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The episode 'Me and my Big Mouth OPEN PANEL MADNESS' features an open panel discussion with musical performances, casual banter, and interpersonal discussions among community members, including technical difficulties and playful arguments.
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Browse era →No, I'm not undead just allergic to dawn. I sleep through the sur of sunlight withdrawn. My veins static, my bones are dead.
And the nice black mirror calls my name. Every senses I touch the mist in the dark. Just heat and see them fading spark whisies. My uc
in a glass. Lock up your innocence. Father psyches me. I'm deranged. I can feel it in my cold. Hollow out heart where the algorithm
froze. S won't save me. Angel lost control. If home is a soul, then mind. No, I'm not a corpse. Just chemically numb.
Half a life goes on a drum beat home. We're spinning sideways vision gray. God's static whisper fade away. I'm sick with creation
addicted to fire. A prophet of gra and funeral.
Hi, my name psychic. Psychic. Daddy raised me on sabath and psychic circuitry. Long range. I can feel it in my cold. Out high with the alm fro
won't save me. Angels lost control. The home is the soul in my m
and the ser. Bless the broken, the cursed, the divine. We're all going down in synchronized time. You're coming with me. You always were into the black where the data burns.
I'm deranged. Yeah, I feel it in my bones. God's rolling past on a crack phone. If heaven had wifi, I'd still be alone. Oh. Oh. All gone.
Oh yeah. Welcome to the chaos. Lights flicker mic. Psyche hits go live and here they all come and got beat up preaching truth with a cat on her lap. Ghost drops a hund just to start up the clap. Tony's
flexing big pot sweating and rhyme. Hey starts a sermon. It's confession time. Christine's got the teas got the smoke and somebody yelling that a joke. Yes, the open pedal circus roll up and see. Half philosopher, half felony. You never know who's going to lose their
mind. But damn, it's art unrefined. They come for the madness for the best. We built a cathedral out of internet stress. My friends forever behave my friend. We made a legend beginning to end. Summer's laughing like the queen of sin. Goty spinning tails with a devilish
grin. Alexandra once read my soul like glass. Now I toast a ghost with a whiskey pass. Fuzzy quote scripture in a troll's disguise. James crying truth with mascara eyes. We dance with chaos. Kiss the flame. Every stream of sands in psyches. It's the open panel circus roll up and
see. Half philosopher half the fought, they cried, they banned, they prayed. But none of them ever truly stayed. Till I raise my cup to that sacred stress cuz the circus burn the kind of holiness. Not all love, not all bonds man. But the clip still
loops my digital friend. We broke the mirror play pretend and vanish mystery. Pull the in.
So here's to the wild ones broken and bride. The avatars dancing through the night. The trolls, the poets, the saints, the insane. All baptized in the live stream rain. It's the open panel circus, baby. Amen. The show goes on,
just not within. Oh yeah. Yeah.
I was caught inside the storm of my own fear. Lightning struck and words fell sharp and clear. Didn't mean to let the thunder roll your name. I was reaching for connection, not to
lay the blame. You were the calm in my wild parade. The friend that never flinched when I was afraid. And though I stumble through the noise inside my head, I never spoke your name
in anger only in regret. So thank you Alexandra for all you gave for the laughter the light the way you stay. If the road bends and you turn away again no my door still open.
My love won't end. Oo,
they warned me I might lose what I adore. That patterns come to test what hearts are for. But I stood my ground when others threw their stones. Told them leave her be. She's finding her own
home. I never turn. and never let it twist. Just pray for peace in the space we miss. And maybe someday when the ache has thinned, you'll see I was broken,
not cruel within. And thank you, Alexandra, for the grace you gave, for the patience when my fears misbehave. If the past still echoes, let it end. My door still open.
My love won't end. Maybe I'm just a ghost in your rear view light. But I still wish you warmth in your quiet nights. And if forgiveness ever finds its way again,
you'll see me waiting. Not to pull you in, but to say amen. Thank you, Alexandra, for everything true. For the mirror you held when I couldn't see through.
No bitterness, no mask to defend. Just love that lingers and a door that won't end. So if you ever wonder back through the rain,
you'll find me here softly the same. Not mad, not lost, just a friend with a heart still open for you again.
Oo.
Show my closet. If I win and I prove you wrong, you give 50 to me and 50 to Jimn. 50 to me and 50 to Jimn. >> I'm not agreeing to >> Yeah, cuz my is organized. I have OCD >> I am a So >> actually it's colorized. It's like I have my sweaters folded up. Do >> you have cat in that closet? Yes or no?
I don't get >> I like you. I like you. >> Oh, you want to see my closet? You want to see my girl? Golden girl me again. >> Oh, I definitely will come on you. >> What? >> He will never get a chance to come near me. You just sat up there and said, did you say you just said >> I said you want to come at me? You understand English? >> Come on. You said come on.
>> I said come at me. >> Shut the up. >> Pay attention to Jimny. I like that. That's a cute road hoodie. I don't want to show you talking
>> Guys, it's like I have my sweaters folded up. >> You have cat in that closet. Yes or no? I don't >> I like you. I like you. >> Oh, you want to see my closet? You want to see my golden girl? >> Golden girl on me again. >> Oh, I definitely will come on you. >> What? >> You will never get a chance to come near
>> You just sat up there. me. >> It's like I have my sweaters folded up. >> You have
>> I'm in the show. I'm in the show. I'm in the show. See psych how thing that is is laughing in the chat. Rizer is big tall sexy Rob. That's a freebie. I know things my little whitehaired friend. >> Oh my gosh.
>> You got to fix your mic, man. You should be the loudest one on the panel, not me. Um, >> you like my songs? >> I love your songs. >> Here, hold on. Do you hear me? Hold on. Wait. Did you hear me? Okay. Or no?
>> Yes. >> Nice. >> No, you've been very low lately. I think you've been doing it on purpose. Think that is actually tried to tell you earlier, but it's still maintained low. I don't know why that wig freaked me out last night, bro. You took me by surprise with that and it
like sparked some kind of childhood drama or something. >> Oh, I don't want to do that to you. >> No, no, no. I love it now. I love it. >> You love it? >> Yeah.
>> Caller. Hi Chanel. Hi everybody. >> Yeah, but I want to say like I didn't mean to like you know I guess like I think she >> still pretty low man. >> I think >> your old mic was better that round ball.
>> Yeah, you're choppy. Can't hear the words. >> Do you hear me now? Do you hear me now? The choppy >> now I hear you. >> Okay, it's good. Okay, good. >> There you go. Okay. So, anyway, mic is fine. Okay. So, I I know you shouldn't be able to see it, though. There you go. So um yeah, I didn't mean to like
come off as I don't know like now it's like, you know, and everyone started saying the same thing about like she's like, "Oh, yeah, I know what people are talking about now with you." And that's like what everyone says like when they like So, maybe I I do I guess I have personality flaws. I I do talk too much on the show and I know that bothers people. I think she wanted more of like a no contact like me not addressing her.
So I mean I might you know >> who are you talking about Jane do number one or two? >> One is be two is Alex. >> Okay. Number two. >> Number two. Okay. >> Yeah. But you know what? I don't want to put them in like I mean there's not it's not an order or anything because now she's I mean now she's saying like I mean I did watch her show tonight and
she's like well she's like I'm she thinks I'm like not gay. I'm like bisexual and that, you know, I misrepresented myself. >> What the hell is that any business of hers? Who cares about that? Why is that even coming into the picture? >> And I didn't and she said I misrepresented myself and I was like I don't feel like I did like that because I all I ever said was I like the
friendship and stuff, you know? It's like, you know, and I was not but it's like >> Well, I actually said that to you cuz sometimes you don't act gay. Like I forget you're gay cuz you're actual cool and like you can be like both. You can act gay when you want or be like not gayish when you want. But that doesn't matter in anything at all actually in
whatever's going on. That shouldn't even be a variable. >> Now I look Now I've ended up looking like that um that muppet. But it the glasses, the hair, the beard. >> I can't answer my phone right now.
Someone the person they hear that I'm on my mic. You can't really hear me. I I can like fix my microphone. >> No, I hear you better, man. It's not perfect. I'm sure I'm screaming through my >> Wait, is it on right? Let me see. Okay. >> yeah. Yeah, you sound louder. So, >> Not even Okay, so there on >> Let me lower mine.
So, is that better? Is that better? Is it might a little bit better? >> Yes. >> Okay. It's better. >> You've been like muffled for the past three days like in the background. Like we can hear you, but it hasn't been like, you know, >> my default microphone will now be the >> Yeah, you got to go to default, hit uh speaker phone, microphone, like put it all back and forth and >> I can't think high definitionition audio
device. I mean, put there's so many options. Okay, so I think this is fine. Okay, reduce. I'll just turn off and on and then I'll just turn my microphone volume up. There we go. That was halfway down. Okay, perfect. Okay. Do I sound better now? Is that too loud? >> Yes, you sound louder than me. Perfect. >> It's a bit better. Okay. Sorry. You're going to get me in trouble. I don't want
to get Yeah. And like please like, you know, guys, like no mind control like around like people on my show. like just it's like hard enough keeping track of like what what actual people are doing rather than like you know because I mean it's like stop I know it I mean it's like I totally do believe in it and stuff and uh please just stop know stop trying to mind control me too I feel you're trying to get inside my brain get
me to like >> so according to Alexandra thing that is is mind controlling us at the moment >> I don't want to I don't want to really talk about it let's talk about like What are you talking about? >> All right. Cuz I could have sworn I heard that yesterday and I was laughing like Okay. Cuz that's funny. That means she's crazy, bro. Think that is
controlling anything. Now she's like saying I'm asking people to attack her. No, I don't. I know. Please do not. Like she is a sweet sweet like kind lady and it's like you know she I I have nothing bad to say about her. She's awesome. And I and she thinks I'm like some henchman of beta or something. I guess she thinks like is Lilith and I'm >> Did you say henchman of beta?
So wait, she went from loving you to visiting you, taking you out, making panels of you, promoting you in a month, and now you're a henchman of beta. >> What the did I miss? >> She was like, she was like, "Oh, the she said she thinks all the Bena like my death or something," she said. And then um I'll read you her post. She she wrote her wrote,
>> "No, but what happened? What happened? What was the turning point? No, all of a sudden thing that >> I look away for one day, come back, your hands going to be >> that's why my life is that's why I'm like and also it's happening with other people too like people getting mad at me. That's why I was like I don't know. Oh, >> that's funny. That's hilarious.
>> That's why I say don't trust nobody. I can't >> You know what? Yo, your first red flag should have been when she started doxing Beeta. When that lady started making panels using Beeta's name. No. No. I don't care. Listen for one second. Okay.
I know she's your friend and you're neutral and you love both of them. But bro, that was not cool at all. Okay. That like come on. That's a red flag, bro. >> Doxing and stuff. And it's like >> that's super doxing. I see right last >> picture. I made panels of you with your full name as the title every day and bad
talking about you like that's super dodged into the max and fullest and that's not cool. So she acts so in like innocent and like smart and genuine and but at the end >> I want to talk. Okay, that was that's really like the topic of discussion. I just want to say I stick to my I'm play
the song again. I stick to the song. There's another version of somebody, but I really do. It's a pretty song.
I feel this dumb. I'm sorry. I should I was I think she said boundaries. So it's like and I know I can like you know um like restrict any boundaries I apologize respectful and I don't know like she said VA is
some kind of mastermind you know I don't I don't think VA I mean it's like I really don't think VA is like that big of a m I don't know if people have seemed like VA gets like a lot of respect like because it's like I don't get any respect like I've Like I've asked people like start talking about me on like or about me on like panels with
people and and it's like you would do it but it's like other people too would be on panels talking about me and like um and then it's like they're probably talking on panels about me and then it's like if I bring up anything they're like oh we don't talk about that. We don't talk about that. We don't talk about that. So it's like okay well really it's like well you have no problem talking about other shows like why do you have problem
hey all your trolls are on the I don't know I mean it's like I think they just like follow me like me and like us around because it's like really see like it's not always when you're so she's bad because I maybe I did like you I kind of like mentioned to everybody that, you know, she said I like she
wanted to take a 30-day break and then we kind of got I didn't get in a fight with her in the in her chat, but it was just kind of we had a weird conversation where I was like, "Well, I want to talk to you private." And she's like and she's like, "No, you know, I don't want to talk to you in private." And um and she told me to like stop harassing Carl in the room. So, I just like left. And I
like maybe like went on a little bit about it, but I don't I don't But it's like it's fine. It's fine. And now I mean it's like but she's saying like kind of like I mean it's fine. I she can say whatever she wants about me. Um you know it's like I just just like careful with I say I feel like I'm being lumped in with like a lot of
things and like just or like having certain people means I endorse and say I don't think I especially like there's certain things like I really don't I wouldn't like want to be affiliated with you know and it's like you know and I know I just like you know I like warn anybody about putting jackets on people because it's like not um necessarily
easy life sometimes for people that are like you know slandered like that and like I'm not saying anybody in particular or anybody slander but I've seen I've seen a lot of like people have just jackets put on them it's like to like look at like what has been done rather than like we already everyone's being accused of
something right then it's like accused the person that gets like this hierarchy of accusations like who has the most accus you know and it's okay but I I got stuff to you know I just think I have a show and it's like I I kind of like hope people know like if you're gonna like if I'm your friend especially if you're another content creator and we like meet and stuff like that you know it's like I
mean really hoping it's I hope like after the 30 days like she will talk to me like I can talk to her But it's like I don't feel like I've even been to talked to Peta for something like like a week and like at all or like then it's like I have seen her. I was really bothered but she's like she thinks I'm
extremely in love with and it's like I know I'm like like a weird person where it's like Emma Donna you know like different like women I like talk to or whatever then like most of the end you know most of those
people do not like you guys still hear me I'm sorry but u or it's like or never did or I I don't know. It's like It was funny because the woman Shannon was like, "Where's Psyches Angels now?" >> Yeah. Like Psyche's Angels. I think I have Crystal and DJ Electra and um and Paige like occasionally. And it's like,
you know, they're all like, you know, off set smoking cigarettes somewhere. Did you see some of the Oh, you know, she's pulling my six. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. I'm I'm here in a wig like, you know, and I still look masculine probably. I still look like the Lord of the Rings, like the the elf king or something. It's okay. No, I
can take it. I can take it. I don't want to say anything mean to her. I really don't. And it's like I feel it's been misconstrued already. I think feel like people are going back and like trying to cause conflict of course and saying I'm oh always oh he's saying this or they're clipping things that like I didn't complete. I'm not trying to send people to her. I I want to help promote her. I still do. But it's like I think that uh it's just sad. It's like it's like another one. It's like another I feel
like I just like get kind of like just dumped like sometimes like like Emma never talked to me like you know I do have like this past life feelings some people maybe that's why it's like I go into these like weird like not not really obsessive like it's not like weird obsessive but it's just like you know I I get these like ideas
in my head or like memories kind of some of some people like or even I don't know and it's just like it's not like like lustful. It's just like, you know, nostalgic. It's like it's like it's really not it's not sexual. But then it's like I again it's like I have like
I was the father of people with women past lives but I'm not saying who or what trying way too hard. I don't know. I think I will I just I don't want to judge her. I just I just I just I just take take my apology to you and uh just please take that message. I really like if I did something I apologize. It's my
issues. I I know I'm like I have you know and but I don't enjoy being treated like garbage and I wasn't I really was not abused by anybody my childhood you know you know I understand like I really was more abused by people later in life
as adult but I understand like or uh I do sometimes like she said my pattern is like running towards people or like trying to think pushing away people that that love me care about me and then like like chasing after people that hate me and treat me like garbage and it's like that's just that's nice things for me to think about as a character flaw that I feel like I'm
really not like chasing anybody around at this point like I I let things kind of come to me and I don't like force myself people's lives I try not to so and I'm just not very good socially and so you know I'm sure I did probably did something wrong or like I'm not like I should be talking as much but it's okay and it's whatever she's saying I I
whatever whatever she thinks or whatever it's her perception she's right to it and she's a strong independent woman and I love that about her I'm never going to fault her for anything she thinks feels and it's like anybody that like doesn't like really just doesn't like me it's like it's fine um but you know I I just like feel like
I didn't mean for like things to get all messed up. Like I it just seems like it's like I feel like it's like astrological because just happens with people just got really mad. That's why I must be doing something
like what is it? Oh the 30 days. She said in 30 days she said oh well I had an email a few nights ago. She said, "Oh, well, I'm not I'm taking a 30-day break." And I was like, "Okay." Then I think later, she clarified it was like a 30-day break for my channel from coming to my channel. She's like, "But I can still go to her," she said. And then I was like
talking in her chat and Carl was in there and he started calling me big boy in the chat. I was like, "Called him an old man." Then she told me to like calm down and like that I was like acting like jealous of Carl because of the beat or something and I was just like I was like oh my gosh I just like left and then I mean that's all I said. I'm not and I don't I'm not saying anything besides like just what happened like I'm not trying to say anything like negative or tease her or anything. I really like
I really really like her. I hope we can still be friends or whatever, you know. But um it's like u I just w I'm not lying like tell the whole truth that she never she never like said a negative thing to me until like just like just like you know listen so I don't know like
oh the ear hook okay I'm sorry I'm sorry if I'm missing the chat Yeah. Uh well, well, you know, someone talking about autism, you know, it's like
I think everybody like has like it's a human mind. It's like we have like these little we have these different words have names for what everything but those are just like kind of like taking a bunch of symptoms and like putting them to a name. It's like we all have like a lot of things. There's a lot of things especially when we bring out of your mind and it's like and I've done a lot of like obviously
say like done a lot of self discovery exp. That's why I was trying to tell her about like the Lilith thing. Okay. So it's like kind of complicated but you know like a Lilith there's a certain type of woman that is like really exemplified. Okay. Like and Emil Biotin is one. I think Elisa Jordan
is one. Um but um also Mr. big pipes did like this reading like you know on like what kind of demon would would Alex be and it said Lilith and it's like so I I think that she has that energy too you know and like other women that I've known and it's like but um yeah so this Lilith energy and but it's like but then it's like but I have like this past life memories about Lilith and
like just knowing her like a lot of lifetimes and like I know her as like mostly like this like red hair like freckled kind of girl and it's like um so that's what That's like right. So she's like my little and I was doesn't even like look like my little
Scorpio at all. Like might be like you know my Taurus Taurus. >> I don't know. It's like she she does change but she's always she likes dark so inside the hat like she doesn't want to be out projected out to like other people.
That's when she was possessed
and I say I hope that I don't know what it is.
It's probably my personal not very socially intelligent. So call it like it's like very very trusting but at the
same time I've been okay mainly. So it's like I haven't really trusted something that brought me into too much physical danger. I just go window shopping. I just feel like I'll take off my um Yeah. I feel like I was kind of making a
judges. Um anyway, yeah. So what time is it?
I keep Yeah, it's like I hope I hope that whatever it is I hope I just like I'm sorry if I said I didn't to like I'm not trying to like Um, she was like she like I'll read you
her post and it's like her post was like I was kind of like what I like I just didn't understand really what she's talking about but if anyone wants to translate it to me you can um hold on. So okay and but then she posted another
thing like okay so she posted on her board for those who have um continue to ask me about why I've chosen to essentially go no contact with psyche awakens. The answer is.3 within this video. So there's a video there and it says I I I haven't seen it. Okay. I was like I was like I kind of heard that she was talking about me. So I was like I
don't want to watch it. It says I'm very aware as of current of what of of who he's egging on to trash talk me on his panel.
Um, no surprise he's very passive aggressive and I'm aware of the false narratives being pushed about me. Bottom line, I'm not okay with teen groomers, ofophiles, pedophiles, and or child abusers and that's something public figures beta um
enables and condones along with a few other criminal elements. Psyche misrepresented his situation to me. I don't hate him, but I'm not interested in being a part of anything revolving around VA. I do wish he'd respect my boundaries, but truth be told, he's incapable of being solid when
it comes to someone like myself at this stage of his life. Trying to force someone like me to be okay with evil is wrong. God will take care of the situation. My removing myself from that social group was the right thing to do. And then but then later she posted again. She said, "Our friends at Psyche Awakens
did it. He revealed the truth of that thing that is tonight. Good job." So,
I mean, it wasn't too bad. I mean, it's like wasn't like, you know,
We all have a little troll blood in us. I think that's the thing is that we all have like a we all have that side and maybe it comes out um with certain people that that like trigger us in a certain way. I don't know.
I was trying to be fair and balanced with the interview. I mean, I mean, people I mean, I'm happy to um help people promote as much as they want to. People are welcome on the panel. People are welcome to promote their shows. I love content creators even. And then she was like saying like, "Oh, she's like, I let up Sand Man and he's like I mean, someone came in the chat today
saying, "Oh my god, well, Sam Man plays Roblox or something." And then they then because he plays Roblox, he was accusing him of of the PDF. And it's like that to me is just like things going too far. It's kind of ridiculous.
Time is a smile. Let me see. How far up is it? Let's see it. Time. Oh, here it is. Will you please admit I'm not gay and in love with I am in love with Peta. Think that is is a warlock energy vampire. PETA is a
Mexican gang leader trying to uh alien Alexandra. It seems very rational. You know what? I think that might be like the truth though. I mean, all that you said, I think that's just like the simplest explanation basically based on like I mean how how more this is like basically what makes most sense to me?
I mean it doesn't it to you because well except me I'm not gay. Like I do love beta. I mean I say I do but so but I'm not in love but I but I love so I can say and I'm not know and I'm not not like happy sometimes. So maybe I don't know I did date a woman once for a few months but
it was not it was like a it was like a re I don't know I I have to be like talked into it maybe manipulated into I need to be groomed into a straight relationship. Okay. I need I need some serious grooming including like you know the gourmet like the really like you know the fancy expensive dog food and most people No, not this. What's with all the weird stuff around the edges?
Are you talking about my uh this talking about cat? Let me see. So, I'm overthinking. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. It's like a razor. You just cut away what doesn't make sense. So, it's Yeah, that's the simplest. The simplest thing. Yeah. Because Well, it's like
ear the ear hook mic. Okay. I'll look them up on Amazon. Okay. Yeah. Um,
I just feel like I suck and sometimes I can't do anything right. But you know what? I just like I feel like I feel like I wanted to like, you know, talk like like just like talk to her like or something about it. And it's like I think I can only talk to her in her chat right now. Just like with VA, right? I do have VA's number. I actually
had their number, but it's like I'm not going to follow them on my phone. It's like, oh my god, the first like they would say this, but like he's call my phone one or two times like see like first call. So I I just don't want to bother people. I don't want to bother people in their show, you know? But I feel like I I kind
of kind of can be a distraction if I'm in the show somebody's show like sometimes unless they like want me to be on you know talk so then I like that but you know I and I don't like the thing is like Sam man is like annoying as and like Vita is like hating hating on me right now and it's like I really like
I yeah I should be like oh f them and like you know and but I told her and I told her and she also told Like I don't mean to disclose too much but she said you know oh she's like I understand if you ever want to talk to me and be friends with her I you know I understand because she always knew she always was like oh you know you really care for her you was like but it turned into like now like I'm obsessed with her and like you
know like I'm like in competition with Carl now I was like okay if I'm like in a competition with like with with Carl and thing that is I think it's like you know well they could probably like I don't know they probably like you know figure out some kind of nerdy weapon or something. I I could do real magic, right? But they can too probably. I mean, I don't know. Like I
remember Vita said Carl cursed her and then her life was never the same. That's all I remember. She told me that on the phone one time. I don't want to gossip saying she But maybe is it possible that like I don't know because guys I believe in this metaphysical stuff and I believe in the spiritual war too. So, is it possible
that she wants to like lift the curse? And so, she's like that's why she's nice to Carl. She wants him to like or do he wants or she wants to do like a counter ceremony or like do you think she wants him back? Like all these kind of interesting questions, right? Because,
you know, I can tell there's like a lot of emotions around her crying over me. It just seemed like it was like a little bit I can talk about you right now. I think it was a little bit over. It was like it was like basically a way for her to get like a lot of sympathy, you know, because what's the twist in the Carl Bea story?
I don't know. I I I've been out of the loop a little bit because I haven't memor. So, what's the twisted twist in the car story? What? Not to discuss it, but it's interesting now. Oh yeah, it is interesting. Yeah, we can discuss I mean we can discuss Carl Bea
like that's not for all my I don't care. It's like because it's like they're um you know she has a show. I can I can discuss people with shows. It's like that's why we're here. It's like to be talked about and to talk about other people. I mean that's kind of what being a radio or I don't know YouTube host is like oh especially for me because I'm a
like a live streamer with open panels. So, right. I don't know. I kind of have to do like all this stuff myself, you know, so or like a lot myself and it's like, you know, with a very very low budget and uh we go. Anyway, I have some new shorts coming. I have
actual shorts. I should design some more stuff should come soon. Okay. Someone came up. >> Hello.
>> Hello. Hello. How are you? >> I'm okay. How are you? >> I'm okay. So, yeah, just to kind of let you know what's happening. It's not really discussing beta. So, I hope she doesn't get upset about this. It's just what's going on. Ah thing that is I saw your mom walk
into your room today dick and you tried to hide her. You got up. Yeah. You live with your mom dick. I thought you were an established man. >> I'm one of >> like maybe ex-military. You're just some 90. How old are you? How old do you live in mommy's house? >> I'm 58 and I >> 58 and your mom clean up after you. Your
mom came in today to take your little coffee cup away. I caught it. I'm always watching. >> I'm always watching, homie. >> My mother needed help. >> And your heart dropped. >> When my mother, boy, >> I got rid of my condo and let my mother move in with me. And now my uncle is going through dementia and he needs
people to take care of him. So, he now lives here, too. >> So, you're good. If >> Okay. >> you think if you think that makes me a loser or something like that, >> calm down. Calm down. Relax. I don't give a crap, man. I mean, >> I just saw when she came in and you tried to hide her, you got up and like put the shoulder and I hit the cam. I'm like, why is he ashamed of his mom? He should be paming her up. Like, say hi to
my mom. >> That's exactly why I don't want her to be on camera, man. That's that's why I was upset. That's why I was like, don't just come in, man. Like, no. So, I know to turn the camera off. >> Correct. >> You remind me of a little bit is Victoria J. >> Your mom's the best. See, see how crazy I am, bro? I'll attack anything I see, man. I'm always watching. But I'm also
>> I've been on my No, I've been on my own since I was like 20, 21, maybe around there. I was on my own and then around 49, 50, like I just whatever. Life was being what it is. >> You know, my mother, we're going to take care of our parents in their old age cuz they took care of us their whole life
>> and that's the game. They take care of us and then at the end we take care of them. >> I come from that, you know, Greek old school tradition thing, right? Where you don't just cast the uh >> correct >> the old-timers out, right? >> Never. I would never put my parents in a nursing home. Never. They will die next to me in my living room. Like, what are you crazy? That's some crazy
>> It's just your parents in a nursing home. >> Circumstances have led to this point. So, we all got together and we got this uh this town home together and my uncle my uncle needs constant help. I mean, he's getting to the point where we're getting >> So, you got your mom and her brother >> going to wander away now. What? >> So, you're taking care of your mom and
her brother? >> I mean, I'm helping my mother around. I'm helping her out. I wouldn't say I'm taking care of her. She's really taking care of my uncle and I'm just kind of like helping out. That's why I'm usually >> that are marbles. She's not old. >> No, he's not old. >> One. >> Yeah. That's why I'm usually up at night so I can give let my mom have the day to
herself, you know, I'm not in her way and all that stuff, you know, and I work from home, so it's not like I have to be up at a certain hour to be at an office. So, >> I envy you, man, having your family close to you. >> Yeah. >> I think that's why it goes so hard at people cuz, you know, >> and I know how it is on the internet. I mean, once people find that stuff out,
it it's it becomes a joke and it's like, okay, well, I mean, I'm not embarrassed to be taking care of my mother in her, you know, elderly age, you know? It's just the way it is. >> No, don't be ashamed, though. >> Yeah. Especially my uncle, man. Like, he's really he's in pretty bad shape.
>> Yo, I come from Colombia, man, and there that doesn't exist. Nursing homes don't exist there, >> right? Yeah. your parents live with you to you know like the family lives together like the United States is a whole different like mindset >> than these other countries it's all about family like not living with your
parents is like crazy >> here it's like I got to die like be alone in nursing home I just want to say that Alex mentioned she's like well psyche doesn't like she doesn't realize like you know now Jay dog is apparently finally left my team. You know >> what? This is all getting crazy, man. >> He's not like he doesn't like me anymore
or something like that. Like I don't know. I don't know. It's like I don't know. >> Why Jade Dog? Who gives a dick? >> Why would Jay Dog turn on you? Did something happen there? I don't understand that. >> I don't know. She just said like, "Oh, well Jay Dog's like a person. >> We got to snap out of this like two year old mentality."
>> Yeah. I don't concentrate more on They should like Jay Dog. No, in Psyche's panel instead of what Jay Dog or Peter or Alexandra Mayor says or even me or thing that's the problem. >> You know what Psych, >> you would have been a 10K by now, bro. But every day you wasted on your all
your energy and all these other people. It's just like a >> door of pretty good position to talk to beta. >> This is a new song. because I know she was very upset about Jay Dog especially and Alexander and if both of them have abandoned you then
>> everyone's mad at me like you know like Jay dog it's like I didn't >> honestly I have no place in any of this I don't know Jay dog beater or you guys you guys have been family like forever I'm just a dick up here talking
But Alex, I was going to say they're a country. She's looking like India. They've got like four generations living in one house. >> Yeah, exactly. >> Like it should be >> that's family, man. I don't know what the hell's going on over here, bro.
>> Not to lay the blame. You were the calm in my wild parade. The friend that never flinched when I was afraid. >> I was coming up here sight to tell you about the latest Carla twist. This doesn't really involve them
directly. >> The third part
for the laughter, the light, the way you stay. If the road bends and you turn away again, know my door still open. >> You got to stop making songs of these stupid girls, dick. It's been like 3 months already.
Alexander beat us songs every day. get your head back in the game. They warn me. I might lose what I adore. That patterns come to test what hearts are for. But I stood my ground when others threw their stones. Told them
leave her be. She's finding her own home. I never turned and never let it twist. Just pray for peace in the space we miss. And maybe someday when the ache
has thin, you'll see I was broken, not cruel within. And thank you, Alexandra, for the grace you gave. for the patience. When my fears misbehave,
if the past still echoes, let it end. My door still open. My love won't end. Maybe I'm just a ghost in your rear view
light, but I still wish you warmth in your quiet nights. And if forgiveness ever finds its way again, you'll see me waiting, not to pull you in, but to say amen. Thank you, Alexandra, for everything
true. For the mirror you held when I couldn't see through. No bitterness, no mask to defend. Just love that lingers and a door that won't end. So if you
ever wander back through the rain, you'll find me here softly the same. Not mad, not lost, just a friend with a heart still open for you again.
Oh,
>> yeah. >> So, you there? >> Yeah. >> Okay. So, let me just really quickly let me just tell you I got censored bae. I wonder what I said. Anyways, um so Carl's ex contacted BEA one day to talk behind the scenes.
Okay. And then she appeared on uh on a few of BEA's panels. At this point, we didn't know that she was uh Carl's ex or that Carl was involved in any way. >> Arrow something or other, right? >> Mimi. You remember Mimi? >> Yeah, she's an arrow, >> right? She didn't talk much >> when she was on Sykes on VA's panels.
>> Then all of a sudden a few days ago, she appears with Carl on yours. I think it was right. >> Was it Alexander? >> Was it Alexandre's whoseever whoever it was? She appears they appear together on and she's calling uh Beta out >> at this point. >> She was what to beta? >> She was calling Beta out.
>> Okay. So then she appeared with on VAS again and they had a bit of a thing and that's where it was never going to like the ex-girlfriend and why is he doing poking around the ex-girlfriend anyway? I think he's trying to triangulate and like doing narcissistic stuff but they're narcissists probably too like >> who's triangulating? Sorry.
>> Carl. Carl's trying to like >> Carl is Yeah. He's bringing his new girlfriend around his old girlfriend. I mean what is that about? It's like you're not supposed to like really do that. Where's the wig? I I think I was getting a little bit too itchy. >> Well, I don't know. So, interesting. That's an interesting little twist. I don't know where it
stands right now. Last I heard, there was talk of uh Mimi wanting to actually meet up with Va to hash it out. So, I don't know what's going to happen. >> Well, you know, it's like I wish the best. I mean, I don't know. It's like it's like Vita is like I just like tried enough. I'm really not in love with her. I don't know. It's like
do you think I'm in love with her? When you see like I'm in love with her like powerful love like I've never even seen her like outside of like a dark shadow. It's like I don't obviously don't know what she looks like if I everybody every time I show the uh the AI I do of her like who is that?
Like oh they don't recognize it. That's why this image of her in my mind that's like a fake image. So if I ever met her I'd probably be like my gosh she looks so different. Like I mean I probably and then it's because I've only seen her in like the shadows. Like I saw her she was on camera but she was like dark shadows and you could just see kind of her legs crossed. Everything else was just dark. >> I don't know exactly what you're saying
because I can barely hear you and I heard something about dark >> once like on a camera like um and she likes she's sitting in like dark kind of like the shadows. >> Who did? And so appear >> know what she looks like. How do I So that make me in love with an idea. That make it really pathetic. Even though like you know I did I did like you know
>> kind of pretend. >> Wait, I don't get it. So she she appeared on camera one day in Dark Shadows. >> Is that what you're saying? >> Yeah. Yeah. >> And that means what? >> Nothing. That's that's all that's the only time I've seen her on camera. And so >> Oh, I see what you mean. Yeah. Okay. >> I really don't know what she looks like. >> Yeah. I'm saying I just like I so how could I be in love with her? Like what she could be totally different than my image of
her because the picture I made of her everyone says oh that >> you there I mean you can still fall in love with someone someone's character right someone's personality and you're kind of like filling in the rest yourself with your own imagination. So they said that yeah they said that doesn't look like beta that looks like you know you just beta said it looks
like I just googled you know Persian woman with curly hair and a big nose but I thought but I didn't use I like I got the AI off the I got I got her picture off a trip kick video and then I put it in the AI and so it kind of >> Do you think that looks like her? >> That's how in my mind that's how I see >> Yeah, her. >> but she but I heard she's like real skinny. She's I've seen her actually she
is real skinny but I always picture her like you know a little bit overweight but uh No, she's real skinny. >> Hey loser. Um I don't know. I don't see her like that. I But I mean I've seen her I see her uh >> seen ghost. That's ghost. >> Yeah. >> But I see be as uh what you call the avatar, right? So I kind of go by that. Yeah, you're right. I haven't really
seen her myself skinny right here with like the middle avatar. >> Right. Yeah. But these are cartoons, man. By this stuff. >> Yeah, you can't. >> It's cartoons. What do you mean? >> Yeah, >> what?
>> What? It's wrong. >> No, I don't. You're saying look at the middle one. It's skinny. And it's like, yeah. Okay. But that doesn't mean that that that's what beta looks like. Well, I know I did several I did several tries. I mean, I did several tries and I thought that was the most the closest to what I thought in my mind, but it's like Yeah. Like I think for example, like if this was one of my tries, it was >> okay. Well, I don't you know, I don't
know. >> Yeah, it was like here. This one, this one was one of them. How does this one look? >> Oh Yeah. >> I don't think she really likes uh being portrayed by AI like >> Do you think she looks more like that? No, I mean I guess I can see a little bit of the nose from
>> not even it doesn't even look like her at all. It could be like a >> No, I don't think so. Maybe maybe just the nose, but >> it could be that it's just a nice clip of friendship hair or that one. >> No, not at all. >> That looks like Moon Fry. >> Anyways, I don't want to rate the AI images of beta. I mean, I don't think she likes them,
>> right? I don't I don't like what she says about me and I don't like how she treats me either and it's like and I don't like how she how she talks about me on her show and and she won't stop and she's she's mean about it and she talks in code and stuff like that and everyone else >> she talks in code >> what >> she talks in code in in what way? >> Even the biscuit thing is some stupid uh
code. I think it means like you know bunch of she gets a bunch of guys together they all jerk off on a biscuit and the last one to come eats it. I don't think so, man. I think both of you use this biscuit thing just to spite each other. She uses she plays it up because she knows it bothers you and you don't like it because you know that that she enjoys it that it's a joke that she
enjoys herself. >> I made a biscuit song. So obvious biscuit song and I make good biscuits. She's she's she's not only saying I'm a bad tarot reader, but she's saying I'm a bad biscuit maker and I'm afraid of biscuits. She saidiscuit attacks when I picked up a KFC box. I can and there's and there's an AI image of me picking up a KFC box looking
frightened like >> you you guys have both taken shots at each other man both of you I haven't said anything about the stuff you guys but then she's mean about mean to me and then she's like she's like well I know you you've been cing now it's like I actually have like so be that like has not been like a friend to me at all like for all these like all
these months and stuff like that and then it's like so I try to like just get it to like a least like cordial level as a as a content creator and it's like so I could at least like you know maybe like be able to like help if I you know things if I could you with between people but you know but it's like at the same time not trying to get involved between people and then it's like all of a sudden it's like no everyone hates me
and it's like right and like >> but it's not just suddenly everybody hates you usually something has happened right it hasn't just come out of the blue Now she might as well she might not well she thinks Beta is a mastermind person. She might as well like you know team up with Beta and like you know figure out how to like you know destroy >> who who know who's the third person you mentioned there.
>> Alex and Beta. >> Okay. Alex. All right. I just I wasn't sure. >> Probably in time they will be okay talking to each other. I don't rule it out. >> I know. But it's like and then it's then what? Then what? they'll be friends and it's like and I'll be just like, you know, this like jerk that they can both say, "Oh my god, isn't he a terrible person?" And I was like, >> I didn't like try to like hurt anybody
or like do anything wrong. It's like I just was like just here. I don't I don't think I was like bad or like said something that bad. Like people are always like kind of like like I'm like I'm always feel like I'm like getting punished or something like or like getting like you know just like kind of like people are too hard on me. But maybe it's like I deserve it, I guess. I don't know. Um, it's like
everyone does it, it must deserve it or something. >> Psych. Can you quickly translate binary? >> Binary like what does it mean? >> Yeah. >> Like, can you quickly do it? >> Open code or something on the on my >> Yeah. I don't know. Someone just gave me a message in chat in binary. >> Oh, well translate. I I don't know how to open it really. I'm like not that smart, you know.
>> Never mind. I'm trying to learn code, but it's like I actually the like with the website I'm like doing the most code I've ever done, but at the same time I'm not a coder. >> I'm okay with code. Like I'm pretty I'm intermediate, so I can help you out if you have some questions, but it depends what it is. >> Well, just go to my website and look at it right now and tell me like like a lot
of it's not working, but tell me do you think I can like if I continue work every day, I have a certain level. Go to psychever.org. or >> give me one sec. Hang on. I'm still working on this uh binary thing. >> Oh, it's fine. That's fine. Can someone translate the binary thing? If there like zeros and ones, it's going to be like Yeah, it's going to be like some
>> blame psych chat. I mean, not Psych. Blame uh blame time chat. >> Time message. Yeah, the only way I can translate it at the moment is by squishing it all together and then it just gives me a gigantic number which is like in the
trillions or something. >> You're too smart for us time. You just got to tell me what it is, man. Okay, sorry. Uh, Psych, what was the uh what was the website?org.
But it's like still like in like stuff. So it's like >> What do you mean wrong time? I didn't even take a guess. I just said I don't know. You got to tell me, man. >> psychiverse.com.org.org.
Okay. What about it? Sorry, Alex. It's like, you know, the start of something, but it's like I just want to see like a lot of like some stuff doesn't work on it yet, but it's good. I just want to see how how you think it looks. It's just as a >> seems fine. It seems pretty uh a generic as far as modern sites go. Uh nothing >> too generic. Okay.
>> It's not terrible. No, no. I mean, it's it's got the modern style and it's got the modern layout. That That's what I mean with genetic uh generic. I don't mean in a bad way. >> I'm just bootstrapping the whole thing. So it's like >> Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. >> It's like right at the beginning. I have so much I'm going to put into it, but it's Yeah, it's got a good >> So is everything everything's activated like as far as all the links uh all the
buttons and everything are working. >> I still have to like you know go into like like a couple of services like Stripe and Mailchimp and stuff like that and get them like make sure all the settings are right because I think they should be easily integrated. But yeah. Um cool. >> Hang on. No, no Canada drive, not a webdev, but uh I I know some coding and
I know a little bit of >> it. Midnight I can actually work on a little bit. Oh, it's 11:23. So I can maybe order. >> Shut up, Alex. Oh my god. I told you that information if it got out, I would be uh I would be chided with it in a childish way. And you're the first one to do it. The one that I was even
telling that it was going to happen. I mean, just ridiculous. Holy crap.
Failed at life. Yeah.
So, Alex, tell me about your home where you're where you're taking care of your elderly uh family and not leaving them out in the uh out in the street or out in the cold. Tell me about that. You just want to criticize, >> eh? No, that's what I thought.
>> What? >> Is he on the panel? Oh, no. >> No, he's now turned against me. remember when he was on panel and he said that that it's a good that's that's the the way to do things to take care of your uh elderly family and that and to not kick him to the curb. >> Well, now he's in chat and he's like >> Oh, I know.
calling me a loser and all that cuz I live with my mom and my uncle and my brother right now is has moved in too because he just split with his wife. Okay. Is that okay for you, Alex? Or does that also make me a loser? idiot. Oh What's that? Psych. Don't even listen to him.
Oh, there's a jacko'lantern.
Oh y pass out.
Sorry. So, what are you up to tonight? Just uh >> like when I said I could give you a hand, I meant like I could help you out and let you know of things with coding that you might need to do or what an issue >> to do. I know. I was just >> But I don't know like as far as what you want to do with a website. I'm not really a web
>> I mean I I'm fine with >> web developer so I don't know a whole lot about it. >> Okay. >> I work better with with Python >> inspired by IP too but I wanted like oh you know I wanted to be like a directory where all the live streamers when they're on it'll show who's on and then there's there'll be a room where like whoever's like on who's the tech like the top of the list or whatever will be
playing whenever they're live and stuff like that. And so and then people can get introduced to like people in the panel or like you know because once you >> bae oh my god I know what you mean by meet somebody Python that's not what I mean. >> Yeah. >> Um no but I I am more of a Python coder and not not so much backend and front end like I really don't do much with
JavaScript and that be like serious help. I had a second point of it. Thank you for your
want to jump up. I just was really coming up to let him know what was >> going on with the drama. >> Okay. So, the story was like that that you know he had he's with a new girl, right? And then it's like and then he like, you know, he's causing problems with Peter's chat with this new girl or >> Well, apparently he was with this girl something.
while he was um not hitting up but uh you know come calling for Beeta recently lately. So he was apparently with that girl while he was over in Bea's saying all and sending her chat messages and all or
sending her text messages and all that proclaiming his you know >> the middle be like I don't think wants to date him. I think if he has a girlfriend fine it's like it's like you know everyone should just live their life and be happy like I don't understand why it's like he has to come sniffing around back here. I don't I just don't understand unless he's like trying to cause trouble, but I'm not
jealous of him or I think he's like more magical or whatever. Like some I I mean I really don't think in those terms like I don't think people are better. >> Alex, do you know what failed to la What failure to launch is? Didn't I tell you I lived on my own since I was 20? I was married
and failure to launch. Like seriously, dude, you're you're really reaching, eh? You really want to get to me?
>> Well, yeah. >> Yeah. What we good?
137 >> back where I started in my own home. Yes. Thank you, Alex. That's very brilliant.
They whispered her name in the temples of night. Golden wings glowed in the candle light. Crowds came running just to see the flame. But envy was the price of fame. And now he stands where the echoes fall.
With terror in hand, hearing every call from praise to venom in the same breath said. But the fire in his eyes burns gold, not red. Two side, one thread of life. Crossing
ages, crossing night to trial storms and shadow seas. Both abound by destiny. One to myth, one breathing here. Both unbroken, both sincere. The prophecy unfolds in time. every card
in every side. She sorted the seats in the dark of the hall. While the jealous laugh, praying she would fall.
He faces the chat like a lion caged. Every word a spark, every glare a blade. Yet every task, every poison dare turns into fuel for the fire he wears. They thought the gain would grind him down, but he builds his crown from the stones they've blown.
Two psyches, one thread of light, crossing ages, crossing night. Through trial storms and shadow seas, both are bound by destiny. One, one breathing here. Both unbroken, both sincere.
Prophecy unfolds in time. Every card and every sign. She walks through death for gifted a box. He walks through lives like a wall
through the box. The underworld speaks, but they keep their pace. Shadow to shadow, face to face. In the deepest darkness, all hide. Both emerged on the other side. Change born
and made to be the keepers of their legacy. Final through death for a gift. Now the trials fade from sight. Through chaos, fire and whispering seas they stand crowned in victory.
One in story, one in flesh. Yet their journey and match the prophecy at last reveal in a soul that will not heal.
That will not heal. Oh,
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