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Psyche's final stream is a chaotic and emotionally raw farewell, featuring musical performances and personal confessions about Scientology.
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Browse era →Tell me how you think I'm wrong when I say I feel so lost. Tell me why you think your love erase all that it cost. Tell me why you look at me like I'm just a piece of dust. Tell me how you think you know when I give away my trust.
Ain't nobody going to get me now. No, not when I feel this way. Ain't nobody going to save me now. From the things that I can't
say. Tell me why you think it's easy to just put the blame on me. Tell me how I'm supposed to act when you all just won't
see. Tell me why you take a shot when I'm already feeling low. Tell me why I even try when you all just steal the show. Ain't nobody going to get me now. No, not when I feel this way.
Ain't nobody going to save me now from the things that I can't say.
Yeah, I might love the pain, but I hate what you all bring. Yeah, I might feel the strain or let you take my swing. Ain't nobody going to get me now. No, not when I feel this way.
Ain't nobody going to save me now from the things that I can't say.
heart.
Psyche's awake and unhappy. shows in his America
and the rest left him behind. mind. Thought they knew best. Now he's stuck with a soul full of ache. Looking like art, but his heart going to
break. Always the nice one, handsome and true. Didn't deserve what the trolls put him through. But he wasn't their victim. Oh no, not
at all. He was their father. Bruises and all. Chad, forgive me. I didn't confess. The truth's a bit messy. I made a real
mess. You thought I was yours to play and abuse. But baby, I'm the one who taught you those moves. I ain't the fool that you thought you could school.
I'm the one who built the stage where you act cruel. And if I didn't love you, I'd tear it all down. But instead, I just wear this damn speedo crown.
I'm your real father. I've been here all along with your hate in my inbox and your name in my song. Scars on my back, love in my chest.
If I didn't care, I'd wish you less. But I do. I always did. Don't you know? even when you laugh at the Cheeto show.
So go ahead, troll me. Just make it loud. Your daddy's still smiling and damn he's proud.
Psyches awake. in his patriotic blues. Left behind by the ones he once knew. But love still the fire he refuses to lose.
Flaming hot heart in these red, white, and bruised.
Man, what are What are you doing? >> I'm sitting here I'm sitting here looking at you in a state of shock. >> See uh >> what? >> I'm in a state of shock just watching you. >> Why did you hear Discord? >> You were just in my Discord.
>> Uh no, I'm in a Discord. I didn't even remember. >> Remember when you sent me that picture of a of a of a gerbil? Uh um you remember that >> right I >> remember I asked you for nude for your nude photos and you sent me a picture of
>> South Park Lewis the derbal from South Park. Yeah, >> that wasn't that wasn't a nude, >> right? That was a good look. >> That wasn't a good It wasn't I know that was a good episode, but it didn't make any sense for what I asked. And then you sent me a picture of a of a giant cartoon gerbble. He asked for nudes and so I just sent you the inside of my
>> Oh my god, >> I'm so happy. >> I was hoping that wasn't the joke. I was I was God. Ow.
Welcome to the madness. >> It's 900 p.m. Lights up. Mike's hot. Chaos in the stream. Vita calling in, slurring words, starting up a scene. Talking all that trash, then she flips. Ra queen mad at me. Girl, please. The show runs on caffeine. Sides twisted, laughing loud, whiskey in his veins.
Slurs flying left and right. We cut the feed. No shame, but the chats on fire. Can't tame this flame. This ain't your mama's podcast. This a runaway train. Welcome to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boos flashing on cam chat losing their minds. Michael getting gonged. Alex taking flight. It's wild. is wrong and we do it every night. Paige got them
sing hearts in the chat but she ain't got time for a dude like that. Diamond flirting hard. Let the girls react. It's a freak show party. No filter. All facts. Yo, all facts. Yo yo Michael drops a line. Gong not tonight. Alex tried to joke. Boom. Sent into the night. Panel looking sideways. Someone's
got a fight. Producers on mute praying this don't spike. Diamonds feeling spicy shirt slipping down low. Oops, she says with a wink. That's the whole show. Half asleep but still cracking jokes. Slur out wisdom with a bourbon soap glow. No rules, just roles. We pretend to play. One hand on the mute, other letting it spray. It's a circus, a riot, a
beautiful mess. One wrong word and we're trending in the press. Welcome to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boobs flashing on Cam Chad, losing their minds. Michael getting gong to Alex taking flight. It's wild, it's wrong, and we do it every night. Paige got him sing hearts in the chat, but she ain't got time for a dude
like that. Diamond flirting hard. Let the girls react. It's a freak show party. No filter, all facts. Yeah. All facts. Lights out. One more round. Beat on the line. Yelling at a ghost from a bottle of wine. We laugh, we cry, we crash.
Rewind. same time next week. You know the vibe. Welcome the madness. Enjoy the ride. Yeah. Welcome to the madness.
Enjoy the ride.
Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride. Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Well, Raw McDonald's here. What's up, Ronald McDonald? Yay! I do like it, too, guys. I'm not going to drink the rest of this, but I do I'm drinking a bottle of tequila tonight. Maybe half the bottle. Look, there's like just a little bit left. I'm fine. I'm fine, guys. Unless I like
unless I'm like come to the corner and like screaming for help. Do not call for help. No, don't. Please. Ram McDonald's who's with Gotti. Well, makes sense because I knew Ram McDonald's was like in the Scientology. Gotti is obviously a Scientologist. He tries to like put the ches Jesuit
Catholic. Oh, I'm like Amish Scientologists. Scientologist, you're so obvious. Oh. Oh, we're Amish people. We're Oh, we're going to buy these hats. where to buy these like, oh, we're going to go to the costume store in Hollywood and buy an Amish hat and think we're Amish people now cuz people are so dumb. They don't
say they're bought at the costume store in Hollywood. Then unless they're in LA and then they're like kind of like they already know, but they're like they're too cool to say anything, but I'm not cool so I can tell the whole truth. Yep, I know. Scientologist. Oh. Oh, okay. Gotti, fair game, right? Fair game,
Gotti. It was your spare game. It was just a a suppressive person SPS. Give me a anograph test or emograph, whatever. Help me get to the lie detector. Get all my secrets out and then use them against me when I quit your stupid church.
Okay. It's war on Scientology. Like I basically Yeah. I mean, I didn't want to like keep it like a secret. It's been this way all along. It's just Scientologist saying her everything else. Yeah. Let's Let's make psyche insane. Let's just drive a person that's like a really cool person. I was I was
really nice at one point. I was so cool. Let's drive this person insane and then say, "Oh, this person went insane. You could just lock them up and mess with you like they do to everybody else. Guys, don't let me tell you about Scientology. Don't make me I don't want to tell you about it. It's a nightmare. It's a
nightmare. It's a It's an evil maze you'll never get out of. Do not go to it. They're behind everything. They're behind everything, guys. This is the last probably video I'll probably make. I'm going to sit next to the alien because he makes me I This is my my best friend right here. This He doesn't judge me, okay? Everyone else judges me. All he does is hold a cat. I wake up in
the morning. Oh, here's the cat. That's all I want to see. I mean, that's that's all I want anymore. I just want to have a cat presented to me when I wake up. I can cuddle with it for a few minutes. The cat goes back to the alien. I'm like, "Where's Lenor? Where's Lenor?" Well, she has to go back to the aliens for like six hours out of the day. And
then Jaime's like, "Where's Lenor?" I'm like, "Well, Lenor can't come to the camera right now because she's in the underworld ruling as the queen." But I mean, I can't say that. So, I have to say, "Oh, she's outside meowing." Oh, well, she Lenor's dead. Whoa. I mean, Jamie, come on. Please, Jamie, please.
No. No. Lenor's fine. You saw Lenor today. I was not like pretending to like I don't have a Lenor puppet. That is Lenor. She has to go to the underworld for six hours a day. I mean, it's like I can't explain it to you in a simpler way. That is like just the truth. I have to say the truth for like it's like like
at least 45 seconds. Yeah. And she's also my wife and I mean it's very complicated. Okay. It gets complic the rabbit hole that is me. Okay. You don't want to go down it. Okay. I'm trying to like help you guys. I mean, it's like, can you imagine trying to help people and they're like
trolling you? You're you're trying to help pe You're like, "Oh, my my ch my child like I want the best." And they're like, they think you're like some kind of like scum under like really? What do you think, alien? Yeah, he knows. He knows the truth, too. They think I'm a scum of the earth,
right? Am I sure if they try to really help people? Like really like I I think I'm one of the last people that loves everybody. Like it's like once I'm gone it's over. Like really once I'm gone it's over cuz I'm still willing to fight a little bit. I'm like at this point I'm like I was supposed to
die like 15 years ago. I'm still here so I'm obviously meant to like help the world in some way or else the world would have taken me out like at birth or something like that. I don't know. The world knows what to do. The world is smarter than you think. You're like, "Oh, the world is just a piece of like dirt and you can just plant things in it. It will just give you things. You
don't have to thank it. You don't have to like appreciate it that you came out of this. This is your mother." Actually, it's like not sending your mother a Mother's Day card. And one time, well, okay. One year I did, okay, I got stab I got um stabbed in the ear one year. Okay. Somebody stabbed me in the ear. I don't want to tell too much of the story, but it was traumatic.
And then it was mother it was my mom's birthday probably a couple weeks later and I didn't call my mom that day and I I mean I was probably that day just like sitting in a corner like saying what the is going on in my life and I didn't call my mom the other day and uh that was her birthday right and I think you know everybody else right the seven
siblings right everybody else of course one year on Mother's Day I called the house I was I was in jail I got arrested one on Mother's Day and I was like, "Come bail me out." My family says, "Let's leave in the jail for the weekend." Like, he's the bastard. They got me Monday morning, right?
They could have bailed me out for Mother's Day dinner. I could have been bailed out. Could have happened that Sunday morning that they bailed me out. But you know what? I It was meant to be. It was just It was just one of those other lessons I had to learn. You know guys, I no matter how drunk I am or how stupid I sound or whatever
like say I don't even I stop caring like many years ago. But anyway, I'll tell you no matter what I think or anything um you let me just tell you one thing. Respect your mother. I don't want to be like the the dad saying hey be nice to your mom. My dad like I always get
fights with my mom. You know, she's a cancer out of a Capricorn. We're the opposite of the zodiac. We're like the opposite of understand each other. And then she gets offended by everything. I'm always trying to offend, right? It's like not It's not like a combination. But she's the best. She's She is the best
mom. I I hate when people say anything negative about a mother. A mother brings Jewish to the world. Like it's like the mother your mother is like your like every spirit in the every spirit like there's like a lot of spirit and like every star is a spirit like every
star is like some kind of like part of the star is like a human soul that's like going to the um material plane cuz it wants to live and stuff like that but it's part of the sun. It's it's like it's like it's like that it's like the soul is like part of the sun. It collects all this like debris and dust
and finally gets them into like a human being which we should look like like mud monsters or like you know some kind of we and we have at one point and I remember that I remember the mud monster I remember when I was a stick person. I remember when I was a Peewee Herman doll. That was the worst lifetime I've ever experienced when I was actually a Peewee Herman talking
doll. And then I was given to some kid on Easter and he would like laugh and like pull the string and then like my voice got really high pitched at some point and I was like, "I know you. Where am I? I knew you were What am I?" And I would say I would say uh what's another Pew Herman joke? I was like, "Um, guys, you have to put it in the chat. I
can't even remember anymore. I am very drunk. But that Peewee Herman doll that I I am that Peewee Herman doll that I mean it's like I can't explain it in any other way. Do that make sense? I don't think I do anymore. But it's okay, you know? It's like everybody want everybody's like, "Oh, we want to see somebody crash out. We want to see where somebody crash out." Nobody ever crashes out. I'm going
to crash out for you because you know what? I love you that and I love you enough to have a crash out night. What is it? It's uh everyone puts on the It's 880. It's August 8th. It's 88. That's double strength. But remember this is Oh, Psyche crashed down that day. Oh my god. Remember that day that Psyche um went insane and heard he was talking all this bizarre and everyone got
really scared. We sent the police to his house a few times and like, you know, even they were too scared to open the door because they heard this like really loud um frantic yelling at a tablet and and they were like, "Oh my gosh, like we can't handle this." Hey, because even I'm too much for the police department and the ambulance and even you guys, I'm too much for everybody. Okay, I
understand I'm too much. I try to like put myself in the corners and like every like I would spread myself so thin so I'm not like affecting you in a negative way because you know what I'm not here to affect you in a negative way. I'm here to like in a very fatherly energy saying, "Hey, you know what? If you hate me, I think of you as all not like in a
Freddy Krueger way, even though it's very Freddy Kruegerish. I know it is, but it's like you're my children. You are my children." Like it's like that's how I think of other human beings. It's like they are my children. And so anybody any I don't like anybody to be hurt, harmed, or even like in a negative state because of other people. I don't
want anybody sad. Like I'm here basically make people happy. And if I don't make you happy and I'm really sorry. I know I've been really um like like how much of the bottle is gone? It's like not even hard. Guys, this is just it's just getting started. But please don't tell anybody about this
live. This is very 66 people are here. No, everyone leave. Everyone leave. I don't want anybody here. Hold on. I can't even see. I can't read the chat anymore because it's too like everything's gone blurry right now. I think it's the end, guy. It has to be the end. I wouldn't do this. I wouldn't do this if it wasn't like right the end. But don't worry. Don't worry. It's fine.
The alien will be here. Like that's my replacement. He will. Oh, look. Look, he is he he's cuter than me. Look, he's smile. He smiles, you guys. You see the smile? He's smiling, guys. He's he he is funnier than me. This alien, like he I wake up every morning. I look at the alien. He's like, "You have a cat." I'm
like, "I love you. You're my best friend." All I ever wanted was an alien to give me a cat every morning. Like, he here. Snuggle with the cat. Honestly guys, every morning guys, this is why I'm like not ever really really that sad because every morning I wake up and Trix is kind
of under the blanket and then he like cuddles up as close as he can to me and then he starts like pouring really loud and like we just sit there with her pouring for like two hours and I'll just lay there and I'll be like I think I like went to heaven because I like no one should be this lucky to be like so happy and blessed. I just have the cat purring next to you in the morning.
Yeah, I know. I'm like really stupid right now. I'm sorry. It's like it's like a rubber band. It's like the rubber band is pull and then it's like especially the rubber band is either breaks or the rubber band like like puts black backs propulsion and like just like puts itself out in the world.
That's what I did. And uh so I'm sorry if I had something wrong tonight, but I'll be clipped and like I'm like gonna be like everyone's gonna laugh and Tommy J like you're stupid and and everyone I b say I'm such a bad person and and I'm like worthless and
nothing and no one and why am I thinking of even existing on the world, you know? Don't guys don't let anybody ever tell you that you're not worthy of anything. It's like, you know, you're a human being. You're here. You have the you have the you have the spirit of God. And the spirit of God is with everybody. I really do believe that here from the bottom of my heart, I believe the spirit of God is with everybody. And we're all
part of God. And it's like disrespecting anybody or hurting anybody's feelings or like trying to just like take any part of their self-confidence or love for themselves away is like akin to like a murder and trying to hurt people and wanting to send people to hell and bringing all these negative things into
it. So all I have to say is like you know guys it's like all you have to do is love everybody and not hurt anybody. never hurt any person. They have no ill will towards people. Just go in a loving spirit and in a spirit of nonharm to anything you I mean I feel bad if I step
on a caterpillar or you know a bug or something like that. I feel bad that it might be like um they they'll be able to reincarnate into a better life because of that. But I don't that's not what I'm concerned about. All I'm concerned about, I don't want to harm any anything or anybody. And uh
that's all I'm about is like not harm living in the world in a like almost like almost like I'm not even here. I I don't I I'll live my little like I want to live in my little like 100 square feet and whatever I want to do in this 100 square feet I can do but anything outside of the square feet I want to like tread very lightly and not hurt
anybody and just love people but guys the more I'm on it's like I'm just going to clip and it's like oh this person's insane and it's like this is like he's a bad person and there's something about me that's considered bad or like so like people are going to say I'm a bad person and so just be ready for it. But people
that stuck by me, I appreciate you. I'm not going to like keep you on and like, you know, listen to my right now. So I But I want you to know, guys, no matter what happens, I love you, okay? I love you and I would never let any harm come on you. If any way possible, I could prevent any harm from
you. I would take it on myself for any of you. I really would. for any of you. I would take any harm that is ever to come to you onto myself. And I say that as a statement and I hope physically and I pray that comes true. I want anything that bad that happen. I want anything bad to happen to me rather than you. I'd
rather anything bad happen to me. And so that's that's all I'll ask for tonight is like anything negative in your life. May you see the positive and may I just feel all the negative. But I love you guys. Thank you guys. Like 68 65 people. Thank you guys for just being here. I
know like so many people are here and like great friends and like I know a lot of you guys love me and stuff. I want to thank you guys because it's like really as I don't want to be stupid. I'm gonna be stupid now. I was like, you know, I had the best time of my life doing this show, the best time
of my life. And it's like that's why it's like everything beyond this point is a dream. And it's like, oh, that's like good things will happen, right? And good things have been happening the whole time. They have, but it's like the whole time, the whole show, it's all been happy
things. It's all been like taking the negative away from me. It really has. But I don't want to be stupid, but I love you guys. And I just want to thank you for being part of my life, okay? I know I'm really, really dumb, but Okay, the alien wants to say good night to you. Okay. Thank you guys for being here. I love you. I love you. I love
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