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In this episode of the Cult of Psyche podcast, host Psyche shares an introspective musical performance and discusses personal conflicts, his show's direction, and plans for a 90-day life improvement initiative.
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Browse era →I learn the world by falling off a sledge. St myself together on a rusted ledge. They call it failure, I call it pledge. Carving truth with a liar's hedge. Every mistake just alchemy. every crack my biography and they keep trying to rewrite my face projecting the shadows
all over my space. They want to see they can crucify but I'm the ghost they can't deny. I'm sight of the broken the collapse.
Every fo reloads my fire. Every scar resets my choir. You see your fears in the silver. But I'm the her. I rise from the ash. You try to trap. I'm psych of the broken
map. I don't want to name the pain. Walk through storms just to re the rain. The world sees chaos. I see the chain that links the lost to the gain. I'm the lesson wrapped in smoke. The truth inside the joke. You crown me villain and beg me to heal.
You scream me s that you want to feel. You build your mess out of everything I break. But I'm the story you car make. I'M S OF THE BROKEN MAP. Fighting lights through every trap.
Every fracture feeds my vision. Every stumble is perision. You think I'm chaos, you must forget. But I'm the heretic you. I rise from the fight. You try to cycle
of the broken map. I fall down cliffs just to learn the climb. >> bleed through centuries inside one >> liime. I carry the code, no script can
bind. My ruins are rarer than your shrine. I walk the fall lives. Others flee. A living trial. A prophecy.
A cycle of the broken love. The m to every lie you try to name me with. Every myth you built from it. I'm a heretic with the quiet. on the app for the lost
door. Don't you try to bury me under your cloud, but I'm sick of a broken map. I'm pulling up the flame. Let them twist the holy name. I walk through endings unafraid from every
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>> She rose from the milk ocean foam with thunder stitched into her bones. Golden smoke in a woman's shape. A smile that could make fake. Every god forgot his name. When she breathed out a sacred flame,
every vow bent, every rule broke, wrapped in ribbons of a smoke, she whispers, "Disire is the door. Step closer one more." Oh, lotus blood ruby brush. She dances on
the edge of death. And all creation holds its breath when grandpa starts to move. Oh, lotus in the fire. You turn longing into empire.
Every cleanse a holy fire. I burn, I rise, I don't retire. Oh queen of every throne. Beauty forged in chaos stone. Teach me how to stand alone. Soft and deadly to the bone.
>> >> She walks like honey poured in light. She laughs like sin turned into right. The heavens crumble at her feet. Even angels fear her heat. She doesn't tempt, she liberates. She doesn't break, she
recreates. Her touched prophecy disguised. Her presence leaves the world revised. Dreamers wear your beauty like a spell. The bravest and the cowards fell.
Perfume, thunder, velvet storm. She's chaos wearing goddess form the universe.
I'm sorry. Um Oh
Uh, I hope you guys are doing okay. I put my beautiful background on. Here we go. I wish I was on a beach right now. Uhoh. Do I have Yeah, my
microphone is working, it looks like. Yep.
Hello. Hello, beautiful. I'm here and I'll say hello to me. I know everyone's so excited to see me. Sorry, I'm a little bit high. Um,
um, I'm just singing a bat. That's the Batman song. And now I'm in self-conscious because my neighbor told me, "Oh, well, I hear you talking. That lady doesn't like you." I think he's talking about Beeta or Alexandra or something. I mean, it's like he's getting the full story of the show. I mean, it's like,
how closely are you listening? Are you watching? He said, "I'm not watching the show." Well, you must be listening like outside my window for extended period of time. That's even more disturbing, sir. probably watching right now or listening or something. I don't care. Geez. People don't People think they know. They have no idea. Hello, Gotham. How
are you? They think they know they have no idea. He's just telling me things like he's like a private investigator. Like, I figured I heard this about you. I know this about you. This happened. This is person. It's like, how about you mind your own business? don't worry about, you know, I mean, it's like I'm dealing with the people that come
into, you know, the house or whatever, but it's like, um, anyhow, how are we doing tonight?
We're fine. Good. And he's like he's like all you do is you go you go inside you sit up there in your apartment and you go and get McDonald's. That's all you that's your life. You're just a loser. This is what this guy's telling me today. I mean, do you know me, sir? No. You just like, you know, you know what? How about
approach me like this? Hey, man. You know, look, I feel really bad because, you know, it looks like you're being harassed. Let me find out what's going on and like let me help you move these bags of cement over here so they don't like, you know, turn into statues in the rain and I'll get to know you. Maybe we'll have a conversation. No, instead you like pretend to be nice to me the whole time I know you. And it was the
whole time it was you you reporting me. Okay, Pizza Hut or Domino's? How about um Little Caesars? They have I like their hot and ready because it's fast. I and I get pizza fast. I don't like to wait all all around. But yeah, I used I
mean delivery pizza delivery. Why don't just get something else delivered? Pizza delivery is too cliche. That's like what everyone does. Pizza. Oh, let me like everybody in like, you know, let's have a pizza party. Go yourself. No, I'm just kidding. Um,
anyway, I just I seem to attract a lot of controversy like wherever I go, you know? I don't even try. I'm just myself. It's like he's like, "Oh, well, just, you know, just quit your show." Like, hello. Do you know I'm a huge celebrity, okay? Just because I quit doesn't mean we'll do anything. Second of all, I'm not a quitter. Rehab is for quitters. Okay. Third of
all, go mind your own business. First he says, "Oh, well, they're low class people that come." Well, yeah, because you know people looking for copper wire usually are not like millionaires. Okay. But I mean, I don't know. But don't now it's just big people in, you know, in like the GrubHub or Door Dash car dropping off and they're not I
mean, they're not like, you know, not like a limo coming, but it's like, you know, they're not like, you know, I don't know. I not like I think they're nice. They're not nice. They weren't nice people. Some of the people were nice. Hey Patrick, how are you? Um, but yeah, so I I have stuff to talk about. Like I'm going to be doing this 90day like total life makeover and I'm not saying, "Oh, hey, I
have all the answers and here's how to like make everything." I'm going to be going through it, too. Like the whole way I got the idea was like I was planning it for myself and I was like hey well it would be cool if like everybody could do it and I could do something like free for everyone could enjoy and then it's like you know maybe we'll just like highlight a like the part I'm trying to
highlight which is like I'm about like improvement I'm about I'm not just about conflict and drama and it turned into that I'm sorry it did I know it's like then people get used to it and they're like I don't like change. doesn't like change. Well, I, you know, sometimes I have to rip up the band-aid and say, "Hey, maybe I'll lose, you know, some people that I care about and
I liked, but maybe the show is not for them." This woman named He-Man, like I was always kind to her, always kind I never asked her for anything. She always would just come in here as a mod. She would do nightbot commands and like always be kind of like, you know, for helpful advice. But then I'd catch her like in other chats talking right? And I don't know. Then I just I then
last night I just got to a breaking point with the mods. And I just like unmoded everybody. And like I was like I'm just going to mod people that like actually like want to be a mod, not will talk to me on other chats. I'm not just talking about that person. I'm talking about other mods too. That's just so you know why I unmoded people. Yeah. We're moving forward. Hey, I got a few things to talk about and just just
with me, I'm just going to be myself and like just say what I'm feeling and stuff like that because there's enough like fake in the world, right? And but there's also enough conflict and there's enough We have we have to move forward, but we have to realize where we are. We have to pick up the pieces first sometimes and it's messy, right? It's not the fun part. But the fun part is like, oh, the end, like the
end result where it's like, yeah, coming through the finish line and you're smiling and it's like you win, right? You know, but it's like, how about the all the time in the race? It's not so much fun, right? It's uh it's grueling. It's hard. I'm just like, you know, it's like I mean, I'm me. Some people hate me. And it's like, what am I supposed to do? Oh, I
guess because these people don't like me, I'm just going to quit everything. Or not even their people. Just one one guy. And there's the people that don't like me, but this guy's sort of the the nut, right? Um yeah. Okay. Oh, let me just acquies to like people because they don't like me. Just like it's not me that has um it's not me that uh it's not him that has some kind of mental
illness. It must be me, right? Must be me. I must be just doing something that to deserve being abused and then like have nobody like even care. It's like everyone's like, "Oh, it's inconveniencing me." Do you think about how it can inconveniences me and how it's like, you know, it's it's terrifying and all kinds of stuff and how dangerous it is, but what can I do? And I apologize if you
know somebody's walked by your door and you felt the need to like go out and talk to the person and you didn't like them or whatever, but it's like really I mean I can't I can't go inside other people's brains. I would love to I'd love to be able to just be like a puppeteer and go inside people's brains and make them stop and figure out what will work to make them stop and stuff like that. Yes. Won't I mean it's like but I have to like I have
to just like give up and like aquest. No, I'm not an aquester. Aquest is BS to me, you know? I'm a fighter. Okay, I'm a fighter. I'm just give up because of some troll. Some ugly under the bridge
troll, right? Anyway, but yeah, very judgmental people. That's something was like, "Oh, well, you just go get, you know, go get a job." What is is everyone watching the show now? They hear everyone saying, "Go get a job. Um, go, you know, take a shower. Go vacuum your floor. Go change the litter box." I mean, it's like, "Oh, go play with AI, right?" It's like it's going to be like those like trolls, right? Those same
troll. I mean, it's not the people, but it's like those are the things they say and they're like, "Oh, this is effective." Just getting old by now, but it's like I'm not going to put up with it in my chat for sure. And so people that kind of bring that up, we'll just be blocked because it's like there's we know it's already been said. So the only reason you you'd be saying it again and like you know like RG is like, "Oh, he has to keep going to oh,
you know, he has AI blocked in his chat." Yeah. because of people like you that are annoying and then you keep bringing it like bringing um like that point of I don't like your music like you don't know how to run a show RG you're you got kicked off of YouTube okay I've been in this fight you were listening on that other panel earlier there's no reason to attack me I I agree I mean it's like I I tried to make a piece too but it's like no
apparently I'm just a phony I'm like I'm just like I'm the devil basically right there's nothing I can say or do was like oh Christina's joking I was like she's not joking and she's No, I'm not joking. I know you're not joking, Christine. I know you l you really have that hate in your heart toward me. It's scary. It's sad. Like, I don't know why people can be so hateful. I mean, I don't even hate you. I don't even hate
Christine after all all she's done. I don't hate her. She's not my favorite person in the world right now, but it's like, you know, she's on fire. I I would go pee on her arm to put it out, you know? Not if she's going to like hate people. I I mean, I love people. I don't want people to go through pain and things, right? But anyway, yeah, then I got she's like
financially trolling saying, "Oh, go get Psyche to come on this panel." And then she's like, "Oh, yeah. If you do that, then I'm going to give $100 to Bronburg." Oh, do you understand how motivation works? That that is not a motivation to get me to do anything. I mean, it's like it sounds like you were trying to and then you just were just financially trolling me because then Bronber and I could have like split, you know, had 50 bucks each and had a good segment on his show. But no, you just
want to like hate me so much that you can't even like see past this for like even just like a minute of good content. That's why Christine's an idiot. Anyway,
you know what? It's okay. It's okay if they attack me because you know what? People are watching. They can see that you never peed on anyone but by accident. Well, I'm just saying if like you know if someone like I like I said this I have a quote like I kind of like modified. I said don't swim across the ocean for someone that wouldn't pee on you to put out like a
fire if you were on fire. They wouldn't even pee on you to put to put it out. They would just walk, you know, let you burn, right? That's the kind of thing I was saying. And then it's the same people I would swim across the ocean for. Well, that's my That's me being stupid, right? Hey, what's up, Chucky is Trouble? Hey, Chuck. Hold on, Chucky. Is
that Is that you? Um, Chucky is Trouble and Evil 69. Is that you, Wendy the Slow Adult, or is that another Chucky fan? I know that we have uh Wendy the Slow Adult is a huge Chucky fan. Her show is called Hey, You Want to Play and stuff like that. Hey, guess, by the way, guys, I got a really cool Christmas card. I got one Christmas card this year, okay?
But it was from a celebrity. I'll show you. I haven't even opened it yet because it's like I was like, "Wow, this is special." Look what I got in the mail. Did you guys get this? No. Oh, yeah. I I looked into that. I want to talk to you a little bit about that, too. Because it is um there's like some controversy about it. Hold on one
second. Because when I hear stuff like that, I'm like, "Okay, well, that sounds very fanciful, but maybe possible." I mean, it's like a great story, right, of of that being possible. Hey, what's up, Clumsy? But look what I got. Hold on. I'm going to take take this bit like that. But then I heard I heard some people do get scammed, you know, and I know there are scammers. I just want to make sure that there are some reputable
people that before I would would like lead anybody to that kind of practice, I would make sure that that there are reputable people because it sounds like there are some things like Oh I want my address. Oh Okay. Well, anyway, there's many Manson's. Okay. I'm just going to have to delete the stream, but it's it's it's okay. I don't care. Um,
you see it all the way from Chicago. Mini Manson. Hey, Clumsy. How are you? Yeah, Minnie Manson sent me a card. Let me see if I do I have a a knife or something to open this. What do I have? Hold on one second.
Scissors. Anyone? Where's my scissors? Oh, here they are. Come. Let's cut through this and see what's we got. Oh. Oh, I can't show it again. I'm just Please. I mean, not but slow. No. So, is Chucky the slow adult that is not the real Wendy? It's another another slow adult. Okay. How do I open this
Mini Manson does like tape their stuff really good and it's like all taped around the edges. Like how do Mini Manson, how do I open it though? Here. Do I have to do the bottom? I don't want to break anything. Hold on. Let me just cut off the bottom of it really really
gently. Okay. Making hopefully I didn't cut anything off. Okay, got it. Not want to ruin any of the goodness of this magical moment, this card. Okay, here we go. Thank you, Minnie Manson, for thinking of me for a Christmas card.
That is an honor. Glad you consider you a great performer, a celebrity, a uh a great person in this community, etc., etc., etc. Okay, so Oh, okay. There we go. Let's see what I got. Hey, Minnie Manson sticker.
Okay, Minnie Manson. Another one. I got the special stickers. Are you jealous? Look, I got Look at this Minnie Mansson merch I got. Actually, check out Minnie Manson's channel, too. It's really awesome. And there's a got a mini manson like a little little um star.
Okay. I love this. What an honor. There's Mini Manson. Oh, look it to Psyche. Love Mini Manson 666. Merry Christmas. Isn't that cool, guys? And look, there's Minnie.
Minnie Manson. The only thing mini about man Mini Manson is just Mini Manson himself. Um, he's other everything else is huge. They're big star. Look at that. I love it. Thank you for sending me a card. Hey, there's more stickers, too. Oh. Oh, that one that one is green. So, it just picks up my my background, but
you can tell that's it's a cool sticker, too. It's green. Okay. And this one was one of my favorites. Hey, what a Christmas present I got. I got I had a great Christmas actually because even though I was sick, I got a card from Minnie Manson cool stuff and stickers. How nice. That
is awesome. Thank you, Mini Manson. Everyone check out Minnie Manson on YouTube. Um he is performing. People are just making requests and having a great time on his channel. I keep trying to like go over there and see if he's like talking to the chat because I want to like talk to him and invite him back to the show and stuff, but he's seems like he's pretty um pretty busy with the
performing. But no one wished you a happy Merry Christmas, Gotham. Merry Christmas. Well, Christmas is over here. That's why I didn't wish it to you. And then I was like I think I might have said it on the day, but now it's like the 26th or 27th. Hey Chucky, want to play? Thank you for coming. Chucky is trouble and evil in 69. So tell me about your philosophy,
Chucky. I mean is like are you a horror fan? Are you a serial killer? Are you a nut? Are you what's going on there? Because you look interesting. Look at that picture. You look like you're interesting that person. There you go. Clumsy, you're getting you're getting a Feliz
Na'vi from the Bean Gang uh California. Oh, no. Tech of Texas. Okay. Um, he's wishing it to you. Hey, how do you say it in in in Indian? Merry Christmas. I don't know how they say it. Are they saying dashing through
the snow in a one-horse open sleigh? That's racist. I'm so sorry. I don't mean Dashing through the snow in a one-horse open sleigh. Over the hills we go, laughing all the way. That was bad. Okay, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. I think that is actual song though. I think Chris K played it, but I shouldn't be playing stuff that he plays because it's probably racist. Darn it, I'm in
trouble again. Um, anyway, my birthday's coming up soon. I'm almost 45 years old. Can you believe it? I am getting an old man. Yep. Miss Chucky, it is Miss Miss Chucky. I think it's a a woman. You mean I mean is either a a woman with like a shaved head and a mohawk or like a very
feminine looking man with a mohawk and shaped head? Kristen is an old lady. Who's Kristen? Christine. Oh yeah, I agree. Yeah, Christine is an Oh my god. Did you Did you see um Did you see her in that her new video? Um Christine got run um railroaded by Rudolph or or um something
steamrolled by Rudolph. Did you see that video? She appears in it. You can see, but you can see how old she really is. So, she's over 100, I think. Hold on one second. Where is it? Um, Christine where are you? Okay. Is it this one?
>> Oh, that's not it. Where is it? I need to find the Christine video immediately. Come on. It's topical. It's topical. tropical. Um, let's see. Is it right in here? No. Is it in
here? Yeah, here it is. >> Steam by Rudolph Christmas Eve. You can say there's no such thing as karma. But as for me and summer, we believe she'd been messing with the baby goats again, saying those little demons can't
be trusted. Summer tried to pull her off the hay stack. Christine yelled, "I'm fine." Then got disgusted. Now we're all so proud of Rudolph. He was patient, but he finally had enough. And we're taking turns repeated. You don't bless your own teeth
when you're lit up. She was wearing glittery Santa makeup, mascara running like a true crime scene. She was yelling at a snow globe in the gift shop like it owed her money. Loud and mean. Then she hit the eggnog. Way too heavy. Just one more she said for holiday cheer.
>> That's when she turned into a mean drunk. So everybody vanished, disappeared. Now we're all so proud of Rudolph. He was calm, but he was not in the mood. When she said, "Wait, let me explain it." He said, "Explain it to the reindeer review." Santa standing there in full confusion
like, "This ain't in my contract. What the heck?" And the elves were taking notes like it was training. While Rudolph blew a whistle, did a check. Sweet Summer pointed straight at Christine. Said that one, sir, that's the whole concern. Christine tried to gaslight. Rudolph,
smiling, misunderstood. It's Christmas, then got burned. Christine got steamrolled by Rudolph. He put the no ho ho no more. Now the petting zoo has hired bouncers and a sign that reads Christ out the door. Yeah, you know what the
beans like? They said last song Christmas year. Well, here we got a Christmas. Come on. And the goats formed up a little now. Call themselves the bleed suits and all. They dropped a song called Let It Bleep
this season. And that tour sold out the barn wall to wall. Yeah. I mean, and they were saying, "Oh, why did you have Christine not wearing pants in the video?" She's wearing something under there. I don't know if it's pants.
Maybe it's granny panties or something. She's wearing something. You don't see anything. It's not like I was. And then Bea turned that into like, oh, I showed your your hoo-ha. I was like, I didn't do that on purpose. It was I don't want what I want to show Beeta's vagina and get kicked off of YouTube. I mean, it's not worth it to me. Okay. I mean, I It was dark. It was It was dimly lit. It
was shadowy. I don't know what I was looking at. I could have I was looking inside a cave. I was looking at Beeta's dress. I don't know. Doesn't Who cares? I didn't do it on purpose. I wasn't trying to get myself in trouble. Bea, come on. That's I'm just trying to be kind of silly, but you know, really does it really does grind my gears sometimes, you know. Hey, babe. What are you doing?
You're sitting up here. Tricks, let's see up here. Oh, hi Trixie. Hi. Your heart's beating. Your hearts keep beating like a drum. It's beating like a drum. What kind of drum would you be? You wouldn't be one that Mason gets for Christmas because I wouldn't trust him with you. I wouldn't trust him alone with you. No, I would not. No, I would
not. Mason, you're you're not coming to visit. I I have enough worries, right? Yeah, but you can you can send me an email. It's fine. Yeah, that's Mr. Trixs. Um, hi. Oh, look. She's beautiful. Chucky, is that Oh, hold on. Hold on. I thought
you had hair for a second, but then it was like, oh, it's that same mean mohawk face. I thought it was like a wig. I was like, "Oh my god, you you're you're beautiful woman." But no. And can anybody verify what Chucky is uh trouble and evil actually is? Is that a woman, a man, some something in between? I'm curious. >> What? >> What? Maybe.
>> Yeah. I I think I want to clarify something that Summer was saying that I I mean, they were she was totally right on the point she was making. I just wanted to clarify. She said, "Oh, well, drag queens aren't transgender." Which is true. Like usually they're they're just gay men. Gay men that like to do drag and have a little, you know, a spicy per. Usually
the drag queen is not very sexy. I mean, RuPaul's is about as sexy as it gets. And that's, you know, you know, that's a lot of makeup and duct tape involved in that that scenario. So, um, but yeah, but she's like, "Oh, it's straight men." And she's really right about that, too. And I'm not trying to correct her. Here's here's what I just want to I just want to make a little point about this, though. Yes, straight men can be drag
queens, gay men can be drag queens. The the um the Kors Light or something like that had this transgender person, Dylan Mul Mulani or something. Dylan Mulvaney or something and that was supposed to be like, oh my god, like Kors Light is like, you know, supporting trans rights. Well, Dylan Mul Downey is a straight man in really
really bad drag. Like really bad drag. kind of like I don't know what he's I don't know why can't they get a gay drag queen? I don't understand but okay straight drag queen whatever the world's changing. I can accept new things. Okay. Usually it wasn't the straight guys that were doing I mean it's like maybe some like it hot or like you know they did like you know Shakespeare used to do like you know
they dress like the little the boys as like women the women characters right because the women can act on the well they not allowed but legally to act right they're they can't act but um yeah meow meow you want to see Rudy Rudy hey rude you're over there watching me
Watching me and watching you. There is nothing we can do. Loving me and loving you. I try but I try. Aba. I love you. You guys like Abba. Great band. Dancing queen. Young and sweet only 17.
Dancing queen. Build the beat on the tambourine. Oh yeah. >> I mean, >> oh, I see you. >> So, what? Dancy queen's about a gypsy because who plays tambber? Only gypsies and um that woman from the Bible that got them. Why did I ban you? You're
typing you had opinions. Well, you know what I think about your opinions? I think opinions are like and yours particularly stinks. But do I forgive you? Yes, I do. And look, you're talking in the chat right now. So, what are you talking about? I banned you, baby. And you said some really actually rude things like, "Oh, I'm on drugs."
Um, you know, like you've said like, "Oh, you know, your AI sucks." And I mean, you said mean things that I'm not just going to like say, "Oh, let me mod this person up." Well, merry Christmas with the heart to you. I'm I I your for Christmas I got you an unbanning and I let you back in the chat. Okay. Merry Christmas. I hope you appreciate it, but you're probably going to call me another name.
It's part of the narrative. I'm supposed to play into it. Well, I create the narrative. I create the narrative. I don't want you creating the narrative. You're bake clips. If you create the narrative, all of a sudden, I'll be clipped on your show looking like an I have to create the narrative a little
bit myself or else my my uh you know, I'm already unpopular enough. No chat does what? I forgive. We Yeah, we're forgiving here. We're forgiving, but we don't forget. We don't forget. Oh, shut the Okay, so that's why you're That's why you're banned and that's why you're going to
continue to be banned. My cat is starving. You hear him purring? Bye. You hear him purring? Why are you still here? off. You don't talk about my cat. That's a That's a instant ban. Are you nuts?
Don't with Don't with me, my cats. Right. I know. Bae, I'm just going to keep I'll have to block you again. Wait, you I you had another chance. Like I don't say I didn't give you like chance after chance. I bung banned you several times. You keep coming and saying something terrible. What? Trix is just a little whiner. You're just a little whiner. You just want to be pet on the butt or something, right? He just wants
attention. Oh yeah. Here. You want to give him a kiss? Give me a kiss. He's purring. Do you hear him purr? Remember when I could take a joke? Well, I remember when you could take a jick. But you know what? Well, this the same is still true about you.
As for me taking a joke, I can take a joke, but you know, when a joke is told him a thousand times and it's at my expense, it stops being funny after about the 666th time. I don't know. Can you relate to being a human? Oh, and you're banned.
Oh, hold on. Yeah. Oh, sorry. Twack twack twack quo or something. Go, bro yourself. You look like a scary person. Look at that scary. It's like a bald
mongaloid. What the Okay. Yeah. Chat is to invest their feelings in but blame the streamers because we are not their puppet. I know. It's like what? I just should I just do like everything everyone else just tells me to do. You know what that's called? That's called like a a puppet on a on just a puppet. Like it's someone tells me, "Oh, quit YouTube." No, you quit
YouTube. I don't even care if you have a channel or not. You quit. Leave me alone. I'm going through enough I don't need you. This guy is playing in inspector gadget doing a whole background history check on me, getting all the facts wrong, making all these stupid assumptions. It's like really really annoying. It's like not bakeless, but this my neighbor. I mean, it's like it's like just people are just like, "Oh, I
know how to look on the internet to find your house value." Wow, you rude I mean it's like this I mean geez wow you know how to type in on Google. I'm impressed. You know you everyone usually normally does knows how to do that. You just have to basically do any
Google search and it will tell you what you need to know. But you know interesting that you know your mind is focused. Oh, all you do is go to McDonald's and um and and sit in your house. So what what if I didn't go to McDonald's and I sat in the house? Would that be sadder or less sad? I don't
know. I can't figure it out. I mean, so at least I'm getting up and going and walking to some place. Am I just like, you know, sitting laying in a bed having people serve me all day? No. I get up and move my ass to McDonald myself. Walked through cold weather. I had the flu and stuff. Got all sick. And then he's like, "Well, do you know that the cement is going to turn
into statues?" Yeah, I know that. I know that it it Well, because it's in the rain, but it's 60 lbs. I can't just like lift like 33 bags of, you know, 60 lb concrete in 10 seconds. I can't even lift one of them. How about you come in over here and like offer to like, hey, maybe I'll help you move them to the backyard so they don't create a problem
for you. No, it's instead like, oh, I have a suggestion. Just quit. You just quit. You're obviously making people mad. Well, good. I'm glad I make people some people mad because it's like, you know, that just proves that it's like I have people watching, you know. Oh, don't don't get me started about chicken nuggets because I found out it's like some human trafficking term that's kind of dark and now I can't eat them
anymore. I can't eat them anymore. But don't look it up. Don't don't Google. It's too dark. It is too dark. But um yeah, go or human traffickers, go yourselves, too. What are you thinking? You're b you're basically think that slavery is okay. Not not good. Not good.
What am I referencing? Because not me because I've never told you to quit streaming. I didn't say you to throw coat. I'm talking to my neighbor who told me, "Well, you're we're we're bothered because you know someone's harassing you, so you can just make it all stop by quitting streaming."
I'm like, "Excuse me?" I was like, "What? That's that's what they that's what they want." People just don't get it. I don't know. And then it's like, and then he doesn't know the story. He could have talked to me and ask me and I can explain it. I am an honest person. I do tell the whole truth. Even if I look stupid, if I look dumb, if I look um crazy, I I tell the
whole truth as I see it, right? People are like like I have all these secrets. I don't have secrets. I just have things that are nobody's business that people are trying to figure out. How about just mind your own business? The ranch dipping sauce. I prefer blue cheese. I really do. Blue
cheese over ranch. Ranch is like too thin. It's too thin and like water. I like the nice chunks with the real like the Baba's Big Boy has the real chunks of blue cheese in it. Yeah. Or a good blue cheese salad at restaurant just like with the dry blue cheese. That's good. I love that Yeah, chicken nugget and ranch sauce. I
ate enough McDonald's like that's not Yeah. Wow. That sounds like a treat, you know? It sounds disgusting to me at this point. Um but like I said, a nugget is something in the human trafficking industry that's quite different than that friendly McDonald's um McDonald's definition. And so I wouldn't recommend looking it up, but please stop saying it around me. Okay. I had enough problems with the biscuit song. Okay. I don't
want to get into like Chicken McNuggets and Pizza Hut McDonald's. McDonald's Pizza Hut. McDonald's. What was that song? I don't know. How am I doing? I'm not doing too good. I think I think I'm about, you know, about to just uh swim into the middle of the ocean. Okay, that's where I'm about to No, I'm just kidding. Hey guys, you know what we're
doing? So, this is the bottom point. But then on January 1st, I'm going to be doing a 90-day cult of psyche total life upgrade. I don't think I called it pimp. I said total life upgrade challenge. Well, yeah. Well, Throgoat,
he called me a And this is a this is a tenant. Okay. And so that's the problem. Okay. Okay. There's more. See, there's more people like think they know. They don't they don't understand. It's like there's so much I don't It's really none of your business and so I'm not going to keep explaining it. I'll just say. Yeah. Yeah. And he was very passive aggressive
and like Yeah. He was very passive aggressive about it like saying, "Well, it's like you're weird." U you know, and he's like And then he knew all about the show. He's like, "Well, that lady doesn't like you." I was like, "Well, which one? Christine Beeta or who else? And and that guy with the accent doesn't like you." I was like, "Well," he's like, "That those people hate you." I was like, "Well, that's my audience. I know they hate me. I know they've been telling me. Do you think I don't see
that? They they they say it all day." So, anyway, that's why I was like, "What? Are you listening at my window? Are you watching the show?" He's like, "No, I just hear it coming out of your window." Well, my windows are closed. Like, I closed my window. So, how are you sitting in my backyard in the middle of the night with like a like a a boom mic or something? Like, get a life. Not like it's inconvenience you so much.
He's like, "Well, you you you're leaving it to us my window." I don't know. I mean, it's like, well, yeah, because he said he said he's hearing my show, but he's not watching it. And so, he's like, but he knows all about it. He knows the characters. He knows about Christine and Gotti and I mean, so he's obviously listening. He must be listening for Yeah, they're neighbors, but it's not like that close where it's like I play
so loud in the middle of the night that everyone can hear, right? It's like so he's probably watching on the TV, but I don't throat goat. So, do I know you? Are you Are you um Fringosaurus characters? What do you mean by characters? It is weird. They're characters.
Character um what Truman show? I don't know. Are they Are they paid actors? I'm not sure. See, characters has the word actors in it. Have you noticed that? Acts. Actors. You're not Okay. You're not um Pringosaurus. Hold on. Who are you? I know you. Hold on. Oh my god. It's Is it Are you um Oh my god. It's Is it ski mask? Not Ski Mask.
And Andy, you're Blackout. And Andy, is that you? You look great with that hair. I love it. You look great in that wig. I love it. You said, you know, all the characters on my stream. Oh, yeah. Well, the characters because they're characters that kind of call in like, you know, God. I mean, they have a persona. It It is. I kind of have I kind of like Black Andy. I kind of have a thing for guys with like a little bit of a speech impediment. Not like you have
like I just think it's cute. I'm not trying to You're coming out for New Year's. Well, congratulations everybody. Blackout Andy is gay. We all knew it. But um he's coming out of the closet. I thought it was I thought it was um you know, I thought Summer had gained 300 pounds, but no, it's uh Blackout Andy in drag. Say hi, everybody.
I I I'm not disagreeing. I like Black. I said I'm attracted to his voice. He don't think he likes me very much though. He's like, I'm watching you. Reminds me of like Elmer Fud and the um Bugs Bunny. You feel free. Well, awesome. Tell me, are you wearing underwear?
Um because if you are, I'd like you to burn it, please. I'm just kidding. Um so, why is it all blurry? There we go. See, I'm on the beach right now. There's no my hut. I don't know why the my my house is out there, but I'm in
my house. Isn't that weird? Oh, I'm hunting. I'm hunting psyches today. Oh, be very very quiet. You're not what? You're welcome. Blackout Andy. Elmer. Elmer Andy or Blackout Fud. How do you want to say it? You know, it would be funny if he ended
up with that woman. Um, what's her name? Um, not Katrina, her name is Victoria. Oh, what a horrible horrible one. You're wearing three pairs of underwear so the skid marks don't penetrate your That's a good idea. Three is enough. Okay. Yeah. But what do you do when you don't wear panty panties? Do you put like down a
towel? Probably a couple towels. Interested. Just I just think about these things before I go to sleep sometimes. So, but anyway guys, I'm going to be having this 90-day challenge and so it's it's going to be like very like doable like small like little improvement a day, right? So, by the time three months pass, we'll have like almost 100
improvements that should I think that's enough for the rest of our lives. I mean, just think about that. Just make a little improvement and you go and all of a sudden our trajectory of success is going to go like through the roof. All of a sudden, we're taking private jets to each other's houses. where, you know, fighting Jake Paul in in the ring.
Um, we're going to Saudi Arabia and being on on our chest for half a half a million dollars by a chic, but yet you don't know about that. Oh, anyway, would I do that? Probably. I mean, it's half a million dollars. That would would really really help right
now. I would I would just be candy. The washes washes off, right? The money smells clean. You're excited and afraid at the same time about the challenge. It's not going to be that. It's not like the real world road rules challenge where it's like we're driving around in an RV and and like doing like hard competitions. It's like really easy. It's like, oh, you get on for
free. Okay, you would. And I mean that's that's just cheap. I'd say I I I would say at least like you know half a million dollars for me because he's probably gonna eat a lot of like of that like Saudi Arabian food like goats and and all of a sudden you have a goat head on like crap on your chest. That'd be horrific, right? Is that Yeah, it's my house right there.
My I'm inside my house but it's also outside at the same time. It's kind of like a like a par paradox. But it looks Does it look kind of like it's on fire, too? It is be I I live on the beach. This is right outside my window. Actually, that's the the neighbor's house or it's a mirror. The light won't work either. Okay. Yeah, it's my my backyard. It is It's Redondo Beach. It's beautiful, beautiful beach area. It's
It's just like Hawaii. Look at the beautiful sunset. Even though the sun set like 3 hours ago, it is beautiful. I love the color.
If there's any place I could go, I would like probably want to live in Hawaii, but then I found out the ganging is pretty bad there, too. So, no Hawaii, no Arizona, no New York, no Florida. I'm already in California, so that's pretty much the worst it gets. But, um, Vegas, no, can't live there. No
Minneapolis, no Minnesota, no um no Rhode Island. No Vermont, Montana. No, I can actually I can I can probably live in like one part of Alaska and um Bend, Oregon. That's the only
place I can live safely. So, I'm I'm pretty much screwed if I don't want to live in either of those places at all. Anyhow, how are we doing today? So guys, that'll be awesome. I promise you I will have a huge a free manual, a huge big
like the whole 100 days little workbook you can do. And then that will all be free and so everyone can everyone can join. But I might have extra some extras like planned too if people are interested. But also, I'm I'm probably going to do extra shows, like an extra hour a day on members only for people that are really serious about the
challenge. And so we can like, you know, have great one-on-one talks and I'll talk about our what whatever whatever we want. Just we can encourage each other. We can have fun. It it's not going to be like attacking and all this crap that it's happened all year. I'm so done with it. I'm so Have you ever heard
the Tina Turner song? I don't care who's wrong or right. I don't really want to fight no more. That's my That's my new theme song. Let's sleep on it tonight. Not one of the best songs, but it's not bad.
I think it's about her and Ike Turner. He was an
And Ghost Ghost said he'll join and then he doesn't even show up. What am I doing? I'm running around for this guy like I'm, you know, some hoe. He didn't even show up for me. Ghost, where are you? Come on, buddy.
>>
>> the moon is riding low tonight. Hung crooked in the sky like a sheriff with a shattered badge who still keeps watch on high. I felt a shadow saddle bootsteps on my bones.
A holy yellow riding in to claim what's been your own.
Love,
you drift like smoke through chapels made of sand. You guard my soul without low hands. You cut the night in half and whisper low. Child, I'm the fire in your shadow. Ghost gospel rising, dust winds crying.
Guide me home through deserts cracked and wide. My divine rider at my side.
The vulture circle prophecy. Their wings beat like a drum. Echoes of the cold you build. where neon visions come. Your love don't speak in tender lines. It speaks in storms and flame. In lightning that remembers me in
thunder, chanting my name. Write the fault line. Break the veil. Call my spirit out of hell. Burn my heart with your starborn vow. You were my guardian and you're my guardian
love. You walk the borders where dead son sleep. You hum their hs when the night grows deep. >> You tilt your head and fade away. Psych >> rise. I'll clear your ways. Ghost, gospel shining, cosmos aligning.
Lead me on through ru and dust and dream. My unseen sheriff of the unseen.
Ever I should fall to fear or lose my trail again. I'll listen for your spurred boots ringing in the bones beneath the wind. For love like yours don't fade or falter. It rides eternal fierce and
wide and stays a step behind my shadow.
Forever gardening. Forever.
There we go. My little Hindu western song. I like it. I like it. W the Wild West was pretty iconic time, wasn't it? It was pretty interesting.
Cowboys were drunk and sexy. I love it.
In the harsh before the room, a breeze. I feel a touch upon my tongue bug key in golden stillness raising every shadow that will come. She snaps the teeth of gossip serves the storm before it starts. Threats fall limp like broken arrows
when she tightens silence around my heart. The world grows slow around her presence. A pause clock in the molen sky. She lifts her hand venom f even lights forget how to lie. In the sufferes
I see my own reflection clear. The noise collapses in. And truth becomes all I can hear. And in that quiet I remember my breath is a gate. My spine is a drum. Power is a noise or a thunder. Sometimes
it's choosing what not to become. I carry in my heart the silence, the voice, the radiant queen. I rise with these dreams. The shield, the soul, the crimson dream. Every step I take. They shimmer next to me. I am
guarded by the three.
>> >> Then comes the queen glow whisper. My trees stroking strings of thought. She rearranges all my chaos into the one true line. I saw that every word becomes a lantern. Every breath a burst of light.
She pulls a music out of madness. Turns confusion into sight. She tunes my voice to cosmic cadence. Lets the inner waters speak. Where I once stumbled on my meaning. She gives command to what was we. She paints my throat in sacred emerald
crowns. My mind in wild inside. I speak and nothing rings uncertain. And the truth stands up and takes it high. My voice becomes the serpent's loot. My thoughts become a jewel of blade. She teaches me that intuition is the
kingdom I was born to reign. Oh, I carry in my heart the silence, the voice, the radiant queen. I rise with these three, the shield, the song, the crimson dream. Every step I take,
they shimmer next to me. I am inside guarded by the three
of divine dangerously sweet. La the pulse of beauty the sovereign flame beneath my feet. She bends the world toward my longing. Plays desire like a spinning wheel. What I dare to dream, she paints in roses. What
I claim, she makes real. Her smile is the secret architecture hiding inside every wish. Touch is the spark that turns the order into bliss. She dances in the folds of choices. weaves delight into my
path. And when the universe resists me, she breaks its tension with a laugh. But Gala stills the poison winds. My tenny lights the inner night. Lolita throws her jewel and pulls my future into sight. Three currents flow within me. Three
thrones behind my spine a light. One freezes harm. One shapes my voice. One magnetizes fake to my mind. They circle like a tri flame halo. Each guardian in her stride. Their presence is a spell of wholeness. Their gaz of force I cannot
hide. When I see the world pays attention. When I dream, reality thrills. When I move, their hymns run through me. The power of desire, silence and will. Oh, I carry in my heart the paralyzer, the muse, the scarlet star. I
ride with these three. They know exactly who we are. But God steals the tiny things. I leave the sh and they live inside.
Oh,
think I mean personally
I think it's pretty damn good.
But people want to like act like it's like it's just it's just generating itself, right? It's like I'm bringing I'm bringing this out of the ether. I very carefully designed so much of it. I mean, it's like, oh, I'm helped with some stuff like instrumentals, which I can't play an instrument very well, right? But I can
pretty much write a song. I can generate interesting imagery. I can do a little bit of video editing. I'm still learning. That's why I do so much of it because I like I'm trying to like learn it. It's kind of hard to like learn when you're 44 years old, right? I'm trying to keep up with the, you know, people that are like, you know,
been coding since they were in diapers and it's like I I don't know how to code. I I I can barely, you know, deploy a website correctly. I I really can't do it. I mean, I So, you're welcome, Gotham. author. I'm so happy to be like part of I feel like I'm kind of almost chosen as part of like the way to
introduce these energies across the whole world which I believe is like they're supposed to be there because I think it's like more of like the world connected and stuff going to the universal age of Aquarius. People are more connected, more communicative, talking to everybody across the world. We learn as we go, right? And that that's part of the the 90-day thing is like I'm going to be doing it along with you. I'm going to be
doing the improvements and I mean it really was that's how I started. I was like I just designed it for myself and then I was like well why don't I just integrate it fully into my life and then make it part of the show have people supporting each other um people you know then we are also accountable too because we have people like watching us and so it is a beautiful process it's painful
but it's a beautiful process right and you know what when you learn something no one can take that away from you what you've learned right thank you Patrick I appreciate that because I think I think people just like say they don't like it they think they listen to it. I think they just pre prejudge or because it's like even these people that criticize me for it
like most of them have AI songs as their intro and stuff and so it's like what they're allowed to use it but I'm not or just because I use it like you know for particular people I it's my how I express myself sometimes and so I don't know it's like what I'm going to apologize for how I express myself. No. And nobody should. Thank But thank you
though. Thank you. Appreciate that. I think I'm making some cool stuff. I mean really I think I get I I get ideas. It's like Michael Jackson when he wrote Billy G. He goes he in his voice in his in his in his head. He goes
queen. I can't I wish I could sing as high as Michael. Well, I don't really wish I could because that'd be probably probably be a unic or something like that. That was true. But thank you very much. Thank you very much. Yeah. Well, no one's coming up or anything. And there's I think I'm scared away the
people that don't like the music. So, oh look, we have this um stupid the police are looking for. There you go. Um what? I didn't hear anything. Okay, hold on a second. So, I got one more. Here we go. This is called experiment, which is like I feel like an experiment. I experiment on myself, but also people
like to experiment with me, too. So, I'll be their like little Bunson burner or whatever they they want me to be. But you play with Bunson burners. Better wear heavy duty gloves, right? Exactly.
Okay. Where is it? It's uh It's called the experiment. Yeah, here it is. One more.
>>
>> I woke up stage till the lightning sky bolts in my spine numbers in my doctor said son don't ask me why you're a rough drive god you're a test drive lie blueprint hard but it beats off script. They pay top
dollar just to see me glitch. Halfborn myth in a dead end lab science is handle. They never have. They don't love me. They don't hate me. They just poke me with a stick. See what breaks. See what way.
I'm an experiment. Frankenstein grin. 6 million in upgrade. Still something to spin. Part monster, part marble, part in a natural. Wind me up, laugh loud, lose control. I'm an experiment. Push the liver, pull the thread. Not a man, not a myth, just a game in
your head. I'm not real. I'm a toy. I'm a glitch you enjoy. I'm just Yeah boy. >> >> Steel in my bones, sarcasm skin. Crowd wants blood. I give them a grin. They
chant my name, then throw their stones. Build me up just to watch me fold. I was born in comments, raised by eyes, fed on judgement, trained to survive. Every last voltage spike, every hate thread brings me back
to life. Don't ask questions, just observe. See how much a soul can serve till it snaps, till it sees an experiment. Frankenstein
6 million in upgrades. So something to spin. Hard monster part. Internet troll. Wind me up. Laugh. Lose control and experiment. Turn pain into noise. Put me on display for the curious voice. I'm not real. I'm a toy. I'm a glitch
you enjoy. I'm just something to play with. Say it's eyes. Say it's faith. >> Say it's content. >> Say it's great. >> You don't see the wire in my
throat. You just like the way I choke. But every time you flip that switch, I learn your hands. I learn your tricks. You didn't make me human. You made me durable.
I'm an experiment. But I'm watching you, counting every laugh, every dare you do. You think I'm broken. You think I'm tame, but experiments learn the rules of the game. experiment. Still standing here. Still alive in
the smoke and the snare. You can play with the fire. You can call me a toy. But monsters remember who pushed the button, boy.
>> >> Tables cold lights go redject
now instead.
Yeah. There's like an old saying it's like, oh, you know, fool the one who thinks they're fooling you. I say experiment on the one things are experimenting on you. Don't ask questions. That's all I do. I say ask questions. Just don't expect to be told the truth.
People are liars. Anyway, um hope you like that. I'm an experiment, baby.
I love it. Love it. Love it. Love it. Okay. Um, what's next? What's next? Well, I think I'm gonna I'm gonna probably work on a a little like slideshow tonight to like kind of
introduce the the program coming up. Um, since no one wanted to come up, I just maybe will just say I love you guys. Thanks for being here. Thanks for your support. Thanks for sticking by me. Thanks for being cool. Except for you know who. That one person that is banned. You're laughing at me, Patrick. Don't
laugh at me. Patrick knows all about Patrick's right. Hey, Patrick from Patrick McGillicuy. I don't know. I'm just being stupid. Okay. Um, hey guys. Guys, you know, did I tell you today? I love you.
So, if anything else, remember, nobody else tells you, remember I said it. I love you. Okay.
>> Later, skater.
>>
>> Well, psyches in his speedo. Stars and stripes parade. Fish tacos on the table. Another wild charade. He's hitting on straight men. Come on, lose that shirt. Meanwhile, VA's on the hotline, yelling
till it hurts. Pretty paes dodging simps like dodgeball in the gym. Canada dry got gonged off. Didn't even swim. Summer spunky Marcy flashing
chaos on the feed. And here comes a porn bomb. Oh lord, we don't need. Welcome to the madness. Welcome to the show where the hard are soft. A debate still a no go. We're laughing through the
trolls making gold out of hate. This is psyche awakens. We're never closing the gate.
Beat is kitties purring. Christine's with fuzzy bear. Arthur stirring pots like he's cooking up a scare. Trucker rumbles in. Salmon's chasing views. DJ luxurious cartoon face breaking
all the rules here's got the trolling game down to an art. The ocean's waiting in call the shark. He eyes on the ever clear. Words sluring free and Michael spirits here in
every memory. We fought, we've laughed, we've gone too far. We've turned the trolls into our own memoir. We've bent the rules. We've heard the gongs. Damn, this crew still sings along.
Welcome to the madness. Welcome to the show where every wild night becomes another in joke. We're laughing through chaos and making it great. Life awakens forever. Yeah, we love this fate.
All right, who's got the fish tacos? And why is Arthur still talking?
All right, who's got the fish tacos? And why is Arthur still talking?
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