The Truth Behind the Screens

I was the one who stayed

when the lights went black.

Held everybody up

while my soul cracked.

They threw my name in fires,

watched the smoke rise high,

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>> turned truth into a weapon,

then looked me in the eyes,

said I was dangerous,

said I lost my mind. But every scar they

gave me still couldn't make me blind.

I loved with open hands,

they loved with hidden knives.

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>> And somehow I survived it

a thousand different nights.

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>> Now I walk through

ghosts of the people that I knew.

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>> Every lie they ever told

still echoes like the truth.

But after all the hatred,

after all the blame,

there's still a fragile

light

burning through my veins.

>> I just want to

>>

love

without fear this time,

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>> without being

crucified

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>> for having a heart

alive.

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>> Accused and escaped all the

>>

>> slandered

in the

dark, but they could not kill

the softness in my heart.

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>> No, they could not turn me cold.

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>> No, heaven knows they tried.

I still reach for human

hands even

after being

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>> sacrificed.

I just want to

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>> People love your warmth

until it shines too bright,

then suddenly your kindness becomes the

thing they fight.

I learned silence slowly,

learned masks in empty rooms, learned

betrayal blooms fastest from people

closest to you.

And every time I trusted

something beautiful died.

But I kept the door cracked open

somewhere deep inside.

Cuz I refuse to become everything that

hurt me,

>> refuse to build a kingdom made of

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bitterness and debris.

Maybe I'm naive,

maybe I'm insane,

maybe loving deeply is just

another form of pain, but I would rather

break

than never feel it all. Rather

bleed honestly

than build another

wall. I just

want to

Even after

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>> Even after every rumor

Tried to cross

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>> my door.

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>> They called

me cursed.

They called me

wrong but

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>> my heart kept

singing

underneath

it all.

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>> And if the

walls are broken,

then let me break

different.

Let me stay

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>> human

in a world

that's

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>> turning

different.

I just want to love.

That's all

I ever wanted.

That's all I ever was.