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Psyche shares a poetic introduction about Capricorn symbolism and internal struggle, then discusses self-sabotage, relationship conflict, and toxic connections in a personal livestream.
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Observers see the surface.
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Browse era →I was born where the mountain counts its bones. where Capricorn kneels and learns the weight of names. Not the goat, the keeper of thresholds, not the crown,
the stone beneath the crown. A dark stare opens between what I endured and what I became. A torch hidden in a cellar. A council that never adjourned. A hand closing a book it already memorized.
I carry the degree that watches while others rush toward meaning. I learned early how silence teaches faster than applause. How exile sharpens sight. How being misread becomes a blade.
A masked choir rehearsing truth. An ancient woman feeding ravens. A child reading almonds in ash. Do you hear the Sabian doesn't shout, it waits.
I stand where law dissolves into vow. where authority sheds costume and becomes spine. A hidden lodge beneath a city. A key that opens inward. A figure walking away from approval.
This degree does not beg belief. It survives it. They mistook me for cold because they don't recognize containment. They called me distant because I refuse false intimacy. A mountain monastery at dusk. A sealed
letter already delivered. A judge who never raises his voice. I am not here to persuade. I am here to hold the line until reality remembers itself. Listen closely. >>
>> This isn't fate singing. It's orientation. The quiet agreement between soul and structure. Between time and teeth. A black sun behind the mountain. A vow spoken once and kept forever. A gate
that only opens after you stop knocking. I carry the degree that watches. I do not chase the future. I outlast it.
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>> You are >>
>> Don't you dare. All right. Well, I had a It was fun last night. It was good. A lot of it was fun. We're watching some fun stuff. I don't know. I have to stop getting so excited about other stuff besides my own material because
Oh, I woke up. Did I wake up? What were you Were you just hurrying? Oh, look at baby. Hi cats. You're sitting with me. You guys are just sitting with me. Hi. Is there Lola over there?
Lola. Uh oh. Trey, you're opening stuff here.
Get over here. You're praying. You're praying. Are you praying? Nice and loud. All right. Good morning.
I'm just getting my coffee. My big old coffee. And it's Friday. Is it Friday? Happy Friday, everybody. Maybe I'll just be up for a short time. I just I just having fun. Okay.
Hi. How's everyone doing? Let me see. So slow right now. Classic. We had fun last night though. There people people stayed up with me all night. Oh my god. Not showing. Oh my god. Tricks. Not very gent. Okay. Uh,
it's very quiet.
Let's see what I got. Oh, hi babe.
My phone's going crazy. I just I just plugged it in. Okay, let's see what I got.
Let's see. Oh, my phone's going crazy.
It's going
Oh, look at this classic moment in the show. Won't believe it.
Um, here it goes. Fix it. Sorry, I'm like a little slow right now. Good morning, G and Yuan Q. We're looking at some classic moments from the show. Yeah, >> if you ever if you ever encounter me in
real life, I say random to people if I get really upset. I cuss out in the subway. >> Well, did they have it coming like or did you just you just got >> No, I have low tolerance. I be having low tolerance. I be like, "Move, bitch." Then I just be like, they be sitting by the door like this Like I cursed this dumb I cursed this lady out the other day
>> at the bus stop. I said, "You dumb get out the street." And she couldn't hear me. So, I started yelling louder. I didn't need to do that, but I was just like, "Move the out the way, bitch." >> You know what I'm saying? >> That's a really really pleasant personality huh? >> Oh, so I I saw this woman on the subway.
I said, "Get the out of the way,
I mean, I don't understand what he's talking. I mean, that was ridiculous. I can't even believe someone talks like that. Hey, I just say random to people. Get the out of the way, Some poor poor woman on the subway. This poor woman has to take a subway with this guy and then he's calling her a dumb
I mean, life isn't fair sometimes, guys. It's just it's just sad, right? Oh God. Okay. I was going to play this song there.
I'm just on for like a minute here. I don't know if I'll be on very long. I'm playing my original music.
Spent my soul in a way I shouldn't have thought. A part of my brain was fried. I thought that I could win, but the chat just won't banish me. They said I wasn't reasonable. Nothing was debatable
with me. I tried to flood and pull one over all the mods who fed me. But what they didn't see is that I am still me. Baby doll, I am still me. I'm gonna take a taxi to the troll side
of the live stream. Don't tell your mod team your admin will need me on the corner with emojis. Didn't you know that he was lonely? You got me feeling muted. I'm about to get booted. Drama's over asking
me to give it a rest. All I want is chaos at it. Do you see the I'm going to take a taxi to the troll side of the team. Your admin will
emuted.
I'm about to get booted. Drama's over. Asking me to give it a rest. All I want is chaos at its best. Do you see the yes? I'm going to take a taxi to the troll side of the
ad.
Didn't you know that he was lonely? You say you want a time out and let me go. You tell me that my spam's hysterical but I know you said you wanted peace, but I didn't notice. You said you needed calm, but I lost focus. You promised me a mud. You gave me less. You wanted my cloud. You
needed my mess. You said that you'd always clap me back. But now I know what to expect. I'm going to take a taxi to the troll of a live stream and tell your admin.
I'm going to take a taxi to the troll side of the live stream. Don't tell your team your admin will em
like why do I why do I do the things I do? I don't know. I'm very being so very self-destructive. I don't I don't All I can say is that I'm like I have like Oops. Hold on. I keep myself out of the studio
like Hold on. Oh I think I think battered
battered syndrome. There we go. Battered man syndrome. I think I'm just traumatized. But uh I'm okay. The channel's okay. I'm going to be more careful and stuff. I mean, it's like when you're even people that are supposed to be your friends are like
striking your channel, you know, it's like probably near the end or whatever, you know? I'd rather take out my own channel than have her do it.
Can you imagine? And I would just be like "Wow very mad at I'd rather be mad at myself than anybody else." Hey, what are you doing? Oh my god, you're making a little face. Don't Don't do that in my chat, nuts.
>> I don't know. It's hard. It's hard. It's like, you know, I was so full of love on the 14th on February 14th. And I was like, you know, it's like Valentine's Day is never hard, but I was like, "Hey, I have I said, you know, I just said I said she's my friend." And it's like she couldn't even like, "No, I'm not." It
was just like, "No, we're not talking." No, it's just she just lied. Like I'm just like just It's like It's like Why am I like the biggest problem in her like I don't know why why why am I like the worst person in the world in her life I don't understand
it's like don't you think other people have done worse things but no I'll be like the villain the worst person like I'm like the evil one I I eat my cats right I like I um you know I don't have a litter box you know my my cats aren't she doesn't even know anything about my cats She doesn't know how many
I have, blah blah blah. I mean, it's like just know there's like I have four cats. I've had four cats for about a year. Um, you know, Trixs, Trix um Lenor um, Rudy, and Lola. I mean, it's not like it's like so many. I have I So, I have four cats. I've had the four cats.
She remembers magic a little bit. She she doesn't you thank someone that love cat I know her cats I know she has two cats you know like that complicated I know Katrina but it's like it's just like it's like I'm like it's just like the worst. I mean it's like I'm and it's
like and it's like I'm all I'm I'm poisoned by it. I mean, she's like so it's like she's so intertwined and stuff. It's like I can't escape it because it's like that's my whole most of my audience is like don't like care is like people that are wanting to like see us fight and stuff like that, right? Hi. Where's my lighter?
You know, I know I'm trying to cut tight. I'm trying to but it's like now I can't like now she she in she does it more. Now I'm in a legal situation with her, right? Like now she has to strike my channel. Now what do I have to do? I have to like jump through hoops or I have to like do this and this and this and you know I have like you know
I want to cut ties. I can't cuz she's she does stuff like you know strikes me and lies and my lighter. Yeah, I know. Well, I but it's like I can't I can't escape. She's like she's like,
"Oh my god, I found a light. I found a cigar." Oh, thank God. Um yeah, it's like got it's gotten too intertwined. It's like I can't escape. It's like It feels like a feel like a a snake like um wrapping around my neck. What it feels like.
>> >> Okay, baby. Okay. But you can. Why did she strike me? For a reason video you showed. You have the power to not talk about her. Right. Well, I was um because I I was in the video. It was a trip kick video that I was in that she was big. He did a really funny Michael Jackson thing. It's okay. You can have your opinion about things.
He did a really funny Michael Jackson video. I didn't watch the whole video, but at the
Hello. Okay. Yeah. Please don't pull out my cord. Trixs, please don't do that. Trixs, come here. You're being naughty. No, no, no. It's okay. So, um, yeah, I was saying I played a trip kick video uh cuz I was Michael Jackson in it. It was kind of funny. And then it has like
me and her like whatever fighting, but then at the very end of it, he snuck in the picture to be funny or something. I didn't realize that he did, but it's like that. But then she's getting all technical like, "Oh, well, excuse me, Lenor. Excuse me." She's very technical like, "Oh, well, because Rumble has different rules." It's like, no, I mean, the rules are the same. It's like the
rules are the same. Like, you decide to file a strike or you don't or you decide to give a warning or you don't. H true. You don't see like the whole everything like it's like, oh, I'm talking about her. No, she's talking about me. She's
talking about me. And she has been and been really bad, too. I mean, it's like really bad for like a long time. And uh
I'm happy to let it go. I'm happy to. if I never hear her name or see her face or Yeah, there child's behavior on both ends, you know. But uh I mean yesterday, oh, oh, he eats his cats. Oh, this person donated so he could eat. He's starving. How does he feed his cats?
Like like my famous saying, you can't reason with substance abuse. Yeah.
Yeah, there's Miss Lenor
text messages real quick.
How are you doing, guys, though? Yeah, I don't know. I just
Sorry, I'm just sad.
Very sensitive or I should be. But um
nothing I mean nothing. It's just the same stuff that's happened. It's like I I feel bad like what I say. Sometimes I don't even realize I say those things cuz No, she didn't. She did it again. I'm I think I'm fine. Did she? I don't think so. But last night I did, you know, was playing some stuff and so they
had to um No, she will. If I don't bring her up, she'll have no she doesn't bring me up. I have no reason to bring her blah blah blah. No, she she won't stop. I mean, I'm a whole I'm a whole meme. I'm you know on Samman's and just like constantly it's like a constant constant constant.
Hey, I have tried. I've tried. I mean, I'll continue to try, right? But I say I'll see what else on my mind still. Yeah. But it's like I'm just a tiny person. I'm I'm like what? I have like very I
have a small little ch. She's she's hundreds of people she's influencing that just hate me. It's like a little army that hates me. Right. Consider the source. Yeah. Yeah. this guy.
Okay. Yeah. I don't know. I always try to I always wanted to try to fix things. So, I tried to fix things. If you like know how patient I was, like how how like much abuse I took. But I know you probably see it. People
probably see it. Good morning.
Don't you dare.
I told you.
Anyway, one of those days, huh? One of those days. Lenor. Yeah. So, let me see. I'm just like playing with my claw code and stuff. I don't know.
Okay. Yeah, I will. I've I've done it. I've done it. I've done it now. But now like unfortunately now we're in a legal situation, right? Okay. Well, we'll we'll see. We'll see.
We'll see. Maybe I'll just disappear for a week.
Hi Paigy. Sitting with the cats. Hi. Hi. Good to see you, Paige. Paige, we just I just play this old clip of Bronzebird and you. It's kind of funny. The old days on the show.
I mean, not to like not to antagonize anybody, but I saw you in it. I was, "Oh, we used to have a lot of fun. times on the show. I still have fun times on the show. Still do. I constantly ruin my streams of weird video. Oh my god. Me or Yui Master?
People are just so rude. I I mean it's like it's well it's my show to ruin I guess. Like what? You don't like it? Like what? Like why is this person commenting? Oh, your music's I mean it's like does that constructive? Is it just like I just suck? Okay. Thanks, New York Yu-Gi-Oh master. What
are you Sandman? Must be Sandman or something, right?
Yeah. It's like, how about like a little like encouragement? Too much to ask, you know? I just suck, I guess.
Right.
Hi, babe. What? What?
This is a good song here.
I was just as lost as you. Don't flinch. I've got the scars to prove it through. A doorway cracked inside my skull. Let the shadows crawl. whispering.
Every thought it own till my mind turned into a crowded dead end forever. But the rebel in me asks, "What if better is just clever?"
And I can feel I'm getting now. Now this nightmare each flicker of light each
pulls me. I'm breaking down. I can feel I'm getting now. Grinning till it cracked my face. Performer in a ghostly space.
Tired of tests with no right answers. Tired of chaos playing cancer. Once I swear the sky was wide summer live, no need to hide. Then hear my bow. My voice will wake in you now.
Now
stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now.
No more selfies. Burn the script of flatter seeds. I find my grip. Feet on ground. Pulsing riot. Marching out of the dream. So quiet. Not giving up hope. >> We're prisms of soul. Power stacked. A psychic. We feed each other. Feed the fire.
Stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now. Stronger now.
From the void we
stronger
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