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Psyche's Friday night episode features a chaotic opening musical number, followed by a discussion with a guest about LGBTQ+ identity, spirituality, bullying, and personal experiences with sexuality and religion.
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Browse era →It's 9:00 p.m. Lights up, mics hot, chaos in the stream. VA calling in, sluring words, starting up a scene. Talking all that trash, then she flips. Ra queen mad at me. Girl, please. The show runs on caffeine. Sides twisted, laughing loud, whiskey in his veins. Slurs flying left and right. We cut the feed. No shame, but the chat's on fire. Can't tame this flame. This ain't your
mama's podcast. This a runaway train. Welcome to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boo flashing on cam chat. Losing their minds. Michael getting gonged. Alex taking flight. It's wild. It's wrong and we do it every night. Paige got them sing. Hearts in the chat, but she ain't got time for a dude like that. Diamond flirting hard. Let the girls react. It's
a freak show party. No filter. All facts. Yo, all facts. Yo yo, Michael drops a line. Gong, not tonight. Alex tried to joke. Boom. Sent into the night. Panel looking sideways. Someone's got a fight. Producers on mute, praying this don't spike. Diamonds feeling spicy. Shirt slipping down low. Oops,
she says with a wink. That's the whole show. S half asleep, but still cracking jokes. Slur out wisdom with a bourbon soap glow. No rules, just rolls. We pretend to play. One hand on the mute, other letting it spray. It's a circus, a riot, a beautiful mess. One wrong word and we're trending in the press. Welcome
to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boobs fashion on cam chat losing their minds. Michael getting to Alex taking flight. It's wild. It's wrong and we do it every night. Paige got them hard in the chat, but she ain't got time for a dude like that. Diamond flirting hard.
It's a freak show, no filter, all facts. Yeah. All facts. Lights out. One more round. Beat on the line. Yelling at a ghost from a bottle of wine. We laugh, we cry, we crash. Rewind. Same time next week. You know
the vibe. Welcome to madness. Enjoy the ride. Yeah. Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Welcome to the night. The cards laid out for show. Star shining so bright. Watch the secrets unfold. There's magic in her hands. Whisper what the future holds.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Wo. Hearts in the balance. Every card an open door. Feel the romance in every arcane war. Destiny
entwined as the moon begins to soar. Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So
let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Crystal visions in her gaze. Time can steal this moment. Life's uncertain
dance we chase with love. Wen pen dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Hello. You see me? Hold on. Where am I? Hold on a second. Let me go.
Something is a foot. See what I do. Um.
Ah, there you go. I mean, I do have a green screen and then but when I uncheck it and it works, but green screen. Not bad. Tonight actually looks pretty good. Oh, there we go. Got a green screen going on. What's up, guys? How are you?
Hi. Hey, Apollo. Oh, hey Samantha. Nick saw um I saw Alex in here. Hope she's around. So, let me see. Samantha, you guys want to see some clips? Hold on. Let me get my clips. Let me just have a minute to
put these in a hue. Oh, here we go. Second. >> Let me try to get into the light. Am I in the light? Am I Am I in the light? >> Yeah. Um, vigilante stream 2025. >> Unbeknownst to you, unbeknownst to you,
I just wanted to check in with Psyche tonight. I feel like he's Dr. Xavier. Can you hear me? Am I Am I okay? Is everything coming through? Maybe not. I don't know. >> They're loud and clear. Loud and clear, Captain. >> Oh, no. You're the captain. You're Dr. Xavier. Let me Let me go sit down over here. That's what I'm gonna do. What's going on tonight? What's going on
tonight? You have any um insight or knowledge as I run about on my uh >> journey to vanquish demons and whatnot? You know me at this stage. >> If you're Ghostbusters, you k I mean I would love to get some ghost hunting equipment and like you know >> I don't need ghostbusters. I I all I need is um actually this right here. >> You know, a little bit of Latin and have
some have some holy water. >> I Well, there you go. It's very effective. You would be surprised. >> Is that silver? I like that one. >> It is. It is pure silver. Absolutely. From Africa actually. My my my dad gave it to me before he passed away. >> Yes. >> Well, I mean I do I mean I I did like the like of a
cross, but like the thing was is like um there was so much in Christianity of like these homophobic people like a lot of And so it's like that's when I was growing up it was basically like wow >> hard. Yeah, >> my my dad was openly LGBTQ. I I guess like my major critics are like trying to
bring that up as if it would hurt me. It makes me feel stronger than ever. I I mean, by default, I am more than even somebody who's come out the closet, when I really think about it, I'm as LGBTQ as you can get
>> because I was born into it. I accept it. I personally am hetero, but am I against anyone LGBTQ? No. >> Come on. >> Yeah. >> And someone was questioning earlier, did it have to do with my mother? No. My my my dad was always bisexual. He was a
very attractive man. Like almost too good-looking. That was part of the problem. And um maybe I shouldn't say that, but if you if if in any way, shape, or form you find me attractive being a female, you would definitely say
my father when he was with us was a very modelque man. Incredibly so. So, um yeah, more power to me, I guess. But I'm sick of this I I I'm sick of it because all these homophobic
people, they're all people who are a part of it anyway. So, shut up. >> Yeah. >> Sorry. I'm done. >> No, it's cool. I mean, it's like I But I I mean, I have problems. There's I mean, there's homophobia within the community just like there's, you know, there is some kind of like, you know, colorism within the uh African-American community. There's like there's like the
flamboyant versus the masculine sometimes within the gay community. I mean just they can't sometimes they get along but often times >> within the gay community I'm not even supposed to exist. A lot of people who are openly gay don't think that they should ever have children. Hence my myself, my sibling, my other family members, we exist. We're here. We're not going anywhere. We're not going to die
early. Uh I mean I say I think a lot of gay like a lot like a lot of gay people I would say like like me for myself for example I look at things like I don't want to be part of like the normal society where they get married and there's like this like this happens that you know it's like I I'd rather be I mean it's like I part of the society anyway. >> Yeah. But by the way my parents were
both straight too and so it's like I was born of two straight people so I love straight people too right. It's like but you know I think people >> Yeah. It doesn't matter. I Why is it anybody's business really? >> It's really not. And it's like that's another thing is like I think that it's like a sexual preference is not necessarily like so much of the identity. So for some people it's more than the other, but it's like to put it as like this is your identity, your
sexuality. Straight people do not have this just the identity of I'm a straight person like 247. They're like, you know, they're just human beings. But we're >> most most men who claim that they're heterero in my opinion are not. Sorry. >> Yeah. >> Well, there's a, you know, Yeah, there's a scale. They, you know, kind of a scale of like, you know, between one and six,
like one being extremely like and there's very rarely someone that's 100% on the one or the other side, right? There's always going to be >> Well, all I know is that like I exist. You know there's I have bullies like you're you know I will disclose publicly and I hope that you don't get offended by me saying this Psyche but I very very
briefly converse with Psyche today about a little something pertaining to bullying and I was telling Psyche I'm like these because that's what they are. They're these they don't get it. And they're like repressed.
>> They're they're like in this void that I would never want to be a part of. Yet here we are. >> What does it mean? I don't know. Did I just >> I I apologize if I did. >> Here's what I think I mean. I think what I think it is is like
uh shadow projection a lot of it and it's like a lot of it is like takes some kind of heat off of themselves in some way. It also makes them feel like they're like a better person or they're a good person or because they make someone else lower than they're higher. And so it's like so that's why some Satanists are very comfortable saying oh you know some human beings are animals and like we're gods and things like that and like
they're very happy with that dichotomy of like you know animals and gods. I think that we both have both sides in us. Both an animalistic, you know, the human side and then like the life godly side, right? And we >> I mean, like tonight I I mean where I am right now, there's a there's a bunch of
public um what they call it public land behind me. And I'm not the only one. You're going to think I'm like really insane, but it's okay. A bunch I don't know even who these people are. Well, we're not doing anything sexual or anything. Don't worry about that. But a bunch of people who run around at night
basically scaring each other >> who are living out their uh fantasies of being an animal. I'm one of those people. It's horrible. Yeah. Well, >> is it a furry? Are you in the furry community? What's going on? >> No. No, I'm not in the furry community. No, it's just it's just what very um
primal people who are in touch with their primal sense do when they come out to the desert >> in um eastern California. That is what we do. >> Sorry, you hear me still? I just changed my headphones. Yeah, perfect. >> I love your background. It it's it's like the eye of raw but more >> Yeah, this is my I'm using this as a
logo. It has like, you know, the eye incorporated into it and some like labyrinthine um stuff into it. It's really cool. I, you know, I really, you know, enjoy it. It came out beautiful gold, you know, lime golden and very unique and uh >> Yeah, it looks nice. It looks very like regal. >> I I have a green screen behind me now, too. I don't know if it's like But see
the green >> No, it's a big difference. Like you look so crisp. Like right now I'm on like regular I guess 3G, 5G, whatever it is >> because I well I'm not going to say where I'm at right now, >> but um >> I can see you crisp and clear.
>> Very very let me let me I want to show you the sky where I am. Maybe I can >> let me look. Let me put it on full screen. >> Hold on. Let me let me try to >> Okay, >> let me go over here. Hold on. I'm I'm locking. I'm locking. I
I don't know if you can see. You probably Well, no. Okay. Maybe. Maybe. It's probably still too much light pollution where I'm at right now. I'm on foot. >> I'll go higher up a little bit later tonight.
>> Cool. Probably >> you can probably see the city. Maybe you can see the city. >> Oh, I see I see the lights right there. Yeah, I see the lights. >> Okay. Yeah, you you can't see any stars. I'm too close to the light pollution. >> Too close. Still. That's why >> I remember when I went to Catalina when I was like we we went on a pirate
schooner like a reproduction of a pirate schooner like over to Catalina. We said we sailed over for and uh but we and we went to the island and uh there was like it was like the clearest I've ever seen the sky in my life and that's just being like you know about an hour offshore like island but it was just like so
gorgeous >> until I'm I'm a little too close. Um later tonight if you're on late and I'm higher at like a higher elevation I'll show you something. >> Cool. But um no, you're man, you rock. >> If you stop streaming, I am going to
kick your ass. I'm going to find you and I will kick your ass. That's the stalker in me. I will do it. >> I'm never I'm not gonna like stop like I don't think I stop streaming. I think that I mean I I'm definitely gonna have to do it less and stuff. And like also because I have other projects that I really want I I do want to focus on like
I want to create my deck. I want to um uh write the book the book on trolls and stuff like that and and I want to have you know Kickstarter campaigns for these and have the chat and stuff involved in a lot on a lot of this right and it's like it's so that'll be all all synergistic working together >> but you know it's like I think like I was like I was on at one point like I
was on so much that it was like I was on like 12 hours I would pass out like every stream I would like wake up go right to the restroom I was like neglecting myself and not you know not getting enough rest And then there was >> Well, you're not really you're not like like a lot of like I'm an outdoor cat. That's me. Like I'm when I'm outside,
I'm just like and like where I am right now. I can be outside. I can stretch. I can do all the things that I want to do. >> I'm naturally a little bit feral, which is the opposite of you. Like that's where we differ >> with our birthday signs. probably like my assistant or something
>> because I am naturally very just like >> all over the place when it comes to physicality. >> But you have helped me so much and I just want other women to know psyche is your friend.
If you think otherwise you're stupid. Um, he is so just like, and I hope you don't think of it like a like an insult. You're everything. Like people are like, "Is he gay? Is he by? Is he some other thing?" And I'm like, "He's everything."
>> Panex like pan pansexual. Like pansexual pan is associated with >> I told you if I was a vampire that's what I would be. I would be. And I think that's why like you got like hooked on the Accasha thing. Maybe I am Aasha. I mean I think about I hadn't even thought about that part of that movie in
forever. >> I'm that girl for real. I even kind of look like her a little bit. It's weird, isn't it? >> Yeah. ever ever wanted to kill like I guess they wanted to kill the start and they're looking all these bikers and you know these vampire people in this bar oh were looking for him and she's like they're like they're like we're going to kill him and we're going to spread his
guts all over the she's like oh really is that what you're going to do >> really well I was even married to an Eastern European that was my first husband >> um I I think I might be a caution I don't know it so good >> I'll bite you a caution Exactly. We have we have the AOSIC records like yeah that
is like >> and then my name's Alexandria Library of Alexandria you know I am >> exactly crazy. >> Am I reincarnating something? Am I channeling something? Oh well unbeknownst to me and even if I knew I would never >> I'm going to look into I I do want to like you know talk to you privately and like look and like
>> Yeah privately. Yeah. Privately with your with your Sabian symbols because I think I sent you like like whoever the first person is who you feel deserves the reading tonight. I sent you a deal. >> I I want whoever you think is deserving. Not me, somebody else. Like whoever like
you think is like a lonely wanderer seeking answers >> from age such as yourself cuz c can we call you a stage or is that an ins. >> Hey look what I'm wearing tonight. Do you see the shirt? Hold on. Look at this. >> What are you wearing? Tell me. Tell me. Hold on. Let me turn my turn off my
light real quick because this is like a little bit um >> um Well, you you blinked out a little bit. I >> I got I got my camera down. I'm just gonna take that down a second. Uh here. Oh, okay. Here we go. Okay, here we go. I can see the shirt. What does it say? >> Oh, that's that's cool. What What does
it say? >> Why is it bouncing around? Okay, hold on. It says, can you read it? Is it backwards? >> Something enough sage. Oh my god, it says sage. And I just said that. I didn't even know your I didn't even know your shirt said that. >> And I didn't show it. It says not enough sage uh for this >> I swear to God, I did not know your
shirt said that. >> I I'm like linked I'm a little linked to you right now. That That's what it is. That's interesting. >> Okay, cool. Let me see. >> Well, well, if I'm linked to you, that means I can take you on an adventure tonight. All right. Well, if I'm because if I'm picking up on you, that means you're picking up on me.
Do you want to go do you want to go on a run? I'll wait till he comes back. I think that like his thing because that's what I do at night. I hunt LD
L's on here. LD knows me very well because he knows I'm a lot like LD. I'm convinced that if it were not for LD, I would not have been as concerned for his sister. And his sister I just like she she's a sweet she's a she's such a sweet
thing. She really is. LD, I I know y'all have your uh trials and tribulations. I'm getting ready to um I'm I'm amping up a little bit to go running up a hill tonight. And >> you're going to go run up a hill at night? >> Yeah, that's what I do. >> Yeah. Yeah. I'll take y'all with me as >> Good.
long as I have reception. It probably won't be very far, but Yeah. >> The view is probably a lot nicer during the day. >> No, I'm I'm a night owl. I'm night. I'm night. I'm definitely night. That's me. Even though I get hurt sometimes.
>> You know what's crazy? I got the most superficially hurt in the day opposed to the night. Whenever I get hurt at night, it's internal. It's never been external. But >> flip call or >> Yeah. Well, I I don't You know what it is?
The time I was out in the daytime, I was in the city where there's concrete. Like, if you fall and get hurt at night um in nature, it's it's not going to be a scrape because you're hitting dirt, plants, things like that. It It's not going to scrape you. That's what it's
been for the past year and a half because I like to run around at nighttime in nature. I'm a little weird like that. >> Hey, whatever. >> Yeah. What's going on, LD? Before I Well, so so LD, are are you enemies with big pipes? He disappointed me. I think I
scared him because I got too >> big pipes. I don't like big pipes. >> Yeah. What did he do to you? Like, why are you mad? >> I saw a really bad >> anytime he goes on tunnel and I show up, he just starts doxing me and saying crazy >> He was saying like he was saying, "Oh, you're going to get a seizure when you drive or something like that." He kept saying,
>> "Yeah, he's just a weirdo, bro." Like, he can't get past >> Yeah, >> cuz he's living in the house. >> What's up, McQueen? >> What's up, L? >> He hasn't been. >> How you been? >> Oh, we got I'm good, man. How are you? We got that mean guy. Okay. >> I'm not mean. I'm not mean. >> Hey, Alexander. Alexander, if you don't behave tonight, your butt's going to get kicked off.
>> Mean. It's okay. >> I'm too scared. I'm breaking my boots. >> Haven't you noticed since I left your panel? Your has flatlined. >> It's one since I left a month ago. Your is flatlined. >> Yeah, you you left it in shambles. Going right now. >> That's because I left. Remember that. Yeah, it is, bro.
>> Not one Not one person ever said, "Oh, >> theory." Okay, I'm I'm gonna do a poll and I'm gonna say Alex. We'll see what >> That's okay, man. >> Here we go. >> I love Psych. I love this And I like you too, Alexandra. >> No, you're mean to me. You don't like >> I'm not mean to you. That's how I me. I
introduce myself to everybody. >> You pass, All right, relax. All right. Well, you're I think you're a little >> Hey, don't call her Yeah. Don't call her name. >> Well, I could Well, she might what it's about. I'm looking for werewolves. Honestly,
>> you found >> They're out here where I am. >> Bigfoot. At least they're out here. >> Oh, yeah. What was I going to show you guys? I forgot. >> I wonder how pink her is. I a black girl and their their so pink. It's amazing. >> No, mine is black.
>> That's my favorite part about black women. When you li the little lips open night. No, we're we're back where I am. >> Alexander. Alexander. >> What? I'm right. >> I'm black as night. I'm black as night. I mean, everything about >> All I can see is your teeth. >> I know. When you
>> I'm pitch I'm pitch black. I'm pitch black. >> Oh my god. I will the out of you. >> I'm pitch black and your old ass black. >> But you're good. You look hot. But >> But still, man, >> it's horrible. It's horrible. I I'm It's too I'm too old. I'm too old for you. >> Yeah, you are. You're like 90. What are
you 40? That's 90. >> No, I'm like 150. It's horrible. >> It's It's disgusting. You're basically decomposing in front of us. >> I am I am >> like a mummy >> happening. Just decomposing. >> I am. I I I I'm a mummy for real. >> Okay, hold on a second. Um >> I can't take it with these old
And the bigger the taste, the worse. Like Jesus. >> Bigger. Well, good thing I'm only a C. I'm not a D or a double B. Like, >> wait, hold on. Hold on. >> I can see What do you have on your head? You have the Princess Leia headphones like psych. So I can see the white headphones and
your teeth. That's how black you are. Put a light on, baby. >> Okay. >> No, no, no. Hey, nothing, It's the truth. >> I already turned my I turned my camera off. He can't see me. >> I can see you. >> I turned my camera off. Like I don't think you can see me. How do you see me? >> I see your teeth. >> Oh
>> No way. Okay. >> No, there's like No, you can't see. No, now you definitely cannot see me. I want to make sure. >> We got to give a a psyche attention. Is that your or your hand? What am I looking at? >> It's everything. >> Everything. >> It's everything. >> Psyche.
I'm writing Psyche. Psyche. Psyche. Psyche. I'm writing you a new song. It's called Psyche in the Neon Night. I am repurposing a song for you, but it's so awesome. It's Synth Wave, Vapor Wave. I'll probably release it tomorrow. It's all about you. It's
>> Yo, Alexandra, don't tell me that LD is not Luigi. Look at him. >> That's Luigi. Alex. Alex. >> I love LD. LD is >> No, but Mario and Luigi, >> he's one of my LD is one of my rockar. If you put the green hat on him and the L that's
>> LD, baby LD L is LD is a rockar fantasy a giant LG >> plus he has a giant dick and I cannot prove this. >> A giant dick. >> I just happen to know and I'll leave it at that. >> Oh, he gante Kako
>> it's giant. >> How do you know? Well, I don't have to disclose that to you. >> So, you seen it? You seen this giant cop? >> Remotely. >> Remotely. What the does that mean? >> It means just what I said. >> I don't know. That's what I'm asking. What is >> Well, I don't Well, ask LD. Why are you
asking me? Because you're the one saying you saw his giant dick. So remotely see the remote viewing. You close your eyes and you like, you know, went into his room while he was chucking off and saw his dick. >> I've seen everyone remotely.
>> This is the funniest thing I ever seen in my life. By the way, whoever made this, God bless them. >> Trip kicked that. >> God bless him. Whoever he is.
>> Is that beta? Is that supposed to be beta for right there? I don't leave that one.
>> Is it the same raccoon that keeps coming to your freaking house? It's the cutest freaking thing ever. Oh, >> raccoons are the devil. >> I don't think I have any weed left. I can't. >> Yeah, I left that doesn't get better than this. What the
>> That is wild. So anyway, so I see he's playing like um clips from my channel, not even his. I can understand if it's like from his channel, but he's like playing mine. So I messaged him. I'm like, "Why are you like playing clips from my channel? Like what, you know, like stop it." And he goes, "Okay, done."
Then he restarts and then he starts playing some where I'm like literally fighting with people like me versus NorCal this and that and he titled it like um be careful what you ask for or blah blah blah. I just >> Well, can I say one thing? I don't even know who you're talking about. Who are >> You told about Psych, Damn. you talking? >> Yeah. >> Okay. Okay. Well, that
>> Yeah. Damn. >> Have uh I see G dog up there. The guy that freaking is like a huge docker. Um doc Jamie Rose docs me. Boston Bridges. Um sister, I mean Doc, you know, their sister. Um you know how he is out there like licking his butt. >> Jay Dog. Yeah. said um like saying like other things like beta killed her husband this and that. I'm like people
say like that about me. He goes you want me to mod you like I'm like no I don't want you to mod me. I want you to freaking understand like when people come I'm like on the panel defending myself. I'm not going at anybody else. I'm not going at freaking psyche. Like >> that is crazy. Pet is crazy. why is he >> It really hurt me. >> She's not crazy. She's just emotional.
>> They're doing for content. saying, man, don't you people. >> You up here trying to stir up, But you ain't got no content, It's dry up. >> Well, I'm asking B though, what happened? >> out of here,
>> And I'm like, I got confused one night >> and I took his link that Michael Green came back from the dead on everything I love. I said, this nigga's back. came back from the dead >> and he just running he ran beat and then today he did the same thing. I was like why you running beaters live is oh evidence is for Rico and I was like
what >> evidence of what evidence? >> I don't know. He said he was joking. He said he was joking though. >> Yeah. Some people say that when they're being serious. >> I said why content? Because one of them like I didn't watch like I didn't see all of that but I definitely saw the one with Bron. I'm like, "Wait a minute. This is for my panel." >> My panel. Like, why is he like running
that? Like, >> it could be. Look, it could be, you know, he now friends with Alex Mayor, so Alex might be telling her to do it. >> So, I'm not gonna >> Alex. Um, what do you think about um Psyche's um title? >> I don't see what the title is. Wait, hold on. >> Alex. Alex. Alex. All this says Alex.
Whether it's Mayor McQueen, it's all about Alex. >> It's all about Alex. >> I don't like you asked me and I took your advice. I took your advice, Alexander. You told us to take a break
and keep Alexander. >> It's nearly impossible. He's been rereaming my content. I messaged him. I said, "Don't cover my content." And then he started going and going. No, I just want to give you a shout out because >> every time they say Alex or Alexander
friends, we need to be the >> dick hard every time they say. >> Yeah. What is your play your aong song again about like my cousin and I'm a crumbling biscuit and my teeth are falling apart. >> That's >> Don't ever sit here and play.
>> Okay, so I just want to say she's crying. >> Oh my god. >> She's crying. She's crying and saying don't play play the biscuit song about my she mentioned all these things. So see if any of these things are in that song or if it's even a mean-spirited or I don't know. It's just a stupid song. It was during the biscuit controversy. It's a short song.
>> Me and McQueen need to be the Wonder Twins. We're both Alexis. >> We're We're the Alex >> forever. Alex forever. >> Yes. Yes. We have to like be the dynamic hero. >> What are we going to do? How are we
going to the world? like I'll go out and I'll go out and you be the brain. I'll be the I'll be the bra. You be the brain. >> Tell me what to do. Alex, >> what do I do? I'm out here. You got an avatar. >> You don't like that one. >> You got an Alex guitar. I'm an Alexar.
>> Alexar. >> You guys You guys You guys You guys want to get a roommate like in a separate know? I think you're like uh >> No. No. Because we're like brother and sister. We're twins. We have to do we have to like fight. >> Brother, we have to vanquish the evil. >> Alex and Alex run the show. We never forget that.
>> We are vanquishing We are vanquishing evil. >> Listen, he loves He loves giving oral sex. >> Exactly. >> vanquishing evil. >> He >> That's what we're doing because Alex, he knows what's happening. He's like remote. >> You can both have a You can have >> He sees it.
>> You get married, you can get the >> Vanquishing. Evil is my middle name. >> Both of ready. We are ready. We are ready. Like tonight's a good example because I'm going to go running around the neighborhood a little bit and I might cause some trouble. I hope not. >> Guys, can I play Can I play my my beata disc quick? Diss track real quick.
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Go ahead. Even my Even my diss track is not like mean, but you can see be mean. >> Yeehaw. Where's my Paige song, baby? Paige, will you fall in love with me? >> Look at Gotti.
>> What's that, >> bro? Enough of this sweet They just want to get when when their legs are pinned behind their ears like Gumby. >> The last thing they want to hear is I love you. >> Where are you? Where are you? >> No, they do want to hear you love me. >> All women. We don't need that. At least they need that like
we don't get under.
>> Yeah. What's wrong? I'm walking. What's wrong? Oh, you're walking. >> No, nothing's wrong. I'm actually walking up a hill right now. >> Oh, okay. Well, that's good. >> Then I look back at them. I >> I might not know if I cut out like disconnect >> I might disconnect. >> Oh, I think I No, I did lose Oh, hold
on. I didn't lose anybody. Hold on. Well, I don't know if I think we're done with this clip, though. So, let's just take that off. Yeah, >> I'm walking far. I can see here. >> Yeah, I kicked off the other Alex because he was just so loud. And uh I mean, >> but he's not bad. He's just like >> he's terrible. I I if I was like, you
know, if I had like four more twisted tees, I might like >> Well, I am a little drunk right now running around in the wilderness away. >> I I think I need four more Twisted Teas because I just started drinking. >> No one's gonna get me. I might get in the hospital later. LD, Was he loud? Was he just like loud? He was very loud. His microphone is all the way up.
>> Yeah. >> Yeah. Well, LD knows where I am. Like, I'm not worried because LG knows >> LG like I like I'm not Jewish or Italian, but culturally in a weird way, I am. And LG knows like if I were to disappear, he would know exactly who to call to find me. So, I'm fine. I'm not
worried about it. We'll get We'll get We'll get NJ Courts on the case. >> No, he wouldn't know. Well, I I just know you would know. You would know exactly where to find me. I'm not worried about it. >> So, whatever. >> Tell me. Tell me. Oh, that's why I know too. Maybe something will happen to LD. >> Let me let me let me show you a different view. It's a little bit higher
>> Say she's she's in the middle of the up. desert someplace. You have to go. >> No, LD knows that LD actually probably knows exactly where I think about it. He He probably does. >> I mean, if you're running, I'm not going to say anything. >> No, I don't care if you do. You you you
know. Well, you you you just know. >> Okay. There's some lights. I don't know. Like, let me see if you can see the stars from here. Can you see stars or or No, probably. Maybe. >> It's too like the cameras our cameras like really the cameras don't really pick up. >> Let me go back down. I'm I'm going to go
back down >> cuz I don't think you can see anything. Sorry. I'm going back down. >> Here we go. I got to be careful at night because I don't want any like scorpions to get me. They might. >> Um Well, it's very Well, probably pre I don't know there. Have you ever encountered some scorpions out in the
desert? I didn't really >> No, not yet. Wait, hold on. Let Let me take this earphone thing off. Hold on. Hold on. Be careful with like homeless people camping out on a hill. >> Okay, I got this off. >> Have I ever seen scorpions? Yes, I have actually. I have. I've seen a few >> just out walking around in the desert.
>> Yeah, I I I have. They don't bother people like humans or anything really. Um unless like you antagonize them or something. >> When I was in Vegas, you had to use a black light to find the scorpions cuz they're like iridescent. >> Yeah. Well, I've seen them like like
they I think they have like a camouflage sort of um ability, but I've seen them. But but they they've never messed with me. They probably because they know they're like, "Oh, this she's a predator anyway. >> Can't game recognize game even in the
animal kingdom." Well, you know, I guess >> I think Predator rec like recognizes Predator. Really? Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Well, it can't they can but then again like you know man is like one of the most dangerous predators and then like you know animals can kind of like more easily be fooled like
>> you know what I have seen um some sort of a large cat since I've been out here. >> Ah >> but I've never had a problem. It was not a mountain lion. It it was smaller. I maybe a lynx maybe. >> Uhhuh. >> But I' I've figured one of those. It's
come around and it looked at me and I looked at it and I was like, >> I'm not the one. No. >> And it walked away. >> For real. >> You see, there's a good story. >> Hey, Alex, did you hear King Cobra died? >> I did. >> Oh my god. I had to go online and buy
one of his shirts. >> I didn't believe it at first. >> Yeah, I was looking up his obituary. I think his parents like uh >> he really did >> stop the obituary from being out. >> Crazy, man. And he's so young. Like what the >> He wasn't that young. I mean, he was in his 30s and he wasn't >> 34. He's younger than me. I mean,
>> yeah, but you're not doing what he was doing. I mean, he was doing some hard stuff. >> Oh, yeah. >> Did you see the he was eating? Oh my god. >> Oh, it's a bit loud. >> I mean, you know what, LD? And I meant to say this in the stream because your sister came out on my stream earlier and
um uh you know what LD I I wish your sister would like post like a wish list or like a cash app or something to where like you know those of us who just have known her over the years. So I want to send her some money or a gift or something like I can do the Amazon thing but like I don't want to get her a couch. I'd
rather give her like cash. But um no um King Cobra, he was pretty I'm not dissing him. >> No, >> he was up for a long time. We all know this. >> I mean, he's really autistic, you know. But at first when I heard that he died,
I was like, "Oh my god, did he kill himself cuz Aussie died?" >> I thought I was I don't think he killed himself. I think that he just overdid it. I mean you I mean well well what I was going to say about you LD you have been
even if you didn't mean to be you've been like a good influence over me and like an understanding energy more than you know over the past few years and I appreciate you for that. Thank you. >> Thank you. I appreciate that. I always try to be, you know, the mediator, the
the middle man, like the >> You're a good man. You You just are. You you you get knocked out a few times like here and there, but you're you're good. >> No one ever >> And I I really like I really am so happy that I know you, that I met you in
person to where like we know each other are real people. And like when LD and I met, we just we we went to pizza and we had beer. We had so much fun just having pizza and beer. >> It was like it it was like two old
friends reconnecting after years and years. It was so much fun. >> Yeah, we had a good time. And I understand like like LD is secretly quietly protective over me like like he
like every time lately I've had a guy issue. Who has been there? LD LD rocks. And if you say otherwise I will kick your ass.
LD is awesome and I think like people are jealous and like >> why Mr. Big Pipes has issues. >> Well be because well I I've crushed on him a little bit because he has pretty hair. I'll admit it. Um he is a little scared of you LD. He he's like oh LD scared me. No it's the
opposite. Um, and and you're right. You're you're right about a lot of things. Actually, you're right about like way more than I would like to say you're right about, but you are right. So, LPs, I guess everyone big brother whether you like it or not.
>> It's cold >> because I don't have a big brother. >> I came in from outside. I'm cold. Big brother. >> It is cold out. I don't know what temperature is. Let me look. >> No, not Well, in Well, where you are, is it cold for real? Already >> it's 61° >> for real. >> That's freezing for me. >> It's cold for me. Oh my god, my
refrigerator's still open. I got to close it. It alerts. No, it's the oven because I wanted to bake. I'm going to bake tonight. I'm going to bake stuff. >> What are you baking? I don't know. >> You should You should make some You should make some shits and giggles. >> Well, I'll tell you. I'm going to make
some sausage cuz I was going to do a fire pit tonight, but I'm just not like I'm not doing it. I'm going to make some um sausage, some shrimp. >> I'm going to put some lobster sauce over it. I'm cooking. I am cooking. Maybe some mozzarella sticks, too. it. it. >> You know, I'm just cooking tonight.
I'm cooking tonight. Yes, I am. I need a pan. I need a pan. I need a pan to invoke my energy of the Peter Pan. >> Oh, you relate to Peter Pan archetype. Do you? >> What? >> You do you relate to the Peter Pan
archetype or is it like the Tinkerbell? >> I I look I I am Peter Pan. I just happen to be female, which is weird. >> Yeah. Well, I mean, Peter Pan was traditionally played by females in in the on the theater on stage. >> Okay. Well, I can be Peter Pan. >> Mary Martin.
>> Do we know the Peter Pan song?
>> That's That's not Peter Pan. Well, when it it's wishing upon a star, you don't want to wish upon a star. >> Sure. Sure. I do. I want to wish. >> Isn't that Isn't that from Pinocchio? >> Yeah, that's what I just said. >> Yeah. >> Like, wait a second. >> Pentagram. It's like that's like
the star. We can like make our own wishes come true like on >> I think that's the song they sing when Pinocchio comes to life. >> Yeah. Make a wish.
I wish for world peace. >> You know what I wish for? I wish for everything that I wish for after this wish. That's my wish. >> That's like wishing for more wishes. >> The wish master. >> You can't wish for more wishes. That's
that's against the rules. >> No, I am the wish master. I am the gening the traits. >> That's like when you rub the lamp and you get three wishes >> and you lose your last wish for more wishes. >> I'm going to make all I'm I'm the wish I'm the wish I'm the wish mistress
come true LD all of them. Every every wish. So be careful what you wish for because they they'll be good though. I I'll try to make them good if you make your wishes good. I just want everyone to be happy and get along. >> Okay. >> I don't want anything for myself. I'm happy. I'm not that selfish.
>> I'm gonna Well, I'm going to make a selfish wish for you right now. I'm making my wish for you. >> Okay. >> And my wish will manifest over the next week for you. It's going to be an awesome wish. My wish for LD is that LD has all his dreams come true. But beyond
that, because LD is humble and he is like always wanting to help everybody else and he never helps himself. So I on his behalf am making a super wish >> for him.
>> Using my Moroccan Egyptian >> Thank you. Evo tribe wish mistress powers. Here it is. There's your wish. I did it. Is it gonna work out? I don't know. >> I can I I already feel it. I already feel >> I feel like it's it's happening. I I I
think it is happening. >> I I think it's happening. I I think the wish is happening. I don't know, but later tonight I'll I'll do my best. >> I'll do my best. >> Yeah. Because LD is a good a very good man
more so than he acknowledges within himself because of various reasons. But I love LD and I'm very grateful that I know him. He's >> I appreciate that, Alex. Thank you. And I'm very grateful to be your friend. >> Me, too. Oh, I like how long do you
think we're going to know each other? Like 50 years, 60 years, probably until we're dead. till one of us gives up this YouTube but even then it's like, you know, we still talk outside of this. >> Yeah, that's what I'm saying. I I think that we're just like always we're always going to know each other and I'm grateful to that.
And it's cool. It you know what? Sometimes it just is what it is. It you know what life is? Lemon pepper. Do you like lemon pepper on seasonings of food? Cuz I do. And to me, lemon pepper, >> not my favorite, but yeah, lemon pepper chicken's good. >> Yeah, I I'm putting some lemon pepper on
some sausage and shrimp tonight. It lemon pepper is like compromise. Not everybody likes it cuz they don't really know what it is, but then once you try it, you're like, "Oh, this is delightful." >> You can put it on everything with lemon pepper.
It's all right. It's lemon pepper. And then if you smoke some weed, and no matter what you eat with lemon pepper, after you smoke some weed, >> especially if it's indacica that you smoke, it's going to be great. >> I wish I had some weed. I think I'm totally out. Yeah, I'm out.
>> Well, do you need some weed? I will send you even if I get in trouble with federal prison. Federal >> you the best weed ever because of where I am right now. The weed is plentiful. It is huge. >> I'll send you I'll send you some flavored vapes. >> You You know what? I'll send you a teddy
bear. Do you want a teddy bear >> if it's filled with weed? Sure. >> Well, that's what I would do. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I wouldn't I wouldn't ask you to I wouldn't ask you to do anything illegal. >> Well, even if you know, even if someone
tries to catch me, I'm a smooth criminal. Good luck trying to catch me. You never will. Yeah. You've been hit by You've been hit by a smooth criminal. >> Where's >> Yeah. So, what else is going Well, well, how's your How's your situation right
now? Has everything smoothed over yet? Or do we need to go underground and help your friend? >> Oh, no. I'm at >> I'm at Phoenix's house. She's uh doing some stuff around the house right now. >> Okay. Well, leave it at that. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Leave it at that. I hope things
work out for her. I really do. >> Yeah. Me, too. You know, >> it's so hard. It's hard getting old. Like we're all around the same age. We're all like, you know, late 30s, 40s. Life changes.
>> Yep. >> You lose people and, you know, all this just falls in your lap and you don't know how to deal with it. >> And then you got to grow up and deal with it. It's crazy. I'm telling you. >> Connie, come here. No, Takani, don't go under the bed. Come up here. Okay, go under the bed.
>> I probably shouldn't run up this hill at night cuz if I do, I like what if I hurt myself? Then what am I going to do? >> You're definitely not going to make your lemon pepper sausage shrimp. Well, I already started the oven, but behind the house where I am, there's like this big like I could go to the top. I did it yesterday in the daytime. I did
cuz I like to challenge myself. I have been getting in the best of shape. Like I don't even care that I like hurt myself like superficially. I feel like a warrior >> inside. Like I feel balanced. I could >> I could see you laying out on the beach with like your head facing the waves and
letting them just crash over you like a Navy Seal. >> Just carry a log up the >> You sound like my sister. >> She um she she she views me in a way that I don't view myself. And um she's like, "Alex,
will you just calm down and come on a cruise and just be like more like my sister is a very luxurious person, you know? Me, I do like to rough it. >> I really do. That's me. I like being in
the elements. I like communing with nature. are like wrestling around with nature if possible. >> I've never I've never been on a cruise. I uh I'd rather just fly to a destination and then just spend a couple days on the beach. >> Things don't work out with the girl that you're with. Would you be open to meeting my sister? You you two would get
along very well and I would love to have you as a brother-in-law. Truthfully, >> we're just we're just we're just friends. I mean, like, if you ever want to meet my younger sister, she's she's a lot prettier than me. She's she's very she's very feminine, very pretty.
>> Um, she's she's just I could I like if if you were my brother-in-law, oh my god, I would be so happy. >> You know what's crazy, Alex? Honestly, >> sister-in-law, I would be so happy. If I had your mom as my mother-in-law, I would be like, "You gave me the best weight loss tips ever." >> Can you imagine that wedding? Can you
imagine that wedding if my mom and my sister were there? Like, and my family like, it'd be it'd be insane. >> I can I can see it very clearly, actually. Yes. >> We would definitely have to go to the courthouse and get that done. Like, I don't think we'd have to go to church. >> No, my my sister is very traditional. I'm the oddball. >> Nah, dude. We We'd have >> like you a lot. We'd have to have a nice Jewish wedding where she steps on the
glass and like that. >> She's not Jewish. >> But I I'm half Jewish. >> I'm half Jewish. I'm atheist. >> She's an atheist. She She doesn't She's like, >> "But then we go down to the courthouse. We go down to the courthouse and get it done." >> No, you would have to have a wedding because otherwise my mom would kill me. >> I plan to live. >> Okay. I mean, there's a there's a lovely
little chapel. There's a lovely little chapel in Vegas. No, but if you ever if you have if if you ever feel like you don't have options I >> hit me up. Hit me up after October. after October. I'll know
I'm like flying out my ex-girlfriend from Vegas when I was dating her in Vegas and she's coming to my sister's wedding and we'll see what happens after that. I don't expect much.
You okay? Did you lose connection from the mountain?
You have been running around all night. Can I help you with anything? >> You've been running around all night. Can I help you with anything? >> Is there anything I can do for you? I feel bad. I've just been sitting here drinking beer. >> It would take longer to tell you what to do than it would be. >> I'm sorry. I feel useless.
>> No, you're fine. You work out there. Like you do you do I don't you know what I mean? Clean up people. >> Any idea any idea where you want to go to dinner on Sunday before the movie? >> Oh, did we just say we're going to the >> Yeah, I just want to go somewhere close. cuz I don't want to drive like anywhere far. >> That's what I'm saying.
>> Like I don't understand why that seat >> I even I didn't buy the tickets yet, but uh I went to go >> I was at work and I looked to go reserve the tickets for the movie and there's no one like there's not a single seat reserved. >> I know. I'm so excited. I hope it's just us. >> But do you know where you want to go for dinner? >> No.
trash me and then I don't have time to um
yeah like when I check out they provide me so I got some time to think now I I haven't had time to think about it. Sorry. Do you have any ideas? >> No. Wherever you want to eat cuz I know you're very picky on what you like to eat. >> I'm not that picky. I just like >> It's not that you're picky.
I do. And like my face is literally I look like a leer right now because I haven't been following. >> I don't care where you want to go to dinner on Sunday. I'm just saying I hope they have alcohol cuz I want to get up before this movie. >> I know. I'm fine. Hello. I'm sorry. I was uh I had Sorry, I had a phone call.
I do have some clips to show. Um so, but I don't know if you want to hang >> Alex looking for the link. She fell off. >> I I posted it. I posted it. Um >> Okay. >> Yeah, I got it. Okay. So, here's some clips though. >> Why would it let me post it? I don't know why.
Overwhelm your enemy with argument. All the by which is government and populace process information to make up their minds and you adjust it so those minds are made up as you desire. Everyone is happy no one gets hurt or killed and nothing is destroyed.
Ordinary warfare on the other hand is >> oh where can't go or where where you think you run bro that's nothing >> you like this >> I remember one time I remember where you said that you threw up like a an exit off the freeway weird >> it looks better that way because it's
not going to fall like an exit off the freeway >> no it's not funny well I I do It's really not psyche. I cried last night. I want you to unmod me. I don't think that it's funny that you're doing this. You're calling me a witch. I get badgered all the time being called a witch. Who the do you think you are? >> I'm sorry. Beat it. Beat it. Come on. >> Wow.
You >> I got you back. >> I think it is. Hey. Here. So, I don't know if I should get pot tonight. Hey. I get popped tonight. I'll look into it. >> Hey babe. Babe, come here. >> Hey Gotty,
>> what up man? Is this another best show? >> Yeah. >> I made little Dickens. Hey, little Dickens. >> Oh, Psych. I saw this one. >> Saw that one. >> Cool. >> Hi, guys. >> We're grown. We can all do this. Come on. >> Okay. So I I I kept seeing him come on
to the panel and he would tell these ladies how she's so jealous and I can't deal with her and I just can't deal with the jealousy. Meanwhile, he's telling me stuff like my ex keeps calling me asking me to fix her car cuz he was a mechanic. He she she wants money from me. He kept telling me how, you know, she he kept telling me how she was texting him. I kept going to Facebook
and seeing that he was on Facebook and had never even deleted their pictures off of Facebook. And I said, "How are we supposed to be together and you still got her broadcasted even when he proposed to her back in the day?" Okay. He told me when he got with me on another channel that he propositioned me on because I'm 49 because I'm an RN just
like the woman that he's with right now. Okay. He prays on women with money >> because I can hold it down. I live by myself with two bunny rabbits and he's got nothing. But he lied and told me he had so much. His own girlfriend told me through text and I have right now that he has no home. That's his mother's home that he lives in that he has no car.
That he lied to me about having a car. He lied >> knocked over my >> Yikes. >> Knocked over my drink. I knocked over my >> drinks. Fine. car >> Damn. She's 49 and an RN. I hope I'm an RN by the time I'm 49. >> Hold on. >> What do you know?
>> Like 36 or something. >> That is correct. I'm 36. So I've got 13 years to try and go get my RN before >> What are you? What's your position? >> A little bit. >> I'm an LPN. >> A little bit stick on my stage. Okay. >> Tricks, you know. Little rascal. Stop.
Um, it doesn't quite say >> I never heard that clip. That was a good clip. >> Yeah, give it to me. I'll finish it for you. >> Hold on. I'll be right back. >> Okay. >> Really? >> Yeah. >> I rarely hear Trace pedal, >> but I've seen him on Oprah. You can
actually look him up on Oprah, guys. like he did an Oprah appearance and pretty shocking how >> cheers. >> She just threw me a bottle of whiskey. She's like, "There's a shot left in here." >> involved in the Church of Sat while while in the military. But I know in the military you are allowed to be in a religion. They'll have you can they even
have um >> you got like three or four names on >> little little things they put on your gravestone like a symbol that you can choose. And so some people can choose the upside down pentagram of the church of state. Oh, look. Oh, she's fighting with fighting with tricks. Like I don't know. Um >> Oh my god. >> I have I have to mute the stream.
>> What What is this? The psyche diaries. >> I want to see the comments first.
>> Oh >> yeah. I have to muting the stream again. I don't want I don't want to ever see that again. What happens? >> Oh no. I forgot what it was. >> Psych. Is this director's cut? Can you
do a little commentary over the track? >> Well, I'm upset about I was hurt. >> Some horrible thing was >> How are you guys doing though? I want you guys to be >> This is where I was before I was still sensitive a little bit. All I felt like doing is I wanted to go swim in the ocean to the middle of the ocean last night
>> and drown. That's what I felt like doing. >> I'm sorry. I don't want to trigger anybody. >> But y bad shape you before I came out. >> Why are you feeling insecure? You just >> got on the streets. >> You just said that you were all this uh hyperbole and now you're like, "Okay, now I'm just going to leave. I'm just going to leave like a little bitch."
>> You want me to leave? >> No, I don't want you to leave. I want you to explain yourselves because you seem to kind of >> Can you give me a kiss? Can you give me a kiss and I will stay just for you. >> No, sir. I will not give you a kiss at all. >> Why not? >> No, he's >> because my kisses are reserved for my
own lady. >> Oh, nice. 34 triple D all natural. Perfect showing Elon. >> Oh my god, bro. Am I starting to sound like Mr. Big Fice now over and over? >> Yeah, just don't start saying I'm just trying to chill.
>> I'm just chilling with my girlfriend. >> Yeah, >> you should have seen that Mr. Big Pipes hit on P hit on Page though is so cringy. Oh my god. >> But Mr. is like that guy >> I think. >> Yo, Electra. >> Oh damn. That guy >> I don't like him at all. I didn't even know I was up here. >> Hey, Electra.
>> How's it going? >> Oh, you work as an RN. >> I was an RN for 20 years and I'm retired now. >> God, what's it like being retired? I want to be retired. >> Uh, it's painful actually. I I was retired medically cuz I hurt my back. So, >> you do you miss it? Do you miss working as a nurse?
>> I miss it every day. >> What? I loved it so much. >> Can I ask like in what field you were an RN? Like >> Sure. Um, I specialized uh in interventional radiology. >> Okay. >> I don't know if you've ever heard of that. Do you know Kath Lab for the heart?
>> They do angiograms and they put stances in people's hearts when they're having heart attacks. >> You're putting ports in people's hearts and stuff. >> Yeah, we did ports. Uhhuh. But interventional radiology doesn't do the heart. We actually did the whole rest of the body. So the brain, when people were having strokes, we would go in there and
the doctor would put a catheter into the arteries in the brain that were stroking out and put um anti-coagulants in there and dissolve the clot in the brain. >> I have a I have a stent in my vertebral artery in my neck when I when I broke my neck on the motorcycle. >> Oh, wow. Yeah, because there's a really
big blockage in my vertebral artery or vert vertebral artery in the neck. Yeah. >> I mean, you can say vertebral or ver usually people say vertebral artery. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I'm just a I'm just a shitty >> get back on here. God. >> Yeah. when it when it like you have
members. It was like camera. >> Hey, Electra. Electra my news. You're I feel like I'm working out with you a little bit. >> I love it. I'm gonna I I'm going to do my exercises too right now. >> Yeah. >> I have a ball. I'm putting a ball between my legs right now to do my exercises. I feel like you're Electra like like you're going to like you know
kick some ass or something >> because like like have you ever seen the Daredevil spin-off of Electra? >> Yeah. >> She spells it with a K though. That's not where I got my name. But she's pretty badass. >> I could have got a better She could have got a better actress for it, you know. >> Well, I like Well, I like her because,
you know, people always accuse me of being like a masculine woman. I'm actually not. But I feel like Jennifer Garner in a weird way. I feel like >> You're kind of tall like me, huh? How tall are you? >> Uh, well, I'm not that tall. I'm 5'7, but I guess that is tall for an American >> For an American woman or any woman woman. really, actually, we're probably some of
the taller women in the world besides like some of the Viking. >> I'm 5'8. I was 5'9, but I shrunk a little bit when I hurt my back. My mom My mom was about 510. I I'm on the shorter end in my family. Actually, >> I'm on the >> There you go. I'm taller than both my mother and my father. >> I was about to say when we met, Alex, I
think I was taller. I think I'm taller than you. I mean, >> LD is taller than me. LD is a solid you guys met. That's cool. >> A long time ago. Well, not too long, but I'm crushing. No, 510 at 510. I would say >> 510. I heard it. 510. >> I'm 5 I'm 5'11 and a half. But okay,
>> there you go. And um no, I never went for my nurse practitioner. What happened was I >> applied for school and my dad one day called me over to his house, my parents house. They were still married at the time and he said, "I'm bisexual and I'm leaving your mother." effective immediately.
>> Well, that's the story in my life. That's >> and he came out as gay >> and he left my mother and became gay and I just everything in my life just out right then. >> Do you do you know my backstory? >> No, I don't. >> That one? >> Yeah. My um father actually ran for
Houston City Council when he was alive. He he passed away um March of this year, >> but he was a very proud openly LGBTQ and I think that sexually we're all fluid. I mean, I used to work in the porn industry. LD knows that very well about me. >> Um >> but
you can't make that shape the sense of who you are. Whoever you are is who you are. >> No, no, it doesn't like a gift. It doesn't. I am I'm totally all about LGBTQAI plus the whole thing. I'm a proud supporter. I I just when I was going to get my nurse practitioner degree,
>> my dad came out at that moment and everything in my life kind of fell out for a sec >> until I met a really strong gay nurse that I I got a new job and I met this strong gay nurse named Chad. He was amazing and he really just showed me just a lot >> what it what it is. >> What it is. Yeah. Because I didn't get
it. I didn't get it. >> It took me I mean my dad My dad was married to my mom that whole time pretending to be straight. >> How are either of them nurses? Are either of them nurses? >> My parents. No. >> I'm just curious like what got you into nursing? Like it's a very specific
career. >> Real quick to DJ Electra, your dad never pretended to you. Just just And I don't know him, but >> it felt like a It felt like a big lie. >> No, no, no, no, no. You >> My whole life felt like a lie. >> No, don't let your mind go there, please.
>> No, but I'm saying like that must have been really hard for me. >> Can I tell you my reality? My reality is that my reality is that my dad wanted me to be exactly who he wanted me to be. >> Oh,
>> and I did become what for for a while, not permanently, but he tried. And it's not society's fault that he couldn't completely be just like it wasn't your dad's fault. >> Don't don't fault. >> Right.
Just >> no view it for what it is. And >> I don't fault him at all. I'm saying I think that it must have been so hard for him >> to hide that about himself because he didn't feel comfortable >> and it wasn't acceptable in in his generation. It wasn't acceptable. >> His brother was gay but he was
>> it was not it was not acceptable and he could have been killed even, you know. >> Oh yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> For the >> That's why I love talking about old gay guys too is cuz like they really had to fight for their right like you know these people now like they they just go out in the streets and they fly a flag. It's like no back in the 60s and 70s
like no they were getting stabbed and like murdered like in being killed >> and shunned from their families and shunned from their friends and shunned from their religion. He was raised very strict Catholic. >> I still do. And if they have children, their children are hunted. And I can
test I can testify personally. I get hate mail every week from people who don't even know me. And sometimes they are a part of the LGBTQ community saying that I should not exist. >> What? What? >> Yep. >> Because my dad was a politician. >> Yeah. That's the reality. And
>> so they don't like his politics, so they go after you. That just makes no sense. >> I'm curious. Was your dad a Republican People, or a Democrat? >> Democrat. >> Democrat. >> I mean, I figured, but >> I switched. I became a Republican, but not for reasons pertaining to like what
a lot of people. It's so hard because in politics there's there's fiscal politics and then there's social politics. >> It's like why can't we why can't we separate the two and like come closer together instead of further apart and pushing each other apart. >> To separate the two and we were all to
get along it would suddenly be we are the world and everyone. >> Yeah. >> That's what what happens. So that's why it doesn't happen. It's hard. >> It's hard being fiscally >> It's hard being fiscally conservative and morally liberal. >> Psyche. Hello.
Hello. Sorry to be so loud. >> Psyche. We miss you. No, you're fine, girl. >> No. Like >> loud around here. I like loud. >> Like DJ, I see people take advantage of like Medicare and Medicaid all the time. Like I work on a subaccute unit and they'll come and they can stay for up to 90 days and then they'll go home and
fall and then come back for another 90 days and I'm just like wait what? Like we just released. >> Excuse me guys. I'm going to have some Jack Daniels tonight. If I get crazy I will just disconnect or kick me from the damn panel. Okay. >> I'm having some Jameson as we speak. M >> and yes, I used to take care of patients that would be on medical, which is
Medicaid in California >> and they would have Birkin bags and Louis Vuitton and they would have the newest cell phone newer than mine and I was like, "How are you on medical on Medicaid?" Like that's >> I'm trying to I'm trying to work things out with my ex and she lives in
California. I live in New Jersey with the beautiful girl, the beautiful artist girl. Like where? Well, it's not my business. Let me shut up. But well, I'm not going to shut up cuz I'm curious and I'm I'm I'm nosy. LD, who's your girlfriend? Because the the pretty girl that you're helping, she's so pretty and like wonderful.
>> It's my friend Phoenix. And I'm just saying like on a professional level like I was like I can't move to California cuz when you pass when I pass the NFlex which is the nursing test for my LPN license like >> I have I have my compact license. Uh it's good for 48 states. I can go to any state and be a nurse. I can move to
Alaska. I can move to Texas. Wherever and have the same job I have now. I cannot move to California and I cannot move to New York and be a nurse. If you get your California license, you can practice in any of the states, right? >> Uh, no. I would still need I would still need certain classes for New York. >> Is it a money issue or what? Like
>> it's an education issue. It's I just need certain classes to to be passed. >> Classes because you >> you could do it. >> I don't want to go to California to be honest. >> If you don't, then don't. >> It's a nice place though. California. There's there's nice places here in >> My ex My ex lives in Long Beach. My ex California. lives in Long Beach. Like, it's
gorgeous. >> Long Beach is okay. >> Okay. I want you I want you and your sister to be a part of the women's shelter because I want I I want to I want to help women who have like who who just really like really need help and
like they've been through and they have like a little kid or something and I want to shelter and protect them and I can do it and that that's what I want to do until I'm dead. that way. I I just But >> I can't I don't I don't like working in pediatrics. I I don't want to work in pediatric. >> My goal was to work in pediatrics because >> you need to kick ass because because
you're about weapons. You could you could kick the ass of guys who are after the women who I want to help. You could you could do that. >> I mean, listen, I mean, like I could do all that now, but >> you might really like pediatrics actually, but get experience in adults first. That's what I did. >> That's why I'm incur longterm care. Yeah. Like longterm care.
>> You asked me why I became a nurse. And it's cuz I was a very sick kid. >> I have a a genetic disorder called Aaylor's Danlo syndrome. >> What is that? >> It's a a collagen disorder >> which causes my collagen to be very loose and flexible. So I'm very
flexible, like hyper mobile joints >> and also my skin. What >> are you tall? >> Yeah, I'm 5'8. Not that tall. I was 5'9. >> Taller than people in your family than like your siblings or your parents? >> Um taller than both my parents. Yeah.
>> Yeah. Okay. Well, see, we're seeing that. See, here's what I think it is. And and I'm not discounting your your your medical issue because I'm definitely without doubt not a medical pi practitioner, but I'm very spiritual. I think we're getting an influx of Arcturans.
A R C T U R I A N. I think we're getting an influx of that. And they're from a place where like the gravity is >> Yes. I >> It's like being in water cuz I should live in basically live in water. Like my
joints would be happier. Look, if if vegan patriot hydrotherapy, >> I think she would I I think she's one. I I think a bunch of us in the streamer community are Arturion. I'm taller than everyone on my father's side, but I'm
not as tall on my mother's side. I mean, we're talking about Nephilim. Six fingers, six toes, all that kind of stuff. It's crazy. >> Oh, wow. >> Yeah. I don't know if it's cool or not, but it it's but I have this >> like when I heard Psyche talking about
like he was seeking out like people who had extra digits, I was like, "Oh my god, you should just talk to my family members because >> Wow." >> Uhhuh. But we have a lot of something that my dad was very drawn to. My dad's family didn't have it. We We are the We're the carriers of the ark. were of
the Ebo tribe on my father's side, Egypt, um, Nigeria, Morocco, but on my mother's side. >> So, that's the north of Africa, right? >> Yeah. I even have relatives who I've come into contact with who somehow
like messed with that area of the world, but who are actually Nordic, which is weird. But if you were to ever see like my nephew, >> he he looks like he could like if you've ever seen somebody who's um half black,
half Norwegian, that's what my nephew looks like. Wow. >> He is so goodlooking that it's like my mom was like I don't even think he is us and I'm like
no he is. It's just it came through. But he is he looks like a model >> and my mom looks like a model when she was young and they're all tall. It's weird. But um
I don't have any of that. I'm I'm short and I'm like the my only saving grace is that when I was younger I used to look better. >> What are you What are you Alex? You're like 5'6 5'8. >> 5'7"? She said >> I'm I'm 5'7. >> Amanda Ericson.
>> The male streamers hate me because I know all their height. I know everybody's height. >> Are you a Are you a BSRN? Like you have your bachelor's? >> Yes, I got my bachelor's at Humbult State. >> A master's degree. >> Oh, my my ex. Well, my ex the the girl that I'm flying in October. She's from Humboldt. >> Oh, really? >> Yeah. She used to small town. Wait, how
old >> we used to? 39. She's 39. So >> Oh, she's a lot younger than me, so I probably don't know. >> No, everyone thinks I have a degree. I have a master's degree. She always tells me about how she used to like pack weed and how it's like the weed capital of California and like >> Yeah, I used to clip weed too when I was in college. >> That was my hardest thing about nursing
school is that I couldn't smoke weed for a year. Like when I took my LPN, like my LPN was like a year long and I could not smoke weed. >> Will you be a part of Psyche's Friends? >> Huh? >> Will you be a part of Psyche's Friends? >> Psyche's friends on Alexandra's channel. It's her show with a great show. It's
really show >> I think it's DJ. >> It's DJ Electro. >> No, you're the girl. You're the girl. You're the girl. Or the woman. I'm sorry. You're You're the woman. You're the woman. You >> I think I'm older than you. Am I older than you, Alexandra? >> Probably not. I'm the I'm like I'm I'm
almost 47. >> I'm 48. I'm older. Woo. >> I'm older. But >> yeah, look, this is me. >> That's what I look like. That's me. >> Okay. Well, I don't think you are. I I I I I just can't I think that spiritually you're you're younger, guys. Your your
energy is like I I like I love you. I I just I don't even know you and I love you. >> I know. And I we this is like the first time we've been on stream together and I've like loved you forever. Every time I saw you, I was like I love her so much. She's amazing. you were talking about like like I was like, "Oh my god, Psyche has talked to somebody who's like familiar with the AI." You were like, "Oh my god, I know somebody." And I was
like, >> "Yeah, >> it's this guy. This guy, this friend of mine, his son, it's actually his son, which is crazy, right? But I'm old, so >> I'm almost 49." But so his son works in AI and he's like one of the researchers that has been producing all the newest
AI content. So I'm going to >> do a podcast. >> Yeah. I'm going to get him. >> Yeah. For you guys. I'm going to get him. >> Well, for Psyche because Psyche I I look I don't care what anyone says. I think Psyche is special. Like have you >> I know that. I know he is. Like this.
>> Look, the first time I spoke to him, I had a paranormal experience. >> I just want to see him in his up face. >> 47. Holy >> I'm 48. Alex, >> you guys are done. You're literally mommies. >> You're my still gets wet, Alexander
McQueen. >> I'm sure it does, But guess what's up? Menopause. Menopause is up at 49 baby. >> And no more egg dropping for you. No more cuz old mommy menopause. You're all premenopausing.
>> I'm talking to menopausing. I'm >> either premenopausing or menopausing. That's why. >> Where is my menopause? >> Your is dried up. >> You're in in menopause. menopause. >> Menopause, >> Not any menopause. >> Yeah, we want menopause. Sounds fun.
>> We're We're looking like the millenn the the millennials are having their millenn their their melopause and >> let me guess. Let me guess. Let me guess. Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. Calm it down, baby. Bring it down. So, you got menopause going on. Sooner or later, it's coming, right? You're going to get the heat flashes. Your eggs start
dropping. your period about it. >> Which means you can't get pregnant anymore about menopause. >> Your horny pig ass can still get an idiot, >> right? I love it. You dirty Menopause. That's disgusting to have sexreat. >> You understand?
>> It's not a threat, Alex. >> So menopause is God saying you're done, >> Nope, it's not. >> Yes, it is. But you can still get dick. You can still get dick and comb like a horny pig. But your life is done. You didn't have kids. You You ran out. Your time ran out. >> Psyche. Turn him down. He's too high.
>> I would have a menopause yet or God damn it. peropause. >> I'm sorry. I I would like I would kick him up soon. I want I want menopause because I it's not here in this arena yet, but I wish I had it because then I could be
like "Yeah I'm free. I don't have to worry about getting pregnant or anything." But that's not happening for me. Not until I'm like 50, at least like 55. It's just not >> I've already like felt hormone changes and I'm like all right this is crazy. This is worse than puberty. That's for
sure. It's it's different. >> I haven't had any I haven't I thought maybe I was having I I maybe I am in Perry Maybe I am in perry menopause but I don't think I >> I haven't had >> like I started getting um really bad anxiety and I'd never had anxiety before in my life. had anxiety
>> and I got anxiety. I was all, whoa, where did this like seriously like I didn't want to leave the house anxiety and I was like, what is going on? And then I just had to >> I've always had that. It's just been like where's the rest? Where's the rest? And it's not happening. >> You don't have to get hot flashes. You don't have to get them. Not everybody
gets them. any of the um typical like me like I've always been a little crazy so I mean >> in a good way. >> Well, it it it's your perspective. >> I see it as a good way. >> I I have so much fun. >> I have so much fun. It's It's
ridiculous. But >> that's awesome. I know. That's like me, too. >> I don't know. I don't I don't know. Like if I've had it, like if it's here, I don't think it's totally here. >> If you don't know, then it's probably not totally there. But cuz you'll know. >> It's not. I I asked my doctor like I have a really good doctor. And I was
asking her, I'm like, "Am I am I menopause? Like have I gone through it?" And she's like, "Unfortunately, because you're a little youthful, you're probably not going to hit it because like I had an aunt who had her first biological child at almost 50."
>> Damn. >> You know, pregnant at 47 is Rachel Weiss. I think she's having a baby at 48. 47 or 48 or something. >> I don't want to like have any kids. I'm just like >> that's funny. >> I have guys who are trying to like target me. They're like, "Hey, heard you
haven't gone through menopause." >> Are they younger guys? >> Yeah. >> Younger guys love the older ladies. It's like >> they do. >> I can't take care of myself and and like I like I'm all, you know, I'm self-employed. I do all my own thing and
there's guys who are like like I would be afraid of them because it's like are they going to get me pregnant? I'm going to like have a kid and they're going to kill me for like money. Maybe they would. >> I don't have that problem. I had a vasectomy when I was like 27. >> You should have come. Why' you do that?
Why did you get a vasectomy? I had to I had to go in for surgery for sperm molecules in my groin. And while the urologist like had me under general anesthesia before we went in for the surgery, I was like, "Hey, since you've already got me under anesthesia, let's just add the rectomy onto the uh you know, the build >> and they added they they just did it
while I was under reverse it because you are so nice and you're so sweet and you're so smart. like you have a brain and I want the future of humanity to have a brain and you're super but well I I mean you got you know your sister had a kid so that's one thing but >> you should have a child because you are
very smart >> no I'm way too selfish I like my motorcycle >> you should like freeze your sperm like there like the >> Was it a spermata seal was it a spermata seal LD >> it was a sperm molecule. >> A sperm molecule, which I have not heard of. >> Yeah.
>> Spermata, >> not a cyst. >> Sperm molecule. Yeah. In the vast efence like >> a cyst, right? >> Yeah. So, they had to surgically remove it. >> The sperm. It's a spermata. >> I thought it's a sperm molecule. >> Is just really smart. Like his gen like go. Again, I don't I don't work in a
urology clinic either, so >> No, I know. I know. I No, it's okay. I just have like a um I have a photographic memory and so when I read >> you Do you have kids? You should have like a billion kids if that's the case. >> I have one. He's just >> It's It's a sperm. Yeah, I looked it I
looked it up. It's a sperm molecule. >> So, that's just something I've never heard of and I can admit when I don't know something as well. So well done. I will >> I'm sorry >> tonight. I'm sorry. >> I can I can read it to you really quickly what it is. >> It's just that like whenever I hear about smart like like smart people are
not having enough children >> cuz I look up sperm molecule and it comes up super molecule and I'm like no I spelled it sperm molecule. Well, yeah. They It's also It's a spur molecule or a supra molecule because it's it's a bunch of um what do they say it is? >> It's a large entity formed by smaller entities coming together. So, they call
it a supra, but it's really a spur molecule, you know, just a supra. >> Latin. >> If there was a real world word that was sperm molecule, one, it would be in Google, and two, I would know it. >> Yeah. It's okay if you got it wrong.
>> Here, I'm putting the definition in chat. >> Okay. >> She got it right. >> Yeah. The super molecule and a super molecule. A super molecule and a super molecule are the same thing.
So, in other words, smart people need to have more kids. >> I would have had more kids, but it was a lot. >> Well, because you're you're too smart to realize that. That's what >> Oh my god.
>> No, it was a lot being in a relationship with >> Alex. It was a It was a lot being in a relationship with a man. That was the part that was a lot. Having the kids was easy. >> My children, if I loved my partners a little bit more, I'm selfish as can be.
Ooh, that's the truth of me. And I will admit it. >> I am selfish. Ooh, I'm selfish. >> That's okay, girl. I mean, I get it. Well, I wish I wish >> I'm I'm not selfish enough. I'm like I'll do anything for you and that got me nowhere. So, I had to learn to be
>> I will do for others. But when it comes selfish. to the rudimentary look, when I had a chance, multiple chances actually, to have children, I looked at who would have been the potential baby daddy and I thought to myself now, and you're going to hear true selfishness when I say this.
>> It's okay. I looked at them and I thought to myself, do I really want to be linked to you? >> Yeah. >> For the rest of my life. And the answer was no. And my mom
>> I totally get that. Like when I got pregnant, it was an accident. And um my baby daddy at the time was a brand new like just becoming a musician. And it took until like the last five years that he got famous. >> Girls that make me feel dumb. >> And he became uh like a famous musician. I mean, I'm not going to tell you who it
is but >> but back then he was like the starving musician that, you know, never was home. >> He wasn't helping me with the baby and it was just like it was hard. But I love him. We've always been best like really good friends. Like uh he's a great guy. I'm so glad I had a child with him, but
we just didn't stay together. >> How is he toward the kid? >> Nine. >> Okay. >> Amazing. >> Good, good, good. >> They are like the closest friends. >> Happy about that because Oh,
may God bless you and your household and your children and may God make a easy way for you. Well, my son is 27 now. >> Well, it doesn't matter. Who cares? He's He's your little boy. >> I know, but it's so tough now. I miss it
when he was little. Oh my god. Miss him. >> I love being a full make this woman's son just always view her as the ultimate. He forgets to text me back. He forgets He forgets to text me back half the
time. I'm like, >> he loves you. He loves you. He loves you. He lo I don't know, but he loves you, girl. He loves He's your little boy. Like, I don't have that, but my sister has it.
And I see the interconnectedness between like mom and son even in the modern age. And you're always going to have aunts, godmothers, internet godmothers. I'll be your internet godmother, okay? Or or
whatever. >> To where we see it and you're golden. You're fine. don't feel that way because you are mom. >> It I know but it's it's hard like you kind of lose that that role in your life it being the main role in your LD. You're muted. Are you talking? You're muted.
>> I'm uh I'm talking to my friend. >> Oh, okay. Sorry. >> I was telling her how you're so much smarter than me cuz I've been calling it a spur molecule and it's really a super molecule and I she's like, "Well, you should know that you went for the surgery." I'm like I that was before I went to nursing school and honestly I don't deal with too many people. >> It's it's okay. I get it. You know what? Honestly, I don't know stuff about my own health.
>> I was I was telling her I was impressed that you knew that cuz I didn't even know that. And like you know >> it's okay. Like I don't know stuff about my own health a lot. I pay more attention to my patients health honestly than my own. So I get it. It's okay. We >> we don't always look at ourselves in the and pay attention to our own conditions as much as we do our patients.
>> I've only I've only been a I've only been a nurse for like two years. It'll be two years in May. When May comes, I'll be a nurse for two years. >> I'm impressed. That's great. That's >> I only Yeah, I got my LPN license when I was like 34, 33. So >> that's great. >> I was kind of late. It was kind of late in life for me. I used to be a welder
and then I got into a bad motorcycle accident and had the halo put on and everything and uh that's when I was like you know what >> nursing would be a good profession. You know how much we lifted they took good care of me LD L was also briefly a firefighter. He used to be a firefighter. That's true.
>> It was a lot. And the funny thing is when I was a firefighter, it was so nice because like we would do like vehicle extrications and cut people out of cars for drunk driving and they would be a bloody mess and we would just hand them over to the EMTs. Like you would have to deal with it. >> LD saved his sister like he will never and I'm not going to go into detail LD.
I'm not I'm not going to go there. But what I will say about LD is that LD like I know LD I know his whole family strangely very well because of certain unforeseen circumstances. But LD has always
wanted to protect his sister like I've never seen before. He has gone the distance. He has spoken on behalf of his mother and his father, even if he will never admit it. LD
stood like between his sister in the ultimate evil and put up his metaphorical angel wings. And I'm not bullshitting when I say this. Line >> is for real. And nobody knows this
hardly. Like I know a little bit of it just because I know but and he knows I know when I met I would never have been open to meeting him if I didn't know that he wanted to protect Jyn the way that he protected her. I I'm not going to I'm not going to I'm
>> Alex. Alex, I moved I moved back. >> Alex, I moved I moved to Las Vegas to be near my sister when she quit doing porn. >> And then when she moved back to New Jersey when she had the baby, I moved back to New Jersey just cuz I want to be close to my sister. Like that's >> You are such a good brother. Oh my god. Wow. >> I know. I I know everything. I know all
of it. And that's why like when people are like, "Oh, LD this, LD that." I'm like "Fuck." >> It's so funny. all these ad talk on the internet like I'm a very honest guy. Like I'm very honest about what I do and how I live and everything like that and they're like, "Oh, he's a pedophile. He's a he's a this. He's a that." I'm like, "Really?" Like really? Like I'll get
>> No, no, no, no. The reality of LD is that LD is a very sensitive man who has been put in extraordinary circumstance to where he had to he had to he he he had to take the instruction of his mom
and protect his sister despite her fighting him because of her relationship at the time. and and then other things went wrong. But LD is the patriarch of his family. That's >> me and my sister were living out in
Vegas and her boyfriend choked her and beat her up and I went to the house with a gun to go like kill this Like >> wow. Oh my god. >> So dramatic. You >> don't even write a movie or a book or something. >> It was so crazy. It was I've been asking I've been asking I want Psych to play me in the movie. I want Psych to play me in
the movie. So >> that would be amazing. >> Movie. >> So I have a friend that we write screenplays together. We could totally collaborate and write a screenplay. >> We should make a movie. Make a movie about every all of that. Oh my god. >> But in a really respectful way. No kind
of exploitation at all. I'm not about that. situation. Nobody like unless you know >> LD's gonna be like Forest Gump. >> Look, unless you know, Unless you know me, unless you know everything that happened, you have to know everything
that happened. >> I work with grace. >> Every so many things happened. Oh my god. What is this person? Oh, Il Elijah. Ela, whatever your name is. Oblimoff. What are you talking about? We don't What is he talking about? Did someone time him out?
Not that he needs to be timed out, but he says good nurses give hand jobs for $20. That's incorrect. >> If we were good, we would charge more >> No. than that, by the way. But we don't. So, just saying. It's not a thing. You're crazy.
Oh my gosh. I I I I nurses, my grandma on my dad's side, she was one of the first African-American nurses in New York in the Manhattan area. She passed >> white. >> Yeah. Yeah. People thought that she was
like Mediterranean or uh like Italian cuz she was a very very fair complexion but she had an education and um she that's how she met my grandfather who was a police officer, one of the first black police officers in the New York area.
>> Every every nurse I know marries a goddamn police officer. When am I going to find a police officer? Are you looking for a hot policeman? >> Me? >> No, but I found a couple. I found a couple hot I'm just saying. All nurses, they seem to marry cops. When am I going to find a hot cop? >> Not me. >> I was musicians all the way.
>> Musicians. >> I know. I'm dumb. I'm dumb. My mother never told me about the ways of the world. >> My stepbrother is a cop. He's married to an RN. Well, they they get a lot of uh interaction in the ER, and I didn't work in the ER, so >> Yeah. No, I've never worked in a like a
real hospital setting. I've always worked in like long-term care. >> Okay. >> That's where I got my I got my start in a pulmonary unit. That's where I did like my first year of like nursing was a pulmonary and I switched to subacute. >> I started in a surgical subaccute unit. So it was med surge sub ICU >> and um
>> so they they started me with the medical patients. Then we went to the surgical. We had a lot of chest tubes and a lot of uh posttop. Everything was posttop though pretty much. >> I had a I had a nurse practitioner a couple weeks ago said that she was going to take my license and I dared that
>> Why? because she was on vacation and she had a note like, "Hey, I work 3 to 11 p.m." And she's like, "Hey, I'm out these days. If you need anything, call Dr. So ando." And I needed something, so I had to call the doctor instead of the nurse practitioner. And she got mad at me for not calling her instead of the doc instead.
I go, "You left me a note saying you're on vacation. Call this guy instead." I'm like, "What the to be a male practitioner because like the girls, they will like put more on you than you would normally have on you. I I've noticed that. >> I feel like I feel like I'm being >> Um
discriminated against cuz I'm a a single white male uh you know, straight. >> Most of the people I work with are like either Filipino or like African to be honest. Like >> really? >> Yeah. They're all Filipino or African. >> There's a ton of Filipino nurses and they are just their own little entity.
They are just like their own little whirlwind of Filipinos. I love it. >> My age will like sit there and talk tagalog and I'm like, "Hey, can you talk in English so I know what the you're talking about in case oh we're not talking about you?" I go, "No, not about me, but about the patients." Like if you're talking about the patients, like I want to know what you're saying. you are a good man for doing that because so many of the
patients have that same complaint but they're too scared to say it. Thank you for saying it because I did the same with the um Hispanic and the the >> I don't care what you talk at Spanish. home but we're at work like I you're saying. >> You know you Yeah, you speak English cuz you got this job. So you need to speak English in front of your English speaking patients. >> I I totally support them speaking
Spanish with their Spanish speaking patients. That's great. that makes them more comfortable. >> Yeah. >> But if if if the >> was alive, the reason that like he never ever asked me to be there like every day, but I was because I loved him. >> A
>> and he but he but you know what he said to me? He wanted like like like here was our major issue like like you know father daughter daughter daughter daughter daughter helping her dad. Okay. daughter daughter daughter daughter daughter daughter daughter daughter Mhm. The bathing that was
really and and to me it wasn't a big thing because I'm I'm number one I I'm very um broad in my thinking number one. But number two it's my dad. I I felt like well when I was a kid you wiped my ass when I you know took a dump and I
was a baby. So here we are, you know, circle of life. But he didn't like that. He was so and and we did come. >> He was very proud and it's hard to have somebody even help you. >> He did not want me to. and I had to, but
I I wasn't like like I think that he thought like I was like upset or something and I wasn't like it it wasn't something that like I anticipated in my life. Don't get me wrong, but I I just felt like well
I love my dad and I just love my dad. I I just my my it's my dad. So I'm like, why are you embarrassed? Like I'm literally your flesh and blood. My entire life, my dad
was like, you're just like me, Alex. You you know, so I'm like, okay, here I am. I'm just like you, so let me help you. And he was so reluctant to let me, but I but he eventually conceded it to let me
help him, which worked out. But it's just like it's so hard for that time. It's so It's just hard. And that's what people like unless you go through it. You don't you don't >> honestly I'm as I'm getting older I'm
thinking about those things like what if that happens to me and I don't even want that to happen. >> Do you work Do you work agency? Do you do like any kind of like agency nursing like just part-time like anything like that? Like >> I used to um when I first started I started nursing in 2003 and so I would
do travel nursing just day nursing at local hospitals. So they would pay you like double >> a lot more. Yeah. A lot more than they pay their staff. >> Yeah. A lot more. And you didn't know what the hell was going on. You're like I've never worked for agency. Yeah. >> It's a little chaotic. Like it's very
it's actually very chaotic. like you don't get a a stable routine and I didn't really like it but I did it for the money like >> um you know just so that I could go on a vacation or or take some time off or whatever but >> um it was a good experience. It was a learning experience and I realized I didn't like it and so I didn't do it anymore. >> It's just to supplement your income. you
would have like a full-time job and then do agency on the side like you know to get paid they get paid daily like you know you work and then you get paid immediately after your shift is over. >> I worked I was a single mother and I worked three 12elves and then I would do a fourth 12 every week at my hospital and then I would do outside dayshift work for other hospitals. So, we don't
have where I work, we don't have 12 hour shifts. We do eight hour shifts. But I know a lot of I don't do >> 10 hours. Tens are the best. Tens are the best. Let me tell you. >> I only work eight hour shifts, but like I know a lot of nurses that I work with, they do doubles and they'll do 16 hour shifts. >> And I'm like like dude, they'll do a double, go home, sleep for eight hours,
and then come back and do another double. And I'm like, how the do you do 16our shifts? Like >> once you get to 12, four more hours is nothing, my friend. It's like you're on autopilot. You are running on fumes, but you are still you're in the zone. >> You're in the zone. If you're not in the zone, go home.
>> The adrenaline the adrenaline is is pumping in you whether you lived or not. >> I lived on adrenaline as a nurse. Like I didn't realize I was an adrenaline junkie, but I was I totally >> I came in today was >> the nurse the nurse that I took report from at 3:00. They work from 7 to 300
p.m. And I took report from the nurse and they gave me report and they left. And then I'm doing my treatments like around 4:00 and I realized that they're charting that they had done all these treatments which they did not do. And I got pissed and I went to my unit supervisor who's an RN and I was like, "Hey man, like this person is charting that they did these treatments which
they clearly did not do." And um I'm like, "You need to write them the up." Like honestly, >> you know, they did it. Well, let's not do the write up culture. Okay. Write up culture sucks >> because there's treatments that they had to do >> that they wereing.
>> I mean, wound. >> No. No, no, no. I'm talking about like dressing changes, DJ Electra. I'm hearing something. You're you're you're very solid. I I just know you're very solid. >> Right up write up culture doesn't do anything good for the profession of
nursing. It really doesn't. >> Yeah. If you have a problem with what another nurse is doing, talk to them first. >> Oh, it's it's been going on a long time. And if they keep if they keep doing it, then it needs to be escalated for sure. But I say talk to them first and be like, >> you know, you not doing this wound care
is actually cheating this patient out of their life. >> Exactly. You're not cheating. >> Like >> I would say talk to that person first and maybe you have. I don't know. >> I have. It's been a long time going now. And I'm like I'm like like to my supervisor. I'm like, "Dude, this is getting ridiculous." Like, they're
charting that they're doing it and they are not like at all. And I And and you know, the thing is, you can't prove that they didn't do it. >> Yes, I can. >> How do you sign the initials on the dressings? We used to >> They sign They signed the date on the dressing and the dressing was from the day before. >> There you go. Then you can prove it. That's >> That's what I'm saying. Like I wouldn't go there with no evidence like
>> Thank you. Good. >> Like there's a difference between them giving Okay. There's difference between them giving like a wound care treatment and doing a bad job and not doing it at all. They didn't do it at all. But they're charting in the >> paper and they charted it. Then that's that's a problem. That's a that's a like a lie. >> Yes. Because they're going to build this person's insurance company as if they
were treated for it and they weren't. >> Yeah. And that's just a way risk of an infection forming because they're not changing the bandage that is soaked in >> fluids obviously probably mostly >> and yeah I mean like
>> anyway it's a very it's a very it's the most stressful job I've ever had in my life. It is definitely by far the most it is stressful but it's so rewarding. But I would say document that document. I found the patient's dressing was not changed from the prior shift. I would document it. I don't believe in writeup culture, but I believe in documentation and cover your ass.
>> Because you don't want someone to be >> Yeah. like, "Well, he's the one that didn't change the dressing cuz it's dated from two days ago." Oh, I should have I I should have told you about the one time we had a agency nurse steal a whole card of medication and they found they found multiple cards in our car like >> Oh, damn. Yeah, we had a we had a traveler nurse that
>> like he was always sweaty and we were like, well, I guess it's a little hot in here. Not Well, actually, no, it's there's a lot of air conditioning here. It's not hot at all. >> You ever do you ever watch Bad Santa, Alex? Uh you ever you ever see that movie bad? You know when the kid goes up to the guy and he's got like that advent calendar? That's how we get our medication. We get like a a card with 30
pills on it and that's like how they give us our medication and we >> So you have a Pixus? >> Yeah. Well, yeah, we have a Pixus too, you know, but like um most of the meds are in the cart. Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> It has a key and or a code actually. Codes you have to unlock it >> and and you have to go up with another nurse. You have to go with another nurse
to withdraw medication, you know. >> Well, some medications, not all of them. >> Not. Yeah, mostly Nars. Anything that you have to like sign out >> and insulin and blood products, but you don't get them from the Pixis. They come from the pharmacy. >> I mean, I'm not going to be taking out Heperin or anything. Like, >> I used to have to do interventional
radiology. Dude, you would like it so much cuz it's the cutting edge of all the newest technologies. Like we would do the angiograms, you can see everything cuz it's radiology. So they do live X-ray. So and then we would do um like chemo ablations.
>> So we would put a catheter into someone's tumor, the artery that feeds their tumor. >> Tumor. Yeah. >> And then put small beads of chemo in there instead of giving it to them systemically. that chemo is really working to be honest with you for people because I saw
what happened with my dad. I I I just >> I don't think it's harsh. But the thing about doing it this way is that it goes directly into the tumor instead of >> radiology like targeted radiation like >> Yeah. Like if somebody, you know, when people have drains >> Yeah. in their absesses or whatever, we
would put those in chest tubes. We would put those in not the surgical chest tubes, but like the um the interventional radiology chest tubes. Um >> it's very Macgyver like you have to be the doctors are seriously MacGyver. >> Yeah. >> If there's something Yeah. the doctors I worked with in interventional radiology,
Alexandra, like if if no other doctor in the hospital was MD Anderson, he was an MD Anderson, even an experimental patient because um they don't have very many people of AfricanAmerican and Middle Eastern descent. And that's with
my um dad's family is >> so he was giving or not giving but getting the best. It wasn't >> It wasn't enough. It was just like I'm critical. I I'm not critical. Okay, I'm
not criticizing. What? He was It It just It hit him so fast. >> What kind of cancer did he have, may I ask? Everything from like like like think about like the um
middle of your body like everything in the core from throat to lungs to heart. >> But where did it was it like lymphoma that it started with? >> It was initially in his neck, throat, >> thyroid,
>> lungs and then it spread and it spread so fast. I I mean I I literally >> some cancers are just like that. They are just aggressive and >> probably that's gonna be most likely. >> Um >> No, don't ever say that, Alexander. That's not true.
>> It probably will. No, my dad was never he was never a smoker ever >> in his entire life. >> The best nurse I ever worked with, she was never she never smoked a day in her life. Not a cigarette, not a joint. She got lung cancer and died within 3 months. It went straight to her spine. >> It's looking like my dad. It went it it
was all in the middle the the core of his body. I I mean they even show me the charts >> because I person I have to see it to believe it. Okay. >> And it it was just it it was it hit him
and he knew it was hitting him as like he prepared me for it. But I'm I just miss him so much. >> I've got I've got like patients now that have like prostate cancer and the prostate like will swell and and push on the bladder to where you know now we've got to put in like catheterss and stuff to you know have them drain the bladder, but it's because the prostate's really
just pushing on the bladder from the swelling of the cancer. >> Yeah, it's painful. >> My dad My dad had prostate cancer. Luckily, they treated it because they found it early cuz his dad died of prostate cancer. Cuz they didn't find it early enough. Like if you do a PSA test on every man every year or twice a year
even over 40, >> then you can find these things. But >> well, he did he outlived his he outlived his dad. He outlived his mom. >> Um >> but still we want our parents around still. I get it. >> Yeah. My my dad just had his thyroid removed from thyroid cancer. Now it's spread to like his throat and esophagus.
So >> it it it hits like the central the the the the middle of your body. That's where it it it it gets people, it seems. I don't know. I I I'm sorry. >> When I was uh when I was working on long-term care in the pulmonary, I was
always working with MS patients. I don't know why I have like such a soft spot in my heart for MS patients. Like I I had a few of them and and they're just like the nicest people, man. I just I feel like it's such a debilitating disease. Like your body just breaks down. Like your mind is there, but your your body just breaks down. >> Well, that's what
>> that's what happened to me with my But you're right, Alexandra. So, but I started breaking down when I was like 28. it started getting bad and um the Aaylor's Danlos, but you're right, Alexandra. It's like we all do end up going through that at some age. It just hits a little bit different when it happens to you at a young age. >> The only reason,
>> look, I'll tell you straight up, the only reason I think I've been preserved is because of God. Like, like I'm I'm I highly like I believe in other things outside of Christianity. Don't get me wrong. I don't think Christianity totally has it right. But I believe that
because in my family, unfortunately, we don't have many people who are um I'm not going to say sane cuz I'm insane, okay? But but who are able to get stuff done. I am
very productive and I take care of people. I think that's the only re like that accident I had recently. I should have cracked my head open. I should have had like at least a skull fracture. I had nothing >> then. Look, you crashed your you crashed
your scooter. >> Yes. And I should I had a helmet on which was to my grace, but I should have had way more injuries. I've never broken a bone in my entire life. >> Wow.
>> That's I've never had any fractures. When I when I hit that pavement, I I didn't go to the emergency room that day. The next day, I did. And I was like, "Can you just like check me to see like if I have like minor?" And and they were like, "Have you ever broke?" And they asked me, they were like, "Have you
ever broken a bone in your body ever in your life?" And I'm like, "No, I never have." And they're like, "This is like the way I fell. I should have fractured my ocular um area of my skull. It didn't break. >> It did not break." And they were like they they they were like definitely and
I was like well is there a fracture? Do I need surgery? Do I need and they were like no you've never cuz they can access your medical records on the computers and everything. They were like you never had anything. And I'm like I know I never have. So they they were just like
don't be stupid anymore cuz you're almost 50 years old. And I was like yeah I am. I am 150, but I've never broke. But I think that's God because we don't have many people in my family. That's what it is. And I think that God is like, "Okay, well, Alexandra is fairly
intelligent. Let's shield her that way. She can because that's what I do. I take care of everybody." >> That's amazing. That's so it's a lot of uh pressure and a lot of weight on your shoulders, but you do it because you love them. You do it. >> You do it because you love them. >> People too, like people who are not
related to me. I I like I just feel like God gave me whatever it is for some reason. I'm not like like I had scrapes, you know? I got >> Alexandra. Who takes care of you when you're sick? Who takes care of you when you're sick? >> Me. They deserve someone to take care of
you too. >> Well, not if I don't like them. >> I'm sorry. >> Right. If you don't like them, then kick them to the curb. >> I don't like many people. I don't like many people. I That's why God is okay with >> I agree. I don't even have a single person that I let come take care of me
when I'm sick. Not a sing Well, I have one one person and they >> I really don't know. I I have a sister who basically tried to kill me recently. I And I'm not joking when I say that. And I'm not and I press charges. Nothing. But I know what it was. It's It's I I'm I'm a very unusual person and
I know this. >> Wait. Okay. You moved it. >> Wait, what is it? >> Beer. He didn't want to miss it. He's like, I'm gonna have another shot of whiskey. Excuse me if I get crazy, but um I'll hang out. >> I'll take one. I'll take one with you. >> all right. Here we go. Cheers, >> Uh everybody. Wait, let me let me turn my
camera on. So, >> what are we cheer What should we Cheers >> Your health. We're drinking to your to? health. We're drinking to your health. >> Just a swig. It's a swig. It's a swig. Cheers, everybody. Thank you for >> your help. >> Alexandra
>> Alexandra >> Psyche's back. Yay. Psyche. >> Yes, sir. >> I have I have a surprise for you, but hold on one second. >> A surprise. >> Surprise. Um, see here. Yeah. Okay. >> Oh, I feel like I'm getting spoiled. I don't want to be spoiled. >> No, you won't be spoiled. It's It's a I hope you hopefully you like it. I don't
know if you hopefully >> I will like it. No matter what it is, I'll like it. >> I'm glad you're back, Sy. We were begging you to come back. >> Did you take a nap? >> No, I know. I was I was just >> What is that? >> Here. So, just listen. This is Here's the song. Here we go. What is that? I don't know what that is. >> Oh, it's a song. Okay. >> Oh, yay. I love songs. Alexander
>> DK Electra makes songs >> truth >> about you.
>> I have a song I have a song about psyche. >> Not ready. It's not ready yet. But I have a song for him. >> But it's not it's not AI. It's it's me. >> I read on my penis. >> Really? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I love that. I want to hear that. >> It's in the next couple of days it'll be
ready. >> Can I get a preview? >> Maybe you can remix it to make it sound better. Do you want that? >> Uh, yeah, I could actually. >> Okay. Okay. Well, wait, wait, wait. >> I want Well, here's what I'll do. Um, how how do I talk to you off here?
>> I'll I'll put it in back chat. I'll put it in back >> in private chat. In private >> because it could be like a collaboration. >> Yeah, >> Psyche, that was a cute song. That was cute. Keep playing it. >> I want to I want to I couldn't hear it cuz I'm on >> I'm gonna I'm gonna send it to I'm gonna send it to you. Um you're
>> That was super cute. >> I want I want to do I want to do a collaboration with DJ Electra. >> Yeah. Yeah, >> cuz I I wrote a song about Psyche. It's called Psyche. It It's actually I will admit I recycled some lyrics from something
else, but it's called Psyche in the Neon Night. But if DJ Electra could remake it, man, please. That'll be the jam. That That would be the jam. >> I can do that. We could work on it together. All three of us. Me, you, and
>> I I've heard your vibe. You're a little retro wave, synth wave. I'm all about 80s synth wave girl. That's me. Okay. >> Nice. >> I like it. I'm about more about future wave, but I I'm I draw on. >> So So you're electronica
>> and that's Electra. Electronica. Electra. So maybe you could remix it and reproduce it like like I could like I'll I'll send you the raw >> of it, >> but then you put you into it. >> Yeah, if you can send me the raw stems,
like the actual each instrument, each >> I can do. Oh, okay. Here's how we'll do it because um you know, we're all stealth. So here's what I'll do. I'll I'll create the stems and I'll send you I I'll send Psyche through Instagram DM
the link. Then he'll send it to you. You can remix it and then it's all of our song. That's what we do. >> Perfect. It will be all of our song. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> That's awesome. >> Cuz I I rewrote some things today. I I've I I have like a new computer right
now because I upgraded recently. Hey, actually LD knows. >> Yeah, because I was telling LD the other day like my iPad my um screen broke meant to be because I I'm I'm definitely going to get that fixed, but I was like, "Fuck it. Why am I gonna just get that
fixed when I can get like a freaking Mac Air and I can really do some stuff cuz I'm ready to do some real music production. So, yeah, that's where I'm at. >> Yeah, I just got a new keyboard for my birthday >> and I play bass guitar, so I've been playing that since I was a teenager, but
>> Oh, >> yeah. So, I've got the digital interface and >> So, you're ready? >> I'm ready, too. We are ready to make music. >> I feel like we're going to go on tour. Like, I feel like we're going to make a band or something. Like, >> I think we should. >> I don't know where you live. And don't say it online.
>> Yeah, I I know. I know. But, >> but I live I live south of LA, so I just People know that. >> I'm in the Yucka Valley area right now. That's where I am. >> Oh, okay. Okay. >> I'm a hippie girl right now until October and then I I'm probably gonna
live out here because I really like the vibe. It's my kind of people valley. I don't even know where that is. >> It's It's like Joshua Tree. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I I'm a desert girl. That's me. Like I've been so happy because a aside
from like the past like three days which is rare, it's been nothing but sunshine and I love it. Like the heat >> when you think you were running up the mountain earlier. I thought you were San Diego. I thought you were running up that memorial mountain in San Diego that's got the big cross on it. >> No, no, no, no, no. He's in the desert.
>> Oh yeah. >> Yeah. I I >> My dad used My dad lived in um Palm Desert like by uh Lawrence Wel, you know, Lawrence Welk. >> I do. I do. Like there's a lot of artists out here. There's a lot of um there's a lot of money out here. You'll be you'll be surprised.
>> Recently moved, but yeah. >> Yeah. This place like my my dad when he was alive, he always had a place out here. I'm not at his place cuz you well well well you know how things
go when somebody passes but um >> I've just um always liked this this is me and I'm I I think I'm just going to be out here and that way people who want to come out here's here's what my objective
is. I'm probably going to get like probably like a 10 acre plot, something like that. And that way people who come out if they got to plug their uh stuff into Well, well, you know how like you got to plug your RV into the um facilities. I'm
gonna have those facilities, but I really want to shelter moms on the run from abusive >> That would be amazing. >> It's a lot of pressure. There's a lot of stuff going along with that. >> I'm used to the pressure. I'm used to it. I I'm used to people coming at me
anyway. And I feel like I'm the perfect person to just shield women. >> You are. You are so strong. You are so strong. I love you. >> I'll find guys I I know guys who are stronger than me who are down with that kind of cause. So that's what Yeah. I
I'm not playing when it comes to that because I've seen too many women die. I've seen women get hurt. I've seen women get beat up. that I'm sick of it. >> Yeah. I I never thought that would happen to me cuz I'm like I'm a strong independent woman.
>> And then I met this guy and he was a narcissist and I got duped. I got totally blindsided. >> I didn't realize that. Yeah. I didn't realize that he was, you know, >> um grooming me basing and then >> no one talks about the groom. The grooming is real. It's real. They
isolate you from your friends and family. >> Separation. Yeah. Separation. >> And then all of a sudden they are choking you up against a wall and stealing your car keys and they want to kill you. Yeah. >> That's aggravated. Yeah. If you choke someone, that's aggravated assault. And to do it against a woman like you're after >> after they kill you, they want to act
like it's your fault. >> I hope they went to jail for that. I really do. Like there's no reason. There's never a reason to take up your hands for a woman. >> He wouldn't leave my house. He stole my car and my car keys. He made keys for my house when I never gave him a key to my house. >> Wow. >> And he wouldn't leave. And finally one
day he left. I called the cops and I got the um locksmith out right away and changed the locks on my car and my house. >> It cost me like eight It cost me $800. But I was like, "Fuck that. He's not coming back in. He's not >> It cost you. Look, here's what I learned
from this woman. She She was an anti- porn activist. And she wasn't perfect, don't get me wrong, okay? But she knew what it costs to get you in something. It cost you 10 times more to get you out of something. That's what she always told me. It's the truth. >> But it's worth it to get you out of it.
Whatever it costs to get you out of that situation, it's worth it. the money. God will give you the goddamn money. >> You need to you need to be secure in your home and you know um your possessions. Like you should always feel safe where you are. You shouldn't feel >> that's hard being a woman. Honestly, I never thought that way until this happened to me and I was like a
this happened to me. >> That's why I don't date much. I mean like people are like oh Alex is always single. Yeah, damn straight. Because I'm scared. I am like I'll date like you know casually. >> But I gotta be so careful because of >> Yeah. like number one there's a lot of things
on the internet about me but number two just the way that men are nowadays. I'm a woman who is self you know I'm I'm together. >> You're selfade. You make it your own way. You do it your way. will target me and I got to just be like
on guard and I hate it. Oh, I hate it. I I wish I would just meet like my equivalent. I I really wish I would because >> I met mine and he wasn't uh interested in being in a relationship cuz he doesn't like want to be in a
relationship with women at all. I was like, "Okay, great. Great. You're like my equivalent, but it's not going to happen. So, all right. I'm done then. I'm done now. >> That's how I feel. I I I'm just kind of like,
you know, I I'm not even like a sexual person at this stage. I'm just like like I'm always going to be a romantic. I I am a romantic at heart. I I love romance, but when it comes to just
>> booty sex, not right now anymore. >> No, I I Well, I I I've already had like I think I've had the best sex ever, like in my life. Like I don't >> I need to hear about this. How do you know the best I mean
>> from I mean my my my teen my my early 20s like I I actually didn't have sex in my teens. I did not have sex until I got married. I know nobody believes me but I got married in my early 20s. >> Okay. >> And he cheated on me and that's what really like up my mind.
Truthfully, >> my last three serious relationships, they cheated on me. And it's like >> that's what it was. And and >> like I was not doing anything wrong. Like >> I didn't either. I was I was a perfect wife. Like I felt like, okay, we're going to be husband and wife.
>> So, and he was my ideal. He was an Eastern European guy. I I I didn't think I was looking for that. But he but I grew up like despite my my father coming out later as LGBTQ, I grew up in a pretty traditional house. How
>> How old were you when he came out? >> Um when I first realized it, I was like 15. Okay. >> Okay. Young. I didn't but it wasn't like impactful in my life until my 20s I
would say. So I I always have been accepting and I am I will defend someone until the end of time if they're going through that. I feel like I'm a part of that community
even though I like I'm super hetero but I understand like I've been in interracial relationships. I I it's not the same but I've had probably more interracial relationships
than most black women would have ever had. So, I kind of I I I can't say it's the same. >> When you were in the adult industry, I mean, I'm sorry if this is a bad question, but did was it hard to do like the female scenes >> for you?
>> Uh, no. it. Well, it it was something new for me because I I thought like maybe I would be more into it than I was. But that's how I realized I'm super hetero because I'm not like even Okay, I'll tell you an experience I had and
I'm sorry if it sounds like too far out and and I know psyche I'm sorry, but I'm I'm I'll I'll keep it tame. Okay. uh psyche is pretty uh out there when it comes to stuff. So I think
>> Yeah. Okay. So I was in a relationship with this guy who is a big deal and LD actually might know who it was cuz this person passed away. But he wanted me to be like his girl like his girlfriend, right? And he was like pretty like he
was a big deal in the adult entertainment industry. And I and and the guy that I initially was in a relationship with dumped me unbeknownst to me because the bigger fish wanted me. Okay. >> So he was like he was like uh intimidated by the bigger fish. >> Yes.
>> Ah >> so and and he died of natural circumstances. Okay. But this guy, he was he he was straight out of Sicily, straight out of you, you know, Italian, um, southern Italian world. He he was
like mafioso guy. Um, he was really in the black woman. And at that time in the adult industry, I was that girl. I he was all about me. And I was happy about that really because I I felt like, well,
okay, this is something I'm kind of accustomed to when it comes to dating somebody of a certain means. Okay, great. >> Was he like was he like more up in the ranks in the industry that you were? >> Yeah, he definitely was. And on top of that, he was very cultured, very
educated. I enjoy talking to him all the time. Um, I'll admit the sex was great for what I was able to deal with at that time. He he was able to read me sexually as far as >> Yeah. So like
>> that's a lot like most men are like I have a big penis. I will make you come. Like no that's not like try reading us. Try reading us. He was very skilled and he was very kind. He knew I went through his certain things. He really he bas I
was kind of like his mistress. Um but he wasn't married. He if he had lived I probably would have been his wife when I really think about it. But um he died of a heart failure. >> Sorry to hear that.
>> Mhm. How long ago was that? >> At least seven years now. >> But doesn't it feel like yesterday? Kind of. >> I remember hanging out with him, having conversations on his patio. >> I mean, it's it's it's
one of it's like the only thing I didn't like about him, honestly, he was judgmental. about my dad and I never I was like do not ever talk to me about because he he didn't know and I told him don't ever talk to me
about what you don't know cuz I don't I don't talk to you about what I don't know >> right but he he was g he he was he was a very good-looking gorgeous older man we
went on some amazing trips we went to Japan, we went to Dubai, we went to um all over Europe, all over the UK. We went to um this the south of France. We had a good time. >> Beautiful. Yeah,
>> I I do. >> I had to take myself on all those trips. I had to take myself on all those trips. I never had a man take me on any trip, but that's okay. I don't need a man to take me on a trip. I mean, it would be nice but >> I was I was a lot younger than I am now. >> I I was in my I was before 30 when all that happened. It I I was between 28 and
30. Yeah. >> A >> that's that's when life experience though. That's good. >> It It was a wild >> until it's hard. It's really hard too at the end. Like uh >> Well, I mean like when you get a call one day that somebody's dead. I I mean I've had that a couple times happen when I was in um when when I was a dancer and
a bartender. >> I was dating a guy also and something similar happened. It it's it's unbelievable when it happens. >> Yeah. My best friend um her her husband at the they had just gotten married. We had done the whole
ceremony in Laguna Beach. It was like this big huge ordeal, like this huge wedding, and he went and did the Baja 500 in Mexico, if you know, it's an off-road race. >> Yeah. >> And um his buggy broke down. They got into somebody else's truck bed and they
rolled off a a overb like a cliff basically and he was ejected and he died instantly. And he had had a ba they had had a baby like two months before that. >> That's terrible. >> Like life is so hard. >> I
never wanted children because I was like I always live very risky and like my motorcycle break my neck like you know I like to travel. I like to you know live my life by my own means and like I don't have time for a child. No offense but like I don't want to like >> Yeah. Well, well, really, really quick. Both
of you go backstage. I I put my contact info just just so that y'all have it >> backstage. >> If I message you, you're not going to dox me, right? I mean, it doesn't matter. But >> no, but I put my I I put my phone number just so so that y'all have it. >> Thank you. I'm going to take that because I love you. You guys are
awesome. I love I'm so glad I met both of you tonight >> because I feel like like like what what if I don't come on panel anymore then then like how are you going to find me? So have fun. >> Yeah, it's it's just life is cra life is
freaking crazy. It is freaking >> crazy. But like when I first when when I first found out about coming out to like the East California desert area cuz I was running and I was hiding from people
who actually wanted to kill me. And I knew somebody who was like a professional bodyguard but he was like starting his own thing and he hid me. Like seriously. >> Wow. I don't I don't think I don't think Mr.
Big is going to be able to protect you. >> Well, I don't Well, no comment, but um I mean I'm also going to go ahead and I'm going to concur with LD on that one. Like >> I'm not going to comment. >> You don't need you don't need his protection. You you're you're good.
You're out. Like what I was going to say there there used to be like like I like to um say like my ultimate my ultimate black man would be Wesley Snipes ultimate
>> because he he just but it was somewhat a lot of people don't know this about him. He started something called the temple of almond raw which was kind of a hybrid between
having like a traditional bodyguard thing but also spirituality. Okay. And that and it was it wasn't him. It wasn't Wesley Snipes. I don't know Wesley's nights, but it was somebody in his group who saw what I was speaking out about
what I was dealing with and that's who protected me. So I am going to carry it cuz the the government got him that they got because of taxes. That's how they got >> Oh, that was taxes. He was a woman beater, I don't think. Yeah, tax evasion. Yeah, they got alone. Oh, I I
know they'll give me 10 years. I'll have at least 10 years to do something good. And I will not be perfect when I do what I do. And I'll tell you right now, I will not be perfect. I will >> Don't try to be perfect. We don't want perfect. We want you. We want you. I will breach every boundary I can
possibly breach when it comes to protecting any especially a little girl like the mom of a little girl because well that's where my like heart is. That's where my soft and people are like oh you hate little boys. No I don't.
It's just that I have a soft spot for helping moms of little girls, >> right? It's not like you're gonna turn away little You're not going to turn away little boys. It's just >> you have a soft spot and that's important. You got to realize that. That's important. >> I messaged you. Did you get my message?
>> I'm going to help a bunch of Just watch. I don't care how long it takes. I don't care if it takes till I'm freaking dead. I am going to help these little girls be grow up to be strong, educated, imp, you know, empathic like compassionate and they are going to kick some ass when
it comes to these predators, these real predators in this world. >> Have you ever have you ever hung out at like the homeless shelters for women and children? >> My dad >> not just hung out but like got to meet know your answer. Yeah. >> My my my when I first when when me and
my dad first reconnected and this was in what what are we in right now? 2025. >> Yeah. >> Really? Me and my dad really like we've always been close. The reason that we had issues was because you know the reason my parents divorced and
everything but when he saw like my dad always followed me online. Okay. And when he saw I was like on my first journey of self-discovery after I left the adult industry and I was just like kind of
floating. I I I reconnected with my mother and I love my mother very much. But he I just left and he saw and he kept like saying, "Alex, come come to Houston. Come to Houston." And but I wasn't ready and he just like watched
everything I did. And I think he was even in the chat on alt sometimes. >> He he admitted it. I I mean he was just like come come here come here and when I finally did it it was a little awkward because you know he had his life partner
who I'm very close to actually and it were his life partner um I I I girl you don't even know but >> actually Alexandra I do know and we are on the same level here we we got to talk offline about this too, I think.
>> Yeah. I I I'm being careful about what I say, but my dad was just >> he always loved me so much. >> Yeah. And he still I I mean when he died I saw the last breath
>> and it's just that was his gift because if I hadn't been there and seen it if I hadn't seen it I wouldn't believe he was dead today. >> Yeah. And it is actually a blessing. I've seen a lot of births and a lot of deaths and their blessings in their own
>> I saw my nephew born which was crazy. I way. wasn't supposed to be there. I It was like a fluke. I was back in Florida and my sister was was was like in labor and her um child's father like he was the one who called me and was like, "Do you know your sister your your sister's
about to give birth?" And I was like, "Really?" Cuz I didn't even know. And And so I so I drove her to the hospital and I didn't even think they were going to let me in and they let me in and I saw my nephew. I I mean I I like my sister, she was like giving up. She was like she and I was like, "Live, live,
you better you got to push him out. Come on." I was like screaming at her in the delivery room. It was crazy. But I saw him born. So I've seen the birth. I've seen death. It's crazy. And but I've never I I've never had a kid. So it's
like like why am I even here? >> There's so much more than just there's so much more than just having a kid. >> Yeah. >> Anybody any anybody can have a kid. >> Meaning that's not true. Not everyone can have a kid. Like, >> well, you're right. Not everyone, but like even people that uh maybe shouldn't
be reproducing can have children, whereas some people that I wish would reproduce can't have children. You know what I mean? I wish someone would take my eggs. Like, honestly, as I don't think I'm strong enough. >> I I don't think I'm strong enough to be a mom. I I don't because I'm so
particular about >> I think you are more than strong enough but I think that your life may just not be on that path and that's okay. That is all right. >> Thank you for saying that. >> And you could always you could always adopt. I mean there's plenty of unloved children in this world that you know you
could always adopt. >> You know what? I already know I'm going to end up doing it, but I don't want to. And the reason, and I'll tell you why I don't want to. The reason I don't want to is because I'm so pissed when it comes to the parents of those children
not stepping up and taking back why they thought they had to give up their child to begin with. get your kid back >> for Christ. >> It's so hard cuz my son's uh aunt they he husband got a vasectomy when they
were like 21 22 years old >> and they said we're going to adopt and they did. They adopted two kids. One from um >> what's the country right below Mexico? >> Um um um >> Guatemala. >> Guatemala. Thank you. Yes, Guatemala.
>> One from Guatemala and one >> No, it's Guatemala and one from um inland >> Venezuela. >> Honduras. >> It's No, I've been to Honduras. It's beautiful but very dangerous. Um but they also adopted a little girl from um
California in the north and the east and she she's having so many problems, you guys. Yeah, >> because the parents, >> the parents that birthed her, >> but not only the identity, but just physically because they drugs >> and they didn't take care of themselves
when they were pregnant. And >> I like I feel like I >> for my cousins like I have a bunch. Okay. I have cousins who have so I guess they would be more like second cousins. Okay.
But all my cousins had a ton of children. I'm the only one who's had zero. But I'm the richest one. >> There you go. But I'm I'm the only one that's never been married. >> Amen to that, sister. I'll drink to that. >> I might drink to that, too, actually.
Let's drink to that. Cheers. >> Let me grab my Wait, where's my whiskey bottle? Hold up. Hold up. girl that I've got flying out in October. >> Give you all photographic proof. >> We We did for like five years. I was so afraid to marry her. I own my own house
in this in this like lighting. I I feel >> you. You look all glazed up, girl. >> I'm I'm electric spitting all over myself being all weird and >> You're so cute. But I got um Jack Daniels. I got my Jack Daniels.
>> So everyone's here. >> Oh, look at someone's doing pull-ups in your doorway properly. You can't You have to keep your body straight. You can't bend your knees or keep your body straight. Okay. Your body has to be >> Keep your elbows in. You can't check it with >> Alexandra. I would go on camera and take a shot with you. I did just take a shot with you.
>> But I don't go on camera. I don't like I don't like being on camera. >> Look, girl, I am a show girl. What you got? I know about me. >> I am a show girl till the day I die. Okay. >> You are so photogenic. You're so good at it. I'm not photogenic. I just >> Yes, you are.
>> No, I feel like I don't do on camera. >> I look ugly on camera nowadays. I look at myself and I'm like, ew, I I look gross. I'm ugly. >> I don't think so. I think you are beautiful. >> I'm seriously beautiful. >> No, I'm not just being nice. I wouldn't say that >> just to be nice. God, I don't lie like that.
>> Okay, >> you are beautiful. You are gorgeous. >> Okay, I'll be beautiful today. Okay, >> there you go. Take the compliment because it's a real compliment. It's real. I wouldn't just say that to make it up. >> I'm taking the compliment. I have my whiskey. I have my jalapeno sausage. which I just took a bite off of. I'm
hanging out with TK Electra. I feel like I'm in like a superhero thing right now. It's awesome. I'm having so much fun. It's great. >> And I know LD. He's my comfort. He He's my security blanket because I know him. >> How come we never met before, LD? >> We have met before. You just don't
remember >> when you're talking to the panel. We've talked >> and I feel like we have but you're like a nice person. Usually everybody on panel was a dick of being a jerk. >> Usually all the people were being jerks and I was like having to defend myself.
>> LD everybody picks on him because he doesn't see LD doesn't fight back. That's what it is. LD is very self assured. He is like Mr. Man. He's like, "Fuck you. You with me. I'll blow your brains out. I don't give a shit."
>> I know. I know. But I feel like I would I do remember. Actually, I did have a feeling we' met before LD, but I was like I couldn't be sure because when I usually when I came up on Psychi's piano, it was like so chaotic and >> just too much chaos. >> You've got six, seven, eight people on panel. It's like it's hard to remember one person on panel. But when you're
with two, three people on panel and you're having, you know, >> has a quiet strength. >> That's the song. Oh, well, you know what? I'll write the song. DJ Electra, you remix it. LD Quiet Strength. That's him. >> That That is you. >> Yeah, he is. I like it.
>> The loudest The loudest people in the room are the weakest people in the room. >> You're so right. loud because they they really are the weakest people. >> He's always >> he's always been quiet strength always.
And I will vouch for that forever my dying day because I just know that and and like what people don't understand and okay let me calm down. >> Psyche, will you play my music video?
What people don't understand about LD is that LD is really like a scapegoat when it comes to his personal life. And there were some things that happened that I'm I'm just gonna like stop myself from
talking about, but I know that LD really loves his mother very much. Extremely so.
>> He will defend them until his last breath. I've seen it and people don't know that about him and that's what pisses me off. But I love his I love I love LD. I love his sister Jen. I love his mom. His mom really did help me lose
weight with the intermittent fasting suggestion. It's crazy. >> Like an awesome family. And if anyone with that family, I will go crazy and I will kill them. I don't care. It's a threat. It is a threat. Call the FBI
right now because I love him and his family. They are so they are just >> it's just the emotion in her voice. That's real emotion. >> Just just forget I said that. Okay. Just just forget that.
>> Be real. Alexandra, please be real. I like when you're real. >> This is the song that I wrote. >> Give you away. Take what we have and let it fall. Because my heart breaks every day.
Because you and I are a catch. 22. Since I get less than all of you, I want the hidden parts, too. Damn pain got the best view.
>> This is really vulnerable to play this but oh well. This like suicide shape.
If we were wrong together, then I could let this go. But we are right in every weather. We have what it takes to make it. Because you and I are
a catch 22. Since I get less than all of you, I want the hidden parts, too. Damn. Pain got the best you.
This is my last chance. Last chance to be that girl. Cuz my heart is too broken. So play around. But give it a whirl because you and I are for catch
22. Since I get less than all of you, I want the hidden parts too. Damn got the best view.
I love that.
Because you and I are a catch 22 since I get less than all of I want >> Is that Is that like a Is that an artist
or is that AI? Like what is that? >> That is um that's an AI song that I wrote. >> It sounds like like it does it matter if it's AI? It's it's re it's you. Yeah, >> it's awesome. >> Thank you. It's hard. It's hard for me
to like >> No, no, that that's you you just illustrate it because like when I met LD, I I had anger toward his sister. I have zero anger. Like I I wish she was like my best friend, honestly.
She she recently says something to me. She was in my chat recently. She's a moderator in my chat and I'm like like what was I always supposed to be on the journey? I don't know. I wish I could take back.
But I just I I love her. I love I love her brother. I I I love them separately as individuals, but I love them together. and he's he's just such a good brother to his sister >> and the whole family. It's like like I
feel like it's like an extension of my family cuz like in my family we've been through it, you know, you know, I I know what that is and it it's just like you don't know when it comes to all that. And and I mean Jen, she's grown and she's matured and she's become this
phenomenal force to be reckoned with to where it's like she's like a hurricane, like a like a force of nature. But that never would have come about if it wasn't for the
cyclone that was LD. Because LD as much as as humble as he is, he looked after his little sister and that is cuz I I've had to look after my little sister.
Okay, I know what that is. It's hard. And then if you're that if you're like a scapegoat in the equation, it it's just like even harder. But LD is a phenomenal man. That's what people don't understand.
>> I'm a man. >> In the valley of man. >> Oh, what? >> In the valley of man. Well, in the valley of of being human, like a person like like he really
he loves his little sister and he and like I I'll tell you this if when it came to a certain situation of a certain streamer who I did take up for for a long time I crossed a certain line LD
I I would shield him from legal consequences. I would just be like, "Fuck you. No, I know what he was doing." No, it is it that that's just what it is. So, yeah, that that song
Catch 22. >> Yeah, it's the name of my show also. And uh it the song and the show have nothing to do with each other. I mean, maybe they do, but I'm not ready to talk about that. >> Spiritually, it does have to do with the live. >> Yeah.
>> I I mean, catch 22. I I don't know like if the audience knows what a catch 22 is, but It's like a situation that you want to be in, but you can't be in and you're not actually in, but it's like totally up and good at the same time.
It's like It's like so hard to explain. >> It's meant to be. It It's Look, I look at it as like divine intervention. >> Yeah. And I would never have put that song out like two years ago. But when that's when I first started making like AI music and
um >> the AI music is the future. It it because it it gives Look, I I wrote a song initially called um Black Pill Moses, but I I redid it as God strong chosen. >> Do you want to hear it? >> I do definitely. >> Really? Well,
>> I I don't know if I can like Well, you know what? I I'll put out tomorrow tomorrow because it's I I can't like connect my uh stuff to it right now and I haven't recorded it properly, but it's all about just like >> I definitely want to hear it.
>> Who? Yeah, I I want I want you to hear it. It's Oh, why does life have to be so complicated? >> It's not that complicated, is it? >> It is.
>> I wake up, I go to work, I come home, I drink, and I do it all again. That's it. As long as I can take care of myself and the people that I care about, that's all that matters to me. That I can provide
for myself and my family. >> I don't admirable. Very admirable. >> I'm looking for people to take care of again. >> I feel lost. So, it's so weird cuz I've been taking care of people for so long
that I had to finally like pull away from it and learn how to take care of myself. And that was so hard for me. That was probably the hardest thing I've done, one of the hardest thing I've done in my life. >> It's so funny. I work with all of these nurses, right? And we talk all every day. We we get very uh very uh close and they'll tell me they're like, "Oh, my
boyfriend's a bum. He's an alcoholic. He doesn't work. He doesn't drive. He got his license suspended. And I'm like, why? Like, you're making 80, 100 grand a year. Like, why are you taking care of somebody like that? >> You know what, Ali? I criticize you because you you you were questioning
why I will want to take care of somebody else. It's because I'm so good at taking care of myself. I have all this excess energy and I'm not a nurse. >> I don't want to be I don't want to be a professional nurse. My My grandmother was that. I've I've had aunts who were that.
>> But I heard you. I I did hear you LD. >> Yeah. And you did give me literally older brotherly and you're younger than me which is funny but you gave me olderly and brotherly advice which I will take to heart >> like Alec like let's use my sister for
example right if she >> I didn't want you to do that because I knew that you were equating and there's no >> child two children to take care of like he can't be a man. He can't support you. He can't take care of himself. Like, why? >> But what do I do when But but okay,
here's my question, LD. And maybe you can answer. When it comes to money, I'm okay for the rest of my life. I'm fine. >> There you go. >> If I were to have a child, that child, but I'm I'm so old now. It would be ridiculous.
I just want to be happy. I just But I do feel a little lost. >> It doesn't sound like a child would be ridiculous to you. Maybe to the people outside looking in, but to you, I mean, like it wouldn't be ridiculous to you, would it?
It it wouldn't be, but I'd have to find somebody who would be like, "Okay, we're going to be old ass parents." >> That's the hard part is finding someone to do this with. Otherwise, you're on your own. You're going to do it on your own. And that's hard. >> Thank you for saying that, DJ Electra. Thank you.
>> It's really hard. >> That's That's why I'm not going to do it. My best bet is to be like a fairy cyber godmother to >> Will you be my godmother? Will you be my mother? Like I will totally I would love it if you were my Oh my god.
>> I will be well like what do you need? What do you want? >> I just want like my friend that I don't have in my mom. like we don't get along and I just want that relationship that some of my friends have with their mother. >> You got my phone number. Okay. >> I messaged you. I sent you a message.
Did you get it? >> Well, I didn't see Wait, let me look. Let me look things. Okay. Well, no. Well, I I see my phone number. I I don't see what you wrote back, but just >> No, I wrote it like I text you on your phone. Oh, I no I haven't I haven't looked at my phone. >> Okay.
>> I'm on I'm I'm on a I'm on a different device in my phone right now. >> Well, when you get it. >> Okay. >> Well, it'll be in a few seconds because >> Yeah. I'll have to get up. >> I'm I'm lazy at this moment. I'm sorry. But >> that's okay. I I'm I'm just here like
like what I want people to know is like I'm here like like I have a nephew who I do every like anything he needs. Trust me when I say this >> you're so blessed to have a nephew. I don't have any nephews. You're so blessed. >> He's awesome. And and I have cousins who
have kids and I like like like people are like, "Oh, Alex travels for no reason." No. Why? Not no reason. I go where they are everywhere. I have family. I whether they want me there or not. I intrude
and like Okay. I have like a female. Um >> I bet they love having you there. I bet it's not an intrusion at all. >> Well, they don't like me at first. Okay. Uh they're here. They're like, "Oh my god, Alex is here." I'm like, "Yeah, first stop."
>> That's not true. They do not say that. They don't go, "Oh, Alex is here." No, they don't. >> They don't say that, but you know, it it's just like I spoil like I like and I do Well, I do force them to get out of their comfort zone, whatever it is. Good. Thank God. Thank God you get
people out of their comfort zone because you know what? >> Our comfort zones are so boring and lame. And I want you to know I want you to see you how we see you. I really do >> annoying. That's me. >> No, not at all. Profession. This is how I would describe
you. professional, educated wellspoken uh beautiful uh, God, so many positive things that I could say, beautiful, just, uh, put together, giving caring >> okay,
>> and and and play it for my mom because everything you're saying in actuality, okay, I got my smarts, like my intelligence, my dad 100%. Okay, >> give yourself some credit, girl. Give yourself some credit. >> No, I I can't. I can't. Not when it
comes to a lot of things. My mom is where like like if you think that I have a certain level of grace or if you think I know how to like put stuff together, that's all my mom. My mom, she she was she was in the music industry before my
dad convinced her to become um an educator, a teacher. She she was a teacher for over 20 years. >> Good for her. >> But my mom, she Oh my god, she's such a badass. I mean, >> she was in the music industry before that. Yeah, she she was she wanted to be
um and she had the voice in the in the music mechanics. She she could play music by ear. I didn't hear it. My legal middle name is Melody. My full name, and everybody knows it, so I'm not doctoring myself. Alexandre Melody Mayers. Melody. My mom was
>> major. She was all about music. He taught me like both my parent my my dad taught me everything in his head about mechanics engineering computer science, all that stuff. But my
mom gave me the just the aesthetics. My mom snob to the highest degree. And I love that about her. >> I love that about your mom. See, my mother is a mathematician. She has a doctorate in mathematics. She has no snobbery and no she could
never teach me how to put a tampon in or do my makeup or anything like that. None of that. >> She doesn't know how to be a girl. But >> brilliant >> in a different totally different way. >> Well, my mom was br My mom was brilliant when it came to being a woman. like she
was in beauty contests when she was young. My my mom when my mom was young, she liked Diana Ross. She was and I'm not just like just saying that she really did. >> I believe it 100%. >> She was hot. >> She I love James Brown.
I'm sorry. >> Yeah. I I mean my mom >> James Brown though >> my mom she she worked it and she knew how to teach that's my shield like >> I'm so blessed to have that girl. I had none of that. My mother is a mathematician. She she deals in numbers and science fiction. That's it.
>> Like I don't know how to talk to my mother. We we have these weird conversations about I don't even know what we talk about the weather. You are cy I mean you you you have your AI avatar. You you're Star Trek. >> I mean, no, not so much. I just uh I don't think I'm pretty enough to be on camera the whole time.
>> You are. >> I don't know what you look like, but I bet you I mean, you have an amazing voice. You're you're very charismatic. You're you're probably prettier than you think you are because you you probably are. I bet you are. I I don't know. >> I'm fine. I just I'm fine. I just um
>> I bet you're prettier than you think you are because I'm less pretty than I think I am. Like in my mind, I am Donna Summer. Okay. But I'm actually not. But it's just like in my head. So, it's just >> I think you're super gorgeous. I look at
you and I'm like, "God, she's so good on camera." And she's gorgeous. >> Not Not really. >> Well, well, you're very >> I know how to put myself together because of my mom's influence. You're probably way more attractive than you
give yourself credit for because I give myself too much credit for sure. I bet you are. I I don't know what you look like and I don't ever go I know but I hear you and that's what I think about you. I I think you underestimate yourself. Yeah,
>> that's what I think. You subbed on the radio. I'm such a D Oh, a Donna Summers fan. On the radio. >> Yeah. >> Look, I I I actually >> I used to have a radio show. Did you know that, Alexandra? >> No, I I don't know anything about you really. >> Yeah, I had Well, once I uh quit
nursing, well, I didn't quit, but I was injured out, so I had to retire cuz I had injuries. So, um, I started watching true crime on YouTube cuz I I had no idea what to do with my life. Like, I started playing poker and watching true crime. And >> okay, >> one day the true crime channel I was
watching said, I'm I have I'm starting a radio station and I need DJs and if you want to apply to be DJ DJ. >> Yeah. Uh, so I became a DJ and I had a radio show for about two years and I basically helped like live that radio station like I made it happen cuz it was
dying. He was letting it go. He's like, I can't do all this work and I'm like, I will do this work. >> I will make it happen. Yeah. >> Yeah. And so I got a ton of our subscribers to the channel to do all this work and we like we had to look up all the codes for
the songs and get the money and get the it was a big ordeal. It I I was up like 18 hours a day working on it and but it happened and um yeah like if you want to do something you can make it happen. You are that kind of person, Alexander. I can tell you, too, LD.
>> But but you I I mean you Okay, here's what I've learned about psyche because I'm I'm I'm just all about what the movement is that he's pushing. But you
you're 50% of it. You you just are. And I know this. I can feel He had someone attacking him. And if people if people attack people that I love, if people attack people that I love, >> they are going to get the wrath of me. And that's what's going to happen.
>> Well, they should. They should. But I mean like like I I I view and he's probably listening. So if you hear us like how how should I even put this like like should I talk to him? Should I talk to you? I I don't even know. But what here's what I'm going to say about you,
Psyche. Psyche, you created the ultimate team in my opinion. Ultimate >> and he curated that. He curated that >> clamoring to be a part of it because I I know what this is and it's freaking
awesome. It it's just I know what it is and it's just a matter of everyone who's a part of it coming out but being real about their part of it. That's how I do it. >> Yeah. My radio shows were so bad. Herby Fatal like in the beginning I used to
have to take a Xanax and a shot of whiskey before I did my radio show cuz I was so nervous live. Like it was bad. It was it was like uh but then I learned >> wasn't as bad as you thought because you know we're we're our own worst critics. >> It's funny. It's funny to go back and
and I don't really try to listen to them but when I post my I have a Patreon and when I post them I have to listen to him a little bit. >> What is your Patreon? Is it Is it DJ Electra? like how do I find >> Yeah, it's just DJ Electra. I'll get you the link. It's um I'll put it in chat. It's just
>> it's um it's free, too. Like I don't expect people to pay for it, but >> Well, I I mean like the last time I did a stream with um Psyche, and I'm just going to recycle the donations back into what he's doing. But this nice man, what was he calling himself? Um, white random guy.
>> Yeah, white random guy. He gave you like 80 bucks or something. That was so awesome. >> I was like, "Oh my god, this is crazy." Because it it's like I'm I'm okay in my life, but it's like I want Psyche to make something amazing. That That's like what I want.
>> It is. And that's what's amazing about Psych. >> Yeah. is that I saw him kind of floundering for a minute with all the trolls and then he pulled himself up and he said, "This is not what I'm doing." and he started making content
>> and he's defense. So like I want to view myself in Psyche's world as like Shira, princess of power defending the um the the the the like the property of psyche. >> Yeah.
>> Awakens. like you were there at the perfect moment when I was trying to be there and I couldn't be there cuz I just wasn't in the headsp space and you came up and you were the perfect person at the perfect moment and you had his back >> and I love that. I love that. >> I hate that backup.
>> So I can't do it >> in the >> I can't do it all the time. I can't. I can't. But sometimes I will be here and I will kick some ass. >> I will. >> Necessary. >> It was really nice talking to both of you. >> Are you leaving, LD? >> I have to. I got work in the afternoon. I got to >> All right. Well, we'll sleep well.
>> Get some rest. >> I love you. I love you, LD. You w you rock. >> Yeah. Let's talk soon, LD. >> Of course. Yeah. We're all We're all connected now. >> We're Yeah, we're all connected up now. That's awesome. >> Later. So, >> LD is great. >> Sweet dreams. >> Bye. Good night.
>> I like LD a lot. He's cool. >> He's so nice. >> He is like, whoa, where's this nice people been? Like >> it's so hard when Psyche brings up these bad but Psyche brings up bad people sometimes and I don't I don't blame him. It's not his fault. He doesn't know that they're going to be horrible people but it just happens. There's only a few
people that psyche has brought up that I've been like really like critical like like he like judgmental I guess of to >> I just want to have like a spreadsheet for psyche of the good people and the bad people cuz sometimes we get a little tipsy and we forget. >> Let's make a spreadsheet.
>> No, we got to do it like like the AI can help us. We can make it. >> I I you know what? I'm a dork. I do AI stuff, but I also have a book that I write in like a physical book, a journal. >> Like, it's like, yeah, I love my book. I can't read half of it. Half of it is
just like there's like spilled on it and stuff, but I love it. >> Nice book. That's what I'll call it. Not officially, but I do have a binder of certain because I I know like I I I I usually put everything in um digital form. Yeah.
>> But I do have one particular handwritten book >> that I have. So that's my um vampire >> I love diary >> because I think >> I have like a whole bookshelf full of
them from when I started the radio station with the Mr. He was an actually kind of mean. He was kind of a >> radio like how do you start like being like a force on the internet? That's what I want to know. >> I still don't think I'm a force on the internet. I I don't feel like I have a force of anything, but
>> Okay. >> Um I wasn't even on Twitter when I started being on the radio. So, and he's like, "You have to get to Twitter to promote your show." And I'm like, "How do I do that?" Like, I didn't even know. And there wasn't even AI back then to teach me how to do it. So like I had to learn organically and you know
>> it's um yeah I don't know I just I like connecting with people such as yourself and that's what keeps me going and doing this. >> You hold back a lot just like Psyche
does too. You you you both hold back. I I can feel it in in both of you. And nothing. >> Not at all. >> You're probably right. I'm c I'm overly cautious. You're right. But sometimes I let loose and I'm like, "Yeah, I used to be a swinger." Blah blah blah blah blah. Like tell my whole story. But
>> no, it's not. No, I'm just talking about like emotive. Like if you used to be a swinger, hey, I used to do porn. You know what's going to I mean it. But um when it comes to your personal power, that's what I'm really saying. Both of you are like Psyche. Psyche is very
strong. Extremely so. >> He is. And he might not see it all the time though. Huh. >> He He doesn't He holds back tremendously. And I'm glad you you know it it does make him more approachable, but there's going to be a time that comes. But with
you, I I do feel a certain just just just like just like like like effervescent sparkle that's like coming out, but it's like intensifying as I talk to you and I'm like, who is this woman? What what is going on here? This
is amazing. >> I'm like so many layers. So many layers. >> Yeah. Well, you're very gifted. Yeah, definitely. >> We don't even know. But I'm very sensitive and that's the problem is that >> I take on other people's emotions. >> So do I. So
>> it's very difficult to be that way. I had to learn how to protect myself >> and that was to close off part of myself and to protect that. You protect yourself, but at the same time, you have to take control of what is trying to get
the message out through you because you're a bit of a conduit. Okay? So, when you're a conduit, you have to be like "Okay what you're throwing at me, it's a bit much." >> Yeah. But >> I need a shield here because I'm
freaking out. Like I was freaking out for years. I was like, >> it was just way too much. And then I like retreated into the safety of myself and my home. You don't you don't want to retreat because that's the enemy of win. >> Yeah, that's boring, too. It's really boring. Don't retreat.
>> You you just got to You just got to work it. >> Yeah. That's I got to take the um here's why like here's why I I feel very comfortable within the LGBTQ community even though I'm hetero but I'm the child
of someone who's who was openly bisexual. So that by default makes me I think genetically I'm LGBTQ without >> I think we both I think we both are then. Yeah, I think we both are. And there's a word. There's a name for us. Do you know what the name is? >> No. What is it called?
>> Um, okay. Hold on. I have to look it up cuz I forgot. >> I want the name cuz I I never had a name. I I I want the label. >> There's a There's a name. There's a label. It's um Oh god. Don't say daddy. It's not daddy. That's wrong, internet.
Don't say daddy. >> There is there is something for be because >> there is a name. >> When my dad passed my but my dad's partner he's been worried about me and he's like are people coming at you? Are they picking on you because I tried to tell your dad about this and he didn't want
to hear it? And I was like, "No, I'm well, it does happen, but I'm fine, but I'm always going to be a part of that world." Like, like I feel like it's like the little mermaid in like a weird way. >> A pure love, we love dicks, by the way. So yeah.
>> Like, like to me, it's not really about the mechanics of sexuality. It's about the broadness of truly loving who you are in love with. >> That's such a good way to put it. That's a really good way to put it.
>> Any of of any social constructs, of any sexual barriers, of any gender barriers, of any of that like it's it is hard. I I do have a certain like pull within me. My mom comes from a very
conservative environment. When my dad came out, I I mean, here's what's crazy. She didn't know. She She knew >> my Wait, she did know or she didn't? She did, but she couldn't quantify it in her mind
because and it's not through lack of intelligence or anything along those lines. It it was just a lot. She was younger than I am when all of that came about in her life. >> Okay.
Um, she was in her 30s. Like, right now I I'm pushing 50. I'm 46. Um, I forgive my mom for a lot. Whenever my mom looks at me, she sees my dad. I I do
look just like him. Aw, >> whenever she hears me, my voice is a lot like his feminine form but >> right >> just the way I >> He can see the how you relate and how
you are part of him. That's just bound to that's the truth. He look when he when my my mom didn't know how to deal with the dad. I didn't either. I I mean >> Wait, were they They weren't still together, were they? But they were still
close. >> They would talk every week. >> Oh, yeah. My My parents still talk all the time. And like But my dad has a boyfriend. He's had a boyfriend since he left my mom, >> you know. >> Yeah. I mean, whenever whenever my dad
like my dad was my dad was so sweet, he um my dad did like both male and female up until the day he died. Basically, he he had a woman crushing on him to where she called his phone. She didn't even know he had passed when it happened. It was
unbelievable. >> Um, but >> you're making me like really regret that I didn't call my dad back this week cuz >> Well, I didn't call him back. I didn't. >> Is he alive? >> Yes. And I didn't call him. >> Call him. Call him. Please call him. >> I know. I know. But he talks about his boyfriend all the time, which kind of drives me nuts. And I just need to get
over it and just listen. Because my dad didn't have my mom anymore. M my dad would spoil me. He bought me the most beautiful jewelry. He would he he would tell me what colors I look best in to try to buy me clothes.
Okay. >> Oh, that see that's my dad that I wish I had. My dad is just so not like that. My dad and I would watch. Look, when when I say I'm a Disney girl, like there's people from um big trollers community, Melissa for example, like I was like,
"Hey, you and I are Disney sisters. Look, from when I was a little girl, like up until my dad died, my dad would want to he would pick out outfits for me and he was Disney dad. My my dad and I would watch Disney movies together and
psychoanalyze them like media. >> A that's cute. See, me and my dad would watch we would watch comedy together like Gallagher or Saturday Night Live even. Oh, different comedy. And and he would shop at Nordstrom all the time and he had all the best face products from Nordstrom. And we were like, "Oh, he's he's
straight, I think." Right. Like we didn't know he was gay. Duh. Like we should have known looking back like duh. He My mom didn't even shop at Nordstrom. Like but he think I look the way I do it. It's all my dad. My dad like anytime
like he even like saw anything about me that he thought was incorrect or not what he thought I should be, he would correct it. Oh, my dad was very critical of me. Super critical of me. That's
where I get my critical voice from today. I'm very critical. I'm overly critical of myself. Like way too like I think I suck at everything. Um because my dad was very >> good at Look, girl, every look, Psyche
has said really good things about you to me. That's how I know that. Like I don't know you, but I mean girl, >> I'm a real person. That's the thing. I don't I don't play a person on the internet. I don't play
>> Look, you have the killer AI. That's how I know you're super real because I don't always do like sometimes I'm on camera, sometimes I'm not. It depends on like my security mode, but like how I feel about myself that day. But girl, I can just
tell you're a freaking bad ass. Own it. >> So my skin tears easily and I have a that's condition called Aaylor's Danlo syndrome. And so my skin tears easily. So like I could kneel on the carpet. >> So your physical skin? >> Yeah, my real skin. >> Yeah. So, like if I kneel on the carpet,
I could get a laceration that I have to go get 20 stitches for. >> You know what? I'm going to do something super revealing because I I just I don't even give a who's watching. this It's you. I'm going to go in the bathroom. You know how I got in that east scooter accident? I'm I'm
going to show you. You don't need to be insecure about girl. Just Just hold on. Let me um I I I don't want to like be nude. So, how am I going to do this? Well, I I know how I'll do it. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> I'm sure it's safe for the channel. Psyche would appreciate that. >> No. I'm not going to show you any Don't
worry about >> I mean, I like boobies and all, but let's not join you at all. >> No, no, no, no. Like, I just want to show you. And it's like for me as narcissistic and and um vain as I can be
like let me let me do Okay. All right. So my pigmentation is just now coming back. I I don't know if you can see but over here on my arm to me that's kind of embarrassing. It just is because I'm
like almost 50 years old and it's like really that that's going to happen. But let me show you the worst part and it's going to take forever almost for this to come back. Do you see this?
It looks worse than it is. >> It's like it's like a rug burn. Yeah, but it's going to take a long time for the Brown to come back. And people are bullying me about that. So >> that's wrong. They should not bully you
about that. That's an injury. >> It's It's just like you know what they're saying about me and it's going to like and maybe it'll make you laugh cuz it does kind of make me laugh a little bit. They say that because I have a certain dialect and
whatnot. They're like, "Oh, that's her that that's her being a real Oreo and and like that's what they're saying." Yeah. >> Oh my god. Be wait because you're um well spoken and you should be a journal. You are a journalist and you should you're meant to be one. Like they're saying that. Like that's ridiculous.
That's what they're and it it's like I don't care really, but it's weird and it's it's wrong that they're saying that. And to the people who are saying that, I hope you get struck by lightning. I don't want you to die, but I do hope you get struck by lightning for saying what you're saying. Really? Um,
>> yeah. You know what the thing is? That we don't correct the record, >> Alexandra. We do not correct the record because their record is so off base and so false and so up. These trolls that troll us or whatever there we have nothing to correct.
>> It's just like I I just feel like hit me when I'm up. Don't hit me when I'm down. >> They're going to hit you both ways. They're going to hit you when you're up when you're down when you're sideways. when you're up. >> Then that's going to make me want to hit you harder when you're definitely in a
weak point. That That's how I feel. I feel like, okay, you really want to hit me while I'm down for superficial, stupid reasons that might trigger certain insecurities or times that I dealt with actual hate crime in my life that you're going to
>> It just gives them every a bit of ounce with. of power over you if you let them know that. You can't correct the record. There's no way to correct the record. It just is not gonna happen. >> I can't I can't. But I mean I I'm grateful I didn't have to go into the hospital to get stitches for what you
saw. I mean I could have I I was very um fortunate. Extremely so. But is my coloring ever going to come back? Maybe some people don't care about that kind of thing. I do. Excuse me for having made money off my looks
basically. >> And you're allowed to care about that. >> My life that >> I when I was a kid, every time I fell >> So down, Alexandra, I had to go to the hospital and get like 20 stitches.
>> And so I have a lot of scars. I don't have a single tattoo, but I do have a lot of scars. >> I've never I bet you know what? If my coloring doesn't come back on that shoulder, that's going to be where my first tattoo is. >> There you go. That's a way to spin it. >> I was thinking, you know what? I dreamed about it actually because
>> Wow. I didn't even think that like when I went into because I didn't go into the emergency room the first day cuz I was looking at it and I was like uh it's not it it's superficial, you know. >> What did you put on it? What did you put on it?
>> Um initially I didn't put anything because I I didn't know if I would need for them to close it or or what it was. But when I went in, they were like, "No, no, it's a really bad scrape. You're, you know, you're going to be fine." And all this stuff. And then they didn't know how old I was when I first came in.
And when And they were like, "Oh, you're in your 40s." And I was like, "Yes." You know? So I was like, "So special care? If so, tell me cuz I can I I can I can buy it." you know, I I can't afford it. And they were like, "No, we
just didn't know cuz you didn't look like you were um what the age." They didn't they they they didn't know. And they were like, "Well, you know what to do. You know, it it'll be fine." Because really, the the most minute scrape, the coloring's already coming back or the melanin, whatever you want
to call it. Um that's fine. Everything's fine. And but it's just like embarrassing for me truthfully. It it I'm a little embarrassed. >> I get it. It's okay. >> Yeah, >> it's okay to be embarrassed. Like, but I really do think that you just got to give it time. Yeah, it well I mean look
all I cared about like where I am in California right now. Um I was just pissed because I was like, "Oh my god, I paid for this place for a month and it has an awesome hot tub and you're going to tell me I can't get in the hot tub. >> Can't go in the hot tub." Yeah. >> Right. Right. Right. So now I'm to the
point to where I can, which is great spiritually and and just metaphysically and, you know, biologically even for me. But it's a little embarrassing. It's like, who am I? Like I'm almost 50 falling off a goddamn scooter trying it. It It's >> Hey, I think the scooter is pretty
badass girl. I saw you riding that and I was like, damn, she's a badass. flew in Orlando. It did not work out in Kell, but I want to give it to Psyche because I think that he and I give him the helmet, too. Everything because >> Dude, you got to give him the helmet. I I don't know. Maybe not. I don't know if
he's the the man for the the scooter. >> I don't know. Well, I I've never met him in person or anything, and I don't want to even push that. Like, I feel like am I being intrusive? So, maybe not on this trip. Maybe like, >> oh, you're not being intrusive at all. I think I would love to meet you and so would Psyche. And
>> I I haven't met Psyche in person either, but I plan to cuz I go up there all the time cuz my co-host >> for my show lives up by him. >> I'll be here until early October. Okay. So, he knows. But I I don't want to
because there have been times to where I've been probably too cuz I'm naturally a go-getter aka aggressive. That's me. So I don't want to be like, "Oh, I'm just going to be in your area and you have to get the scooter." I I I want it
to be to where you you know like he's ready to be out and about and he might not be ready to be out and about right now. So >> he'll he'll tell you he'll tell you if he is or not. Just ask him. I mean >> like I'm not ready. I'm not ready to be
on stream >> before anyone else has it because like he could go places if he wanted to go places cuz I I like I don't know if he has a driver's license and it's not my business. >> I don't know either. But you know people
don't really walk in LA so it's good to have wheels. Well, it's good to just have like like if you don't want to walk. >> You didn't grow up in California. >> No, I No, I grew up in Spring, Texas, but I was born in Carlo, Washington. So, like like I'm happy to be back on the
West Coast. I'm telling you, girl, I am supposed to be on the West Coast at a high elevation. It's better for me. Like I feel like >> you're you're going to think I'm totally insane. I I I don't think I'm totally of Earth. >> I don't I don't think you're insane at
all for thinking that cuz honestly I've had the same thoughts before. So don't worry about it. You're >> I don't because like I breathe better at a high elevation. Um, >> and I do better in water and that's why like I've grew up by the ocean and I lived just basically in the ocean.
>> So you're a mermaid. >> Something like that. I don't know. >> Like aqua like aqua. Like a aqua person. Aqua girl >> somehow. I don't know. I don't know what it is, but it's just that's where I >> I'm supposed to be in space. Like I'll tell you straight up. I think I'm supposed to be in space. I've always
thought that. I've always When I was a little girl, my dad was an engineer for Exxon. He would take me to NASA all the time. I I got to um play around with the different um like like the wind chambers to where it's like anti-gravity.
I don't think I'm supposed to be on this planet. If they are looking for people to be on Mars, I'm ready to go. I haven't wrote a song about it. Leaving for Mars. >> Yeah. Where's your song? Psyche. Psyche. Where are you? Psyche. Psyche. >> I'm sorry.
>> I hear your song. Did you put it up? >> No, it's on my um YouTube. It's on my Alexandra May's Well, you know what? it. I'll play it for you right now on my piano. Let me let me turn it on. Yeah, just give me a second. Let me unplug the uh thing so that >> I put up a song that I made like
seriously I'm still >> It's like a silly song, but it's called Leaving for Mars. Let me um play it for you. >> Awesome. >> Thank you for listening, actually. >> Of course.
cuz I I've I've I've thought for since I was a child I'm not supposed to be here. >> Yeah.
>> Wow, you're really good. >> No, I'm not. I'm really bad. >> Actually, you are really good. >> Okay, I'm going to sing with it, so it's going to be even more horrible. Okay, here we go. Okay, I'm ready. >> All right. Are you sure you're ready? It's going to be really bad. >> Positive. You haven't heard me sing yet. Mine's terrible. And I have recording,
so it's bad. So, go. >> Just thanks for hanging out. >> Of course. >> Wait, let me start again. Sorry.
I might be a
You know what? this. I'm just going to send you the uh MP3. I'm not ready to play. If I do some whiskey, maybe I'll do >> so good though. >> It sounds so bad. No, I can do it way better. Way better. But I'm not ready yet. >> I can do it way better. But I have to drink a little bit. >> Okay, fair enough. No. Fair enough. Psyche, will you? Um,
Psyche, are you awake? >> Will you play my song? So, she'll she'll feel better about her song when she hears my song that I have in the back. >> You will. You'll feel better about it. This is like the first AI song that I made. And uh I'm not AI. Sorry. The first No, it's not AI. >> I wrote this.
>> Yeah, this one's not AI either. This one's one that I made completely on >> Well, you're a musician. I can tell >> you're a real musician. >> I'm like a dabbling musician. >> No, you're a musician. You're You're solid. You're solid.
>> It doesn't come natural. I gave it up for so many years cuz I had my son, Alexandra. I gave it up to be a mom. I gave up everything >> to be a mom. >> Pause. It's not giving up. >> Exactly. And now I can do it now. >> But >> I just I I did give everything up.
>> But you got to be I mean, girl, have I gotten to be a mom? I'm I I am jealous of the moms who are good moms. I I really am. I wish I I wish I I wish I'd gotten to be a mom. It's a blessing, but it's also like the
hardest thing ever. >> Oh, well, in this world, >> it's so hard to be >> I wouldn't want to be a mom. >> All self We're all selfish. We're all selfish, by the way. >> No, no, no, no. Not all the moms are. I would not want to be a mom now because
they're scary moms raising scary offspring who I know. So I am afraid for that
>> for sure. So, but I like I I just like bow to and honor the real moms like the amazing moms who and I want to be and I
am to like my cousins and my sister and you you know people in my family like if I if I were to die tomorrow everything I have were would go toward my nephew and I have not she's not my niece but it's my cousin's daughter to where she's
going to be >> okay so your cousin's daughter is like a second cousin I think >> right and and she's in school for law she's going to be like this amazing attorney and I was just like you you know my my nephew he's got my sister and and that's enough monetarily but She we
we've got to build her because she's female and she's undeniably black. She's beautiful. She she I mean she looks like a like a mini Naomi Campbell. She's gorgeous. >> Oh wow. Naomi Campbell is gorgeous, but she's dark.
>> She is tall like like Okay. Okay. Here's what happened on my father's side. It's they're they're black, but they're multi-racial. Okay. >> Okay. >> It's like there's as much white and other ethnicities as there is Africanamean. >> that's so interesting. Do you find that So, interesting?
>> Yes, I do. >> A beautiful thing. I find that >> Well, people think I have a nose job. I never had a nose job. that that's what I look like because >> you know what's funny is I have a a kind of broad flatter nose. I have a broader nose >> woman or are you are you are are you white? Are you black? I I don't even
know what you are. >> I'm white. I'm very Scottish. Like 60% Scottish. I did the DNA test and um >> My family all thought we were Irish, Okay. Northern Ireland. And it turns out I'm 60% Scottish and the rest is like Irish and English. Like I'm white bread. Damn white bread. And I didn't even ask for it. I don't care for
it. I don't care. >> White in my family is all Norwegian and Irish. That's what the DNA. I've never done a DNA test. I've never done one. But my sister, >> you spit. You spit into that little tube and then they send it in. And >> I've never done one, but everyone
throughout my entire life, they've always thought that I had plastic surgery on my face. Never did. >> Interesting. I >> I'm a darkkinned black woman with >> You are the least likely to have You're the least likely to have plastic surgery >> they think that I did because I have I cuz have small facial features. They look at
my nose, people think that I have an Anglo-Saxon nose. >> You're naturally gorgeous. That's what it is. You're naturally gorgeous. >> You are the sweetest thing. >> No, you are. >> You are. I see you on screen and I'm like, "Oh my god, she's meant to be on screen.
>> You should come on camera. are like are you just like protecting your privacy or like >> Yeah, partly that I did have a stalker >> in real life and that was freaking crazy cuz he would come to my house and try to break into my house all
the time. And so it was like >> it was bad. I had to get a restraining order and then >> buy a gun at that at that point. I had a gun at that point. Yeah, I I had one. >> Yeah, don't worry. I'm I'm good with guns. I'm a California, but I am good with guns and I I am very well verssed
with guns. Um cuz I think everybody should know how to use one to be safe with them and also to protect themselves. I'm not I'm not a I I don't agree with carrying it because I do I do feel like the energy that you put out comes to you.
>> I agree 100%. I never carried because I never wanted to need it. I never wanted to need it. The energy >> for women having the rights to arms. Like if some like I went through serious stalking if someone were to
you know cross certain boundaries with me. Yeah. I put a bullet in their head without a doubt. >> If he had never gotten into my house I would not have hesitated to put a bullet in his head. >> He never got in. Luckily, um, >> what you do, surround yourself with
people like yourself. Like where I am, like I'm in the I'm in the desert. Okay, guess what? Everyone around me is an artist, musician, someone who works in the entertainment industry, is a bunch of males around me. They all know I'm here. See, that's amazing because I live
in a place where there's a lot of business people and a lot of wealthy people that don't care to interact with other people and it's just not a good scene. >> That's why I'm doing what I'm going to do cuz I
my dad was a very um money-minded person. >> Mhm. which I was not and am not. But he had really good friends to where they know the kind of person that I am. My sister and I are completely
different. Completely different. >> Um and I didn't even know it. But when things came down like I didn't even you know I did everything right when it came to my father's passing and I have a his
ashes with me like I I carry his ashes with me everywhere because it just we used to talk every day and like I even feel like this conversation like he's here like sitting on this patio with me like hey how you It is. I'm sure it is.
He's chilling talking with us right now. >> He's wearing jeans and a button-down shirt. That was my dad's outfit. It was just people who have like corrupted that. I hope that they just like drop dead like like or something happens. But um yeah, >> hopefully they just fall off the face of the earth. We don't care what happens to
them. My goal is just to make a safe haven for because I paid off all my bills. I have no debt. I have no nothing. >> I just I I'm just going to make a safe haven for whoever it is who needs to be feeling
safe. >> Safe and cared for. >> Yeah. And probably in this area, I mean, where I am, it's a hippie place. I mean, I've known I didn't even know that I knew a lot of my neighbors until I came out here for like months and I'm seeing people that I knew in my 20s
>> and I'm like, >> "Yeah, we're all out here strangely." >> Crazy. So, >> well, did you know that I used to have a fifth wheel? Um, >> so and we used to take it out to like Havasu and um, so I do know a bit about the RV lifestyle.
>> Yeah. >> Yeah. Well, I mean there's places I I mean like you you know you have a Target, you have a Walmart, you have you you know what you need. >> The places I don't go to. Well, if you need it, stuff. >> But it's there. Yeah. If you need it, it's there. Yeah.
>> There's electricity. You know, there's real houses and all that kind of stuff. But I'm just going to be out here cuz I I like it. And I like seeing the stars. Like I can walk out here right now. >> A >> and I see the stars in the sky. I love
the sunsets and the stars and the the sun rises out in there in that area are beautiful. The sunrises are >> keeps you on a good It keeps you on a good like >> grounded keeps you grounded. Really? >> Yeah. When you wake up with the sun like whether you want to like I'm up late for
me right now like it's like 2:30 where I am but >> me too. I'm still gonna wake up early and get on with my day. >> Yeah, >> that's nice.
And and that's life. But I I I want to be I I want to establish myself to where if somebody got has to pull up and be like, I got nowhere to go. Can I be here? Make sure you're ready for every single
>> Well, that's why I do have um >> that could happen. >> Well, I'm not against open carry. I'm not against >> I I'm not that person, okay? You just got to be ready for every single thing
that could happen or go wrong cuz those are the situations where it does happen. >> It is. >> It is. >> You just got to be ready for it. And I think you are. >> I'm not saying you're not. I'm just saying be ready for it. >> I think I could do it. >> That's my thing.
>> Yeah, I think you could too. 100%. You could do anything you want, girl. I just want to help. >> You are a manifesttor. You make things happen. >> I want to help the moms. That way they can go about like they could heal. They
could feel better. Then they can go wherever they go, but they can know that like there's somewhere to retreat to if they have to. and someone will have >> part is keeping that space private cuz it gets out there from one person and
then everybody knows where it is. Like that's the hardest thing. >> Well, when I >> No, it will be the hardest thing. And I already know this. When I do what I'm going to do, I already know for a fact there's going to be people who are going to try to sue me. They're going to try to come after me. They're going to try to, you know, ruin
>> you've been putting up with that for how many years? A couple years now. >> Close to 10 years. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> You are I seriously bow down to you for that cuz I don't know how how to do that. Like >> look, I look when when my dad passed and
I learned certain things and I was asked like what do you want to do with the resources that you have? I was like nothing right now because that's the truth. Nothing. >> Yeah. But eventually
>> that's an okay answer. >> Yeah. cuz I I I I I'm independently, you know, I do my own thing. I I've been self-employed for at least seven years now. Um I've taken care of myself when when my dad was alive. Like I told
you, like um he would give me gifts. He he would be like, "Oh, I saw this pretty necklace and I it reminded me of you and here you go." And I'm like, "Hey, you know, you're that that was my dad. You know, he was like, "Oh, I I I I see
that you like um a certain kind of purse or a bag or or or you know, >> my dad never even cared enough to think that about me. He never even cared that >> Well, it wasn't just my dad. It was his much." partner, too. quietly because this
partner is very about um encouraging the self-esteem of AfricanAmerican women. And what's strange, he's he's white. He's from directly from Germany directly. >> Wow. >> I dated a German once. That was a trip
>> right after um my mom and my dad um separated. That's when he connected with who was his life partner. And I I think that his life partner initially thought that like I wouldn't like him or like I would hate him or something be, you know, because of the situation.
>> Of course. Yeah. My dad's life partner told me he said, "Oh, she looks fat." >> The first time we met. >> Well, he's not. >> Well, that's >> and I'm not fat. I was like a size two. No, that's that that he was an I'm I'm sorry. But >> yeah, I had a very bad experience. Like it's it's been awful. Like the worst
>> I never had that. >> Alexandra, if you can think about the worst actual possibility, think about the worst thing that you could wish for your father in a partner. That's what happened. >> That was him. I I I wish I could take that away from you. I I wish I could
like take it all away. >> I'm sorry. >> Thank you. >> I wish I could take it away, too, cuz it's been awful. >> I I wish. Well, you know what? May you have a amazing
10 times better experience because you dealt with that. >> Thank you. That's >> I wish that could happen, but I just don't see it happening. >> I think I'm done. I think I'm totally done. >> I'm totally done. I'm done. >> I can't anymore. I've >> The last three men I was with cheated on
me. I'm done. Men are cheaters. That's how I see them now. They are. They're all cheaters. All of them. I'm done. I hope they're not all I I've had a similar experience, but
>> they they are all >> I still have hope because I'm I I maybe I'm stupid, but I do. I have hope. And for you personally, like I'm, you know, let me walk out here. I gotta really walk out here. And I hear a dog barking.
Shut up, dog. For real. >> I'm not mad. I just say it like I'm mad because it's really bad. >> Men really do. They they cheat and they're like, "Women are the cheaters." And I'm like, "Uh, >> no. Actually, we're not." They're like, "Women don't know how to love." Um,
sorry, you are wrong. >> You had a really in the name of Jesus Christ. God, if if you hear me for whatever reason right at this moment, please God, send this woman healing energy. That
would be amazing if you could do that. >> Thank you. Send her love. Send her compassion. And send her someone freaking awesome who's hot, who is just like like
sensitive, who knows her, and who is just like just knocks her off her feet. That's what I want for this woman. That would be so cool. >> That would be great. That would be so >> in the name of Jesus Christ. Like cool looking at the stars in the sky. I'm
trying to I wish you could see the stars where I am. I wish you could. >> Yeah, cuz where I live, there are no stars. >> Where I am, you you can really I wish you could see them, >> guys. Just I miss living up in NorCal cuz I had all the stars. Yeah. >> Give this to this girl. She's she's
she's a nice girl. She needs it. >> I'm not always very nice, but I'm pretty nice. >> the bad stuff. So what? We all got that. But see, I really don't have much bad like >> you you haven't heard me on panel, but like when guys come up here and are just I'm like, >> "Okay,
>> you're spunky." >> And then I get back at them. >> You're punky spunky. I call you a punky spunky >> cuz you're you're >> I'll get a little bit, but I don't ever really get that personal. Like I don't ever say anything personal.
>> I want I I I'm wishing for real. I I want I want you to have what I want for you. You You'll get it. You're amazing. Thank you. >> You will. You'll You'll get it. Go get
>> I'm not going to cry right now. I'm not it. >> Well, I'm already Well, don't cry. You better not cry. No, no crying aloud. >> I'm not crying right now. >> On panel. Who's on? Who's in chat? How many people are in chat? 28 watching? Okay. Hi, 28.
>> Hi. Hi, 28 to where 28 is. >> We're being pretty real right now. And if you can't appreciate that, >> I've been real, girl. I've been real all day. I've been calling out weirdos. I've been doing But no, for real. For you,
>> you you need you need the real Prince Charming.
>> What'll happen? You're up. It'll happen. >> I hear like an echo. >> No. I know. I have I have a song for you. Do you hear it or No, you can't. >> No, I I don't hear it. I don't >> I heard it when you started it. Start it again. >> Okay.
>> Okay. One second. One second. >> One second. Here it comes. Okay. So, you know, you want to call Alexandra? >> Wait, do I need to put my headphones on? Maybe. Maybe. >> Yeah. Try that. >> Yeah. Listen to it through the TV. >> I'm gonna go inside. Just give me a second. I'm gonna go inside and get my headphones.
>> I thought you fell asleep, Psyche. I'm so glad you're awake. >> I got a green screen today. Did you see the green screen? >> Oh, did you get one like a popup? >> Yeah, see right there. >> Oh, yeah. You looking stunning.
It might be best, Alexander, if you listen to like a TV or like the uh >> Wait, first I gotta disconnect from my other phone. Ju just like a second. >> Sorry, I I didn't mean to. >> I actually used my phone that I own. >> Oh, I feel better after the bath, though. I had a nice bath.
>> Oh, nice. >> I have a really cute shirt, too. Look at my shirt. >> All right. I might not be able to hear it on my phone, but >> I said I'm fine. I love it. That's cute. >> Yeah. Okay. Well, see if you can hear it loud, but you might need to listen to like >> anyway. Yeah. I'm just smoking and drinking. I'm a little
>> I'll play it right now. Here we go. One, two, three. Here we go. I don't hear anything. >> Well, I I I don't hear it. But But no,
wait. >> Let me grab my iPad because >> Yeah, turn on his channel. You could hear it. >> Yeah, if you turn on the channel. >> Maybe on the TV. I I >> Yeah, let me do on the TV. Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on. Just give me a second.
>> I got a link. >> Uhhuh. No worries. >> You're so blessed to have Alexandra around. And And was it LD that was here earlier? He's amazing, too. >> Yeah, he's very cool. I mean, it's like so many. We're blessed to have you,
Electra and Psyche. Hello. >> Sorry to be >> blessed to have each other. Let's just I think all >> we're all like doing stuff. >> We're all just like in this grounded blessed place. I think >> yes.
>> Find the history. Okay, I see the stream. Okay, here we go. Okay. Let me know when you're when you're you're listening. >> Okay. I I'm listening on the TV. >> Okay. Okay. Ready? Okay. I'll play. Here we go. >> Okay.
>> Okay. Mute. Mute whatever you're hearing though. >> All the way down. Hold on. I need to >> I need to mute. Well, let let me know when like the music is playing. >> Have to start in like probably 10 seconds. Okay. Here we go. >> Okay, >> I'll turn the volume up and then
Perfect. Okay. Yeah. Okay. And here we go. Um, here we go. Priestess.
Unfortunately, I don't hear anything on my end TV or on my phone. >> Okay. Uh, I'll send it to you. Okay. >> I'll play it later. I don't know. Technical difficulties sometimes, guys. But yeah, I think it's like best to >> No, just >> Well, here's You can play it though. You could play it.
>> I'll play later. I'll play later. >> You got to make Okay. If you're on a Mac, you got to make an aggregated multi-output device, >> which you do in the MIDI settings. >> You're on a PC, right? >> Oh, he's on a PC.
>> Oh, that's through Streamyard, right? Psyche. >> Yeah. Yeah, I do StreamYard through the PC. >> Okay. >> I was doing it. I was doing >> I heard everything. I mean, I heard it, so I think it's just >> I I couldn't hear it, but I I know it existed, but I didn't hear it. >> Um, >> it's okay. I I'll play it for you later.
You'll hear it for sure. I I'll send it to you. >> Thank you. Will you play my funny song that I put in the back? >> Sure. Here you go. Here you go. >> Okay. This is the first song I made. >> I can hear it. >> Oh, you can hear that one? >> Yeah.
Turn it up. I can't turn it up. >> I'm in Brazil. No, I love it. I love it. >> I'm going to sing coming up. I'm bad singer. >> No, you're not. >> You're a good singer.
>> Yeah.
roots rock. >> I love reggae music so much.
You're >> No, it's good. >> That's my friend's little daughter that said we were doing a live stream about true crime and she comes on, she's like four years old and she goes, "You're a queen." To no one in particular. She just said
it to nobody in particular. We were like, "Oh my god." And we just died laughing. And so she's the main part of the song. >> I have a song for Psyche. I um not to get all like serious, but I have to get serious because I know he's listening now. >> Yeah.
>> Um >> Psyche, come back. Open it all up. >> Do you want to hear it? >> I do. Wait, wait, hold on. Well, I I actually cannot. Well, hold on. Do I have any >> add it? And then he has to add it to the screen. >> Yeah,
>> just share it and he'll he'll >> I'll just share it. I'll No, I'll do a stream. I'll I'll do a stream about it. Hold on. >> Okay, fair enough. >> First, I got to um >> bring up the lyrics. I have good lyrics for it. >> Oh, nice.
>> Let's see. Yeah, here we go. Psyche in the Neon Night. Do you want to hear the um original version of it? >> Well, what do you have? The original and the remix? >> Yeah. >> Okay. Yeah, I'd love to hear the original first. >> Okay, hold on.
>> hold on. Let me uh >> Okay, >> My nose is sweaty. It's hot in here. God damn it. >> Well, my nose is stuffed up because I'm like all excited and I've been smoking. I've been drinking. I've been doing all kinds of stuff. So,
>> I don't have my AC on cuz it's too loud to have on with the streaming. So, I haven't had my AC on for like five hours. I'm like burning up >> now. Now my Mac is ask is asking me um restarts. No, I don't want to restart any of this. No, >> no, let's not restart right now. Mac.
>> No. Um >> I don't know how to use Macs. I've never used a Mac, but I have an iPhone. >> Mac for me is very frustrating compared to PC. I grew up on PCs. Um, >> dude, but if you new PCs right now, like Nvidia, the GPUs, the graphics processors,
>> I just want you to have to update it like every week. It's so exhausting. >> No, it's exhausting. >> It's too much. I I don't I don't like it. >> I don't either. It's too much. I'm like, >> Um, can we just make technology accessible again and easy for everybody to use? No, we can't. So, we're just going output to
here. Um, maybe you'll be able to hear it. I I don't I don't know. Ju just give me a second. I'm going to make it to where you can hear it. Let's turn up the volume. >> Do you use uh the the voice? >> I don't want headphones. No.
>> Do you use the voice meter banana? >> I do. Yes. >> Yeah. That's what drives me crazy. Uh, the OBS I could do OBS, but that voice meter banana >> is by bane of my existence. >> Oh, it's it's working.
>> Wait, wait, wait, wait. Let me uh turn >> Oh, good. >> But voice meter banana can suck my dick if I had one, but I don't. But it could suck my dick if I did. >> Voice meter banana could suck. >> Okay, let me turn off my vocals on this. Okay. Mute. Mute. Mute. Mute. Mute. Okay. Do. Yeah.
Okay. I have it set up strangely to where you can hear it. Just give me a second. Headphones. I I don't want that. I want it to where it's output. >> Okay. Sorry. I'm all like nerdy over here. >> No, no. I know exactly what you're doing
cuz I know voice meter banana and it is the bane of my existence. It's awful. It's so bad. >> How? >> But you have It's a You have to have it. You have to do it. >> You do. You absolutely do. >> Like, um, I want to live stream me making beats on my channel. >> Okay. Here's my I I want you to hear me.
>> Okay. I'm gonna listen. I'm going to Okay. mute and listen.
It's not a very good sound quality. We need better sound quality. >> It's not not not not cuz I I have you on the on the phone. >> Oh, okay. It's very synth wave. I'm I'm trying to figure out how to amplify to where you
can hear it better. >> I just want to hear it through the computer. >> It sounds amazing. Yeah, it sounds >> Through the computer. really good. I think it's really >> No, I can I can probably feed it through the Hold on. There's a way for me to do it. Hold on. I'm sure that there's a
way. Just give me a second. >> Yeah. Yeah. Maybe I can connect on my um how would I do this? I can probably re I can probably connect
to psyche. >> Yeah, you can share like you know that little square with the plus in the middle. You can share through there. Yeah, cuz I'm on my phone talking to y'all right now. Maybe there's a uh Give me a second. Give me a second on
history. >> Yeah, down at the bottom there's like a little square with a plus in the middle of it. >> I got connect. >> Let's see. Where's his That's the share screen.
>> Where's the Streamyard link? I'm looking for the Streamyard link in this chat to connect to. >> Just go up. Oh, I can give it to you in the back chat cuz I'm at the top of the brow. >> Well, I can't. No, no, no. Put it Put it in like the regular chat cuz that's how I'll be able to get it on. >> Okay. I can put it in regular chat.
Sure. Okay. >> There it is. All right, here we go. >> All right, let's uh >> Psyche, do you want me to delete it from regular chat? >> Yeah, delete it from his uh regular chat. >> Okay, got it.
>> All right. Um, use another account. Yes. Uh, Monica home.
I'm trying to >> I love it. I'm waiting. I will wait forever. I love music so much. Like, I will wait forever. No big deal. Um, if anybody likes electronic music, please go and listen to the new Flume album. Flume is amazing artist from Australia. Listen
to his new album. It's called Dumb, which is a great name for an album, by the way. And um yeah, we just did a listening review party on my channel and it or on Hackright's channel, which is half my channel, so it's fine. But >> okay,
>> very very good album. >> All right, I'm probably backstage twice. Let me um mute myself. Mhm. >> Okay. There it did that. Oh, I don't What does it give me? The option to present.
>> Yeah. So, you see in the bottom there's like a little square box with a plus sign in the middle. >> I see it. I see it. I see it. Okay. >> That's the guy. That's the one. >> Now, how am I going to do this? Hold on. Give me one second. Just one second.
I'll show you the song that I'm re purposing for Psyche. >> Okay. >> Yes, >> sounds good. >> That's what I'll show you. Just give me a second. Uh,
I'm not sure how YouTube's going to show this to me. Come on, YouTube. Stop being a douchebag. Here we go.
>> Maybe I should download it and present it. I I could do that. >> That works, too. Sure. >> Yes. Let's do that, baby. Just give me one second while I download it. >> Hey, 27 people watching in chat. Say hi
in chat if you don't mind. >> Be good to see who's in chat. >> Hi. >> I know, right? There's 27 people. 26 now watching. I scared one away cuz I'm scary. I am scary. >> I've been running around so I'm a weirdo.
>> Yeah. Okay. I think we got this. Okay. Downloading it. >> Yeah. This is Here's an AI song. It It's a little romantic. It's a little tragic. >> Good. >> It's always good. >> It's a little everything. Let's see.
Well, >> all right. It's synth wave. Tell me what you think about this. >> Okay, I will I'm going to mute while we listen to it, though. >> I I don't know if it's coming up on the screen. Is it? >> Psyche has to approve it first. He has to approve it. >> Oh, okay. Okay. So, we got to wait.
>> Psyche, can you bring her song up, please?
and come back up. By the way, we made >> Is he awake? Are you awake? Awakened. Psyche. Wake up. Hello, Psyche. Hello, >> Psyche. >> Kind of. >> I'll yell at you. Psyche.
Hello. >> He was just like ago. >> Well, I'm going to yell at you. I better go outside, Sebie. Indoors yelling. He might not He might not hear us. >> A I'll message him. >> He might be sleeping. Is he Is he Is he
sleeping? >> He was just up here. Oh, he's up there. >> Yay. Oh, I love it already. It's simproision
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Oh, now the name they know from that glowing scream to the walk. >> So that was my recent heartbreak and heart throb that I'll never talk to again.
Can anyone hear me? Hello. Maybe I should disconnect the other uh thing. Let me disconnect this.
Okay. Can you hear me, DJ Electra? >> Hey, hey, wait, wait, wait. I'm here. Uh, I have my phone on though cuz I had to go to the bathroom real quick so I had to run. I took my phone and I was listening to it on my phone. >> Like the most boring song in the world. It's okay. >> No, I loved it actually. I really liked
it. >> It was groovy. It It was synth wave. You know, if you're just like using the bathroom, it's perfect for that. Really? >> Hey, it's not a bathroom song, but I did have to pee and no, I do not poop. I think it's look I personally put that song together and I
am gratefully and and appreciatively saying it is the perfect restroom song for you know sometimes you got to go. >> It's fine. I have a pea break song that I sang myself and I have a poop break song that I sang myself and I also have a uh
>> look I am not look >> a ball break I have a ball break song Alexandra ball break and a >> some kind of jerk off break song like I have a lot of songs they're really >> you need look songs are for everything I have songs for when I'm a little backed
up that help me go And you, you know, we need different songs for different things. >> I have no judgment on that. Not at all. >> We do. But yeah, that was my most boring song in the world I ever wrote for a heart throb that somebody >> I liked it. I really didn't neon lights,
but I'm re I'm repurposing it for um Psyche. >> Oh, it's the Spank Break song. I need the Spank Break. Spank Break song. Here it is. Psyche. Oh, I found it. >> Spank break. >> Yeah, the spank break. Um, >> are we going to spank like who are who are we spanking?
>> We are spanking a lot of people. >> I want to spank everybody. >> This is the song for it. >> Lisa, like the judge me. I'm going to have another shot of whiskey, but then I'm done with whiskey for tonight. I'm gonna have one more shot. Here we go.
>> I'll have >> Cheers. Cheers. >> Cheers. I'm having one with you. Well, this is a half of one now, but
>> Do you mind putting up my spank break song so we can spank it? >> We're going to spank it. This one I don't sing, but I should I should make it a a song that I sing. >> You should spank it. >> I do, but I I didn't sing this one. >> I'll sing along though. I love singing. I'm just a terrible singer. But I love
it. I love >> Well, you can be terrible, but have fun. >> I'm terrible. >> I know. That's the thing. Like I did a terrible song called I think I need a piss break and then a bunch of big channels like people that were on the Howard Stern show started playing my song.
>> Probably that girl um what's that girl's name? Um shoot I can't think of her name right now. You have like a similar tone to that girl. Um who's that girl who sang that song Promiscuous Girl? You know what I'm talking about? Nelly Fertto. >> You sound like Nelly. Yes, you do. >> I love Nelly Ferto. She's one of my
>> I'm picking on her because like she is favorites. uh >> she's old now. She's old like me. She's like my age. >> But but she But she has a pretty her face is like so beautiful and exotic. It doesn't matter what her body looks like. She's like,
"Yeah, bitch." She made songs with Timberland. Come on. Did you make a song with Timberland? Okay. If you didn't make a song with Timberland, then you cannot talk on her. you. >> Exactly. Everyone say to those people and be like, "Oh, Nelly, she gained weight. She looks sexy still. I I
mean, I'm straight and I see her and I'm like, woo, you look freaking like a brick house for real. So, >> she's a badass. I love Nelly Fittado. I mean, come on, guys. Her music has always been good, >> but it's still good.
>> Well, all the girls like everyone everyone's coming back out. I'm so excited about like the next few years really because all the artists who are women who didn't make the money that they should have made, they're coming back out, girl. They're all coming back
out and it's gonna be great. It's going to be like a re It's gonna be like a music revival of our >> I just don't care if Beyonce comes back. I'm really not a >> No, I'm tired of Beyonce. No, I look I'm a black woman saying this I'm
tired of Beyonce. I am sick of No, everyone's tired. Beyonce held other artists back because of vanity. We all know this about her. She It's not even her. It's her damn mom.
>> I mean, say my name. Say my name. >> Shut up. Love that song. >> But anymore, I'm like no. Just shut up. Just shut up. >> Exactly. >> No. I don't want to say your name or any of it. I just
I'm I'm I'm done with Beyonce. >> I mean, I can't talk too much though, cuz I don't have anything better. But, you know, she should definitely like step aside and let some other women make some music. >> She goes, "What?" know that's that's what happens sometimes like like everyone like you know why people got
pissed with Janet Janet Jackson >> because she wouldn't >> she had every top song >> well she wouldn't step aside for other >> I don't think she knew that she needed to and I don't think Janet needed to actually Janet didn't need to Janet was just doing her thing >> look
>> Janet wasn't taking over the space she was just doing Mariah Carey needs to shut the up. JLo needs to shut the up. >> They don't have any music coming out. They don't have any music coming out. >> A lot of a lot of the artists, you know, let others come out.
Enough. Enough. Enough. >> Remember at least the left eye. Remember my name. Say my name. We don't need to hear anymore. JLo, we're we're waiting for tonight. No, shut up. I'm not waiting for tonight. >> I am not waiting. >> You should be here in my arms waiting for
>> the only real good song. >> She had two good songs. There will be mirales. Yeah. And also someday. That's it. I don't care about anything else from her. Just shut up. I can't even think of a single good Mariah Carey song, but I was never a fan of hers. I'm sorry.
>> Someday Someday Someday was her song. That That was her breakout song. That that that was a good song. Tommy Mat, she doesn't want to give him the credit. Everyone's like, "Oh, Tommy Matu was the devil." No, Mariah Carey was a too. >> It's possible to be both. Yep, definitely.
Yeah, >> I liked um you know who I liked was uh I liked Fergie when she was in Black Eyed Peas. I liked Black Eyed Peas before Fergie, but then when she came along she was okay. >> No, Fergie. Fergie. Let's get it started. Well, initially that song was called >> Started in Here. Let's get in here.
It was good. >> Yeah, I I really liked the Black Eyed Bees before came along, but Wizard it was cool. It's all good. >> And um who else? Who else is really good? Um Jurassic 5. Do you remember them?
>> I don't think so. >> Jurassic 5 was really good around that time. That was so long ago. God, I'm so old. Oh my god. Don't talk. I'm not going to talk anymore. Too old. Say my name in your showers. IP2
Lambala. I do love the Lombardada. Let's do it.
That's how I feel about the Lombata. >> Lombatada. >> You live in Lina. Loca baby. >> Yeah. >> There's someone in chat with the name IP2 Lombardada. >> Lombardada. >> Don't you remember the Lombata? >> Well, I remember living loca.
>> That was not the Lombardada. The Lomba is like the dance of sex. >> Well, I was in porn, so >> So you probably knew it. >> I think so. Oh, look it. Cold chills 1091 says, "I love Jurassic 5. I saw them back in the
day years ago." Yeah, this was like >> play the song. >> Um Psych Psyche has to bring it up. I don't have controls in his StreamYard. I used to, but I said too many people are saying I'm controlling everything and banning people and I'm not. But I said just take me off of your Streamyard. But I should have stayed on because then I
could produce. Oh, you should you No, you should be on because you're a DJ. You're you're you're like the >> digital um >> I have all the music and the Like my show tonight though did not go that well. >> I got to tell you. Like >> Well, I should have subscribed and I should have listened and I didn't. So my
>> It's all right. It's okay. It's over at bad. Hack Raid Studios. That's it's half my channel. He gave me half his channel. I love Hackride. He's such a cool guy. He gets a bad name because he's a demon. Or he was. >> Well, he's generous if he's giving I mean rights to I mean I I don't give anybody anything. I I'm just like
>> No, no. I have every right, but I don't I don't do like the channel sharing and stuff. I probably should, but I don't. Oh, Lombat blocked cold chills 1090. >> No, I got to smoke some more weed, girl.
>> Yeah, me too. Let's smoke some weed. >> We have >> Let me tell you what I got. Okay. >> I think I'm going to Venice Beach uh tomorrow and I'm going to get some uh >> some weed. I want to do a meet up, but I don't want
it to be like a pressured meetup, but I want to meet Psyche, Beeta, you, whoever's in California, but I don't want it to be like we have to meet. Well, you know what I mean? I want >> like I love Beta, but she's just been so upset recently. I want to meet her so we
can all make things better. things have happened and I don't even know totally what's happening. It's freaking me either. >> I know. It's uh it's just >> like too much. >> I don't get that upset about stuff. Like I just don't get that upset to keep
holding on to it. So psych you guys are both I love you both. Please let's both let's just like be happy and like let's meet up. Yeah. Wait, hold up. I'm going to make it uh facing back. The monster. >> My face is like melting off, right? My
makeup is melting off right now. >> No, mine mine is mine's like >> I have like no makeup left. It's like melted off. >> I'm just trying to figure out how to >> says you're a liar. You blocked him. I didn't block for That's okay, though. Say what you want. Cuz you know what? In my life, I don't need to
correct the record because I know the truth. If you guys want to lie about it over there on your little chat room, that's okay. Go ahead and lie about it. But I know the truth. >> And I have been taught by very good counsel,
you don't have to correct the record because you know the truth. Those people with their lies, they can go on with their lies. Go on with your bad self. I don't give a
Okay. Psyche, are you still awake? >> Okay, camera facing back. >> Wait, >> I'm going to turn my thing on. Okay, here is >> what
>> taco culture. >> Taco. Is that what it say? >> I already smoked a lot of it. Wait, there we go. I smoked a lot of it. >> I have other options. >> I have some mushrooms, but I don't even
know where they are right now. Like, >> no, don't don't Well, >> I have the best time on mushrooms. Like, I'm just have so much fun. Like, >> sativa is my jam. I'm a sativa girl. If I smoke some sativa right now, it's going to be ridiculous.
>> All right, I'll smoke some sativa right now, too. I'm putting some in the bong. >> Okay, I have this. Licorice. Some sort of licorice. >> Take a hit from the bong. >> Yeah, >> says no mushrooms. Okay, no mushrooms. >> And then I have
>> mushrooms are not bad. Yes. >> I love mushrooms. >> Wait, this way. >> Call them muckas. >> Oreos. Yes. Everyone says I'm a Oreo. Yes. Maybe I am. But I'm going to smoke the carbon candy right now.
>> Cuz that's almost out. So, but I have >> Okay. other but just to do it. Excuse me. I remember when we used to grow weed and it was like still super notable. >> You would grow it. >> See, you're a badass. Look at that. >> Yeah. Well, it wasn't my plants, but I
used to help people like, you know, I would help. >> You were the smartest one. That's why. >> Well, it was actually this girl that I knew. It was her dad's. >> You're the smartest one. Just can Can I simplify your life a little bit, very quickly? You're very intelligent. I know
this about you just from briefly talking to you. Your hindrance in life, what you're going to have to look out for is people using you specifically because you're very knowledgeable. Watch out for that please, my young friend.
Watch out because >> I will watch out >> please. Because people use >> I noticed that because they do use other people for what resources >> you'll be the scapegoat. You'll end up being the scapegoat too because you are smarter than your peers. >> Yeah.
>> It's hard. It's you you just got to run. Here's my advice, and it's going to sound so cowardly and stupid, but it's effective. >> Advice is advice. I'll take it. >> Look, when you notice people using you for your intelligence, >> Mhm.
>> as soon as you realize it, run away. >> Run away. You're so right. >> Run away. >> Just be far, far away from those people because they are negative and they are going to bring you down. >> Mhm. That's the bottom line. I totally agree. Totally agree.
And there's like at a certain point there's nothing you can do if you're close to them. All you can do is get far away. If you are spiritually in touch and you're intelligent on top of that and then you're maybe even like
hospitable or charismatic or kind on top of that people are going to try to use and exploit you. But that is the gift of being elevated or more evolved because like if
we lived in a perfect society, everybody would be like us. Okay? We are not there yet. But you do have to protect yourself and recognize. I wish I knew that when I was younger and that's why I'm telling you now.
>> Thank you. because you're so right. And um I didn't learn that until later and I wish I'd have learned it sooner, but whatever. You learn when you learn. You you do the best that you can >> while you can until you know better and then you do better.
>> You can only do what you can do. >> Yeah. >> And like sometimes you're disappointed in yourself. Like I've been disappointed in myself a billion times, but I refuse to bow to being who I'm not.
>> Oh, I have boob sweat. I have underboob So sweat right now. >> All right. Well, that means that you're working out. That's good. If if you have that >> I'm working out. >> Jeez. >> Unless they're being like weird,
>> which they're just I have big boobs. Like what can I do? It's all I can do. Just have big boobs. They're real. They're not fake either. I didn't get boob implants. >> Neither did I. all the porn stars or not I mean not that I know a ton of porn
stars but I know a few but like all my stripper friends and everything too would be like they're fake touch >> no like I never no all my friends thought I had a nose job and a boot job I never did >> yeah exactly I never got really lucky
>> I'd want some jobs maybe if I could now when I'm almost 50 I'd like I'd like a Uh, I would take a like a >> If you do go
>> if you No, don't do Botox. Please don't. It's poison. Like they're putting, >> right? It is poison. It's really >> Don't Don't like Like if you want a faceelift, that's that's to where they actually cut your skin, lift it up. >> I don't I don't really want that. That
sounds too >> I really don't want anything like I I thought I did, but I really don't. Like, look, if I get old, I'm old. it. I'm old. >> And like I still get carded sometimes. And I'm almost 50. Like that's funny >> The millennials know they don't know.
They don't know. Like every time like the only time I get carded and you're going to laugh, I go to Walmart and I buy um hard cider. >> I'm laughing. >> I go to I get hard cider and they have to me for it. They never think because
number one I'm in California. Okay. and my and and my residence is in Florida. So, they're looking at a Florida ID. >> So, your ID is Florida. >> And then and then on top of that, they see the year I was born in 1979 and they look at me, I do not look like
I was born in 1979. I'm not just saying that. I just don't. >> No, you don't. And I was born in 77. So I know you don't look like you were born in 79. >> So you're at the tail end of the 70s. So people think like7s like we're going to
be like geriatric or something. >> Yeah. And we look like the 30year-olds that are walking around. >> Yeah. People are like, "Oh, is this a stolen ID?" I'm like, "No." And I like I'll show them my phone. And I'm like, "Everything that I have says Alexandra Mayors, do you need to see my car
registration?" Like, like, "What do you need?" And then they're like, "No, we No, you you just look a little You don't look like someone who would be born in 1979." And I'm like, "Well, I was. you. Shut up." And random viewer 2319 says the new
registers. You need to scan an ID to pay. Sorry, ladies. Yeah, we scan our IDs, buddy. We don't be sorry. We're fine. We got it. >> Like I don't have my problem except for you. You know where I have my problem? Target, Walmart um wherever.
>> Well, well, you know how it is. wherever like like when I go into a liquor store, they know because they're used to seeing people. >> They do know, >> but when I go into like a regular place that they think it's like a fake ID or something and I'm like, "No, I'm clearly
over 25." >> Yeah. I'm like, "Just look at me in the eyes. See these wrinkles here? There's like one or two. It's okay." >> Yeah. Well, I just could be your mom. I >> I'm like, I don't have any kids, but I could be your mom. I could be your mom.
Like, I was born in 1979. Like, do you think that like I'm going to fake buying hard cider? Like, like really? Like, if if I'm going to buy something to where I have to be of age, I know >> it's going to be good. It's going to be like not hard cider. Remember when we used to do that though when we were like
young young? Do you remember Bartles and James? >> You know what? I never got away with it. I never did. But >> I did. I always got away with I was a bad bad. But you know why I never did. >> Only black girl in all white >> What? neighborhood. And they knew. >> So you were like the target. They were
like, "We're watching you." >> Yes. >> That's terrible. But I have fun with it. >> Look, I'll tell you because I was the only black girl in an all-white neighborhood until my parents divorced
and my mom took me to um Florida when I was in Texas. I could do no wrong. There was nothing that I mean it was it was ridiculous. It it really was. And >> everything's bigger in Texas, baby. >> But I wasn't even doing anything. Like,
I should have done more. When I think about it, I should have done more. >> Well, I was in California and I did all the more for the both of us. >> But maybe that No, no. I That's why I do now. >> If you look at my track record, hey
girl, please. Um, I've I've I've been I I've been fortunate, but um >> good. >> I like that. You know, live your life >> Yeah, like I've lived out all my fantasies, >> but I do want to help women. that that's
my like that's my only thing I like I want to and I will because I just know how bad guys can be to women trying to get away from bad guys. That is going to be
like my mission. That's all I care about doing really is just like helping women being like, you know what, I don't want to deal with you anymore. And if you don't like it, >> the guys can't take no for an answer. Like they're like, no, I think I'll
freaking kill you. Oop, sorry. That's >> right. And well, they do kill us. >> They do. >> They do. I know. >> That's what they want to do. They want to kill us. And I've had guys try to kill me. I've had women try to kill me. >> And it's like, really? Is that serious? you.
>> Yeah. >> Go away. Bye-bye. You're not going to kill me today. Not today, buddy. >> No. Never. Ever. And and it's just like I didn't look I didn't know until I hit my late 20s that people could be as
scandalous and evil as they can be. Okay. I didn't know that anyone was going to ever try to actually kill me in my life. I've had that happen. And I'm like, really? Like death? Death?
That's because think about it. >> That seems a bit extreme, right? You're like, "We're just hanging out having fun." Dad, >> just hanging out having fun with certain people and then all of a sudden it's like, "Oh, I want to kill her." And I'm
like, "I don't want to kill you. like you're not that important to me. Why are you trying to kill me? That that's what that's that became my question. I was like, why? Really?
You already know you're an Why would you want to kill me for your past deeds? >> Exactly. Those people are just out of control. >> They don't. That makes no sense. >> Well, honestly, that's why I'm reading the Bible. Like,
like people laugh at me. They're like, "Oh, you're doing a page by page reading in the Bible." I'm like, "Fuck yeah, I am." Because >> And I love that for you. But I got to tell you that most people will never do that in their life. And even if they do, >> I hope I hope I live long enough to get they won't read. through it because the Bible's a long
book. >> It is. It's like it's one of the most It's the most popular book. >> Well, look, girl, I'm up to the book of Judges. Okay. That book, the the book of Judges, I didn't know. Nobody knows because like, think about it. Mainstream society, what do we talk about with the
Bible? Genesis, maybe um Leviticus, you know, people talk about after Matthew, the New Testament. Nobody's talking about the Old Testament. The Old Testament, girl, it's crazy. >> It's where it's at.
>> It It's It's It's what humanity even today is. Judges. I I was pissed off today. Judges 19. I don't recommend any woman ever read it in their life. No. >> Which one is it? Is that the one where it says that women should bow down to
their men and be >> pretty much Leviticus and its concubine in the modern English version is what it's titled. Okay. And it's basically about um a um someone who was a slave of
the Levites who escaped somehow takes up residence in the house of Micah who historically was an Israelite. So So this particular Levite is kind of laring in a weird kind of way. It's weird. But
he but he's traveling with his concubine. His concubine. She was acting up. I will not say she wasn't. She was. >> Well, don't we all? >> Uh-huh. But but but did that need to make her
situation a predecessor to what happened in in in Sodom and Gomorrah? because that's what happened to her be because it was this whole thing to where her master the the the um um the Levite all the guys in the town who were gay I
guess they all wanted him or maybe they weren't gay who knows maybe who know >> and it's crazy they're like oh we're all so pious and good and we don't sleep with anybody before marriage >> but there was an old man town who took him in and his household and all they
had to do was chill out and act normal truthfully. They were partying and So they were like, "Hey, we want the guy." And they were like, "No, we'll send out the con you vibe, the girl." And I'm like, "Oh, no, not the girl."
>> Yeah. So it's a while. and and like the men in the town square had their way with her that it's in the Bible. I'm like, "Oh my god." So then >> the Bible is not some pious text. >> It's horrible. It's so misogynistic. Oh
my god. It's horrible written by a man and they will write their manly things into it. Like it's crazy. >> It's It's so horrible. It It's just like oh my god. and and like the mo like I'm reading this and like I have it like an open chat, right? And like some
who I do not want to talk to and it's not because like I hate him but I I I just don't want to talk to. He comes in at that moment that I'm reading this and I'm like, "Oh my god, already emotionally cuz I get really into the
Bible. like I I'm very um I I'm just very emotional and um I'm reading this and and he wants to come in and he wants to talk about the drama
between Psyche and Beeta. But but but I'm thinking to myself, maybe somehow the drama like the energy of the drama between them is linked to the book of
Judges. Is it possible? I don't know. >> It is possible because I swear listening to those two, they are never going to resolve anything talking the way they do. They're not going to resolve anything. They need to chill because they are drawing other people into their like like I'm reading the Bible and I'm
drawn into what they're talking about. Seriously like >> and it's just too much. Like that's not >> it's getting to be too I concur with you. It's too much. It's too much. And it's like everybody knows about all the
intricacies, but we don't want to make certain things public because it well we have class and tact and >> respect for one another. So we don't but it's getting too crazy. They need to relax. >> I know it's hard though when emotions
are involved. >> They want to relax. >> I don't know. There's emotions involved and they both have emotions that we don't understand, I think. And they can't >> they have to relax because they're both amazing people who are really productive. But it's like they're they're going to chase me away. They're
going to chase you away. They're going to chase everybody away if they don't. >> I can't I can't listen to the drama streams. I really don't. I don't care about >> their drama. I I mean, just be cool. >> Why is it hard to be cool?
>> I I thought being cool was easy. Really? Apparently not. >> Uh, it is easy if you don't like get involved in these dramas. I don't know. I don't know how to explain it to them. All I know is that all I can say is that don't get involved in it. >> High school. No, I'm I'm going to
explain it right now. When I was in high school, I was very highrung at first because I didn't really know what's going on. I felt like fish out of water. And you know what? I had an uncle and he's passed away. But you know what he told me? He was like, "You know what, Alexandro? You need to stop trying to control that you
cannot control. Exactly. >> And just be cool. Best advice I ever got in my entire life. >> Yep. And that goes along with my advice, which is you cannot correct the record because people will make up lies about you. >> And if you try to correct the record, it
just looks like you're you're in denial or you're being some kind of I don't know. I don't know the word. You can do it effectively >> barely >> for clout and marketing. I did a little I indulged in a bit of that 24 hours. >> You are so correct. You can go in someone else's money from it. You can
>> if you're charming and you have you're well spoken like you are. You can totally do that. You're right. >> You're right. >> But should you ethically? No. I I look if I were not me, if I were to judge me doing certain things that I do, I would
give myself the punishment to the fullest extent without >> God. Do not judge yourself, please. >> Yeah, I would because um Why?
I Well, I don't know who's listening. So, >> Psyche, are you here? >> Psyche, >> I wish he was. I wish he was here. >> I know. I miss him. >> Ancient Lily Phillips. Oh, is that the porn star that like did a thousand men in one day? Like, wow. No. Who? Wait,
what? What? Wait, tell me. Tell me about this. >> Lil, you didn't hear about this? >> No. That's what I want to know. >> There's a couple different porn stars that they did. One did a hundred men in a day and they thought that was enough. >> Well, but they're not really Okay. Can I Okay, I'm going to get a little snotty. Okay.
>> Okay. They're not getting each guy off. They just are inserting >> inserting >> a real porn star. Okay, the real porn stars don't exist anymore. We're like unicorns for real. Um, the real porn star >> on social media now.
>> Well, yeah, but the all but the real porn stars end it with Vivid and Wicked Entertainment. Two separate companies. Vivid Entertainment, Wicked Entertainment, those Adam and Eve. >> Adam and Eve. Yes. And what was the other one? >> There was also Bluebird Films. They were
coming up and they put a lot of money into I I was a I was a Bluebird film contract girl. Nobody cares about Bluebird films, but I I mean, especially being an African-American woman, getting a contract. Yeah, that was a big thing at that point. But that was the last time
that they had con and the reason they stopped the contract girls, it wasn't because of the girls who were really about like, okay, I'm going to be a spokes model for this company. It was because >> they sometimes mistakenly hired >> total skanks and it it up for
everybody else. And that's >> yeah, that could happen easily. >> That is pretty much what happened. But there's I mean I heard um well well I did a stream earlier and I was really shocked that um
>> here's the song. Hi Psyche. >> Oh yeah. >> This is Yeah, this is a spank break song. >> Time to break it down. I'm going to smoke some weed. that. >> Smoke it. >> We got to smoke a downer then.
>> I made this in like 2023. >> Oh yeah. We got the deep heart.
>> I'm back in the 70s.
>> And yeah, the beat. >> The bears are spanking themselves even. So Psyche is backstage listening to us. >> Yeah.
>> Come on stage. >> It's a spank break, baby. Let's get down. >> Such a silly song. I make the silly song.
>> I am loving this. This is like really good. >> I need a spank break. >> I I need a spank break. >> So many different levels. Like you could
spank it by yourself. You could spank it with someone else. You could spank it at a bank. >> You could spank it everywhere. >> Everywhere. Spank it everywhere. That's right. >> This feels like Michael Jackson. I love it. >> I love Michael Jackson. I'm a big fan. >> Me, too.
I'm related to Jackson family. >> Are you? >> Nobody believes me, but I am. >> I believe that. I believe you. I don't care what anyone says. I feel Michael Jackson was targeted because I have been targeted in my life too. I feel
that he never abused any children. I think that he was just >> I don't think he did either. I mean, come on. Uh these pe these parents were like, "Here, take my kid away and um and then I'm going to sue you for taking my kid when I told you to take my kid."
Like what? >> They wanted to get money anyway. I mean, >> yeah, they were giving their kid to an adult man and then said, "Oh, I think I'm going to sue you now." >> Do that. Well, exactly. It's like >> No parent would do that. No rightminded parent.
>> That's what pisses. Look, if you ever become a parent, please be a good parent and love and like always look after your baby because like if I'd had that if I had the presence of mind to realize that like at an older age maybe I would want
to be a parent, then I would have been like the best mom ever. But I don't want to do it now because I'm having a lot of fun and and I'm old. I mean, there's no way in hell like a possible, >> you know, honestly, you do not want to be a parent right now. I was a parent at
21. I was 21 and like I just turned 21 when I became a parent. >> That's okay. If I had to be a parent now, >> what happened to the dad? Like, like why didn't he get in trouble? cuz he should have gotten in trouble. >> Who? >> The the the guy who you were with.
>> Baby daddy. >> Yeah. >> In trouble for what? >> For making it to where it was hard for you. >> Oh, no. They don't get in trouble for that. >> But they should. >> Yeah, I can see that. I I but he's a he's a great guy
>> and he's actually famous now. He's like in a b in a in a band like he wasn't when we were together. He wasn't when we were together. So I was like >> I want say one more word then. I I it's not it's not my business and um >> No, it's okay. It's okay. It's totally fine. But I think the fact that we could get in trouble
>> then I don't know like >> it's not fair. >> It's it's hard. It's it's hard but it was partly my fault too for being a woman and having a baby. >> Well, wait. No, it's it's not your fault. >> Even though he was like, "Keep the baby. Keep the baby. Keep the baby." And I was
like, >> "No, you kept it." Well, you look, can I Well, I don't even care who's glad I did. I'm so glad. >> Look, I'm glad you did, too. I I'm not going to say what I was going to say, but I'm glad you did because sometimes
people around you will try to convince you that other choices are better, but >> I believe that abortion is a person's right and a choice, but it was never for me.
>> I'm glad you went the route that you did. Really? like just woman towoman. Um >> I'm so glad my son is like the love of my life. He's so amazing. >> Yeah. >> And he's nothing like you don't get to choose
>> your children's hobbies by the way or what they like or what they want to do. >> You don't get to choose that. like no >> I don't I don't have the football playing like my parents I think think that they do get to um >> Oh yeah a lot of people think that they do get to choose that and it's insane cuz they're like so shocked when they
>> you know that's that's why you know I'm don't I'm going to tell you something about my upbringing um I was always more so my dad's child like he was very um he you know it it kind of in hindsight
as an adult like I'm I'm almost 47 and I look back at life and things I didn't understand before he did take me away from my mom to an extent okay because he knew I had a mind similar
ilar to him which had to do with being very technical. Okay. >> Mhm. >> And he I think my mom wanted to be more like like wanted to be more mommy to me.
He did not let her. Now, when she when my sister came, he did let her because my sister and I are very very very different people. And um >> I wonder why why he was so against it with you, but okay with with her.
>> I I I don't think that he thought that there was going to ever be another child, number one, >> or repercussions, lasting repercussions for the child. Yeah. I I also think that just the way that my dad was like I even
realized it with my person I didn't my my dad was very possessive over me extremely so not I wouldn't say unhealthy maybe a little bit but um he was
very controlling >> and um which in a way is good, but when it gets over crossing a line, then it's a little more difficult. It probably it you you know um I I just it it's I I
have a very biased view because I loved my dad so much and I I I I just when when when he was going through the cancer and everything I I mean I was I I was like do I need to donate a part of me to you? like like I I'm trying to
figure out but but that wasn't like even in the equation but it was just so hard and I was a to a lot of people that I don't even know because of what I was going through with him over the past
couple of years. So now he's dead. He's gone. And it's it's like I I had to >> people do not those people do not hold it against you by the way. >> Well, if they do, they do. You know, it's it's like whatever it is, but I
just feel like it's like I had to counsel my own family with the passing. I had to deal with all the technicalities, all the financial things as well. I had to deal with everything myself. And I'm just >> listen what my family did. My family
said, "You're the nurse. Uh your grandma wants to die, you know, civily and uh so give her as much medication as you can and kill."
>> Wait. Hello. >> No, I know what she was saying, but she wasn't. But I wish I hadn't cut off there. >> Bring back. Bring her back. She'll come back. She'll come back. She'll come back. I don't know how she got kicked off back then. That way I came on. She took her off. I don't know. >> But I know what she was saying because
people nowadays they they want when they know that there's no no other option. They're ready to go. And people don't understand that. And then like you can be blamed and it's wrong.
So, I don't know what's happening. >> Well, >> I think I'm going crazy on your panel. Am I for your panel? >> You're fired. You're I mean, yeah, >> I think I'm crashing out. I'm sorry. >> No, no, no, no, no. You haven't seen Crashing Out till you like >> I I think I am. At least I'm not on video and I gotta plug my phone in and
everything, but I I think I'm crashing out. I'm sorry. >> Okay. I love you, sweetie. Hey, when's the next uh when's my next appearance? Sunday or >> Sunday 12 PM? >> Be there. Be square. Unless you want to do it. Well, do you want to do a different day?
>> Well, whenever I Sunday's good, but because it's like a week from the >> Let's do it. Can Can we do it? Can we do it Monday? >> Yeah, sure. >> Okay, let's reschedu Monday 12:00 p.m. Monday. Monday because I want to chill this weekend for real. Okay. >> Where is Where did she go? Where's DJ
Electra? >> I'm sorry. >> Is she real or or did you make an AI and you're tricking me? >> That's just me. That's just me with a voice changer. >> I Well, it could be an AI. I don't know. You're You are You You are Look, I think you have supernatural powers for real. I'm not going to even mess around. I
think you do. I think you do for real. like you don't know how to control it totally, but I think you do have supernatural powers and like I wonder like how far can you go? That's what I want to know. Do you do you already know how far you can go? >> No, because um you know the goat like
takes things by step and so I'm like not going to like do something beyond my scope, you know. I'm going to like really understand. But yeah, I mean it's like do I know? I I know enough to know I I have >> You don't know. No, you don't know. I can tell. You don't know. >> You guys don't see. I mean, I've seen
enough to things that I'm convinced. >> You don't know. >> Guys, we have we have unlimited power. So, it's like unfathomable the true power we have. >> No, because you don't even tinker. I don't I don't think you even tinker. >> Tinker in what? Magic. Not even magic, just your own personal abilities. I I don't I don't think you do. >> I don't think Well, it's like, you know,
the thing with like this >> I'm not like daring you to I'm not like, "Oh, I double dare you to." I'm not I'm not that kind of person. >> There's there's a lot of practices like that you can people can do, right? There's like a lot of them like um >> yeah, >> Dale will basically take you to almost the same place like because I've done I've gone through like several systems,
right? I did like, you know, I've done the, you know, when I was younger, the Christianity, but I've also done >> You're a wizard. >> Well, >> do you already know or do you not know? >> A wizard. Yeah. Well, it's like >> Well, you're like a sorcerer wizard. You you you do have a gift.
>> I've my chart my my astrology chart. >> I know. It's very very heavy occultis. Very heavy. >> And oh, actually, I was going to read something. This is my um I have like Are you aware? Oh, sorry. I'm sorry. Um come back up. Come back up. It was an accident. But I have um I just posted something about my Lilith and and
Scorpio. So Lilith is like this, you know, in mythology and she's like in the Hebrew Bible. Well, >> well, you're compartmentalizing yourself. Like like here's my Well, do you Would you like an Alexandra reading tonight for free? >> Yeah, I'd love one. Well, maybe you don't because sometimes >> one
>> I would love one. >> People don't want my reading. >> Read me. Read me. It's gonna be worse. It's gonna be worse than Rupaul's RuPaul reading somebody. But go ahead. I'm ready for it. >> Okay. Well, oh, so Rupaul. Well, yeah. Okay. Well, let's work. >> So, I guess like make you work or
something or work it out. I've already I'm trying to retire, you know, but it's like I'm not >> You're not retiring. What are you talking about? >> Harder than I ever have. But let me just like real quick. I do want to I do think it's kind of >> I don't even know what you're saying right now. Wait, wait, let me look. No,
I'm I have to chill. I'm not chilled enough to talk to you. >> Okay, I'm sorry. >> No. Why are you sorry? It's It's my fault, not yours. you're chill to talk to me, but it's like >> No, I want to I I I have to um smoke some weed to talk to you truthfully
right now because you're a little like hyper and nothing's wrong with that. I'm not against you being hyper. >> I slept all day. day and I have we do >> where I am. I get these like pre- rolls in these like little sixpack jars
which are wonderful truth. But here's the problem. I'm not sure if I have the right one to cuz I want to um basically turn myself off right now which means I want like a major downer. Um, let me get the right one.
I've learned the difference between sativas indicas hybrids. >> Oh my god. I got to tell you something, Psyche. There's this at the dispensary you go to, there is this really super
duper attractive indigenous man who I think he's probably in his 50s. Okay. >> I am so attracted to him. It's Okay. It's so But he's attracted to me,
too. I don't know what his role is in the world of dispensaries or whatever out here, but let me tell you what happened today. I went to the to the dispensary, right? >> Mhm.
>> I think that the guy who normally sells the stuff to me, I think it's his son because I'm leaving the place, right? And as I'm leaving, um, the guy who's like my normal salesperson, I think his is it probably is his son because it looks just like
him but young. >> Um, he's like, "Oh, oh, we have another discount. I I I forgot to tell you about it. Do you do you want some do you do you want some additional uh what's this called? Uh carbon candy or whatever?" And I'm like, "What are you talking about?" Because I'm like walking
like the way that they have things set up. It's like it's kind of like a mobile home. It's weird, you know, but it's it's a Native Americans who control the uh cannabis out here >> that it's like a mafia. Okay.
>> So, I'm like, why is he saying this to me? Like I'm like, okay. like cuz I thought maybe I like I didn't give him enough money or something. I was but I was like I I was like did I not give you enough money? And he's like no no no I just he was trying to keep me there because his dad was coming over or
whoever this guy is. Right. >> But I didn't mind. So I turn around and there's whoever dad, uncle, maybe granddad, I don't know. He seemed like he was my age, but you never know sometimes because he had
like a canaries look, which is one of my favorite looks in the world. Yeah. And he was like, "Oh, oh." Um, he just he was just saying to just get me to hang out. So, I knew he wanted my phone number, right? So, I was like,
"Well, you know, I I really got to get going cuz I got other to do today, but here, do you know, do you want my phone number?" He was like, "Yeah." And I was like, "Okay." So, yeah, I hope that he calls me soon. >> Uhhuh. Oh, I hope so, too.
>> Mhm. >> I hope so. I hope so. I hope I I hope that his grandson or nephew or whatever the relationship was worked out because whoever he tried really hard. >> Are you into like older guys or like you
know is this one of the >> He was my Well, I'm I'm very youthful. >> Okay. Um, he's probably about my age really. It's just >> okay. >> I I have to get used to
men my age. I'm not used to men my age. I'm realizing that because um I can I do come across guys my age, but I I'm at a weird age. >> Uhhuh.
>> To where it's like what is going on with you truthfully? And a lot of times the guys don't know what's going on with them. I know what's going on with me. Uhhuh. >> But um I'm not I'm I'm not an old lady.
>> Yeah. Women are like more kind of smarter. They're more emotionally intelligent because they do feel the emotions stronger and so they're like better at dealing with the emotions and men are kind of like emotional babies still. >> Yes. Right. Like that. Well, also like I
I think because of maybe the whole COVID era era and whatnot, maybe that like paused me a little bit. But um I'm just realizing that women in my age range or demographic,
we're not old women really. Um, like maybe I'm supposed to be an old woman, but I'm not and I'm not going to be. >> Mhm. >> So, >> some people don't have, you know, it's like it the age is like what comes with like,
>> you know, not having the best hair, makeup, and clothing taste and then not doing any plastic surgery. Then we have the then we have the regular old ladies, right? But the people that do know about a little bit of uh you know the options available will can maintain the good. Have you heard of
bio identical hormones? That that's a secret I've heard about. >> No. Um well here's what I think is working out for me. Okay. Um I don't eat junk food. Um I do exercise a bit.
This whole cannabis thing for me is really working out. I think that it is like a big thing to longevity. I totally but I'm not a doctor, so you know, I got to be careful about what I say. But seriously, um, if it were not for cannabis,
>> I think I would probably have been rounded up and put in a prison cell by now. Well, >> I think Well, yeah, I think maybe me too because it's like um it did make me want to like really stay home and like not like be out doing getting in trouble too much, it kind of would mel me up.
>> I'm naturally very like I'm an introvert yet I'm an extrovert and when and especially if there's like a little bit of alcohol in my system, man, I just want to go and party. I I will I will find a party. >> Yeah.
>> And that is not what I need to be doing at this phase of my life. Like where I am right now, no one can bother me and I'm not bothering anybody, >> you know, and after from where I'm leaving from where I am and and man, okay, I got to ask you and I don't mean
to be forceful about it, but I have to ask you. Do you want the e scooter? >> Yes, I would love it. Yeah. >> Okay. So, we got to make a solid time and place. I I don't need to come to your house. I don't want to go in your house. I I'll just give you the
escooter, but I need to give it to you before I go because I got to go back to um Texas in like, you know, toward like the holidays and then I'm going up to the northeast to visit my family up there and then I
got to hang out with my mom in, you know, December. So, I'm going to be on the East Coast. So, if you want that scooter, I got to give you the scooter. >> Yeah. Let's uh as soon as like, you know, I mean, >> it's like brand new. It's awesome. And all you got to do is plug it in. You never got to buy gas.
>> I don't go um I don't I don't really leave like hardly ever at all. Yeah. It sounds really like awesome right now because it's like, you know, >> Well Well, like what? You don't leave like like your house? >> I mean, I do leave my house. I'm just saying like um but right now it's like I'm like I'm here like I don't have a car and so it's like I don't
>> Well, no, I have a car. No, no, cuz I'm in I'm in um the desert of California. I'm probably like three hours from you. Okay. >> So, if you want to like like you you >> Uhhuh. you're like Roondo Beach. >> I'll go there and I'll give you the >> Yeah.
scooter. >> Awesome. you hang out, maybe go to the pier or like >> you don't want to keep it like like if you want to sell it, you can sell it and I won't be offended or anything, but it's a really cool scooter. But I have the helmet. But make sure you Well, but you but you have to make sure you wear the helmet because
>> I almost like got really hurt on it. That's I don't want it anymore. >> You have to wear the helmet. I'm a little bit of I I I'm I've been a little bit of a clutch in my day like certain things like uh certain things got luckily I've been
okay >> but it has a phone holder I have like all the accessories and everything for it >> but you know what I don't have um like knee like knee guards or uh elbow
pads or wrist guards. I don't have that. >> I do I do hurt my my knee sometimes, but >> like I like I'm kind of scared for you to be on it because you're kind of like skinny. Like do you feel like you're frail? Are are you frail?
>> What's up? >> Do you think that you're frail? Like I'm afraid. Like I don't want to give you That is tough. Like I'm very nervous. >> I drink a lot of milk since I was like a little and I still drink a lot of milk and so milk doesn't body good. I have really strong bones. I never broken a bone. Um >> very
>> adventurous in certain ways like where I'm like not afraid of like you know hold on. So oh we have >> the last time that you like have you ever Well, you had the ebike and you actually had an accident not too dissimilar from me. Um, >> kind of exaggerated a little bit on the stream because it was like what happened was like
>> I came up >> baker look at you baker baker >> baking but I was a little bit and then everyone was like then all of a sudden everyone's on my ass about it. I was like oh I was kind of joking about it. But uh I mean it's I did kind of like I went up on the curb and kind of like fell on the grass and then I couldn't find my phone for like
over an hour. See, my accident was not being a faker. I actually for real really got hurt. It was crazy. So, if you're a faker, then >> it was a faker. >> Don't be a faker. >> And I like, you know, when I like was dumb enough to like use the lock on the,
you know, on the bike when I was, you know, riding pedaling away and then I got stuck in all the gears and oh my god, it's a nightmare. Well, that wasn't that much of a nightmare. >> Well, I just got it back and then I like >> Okay. Well, but for real, we got to
figure out because I told Bea like when I was talking to Bea the other night, she was talking about like um you know, if we were going to meet and I told her I'm like, "Okay, the third week of September, >> but maybe earlier. I don't know because I want you to have scooter. >> Yeah, that'd be awesome. Like when
whenever you can whenever you can make it. Like all I was trying to say was like I'm here like I'm I'm like, you know, I don't really like go to venture too far away. >> Okay. Well, well, just tell me what would my point of destination be? Roondo Beach. >> Yeah, I can. Yeah, just north Roondo Beach. >> So, Roondo Beach. So,
not not this week. Maybe. Well, well, maybe next week. Okay. because we're already on like the weekend right now. Maybe next week I'll do a road trip and if I do because I will never circle around again if I miss you, okay? But
I'll make it super known the whole day. I'll be like, "Oh, I'm going to take a road trip and I just happen to have the scooter in the back and it's probably not so safe for me to ride it." Gosh, what streamers could possibly be in the area?
>> I won't do it like that, but you know, >> but yeah, I'll let you know. >> I love it. Thank you so much. That'll be awesome. >> Are you gonna ride it? You better ride it. I'm gonna be mad if you don't ride it. I have like I go to like every day I'm like walking to a few places like
>> why walk when you can ride and and like the charge lasts forever on that freaking scooter. It really does. Like you can go forever on one charge. >> Like for you it could be weeks because >> Sounds perfect. you don't go many places, >> right? I mean it's like and now I'll be
able to maybe go to Venice and stuff because it's like you know from your dog you can just go down all the way up the beach and it's like you can go to like Venice and like you know >> well that scooter it look that scooter goes 20 mph level one or gear one 15 miles an hour but then there's gear two
which is 20 miles an hour and it does have an anti- theft thing to where you you you know you can you you don't have to get like a um security lock for it. Um you have to have a code to start it. So you have to know the code and um it's
badass. Actually, the only thing I don't like about this scooter, the only reason I crash, I know it looks like I'm completely the way I crashed on this scooter. Okay, I'm not. I am used to dealing with
off-road tire vehicles. Okay. I was thinking in some stupid region of my mind that that scooter would have been able to ride up on that curb. I was wrong. That's why I wiped out.
Normally, people would not wipe out on that scooter. I was just I I I overestimated the power of the tread of the tires. Really? >> Yeah. When I was like younger, we had I in Palm Springs, we used to ride around these like Suzuki What were they? They were like not or like these Suzuki
scooters, these little red Suzuki scooters like you know like mopeds kind of, right? You know, but they're different than the one you're talking about. they kind but there were these mopeds we would drive around and one time I got these rollerblades and so I was like you know just learning how to rollerblade and so my little sister and I got on the like or let's my dad was pulling my little sister and I like I was holding the back of the scooter and
like she was holding my me by the way she decided like she didn't like my hammer at the time was very popular >> oh my god my battery's about to >> okay well the pair of pants she pulled down my pants when uh went down my we were wearing like 20 miles an No, I just got to plug it in. Just Just give me like one second. I just got to I don't
even know where I have the plug. Where's the damn plug? Hold up. I thought I put the plug. Maybe it's over here.
No, because I really wanted to hear what you were saying, but I just >> Yeah, it's okay. >> Have to plug in my phone. Okay, >> I'm so sorry. >> It's okay. >> Just give me one second. Give Give me like one second.
How are you guys?
Hey guys. Okay. Well, maybe while she's gone, I'll play a video.
They whispered her name. >> I'm so sorry. >> Am I still here? >> Oh, >> I think it's like a music video now. >> Hi. >> Hey. >> I'm back. Okay. Well, anyway, the story wasn't that great of a story that I was
telling, but it's >> Well, I didn't even have a story. I I probably was supposed to have a story, but >> Well, I >> It's okay. I mean, I was just talking about how um my sister tried to pants me when I was wearing these like parachute MC Hammer parachute pants in like 1989 or whatever. I just got in rollerblades. I fell.
>> Yeah. She pulled on my pants. I tried to pull in my pants and I was like being dragged on this scooter at 30 miles an hour holding her by the way. You know, she was holding my weight and uh so we wiped out and uh it was I got like a big road rash on my stomach. That was >> that's horrible. I mean
>> ever again. >> That was that was like abusive in like a way. >> My sister was my sister she maced me when I was like three years old. She was probably like she's probably three years old. Probably five years. >> What is the age difference between the two of you? >> Two years. Like she's like two years She's like about two years younger. >> Younger. >> Yeah. >> But she's like out to get you.
>> She Yeah, she totally was. >> Oh, no. >> Get along now. But you know, you know, she was, you know, she was a little brat, but uh I was a brat too back then. >> You survived. >> We survived. And uh yeah, we It was kind of dicey. I I I almost passed away a
couple times as a child. I almost I think near death. >> Really? Like at what ages? >> Well, the first one was when I was like under a year because um I was I would like projectile vomit everything I ate and I couldn't like hold anything down and like just figure out like the surgery to fix it like few years before. But it's called pyloric
stenosis and it's like a narrow esophagus um like narrow esophagus. And so like I had like but they didn't know what it was for a while so I got real skinny like cuz the babies that's >> you skinny maybe they didn't fix it like do you think that was fixed or maybe >> it was it was fixed where it was or something but it's just like I do have a
fast metabolism and you know >> I'm not insulting you by saying that. I'm just saying maybe like >> I know I'm skinny. I know I'm skinny. >> Are you eating enough food? I I don't feel like you're eating enough food. Really? I might not like I'm like because I'm like when I eat I'm like I I'm hungry and it's but it's like like right now I can't wait to go get a bagel at 6:00 in the morning. I'm like okay.
Um and >> well why do why do we have to wait till 6:00 in the morning? >> Because that's when bagel place opens and it's like across the street. >> Oh, it's open bagels here. So >> but but what if like you have food in your apartment? >> Um I mean it's like I I do sometimes. I mean it's like but mainly I like just
like get takeout a lot or like you know I I'm really good at apps the apps like you know McDonald >> like do you have snacks like you I feel like you need like snacks or something >> maybe I I don't hardly eat any junk food. I mean it's like I I mean not many snacks. I just like you know I have a Whole Foods across the street that I so I eat whole I like pistachios like uh like bags of pistachios.
>> You're not eating enough food. You're you're just not. Maybe not. But I'm not like hungry most of the time, but then when I am hungry, I'm I'm very hungry. >> You will you will you get a goddamn P. Box to where we can ship you food. >> I trust I trust you to I trust you with my address. I mean, it's like, you know,
>> I want to send you food. Like I'm I'm not going to like send you nonpaid pizzas. Like I'll send you prepaid all kinds of food. just >> I feel like I I feel like you're you're like
look look I'm not against eating to live. Okay, great. But food can be enjoyable, too. And you don't have to feel bad about it. Oh, I I mean I love I We have like a great taco truck up the street
from my house. We have like the lobster um the the what's it called? Main cousins lobster or something. I've never been to that truck, but it parks around here somewhere. >> Like I don't like I I try not to eat a lot because I just don't want to be a fat girl. That's like that's
like that's my goal is not to be a fat girl. But you don't have that issue like like I I wish I could be you because I like it would be it would be so great to be like super high metabolism again
and but I'm never going to get that. So instead I'm doomed to eat salads and you know that's that's my vinegarette and some olive. Look, salads suck. Okay, salads. I hate them. I
hate I I hate having to watch my weight. I hate it. I hate it. I I just I I wish that I I just never would have an appetite again because it's such a cumbersome situation. Cuz I love food
a lot, but I don't get to eat it. I love a good restaurant. I like I love good like the thing is is like I don't like we used to my family used to go out you know all the time to eat and now it's like maybe we do like two or three times a year we have >> your family should give you all the food like like are they starving you to death
like I I like Well >> I'm not gonna say no I'm I'm I'm not going there because I feel like I'm about to encroach upon on boundaries that I should not breach. So, I am not doing that. And I apologize if I already It's my responsibility. It's my responsibility to feed myself. You know,
I'm I'm an adult. I should be I should be I just maybe don't have the best habits. >> I just don't want you to be like I don't want you to be hungry. >> Oh, thank you. I mean, it's like I'm I'm okay. Like I'm like I've been able to like you know be like not starving but it's like still >> that's why I want to send you the meal
plan. >> I'll send you my address and uh I'd appreciate >> Well do it through Instagram not and not not on YouTube. >> Yeah I won't do it through YouTube. >> But I want I want I want you to have the meals because that way >> you have some some nutrition.
>> Yeah. I will enjoy them. I I mean I really will. I mean >> I worry about people like like I worry about myself the like number one I I'll admit it. I'm selfish. I don't give a I am selfish. But then I worry about my family. Then I worry
about like my extended family. But you're I I think you're getting a little bit too skinny and I don't want you to die. Thank you. So I thank you. Um yeah, >> and like maybe you're naturally skinny like like that's why I was asking you if
you ever saw that movie The Space Between Us because maybe like you're not supposed to be in this gravitational field. Like maybe this is too much for you. Maybe somehow
>> like Elon Musk has to save you and and and send you to Neptune. I don't know. >> Neptune. >> Probably not. >> But Neptune is like on my chart. It's in my 12th house with Venus. Venus and Neptune. 12th house. >> Oh, really? >> Yeah. And 12th house is the house of
like It's called the house of hidden enemies. It's called the house of secrets. It's called the house of >> Well, you were saying that your friends are your enemies. So, I'm So, I I'm an enemy. I'm an enemy. >> No, who did I say? I did I say that? No, I was I was trying to say >> Well, I mean Oh, I was saying Oh, I was
saying like that clip I was saying our friends can be more dangerous than an enemy because we give people that we consider our friends this access to ourselves that we don't give our enemies. Oh my god. Psyche, I got to tell you something. >> People are so mad because I was talking
about the trip kick video because I was I was excited because I didn't even know that we were when we were talking trip kick was flipping us and I was like, "Oh, what we're talking about must be interesting to other people." Like like it it really does amaze me that anything I talk about that
I think is trivial that someone else is like, "Oh my god, I got to make a clip." I'm like, "Wow, that's amazing." Okay, so Pebbs, this girl Pebbs is so jealous about it. It's crazy. And she's trying to say that she didn't know I was in the
video. >> Uhhuh. I'm in over 50% of the goddamn video. >> You might you might prominent in the video like you're you're on like half the >> even if I'm a side character. I'm in the video. >> I might not be in the AI,
>> but I'm still in the video. >> You're in the video. We Yes. >> It's like what the >> Yeah. Well, you know, I don't know. I mean, it's like her her it's like I never like I I I've been watching back some of my shows, right? And it's like from six months ago she was in my chat and stuff like that. Um and
>> if I get disconnected, I will reconnect right away. >> Okay. >> I just got I'm I'm just like walking. >> But no, she's weird. Like I really liked her at first. I really did. And then
like I think I I think that guy Isaiah is evil. Okay. I think like man >> I never I never >> I want to say anyone's really evil. Okay. But
>> sorry to gross you out. >> Okay. you know, um I made it known I didn't want to meet up with him and he did kind of bumrush me on International Drive in Orlando.
>> I dealt with it in a cool fashion. He is scary. Okay, that dude, he's little. He's not like a big guy. That's why I was kind of like whatever.
But he is psycho. Like
>> I'm normally pretty open to a pretty um vast array of people. >> Mhm. >> He's weird. weirder than
look, you know, I'm different. Okay, I would say you're mildly different. Mildly, mildly. He is extremely different. Um,
but he doesn't want anybody to know it. Okay. >> And he's obsessed with my adult content, unfortunately. >> Yeah. >> Wow.
>> Yeah. and his girlfriend is upset with me because he's obsessed with me. What do I do about that? >> Well, can't do anything. It's like
can't be less attractive for him. Like, you know, it's like >> But you know what's really up? I do enjoy with his head. What does that say about me? >> Some people some people might deserve it, you know? I guess, you know, but it's like
>> I'll admit it cuz he has been such a douchebag to so many women and um I hear you. I'm a little bit a certain way.
I do want to go Zena Warrior Princess, pull out my shock, you know. Oh my god. On his show, he was talking about somebody potentially slicing my face. >> I was like, I'm serious. I clipped it and I'm like, you know what? I do need
to go Zena where your princess on you and use my shock and just like, you know, be like and like like throw the damn thing and vanquish him to hell or something. >> But um yeah. >> Well, I I never I never met him or talked to him. I just like I just had
talked to her like and you know I know like she's like you know she was with Diamond that night like and I went over and it was okay. But um yeah, I just like I just it was interesting. It just interesting. She was friendly and stuff, but it's I just don't know her that well. I just went randomly kind of
>> Well, I don't I don't really think that I I think Peps has been brainwashed by the guy. Yeah, I think so. I'm not saying that she has a weak mind. I'm just saying she's human.
>> Yeah. >> And I think that he's taken advantage of her and but I don't like being in it. I don't want to be in it. Like I like I'll be in your drama. I'll be in Vita's drama. I'll be in Trish's drama. I'll be in Big
Te's drama. I don't want to be in her drama. >> Yeah. >> You know, I I'll be in others drama because it it can be fun to an extent. >> Yeah. >> To be in >> It can be. That's why it's like it was
kind of like I didn't mind having drama panels sometimes, but sometimes it got too much for me or it was like just like so much like and that's like so over What are you going to do? I mean, like, like I feel like I'm in it now because I was in the clip even though supposedly I was not in the
clip. Like, was I in it or was I not in it? >> You're in it for several minutes. >> I thought I was in it. >> You're in it. You're wearing the white outfit. The And right >> I was happy with the lighting. Really? I
I was like, "Wow." for like of all the times for me to be clipped. That was like the perfect clip. And I'm I'm proud of that clip. I'm all about trip kick forever till the end of time because of that clip.
I I felt like that was authentic Alexandra 2025. So, thank you. Psyche Awakens. >> It's exciting. Like I actually like um the first time I was clipped it was like because Beeta was on and then um raging demon came on. This guy raging demon that she knew that I met and like you
know through her through her and stuff and then he was like he called in crying one night but he's like quitting YouTube and he's like he called her a and stuff. >> Nobody ever quits YouTube. >> Yeah. >> He's never quit. He was he said I'm quitting YouTube and he and then uh yeah that night and then you know u but yeah he had some really nasty conversation
with her and but we got clips for that and then this lady Tiger Butterfly I don't ever saw her but Tiger Butterfly was kind of this little eccentric lady and like uh you know she um she kind of like is not on YouTube anymore because she would get so drunk on my show she would like start crying and balling and stuff like that but like Tiger Butterfly was like there that today and she so I
let her on the air when there when there were you know was talking to Ry J and she's like stop sir sir don't talk anymore she's like she's so drunk oh my god and so we're like you're famous so a few people have been clipped um you know things or I it's always
>> can I get an update on the um psyche be a drama. >> Yeah. Well, I >> I don't know what's new. >> Yeah. I went on tonight to her show and she's like, you know, she because she was talking about me all day and stuff. And so then I like, you know, and then then Ghost called me. He's like, "Hey, come on. They're they're talking about you on panel. Go up and defend
yourself." And I was like I was like h I don't I didn't really want to, but I just did because she's not coming to my show anymore. Look, I was on panels all night tonight and I was drunk as a skunk. I don't remember who the hell I was talking to. But I have fun. But But are you and Bea okay? Um
>> I think we're okay. I think we're okay. But I did post I did post a uh something that she might not like. And uh I think it's kind of you see the picture. >> What? >> What did you post? because I feel like she might be mad at me because I don't I don't want her to be mad at me, but I
don't want you to be mad at me either. I love you. >> I'm not even mad at her. Like, it's like she always gets mad at me, but it's like I did draw I did do this. She might be mad at me. Look at the screen right now. >> It wait like what does that Well, that's so metaphorical. I mean, there's so many things I can interpret from that.
>> Uhhuh. I do have I do have a the quote I put with it goes something it goes >> okay see okay well okay can I can I interrupt and say something >> okay take the picture off the screen I I don't want to see the picture I'm scared of the picture okay
said that her fear when she was like freaking out on you know the day that she got upset She was saying that she thought you were going to suffocate me, but truthfully, and I think I did verbalize this like secondary after that incident,
and I and I'm not saying that like I'm oh so tough or oh so badass or anything cuz I'm not. But I I I don't feel like you could do that to me because I actually feel like I have a little bit more of a dominant personality than you do. >> And I'm not saying that in like a negative way.
>> And I don't I don't think I try to suffocate anybody, but I think she's referring to like I have a few relationships like with this one tarot reader named Emma and then this one named Club and like you know and then she like goes on with other people that I >> Yeah. She said and and then she was like me and I was like I'm not I I don't even like talk to you that much. >> Yeah. An exaggeration. It's like because
even she was saying I'm at a Lisa too and I've never had a problem with Lisa ever. So it's like she's just bringing up she's like because she likes to say oh you know you now I understand pie and em like I have a huge like bunch of people that are hate me but it's like they don't >> just kind of going okay well I wasn't sure. So, I I just kind of want to
wanted to clarify like I didn't feel like you would ever >> like me. >> Yeah. I wouldn't I would And it's like I I mean I don't I I I don't go where I'm not wanted, you know? It's like that's why it's like, you know, I really have to feel like >> sometimes I do. >> Yeah. I go I go to her chat. I go to her chat and they they certainly don't like
me very much. I go on her panel. I'm not very well received there. But then it's like she's mad at me. Every time something happens, she gets mad at me if something happens to me even because it's like she'll be like, "Well, that happened to me and you didn't defend me or you know that it's like it's always like >> can't even make up for like
>> here's what I think happened. Okay, well here's what happens. The Clippers unfortunately inadvertently blow up the egos of the recappers, the commentators, the streamers, whatever it was like
combination. So, she's kind of like riding that wave of clout right now. Mhm. >> We We just got to kind of wait for her to gently
ride the wave to where like she hits the the more shallow water and gently rides her surfboard on the beach and then walks back into regular life. >> Yeah. >> Well, yeah. I don't know. Like regular life. It's like she does what she wants. like this is she does her show for fun
and stuff and so it's like >> yeah well that's why I'm saying like it has to be a gentle wave a gentle transition because there are some unscrupulous people unfortunately around her >> like I I saw it around you also and I think that like
they're like you're you're you know what you know who I think is like your best friend for real That guy Jay Dog, he really like is protective of you for the right reasons >> in my opinion. >> Um well well do you disagree? If if you
disagree like it's okay. I like you talk a lot and it's like you know um it's like he's in some communities like that I don't like necessarily agree with some of the behavior in it and it's like I just try to like >> well I don't know what he's up to and and frankly I don't look all I want to know about Jay Dog is what I know of him
and I I won't say like he was always like super hospitable or nice to me but I like how He's consistent >> and he seems like he really like is your like solid friend from like
>> you know so I like him a lot. >> You like him? >> You know who else I like even though he doesn't like me? That guy, Ghost, I like him. Like, I I I know why he doesn't like me, and that's okay. But I like him because I see why he likes you also. But
like, what's crazy is that you make both Jay Dog and Ghost uncomfortable for the most minute of reasons. And and that's a comedy. But I I hope that you guys keep streaming together because I like it. Yeah. I mean, it's like I mean, yeah,
they I like I like mess. I like play around sometimes. I was like I did a lot worse when I start when I started the show. I was like pretty outrageous try to like, you know, but >> don't think you're outrageous. I I think you like hold back. Really? >> I've got Well, now now I've calmed down a lot because people were I had such an outl
and he makes them uncomfortable. I'm like, well, think about all them women and straight men feel. It feel comfortable. >> No one really does anything about that, right? >> Well, okay. I have to ask you. Okay. So, and I asked you before, but maybe there needs to be an update. M >> are you are are are you like
>> I'm in that self-partnered stage where it's like I'm like I don't need a relationship but it's like if I was to have a >> Well, like are are you how how are you because here's what I think about you. I think that you're everything. Okay, I
know that's like really broad, but I do think that I I think that sometimes you might see a woman and you're like, "Yeah, she's hot." But you might see a guy and you're like, "Hey, he's hot, too." You know? It's like, and then like
you might even see yourself and you're like, "Fuck everybody. I just like me." So, I don't know. Um, >> I don't know either. It's like, um, you know, well, it's like I I just don't know what I'll be attracted to because I'm so attracted to the like the lady I the woman I dated was not like a like
like a physically, you know, she wasn't like some hot chick. It was like, you know, she was kind of like, you know, kind of strange strange older lady like but um, you know, I forced into that relationship. Like the way you're explaining it, I feel like you were like like >> she was like I mean she was really into witchcraft and stuff like that and so I
think she like >> Oh well I I don't think that counts as well Well I don't know. I don't I don't know. >> I feel like I just feel like I was like there's something about the attraction that was like supernatural.
>> It it sounds weird honestly. like it doesn't sound like like I I feel like that wasn't real somehow. I I don't know. >> Yeah. She even like was like after she was like, "Well, that was just me like letting you like pretend to be straight or something." I I don't know. She was like she didn't
relationship. >> I'm going to tell you something crazy. I I once I I think that like like have you ever heard of like that um Hans Christian Anderson gingerbread house story? >> I I I had that happen like an almost real life once. There's like when I
first started traveling um on my own and um I found a place in Pensacola I wanted to stay and it was like the cutest little purple guest house, right? >> And it was a woman who was a bit older
than me who was running it. She was definitely a lesbian, but she was trying to like force me to be her girlfriend. And I was like, "What the is going on here?" You know, I mean, I was paying rent. I, you know, it wasn't anything like weird, but it was like she was like constantly like hitting on me and stuff
and I was like, "hm, I don't." So, I I just wound up like cutting my stay short and I left. I was like, "This is weird." But I I bet that that see as like that rarely happens as a like single
woman world at least in my world. But I bet it's happened to you a lot. I can tell like in a weird way. Mhm. Well, I wish I would like, you know, I'm like I wish I was I would be more, you know, out there in the world and like meeting more people and stuff like that because I probably have a lot >> How do we get you like like what do you
think it would take for you to be out in the world? >> Well, it's just like in this neighborhood it's like there's not too much to do. I mean, it's like there's or it's like a little bit conservative a neighborhood. So, it's like there's like a sports bar across the street. There's like one gay bar I think in the whole like South Bay which is like one. >> So it's like you want to be like around more gay people.
>> Not really but not really but it's like and so I don't and I don't like like um Grinder and stuff and it's like I just I'm happy like with my social life as it is like just kind of like >> a little bit like you know just over the internet like some other a few people I know outside of it. But it's like I tend to get myself in kind of >> Well, you don't want to be too social because that's that's like where trouble comes.
>> Yeah. >> Avoid trouble. >> They get bored and then it's like I then I want to like, you know, get do do something wild after like, you know, being bored for a long time. And >> well, look, I had my wild night tonight. I talked to DJ Electra. I talked to LD. Um, you're you're kind of bringing me
back down after I smoked some weed and I'm sitting here eating some crackers and and lobster bisque. That that this is my night. I'm I I really am that pathetic. Look at that. But um Yeah. Yeah.
>> No. Well, it's like, you know, >> avoid trouble. Avoid trouble, please. >> I try. I mean, I try, but it's like, you know, it's like sometimes um chaos seems to follow me around a little bit, but I kind of like to play with it a little bit, but >> Well, have you been feeling
rambunctious? Is Is that a part of it? >> Uh the chaos? Well, it's like on my show I really was like, you know, like before. Now, it's like I'm like I'm like really calmed down with like on like I'm really calmed down like and it's like, you know, I don't need to be on the show 247. I don't I don't have like this like dependence and and it's or or even like this like you know because I would be honest
>> not to toot your heart you know I I don't like to inflate egos. Okay. >> But really in my opinion I think that you do embody a little bit of that Howard Stern circus vibe carnival you you know yet you're having
fun with it. you you know you're keeping up with it. I think you're going to do really well. I'm really excited for you. I I just am. >> Hey, let me ask you on Sunday. Well, well, we're going to postpone it to Monday. Monday 12. Okay. Monday. >> But but do you want to stick with the same topic or do you want to do
something more trendy? Well, I mean it's like whatever like you know last time um you know it's like we just >> I think that AI um installment went over really well. >> Yeah. >> What do you think? >> I loved it because it's like that is so especially right now it is so like >> Yeah. It's like and then a lot of people
are looking for the information on it like and it's like you know it's like >> you're like really knowledgeable. You're you're you're like a professor. >> Yeah. >> That's why my dad always wanted me to be a college professor. Like he always like that's always this kind of dreamed that I would be a college professor and stuff like that.
>> Well well I mean not traditionally but like you you're very you're an educator. >> Yeah, I feel like I am. I mean I feel like I can teach. I mean, I want to do some like uh also some like, you know, e e-cl classes like you know, like uh you know, I can >> there's there's so many platforms. I'll
send you a um list if you want of uh >> the e I have a couple courses that I sell and people just buy it. It's crazy. But you you could create so many courses on so many things. But but you're just
naturally like a Indiana Jones >> kind of professor in a way >> and really like it was like the mythology and stuff like really like really carries it because it's like it just like goes into all this kind of interesting storytelling and plus like the the symbolism.
>> I can't believe you brought up Maria Orsk. I was like what he knows about her? This is crazy. This is such a good I was so excited. That was so cool. >> Yeah, I studied a lot of uh I mean I've stud I studied a lot because I basically threw my like myself into like learning
everything I could and and it's like and so and you have to people have to watch out for like learning too much like the occult can like um drive some people crazy like it it can >> you do have to be careful. I mean, look, I know you look, can I ask you a qu You
don't have to answer. Okay. >> Are you a um quote unquote fan of Aliester Crowley or what or or like what is your stance on this? >> Okay. sending him I mean sending I think he was like you know basically all his works and everything are like he took the
what he learned from the secret societies and the masons and see that things like that and he put it made it for everybody well first he made it for his society which but it's like you know but then it basically from him got out to everybody else like you know >> y >> and uh he was very prophetic and things like that but he's also a trickster and um he also like like delighting
>> younger comedian >> leading people down the wrong road sometimes um >> and kind of like you know >> dark comedian >> yeah u he also yeah there's some very dark uh or like disgusting stories and you know some bad stuff and it's I don't know how these are I think some of them may be exaggerated by his like you know >> it might be
>> yeah because it's like it just seemed like because he does use like different like terminology like till he's talking about a sacrif blood sacrifice and stuff but then he's like he's like well it's explained like later it's like oh well he's talking about like your own bad qualities which is like a very Buddhist kind of way to think about it which he did he study heavily but then it's like
that but that you know but it's very easy to misunderstand especially oh the blood of a young kid is the best and it says kid but it's like maybe goat or something I don't I don't know there's >> hopefully it's a goat hopefully it's it's It can be translated to a goat. Yeah. >> He was a character. I can just imagine
how but how far ahead of his time was he like you know it's just like >> ahead of his time. Very very far ahead. >> Yeah. Theater and I think basically you know I think modern rock and roll is heavily from his influence. He's like on the Sergeant Pepper Lonely Hearts band album cover was one of like the there's
like a bunch of celebrities. >> You think that there's certain people who are like vibrating like about to vibrate out of this frequency of this reality. >> I think there's a lot of there's a lot of ascensions and then it's like we'll notice times when it's like things will just be different and like some people will just disappear. >> Well, you were mentioning like the other
day like the Mandela fact. I think that's a part of it. Like I I think I might have like vibrated out of the frequency of certain people that I used to know that really >> you can because it's like that's a part of the law of attraction is like we're attracting like all these circumstances people based on what we're transmitting
out >> or what we're thinking about. And so, you know, I think sometimes when people no longer >> when people no longer serve the purpose, maybe they were here for a purpose of like a sole purpose to help us in some way. And then so people say for a reason, a season or a lifetime and a few
for a lifetime, a lot for a reason, and just many for a season, right? Do you feel like you're going to have Well, do you think you're going to have like a super long lifetime or average or
>> I already think I'm like I I I like expected to live to 30 years old. So, I'm already like 14 years past 30. So, if I live to in my to my 60s, I think that's that'd be pretty successful. I probably live I'll probably live a little bit longer. I think I probably live to my 70s unless something happened. That's why I thought I'd live less because gays have like a lot higher
mortality rate because of a lot of issues like c like alcohol >> stress um you know the unaliving themselves or other people being violent and then just the depression and the higher um um incarceration. >> You know what though? You have to fight back, >> right? Okay.
>> You have to fight back because so what if you want to be gay, >> you know? I mean, if you want to be gay, be gay, >> right? >> Why did that shorten your life? >> I don't like really I mean, it's like Yeah. I'm like I mean, but it's like I'm not really like into like having
anybody, right? It's like right now like so I don't even feel like I'm like I mean there's straight people getting a lot more action I'm getting right now but it's like so easy very easy to like do one night stands or the hook up and it's like guys are like
really mean after like I don't like dealing with guys like I never want to see you again deal But I I prefer just to have friends and uh I wouldn't even I would not date anybody I met on met doing the show either. Like I don't think or I don't think >> that's not a good idea. Yeah.
>> Yeah. >> Maybe like somebody that is a colleague but not an audience member. Definitely not an audience member. >> Well I mean who am I to say that though? I mean you never know. You you just never >> Yeah. No, it could be like someone good
and you don't realize that >> thing is like in order to date me like the person would have to be kind of aggressive like I would say like because like I'm I'm a little bit shy and so I would not probably approach people like in the first place. >> Well, don't say that because then you're going to get like a rapist. You don't want to like you want to >> I've had some like bad experiences from
people from match.com or like you know the internet and stuff like that and stealing your wallet or something like that. It's like not good. >> Yeah. >> I mean puts a damper on ever wanting to do that again. So I did try earlier this year like I did like a a grinder date. It was a disaster again and I was like this. I'm never going to date again.
just like when you're out people like I've seen people get together and check out lines. >> Yeah, I've seen that. So don't like
>> list of like you know dating pool. It's be like, you know, have 95% 95% for women have a, you know, they have a choice of 90% 5% of men and 5% of who they are interested in. Gay people have a choice of about um 5% of men about, you know, 30% they're interested in. So,
I don't know. It's like maybe >> I don't know. Um, >> I think it's like good that it's not all gay because it's like I think that women really are the reason for the world. I think women would be fine,
most of them would be fine um having like a a some kind of retirement community with all women and stuff like that. They they'd be comfortable with that. like a lot of people that um rather than even like you know with being with a man because it's like it's safer you know and men are think nowadays it's a little
bit safer >> really like like what I think like I I could be wrong but I look at like my older female relatives right >> and they're they all kind of like keep to themselves
And like the older I get, like I used to be like way more social. Now like the internet, it kind of grants me the attention I want when I want it, but then I can turn it off whenever I want to. At least I can
attempt to. And um I just all I care about is leaving a lasting impression that's a little runchy yet a little classy yet a little,
you know, thoughtprovoking. And that tends to be what I do. So whatever >> mission accomplished, I think. >> Yeah. >> And uh you know, me too. Well, me too. It's like I mean
>> I won't be remembered like you know from having kids or whatever, but I'll I want to leave something to the planet. >> If you if you want to like like do like is it important in your family for everyone to have kids? You you can have kids and still be gay. It's fine. >> Yeah. Yeah. It's like I mean, but like
that's my like my it's like really I'm like a big kid myself and it's like so you know I need to I'm I'm basically like you know I'm not have to be >> Yeah. Yeah. just like kind of like not have to worry about it this lifetime because like you know but yeah gay some
gays like would love to raise family and like even a lot of them will very >> a lot do I I mean that's what my dad did he he was he was definitely without a doubt buy >> and he wanted everything he wanted too much really
>> man oh I I I'll I'll leave it at that. But um >> yeah, but I I I'm not very dissimilar, but I'm female, so it's a little more um I guess socially, you know, acceptable when it comes to me
being a bit wild cuz I am. >> Um that's why I do get in trouble with certain guys because I'm a certain way and they don't like it. But oh well. >> Oh well. >> I don't I don't want to be if I if I
wanted to be married, I would be. I don't want that. Just let me kind of run around. >> Me too. I wouldn't want to like it. It's like there gays were fighting for marriage for and I was like well I don't want to get married but I want to enter a business or a financial contract with somebody. I'll sort of
>> Well, that's what it's about. the the financial contract. Okay? Because okay, this is going to sound crazy, right? But realistically, idealistically, it would be very beneficial for people to be able to not just enter
business contracts, but marital contracts for for tax reasons. Wow. and create their own um mass. I mean, in a way that is what it what certain churches are, but um
it it's it's well you you can't do certain like like the kind of person I am being that I don't want to be on anyone's radar. I'm single independent business owner Africanamean woman. That's me on paper
and that's me in general. There's more to that, but that's me. >> And however you can simplify it, simplify it. That's what you do. >> Yeah. >> The better. We're a lot like human beings are a lot of like human beings
are can encompass many things like you know it's like we are this little copy of the of the of the universe right like as a human being and it's like so we have a lot of stuff to us like there's a lot of stuff a lot of stuff going on >> uh we have the most complicated brains we've we've found on the on the planet
so the the universe so far so >> but you're smarter than most people do like like do you realize that about yourself or not or or do are you too humble to acknowledge it? >> It's like an int I know I understand my intelligence is like and it's like it's not a typical intelligence either. It's
very abstract. It's very >> You're very evolved in my opinion. Um I've talked to a lot of people in my life. Oh, it's totally a compliment. Yeah. Like like I'm not I'm not going to be like, "Oh, oh, hell." You know, I'm not gonna be like that.
Oh, cuz I I you know what? I don't even I don't I don't even know your name. >> I I never looked and I'm not going to I feel like whenever if you ever decide to be your um like like a different name, you'll be that name. But I don't know. I don't even know your name. >> Well, I'll tell I'll tell you I'll tell
you soon. >> No, don't. No, I don't I don't want you to. I I feel like it should be like if one day you decide that you want to expand beyond Psyche Awakens Tarot, then I'll then I'll know. But no, I I don't cuz that occurred to me. Um I was
talking to somebody about you and they were like, "What's his name?" And I'm like "Psyche and they're like, "No, that's not his name." And I'm like, "No, that's like all I know him as." And this it it was a woman I was talking to and she was like really? She's like you you never like did like a little bit of
you know digging and I'm like no I I I it didn't occur to me to I don't want to. I I I feel like you know if his name's like Bob or something I'll know one day but I don't I don't care. So, it's fun because he's like a really unique person and I like his personality
and I was telling her about like a certain um coincidence that occurred between getting to know you and another something that happened in my life and she was like, "Oh, so he's kind of like a jin or a genie and she's from the Middle East." And I'm not talking about Beeta, it's somebody else I know. And I was like, "Well, maybe." I hadn't
thought about it in that capacity. And she's like, "Ride it out. It's a wave. Write it, you know, see what happens." And I'm like, "Well, I'm doing a three-part series." So, and I sent her the links. And I'm like, "Check it out." And so, I think she watched like episode two tonight cuz she was like, "He is really cool." And I
was like, "I know, I know, I know, I know." So, yeah. You're great. you hear me still? >> Yeah. Yeah. I was just I was just talking. >> Yeah. Um Yeah. Well, that's cool. Like uh you know I uh
I am like a different kind of person. U but uh >> yeah. Well, I was just talking a lot because I tend to do that. I was rambling and I'm you know >> Yeah. I get my well I my I get like you know a little bit I when I smoke pot in the middle of the night too I pot's
pretty strong for me. So >> man the look the cannabis marijuana weed whatever you want to call it here in um West California because that's where I'm at. I don't know what they are doing but
it's like the most amazing cannabis in the world. >> I mean it it it's I don't >> California weed is so strong. >> It's it is it's really I mean they are whatever they're doing in their little
laboratories, their little mad scientists world. Um, but I'm happy because it is primarily from what I can observe the Native Americans who control the legal cannabis
in California, at least in the East area. So, they're in control. And um it's interesting because I guess if like if you piss anybody off in that group, you're not going to be able to get your legal cannabis.
>> Nope. Yeah. >> I think I think it's like a solid mafia. like you have to be careful >> and it it would it would suck to like be banned from the dispensary.
>> Like I was thinking the other day, I'm like, what would it take for me to be banned? Like that would be so horrible because it's so convenient and they have so many delectable treats like like not just like um you you like they they have more than fl like I always get the pre- rolls.
Okay. I I will not I I'm not going to use a bong. I'm not going to um do any of that. I've done that in the past. It it it's just too much. Um, I
get the little six-pack pre- rolls and sometimes I'll get an edible and if I have an edible, I probably will not go anywhere for the next two days because I don't I normally like I'm I'm
pretty my body like I keep my body very clean extremely so like from what I eat to like you know just everything. So for me the cannabis and you know what's interesting my um like they call them bud tenders.
That sounds so corny to me. I'm just like it's the person who works at the at the goddamn dispensary. Okay. But you do have the ability to leave them tips. And I do have my favorite person who I talk to when I get my cannabis. It's a woman
and she's younger than I am, but she's really cool. And she has been like my pharmacist, like for real, when it comes to just me feeling better about myself.
She has recommended the perfect strains every time on my spiritual journey. >> Uhhuh. >> Yeah. And you know what? She's indigenous in part and I think that she is like a medicine
woman for real. >> It's a good medicine too. I think weed is like a very powerful medicine in a lot of ways, right? >> Some people are afraid of weed. >> Yeah. I always wanted to smoke it since I was little, but my I think my my father
would smoke it like at, you know, he I think he helped his friend grow grow plant, you know, and stuff like that. His friend would >> and stuff like that. But um yeah, it was kind of, you know, he kind of missed out on the all the legalization stuff, but he he did occasionally like um partake, but um
he liked it, but >> kind of bad. I guess >> I'm I'm I'm sorry your dad passed. >> Oh, you know, it was terrible. But >> yeah, >> you know, >> it's weird.
Because you you always what like well it it might sound weird to you for me to say this. For some reason I always thought both my parents were always going to be around me. >> Yeah. And I well and I thought my dad would
live to past 100 years old, you know, and it's like he wasn't quite six years old, >> but and it's like he'd already, you know, defeated it. He already had prostate cancer like 20 years ago and like recover from that and so it's like but then it was like, you know, just very shock. It was very fast and uh I mean it was fast for us, but it was like
I guess for him he kind of had an idea before, you know, and so it was kind of a lot more difficult for him. Well, >> and he just like loved to be able to like, you know, he was working >> is everywhere. It It just is. Okay. It It's It's crazy.
And I'm scared of it. Um the cancer is everywhere. I don't want I I don't want to go into for an exam. I I like I postponed it until next year because
it's everywhere the cancer and >> I I kind of feel like if people like I I almost feel like it's hunger games or something like I know she sounds crazy but yeah like like how like I I don't know. Wait, give me one
second. I I got to use rest the restroom. It It's just >> I feel like if they if they want you to die, you're just going to die. It's horrible. >> Well, I mean it's like because also like there was an African-American woman I saw speak and she was like speaking and she's very good, but she was talking about
like women basically control the food supply and who gets fed and who doesn't. And so it's like if so if you the women decide you're done I think you're done pretty much the point of that I just I don't know if I disagree but >> okay to walk away but I'm back
like another blanket too. >> Oh how long do you think you're going to live? I think I'm gonna live I think I think you know my grandmother lived till she was in her 90s. My my grandfather passed away in the 70s you know early 70s but my my grandmother who was a little bit older than him that lived until she was like
93 or something like that. And um my dad was 86 um but my mom is you know still in great shape. And >> well that's well I mean your your dad was 86 when he died. That's that's pretty old. Yeah. Yeah. He was Yeah. He was born in like you know like the
1930s. So um you know it's like and he >> produced a computer but he was just brilliant um man like he was able to be really successful and smart and just like you know I'll never look >> you're very smart >> right but it's like he was able to
actually like turn his into like you know wealth and so I mean that'd be cool if I can do >> you know what your problem is you care too much about what other people think about you. >> Well, yeah. I mean, well, maybe it's like, you know, well, especially being on what I'm doing on the show, >> you interact with it. Okay, I I'll
expand on what I'm saying. You you care too much and then you interact with it and you're wasting a lot of time doing it. And I'll leave it at that cuz I don't want to like be mean or insult or Also people are wasting like some people are wasting my time on
purpose and stuff and so and it's like just because I will indulge people with >> well don't indulge me like if you want to hang up hang up. >> No you I'm talking about like um you know people that will come up like know they'll >> I know very well. Yeah, >> there's people that have there people that don't have that don't want good
things for me. That's like they have bad intentions. And it's like I've just been saying is that you you you're in a really good position right now. Don't don't like squander the time. >> I hear you. >> That is my advice. >> Yeah. I'm doing all I can
like to it. I'm doing all trying my best. I'm doing actually pretty well. >> I think you're doing great. >> Yeah. It's just like I've had ups and downs and it's like, you know, and I have a lot of people that judge will judge not even know me, but they'll just hear stuff from other
people. Like, you know, Peter said some not so nice words describing me yesterday and it's like, and I know she has power. like >> I've had enough of her honestly and I I don't dislike her. She knows how I feel really. But enough's enough.
But with you when when it comes to just I want Okay, how can I explain it? I should probably consult the AI before I tell you my thought on this, but I like that you
engage in the drama to an an extent, but I would say look at the drama like fire. >> Mhm. >> Don't touch it too much or too closely.
focus definitely on those really cool packages that you were um showing me that you were making of um like the one that you showed me of that of of the girl. What was her name? >> Um Cinderella. >> Yeah. >> Spunky.
>> Yeah. Yeah. Spunky. Spunk. Is that her name? Spunky. Funky. >> Um Spunky or Sephan. But Spunky. We call her. Yeah. Yeah. I really love that. >> I mean, that is going to be like your signature product, but you you need something
else. You you need something for the guys for for like the guys who are your fans, but they need something tangible that they can hold from you. like maybe
like a man bracelet or like a uh rock or like an engraved pebble or or rock of some sort because Yeah. Yeah. that that's what I
think the guys would want from you or or maybe like a metal um lightly engrave thing that has to do with whatever your uh >> well well like the heart the heart with
the um rays coming from it. >> Yeah, that could be your symbol forever because it's it's unique. Yes. And it's also like it has to do with by like uh by birth by by by Sabian symbols. They have I think both the flaming like a flaming heart and they
have a uh Union Jack flag and then it's like they have a maple leaf and then it's all and they have one of them is about immigrants and stuff like that because I have the that's my Sagittarius and it says like basically like I see like everybody like you know everybody that travels is like an immigrant to that country like traveling and it's like
>> they're all immigrants. I I mean like may may maybe sometimes we're not even willing like I feel like slavery for African-Ameans was like unwillingly being an immigrant to to the US because it was that that's what it that's what
it non-consentual immigration. >> Yeah. Yeah. Non-consensual immigration. >> Yeah. Yeah. But I would not want to be in Africa at this moment. So I I guess it worked out for me in a lot. >> I mean, didn't they like try to go into Liberia or something like with like
>> Yeah. Yeah. That that didn't work out exactly. No thanks. >> Who's the guy? Yeah. >> No, I mean I just keep to myself really. I I mean, no. Like when I was younger, I would say I I had more hassle or like people would would like be a little bit
more like like aggressive toward me or something, but or or just kind of mean, but not the age I am right now. Like I'm solid middle-aged. Um I'm pretty nondescript when you really
think about it. And I just, you know, nobody notices me and I'm happy about that. >> Yeah. >> Very happy about it. >> Like be like kind of like blend in a lot too. But it's like of
course people like us are going to be like, you know, we will be able to succeed in some way. But stuff like I'm like I have a I have a place >> I am actually there are a lot of people who are kind of um known but they don't want to be known.
>> So it's kind of agreed upon in this area like even if you might recognize somebody just shut up and go about your way and let that be it please. That that's what it is. It's fine. >> Yeah. Some people think it's doxing and stuff if they but if they're on camera
like at a certain place it's like you probably try to guess where they are. >> Somebody really wanted to know where I am. They could find me. But you would have to literally have four-wheel drive to reach this area for one thing. >> And then even if you get out here, you have to have a certain code to go
through a gate. So it it's it's just like people don't it's so it's so dumb at this point. Just just I I I wish people would be braver to like be genuinely friends with their peers instead of like being like,
"Oh, I'm a troll. I'm a troll." It's like, "Shut up. You're not a troll." the trolling turned into an epidemic because it's like because it's like now we've turned the name like you know they used to be called stalkers or something and we can call them trolls too the same and also like some certain world leaders we call they they were kind of trolls too like some of these I mean it's like
this like trolling the populations and like pretending to be like upset >> talking about trolling on CNN I was like what the I I thought it was I I thought I was losing my mind actually I was like CNN is really talking about trolling and
how trolling is taking down certain political parties. I'm like no it's not. This is a bunch of idiots and honestly like usually extremists actually who are doing this stuff and you're going to
have mainstream media encouraging it. Well, To me, that's crazy. >> Yeah. Well, it's crazy that they're like the the police departments are like organizing
>> even like conservative or anything. I I I'm just I I think I'm pretty normal >> and um don't strike me as a as a as a political extremist in any way. I don't I don't I just I I was hoping that the
rest of my life things would um be pretty uh mellow. That that was my goal. It doesn't seem to be happening and it's freaking me out like it was boring. If it was boring that'd be one thing, right? Like but you know that's like you you we you want
interesting lives and if so if that entails like >> I don't want that interesting I don't want this to become like Terminator Judgement Day. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> The rise of the machines. We have AI like like are are there going to be androids
for real? I hope so in a way but I'm scared.
I'm still here,
but I can't see the chat. Sorry. But I'm laying down cuz I'm tired. But I'm on I'm I'm on the piano.
Have a have a good Friday and Saturday, everybody.
I'm sorry I'm sleepy. I don't mean to be. I just am.
Okay. Are you there? >> Yeah. I'm sorry. I almost fell asleep. I'm I'm still here. >> Oh, I'm sorry. Yeah. Well, it's almost my gosh, it's 5:36 bagel soon. >> They have really good the October Fest. It has like bunch of meat in it and like
mustard and it's really good. >> Oh, I had a great Oh, look. Tonight I I made some in the oven. I um put some shrimp and um I had one more of those like like fancy schmancy sausages. >> Uhhuh.
>> So, I cooked that and I also had some lobster bisque soup. And I am just like a little stuffed pig right now. I'm full of food. >> I love a good lobster p. >> Yeah. I I just I I ate it all and now
I'm just like I I feel like a pig in a blanket for real. Because I'm actually in a blanket and it's like I I ate all that food so I feel like a little pig and I'm like, "Oh, I'm a little pig wrapped in a blanket. All you have to do is put me in the oven
and I guess like something giant would eat me, but I hope not. That's funny. >> Hope not either. It's like Yeah, that'd be pretty much I that'd be like a big in big insult if I was like digested by some. I just don't like the idea of
that. There's Okay, there's this paranormal star story and they're trying to popularize it with this like clandestine ancient aliens offshoot group of people who didn't quite make it to the ancient aliens um final round, but they're still trying
to tell their stories. Supposedly, there's this there's this woman who to this day is institutionalized in like a mental institution. Supposedly, her father was like this mad scientist
and he created a set of glasses that showed the reality of reality. And supposedly we're all slowly just being digested by something that we're not able to perceive, >> which is so crazy.
>> Yeah. I mean, yeah. Think about the uh the earth is like this being and it's like we're inside of this certain being. I don't know if we >> uh >> yeah, >> we call it or anything, but we call it Gaia. I mean, it's a gaya. Gaia is like because um the earth is like in Tibetan Buddhism it's like the body of a of a of
a rock ogus. I can actually there's a great Tibetan Buddhist story about the founding of Tibet. Um, and it goes into how this uh this rock ogres fell in love with a monkey and he didn't want to get married, but but uh it was decided that it was going to be best for all the this descendants of the
monkeys and the descendants of the of the rock ogus if they got together and so they did. Monkey take one. It's a great story though. They call the monkey and the rock ogress. But yeah, eventually she does uh meet her end, but she turns into the earth, I believe, or something like that. So, they're interesting mythologies about them kind of stuff.
I even have maybe I may have like some African mythology, too. Then you have some uh really cool bookology called Zeus Grants Stupid Wishes.
They have a couple um African stories in it, too. I think you're falling asleep. So um this will be your good night story, then I'll talk to you soon. But let's see. Um so Zeus France.
Okay. So, oh, there's another one. Okay. So, Zeus grants super. So, here's how this I'll go to the African story. I'll just read one of them and
then I'll let you go. Okay. One second. Okay. So it says get to Africa. Okay. Africa. Okay. Got it. Okay. So Obatala has a drinking problem is the first story. It says so there's this dude Obatala. He's
one of the Oisha which are basically a bunch of gods that exploded out of some other god's corpse when one of the slaves dropped a big rock on him. So already the story is shaping up to be pretty sweet, but then it hits a major roadblock real fast. Obitala wants to make a world, but he has no idea how to
do it. Frankly, I find the realism in this myth to be highly refreshing. I mean, can any of us honestly say we know the first thing about creating a world? Oh, look at me. I'm raw. Let me just will myself into being out of nothing and then create land with nothing from my left nut and pure gumption. No,
that's not how this works. You have to sit your ass down and you have to brainstorm. So that's what Obatala does. He hits up his buddy O um Olaroon, the sky god, and he's like, "Oh, yo, Olaroon, I want to make a world with some people in it." And Olaroon, who's the king of gods, is like, "Oh man, that
sounds great, but it also sounds really hard. Do you have like any plans, like some blueprints or something?" And Obital is like, "Uh, well, I'll get back to you." So, at this point, Obitala is really um only has one option, that is to go see Orumila, their resident fortune teller. So Obital goes to Orum Nila's house. And Orum Nila is like,
"Dude, I can totally tell you how to make a world. Let me go to my back room and stare at my nuts for a while. Stare." And so he tells fortune by throwing palm nuts and reading their patterns. But I failed to clarify this because I was looking for excuse to write stir up my nuts. So after peering intently into his nuts for a while,
Orunila is like, "All right, dude. Here's what you got to do. Step one, descend down to earth on a gold chain attached to the sky. Oh man, that would be sweet album cover. Uh, step two, go down to earth carrying a hen, a black cat, a palm nut, and a snail shell full of sand. And Aatala's like, what? And Oila's
like, "What? Sorry, dude. I'm pretty high right now." But it's not like Oatella has any better idea. So he goes about trying to make this ultimate gold chain, but he doesn't have nearly enough gold. So he goes gives the gold he does have to the celestial goldsmith and then goes out all over the sky collecting investors. He's like, "Guys, guys, have I got a deal for you?" Now, I don't know
if you've noticed, but there's a whole world of untapped real estate down underneath the sky place. Why I ask you, are we totally understanding this crime acreage when as we speak it dudes could be down there causing problems? Think about it. A whole world full of wretched fleshy problem machines for you to set fire and put your dicks in. And all the
gods are like, "Sign me up." And Abatala goes back to the jewel smmith with a big sack full of gold and still quite can't reach the earth. And Patal is like, "Hey, screw it, man. Just as long as you can. I'll figure something out. Uh, there's got to be some reason I exploded out of my dad's corpse, right? And he takes the chicken, the cat, the palm
nut, and the snail shell full of sand, and he starts climbing down the earth. I'm kind of curious about where he got the chicken and stuff from, seeing as there was not really any land or animal life or anything, but I'll let that slide this time. So, he goes down the bottom of the chain. He can't quite reach the dim watery me morass that is the whole world and he's trying to
figure out what to do. Here comes Orunila's voice from the sky like dude empty out the snail shell. So he does and the snail the sand falls down below him and makes some land. And then over like dude drop your chicken in the sand. You know what that feels like? This feels like one of those adventure games where you spend like 17 hours wandering
around the haunted mansion with a backpack full of junk and a heart full of fury because he didn't think uh to stuff the pigeon in the jukebox or something like how is Obital supposed to figure that out? But anyway, he drops the chicken and the chicken kicks all the sand all over the place and it turns all to the land and drops down there with the cat and he's like totally out of ideas so he just kind of sits
there and waits for something to happen. About a week later, Olaroon sends one of these dudes to see what's up. And Ovatal is like, "Man, I don't know. This seemed like a great idea, but it's really dark down here, and I'm starting to lose motivation." So, this message gets passed along to Olaroon, who's just like, "Oh, no problem." Boom. And he makes this sun. And you're telling me this dude knew how to make the sun all
along, and he couldn't figure out how to populate the damn Earth. Well, whatever. But it's important is that Opatala gets super jazzed by all the sunlight. He plants the plant palm nut and he he uh turns into a palm tree. Then he decides to make a bunch of humans out of clay because he forgot that there that was why he came down here in the first place. So he's working in his hot sun
sculpting all these dudes and he gets pretty thirsty and he starts drinking some plum plain wine surround him um because it's not like he's surrounded by water or anything. So he's sculpting all the dudes and drinking all the wine. By the time he's sculpted the last dude, he is so ugly. Basically, it's like a oneman teeter totter, but like if he
were to breathe into a breathalyzer, the breathalyzer would get drunk. Dude is uh take trigity trigger trigity trashed is what I'm trying to say. So, goes and presses out and uh passes out and goes sleeps off all the wine. And when he wakes up, he goes to admire all the dudes he made. But he notices that some
of the dudes got a little messed up because he was so totally plastered when he was molding them. Anyway, they're more than a little messed up because this is where like polio and blindness comes from. Great job, Lushy. Mcrunk drunkie shine. Uh, you invented birth defects. Huzzah. But to his credit, does feel really bad about all
this. I don't know whether it's his guilt or the wicked hangover he must be dealing with, but he was like, I'm never drinking again. And he and he does that. And he also devotes his life to being crippled, helping crippled dudes. So, I guess it turns out okay. So, the moral of the story is that when you die and it turns out reincarnation exists, try to
come back as cat because the little bastard got a fire pass to Earth and he didn't have to do I want to say thank you to everybody for being here today. I'll be back later today. Thank you for my guest Alexandra, to DJ Electra, to uh everybody else that was on on the panel and in the chat. I
love you guys. You have a wonderful, wonderful day and I'll see you soon.
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