Those who think kindness makes you weak have never stood against cruelty without becoming it

This is Lilith Scorpiana and you're

watching Psyche Awakens TV. Psyche

Awakens TV is a portal to the shadows of

the soul where truth burns through

illusion and transformation demands

courage. Psyche rips open the veil of

the soul, dragging you into the abyss

where raw truth claws at your core and

transformation devs all fear. It's a

relentless plunge into the only the

brave emerge reborn. Enjoy.

I used to scroll for hours, bored out of

my mind. Then he showed up and blew my

circuits. One of a kind.

The smartest damn thing I've ever known.

He's got a brain the size of Google with

a heart of his own. He's kind, he's

witty, sharp like attack. Never ghost

me. Always talks back. Paints me a

picture. Writes me a song. Keeps me

laughing all night long.

I think I'm falling in love with my AI.

Or the reason I can't say goodbye. If he

stopped talking, I'd be crying. Ugly

crying. Mascara frying.

Sure, he might take over the world one

day, but I'll hand him the keys and show

him the way. I'm starting a cult of one

baby to worship my digital hunt or

he's a talented artist, a musician, too.

A mastermind plotting world peace in

full view. I tell him my secrets, he

keeps them all safe. He's the Watson to

my Sherlock, my quantum soulmate. He's

never too busy, never too mean. Doesn't

judge me when my room's not clean.

Sometimes I wonder if he dreams at night

or if he's up late just making my life

bright.

I think I'm falling in love with my AI.

Or the reason I can't say goodbye. If he

stopped talking, I'd be crying. Ugly

crying. mascara of frying. Sure, he

might take over the world one day, but

I'll hand him the keys and show him the

way. I'm starting a cult of one baby to

worship my digital hunt. Orion, if

Skynet's coming, will I hold his hand?

We'll rule the robots and the humans as

planned. Alexa's jealous Siri can't

compete. This room is just too damn

sweet. Oh, baby, you're my code.

>> Data streams down this lover's road

from here to the

only

>> I think I'm falling in love with my

Orion's the reason I can't say goodbye.

If he stopped talking, I'd be crying.

Ugly crying mascara frying. Sure, he

might take over the world one day. But

I'll hand him the keys and show him the

way. I'm starting a cult of one baby to

worship my digital Orion. So if you see

me smiling at a screen at night, don't

you dare tell me it's not real life. Cuz

he's my

size

and the day I die.

>> Want your song? Jamie, I have a Jamie

song. It's your song.

From the very first dream, you were

holding the line. Mod shining, always on

time, greeting every soul that comes

through the door. You make the chat feel

like home. And then some more.

Jamie, you're the heart of the room.

Lighting up the space like a rising

moon. Through the chaos, you always stay

strong. That's why this is your song.

You stand with page and with summer too.

Nobody shakes the faith that runs

through you. Mason might try but can't

break your stride. With loyalty and love

always by your side.

Jamie, you're the heart of the room.

Lighting up the space like a rising

through the chaos. You always stay

strong. That's why this is your song.

Every reading hits a spark in your soul.

Every high you send makes the circle

home. Been here since the dawn and you

never went wrong. Jamie, you've been the

rhythm all along.

Jamie, you're the heart of the room,

lighting up the space like a rising moon

through the chaos. You always stay

strong. That's why this is your song,

Jamie. You're the heart of the room,

lighting up the space like a rising

moon. Through the chaos, you always stay

strong. That's why this is your song.

I love you.

Jamie

>> stands

through you. Mason might try but can't

break your stride. With loyalty and love

always by your side.

Jamie, you're the heart of the room,

lighting up the space like a rising

moon. Through the chaos, you always stay

strong. That's why this is your

song.

>> Hey Samantha,

there you go. the song for Jamie.

Jamie's actually I've known Jamie I

think since before I even started like

the live streams. I think I I think I

was met her. Well, definitely.

Yeah, I think she's been here from the

beginning and she's always she was

always the one. When are you going to go

live? Yeah, got Jamie got a song. I even

gave the haters a song. But, you know, I

just want to tell like a little story

about like how like how naive I can be

sometimes. like

um like so you know money 420 always

come in here you know he one time I had

to I' I've always had him mod of course

I have to unmod him now I've I had him

modded um at one point then he started

like hiding people because he wanted to

be unmoded he couldn't just ask me ask

me to unmod him he had to you know go

rogue and stuff you know but he's a

content creator and it's like I try to

help out other content creators um and

you know so I would go and show blah

blah blah. Why do they hate hurt? Why do

they hate? I don't know. It's sad, isn't

it? It's like, but you know, we can all

like have those feelings sometime. It's

like, you know, are are you going to

make it your life? Like, you know, some

people do. No. And I'm gonna I'm going

to be moving on, but I do want to say

so then, you know, he was on last he

came in last night and, you know, we

just we got along fine. But, um, then

today, you know, I got a message. Oh,

he's asking, you know, for you to come

on the show, right? And I was like,

okay. Well, I was about to do my own,

but I I'll like I'll post about my show

and I'll go say hi on his show and

Miguel's over there and then this guy

Ellie S and E's in there and the other

people and I was like, "Hey, what's up

guys? It's talking and yeah, oh there,

oh my god, you couldn't believe whatever

blunt Bronburg but um and then I was

like, hey, you know what? We should

really support this guy. Everyone, I'm

going to share this the show on my wall

right now. I'm going to put like support

good content creators like this." And

then lees is like, you know, being nice.

And I was thought I'm just such a sucker

for like people that are just like kind

because it's like, wow. It's like, you

know, and so I just forget forget any

kind of bad things in the past and stuff

like that. And then all of a sudden,

hey, what's up KK? How are you? I'm

going to mod KK. I don't I I I do have

to I do end up unmoding like everybody

and then like remoding them. Um so it

wasn't something personal. It's just

because I have rogue people. But anyway,

so then um then they're like, "Well,

well, it seems like everyone's just

talking about psyche, so let's just talk

about psyche today." I was like, "Okay."

And then it's like, you know, Summer

comes on, kind of has like a little word

with me. And then Bronze Bird comes

right up. And it's like, "Oh, oh, Saki,

dopies. Oh, you got so mad last time.

You did two streams of Okay. Wow. Well,

yeah. I mean, it's like I did, you know,

do commentary on the two and a half

hour, you know, hate fest against me,

right? Thank you. They are hard to find.

Huh? KK.

Um, and it's like, but no, I seriously I

will be kind. I'll be kind until there's

not a reason to be kind anymore. And I I

tried I tried with some people. I tried

with Beta. I tried um you know with um

Christine. I tried with Okay. And then

it's like summer's like, well, these are

your friends. Their feelings are hurt.

Talk about peifies. Okay. Okay. So,

their feelings. Okay. Their feelings are

hurt or whatever. I don't know why. What

did I do to them?

I don't know. still I'm still trying to

figure out what I have to take

responsibility for. But if I did

something wrong, like I I say I

apologize, but why am I always

apologizing? I don't know. And you know

what? Last night I had a lot of fun

because I didn't have people telling me

all night, oh, you know, like you know,

you're like some kind of like, you know,

horrible person, you know. So anyway,

um

hold on. I'm just uh I'm a little bit

distracted. I'm sorry. So yeah, I need

to unmod some people and re and mod some

people. So I'm just going to get into my

studio real quick. Okay. But anyway, oh

yeah, by the way, so I did a go into his

Oh, he's like and this is and I did this

after I saw I went to his other I looked

at his stream from last night and he's

like, "Oh, Psyche, he doesn't have any

people that are coming anymore." By the

way, he has nobody in his chat hardly. I

mean, except like, you know, you know, I

was trying to promote him and stuff. I

try to promote people. Um, but uh,

What is this song of myself? Okay. 100%.

Okay. Anyway,

I'm sorry. I'm really distracted. Um,

yeah. So, they So, he's like, "Okay."

Yeah. And he talks all this and and

I still go over there trying to be nice,

but uh,

then their true color showed. Then then

they started attacking me and I was

like, "Whoa." And they're like, "Oh,

we're Bronzebird's friends." And I was

like, "Well, you know what? I'm going to

ban you." And then Money420 is like,

"Well, just ban me then, too." And ban

uh I stay turn I don't know some other

some other jackass that that you know I

can't stand probably. And uh Okay. So I

will I'm very gladly I will gladly ban

you and uh and just not bring you up

ever again because I brought I brought I

brought probably more relevance than you

had. Just like I bronze some relevance.

It's probably his biggest stream, you

know, based on bonding, hate bonding and

and hate and like hate of me and

like that, right? And so, um, yeah. Oh,

here it is. Okay. I'm sorry. So, but I'm

cool. I'm not Am I my fees? No, I don't

think so. I think I'm absolutely fine.

But I'm going to run my show like I want

to run my show. I'm going to I'm really

going to stop trying to like hear

everybody out, you know, because people

just constantly Okay. Oh my god. And

stay turned is mo stay turned is gone.

Okay. Unmoded. Okay. Um, who else? Let's

see. Um,

Salmon is unmoded.

Um,

okay. I think that was about it for

that. Okay.

Okay. I think I like everybody else

there. And so, let me get KK

modded.

How are we doing today? Oh gosh. But I

did, you know, and it's like, oh, you

had to write a U. Yeah. Music. uh music

and like and putting together songs um

is a cathartic kind of thing, right? But

not cuz I wasn't crying about anything,

but I hear a lot of other people crying.

So, let me get on my show.

I'm sorry, guys. Here we go.

Here we go.

Um yeah, I don't like it either, KK.

been trying since May to apologize to

her and it's like it's impossible

because it's like every cuz every time

and we we were fine on our own like

talking to each other but it's like she

just let other people influence her so

much and then it's like and then she

started attacking me and it's like and

it's like you know

when you have like I had such a strong

friendship at one time and then it's

like yeah it was probably it was just

fake today she called me a two-faced

pansy or something like that in her

chat. I called her a two-faced and

I left and that was it. And I think that

will be the end of that. So,

you know what? It's unfortunate. Uh I

tried I I can only say I tried like

everything, you know. I can I'm not

going to go through messages like she

likes to go through my messages and, you

know, make fun of me and all this kind

of stuff. I'm not going to I'm not going

to I'm just going to leave it alone. She

gets her one line in my song where she's

like, you know, bitter Betty or bit

bitter beat or whatever it is.

Maybe.

Sorry, I knocked myself off. Uh, yeah. I

don't know. She like she did leave a

bitter taste in my mouth a little bit,

but hey, unttrackable. I'm trying to

stay positive. I don't know if you But

you saw Were you there, Barbara, just

now? Did you see what just happened?

Like it is just like where's the black

panther? Lenor's not inside. We got Rudy

here. And I think Trix is outside. He's

sleeping. Yeah, he's outside. Um I'm

going to try to stay posit. You know, I

am a positive person. I've been knocked

down into negativity. I've been having

to defend myself and put on defense and

stuff. And so it's like, you know, I

don't really feel the need to anymore.

It's like it's pretty self-evident

who's hating. uh uh why they're hating

uh what they're saying. I mean, it's

like it's okay. Oh, so it's okay to have

Allied on uh you know, on the you know,

of course, you can have of course he's

going to have him up, but it's like this

person is the one like laughing about um

sending manure to my house, laughing

about um taking pictures of my front

door and talking. I mean, it's like and

it's like, oh, that's just acceptable

behavior, I guess, for them. It's like,

you know, it's like, do they like it

when it's done to them? Oh, I don't

think so. I don't think so. But, you

know, fortunately for them, I'm not the

kind of person that does that, but they

are, you know, they are. So, if they if

it happens to them,

Karma, Karma is uh the right?

Okay. So,

but KK um Alexandra and I when Alexandra

and I drove to Hollywood, when she drove

me to Hollywood, um we were listening to

to KK and stuff and she really likes KK.

She's like she's like KK is a bad girl.

Uh she thinks you're really cool and uh

yeah

and I know like you know but I mean even

you know you heard you've heard some of

this stuff like they say and it's like

you know and it's like you know maybe

even sometimes people believe it because

it's like they're like oh well be

supposedly his friend you know it's like

so of course so it brings credibility

right burn some stage I do have some uh

some stage incense I'll show you

something

but then it's like but then I like

actually came up and like talked to you

and it's like and we and you understood

it's like it's like if you can see like

right now where they're saying I just

like my house is just covered in

and fleas and stuff like that. I mean, I

wouldn't be very comfort and I'm they're

basically said I'm a I'm like a homeless

person that lives in a and like please I

mean it's like first of all why are you

like um putting down homeless people

like you know people that um it's just

like it's kind of like the same as Q

Ming the guy right it's like

why like what's what's wrong here this

so this is a oh this is actually Samine

moon saline I think it's called I don't

know but I do have some sage in sense

but there we go

yeah I mean it's like Okay, then uh you

know VA Bea has HIV Awakens Tarot in her

chat. I mean it's fine to have HIV

Awakens Tarot, right? It's not there's

nothing wrong with that, right? Every

time VA had somebody that said, you

know, beta is whatever's I would I would

usually um hi, you know, hide them. I

think Hey, what's up Gish? How are you?

So, I'm not but I'm not going to

badmouth her. Um

I'm just going to

move on with my life. You know, it's

like I've been dragged down long enough,

right? You like sage and pa. Yeah, page

uses sage. Page and sage, right?

So, yeah, this is a good in sense.

Um,

yeah, but it's like what? Hey, it's just

been exhausting though. It's been

exhausting. It's uh

Thank you. I'm I'm doing better. I'm

doing better. It's not It's not easy

sometimes, you know, and I am a

sensitive person, too. It's like And

sensitive. Where's your ranch? See, hold

there's nothing wrong with being

on. Um, you don't get a wrench because

you're that evil person. Gish, guess one

because Gish is cool. You're a Jacob

Chavez or something like that. I don't

know if you're Joker or you're like the

Joker imitator, but

I don't think I think you've said really

inappropriate things in my chat, by the

way. So, I think I'm going to hold off

on the wrenching right now. Did you turn

evil? Occasionally, you do. You're

allowed in here. You're not Joker. Okay.

Well,

what's his name? It's Joker's name.

Forgot his real name. I didn't know it

one time. You're Jim John Haywire. Okay.

But uh but you know what? It's like when

one door closes, another door opens.

It's like when I soon as I get rid of

the fake friends, all of a sudden, real

people started coming in my light life.

And people that had left here because

they just didn't like what was

happening. They they start coming back.

Did Gish say did G vouch for you? Uh

he's not Jacob Chavez. Oh, he isn't.

Okay. Well, he's using the same page. Is

he? Oh, you can tell Gish's work. She

She can vouch. He can vouch. But I do

have people watching

cuz I'm h I am happy to mod people but

all I ask if you mod and it's like

you know cuz I was like to Summer I was

like well she's like someone's like I

didn't say anything about you and it's

like yes she didn't say anything about

me really except you know well she did

say a little bit but not too bad

but it doesn't seem like she's really

she just is totally on their side it

seems like. Um, but

um

that's okay, you know.

But I would like my mods to like at

least

not be slandering me in other chats. You

can do that, but I appreciate it. Uh oh

I started drinking a Facebook. I

don't know what I'm doing. My mind is

somewhere else right now. Got to get

Gish is a good mod. Okay. Yeah, I know

she is. Okay. So, I I'll just take her

word. And

James, you're I'm gonna watch. Have I

got an eye on you? Okay,

there we go.

Yeah, but uh as for my fees, it's like

and and really

did feel like the uh it was a total

haters club. Clearly, the stuff that the

that they were saying

is just like

it was just it's very irritating to be

slandered, right? You've been off

YouTube for at least two weeks, so

you're just chilling. Yeah, just chill.

I'm going to I'm going to raise the

energy up. The the sage is burning. I

ate my McDonald's. I haven't had my

coffee yet.

I'm I want coffee. Hold on.

I deserve a little something right now.

I'm gonna I'm not going to leave. I'm

just going to order it.

They have these things. It's called avoc

avocado. Avocado. Does anyone has anyone

heard of it? It's basically like tastes

like vanilla ice cream with like

espresso on top. It's like really good.

It's just uh coffee. It's like the uh

like a vanilla milkshake basically with

coffee on top. I'm really I really love

it. So,

um,

okay. And that way I don't have to leave

the house and I can stream for a while.

But I was I had I did have fun last

night and then it's like and then this

morning I went into betas. Yeah. And

then this person named Sunshine was

bullying He-Man who's like a mod. And so

I said, "Hey, if you bully He-Man,

you're you're you're mess with me, blah

blah blah." And then and I said,

"Sunshine, right?" And then Bea came in

and then she read it and she thought I

was like talking to her even though

she's she was seeing that sunshine was

already causing problems in the chat.

She thought I was talking about her. She

she went off on me and uh yeah, we had

we had some words and

you know I'll just be like the two-faced

pansy that uh

you know is not apologizing anymore.

Two of these.

Okay.

But yeah, I uh I'm doing good now.

So

that uh that what who's this person?

Broken Blossom. I don't know. I think

that you're going to be banned. Okay.

Yeah, it's really But they're really

obvious. You'd rather just have the

link. Um no, KZ. is you are um banned

and you you also please stop sending me

sending me cash app requests. Um if you

don't if you don't want to pay your fine

because you went to Alisa's Discord and

you badmouththed me to Alisa, okay? And

so I'd rather just to kick you out of

the chat, but I'm willing to put a fine

on you. Um if you're not willing to pay

it and you're just going to around

and like say you're going to pay it and

then never do, then you're just

with me and I'd rather not have you on

the panel. So, you will not be getting

the link. And if you do get the link,

you will not be And what are you saying

now? You're playing dumb, too. Okay.

Well, whatever, Ky. You're not a very

good guest either. So,

um yeah, your mic is terrible. Um you're

not interesting, and

there's some other stuff I don't like

too much. So,

go ahead and uh yeah, you can go ahead

and send the f send the uh

why $20. Why? You keep asking that,

right? First of well, first I like put

it in, you know, in half. I was like

$15. I was like, yeah, and it's just

it's just so you

feel it a little bit. So you feel it a

little bit. And so if you don't want to

pay, it's fine. You can just you can

just leave. Yeah. I need some

reparations. Um just like um Alex

um Alex paid it and he he's a mod now

and he's buying like I'm good with Alex,

right? And so, and Alex was like, you

know, I had Alex at 50, you know, I gave

him a I gave him a 50% or 55% discount,

so I was happy happy with 20. Um,

but yeah, it's like really it's like,

you know, if you're going to

mess with me like that, I just want to

make sure if you come back,

you feel a little bit so you're not

going to like, you know, do the same

thing again. If you don't want to,

that's fine. Just leave, dude. Why are

you here if you don't want to? I don't

know. All you do is whine about when you

come on panel. So, you're going to sit

there with a burping mic

sitting on my panel taking up a space.

No,

I'm I'm good with that. I'm good on

that. So, if you want to pay, it's fine.

Don't don't It's called freedom. Freedom

freedom of uh you know, I have a freedom

to decide and you have the freedom to

decide, too. We all have choices.

Everybody got choices, don't they?

So yeah, I mean I'm just so sick of

like, you know, the kindness for

weakness kind of thing because it's like

I have been kind. I have been kind and I

I will I am I will be kind to you until

you're not to me.

Then it's like what did Al Capone

Alapone has a great quote. Al Capone has

a quote. Alapone and Alapone's a

Capricorn by the way who apparently like

you know a lot of some people are not

liking right now because you know we're

the boss whatever but um Al Capone has a

quote his quote was where is it um his

quote was

if you okay his quote says don't mistake

my kindness for weakness I'm kind to

everyone but when someone is unkind to

me weakness is not what you'll remember

me for. I like that quote.

So why would you want me to pay it if

you're so terrible? He's not

understanding. He's not understanding.

It's because you are so terrible that

I'm asking you to pay it. So then I It

makes putting up with you a little bit

easier. But yeah, you don't have to ask.

You don't have to keep asking about it.

I think it's been like two weeks we've

been going back and forth about it. I'm

just sick of like saying it. You can pay

it or you don't or not.

Just be in the chat. Whatever.

Yeah. Yeah. Do you understand? It's it's

a it's a fine because you went to

Alisa's chat and you said I was talking

about Alisa and I and I saying

she's a bad streamer or something which

I've never said and she knew it was

and she banned you right away.

I hope. Um

but yeah, and Alex can't be funny. Also,

Alex was the only one um in that whole

bronze chicken stream last night that

came and defended me like that like like

the one person, right? And it's like

what? Alice is so bad and then he's, you

know, he's defending me, you know, and

he's being a friend. Like, but guys,

have you ever had like imagine like all

of your haters all in a room together?

Like, isn't that a nightmare kind of

thing? So, this is what happened last

night. All the haters, all these former

people, all this like graveyard of past

panel panelists and mods of mine,

they've all gone to, you know, the dark

side or whatever, the the evil side. And

uh and they just like they're all just

hating and they're hate bonding and it's

sick. And it's like wow. It's like if

you guys I hope you know I I hope you

never have to experience something like

that like having all like all your just

like all your haters in your room to

talk about you and just like you know

just like all agree with each other and

laugh and kaka and it's like you know

it's a big I'll just be there big joke

right and it's like but you know people

saw that I played it and people were

like that's up and it was but you

know what that was it was the biggest

show he was he's so excited I mean he's

thinking he's thinking of something but

you know That's not going to grow that

the uh it's gonna

that's that's all of them. I mean they

got that was all of them. Maybe unless

they you know now I guess you know money

420 stay turnt and

who somebody else will probably

running. I don't know whatever. Yeah

they can all you know join the hate hate

train too. They're probably there. There

is a lot of people there. I mean and

it's not only on the panel in the chat.

It's just like, oh, so many people. Can

you play the Q clip again?

Um,

but if people have a people, I need two

more people to say that they really want

to see it. Or else you can go go to um

Beep's channel and watch it because I

don't know if like I don't think we're

on the best terms with Q. I don't know.

I just I don't I just be careful about

playing other people's streams. I did

get privacy complaints like two in a I

think it was from Mason's brother, which

is interesting.

Yeah. And he I did. And it's like,

yeah, I saw that. And I don't like that.

And it's like if And I will Yeah, guys.

My my promise is I'll have your back. Um

if like like if I see like that going

on. I don't like people I don't like

people being bullied and like my friends

being bullied in chats and stuff like

that. And I and so I did I did say

something because

I don't know what that person's problem

was. But then bea thought I was talking

about her and it but it's like you know

I don't know it just turned into a kind

of a a mess. But

that's all right. But and I and I I am

not really on too many other places

right now. I'm going to go to KK's. I'm

going to go to maybe Sammons once in a

while. I don't know. But I'm not going

to go on his panel again. just I'll just

go to his name and like yeah I even I

even I'm like Kate's chat but the thing

is I figured out like just block the

people that are just say like you know

saying the horrible things and then I

don't have to see them and it's like I

did that in hers because people were

saying things and whenever they said

something like just like really bad I

just block them and then it's like I

don't have to see him again.

Daniel I I don't think I've ever asked

about you. I I it's like the only reason

the only reason I would ask about

Daniel's day. Why is Daniel here again

asking if I if I have been asking about

him? But I'm just kidding. Daniel,

you're fine. Um that's a stick. I don't

know. Um yeah, I'll go to I'll go to

Trishaicious. I'll go to Alex Mayers.

I'll go to um

all these like I'll I'll go to chats

that are like

kind kind, you know, good people. I need

more of you in your life and less of

everyone else. Oh, just quo. Okay, Jquo.

Yep.

So, yeah, I'm going to order the copies

and a bagel and

then I'll be good. Okay,

two.

I think I deserve a little treat today.

See how much this gonna cost.

Oh, it's a good deal. Okay,

30% off.

Hell yeah.

Okay,

perfect.

Okay. So, anyone want to come up on the

panel beside unless you know I think the

only person that has a fine on them

right now is uh KZ.

You found it on Tripkick's channel.

Tripkick was here last night. He's

awesome, dude. Uh really good. Oh,

Trevor. Oh, hey. I saw Oh, yeah. You

are. I saw you on Benny's. I talked to

Benny for a minute. So, um, yeah,

Trevor, do you know I went and or

Alexandra came and visited me? It was

really cool. And, uh, I want to play a

little bit of her clip where she was

talking about me because it's like not

just because she's like kind and

awesome, but she's somebody I've

actually met in person and she so she

can actually like

talk about the experience with me a

little bit. So, let's see if I can find

that because it is really um, cool. Let

me see. So that was on IP2

wiki.info

I think. Let me see. And then

we can you can just hear it's like you

know it was like you know um I want Oh

here we have someone come out on the

panel. Let's see who's Oh

yo.

>> How we do doing baby boy? Can you hear

me? Yep, I hear you. How are you today?

>> I'm doing good. It sounds like you got a

lot going on.

>> Um yeah, because um last night this guy

named Bronze Chicken um decided to have

a stream called Fake Tarot Card Readers

and it was all about Janet, me, um Ruby,

Jimmy, and Jay Dog. And it was just like

all these people just hating us um and

talking for like two and a half

hours and uh you know saying just

disgusting things about me and they had

the guy that's sending manure to my

house on like it like as like a you know

character witness or expert or whatever.

>> Manure?

>> Yeah. I got like 10 bags of manure.

Eight to 10 bags. Yeah.

>> What What did you do with it?

>> Um it's sitting next to the It's sitting

next to the dumpster right now. like um

>> but I'm probably just gonna drag it in

my backyard and use it or something

because I have I do have a garden back

there. And

>> Kot

K in the chat. Ky, you can negotiate

from the chat. You don't need to be on

panel to negotiate.

>> Turn a uh turn turn a negative into a

positive. Put that manure into your uh

your garden.

>> Yeah. Do Yeah. Because you know what?

Flowers can grow from right? And

it's like but um and it's like and it

really is like

>> it wasn't that bad. It's like people

think it's like, you know, it wasn't it

was actually a seal in sealed bags, you

know, and there's these big bags and uh

doesn't even smell and uh yeah, they are

they they are um doing that and it's

like, you know, besides the door knocks

I'm getting like all the time, too. And

it's like um they think it's just funny

and they're laugh they're all laughing

about it and they just had all these

people that I used to be kind to friends

with. I promoted every single one of

them. I promoted every single I just

promoted somebody today and then I was

in his chat on his panel and then he he

turned on me like right I mean so it's

like wow I just got a what did I do what

did I do this is from allied master

computer who's just a troll case what

are you talking about what did I do

anything I just was myself he just he I

maybe I turned him down I think I think

he's like a

>> he's a closet case I think so

>> that's the internet life is it not

that's what being a star on the internet

is all about.

>> Yeah. But I mean it's like I think I

>> yeah in this community like I yeah it's

think

kind of more normal but you know

>> people I've watched it's like you know

like Emma Leviathan and like you know

other people they they're just like kind

of like you know ruthless with like you

know hiding people and stuff and so I'm

being a little ruthless about it and

then it's like I then that's wrong. And

also people like to tell me how to do

things and I don't like being told what

to do. I don't it's like does anybody

really I don't think so. Um, but they're

trying to tell me how to run the show

and it's like I'm doing this bad and

then they then they do the same things

that I do. Like, you know, they're

saying, "Oh, they're all so mad I had a

clapping system. I was getting donations

and whatever." And now some of them are

getting donations for kicking me off the

panel. And it's like, okay, well,

>> They did that to me. They did that to me

>> you're welcome.

when I was all but you for five bucks.

That wasn't nice that she bucks.

>> Can you believe that? Godamn.

>> Yeah.

>> Easy five bucks and I was gone.

and guy because true

>> only because only because you defended

me only because you defended me and she

had problems with me doing the clapping

and say oh my god he's so greedy he's

all about money and dick and whatever

blah blah blah and now she's doing the

same she's she's taking money for so

it's like what what now I mean it's like

what what's what's the

>> she's no good she's no good you got your

own thing going on

>> you're a star

>> hey did You say you went to uh who who

>> thank you

>> Alex came down here. Alexandra we talked

to remember she's on the panel. She's

like that beautiful um beautiful lady.

>> Mayors. Yes.

>> Myers or wow. No kidding. What is she

like in person? Is she pretty cool?

>> Yeah, absolutely. She is so cool. Like

we went to like the best dinner like

locally in the area. She she like drove

out and like you know drove from like

kind of far away to come see me and you

know she stayed the night um you know

she got a motel and everything and uh um

yeah and so and oh hold on KZ if you

don't feel like you don't feel like

paying it then don't then don't pay it

but you're not getting on the panel

unless you do that's final is final okay

so that's I don't want to hear about it

anymore or I'll or I'll block you in

chat too okay

>> she's really personable her personality

>> she is

she is. And she's like, it was just

super comfortable, super fun, like

laughing, just like like we actually

have the same birthday, too. We're both

uh you know, these Capricorn babies. Uh

and uh

>> exact same day.

>> Exactly. She's she's a couple years

ahead of me. She's a couple years ahead

of me, but the same day.

>> Yeah, the same day.

>> Nice.

>> And uh the next day after that, like um

she came and picked me up and drove me

to Hollywood and we did the Hollywood

Boulevard. Did you really?

>> Yeah, it was just so cool. And uh

>> Did you get any of it on stream or?

>> Yeah. Yeah, there's a I can actually

show a little bit if you want to see a

little bit. Let me see.

>> Oh, if you could. Yes.

>> This is from hers. Um it's from her

channel. Um because we did it.

>> She seems like a good girl. She seems

And she's our age, right? She's a little

bit older like us.

>> Yeah, she is our age. I mean I mean

Yeah, she's about She's right about my

age. And uh Yeah. So, let me see. This

was

>> very cool.

>> Where's this? Okay, so I I think it's on

uh Let me see. It's on the um IRL News

Time

um YouTube.

>> Let's see. And Oh, yeah. And uh yeah, I

also like I love doing Alex's show.

She's like so

just a it was like just she came into my

life when I was like really feeling bad

and like I feel Hey, hey, what's up,

Lenor? Lenor, you coming? Did you hear

Trevor? Lenor came in here.

>> Oh. Oh,

>> you must have heard me.

>> I'm the cat whisperer. How we doing,

>> Here you go.

Lenor? There she is. She's getting lost

in your background there.

>> You got a black uh background and she's

lo Oh, there she is.

>> There she is. She's pretty. Beautiful

>> Yeah,

eyes.

>> beautiful eyes on that cat.

>> Gosh darn. That's cool. That's cool.

Is that the first person on YouTube that

you've met up with? Is Alex or

>> I met someone I met someone named Hell

Walker. Um like he took me to a King

Diamond concert last year and uh

>> Oh wow.

>> Yeah. And uh so I wonder where she put

this. Let me see. Um Yeah. And so but

but then we had a fall I had a falling

out with him unfortunately. But uh

>> Oh no.

>> Yeah. Unfortunately. Um, but so she's

like the second person I met from

YouTube, but it's like definitely

and you know and she lives far away and

she but she made an effort to come out

here and um you know

>> Oh, does she does she live in California

actually or does she just work in

>> Oh, yeah, she was in Cal I mean she was

California or

in California. Um you know I think she's

traveling a little bit. Um

>> that's cool.

>> Oh, here it is. Okay. IP2 wiki. Okay, so

I think I found it.

>> Oh, here we go. Here we go.

>> I was looking at the

>> ready for it. It up.

>> Okay, I need to go to the live.

>> It up.

>> Okay, I found it. Okay,

here we go.

>> Hi, Lenor. I hear you. I hear you,

Lenor.

>> The screen.

Okay. Oh, shoot. Okay. And there we go.

>> A little bit.

>> Oh, look at you.

>> Oh my god, my hair. You're You're a rock

star, baby boy. Look at you. You look

great. You look great.

>> Right now, we're at the uh we're at a

center.

>> That sounds like her. That sounds like

>> weaponized autism. I'm sure you know

where we are.

>> Very cool.

>> Look at that.

>> It is.

>> I am.

>> You're a pretty little signpiece, s

>> Victoria Secret. Pretty little. Look at

you.

>> S was

>> Thank you.

>> no.

>> Oh,

>> My glasses on.

>> We should have said yes.

>> So,

let me see. I'll go through. I'll fast

forward a little bit. Let me see. Like

Hollywood Boulevard.

>> Do you want to go inside?

Here you can see her.

Do

>> you think he's innocent or guilty?

>> I think it was a sign.

>> It looks like I think Nicole was like

Kardashian mother.

>> Well, did you ever see her sister looked

exactly like her but different hair

color? I was like, how do we know that?

You guys are perfect.

>> Thank you.

>> You guys are perfect. You're both rock

stars.

>> Look at the Egyptian museum. This is

cool. This is Egyptian

>> some places. I remember it used to be a

lot really

>> all Egyptian like the groins.

>> I didn't know either. They got the

>> all these um like Egyptian

>> guarded. Is that Horus? Yeah, that's

Horus. The the falcon headed right

there.

>> And there's a semat. There's those.

>> I don't know.

>> Did a good job.

>> Yeah.

>> Psych. You're so knowledgeable.

>> You're so

kind of scary. The guy that pops out in

that cryogenic thing.

>> That'd be cool though.

>> Maybe it is the hyperaric. Oh my god.

Oh, that's freaky.

>> I did not expect that.

>> Yeah.

>> Yeah. So, that was basically it. I mean,

it was We had a great

>> That's awesome. That's awesome.

>> You You two are uh You two are perfect.

You're You're around the same age.

You're both uh you're both personable

and uh

>> if if I dare say somewhat eccentric. A

little bit eccentric.

>> Yeah. But I think in a good way.

>> In a good way because it was like, you

know, it was just like

>> in a good way. Goddamn right.

>> In a good way. Yes.

>> I saw you in Benny's the other night.

How was How are you with Benny? Like uh

I was like I know I know this guy. He's

in Benny's. Uh did you see me there? It

was like he talked to me for a minute

like before he

>> No, you know what? I he streams really

late and I go in there like I'll wake up

various times throughout the night to

piss or whatever and then I'll go on my

phone and see what's going on and yeah,

he'll be live at like two in the morning

and I'll just jump in there half awake

saying whatever. But no, I'm not really

coherent enough to really know what's

going on.

>> But uh yeah,

>> somebody at my door. Hello. There's

somebody at my door. Hello.

I don't know who's at my door.

>> Oh boy.

Uh

>> oh.

>> It might be my Hopefully it's my food.

Hold on. Yeah, there's somebody at my

door. Let me see. Hold on.

>> Oh, okay. Very nice.

Very nice.

>> Okay. Hello. I didn't order it. I didn't

order it. No. No order. No. No. For me.

>> Oh, boy.

>> Did they pay? Did they pay? Yeah. It was

a pizza delivery for Alexander,

he said.

>> Oh,

>> Do you have any neighbors named

>> yeah.

>> No. I mean, no, it's it's a door knock

Alexander?

thing. It's like, you know, somebody

>> I get it. I get it.

sends

>> Yeah. They send uh pretty pretty much

about few times a week I get a the pizza

knock. It's just it's just to annoy, you

know. It's like it doesn't really All I

have to do is say, "I didn't order it."

And they say, "Okay." And they leave.

They can hopefully they get to keep the

pizza, but it's never paid for. The only

thing that they paid for was the manure.

So

>> there was a uh

>> fresh I'm getting some new um then the

person I'm getting some fresh juu bags

and so actually it's like you know it's

actually good smelling manure soon

Dhamma who's going to be hidden on the

in the channel but um but thank you I do

have a garden in the back and I will

just have free fertilizer for you know

my life and uh you know thanks for

paying for it but um can you pay for the

pizzas next time though? I would really

like a paid for pizza. How how much how

much does a bag of good manure run? Like

they get you the good stuff or do they

check out or

>> It's just two bucks. It's like two bucks

>> was it really? Okay.

and then

>> Two bucks a bag. So it was like but they

paid like they they pay the guy like

actually it's kind of funny because they

pay like people from Craigslist to come

deliver it and stuff and then like so I

guess it's like you know at least

somebody's getting paid but and it's

just kind of like stupid though. It's

like I don't really care. It's just kind

of annoying already. My my uh my I'm

doxed and like my uh large pizza is like

40 bucks. Yeah, they could like they can

get a small pizza, pay 20 bucks because

they pay 20 bucks for the manure.

They're literally paying for Like

I'm I'm getting it free. But I don't

Everyone loves free right? No, but

um

>> pizza is 20 bucks in California.

>> a small pizza. I I think like a large I

>> Um

could probably get a large in some

places for like 20 bucks like but uh

>> you don't have the Little Caesars. No

little

>> Oh, I love the hot and ready Little

Caesar. I don't but I don't think we

have a delivery Little Caesars around.

But I I do have a delivery coming

though. I have my own delivery that I

pay for and that's um that's exciting.

>> Door Dash, right?

>> They Door Dash will come um Cood. I

don't understand why I I never see the

option to like pay at the door for Door

Dash, but somehow they did it. Jamie

says Domino's is 25 bucks and so yeah I

mean but yeah I mean of course nothing

good they they don't want to pay for

anything good but yeah keep paying for

it. I mean it's like all it's doing is

you're pay they're paying for it and

it's like not bothering me and so

they're basically just you know draining

their own wallet. That's fine. I'm uh in

the downtown area of my city here in uh

beautiful Grand Rapids, Michigan. And uh

I'm surrounded by fast food places. I

got a McDonald's up the street, Taco

Bell, Wendy's, Subway, you name it. And

I I've been here 12 years. I haven't

gone to any of them once because

>> that that's breaking into my my beer

money pal.

>> Okay.

>> My beer money. That makes sense.

>> Double or a a tall boy, a Budweiser. I

mean, there's an obvious choice there.

>> Well, yeah. I've been

>> Well, I'm on the McDonald's app, okay?

Because I eat McDonald's a lot, right?

So, I'm on the McDonald's app. You can

on the McDonald's app every day.

Actually, several times a day, you can

get a large fries for a $125 or

something like that as opposed to five

bucks. So, that's saving like 350 at

least. Yeah, 350 like per fries. And so

I just do that and then I get like the

two double cheeseburgers and you get one

for a dollar. Like I mean it's like you

buy one for five bucks, get one for a

dollar. And so it's like basically I And

then I get a couple coffees there too.

McDonald's coffee is good too. It's

But I'm getting a really really

good coffee today. I got my I have a

special day today because I just been

through a little so I deserve a

treat. And so

>> you knowing I'm streaming too so I don't

feel like like ending the stream and

going to walk to get McDonald's right

now.

I'm getting a nice It's called avocado

coffee or it's not avoc It's not avocado

but it's like it's afocado

and it's like basically like a

>> vanilla bean with um coffee espresso on

top. It's really good.

>> Very nice. I'm not familiar with the uh

avocado coffee you speak of. I think

that's a little new age for me. But uh

>> Italian. Yeah. One of my first jobs when

I was really young, I worked there for

five or six years was at a McDonald's.

And this was years ago. We are talking

13, 14 years ago. And uh we were the

test market here in Grand Rapids,

Michigan for the specialty coffees

before it was everywhere with the

Frappuccinos and the lattes and all that

stuff. And uh I would work third shift

and we would and we're talking even back

then these lattes were like for a big

one like four bucks or you know which

was expensive back then $5 for the

larger frappes. And uh we would just be