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Psyche hosts a quick, casual stream discussing personal topics including recent nightmares, VR setup troubles, and reflections on online harassment.
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Browse era →Welcome to the madness. It's 900 p.m. Lights up, mics hot, chaos in the stream. VA calling in, slurring words, starting up a scene. Talking all that trash, then she flips. Rage queen mad at me. Girl, please. The show runs on caffeine. Sides twisted, laughing loud, whiskey in his veins. Slurs flying
left and right. We cut the feed. No shame, but the chat's on fire. Can't tame this flame. This ain't your mama's podcast. This a runaway train. Welcome to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boos flashing on cam chat. Losing their minds. Michael getting gonged. Alex taking flight. It's wild. It's wrong and we do it every night. Paige got them sing. Hearts in the chat, but she ain't
got time for a dude like that. Diamond flirting hard. Let the girls react. It's a freak show party. No filter. All facts. Yo, all facts. Yo yo, Michael drops a line. Gong, not tonight. Alex tried to joke. Boom. Sent into the night. Panel looking sideways. Someone's got a fight. Producers on mute. Praying
this don't spike. Diamonds feeling spicy. Shirt slipping down low. Oops, she says with a wink. That's the whole show. S half asleep, but still cracking jokes. Slur out wisdom with a bourbon soap glow. No rules, just rolls. We pretend to play. One hand on the mute, other letting it spray. It's a circus. It's a riot, a beautiful mess. One wrong
word and we're trending in the press. Welcome to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boobs fashion on cam chat. Losing their minds. Michael getting gonged to Alex taking flight. It's wild. It's wrong and we do it every night. Paige got them. Hearts in the chat, but she ain't got time for a dude like that. Diamond flirting hard. Let the girls react. It's
a freak show party. No filter. All facts. Yeah. All facts. Lights out. One more round. Beat on the line. Yelling at a ghost from a bottle of wine. We laugh, we cry, we crash. Rewind. Same time next week. You know
the vibe. Welcome to madness. Enjoy the ride. Yeah. Welcome to the madness.
Enjoy the ride.
Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride. Welcome to the madness. Enjoy the ride.
Hello. Good morning or good afternoon. Hello. Thank you, Danny. Oh yeah, right Jamie.
The tobacco.
Hi. Hi Chanel. Hi Jamie. Hey Samantha. Hey everybody. How are we doing? I'm all right. I had these dreams all night about
I was at some kind of like big event. I remember there were like I don't know there's a lot of people there and I kept getting separated from like my family and like looking for people. I was like I need to get a hold of they'll never they'll never find me. They'll never find me. Hi. Hey everybody. So, I don't know. I just
thought I'd do a quick stream today. I've been kind of like, yeah, a little down lately. So, thought I'd maybe do an hour. I'm trying to get my VR things set up. Um, it was so exciting. Yesterday, I got the cord. It fit the computer. it like said all all systems go and then it's like now I'm getting like just weird messages and
stuff like weird error messages and I can't find my my I have these two like controller controllers for I don't know what I did with them I don't know I don't know what I did with them um yeah having nightmares from the wreck oh sorry that is it's like I think that is processing some of the trauma and so
you know I think cuz you know a lot of people like when they get into like accidents and stuff, they'll forget what happened right? And uh they can process it through their dreams. And so, I'm sorry you're having nightmares, but hopefully maybe it's helping you remember something. And
this is good. How are we doing? Hey, what's up yesterday? How are you?
Spinach Florentine bagel and a vanilla coffee. It's really good. I got the bagel store like last minute, so I couldn't get my hot coffee today. I usually just take a couple bagels and a couple coffees, but what's up free side? How are you?
Yeah, it's just been it's been pretty crazy now for all of us. I know. And
hey Janet
The other day I watched Alisa. I haven't watched Alisa for a while, but she just she just came back from vacation and u it was funny. The tan mom was there. It was a funny It was what I watched was really funny. Tan mom, you know, Tan Mama is um notorious for like, you know, she always ends up leaving
angry. This is you sitting here with Matrix, but she was like demanding Alisa like go pick up a vape from like So Lisa walked like six blocks to go pick up this vape for her and she gave her a credit card. Tama had given her a credit card to use and the credit card got declined.
And so at least I had to pay for that. at least like oh no you watch Tam's a riot yeah that yeah it was so funny and uh but yeah you know but she's getting back from vacation and had kind of fun watching that
tan mom had she like took off her glasses and her eye it looked like put lipstick had used lipstick as a eye eye um what's it called like you know eyeshadow it was all this bright pink want taste
I don't mind.
Yeah. Oh, you like that? You like that? That was good, huh? Yeah. Tan mom is the funniest thing was when Tan Mom that good and some cream cheese. Yeah, it's okay. It's just a little cream cheese. Won't hurt you.
I don't want to share with my cat. We're like family.
My little buddy.
This is very You're always You always want to be inside, right? He's always Well, no one likes to be outside right now. Rudy is sitting in front of the TV. Come over here. Hi. I think Trix is like a little You're like one of the stars of the show. You're a cute cat. I can show you Trix's baby photos sometimes. I just came
across all my baby photos of the cats. He was born under the TV. Lola was pregnant and she but she wasn't staying inside the house. If that got away from you, he's gonna get my other bagel. Um Lola was pregnant and she was starting to get really fat that she was uh
you know she she and Lenor didn't get along. So Lenor chased her out of the house every day and I was getting so worried I was like oh I don't want her to have the babies outside. But then when she was about ready to pop, she started being in all the time and the nurse started leaving her alone and then she gave birth. Uh oh. And
it's really beautiful. If you've never had a cat um give birth, it's a really beautiful experience, but it's a little bit, you know, gross a little bit.
Yeah, cuz the cats will give they give birth and then they give there's like a sack there like a big sack this like gross little sack of like the placenta or something
and the cat eats it. Sorry to be too graphic.
You like a leg? What do you like to talk about? Just give me a few minutes. Wait for the people to get up in a minute. Um, but I would like to sponsor a panel today. I mean, have a panel sponsored today because I've been doing it for um
free panels for several days. Um, and it's like I do have, you know, five cats to feed myself to feed. It's getting a little It's a little hard sometimes. I'm like, do I need to get get a job at
McDonald's now? I know it's really offensive like having like, you know, people say, oh, well, don't like if a guy donates to me, oh, he's gay. um you know why are you donating to a gay person or you're in love with the gay person you're gay um I I just heard ghosts of you know said someone contacted his family member saying oh
your brother's gay he's giving money to a gay guy people saying oh you don't deserve it you know I'm trying to provide entertainment and um no not like it's you know you don't of course you don't have to like nobody does like requirement. It's just like the people
that do, the people that don't donate don't have don't have to harass them. Um, you know, I don't see that happening to anybody else. I've only seen it happen to me. Um, people being harassed over donating to me like it's like I'm I don't deserve I don't need her or something like that. Um, I don't know what's going on with that. Can someone It would have to be me. I'm blocking it and I don't know.
Was there a reason why you're blocked? because you see there's a reason. But I did have Gotti like um in here. I forgot to unmod him and he was he was hiding people. But I thought I got everybody that he got pretty much. There shouldn't be very many people blocked cuz I did a mass unbanning just a few days ago.
Well, I have to go check and I have to go see what the comments were. Oh, thank you. Arbiter from McDonald's job. Thank you so much. Yeah, that'll help.
Thank you. Every little bit helps. Might be able to get a fries, but anyway, this might be my last meal of the week, so I'm going to enjoy it.
Sorry, I'm a little bit hungry right now. Must be my my HIV medication must be causing some kind of appetite thing, right? I'm just kidding. I don't of course really really um sarcastic, but
I'm actually on on no medication, but
I can't afford fish tacos right now. They're whole $5. So,
Okay.
Right. I'm confirming the rumors, guys. Every every horrible thing everyone's ever said is true. It must be true, right? Because, you know, look at the source. Consider the source of the people saying it, right? Aren't aren't these like the most trustworthy um you know, honorable, truthful people that you've ever met? Right? Aren't they great people? They're
really quality individuals, great human beings right? Right guys.
Exactly right. You know exactly who I'm talking about too who those kind of rumors. And if it was true, isn't that a night? Isn't that a quality person that would like want to if it was true, right? Isn't that a quality person that wants to say that to somebody like make fun of them for having a disease? Wouldn't that be Isn't that like a good quality person?
That's kind of more about their character than the unfortunate individual might have the disease. Somebody that's trying to shame them for it.
So whether I do or I don't, first of all, how would anybody would they have access to my medical records now? They do.
Exactly. He's sassy. You know what? I can take it, guys. I can take the people saying that about me. Just what really worries me is that there's going to be somebody that actually, you know, actually I've had somebody on my show that uh that was a
good friend of mine that that does have like HIV, right? And actually had people saying that that that they had that person's not been back since people started saying that, but they never like were even like hiding it or you know, anything. Just I guess I got their feelings hurt.
So, I finished my bagel. They're gone. Done. She's done. Come, babe. Oh, but yeah, I would just say, you know, what you what what you say about people says more about you than not not trying to single anybody out, but what what people say about other people says more
about them than it does about the other person. And often, excuse me, often when they say that kind of thing, it's coming out of a some kind of empty place. So anyway,
oh yeah, and mods, I trust you. I I trust the mods I have right now to take care of anybody. They're not going to tell you who to who to take out, who to keep, how long or whether to hide or not. You know, they give you free reign. Hey, Spunky. Oh, by the way, Spunky, I'm not 100% sure. I just Jamie can confirm, but yesterday I
did come to your chat and say hi. And then J um Jamie says I was immediately hidden by JT. So, just so you know, uh what your mods are up to and that if you don't see me in there, it's probably because I'm hidden. I can walk you through the unhiding process if you want me unhidden and stuff like that. It is a little bit complicated. You have to basically go to YouTube
studio through a web browser. Then you can find the uh there's like a little wheel and you can go moderation and you can unhide me. Um I knew it would happen. He is very bitter that I have hit him and stuff. So yeah,
and you know just like you know I would and I didn't think he would like you know do that because it's like I thought he would have more respect for you than to like you know go behind like I don't know but you can just check out the list but I love you and it's like I know I know you know this stuff might happen and stuff but
I want nothing but to support you and um and everyone here to support you. Okay. But he's mad because he would ask for mods so he wouldn't be hidden and stuff like that. And then you know, you know, but if he got hidden, it was me that did it basically
by channel. And there's probably a good reason I had for it at the time. But you know, I am I I'm constantly hiding then forgiving people. But it was kind of weird. yesterday on my uh after my show yesterday, I got a comment that said, which I I hate the person that said it, whatever, but it said,
"Oh, stop bringing um stop bringing us up and gossiping about us." Like, I'm gossiping. Everything I've told you is not gossip. Everything I've told you is just what happened 100%. Um I didn't gossip about anybody. I'm just basically telling the truth about people. What what what they're doing is gossiping about me, saying untrue things, spreading rumors,
spreading lies. I'm not going to ruminate on it, right? Untractable,
but it gets a little bit Hey, Rudy sitting right in front of the TV. Rudy, you want to come over here? Rudy, Rudy, Rudy, come here. Come here. I'm rude. Come here. >> He's looking at me. >> Hey, come here. Say hi to everybody. Hi, babe. Oh, >> yeah. Well, um, yeah, you're allowed to
do that on my show. You can kick people by donating. Yeah, it's called the clap system. I don't know if you've heard it. I have had the system for a while. A lot of people like to used to use it. You know, no one has done it for a long time, but yeah, it is a part of the part of the show. You can also, you know, purchase a reading. Um, if you do purchase a reading on my show,
I will do longer readings now. So, it's like5 or $10. Oh, I catch stuff your keyboard. Okay. Oh, five or $10. I will do like, you know, $5 a 10 minute reading 10 $10 a 20 minute reading. So, you can really see the full effect of it. Um, and I'll probably just do a like a few of those a show if if anybody's interested. Okay, the cat just stepped
on the keyboard. Now everything's up. Okay, hold on. I'll fix it. Okay, fix it. Hi, Nick. Yeah, he paid $100 for it. So, he got four four kicks, right? So,
uh, I don't do rule changes in the moment, but there have been things where it's like there have been, you know, I've never had like, you know, I think Ghost donated $200, one night, and so you have to kind of think on your feet sometimes. But yeah, um, I'm consistent with it. It's people saying, "Oh, you're not being consist." Yes, I'm being consistent. Anyway,
but it's not we're not here to like, you know, argue about stuff. I'm here to like basically I don't know how much longer I'll have the show or I'll be doing the show. I'm here basically to have fun and you know, say hi to everybody and let you know no matter what happens, I love
you and I had fun doing the show. Um like a like it was really it was really really fun. Unfortunately like people kind of went after me try to do everything they could to make
it not fun to scare away people to try kind of try to turn into something else. I should have known better and I I I'll learn that lesson in life, you know,
like what happens when I'm too nice or too forgiving and let people kind of trample over my dreams and stuff.
This is a kind person. This person like I I got this card yesterday. really cute from from like the GrubHub lady. Sometimes you'll get these messages, right? That are like unexpected. There's always something to be thankful for. There's always hope. Thank you for being your customer. Live for today.
Wishing you everything happy. But it's like it's like they're run me off. It's like they've run a lot of people off. Um like who wants to come on the panel? Like just people that hate me pretty much.
But I don't want to like say goodbye because I'm going to like keep going until basically I can't anymore.
But I don't know if I'm getting close to that point. But at the same time, you don't have to worry about me because I'll be okay. Okay. I've been I've lasted for 44 years. I can last another hopefully 44 years right?
or at least another at least a couple more years. Yeah, I'm not running. I'm not running. It's just like am I going to like subject myself to like or anybody else that I know to like abuse? know that's like not that wasn't
the intention of the show or anything or the point of it or it was it's just like the opposite of of any kind of intention I had for it and if it just has like been turned into that and it's my fault if I should be steering the ship at it. It got into my my lower self my south node which which is Aquarius. The south node is like Aquarius is like
let the group take over. um let the just be want to be be like a voice in the group or basically like you know have it be about everybody instead of just about me that the opposite is the Leo which is like I should be running the show that's my higher self does like should be in charge running the show um and
of course it's always easier to be in the lower self because it's like that's where we are now we're we're in our lower like on earth we're in like the lowest We have our feet, right? Our feet are on the ground. We're not up in the air and stuff like that. Um in the in the in the sun like this sky like the sun.
So, but don't but don't worry. like I'll I mean I don't know where I'll go, what I'll do, but I think of something, right?
But it was fun. Was it fun? It was fun. It was fun for a long time.
>> Like what I got to do is I got I gota go take care of these guys and That's what I'm going to focus on.
But yeah, I I should I shouldn't come on like in a bad mood and stuff like that, but I do want to and I'm not in a bad mood. I'm like, you know, I'm a little a little sad.
It's like I shouldn't have let things go so far that
I do want to say thank you guys so much though. There's so many of you have been s such good supporters. So, um even just like being here and being nice to me and stuff. Uh I know Thank you for that for those that were.
And I don't I don't know. Now I've like talked myself into like, you know, a kind of sadder state. And so I'm probably just going to lay low and like come back when I feel better. But I'll be back. Okay. I'm sorry. I
should have started the show and everything. Okay. But uh no, I'll be okay. And thank you guys for being here. I'll I'll be back. I love you.
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