address again. Not as vengeance not as doom, but as consequence with eyes wide open in a silent honest room.
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Hope a thousandfold. Kindness like a crown of gold. >> >> Return it. Every hidden blade, every whispered fraud, every harm you tried to trade till the world remembers what it's for.
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world treats the message with slander dressed as concern, with accusations, with projections, with the lessons we refuse to learn. They call the peacemaker a liar. Call the healer weak or strange. Then they weaponize the rumor and demand you never change. Hostility becomes a hard beat crying. Becomes
a normal tone. And the killing of the gentle is the world admitting what it's grown. Hope was the last thing in the box. Not a crown, not a guarantee. Hope is a firefly in the rubble. A stubborn spark that looks like me. One last light I
lift into the wind. Even if it takes my skin. Even if my name is ash. This is the message. >> This is the >> >> >> May the generous be repaid with gardens.
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cold delay, every cruel lie I didn't care. Till the world remembers what it's for. That the only things of value aren't things anymore. >> >> Watch me burn.
Watch me forgive. Watch me refuse to become what hurt me. Watch me burn and in the blaze watch me ascend. >>
>> Uh sorry. Okay.
Fix Okay. Uh Uh so He-Man I think you should get a panel to address the allegations made against uh you on the stream. I think so too. Um He-Man who was in Beeta's chat, saying that I'm all about money, I'm a two-face.
Um, and then my cats are I'm infested with fleas, and um, and I'm infested with vermin. You can go ahead and just address that and see if I'm see if I'm exaggerating at one bit. And then tell me what I did to you to like deserve that.
By Gotham. Yeah.
Um, by the way, He-Man, I have blocked you, so I I I I think I don't even see your comments anymore. I think I blocked you. I mean, not not from the chat, just personally. Which I do when people say terrible things about me. Just try not to like beat it to myself.
I know the truth. >> >> Also, like what's this thing with the Everyone's like a gangster, a mafia like in the mafia now or something, or like some kind of special person, and better than me, right? Just inherently just better.
Just uh morally have the high ground. You Talking about basically murderers here. I mean, it's like I mean, people it's like really Not nice people. They I'm looked down. It's like it's so confusing. I just need I need It's like I need one person to be honest or something.
But, we'll see. See if that will happen. Not holding my breath. Hey Rudy. Hey Rude.
>> >> I don't know what that's about. I don't know what it's about. Um Another another mod or another and they I think they are still mod right now. Well yeah. What was it in Beeta's saying? It's like he looks terrible. I mean, these are people it's like Maybe I do look terrible. I don't know.
Just tell tell me I look terrible. You mean, you say Why why you saying it to Beeta? With me, right? Like what Like I don't understand. So, Is this Is this too confusing? And it's like and my mental health is fine, but
for the sake of my of continuation of it being fine, I'm just going to step back. And uh You know, maybe I've been too doing too much or whatever, so
But, one thing about me is that I don't I don't go where I'm not wanted. So, if I don't feel wanted, I will not be there, right? It's like I don't want to inflict myself on people who don't like me. But, it seems like a lot of them who don't like me, like
I would expect them just to like block me and not come to the They just like they they're they they they they just like switch the like the love to like hate, and then they remain either quiet as watching or just like saying getting in the in the peanut gallery about it. Um
Uh, it's people are people are going to be like, "Oh, I was crying." Am I crying? I mean, it's like this is not crying. I mean, that really offend That offends me, too. I've been arrested with gangsters and I've been the only one not crying. With with with with gangsters crying, and I and I'm like, "Wow, I'm not crying." It's like I The only
thing I cried about I can think of in the last two like 2 years are like my cat and my my father. Like, you know, my cat sadly passed away. My my dad passed away. That's That's when I cried. I mean, it's like I don't know. I So, I'm not looking for I'm not trying to find any sympathy, blah blah blah blah blah. I'm just being honest.
I'll I'll go away. Or I'll be I'll I'll make myself scarce. So, you'll have to really want to see me if you want if you're going to see me.
Money420 and Ghost sitting over there smoking on stream like they're mafia members. Where Which stream are they on? They're Are they on There's another Oh, I'm Money420's right now. That's okay. Yeah. I mean, it's like that that that's it. Like, and then Ghost was like you know, there's these I don't know,
there's some weird weird guy, you know, they make all these stupid like God almighty. I mean, it's hard to explain. And then it's like and then it's like
It's like It's like it's There's this thing and then like So, this guy the other night, what was his name? Captain Have Captain Save-a-ho or something. Cap- Captain Have Some Fun or something. Hey Gotham. Captain Have Fun. Up here talking saying some weird stuff, and then people in the chat were like, "Oh my god, did you see his his uh his his profile what he says on
his on his page? He's really scary or strange or something." I was like, "Oh, really? I I can't imagine." And then I noticed he has a superhero complex. And the superhero complex Okay, I'm sorry. I'm trying. This is a superhero complex is something And then people
say, "Oh, narcissism is too overblown." Right? It It being It is like a lot of people talk about it, but um, there is a superhero complex where it's like especially people with like some either something to prove or like um, something to redeem themselves for, they're so excited to find anybody else
with they consider weaker than themselves to team up against and attack. And so, it's like that's the saddest part is like all these great friendships I've started that they're just that have just started that started because they hate me. That's all they have in common, pretty much. I mean, whatever works, I guess. Like,
you know, at least I'm bringing people together one way or another, right? Um, I prefer it be you know, we could all be friends, but no, it's like and it's even people I've been I've introduced to to each other.
I get qui- kicked out. Yeah, so mhm. Yeah, I I mean, I I am a strong person. I'll stay strong. I Basically, yeah, strength is my gentleness is my strength, right? So, I'm going to be fine. Um
It's just it's so frustrating. And it's my fault. I'm not saying anything At least fault except mine. It's my It's my fault I didn't um get people to see the real me. I guess I didn't show myself right. Or maybe I did, and they just don't like it. But, it's like it's just like the kind
of like not It's like if you dislike something, you have an aversion to it. But, it's like I seem to be getting like more attention from them and stuff, right? So, it's like Cuz I don't I can't be in chats that I don't I don't feel feel like I'm I'm wanted or something like that. Well, yeah, you know even
even Beeta's, that's why I'm quiet in there but Um, and then it's like, "Oh my god, you said this, you said this, you said that." You know, Beeta's sharing like she's like she knows Bronzebird's like my mortal enemy. Why is she forwarding my my messages my like private message to her? I don't I don't understand whatever. She thinks I'm reading her messages on her whatever. But, um, she's she's mailing She she
forwards my messages to him. Like, is that That's like No. I mean, and then it's like then it's like Nothing Nothing's ever like I'm always on the defense about it. Like, what Why? That's why I'm stupid because it's like I I keep Am I falling for some kind of okey doke? This woman doesn't seem like she's perfect.
She's She's She's a good friend with everybody she else She's mad at She's mad at It's just like just like Christine is mad at me and not Crystal Marie at all. She's just mad at me. Never accepted my apology to Crystal. Didn't even apologize. She's not mad at Crystal. Um
Yeah, it's like Yeah, Beeta's mad at me for like what other people said, and she's not mad at them. I mean, the long-haired guy showed the g u n on stream. Are you talking about good times? Hold on a second.
Long-haired guy Oh, you're talking about 300 below who has that red hair now? He has like some kind of dyed his hair with Kool-Aid or something. Yeah, that was real nice. Come up with sig and then pull out of pull out a gun um on Yummy and stuff like that. So, we have like a hate crime, like a literal hate crime, right?
It's like Yeah, I mean, why would you do that? I mean,
Oh whoops. Like people are just so ridiculous. Hi. What up, Bobby? Hi, how are you? How's it going? What's up with the title? I just tuned in. Uh if I read the title Yeah, I'm just like probably going to take a big step back from the lives and >> Really?
Yeah, it's not It's like not fun for me anymore. It's like I'm getting death threats. Yeah, among other things. It's like It's like all kinds of stuff. Like you know what it is? Like and then it's like but the the then No, don't but then I'm looking for sympathy if I say like that, right? And no, so um I'm I can't I can't really even say anything without I can't say any I don't
feel like I can say anything without being misunderstood or like having it twisted around or just being misjudged and so the fact that I I'm showing I show everything and still like it it seems like that. And then it's like and then even like people that I thought were my friends are calling me like the worst names, treating me with
like the most disrespect, telling me I'm just a loser and just to go die, basically. Uh It just hurts me and I don't feel like it's good for me anymore. Damn. Yeah. Well, I mean, what a way to end the year, right? Last this year you started off
you know, you had a bunch of friends streaming and then Yeah, now I have zero friends. I have >> opposite, huh? Yeah, I mean, it's like but I mean, I almost I almost expected that to happen. Really? I guess we I guess I could see the I could see the the writing on the wall months and months ago. I mean, but um just how wow, like if I did if I made any little
mistake, especially Yeah, I just started to started live streaming. If I made If I did anything if I you know, the mistake of the clapping system if I if I you know, if I did you know, if I asked for um money so I could get a data for my phone so I could go to the the pier or whatever. I do IRL like every everything is was like so overreacted against like
like I was like doing like I was like doing something horrible like like like basically, I feel like I'm being treated like a like a a murderer or something. I don't know. Like I I or I I killed somebody's family pets or something. I just don't know. Like I just like I'm being treated I get treated like basically what what Christine said. I get treated like scum. And I don't know. And then it's like and
it's hard when I'm just treated like scum most of the time to then say, well, I'm not scum, right? It's like Um just by one thing um you know, the other day you were obviously Wolfpack and I made that clear
on your panel. Beta went ahead and stripped me from my mod saying that um I was talking Right. >> And then I And then when I came on that air or I was in the chat, she started saying Well, she started saying well, I was saying um that like um that I was dog that I was dogpiling and
she was like saying that that I I made a big deal about it and I was like I even like I said I was asked about it. I was like and I didn't even say anything. >> Yeah, exactly. It's not like we were saying she was Yeah, everything is twisted. She's like It's like so frustrating and it's like and then and everyone like believes her and like kind of about it or like
>> she's a woman. She has the vagina. Well, She has the tits. She has the vagina. Yeah, I guess She's not bad looking. They're always going to side with her. I mean, look at Sam man. Sam man had the thing there. Right. I mean, it's like >> big big success. white knight and they talk about like oh, like like Christine was like oh, Ghost and Arthur trying to
white knight for you. Oh my god, Christine could not be on for 2 seconds without BronzeBird like up there trying like screaming out like independent. I mean, it's It doesn't make any sense, >> And saying the worst I mean, it's dude. just It It really doesn't and it's like But they attack you like you're like the second coming of Hitler. Right. Right. I might
Do you did you think you angered a witch or warlock? It doesn't make any sense. It really doesn't. Then there's other people out there like like Alexandra who's like putting kids on stripping poles. Like that's disgusting. What what what Psyche's doing is just AI music. Okay,
let's say he did talk about you in the AI music. But he's not putting kids on poles. I'm not even like I'm not even making fun of people in AI music nor nor do we need anything. >> Well, let's say if you were. Let's say okay, but like this is the internet. What are we doing? Like he's not doxing people. He's not threatening the people. It's just like I'm just I'm just an easy target cuz I'm nice or
>> How do people become so so so soft? something like that. People have become so much softer than cream cheese in an oven. You know what I mean? Right. And it's like maybe I'm being a little bit sensitive right now, too but >> No, you you're like, wow, I had so many people with me and then >> No, it is not even like that because because it's like I don't even feel like they really were. I feel like, you know, there was there were there were certain people that
>> they were using you? There were certain people that donated for for you know, and then if they expected certain things from it, right? And then it's like that's not cool because I like I did even watching Emma and stuff like, you know, like Emma would like never like you know, people would like one time someone donated you $500 and she even do a reading for him and like >> What? What? That's crazy. Yeah. And it's like and she had no apologies about it.
If I was to do that, I would be in prison right now, you know. Oh my goodness, you did uh shush. I would send you to Somalia. Yeah, I'd be I'd be like in in in like, you know, crocodile island or whatever it's called, you know. Uh I think it's called crocodile alga >> algorithm alligator island algorithm. >> algorithm algorithm >> I'd be I'd be sent to some some kind of
some kind of, you know, domestic prison or something like that. Like >> Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's like algorithm asylum or something. I think that's what it's called. Yeah. I think it's like the post office, United States police department authority bureau bureaucracy. >> All I know is that they don't they don't get a trial, a fair trial there. >> Yeah. So,
>> Send him to algorithm asylum, dammit. He's a scumbag. He put me on an AI. He's a scumbag. Like Sam man I didn't put Sam man on AI. It's like Sam man's on the only The only AI I did was one was about RG and that was not supposed to be like um Yeah, I don't think RG would have minded it. I think RG he likes that. >> it. He said he said he said, "Oh, so I
can't believe you think that I would take offense to this." Which I didn't. I thought he would maybe think it was funny, but I guess he No, RG's cool. He's a grown man. >> and then I started getting attacked. So, on that post I on that on that post I have like, you know, like people like negative negative um dislike bombed it and then there's all these messages over I'm going to send more concrete to the house, blah blah. And so, I mean, it's like um >> That's insane. Yeah.
>> It's cuz look, at the end of the day, Beta has the tits. Beta has the vagina. And uh people are just going to gravitate towards I don't keep I don't I don't want her tits or vagina anywhere near me. This is It's like I'm done. I mean, it's like like really, I I tried so much so hard and that was my my final like little thing was like trying to make up at the end of the year. >> You tried to give it one last hurrah before the end of the year, right? >> Right. And I could And I could I
couldn't. Like I I just went on yesterday. They're laughing about me talking It's like like all it's like I like I'm a I'm a huge joke to them. Like I mean, it's like Oh, dude, you're the biggest scumbag of the earth. Right. But but I mean, it's like I still just don't I can't figure out So, I think I angered a witch or warlock. Maybe I maybe I'm a witch or warlock, you know? You ever think of that? m m i x 2 i c like what do I care about angering a witch or
warlock? What are they It's Right. They're special than a normal human being. Right. What the I can defend myself against magic. >> Can I can I ban him? Can I ban him? >> Yeah, sure. >> All right. Oh, damn, I don't have a wrench. Uh I'll just I'll I'll I told you I'd give you your wrench back because so I might just have to do it. Hold on. Let me I'll do it right now. Psyche the Yeah, let me ban him. What a scumbag,
dude. People Yeah, just an annoying person. >> Well, I mean, you don't have to I mean, it's like really I just think who are I don't even Hi, Money 420. How are you? I'll give it I'll give it one more shot. One more shot. >> So, I'll I'll just pass the I'll just pass the the torch to like Money 420, you know. Um obviously you know, you're well liked and that's good. And so, I just say don't don't let
them push you around on your show. Like do what you want on your show. >> you. Don't let them brain Well, that's what they're trying to do, too. Like the guy was talking yesterday like someone said, "Oh, well, um it was not it was he was he said something, but it was like he didn't say my name with it, but he said it in reference to me and he was talking about Oh, yeah. He's like the you know, the mental state we That's what That's what we got to attack, the mental state.
>> Unbelievable. Disgusting. And then he then he started saying that I needed to go to like um check myself into a like a a mental asylum. >> mental wow And I wasn't even I'm not even I wasn't even going crazy or anything. I was completely calm and talking and just like expressing my feel Like I don't know. It's like but it's just it's I don't know. It's crazy. And then I look It looks stupid when I even address it cuz it's like, "Oh,
you're overreacting." But it's like you people Maybe I don't know. Just imagine like you're going If anybody goes through all this I would not wish that that anybody goes through any of this. It's like Uh I would really like unless you know and I have a thick sk- Well, I thought I used to think I had a I had a thick skin when it comes to some of the stuff. It got way too um too mean, too too
personal, too like you know Christine the other night called in and said, "Oh, >> Yeah, ho- hold on. Can I ask you for a huge favor? I have to walk away for a second. Yeah. Uh just for like 5 seconds with just you and me. Let's just Can we just since you won't be streaming as much for 5 seconds, we can just give a a like a good old-time just 5-second moan?
No. You can go to my sleep stream and like you know when I was asleep. Can I do it myself then? Can I do it by myself right now? No, don't do it. I don't I don't I don't care for that. Um I mean I do. That's what I'm saying. I want to clip this and save it. Just for 5 seconds. Here we go. Is it really the time Is it really the time now? Is it's like really the time to make that It's still
early. Ladies and gentlemen, uh for 5 seconds I will be moaning. All right. Well, I'm not So I'm not I know I won't be So anyway, Arthur, I won't be moaning I won't be I won't be modding you, but thank you for coming on the show. Bye. Um anyway I mean, jeez. I mean, it's I Is that supposed to be funny?
Yeah, I I moan I moan in my sleep.
Yeah. Just sitting here trying to mo- I don't know. Just trying to start Okay, and hence why
Well, why did you say that, Arthur? What is the What is a What is a moan? What does that mean? Like why would you say that?
I don't understand. Maybe it's like I I just I maybe I just don't understand like enough about the community and the sense of humor. I guess I don't get it. So maybe I Okay. Yeah. But I I really try to waste as many seconds as I can. Um
Yeah. Well, Okay. It's okay. It's okay. I I just like I just didn't know. I was like, "What?" And then you kept saying it saying it. It just didn't I don't know. I'm too I told you I'm too sensitive. But anyway, guys um So I guess happy New Year, right?
It was a good ride, right? Some good times.
But I'm not going to I'm going to go where I'm not wanted anymore.
Anyway.
Probably just going to wrap it up. So um I was kind of like excited to do this like self-improvement thing next next month and maybe I still will still will do that. But I'm not sure you know how many people care care
what I do, so you know.
Anyway. Mhm.
Have a good day, guys. And with empty pockets and a heartbeat full of storms, no map, no name, no
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