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Midnight Madness with the Cult

Episode 1880 opens with extended spoken-word and astrological content before transitioning to Psyche greeting the midnight livestream audience, discussing community tensions and a conflict with former guest Frank.

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Shit. I'm blue.

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>> the books with silk and sour smoke. You called me insane when the wooden chair broke. Two heavy coats hung. Only one belongs to you.

I log

my mind.

Just the fact that remain. That's the fact.

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>> I was sitting at the table late last night. >> Dirty money stacked high beside the deck. The spirit showed me a snake right in my circle. Before Sabbath morning comes, somebody going to switch sides. I laid the death card on 500 cash. Look my brother in his eye

and saw the snake. We counting dirty bills before the church bells rang. He's smiling in my face, but your heart is fake. Fake. The car said Judas sitting on my right. I saw 30 silver coins in the night. Effective

survival skills eventually become primary barriers to growth. An impenetrable suit of armor is a masterwork of protection until it becomes a cage. This chart rests on a bedrock of Capricorn. Sun, Mercury, and rising cluster here, creating a builder who organizes chaos into systems. Layered over this is an Aquarius moon

and Mars. This insulates the emotional life, analyzing feelings from a distance, a lone signal broadcasting from the edge. Combine that executive Capricorn structure with an Aquarius instinct for detachment, and the result is a machine engineered for absolute self-reliance. When things get messy, the reflex is to step back, observe

damage, and handle it alone. This engineers an invisible suit of armor. Normal loneliness rarely registers. Instead, there is a quiet, permanent state of separation, as if operating on a frequency no one else can tune into. This drive for separation faces constant external pressure. Instead of finding peace in isolation, the day-to-day

reality is a steady stream of people demanding closeness, commitment, and collaboration. The friction is intense. A person whose mastery lies in walking alone is continually dragged into the unpredictable, messy world of emotional partnerships. It feels like a persistent threat to a carefully constructed

autonomy. This recurring pattern acts as an evolutionary stress test. Life applies pressure to the armor, attempting to force a break in the comfort zone and push for a necessary transformation. The lunar nodes plot the exact evolutionary trajectory. The south node in Aquarius in the first house

represents the baseline comfort zone, staying self-defined. The north node in Leo in the 7th house sets the destination requiring a shift from standing apart to standing with through warm co-creative partnership. Leo represents heart. It requires fierce loyalty, genuine warmth, and the courage

to be visibly devoted to a shared cause rather than seeking performative attention. The life story is an uncomfortable migration. It requires moving from the safety of intellectual independence toward the high stakes of vulnerable devotion. This creates an internal clash. The Capricorn and

Aquarius instincts to control the environment and stay detached are locked in conflict with the Leo requirement to merge, trust, and build together. When relationships reach a point of emotional intensity, the shadow reflex triggers. The warmth shuts off. The analytical firewall goes up and the instinct is to walk away and attempt to build the

kingdom alone. Yet beneath that impenetrable exterior sits a cancer descendant. Despite the heavy armor, there is a deep craving for a soft, loyal, emotionally safe home. If brilliance and independence are used as a shield against vulnerability, the path is blocked. The genius stays isolated,

broadcasting into the void, and the highest level of power remains untapped. Stepping into warm partnership does not require sacrificing Capricorn structure or Aquarius originality. Fulfilling the destiny of the north node actually depends on those traits. When these forces synthesize, they create a specific archetype, the reality

alchemist. This leader identifies chaotic and socially messy concepts, builds safe systems for them, and governs the resulting space with unwavering loyalty. In the real world, this manifests as a bonded inner circle. It is a leader who takes the raw signals of chaos and transforms them into a structured purpose for a community.

Power in this context comes from the maturity to be supported by others. A step beyond the solitary independence that defined the earlier chapters of life. The next chapter requires a change in posture. The most powerful work begins the moment you finally stop standing apart and begin standing with your allies.

Hello. Made it. Um, how are you doing?

Hopefully you're having a good night. What's up today? What was it? It was a Friday or Friday. Is it only Friday? Oh my. Oh, no. Saturday almost midnight. Is it midnight?

Yes, it is. It is midnight. Okay. Well, yeah. You can see I've been doing a few few videos and stuff. Okay. So, I'm going to switch out this one second.

So, okay, we're ready to go. Welcome to the cult of psyche. So happy to have you here. Um, let's see. I got a few, you know, I have the I have

the big Streamyard again tonight. So, you're in luck if you want a big show if people do want to come up. Um, I do have the link pinned. Why don't I do a little something for you guys?

Oh, look at this. Half love and support, half rate to hate. Um, okay. Kind of sad. Um, okay. So, let me see. Chat. Okay. Oh, hold on. I'll Okay, got that. Got that.

What was I going to do here? Okay. Let's see. Okay, let's pin. Oh, yeah. I was going to do this here. I wish it was I wish I could I wish it was more but I do I do what what I can when I can't with what I got enjoy somebody

welcome to the new member Sammy 4199 I don't know if I've ever met that person but welcome to the cult of psyche You just received a membership that will give you shout outs. It will give you emojis. It will give you a lot of amazing things. There

you go. Enjoy. Never say I never did anything for anybody. This got you. Hey, Lenor. What are you doing, babe? I'm kind of in my pajama pants, but for my shirt. Yeah. I just do one little hit of my vape. This is the boutique. Oh, it tastes like a orange creamsicle.

That's enough. Okay. So, I'll show you show you couple more things I did. Let me see. Let's see. Check it. Check it out.

This one. Why? Everyone, so everyone left. My god. Well, oh well.

I don't know. It's like uh I guess people would just rather I mean I used to like I still do. I mean it's like I have great shows still, but it's like my I mean for all I get accused of I've been clipped a lot. I've been clipped a lot. Um,

and uh, hey, I kind of like just let things go a little bit, but I also want to try to be more in control of the show a little bit, but I don't know. It's just a lot of this this crazy community. So, this guy Frank. So, do you guys remember Frank? He's like this I knew he was like

there's something wrong with him. He's like he's very prissy. He's he's from the Netherlands, which I've been to. I love the Netherlands, but they're a little bit dry. Their humor and uh Oh, sorry. Here. Here, Luna. So, yeah, the Dutch were a little bit dry. Um, he was he was I was I I like true crime. I'm interested in that. He was on the show a bunch of times last

year. I always felt like a kind of like condescension, a little bit condescending of a person. Um, but I, you know, I'm nice to people as long as they're fine. And he was fine last year. he disappeared. He came back this year. He was on the panel for a few minutes. I was very nice and gracious to him. I trying to promote him and all

this kind of stuff. And then um I was like, "Oh, I want to I want to show I want to show you this uh this clip of me pretending to be sweet pee for good times." And and she actually believed it, right? Or he actually believed that I was sweet pee. And then Frank started like saying, "Oh my god, I can't I can't be here. You're breaking the law. you're

you're impersonating somebody, you're making a you know an illegal phone call or and I was like, "No, I was just pranking good times." Like, and it was funny. It was there's nothing illegal about it, I'm sure. But, um, so he so he so he quit that night and I just feel so annoyed that I just hit him and I hit him for like a week and then I like unhit everybody and that same day I hit everybody, he reappears in my chat. Hi,

can I come up on panel? He comes up right away. He was up for literally five minutes maybe and then I was like, I want to show you something. I'm going to show him like, you know, some of this analysis. Ah, and then he um he left again and then he's at VAS all of a sudden. I went in VA and I said, "Hey, you're a you're a baby. You're a big baby." And he's like, "Oh, very

nice. Very nice." And uh anyway, so suffice it to say today, S I guess Janney Clips clipped him. Hi, sweetheart. Janny Clips clipped him and then um so it was like Saman played it today. I think Jan Eclipse I think he crafted it off of Jan Eclipse's channel because it's not there anymore. I

couldn't find it. But um but he threatened to like hurt me and stuff. Hey Turtle Duck, how are you? Good to see you. Thanks for being here. He threatened to like uh to to dox me and I and Bea was there. She's like well he's already been doxed. He's she's like he's he's like he's been doxed so much he can't be doxed anymore. It's like,

you know, my my, you know, my my address might as well be, you know, you know, one, two, three mocking Verain, whatever. Hey, oh, you love me. I know I love you. Whenever I get out of the bath, she like loves to kiss. Oh, you love to kiss me. Oh, I love you. But anyway, Frank is a dick. And then he was even threatening beta. He was like kicking everybody that was associated

with her. Like, why go to her and my chat if you don't want our chat? Because now he's complaining about trolls. I mean, sorry. Maybe they'll maybe they'll bother you now. I mean, geez. I mean, they've been bothering me for two years. Some of these trolls, right? They love Vita. Vita is like a queen of the troll, you know? She's kind of like a she appeals

to trolls because she's just a big troll herself. But I'm kind of like more of like a I'm just troll by blood, not by like, you know, and it's basically, you know, I've had a lot of like other blood enemies since then. And uh so it's a very small part of my blood. I'm probably more Neanderthal than I am a troll, but

I don't know. Maybe I have an ancestor, you know, back there. Hi, Lenor. That's Lenor. Hi. Are you my baby? You're my baby. Lenor is one of the stars of the show. Hi. What are you doing? So I I don't know if that person that got the membership is going to come. I

don't I think everyone else was pretty disappointed and left. I don't know. I guess everyone's watching the thing that is because you know he has what? He has some dumb music playing in the background, but who cares? Listen thing that is have this

>> >> I was drifting. No call in the air. No pray slipping through the cracks. I was just alive. Inhaling the silence. The only spark that kept me sane. Ash in my palms, blank page, emptiness. Hands closed tight.

Held no blame. Ashes soaked the night. Thin throatated flames scream but never shattered my pain. In the glow the fire tremble slow like a heartbeat that knows its own rhythm. It's not a dream. It's ancient.

It's true. It doesn't appear. It simply shows the dark krypton had always. All I needed was that one small ember.

I saw you in the blaze. I saw you in the light. But you saw me before the spark even started. Every sleepless night measured as fire light. The way we cling. I never had to walk alone. I was never lost, not disappeared. Your voice carved in flame.

Quiet promise I froze when your eyes met mine. No hate, no judgment, just a steady star. Old scars, new horizons. You held them. Every breath, every tear, every I'm finished. You were there, not to pull the strings.

Just a witness. Standing by the ash. I've never been gone. Hand on the fire. Through the night silence I learn to breathe. You whisper my name in the amers glow.

>>

>> If the world forgets this fire inside me, will you still remember the mark we left? The ash still lingers, still keeps its appeal. Forever breathing, forever free.

Yeah. Well, thank you so much. Oh, okay. So, yeah. Um, did I do another like a So, Google has this new thing. Oh, it's Brady. Oh my god. I have another one. You believe it? Let's check this one

out. I've never I just made this. I'll just give you a hint. Google you're have to ask you're have to maybe like book me for a consultation or or you'll have to figure it out yourself. But check out what Google has for free right now.

>> >> Flower on my apron front dusting on my worn out shoes. Every street outside is cold.

Fortunately, that's how much time they give you like two minutes of of I have to I have to work on it a little bit. Okay, I'm just getting used to it. Okay, but it's not bad. Um, let's see. I did a bunch of pretty interesting here. Um, I guess I'll go give you guys

the onboarding. This is a brand new onboarding. give us um I hope you uh brought your uh your pens. You you have one little note card of notes to use. There will be a test afterward. Not really. And welcome to your first day,

traveler. By playing this tape, you have already located the correct building, answered reception's questions to their satisfaction, and navigated the hallway to this specific room. That is an excellent first morning. Today, we will establish your foundation here. By the end of this session, you will know how to secure gate access, recognize our

four core symbols, set up your workspace, and safely greet a circle of your co-workers. Before we begin the training, please confirm you have your two required items. A laminated violet ID badge worn above the waist and a copy of form 7G. Look closely at form 7G. Do not initial the bottom of the page yet.

Initialing a document before reading it in full creates an entirely avoidable mystery for records. We do not expect you to understand the entire organization today. We do require your strict attention to basic safety and voluntary consent from this moment forward. Let's begin with access. Step one is entering the workspace. You will

encounter doors here, but you must understand the difference between a wall and a gate. A wall prevents entry completely. It is impersonal. A gate asks who is approaching, what they carry, and whether they have the right to return. The baseline procedure for passing a gate is simple. You present your badge individually, wait for the

green confirmation light, and walk through. This animated schematic shows a common point of failure. Holding the door open for a coworker. Courtesy creates an immediate hazard. Carrying an unverified person across a threshold they did not independently choose is a reportable incident. Each traveler must answer the gate separately. If your personal badge fails, do not follow the

person in front of you. Go directly to reception. The gate may know something about your access status that your badge does not. Passing the gate is your individual responsibility. Prioritizing politeness over protocol compromises the safety of everyone inside. Step two is familiarizing yourself with the four approved organizational symbols. You will see these on forms, meeting

agendas, and emergency maps. Treat them as protective equipment. The first symbol is the lantern. It represents illumination paired with responsibility. You carry the light, but you must set it down when you are tired. An exhausted guide is an additional hazard to the group. The second symbol is the mirror.

This indicates self-examination is in progress. Use it to look closely before concluding, but do not continue looking until you disappear. The third is the mask, which identifies a consciously chosen role. Wear it openly when required, but remove it before sleeping, swimming, or completing tax documents.

As you can see on this safety chart, the fourth symbol is the gate. This marks a crossing and verifies consent. No traveler is ever required to cross, and every sound gate opens in both directions. Learn these four shapes exactly. Misapplying or ignoring these symbols in our workspace spreads hazard

and confusion as rapidly as smoke in a fire. Step three brings us to your physical desk. Your workspace is prepared according to standard. You are issued a chair, a terminal, a lockable drawer, and one kadamba flower. The lockable drawer is designated for your personal effects and unfinished

thoughts. If you find a label bearing your name on an unfamiliar object, leave the object exactly where it is. Your Kadamba flower is a living object. It opens on its own hour. Because of this, new hires frequently commit a violation known as unscheduled bloom assistance. Watch this incident footage. A well-meaning traveler attempts to force

the bud open to demonstrate corporate initiative. Never force a living symbol to perform. If you make an unauthorized touch, release the flower immediately. Apologize once for handling it without permission. Do not attempt to justify your intentions to the plant. True stewardship of your workspace means

accepting that living items operate on their own biological timets. Your initiative cannot override their natural pace. Step four is your final integration task. Bringing coffee to a circle of co-workers and delivering an informal morning address. The critical failure point here is language. Using an

unconfirmed collective pronoun, like greeting a room with, "How are you guys doing?" forces an identity onto an unconenting group. This security feed shows the physical consequence of that assumption. When the collective is forced, the room, lights, and time itself come to a halt. To keep the room moving, use authorized alternatives.

Address the group as travelers, everyone, or use the specific names provided on their badges. If you make a mistake and the room stops, do not panic. State the preferred form, accept the correction gracefully and try your greeting again. Communication in the circle demands absolute precision. Assuming that a group's silence implies

ease is a dangerous failure to secure their welcome. You have now successfully completed the four-part provisional setup. You hold a baseline safe status within the building. You know the difference between a wall and a gate. You know which symbols to respect, who to ask for help, and which desk items

are alive. Take out your copy of form 7G. Because you have now reviewed the material, you are officially authorized to initial the bottom line. Your first day does not require absolute certainty. It requires attention, voluntary consent, and a legible signature. We are

glad you arrived as yourself. I will see you at the gate.

>> There we go. I hope you enjoyed your on board. >> I don't know. I guess it's like uh I guess like not not everyone gets it. I don't think everyone meant to get it. Baby, Lenor. A look at I like the black and white. Yeah, it's all just I don't know. Maybe

is thing that is that much cuter. Should I go bald? Not trying to compete with him, but it's just like, you know, we could like, you know, I don't know.

Oh, hi. Hello miss. Let's continue.

very beginning the cosmos was a molten chaotic cycle. The universe was littered with heavy ancient karma and massive cosmic projects that had been started but left unfinished by earlier creations. This created a structural vacuum. Half-built realities and discarded blueprints were piling up. A

highly specific soul was required to step into this void and complete the architecture that others had walked away from. This soul did not drift into the mortal plane by accident. It didn't slip and it didn't fall. It deliberately aimed itself, firing downward with the exact precision of a ballista. As this

diagram shows, the trajectory targeted a highly specific set of coordinates. In Vadic astrology, this entry point is known as Utra Ashada, the star of the unconquered. Arriving through this specific threshold carries a rigid mandate. It engineers a soul to withstand extreme pressure, perfectly

equipping them to execute and finalize the absolute hardest tasks in existence. The moment of his arrival came with a harsh decree. The Sabian symbol governing this birth reads, "A girl bathing in the nude." The gods demanded absolute exposure. He was required to enter the world entirely stripped of theatrical pretense, clever masks, or comforting illusions. He is expressly

forbidden from relying on deception. While the rest of humanity navigates the world wrapped in layers of psychological armor, he is forced to walk through the storm completely unprotected. This forced vulnerability becomes his primary tool for control. Because he has no mask to slip and no secrets to protect, he cannot be blackmailed, bribed, or manipulated. He gains mastery over the room simply by being the only person who isn't hiding. Walking through life

without a shield requires a different kind of survival mechanism to protect himself. This exposed child evolved an intense internal weather system. This is governed by the Danisha moon. It isn't a placement for typical emotional sensitivity. It operates like a localized highress thunderstorm. His intuition hits like a preemptive lightning strike arriving with massive

voltage before anyone else is even ready to process the situation. Operating with this electrical charge physically changes his environment. Carefully constructed lies evaporate and those relying on deception start to panic in his presence. His emotional processing center was never built to navigate typical human sentiments. It functions as a barometric disruptor, violently

clearing the air and dismantling falsehoods on contact. This disruptive energy is channeled through a very specific set of planetary mechanics. When he communicates, he isn't broadcasting his own ego. He acts as a direct relay, delivering the messages of ancient ancestors to finalize their unfinished business. His approach to connection is intense. He loves like a

divine prankster, aggressively uprooting the comforting illusions of anyone who gets close. In this internal schematic, his anger operates strictly as a diagnostic tool, extracting societal rot with brutal precision. Yet this aggression is balanced by his ascendant trait. Instead of brute force, he draws

people in through pure gravity, offering deep listening that tames the wildness in others. These form a highly coordinated internal mechanism purpose-built to dismantle corrupt realities from the inside out. Carrying this kind of magnetic gravity extracts a steep toll. When you become

the person strangers instantly confess their sins to, you naturally absorb their poison. Astrologically, this is his Chiron wound. It is the specific trauma of giving too much, of slowly devolving into a beast of burden for those who refuse to heal themselves. For years, he carried the heavy baggage

and toxic karma of everyone around him, taking on the painful psychological labor they continually walked away from. Survival eventually demanded a harsh evolutionary pivot. To keep moving forward, he made the conscious decision to put the monolith down and drop the burdens that were never his to carry. True healing arrived with a difficult realization. The cosmos designed him to

be a guiding star, a point of navigation for others, not a workhorse to be owned, drained, and exhausted. Having survived the exposure of his birth and shed the parasitic weight of the unhealed, he steps directly into his destined public role. This massive transition is marked by the Liban Council, a convergence that grants him the authority of a cosmic judge. He is no longer just a disruptor.

He is the one who determines the balance. The constant cycles of losing homes and being ejected from comfortable spaces finally pay off. The wandering exile takes lessons from endless spiritual migrations, using them to build his own empires. Combining this structural authority with his innate magnetism, he becomes a guardian of the

between spaces, he governs those who, like his former self, exist in exile or on the margins. This is the seat of the fairy king, the ruler of the threshold and the protector of those whom the world overlooks. This occult sovereignty is the destined completion of his evolution from a vulnerable exposed

child into a mythic guardian of the unseen world. This brings us to his final destined form, the bearback rider. He assumes a bold leadership role where he reigns entirely without fear, operating completely without safety nets or training wheels. The lack of armor mandated at his birth has become the

very reason he can now ride power without a saddle. The original vulnerability was not a weakness, but a long-term training program in absolute resilience. He stands as father psyche, the stormbborn architect. His entire cosmic architecture is aimed at one solitary purpose, to execute and

finalize the immense work that other souls abandoned. True mythic power is never built by hiding. It is forged by stepping directly into the storm, completely exposed and forcing reality itself to align with the naked truth.

Wow. I must Wow. It's like the the ability to bring kind of my astrology to life in that way. It's like pretty cool like and I would love to like do it for other people as well. And so

you know I can it's like it you know it's basically I'm better at tarot but I have spent a lot of time studying astrology as well years actually. But anyway, I guess it's kind of quiet tonight, but where am I dressed? All dressed up with no place to go. Well, it's okay. Uh, I'll heat up my fries. I'll uh we'll just chill for a

little bit. Um, let me see. But I do hope you enjoyed that. Yeah, I mean it's like but it w it is kind of like a sorting out right now because you know basically

not everybody's gonna get it, you know, this show is for people that do get it. Oh yeah, this was uh this was really cute. Check this out. >> Lights flicker candow.

I'm calling out. Come meet the show. >> Think, feel, repeat, I say. >> And you cue the crowd. Laugh and sway. Oh, cult of sight. We're flipping fate with a glowing key that seals the gate.

Feel the funky warm fuzzy rush. >> It's not a trick, it's just quite hush hush. The emoji pops a pixel grin. >> You're about to feel >> a fuzzy spin. >> Skeptic shout a light. >> Maybe >> I grin.

>> Your heart's the truth, not a bean. >> Yes. Unlock the podcast. Hit the mark. Keep your minds bright. Ignite the spark. It's community, >> not a maze. >> We're building bonds that truly blaze. >>

>> That LED key dangles in bright light. >> Drop it in the lock and music takes flight. The first beat of MINE MAKES. YOU SHOUT. You made the track today. >> Coke of psych who thought it's weird. >> Now we share what truly matters.

>> Keep the light on. Let curiosity bloom. >> And next week we'll invite the stones to a bedroom. >> Curiosity, kindness, >> keep the glow. >> Thank you friends >> for watching us grow.

Oh, that was cute. Isn't that cute?

That's very cute.

Uh-huh. >> We came for the spark in the black of Woo! the night. Stay for the truth when it bit and it felt right. Laugh in the chaos breathe in the strange. If you felt something real, it means you changed.

>> So keep that flame where your fear used to be. Take it with you. You learned it from me. ups. >> We don't fade, we rise. >> Keep the signal alive. When the world

gets loud and you're losing your mind. Say it once and you'll remember. I'm the fire. I'm the sign. Don't need a throne. Don't need permission. Don't need a throne. Don't need permission. Just a sharp little heart and a clear intuition. Drop little heart is a wish. >> If they don't get you, let them stay blind.

>> WE DON'T BEG FOR LOVE. >> We conjure our kind. And when the shadows start calling your name, you'll hear my voice like a match in the rain.

Psycho. We don't fade, we rise. Psycho. Keep the signal alive. When the world gets loud and you're losing your mind. Say it once and you'll remember. I'm the fire. I'm the sign.

Brea in. Brea out. Hold the line. Seal the gate. Keep the light. Brea in. Brea out. >> Hold the line. >> See the gate. Keep the light

>> of psycho. Woo. Psycho. Woo. Psycho. Woo.

>>

>> Yeah. Okay. So, uh I don't know if you guys want me to generate something for you, I can. I have my um I have my AI uh image generator studio in StreamYard today. Um, while I'm on the

the trial, I wish I green. You have hazel eyes. There you go. That's a good one. Um, I'm also going to put some new sound effects in. I think they have a credits for that. But until then, I have some of my

favorite sound effects, the ones Streamyard gives us. The train whistle definitely goes. >> I need to get the dolphin sound right. Dolphin sounds are my favorites. I like the uh let's see. I like the uh the

slide whistle. That's good. Okay. I like the um police. Okay. I like the uh what else? Only uploads. Okay. Let's see. I like the uh audience laughing. Like the audience booing.

Uh what's the punch sound? I don't know about that one. I don't like that. Okay. I don't like the gunshot. Okay. Okay. I like that one. That's good. Oh, and there's scream. I like the screen. There's a man screen.

It's pretty good because then you can go like

um let's see. Okay. Um okay. So I think I have everything set up right. Um, but I guess you guys are just like mostly here to watch and so try to entertain you. Okay.

Hierarchy of Hindu divinity. Matangi occupies a unique position as the source of every art, science, and spoken word in the universe. Her first sacred meme describes her as intoxicated with this divine knowledge. She is the ecstatic energy behind every stroke of a brush and every line of an equation. By her

108th name, the cycle is in the hierarchy of Hindu divinity. Matangi occupies a unique position as the source of every art, science, and spoken word in the universe. Her first sacred meme describes her as intoxicated with this divine knowledge. She is the ecstatic energy behind every stroke of a brush

and every line of an equation. By her 108th name, the cycle is complete. She is revealed as Shabda Brahman, the manifestation of the absolute as pure melodious sound. This aligns with how we typically think about learning. We treat enlightenment like a library, an accumulation of facts and skills we add to our existing identities to expand who

we are. Under this framework, the ultimate source of wisdom should feel like the ultimate addition. It should be a peaceful process of the self becoming more than it was before. But Matangi's imagery presents a startling contradiction. When we look at names like Karali and Kapali, the goddess of music takes on a terrifying edge. She is

the skull bearer depicted holding a sword in one hand and the hollow bone of a human head in the other. This creates a deep paradox. Why would the source of all song in science demand the imagery of a violent decapitation? In the tantric tradition, the skull is the ultimate vessel, the part of the

body that remains when the skin, the hair, and the sensory organs of the face are gone. It is what's left of a human being when the individual personality is stripped away. This empty head represents the annihilation of the ego. Matangi suggests that cosmic truth cannot be added to a pre-existing self. Reaching the source of all knowledge

requires a clearing out of the individual identity. This process of ego death is a fierce systematic dismantling of the psyche. Matanki's path moves through an active theater of war against the internal self. Names 96, 97, and 100 highlight her role as a destroyer, specifically targeting the structures

that keep us tethered to our smallness. Think of the mind as a central core behind rigid walls. These outer layers, greed, cruelty, and spiritual pride, form a cage around our consciousness. The first step toward liberation is identifying these boundaries. We must map out where pride hardens into a barrier. The ego cannot be dissolved

until it is fully exposed as an obstacle to the truth. With the boundaries mapped, Matangi utilizes the tools described in name 92 sharang. Her sword slashes through the exposed ego while her noose provides the leverage to pull the practitioner free from the resulting cycles of karma. Name 35 reinforces this mandate. The goddess is attained only

when the devote is lost in her. What happens in the immediate wake of this severing name 42 points toward a final dissolution. The individual consciousness merges with the universal. A single water drop falls into a dark turbulent ocean losing its boundary to the whole. This loss of the self is a conversion of scale. By sacrificing the

finite drop, the consciousness gains the depth of the infinite ocean. Once the individual identity is gone, we are left to wonder what remains in the silence. Name 87 calls this state the great dark void. However, name 64 clarifies that this darkness is not an absence. It is

consciousness itself dwelling everywhere. This state of egoless consciousness is milksha, the ultimate liberation from the limitations of the eye. This returns us to the opening paradox. We can finally see why the source of all music requires an empty skull. It is a matter of acoustics. On

the left, a mind filled with the static of its own thoughts and vanity is too noisy to perceive anything else. It cannot resonate with the smooth universal frequency of Shabda Brahman on the right. True listening only occurs when the internal static is removed. Only the void of the empty head is

silent enough to receive the universal sound. Matangi teaches that wisdom is the act of absolute surrender. It is the removal of the self to make room for the truth. To become a vessel for the ultimate song of the universe, one must first be brave enough to empty their head.

This is pretty cool. uh there is like so much um so much wisdom in like the eastern philosophies it's like pretty surprising to westerners when they actually look at the material um but it can be very enlightening

especially India it's like pretty much the cradle of eastern civilization right um yeah so let me see let me craft Another should we write a song about tonight? Um, there's really cool stuff in Google

Labs. If you ever go to Google Labs, let me see. There's like, let me see this one. There's a wait list for this one. Join the wait list. Okay, I'm on the wait list.

Um, what else? Play with Putty. Okay. Okay. So, there's coding apps. The dream beans is Okay, that one is the one I'm waiting for. Let's see. Stitch a AI design canvas that transforms natural language to

highfidelity UI you can iterate and collaborate on. Okay, there's a marketing tool here, Palm Millle. And I think I made some stuff here. Uh, is it saved? See

You can join. Come up and dragable.

Okay. Come on down, Unttrackable. You're the next contestant on uh Psyche. Let me see if we have an attractable song ready to go. Hopefully for him hopefully. He deserves Oh, he deserves this as well.

Too late. Okay. Hey, what's up? Hey, what's up, dude? >> How are you tonight? >> Doing very well. Um, you're on the West Coast. I'm on the east coast, so it's uh >> Is it a bit later there, huh? 3:00 in the morning or 3:30 3 something. >> It's about 10 minutes to 4.

>> Oh, wow. Yeah, time flies. Um yeah, but uh how is your uh how's your weekend going? >> Well, I I think it just started, but um >> started for you. >> I Yeah, I I get a couple days. Uh >> Oh, is it Labor Day on Monday? So, you get a long long weekend.

>> Well, I don't get a long weekend because it's Labor Day. I get a long weekend because it's the rotation of weekends. You know what I mean? >> Okay. Yeah. Well, no, because I don't work. I mean, I I don't I I thought it was I thought it was, you know, Friday. I mean, today, so I'm very behind.

>> Well, yeah. I mean, it was Friday like an hour ago for you, right? >> It was. Oh. Oh, maybe it was. Oh, was it today only? S. Oh my gosh, today Saturday. I thought, "Oh my gosh." >> See, I'm very confused. I did think like, you know, it was Sunday now. But no, it's it's Saturday. Okay.

>> Hey, I saw your um your whatchamacallit um >> a video. >> No, not the video, but your what is it? The the screen that you put up >> for people to click on. Oh, you saw like the the welcome screen like the welcome to the studio like it it's like a little like a green room or something. It says

welcome to >> what's like a a picture of a a dapper man and then >> Oh yeah, you like that. >> And then uh but I I knew it was you. Um you know cuz I can see you know who it is and you're live and it said uh you know midnight and stuff like that. cuz

like I know it was you. >> But then to see you as you are right now, it you know when when you clean yourself up, man, you you are you are not far from that picture. You you know, you got the sideburns, you got the the

the flow cur, you know, the the the the comb over. Uh but not like I would have to do a comb over. I'm I'm bald, but but you got your you got your collar on, man. You you >> you're turned up, man. You're looking good.

>> Thank you very much. I appreciate that. Yeah. I mean, it's like uh you know, I I'm like uh I'm I'm kind of secure in myself and it's like, you know, I've had confidence, but I'm also I'm also very shy and also like, you know, I don't think I'm like the best looking guy. I'm like not not like big and strong and like you know like you know you know muscular big bodybuilder or anything but

uh but it's just like people have been like kind of like so mean to me like and it's like I can make the same I look like I'm 65 years old and I was like it's like if I was 65 that'd be fine but or if I was 55 that'd be fine but I'm 45 and uh and I didn't think it

was true. It's just like, you know, it's just like and so but it wasn't true. It's just like it's just haters, you know. It's just it's like >> that I I think that's important is um is be yourself always. Um if if you want to, you know, let yourself if you want to let yourself go,

then do it and and see what you look like. Don't worry about >> I have I've let myself go. I mean, it's like, you know, I mean, it's like I I've been, you know, not at my best. >> If you want to if if you want to tighten things up, do it and do it your way. >> Don't worry about what other people say. You're doing you

>> and they're wasting their time hating on you because what that really is is a reflection of how they think about themselves. Hey, I'm not my best, so let's go hate on somebody else. Well, it's very true because it's like, you know, we are, you know, we are all connected like, you know, we're all our own individuals, but like like that you just said, it's like, you know, we're like a drop of the ocean, but it's like

once the drop goes back in the ocean, it's like the whole ocean again, you know? It's like there's no barrier or anything. And so it's like we are connected and it's like so when we're literally what we're doing to other people we we're doing to ourselves like literally to ourselves because we are in a way everybody else. I mean it's like maybe it's a hard concept for some people to

understand but it's like you know there's this like saying in Lakesh America it's like I am another you kind of thing. Um >> yeah, just imagine those people that that all the time maybe they they put so much work into their outward um projection >> thinking that they're going to receive

and but they don't receive what they want >> and then they see somebody else >> and they're jealous. So they're going to be like, "Well, I put so much work in. Why are you getting the attention?" You understand what I'm saying? >> Well, yeah. And it's like but it's like, you know, everyone has their own

set of talents that they bring to the world. And uh and really it's like, you know, everybody has like like something and so it's like it's not really like anybody's fault. It's like they don't look for their talent or develop it because everyone has something to share or something good they can develop. It's like so it's like you know we have a lot of abilities to manifest. Everyone does

like like magic. It's it's like and so it's like people that don't do it at all or even like don't even bother to think about it's it's like we can actually create our lives. We're actually in we're not actually not slaves to anything. You know >> even slaves aren't slaves. Yeah. >> That that's something that I found um

traveling these YouTube streets is um >> you know I' I've cut this off and restarted it many times but I get so many compliments on my beard. so many compliments on my beard. >> Mhm. >> But the only reason that I'm here for you to even see my beard, it it's not my

grooming standards or anything. It's because I don't treat people like shit, >> right? >> It's a quick way to never be seen again, >> right? I mean, it's like then it's like I mean, it's like this guy Frank. I mean, it's like he's very unpleasant. I don't know if you remember Frank from my show. You ever remember that guy that did the true crime stuff? You remember that guy at all?

>> Like this guy Frank? >> Never ever had a hard time with Frank? >> Well, Frank um he like he basically I I told him I said, "Hey, you know, I did a prank on Good Times. He thought I was sweet pee for like an hour." And so I started to play it and he's like, "Oh my god, I'm not going to take part in this illegal." >> You did. I think I did something illegal like I stole her identity or something like that. And I was like, >> And I was like, "No." I was like, "No, >> "Oh."

it's not like that." And then he he like left. And then I like just got annoyed and I like I hit him for my chat. A week later, I unhid him and then he was like right there and he's like, "Hey, can I come up on panel?" He comes up on panel. He was there for five minutes and then he he like quit again when he when I put something on he didn't want to watch. And so then he goes on beatas or no then he goes on beatas. Yeah. And then I and

I I said he's a big baby. That's all I said to him. And then I left and he's like, "Well, that's nice." Anyway, on his show, Bea went on his show and then he was saying he's gonna um dox me. He's going to make my life a living hell. He's going to call the police on me, have me swat. I mean, he was like, and just like and I was nothing but like not nice to him. He's the one that was like, you know, bitchy to me. Plus, they found

salmon had pictures of him in like little like women's like women's outfits and stuff like that and like, you know, underwear, like, you know, like a Calvin Klein model and stuff. And, uh, he's very gay. Um, not in a judgmental way I'm saying that, but it's like he's like one of those bitchy gay guys that's not even like on the team. It's it's like I

hate when it's like every other every race and every group can become unified, but gays are just such a mess. It's like it's like kids are just so so bitchy. They all want to sleep with each other kind of in certain ways and like but or or they don't and then it's like so that's the complication with it. But uh >> No, I I understand.

>> Yeah, I mean it's a little too it's a lot. I I can't help but want people to really understand what life is about and um to get over themselves. >> Um so, you know, if you are something, just just be it. And yeah, people are going to talk. Uh but those people that talk about you, they're probably

insecure about themselves, >> right? Well, it's it's always like, you know, the the people that are so concerned about all these things and other people, it's usually because of some something about them, right? really right. It's like um >> because I I travel around uh you know I I can as as far as I know um I'm welcome

at BEAS uh I've I've talked to Frank I've you know I think uh some of our paths uh as far as channels have have converged in many different ways. Uh, but sitting there wasting your time talking about somebody that's not there. Um oh >> I'm doing it right now. I'm doing it

right now, but I'm doing it in response to like some ser very serious thing he said said. Um, >> it's like threatening. It's like I've already been I've been through the word and and it's like it's like I don't know. He's like acting like he's like some kind of gangster. He is very controversial because he showed the picture of these corpses of little kids of dismembered kids. He showed pictures of them and the parents asked him to

take the pictures down and he wouldn't because he was like, "Well, they're going to get out there anyway, so I might as well be the one to put them out." Or I mean, it's like he just like said it was so so irritatingly bitchy and annoying like that. I mean, it's like, >> well, he didn't do that on YouTube, did he? >> Yeah, he did. And then he got he basically left YouTube after that and then he went on Rumble and so started like you know spurging out over there and now he's back on YouTube like uh

like nothing happened and and then now he's like spurging out again on like you know he like started hiding everybody in the chat for saying hi to him like he goes to my show to be a show and then he like is surprised that there's trolls. I mean it's like a little bit dumb. I mean I mean like geez but I don't know >> it can be tough when you want to be when

you want to be in public but then you deny your your detractors like you you know you see these channels with 20,000 people watching and the the chat moves so fast you can't even tell who's hating. You're just doing you you know. You can't tell who loves you. can't tell who hates you.

Um may maybe you got a moderator that's, you know, quick enough to be like, "Oh, no, that's against guidelines. You can't say, you know, certain things." But as far as hating on you, it's like, "Yeah, let them hate. They're here. They're numbers in the they're numbers, right?" >> Yeah. I mean, I say, "Yeah, there are." But like I like for example, I have this

poll in my chat tonight and the poll says, let me see. It says, "Are you here to love and support me or to lurk and hate?" It is 80% love and support and that's like you know that makes me feel good. Um you know yeah >> love and support >> and I mean out of 15 votes I mean that's like you know maybe like eight or nine people but that's like still I mean it's like so I mean but because I did a poll once and it says do I deserve to live

and then it said like 50 50 it was like 5050 you know which is not too too good. It was on my own page and there was a lot of votes. I was like I was like wow there's like a lot of people like I don't know if there were multiple accounts or but they don't I mean I don't deserve a life. I mean it's I mean it's just I mean the people would even vote in that even though I put it up

there like kind of like baiting now. I mean again if you ask the question but you you I hope I hope for you that you have it within you to know that you deserve to live and you deserve to put yourself out there and you deserve all the things in life that that you go get.

>> Thank you. And if this is something that you're going to get is uh being a you know, you want to put yourself out in public and be seen and to speak with people. Uh I I hope I I hope that the people that speak with you have selfrespect as well.

Uh because if they don't, then you know that's what they're going to put out into the world. Uh these things are they're public for the world. They're not just talk I'm not just talking to you psyche, right? U this this is a channel that anybody whether they subscribe or or donate or not, they they

can sit there and watch. But guess what they're hearing right now? They're hearing my voice speak to you just as much as anything that you put out is can can be heard. There no interaction needed. they they can just watch. >> But if if if somebody has something in them

>> to where they they have to be negative, >> whether it's in the chat or pull up on panel and just be negative. Um it's recorded history. Um, you can have a bad day, but I would say anybody that's having a bad day to the point where that

they are going to be so confrontational and attackative and downright threatening to others. Like, hey, may maybe you should have a bad day and go take a walk. >> Maybe that'll make your day better. >> I mean, yeah. Yeah. But don't don't put it out there on social media because

everybody's going to be like this is this motherfucker having a breakdown right now. >> Yeah. Well, I mean, and all of us are are, you know, going crazy on some level or another. I mean, it's like because I just saw a great movie. It's called The Weapons. Have you heard of this movie called Weapons? >> I have not. It's a really good movie. I'll just give you like a little bit of

the plot is like, you know, it starts out that there's I guess 17 of these like school children all in the middle of the night. Um they're all in one class, you know, like 17 for there's a class of 18 kids, I guess. And so 17 of them all at at the same time, 2:17 in the morning, they all like um left their houses and like they're just 16 like just leaving their houses like running

away and no one knows where they went. They're never seen again, whatever, right? And so, um, but it's a really interesting movie. Then it goes into like, you know, all the people like, you know, there's witch hunt kind of kind of energy, but is there maybe a w I mean, you have to check it out. So, it's really good. Um, weapons, but it's also about how like the weapons aren't weapons. The weapons aren't like guns. I

mean, weapons are guns and knives and stuff, but the real weapons are us. like we're the real weapons like and and we are we weaponize each other, you know, and and it's like we can weaponize other people and and use them as weapons and and you use them to do our dirty work by like you know, riing them up about this issue, that issue, right? And uh just like uh like you know like like say like

you know you don't want to like you know you want something to be done but you don't want to do it yourself. You like try to like maybe find people you can manipulate to do it for you. um you like try to find people that can you can control like use use this influence that we can all have in a negative way. You can lie about people. You got I mean slander and it's like and then you can also you make yourself look better by putting other people down and making

them animals making yourself a god basically in your own mind right but I mean when it comes down to it like who's really like the the holy being there. I mean I don't know. It's like I think that there's something to say about surviving oppression and and uh that kind of thing that when you don't have the power and that you still survive or

you still are able to do something you know with power you do have you know so I don't know >> as far as I understand a weapon is a device used for doing harm >> right

>> it it it doesn't necessarily have to be the sword or the gun. Um, it could be a fork. It could be a pencil. It could be another person. And that's when you get into like the propaganda and the influence >> Yeah.

>> of of people. And it's like hey if if if you find your way and able uh to control somebody's mind to make them believe then you know whatever they do on your behalf

you can throw your hands up in the air as innocent. Right. I didn't do it. >> Charles Manson tried to do that but he didn't quite get away with it. Right. Right. >> Yeah. I mean it's like at at some point it's like you do there is responsibility but I mean it's like you know it's controversial. He did he ever did you know harm a single person himself? No.

But it's like he did have this power over their minds it seems to influence >> you know documented you know court cases of money transfers. So it's like hey you you find somebody that's weak for money. Well, and aren't we all I mean aren't we isn't there isn't almost anybody like

almost everybody wants to have more even billionaires right I mean so so isn't there yeah >> it's been uh you know destruction for hire but at the same time you know you look at these YouTube channels uh I'm I'm not saying anything about you particular but if

uh a channel receives a generous donation from somebody and they're like Hey, I don't like this other person. And be like, hey, so sorry. Um, this person paid x amount of money, so you don't get to participate um for x amount of time. >> Right. Okay. So, I kind of agree with you on this point like I I've kind of

like >> it's money for control right there. Money for control. >> Oh, yeah. Exactly. And I' and I've been doing these analysises and I've really come to understand that. So basically my rule is like if I don't feel like having somebody I'll kick them off but um and then somebody else maybe can pay to bring them back on like that. That's like so I'll put up with it but uh or

you know until they they don't break a rule. But um but I don't like I don't really like the feeling of like people just weaponizing the chat and weaponizing like the moderator tools, weaponizing the you know the the you know like using >> I think it would be to me as a person uh who participates

with you often enough. I guess you could say if somebody were to give you $50 and say, you know, don't don't have him up. Um, >> that happened before. It happened with Tracy last year. She paid I think she paid $50 or something to ban Alex McQueen forever. I think I had him back

up a couple weeks later like accidentally maybe. But uh >> yeah, and huge controversy, you was a it's a huge controvers >> the the forever thing >> that you can't do it forever. It's impossible. I would never do that again. Like I would never say there's not it's

>> if if if you're going to accept money um you know you I I saw your rules uh that you posted >> that like this is your show you you know >> my independence that independence in my >> I I I thought that was uh I thought that

was very enlightening and it's very true like this is your show just like uh if if I had a show, it's like, "Hey, um I might say some things, but if I don't like what's coming out of your mouth, this is my show." Right. >> Right. >> U so you you are fair in doing so. I I

truly believe that. >> Well, and it was in response to somebody actually like, you know, who I consider like, you know, like a friend online. they came up and they were like or they're like you know you know when when someone when you have guests on don't don't play things because it's rude and something like that which and it was just like so like wow like u not this is

not just like you know some space where you it's not it's not your space it's my space that I'm I allow people to come in and it's like and I get to rule it you know if I if I get to rule one place in my life it's like this it's like this show I mean it's like and so it's like anybody that tries to the ownership of it is not theirs.

>> If if I if I visit Psyche, then I am a guest in Psyche's house and whatever he's going to do, I'm I'm with you for doing it. You want to play music right now, go ahead and do it. That this is your house. Uh if you want to talk about other people, you talk about other

people. If if I say something that you don't like and you say don't do that, um, you know, who am I? I'm in your house. >> Yeah. >> U, I I wholeheartedly believe in that shit because you you know, you're not going to come to my house and I say, "Hey, you know, you have to

use this bathroom." >> Oh, sorry. >> And uh, you know, don't don't go x, y, and z. Uh yeah, my I you know violate my rules and see what happened. >> So you see this is like this is what I put >> again. >> Uhhuh. I modified this to like my show,

you know, and it's like basically I like number one is I have the right to like have the show when I want to and to turn off when I want to. I have the right to make it what I want to to shape it to form, tone, subject rules. I have the right to speak or not speak and to change my mind and abandon the plan. I have the right to invite who I will and

have who I want here and to kick them off if I want to. I have the right to mute, block, ban anyone who mistakes access for authority. Uh I can uh guard the room um the mood, the subject of the mic. I and they people can question, disagree, depart or build an altar of their own, but they cannot commandeer this one. Sovereignty is reciprocal. I

rule my broadcast, not another soul. So every soul rules whether they stay or not. And so the stream is the altar. And uh yeah, so I mean I I just like I really do like uh I was inspired by something called Liber. But yeah, the 18th amendment, the 18th amendment of psyche. Yeah, you like that. Clam slammer. Um viva vivali. That's nice. A

nice uh word clam slammer. I don't have that clam. And you know, um, I' I've been, you know, I'm not brand new to you. Um, >> yeah, I met you last year, over a year ago probably right? >> And

it it's been fun. And I I hope to continue seeing you. um that that is my hope is that um you continue to do what you're doing the way that you do it because you know like

Frank said, "Hey, I did it my way." Well, um I I fancy myself uh a good teammate. >> Yeah. Well, you know, Yeah. So finding people that do it their way and and and

stick to it and are consistent and uh show up and you know stick to their gun. Um they those are the ones that get my respect. So you get my respect. >> Oh, thank you. Well, I respect you too. is you've always been like honest and you've always actually had a really positive good message and sometimes a little stern on on some people because

it's like you know some people are you know need a stern talking to sometimes and you know I've heard you say you know dress down some guys and say young man you know it's pretty funny here I'll play Do you want to see a video I made I want to show you a video I made um this is kind of like a dark video this is a music video >> but see you can see okay it's Okay.

Okay. Okay. Okay. One second. Um, this is kind of a darker video here.

Before the rib, there was the refusal. Before the garden, there was the door she walked out of. I did not find her. I was found.

I was sleeping in a body I had rented, not owned. Counting all my little years like coins alone. Then the window took a breath and the curtain went still. And something old and patient came in through my will.

>> She didn't ask. She never asked. That isn't what she's for. >> She just stood there in my room like she'd been here before. >> Two red doors in the side of my throat. >> She opened me. >> She let me know.

>> Lilith. Lilith. Eternal love. The wound is the wedding. The bite is the vow. You made me a stranger. You made me a flame. You took my one lifetime and gave me the name. Eternal. >> Eternal. >> No ending, no sure. >> I was a man for an hour.

>> I am hunger ever more. >> Now the mirrors won't hold me. They just look away. >> >> And the sun is a rumor somebody else believes. >> I follow her shadow across the dying world. >> Through the salt, through the smoke, through the cities of le.

>> She walks 10 steps ahead. She has always walked ahead. >> And the dead things bloom behind her where she goes. >> Not a bright, not a rip, not a borrow.

>> She was the first snow ever spoken. And the first mouth that meant it. >> Take me, >> take me, >> take me, >> take me >> out of time. >> Eternal. >> The wound is the vow.

>> I was a man for an hour. >> >> I am forever now.

Go. What do you think? You're muted. Oh shit. Hold on. You You muted yourself accidentally. There you go. >> No, I I muted for the music, but uh >> Okay. Thank you. >> I'm I'm not exactly sure

I understand the meaning of I was a man for an hour. >> You don't understand? Oh, you're What's it What's that? The part where I I was a man for an hour. >> Yeah. I was a man for an hour but then I was a man forever. Like it's like because or it's like because

you know she made you made me mortal but then you made me immortal too. It's kind of you know it's like kind of both man forever because it's like I'll I'm a mortal but then a man for an hour because it's like I was mortal then I'm a man immortal. So, I'm both makes it really stopped the conversation

momentum. Oh, do it that well. Oh, yeah. You must be a thmite. >> Um, it's okay. Um, because uh there was something that stuck was the the idea of immortality and um I don't necessarily believe that in the biological sense. Yeah, that'd be a nightmare if that was true

biologically because we could get stuck >> and also to to bring it back to the to the YouTube streets, right? Um to to be kicked off, to be banned from uh channels, but but they still say your name. They they still

>> they still bring it up. >> Oh, yeah. they that that you have left an impression like a like a tattoo on their heart >> that they they just they can't let it go, >> right? >> You you meant that much whe whether it was good or bad, you don't come around anymore. Whether they sent you or you

chose, they still they still say your name. >> Oh, yeah. Well, I hear my name everywhere. I mean, it's like, you know, it's like it's like said more than Beetlejuice, Candyman, and Bloody Mary combined, you know, but but >> it's a it's a sort of immortality. >> Yeah. Yeah. Hey, if they're not if

they're talking about you, that means they're not not talking about you or something like that. I don't I don't know. Or it's better to be I don't know. It's better to be talked about than uh unknown, I guess. I don't know. Or maybe it's not. I don't I don't know. I mean, it's like I know that there's It's hard having jackets thrown on you, which is like something that tends to be

done in this community. These uh and these jackets, I mean, what they are is they stay on you forever. I mean, it's like basically it's like you can't they're just such serious accusations that it's like, you know, whether they're true or not, it will just it's always will stay in you forever, right? Um

but then you have um what is it? Hey, do people believe in the words against you or do they believe in the person that's saying them? >> They believe it seems well it seems like I don't I just it seems like people Hello Andrew, how are you? just seems like people like, you know, say things over and over

again and then it's like it just becomes part of like the accepted lore about it, but it's like it doesn't have to be true, right? It's just like has to be said a lot. >> That that's a good word is is lore. And but in the communities that you that you feel comfortable in uh not you

but any any person uh hypothetically feel comfortable in um it's it's almost like group think like hey to be welcome here I must get in line even though I've never

spoken to or spent time with, you know, the the person that is so readily available to to, you know, reach out and and to firsthand experience the other side. So, u in that sense, it's like, hey, if if

you're so deep in one side, um that you have never experienced, you you're just going to take somebody's word for it, you know. Um, I I say good luck to those people. >> Yeah. >> But come and be come be yourself

with your supposed f. It's like the the no fear. It's like, hey, uh, you know, God and Jesus and all that stuff. Uh, reject Satan. Uh, hey, how about you, uh, take a step across the street and, uh,

and and face Satan? uh face to face, hand to hand, have a conversation. Um, see how it goes. I'm not saying give yourself uh switch sides or anything like that. I'm just saying, hey, go talk to the opposition uh that you were indoctrined

to be against rather than have have a real reason to be against somebody rather than just take somebody else's word for it. You know what I mean? Mhm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's been that's a very smart attitude, you know, and that's like the way to live, you know. I bet it's like people are just kind of like immature nowadays, I think. And uh and

also the society is sick and so therefore like the individuals in the society will manifest these sick uh you know sick uh sicknesses and mental things and behaviors and and you know everyone has this kind of the the brain is the most complicated thing in the entire universe that we that we know of. You know it's the most it's the most the human brain, right?

And it's like we there's so much we don't understand about it. Not to mention like the spiritual side the the you know like the you know it's like it said that this the memories aren't held in the brain because the brain wouldn't have enough room for all those memories so they have to be stored somewhere else if they are right

>> I I really do I really do believe that you know um scientific biolog under under animal. We we are animals. >> I think we're more than animals though too, right? It's like because it's like >> we're Yeah. You know, we're homo

sapiens. We're humans. We stand upright and and but we communicate in in our way and we you know have as a species developed technology and the technology we use against others including ourselves. However,

something to think that um like a bear um remembers every fish uh that it caught in the lake like no I have to eat today or a deer was like hey um I heard a gunshot over there and I ran away and we're not eating over there

anymore to where it's like uh hey this human treated me as as human to human. It's like, hey, this human treated me a certain type of way. Um, do I just stay away from that human or do I run to the top of the mountain

and then scream this human is bad? Well, maybe that human was bad for you. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> But it doesn't mean that that human is bad for everyone, >> right? Everyone's gonna have a different relationship. I mean, the mother of a serial killer can have like no problems with this, you know, with them, you know, and and probably loves them, you know, just even despite their horrible

crimes, but at the same time, it's like, you know, it's like I'm sure there's some kind of like re regret or something there, too. I mean, it's like, yeah, but mothers love their children, you know, usually. It's like, you know, they're always going to be the baby in some sense. I mean, most mothers, you know, there's some that aren't quite as aren't

quite as, you know, loving once the baby's born, but um but anyway, interesting topic. Yeah. Um yeah, I I don't know. I'm just happy having my cats, you know. It's like, you know, my two my two my two my two girls. Um you know, it's like uh

but that's my family right now. And you know, it's a it's a it's for it's not kids, but it's a it's close as I'm going to get. And so um >> but you you also have >> you also have this

I I feel like it's an instinct, uh slashability for your your outreach u in in this uh, you know, social media, you you open a

door that anybody can find. Um yeah, that anybody can click the link and and participate with you. >> Yes. >> Um yeah, there there's going to be those people that only like I'm I've

considered myself a panel surfer before. Uh, but I've narrowed down more or less where I go and I've I've shaped myself as far as uh what I want to put out into the world and uh arguments that are worth it and

uh opinions that can be shared. And it's like once it's out there, um, yeah, I'm not going to sit here and argue and, you know, I'll argue the point, but I'm not going to argue the person like, um, because your point is, you know, is just as valid as mine. It's

just points of view. So, as long as it stays on topic, you know, I'm cool with stuff. But saying that like, oh, well, you know, what do they call it? a big word like two years ago was ad homonym. You know, it's like, well, you know, diving into some shit that people don't know about each other. It's like, oh,

well, you're just saying that because you're an ultra nationalist Christian, you know, or or some shit like that. It's like, hey, we don't get to live each other's lives, but opinions are like uh a momentby-moment basis. So, you know, be in the moment, be in the

conversation, get your point across, and let it be that. But for me to like judge your entire life as if I haven't lived an entire life, as if I am so perfect, what they say, don't don't throw stones if you live in a glass house. >> Right. People in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. Yeah.

>> Yeah. There there you go. It's like, "Hey, um, remember that you aren't perfect as well." >> Oh, no. I mean, it's like, yeah, it's like nobody's per I mean, it's like that's the thing. It's like, and then or there's also the saying like Jesus said, "Let him without sin uh cast the first stone at her, you know?" It's like uh is like we're all imperfect. And it's like,

who are we to judge someone else when we've we're just as guilty of probably or worse of any sin that they've done? I mean it's like you know it's crazy but but then but then again it's like you know who judges that we we all make these all these rules up and everything right it's like uh and I have

done uh like I said I take it back to the YouTube streets like I' I've talked crazy to people that didn't deserve it. Um, I I I let myself I self-reflection. I let myself get triggered

to the point where it was like, "Oh, well, you look like this, and you know, you you gave these certain points about yourself, so now I'm I'm going to attempt to drag you through the mud." Um, it you know, >> Pardon me. I'm sorry. >> Yeah, you're you're good. Bless you,

brother. um as if as if I you know haven't you know I've I've told so much about myself and and people have clowned on me left and right but at the same time I feel it's justified because I put it out there

uh for them to say what they said. >> Sure. But I started to feel unjustified in what I did to others. Just because I have knowledge doesn't mean that I should use it in that manner. And it's it's sort of it it sort of changed the way that I interact with people.

>> It's 100% changed the way that I interact with people. It's like, hey, if if there's a topic where we just want to talk um let's let's not fool around. You know, I I'll do everything except for, you know, tell you everything.

>> Uh, but I'm I'm going to be honest with >> Yeah. you. And um you know if if somebody wants to say this that or the other about me I've learned to uh to tighten my triggers. you you and if you if you pull too hard

instead of going off um I'll just be you know I' I've learned to just say hey instead of my trigger being like losing myself it's like okay uh you have fun uh I'll take off have a good one you know you you spend time with the host or wherever it's like I'm I'm just going to go

>> right >> because this is this is the internet. This is for everyone. And you were so kind as to open the door. You one of many doors. You're not the only door, but you know, you are you you know, it's like talking to Pierce Morgan or or you know, any uh you know,

uh any host on any show and you but you run it your way and to uh to feel like, hey, I got to go the you know, so that way I don't uh I don't put something out there into the world that

I don't want the world to see, like my reactions or whatnot. It's like, hey, um, peace out. I'll I'll see you next time. I, you know, maybe I need to go calm down or something. And I think more people should do that. I think more people should recognize that, hey, if if you want to come up here and be a clown and that's what you want to put out into

the world, of course you're not going to tell yourself no. But if if you're trying to be real and you get triggered, well, don't let the world see that. Go, you know, go calm down. >> Yeah, because well, if they see your triggers, then they'll just know where to attack you and that may know that

might help fortify some people, but it's like at the same time it's like, you know, uncomfortable and uh, you know, it's like I don't know. Yeah, you're right. I mean, you're very right. Um, people >> Well, for instance, Uh I I spent some time on some uh more comedy

centric shows and for the sake of comedy, you know, there's a lot of shit talk, a lot of shit talk. Um and it gets very personal. Anything you put out there, it it's used, but it's for the sake of comedy and and

anybody that gets buttth hurt probably shouldn't be in a comedic setting, >> right? >> Like a roast type setting. >> Yeah. But then there's a difference between a roast and a dog pile. Right. >> Right. Because, you know, two two people could be going at it and as as long as the

other five people are laughing at the interaction, it's like, hey, at least somebody thought it was funny. But if eight people are all just going in on one, I'm I'm not saying that the one can't take it, but if the one can't take it,

imagine what that feels like. I I I think you already know. Um but then that's when maybe it's like, hey, maybe maybe I need to work on myself uh to where I can take it, >> right? you know, or to, you know, maybe maybe I can do better and push back and and change the the narrative, you know,

because uh if if everybody's laughing at me right now, but I say one sentence and it makes everybody laugh and now they're all laughing at somebody else, you know, that's when it it's it's strength. But it's, you know, if it's in the sake of making people laugh, it's like

nobody's really being mean to you. It's just you got to step up. You got to step up for yourself. Yeah. >> And in certain environments it's, you know, like I said, it's the intention of fun, but so many channels, uh,

you know, they they try to create the narrative of somebody's a bad person. Don't trust this person. don't don't visit that person. And it's like, well, I I never had a hard time

uh where you're telling me to not go. Um if I go over there, am I not welcome over here anymore? Uh you know, as as a guest, it it kind of tears at the guest, too. It's like, well, if I go there, am I all of a sudden, you know, canan

father as guest? That's kind of what you feel like. It's like, uh, well, he he's a f he's a fence sitter. It's like, well, um, I never had a problem talking. I never had a problem talking to other people that talk about

you. And when I go there, I don't talk about you. And when I come here, I don't talk about them. You know that. But that's a me thing. That's a me thing. But some people, you know, hey, something slips. So, it's like, oh, well, I was over there and they said something and and then all of

a sudden it's like you didn't even pick a side. you were just in the place and you opened your mouth and next thing you know um it was decided for you. >> Yeah. Well, it's like Yeah. But then there's lessons you learn like in life like know when to hold your tongue know

got to know when to hold them to fold them and know when to play your cards out and know when to something else. I don't know. You gotta fight your life in the middle of sorry the song.

Hi Lenor. So what do you um Yeah. Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Are you there? Oh, I lost track. >> Oh, what's here? >> Okay, I lost you for a second. Where are you?

Where are you, your little >> I'm on your screen. Oh, here. Here you are. I found you. Here you are. Look at your beard. It's gone wild. Marcus A really stoicism, right? Yeah. Like the stoicism is a is a great philosophy because it's basically like, you know, just this inner strength

no matter what happens on the outside. Um, I don't like it to get completed with like nihilism or anything like that because it can't like you know we can get to a little bit like well it doesn't matter anyway but I don't I don't believe that but I believe it's like you know no matter what happens it's like you know what doesn't kill us makes us stronger in a certain way and it's like you know

grit your teeth and bear it or you know it's like sticks and stones can break your bones don't let words have an effect on you other people's words you know but the most important thing is going to figures, right? >> There there's also um and please don't take this the wrong

way. Uh and this is for not just you, but it's for everyone. Um you who made your bed now lay in it. >> So is that what you mean? What So what did I do? because you know the people will do things and not necessarily >> it's it's not about necessarily what

you've done or what you know it it's not a a specific it's a it's an out there known idea is that >> if if you if you have done something whether you recognize it or not um somebody else is going to be like

okay that that's the way you want it. That's the way you will get it. And and they will not relent. >> You cannot expect to change somebody else's mind. >> Sure. >> But yeah, but I'm saying like, >> why give anybody the right to do that to >> you know, anybody else, though? It's like, do I

get to decide, oh, I'm just going to do this to this person because of this, and I get to be the judge and jury and executioner because I want to, and uh I'm not going to let I'm not going to let So, yeah. Go >> ahead. when it comes to other people, >> it I mean it it only takes an instance. It it only takes an instance >> of what?

>> For somebody to say "Hey within that sentence or within that day or within that stream, you made your bed." Uh, as far as I'm concerned. >> And you know, >> Uhhuh. now you got bed bugs. Now, now you got trolls. Now you got this. Now you got that. Now you got the other. And

>> Oh yeah. Well, that's it's a good point. But okay, so let's say this. Okay, so let's say I I uh I started watching like a live like a live streamer that I thought was cool. And I met some people that were other live streamers I thought were cool and they were on this on this network which seemed to me just be just being

ignorant of the situation. seemed to me to be like a um a a streamer promotion or a network of certain streamers and stuff like that. I didn't understand that it was about basically about the audience trying to kill the streamer um or make suicide or just or make them into like some laughing stalk or low. I

didn't understand that part of it but uh and or and and worse things the doxing the harassment and all that but now but now I understand it right it's like but I had to go through it to understand no one could have probably told me so I would have said oh they're trying to keep me away from it you know because we get all suspicious sometimes of like you know when people are like u you know telling us what to do or whatever even

if they mean well you know it's like we we want to make our own decisions for ourselves and that's how we actually do learn Right. It's a gay panel up. Oh, get up here, Ghost. You can make it even even gayer if Ghost comes up here. Come on Ghost. Let's make it Let's make it fully gay panel. Fully gay panel. I >> I guess I'm you know what I'm getting at

with that is um the the perceptions of others in the way even that you are whether you wanted them to you know take it that way or not. Um you did what you did. you said what you

said and if they hold on to that then then that is the making of your bed for them >> right >> you hear the saying if if you're going to dig dig somebody else's grave dig one for yourself too need two graves you know >> but but what you can do what you can do

for yourself >> is is you can take those sheets off you can take those pillowcases off you can wash them you you can change them you can buy new ones. >> I know. But then like but all all these people wanted to steal my sheets and and become clan members. I mean it seems like I mean it's just it's frightening. >> What they saw? >> Well, it could possibly stick with them >> Yeah.

forever. So they will never see you in a different light. They won't see your change. >> Oh my gosh. Yeah. I mean it's like it's the thing. It's like I got a haircut and stuff like that and then it's like you know most people said oh you look good you know because people even if they're like you know even if somebody's a you know I mean you you could go tomorrow and get your beard shaven off and be all you know your hair cut and be all you

know look like you know like Richard Gear if you wanted to right but it's like you know but you but and so you know but yeah so it's like we can we have the ability to clean up and we have the ability to like you know there's soap there's a shower and stuff like that we're not just because we're dirty one day because of some whatever or like we're like a little it doesn't mean we're but it's like these people want to like make you dirty the rest of

your life and there's no way of getting clean and they're just not going to like just with a perception they're not going to let you ever be clean or it's like if I if I take a shower and I come on stream shower like 90% of the time people say oh look you're look how greasy and disgusting I'm like my hair's wet I just got out of the shower and so but it's like you know it's no matter what they're just going to say something I mean it's like that's what trolls do

but it's like these are very disturbed people too can't give free reign to like, you know, destroy people's lives, which they're doing. just that um I take care of this hair and um I I get a better camera and I I I put a backdrop

on that's not my garage and I I I come up and I I create my own show and you know I got I got the scrolling bar at the bottom and you know very presentable and and I only let people up to talk about topics, you

know, current event topics. There's always going to be people that are going to come back and be like, "Hey, you were you're some bum in the drunk in the garage. What the fuck is this? What? You know, you think you're special now that

there's always going to be people no matter what you do that are going to hold on to the bed that you made. But you made hey like uh like a one night stand like uh hey you you put roses on the on the on the bed and you

did all the things uh you know to impress and then you know you lay it out and then but then you you never do that again you know um and that person's always going to say oh you put the you put out

the red carpet for me. You did everything for me. But and then you just toss me to the side. Uh and then they're going to ask every person that you're going to be with after that, what did he do for you? What did he do for you? What did he do for you? It's like, well, uh they were they were different sheets,

you know. Uh he he's not the same person. He he's the same person, but you know, he he changed his ways by the time he got to >> You ever seen Liz Rob?

You familiar with that story? >> I've I've tried to watch the movie. I kind of understand it. The the miserable, >> right? But well, but the Okay, so the lead the lead of the movie, he he starts out in prison, you know, in a prison camp because he had stolen like I guess a loaf of bread for his, you know,

family member he was taking care of. Okay. And so then he was in prison camp for a long time and then he gets out and he's on parole so he can't get a job anywhere and he's starving and he goes to this uh this church and they let him in and they and they let him spend the night take a shower and shave or whatever but then he steals like all the silverware from the church or and so

then he gets caught. They bring him back ready to send him back to prison. And the guy um the minister says, "Oh, you know, you um oh, we gave him all that all that stuff plus he forgot to take the most valuable thing ever." And he gave him the candlesticks, the silver candlesticks. And uh and then he's like, "Would these take make a new life and be an honest man or whatever." And uh and

he did. And he became a good man. He was became the mayor. But but he uh he had to skip out on parole. So he had this other this guy that was like his prison parole officer basically you know after him the whole time ready to take him back to prison and you know so it's saying that you're you are your old self there's no redemption for anybody and so it's very uh I don't know it's a very

kind of apppropo kind of a metaphor I think you know it's it's uh maybe if you if you ever get a chance maybe I don't know it's musical guys but there's a non-m musical version I think of it if you're afraid of trolls you wouldn't be here. You Yeah, I'm not afraid of trolls. I mean, I've dealt with the worst. I mean, I've dealt with like the real life troll, like the real like the

real life trolling kind of thing or all kinds of stuff like, you know, just every the worst nightmares, right? But, you know, at the end of the day, those things are really illegal and uh thankfully the person that was doing it was indicted for cyber bullying, not of me, but someone else. And so, you know, and I think other people are kind of getting the message. just like, you

know, it's not going to be really tolerated. So, no, I don't know. >> You know, I I hope I hope that everything um that happens is is for a reason. I I

hope that good people meet good people for a reason and and that other people hear honesty so that way they learn how to be honest. But at the same time, I I hope that that the people that do fucked up shit, uh I I hope that is witnessed as well.

Um uh the same way that I hope um the the platforms, you know, I hate to say it, but if you don't police this shit and um

and you know to an extent um prevent people from you know doing these extreme things. Um I I hope that that becomes lessons for the platforms. Uh it's like hey >> what's your what's your what what is your problem like what is your biggest

what what behavior is your biggest problem that you have like what what behavior of people right now >> would you say you're kind of like referring to or >> I mean I I don't think anybody's done anything against me personally but I I definitely

think like the the doxing thing Um, you know, if somebody puts their information out there, it's like be careful who you give your information to, yada yada yada. Um, but just this widespread of I don't like

this person so much that, you know, I'm going to give their street address and their phone number and it on a public having the information is one thing. If you acquired the information and you did so fairly,

um, that's one thing, but disseminating it, you know, that I think that's a I think that's a different story. I personally have not had to deal with that. Um, I don't think I put that myself in that firing line to be hated

so much. Um, but I also really I disagree with it wholeheartedly. Um, like talk to people, have discourse, get in arguments, call each other names, all that stuff.

That's fair and it can be fun. It's a release. I get it. But you disagreed with me. So now I'm going to, you know, call upon people that may be in your area to like,

you know, stalk and harass you. Um, and and then post the stalk, not not just stalk and harass, but to post stalk and harass. You understand what I'm saying? >> M. >> So that that's that's something that I've seen. Um, and again, um,

seeing people look at me, um, it doesn't bother me. If you're fair and and you're in public, um, go ahead and do what you go ahead and do what you do if that fancy is you. >> What do you mean look at you? Like you mean like guys looking at you or something >> or like >> any anybody like I'm >> looking at you mean in a mean way or

like you know like you know you're attractive. >> Well I'm I'm here on the internet um fair and free for everybody to see. Um you know talk to me here but you know if I go out to to get my mail and there's people lined up in the

street which it's a public street. Yeah. you're you're fair and fine, but you know, like kind of like the paparazzi. It's like um did did I do something? Are are you going to monetize like chasing me around and following my

family and stuff like that? It's like just just for being a dude that opened his mouth on the internet, >> right? >> Well, yeah, that's what I That's what basically I was threatened with uh by that douchebag. I mean it's like I mean you had no problem with him but yeah he did start threatening me and I didn't even do anything. I mean it's like it's

like threatening all this real world harassment like you know life ruining stuff because he left my show and I I just said he was a baby and he's going to like threaten to do that. I mean it's just it seems like it's such an extreme kind of like disparity between like the like the two things. I mean, it's like

kind of like, you know, but, you know, at the end of the day, I don't think he can do what he thinks he can do. I mean, I think he he he's seems paranoid he's he doesn't seem like he was thinking straight or that he has this power that he assuming. So, I don't know. And you know what's um

Have you ever I say this because it's it's part of the LawCal I guess universe. Have Have you ever heard of a person called Cyrax? >> Yes. So, you know, uh, as far as YouTube, like I've gone down the rabbit hole on

that and people have come to where he lives and people have screamed outside his house saying like, "Come outside, come outside." Um they they have doxed him like said where his address was and all this stuff

and had the police come to his house for like domestics and stuff like that. And I think I think all of that is wrong. But at the same time, you look at who the individual was or or is um >> Oh, he's retarded.

Exactly. >> Yeah. I mean, he's literally retard he's literally retarded. He's a retarded person. I mean, it's like >> those same people uh now I don't I don't put myself out there um the way that this person did u

this Cyrax person. I I don't do that. But at the same time, um, you know, I think people are going to react differently to somebody like me. Like they're they're not just going to show up at my

house and think like they're going to invite me outside for a fight. Um, >> like Marty and Cyrax when Marty went over there tried to fight him. Do you see that? >> You you exa You know exactly what I'm talking about. And it's like uh you know you really

hey to to think like oh I'm gonna go beat up a retarded kid and because he talks shit on the internet >> right well I mean they've done worse than that. I mean they they've sent >> I am not I am not inviting anybody and or threatening anybody with anything but I would say please please don't come and scream for me to

come outside. >> Well I mean some people are doing this willingly. I mean it's like yeah for example you know Bill Chapen. Have you heard of the story of Bill Chapen or any of this this thing that happened with him? He was like basically a local cow for these people that you may know in our community. Um they're they're around, okay, but they've been kind of shut down for the time being. But Bill

Bill was a guy he had been in, I guess I guess he had one domestic um incident. He was very severely autistic or he is, you know, he he was brilliant at the keyboard and stuff, but they had him do this ni ger island song that they keep playing. But they had him go to this guy Groovy Jimmy's house u and they said that Gary Coleman lived in this house.

And so they he goes and they're all like 20 like probably 20 people watching on the discord when he's at the couch with the camera knocking on the door. Ruby Jim comes out with a gun, you know, and um it almost kills him. And then another person another time he got a uh they put an ad for Craigslist, you know, free laptop. And so some big black guy to his

house and then he's like, I don't have a laptop. The black guy like pistol whipped him and and you know, he had all the stuff on his face. But he would do that all willingly. They'd also send him microwaves full of infested with bugs and roaches and things and then his house would get infested. He was blind, by the way. They'd have him rub feces into his space. They'd have him drink his toilet water, microwave his phone. Like they would have him, you know,

tattoo himself, get naked, um, you know, do Hitler. I mean, it's like just for their amusement. Like that's the thing. And it's like um, but these are severely autistic people. And it's like, wow. It's like, you know, it's like it's like how about pick on someone your own your own size of your own mental capacity rather than, you know, they feeling like having to feel superior by picking on

somebody that obviously doesn't have the same mental capacity or or mental at least, you know, mental vibration as you. I mean, it's like I don't understand. It's like there's like, you know, basically, you know, I I'm very very live and let live as long as like nobody's hurting another person. I don't believe in like

victim uh these victimless crimes um being so persecuted. I'm a libertarian basically, but it's like there's a lot of like drugs. Should people be allowed to take drugs? Well, it's their body. It's I mean it's like I think we should have freedom to do anything we want as long as we're not hurting another person. We're not imposing our will upon another and disturbing their will. Everyone should have their own free

will. That's part of being a human, I think. But then we get into this enslavement kind of thing where it's like they have like the rich enslaving the poor and then the poor, you know, stealing from the rich and I mean it just it just goes on forever, right? >> It's um it's the control factor, right?

So you and me talking other than me yielding to the fact that this is the house that Psyche built, um I I do not feel controlled. I I yield uh to feel welcome. Um but you have not

stopped me from saying anything that I've have said so far. >> No, I mean and I don't want people to speak their minds and it's like sometimes I might, you know, interrupt and play something off but maybe maybe considered off topic but maybe there's like a deeper message in there too. So, right. It's like it's not >> if you were to, you know, not you, but

if if somebody were to be like, "Hey, if you don't cut this out, there's going to be somebody waiting for you." >> Yeah. >> And then you step outside your house and there's somebody >> Well, it's pretty much it's pretty much gotten to that point. I mean,

>> hey, um, am I not am I not free to speak anymore because some troll found out where I lived and they got a, you know, a minion in the region >> to stand outside of my house. Uh, so like I'm not free to I'm not free to speak, but now I don't feel free to even

leave my house cuz what's going to happen to my house? or I gotta leave for work at such and such a time and my family is still here. It's like that's when it becomes, >> hey, did did you shut me up? Uh, yeah, I'm I'm probably going to shut up, but um, you know, it's also my duty to call law enforcement because this is

menacing. Oh, >> so you know, don't don't think you're just going to do these things uh to shut people up online. If you want to shut somebody up online, kick them off your channel. >> If you want to shut somebody up online,

stay away from them. Those are your two options. Either stay away from them or if it's your channel, get rid of them. Uh, but for people to show up at your house and be like, "Hey, you said some things that I don't like, so I'm going to be in your I'm going to be in your area or I'm going to put somebody in your area or I got

connections." It's like, "Hey, I got connections too." >> Marty. Yeah. >> Yeah. Well, to Marty. Um, well, may maybe I I don't know. Marty came to my show like Marty certainly found me. Um, and then, you know, he might have like had bad intentions with me, but he actually came to like me and we did sports betting together and he won and he'd send me money and so then

he died shortly after that. And so, but so I never got to know him too well, but he was there my show the last few weeks of his life. Um, and so I was kind of like, you know, kind of involved in, you know, I kind of know about some of the stuff because I I was kind of thrown into it. But um and yeah um and I do see the sorry I do see the text message that

person sent me. Thank you so much. I I'll just start it right there. Um >> hey um >> I I I have to uh take a break. >> yes >> Okay. >> And then um maybe I'll take you guys on a walk. Um >> uh I'll be back about uh

five minutes or so. Okay, sounds good. I'll see you soon, my friend. Okay, guys. Well, let's do part two of the training video. Okay, this is very uh should be very

enlightening for you. and thank you for uh being part of the cult. >> Inspections typically track physical obstructions, but a work environment can be equally compromised by its psychological architecture. We refer to

this specific hazard as a hall of mirrors, a space where reality bends and group consensus is actively manipulated to confuse you. Today you are going to learn how to interrupt a group confrontation, secure untampered evidence, and execute a safe physical evacuation. As you can see arranged on this desk, before you begin a shift in a

high-risisk area, you need specific gear. Blank incident clipboards, clear document sleeves, an analog clock, and a standard building emergency exit map. Escaping this cognitive trap does not require winning an argument against your colleagues. It is a strictly mechanical procedure. You survive by applying set rules to a broken environment. Cognitive

hazards rarely announce themselves as threats. They prefer to arrive wearing a smile and offering to take the meeting minutes. In this footage, multiple individuals target one person simultaneously. The goal is to overwhelm the target and manufacture an artificial consensus. We define this collective attack as a spider ritual. Many hands, one target, and zero individual

accountability. Your first instinct will be to determine which of these attackers has the best intentions. Ignore that instinct. Intentions do not mitigate the immediate impact on the target. Your first tactical step is to halt the workflow entirely shown by the stop icon. Numbering each arm breaks the monolithic at crowd. Now separate the attackers into isolated spaces with

empty clipboards. Force each to attribute claims to direct observation. Secondhand rumors go straight to disposal. Finally, immediately offer the targeted employee a clear exit. They are not required to participate in an ongoing investigation while the accident is still happening. By dismantling a unified crowd into documented, accountable individuals, you instantly neutralize the collective panic and

restore procedural order to the room. Once the intervention is complete, you face a new vulnerability, tampered, or highly subjective paperwork. This environment thrives on the liars dividend. When fake evidence floods a space, honest people begin to doubt their own memories. This verification checklist is your defense. Every document must pass through these four

empty fields: source, date, context, and chain of custody. Secure the raw evidence exactly as you found it. If facts are missing, explicitly write the word unknown rather than guessing. Do not attempt to clean up messy evidence to create a more cohesive narrative. Improving a document for clarity

destroys its value. Preserving raw uncertainty on the official record is vastly safer than manufacturing a flawless but entirely false story. The final non-negotiable step is physically crossing the threshold out of the compromised space. Immediately drop any physical objects or forms you picked up inside. Leave them behind. In this shot,

the evacuation is straightforward. Place your hand on a designated pushbar exit door and walk through it into the daylight. Do not stop at the threshold to argue with colleagues who demand justification for your departure. Avoid making frantic, irreversible decisions on your way out simply to prove to the room that you are calm. Walking out is a

standard mechanical safety procedure. It is not a moral verdict, a debate, or an admission of guilt. Once the door closes behind you, the evacuation is complete. The threat is isolated, and you are standing in a safe, uncompromised space. This image outlines your immediate postexit protocol. Sit in a well-lit

area. Record the events in simple language. Eat something and check an independent clock against a reliable map. Lean on your designated safety buddy to help vocalize and verify your memory of the event without distortion. Adhering to these mechanical exit steps ensures that the confusion of the hazard remains confined to the room. By walking

out, you demonstrate that your judgment remains your own property rather than an asset of the workplace.

Are you still grind? Sorry. That's what I'm talking about. Dear grundle. Okay. Um, you like that? But you're horny because I'm It's It's me. I'm so hot.

So, let me see. Oh, 57% love and support. Wow. Disappointing. Oh, so we have a lot of haters. I mean, it's like I guess I should play the haters club song then.

I am.

Oh.

>>

>> Welcome to the haters club with a fake get loud when the views dry up. Got to hate the one crooked got a sermon baked. Say I'm praying for you while the screenshots get saved. They got concern in their voice. Poisoning the cup. Say I hate drama while they winded up got pearls in a death script. Clutch clutch talk

real big online in person. Not much. They got 12 fake pages and one tired scheme. Same cheap perfume on a recycle me. Same fake ass. Same room. Same twostep shovel. When you bring the receipt they whisper, they wiggle, they edit,

they shove, then act brand new. When the chorus comes up, it's the sight haters, but fake saint, fake hug, fake tears, fake love for one, then hide that glove. >> >> Big mad bad vibes, little bad stuff. Psychers love what a bargain.

They say be kind with a for

row seat at the nobody asked awards. Best fake victim. Best twist in words. Best I'm above this while refreshing the feed. less crocodile tears in a thirsting stamp. Got a PhD in selective recal can remember your type forget what they

cause. They start the fire then ring the alarm then show up in like I meant no harm. Buddy buddy smile with a snake in the purse. They call it that they stop your search. They say I want peace with a megaphone

grin translation. Please let me gossip again. They hope panic then faint and bluff and swear they're shocked when you call their stuff. It's the haters of fake s fake hugs fake tears fake love one rock then

hide that loving mad bad bad vibes little bad

they say be kind with a baby same new Same lies, same spin, same dummy face. When the truth walks in,

they whisper like it's sacred art. A little I hear, then I'm calm and dark. Then they cosplay wise with a filter quote like duct tape on a leak in a sinking bowl. Got a rage on tap morally rented. Every fake crusade comes pre-invented. Even

burn calories they don't be thin but here they come chewing glass again. They love saying he's bothered with a smirk and a shake while building all channels off the crumbs. They make a match being press like a grudge with a coupon for luck. They want your name but they don't want smoke with a punch line that can't handle the joke. Want to throw dust and cry to mean after dancing barefoot through

a gasoline scene. So here's a mirror. Polish it up. See that face? That's the haters club. No mystery there. No grandandy blood. Just a room full of people with a whole lot of knowers.

It's the gay haters love fake hug fake tears. Fake love. One rock and high back loving mad bad vibes. Little bad stuff. Psychers love mass living when the truth shows up. They preach high ground from the molding

chair. But the link out when the lie gets there.

Welcome to the club. Punch clock to stir it up. If you can't create, then critique the sport. Little kings and queens of the ford. Same clown, new wig, same tire. Welcome baby to the haters club.

Light the candle. Check the mic.

Before the mask, before the name, the soul was longing just as flame. Bring your shadow, bring receipts. Pull up a throne, but wipe your feet.

Signal first, the metrics last. The veil is thin, the chat moves fast. >> Come alive. Gods don't beg and cats go live. >> Face the dark and ask it why >> you cast the shadow. So say hi. Truth laughter side by side. Keep your free will then subscribe.

The signal continues.

>>

>> They tried to find him in the woods one night. BIG BOOTS, BIG BEARD, GONE BEFORE DAYLIGHT.

He's untrackable off every map. Bigfoot saw him and said, "Who's that chap?" Footprints so large they block the trail. His beard has its own zip code and male. Birds build nest when he falls asleep. Park rangers whisper, "Don't wake that beast." A satellite caught him

cooking beans, then lost the signal behind his beard on screen. Unttrackable, impossible to find. Bigfoots, three steps behind. Army cook with a mystery stew. Nobody knows what he put in the brew. Untractable

covered in hair. HIS BEARD ENTERS ROOMS BEFORE HE GETS THERE. He joined the army and became the cook. One taste of breakfast made the sergeant look. Is this an omelet or camouflage pace? He said that information IS CLASSIFIED. JUST TASTE.

His biscuits were strong enough to stop a tank. The coffee stood up and marched through the ranks. He burned boiling water. Nobody knows how. Then seasoned the smoke and served it as chow. Unttrackable. Impossible to find. Bigfoots three steps behind.

Army cooked with a mystery stew. Nobody knows what he put in the brew. Untractable. Covered in hair. His beard ENTERS ROOMS BEFORE HE GETS THERE. Bigfoot called a man. TEACH ME YOUR WAYS. I'VE BEEN HIDING OUT HERE FOR

THOUSANDS OF DAYS. He said, "Grow your beard and destroy every track. Serve powdered eggs. No one's coming back. Thermal cameras failed when he walked through the snow. They only caught a beard with two boots below. Last seen grilling somewhere offrid. The army denies everything that he did.

Unttrackable. King of the trees with tactical bacon and government cheese. Big beard blowing like a flag in the air. Half army cook and half grizzly bear. Untraable legend of the night. IF THE FOOD DOESN'T GET YOU, THE BEARD JUST MIGHT.

into the archives of a marathon 6-hour community live stream and the audio hits you like a wall. A dozen voices are shouting over each other about doxing, harassment, and betrayal. And then without warning, the screaming stops and someone starts talking about the local weather. One minute the panel is peacefully strumming acoustic guitar

covers of rap songs and laughing. The next the host is screaming at absent viewers, accusing them of coordinating malicious cyber bullying campaigns against her friends. The arguments escalate into absurdity. A participant complains about being blocked from a chat room and in the very next breath threatens to call in federal authorities because their feelings were hurt on the

internet. Looking past the surface noise of the broadcast reveals the presence of a strict digital law. These 6-hour recordings are governed by the rigid mechanics of a micro society. We usually think of a live stream moderator as a digital janitor. They are the invisible helpers who quietly sweep away spam links and block automated bots in the

background. But in the modern creator economy, moderation serves a completely different purpose. The real function of the moderator wrench is social engineering. Platforms equip everyday people with a blunt binary tool. The absolute power to ban. When a host uses that power to manage messy personal

relationships, the chat room becomes a highstakes political battleground. In the opening minutes of this specific stream, the host doesn't greet her audience or introduce a daily topic. She immediately begins distributing power, deciding who gets a moderator wrench and who stays a regular viewer. Granting that wrench is a highly symbolic act. It transforms an ordinary chat participant

into a deputized enforcer for the channel. The host quickly imposes a class structure on these new enforcers, splitting them along gender lines. She names her female moderators angels, explicitly instructing them to act as peacekeepers sent from heaven. The male moderators, however, receive a very different title. She dubbs them crows,

directly referencing pop culture revenge figures and explicitly tells them their job is to strike back at the bad people who cross the channel. This animated pyramid illustrates the three tier class structure of this digital thief. At the top sits the sovereign or the host. In the middle are the enforcers. At the base are the subjects. The host holds

the absolute right to ban anyone from the community entirely. Handing a user a moderator wrench has nothing to do with enforcing objective community guidelines. It establishes a digital aristocracy built entirely on personal loyalty. Once that hierarchy is locked in, the host uses the threat of a ban as a relational weapon. Access to the panel

is used to reward compliant friends and exile those who cause friction. Participants meticulously track each other's behaviors. Simply blocking another creator or listening without typing in chat is treated as evidence of treason. The host frequently attempts to play the role of a fair mediator. She proposes convening panels of rival

creators to interrogate their competing stories and uncover who is lying about real world harassment. But the digital penalties quickly fail to contain the anger. When a simple block doesn't work, participants invoke extreme realworld threats, warning that they will reinstate harassment charges with major city police departments like the NYPD.

The hosts supposedly impartial courtroom is heavily biased by proximity. When an enemy makes a claim, they face intense interrogation. When a close friend provides unverified screenshots of a dispute, the panel accepts that evidence without question. Look at this circular flowchart to see the engine driving the stream. The broadcast moves from a harsh

allegation to a demand for an explanation into a flurry of insults and abruptly back to casual chat about pets and the weather before the cycle repeats itself. The host prioritizes the theatrics of a reality show over the due process of a courtroom. The innate need

to entertain a live audience with constant dramatic conflict prevents her from resolving the disputes. Amidst the accusations and police threats, the stream regularly drops into moments of genuine human connection. The panel laughs over multi-generational family pizza traditions and offers emotional

support to a participant recovering from an illness. That fragile intimacy exists solely because the host aggressively guards the room. The tight border control keeps malicious trolls out, allowing vulnerable conversations to happen safely. In a micro society, the moderator wields a terrifying power. They hold the ability to dictate

subjective reality for everyone present in the room. Grave serious tone. Erasing a user from the chat room is a digital execution. Along with the avatar, the moderator deletes the person's evidence, silences their voice, and scrubs their version of the truth from the public

record. The absolute power of the host serves a dual purpose. She can instantly carve out a safe haven for her friends and in the next breath orchestrate a public trial for her rivals. Moderators build the community survival and they guarantee its perpetual chaos. They use the very tools designed for digital

safety as instruments for public humiliation and loyalty tests.

Hi guys. Hi thing that is. How are you? See. Hi Lola. Come on baby. Oh. Wow. Look at this big bag of Cheetos. I'm cheat. I'm gonna be I'm gonna be Cheetoing.

A double raspberry. Cacao. Caka. Caka. Caka. Oh, thank you so much. Coffee. Yay. Hey, Lola. Want a hard lemonade? Lola. Oh, thank you so much. Hey, you're good. Well,

good. I'm good, too. How are you? >> Hey, get on my Yeah, we're having a nice uh nice little night tonight. little little small stream, but I don't know if you heard did you see what Frank was saying? Um thing that is that guy Frank was saying he because he's he's like he said I was messing with him. All I said to him was that he was a baby

because he he left my show twice like in a in a huff. I was I was playing stuff but um yeah he said he was going to dox me and like you know all kinds I mean it's like and then he said he was even like threatening beta and stuff like that which is like you know it's like she was like being friendly to him and stuff but she had beat and Christina you didn't see it. Yeah it's down now. It was on

Sam Man's show, but then it's it was I think uh he took it off of Frank clapped it off of um Jany's channel, I think, because it wasn't on Jany's channel anymore, but Santa didn't play it. But so I can play it tomorrow, maybe. Or I had to be careful, though, because I think that Frank is um but they had Frank in drag, too. It was pretty funny. They had

Frank, he was in drag and they kept playing the Michael Jackson noise. I mean, talk about real Michael Jackson. That's a Frank is definitely like a Michael Jackson lookalike, you know. No, not look alike. Well, he has kind of the same skin tone, but no, I don't know. But he's supposedly like also like, you know, some guy was questioning him about like he's like, "Oh, well, how like what

what makes you like a true crime expert? Like who who called you an expert? Like what what award, what degree? Like what what do you have? Like what kind of what what is your true crime?" And he's like, "Would you just declare yourself an expert?" And Frank said,"Yeah, I just declared myself an expert." And then he's like, "Well, you're not the guy." And then he told the guy, "You're not the sharpest box in the crayon."

He just sounded so weird. I mean, it was like And he sounded so psychopathic. I mean, he's like, he's like, "Oh, I'm in Europe. You can never track me down. If you do anything to me, you know, that's illegal. I'm gonna I'm gonna send someone to beat you up or I mean, it was like just so I was like, "What?" I mean, he's talking about doing all these illegal things, but yeah, he's very arrogant. H

some gay guys. I just like like I said, there's not much very much unity in the community with gays because it's like because it's like there's all the sexual tension I guess. I I don't know. It's kind of like whenever there's sexual tension in places then it's like it's usually not good for like things. It's usually like usually things

go bad because it's like, you know, it's like um uh they'll be able there'll be like some kind of manipulation on one side or another, right? But uh hi, how are you, Lola? Miss Lola, but do you like my So, yeah, I'm having a nice night. Um you know, I've been working a lot on a lot

of different things like, you know, especially my my website. I'm transcribing everything. I think I've got another like oh my gosh I think I how much should I transcribe like uh I've had another I think 75 hours or something like that but I had to do it by by voice transcription because

they're they're like a um adults only streams. So yeah, I I I mean I've been like you know so attacked like it's like there's a lot of my streams that are on adults only or like you know people just like they they just arbitrarily try to like like do it but YouTube knows like um and so I I'm monetized like it's like I don't even

have like a a strike right now. So it's like I'm just like doing really good. But somebody else I saw a post that said this woman we all know. She said we know we know of. She said, "Oh, well, you think that losing your channel's bad is just beginning to think there's be there's gonna be deaths. You know that your family's going to be killed. Like I just like oh my gosh, people are just

taking things so like way too crazy too far. I don't know what." Yeah. Think thing go live. He's a masochist and doesn't let anybody talk. Oh, that's midnight. Thing just went live midnight. Yeah, Madison Gill's a douche. And Midnight, I thought I I thought, why are you here, Midnight? Because you just

complain all the time. I really don't like your energy. Can you just like lurk if you're here? I don't want I don't really want to hear from you. I don't want to mute you. It's annoying. Why don't you And it's like, you know what? And I don't mind like Oh, thing it is. If you want to ever put your put your um channel in the chat anytime, I don't mind.

Yes, because you do not. You're like the certain friend group. Okay, bye out, bitch. Okay. Anyway, uh yeah. So,

um yeah, I don't know. I I can't I can't take them right now. They have to come under another alt or something like that. But um yeah um it was pretty good. It was pretty good. Oh, you're welcome. Thing is this. No, no problem. I'm happy to b Yeah, I'm happy to ban them anytime. Anytime we Okay. Uh I want to show thing

that is something. Let me see. What can I show that is you see me singing and dancing with my friend? Lights flicker, candles glow. >> I'm calling out, come meet the show.

>> Think, feel, repeat, I say. >> And you cue the crowd. >> Laugh and sway. Oh, cult the sight. We're flipping fate with a glowing key that seals the gate. Feel the funky warm fuzzy rush. It's not a trick. It's just

quite hush hush. >> The emoji pops. A pixel grin. >> You're about to feel >> a fuzzy spin. >> Skeptic shout. I like >> maybe >> I grin. >> Your heart's the truth, not a bean. >> Yes. Unlock the podcast. Hit the

mark. Keep your minds bright. Ignite the spark. It's community, >> not a maze. >> We're building farms that truly blaze.

>> That LED key dangles in bright light. Drop it in the lock and music takes flight. The first beat of mind makes you shout. >> You made the track today. >> Coke of sight. Who thought it's weird? >> Now we share what truly

matters heard. >> Keep the light on. Let curiosity >> And next week we'll invite the stones to bloom. a bedroom. >> Curiosity kindness. Keep the glow. >> Thank you friends >> for watching us grow.

>> I don't know what that sound is, man. Seems like there we'll be cushioning song. I don't have part. But I love the video though. So cute. So cute. Um I made a couple of those today. Um, yeah.

Like, here's me singing it. Here's my singing. Here's my natural singing voice actually.

Shit.

As

you balance the books with silk and sour smoke, you call Insane when the wooden chair broke heavy coat. Oh, I took it off. Okay, it's okay.

This one, too. Here, look at this one. >> I was sitting at the table late last night. >> Dirty money stacked high beside the deck. The spirit showed me a snake right in my circle. Before Sabbath morning comes, somebody going to switch sides.

I laid the death card on 500 cash. Look my brother in his eye and saw the snake. We counting dirty bills before the church bells ring. He's smiling in my face, but your heart is fake.

The car said Judas sitting on my right. I saw silver coins. >> There you go. I mean, they're just two minutes long, but that one is long. That one's three minutes. I could do different things with different things. Okay. Um,

yeah. What else did I do? and did

this.

Uh-huh. >> We came for the spark in the black of the night. Stay for the truth when it bit and it felt right. >> >> Laugh in the chaos, breathe in the strange. If you felt something real, it means

you change. >> So keep that flame where your fear used to be. Take it with you. You learned it from me. >> PSYCHE. >> WE don't fade, we rise. >> Psychic.

Keep the signal alive. When the world gets loud and you're losing your mind, say it once and you'll remember. I'm the fire. I'm the sun. Don't need a throne. Don't need permission. Don't need a throne. Don't need permission. >> A sharp little heart and a clear intuition. >> Sharp little heart and a clear intuition.

>> If they don't get you, let them stay blind. OPEN. >> We conjure our kind. And when the shadows start calling your name you'll hear my voice like a match in the rain.

Psycho. We don't fade, we ride. Psycho. Keep the signal alive. When the world gets loud and you're losing your mind, say it once and you'll remember. I'm the fire. I'm the sun.

>> Brea in. Breathe out. >> Hold the line. Seal the gate. Keep the light. >> Breathe in. Breathe out. Hold the line. >> Seal the gate. Leave the life

>> of psycho. Woo! Psycho! Woo! Psycho! Woo! Woo!

Yeah, there we go. Ult psycho. Did they just call me a psych? So, I got some sound effects. I need to test them though. I mean, it's like should I do you want to hear them? See, I made some sound effects. Can I add sounds? Yes, I can add them. Okay, let me just like I'll just add them at random, I guess.

Okay. Uh, a tarot card. Okay, that one psychic powerify. Okay. Okay. Uh power. Okay. Um cosmic side eye spirit has entered.

Absolutely. Cursed third eye buffering algorithm demand license exorcism dulu. Shalulu and excited dolphin. Okay. So let's see if it's okay. They're coming on. So, let's

hear how these sound. This is just a uh experiment by soundboard.

>> Okay. >> Subscribe, like and >> that wasn't good. Okay, so that's No, it's that one. >> I'm leaving. >> What the fuck? No. Okay.

>> No. All messed up. What was that?

Oh,

no.

back.

>> The hell? That doesn't even sound like a dolphin. It sounds like a fucking one of those whistles. Well, >> I mean, I'm not too impressed. >> Ask again. >> Okay, that one. Oh, I like that.

Ask again. >> Oh, that's a good one. I like that one. >> The dolphin sounds too much like a mosquito. Okay. >> Okay. I like that one. >> Okay, that's too simple. >> Okay, so two out of the 10 I just did.

I even like Okay, let's try this again. Okay, let's try four. Oh shit. We'll try it all this air card. I'll I'll try four everything number four. I mean, geez. Should have started that beginning. Okay.

Where is this tarot deck number? Okay, that one. Psychic Wi-Fi number four. Okay.

Um tower moment number four cosmic side number three spirit has entered number one absolute curse number two third eye buffering number one algorithm demand number one

unlicensed exorcism number four shulu number excited dolphin number one. Let's try this out. I mean, jeez.

Okay. >> Ask again after >> ask again after Mercury retrograde. Okay, that's good. leaving the hell.

>> Like and subscribe. >> 3% 3%

back.

Nick, is that you Nick? Is that Unic? Unic. Is it Unic? I'm just kidding. Hi, how are you? You look very You look like You look very peaceful. You look almost like Mason's. You look You look as peaceful as Mason tonight. Not Not to me. >> Are you Are you really high?

>> What are you laughing about? Why are you smiling like that? >> I just was like passed out. I was like, "Let's go." >> I have Look what I have now. You jealous? >> Hell yeah, bro. >> It's a boutique. >> You know what? I like this. >> I finally got that Psych Awakens merch. >> You did

>> that. You Yeah, you sent it. >> Is that the Lenor shirt? Are you wearing the Lenor shirt? You're wearing the Lenor shirt. >> Psych Awakens. Is that a license? Is that a license? >> You don't remember? >> A shirt. You were so high. >> You don't remember? >> I must have been. It looks like >> Yeah. Right. I don't know. Just showed up at the house. Did I give you my

address? What the fuck? >> How the hell did you get this here? >> I just had to have >> my suck a waking shirt. >> I'm gonna free my design. That's my Lenor design. Maybe I get a hoodie now that we've got a little slippery slope right here. Now

>> I think I like maybe a waking headband >> and I can go to the I can jog like get my little jog. >> I love that idea. >> Oh, you need to make though maybe like a psych waking stone. >> Stone. >> When I'm feeling freaky at that. >> Can you wear it? Are you going to wear it for me? Would you wear it on my show? >> Yeah, I might wear it but not on. >> Can you roll your tires? Roll the tires

with it. Not not on tire. >> Not on your I roll the tires. You have >> I was just trying to get free sight to bend over. merch. >> Okay. Well, I mean it's like I mean it cost me money, so it's like I can't give >> You got to take it out of the You got to it to you for cut out the middleman. That's what >> I'll give it to you for my price. I'll give it to you for my price, but you have to pay extra shipping. >> What's your price? 90% off. >> I don't know. I've never bought one.

>> But no, no one's ever bought No one's ever bought any merch yet. But you know what? Soon someday they will. I need to make some >> exclusive merch. >> I know is so Hey, I am designing some new exclusive merch. I only have this one design right now, but I mean that one design, but >> make some new designs. >> Yeah. >> So other people can cop those new exclusive

Psych Awakens TE's. >> I'm gonna get a I'm turning into a fish taco design. I'm gonna get a >> a Psyche Hers. I see that one. >> You see that one working? Yeah. Psyche Haters Club. I'm going to get like, you know, um the American flag speedo um psyche brand >> gota be want that >> for the holidays.

>> So So thing that isn't saying hi to you. Do you know who the who said the owl is? I think his name I think it's this Andros guy, but I don't know. He posted something that said brother about me and so I >> taking over the game. Watch out y'all. >> Who is the owl? That is he's another >> I know he's he stole my whole audience.

That's why that's why he was always here kissing kissing up because he knew that they hated me. They're just ready to escape. >> Thank you for >> Hey, you know what every else everyone's doing? They're having gay sex. Would you like to do that with me? >> I didn't catch that part. >> No, I'm sorry. Never mind. Never mind. >> Hey, I can you send me a Lenor shirt,

though? That That looks even better than my design. Did you draw Did you do that yourself? How did you do the little North shirt so perfectly? >> I don't know. I just got it. It just s got sent to the house. >> Got sent to the house. Okay. Is it for me? >> You synced it, right? Or was it like Pyana? She's your >> It might have been Pyana that did it.

Are do you guys have Do you guys have like a underground like you know you just steal all my ideas and like >> You got your bank information. >> Oh my god. my bank information. No, no, >> Yeah, I named She downloaded me. no. >> Bank is in Switzerland, Nick. >> She >> You have to talk to Jenny. You know Jenny that comes on my show. That's my

bank card. Talk to her about it. Okay. Thank you. >> Jenny. >> Jenny. Yeah. Like Forest Gump and Jenny. Except you know Jenny like you know fucking finally married Forest Gump or whatever. >> I know. I was waiting for him to hit it with Jenny because she was all like going with this asshole. Oh, don't pick him up for us. >> Do you think it's right that she married

a retarded person though? >> Why? She was retarded cuz she >> she wasn't retarded. She was a normal intelligent person, but she just made bad choices. >> She was more retarded than Forest in my book. >> Well, isn't that ironic part of the movie? It's like he was the he was the retarded person, but he through what was it? He was very lucky or something or he

just had a good heart, so things worked out. What was it that was the secret that movie? I don't want to talk ill >> What do you mean? What do you mean? He's for not a real person. It's just a case. That's a the character Tom Sean Hanks >> Talking about Forest. I got Forest come played in a movie. tattoo right here. >> You do. >> I don't.

>> But if I did, that would be cool. >> It would. I mean, it would be You'd be the first person I've ever heard of that got a Forest Gum tattoo. I mean, it's like, you know, you >> maybe sitting on the bench. >> I bet there's some black people. I bet there's black people with a bubblegum shrimp tattoo, though. What do you think? >> No, he he would be eating a thing of shrimp out of a little box of chocolate instead of chocolate. I think a piece of

>> But Nick, do you know that before the shrimp. >> right? He's right there with Bubba. >> Nick, do you know that Forest? The captain. >> Oh, eating shrimp. >> Nick, can I talk to you for a second? Do you know that movie is actually >> the movie is based on an Indian movie and they didn't he didn't have he didn't sell shrimp in the movie he sold

underwear a damn about audition >> I'll show you hold on you believe me that it's an Indian forest gump that was the first movie his name is L singada okay that's the name of the movie u but actually it came out way after okay but anyway they didn't

make a um it's actually a they're called six or six or whatever. Um but it's called L singada. And I just want you to see the trailer to see if you see any similarities to the movie that you love called Vers. Let's see if there's any similarities to Lad.

You'll love it. You'll love it. I promise you. Shit, you ready? Nick.

>> Nick, do you see it? >> No. >> You don't see shit.

>> Hold on. Look, >> you see it? >> Oh, you don't? Shit.

Join it here.

Is it okay?

Oh, hell no.

forest idea.

Forget that story. Jenny, her name is Rupa. This is bullshit. >>

>> I actually seem to like the story better if you watch it. Oh, sorry.

Oh my life is like a chocolate. Life is like a gold gelato.

Isn't it a beautiful sound? What do you think? You want to see that movie now with me? >> Do I want to watch the movie with you? >> Yeah. >> No, but that was really nice of you that >> I appreciate it. >> No problem. I don't I didn't want to really watch the whole thing.

>> You son of a bitch. Now I'm >> cheesy to me. Okay. I would >> elbow to the eyeball. >> Did you see that? That guy Frank was threatening me on uh Tobita and stuff like that. He said he was going to talk. >> You should have You should have said, "Let's meet up." I thought that would have been >> I I said so. He said he lives all the way to the Netherlands and and he said he's not going to pay for my plane ticket. So I

>> He like fly over here, bitch. >> I was gonna Yeah. I was like, "Buy me a plane ticket, bitch." And he was like, "No, I'm not going to do that." Little brat. You would have fought him on his home tour. >> Dang. I would have gone there. It would have been one of those hostile situations, you know, where it's like,

oh, you know, oh, you know, just stay in this room and then someone will be up to torture you by 6 p.m. These people are crazy. >> Have you heard of Nick? Have you heard of a movie called Weapons? >> Yeah. You keep showing me that shit, dude. Because you have to watch that movie. Watch that movie and then to come

talk to me. Okay. >> Well, I don't have time to You're You're live all the time. It's like we're living Groundhog's Day. >> Yeah, but you don't have time to like watch the movie like when you're not I'm not I'm not live like like 24 hours. Like I'm just on for like maybe like less than one quarter of the whole day. I know I'm on every day almost, but

>> don't explain to me time. >> Well, you brought it up saying >> you brought it up. No, >> I'm just making conversation like what it's called. It's called I'm trying to talk. It's a show. You know, dead air is kind of like, you know, I know you I know you don't know you're on a show like right now, but it's like, you know, >> no, it's 500 a.m. here.

>> They don't come to see you do like, you know, your Marcel Marcelo imitation. They want to see you like, you know, kind of interact and talk a little bit. >> We wanted to see your bong for the 50,000th time. Your bong made of, you know, straws from the dumpster. >> Sleepy time. Oh, you're going to bed. I love you, Nick. >> Love you, too, bro.

>> What are you wearing? >> Your merch. $25. >> I'm gonna get I'm I'm gonna get a uh Coltoi jock strap with Lenor's face in the front and I I'm going to give it to you for free. Okay. I promise. >> I don't know. It just somehow sh >> You just You made that yourself. Oh,

thank you. I like your shorts. Well, thank you. You're Can you Will you be my model? I'll send you something for free. >> I think you're a model for >> for all the I have there's merch coming out. I'm not and I'll but you know I'll just I'll take I'll just like take a few pictures of you and then you know Is it okay with how it showed up at the house? >> I I like I just I just have I just have

a I just have the Lenor socks and I don't want you to wear anything else. Just the socks. Would you do that? >> How much for that? I'll give you throw in a shirt. I'll throw in a shirt. Do a screenshot and then you can do that. I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna do Let me take off the the text on the screen. Perfect. Okay. Thank you so much. Perfect. Okay. Got

>> Be like $25. I would have paid more. it. >> Well, I'll send you I'll still send you the free jock strap. Okay. But you have to model it for >> front and back. >> I think we could start hawking these shirt. >> I think so, too. I like that. I mean it's like that's cool. I think I might Did you tweak the design? >> Fuck.

>> Toss her a shirt and say, "Put this on, bitch. I'll give you 20 bucks." Snap a couple shots. Clicketity clack. And then you show it back that people online, they'll go, "What? You got professional models?" >> You're like, "You like Nick? Seriously?" >> No, not me. You show fuck you show some some bitch at the with Dino Beach like roll up throw a shirt at her be like

bitch >> I will Can I Do you think I should get one of those shirt cannons and like shoot it at people? That'd be a fun >> Don't hit her with something like that. >> I mean it won't hurt their heart. I'll do it from across the pier to people and I'll make sure that they want to catch them. I'm sure I I won't shoot I won't shoot any >> Say one to Mason. He'll be so fucking

happy. He won't stop fucking with >> Send me. Mason won't give me his address, though. I mean, he keeps giving me his phone number, but he >> Just send one across the street and tell won't give me. him that it's on the neighbor's port and then be like, "Yeah, the package is here." Mason come. Can I just give it to any person?

>> Send him an eye patch. >> I'll give them all you need. I was I'll give them all a free t-shirt. If they leave me alone, >> I say matey. >> They be like, "All right." >> I'd be like, "All right." All right. You

know what? Oh, actually like um Yeah. I like I like uh >> you know pirate, you know, pirates were gay. Like a lot of them were gay because they would be on these ships with all these other men. That's really messed up because people really, you know, look up to like who's that?

Um, Johnny Depp, you know, in that movie. >> They look up to Johnny Deb on that movie and y'all gonna talk about pirates like that. Y going to put down that whole industry. Pirates aren't that damn. I guess I'm not No, I'm not saying anything bad about I'm gay, so I don't think

I'm gay, so I don't think there's anything bad about being gay. I'm saying that there a lot of pirates who were like out on the on on the high seas for months only with other men or like a bunch of lesbians, you know, that want to be. >> There was no lesbian boats. Come on. What are you talking about? >> Yeah, they did like Danica Patrick boat. >> Bitches and guys were gay.

Lubard likes to like, you know, wear like the hair all long and he would he would like, you know, do like all these like pyrochnics and theatrics like a like a like a drag show. I mean, basically it was shock and he'd be in drag on the pirate ship. >> Maybe there was like a girl queen and then she gave him a boat and so y'all

can do it too. Isabella, Queen Isabella Columbus talking about >> Yeah, maybe. >> Maybe. >> I never read about that in history. >> Columbus, the ocean blue. You didn't learn that. >> You think they would have talked about it. >> I think everyone I think is like not even in movies.

>> Here's the one pumpkin that like one or two pumpkins we came up with. We >> It's not big, but you know, maybe next year. >> Why don't you get a bigger pumpkin than that? I mean, that's not going to do that's You can't carve that for Halloween. You >> This is where it's at. Minimalism. Now, >> that looks like That looks like That looks like a kumquad. It doesn't look like a a fucking >> Hey, y'all. Don't be hating on my my

watermelon. I mean, my >> I'm hating on it. I'm gonna hate on >> It's not even It doesn't look like a watermelon or a pumpkin. It looks like a fucking like like less than a egg or a lemon. What are you doing? What's in it? Is that a donut? What is it? Haters >> don't hate. We got to celebrate. What?

Scared me. Are you scared? Like, okay. >> Am I scared? >> I'm take a nice night. Sleepy sleep. >> What? You're in your sleep? Okay, Nick. I love you. >> I got to take off my authentic. Can you take off your shirt for me before you

take before you turn off the camera? Can you take off your shirt >> just for the chat? >> I'm just gonna hopefully get a hoodie sometime. >> Yeah, just you can you just wrap the shirt around your head and and be sure. >> I'mma put it on my Christmas list. >> Okay.

You look everybody see. This is a real authentic. >> Hey, look at you're in your underwear. Oh, is that is that underwear or like the little blue shorts? I like those. Are those dolphin shorts? >> Your balls are hanging out. Okay. Well, have a good night. >> Night night sight. >> I love you. Thank you.

>> Wow, that was great. >> That was one of my favorite shows, >> I think I just saw Nick's balls. though. >> What did you say? You saw my balls. >> I think I inappropriate. >> That wasn't okay. Good night. for a family. >> This landscape, a sheer, punishing climb

up a bare mountain face, capped by a house that is never quite finished. To carve a stairway into living rock like this, requires the conviction that a thing worth making must be built to last. The climber on this path works with deliberate, patient calculation. He studies the natural faults in the stone.

He measures his weight before placing it, repairs the crumbling edges left by those who came before him, and fortifies the railings against the wind. Because he looks capable of bearing the weight, other travelers start leaving their tools and materials on his steps. He accepts the load. He repairs their sections of the path and continues to haul their abandoned stones upward long

after those travelers have vanished from the mountain. Engineering a life entirely around duty creates a stable environment for everyone else. Yet, when a builder absorbs every abandoned responsibility without question, that enduring structure slowly becomes a self-made prison. Now, this moving water

is the anomaly. The builder carries a dry clay vessel that appears empty to the outside world, yet it contains the physical force of a rushing current. The water hums with a rhythm that has nothing to do with stone. It responds to distant rooms, unfamiliar faces, and futures far larger than the immediate

demands of the staircase. Managing this liquid force requires an impossible physical compromise. If the builder grips the vessel too tightly in an attempt to secure it, the water goes dangerously still. If he pours everything out to quench the thirst of the climbers below, his hands shake from the exhaustion of the effort. We can see

this conflict modeled here. The friction of opposites occurs when an immovable unyielding boundary attempts to control a fluid source. The rigid structure will continually compress the curus to maintain order until the pressure violently reverses. The builder's current approach leaves no room for the

water's own cycle. Stagnation occurs when he grips the vessel too tightly and physical exhaustion follows when he gives everything away to others. Higher up the elevation, the predictable stonework suddenly stops. In the dirt, a single abandoned arrow points away from the unfinished house, aimed directly toward a red distant horizon. The

builder follows the arrow, leaving his hammer behind. The journey outward satisfies a hunger the stone could not feed, offering unfiltered exposure to foreign roads, unfamiliar music, and a massive expansion of perspective. Distance opens the mind, but the far horizon is crowded with mirages. The most beautiful promises often look clearest when they are completely out of

reach, and they vanish the moment you try to build a roof over them. Returning to the mountain path, the builder encounters three guardians waiting beside this balance scale. They force him to weigh a solid block of stone against a single cup of water to determine which holds more value. But

these elements defy comparison. Stone guarantees fixed enduring shelter. Water keeps the inhabitants alive, yet it refuses to hold one shape. Searching for a permanent static equation to resolve duty and freedom is a mathematical dead end. The variables are too volatile.

Real equilibrium requires a fresh weighing for every new decision. That impass breaks the mountain itself. A violent tremor tears straight through the bedrock, shattering the path from the inside out. Decades of meticulous labor are undone in seconds. The heavy iron gates fall, the broad steps split

in half, and large sections of the unfinished summit house slide downward into the dust. But this is not a tectonic shift. The bedrock cracks because a massive underground spring trapped and suppressed beneath the mountain for years has finally breached the surface. The environment executes the choice the builder was avoiding. The

sheer compounding pressure of the contained current obliterates the immovable rock layered above it. When rigid structures are designed to entirely suppress fluid forces, those structures will eventually be shattered by the very pressure they try to contain. As the dust settles, the focus shifts away from the shattered masonry

and toward the chaotic downhill rush of the newly released spring. The initial reflex is to reconstruct the old staircase exactly as it was, reinforcing the same broken walls. Instead, the builder sits beside the ruins and studies the path of the spring. Notice how this new design adapts to the

topography by cutting narrow channels alongside the steps, raising sistns at the resting places, and assembling bridges from the fallen debris. The path accommodates the terrain rather than fighting it. Executing this requires two distinct sets of expertise. The builder relies on the meticulous, heavy patience learned from setting rock, but pairs it

with an absolute respect for water's physical mandate to move. This configuration allows the mountain stress to the masonry. The spring no longer builds pressure against the steps. It moves through the channels provided for it. At the top of the climb, the summit house remains technically unfinished, but its function has evolved into a

highly permeable living environment. The roof is slanted to collect rainfall. Every door swings freely in both directions, and deep inside the structure, there is a secluded chamber designed solely to let the clay vessel fill in silence. Inhabiting this space requires a severe internal adjustment. The builder has uncoupled the concept of service from the act of self- eraser.

Travelers who climb the mountain call him a builder. Those who drink from the channels call him a keeper of water. Neither name fully describes him. He is the person who reinforces the wall and the person who watches the water move through it. He is still learning when to reinforce a wall, when to open a gate,

and when a crack in the stone has actually revealed a better design. At dawn, he checks the channels, chooses the next stone, and leaves the gate unlatched.

So good. I I might be the I I just might be the builder. But it's metaphorical though. It's metaphorical. Maybe like, you know, it's like maybe maybe all the my my steps cracked and everyone everyone fell fell down and everyone's

well everyone is not a lot of a lot of people didn't make it, you know. Sad. I don't know.

the light on somewhere and things are gathering around it. This happens every night in every corner of the world where somebody has decided to be visible on purpose. One person lit talking and in the dark around them a few hundred others sit arranged in a loose ring at

the edge of the light, silent, present and watching. The archives use a clinical term for what forms between them. Parasocial. It defines a one-sided emotional relationship in which a viewer feels intimately connected to a person who does not know they exist. While the clinical definition labels this as one-sided, the person sitting in the

dark experiences the connection as a tangible highresolution bond. For the watcher, the weight of the relationship is grounded in a deep and consistent familiarity. Consider the actual texture of this knowing. You know what time they wake up. You know which of their cats is unwell. You know the exact sound they make right before they say something

they haven't thought through. And you know the three specific subjects that will make them go quiet. You have heard them cry. You know exactly what their kitchen looks like at 4 in the morning. And yet despite possessing this granular, almost overwhelming familiarity, they do not know your name. A relationship with absolute zero reciprocity defies the basic rules of

social exchange. An equation this imbalanced should collapse under its own weight. But this arrangement shows how our oldest human instincts for attachment continue to function. Even when the modern environment removes the possibility of mutual recognition of human history, the people you knew well also knew you. The village was small. The knowing went both ways. This

is our baseline wiring, relying on an even exchange of attention to keep bonds secure. But recent technology severed that requirement, replacing mutual circles with unidirectional observation. The technology broke the symmetry of the exchange, but it kept the intimacy entirely intact. The watcher sense of closeness is a precise response to the

constant stream of personal details and vocal nuances they receive. The brain is simply processing authentic social data through a one-way filter. The feeling is simply not mutual because the system currently hosting it was never designed for mutual exchange. This relationship structure demonstrates how deeply the human drive for connection persists even

when the technology removes the requirement for the other person to look back. In this asymmetrical environment, a highly ordered ecosystem has blossomed. The people gathering in the dark naturally organize themselves into a hierarchy of specialized watchers. There is the day one, a viewer present since the very beginning of the light,

carrying a quiet, enormous status that cannot be purchased or replicated. There is the ride or die, the ecosystem stabilizing force who stays firmly in the ring through every controversy, every hiatus, and every strike. There is the lore collector tracking the history of the broadcast obsessively, capable of

surfacing a forgotten years old clip at exactly the right moment. Working beside them is the lorekeeper, the unprompted, unpaid archavist who diligently maintains the collective memory of the group. Then there are the lateral connections, the chat friends forever. These are people who originally arrived for the central speaker but ultimately

stayed for each other. These lateral bonds form a durable webbing that can easily survive sudden platform changes and even outlast the total termination of a channel. And finally, there is the lurker. Present at the edge of the light every single night for years. They possess a profound loyalty, having never once typed a single word. This catalog

of roles demonstrates how a large silent gathering organizes itself into a functional hierarchy over time, providing a predictable framework that supports the person in the light. Zoom out from the single lamp and you realize this exact ecosystem is operating simultaneously in thousands of corners across the world. The archives can

quantify portions of this phenomena. They count exactly 11,848 signals broadcasting 1,231 distinct voices. But the archives cannot tell you how many people have watched. That metric does not exist and it never will. Most of the energy and attention projected out of the darkness never lands on the subject. It simply circles

the edge of the light for a while and then goes home. Much of this attention exists outside of every known database, representing a vast uncounted presence that returns to the dark as silently as it arrived. But for all its vastness, this grand gathering is bound by time. At the intimate scale of a single lamp,

the broadcast always draws to a close. The loose ring of silent observers quietly breaks apart, dispersing back into the absolute dark of their own rooms. The closing ritual is always the same. Sometime in the early morning, one solitary person puts the light out and

goes to bed. They close their eyes and rest, having absolutely no idea who was keeping them company in the dark.

I'm sorry. Thank you so much. I appreciate that. Um I was actually um really um enjoying these new tools I'm able to use because I think this is a great way to to teach and stuff like that. I mean it's again it's very adaptable. I mean just it's

like just it's amazing the videos I'm able to make with it. I'm really excited to share like a lot and always was like looking for that perfect way to like present and it's like this is like wow it's like world is definitely a different place

right so um well so we're we're like in Lilith season so I'll show you my old Lilith videos I mean I have like a few old ones I'm not going to play the one that's Hi Elanor. Hi. Hi, sweetheart.

Oh my gosh. Hi. What are you doing? Oh my gosh. Coming back. Uh hi. I should have I have a let me see

later. I don't know. Oh, she's giving me a back rope. What's this?

Okay.

this friend a friend of mine. I think I'm going to do like a interview with him pretty soon. He's he's he's actually Lucifer, but here's one of his videos. Um

Wow, that was great.

I came to the altar wearing the name they gave me. The strings already knew the name inside me. Natanji open the mouth. I was taught to close.

>> I walked in a man with the storm in my chest. A smile like I could go a hour of rest. Long hair on my shoulder. All thunder and beard. Holding a voice that the world never heard. The mirror held the face I had carried so long. But somebody greener was huming my song. A parrot cried once from

the dark of the room. And every locked word in my body came loose. One string, one spark, one emerald breath. Beauty step forward awakened my flesh. The hail broke open. The od line stirred. I felt her arrive in the shape of a word. I'm a butterfly with teeth,

>> silk on the wings, >> thunder underneath. >> He carried me sleeping beneath his skin. >> Now the god is OPEN >> AND LET THE song in. I'm a butterfly with gold at the edges. >> Green fire when I speak. >> I didn't erase him. >> I made him complete.

>> I wear his blue eyes. >> I'm a butterfly with me. I'm about to fly with you.

>> The beer became smoke in the violet air. The hard lines were luminous rivers of hair. My throat found a register hidden within his low note still lives in the high note I sing. Crimson and emerald folded my frame. The crown did not make me. I spoke my own name. My hands found the vena. The vina found flame.

Each note took a ling from the world's oldest shame. The mirror quit asking which body was true. It showed me the one who had carried me through. Not costume, not mask, not a beautiful lie. The goddess was waiting behind his blue eyes. I'm a butterfly with teeth,

>> silk on the wings, >> thunder underneath. He carried me sleeping beneath his skin. >> Now the goddess and lets the song in. I'm a butter. Gold at the edges. >> Green fire when I speak. >> I didn't erase them. >> I made him complete.

>> I wear his blue eyes. >> I'm a butterfly with teeth. >> Who crossed the threshold? The man with the storm. Who leaves the temple? The goddess reborn.

What did she bury? Nothing of him. What did she >> everything within? Now the city at the margin starts singing my tone. No follower kneels and no sovereign stands alone. The letters they discarded turn

gold on the table. What they called impossible stands here able. My parrot keeps secrets then gives back my name. My halo has fractures and still holds the flame. The butterfly opens her teeth. Catch the light. Not made to devour but made ready to bite. Don't call me gentle when you power.

>> Don't call me broken for surviving the hour. A man was the doorway. A goddess the room. Both are the signal, the seed and the bloom. A tangle through me. EMERALD WORD MAKE every forbidden HEARD. I am not THE SHADOW. I CAST it FREQUENCY beneath soft as a blessing.

A butterfly with tears. Look in my eyes. >> He is still there. Look at my crown. >> She was always there. >> In my eyes, see you still there. Look at my crown. She was always there. >> I'm a butterfly with teeth, silk

on the wings. >> The whole storm underneath. >> He carried me here. >> Now I carry him in the curve of my smile. In the strength of my limbs. I'm a butterfly with heat. Gold at THE EDGES. >> GREEN FIRE WHEN I SPEAK. I'M SO BIG >> AND THE SOUL DOESN'T BLEED. I OPEN MY

WINGS. NOW THE WHOLE WORLD CAN SEE. I'm a butterfly with teeth, one soul, two forms finally complete. >> The man and the goddess are one underneath. >> I wear our blue eyes. I'm a butterfly with

I came in wearing the name that they could see. >> I leave as the name >> sing.

The signal continues.

Fame functions like a natural ecosystem. A single warm point of light flickers on in the dark and almost immediately a presence begins to gather around it. This arrangement often holds for years. The gathering mist settles into a quiet, unchanging stillness, orbiting the center in a state of perfect equilibrium. The observers are not

looking at a person. They are looking at a shape, a rigid outline that serves as a vessel for their own needs. The viewers fill this vessel with whatever they lack. They pour in their attention, their private loneliness, and their idealized ideas of what a good adult sounds like. This static state is highly efficient. The stillness of the center provides the viewer with a perfectly

safe, predictable anchor. Every ecosystem organized this way contains a single biological danger. We expect threats to come from the outside, predators or shifting trends or manufactured drama. But the true vulnerability is internal. The light is capable of movement. When the anchor twitches, the entire system enters a

crisis. The community has organized itself around a point that has suddenly proved it is alive. The archive calls this event a parasocial collapse. It is the moment the bond shatters. We usually describe this as a betrayal, but the evidence suggests something much more subtle. Ruptures of this kind are caused by specificity.

One night, the shape does something a shape cannot do. It has an unrelated opinion. It is tired and short. It turns out to want money or rest or privacy. The audience loses nothing during this event. The original figure is still there doing the same work. The crisis stems from an addition. A purely human

element was added to the scene and this addition did not fit the established mold. The illusion breaks because human complexity is physically incompatible with a static idealized structure. This friction produces a consistent behavioral fallout. The gathered group experiences an intense feeling of betrayal that seems entirely

disproportionate to the event. They immediately begin a frantic search through the past, looking for evidence that the light was always going to move. This reaction occurs because the viewer has used this figure as an internal anchor for years. When that anchor shifts, the viewer is left holding a grief that feels isolated and heavy. To manage this weight, the group conducts a

public accounting. They bond over their shared disappointment, transforming a private loss into a new community. This is the reality of attachment at a distance. It is the painful discovery of being in love with a projection rather than a person. From the perspective of the light, no crime was committed. It simply existed. The center was always a

human being working a job that requires being lit in public for hours. Maintaining the original ecosystem requires the person at the center to never age, never change, and never have a bad year. No living creature can sustain that standard. The ecosystem eventually fractures. Some of the presence that gathered scatters into the

darkness and does not come back. But some of the group circles for a while and settles back into orbit on different terms. This new arrangement is built on the acceptance of the person's flaws. It is a stable connection rooted in what actually exists rather than what was projected. And the light stays on because it is somebody's night and they have to work.

You know how to read a room. You watch the power dynamics, the tone shifts, and the unsaid rules. And right at the moment you finally understand the system, when people actually start looking to you for answers, you step back into the shadows. This reflexive retreat operates like a biological circuit, a tactical defense your soul

has been refining since the 3rd century. This flowchart maps a specific astrological pattern called the 12th house echo. It identifies a recurring cycle where your past lives gained insight, spoke the truth publicly, and immediately suffered a devastating loss of status or protection. Living through that loop repeatedly hardwired a

specific command into your subconscious. You believe that staying quiet is the only way to remain safe. In your modern life, this armor misfires. It triggers a withdrawal mechanism the moment you are about to be recognized, leaving you waiting for a permission slip that was never part of the plan. To break this cycle, we have to trace the reflex back to the historical margins where your

soul first learned to prefer the dark. This journey begins during the systemic collapse of the late classical period. Between the 3rd and seventh centuries, you inhabited your first recurring role, the marginal scholar. As the Roman structures fractured and fell, you secured a position far from the volatile centers of power, dedicating your life

to the physical preservation of endangered scrolls and hidden texts. Observing that institutional decay firsthand built an instinct to prioritize survival through isolation over participation in a failing state. You realized truth only survives if it stays outside the reach of the authorities. Fast forward to the religious tensions of the Renaissance and the role becomes the outsider

interpreter. In a landscape of dangerous dogma, you acted as a bridge. You understood the hidden motivations of opposing sides which made you a valuable intermediary who belonged to no one. fascinated to communicate profound insights that could have you branded a heretic. You learned to speak entirely

through symbols. You used archetypes and myth to lead others to the truth without ever identifying yourself as the source. By the end of these eras, your soul had mastered being a brilliant analyst, provided that your brilliance remained safely in the shadows. By the 19th century, this pattern reached its final

iteration, the social observer. Living through the birth of the industrial age, you began documenting the specific ways mass production was eroding human identity, identifying the archetypes of modern anxiety decades before the field of psychology had a name for them. But seeing the mechanics of society so clearly created a profound sense of

alienation. For centuries, you have been perfecting the vision of a leader, but you have been using it with the posture of a refugee. The cumulative data from these past iterations points toward an evolutionary pivot, a transition from the detached observation of the Aquarius south node to the heart-ledd visibility

of the Leo North Node. This shift requires you to actively challenge your survival strategies. You are being asked to dismantle the very silence and anonymity that kept you safe for a thousand years. The scholars distrust of broken systems must now be used to build

your own parallel structures. You are no longer just preserving knowledge. You are defining the rules and boundaries of a new culture. The translator's use of tarot and archetypes is no longer an intellectual game to avoid conflict. It is your declared public language, the tool you use to set the tone for

everyone else. And the observer's psychological insight must move beyond passive diagnosis. You are here to build the containers where truth survives the chaos, creating spaces where others can finally recognize themselves. The era of self-p protection through quiet insight

has reached its conclusion. Your current purpose is public meaning making. Your mission is to take a history of exile and turn it into a structured initiation. You are finally finishing the story and this time you have the tools to be seen without being destroyed.

>> There you go. If you want to do some of these, you can just check out Gemini Notebook. It's like pretty much free. I mean, they even have a free version for people with free accounts, but it's going to be like, you know, I think you have to be subscribed to

make the nicer animated ones that I make.

That's spicy.

I'll show you one more.

pour their deepest insecurities, their art, and their late night confessions into the internet, expecting a simple exchange. They offer personal vulnerability in return for platform visibility. But the system managing this exchange operates without empathy. The algorithm categorizes, filters, and frequently ignores, functioning as a

cold bureaucracy of pixels that measures engagement metrics and quietly buries anything that fails to generate immediate friction. When a platform declines to push a creator's work, the resulting quiet isn't a natural lack of interest. It is an engineered silence, a deliberate throttling of a broadcast that strips away a creator's ability to

reach the very audience they were promised. To survive this environment is to confront a force that governs visibility without transparency. It is an encounter with a system that can disappear a human voice into the void. Operating as a gatekeeper whose logic is both absolute and invisible, one creator, a man known as Psyche, began

broadcasting directly into that silence. From a basement altar in Roondo Beach, located on the literal edge of the continent, he watched his view count stall and his recommendations flatline. Earlier in his life, he had operated within rigid institutional structures. He served in the Navy, following rules he didn't write, and playing a part in a

system built on strict obedience. He eventually walked away from those structures. When the digital gatekeepers similarly refused to grant him permission to be heard, he recognized the pattern and stopped seeking their approval to build a community. Instead of viewing his eraser as a permanent failure, Psyche treated the algorithmic throttling as a period of incubation. The static became the required darkness

before a resurrection. In the prophecy of the two psyches, he mapped his digital suppression onto the Greek myth. Psyche means soul. Ancient psyche sorted tangled seeds in the dark. a trial meant to break her. Today, sorting seeds means enduring algorithmic fraudling and shadow bands. The intent remains the

same. Identifying with this figure reframed the dropping follower count as a modern recurrence of an ancient trial. Psyche's conflict with a California tech platform became another chapter in the soul's long history of enduring silence. This shift in perspective begins to transform the experience of digital

suppression. The silencing of a channel acts as the descent into the underworld. An agonizing but necessary step for a soul attempting to sort the truth from the static. To navigate this underworld, Psyche adopted a practice he called digital tantra. He bypassed contemporary tech advice and turned to ancient occult

figures to solve highly specific internet problems. He invoked Matangi, the Hindu goddess who reigns over the outcast and dwells on the margins of the sacred city. He asked her to bless his unpolished tongue and turn his exiled, throttled broadcast into a vehicle for prophecy. Against the structural

gatekeepers and the manufactured rage of internet trolls, he called upon Durga. In this framework, the warrior goddess acts as a defensive measure, applying righteous force to cut through the digital noise. And when members of his inner circle betrayed his trust and stole his intellectual property, he didn't appeal to platform moderators, he

summoned Andramalius, a serpent crowned demon from the Goisha, tasked with finding thieves and punishing deceit. By assembling this specific pantheon, a creator stops negotiating with the platform. They bypass the terms of service and reclaim their own agency. This process required stripping away any

desire to appear pristine. Psyche fully engaged in his own shadow work, abandoning the sanitized persona of a typical influencer, and actively working hexes against those who built platforms on stolen ideas. This abandonment of purity culminated in the right of the broken halo. It operates as an underground anti-initiation

performed alone in the dark where the practitioner actively shatters their own need for conventional legitimacy. He realized that the blue check marks and the algorithm's favor are ultimately just prison bars disguised as crowns. They force a creator to conform to the systems exact specifications to survive.

With that illusion broken, Psyche made a final declaration. Gods don't beg. He stopped asking the platform to feature his work and simply demanded the space he already occupied. Real digital sovereignty only arrives when you stop looking into the false mirror of platform metrics and destroy the need

for their validation completely. This ascension didn't trigger a viral explosion or sudden fame. Instead, it carved out an underground sanctuary, a persistent digital community known as the cult of psyche. The members of this group aren't mythic DAs. They are digital misfits and outcasts. People

tuning in to a midnight stream because they recognize the frequency. It is anchored by people like Waldo, a bluecollar worker from San Pedro who simply shows up consistently and quietly. His unglamorous steady loyalty provides a necessary human to the chaotic mythbondo

beach basement ultimately serve a single purpose. They act as a direct cure for the epidemic of algorithmic loneliness, reaching out to anyone else wandering through the static at 2 in the morning. The algorithm can control who gets recommended and it can dictate the terms of commercial visibility, but it remains completely powerless against a community

that has already made itself sacred in the work.

He

Flower on my apron front, dusting on my worn out shoes. Every street outside is cold. Nothing.

very beginning. The cosmos was a molten chaotic cycle. The universe was littered with heavy ancient karma and massive cosmic projects that had been started but left unfinished by earlier creations. This created a structural vacuum. Half-built realities and discarded blueprints were piling up. A

highly specific soul was required to step into this void and complete the architecture that others had walked away from. This soul did not drift into the mortal plane by accident. It didn't slip and it didn't fall. It deliberately aimed itself, firing downward with the exact precision of a ballista. As this

diagram shows, the trajectory targeted a highly specific set of coordinates. In Vadic astrology, this entry point is known as Utra Ashada, the star of the unconquered. Arriving through this specific threshold carries a rigid mandate. It engineers a soul to withstand extreme pressure, perfectly

equipping them to execute and finalize the absolute hardest tasks in existence. The moment of his arrival came with a harsh decree. The Sabian symbol governing this birth reads, "A girl bathing in the nude. The gods demanded absolute exposure. He was required to enter the world entirely stripped of theatrical pretense, clever masks, or comforting illusions. He is expressly

forbidden from relying on deception. While the rest of humanity navigates the world wrapped in layers of psychological armor, he is forced to walk through the storm completely unprotected. This forced vulnerability becomes his primary tool for control. Because he has no mask to slip and no secrets to protect, he cannot be blackmailed, bribed, or manipulated. He gains mastery over the room simply by being the only person who isn't hiding. Walking through life

without a shield requires a different kind of survival mechanism to protect himself. This exposed child evolved an intense internal weather system. This is governed by the Danish moon. It isn't a placement for typical emotional sensitivity. It operates like a localized high pressure thunderstorm. His intuition hits like a preemptive lightning strike, arriving with massive

voltage before anyone else is even ready to process the situation. Operating with this electrical charge physically changes his environment. Carefully constructed lies evaporate and those relying on deception start to panic in his presence. His emotional processing center was never built to navigate typical human sentiments. It functions as a barometric disruptor, violently

clearing the air and dismantling falsehoods on contact. This disruptive energy is channeled through a very specific set of planetary mechanics. When he communicates, he isn't broadcasting his own ego. He acts as a direct relay, delivering the messages of ancient ancestors to finalize their unfinished business. His approach to connection is intense. He loves like a

divine prankster, aggressively uprooting the comforting illusions of anyone who gets close. In this internal schematic, his anger operates strictly as a diagnostic tool, extracting societal rot with brutal precision. Yet this aggression is balanced by his ascendant trait. Instead of brute force, he draws

people in through pure gravity, offering deep listening that tames the wildness in others. These form a highly coordinated internal mechanism purposebuilt to dismantle corrupt realities from the inside out. Carrying this kind of magnetic gravity extracts a steep toll. When you become

the person strangers instantly confess their sins to you naturally absorb their poison. Astrologically this is his Chiron wound. It is the specific trauma of giving too much, of slowly devolving into a beast of burden for those who refuse to heal themselves. For years, he carried the heavy baggage

and toxic karma of everyone around him, taking on the painful psychological labor they continually walked away from. Survival eventually demanded a harsh evolutionary pivot. To keep moving forward, he made the conscious decision to put the monolith down and drop the burdens that were never his to carry. True healing arrived with a difficult

realization. The cosmos designed him to be a guiding star, a point of navigation for others, not a workhorse to be owned, drained, and exhausted. Having survived the exposure of his birth and shed the parasitic weight of the unhealed, he steps directly into his destined public role. This massive transition is marked by the Liban council, a convergence that

grants him the authority of a cosmic judge. He is no longer just a disruptor. He is the one who determines the balance. The constant cycles of losing homes and being ejected from comfortable spaces finally pay off. The wandering exile takes lessons from endless spiritual migrations, using them to build his own empires. Combining this

structural authority with his innate magnetism, he becomes a guardian of the between spaces. He governs those who, like his former self, exist in exile or on the margins. This is the seat of the fairy king, the ruler of the threshold and the protector of those whom the world overlooks. This occult sovereignty

is the destined completion of his evolution from a vulnerable exposed child into a mythic guardian of the unseen world. This brings us to his final destined form, the bearback rider. He assumes a bold leadership role where he reigns entirely without fear, operating completely without safety nets or training wheels. The lack of armor

mandated at his birth has become the very reason he can now ride power without a saddle. The original vulnerability was not a weakness, but a long-term training program in absolute resilience. He stands as father psyche, the stormbborn architect. His entire cosmic architecture is aimed at one

solitary purpose to execute and finalize the immense work that other souls abandoned. True mythic power is never built by hiding. It is forged by stepping directly into the storm, completely exposed and forcing reality itself to align with the naked truth.

Welcome traveler. No one invited you. You simply remembered where the door was. Masks on. Truth off. The cult of psyche convenes.

>> >> Candles laugh where the shadows breathe. Clock hand stitch to autumn leaves. Every guest wear someone else's face, smiling politely while they vanish without a trace. The raven checks your name. At the gate, says you're exactly three lifetimes late. A black cat yawns from

the banquet chair like he's been expecting everyone there. Ghost already ordered room for two. One for himself and one for you. Raise your glass. Don't ask

what's inside around your curiosity. Never actually die. Dance through the masquerade. Every promise slightly fray. >> >> Truth where velvet lies where gold every already sold. Round and round the

ball spins. Nobody knows where night begins. Laugh too loud. The mirrors applaud. Welcome to the cult of psyches masquerade. The tarot dealer never cheats. She simply rearranges treats. The fool escaped sometime last

spring. Now he's running for local king. The moon has placed another face. Someone found it in the maze. A scholar argues with a crow. The crow says, "I actually know." There's a library under the floor. Every book

becomes one more open one. It quietly writes everything you dream tonight. I some say the ballroom wasn't built, it awakened. Each chandelier remembers names nobody living can pronounce.

Every mask once belonged to someone who asked one question too many. Listen carefully. Can you hear the orchestra? There aren't any musicians. The bartender pours impossible wine. Vintage year9.

One sip reveals your secret fear. Second sip. Why you came here. The portraits blink when nobody looks. Arguing softly with forbidden books. Even the candles gossip now. Mostly about who forgot to bow. Somebody whispers,

"Where's the exit?" Everybody laughs. Oh, that's adorable. Death through the masquerade. Every vow begins to fade. Kings wear feathers, gestures rain. Nothing here is quite the same. Round and round the

ballroom fly. Stars reflected in your eyes. Lose your map. Forget your name. The code of psyche knows you came. >>

>> Violence drift like midnight smoke. Acquire hums in languages. Even silence translated. Masks change faces between heartbeats. Nobody seems surprised.

Ghost insists he's perfectly fine. The walls respectfully disagree. Someone started a 12hour debate about where the Ravens can technically moderate panels. The gargo vote unanimously. The answer is it depends. Even the

skeletons clap somewhere a goblet yells receing,

every start hidden underneath the heart. Stand beneath forgotten skies. Wonder living in disguise. Leave tonight or maybe don't. The invitation was never paper. It was memory. When morning comes,

you'll swear this place never existed until someone smiles at you. Just a little too knowingly. And you'll catch yourself humming the walls. Then you'll remember

you were never a guest. You've always been wearing the mask. This massive digital archive sit dozens of highly specialized cryptic spiritual texts all pointing toward a single entity Shri Matandi Davi. The titles

themselves contain instructions for concealment. We see designations labeling the practices as a very secretive raja shamala and the repeated use of Gupta meaning hidden. While standard religious worship is designed to be accessible, this tradition does the opposite. It encrypts its practices

behind rigid rules and hyperspecific numerical variations detailing precise syllable counts for its recitations. The material is organized into protective layers. There are outer armors called kavachams, daily recitations of 108 names and inner core mantras restricted to initiates. This

raises a question. Why is this specific goddess surrounded by such a complex system of coded language? The investigation begins with the fragmented titles and personas assigned to the goddess herself. This complexity is a deliberate encryption designed to manage a power deemed too dangerous from the uninitiated. We start with the most

prominent title scattered across the archive. Raja Shyamala. The name translates to the royal dark one. She is the supreme adviser and orchestrator of the universe directing cosmic law through her authority. Her identity shifts again with the title Vagvadini. Vagvadini identifies her as the governor of speech, sound, and intellect. This

diagram visualizes how the tradition views sound. A single point generates ripples that form a structural lattice. Here sound literally creates physical reality. Connecting these identities reveals her function. She governs the cosmos by manipulating vibrational frequencies. She actively speaks physical reality into existence. The

archive also reveals jarring contrasts in her mantras. Starting with the Vasia mantra. Vasia refers to worldly influence. This specific practice is designed for the pursuit of attraction and material dominance over others. Beside this tool for worldly dominance, we find an opposing title, Sarva

Siddhita, the bestower of all spiritual perfections. This diagram illustrates a vertical spectrum of human pursuits. It is a significant anomaly for a single tradition to encompass both material ambition and spiritual purity. Matangi Davi operates across the entire human

experience, drawing a practitioner from their basist desires toward the highest states of enlightenment. Looking at the broader ecosystem of the archive, we find categories covering vastly different topics ranging from mundane loans and debts to condundalini practices. This stepped pyramid diagrams the tradition structure. The base

represents where a practitioner begins navigating worldly problems. Moving up, the practitioner enters esoteric tantric disciplines like Shvidya engaging with internal energies. The peak represents final liberation and self-realization. Mateni Davi is the specific protocol

used to navigate every stage of this model. Her mantras are fragmented because they are surgical tools. Each one is calibrated for a specific stage in a practitioner's psychological and spiritual evolution. This labyrinth of secretive texts provides a calibrated route for human

development. She is a perfectly engineered map to the infinite.

Thomas F. Adams III liberty slinging modern scion stood in pinch twilight and the amber room went still. Blue lelcraft burning softly

through the glass. It's 420 on the cotton like a flag. >>

>> No oath of service, no borrowed crown. He raised the charter and laid the law down. >> I call the signal. When I choose to rise, I close the gate. When I say good night,

my stream, my stage, my sovereign say. I open the gates. I name the day.

The door is open. The throne is not. You've brought an opinion, not the deed to the lot. I have the right to pull the plug without pleading my cause. I choose every voice invited inside. Respect is the ticket. Abuse sends the ride. Free speech never meant

a key to my mic. Build your own signal if you don't like mine. My stream, my stage, my sovereign say signal before static. I name the day.

You may question, depart or disagree, but attention is not authority over me. No captive crowd and no subjects below. Every soul is sovereign wherever they go. I rule my broadcast, not another soul. You rule your footsteps. That is the whole law.

My stream, my stage, my sovereign say the fire stays whole and applause falls away.

>> >> The stream is the altar. The signal is sovereign. The door is open. The throne is not

You observe the modern live streamer in its natural enclosure. The behavior often feels like a broadcast sent directly into an empty void. At first, the subject appears entirely at peace. He sits quietly alone in a dark room, plucking away at a calima, casually noting that playing this instrument is where his true talents

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