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Psyche addresses viewer criticism and accusations of scamming, defending his monetization methods and expressing frustration with mob mentality.
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Browse era →Tell me how you think I'm wrong when I say I feel so lost. Tell me why you think your love erase all that it cost. Tell me why you look at me like I'm just a piece of dust. Tell me how you think you know when I give away my trust.
Ain't nobody going to get me now. No, not when I feel this way. Ain't nobody going to save me now. From the things that I can't say.
Tell me why you think it's easy to just put the blame on me. Tell me how I'm supposed to act when you all just won't see. Tell me why you take a shot when I'm already feeling low. Tell me why I even try when you all just steal the
show. Ain't nobody going to get me now. No, not when I feel this way. Ain't nobody going to save me now from the things that I can't say.
Yeah, I might love the pain, but I hate what you all bring. Yeah, I might feel the strain or let you take my swing. Ain't nobody going to get me now. No, not when I feel this way.
Ain't nobody going to save me now from the things that I can't say.
From the shadows of the subconscious to the chaos of the cosmic scrolls. This is psyche awakens. Crowd whoosh. Sparkly chimes. Thunder crack. You smooth mystical. >> Yo, welcome to the madness. Buckle in tight. Tear it on deck. Third eye in
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Welcome to the madness. It's 900 p.m. Lights up. Mike's hot. Chaos in the stream. VA calling in. Slurring words. Starting up a scene. Talking all that trash. Then she flips. Rage queen. Mad at me. Girl, please. The show runs on caffeine. Sides twisted. Laughing loud. Whiskey in his veins.
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know the vibe. Welcome the madness. Enjoy the ride. Yeah. Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride. Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Okay, hold on. One second.
guys. That's better. Guys, do you know Hebrew? Anyone know Hebrew? I don't know how good my pronunciation is. I just want to do a little prayer.
Fore casher anuid lady
hamala bahadura
Amen. Okay. Okay. Okay, guys. Wow. Wow. You like AI music? I do, too. I think it's pretty cool. Actually, I did most of the writing of those and, you know, love the direction
of it. But yes, very assisted by the AI. No uh no shame in my game, guys. No shame in my game. Oops. Um, I just want to address a few things. Okay. Wow. It's like, oh, it's it's a little bit different like being able to actually speak and not have like five
people plus a whole chat of people just hating on me, you know? Oh, he ran. He ran. Well, it's like, you know what? I'm wearing headphones. It's loud. It's loud in my ear. I don't want to hear screaming at the top of I have to scream. And my now my throat hurts. Okay.
It's so interesting. Wow. Why is it be it's like yeah there's a different victim every day I guess in the panel verse right a new sacrificial goat it's called a scapegoat it's actually called scapegoat actually I'm a Capricorn so I'm I'm uh I'm used to yeah wow wow yeah I'm used to um being
scapegoed right it's okay guys and mods please do not hide anybody in this chat uh we are having a you know free day like I said hate stick your hatred out on me I want to I want to hear I want to hear all the hatred. Go ahead, tell me everything you think about it. I'm not going to have one person hidden mods. Put down your
wrenches tonight. Buddy trolling. Yeah, nice. Nice to have a buddy troll, huh? Anyway, VA is the least of my worries. I love VA. Like I said, I I mean, I love all I love most of these people, right? To my detriment. I don't
know. I don't know why. It's like I'm constantly abused by them, constantly called out of my name, constantly I'm doing something wrong, right? I'm do I'm the I'm apparently so evil because I have different ideas of how to make money from the show. I'm grasping at straws obviously. It's like, you know, no one's really donating. It's like what
it's like. So, I come up with new ideas like, oh, and then it but then it's like, oh, if someone donates, you know, $5 six months ago to kick off Flirty Diamond off the panel, I owe I I apparently owe them my life. I owe them my total respect. Oh, this person has helped me so much. This person that's calling me scammer, grifter, like, did I
take Flirty Diamond off the panel for five minutes? Yeah, I didn't scam them. Have I stayed? You know, have I messed up? Maybe I think three times maybe where it's like, yeah, I brought someone on the panel. Maybe that they've been kicked off. Did I refund the money every time?
Yes. I mean, it's like geez. I mean, it does, but it's like they're all It's a mob mentality, right? It's a mob mentality where it's like, "Okay, let's all oh, look, weakness like, you know, let's go go like sharks on this
person." So, anyway, um I never took any money out of a bank account, you know, somebody else's bank account. I never sold somebody's purse. Everything was consensual. It's like, oh, well, this person said that. Am I am I responsible for everything my donators say? No.
Right. Yeah. playing the victim against Gintable. But it's fine, guys. You can leave that person there. Leave that person there. They'll just I just I just want them to reveal themselves, please. Please just let them reveal themselves, right, guys? And you know, maybe people
make sure I'm held accountable, but you know, there's a I don't can't remember a time that I was not totally open. I I don't know. I don't know. And very very few people have even asked like every time every donation um that has been requested a refund of you know
that I have not um performed like I said I would. I've refunded. I mean it's like so why is why is it bad to be monetized? Do you expect me to sit here every day um and put all my time, energy, all my
thoughts, you know, spending money on Streamyard, money on the show, like put everything into the show, everything. It's like I didn't have money for the show to begin with. I I did the first I don't think I had like a you know a dollar donation for a few months you
know I got monetized people are people are welcome to join the membership I know and it's like well and it's like really distasteful to talk about other people's monetary did I ever go on anybody's channel say don't donate to this person um this you know even a
person I hated I was like and this is on purpose this too. This is like I'm going to be as as giving as I can be, as nice as I can be, just so there isn't a hint of any kind
of disparity or whatever. I I purposely let my enemies promote their shows on here. I can go to some of my enemies chats. Not enemies. I only consider they consider me their enemy. I can go to some of their chats. I can see a lot of people I've introduced them, you know, and they they can say, you know, I guess if they consider me their enemy, maybe they did
promote me at one time. Certainly not anymore. But, you know, I haven't asked I haven't that's why this is why I avoid panels, but you know, I love VA and so I went on a panel. You can guys, if you watched the episode, you can watch it. You know, you can't see it now, but you can probably watch it soon
on Rumble. You can see my attitude coming into the show that I was like, I want to go on and have fun. I want to go on and love on people. I want to go on and make up with people. I want to go on and like work things out. And it turns out like this. It turns out like this.
I can't have u I can't have any any male donating to my show instantly gets called gay. Um, and it's like not easy for like a lot of straight guys to be called because there's not a lot of gay gay men on the panel or on the channel, right? I'm the biggest, you know, queer here, right? So, instantly they get called, "Oh, you want to suck on his
dick? You're sucking his dick. Oh, you fuck." You know, it's like, I might as well just, you know, call F a g, right? Okay, I I'll do a mass unbanning. Let's just do a mass unbanning again. I'm going to unban everybody, okay? There's not going to be one banned person. I'm also going to unmod
everybody and so don't take it personally, guys. Um, I'll have to mod for myself for a little while. It's not personal. It's going to be everybody. So, it applies to everybody. There's not going to be one mod. Not one mod. Okay? And don't don't be offended. Don't be offended. I love and I love and
people that have done a great job. I appreciate you. Um there's too much going on right now with the people that I consider my friends, my mods this attacking me. It's not a good look, you know?
But I go in things like I'm not trying to like say I'm a great I'm the best person. I'm I'm like a I'm but I do I'm a loving person. I'm also really sensitive and just having people yell and scream at me and accuse me all all night. And it's like you know even with friends you know
so you can see I'm like whining about it or whatever whatever you want to say. I have to unmod everybody. I'm sorry. You know, I'll probably be remoding people as time goes on.
Not anything about anything. All it is is like I have people that I love and trust as mods. Oh, well, I'm not even going to mod for you because you do this and this. It's like and I put up I put up with it. I put up with it. You know, my mod's talking about me to my in my own chat to me sometimes.
Okay, but I love you guys. Um, but and I Okay, Nightbot will stay a mod. Everybody else, I'm so sorry. Um, it's nothing personal against anybody, okay? It's just I have to But Nightbot will remain a mod, okay? I've made people mods. I've told them,
"Go do what you want to do." like the mod. People have just
Okay, some of you have been great mods. I love so many of you. Okay, I just have to make it fair or else, you know, I'm not fair. Just taking everybody out of this community community thing. Everybody. I love everybody.
So don't don't be offended. This is for right now. This is a temporary thing. Okay? It just must be done. It must be done. Okay? So everybody is going to be
unhidden, unmoded. Please do not take offense. We'll talk about it. We'll talk about it.
Don't move.
Wow. Gay Holocaust I just saw on my screen come up. Wow. What communities am I in am I in? What have I done? Gay Holocaust. Someone just put that. It's from It's from a channel I know. Okay,
guys. Okay, but guys, just understand nothing personal against anybody. Most of you don't. I don't know. I just need to do that now because I don't know who I can trust sometimes. I love you guys. I love all of you. Okay. Just the sewer slide baiting. What
does that mean? Sewer slide baiting. Go ahead. Well, explain what that means. Can you explain what that means? What does sewer slide baiting mean? Dull, let me know. Everybody's, by the way, been on hidden. It's a free-for-all. Okay.
Take I want I want to see all the hate today. I want to see who hates me. Why? Go ahead. So if you have you have anything to say, you can say it to me, right?
Everybody, everybody's unbanned. Do you know you you hear everybody miss the 247 lives? Yeah. Well, you know, obviously if no one's going to, you know, if I'm going to put 247 in my life, but I'm not allowed to make money. I'm not allowed to ask for money, right? You don't want me to be attacked. Well, I don't know if you saw what just happened. Um,
it's it's hard. Like so many times this week I was like and people, you know, people make fun of me. Oh, you're a cry. You're crying. I'm not crying, guys. I'm not crying. I cried when my father passed away. I cried when my um my cat died today. I was told, "Oh, you let your cat get eaten by a coyote. At least Beeta takes care of her cats.
you you know you you know you let your cat get eaten by a coyote. Um,
I can, yeah, I can control the forces of nature where I can control, you know, I have like, you know, several cats. They can go inside, outside. I give my cats freedom. I think they'll have a happier life, you know. I have a small apartment. Um, and so I let them come in and out as they
please, you know, and yeah, it's maybe I've had a cat I've had a couple cats or one cat get hit by a car. I've had a cat eaten by a coyote and some cats. I don't know what happened. What happened? It's just like basically a crucifixion. Basically just like get oh that person. Oh, I mean
every just imagine like everybody screaming at you like I don't know. I really haven't seen this happen to anybody else. Like and I watch a lot of YouTube. Um I have been grateful. I've been
thankful. I I've give I give too much freedom because then it's like this person's happy. This person's not happy. this person blah blah blah. I tried to do my best. I've been here every day this year, guys. Every every I mean, it's like I missed two days. I think there's been two days this year where I haven't like, you know, got in front of the camera, no matter how I
looked. Oh, now people are saying, "Oh, I look so skinny." Well, because I've been wearing t-shirts, right? You didn't notice I used to wear flannels like every day. So, I wear t-shirts now. I'm skinny. I've always been the skinny. can show you many pictures of myself throughout the years been the same way.
It's okay. And I'm not like I'm not mad because it's like this is just a sad thing about human nature, right? It's like I don't know. I don't want to say it's jealousy or anything. I don't know what there is to be jealous of if I'm so terrible. It's like I mean it's like just leave me
alone if like you hate me so much. It's like so much hate. It's hard. And I can turn it into like other stuff. I can like alchemize it, right? I can turn it into a good situation, but it's like I people should some people should know me. Some people should know me well enough. Do you think I support racism? Do you think I support homophobia? Do you think I
support hate or sexism? You know, I try to protect people and it's like maybe I didn't do that great of a job at it before. Maybe it I have um at times, you know, gone for the drama and the you know, but it's these communities. It's like this is how they talk. A lot of these people, it's like
am I supposed to just kick off everybody? Am I supposed to like if I have like, you know, one donator left? Am I supposed to like throw them away and say, "Oh, well, you know, you said you you said the word." But it's like everybody's saying this I don't know. Um I think I get pretty much the worst of it right
on my show. They're like, "Oh yeah, I get this too. I get this too." You get So you get call You get um people every day that are saying you're dying of AIDS. You get that every day, you know? I don't know. You get every day you're just like So I'm not going to I'm not going to like about it like whine about it. I understand. I came into it
like this. Oh, did I ask for it? No. I wanted to have a fun show. Can I control who comes to the show and not? Yes and no. You can. You can't. It's like no, you can't really because anybody can come to any. It's a It's like YouTube. So, it's like unless I like, you know, put everything on members only
or private. Then what will I have? Nobody. I'll just be sitting alone. So, I try to like monetize the hate. I just guys, I do my best every day. I'm here every day. Even and I've been feeling
like such lately. Like, I've been like, it's been so hard. That's like I But, you know, I don't know. I don't care. I don't care what you say about me, you know? But
at the end of the day, I'm human being. I'm not perfect. And I do bleed like everybody else. I'm not just this person that's like, oh, you know, it's like especially when people are calling me out of my name, you know, did I I did I disrespect anybody like
personally like they've disrespected me like I mean it's like you know I've given it back to some people I've given I've mirrored some people some people I've mirrored them right you all chat. It seems the hate is what it stands for. Yeah. Isn't it sad? And it's like and maybe it's going to be good if
I like, you know, if everyone just like leaves. Like not everybody, you know, there's some people that like are good people that like me, but it's like most people um just hate me and are here just to like ruin the show and like to come try to porn bomb me. I get porn bomb all, you know, almost every day. N word bombs shows I have to delete like
hours long shows. It's like all this work you put into it and my fault for like letting people on, right? I'm like I want to do a panel show. I like I like panels like you know it's like just like I don't know. I don't know if you see how vicious it is and maybe it's like
you can say oh he's just whining he's playing. It's a low cow. Little cow. Just like lap at him. Well, you know, cows cows need grass. Okay. So, if I'm a low cow, why are you starving me? Why are you starving me to death? If I'm a low cow, why are you starving me? The people that call me this, not not everybody. I'm saying the people that call me a lowc Well, are you giving me grass so you can
give me or are you just trying to take some milk? Right. If you're gonna if you're gonna like, you know, just like try to like massacre me and take all my meat and milk, might as well pay the butcher for it, right? No, you just what? No, no, no. I I
should just be doing everything for free. I should not have any monetiz No, no matter that I got the idea from the system from them, right? No matter. No matter. No, no, no. I I'm not allowed to do it. They are they are I'm not allowed to do. Right.
Right. It's a panelist. It's a p I mean it's like and I understand it's it's like it gets but people kind of know what they're in for in that regard because the community is very similar along some of these lines. But am I an attacker? No. Have I put up with people? Guys, you see how many people I kick off? I I take them backstage. And if I put people
backstage, oh, you put up backstage. Oh my god. And it's like, and I have mods. Oh, well, bring them back. Bring them back. Bring them back. We like this person. We like this person. We like this person. Like, well, this person is like saying terrible things about me, but what the audience wants. You know, I do I do care what the audience wants, right? Hey, babe.
But I never attacked anybody like like hold on. Some of these are my supposed to be my friends, right? And they are attacking me. They're they're fine with people calling me grifter. They're fine with people calling me scam artists. They're fine with people saying I have HIV. They're like, well, you know, I got called a one time. I got told my
Punani smells. Well, you know, it's like I Yeah, I get what everything has been all those things have been said. Well, not my punani, but you know, I Oh, I'm just this filthy, disgusting, drug addict, low cal aids, a HIV, you stupid dumb, like
Am I that dumb? I mean, it's like, so anyway, I signed up for you signed up for uh I didn't sign up just to be abused. It's like, you know, and there's panelists on other show. I don't know. You guys know what I'm talking about.
First thing I did when I as soon as I could, I got this computer so I could improve the show. The first thing I did, actually, I got a loan for it. Okay. I got a loan for it. I got a loan for it so I could do this, right? So I could get out.
It was for you. It was for you guys. It's all I have it all set up. I all set up for the show. Like the VR doesn't work and everything. It's like all all that matters is the camera's working, the Streamyard's working. I'm able to go on easier. Um,
right, He-Man. But I'm not going to like dilute myself. I'm not going to do two shows. I mean, then like imagine that now I have to do two shows without getting paid for it, right? And build up another channel and like that, right? No, I'm not not going to separate it. The
show is what the show is going to be. The show is like it's like freedom. It's like freedom to come on the panel. It was supposed to be, you know, come on the panel, talk to me. I went into my uh my south node, my Aquarius thing, right? similar, but he got at least he got he got I mean he makes half a billion
dollars, you know, and puts up with less drama than I've had on the show lately, right?
People don't even want me to make $10, like $5, $10, like $1. Like, they get mad over $1, right? Oh my god, you donated. Every donator gets attacked. I'm sorry. That's not No, don't even if you want to donate, you can just do this. do um the do cash app and I'll keep it anonymous because I don't want people getting attacked for donating to
me. I'm sorry if you have been and it's like it's it's a shame too. Who would do that? Like I don't even see that happen on any other channel. It's like always okay, you know, I just don't know like why is like I'm the exception. But then again, I'm a Capricorn. I am um Capricorns are notorious for being scapegoed. If you're
a Capricorn, when you know, you know, right? Literally the goat, the scapegoat. Okay? It's like I'm blamed for the drama in the panovers, right? I'm blame like or anything bad that happens. Any anything that's said to anybody, it's my fault if I didn't, you know, I don't want to I don't want to Hold on.
I just want Hold on. No, I can't.
But I but I but I really did. I went on the show. I went on that show. My friend's show I consider my best friend. Okay. My best friend who I would like do anything for. I would do anything for her.
I don't have many friends. That's my best friend. She doesn't even like me. You know, when your best friend hates you, it's like,
wow. Best friends.
No, I I don't I can't play content because it's like I'll just get if it was me playing content you guys know like I would just be instantly like you know copyright strike. Oh you know it's like any you know I'm not allowed to share I can barely even I'm afraid to use my content sometimes you know. Oh.
Uh, I'm in the clip. I'm going to be dog. You're doxing. H dumb. It's hard. It's not easy. I mean, it's like, and you think other people that run panels and they're like, "Oh, we're just doing this for fun." Fun. This is what you can think is fun.
I have so much fun in the show. But is it like also like the hardest thing I've ever done in my life? Yes. Is it the saddest thing? Is have I been hurt more on the show than have been bullied more, hated more, you know, than any any time in my life? It's not all
fun. It's not all fun and games. It's a lot of work. It's a lot of energy. I poured myself into this. At the end of the day, I'll have this. I'll have my I'll have my show. I'll have the show, you know. I'll have these episodes on. You know, that'll be it. That's this is it. This is my this is my life. Like it's not
just fun for me. It's my life. So it's serious and it gets scary sometimes. I can't and I'm not allowed to share. Wow. I'm like really struggling right now, you know. Please help because if I I did that once. Oh my god, he's begging for food. He's begging for food. He's begging for this. Oh, he's be he beggar.
I mean, and it's like I it's like I'm not allowed to so I I have to, you know, I always have to put on a good face and be strong. And um you know, sometimes I fade into the background. By the way, guys, you know,
I'm sorry if I'm like if I hurt anybody's feelings or anything, but I don't mean to. Not mad. I'm not crying. You I'm not crying. There's not a tear. I'm not wearing these glasses cuz I'm crying. Okay. Right. I'm not I don't cry. I'm my
the only the only thing I would cry for is like a life, you know.
Unfortunately, I've had to cry for some lives, you know, like lives like, you know, people lose their life. And that's just me missing the people, right? Or like wanting the people back.
swap magic people. Yeah, you're talking about Goatia then, right? But it's like I know Goatia though. I'm not afraid of Ziggy. I don't The thing about Goatia is like there's ways of like first of all, not all the Goetic demons are demons. You know, some of
them are they're they're kind of demi- goods or de, you know, they're they're not all of them are evil. Some of them are just demonized right? Right. Right. Okay. Yeah. So, but it's like the Yeah. Yeah. He's in the swamp, right? But when you're dealing with like
some of the the higher ones, you know, it's not it's not it's it's hard to explain. I can't really talk about it here because people will be like, "What the is he talking about?
The guisha first of all is flawed because it's like it treats the demons like you know or you have to bind them, chain them and order them instead of like talk to them, hear their side of the story, listen to them, find out like the truth. It's about, oh,
I want to make, you know, some money. How where do I find the treasure? Blah blah blah blah blah. Right? It's like it's people you don't so that's it's like a different it depends on your intention. It depends on basically your heart. So there's a really good
quote I saw recently and it says the truth is revealed to those only to those with a certain thing. the the truth, right? And that's like a loving heart, right? Kind of simple. Let
me see. Black RG. It's my channel. I know. But it goes to Yumi. It's like what? Yumi. All I saw all I know about Yumi is like she's like this nice Indonesian lady. I mean, I don't I hardly know her. Like, you know, I I meet people on the panel. Yumi, I like what I don't really I'm not really in the chat like that. And it's like she was just hi, how are you, Psyche? How?
Hi, Mr. Psyche. How are you today? You know, are you okay? you know, that's all I hear. I don't see like the racism and it's maybe that the racist she was racist in some chat to somebody and then it's like when it when I when I finally did see it on mine, it's like okay well yeah guys I get like thousands and thousands of comments, you know, in the
comment section. I can't and I'm trying to run the show and it's hard to keep track of everything. Okay, so all I saw was like she's getting attacked in this chat. I'm getting attacked. She's been telling me, "These people are the flying monkeys." Then they're literally on their show. It has a circus tent, wings, a monkey, and a circus tent. Oh, here's a flying monkeys. And they're proud of
it. And they they they're not only Most flying monkeys wouldn't have the gall to actually say, "I'm a flying monkey," right? These do. You know, that's the kind of flying monkeys there. They're proud to be flying monkeys. They're public flying monkeys. They're they are promoting that they're flying monkeys. Okay. So, I'm like, "Okay, she's right about that. I see her being attacked.
I'm I was fine with her. Then it's like, how can I How can I micromanage everybody? I can't. Can I
stop watching for what? Yumi and Ghost influence. Buying influence. Well, you know, at the time Ghost donated, nobody else was really donating and I was actually able to like have my best month ever on the on YouTube. I don't know. It's like it's kind of like,
you know, it's kind of like a buying influence. Well, then try to buy some influence. I don't know. It's like really you don't really have to buy influence. It's like you can be influential like just like today Spunky says take this person off. I took the person off. That person was a
member. Is Spunky a member? I don't know. I don't think so. Has Spunky donated? Yes, she has. Spunky has donated. But um that that I wasn't really thinking about or remembering that. But yeah, she she did. She bought me some really cool stuff. I mean, but these are donators. So guys, you
know, like uh like a college, right? And a college will have donators and sometimes a college will like let the person's kids in because they're actually supporting. So if people actually support the show, I mean, Black RG, have you donated a penny? I mean, it's like or become a member or anything. It's like I'm going
to like if people are actually supporting me, putting food in my mouth, right? They don't deserve like a like a little like recognition from me. They don't deserve to at least get their money's worth. I don't want to like say, "Oh, well, you gave it. Oh, you you donated. Well, then you can't." It's
like I I don't know. I have I have systems. If they overdonate and stuff like that, maybe I'll I don't know. But you have actually what? Go ahead. You have actually what? What is it? You giving me good advice? Yeah, I remember you black RG like when
you helped me out that time, but I remember other stuff too, right?
The point is you don't have to donate. I would have you on the panel. I mean, I didn't have you on the panel one night because you were like kind of trying to harp on me, right? Oh, you have I had no idea. Black RG. Well,
you know,
I could donate a penny a penny to somebody. I could I could donate $1 super chat. for the rest of that person's life I'll say I'm a donator I'm a donator right it's not really about the donator or stuff like that I have a service I provide the service you know I try to make it fair right so if you if you go buy something
you know you get something in return usually right or else what I'm going to be considered right it's a no-win situation right okay let's have a Hold on. Be very careful today. Very careful.
It's me. >> Okay. Hi. >> I'm not going to porn. All right. There you go. No, the reason why I wanted to come up the other day and you wouldn't let me on is you looked aw >> I was just I was not looking at the I was not looking at the TV. >> Well, no. You looked absolutely horrible. Your eyes were bugged out of your head. You were rocking back and forth. You were talking very You had very paranoid thoughts and you you were
completely bugging out and people were trying to manipulate you at the same time. You actually had me worried which is is why I came up. Um I don't know what that was all about. If it's lack of sleep or or maybe whatever it was, you you didn't look healthy. Um, and as far as your channel goes, like you can have people, you know, donate uh large amounts and and have influence over your
stream, but you know, people are going to choose not to watch. I came here four or five times. >> Tell them not to watch. Go away then. Go away. >> I'm trying to have a conversation with you. Relax. >> I know. No, no, no, no, no. >> Listen, it's your channel. Do run it the way you want to run it. >> I am. I am. And I am. there. Why are there people that are >> Why are you bugging out on me? What the
did I do to you? I'm just trying to have a conversation with you. I'm not attacking you in any way. >> Well, first person came up saying, "Oh, your eyes are bugging out. You look all par blah blah blah blah." >> No, you didn't look healthy that day. I came up cuz I was worried about you like legitimately. >> Sure. >> You know what? All right. You know what? You don't want help. You don't want people to look out for you. That's fine. Keep could keep doing what you're doing
because it's working out fantastic. later.
>> Yeah. Well, that's real helpful. I mean, that's very like really helpful advice. You know, if you don't like the show, if you don't want to donate, don't. I mean, it's like,
yeah exactly. The charisma Samantha not trying to help. Not trying to help. He's not trying to help. Okay. He's not He's not a lover of psyche, okay? Not
not a Please. I mean, come on.
They couldn't have the conversation. Maybe not the right time, RG. Maybe maybe work on your timing with that. You know, when I come up, I had you up. You know, you were able to talk. You kicked yourself off. I was going to talk. I was willing to talk. I'm not kicking anybody off or anything. I'm letting everybody up. Just uh
I don't know, RG. I don't know. Super helpful though. I'm not really looking for help or anything. I'm just like expressing myself right now. not looking for like, oh, oh, someone else is going to have the answer. I have the answers for myself. Okay, I let me just do my thing. I'm okay. And I am running
my show like I want to do. Okay, whatever. I mean, Jesus Christ. I mean, of all people of all people. Oh, I'm here to help. Oh, what a helper. Thank you so much. Thank you so much. Sure. That whatever you're going to say was going to be super helpful. Sure. Whatever.
Yeah. Did I ask? Yeah. Did I ask? Oh, I need I need to I need to I need the answer. No, I know the answer. The answer is just I'm being attacked for like basically no reason. I'm being pushed into a corner. People screaming at me, right? How about like someone to listen? Okay. How about someone to listen? That's what I'm looking for right now. I'm not
looking for the answer. I know the answers. Okay. I sound like asking for advice when you say, "I don't know what to do." Well, I don't know what to do. Okay. Well, maybe I don't know. Maybe I'm I'm sounding helpless or whatever. I know what to do. I know what to do. I know what to do, which is what I'm
doing. I'm running my show. I'm talking. this is what the show is. I'm running a show. So, I don't need to be told what to do. That's the thing. It's like I don't like to be told what to do or what I need to do or that kind of thing. That's the problem in the first place. I know it's I know I'm doing my thing. The problem is
getting attacked. Did it blow you? Okay. Well, see that's just like that's that's what was behind it, right? Just blow blow me. Okay. Yeah. Anyway, I was willing to have a conversation and get have people like, you know, give
their opinions and stuff like that, but I don't need to be told what to do. I know what to do. I'm doing fine. Actually doing fine.
Okay.
And this pot sucks.
I like uh I like uh I like charisma.
I'm just expressing myself and I'm but I'm I'm allowing you to if you want to hate on me, go ahead and hate on me. Like, you know, I was I'm not going to kick out anybody for hating on me. Just like stay within the toos and stuff like that. But I really want people to think, why are you hating on me? Like what is it about me that is
making everybody like flip? I mean it's like I really went into like you can watch the episode. You can watch the episode. You can see I was having so much fun like couple hours ago. I was like laughing. We were all laughing. The chat was laughing. I was you know stri stripping and it was just like it was
fun. That that's what it's about. It's not about like just Uh, but I just get this hate. What's this hate? He was coming from a good place. Maybe it's just like, like I said, it's like the timing. I'm like, I'm not I don't want to be told, oh, you look like this, you look like that, you're bugging out,
you're bug, you know, you're blah blah blah. It's like, no. It's like, and I know these are local cow farmers that are like doing this stuff, right? It's like so it's like am I going to really take that much advice from a local farmer who calls me a low cow and thinks of me as a local cow and that kind of thing, right? Maybe not you specifically like you know but a lot of lot of people
are these local cow farmers see me as some joke right? I'm here to make you laugh. I'm here to entertain. I'm here to like facilitate conversations and have fun. I It's just like It's just like why can't people
just have fun? I want to have fun. It's like I want to have good conversation. Yeah. People just get me so wrong. It's like it's like I feel so misunderstood and it's like are you guys watching? I'm here like every day for hours, you know, expressing myself and it's like I still
you don't you don't know me. You don't know like you don't really like you don't like see that I'm like not a monster. No, you don't. I like see the good in everybody. I like to try to find the good in everybody.
And I'm not mad at anybody. And it's like I'm not even mad at RG or whatever. Like I was just like I just not in the mood to like be lectured about what I'm doing wrong and blah blah blah blah blah. Am I doing something wrong? I don't think so. I think I'm doing like a lot of stuff right. I'm actually This was my best It's my best month. It's like
people that get me will get me. People that won't they won't. I just want to like basically say you just hate me. It's you hate me. Why are you here? Why are you here? It's fun to hate somebody. That's your entertainment is like, "Oh, I hate this person so much. Let me go spoil their
day. Let me go ruin their chat. Let me go ruin their You hate me that much? What did I ever do to you? What did I ever do to you? Did I did I do something to anybody? Like I'm really just trying that's what I'm trying to figure out. Somebody has the answer to that. What did I do to you? Rather than just people with their
opinions about like, you know, this and this, they don't like this, they don't like this. What did I do to you? I'm here for like what? Why? Why does Emma have a channel and she's allowed to kick out who she wants and she's allowed to have her mods take out people and you know and her moms listen to her and like like her and then it's like if I ask my
moms to do something it's like they don't like oh well you just change your mind well I can change my mind about later it's like and it's like I appreciate the good mods and stuff like that but it's like but people are begging me mods and it's like and people take it so seriously and they don't do a good job for me. Like some
people do, some people do. But it's like wow. How about do you like me? I need to buy my audience. I need to find my real audience. It's just like I just What is this like? Just like trying to like destroy me. Really? That's what I want to know.
I guys I I watch a I mean I I don't really participate that much in other panels but I'm I'm there you know and I see stuff and it's like and I see what's said and I see how some people you know and some people are treated unfairly but at least they have like and I and I do have good people. I do have good people, but it's like and the good people too like they they'll they'll like I don't
know do people realize I don't like to be told what to do. I don't like to be harped on. It's like and it's like oh it's like everyone has how much I just like follow my lead um work with me like why is it always a fight? Like what I don't know that's the questions I want to know. Not
not not much is going on like that. I mean, I do have questions, but it's like, do I really am I going to get the answer? I mean, I know the answer. I'm going to get I'm going to get know what answers, right?
Yeah. And it's like then there's people like and you know it's like if I have a guest on there like sometimes the guests will be controversial. Maybe people people hate the guest sometime but it's like yeah that's when it's like you know if they come up and you can come up and have a have it out with them. It's like, "Oh, ban this person. Ban this person. They don't don't have this person on the show. Don't have this person on the
show. They did this. They did this." It's like, "I'm not going to go research everybody's criminal record. I'm not going to go look at what they what, you know, if they, you know, spit on their, you know, kindergarten teacher and stuff like that." I mean, it's like this is not really not part of it's like I'm just here to like So, I don't I don't know everybody's background. Some people
I know better than others. Um but it's like I mean and it's like oh yeah just run your show but yeah but then it's like you know people will just like come and know just more attack I don't know. Yeah
but guys thank you for letting me express myself. Thank you for letting me express myself and just, you know, I'm not here to like, you know, cry for hours and whatever. And it's like, you know, it's just uh you don't like me,
leave me alone, okay? Don't come to the show. Don't Don't It's like I I'm looking for an audience of people that at least like me, right? at least like like me or at least respect me, right? Oh, I'm disrespecting myself. I'm
doing blah blah blah. No, it's like no that people that will say that are disrespecting me. Okay, I am respecting myself. I'm taking care of myself. I'm alive. I'm 44 years old. I'm a grown adult. I'm uh you know, it's like it's just too much hate. It's scared. You're people have scared away
every every new person that comes in, every donator, every person that shows me any kindness. Oh, go suck on his dick. Go suck Psyche's dick more. Right? Anybody that says, "Hey, you know, you're okay, Psyche. Go suck his dick." That's what I'm talking about. I'll have him back on. Hold on one sec.
Yeah. Can we try this again? Please. >> Okay. I'll just listen. I'm just going to listen. You You talk. >> Well, no. I'm not going to put you down or anything. Like, and the only reason why I brought up the other day is because you said I didn't allow you on panel. And I And I was just telling you the reason why I came up. You know, it could have been anything. You just maybe you were sick that day and didn't feel well. That's all. It wasn't a tax
psyche. >> Okay. >> And this Yumi broad uh she she's in here under and all. She's a very strange person. uh very very strange and she she's starting a lot of trouble and I've noticed a lot of people that come from the the people's podcast uh kind of try to use your platform to start with
other communities, right? I don't know if that's true or not true, right? >> Because your your panel seems to be a melting pot of different communities, right? And not everyone's going to get along. All right. >> What's what's the matter? Why? Why you look all upset? >> Um I don't know if you saw what happened at BEA's um chat, but you know, Summer
just started attacking me. I have people that are my mods. You know, if you're my mod, you shouldn't be like calling me a grifter. You shouldn't be calling me a scam artist. You should understand that I'm not these things. You should know me well enough to know that I'm not. You shouldn't say I'm just after dick and and money and stuff like that. I mean, it's like, so if you're a mod and saying these things, it's like, wow, why are you a mod? Like it's like I need I want
like you know and it's like you're supposed to be my friend. Why are you saying those things? Like it hurts. It's like because even like who I consider my best friends in this community and stuff like that are just hating on me. >> They're still your friends. They're still your friends. There's ups and downs with this. Like you've had many many ups and downs. Correct.
>> Um yeah, but I mean it's like I've had like a lot of fun but it's like it's just like it's like I'm having less fun. I'm like under more stress. I'm >> maybe take a break for a week. That won't won't hurt you, >> you know. But I have to be consistent because it is I'm running a show and yeah, but I do have to >> if something's not working, maybe it's it's time to take a a time out, even if
it's just for a few days and figure it out. >> People are people keep bringing things up from like six months ago and like, you know, it's like, yeah, have I made mistakes along the way? Sure. Does anybody make mistakes? I started streaming in January. That's when I I mean I started doing my live panels in January. I started streaming last year. So I've been at this relatively for a short time and it's like and I know I
came out of Benny's and like you know IP2 community and it's like and then I know how some of them do think of people as little cows and are kind of cruel behind the scenes and stuff like that but it's like even like low cows it seem to get better treatment than I do. I mean it's like I get treated not >> going on and on about too. Uh, and I didn't know where that came from.
>> That's how that's how people are that's what people are calling me constantly. That's why I see it constantly. You're just a local cow. We're just here to laugh at you. We're just here to like, you know, you know, >> I don't think that's true. And I deal with low cows. Jimmy is my lowc uh Janet's quickly becoming my number two. And I wouldn't put you in that category. I haven't with you like I have uh the cows.
>> But what you don't want to do >> consider myself. Okay. I don't consider you one either, but I what I wouldn't do is even put that out there. Wh why put that into the world? >> They are it's they are putting it out there. It's being said about me. I know, but it's being said anyway. And it's like and so, you know, I understand like some of the people the audience is like just like, you know, there to like make
fun of people and stuff, but I see there's some people they respect. I mean, they just like love some people and are kind to some people and in people's chats and it's like and then it's like, oh, look at that. It's just like I've just get so denigrated and it's like and I've helped people. I've I've helped people as much as I can. I said I let anybody can come promote their channel. I've let you and yes, you have now I remember when you did donate,
you know, and it was like, you know, maybe to promote your show or whatever, but it's like I would have let you promote your show for free, you know. It's like it wasn't necessary to to even donate. I let everybody donate. I've had you as a mod, too. And it's like, you know, >> Yeah. And it's like, you know, and I don't think you're a bad mod. And um >> I don't care if I'm mod or not. And I I hate when people and complain
about wrenches, especially when people mod with their feelings. Like I saw this Yumi person time out half your chat uh last week. And I haven't I used to watch almost every day. I don't do that as much anymore, but that will probably change. Uh and and it's mostly it's because I I don't like a lot of your guests, but that doesn't mean they're always going to be there. Like I I kept and I kept saying you allow Ghost to buy
this and whatever, you know, and maybe there's some truth to that, maybe there's not, but I don't think it's always going to be like that, but I mean I I think what where people get frustrated is, you know, Ghost was a heavy donator, right? And then >> he's not donating, but >> like don't get hung up on that. Let me finish. Good. But let me just tell you, Archie, Ghost is like, "I'm not going to donate anymore because everyone's saying
I'm gay and I'm getting attacked and someone called my brother and my family." >> Of course, he's going to get >> Look at his behavior. >> Look, I came over here and he's sexually harassing uh Paige and every other female guest. People don't want to watch that. >> He was on with Paige and Alexandra and Summer last night and everyone was
getting along fine. everybody. >> Okay, maybe that's true. But it's not always like that. And it's great when everyone gets along, you know, and like some people love Alex, some people hate Alex. Sometimes, personally, I like Alex, sometimes I don't like him, but they they're very strong personalities. >> Talking about talking about Alexandra, not Alex McQueen. Talk about >> Oh. Oh, Alex. Alexandra. I do like uh
she's got massive balls on her, dude. She kind of rules. Uh, and I hate >> but I also like Tommy. So I can like Tommy and like Alex, too. Like just like I like you and I like Sam, man. You don't have to pick sides all the time, >> right? >> But I'd rather have people that at least come on the show at least like me. Like,
you know, it's like I want to be >> I think people do like you until But but they see someone like Ghost sexually harass somebody and they blame you for it for allowing it. But but Ghost is like that's his personality. If you know Ghost, he doesn't mean harm. He doesn't mean harm by it. He was Alexander. I kic I kicked him off the panel. I kicked him off the panel >> just like Yi is.
>> Okay. Well, not everybody's going to be everybody's favorite, but at least >> Of course not. That's what I was just saying. You can't please everybody. >> Me. I want people to respect my show and me. And that's the whole thing. It's like or like I can't it's it's too it's it's getting too much where it's like people are asking too much of me and like and then accusing me of like of like trying to like you know
like do >> I think you're letting the donation thing hurt you. Uh honestly there's an easy way to fix that. >> I honestly I would set uh rules up front that apply towards everything. Right. I do like RG they're posted in my description the channel. I know, but they don't always get >> I know they don't, but it's like rules
don't always get followed. And it's like no matter how many times I've shouted about the panel rules, people will still say the n word. >> You'll let someone throw 200 like 200 and something dollars at you and that, you know, will void out a different rule. Just keep it consistent. >> And I think donator need a different I'm going to look at a donate like some people that have donated a large amount a little bit different. And it's like,
I'm sorry, that's just the way things are because I don't have that many donators. And so they stand out. >> Then people are going to get frustrated and you're going to have this happen all >> Yeah. over again. >> Consistency is better. Psych. >> Nobody's required to. Yeah. But yeah, but nobody's required to donate. And I just I'm fair with the donations and stuff like that. Like >> I'm not saying >> I don't I don't I don't know how I'm
applying rules differently to people like people basically, you know, I'll treat people the same. And it's like I treat people the same. I but I'll give people that buy services, I'll let them, you know, give them their money. >> Let them sexually harass a female panelist for hours and hours. >> No, no. For hours and hours. So, you're you're being very >> I'm just telling you what I saw. >> So, that happens.
>> And I'm not I'm not attacking you. >> Sexually I know, but if someone feels sexually harassed, you know, then they, you know, they feel like, you know, then they can leave and, you know, they don't have to be here. >> You did. That's exactly what I did is I stopped watching. >> But I came back. It's not always like that. >> No, no, no. I I don't I don't like watching females get harassed. It upsets.
>> Okay. Well, I don't like I don't like I don't like it either, but it's like then again, it's like Paige and like Alexandra were like I would kick him off the panel. Alexander's like, "Bring him back. I don't care." I can even say rude things. Like it's like yes, I I believe that the females are strong enough to defend themselves and if they feel harassed then they um you know they can
like either like let me know hey you know get this this is too much like get this guy off or they can like leave and it's like and that goes for anybody. It's like if you know no one's no one's forced into like a room with people and I'm not forcing them together and it's like oh you know it's like they're here people are here of their own free will. That's what I'm saying >> right. It's like that's
>> you know and people are gonna they're gonna vote with their views. Meaning if they don't stop watching my views >> no one's attacking you. Come on calm down a little bit. >> But like I said it's not it's not it's not the views for me. Okay. It's not it's not wow I have 53 people >> because if you get under 20 you get really >> no under 20. If I have under 20 that are
harassing me and stuff. If I have five people that are good and like we I can have a conversation. I'm happy with five people that are good. If I have a hundred people that are just like all attacking me, you know, I'm I don't want like a hundred people attacking me. I'd rather have five people being, you know, being cool and cordial and having fun. It's not about like and I don't like people getting harassed. I don't like people being called names. I have rules.
I lay them out. I kick people off. And it's like, you know, I kick ghost off, you know, if if he goes too far. And it's like I think that it's like, you know, it's really >> if you think you're being fair consistent, that's that's a different story then, >> right? I think I'm being >> I don't think you're obviously not happy. You're obviously upset. So, you need to figure out what's not working. >> Yeah. Right. And I I know and I will
reach fool. But it's like I know I'm not happy because I was just at BEA's panel and I had five people screaming at me like my mods or former mods all screaming at me saying really terrible things about you know I've been told I have HIV. >> Those people are your friends. Why are they upset with you? Can you figure that out? Yes, I can figure that out because they were really never my friends. Like
obviously I didn't do anything to them. I didn't do anything to these people. Okay. What is like, oh well, you know, you you didn't say hi to me in chat. You put me backstage for five minutes. You unmoded me. It was like the stupidest little thing. It's like, well, yeah, because I run my show like I want to. And it's like what? They people like you're talking about I don't people
>> I don't think it's fair to say they were never your friends. I think they're they still are your friends. They're just upset this way. >> No, Bronzebird. No, like people are saying, "Oh, Bronzeberg was your supporter." I never thought he was a good guy and he was your supporter. >> No, he wasn't. No, he wasn't. He one time he like," and I'm not saying, "Okay, if you have to donate to be a supporter," but like, yeah, people are
saying, "Oh, he donated. He donated." Yeah, he donated six months ago to have Flirty Diamond banner to your channel. Um I well see I don't I've also brought like >> I didn't just >> even when I was mad at him even when I was mad at him I yeah but people for for the right reasons even when I was mad at him I said hey I was like you know go
check out his channel go support him don't be trolling don't be mean to him you know and that's what I say about everybody go ahead I've seen so many people say no outside promotion no like that's like maybe that's a smart thing to do because it's like people have just taken advantage of people People have right and people have come in here and like they said, "Oh, well, I'm live right now. Come come come to my live." Right? And people have actually said
that right? >> I've seen you send people over to other people's lives. >> Right. >> I've seen you do that many times. >> I will. >> And my point is something isn't working right now, right? You're friends and they are your friends. I don't care what you say. >> It's fine. It's It's fine. It's It's a community. It's a community. It's a community. It's like >> I think I honestly need to take a step back >> and figure it out, dude. Well, thank you
for your advice. I appreciate you and thank you for being >> That's all I got. Uh Yumi is a weirdo and I would keep her far away. But again, it's your it's your channel. Uh I I'm watching her randomly pick fights with people people. She makes people feel uncomfortable. Uh and you were talking about local behavior that she's a good example of it to be honest
with you. Okay. >> All right. Have a have see this Charisma Handis. This is his own baggage, right? B Bronze Bird was never a supporter. He only joins for cursing and lure viewers to his panel. That's not true because uh Bronze Bird has been here for a while. Uh and you're using your personal bias to try to manipulate sites. >> Bronze Bird hasn't been here for months.
He's been beat, you know, I only see my beta's channel and then he came here last night to just troll. >> I used to watch you all call me a scammer screaming call me a scammer. Call me a jitter. Bringing up Emma, bringing up Alisa, saying, "Oh, they don't want to with you." You are people's opinions change. And why are they changing? >> Because Some of these people are and they've never changed. He's been the same.
>> Maybe you're right, dude. >> Maybe it's everyone else. >> You know, it is everyone else. It is. >> Take a step back. That's a step back. >> Thank you for your advice. Take care. I'm fine. >> Y is the weirdo. Uh, that's all. Later. >> Okay. Well, see. Yeah. And it's like and is that considered well now now Yumi is gonna be like oh you were let in my t and she's not going to say that right but it's like you know it's like am I
like just people say things and am I responsible for that and I know I'm just using that example right it's like I can't control what people say on their way out sometimes right like and so but he he wanted to say that on on the way out right and so you know I don't have a like basically you know I didn't like some of the racial stuff and I don't
like racial stuff I I guys, I detest racism. I detest homophobia. I'm a gay man. Look, if you see the homophobia I put up with on this pan, like my on this channel, right? This is like, is there any gay man that will that will uh put up with that? I mean, besides me, I can't think of any I can't think of any. I can't think of a gay man
that was like, "Hey, you can go ahead say F A G O T." And that's what I I I did allow that for several until I got monetized. I would allow that. I was like that's that word doesn't offend me because I I don't take it as personal. I don't like it when it's like you know said because it's against toos and it's and stuff like that, right? And so that's why I said don't say that. I mean
it's like but you know I don't care. People are constantly saying the n word. Oh soft a hard e er they're black they're allowed to say it. They're you know so but I'm not allowed to say anything. Okay. Anyway, I don't want to I don't want this to be like a, you know, a big cry session. I just want to
say um you know, I'm here. I love you guys. Um most of you um you know, you know who you are that hate me. And it's like if you hate me, I just don't regard you, okay? It's like you have something to say, you don't have to do it, shame me
publicly, yell at me like I'm some like, you know, piece of garbage. Um, I don't know. Seems like really mean-spirited. I guess people do hate me and it's fine. It's fine. It's fine. I I guess I asked for it, right, Summer? I asked for it, right? I just asked to be hated, right? I asked to be hated,
denigrated, you know. I asked for, you know, anybody that supports me to be told, "Oh, you're just sucking his dick." You know, you know. Yeah. I asked for my donators to be harassed. I asked for that, right?
I didn't ask for that. I don't want it. I've really tried to have people like, you know, give people chances to get along and stuff like that. Um, I've really tried and it's like what? Well, look, you know, at this point,
what? Maybe if everyone hates me, then I'll just go away.
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