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Psyche discusses a personal experience of being used and then discarded by someone, and the emotional aftermath of this encounter. He also talks about being told to kill himself by two different individuals and the finality of having his channel struck.
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Browse era →me with flowers, confetti in her hair. Said you're such a lovely soul with a calculated stare. But I was just a chess piece, seen a few that I didn't choose. >> >> A temporary favorite in her very special
use saloon. She needed me for optics, for a sublime forcing. Poking at a rival while pretending to be clean. I thought it was connection. Turns out it was theater. A one-woman production called,
>> >> "How Can I Be Meaner?" I was good enough for midnight talks, for spiral rants, and victim monologues. But when the script got rewritten fast, she cut my name from EVERY CAST. I WAS useful till Tuesday. Holy till the
fall. Then suddenly I'm toxic, the villain after all. "Don't contact me," she tells me with the curtains dramatic drawn. Then she floats into my panel like a ghost of midnight dawn. Calls me some brand monster, says I'm darkness, doom, and do me up.
Honey, how I was a saint right up until I got less useful to a junior empire. I was there when things were crumbling. Now I'm the big disaster. That's what's coming from the patrons saying they're changing every pastor. She found a champion. A knight in shining chrome. Ooh.
Posted him like rescue merch. Said, "Finally, I'm home." >> Ooh. But the armor got dented. Ooh. >> The fairy tale got hazy. And even Sir Salvation said, "This whole thing feels crazy." I stood there in the cheap seats
watching plot twist hit the wall. Black tea. That's your redeemer. Ooh. >> >> Didn't he just miss your call? Every week. Every week a new messiah. Every month a brand new scar. >> >> A rotating cast of lifeboats that don't >> >> make it very far.
I gave grace when grace was rare. Listen when nobody else was there. But some folks turn up to a courtroom filing and I'll blame it with a pageant smile. I was useful till Tuesday. Tuesday. Sacred till the spin. Ooh.
Then she needed a new sermon and I got written in. "Don't contact me." She whispers then appears where I live on air like boundaries of a peasant's and hypocrisies get thrown away. Now I'm some spiritual trafficker. What a deluxe invention. There's not a charge, it's fan fiction with a persecution pension. I was there
when the wheels came off. Now I'm the dark disaster. That's rich coming from the weather vane who calls each storm a pastor. She collects moral costumes like wigs behind the stage. Ooh.
Halo for the thumbnail. Pitchfork for the rage. Ooh. One day day, confidant, the next day, you're her curse. Every friendship gets a trailer. Every fallout gets rehearsed. And I'm not even mad now. >>
>> I mostly want popcorn because every grand denunciation comes pre-frayed and over-worn. And if I'm such a beast, babe, why haunt my little show? Why bang on the cathedral door you swore you'd never know?
Don't contact me. Okay, cool. Heard. Then why you in row one memorizing every word? Contact me. Fine by me. Then why do you keep orbiting my so-called monstrosity? I was useful till Tuesday. Tuesday night. >> >> Darling, that's the game. You need a
friend, you need a foe. They often wear one name. You crown me, then you blame me, then announce me with a hiss for contradiction in high heels still trips over stuff like these.
So, here's to all the exileds who turned into a trial. Who borrowed truth for leverage and performed pain with style. I'll be over here still breathing, still speaking, still hilarious.
And you'll still be recasting villains in a plotline precarious. You said, "Don't contact ME." DON'T CONTACT ME. I said, Darling, I'm a man. >>
>> But if I'm I'm a monster. monster. >> Why do you keep coming >> back again? >>
>> They did. They did. They did.
I'm not trying to be weird or like uh um dramatic about it, but they both did. And then they struck the channel trying to get When the link, okay? >> >> They both said it.
When I'm going to every day that I'm still alive, I'll I'll tell you guys about it. Every day. I'll post it on YouTube every day.
What's going on, bro? What's happening? They both told me to kill myself. What, tonight? No before. But then tonight that Tonight Alexander made it final by um striking my channel. Be the minute final a couple weeks ago by striking my channel. But they both said it. You know what you What you know what to do? You just You kill yourself
in their eyes. I will. I will. In In their eyes. I'll be gone in a I'll be gone in >> no, no, no, no, no, no. In their eyes. In their eyes. >> I'll do it. No, no, no, no, no. In their eyes. I'm not saying do it. I'm saying in their eyes you do it. That's the You're dead to them. >> In their eyes I've already done it. In their eyes Be dead Be dead to them. Be dead to them. But what What are you giving the satisfaction of doing
it? I'll do it every day until until until Yeah. I'm not Misunderstanding any sharing. Sharing they both did tell me in private to do it. So just yeah, just leave it at that man. What what the Let them be dead to you. That's it. How about that? Let them be dead to you. I'd like to but it's like all my channel be gone in a second. Cuz they decided to put the final nail
in the coffin for me. So Your channel your channel be fine. No, it's not going to be fine. It's done already. It's done it's done. But um I'm not going to like let them win. I'm going to I'm going to say until Yeah, I don't know. They said it they said it it's done. That's sick. >> me to Why why do they want me to so bad?
Like Why has it come to this? It came to this. Yeah, two people that you had like a a real relationship with. That's what's crazy about it. I love more than anything. I >> a tattoo from one and you met love you the other one you had a great time. I know but then they said it strike my channel for you know that photo where where we're both smiling? Yeah, beautiful. Yeah. She struck my
channel for that. Wow. Yeah. Wow, that's crazy man. I know it is. That's just crazy what people do on here. It's just insane. I know but it's like really sick. It it is. The the you so they want they want yeah. I'm not going to do it cuz you know what?
I love my cats too much There you go. Of course. Of course. There you go. Thank you. That's it. for being alive still. That's it. That's it. You have to have the reason. But I will still I'm going to every single day I will post that. Every single day. And every time you search Alexander Mayor's Monica Foster Beata Mosta f i or whatever the her name
is I'm going to post it every day that they told me to kill myself and they did. Let people know I guess. Yeah. No, yeah they'll know. They'll know. >> Yeah. So you know what I'm gone? That's what happened. Yeah, don't be gone. Don't be gone. Alexander McQueen will be very sad.
You want the guy to cry? He's loud enough, for God's sake. All we need him to do is cry. We don't We don't need him crying on camera. >> here anymore cuz they finished me off. Come on, man. Come on. Who's going to take care of the cats, dude? They're going to rot. Don't do that. They won't because I'm not going to leave until the cats are taken care of. >> Who's going to tell this scrapper to off? Who's going to go down
to McDonald's and get some coffees and Who am I going to Who am I going to be able to harass? >> I will be gone. I'm not going to be able to harass anybody anymore. What are you going to do? >> didn't say something like that. Bida didn't say something like that. She didn't say, "Just do it." She didn't say, "Go drive yourself in the middle of the ocean." She keeps laughing and saying >> You know who says stuff like that? Miserable people say stuff like that, man. Come on. You know that. She
said it. I know she said okay. I'm not saying she didn't say it. I'm not saying >> Goddy, I remember you were there that night when she said, "Just do it." Remember that? >> Dude, I've heard it. I've heard her say it, but I don't believe it. >> that? Have you heard her say that? I she said it to Michael Linguini, for God's sake. Hello. >> And then where is he now? Where is he now? >> Exactly. Exactly.
I didn't want to bring that up, but it's true. Bida, listen. Your words. >> not I'm not like crazy. Guys, I have to say something at this point. Cuz now they're doing it to Yeah. I should have said it I should have Do you want to Do you want Shannon to call Attila? She'll do it.
>> Please do. Guys, God Guys, Goddy doesn't lie. Guys, this guy doesn't lie. I People can say I lie. This guy is This guy is straight up. They said it. I don't around. I didn't hear Alex say I didn't see Alex say it. If she said she said it, then she said it, but I I didn't hear her say it. Okay. Well, she didn't say it publicly, but
Yeah, if she said it privately, then yeah, I believe you. Listen, Rod. Alex Beta, listen, you guys move on with your lives, really. This is sad. This is really sad. No, no, no, no, no, they're not going to move on with their lives. They have to say it. They have to They have to strike my channel. So, I'm gone. So, I can't >> Because because they want to erase you from YouTube for some weird reason they have in their head, yeah.
>> Because you're you're a threat you're a Right. threat to both of them somehow, but that's all up. All I said All I did to Alex was I put the picture up. She struck me for the picture of us at dinner smiling. Alex is a beautiful woman. Why would she get mad? Why would she get mad at her image >> Monica Foster is a nut bag, okay? >> beautiful woman who has a bright future ahead of her. She
has no need for this kind of pettiness. Now, Beta not so She said her I said She said her I said her I said Beta not so much. I said, "Hey, I don't know if you're mad at me or if I'm blocked or what. All I want to say is I'm sorry. I wish you the best. Have a blessed night." You know what she said to me? "Oh, look at this stalker pushing my
boundaries, uh you know, going past boundaries, and he's stalking me and stuff like that." That's what This is what the said, okay? Oh, she she she blocked me too because of you. And she struck my channel. Yeah. Yeah. See? See how it is? I mean, I didn't hold any ill will about it. She blocked me, so what can I do? You just move on, man.
I wish they would. I wish they could, but no, no, no, they can't move on. They have to take me out first. They have to >> Dude, how how did you get here, man? How take me out. did you get to this spot right >> at this. Look at this. The women I love now? I mean, the most, right? >> It's crazy. But I was I was telling I'm telling you yesterday I would have done everything for both of them, but they both proved to me Yeah. Dude, when I first started coming here,
all you did was tarot readings, and you had a good time, man. What How did it spiral to this? This is crazy. Every day I'll post it. >> I'm not laughing at you. I'm just laughing at the situation. People are so psychotic.
Over >> >> Gotti, I'll post it every day. As long as I'm still here, I'll post it every day. That is my promise. That is my sincere promise. Until I'm gone, I will post it every day. I'll post what they really did. I don't blame you. Why That's why
the hotline showed up, the thing for the hotline? Hey, did you say that? >> Yeah, cuz I was going to kill myself. So, you automatically just post that Yep. wow. That's why I came up here. I didn't know what you were talking about. I was heading out for the the day. I will. I mean, it's it's done it's done at this point. It's done. They This is what they planned all along. They were friends the entire
time. People think, "Oh, they're they're enemies at No, no, no, no. They were friends the entire time. They planned this. That's wild. >> thinking that I would I won't, but basically they killed my channels. Are you Are you saying No, it's No, it's No, I I have no voice anymore. Every single day I'll tell what Alexandra Mayers and Beedas kitties said to me
to kill myself, okay? >> saying Are you saying Are you saying they secretly let you in to something like that? I think so. Whoa, that's a whole different >> Well, they will escalate to hell. They They already They already did it. They They already did They decided to do it. They It was them. Whoa. >> I'm sorry, Ivana. Yeah. So, Beedas kitties and Alexandra both told me to kill myself privately, okay? I will say that.
Madness dude. >> Privately and publicly. Alexandra said it privately, but yeah. To kill myself. I used to think I was crazy until I met you people, you know that? And now it's a whole different level of crazy. It is. It to take a little speck to take a little speck >> What did I do, Gotti? Gotti, what did I
do? What did I do? >> Turned it into a gigantic thing. >> Gotti, what did I do? What did Yeah, why did they decide to strike me? >> Yeah. Yeah, why? Why? >> Why? There's no reason cuz you mentioned them? Cuz you mentioned cuz cuz you mentioned public figures? The public figures on it. Once you come on YouTube, everyone, you'll become a public figure. Yeah, hey hey Alexander
Bita. I'm going to reveal you. You're suicide coercers. You are. I'm sorry, ladies. Yeah, you are and you work together and you're like, let's make Psyche kill himself. They're a suicide gang. Maybe they're they're like a gang that will go around telling people to kill themselves. >> I'm going to say every day. That's Whenever you search Alexander Mayers or Monica Foster or Bita
m o s t a f i, it's going to say What about that dude, Aaron Carter? What What did they do to him? >> Oh no, what happened to Aaron Carter? What did he Did he die in a bathtub? Michael Linguini gone. Her ex-boyfriend. >> boyfriend BGT. You're done you're done. What does she want to do with me? Why doesn't she come on my show? Why doesn't she come on my panel? Why doesn't she come on my panel?
Why doesn't she come on my panel? Just answer that.
Yeah, it's it's kind of sickening. I don't know what to say anymore, man. Hey listen, just uh cheer up, will you? It's not the end of the world. Every Gotti, the rest of my life, every day, I will be posting that. For every day because of what they did, I will tell what they really did. I'll tell who they really are. Oh,
we never did that. Oh, yes, they did. Oh, sorry. Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Shrek. See? See it's affecting your cats. >> day. >> Every day. Every day. It's not worth it, dude. It's not worth it. I honestly >> do it. No, no, no, they they want my channel down. They don't care about my cats. They don't care about me. They don't >> care. All they care about is their
selves. I will tell what the truth about them. Every day I'm alive, the rest of my life, I swear to God, I will tell what they said to me. >> Well, I'm right here. You don't have to swear to me. I'm right here. Yeah, I'm I'm sorry.
Every day I >> Don't let them Don't let them do this to you, man. Don't let them do this to you. >> no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Every day. Every day. I will tell them and the world they told me to kill myself. Okay? Is it Is it Is it Ladies, ladies, you know that's up. You're watching,
I know you're watching. You know that's up. All right? They told me to Even if What if somebody told you guys to do it? What would you do? They said that >> Imagine. Can you imagine somebody telling you that every day? Oh, yeah. Oh, they want to mess with Psyche. Oh, Psyche's just some queer,
pathetic man, okay? He He want He can't do anything. We can just LIKE LAUGH. OH. THAT'S WHAT IT IS. YEAH. OKAY. HEY, I still have a voice. While I still have a voice on both my channels, I'm going to post every day how you told me to kill myself, okay? That's what I'll do. Cuz you decided to strike my channel.
Don't kill yourself, Psyche. Don't do it. >> I know I I I won't. You know what you should do You know what you should do? Kiss yourself. Kiss yourself, dude. You know what? Tell yourself Tell yourself that you're worthy of of being here. Dude, life is more than just a channel. My channel's gone. That was the last It
was the pretty much the last thing that made me happy. To be on my channel and stuff like It was the last It was It was like the last thing It was like the last little thing that made me happy and they want to take it away from me. Okay? >> only one strike. You you have to get three strikes to get a third. >> It's just two. It's two. Alexander and Beta, that's just one, too. >> Oh,
You can You can always write You can always write them. And say it was a mistake. I'm going to I I spent all this time writing YouTube. I don't care anymore, okay? I don't care anymore. That was the last thing This was my last thing to the world. My last My last thing that made me happy. And then there's my cats. You don't have a backup channel? Everybody has a backup channel. I do, but my backup channel's going to
be gone, too. Oh, It's It's It's okay. It's okay. Beta Mostafavi and um Alexander Mayers, aka Monica What's her real name? Monica Thorn. Monica Thorn, that's her real name, okay? That's a cute name. Hey Hey hey Oh, what? You decided to do
it, okay? For posting a picture of us at dinner smiling? Monica Thorn? Really? Really? Monica Thorn. You didn't know that she she requires permission to use her image. You didn't know that. Oh, she does? Does she require image to accuse people of bestiality and and every other thing she accuses people of?
Well, they just saw you as weak. They just laugh at me. They just laugh because they say, "Oh, he has He's nothing. He's no one. He's another one we can just like laugh at." They don't care if I die or live. >> you You know what it is? They saw you as weak. Yeah. >> Because you you were nice. You were nice to them. That's why. >> I was nice to them. Did I ever do anything I do anything to them? Did I
ever do anything to them? Until now. Who's this n i g g e r? What? What do you want? He's crying. You said it, not me. He was crying. Look at him. He's crying. You said it, not me. Say, what's wrong, man? You said it, not me, dude. >> You You okay? I said it cuz I tell the truth.
You You're the one that said the gamer word. I didn't say Wow. Okay. That happens. Hey, Psych. Have a good one, man. Cheer up, will you? All right. Good night, guys. Have a good one. Talk to you later, bro. Bye, everyone. I'll never see you again. >> Come on, man. Come on. Cut the Cut the Cut the
>> No, no, I'm leaving. I'm leaving. I'm No, I'm I'm going to send somebody over to your house, then. that. All right. I am. I am. the ocean. And that's what they wanted, okay? That's what they That's all they wanted. Go drown in the middle of the ocean. Okay, Peter, I will. Okay? I will. No one will ever see me or hear from me again. I hope my I hope these posts last a little bit. Yeah, Sadie, it was a picture of us together.
It was a picture of us together. It was me and her. Yeah. That's what it was. Do I need to show it? I can show it. She volun- Yes, I know she did. But she decided to strike me for the picture, okay?
>> >> She can't? Well, she did. I mean, it's already done. She struck me for it. Just But it Do you know why they struck me? Just Just so Tony can come in at the last minute. That's That's why. It's really upse- It is upsetting. Might as well show it. Okay, I'll show it. Here.
One second. Everyone thinks I'm just like I'm just like joking. Here's the picture she struck me for. Do you want to guys want to see it? I still have it. Hold on. I'll show you. You want to see it? Think I'm lying? >>
>> I'll show it. Here, posts. She came over in like um last year. WHAT? WHAT? WHAT YOU'RE DOING isn't Get out of here, you I don't like you anymore.
You're pathetic. You know what's pathetic? Striking a channel. Did I ever Did I strike your channel, Sig? No. You're going to come here bother me? I can say the word. It's used on me, okay? I can say that word. I can say and whatever or other word I want to say, okay? I'm I'm allowed to say words.
It's not striking channels. Did I strike Alexander Mayor's channel, Monica Foster, or Monica Thorn, whatever her real name is? Did I ever strike her channel? No. Did I strike Beat the Boss of Obey's channel? No. And her stupid boyfriend is her really her fiance. That's why she didn't want me showing the picture.
Did I? Did I? No. Did I? I mean, really, I want to know. Did I Did I do any of that to her or them? Do I deserve this? My channel's going to be gone by tomorrow morning. It's fine. It's fine. Did I do anything to them? What Tell me the worst thing I did to you guys. What did I do to you?
No, it's just like you decided I'm a I'm a I'm a I'm a n i g g e r, right? I don't want to hear it from you ever again. Siggy, if you ever come on my show again, you're going to be next on the list. Here's the picture. Want to see the picture? I got it. Here's the picture.
What?
That's the picture. She struck me for that picture. No, you're banned. You're banned, Bye. I don't ever want to see you again. That's the picture right there.
Strike me for that again, Strike me again.
It was Sharon It was great. I had the best Sharon. Talk about somebody always on her side until she strikes me. Yeah. That was the picture.
She did. She struck me for that photo, guys. Guys, she did. Do you want me to show you? I'll show you.
Here, let's look at it. Let's look at it together, guys. Want to look at it together? Let's look at it together.
Two strikes out of three. WHO WHO STRUCK ME? ALEXANDER MAYERS. DINNER PHOTOGRAPH. BEATA, they're doxing me and my fiance or her ex or whatever. Do you see it? Do you see it? Dinner photograph.
Guys, cuz if you think I'm you think I'm you think I'm lying. Do you see it? Here's the third. Get out of here, you I hate you. I hate you.
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