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Browse era →Guys, I'm sorry about that. If we have some out there, I want to ruin the show. In trouble, hurt the algorithm, right? We're used to it. Even if I would have put the brick wall up, it was audio bomb, too, you know?
So, it's unfortunate. It's sad. It's sad. some sad people. It's just because I'm doing so well, you know. I will try to take it personally. Yeah, that was just not that was a very ugly ugly thing to do, right? Not nice.
I apologize, guys. Should have been more I should have been more on top of
Uh, we got we got um porn bombed and um bad language bombed. It was not nice. It was not nice. And I should have known better. I should have known better. Should have made the person identify themselves and go on camera and all this kind of stuff. You know, they had a name that kind of I recognized and they had a voice I didn't recognize. But I don't know. Trying to
hurt the show. just like sabotage. I'm gonna pin the link now. I figured how to pin the link. Yeah, it was shock. It was shocking. Yeah, you leave. Was that UBG? You did that? What happened? Was that Was that UBG doing that? I don't I know you're not a big fan of mine, but
I I haven't done anything to you or anybody. And I think that I got it in time. Just deleted the stream. It was only on for a few minutes and so you know I know you're not hateful. You're not but you said I'm on hard drugs and like you said you know you're not like you're not very nice to me but
it's okay. I'll forgive you. How are you guys? We're back. We're back. We're back. I'm sorry about that guys. Just when people were coming in the room and it was starting to starting starting to take starting to get better and stuff and then someone has to do that. But I'll still put the open panel link. I'm going to be more careful. I will. I'm sorry. I'm like
it's always a kind of a gamble bringing someone on panel because even if you know their name and they can use someone else's picture, they can use someone else's voice recordings and stuff. They can take I mean it's like they these people have way too much time on their hands to try to destroy people's streams. I know. Can someone Can we someone be say bea juice bea juice? Maybe that will
bring her in. Hope she's here. There's Rudy over there. Rudy's coming in. I'm just finishing up my Mangorita. Oh, finishing up my Mangorita. And uh hopefully everyone comes back. You know, I apologize, guys. It's like, you know,
we can't can't always um predict that kind of thing. You know, kind of a bummer. What a bummer. Yeah, I'm having a good night. Um, yeah, BG, come on. Panel up. Jay Dog, if you want Do you want to be a mod again? Hi. Hi, Shan. Yeah, we had a little bit of an
incident last. I had to delete it right away, but thank you guys for coming to this one. I'm good. I'm really fast. I'm really I was pretty fast at like turning it off. It's okay, guy. There's enough of psyche to go around, right? I I can't even find a boyfriend on Grindr and that's like the easiest thing to do. I don't know if
you if anyone likes me, it's it's a flat it's flattering, right? So, I'm I thankful that even anybody's interested in my show or anything. You guys are doing good. There's a clip of me. Okay. Okay.
And I should know. I should know like when the show starts and it's somebody when it starts and there's somebody I don't know which I didn't know that person. I know I know Nick. I know Nicks, right? I know several Nicks. He had a ceiling fan on YMCA. Good. Good times. Okay. YMCA
still. Hey Rudy, come up here. Rudy, can I come up here? You want to come over here? Come on, Rudy. Lola's sleeping back here. Yeah, guys, I'm having I having fun doing panels. Even if I I mean, I have backup channels. I need to get my 50 subscribers on. I I think I could do it fairly quickly if I needed to. I could
let everyone know my Discord and I could let people know and stuff when I'm live and stuff. I I can build it back up, but it's like I'm really this I'm so close to like being monetized on this channel. I can start my memberships. I can do like um do super chats and stuff like that and it will be like a lot more fun and I'll I'll do like longer readings for people and I'll, you know, I'm
paying for the Streamyard like 45 bucks a month. It's not it's not it's not cheap. I I think I I was thinking it would be like 10 bucks a month for premium, but it's like 45 bucks a month, but it's still worth it, you know? I thought 10 10 bucks would have been a great deal for for Streamyard, but it's like it's more expensive. I'm going to be able to like, you know,
and also thank you everyone for it says for my curious guy. Oh, wow. That is that true, Viji? Yeah. But also, I I want to thank I I just want to thank everyone who donated to me. Like I really appreciate it. Like I really really appreciate it. You are so awesome. So so humbled and like and my heart just
like to be uh to get be able to get Okay, there's a Nick again. Okay, that's that's Nick. I know. What's up, dude? What's up? Okay, so this is the Nick I know cuz the last guy was named Nick. Look. Yeah. So, this is the real Nick Johnson. This, you know how it says on
his hat, Nick Johnson? That's that means it's the authentic Nick Johnson. The real Nick Johnson. Yeah, I know. He didn't have anything to do with that other guy cuz Nick Nick will not around like Yeah. Oh, you're showing me your feet. Feet fing. What do you got on? Flippers
scuba flippers or No, no, your shoes. Your kicks. Okay. You have nice nice kicks. I like the I like the white um the white uh black light stuff. What's up? Got Nick. Friendly face. A real cool guy. Everyone likes I love when he flips the tires.
when he takes off his shirt, when he like puts on masks and uh plays with toys and
how are you tonight, Nick? You got the mask on. kind of gassy.
I think trying to use your your name and stuff to get in the chat because I know I like Nick. Yeah. They said Nick on their
Okay, we got another guest tonight. Let's say hello to Theo. What's up, Theo?
Good to see you again. Thank you for being on earlier, too.
I need to turn on my light. Hold on. I can look cool, too. I got I can look cool too. center, bro. What? What? This got a weird ass camera. You look like a blue man. Blue man.
Blue man group. The blue man group. Why you staring at me? Said he trying to get me. Got me things I never do. Okay.
Who you are, State your name and your address and your purpose bro. Hello. State your name and your KKK meeting.
Also, this is the KKK meeting. It's sick. Is it sick? Why is he talking so weird?
Something in my eye. Like that on some normal Are you drunk? Say, are you drunk? I've been drunk since 11:30. It's 11. Oh, I know. I've been drunk since 1 in the afternoon. And it's uh what time is it? It's now Oh, don't run Rudy. It's now uh it's now
almost 1000 p.m. So, probably my last beer. Oh, he left. Okay. Just wanted to say something to the KKK meeting. Okay. Can't control past me. Yeah. Nothing has passed me, right? It's funny cuz racism. Huh. Yeah.
I'll be like, this is just like the stupidest things. I know. I know, Tracy. I will. I will. Say you're banned. You're banned for at least a week. Say you're you're banned. You're going to say to say something like that. No. No. Say, he just he just he got kicked off. Oh, he he like left one of them. He's banned for like at least
banning me, folk. All that said was like some weird I mean, it was kind of weird. I know you will little sick, but see you're too much. You're too much. You're bending my friends and stuff like that and you're chasing people away and you're like hurting people's feelings and you're and you're just trying to be annoying and hurt my stream. You're not being productive. You're not like
offering anything, right? So, Sig is unmoded. That was not a fake. That was that looked like modded or not. I don't ban people or nothing, bro. I just come here on some fun bro. That's all I do. I know. But saying like or nothing like that.
I know. I never You never done anything. You never done anything. I'm Nick. I'm just muting you because you're making back micro noise, but you can be in the background doing the visuals and stuff like that. Yeah. Tim S. You got unmoded, too. Thank you. The mean girls. Whoops. He left. I don't if I got unmoded. No, no, no. I'm talking about Sig. I'm talking about Sig, not you.
Yeah, I do have like supporters and stuff like that that and and a lot of people are bothered by by what he does and it's like I understand. I think he has a good heart and it's like it's funny when he like when I have you might not trust me now, but you will eventually learn that I'm the coolest on this So, no, I trust I trust you. You're you're modded and stuff like that. Okay.
You will never you will never see me ban anybody or time out anybody, bro. because nobody in this little internet can get my head off. Like, well, oh, unfortunately for me, unfortunat for fortunately for some like me, Sig, right? How about you take a little break and and uh go cool off. I just timed you out for 24 hours. Okay.
So, um No, I'm not. He need a little break. He's just that that he's saying that word and stuff like that and like come up here. Tell him to come up here, bro. I'll I'll I'll smoke anybody that wants to come up. No, he's that he's cooking. He thinks he thinks he's too cool for school. He thinks he's
so awesome. You know, it's like I I listen to beta when will not let him up and stuff like that. I'm not You're not mad you're disappointed. Oh, no. Let him up. Let him up. Let him up. Let him let me up. He's not He left on He left on He left on his own. He left on his own. He he just wanted to say something about, you know, this racist
organization and like bothered the flow of the show and stuff like that and offend people and hurt people's feelings and stuff like that. Um, I don't feel like letting him up. I'm not letting you up sick. You can you can just He's making gang signs in the backstage and stuff like that from a gang I'm not a part of. The only gang what you represent, bro.
Kitty gang. I mean kitty gang. Oh, kitty gang. I don't give a about them. Oh wow. We'll call your eyes out. We'll call your eyes out. This is the kitty gang symbol. I'm GD Anybody can get it, folks. The Golden Dawn or what? No, I with GDs only, bro. I don't I don't with other bro.
Okay. I don't know. All I know is I know the Golden Dawn. I know the Otto. I know the you know the Lima. I know I know those organizations. I don't know about GB or anything. So I know Gangster Disciples. Okay. Gangster. Yeah. I'm not I'm not Where are you from? I'm from uh Champagne, Illinois. Champagne Orbana, Illinois.
Oh, so you're near Chicago, right? So they have like the Latin Kings and like the I don't with them though, bro. I don't with I don't I don't know. I don't know. I'll talk to about that. and normal people that are cool like GDs cuz GD's are cool as bro. I don't
know if you ever hung out with GDs, but they cool as hell, bro. The whole vibe is just cool. Well, I don't know. All I had is I had this chick named Victoria come from Chicago fly out and she was I know GDs are crazy. Yeah. And uh Yeah. See, take a take a little breather for my show. go. There's other panels tonight you can go on and
bother them and stuff like that. But, you know, I'm I'm at the end of my uh end of my my last stream and stuff. I don't want to end the stream again. I want to talk. Is he talking about chat? Sig is in some other S is in something else. Yeah, he was doing gang signs to me and stuff. I don't I don't like
people throwing throwing signs up at me. Um this kitty gang, right? Okay. What are you watching? Golden Girls. Oliver, bro. Oliver, bro, you need to calm down, bro. You was with a real gangster right now, bro. Like, don't don't lose your life over some dumb man. Like, don't. It's not worth the tr
Okay, bro. Like, I love Psyche, bro. Like, I have no problem with like folks as long as they real, bro. And Saki is a real bro. Thank you. You're awesome, too. And you I never you never said anything disrespectful to me or like or like Exactly. That's what I try to tell bro. I be got
back, bro. If I join your panel, bro, either I'mma come at you or I'm going to be on some respectful and I got your back 100, folks. Like, I'll kill all these trolls that come up. Yeah. And I know I know I can I can put trolls. What's up? What's up, Jamie? How are you? Good to see you. Thank you for coming, Jamie. Jamie's cool. Bomb I will them up. Yeah. Unfortunately, like they're doing it on the internet and it's like they're
just hiding behind a computer screen and stuff like that. They don't cam up. They like they they just like they don't show their face. They just like perform. I don't cam up with any one of you is talking bro. I will come up with any one of y'all I cammed up like thousand times already, bro. Like I know. I just don't feel like holding my up to my face all day,
Oh, I know. But you don't I mean you don't have to. Um Yes. Okay. s all your band cuz nobody has any valid reason to disagree. Well, I would say I disagree. Okay, I don't know if you can I'm going to play a song now and uh this is called I disagree sick and this is for you. Okay, I can't pull I can't play it on my full screen, but I'll play it on my tablet and it's called I Disagree. Okay,
come join Come on, I don't care if you're a female or a male, bro. I I I'm going to quit caring about that on this. Okay, let me play song. I'm play song. Listen, I with females. I'll let them say whatever to me. But I'm done with that, bro. They can catch all the smoke.
No, cuz Tracy Tracy asked me um Tracy asked me not to. So, I I won't
Where's he lying in hell?
Turn to the ground when it all burns down.
When it all burns down,
to the ground.
Watching
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Really? I don't think it was a bad song. You didn't like it, Theo. I don't know, man. That I don't know, man. You liked it. You liked You thought it was going to be lame. You thought it was going to be bad. And then it was It was cool. I know. I know. It's cool. That's right there. It was all right.
It was all right, guys. It almost put me to sleep, but it was all right. Well, I'm probably going to pause. I just hit my head hard as Yeah, I over like that song, right?
Theo. Theo, come on. I don't like it, but what do I know? Okay, it's Poppy. You look up just playing music. Okay. It was like too we all playing music copyrighted. But I you have to tell me
like are we going to play a song? I want to play a song and stuff and then I was just playing song cuz you play a song. I was I just had I was just halfway through. Okay. I didn't It was just like it it was kind of staticky and stuff and we and like we can hear it. Oh, okay. That's cuz I got it on the uh TV. Are we there?
I don't know. It might just be my phone. I've dropped this like 20 times. Can you come up for one second? I just want to see how cute you are. I'm pretty cute. I know. I'm staying away from you, Psyche.
Oh, you are. You are. No, I won't. I see. Hello. Your ass. I'm running across the aisles and bro. If I ever But you're a cool bro. You like the coolest gay dude I ever met on this Okay.
I think I think I'm one of one of people that fit into all the communities. I think I'm cool with him like I am with you because we think differently. But me and you think kind of like the same, but you just gay. I don't have a problem with cuz I'm in like I like started my doing panels on the beef sector and the beef sector is br it's brutal. Okay. It's
it's a mainly black sector and I came in over here. He's as hell. He's over here catching peanuts and bro. He's He knows he's though. That's why he's cool with me saying it. kind of brilliant way back to you
because you can't talk because he's stupid bro. His microphone's always bad and then he like he really doesn't talk very much and stuff like that. But he like dumb, bro. He's not dumb. He's not dumb cuz he like he's like he's dumb. No, but people that people that can like ride a skateboard I can't ride a skateboard worth right? And he can ride a skateboard,
autism, bro. He can do like we right? But he can can't do, but then he's dumb when we're smart, you know? Right. Well, and we're and he's smart where we're dumb. You know, everyone has their own part of intelligence and stuff like that. He's smart in a different way, right? He's he's a creative, you know, creatives are like, you know, they're creative, right? And so it's like I I I
love his intelligence. I think he's I love Nick, bro. Nick always joins my If anybody joins my it's always Nick, bro. Nick knows I'm with him right Nick? Well, you remember I was at your I was at your channel, right? You remember me from your channel when when you were starting out and I came to your channel and like I was like, "You're really cute and stuff like that." And I was like I put you on my Discord probably and like I sent some people your way and stuff
like that. I'm sure I did. Yeah, I respect that bro. You You have my back, too. But Nick got my back, too. Like you be doing my I know. I know. I know. I know. Nick joins my like every day, bro. And he he type So I have to Nick knows I love him, bro. That's why I can talk Okay. Yeah, you can like that. And that's why people like sometimes people like have a relationship with each other where they can talk and stuff like
that and that's their relationship. That's why I get confused all the time when it's like people are fighting cuz I'm like, "Oh, this is maybe their their like their way of communicating." And then sometimes they'll get mad at me cuz I don't get in the middle of things and stuff like that. But it's like I want people to like have their own relationships and stuff like that. like and like you know I don't know what's going on with with them if they're like just playing with me or like they're
like playing with themselves or stuff like that, right? Yeah. Have a line just you're having a line, bro. Like I feel like it's free game on these YouTube streets, but these females be talking hella So I try to like offer the females some like little bit of space, but they be the most talking bro. And when you come at them, they get
extra sensitive and Oh yeah. Well, what women what women do sometimes is they talk to each other and they like behind the scenes and you know it's like and so it's like and then men will be more like in your face with like the but then it's like so it's like you know they talk there's like different ways of like you know that's I know about witchcraft and like yeah that's what it is they talk which witchcraft is is like it's like
words it's a gossip it's part part of it trolling I mean that's what I mean I have I study witchcraft very carefully and stuff like that you know I have an ancestor that that was executed in the Connecticut um witch trials and things like that. So, I have some witch blood in me. And so, like, bro, can I explain this real quick? Like, I don't even think about
what other think. I just put my own thoughts out there, right? And I you should you should, but it's like in a way that is like um at least respectful to other people. At least, you know, it's like we don't want Yeah, exactly. It's respectful to other people, folk like the way I think, bro. I love people, bro. I'm more of a people's person than an animal person,
bro. Like, I would kill any of my animals to save any human being. I don't care how they like I don't give a about like I have three dogs and a cat and I have my own house and everything. And bro, I would I would I would kill all these to say one life, bro. Well, that that's kind of that's kind of extreme example. And hopefully that that
would that would never be a scenario you'd ever have to deal with, right? on some jigsaw But but like I said, like if we had if we if every if we had like um this kind of a famine in the US, like what would be the first thing to get eaten was like the cats and the dog. Like like seriously, it's sad. And then we would eat each other, right? It's like if there was like some kind of famine and we were starving. Even if the power went
out for three days, like I think it would like be like on day two, they would start they would start eating eating the animals and stuff. Yeah, they are more loyal, you know? They're more loyal. People don't understand like people don't understand like how smart a human is compared to a animal, bro. Like people are like people like they want to save animals and folks. These is dumb as hell,
folk like they don't even know if they're dead or alive. Flirty flirty. Think about it though. It's flirty. Flirty. What I'm saying flirty is like, think about it. If like the power went out and then the grocery stores were closed and people started starving, what would be the first thing people would eat? I know. And it's horrible thought to think about, right? Horrible thought to think about. That's why I love Summer, bro. Cuz
Summer be helping people, bro. She has cats and but she mainly helps people, folk. That's why Summer Summer is like the mom that I that I wish I had, like when I was growing up. But I didn't bring it up, Oliver. I didn't bring I didn't bring it up. I didn't bring up because he gave an extreme example. I I told her how it might actually like be applicable in the
real world because in Russia, they had a famine and they were eating. You get in the freezer and barbecue, but how long would that last for you? Like what if the power's out for a month, right? You know? Yeah. If I like summer in my life though, bro, I never had no one that would like stick up to me like that that would go to the plate with me because I'm kind of like a big
Like I'm not big like that, but I'm this belt really big. And like don't with me. And like Summer is the only like I got on this online and and Summer went at me like Tfold like went in my soul and And I actually like that Like I love I love confrontation, bro. I love that because it makes me a better person. I'm sorry Oliver, too. I don't mean to
be I don't mean to be triggering or consensual guys before I I would I would I would I would myself before I ever unload my animals or anything like that. I'm saying that there's no cat food, okay? The pet stores are closed, the grocery stores are closed, and we feed we we go through all our food and stuff like that, and then everyone's starving and stuff like
that, right? I know. I'm sorry. I I'm sorry. I don't I don't mean Yeah. I lost I lost a cat recently, too. And you're Lenor. Would I ever eat you? Would I ever eat you? No, I would never. My grandma died, folks. She just died a couple months ago. I'm sorry. My grandpa's dying right now. Rest in peace to that, homie. I got his back 100, man. This hard, man. This
running, bro. This hit me in the grand I love this to death, man. And like the fact that I got like It's like bro. I'm down, bro.
But you know, you know, do you know you know every worry about Yeah. Well, yeah. You know, it's like I I live in the city and like not everyone is a good fisherman around here. It's like Yeah. I would like go fishing and stuff like that. I think it would just be chaos if anything happened, right? Maybe become a vegetarian. Yeah, we we can go, you know, I say stack up on on
things like that. But I'm saying a lot of people, you know, animals aren't vegetarians, right? The animals animals need meat and they need the cat food and stuff like that. I would not want to see my cats be starving and stuff like that, right? I got like It's not animals, folk. I got like 13 kids depending on me to step up to the
plate man. And it's like bro. It's like it's about this And it's like, bro, everybody thinks that I'm like I'm like King Bon and Like I'm the dope man, man. But don't know I'm going through way more than they could even imagine. And it's like
it's like I don't know why they don't get it, bro. Like I'm dead struggling and don't notice this and they act like I'm a captain, bro. I'm not ready for this man. I can't take care of kids folks. Yeah. Have sex have 13 kids. Yeah, that's a lot of kids to take care of, you know. I I had 12 cats at one time.
It's a lot of cats to take care of, right? Jamie's making a face. Yeah, guys. I mean, I'm using very hypothetical situations and stuff like that. I mean, it's like I really It's like I I asked people this question. They're like I like how long would it be before people start eating their pets if we had like a fam a famine or something like that, right? And it would be like they're like they're like 3 days, you know? It's like I don't know people. It's really sad, but uh yeah, I I don't
want to bring up these hypotheticals. I don't want to hurt trigger anybody. I know it's like hurtful to think about, but yeah. And you also you lost your grandparents. Okay. So, I lost my grandparents. I got my my grandfather in the 90s. My grandmother like him. I'm losing him right now. I haven't lost him. I'm losing him right now, man. And this is hard as hell, man. Like, this is no joke, man. Like, my grandpa is a beast, bro. Like, he
built this up from the ground up, folks. Like, he was 16 and he built his own house and he got married at 16 and had his first kid. And then he built his own house and lived in that And then it started from the ground up and built onto that Like my grandpa's mother joke, bro. Like he he made a semi business after that too. And
we got like 30 semis out here. And we rich as hell, bro. All because of this guy, bro. And he got lung cancer. So I'm like helping him up the stairs and And I'm like, man, like you're the strongest I've ever known in my whole entire life. And I have to help
you up the stairs, bro. Like life is shitty, bro. Like so so my grandparents like passed away like you know and it's like and my aunt like she just passed away too but she was always like she was just devastated up until like recently. They died like pass they passed away like 15 to 30
years ago and my sister was like well they would be like well into their hundreds by now right? Like it's like, you know, it's like, you know, if you live in like you live a long life, you know, it's like, you know, we we all live to like around 100 or or or maybe way less. So, if you live like long enough, you know, you you can and you enjoy your life and everything, you know, but it's like I believe in an
eternal soul. I believe we can reincarnate and we can be young again and we can go in new bodies. We can go to new planets. We can go to new places and I don't believe we ever go anywhere really. I think we can reincarnate and all that kind of stuff. So, but it's hard because we're in these physical bodies. the physical bodies will eventually just like a car every car will break down, right? You're going to keep replacing the parts of it. You're going to keep like painting it and stuff
like that, but it will always eventually break down and stuff. And so, we're in this temporary and it's also a blessing because we're also our soul's kind of trapped in this physical body, right? And so, just like, you know, always just live in the moment, enjoy it life while you're here because it's not going to last forever, right? And uh yeah, Nick's taking a big hit right now. I know, guys. We're talking about some kind of
morbid topic sometimes, you know. Oh, there he is. There you I saw you. Morbid topics and it's like I'm up, man. I miss my grandpa so much, man. This suck, bro. They use my Yeah, Oliver. Oliver, what I'm saying is it's harder for us than it is for them because it's like when they pass, man. This hard. I can't believe I like this way, bro. But
but it but the thing that hap the thing is that it's all um universal. So, it happens to everybody, right? And so we'll all go through it. And so that's why we can like kind of like all relate to how scary it is right now. Flirty Diamond Diamond prefers raw dick, right? Okay. Yeah. Like I love this mother.
Good. Yeah, I love him, too. He's like such an awesome creative creative genius and uh really
And see you these emotions, right? You have these emotions. Okay, we have to Who is that? Who's that backstage? Is that Sig? Is that Sig? Sig, is that you? Wave. It's Sig. It's Sig. I don't know. Sig. Sig, you're pissing me off tonight. I'm I I'm just trying to have a fun stream tonight. It's like
you're pissing me off. I told you I'm just having fun, y'all. I'm sorry. I got emotional, y'all. I was just thinking about Yeah, I know. I lost my father last year and it's like and it was like the hardest thing of my life, right? My grandpa to death, man. Like he built this up like,
bro, since he was 16 years old, we've been building this working like I feel like disappointment, bro. Cuz I need to step up and like do my part and bro. But it's so like All right. But love them while they're here and like take care of them as much as we can, right? And it's like and then I don't care about that. I just want to
make sure everyone else is good in your family, bro. Cuz my grandpa, he knows, bro. He knows he's gonna die, bro. So it's like I need to make sure all these other good, like it's like twin bro. I can't, bro. I can't, bro. It's just too much for my head, bro. I know. It's a lot. And life is like
life is life is overwhelming sometimes, isn't it? Isn't it like a very overwhelming experience? And then there's there's these highs depend on me, bro. Like, I don't know why these think that I'm better than I am, but like I am not better than I am, man. I only portray what I'm trying to be. And these steady thinking I'm like some goddess type bro. Like I can save the whole
family, bro. I can't do this bro. It's way too much, man. We can we can all we can all relate to relate to you cuz we all we've all lost loved ones and we've all lost loved ones. Even if even if we only lost a pet, we've lost we've lost lost our loved ones. Respect me because I'm real as hell, man. Like I don't I never fake no
bro. Like I'll come at you one or 300, man. I never fake no bro. Every know that I'm real in this chat, bro. Everybody know that I'm around the Any place I go, know I'm real, man. I don't around with nobody, man. But man, bro, this Hold on. This my ass
bad, man. Like, I want to I want to do good for my family and but like, bro, bro, bro, this is not my kids, folks. This is my cousin's kids, folk. Like, y'all need to go get some jobs to take care of these folks, bro. I cannot do this bro. Like, I can barely take care of myself, man. That's why I don't have no kids in my own. And y'all expect me like cuz I'm smarter than these Y'all expect me to
take care of these bro. I cannot do this bro. they don't listen, bro. They said he's depending on me, bro. Yeah. Wow man. It's like a lot of pressure on you, right? It's a lot of pressure on you and it's like you're trying to take care of yourself and it's like, you know, you got if you take care of yourself first and myself. That's what I'm saying, man. And
these depended on me like a man. Not a like in that type of way, but you know what I'm saying, man. Like I want to take care of them, but I can't, bro. Like, right. You all you can do is really take care of yourself. You know, it's like you cannot have all this pressure put on you to take care of all the other people, right? It's like
though, man. And it's hard, man. Right. Right. I can understand how that be that'd be difficult. You know, die and man. Because like I can't take care of all these kids, man. There's way too many of them, man. My family runs deep, man. Your nieces and nephews, stuff like that. They're expecting you to take care of them and stuff or do you mean you
have your own kids or what's going on? I'm not having no kids. Yeah, I worry about already. Nobody getting to care for me. But thank you for some back shot before I give and you're like, you know, you're expressing your emotions and like that's a real man that can express their emotions and like he can cry and stuff
like that, but you know, don't put too much. I think I see this 10 of wands energy where it's like you're carrying all these burdens. you're carrying all these other people's burdens and it's like they're weighing on you but really they're not you know the really you can put them down and stuff like that and and things will take care of themselves and stuff. So don't and take care of yourself first because then you'll be able to take care of other people in a
better way, right? If you if you're you're like it hurts me cuz like
I see these little ass kids, bro, and I'm like bro. I know. I'm sure there's a lot of stress, right? Everyone okay? Flirty squirted octopus inc and he cried. Yeah. Well, s no offense to you tonight, but you know, you came on a panel um saying I don't like and
people say, but I'm talking about Theo, you're you're being genuine. You're being real and stuff like that. And the chat the I think the chat appreciates it. It's always nice to hear a man being honest about his emotions and things like that, right? Hi Lauren, how are you? I'm having a good time. I'd like to be, but like
when it comes to my family and bro, I'm really like I know. It gets to me easy and bro. Like, you can get to me easy and You have a big You have a big heart and you have a tough exterior sometimes, but you have a you have a big heart. I can tell. Okay. I know. And if you if you didn't have a big heart, you would not have compassion for me and you would not be nice to me and you would just be like
a lot of other people that are just like dissing me and like making fun of me and stuff like that. And like you're like on the panel putting your face out there sometimes and like showing your emotions, not afraid to cry. That's that's it's a sweet thing to see. Okay. I
don't know. ever. And like what I can do better for them and like it's like too much for me to like handle my head. Yeah. Oh, no. You didn't. I don't think you did. I don't think you did. I'll I'll remod you. I I modded everyone today. Um I I modded a lot of people
today just because I had a lot of problems today. I don't know if you saw the chat earlier. I'll remind you and stuff because I don't you know I think about no mod bro talking talking to um to someone in the chat that was saying I nobody I don't bro I'm a real ass bro I come at you one bro I tell you how I feel and I'll tell
you what I think folk I ain't on this fake that's about me man I ain't playing no games with no bro I'm really real man I'm really real bro I act like this 247 Y'all can find out, bro. Come join this, man. I ain't trying to promote bro. I'm joining my bro because I
respect my bro. You Yeah, I know. But you're really cool that you're able to like share your feelings and stuff like that and like you're man enough to like to like um be vulnerable, right? And it's like, you know, women are like emotional emotional ninjas. Men are like a little bit emotionally immature sometimes and
so women like to help men along sometimes like with their women, bro. that bro. I'm good, bro. I'm just I'm just in my feelings a little bit, man. Like, I'm thinking about dead bro. And it's killing me, man. Like, okay. Thank you, Lauren. Lauren, I just I just I basically just unmoded
everybody that was just a mod and stuff like that that I trust you and stuff like that now that I I I see you as man. I will never on God. On God, mark my words. I will never dirty to you, folks. I don't care me or keep me, whatever, bro. I am not that type of bro. I am cool as hell. I know I said the N word and but bro,
you said you said stop. You said the soft a and it wasn't in it wasn't you mean it in a bad way is what I think bro I'm just steady around my gangsters bro and they and they let me talk that way so that's why I talk how I talk yeah I'm racist and folk is how I
talk it's just it's just business folk like I don't even with like that man I got my best friend and I got like three other friends and that's That's all I hang out with, man. I be on the gangster when I go out in public, bro. But like,
that's just because I love GDs, man. GDs are cool as bro. I love all y'all, bro. Y'all awesome cool bro. Like, the coolest you hang out with. Okay. Well, and and and you know, gang like my my kitty gang too is like the coolest people I ever knew and stuff like that. We all like can can love our like our
friend group, our gang or whatever. And uh but also like you know love other human beings and know that like no one's better than the other person. And it's like we all the same man. We all the same bro. We all the same but we're different realities. You feel like we all was raised a different way but we all human
right? So it depends how you're raised is how you you feel me? So like just cuz gay doesn't mean that he's not cool, bro. Like that weird as hell for gay sh Like and it's like and everyone think everyone thinks, "Oh, he's gay. He's going to like try to like I'm not even gay, bro." And I'm saying No, not talking about me. I'm talking this.
about me. I'm I'm gay, right? I'm not saying this I don't care if think I'm gay, bro. Like you're you're saying like she was saying if you saw me in person, you would like run away. Like I would do something to you. No, your friend, homie. Okay. I'll grab you by the neck, put you in a nugie.
If I ever see you, I'm giving you a nugie bro. Okay. Trust me, bro. I don't give a about none of that man. I'm a cool bro. Y'all got to get to know me, bro. I'm I'm really like I'm really I love people, bro. I am not an ammo person. I'm a people's person. You feel me? Like I love people. I don't care how you are. I give you a chance.
But if you come at me wrong, then I'mma come at you dirty. And if you think you want some like quality bro, you need to get taught a lesson. So I'mma come at you. You feel me? Cuz we all the same, bro. We We all the same. We just got belt different. You feel me? We all started as babies, Yeah. right? And like what I say is like human beings, we're all the same. than
We're all different because we all have you. different our individuality and different personalities and and we all have our individuality, but we're all the same being that we're human beings and it's like so we can respect each other as human beings, right? So, Exactly. Yeah. We all we all got we all got taught different but we live in the same way
folk like we all have the same things like us humans we all got brains So we all think like we all think like the same way, but we raised different. So our brains think in different ways, but at the end of the day, our brains think the same way. So if we're all in that type of situation, we're going to think the same way. So you really can't disrespect someone that thinks that way. You feel me? Yeah. Right. And it's like
different. Yeah. We're all different and we're all the same. It's like we're all That's a good thing. That's a good thing, man. That's a good thing, bro. Why would we all want to be similar, bro? I'm glad we're all different, bro. Cuz then I get to meet different than me. I don't give a if you gay, straight, or sideways. As long as you're a cool then I'm cool with you.
Just like you a cool bro. Six. Come back later. S. You're You're going to ruin the vibe. You're just trying to ruin the vibe. I I know you are. And you've been very drinking a lot tonight. You've been drinking way more than I have. Okay. Come ruin the panel, folks. I don't feel like having s on the panel because I kept letting him up and then he kept pissing everyone off and stuff
like that and he was like not not being let him up. Okay. I want to say piss off. Come piss me off Tracy, if it's okay with Tracy, then I'll I'll do it. But if Tracy says no, I'm going to this guy up, bro. Who is he, bro? Who is he? Who Who's talking His
name His name is Sig. and and Sig Sig is always uh being a I like Sig and stuff like that, but it's like he keeps trying to like be an on the show and stuff like that and Big Tall, don't don't give it away. Don't give the plot away. Don't give the plot away. Yeah. I I I don't feel like having it up just cuz, you know, I just
don't I've been through enough today and I'm I'm getting I'm kind of tired. So, you just black now. Yeah. I'm getting I'm damn look at Nick. Nick is Nick is just having fun. Nick is wild, bro. What are you doing? He But he inspires He inspires me, too.
It's like I love the I love the creativity just like Miser inspired me with his creativity and it's like there's such artistic souls and they have so much energy and creativity. Right. Yeah. Um Tracy said no. So saying no, we need a break. Maybe maybe maybe Easy ass. Nick, how do we get Ezy's ass in here?
Okay, Tracy, I I defer you to Tracy. I'm going to listen to Tracy. She She's uh Yeah, I'm I'm in. I'm fine with anybody up here, but it's like if if there's somebody like watching, folk watching for sure. For sure. Yeah. Easy, come join this folks, folk. You join my all the time. I know you in this
Cool art right here. Yeah, some cool artwork. Look at this artwork. Look at this creativity right here. Pretty beautiful. Love it. I know. Big Tom, you're Are you like the same same race earbuds or something? Yeah, that's Look at the lampshade with all the really cool Johnson.
This is all his art. His own art, right, guys? So, that's really awesome. I have no problem with Nick. I did myself and I just put it right here. It looks pretty inappropriate. A little weird, but he's cool. Yeah, we're all a little bit mad here. We're all weird on the way. Yeah. Isn't that cool? This is so cool, right? It's very
pretty. A little bit weird in this If If not, then I Guys, that's why the show's cool. It's cuz the show's cool. It's like cuz it's my It's my show, right? But it's like also like we just weird in different ways, you know, weird different ways. And it's like and I think and I think people people that are
like marginalized by society, people that are like outcast cuz I felt outcast. I felt marginalized before. And I understand how bad I feel cuz some of us are are the best people. Bro, when I was when I was uh 25 years old, I promised myself I would be myself until the day that I died.
So, I'm staying the same. I'm never switching up, right? When I was 30, I realized I already live past my age now. And I kept this promise folk. I don't switch up for nobody, man. I'm steady cool with everybody. As long as you want some cool then I'm
cool with you, folk. Like, Nick cool as hell. He be joining my bro. Nick always joining my but I don't do live panels. I just be gaming on here lately. He's always joining my panel and he's he's like, you know, he's like Yeah, these hobbits are very adorable. Yeah, I'd say Nick is so supportive of my show and like he's always like cool
and like shows cheers of creativity and like is under black light and like and I'm sorry your your mic is bad sometimes, but uh and we don't get to talk as much as I want to talk. Yeah. Nick is cool. Nick is cool. I've ran into Nick on like I bet you I've been in like 20 podcasts with Nick. Yeah. And I and I met I met I met I met Nick actually on Jo way before this
folk like I met I met Nick like probably six seven months ago or eight months ago on like Joker's panel and like he doing his air dude and like he was like really super cool and like and then I met Beeta on Joker's panel and then people were telling me today they're like and then Joker like I love Joker too and people were telling me today they're like oh I don't we don't like Joker like and saying bad things about Joker and it's like no I'll defend Joker
and it's like because Joker's always Joker but hey Nick show your temperature thing. Remember you had it on 420 last time. There it goes. Now it's 421. He has on 421. That was a 4 420. Perfect. A little bag on there and then he smokes it. Yeah. It's like It's like a vape. It's
kind of like a It's like a weed vape where it like what it's called. Nick be cool, bro. I don't know what's going on with Nick, but he's cool. Like I'm trying to figure it out. Look, you're bang on Joker. But you're talking about Batman. Big tall. Big tall. Sexy King Rob. Yeah. Is here. No, you were not banging, bro. If you was banging, you would come up to pan, folks. You was not
banging, folk. No. Keyboard warrior is bang. I keep asking to come up. I have I have another manga reader left and then I'm going to probably wall say it. I think it says Nick Johnson probably somewhere up there, but it says I I can't read it. You personally attack for nothing. I can do as you please. I can leave. I was No, no, no, no, no. Who is Tracy?
No. Tracy Tracy. Tracy in the chat. You You can block them in the chat. I'm not I'm not I'm not trying. Yeah. I'm not trying to have you I'm trying to like defend it. I'm not I'm not bring them up on the panel. You can block them in the chat. You block Just click on their name and say block. You won't see any of their words and stuff. Okay. But I'm gonna give you some advice, girl. I
know you got a wrench and everything, but if you if you're even a little bit self-aware of this YouTube you know that there are trolls, folk. You know that we cannot control every troll that joins. So, you got to learn to have a little bit like leather skin, folk. You cannot be thin skin in this cuz we cannot read every one of your comments and then
react on them. You feel me? Like, I know. And I don't and I'm I'm really like kind of paying half attention to the chat, trying to run the panel, trying to run the chat, and people are talking back and forth. Yeah, Tracy. No, Tracy's are cool as And Tracy, if someone's bothering you in the chat, you're not being respectful about it. I was just letting her know, folks, like we cannot pay attention to all that little folks. Like that Tracy Tra Yeah,
Tracy, it's about it's about you and me. You and your friends that will defend you and stuff. I know it's banana. So there's there's okay I can but someone on the panel saying something bad I don't think no I think he was just expressing himself um but if someone bad talk I didn't mean to bring I won't say
I won't say her name but um okay but I'm trying to say if your voice is deep and overpowering joint he's talking about big big misunderstandings too people like I was talking you
Not you, big tall, bro. What you deep and overpowering? Like, you act like I'm trying to overpower bro. I'm just making a point, Like, get off that bro. You was talking Tracy. I'm trying What I'm trying to say is like I I did I I like I um I did what you asked with the with some people in
the chat and stuff like that and on the panel and stuff like that. And I'm I'm here to support you, okay? And I never try to do anything. I'm not just supporting anybody, bro. I'm not I'm not Come up here, folk like don't come up here on some troll bro. Like you guys.
Oh god, you weak. Hey, what's up, Amanda? And guys, let's all come down. We're all friends here. We're all friends. Okay, at the end of the day, we're all friends. At the end of the show, after after the lights go down and everything, I didn't I didn't mean to hurt anybody's feelings. I don't think I don't think Theo did. I think I think we're trying to have a fun fun little talk. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings and it's like it's hard because it's like everyone has all
these relationships, right? And go the cam. You'll see this tiny olive oil arms pop by. Yeah. Go ahead. Um, big tall. Get on the get on the I want to see the olive oil arms. That's what I said. Come join big tall. Come join. Yeah. And I I like I like Theo. I think he's I think he's being genuine tonight. He you know he's like laughed. He's cried. He
I'm always like this, bro. I'm always genuine. mistake me for being dumb, but I'm really always genuine. Like, I just get a little bit drunk. That's it. Yeah, I get drunk, too. I get drunk, too. And on his panels, and I'm not always able to do heroin. I don't do stop. S I'm not letting him back on
tonight. Tracy said no. Okay. And uh and I'm I gave her the I'm giving her some of some of this mod privilege tonight where it's like I'm going to listen to her about about it and you you pissed her off and you talk to her in chat and now she's mad and I don't know if she's even here anymore. I know who that is and I don't care who it is. She can she can be mad as steady as she want. I've been myself this whole
time. I know. Well, I got back nothing wrong. People are confused about what who's talking about who and like all that kind of stuff. And then the chat is going it's like a little bit too much. Yeah. So it's like Yeah. No one No one No. Yeah. Like leave Leave Tracy alone, guys. I don't want anybody.
Yeah. Sig, you're all you're banned for You're banned for at least 24 hours. S I mean, I don't care, bro. Ban me for a week. I don't No, no, no, no. I'm talking a lot of talking to S. I'm talking to Sig, not You're you. See, everyone's getting confused about who I'm talking to. S I'm banning you for Sig. I'm sick. Si, I'm banning you for 24 hours. Theo, you're fine. I'm not banning you. Okay.
All right. Yeah. Theo. Theo, calm down. Okay. You're You're You know, I can calm down. I can calm down. Okay. You're calm down. Okay. I'm happy to have you here. Yeah. That's what Traveling Gypsy, you know, Traveling Gypsy was on the show earlier. She has like a little paddle and she goes and she like takes away all the negative energy, right? That's from Bad Boys 2. From Bad Boys 2. Okay.
Movie. He goes oo sauce and the whole crowd goes oo I I banned sing for 24 hours and so s can come back 24 hours and stuff. I I don't want to I mean all all the accounts keep trying to get on the show and stuff like that. Uh Theo you're on live but that's fine because Theo Theo's probably promoting my show. I'm promoting his show. You want to subscribe to him? You know I don't care
if his chat subscribes to me or not. It's all about helping each other. You know I need to I need to uh Yeah. Let me uh let me restream you. Just don't uh strike me. No, I won't. I won't. I I would never I would never I would never restrike I would never restrike anybody you just give me. Yeah, you stream me.
Hell, man. This week got me high as hell. It's late as It's only 11. It's only 11, bro. It's only Guys, it's only It's only 9:54. It's only 9:54 here. Oh god. I'm after write email after write Discord email real quick. Um get my YouTube channel. I'm just gonna
re I'm going to reream you. Okay. Thank you. Yeah. It ain't going to help too much but it'll help a little bit cuz you're a bigger channel than me. Let me go. You be getting like 30 viewers, bro. That's good as hell. You know that, right?
I'm so h I got I got 40 40 viewers today. Like it was like 40. Yeah, I was up to 40 today. Holy bro. God damn, man. You're the king, bro. I'm I'm in chat where there's hundreds of people sometimes. But uh yeah. Oh,
Amanda. So yeah, I know you, Amanda. I'll read Christine. Christine. Christine. Christine. I know you're in the You said fake McQueen channel made today, Bro, I don't give a about you. I hope you know that. I only like Summer. I don't like you. Like, I know you're a boss around there,
but I know you banned me from chat, bro. I know you banned me from chat, bro. You know you banned me from chat. And y'all y'all won't tell me that And I am so pissed about this that I want to punch you in the head, but you're a female, so I can't. Keep wild, bro. Don't trust Christine,
bro. Just with Summer. No, Christine's cool as hell. Yeah, Christine is weird, bro. Christine is a weirdo. Christine is I mean, Summer is the only cool in that Christine banned me from chat and she's still steady acting like she ain't
banned me from chat, bro. But on God, she banned me, bro. Like, she is um Yeah, I will. I will. Um uncomfortably numb, Mimo, Sifa, and Clumsy, guys. I love you so much. I'm sorry if something offended you for my channel. I'm sorry if there's
misunderstanding. I'm sorry I couldn't like work it out better and like I sorry we couldn't talk about it more and like I let you know how I feel. I love I love those people. I hope they come back. I hope they forgive me. I really um I really regret what happened. Hey, if anybody wants some smoke, bro, call me out, folks. Like I'm I'm here.
I'm ready. I'll catch all the smoke, bro. Any of y'all trolls can come over here right now cuz y'all know I will you up, bro. Y'all been see me in other chats, bro. Y'all been know what I'm on, folk. I only help channels. I don't hurt channels. I respect that are cool,
bro. And Teflon is cool, folk. He came supporting my channel when I had like one viewer, folk, and he joined my So, what y'all want, man? I just want everyone to get along. I want every I want to for I want I want to be able to pray for I'm like I'm not I'm not Jesus. Okay, I'm not play I know a song called I'm not Jesus. Okay, I'm
not Jesus. But I very much am about Jesus's teachings where Jesus says forgive if you want to be forgiven. Love each other. You know, I mean it's like whoever without sins were the first stone right? And uh there's other really great teachings of Jesus where he like hung out with he hung out with the the people the prostitutes. He hung out with with
the drug addicts that he hung out with the outcasts. He hung out with the criminals and stuff like that and he was like trying to help them and stuff. And so that's what I kind of like try I resonate with to be honest. I feel like I feel like, bro, I know you gain everything, bro, but like you cool as hell, bro. Like, I would really like love to have a homie like you around me, bro. Like, on God.
Like, it would help me a lot. But I don't have no homies like you. But Well, but you But you do because you're here. No, these are my friends. These are my These are my friends, right? These are my real friends. Like the people on YouTube. I don't have my I told you all my friends that I had like in real life are in prison or they don't really like me and stuff like that. Yeah, Jesus is annoyed with you. Well,
yeah, but you know, it's like Jesus can get annoyed, but at the end of the day, there's still love there and it's still like wanting the person to to to do better and go to the higher self, right? And it's like that's all it's all about we can we can get annoyed with people. We can get annoyed with people. We can get but it's like all about really loving people, right? It's about love one another. That's what I said. I love people, bro. I'm a people's guy, man. I'm the real
people's guy, man. I love all the people, bro. I don't give a if you gay, straight, or sideways, bro. As long as you cool, bro. I love you, man. And you cool as hell. So, it is smoke, bro. But I kill ass, folk, cuz they know they know what the gorilla bring to the zoo, man.
Yeah. And I'm steady I'm steady firing with two hands that they had. And they ain't ready for that folks. I'm all the energy, bro. I speak from the heart. Every time I talk, I'm talking from the heart, man. To the point where that hurts in the morning. You know what I'm saying?
Like be hurting in the morning cuz I put out so much passion at night, right? And that's like and it's like your emotions are like flowing and stuff like that. And you and it's like and you're going to get to that you're like a Knight of Wands right now where it's like Knight of Wands is like going like rushing in with passion and
rushing out and in and out and stuff like that. You're going to get to that King of Wands. You're going to get to that King of Wands. That's like the next step for you is like coming into your coming into your control of your emotions, the mastery of your emotions. Like, you know, it's like, but you're still you're still Yeah, man. But like, bro, I cannot control my emotions at all right now.
Like, the night I steady be want to kill but I steady want to be nice to cool bro. Like, but I'm ready as hell, man. Like, I'm not scared to nobody, bro. Like, my heart is going like 200 miles an hour right now, man. I know. I know it is. I feel I feel like the beating really fast and stuff like that right?
I feel like my chest like my heart about to come out my chest and is like but I'm trying and you're you're still really young and it's like you're going to go to your 30s and you're going to be learning to manage these emotions like better, right? It's like cuz it's like now you have all this Yeah. You're Yeah. So you're almost 30 and then when in your 30 to 40 you're going to be dealing with like a lot of
the managing. You're going to be you're going to be king by the time you're 40 if not 35. Right. You're you're still you're you're you're on your way. You're I think you're a really fat you're going to be a king, right? Yeah. Nick is bad, huh? Nick is bad. He's a bad player. We love Nick here. He's always welcome here and he's a good guy. What are you doing? I like I try to be the best I can, man. But like when with my
homies or they with my boys, like I I can't go like I just feel this emotion in my body. I got to come at your ass. I'm come at you harder as hell, bro. Like from the heart, bro. Like it's going to hurt. The thing the thing about me is like I don't mess I don't mess with anybody. I I don't I don't like with anybody like like in a negative way. I'm always
trying to be be positive and like I positive, but if they come at me negatively, then I'm just going to roast this out there. Like I'm I don't even mean that in derogatory way, but I'm just going to come at their ass and I'm That sounds like some gay Come on my ass. Come on. Come on. My ass. Come on. It's okay. Just one time.
I won't tell anybody. I won't tell anybody about it. Right. As old as I can. Yeah. Come on. Come on. Come at me. Come on. My ass hard as you can. No. No. Sorry. No. Ass up. Ass up face down. Whatever. However you want me. Okay. I I'll even if you just want me to give you a hug and stuff like that and like in the non-gay way.
If I was gay, I would definitely hook up with you. But I'm not gay. I I've heard that a lot of I've heard that a lot in my life. It's like everyone's like, "If I was gay, you would be the guy I hook up with." And so it's very flat. It's very flattering and stuff like that. It's not gay, bro. Like I really I know. I know. I know. The deal. It's joke. It's joke. I know you're not. I know you're not Theo. I know. I know. I know. I'm just saying, but I
was trying to say in like a nice way. That's all I'm trying. Yeah. It just It just don't appeal me. That's all. I know. I know. know like it's like I had a I had I had a girlfriend I had a girlfriend for like a few months and it's like and then I like the finger banging part but it's like I could not manage to eat her and I I mean
I got a colonoscopy and the mother is fingers in my ass and bro I felt I'm sitting there shaking bro like I felt violated as bro I was sitting on the hospital bed shaking while I'm blood and a colonoscopy where they like shoot up all all this air up your colon with a camera
in there gelatin on his fingers with some gloves and he stuck three fingers up my ass and it was it it felt really wrong, bro. It's all it's all we have human bodies, right? The colon I know that's I don't know if this is a colonoscopy. I think colonoscopy where they take a camera
they shoot air up your rectum and they put a camera to test me bro before the the colonoscopy they did a prostate exam or something like that. Yeah, they did that It wasn't a colonoscopy. It's once I went into the emergency room. put gelatin on his hand and he was just like bam and I was like shaking and I was like hell no bro. I don't know how
gay, but that's on yo, man. Cuz it hurts, bro. Well yeah. I literally felt like I got raped, bro. Like, I was sitting there shaking like a victim and like that. That's probably It's probably to save your life. It was probably It's probably probably to save your life. Oliver's
leaving. Oliver doesn't like the the colon talk. But we will we Yeah, we'll talk Oliver. We will have fun, Oliver. We're having a fun night tonight. I'm at my 10 hour uh I've been over for an hour. I I'll stand for another till two hours if I can because I'm like getting drunk. I've had my second margarita. Everyone Anyone wants to come on the panel? Theo got a finger up his butthole
from P Diddy at his P DD party. Well, yeah, we colonoscopy. So, I didn't feel none of that. Yeah. The erection for the colonoscopy part. Yeah, but you were wait for the prostate exam and I was awake for that and it traumatized the out of me. Well, cuz men cuz men when they're like 40 when men are in their 40s or 50s or
something like that. Like my father had prostate cancer and so it's like, you know, it's like men have to like go to the doctor, trust the doctor enough to like not be like trying to like do do something bad to them, right? And they have to like, you know, it's not comfortable situation, right? Grandpa, bro, listen to this. My grandpa, we had to give him my grandma
had to or my a had to give him an enema because he wasn't using the bathroom and for cancer. So if he doesn't use the bathroom, he'll go crazy cuz he told her he was like, "I think you violated me the other night, right?" He was
that again. Now he always makes sure he takes his Yeah, he's like violated me the other night. Would you imagine like there's there's people that are paralyzed and things like that and then the nurses have to go in and like dig in and like pull stuff out of them and stuff like that. Oh my god.
that, bro. that, bro. Kill me, bro. That's why I have so many nurses that come on my show. Like I I don't know why I I have I'm like all these nurses come on. like I have like you know Teresa and Tiger Butterfly and there's so many other people that are like CNAs and certified nurses assistants or like RNAs
and things like that and and uh they they see and or also um DJ Electra too I think she was a she was she's a nurse like a lot of nurses on my channel and it's like they see some crazy and it's like and then it's like they have to deal with some and like you know it's like that that's actually the most compassionate people with the best hearts that are able to I love nurses,
bro. If you're a nurse, God bless you. Listen, my dad My dad had all these Filipino nurses in my dad, bro. If you're a nurse, do not be uh disgusting, bro. Do not be mean to your patients. The second you start being mean, bro, quit that folk, and go to something else cuz we don't like that at all, man. Like, if you're mean to your patients, bro,
get the out of there. Right. Right. Cuz my dad hurt them a lot more than hurt you. Right. My my dad had my dad went was passing away from cancer last year and he went to he was in the hospital a bunch of times and he had he had fil these Filipino nurses and he was like he was like I love Filipinos. He's like they have the best hearts cuz like I
he's like one night I knocked over this like big jar of blood and like whatever and he's like it fell over the floor. He's like they came in with mops singing a song and like it was just like trying to make me feel better and stuff like that. And also he had Filipino people coming the hospice workers and stuff like that and they were like they called him papa like papa like the family was calling them and it's like they were
like they were crying when he passed away like like they were really you know it's like it was just touching and so that one of my best friends was from Philippines and I was like I just love Filipinos because they're the best hearts cuz my my dad loved Filipinos and he's like and uh you know but nurses in general nurses in general are usually very compassionate
like I don't really like Trump like that but my my grandpa loves Trump so I can sit there for hours next to him while he's in bed like bedridden and I'll play Trump videos for him like golfing and like all types of all the new with Trump well my my dad my dad loved Trump too
and my dad was like well they're both Geminis they're both they're a few few days apart in their birthdays and stuff like that and like you know they have similarities with communication and like he loved he just loved when Trump was in office and like I was like I'll vote for Trump you know I'm like you know I don't really even vote I'm like a libertarian and stuff I was like I'll vote for Trump you know and
he just I voted for Trump one time and he lost so I don't take any blame but I really I really like like I'm kind of in the middle like I feel like if you want an abortion you should be able to get an abortion you met Like you shouldn't die over having a kid, bro. Like
you should be able to get the abortion there because you could die before you get to the state you need to go to to have an abortion, right? But that that's like the LTE or the LTA, which is like late late term abortion and stuff like that where it's like people like it's very extreme case where it's like it's like um you know it's like the baby is like 8 months to 9 months old. There's usually a way to save the baby and the mother and stuff
like that in those situations. It's like not the it's a very extreme example of it just like I give extreme example of pets. It's like yeah I'm taking questions Raymond. I'll do a card for you. I'll do a card for um for also for also um Theo if he wants or anybody else in the chat wants a card. I'll do cards tonight. Um I'm just having a good chat with Theo and we're talking about some
serious and uh you know it's like um you know it's take a break from I need to find my hitter anyway. Okay. Yeah, you can take a break. Yeah. And uh but yeah, Theo is awesome guy. Like Theo Theo genuinely keep it real, y'all. I always keep it real, bro. Like
And I I do too. I And I I do too on my show. I like keep it real. Like I I like I really like most most YouTube streamers have like a persona. They have a mask on and stuff like that. I don't really wear a mask. I like I I myself as much as like you know, it's like maybe I'll be smiling a little bit more than I usually smile. sometimes. But actually, you guys make me smile. You guys You
guys really really make me happy. Okay, I'll pull a card for Raymond real quick. Raymond, I got the someone coming back from the past to tell me something. What if What is it? What was Queen of Pentacles? She said she said, and this Queen of Pentacles right there from the past, this woman, I don't know if she's earth sign or
something like that. She's going to say, "I can help you manifest things. I can't. But we're stronger together than we are apart. So, I hope that helped you, Raymond. I think that was like a good answer to your question. I see it was just like, yeah, the queen of pentacle is a person. It's a it's a woman in in like an earth sign maybe or earth placements and stuff like that. The woman that can inspire you and
help you manifest. So, I hope you like that. Hey, and uh the red the real French disco. I can't I can't see it completely. It's a little bit um interesting lettering, but yeah, I'm I'm willing to do um answers for anybody's questions. Jamie, are you happy tonight? I know. I I hope I'm cool with everybody. I know I do have a a lot of pressure on me right now with this
channel because it's like it's getting to the to the final it's getting into the final stretch of the race, right, where it's like I'm about to get monetized. The channel is just taking off. Like I can't believe like I was I was saying I'll be monetized by April, May, June. I think I'm going be monetized by March. I think I'll be monetized by March if not the end of this month. You know, I think it's going
so fast, right? And so everything's going really fast for me. And it's like and then it's like I have a lot of haters. I have a lot of um trolls. I have a lot of um some negative people, but I have like so many really good people, so many friends, so many great relationships. I don't want to lose this channel. I really don't. Oh, that would break my heart if I lost this channel. It would break my heart.
And people are trying to like it's like someone attacking your your your loved ones, your pets, your ch your children, your baby, right? It's like this is my baby. I I don't have kids. I have cats. And it's like people trying to hurt my channel by doing that kind of thing. It's like it hurts my heart, right? I want this is actually this channel is for you guys. It's more about you guys
than it is for me. I want you guys to have a platform to meet each other. I don't care if I'm left out of it. I don't care if you I don't care if at the end of the day you want me to like leave the panel and stuff like that and then you guys can talk and stuff like that. I want you guys to be happy here. I want you guys to have another place you can go. I want to be able to stream a lot. I really want this to be like fun for everyone. And it's like I don't know if
people don't get that or not. Like some people don't get that and they think I'm like trying to I'm selfish. I'm a bad person or something like that. But it's like I'm trying to like help people, trying to get I don't know. I'm really want this to succeed for everyone like so everyone can succeed. I want I think I can help so many people if I have a good channel and I can help be a platform for everybody, right? So, thank
you guys. Yeah, it's like really it's like it makes me sad when people try to like hurt my channel and stuff like that because I I do I do Yeah, I do it for you guys. I do it for you guys for I'm not I'm not kidding. I don't want to cry. I don't want to cry, but I I do it for you guys cuz I love you guys and you guys you guys make me smile. I wake up every morning thinking I want to talk to I want to talk to beta. I want to talk
to to to you know everyone on my stream. I I want to talk to the chat. I want to talk to to you know even the friends that that left me. I said I hope they they hope they like forgive me. I hope they come back and stuff like that. I didn't mean to like hurt their feelings and stuff. Um, and it's like I can't help everything that happens here. It's like because it's like I want to help everybody and it's like it's hard
because it's like I can't ple you can't please everybody and not everyone's going to like you and I I try try to help everybody. Okay? I try I really try to help you guys so much. I want to help you. If you guys want to start your own channel, like I'll get you to 50 subscribers. I'll tell you how to do it. I'll tell you exactly how I did it. I'll help you do it faster than I did it. And I'll help you become more successful than my channel. And I want you to be
more successful than me. It's not really about me. I've already lived past my my 30 years. I I I I 30 years old. That's That was my lifespan. That was my expected lifespan. I I should have been passed away at 30 years old. I now I'm at 44. So, I'm already like way past how I how long I expected to live, you know, and I have cats to worry about. And I have like my my channel I'm trying to
take care of. I'm trying my to help my family stay safe. I'm trying to like make up with my friends and stuff like that. It is a lot of pressure, but I can I can handle the pressure. I I'm strong. Okay, I'm not trying to spread myself too thin. That's why I'm here. That's why it's like that's why I'm here focusing my energy on this instead of like worrying about I know I was
worrying about about grinder and stuff and I'm not really worried about that stuff. I'm worried about having a good show so I can have a good show and that will be a platform that will help everybody. And so that's why it's like I'll help even like people that hate me. It's like I really do love people. Okay, I love people. I'm sorry if
Okay, I finished my mangas. Doing a good job. Thank you. I'm trying I'm trying to do a good job. It's like I just like feel like I under attack sometimes. I feel like I don't know who to trust and stuff like that, but it's okay. I I I'm I've been like in your face, Nick.
is weird, bro. I don't know what's going on with this guy. He's steady. Like, he's entertaining, though. I ain't going to say he's weird. My bad. But he does his own Yeah. F. Bro, it is late as hell, man.
Bro, it's only 12. 12. It's only 10 here. Way too early, man. Yeah. Well, me, too. I started at noon. I started like at I I started streaming at like 10:00 a.m. or 9 or 10 a.m. I streamed I've streamed all day. I've had like um I was on Lisa's chat and uh and
made phone call. I know. I know. Big tall. I'm always crying, right? I'm always crying. What's up, KT? How are you? I'm always crying. I've been for like six hours now. You getting hearts? I have to I have to look at my chat and see hearts. I know. I do. I do feel the love. I do feel love. I feel like you guys are like I am getting hearts.
Send myself a few. Thank you guys for sending hearts and stuff like that. You're just gonna die at this time because got to work, man. I see him on my screen. I'm good, KT. Yeah, I know. I know. It's Yeah, but really, guys, I'm doing this guy. I'm doing this mainly mainly for you because if it
wasn't for you guys, there would be no motivation. There would be no fun in this. It's all about me having friends and like me like having people that support me and me being able to support people. Who is who coming in? Um s you just pissed off every piss off everyone tonight coming in talking at
the the KKK and stuff like that. It's not it's not funny. It's not funny anymore saying the n word and and after I tell you to stop a thousand times and like being mean and stuff like that. So you have to take a break word sometimes, but I Yeah, listen. I mean, it's like it's it's a context words of you say it and especially when I if I was to tell you
like 10 times and subing, bro. Like I don't say Oh, me too. Me too. I sing. So who is Nick? Oh, you can't see Nick. Okay, that's Nick. Hold on. You can see Nick. There's Nick. You can see Nick. Can you see the names now? Yeah. Anybody's going to strike me on some There's no racist folk like I know and it's like I know there's like
no racism is so stupid cuz it's like especially our generations and stuff like that. We like we we we're like a multicultural generation and stuff and it's like racism is like you know there's race play and like there's like this like I was like to the guy Alexander today I was like well I like when you call me I like I like I get I get turned on. I was like call me that and stuff and I was like saying that and it's like
it's like it's like not like homophobic of me and I'm gay, right? It's like it's like or like not homophobic on him. It was like I was telling it, right? It's like I Yeah. So you see So you see you're seeing it wrong. Yeah. That's the mass man, right? That's the Yeah. Nick is going trick-or-treating later and nobody's going to give him candy. Yeah. Nick is going to go go knocking on doors and they're going to be like, "What? It's not Halloween yet?" They're
going to throw Snickers bar at him or their last pack of peanut M&M's and stuff like that. The second I start looking for on YouTube, I'm gonna kill myself. Well, yeah. Well, I I I mean I that's why I mean I was looking for dick on YouTube before and it's like and like and I was like and then it's like and I should be going if I'm looking for that
I should go on ChatterBait. I should go on Grinder. I should go on Grinder. Is that like I am on Gr I'm on Grinder, right? I'm on Grinder. I was like I seriously have all these dates lined up on Grinder and stuff. Like there's all these people like writing me like wanting to go on dates and it's like I'm just like I don't know if I'm really looking for like hookups and stuff like that but it was fun for like the the the panel or
not the panel but it was fun for like the entertainment to be looking at people. I love it. I love it when is just say like as long as you put person on me to try to become like you just I'm cool with that Like I don't give a bro. But if you like start touching me and then I'm going to hit your ass. You love it. Amber Amber was having a live all the time. Yeah. I I now I love go I'm addicted and I'm
addicted to live streaming when I wake up I like I was like I want to see my friends. I want to I want to talk to my friends because it's like otherwise it's like just quiet. I'm just like here I can be like in in other chats and stuff. Even when I'm not here I'm on other panels and stuff like that cuz I love commun it's like I love people and stuff like that. I love talking to people and like communicating and like that's why my my my show is
definitely like a dream come true, right? drive bar, then I get a website. It's a dream come true because it's first of all, it's it's my show that I get to get to like do what I want. I get to drink on my show. I get to like sit on my couch and like lay back and like show my cats and do tarot card readings. Yeah, I'm on Instagram. It's Psyche Awakens on Instagram. I'm on Instagram. I just like being I'll show you my I'll show you
some guys on Instagram if you want tonight. I have really fun uh things on Instagram. I'll show I'll show you a few things. If you go to my Instagram feed and stuff like that, it is so cool. I don't have it downloaded yet. You don't have it downloaded? I'll show you what I have on it. I have like really hot guys. Like I like this guy right here. I don't know. I'm not into men, but I know you're not. I know you're into Mexicans with
tattoos. Yeah. You see that guy? Yeah. Mexican with tattoos. No, there's there's women on my Instagram, too, though. You'll be really impressed with the women, too. Like, there's like really like hot women. I like black girls, folks. You like black girls? Yeah. Well, you know, I got I have all races.
I have all races, all colors, all creeds. This is cute. Little monkey. I don't like little black girls. I don't like skinny. I like thick monkey. You like thick black girls. Okay. I can I I know I know all types. I can hook you up with I can I can hook you up with friends. I can hook you up with I want some cellulite. here.
Yeah. Let me find this is funny. Look at this. Oh, yeah. I remember this. The cat. I love cats, folks. I never had a cat until like last year and I got my cat. These cats are all drinking beers. This
is so me. This cat with all the beers. Guys are like, "Where's the beer guy?" This is me waiting for Door Dash. There's like backpack, backpack, the backpack full of beers, right? It's cute as hell.
So funny.
Your Okay. So, Oh, yeah. Look at this one.
These bad. The bad cats.
These are some bad cats. I'll Okay. You want a woman? I'll I'll find you a woman. Hold on. Oh, here. Here's a woman for you. They her
everyone there. She's really hot. No, you don't like Oliver. She's really hot, though. Look, she turns into like a scary scary. How about this one?
Little bit little bit body jewelry there. Yeah. Cool. I like this guy right here. His name is u his name is Lefty Gunplay. I don't I think he's pretty cute. She's hot. Yeah, pretty hot. I'll find more females.
I like this guy a lot, too. This guy right here. Everyone, this guy's pretty hot. I showed him to Alisa one time and Alisa was like, "He looks dangerous." And I was like, I think he's a rehabilitated. I think he's rehabilitated. I think he spent time in prison. And now he does Instagram
where he's like, what this guys? You want some booty here? It's the real one.
like that. Everyone likes a good twerk, right? Even gay men can appreciate nice twerk. How's everyone doing? Oh, this this chick. This chick. Look at this chick. See all these tattoos? She's on my feed.
Everyone have fun. I like how the chat's been really cool tonight and I like how the panel's been really cool tonight. I just want to apologize if something went wrong. Oh, she has three breasts. Like this is kind of strange. That's like the woman in Total Recall. She has these three breasts.
I don't know. I don't know. Oh no. Oh no. Gollum's wife.
Little bit too much body jewelry, guys. It's a little bit little bit extreme for me right? Crazy. Okay. How about her? How about her? That was crazy. How long?
What? What the is going on my Instagram? My Instagram is crazy, right? Are you okay, Theo? I know you left the stream. It's I'm sorry, Theo. And this school's this chick's cool, too.
That's what she looks like, right?
She just that she just that is that that makeup without makeup. I don't know. 5% battery. I have to plug my phone in. I'm sorry. Hold on. I don't want to leave you guys. I'll still range if I can. It's only 10:27. Oh no. What's this going on here? I don't know what's going on here. Freddy Krueger.
You know, all this is attracted, right? There's this one.
Maybe not. Hold on. Or her. She armpit hair. Ew.
Another tattooed armpits. Or this one. You saw this one last night. Her ass has a whole personality of its own.
Oh no. What's this? What's happening here? Tiamese twins giving birth. Everyone having fun? This is all in fun, right?
Kind of interesting. A that's probably AI. Uh-oh. Guys, look out. I think it might be a man. I don't know. Don't be distracted by the tits, right? I don't know. I think it might be AI. Might be some AI.
There's a guy's face. And then But if you look, look below. Right. Are we having fun? Here we go. Here we go.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, I love these guy. I love these guys. These are like the They're like drag queen drag queen like horror people. Freddy Krueger is always like the best. Michael Myers.
having fun. Okay. Oh no, that scary. Oh, how about this chick? She's scary.
Little bit of body modification stuff. E, hold on. Oh, there's this scary stuff going on here. Look. I'd like to meet her in bed with split song.
I don't know. I don't know. I think this is a bit a bit too many piercings for me.
Why is Why is my Why is my Instagram feed so you like you like these girls? There's some thick thick thick hobbies, right? Oliver didn't like that one. Okay. You thought you was hot, big, tall. You like the piercing woman? I don't know. I I How about this one?
She has a thin waist right there. The guest say I'm not letting you up tonight. Say I said no tonight. Sick. I can't take it anymore. You're offending everybody. You like the mohawk right there? Is it Alvara? I don't know. Look at this. Look at the spikes. They have
these spikes screwed into their head. That's I've seen the surgery where they have the metal plate with where they can put the screws in. Pretty crazy. Okay, I'll keep going. You guys are like her. Hold on. That ass though, right?
Ah, I don't know. Oh my god. How about her? She's a little bit thick.
I hot on Instagram. Yeah. Once once it gets below 10, I'll leave my I'll leave the stream. I'll I'll let let you guys go. No, you don't like that one. Okay. There's some curves right there. No.
Trying to find Okay, I'll go back. Hold on. I'm trying to find suggested reals. Here's Lefty Gunplay. I think he's really hot. I I know a friend of his, too. He was in the chat tonight. I love Mexican guys. This one.
I love the black cat that comes out of her. Right. Meow. Meow. Meow. What's going on here? I can't say. Oh no. The cat say Oh my god. No. No. No.
He's breaking into a jewelry store.
Making do with a mobster jewelry. Now he has money for the doctor. The kids healed. Kid will be healed. Yeah. That is so cute. Oh my god. How cute is this?
Oh, guys. Are we having fun on Instagram tonight? We're having some fun on Instagram. We're having fun in my chat. She's cute. I I don't know. I'll look for I'll look for a couple more. Just a couple more. It's having so much fun.
I love the AI AI cat stuff. It's so cute. I don't know. It's cute to me.
This one's This one's weird.
Spider cat.
You know what? I'm supposed to hop up tonight or else I'm going to pass out probably. Look at these beautiful cat. Look at these beautiful cats. What hotties? Gorgeous cats, huh?
It's okay. You can you can dominate me next. Uh dominate me next, my friend. Big tall. Go ahead and dominate me. I know. I'll show I will. I'll show that spider to beta. This is the
guys. This is what comes on my This is what's on my Instagram every day. Okay, this is all I This is what I watch on Instagram. That's so crazy. Oh no. I think this is a bit of a a little bit too much Botox or something. I little bit too much Botox.
So cute. And it is crazy AI, too. You want to see? Oh, I'll show you this AI. Look at this. Look at this Hold on one second. It'll start over. The turkey. It's very weird. Huh? It's very weird.
I don't know. Do you want to see Sasquatchette? Bigfoot's wife. I think she twerks.
I don't know. I don't know, guys. Oh, this is just too cute.
Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow. You guys having fun? Oh, here it be. Look the spider cat again. Ah.
Spider cat. Spider cat. I'll play a few more. Oh no, the spaghetti monster. Is this a flag spaghetti monster? This is like a cannibal, right? What's going on? Spaghetti monster with the eggs for eyes. Okay spiders.
Yeah, look up look up spider cat on Instagram. Okay, guys. I think I'll leave on a high note. There's emo guy. If I see something really the GR. Here's the Grinch and Freddy.
Hope you guys had a fun night. I have the strangest speed, right? I know it's the strangest speed. I I have the weirdest show. I think I have pretty much the weirdest show on YouTube. I'm not sure. There's probably weirder, but try to have a fun night. I want to say Oh, I I love you guys. We're probably going to fall asleep. You
have a great night, guys. I'm going to play play you out on my my my music with my my psyche weekends video that DJ lecture made. Have a good night, guys. I love you.
Welcome to the night. The cards laid out for show. Stars shining so bright. Watch the secrets unfold. There's magic in her hands. Whisper what the future holds.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So, let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Oh,
hearts in the balance. Every card an open door. Feel the romance in every arcane war. Destiny entwined as the moon begins to soar.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow.
Crystal visions in her gaze. Time can steal this moment. Life's uncertain dance we chase with love wen pen
dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Slow. Let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
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