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Psyche Awakens is Live! Open Panel Free Tarot and Cats

Psyche hosts an open panel discussion with free tarot readings and cat-themed occult topics on his Saturday night stream.

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hello guys what's up up guys how I good to see you thank you for being here having a Saturday night special stream there's a fun day it was a fun day I woke up kind of in the afternoon and uh um I watched Alisa Jordana had a lot of fun on her channel

of course like I always do I woke up this morning actually and and that TK from her show had a stream I'm going to try to promote his stream he's trying to get the 50 subscribers I think he probably already did it but um yeah um it was a fun stream he did his illegal kind of stream

see I will get my streamyard link

up okay great good to see you guys thank you for being here I know we had a little bit of drama in this other his other channel called I won't even mention the name of the channel it's a cool Channel um they haven't kicked me off of it and I hope everyone uh from there shows up what's up V how are you but uh yeah it was a little bit of drama

because you know I was new there and then I I came in you know come with I come with sometimes a little bit crazy energy and uh I wanted P there and so I had P um invited her and then the whole everyone went crazy in the Stream everyone were crazy in the server they're like oh some people were like oh these people are cool these and then other people were like oh kick them off

immediately I'm still on there it's a very active uh stream it's a very active Discord I did and they they let me plug my my show and stuff so I'm really thankful and so thank you to Diego but yeah we'll see how it goes I don't know they'll they'll kick me off but um I was trying to be as respectful as possible and bring good energy and

stuff like that but you know not everyone understands but I hope everyone's doing good tonight uh yeah what's up guys what's up awesome to see you we're doing tarot readings tonight we'll have a chat I'm going to do the open Panel to it's Saturday night right it's only 700 p.m right right it's so early I have couple more beers left I do have one another another mango

mangorita I'll do a card if anyone wants a card right now or anyone wants to say hi There's the streamyard link I'm still posting the streamyard link um publicly um I've been advised to keep it private um just for the Discord but yeah you can ask me go ahead i' be happy to ask answer a question for you can I ask why

people have started uh people start to care about you well that's a good thing let's let's pull a card on that this card says what am I grateful for right now okay what am I grateful for right now maybe maybe because you're you have gratitude in your heart you have more um

people are more gravitated towards you and you care more and they care more it says adopt an abundance mindset gratitude is the antidote to all our problems it is impossible to be fearful and grateful at the same time gratitude improves our health opens our heart and changes our state today's soulle action says the universal law of attraction says that we attract into our lives on

that which we are focused so it says close your eyes put your hand in your heart and think of the three things for which you're grateful today notice the abundance growing within you right I I think you're just attracting you're just you're attracting uh you're attracting into your life and if people are starting to care about you you didn't feel they caring you for you know it's like

uh maybe you've opened your heart and you're just recognizing that they they care about you I think people have always cared about you but maybe there's something magnetizing them um to to express it even more so I hope that helps you I'll pull another card for

you this one says what boundaries need to be um created or strengthened within our relationships this to create more healthy boundaries we must first get in tune with our own needs desires and feelings and believe we are worthy of them in your in your relationships is essential to know where they end and

where you begin so today's Soul action is when we separate our energy from others we gain clarity about we really want then we stop doing things that no longer align with ourselves if you're an empath you can still be compassionate towards others without taking on their stuff it is safe to trust that you do not are not here to fix anyone so today's mantra for you is I have everything I need within me now and so

do they I am worthy of my needs and I set boundaries based on what's best for me so maybe there's boundaries that need to be set or something like that but it sounds like if you feel people are caring more about you right that's only a good thing right so maybe you have set these boundaries and you are recognizing where to set these boundaries and where to let people in

and maybe you're letting people in more in the right places and setting boundaries at the right place places okay hope you enjoyed that yeah how's everyone today it's been it's been a nice day I'm having fun at that other server but yeah I'm not sure I'm not sure if I'll be kicked off or not but I hope everyone uh from that server um comes in and says hi what's up sad girl what's up are you

saggy nice to see you well the the the server I'm on is um sagging related and so it might be a sag girl but I'm happy I'm happy um regardless yeah it's awesome to see you welcome welcome to my channel I pull I'll pull a card for you if you want to uh and anyone in the chat or anyone

wants to come up on panel you're welcome on panel I have the cats around here got Lola right there Lola sitting back here want say hi Lola say hi to Lola guys because this is tarot and cats yeah you're oh you're from there awesome that's Lola that's my cat Lola she's the mama cat you like an oracle card okay I got you the oracle card for

you today says this is a question to ask yourself it says if I had a magic wand and could have everything I desired in life what would I choose and it says burn with desire there is power in your desires let them be your fuel today your desires are your

Soul's wings and it's time to take flight so today's action for you is today go inward your answers lie within what do you desire desire choose what makes you happy and do that right you like another card I'll get another card for you but I think that's a I think that's a pretty good message you're welcome V and you're welcome sag girl

yeah you like that yeah Lola's over here Lola come on come here want to say hi again okay Lola's over there I think magic or Trix is over there what's up Frank how are you good to see you good to see everybody thank you guys for coming in tonight um if you like a card Frank let me know um we're just having a some some readings and I feel the energy is

getting better now you know it's like we had some that that was good okay good good um we had some uh we had some negative energies maybe recently on the panel with people I I think it's all getting sorted out and I think like last night we was a really good panel we had beta and we had a tiger butterfly on and just interesting conversation and we

also had another friend of mine on um you wish you had a magic wand well you do you know your magic wand is your body it's your vertebrae it's it's like your you're able to manifest all these things in your life you so if you look at your X-ray you'll see this magic wand of your spine that's allowing you to have movement and uh and to create things in the world right and so we we we we are

kind of a magic wand ourselves but but if you want a magic wand too you can find your favorite kind of wood or the favorite kind of tree and you can either create your own right thank you CA yeah everyone check out my Discord too awesome Discord but yeah I mean you can have an external magic wand right you can and there's magic you can do with it there's a banishing ritual the pentagram

and all these kind of cleansing activities but also you are you yourself are a magic wand and you yourself are a magical being able to uh to create things in this world what's up Megs how are you yeah thank you ca for all the help by the way recently you know I have all these have some requests and um things i' like to do with the Discord and you're always right there um helping

me out yeah CA is awesome guy um all you guys are awesome though and uh I really thank you guys for all coming to the chat tonight yeah we're just having a fun Saturday night it's pretty still pretty early in seven and so I have a couple more mango Ras or strawberry Rita or whatever I have watermelon Rita yeah seea is awesome

isn't he he's awesome good great great great guy yeah so guys if anyone if anyone else wants a card right now you got it anyone else wants to talk about anything I love you CA thank you I really appreciate all the help all the help you're giving me because it's really helping me out a lot okay I

appreciate you and I I love you okay and I love all you guys you guys are awesome thank you for coming tonight we have a nice uh nice um chat going on we have uh more people going to come in we don't we never know yeah your magic wand into your spine right we have this spine holding us up attached to our

brain right and we have all this power in our in our nerves and our our body to um to create and to do art and to play instruments and whatever you're attracted to really you know it's like or just creating to write to be able to write you have this your thumb right just have opposable thumbs and you can

grab objects right we have a lot of power we don't always recognize it as humans how much power we do have but we have we have power in this world and we have power of creation and power to make our dreams come true and especially living in this in this uh in in a USA America like everyone wants a lot of people want to come to America because there's a lot of freedom freedom you can

have here that's why we want to protect the freedom right but yeah you need to recognize that right how's everyone doing tonight shout out your location in the chat shout out um whatever you want to say in the chat um ask any questions you're free to hop on the pan panel I'll talk about anything

right I'm wearing kind of a cool shirt tonight my shirt right there maybe an Aries Vibe on this you're from Texas awesome this is this is a shirt it's a got from thing called a St called threadless and thread list if you want to check it out has a really cool t-shirt

store where it's all the t-shirts are designed by the like Indian artists and they submit their designs and people vote on the designs and and that kind of thing and so there's going to be a shirt that you're going to find that you like but it's a really cool store this is one of my favorite shirts pretty cool you guys can see it's like a beautiful woman there with the the

Aries horns clumsy comes in tonight I know clumsy in Aries or if there's any Aries you might appreciate appreciate that it kind of looks a little bit like CL awesome I have friends in Texas thank you I have friends in Texas I have friends actually all over the country Florida Pennsylvania what's up David how are you good to see you we're doing

readings tonight we're doing a panel um we're just we we'll chat we're just having a a little bit of fun tonight it's a little bit of a more relaxed you know I like on the weekends I like to have a more free stream a more um fun stream I'm I'm usually drinking a little bit but it's all good nature

right and happy to pull cards for anybody that would like and and uh yeah guys if you can like share subscribe that'd be awesome too um make sure you're subscribed to the channel get notifications you never know if you'll be s h a d o w b n n e d on on YouTube I don't like to say the word out loud you right just I like to be careful with my words because things can manifest when

you say words and so I spelled it out and um you know some people are trying to make that happen um in a negative way for me but I think great people here what's up Jamie how are you Jamie's a great mod um yeah I really appreciate people having my back you know you know it guys

today I got an email or a message and said I I at my uh it said over a thousand hours right I have my over thousand hours of watch time but I'm actually 1,666 hour so I'm I'm more than halfway there to being monetized and that's pretty exciting for me because you know really I want to I want to be doing this

you know I love to do my show I've been trying to do it every day um I'm getting a lot more people in like a I'm having a good chat I'm having a lot of people supporting me yeah it's awesome and also also it's not to support me but I'd like you guys to support each other and go to meet each other in um other chats and um

f find whoever you Vibe with you know you we're finding our our spirit tribe our soul tribe um right now you know and it's like the relatively new um YouTube is relatively new with the with the chatting and the and the the live streaming and all that you know I know it's been around for several years but it's new to me at least and uh I just

think I started chatting and chats last year and then and slowly chatting in chats um doing some modding um talking in chats then starting my own channel um creating some videos and then doing live streams and now I'm doing like um the open panels and I'm going on other panels and so it's really a lot of fun

it really is a lot of fun and I really encourage you guys like um if you have the desire to to do something like start your own channel you I think even to be in the chat you start you had to like officially start your own channel even if there's no content right but I can give you advice about all you need is 50 subscribers to get um

able to live stream and I was able to do that just by being in chats and having a lot of uh really good friends that um were able were able and willing to promote me and let me let me shout out my channel and so I'm very lucky and I want to shout out Benny Brad okay he's the guy that really was the first person

um that I met that would let me start promoting my channel and his chat up and I don't know if he likes me very much anymore he's the other day I said I said Benny can I have a shout out for for my chat and he said psych he's like I've giv you enough shout outs he's I've G I've already shouted you out so and uh yeah I just call myself

psych too you know a lot of people call me psych and that's that's pretty cool but it sounds kind of like psych ward but it's it's it's psyche and it's not really psyche is actually a goddess right but it's called Psy because psyche is psyche the goddess is awakened by Cupid it's a really cool story and I also tell that on my channel if you want to check out that video on the regular

videos it's one of the First videos I think the first video I ever did was me telling the story of psyche and Cupid and so appropriately that got me started that got me started that got me um people com in over I think that's one of my my most watched videos but I'm also also doing interviews now and I'm

uh I'm uh working with people I have the joke TV is is scheduled I think or we're we're working it out and then clumsy Clairvoyance I think will do an interview and Chona Adventures Vlog and hopefully Capricorn Soul tribe will do a excuse me we'll do a an interview have

this guy named raw in he's a he's like a rapper and I met I met I meet a lot of people I just haven't scheduled a specific interview but I want to thank Emma levian she's a really popular streamer she I think she's getting a little bit um more um she's doing less tarot now and

she's doing more more of a variety show which is awesome because she has the elvir vibe what's up uncomfortably numb awesome to see you thank you Jamie's Cowboys for for um promoting the Discord good to see you uncomfortably numb yeah but also guys uh I meet people from all over YouTube and you know there's some more wild sectors that I go

to and there's more some sometimes I get um guests on the panel that are a little bit more controversial and stuff I don't mind controversy I really have a good time doing my panels and stuff like I really like it um I last night we had a great conversation with this tiger um tiger butterfly lady and uh she was super

interesting what's up Megs so tiger butterfly um we knew about MK Ultra and and and all these different things and and we had this interesting discussion I think that um sometimes I mute my uh or I I uh private my streams sometimes sometimes things will happen where I private them because I don't want to get

you know you know what s h a d o WB n e d but I think last night everything went really well and I think like also my Mo some of my mods and some of my friends had a talk with me yesterday about you know some people are not um are uncomfortable with with the Jerry Springer Vibe right and I don't mind the

Jerry Springer Vibe I'm more into everyone getting along I like to debate I like to have fun and I like to do tarot and things like that but I also like to have a little bit of um a wild chat yeah so yes you did you had a little bit of a chat with me yesterday and a but it was all it was all it was all as friends right very nice and very supportive and

just giving me good advice and so I just want to thank thank who um all the people I talked to yesterday not going to not going to shout out everybody's name because uh maybe they don't want to be Shout what's up Michael good to see you great to see you guys yeah so yeah so so I was on the server today I found this server I found this really cute guy

like right and his name is Diego and then I was on his Instagram he's he's very cute um but he has a more little bit of a wild Ser can you get a card of course you can uncomfortably numb of course you can so your card uncomfortably numb is what expect expectations do I have that

are impossible to me and this says the expectation we have the expectations we have are mostly delusional and impossible to meet when we experience disappointment with ourselves or with a relationship when they are not met it's time to dissolve your expectations and replace them with

gratitude so it says today's sole action is to be grateful you're being summoned to more peace peace is home for our soul and it is accompanied by trust it comes when you surrender and focus only on what you can control if you expect nothing and are grateful for everything you'll experience extreme fulfillment yes yeah she's doing less teror now like

well she was just testing the other day I don't know if she's like really doing less Terror I think she's gonna always do a terror yes I got you Jamie I um but uh she was I think she wants to start um um sharing movies and stuff and I think she said she wants to show some silent films and do ComEd comary on that um and you know I'm not exactly sure where she wants to take the channel uh

her Channel but her channel is already taken off 20,000 plus subscribers and really like 100 people in the chat you know at all times but uh I really wish uh wish her the best with everything I love Emma and uh I was I was our first member on her Channel okay Jamie I got

you Jamie your card says today what can I do to make difference she's really good at teror yeah she really is she's awesome she's also good at comedy she's good at um just conversating with the chat and really she has really awesome tattoos and really a lot of knowledge and really just even talking to her you

can you can learn a lot what can I do to make a difference what's up memo So Jamie what can you do to make a difference says says what keeps you up at night what makes you cringe when you think about it such that every ounce of you screw dreams no more where can you create purpose out of your pain so it says for Jamie today's soulle action make a difference in someone's life

today big or small because all of it makes a difference right it's a beautiful message and and guys um that that was a message for what's up average Asia good to see you and that was for Jamie but all of us can learn a lesson from from all these cards and all of us may relate to them in some way that's beautiful about tarot It's like because we're all um we're all human beings and

we all um go through the similar things or we all go through different things too but we all might relate to it and so if it resonates for you you know take that message right it's not just yeah exactly good to see all you guys thank you guys for coming in it's it's a beautiful Saturday night and in Redondo um it's a little bit chilly I

have another uh drink and I have a cigar I think right down here yeah okay so um whatever whatever you guys want to do tonight you know I'm I'm willing to um talk about it um i' like guess the streamyard link I'll post the stream because I'm not really pinning it anymore you love the card good yeah I

like that card for you too it's pretty beautiful card so here's a stream I'm not really pinning the streamyard anymore because I want to be able to um as people come in and stuff like that because uh we you know we had some we had some uh issues issues with some people on the panel

recently um like the guys that came in and were trying to debate me and then they they all started yelling at me and stuff like that and saying I was trying to put me in a corner and stuff like that so thank you Jamie thank you Trix Lenor magic all the cats are in here had a nice shower my hair is looking good had a fun

day I'm just I'm just in a good mood yeah great to see everybody

yeah you got it you never seen me before Oh hey ly Derby good to see you welcome in yeah I'm I just do tarot readings if you want a card tonight Lolly I got a card for you I have or I'm just doing oracle cards right now um but you know you you you'll get a message and you know I'm

happy to do free messages I'm happy to have anyone on the panel we're having a nice Saturday night you see I got my good lighting you'd love one okay I got you fori I got the card what do I resist feeling right now these are good questions for all of us to ask but yeah this is for LLY it says we have to feel it to heal it in

order to let go of pain we first have to honor its existence emotions are like waves some are soft some are Fierce some are layered and some will sweep you off your feet when we allow ourselves to feel it all we can then release what no longer serves us you're welcome you're very welcome so today's soulle action for you loly it says allow yourself to

feel the this wave let it move through you no matter how long it lasts then release it back into the ocean feel it heal it enjoy the sweet Freedom within your soul yeah and thank you for thank you for coming make sure to subscribe to the channel so you can uh make sure you can come back and you know I'm on every

night have a lot of fun I like to help as many people as I can I like to be positive influence and I know some people you know I drink a little bit on streams sometimes especially on the weekends right and so and that's not always everybody's cup of tea and so um but I do genuinely just give the message

from the bottom of my heart um to you and I try to give it the best way I can and I think that the card comes up it's supposed it's supposed to be the card that comes up and that that's the question that you're supposed to be asked right now I really believe that there's a little bit of Fate involved in Tarot and things like that

okay you guys like the lighting I have this really cool purple light on me right now now it's changing to like a a blue light right pretty cool I also today my uh I had this this cord right here this this is my healing get picked up a lot for me feel like I'm healing forever waiting for the pain to leave in

healing for a year draining yeah well what you want to do Loi is you want to do um some going into yourself and meditation and like detaching yourself from other people's emotions and things like that if it's feeling draining it probably is some kind of maybe energy vampires in your life or people that are slowing your healing down but yeah I had

this cord right here and see it see it's all Frid and so I had to get a new one today so I went and got a new cord today yeah and it's and healing is also like it's lifelong but the human body heals and the mind heals and but you need to you have to take yourself out of the um the situation where you're being hurt yeah David I believe that too and I

I love Jesus's teachings and there also there's Christian tarot decks there's bibl biblical tarot decks and uh you know it's like like I said I'm not telling you the future I'm not telling you specific things that saying this will happen to you I'm not predicting I'm not I'm not like a oh this will happen or like I'm always

saying your future is in your hands is in God hands and you know I want to give you the best way to move forward you came up on here Lenor you want to come up and say hello to the chat here's Lenor guys you guys like Lenor it's my little black panther I have a little mini black panther her name is Lenor your sweetheart you came up here

look at her isn't she beautiful though she's my little black panther my little my little kitty cat thank you Susanna if you want a card Susanna I got you suzan I appreciate you did a return the sender the other day when I had all these people that were being mean to me in the in the chat and stuff not the chat but in the in the panel and you need a Return to sender

and I really felt that you Vias yourself healing can be lonely but not looking to mingle or socialize yet trying to work on me alone but hard but it's hard to trust but thank you for positivity yeah it is and you've been so you've been you've been going through the process and take all the time you need with that right what I did like when I I I had difficult

people in my life and uh they were just removed from my life divine intervention and stuff like that and then I was like kind of like left alone right and uh your favorite's magic yeah magic he's around yeah but if you're isolated um you're in Hermit mode right and whenever you're ready but what I did

personally is I started to reach out to people on YouTube chats and and uh and and things like that and people that I like to YouTube chats and just try to spread a positive message and found shows I liked and I eventually found people I Vibe with and and befriended them and you know was able to bring to

my Discord and things like that and uh and uh become friends with them and have a and have a it's really special having relationships with special people right and so but even if you're just take it slowly you know I took it slowly like I didn't talk I didn't talk at all in the YouTube chats when I first found them and then I started talking

slowly then I started talking to the the hosts and then now I can't shut up in YouTube chats but this is Lenor look at her eyes are you happy Lenor Lenor you're making a face you're making it you're making a silly face thank you Jamie yeah that's Lenor Lenor is my little black panther cat she's a

sweetheart you give me a kiss you give me kisses you give me kisses all day the nor gets under the blanket yeah you will take a card okay great Susanna so Susanna for what for you tonight I have where am I called to use my voice right now and this one says you have a

soul script oh you're kissing me you have a soul script that was written to be spoken your story matters and it's time for you to share it with the world so it says today's Soul action is share your story with at least one person today be brave and speak your truth your voice will be the C Cal for healing others isn't that true like when we share our own story we share our own

struggle people can relate to that and uh and then it heals other people and sometimes to heal other people it it takes I'm I'm a wound I'm a wounded Soul right I a little bit traumatized but I can share my stories and I can share what's happened to me and um and uh help

other people and so that's what Shaman do right yeah Lenor is right here hope you like that suzan I hope that was a good reading for you tonight you're just there are you purring you're purring can I give me a kiss can I give me a kiss you're like when it kisss your

ear you like that oh she she loves it you love it hello bord need something new com Kitty okay you want a card C Kitty I got I got a card for you and hopefully that that um that will break you out your right but nice to see you here calm

Kitty welcome c a warm welcome thank you Jamie yeah Lenor is here Lenor is just a little little Delight you're just a little you like a card okay for calm Kitty I get this card how can I be more kind to

myself and offer more grace in this very moment and it says growing our self-love is medicine to this world's broken heart when you heal we all heal when you give yourself more grace we are able to give the world more Grace So for calm Kitty it says today Soul action look at yourself with a Grace filter you're

meant to be in this moment of Your Life release the inner critic and fill that hole with your Soul's truth that you are infinite you loved that you are already there okay I hope you enjoyed that yeah you're welcome Susanna you're welcome and yeah Lenor says Lenor says

hi Lenor says hi you want to give um suzan a kiss your purring it was interesting good maybe something different but that's a good question to ask yourself right and uh and I yeah I wish you I wish you the very best in that can make sure you subscribe and you can come back

and I'll do another reading for you sometime but I hope you like that one this is a really this is a good place to meet people this is a good really good people here really good people here everyone's just been awesome in the chat tonight 100% 100% really awesome

people yeah Lenoris is back at you too you want to say hi to Susanna again you worked on that critical and selflove for years yeah well it's a life lifelong process right always going to be working on this you always want to make sure that you're loving yourself and being less critical of

yourself you know human beings none of us are perfect right the definition of Being Human Being is is like imperfection right but also a certain kind of perfection where we can always strive strive for that right what give me a kiss you just love me Lenor keeps coming back up yeah look at the eyes look this is Lenor look at her beautiful

eyes Lenor you want to show your eyes look she's looking at the chat yeah she's a beautiful cat yeah we can be and that's that's the thing it's like nobody can criticize us more than we criticize our nobody can hurt our feelings more than we can hurt our own feelings nobody nobody can talk to us worse than we can talk to ourselves even our worst enemies is a

probably nicer to us than we can be to ourselves right it's true that's why also like you know sometimes we have a nemesis in life and she's very content she's very calm she's purring now she's getting into the catnip but yeah um you know we're the hardest on ourselves really and so even if we have an arch nemesis you know

sometimes the arch nemesis is your best friend in a certain way you used to have one yeah well I have this cat named tux um and Tux um doesn't get along with the cats in the house really and he he like decided he wanted to adopt my neighbor and my neighbor has a Golden Retriever and he like loves the golden retriever

and my NE my neighbors also like fell in love with him and uh he had a little gotten a little bite with one of my cats Marbles and stuff like that and he got a little swelling and then they they took him to the vet yeah you have to accept the shadow side and guys we all have the shadow side the point in the it's called Shadow work guys where it's like we go and we look at the darkest part of

oursel and then we give it a hug basically we we like we we start to understand it and realize that's actually that's actually us too this this part we deny about ourselves or our darkest part of ourselves and so your cat and da are feeling happy and content tonight do good so I would recommend look you can look up on

YouTube for for shadow work videos there's also this um really cool tarot reader named Shadow Empress I think her name is the shadow empress and she does really good readings on the dark side and like the really really interesting um readings so yeah sha like Shadow Empress I think is

their name but also you can look into Carl Yung too and if you can look into psychology and he he talks about the shadow side or the the uh the Ana the anus they sometimes the Ana is the male the female inside the male like we all we're all have we're all dual beings and so we have both of these sides like a male will have a inner feminine and The

Feminine will have an inner masculine it's really interesting to study if you look into the Ana and anus and uh and Carl yung's work and uh really interesting but also just doing tarot and just just even asking yourself the questions and even like just doing the self-reflection even doing meditation or yeah because we have a lot of stuff going on in this world we have a lot of

stuff and some people are just wrapped up in other people and because a lot of us are just empathic right and we get tied up in other people's energy and we don't even think about it but we really do right so hope everyone's having a great time tonight youone wants to come on the on

the uh on the panel tonight I'll post the link again it might be gone if anyone who wants to join the Discord we have a fun Discord the Discord basically I basic Discord is about like you know it tells what time my show's on but we also have like the we have the grow a tree we have the Selfies we have the the the fur

babies section and uh and we all share we all talk and and everyone's really awesome there you can make friends there there a lot of really good people there I just want to keep it safe and happy and you know it is for adults adults only not not that it's you know an adult theme thing but I I like to keep it just

fun and safe there but I was on some fun discords today I told you about this guy Diego who was on his Discord and uh I didn't see Diego today in the Discord but most of the people in the chat were like really really cool and then some people were like oh kick that person out that I don't like these new people I brought pie in there too and we had some fun there tonight though we had some

fun I think I think they'll keep us around there yeah but there's the there's the streamyard and uh yeah we also you know everyone on Discord you know you can join other people's discords but you can have your own Discord and then you can run things like you want to there and can post whatever you want to there and you can have your own friends there Susanna says I learned something

about me today realize I'm on a different page and entirely different book with patriarchy immerse um people King James Bible immerse people it's extremely unhealthy for me to to um communicate interact with them it drains and exhausts right well other people can be a they can either give us energy or they can be drainers of our energy right

you want to find the people that will support you that will because there's people that are takers right there's people just want to take something from you and they're just thinking about themselves right it's good to find people that you can share with right and you can you can both share and you both give to each other right so yeah uh we do live in this

interesting Society it's very patriarchal I think it's getting more back to the matriarchy but yes um it is a it is you know a lot of based on patriarchy and stuff like that but I think women have the most power in the world right I think women brought us to the world they're the givers of Life

they are also the the nurturers the feeders they decide who gets food who doesn't and things like that and so but I think we're getting more back to appreciating the mother but the aler Crowley would talk about the age of um the age of Isis which was like the there was like the age of Isis and the age of Osiris and

there was like the age of the mother and the father and now we're in the age of the child the Horus and and so we have a mixture of of of both the the masculine and feminine more than we ever had before and I think that's something to celebrate I really do I think men are now more comfortable to go to their with their feminine side and you know people will say oh you know there's lot of gays

and all this kind of stuff yeah you graditate towards the matriarchy patriarchy balance yeah so it's the age of Horus and that's what we're moving into right because anytime you go with the extremes there's going to be like too much femininity um can be difficult and too much patriarchy can be um to much patriarchy can be very heavy you know

right and uh we want to have a balance of it right we want to be balanced beings we also want to be in touch with both of our sides we're born from a man and a woman right and so we have the masculine feminine sides but we're taught oh this is you know men should not cry women should not do this and and that kind of stuff and then these are

these are put into us and these These are these uh these stereotypes and that kind of thing so the balance feels yeah the balance feels a lot better I like being in touch with my my feminine side I think that's makes me a better tarot reader because the feminine side is like the um control of the emotions and is uh receptive the masculine side is can be

more like uh it's basically magnetic and electric right and if it's all magnetic it's like too much magnet if it's all electric it's like too much too much electric right if it's a mix there's some kind of magic that happens in between just like when a man and woman come together and create a child right there's there's there's magic when both of them are about together so very

interesting to think about we're at 40 minutes it's only it's only 800 PM what's going on on on the Discord I'm getting these messages yep yep I'm having a fun night tonight good okay good I posted this

picture earlier this is a picture of me and Lenor this and I got some good feedback on but someone said oh you're look like a serial killer do I look like a serial killer do I maybe maybe I do have a serial killer face though I'm just not smiling that's why I have to smile because it's like people say why do you smile so much it's like when I don't I

look like a serial killer so I that's why I like to smile a lot right but uh I uh I kind of like have a more severe face when I frown but I like to I I do like to smile because I'm happy and I smile when I'm happy yeah balance is good we always want to find the balance and uh in our relationships too the best

relationships are where there there's a there's a balance of power in the relationship not just like somebody is trying to take all the power and to and trying to control the other person right it's always good to work together and to love each other right it was a good pick well I have a better one there's a better one then I posted that picture and it was like oh serial killer and then I posted another

one and then they're like oh you're really cute hold on I posted this one with Lenor and they're like oh you're really cute so that one's a cute picture so I don't know which one got better feedback but that's a really cute picture where I'm smiling so yeah it is is pretty cute

and P posted a really cute picture of herself too I'll see if I can post I show Pi's picture she P posted P's just Pi's just lovely said your smile is just radiating you know you can light up a room isn't pie beautiful a really great person thank you Susanna but I brought I brought P to

this uh to this Discord server and it was and then uh and you know we had we had a mixed reaction in the server most no I say 90% of the people were like we love you we love you you guys are awesome and then like 10% were like kick them out immediately kick them out they they're they're they're up to no good or something like that she does shine yeah

but I was like pie and I are good people and you're you know you're basically lucky to have us here like in in the server and stuff like that because and I I I came because I'm a fan of this guy and then I brought pie because I think you'll you guys would like her and and then uh and then I think she would like it like the server she's very cool and yeah I love pie and so we had we had a little bit of fun in that server today

and you know you know you know she you know she can stand up for herself and uh and kind of put people in their in their place and stuff like that and so we had we had maybe one or two haters but or maybe just one main hater but um I was like saying kick them out kick them out I'm uncomfortable I don't you know I but I was like we're here because we're uh

you know we're good people and we're here to like bring some love to the to the server and stuff like that so hopefully it'll keep us around but who knows who

knows sometimes people can be misunderstood especially I'm very misunderstood a lot it's like that's why I've been banned from like a lot of chats and things like that and I've been unmodded and all these kind of things from different chats right um just basically misunderstandings but uh I know you guys get me and I know you guys love pie just

yeah every loves everyone loves a good pie right but pie the person is really awesome and yes yes and that's what I try to do I try to I try to bring positivity and I think a lot of people got that in that chat they're like wow you're really you're a good energy and then so it's all good it's all good Positive Vibes

right sometimes when positive people come around negative people negative people will say oh I don't like the positive people right and the positive people are like well I'm kind of new here like I'm not going to call out other people for being negative but don't listen to them because we we are bringing Positive Vibes right what's up uncomfortably numb good to see all

you guys um yeah so I'll do more cards if anyone wants a card or if anyone wants to um be a guest on the panel and have a little chat we had some good chats this week we had clumsy Clairvoyance we had tiger butterfly last night we had be come on last night I always loveed having be on we had pie on

um we um just really awesome people so really everything's going well every and like I told you I have like I'm more than halfway to my hours and I want to thank you guys for supporting the channel watching this watching the show yeah negative vibrations can drain right and we always need to make sure we um we

Shield ourselves we can Shield ourselves and also but there is some kind of troll training we can take because the these trolls come in trying to um get us out of our element and try to get us upset and think and then they get off on the energy or they get off on on our our negative reaction sometimes I'm still learning about it right I'm trying

to more like water off water off the duck Ducks back right with the negative energy like we it's like the doesn't even stick to us right it just go just rolls off right but sometimes I'm a little bit of a fighter and sometimes people will will uh provoke me to the point where I'll stick up for myself because I'm just

used to um defending myself and I I'm a Mars first house if you know anything about astrology so I am into into defending myself and a little bit of a warrior Spirit right I said an alien Warrior Spirit I'm an aquarius Mars in the first house and aquarians are known

for being a little bit of alien sometimes but yeah so I can get I can I can um fust but I like someone said don't feed the trolls I'm like I'm not feeding the trolls I'm just oil wrestling with them but yeah in the in the in the funniest way possible so I hope everyone's having fun

tonight yeah we're almost on for an hour um but I going to stay on I might go at 9:30 and then an hour and a half might go get pick up some food and maybe another beer or something like that but I have another beer here and I have another cigar and so I'm down to chat down to have a good uh good panel if

anyone wants to come on the panel I'll post the link one more time for the panel or anything you guys want to talk about I love the chat I love the positive energy here tonight I love everyone supporting each other mods the mods you're always able to um to visit all the other channels in the chat and if anyone has a channel

they want to promote I'm also down to promote people you like a general okay general for you Jamie okay Jam like a general okay I got a general for you so Jamie we have this uh the page of cups and this page of cups is a it's like a love offer maybe like a a younger guy or something but there's

little fish in the cup you see little in the cup and this guy's really he's on the water right there you see he's on he's standing on the waves kind of almost right and so he's in touch with his emotions general for Jamie and uh he's the little fish is looking you see little fish like looking at him he's like what's this fish in my cup so maybe there's a fish in a cup you know you always want to watch out for

these love offers from these pages right sometimes they're these younger Charming people right for Jamie what do we have Jamie so this one is like the the uh it's the four of four of Pentacles you you've been holding on to what you have you're you're a little bit guarded there's the money on your on your mind

too you're thinking about something money but you're also you're also stable right there with with your the Pentacles on your you can put your feet on the Pentacles and you're also holding on to something you know sometimes it can mean it can mean like you're holding on to something too tight but I also I also think that you're also secure in a way and you're just guard you're you're a little bit guarded you're protecting

what you have and so he's like oh I dare you right I dare you to take this Pentacle away because this guy knows what he's doing right there right court cases right so you're a little bit on the defense right on the court cases but send some good things for you in the court

cases and finally for Jamie we have the this is like so this this a lot of times this cups card it's the four of cups to and you're just going to four two and it's like you have all these all these filled cups right there these three cups right there and you're not

really happy with those three cups and but then you're being handed a cup from the Divine so you might be bored with what you have but you're also being given something new and so just you have to open your eyes and like take the cup because you're being like there's a hand of God handing you something that's GNA make you really happy okay so there's going to be something really good happening you're also protected by that

tree you're in the shade do you like that I'm glad you did okay good I hope I I hope that was good I do these readings kind of fast and I I go from the top of my head but yeah I I do think that my readings are pretty succinct and uh we'll give the right information that you need you just have

to understand I a little bit fast sometimes what's up Tanya how are you I'm doing great good to see you good to see you guys thank you guys for coming in and like hanging out and like being really really fun always good thank you yeah I'm really happy with my chat I'm really happy with

my got a lot of people that are just come come come back again and again and it's always just they bring this positive energy I know they have my back really cool it's really cool and it's really heartwarming I love how everyone also supports each other in the chat and and like I know last night at clumsies like

you know I went to clumsies after my show and then a lot of people from my show went to clumsies I went you to subscribe to Clumsy Clairvoyance by the way yeah clumsy is awesome and she does awesome readings and she do she's a very late night too but yeah um clumsy it was just fun it was just fun seeing like all the people from a lot of people from my show and

her show and a lot of people on her show come to my show and um it's like a really fun thing just to like be able to we know we're in the same same Soul tribe right when we we like gravitate towards the same kind of kind of shows right same kind of people so I'm really

always happy to uh support her Tanya if you want a card tonight you got a card anyone wants to come on the panel tonight you're all welcome on the panel I did post the link I maybe I'll try to pin it yeah but it's fun it's it's fun and I have a really awesome uh really awesome um Discord

going really my my Channel's just my channel is like really my channel is doing really well I'm just really thankful of VI my channel says I have 1.42 th000 subscribers 133 videos oh excuse

me already 50 views eight likes on this one the other night I had 453 views 20 likes I did get a copyright that night but you like a Cardon yeah okay you got it I'm doing oracle cards basically but

I'll do also do a reading if you want but this one says what else would this what else could this mean maybe something that you take one way could mean something else it says there are always multiple ways to look at every situation our first reaction is usually rooted in fears and limiting belief look at the situation today by stepping outside of the trigger and ask what else

could this mean so today's sole action for you Tanya is there something your soul is calling you to learn in this moment or is there a pattern that is ready to be broken walk in the other person's shoes and see it from their perspective if it doesn't involve someone else ask yourself how is life happening for me right now instead of to me right now

right I'll get you another card and this one says where am I with my health goals where do I want to be why am I not there what will it take for me to feel well yes you can have a card Violet flame absolutely and uh but for Tanya this one says if my body could talk it would say fill in the blank this today's

Soul action Tanya feed your body what it needs to be to feel nourished appreciated and loved make some new exciting goals to take your health to the next level okay I hope you like that and for Violet flame this one says what passion am I ready to

pursue you're welcome Violet flame and this one says for Violet flame your passion will continually lead you to your purpose what passions have you put on the side given up on or buried what passion is ready to come alive to you today's action for you Violet flame write a list of the passions to which you want to give life to right now the journal how you can incorporate more of

what you are pass about into your daily life trust your Soul's whispering and let your passions draw you towards your dream life so I hope you like that Violet flame it's a really good question to ask yourself and uh really positive message right maybe do some journaling or or at least write something down right like and you know so I hope you like guys like that you're welcome Tanya you're welcome yeah you're welcome

Violet flame I hope I'm doing good readings for you guys tonight I'm having a positive vibe you really like that awesome I really like that you too and I think that a really good message yeah guys we're having fun Violet flame yeah Violet flame is a cool name you know there's you guys can look into the Violet flame but with St

Germain and there's little mantras you can say but the violet Violet is like the highest color frequency right and it's like the Violet is the color of the the crown chakra right and uh yeah the psychic Violet flame yeah and so you can look at the St Germain and the Violet flame basically you do do meditation where you're just covered in this Violet flame it's like this highest frequency

of light you do fire magic yeah yeah and uh and this will burn away impurities this will burn away negative stuff inspired by your what you see yeah in your mind too your mind too we have these imaginations that we can we can visualize all the things and we want to

find these effective Vis visualizations that will um basically be a spiritual sight right and and take away the the dross and the the material stuff and burn away anything anything that is not serving us right that's very cool

yeah Grand blue plus red masculine feminine Violet so it's a balance right so it's that's that's what I was talking about earlier is like we we need to find this balance of the masculine feminine within it us all you know we're too masculine we can be too aggressive and we can be too logical and we can be too

um black and white and we're too feminine we can be too emotional um we can be we don't have the balance of it right or we can be too too receptive to the messages we can be too sensitive right and so we'd like to find a a good balance not that not that any of these things are are bad bad things right but

anything in extreme is going to be not serving us well we want to have a balance to to all these logic between logic and emotion and between you know we live in the world of gray right the heart and mind balance right we want to the Beautiful the heart and the heart is the middle of our body

right and it's a green and uh it's also like the the um the uh the hexagram right it's in the in the chakra system there's a hexagram because it's the connection between the high the above and below so we don't want to be at our lower self we don't want to but being at our higher self all

the time is tiring too we want because we we have to be on these human bodies and stuff like that so we want to be um a mix of both right Fire magic what's up sexy slim the goddess how are you wonderful to see you would a card sexy slim great to see

you and Fire magic right Fire magic is fire is very powerful right hey

hey cats are fighting outside yeah the fire but the fire the you know just like a fire a fire can warm warm you right and a fire can bring on the house right so we have to keep the fire contained right can be very effective in and uh just also also our emotions our emotions

can take off sometimes and it's like if they they get too fiery you know it can destroy destroy stuff we have a little bit of water we can throw it at we get this nice Mist right we get this so we we can we can always use our use the or we can throw some Earth on it and kind of put out the fire a little bit too but we're all these elements we're all the

elements and but the most important element I think because we're all these these four you know earth air Wind Fire right we're also the spirit we have this we have this element right The Fifth Element is kind of a combination of all these elements so we want to have a good balanced um Fifth Element yeah great to see you sexy slim if you would like a

card you're the sexy slim the goddess um yeah we've been on for an hour tonight um Al I'm G to stay for another probably hour excuse me but anyone want to come on panel IIT of a guest on tonight come on up don't be

shy it's a fun panel I trust you guys I'm going to post that just click on the link it's really easy to do even if you've never been what's up what's up um D what's up welcome de oans um to the chat tonight de ocean is a wonderful friend of mine she's a wonderful

streamer and she's a clairvoyant what's up great to see you yeah if you want to come up on panel we're having a little little fun Saturday and no no pressure sure but um I'm sure people would love to hear from you tonight and uh yeah we're having a fun night it's been really good energy tonight really positive energy I've been

doing some good readings oh I always love translating these uh these emojis says wave smile the cowboy the cat some music notes hearts and those waves so okay don't worry about Susanna Susanna Susanna whenever whenever

whenever is right it will happen right yeah don't worry about it but it but guys it is easy if you just click the link and then you just join the panel and just click join panel you don't have to enter your information or anything it'll just bring you and then you don't have don't have to be on camera or anything so let's bring up the ocean

tonight hello of course the ocean is gonna wave yes how you doing good how are you tonight good to see you I'm I'm groovy dudes and

desses and dudes hey yes and I had um shrooming a little little bit of shro very happy I'm veryy sounds good yeah I'm happy good I'm a happy girl me and cowboy are here very happy tonight

a good night man I had an interesting idea and really I I want to see if anybody would like to hear or pursue this like me to pursue this I'm going to look in the comments um but I do speak I I speak a

light language and the last couple times I realized hey Jamie's cowboy how you doing honey um I realized they were singing in light language I don't think I've ever heard anybody do that have

you hi Susan you know last night we had a lady on her name was tiger butterfly and she was saying that she heard the Angelic Choir in her mind like especially when she about to go s and she said she heard like a choir of angels singing in like a different language or something like that but that reminds me a little bit of the light language because the angels are are

these beings of light right and uh but she was like I hear this beautiful choir singing and just taking me to sleep and things like that so what have you been

hearing are you there hearing it's what I've been singing it's it's like they sing through me in a different language and very fast I mean way faster than I can talk I'm like faster than the speed of life huh

yeah it's very fast and I'm and you know my friends are like I know she doesn't talk that fast so what's going on here yeah it's kind of funny we're we're lying down having a chill because you know it's Saturday night and yeah and me and cowboy are here just chilling and he's watching

over my shoulder I'm sure he says hi you know he always watches over Cowboy how are you doing Cowboy yeah my cats have lbody cat my cats were fighting a little bit I they just ran outside shaking their lungs and stuff like that you know the cats don't always get along

with other cats and stuff like that but most of the most of the time they get along and uh but yeah you know my dad had a dog named cowboy and that was his like little beloved his his beloved dog and unfortunately Cowboy met an unfortunate and and the only time I ever heard my

dad cry was when one of his when one of his them dogs passed away or you know and ever saw my dad my dad really cry it's like having a member of the family pass away you know people you got realize they get so close to us sometimes they get even

closer than our family right know my mom my mom calls them fur babies like when I had a cat pass away last year she was like a fur baby you know and because they're fur babies they but yeah yeah they but I unfortunately had a I had a friend um the guy there

was a guy on my show he would come on my panel and we did sports betting I I would like basically just tell him the team that had the cutest butt and stuff like that and then he would and uh and he was kind of wellknown the internet his name was music V Marty and he passed away um last week and then my mom called me this week and my my Aunt Terry her younger sister

her last the last remaining Aunt I had of all the aunts and uncles and she had passed away my mom's little sister and stuff and I it's like I know I was not I didn't call every Christmas and every birthday and I know I was kind of in my own mind and stuff like that and whenever someone passes away it's really

sad and uh but I also believe there's an afterlife and I believe that they're out of pain right absolutely there is no pain or fear there I've been there you know I had an IND yeah I tell you there is no pain there is no fear it's it's great actually but there is nothing to fear

nothing to fear can you tell us about can you tell us about your nde if you don't mind or if it's too personal you know no no no no worries but I could tell you something about it some I mine is very different from a lot of people though it's not typical look I did have some typical elements but it was very

atypical um at first well I was in an accident and it was strange because um month before a couple months before I had a dream where I woke up and told my then husband to

be but I had a dream about my death and I told him all the details and the possible date and everything and I said isn't that weird and we decided that we should take some

stuff to maybe see if we could avoid that just in case you know so we did because in the dream I died when the gear stuck uh I was going down a hill everything was white and I was driving a stick and the

gear stuck and uh something I hit something I hit a Chuck hole or something and went flying and that was my dream everything was white outside well so we did have a van that

was very old and had you know very little safety on it this was back before E and everything I mean this thing didn't have emergency breaks it didn't even have a horn it was it we shouldn't have been driving it it wasn't safe to drive early but uh decided we were going to put that aside and one of our friends

said well we'll L you know I'll Ling you uh my old car this old car I have so so uh we we had this old car and and of his and it was also a stick

and we never thought of that and so uh uh don't you know I I stayed home a lot of times I didn't drive for the longest time but then right in that region of time uh in January because this was

supposed to be in January um my ex insisted that something had to be done while he was at work so could I drop him off and then go take care of it I said honey I really don't want to go out and take the car out he says well this has really got to be done or it's going to C

cost us a whole lot of money so I said okay well maybe I'll be safe if I just go and do the errand and then hang out at a coffee shop or something for a while you know and just not too much and then let you drive home okay I'm G to let you drive there and

then I'm going to let you drive home and I'm only going to do this there and well and it was a clear day he said look it's clear out it's not even snowing and it was then but by the time that I got him to work and dropped him off and took off it started snowing out

of nowhere and I was on a road that was going downhill and all of a sudden the gear stuck and I hit something and the car went flying just like in the dream

and and the white the white is like all the snow right or is saw the whole white outside was the snow suddenly came up and I'm like oh you know when I look back on it it's like it was exactly like the dream so um I didn't avoid it

far from it but anyway so the next thing I know I see the tunnel but just just for a second just for a brief brief second at like hardly any time at all like no long tunnel it was just just for a moment and then all of a sudden I'm in this beautiful garden and it's

absolutely gorgeous right but and and there are all these people there talking to each other and they sort of look like they could be religious figures all talking to each other and I'm like oh well this was a beautiful place and I'd been there I realized I'd

been there before uh it looked familiar I'm like well this is cool um but nobody was coming to greet me because in many IND you have family I mean when you pass over many times you

have family or somebody coming to greet you nobody was coming to greet me all of a sudden the next thing I knew I in a cave talking to a very very old person very very old person and I thought they were maybe an old Indian maybe a Native American but

they were a very old person ancient I could get that and they were giving me something they were giving me something but it was in my mind it wasn't something that uh physical

but they said this will unpack in time and I'm like what the heck does that mean you know and then all of the sudden I'm back now when I get back I am my body is still

numb I I find myself in a really weird position I thought I'd fallen asleep somewhere in the car I was on top of the steering wheel impaled on the steering wheel oh my gosh I pulled myself off which should have been

impossible the door was hanging open pull myself off the steering wheel said wow that that's really a stupid place to park a car when I looked at it it was in a tree and you know it was like wrapping around

a tree and I'm like why did Park here and I looked at this guy that was standing there and he just looks at me with these great big eyes like you know like I've seen a ghost you know like he's seen a ghost and I said hey dude what's up yeah geez this was a

horrible place to park what what are you look why are you looking at me like that and he says because you're dead I said no

not you know it hadn't registered really it's like no I'm not I know I wasn't dead maybe and then I thought about it I was like was I dead maybe it was so so here are the paramedics and they're asking me

questions I can't remember much they say well you had a concussion well I was moving to a new place so it was kind of garbled in my mind which one I was at what was my address currently so they said well you had a concussion so

anyway I'm still walking around I pull myself walking around but I don't feel good and I tell them I don't feel good and I hear crack crack in my ribs and my and I'm like there is something wrong with me I think I need to go to the hospital so they put a brace around my neck even though I told them that I

didn't have any pain there which pulled out half of my hair because I had really long hair because it was velcro when they took it off but they took me in they x-rayed my neck which was not the problem I told him the problem was in my chest which makes sense because it

was impaled on the steering wheel but there were no marks at the time on me not till later uh oh I have a question with but the with the guy that came and said you're dead was that like a real person or is that like the the Indian guy that was a

real person he was a guy that lived near there he was just walking by and saw it happened he was a witness he was the guy called the ambulance Angel an angel he's just a guy that called the ambulance happen to be there the right

time the right place that that that uh probably saved your life just happened to be there and saw me pull myself up from the dead wait pull myself up off the and and was scared actually scared me

but uh because of that he was afraid to touch me for a little bit I Saidi okay you're not going to hurt me he said I don't know about that you know he didn't want to touch me so um at first so uh yeah so

anyway I get out of the hospital I I go to the this is the stupidest thing I I went to the spa I asked to be I I I asked really to be dropped off of the spa and told my because I felt horrible and I told my ex I called my ex and said pick me up at

the spa I'm going to the had a I had a membership lifetime membership at the spa and I needed a I felt I needed a warm bath right I need I needed to be in that hot tub because I felt awful well by the time that he sent our friend to come get me by the time they come got me

I have been sitting in that hot tub a while and when he helped me out I said I I'm having trouble getting out of the water I'm having trouble getting up this is so weird you know it kind of hurts so he like took my hand and he kind of helped tried to help me pull me out of the water and I just screamed because I

felt like I was being ripped in half and I'm like oh God something is really wrong with me now okay cuz shock had worn off and now I was beginning to feel see I didn't feel anything in the warm water it was really helping but once I got out of the water it's like oh

my God was I in pain and I realized something was wrong in my chest so then they took me to the hospital again a different hospital and really should should have sued the first hospital at where I went underwent many painful EX

race and they found out that I had broken my ribs I had paved my ribs in and I was very lucky that I was breeding without puncturing a lung or something so uh it was kind of miraculous that I didn't die uh stay dead

anyway so anyway afterwards it turned out that what had happened was somehow I got yanked away to talk to that that the old the person I thought was an old Indian for years I found out and I'm not even going to go through all the weird things that

happened to right now to to to explain who that was that I was talking to but I found out that was st's wife that's NE right any n Ys nepus housewife housewife yeah whoever thought's wife was it had to be his wife

because it was an older woman in in the cave well him and his wife I guess the legend has it they were living in a cave for many years staying alive for their own re you know for for uh to to help

people humans for a for a time but anyway so it I'm I'm like oh my gosh I I but you know this is who I was talking to um this was the older person and what and I was seeing things I was seeing all

kinds of things I had all kinds of pictures in my mind I had all kinds of symbols in my head I had all kinds of transmissions and stuff well it was this thing that she gave me whatever it was that she gave me and she called it a thought packet a thought

package or a thought packet and that it was going to unpack later and as it did and I and then much later I figured out the reason she had to do that was because if she had just let me you know I wouldn't be able to remember right if she'd just given me the information any

other way I wouldn't have been able to remember it because you know between here and there you have a memory loss so um but by doing it that way it came out gradually and the information that was in there came out

gradually so uh so yeah that was the really weird um and it took me months and the doctor said when they found out that I had all the damage I did I had damage in my back damage in my chest whatever concussion whatever and um so so what

are we going to do about this well you're just going to stay still for two months you're gonna stay still and I'm like you you don't move H how the how the heck am I gonna do that right stay complete now I had been a very very active

person you know so telling me I'm going to stay still for two months is like crazy that's Unthinkable I I couldn't even imagine how I was going to do that so uh but they couldn't but because I have very full breasts they couldn't rap me like they would some people they were afraid of

me uh uh pneumonia they were afraid they giving would giving pneumonia so I had to be unwrapped and just stay still and I'm like oh great great how is this going to happen so

yeah that was a really rough time but um apparently it was important enough that I get this information back and that kind of started me on my path too because I'd been psychic and stuff before but but I guess this kind of gave me my

mission it almost reminds me of a little bit of of DMT a little bit like of DMT like you know DMT like when you're near death the brain releases the DMT and you'll have these kind of spiritual experiences but also you said reminds me of also you said you went to this Garden it reminds me the Garden of Eden a little bit like that where we

were before we fell into the material realm this like this like paradise where we're living in this garden and you said that the people were looking at you but they weren't talking to you because I think they weren't talking to you because you weren't Dead Like You wer they weren't even looking at me they didn't even notice me it's like they weren't

even noticing I was there I'm like boy this is weird nobody's saying a word to me and um you know I was just standing there like what do I do here what am I doing here what do I do next and then I got sucked away into the cave right into this cave where I'm talking to this older person and I feel like a lot of

things happen that I can't remember okay that I can't remember I feel like I got the Amnesia treatment and I think she knew that I was going to get the Amnesia treatment right that I was GNA have amnesia so that's why she gave me the

information the way she did to be unpacked later so that I wouldn't know it forget it and you know it was like I would didn't know it yet so I couldn't forget it right right when it opened up then I could access it so

very clever very smart I didn't understand any of that at the time though I mean that that was like what you know what the heck happened to me you know I I didn't know cuz you under heavy trauma you're under heavy trauma and also I also I'm thinking like when you're under this

heavy trauma you're you're uh the body and the mind does not want to experience it all at once and so that's why you don't feel pain when you're in the bathtub and stuff like that and uh you know you don't remember the they say we don't remember all our dreams right it's like a lot of stuff is happening in the unconscious and the subconscious right

yeah yeah basically and your body is it does kind of go into shock it goes into uh you're numb for while you're just numb for a while when you know it's like yeah it was weird I was numb I was walking around with all that damage somehow I was walking around and I shouldn't have

been I shouldn't have been able to even do that all broken ribs and yeah broken ribs and stuff in my wrong with my back and I get you know in my head and my neck and my you know I can feel cck cck cck all over yeah I shouldn't have been able to walk around like that but I did

so I don't know but the important part is you survived you survived it and it was crazy for a while I'm like wow what a crazy thing and then it was the very same day and I'll tell you the

day it happened too was the very same day you remember the first time the the space shuttle exploded I think that around my birthday I'm not sure if it's January 7th or anything like that or is that the Apollo

or hold what something it was what the one of the space shuttles and that date has actually changed for me it was like 80 something 86 84 something like that and that date has been Mandela affected at

actually that date is a Mandela effect for me because it has changed several times in my lifetime so that didn't always happen on the same day in the different timelines I've been in ever since then I've been

aware of timeline shifts when I shifted between timelines and I didn't know before and it's weird because people are always shifting between time Lin they just don't know it your brain tries to fill it in tries to normalize everything that's

how it's programmed to do I mean your mind is programmed to make everything normal for you so you have some coherency you know between you and the rest of the Matrix or whatever you want to call it so you know you you don't know that you're shifting between timelines it you

just see it as a smooth you know and you will discount anything that says anything other than that you you will just you know you know my your mind will say that just doesn't make sense so it didn't happen that's that's what happens there but somehow that filter got blown for

me and I didn't have that anymore so now I notice when I move timelines when I shift timelines I know you're very you're very aware of the Mandela effects and the Mandela effect taken place in your life

and you remember different timelines right right I remember I I actually started to develop an awareness of the timeline shift to Remember to Remember the previous time line and be confused by

it basically so for me I would be talking about an event to somebody else and they would remember it differently than I did and and you know most people will go oh well that's typical I mean people do but sometimes it would be so

different it would be such a different event that that there was no reconciling it you know uh so you know after a while it was like I mean buildings would appear and

disappear um you know in this timeline this building was here in that timeline there was something else there you know it it's just and it got to the point where it was really um I I learned to just keep my mouth shut about it because people think you're either nuts

or you know just too weird to deal with I mean and and who can blame them I mean that is pretty weird you know it's hard to it's hard to follow so uh yeah it it's just it made life a whole lot more difficult let's put it

that way it made made made it very hard to talk to people like when when there would be uh and I found that usually the shifts would happen right around certain times of the year usually right around

s you know yeah Halloween yeah F yeah usually that would be a major shift would happen right there if I was gonna like shift over into somewhere really different that would be where when there and also in the spring and um

at at the at the uh vernal equinox Equinox Equinox I was about to say Equinox right when the seasons change when certain holidays all these holidays are these certain times that are like yeah the holidays are there for a reason yeah definitely yeah they they they're

and and those times I found out uh in wi they're called the hinges of the year the hinges of the year so I'm like oh but see then they started H happening even more more often more frequently and in

the last few years since 2012 they've been happening a lot for me and I have all these personal Mandela effects like I'll be walking around and something's entirely different and I'm like okay and I have to just pass it off like it's normal right because otherwise people

get creeped out so I can't walk around saying oh gez everything's different look at this everything you know if I try and do that and and I've tried it I've tried talk to people about it a lot of them just don't you know there's too much explanation for them to even really begin to grasp that

so most most people are not in touch with their spiritual they take everything very L on earth right but I know we're all so happy that you came out of this okay and you were given a warning in the dream and then you were able to probably take steps that maybe lessened the effect of of

what actually happened and stuff like that and you were able toce here's what I think happened here's what I think happened it was a soul contract and people don't know this don't understand Soul contracts but maybe I'll come in and talk about more

about soulle contracts if it was a soul contract it's going to happen regardless you're not going to be able to do much to change it um unless you know it is a contract and you break that contract somehow and you dissolve that contract but if you have a soulle contract for

something to happen no matter what you do it's going to happen so I did die the thing is in the dream it it didn't it it stopped you know I mean I didn't see that I would came back and now how do I know that in some the way that I understand these

things now is that when you have a dream like that or you have something happen like that you died in that other reality in that other timeline you're dead now you you passed on so in that other reality I'm already

dead long time ago L is asking l l l is asking you is this about Awakening so was this an Awakening experience for you like was it a spiritual awakening was there a you said that it was like a spiritual experience for you in a certain ways but can you elaborate on that yeah it was a very spiritual

experience um and yeah I think I would call it an Awakening yeah because it's like when I really started to realize that things were quite a bit different from the way that we've always been told they were quite a bit

different so you know and then I really began looking into things much deeper than I had been and you know learning all of these theories and everything because I was trying to figure out what the heck happened to me because it was so weird you know it's like I just had this really weird event and I can't talk

about it to hardly anybody you know so as a matter of fact the guy that L us the car was uh um oh what do they call it not an atheist uh agnostic or

agnostic and when I tried to tell him about the spiritual aspect of it he just thought that was ridiculous so and that was he a skeptic he was a skeptic very very skeptical yeah yeah so um okay so I couldn't talk about it to hardly

anybody so uh yeah I had to I went out and found people who I could talk about and who who knew something about it and that's that's a long story but anyway yeah it's an Awakening story so that's that's how I kind of got put onto my purpose because before that I had the gifts and

I had the skills but um I wasn't using them much really you know I really I I didn't I wasn't around anybody anybody that that I could put two and two together with that I could you know really talk to about it or anything

I mean my friends were more scientific types you know right so like a in a way this put you onto your path in this like so almost a faded event right it was a faded event it was something I could not avoid it was something that was

contracted for me that it was contracted that I was going to wake up I was going to have this nde it was going to show me the other side and I was G to wake up so yeah that's what happened as I understand it and also all the negative

things that happened to us there's difficult things that happen to us in this life but they can put us onto our correct path and they they can wake us up in certain ways right yeah as a matter of fact something else that I noticed too and I when I

did join a metaphysical society and find some friends who were like me one thing that did come up was many of us just before our Awakening had accidents happen to

us many of us had nde many or some other event where like one of my friends she got a concussion all of a sudden she had new abilities you know the concussion

somehow jogs some new abilities for her so I'm like wow okay so this is not uncommon right something happen we have almost this um we have the veil over our eyes

something happens to rip that Veil okay and when that happens all of the sudden you start to see more than you you know you you were given this so you can play

I asked why do we forget why do we forget I asked my guides and the only answer I ever got for a long time was because otherwise you wouldn't be able to play the game right I said what the heck does that mean well because I believe I do believe

that life life is a game like and in Hinduism um they have a godess named ltha and she's all the avatars of C kie put together her name is ltha it means a player and it means like life is a game in a certain way and yeah right it is actually as far as I can tell we are in

a game a simulation this is a game it is a simulation as far as I can tell we really exist uh we are using these bodies just like we'd use avatars in a

game so these bodies are basically taking the place of us they represent us but we already know they're not us we're we're spe we're a spirit having The Human Experience um we have Lola R is asking I ask this is something happen since isolation a year from now how do I explain this I hide from what I seen and

hear as I'm scared at times I think I'm going mad do you have any advice for someone that thinks they're going crazy because of these experiences and also Rampage I got your reading too when you want but uh I want but she but LLY thinks she's going mad sometimes because oh L maybe you are but maybe you're

not it happened since isolation and you know what there are some forms of Enlightenment that happen in isolation do you know that many people woke up during isolation well for example Jesus like

Jesus there's all these unex un um unex unremembered years of Jesus right and like aliser Crowley said like Jesus and Muhammad and all these Buddha they all went to isolation when they had their Enlightenment right yeah see the thing is is they thought they were gonna lock

us down and that was going to further you know disable us but the thing is is that in isolation sometimes people find their gft they start Awakening so it had the opposite effect and a lot of people started to wake up

during isolation well that's that's with me like when I when I was in um the isolation when we had the the cobid thing I was doing readings on Etsy and that that's when I that's when I had a lot of business because people were looking looking for something for answers they were looking for what's going to happen everyone was isolation

people were getting readings and stuff like that people were getting more in touch with that right yeah yeah well people had more time to think now this is what I see it as I see it as people had time finally I mean we are so busy and we're kept so busy and we're kept distracted all the time and I think

that's by Design okay that we're kept distracted so we can't think too much because if we start thinking too much we start figuring things out for the Super Bowl and for for the sports games and for the all the distractions for all the all the media and everything right it's all to keep us

distracted from examining our true selves right yeah from not thinking don't think too much don't think about it too much here's this other thing over here here's that other thing over there you should be thinking about all this and then of course working so a lot of people suddenly all the distractions are going they're not working they're stuck

home there's no sports events there's you know all yada y y and all of the sudden they have nothing to face but themselves you know it's like wait a minute now I got to face myself and people really are looking for the there there really are once once all the distractions are gone that's what

they really go to is like what is this about like you really right exactly what happened everybody was going wait a minute wait I never thought about that before you know and all this stuff these thoughts will come into your mind and these questions and you'll actually have time to think and when you

have time to think you'll go wait a minute there's a lot of here that doesn't make any sense what is going on because we are so distract As Americans we're so distracted it's like a make money um go out and work and go out and and do things all the time and you know always

keep busy and like there's very little time for meditation there's very little time for you know we just fall asleep and basically then we go up and like we we just we live all day right and uh so we really really when we have time to to just be alone with ourselves then these questions come up okay so so Rampage Rampage I got a car

can I do a car reading from Rampage real quick he wants a car reading for Rampage and I know you're not doing card readings right now but if you can Channel something for a rampage that'd be really cool but for Rampage I have am I focus on what I want most her Rampage and this says one reason um one reason

um so few of us achieve what we truly want is that we never direct our Focus we never concentrate our power most people just dabble their way through life never deciding to master anything in particular so it says for Rampage today's action is what you focus on grows today ask yourself is my life a

reflection of my values or do I need to make adjustments prioritize okay so if you have anything to say to that this person Rampage I think he he might like a message but if if you don't I understand but uh I think he would like a message I think he needs a message I I feel like he he's like wanting an answer for

something if you can anything if you if you um if you feel like it if not I understand I I know you're not doing car readings right now but if you if you feel anything I'm not doing Carter you know you asked me to to talk to you about this subject uh and you know what Rampage

that's really quite a distraction to me right now okay Rampage rampage that so rampage that wasn't that was the reading for you tonight that's okay get get get your info from psyche all I say is you are seeking you as you seek you shall find you you keep

seeking yeah I didn't I didn't I know I wasn't asking you to do a reading I just if you had a message for him and that that was a good message for him and uh Susanna says Lolly you may already but what about asking Yeshua what's up maybe we'll clarify so I think uh Loi was

saying that she saw Jesus do you have any thoughts about Jesus she says Jesus keeps coming know nothing about yeah she's saying I know nothing about ancestors for example and I had the Sharma Sharma you mean a

Sharman uh come to me uh about breaking a bloodline oh LLY oh oh are you fixing your bloodline oh that may be why you're here no of an understanding about this

and angels and most of the time Jesus keeps coming Yeshua okay so his name is Sanda now by the way but he knows who you mean when you say Jesus um but these days he's called Sanda but um since he

ascended uh sand may have come or have been awakened now I do have a reading for you LLY if this is happening to you and it said something about breaking a bloodline you have come to break a

generational curse okay that is probably exactly what you're doing breaking a bloodline what you're probably getting is you're getting there is a curse in your family bloodline there is some kind of thing

that you are here and many of us are doing this I did it for my family I did for my family too I had a generational curse I had to break so you're here breaking a generational curse my dear I hear that and Rampage says I'm

looking to let go of my dear that pass I I don't know if you have a message for for Rampage I'll pull another card from Rampage Rampage okay pull another card for Rampage I'll pull another card for Rampage Rampage I'll get another card for you here we go this one says who can I serve today and this one

says in a world lacking Soul to- Soul connection small and simple acts are what create the biggest and most lasting impact we shift our own pain and experience and Avalanche of love when we lose ourselves in the service of others who needs you today so today's action is listen to your heart who needs you make one Soulful connection today and give

solely to spread more love expecting nothing in return notice the joy you feel when you serve others I think whoever passed Rampage they want you to they want you to um give your love to the world right now okay and uh and they want you to serve to serve somebody in the world okay Rampage there's a couple

things I would say to you first of all you're one that passed is in no pain there is no pain and fear there the message I always get from every one who has passed who has a loved

one worried about them they're always happy they're always fine because outside of here we are all fine we're great we're fine it's nice you know they're fine so they're

fine it's us left here that are the ones that hurt that still have the pain that still have the fear that still have the you know all of those things but there is no pain there is no fear there is nothing

like that there and so you can rest assured that they're fine and actually yes love survives do do what I always get I always get the message of

like it's it's harder for us when someone dies than is for them they're they're they're released they're fine they're out of pain they're like they go to a place they're happier it's harder for us having attachment to them and their human form and stuff like that they are they are they have they're like

the only reason they stay behind is because they see us sad and they want to comfort us right yeah yeah they come and visit us I mean I know people who have their loved ones I have my people that I that my my friends and family that have gone on my people that I have loved they

come back and see me my pets all come back to see me my pets even come back to see me no um they are still there and I will also tell you this if you want to talk to that person you just talk to them because they can hear

you they can hear everything I wrote I wrote a song about that I sang it on the show one time I think I I can't remember I think I did sing it on your show one time but basically one of the lines

is when you're it's something that when your time comes I'll be right here waiting can you believe that love can last forever that's that's one of the main lines from the song Do You Believe The Love can last forever because even in the

afterworld they're still around you're still around they still love you they're still there they they can hear you every word so just talk to them they'll hear and then listen be still be quiet be

alone get into a meditative state and just have a chat with them just say what you want to say what whatever you left unsaid and then listen with your hearts and you might hear them you might even see

them but you have to have an open heart to do that I I have a little I have a little song to sing I don't know if I get the lyrics right I'm going to wrap up little bit but I have this song says Oceans Apart day after day and I slowly go insane I hear your voice in the line but it doesn't stop the

pain if I see you next to never then how can we stay forever wherever you go whatever you do I'll be right here waiting for you whatever it takes or how my breaks I'll be right here waiting for you I took for granted all the times that I thought we would last somehow I

hear the laugh after I taste the tears but I can't get you near you now oh can't you see it baby you got me going crazy wherever you go whatever you do I will for

you it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you I wonder if we can survive this

romance but in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance right right well okay you see it baby you got me going crazy wherever you go whatever you do I'll be right here waiting for you whatever it takes or how

the heart breaks I'll be right here waiting for you waiting for you yeah in the song that I wrote the it was about Houdini oddly enough it was about Harry Houdini and his wife they had made a

pack that whoever passed first would try to get a message back to the Survivor if there was in fact life after death and this was in the early days of the spiritualist movement way way back right well Harry Houdini

passed first then he passed young he did finally after a while get a message back to his wife through his psychic but see it was a secret message it was a it was a code word right it was a code word exactly yeah and this was

the code believe believe believe three times yep and and the psychic got it because because psych psychics are real guys by the way psychics are real and I get a lot of people saying oh psychics are all psychic we are giving the we we

are channeling the messages from the spirit world and uh you know what yeah if they want to believe that okay you can go believe that spunky you go believe that that's good and you live that way and it's good it's fine we don't have to deal with you

then you know it's like really I'm not gonna Force anybody I am not getting paid uh you know my religion does not make me convert anybody right my belief must convert everybody people will not not believe in it but I mean he

he had a scientific just like our James Randy kind of thing where prove it scientifically and it was proven scientifically like the message does come through like it if if they have to like disprove disprove the scientific theory and everything it it will be proven because the spirit is real and

and we are just spirits in the human body and and the spirit does love us and will prove it to us we're spirits in the material world right thing said that anyway we are living in a material world and I am a material hey hey D you know

you're you're like an awesome um awesome reader awesome friend I want to thank you so much for like telling your story tonight telling your near-death experience I know it's like a traumatic experience for you I just want to thank you so much

I know like Suzanna LLY and and also um and also the our friend uh his our friend Rampage also he wants to thank you he says he's looking he said uh Rampage eventually said he said thanks again Rampage you're quite welcome I

didn't know whether I was going to get a message for you or not but I guess I did anyway doing Terror right now I know you're not doing tarot and I know you're not doing tarot right now but you know why they told me because I'm supposed to

I'm supposed to be instead focusing on my Clairvoyance yeah which is what just happened yeah and I I love that too because because tarot tarot cards are a tool right we're basically Clairvoyant and we're we are receiving the messages the tarot helps us Focus sometimes I think you're so good you don't even need

need the cards right and I don't need the cards either but the cards keep us on a they just like uh basically are a little bit of a help to to guide the message and call it a focus for a reason because when you're psychic when and I hate using that term because

people really misunder understand it because the first thing they do is go say something psychic prove it yeah you know what te gonna win the Super Bowl and all what I say about the Super Bowl is like I said tell me the color of the pants and whatever color I like better whatever butts look cutest in the

pants and then you know you know yeah that's that's I was like I was like I'm not going to I don't pull cards on Super Bowl teams but I will tell you what butt looks the cutest in the color

pants just tell me the color pants and tell me like over under you know I'm pretty accurate I'm pretty accurate I'm pretty good at judging the butts right but uh yeah D you're so awesome I just want to thank you so much

for always coming on the show and like just be my friend and like I think um you gave a lot of people some really good answers tonight in the in the chat I'm I'm wrap it up I've been on for a couple hours I might come on later tonight but I just want to give you a big HBY I have a show of my own and you're welcome it's the same as my name

and I'll make a comment so that you can find me I'm gonna I'm gonna put your channel on I'll I'll I'll I'll type it in d d I'll give a minute to um but de oceans dwoo um she's an awesome person she's an

awesome friend um just a a beautiful you know Kenny Kingston I don't know you heard Kenny Kingston he us to say sweet Spirit you're a sweet spirit and uh thanky you are too psyche you are so cool I just love you thank you I love my

psyche he is he is just a bright bright Spirit too you are a bright Spirit honey and I got your never let anybody tell any different thank you and I'm I'm doing my best but you know you are awesome like like really you have like a lot of like you had a lot of courage to start a YouTube channel like I didn't

have the courage to start a YouTube channel for a long time right I was like oh it's hard sometimes it's hard you got get all kinds of ego out of the way right but you're doing it you're but you are doing it and you are like people just love you love you and they love you here they love you in your chat so guys

I'm going to wrap it up but I want to say thank you to De oceans I'm gonna I'm gonna post her Channel real quick before I go I want to make sure I get her Channel posted because she's just a sweet Spirit she's like an awesome person and uh am I getting the right hold I got can't I don't right I can't even go and and do

the copy paste because if I do I'm going to just lose but thank you so much thank you I love you yeah we had a fun show you know you are a big part of the show you guys are literally what's driving our shows yes if it weren't for you there'd

be no show we'd just be talking to ourselves we are helping so many people too and I think we are giving people hope I think we are giving people the advis and spirit I got her Channel posted everyone subscribe to Deans and make sure you say hi to De oans and go to her Channel I'm G to give

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