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Let's get into it.

They whispered her name in the temples

of night.

Golden wings glowed in the candle light.

Crowds came running just to see the

flame. But envy was the price of fame.

And now he stands where the echoes fall

with terror in hand. Hearing every call

from praise to venom in the same breath

said. But the fire in his eyes burns

gold not red.

Two psyches, one thread of light.

Crossing ages, crossing night. Trial

storms and shadow seas. Both are bound

by destiny.

One myth, one breathing here. Both

unbroken, both sincere.

The prophecy unfolds in time. In every

card, in every side.

She sorted the seats in the dark of the

hall

while the jealous laughed,

praying she would fall.

He faces the chat like a lion caged.

Every word a spark, every glare a blade.

Yet every task, every poison dare turns

into fuel for the fire he wears. They

thought the game would grind him down,

but he builds his crown from the stones

they've thrown.

Two psyches, one thread of light,

crossing ages, crossing night. Through

trial storms and shadow seas, both are

bound by destiny.

One a one breathing here. Both unbroken,

both sincere.

Prophecy unfolds in time. Every card in

every side.

She walks through death for gifted a

box.

He walks through lies like a wall

through a box.

The underworld speaks, but they keep

their pace. Shadow to shadow, face to

face. In the deepest darkness, all on

high, both emerge on the other side.

Reborn and made to be the keepers of

their legacy.

Final through dead for a gift. Now the

trials fade from sight. Through chaos,

fire and whispering seas they stand

crowned in victory.

One in story, one in flesh. Yet their

journeys we match. The prophecy at last

revealed in a soul that will not be

that will not heal.

Oh my god.

Uh, oh my gosh. Oh, it's a little bit

close. The

I don't know. My camera's been acting up

a little bit. Maybe I need to like

put it across the room or something.

Well, that's a little bit close up. I

need to fix that. Hold on.

Oh,

wow. That is big. Oh my gosh. Ready for

my closeup, Mr. Deil?

Jeez. Yeah, I don't expect someone like

Bronzebird, like you know, the

intelligence of a basically a chicken to

understand what two psyches means.

Let me sit back. I don't know.

Yeah, you can't expect much from a bird

brain right?

That's what he is. A total bird brain.

What does true psyches mean?

Oh, yeah. I mean, it's like

bronze bird. Yeah. You ever heard of

Greek mythology?

Which I'm like really really into. Hey

CB. Hi Alexander. I'm a little bit

close. Yeah. And that's being nice. I

don't want to insult chickens

everywhere, you know? I'm sorry. He's

not a golden chicken. It's like bronze

or copper or something like that. I

don't know why it's so close.

What the At least it's not cutting

out. But

hold on. Let me fix this.

How do I do this?

I mean, I need I want it to be like

a little bit less

severe.

Uh, this is fine.

Hey, thank you. This was a gift from um

DJ Electra

and

you know, I'll just share a little bit.

She's like, she's like, you know, this

is like a protection for you,

you know, and it really is. I love it

though. It's beautiful. It's got the

beautiful violet things. Anyway,

so like when I read Cupid and Psyche, I

like

I was like, "Wow, it was like just

answered so many things." So maybe I'll

like read it sometime to you like the

whole thing. It's not too long. Oh,

thank you. You like my tattoos?

Got your tattoos. Okay. Okay. Well,

okay. Just brace yourself. It's going to

get bigger. Hold on.

Okay. Okay. Maybe that's better. Let me

I can sit back a little bit. Okay,

that's better.

Wow. I don't know how it got so big. How

do I fix that?

Okay. Well, you just have to put up with

my beautiful face though. Close up. I

got Aren't I beautiful?

Okay, hold on a second. At least the

camera is working now. My cat is kind of

like bit into the cord a little bit. Oh,

do I have any bugs? Oh my gosh. You can

see right up there. Oh my god. I'm so

sorry. That is embarrassing.

Embarrassing. Okay.

So,

yeah, I do want to tell the story of

Cupid and Psyche to you guys. It's

actually that was like the first thing I

have two ceiling fans. No, I just have

that one. Well, there's one in the other

room right?

Um, let me see if my charging can read

it to you. Oh, it is. Okay.

Yeah, I'm at 28%.

Yeah. Okay. Let me just get there. Okay.

a little bit better.

I don't know why I got so close up, but

it's okay.

I must have like done something to it.

I'll try to read the a bridge version.

You guys like myths? Because this is

like the best myth ever. It's like

really a beautiful story. It has a lot

of meaning to it. So maybe

I don't expect everyone to be a Greek

mythology, you know, buff or whatever,

but at least be like open to it. Say

instead of saying, "Oh, that's stupid."

You can say, "What does that mean?"

Like, "What's that about?" Right?

Handle like Jim Carrey smoking. Is this

a fire? I don't know. I can do kind of

Jim Carrey faces.

Okay.

Okay. So, this is kind of a this is kind

of in a bridge version.

Um,

okay. Once upon a time, you guys want to

hear this? Okay, I'm going to read this

story. Wherever's here is here. Once

upon a time, a king and a queen had

three daughters. The charms of the two

older sisters were more than common, but

the beauty of the youngest was so

wonderful that there were no words for

it. The fame of her beauty was so great

that strangers from neighboring

countries came in crowds to enjoy the

site and looked on her with amazement,

paying her respect, which is due only to

Venus herself. Venus is the goddess of

love and beauty, right?

Um, okay. In fact, Venus found her

temples deserted while men turned their

devotion to this young girl. As she

walked along in the streets, the people

sang her praises and threw flower petals

at her feet. This attention gave given

to a mortal gave great offense to the

real Venus. Am I then to be surpassed in

my honors by a mortal girl, but she

shall not so quietly steal my honors? I

will give her a reason to beg for

forgiveness. Then she calls on her wing

son Cupid, mischievous enough in his own

nature, and provokes him more with her

complaints. She points out psyche to him

and says, "My dear son, punish that

disrespectful beauty. Give your mother a

revenge." so sweet as her injuries are

great. Make that hotty girl fall in love

with some low, mean, unworthy being so

that she may live in shame. Cupid

prepared to obey the commands of his

mother, readying the his arrows of love,

and then hastened to the room of psyche,

whom he found asleep, though the sight

of her almost moved him to pity, he

touched her side with the point of his

arrow. At the touch she awoke and opened

eyes upon Cupid himself invisible which

surprised him so much that in his

confusion he wounded himself with his

own arrow. Psyche now frowned upon by

Venus received no benefit for all her

charms. True all eyes looked eagerly

upon her and every mouth spoke her

praises but neither king royal youth not

anyone presented himself to ask for her

hand in marriage. Her two elder sisters

of moderate charms had now long been

married to two royal princes. But Psyche

in her lonely apartment hated her

solitude, sick of that beauty, which

while it received a lot of attention,

had failed to awaken love. Her parents,

afraid that they had inadvertently

incurred the anger of the gods,

consulted the oracle of Apollo and

received this answer. The girl is

destined to be the bride of no mortal

lover. Her future husband anticipates

her on top of a mountain. He is a

monster whom neither gods nor men can

resist. The dreadful words of the oracle

filled all the people with dismay and

her parents cried. But Psyche said,

"Why, dear parents, you cry for me? You

should have grieved when the people

showered me with undeserved honors and

with one voice called me a Venus. I know

now that I I now know that I'm a victim

to that name. I give up. Lead me to the

rock which my unhappy fate has destined

me. Accordingly, all things being

prepared, the royal princess took her

place in the procession, which more

resembled a funeral more than a wedding,

and with her parents climbed the

mountain, on the summit of which they

left her alone, and with sorrowful

hearts returned home. While Psyche stood

on the edge of the mountain, shaking

with fear, and with eyes full of tears,

the gentle wind Zephr raised her from

the earth and carried her with an easy

motion into a flowery field. Somehow she

felt calm as she laid herself down in

the grass to sleep. When she woke up

refreshed and with sleep, she looked

around and noticed a bright forest of

tall and stately trees. She entered it,

and in the middle of it discovered a

fountain sending forth clear and crystal

waters, and nearby a magnificent palace,

which couldn't be the work of mortal

hands, but the happy haven of some god.

Drawn by admiration and wonder, she

approached the building and decided to

enter. Every object she met filled her

with pleasure and amazement. Golden

pillars supported the vated roof, and

the walls were covered with carvings and

paintings representing beasts of the

hunt and rural scenes. Proceeding

forward, she saw that the other rooms

were filled with all manner of treasures

and beautiful and pre precious

productions of nature and art. While her

eyes were engaged with this wondrous

scenery, a voice addressed her, though

she saw no one, whispering these words,

"My lady, all that you see is yours. We,

whose voices you hear, are your

servants, and shall obey all your

commands with our utmost care and

diligence. Relax in your room and lay on

your comfy bed. Dinner is waiting for

you in the next room when it pleases you

to take your seat there." Psyche

listened to her vocal attendance and

after a nap seated herself at the dining

table where a table immediately

presented itself. Dining room where a

table immediately presented itself

without any visible aid from waiters or

servants and covered with the greatest

delicacies of food and the most

delicious wines. Her ears too were

filled with music from invisible

performers of whom one sang, another

played on the liar, and all closed in

the wonderful harmony of the full

chorus. She had not yet seen her

destined husband. He came only in the

hours of darkness and fled before dawn.

But his words were full of love and

inspired a similar passion in her. She

often begged to see him. Uh she often

begged to him to stay and let her see

him, but he would not. On the contrary,

he told her to make no attempt to see

him, for he must, for the best of

reasons, keep concealed. "Why do you

want to see me?" he said. Do you have

any doubt of my love? Do you have any

wish unfulfilled? If you saw me, perhaps

you would fear me, perhaps adore me. But

all I ask is you to love me. I would

rather you love me as an equal than

adore me as a god. This reasoning

somewhat quieted Psyche for a time, and

while the novelty lasted, she felt quite

happy. But after some time, she thought

of her parents left in ignorance of her

fate and of her sisters, concerned her

and made her begin to feel her palace

was more like a wonderful prison. When

her husband came in one night, she told

him in her distress and at last un he

unwillingly consented that her sister

should be brought to see her. So calling

Zephr, she told him with her husband's

commands and he promptly obedient soon

um brought them across the mountain down

to the their sister's valley. They

embraced her and she returned their

hugs. "Come," said Psyche. Come to my

house and refresh yourselves with

whatever your sister has to offer. Then

taking their hands, she led them to her

golden palace and her numerous attendant

voices take care of them and show them

all her treasures. Seeing all this

caused her sisters to be envious at

seeing their younger sister in such a

wonderful life, much exceeding their

own. They asked her numerous questions

among others what sort of person her

husband was. Psyche replied that he was

a beautiful youth who generally spent

the daytime hunting upon the mountains.

The sisters not satisfied with this

reply soon made her confess that she had

never seen him. Then they proceeded to

fill her mind with dark suspicions.

Remember they said the oracle said you

are destined to marry a tremendously

horrible monster. The inhabitants of

this valley say that your husband is a

terrible and monstrous servant serpent

who fills you up with luscious food so

that he may eat you. Take our advice.

Keep with you a lamp and a sharp knife.

Hide them so that your husband may not

discover them. And when he is sound

asleep, get out of his get out of bed.

Bring your lamp and see for yourself

whether what they say is true or not. If

it is, cut off the monster's head and

you'll be free. Psyche resisted these

persuasions as much as she could. But

they did not fail to have their effect

on her mind. And when her sisters were

gone, their words and her own curiosity

were too strong for her to resist. So

she prepared her lamp and a sharp knife

and hid them out of the sight of her

husband. When he had fallen into sleep,

he she silently came upon him and

uncovering her lamp, saw not a hideous

monster, but the most beautiful and

charming of the gods, with his golden

curls laying on his snowy neck and pink

cheek, with two wings on his shoulders,

whiter than snow, with shining feathers.

As she leaned the lamp over to have a

better view of his face, a drop of

burning oil fell on the shoulder of the

god. Startled, he opened his eyes. Then

without saying a word, he spread his

white wings and flew out of the window.

Psyche in vain trying to follow him fell

from the window to the ground. Cupid

looking back as she lay in the dirt

stopped for flight for an instant and

said, "Oh foolish psyche, is this how

you repay my love? After I disobeyed my

mother's commands and made you my wife,

will you believe I'm a monster and cut

off my head? But go return to your

sisters whose advice you seem to refer

to mine. I inflict no other punishment

on you than to leave you forever. Love

cannot live without trust. And saying

this, he fled away, leaving poor psyche,

laying on the ground, screaming and

crying.

Hi everyone. I'm sorry, I'm just really

into the story. This is like my favorite

story. So when she had recovered some

degree of composure, she looked about

her, but her palace and gardens had

vanished, and she found herself in an

open field not far from the city

where her sisters lived. She ran to

where they lived and told them the whole

story of her misfortune, at which

pretending to be upset, these spiteful

creatures inwardly celebrated. Now they

said, he will perhaps choose one of us.

With this idea, without saying a word of

her intentions, each of them woke in the

early next morning and climbed the

mountain. And having reached the top,

called upon Zephr to receive her and

take her to the golden palace. Then

leaping up and not being taken by Zephr,

fell down the cliff and was dashed to

pieces.

Okay. Psyche, meanwhile, wandered day

and night without food or sleep in

search of her husband. Casting her eyes

on a lofty mountain having its on its

edge a magnificent temple, she sighed

and said to herself, "Perhaps my love

lives there," and walked towards the

place. As soon as she entered, she saw

piles of corn, some in loose ears and

some in bundles, with ears of barley

mixed in. Scattered about were sickles

and rakes and all the instruments of the

harvest in disarray. Psychi decided to

organize and tidy up the room,

separating and sorting everything to its

proper place, believing that she ought

to clean the home of the gods. The holy

series, whose temple it was, noticed

Psyche cleaning up and spoke to her.

"Oh, Psyche, truly worthy of our pity,

though I cannot shield you from the

frowns of Venus. I can teach you how to

best alleviate her displeasure. Go then

and voluntarily surrender yourself to

your lady and try by modesty to win her

forgiveness and perhaps her favor will

restore you the husband you have lost.

The obeyed the commands of seriesir and

took her way to the temple of Venus

trying to fortify her mind and

contemplating what she should say to

appease the angry goddess fearing that

the issue was doubtful and perhaps

fatal. So then we go into the trials of

psyche. Venus received her with an angry

face. Most ill-behaved of mortals, said

she, do you at last remember that you

must bow down to me? Or have you come to

see your sick husband injured from the

wound given him by his loving wife? You

are so disliked and rude that the only

way you can win back your lover must be

by diligence. I will test how good of a

wife you are." Then she ordered Psyche

to be led to the storehouse of her

temple where there's a great quantity of

wheat barley millet beans and

lentils prepared for food for her doves,

and said, "Take and separate all these

grains, putting all of the same kind in

a sack by themselves, but see that you

get it done by evening." Then Venus

departed and left her to her task. But

psyche and shock at the enormous work

sat stupid and silent without moving a

finger toward the pile. While she sat in

despair, Cupid inspired a little ant, a

native of the fields, to have sympathy

for her. The leader of the antill,

followed by the whole host of his

six-legged friends, approached the pile,

and with utmost diligence, taking grain

by grain, they separated the pile,

sorting each kind to its sack, and when

it was all done, they vanished out of

sight in a moment. Venus, at the

approach of twilight, returned from the

banquet of the gods. Seeing the task

done, she exclaimed, "This is no work of

yours, but his." She then threw Psyche a

piece of black bread for her supper and

went away. The next morning, Venus

ordered Psyche to be called and said to

her, "Did you see that field which

stretches along the edge of the water?

There you will find sheep feeding

without a shepherd with golden shining

fleece on their backs. Go and bring me

back a sample of that precious wool

gathered from every one of their

fleece." Psyche obediently went to the

riverside, prepared to do her best. But

the river god inspired the reeds with

harmonious sounds which seemed to say,

"Oh, poor girl, don't try to cross this

dangerous river, nor venture across a

formidable rams um on the other side.

For as long as they are under the

influence of the rising sun, they burn

with a cruel rage to destroy mortals

with their sharp horns and teeth. But

when the dusky sun has driven the rams

to the shade, and the sound of the calm

river has lulled them to sleep, you may

then cross safely, and you will find the

woolly gold sticking to the bushes and

the trunks of the trees. Thus, the

compassionate river gods gave psyche

instructions on how to accomplish her

task. And by observing his directions,

she soon returned to Venus with her arms

full of golden fleas. But she did not

receive the approval of her unforgiving

mother-in-law who said, "I know very

well it is not by your own doings that

you have succeeded in this task. And I

am not satisfied yet that you have the

capacity to make yourself useful. But I

have another task for you here. Take

this box and go to the underworld and

give this box to Persipina or Pphanany

and say, "My Lady Venus desires that you

send her a little of your beauty. For by

taking care of her sixth son, she has

lost some of her own. Don't take too

long on your mission, for I must paint

myself with it to appear at the meeting

of the gods and goddesses this evening.

Psyche was now concerned that her

destruction was imminent, being forced

to go with her own feet directly down to

the underworld. To make no delay of what

was not to be avoided, she went to the

top of a high tower to throw herself

off, thus to find the shortest way to

the underworld below. But a voice from

the tower said to her, "Why, poor

unlucky girl, you plan to put an end to

your days in such a dreadful manner.

What a coward who has been helped every

step of the way." Then the voice told

her how by a certain cave she might

reach the kingdom of Pluto, and how to

avoid all the dangers of the road, to

pass by Cberus, the three-headed dog,

and Charon, the fairy man, to take her

across the Black River, and bring her

back again. But the voice added, "When

Proerpina has given you the box filled

with beauty, never open or look into the

box, nor allow your curiosity to look

into the treasure of the beauty of the

goddesses." Psyche traveled safely to

the kingdom of Pluto. She was admitted

to the palace of Proina, and without

accepting the delicious banquet that was

offered her, she delivered her message

from Venus. The requested box was given

to Psyche, shut with the precious

commodity. Then she returned the way she

came, and glad was she to come out of

that um out once more into the light of

day. But having got so far successfully

through her dangerous task, a longing

desire seized her to examine the

contents of the box. What if, said she,

I just take a little bit to put on my

cheeks, to appear more beautiful in the

eyes of my beloved husband? So she

carefully opened the box and found

nothing in there of any beauty at all,

but a truly infernal and truly stigian

sleep, which being set free from its

prison, took possession of her, and she

fell down in the middle of the road, a

sleepy corpse without sense or motion.

But Cupid, now recovered from his wound,

and not able any longer to bear the

absence of his beloved Psyche, slipping

through the smallest crack of the window

in his room, which happened to be left

open, flew into the spot where Psyche

lay, and gathering up the sleep from her

body, closed it again in the box, and

woke Psyche with a light touch of one of

his arrows. Again, he said, "You almost

died from the same curiosity, but you

did complete the task imposed on you by

my mother, and I will take care of the

rest." Then Cupid, as swift as

lightning, penetrating the heights of

heaven, presented himself before Jupiter

with his request for help. Jupiter

listened and then pleaded the case of

the lovers so strongly with Venus that

he won her consent. Then he sent Mercury

to bring Psyche up to the heavenly

assembly where she arrived handing her a

cup of ambrosia. He said, "Drink this

Psyche and be immortal. Nor shall Cupid

ever break away from the knot in which

she is tied. But these wedding vows

shall be perpetual."

Thus Psyche became at last united to

Cupid, and in due time they had a

daughter born to them whose name was

pleasure. And so that is the story. And

so

Psyche was asleep. I read it to the end,

right? She was asleep and she awakens

and she was awakened by Cupid.

And she also earlier in the story

awakens Cupid by by like getting the

thing on his uh the oil on his on his

shoulder. And so psyche the word means

butterfly, but it also means soul,

right? So that's the story. Um, and so

if you're ever wondering about like why

it's called psyche awakens and blah blah

blah blah, it's not me saying I'm

awakening anybody or anything. It's

saying that

my soul was awakened by

pretty similar similar way, right?

By like love, right?

And Cupid.

So, I don't know. So, maybe it's like,

you know, I'm dorky or nerdy or whatever

because I like Greek myths and I think a

lot about the anima, which is like every

male has like an inner feminine. A lot

of times it is like um stifled or

repressed and it comes out in this

aggressive masculinity.

But if you like learn to see it as an

inner power

um then it becomes that you know then

you won't project it out into other

people because if you project it outward

it becomes these dangerous feats and

things like that. So I hope you uh I

hope you do like that story. I stole

your cats and never bakes cookies. Oh I

bake cookies. I bake cookies and I

didn't steal any cats. I didn't steal

any I don't steal cats. especially from

Jesus. Oh, look. We have Jesus in the

room. Speaking of Jesus,

>> welcome to Psyche Awakens TV. More than

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With open panels that never shy away

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unfiltered clash of voices. Tonight,

we're stepping into the panel verse

where allies and trolls alike reveal

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word spoken is part of the story. So

stay sharp, stay curious, because once

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>> There you go. And so

that's from Jesus himself. Okay. So or

psyche.

Okay. Hey, robot streamer. Trim up the

beard. I'm giving off Good Times vibes.

Oh no. Well, it's because it's so close

up. The camera is like really close. I'm

so sorry.

What did you say? You missed it. Ah, you

have to rewind a little bit. Oh my gosh.

Yeah. So, I went and got a couple

McDonald's coffees.

I was very blessed today. You know, I

was like at the beginning of the day, I

needed a miracle

to I needed a miracle so I wouldn't get

my account overdrawn and a miracle was

granted me. And so

I feel like I owe it to you guys to

bring some light and uh love to you,

which is why I'm here.

And sometimes I have gotten off my path

and I've gotten distracted. And I've

gotten sometimes mean and sometimes, you

know, I do regret that. But you know

what?

Everything you go through brings you to

where you are. So I really don't regret

any experience.

So

how are you guys doing? Let me see.

Jesus is a good friend. I know. like he

Jesus is an awesome friend

and you know Jesus in the Bible is

actually a really cool character if you

you can consider him a character you can

consider him a real person a historical

figure or whatever he came to bring love

and light and that's what I have in

common with Jesus

because even as a kid I I think I wrote

my first book when I was like probably

four years old and it was just basically

like

basically every line was like I love

you. And it was all these different

things and it's just I love you. I love

you. It was just like I I came to bring

love

and so if I haven't fulfilled that I

apologize because that's what I came to

do. And sometimes I forget that but

because this world is distracting

sometimes, you know, and we get like we

actually get caught up that we believe

this world is real when it's actually

like a dream, you know. Life is a dream.

Like the song Row, row, row your boat

gently down the stream. Merrily,

merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a

dream.

It is. And it can be beautiful. It can

be scary, but it's like a bubble. It can

pop any second. It's like a soap bubble.

Has a really shiny, beautiful thing. It

floats around for a while and then it

will pop, right?

But while we're here, while while I'm

here, and just think about how tiny of

like a little like blip in time, like

time time is space. Time equals space.

That's what E= MC² means. Is like time

energy equals what? Mass. And I'm not

perfect at science, okay? But I just

know

um time is space. Like they're the same

thing because once you have space, you

have like a a measure of something,

right? And so and time is a measure of

something. So life is but a dream,

right? Thank you for posting the rules,

Alex. Thank you.

And so that's what I'd suggest like is

like, you know,

be loving.

You don't know what someone's going

through in their life. You don't know

who they've lost, when they've lost

them.

uh you just don't know what people are

going through unless they like really

tell you. And a lot of people won't tell

you exactly what's going on, you know,

unless you get close. And then some

people can take advantage of that and

then some people can

relate to you.

And so that's why I just say be kind.

That's what my BKG stands for. It stands

for be kind gang.

The be kind gang.

be kind to people

because we don't know what people are

going through. Maybe like if someone's

lashes out at you, they're having like a

bad day, month, year,

maybe they've had a bad life, you know,

and

if you can like affect them in a

positive way, you can make their life

just that little bit better. That's what

I want to do. And if I haven't done

that, I regret that. And every friend

that I've lost, I regret. It's like I

feel like I failed in some capacity

and I feel guilty and I feel bad that

they won't have me in their life or that

they'll have me in their life and see me

as someone to hate or something like

that. And I didn't intend that. And uh

that's why I always will forgive. And

anybody that comes back here and says,

"Hey,

I miss you. I want to be friends again."

I will always accept them back.

Um if they mean it, if they really mean

it. But if they're like have some kind

of ulterior motive, you know, those will

always become apparent.

Hi Yan. Hi Alex. Hi. Hi everybody.

Yeah, I know. And I don't know what you

I don't know what he's been through

either. And it's like that's why I don't

I even can't hate him. And this person

is just like been my nemesis. And it's

like I'd like to be mad. It's just like

that's the song I I wrote is like I

almost feel sorry for him. But I do feel

sorry for him. I feel sorry that I know

he's been bullied. He was made into a

lull cow. He desperately wants to make

me one to take the heat off of himself.

I mean, I just can't be something I'm

not. I mean, I wish I almost like almost

out of sympathy

would would turn into one or appear to

be one

to grant that wish, but

I really can't like be something I'm

not.

I'm not a cow.

Not even really a human when it comes

down to it.

What am I? Well, that's for you to find

out.

A little bit more than a man. But that's

what all of us are. A little bit more

than just people. We we're these are

just meat suits that we wear for a short

time. What we really are is we're really

spiritual beings having a human

experience.

We could be gods, goddesses. You we

could be angels, demons. We could we

could be all of them. We could be

everything. And we are a little bit of

everything. We're actually if you think

about it like so the earth was created

by all these pieces of stars, right? And

so we're made out of stars actually,

right? Yeah. And it's like when people

hate you, just just know that it's like

they don't really hate you. It's like a

hate of themselves.

So don't hate anybody

because even like the worst person was

once like a little baby with and the

mother looked at the baby and had all

this like hope and dreams and something

went wrong along the way for some

people. But I think that

um

we can go through this life experience

as and actually like being a human and

stuff is like the best way to progress

as a soul, right? And so yeah, it's

trauma.

Yeah. And so I'm not mad at anybody. I

don't hate anybody

because that would just be hating myself

because what what is it like I am

another you? like I am you. What is

that? What does they say? Inlh

or even namaste. It's like I I bow to

the divine in you. Inlh means I am

another you. It's uh it's like I think

it's mine.

So yeah. And so oh gosh and haven't I

looked for love and acceptance maybe by

you know trying to put somebody else

down. And that's not right. you know,

it's like in but at least I'm

recognizing that

um

and I'm sorry if I have hurt people's

feelings, if I've thought I was better

than I'm not better than anybody else,

but I'm not worse than anybody else

because we're all humans. We all have

a shadow side. Sometimes we get lost in

the shadow side.

You know, we have sometimes we have bad

things happen to us.

The thing is it's like don't let like be

you you be the change in the world.

Don't let the world change you.

Especially if you have a good heart and

it's like, you know, don't don't let

people drag you to their level.

Like help lift people up. Not like I'm

like so high, right? It's like but

whatever. It's like help as much as I

can. I want to lift people up. I want to

inspire people.

There's a lot of good we can do in the

world right?

Yeah. And Yeah. And however people treat

you, it's not about you, it's about

them. It really is. And it's like that's

how you can like

have sympathy because it's like we've

all been there. We've all been there.

We've all wanted to be with the popular

crowd or we've all we've all wanted to

be like with the good, you know, with

the cool people, right? I Well, I I

really like I've never really He's

trying to turn me into him,

right?

Let me make that person just as

miserable. He's trying to turn me into

like what he feels like he was turned

into.

I want to help him.

see his true self rather than just

he because he really wasn't turned into

anything. Like no one can turn you into

anything. I mean we go through

transformations of course we can believe

that we've turned into something but

they're just names. They're just labels.

All of us have a piece of divinity in

us. A piece of like the highest like a

little tiny even if it's like a tiny

little molecule of like like just like

one little piece of light or one little

tiny bit of light in our body

is like more powerful than all the

flesh. Right.

Yeah. And I'm not going to hate

and I'm sorry if I have like you know

let anyone think that I I don't I don't

know. I I I I feel the hate towards me,

but it's like

I don't take it in. It's like it's

because it's not about me. It's really

about It's about It's about all of us.

We're all supposed to help each other,

right? I don't know. I'm just like

talking a lot.

Sorry if I bored anybody.

I don't want to be pompous or annoying

or anything. I'm sorry.

Yeah. And that's the most powerful thing

is love. It really is. If there wasn't

more love than hate in this world, then

would the world even be here? The world

would have destroyed itself and floating

in itself. He would have destroyed the

world. There's always hope. Hope was

hope. The last thing in Pandora's box

was love was a hope.

And so I if there's anything else I have

hope and I do believe like I am so

blessed. I am so blessed. And what right

do I have to like tear anybody down? I'm

I've gotten

so many of my wishes granted. Actually

everything I've ever wanted. I've gotten

everything I've ever wanted. So

my dreams have already come true.

And I mean that.

And who can how many people can say that

they've gone that all their wishes were

granted? Not just like some of like

everything

even just to be here right now. Like

look to have a channel to have a

platform to have true friends.

I'm lucky.

Hi Alex.

>> I'm in the show. I'm in the show. What's

up?

>> Did you hear the whole you let you stay

for the whole story? You heard the whole

story?

>> I heard the whole story, man.

>> Did you ever hear the story before or is

your first time hearing the whole thing?

Cuz

>> first time hearing the the whole thing.

>> That's how I started my show. Actually,

the my first video was probably about a

year ago when I started the channel.

Probably almost exactly a year. This

show's been on a little bit over a year,

but that was the first thing I did was I

walked down to the rocks and I sat and I

just looked over the ocean and I told

the story just from memory what I had. I

didn't tell it.

>> I think I saw that. I saw that was Yeah.

>> And you just went down by the rocks and

started reading. I I thought it sounded

familiar.

>> I wasn't even reading. I was telling it

by memory. You know, I I tried to tell

by memory, but there's so much like good

stuff in the story. I just wanted to

tell the story like as it was written

and stuff.

>> I was mesmerized because I missed the

days when you used to read to us.

Remember you used to do that all the

time.

>> Yeah.

>> Remember

just let you read those stories.

>> I have so many books like I can't like

really take my camera and show you guys

but I have because I used to have my

tablet I can go around but in my bedroom

I have a library and because I used to

just read and read and read and I never

even had toys. I had more toys as an

adult than I've had as a child, right?

And I would like because I would just

get books and I was just like

>> a little nerd. Yeah. My dad always

wanted it once in a while. You like show

your kitchen and and there's just

books. I'm like, "This guy's a reader.

There's books everywhere."

>> Yeah. And I just like And I do show like

just a tiny like little bit of myself on

the show. Like there's like So

>> are you crazy? You show all yourself,

>> right? But it's like you still like you

still don't

>> you have no idea. There's a lot more

>> that I have that has to be revealed.

>> There is you you are not lying. It's

there's more to you than you on that

couch and us 100%.

>> And sometimes I got kind of like you

know stuck in like a little like uh

what's it called? Like tunnel vision a

little bit. But

>> tunnel vision. Yeah.

>> I will share more.

>> I have like you know I have over 50

tarot decks. people that are like, "Oh,

it's just like it drives me crazy when

people like misrepresent me with tarot."

Like I was like trying to tell people I

have been doing this since I was eight

years old. I got my first deck because I

got when I was probably seven or eight.

It was like I got a reading at a fair

and like the psychic was like, "You

know, you'll I had my cards read and

she's like, "Oh, you're you're you'll be

a psychic or you are a psychic." And you

>> I remember the story, bro. you told us a

know,

long time ago is

>> you're definitely the real deal, man.

>> These people are like, I've gotten so

much good feedback and you can go to

just go to my um Etsy store, read the

read the reviews I've had. It's like I

have hundreds of reviews. I've had

thousands of of readings I've done. Not

>> a tarot reader, bro. Whether you know

it's always 100% like whatever.

>> Well, it's up to interpretation. It's

like but it's like I mean tarot is like

it's full of archetypes and we go we all

go through these archetypes at one point

or another right and so and we have

these people in our life and then so

there's something it will relate to but

that's not just a saying oh well it's

always right or whatever but I I also

>> different whether it's the 10 of

pentacles seven of pentacles four of

pentacles it's never the same story for

everybody like for every you know

individual it means something to them

you always come out with something for

>> right?

them,

>> Well, that's that's the part that is

psychic in me because it's like I do

read cards and it's like I say cards and

stuff like that and people think, "Oh,

well, he's not a psychic. He just reads

the cards." No, it's like there's

specific things like like when I read

>> think

he just looks at the back of the card

and reads it, but no, he doesn't because

it's always different for everybody

else. Even when it's the same card,

>> I'll notice different for me and you do

it for somebody else, it's a different

reading.

>> Yeah. And things like what like

literally when I look at cards like

different like details will pop out at

me and it's like then I'll go with that

detail and then it's like that's the

psychic part where it's like

>> yeah sometimes you get in the zone. No,

I see it. Sometimes you're like, you

know, a little like up like we

all are. And you know, the readings are

just like a little fast and whatever,

but when you're in the zone, you're in

the zone, bro.

>> When you concentrate and

>> they're fast because that's how fast it

comes to me. It comes to me really fast.

I don't know why everyone's leaving the

chat. I think the haters just leave. And

so if there's like 11 good people in

here and then it's like I think I just

bore the haters, which is fine because

it's they're looking for like, you know,

me to come talk about beta or whatever

for like an hour or whatever.

>> Exactly. when they remember yesterday

you had like 80 people that was all the

haters just waiting for us or you to say

something about them. They come here and

watch waiting to clip and and then you

know once you don't say nothing they

start leaving like

>> Yeah. And a lot of people were here for

the flirty diamond the flirty diamond

stuff and I don't mean to I I I don't

mean to embarrass. I mean

>> funny as

>> That mother's the man.

>> It was funny.

Yo, the lotion. That

stripped down his

>> Oh, he just poured lotion on himself.

Put the lotion in the basket, Otto. Oh

my god. He was just rubbing lotion on

himself.

>> You would do that.

>> I know. I need a lotion.

>> Do that, bro.

>> I need a lotion.

>> Confidence, you know.

>> But I also I can I can help people feel

comfortable just being themselves. Like,

you know, do I judge

a straight guy for doing that? know he

might get judged and I feel bad if like

he's judged harshly or something like

core that but it's like it's like I just

want people to be themselves and you

know whatever whatever whatever it is

that was cool

>> exactly

>> if he likes flirty diamond then he likes

flirty diamond but you know I'll sell

you Otto she's a little bit dangerous I

I don't I'm kind

>> yeah he's cool

>> and Flirty Diamond's a cool chicky

Diamond's a cool chick

him.

>> But I'd say she's a little bit dangerous

for some for some men, right? Look at

these jabronies. Hey, what's up, Nick?

What's up, Nick? Nick, the Roondo Beach

pizza. You doxing me, Nick. Uh, my name

is John Bates. I live in Roondo Beach.

>> Find, you know, you got to go to the

pizzeras around your neighborhood and uh

be like, "Yo, listen, pal. when you get

a call for this address, just know it's

a like, you know, you got to start

flipping them to police.

>> But I like meeting I like meeting

people. I like meeting them. You know,

today I went down and like actually

talked to the guy that was um looking

for scrap metal. They're really nice

people.

>> Granddaughter.

>> What's up?

>> He had his granddaughter, you said, with

him.

>> Oh, well that was I didn't answer the

door for that, but yeah, I did hear this

like little girls voice outside. Hi,

Grandpa. And it was like, oh my gosh.

And I was like And she's like, can we go

to the park now? and he's like, "Yeah,

we'll go to the park now." And I was

like, "Look, they're wasting their time

like coming here, he has like this

precious time with his granddaughter."

>> Think that whoever did that, whatever.

But whoever does that, they don't even

think about those people. They're so

like hellbent and focused on you. They

don't even

>> I'm not a victim. I'm not I mean, it's

like, you know, everybody that's come

here is like has just been told like

it's basically like, "Oh, deliver this

there. go here and they're being told

>> livelihoods. They're with

people's livelihoods, man. Time is

money, you know. Business is money. Like

the delivery drivers,

>> there are people looking for scrap metal

to make money off scrap metal, right?

Look, these poor people. I almost want

to give go give him a hug, you know,

this guy, this grandfather, you know,

and say, "Hey, you know, just take your

granddaughter to the park and enjoy your

time, you know,

>> and I'm sorry some and

did this to you, you know."

>> Yeah. And and then but then the guy did

go talk to I was I told these guys a

>> Yeah.

>> I told these guys the story. I was like,

"Yeah, this is like I'm on YouTube and

I'm being harassed by this guy and he's

put an ad." The guy's like, "Oh my god,

everyone's so nice.

>> Don't touch this door. It's a prank. Get

the You know,

>> I don't want people to waste their

time." And they're And if they're

knocking loud, it's because they were

told to knock loud. Like I think I heard

a guy say, "Oh,

>> they said it. I heard they said it. Yo,

we said it's his grandpa sleeping, so

knockd."

>> Yeah.

>> Al Master Computer said it. Like we

literally told the guy to knock loud

because it's his grandfather. And they

were laughing, bro.

>> That's crazy.

>> Yeah.

>> Yeah. And they're all laughing. But by

the way, so I went on Sam Man like know

what?

>> No, just I'm going to put this to rest.

When you strike someone on YouTube, you

have

>> Yeah. No, you have to fill in your name,

address, and everything. And it's like

if there's false information, it's just

thrown out. But yeah,

>> whose channel it is? You're my It's my

channel. And then you have to show you

have to me

show you have to upload it to

YouTube

>> and I get like at least now I get

>> your ID for them.

>> I've been getting like 10 privacy

complaints a day but it's like the

privacy complaints it's like they give

you 48 hours so I just delete the video

or whatever.

>> Those are complaints.