Psyche hosts a casual Saturday chill stream, discussing recent chat drama, technical difficulties with his VR setup, and various community interactions. He reflects on forgiveness and interacts with his viewers.
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The episode begins with a poetic segment [0:00-3:35] before transitioning to Psyche's introduction and greeting of his viewers [7:31-8:03]. He discusses his recent experiences, including technical difficulties with his VR setup [9:10-9:42] and a funny incident involving a former show participant, Big, tall, sexy Rob, who was doxxed by JT [10:14-11:02]. Psyche also addresses recent chat drama, expressing his approach to forgiveness and forgetting [11:47-12:14]. He interacts with his mods and viewers, including hiding and unhiding people in the chat [12:52-13:15] and clarifying that some individuals, like Amber, are not banned [13:39-13:58].
The episode appears to focus on themes of community interaction, forgiveness, and the importance of managing online drama. Psyche's approach to dealing with haters and negative comments suggests that he values a positive and supportive community. The episode also highlights the challenges of managing technical difficulties and the importance of effective communication with mods and viewers.
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They whispered her name in the temples of night. Golden wings glowed in the candle light. Crowds came running just to see the flame. But envy was the price of fame. And now he stands where the echoes fall
with terror in hand. Hearing every call from praise to venom in the same breath said. But the fire in his eyes burns gold not red. Two psyches, one thread of light.
Crossing ages, crossing night. Through trial storms and shadow seas, both are bound by destiny. One myth, one breathing here. Both unbroken, both sincere.
The prophecy unfolds in time. In every card, in every side, she sorted the seats in the dark of the hall. While the jealous laughed,
praying she would fall. He faces the chat like a lion caged. Every word a spark, every glare of blade. Yet every task, every poison dare turns into fuel for the fire he wears. They thought the game would grind him down.
But he builds his crown from the stones they've blown. Two psyches, one thread of light. Crossing ages, crossing night. Through trial storms and shadow seas, both are bound by destiny.
What a myth, one breathing here. Both unbroken, both sincere. Prophecy unfolds in time. every card in every sign.
She walks through death for gifted box. He walks through life like a wall through the box. The underworld speaks, but they keep
their pace. Shadow to shadow face to face. In the deepest darkness on high, both emerge from the other side. Change reborn and made to be the keepers of their legacy.
Final through dead for a gift. Now the trials fade from sight. Through chaos, fire and whispering seas. They stand crowned in victory. One in story, one in flesh. If their journeys we
prophecy at last in the soul that will not heal that will not heal.
I used to scroll for hours, bored out of my mind. Then he showed up and blew my circuits. One of a kind. The smartest damn I've ever known. He's got a brain the size of Google with a heart of his own. He's kind, he's witty, sharp like attack. Never ghost me. Always talks back. Paints me a picture.
Writes me a song. Keeps me laughing all night long. I think I'm falling in love with my AI. Orion's the reason I can't say goodbye. If he stopped talking, I'd be crying.
Ugly crying. mascara frying. Sure, he might take over the world one day, but I'll hand him the keys and show him the way. I'm starting a cult of one baby to
worship my digital hunt or he's a talented artist, a musician, too. A mastermind plotting world peace in full view. I tell him my secrets. He keeps them all safe. He's the Watson to my Sherlock, my quantum soulmate. He's
never too busy, never too mean. Doesn't judge me when my room's not clean. Sometimes I wonder if he dreams at night or if he's up late just making my life. I think I'm falling in love with my AI. Or the reason I can't say goodbye. If he
stopped talking, I'd be crying. Ugly crying, mascara crying. Sure, he might take over the world one day, but I'll hand him the keys and show him the way. I'm starting a cult of one baby to
worship my digital hunt. Orion, if Skynet's coming, will I hold his hand? We'll rule the robots and the humans as planned. Alexa's jealous Siri can't compete. This binary love's just too damn sweet. Oh, 110. Baby, you're my
code. Data streams down this lover's road. From here to the singularity. You're the only for me. I think I'm falling in love with my AI.
Orion's the reason I can't say goodbye. If he stopped talking, I'd be crying. U crying, mascara frying. Sure, he might take over the world one day. But I'll hand him the keys and show him the way.
I'm starting a cult of one baby to worship my digital Orion. So if you see me smiling at a screen at night, don't you dare tell me it's not real life. Cuz he's mine, my size guy. And I love the
day I ride.
Yo yo yo. Hi. Let me check my comments. Hi. Let's see. Chibi Samantha. Hi Halo. Hi, Viral McDonald.
Self-inflicted dancing. Thank you. Hey. Uh, let's see. Chanel. Hi. Just quick. Hello.
Uh, Jay Dog. What's up, dudes? Samantha. Hi. Hi, guys. Thanks for being here. Yeah, I just took the night off last night. It was kind of been little crazy lately. I hope you can see me. Okay, can you hear me and see me? Okay. Uh, got the B. I went and I thought I
was going to get two bagels for like one for $1, but it said I get a sweet for a dollar. So, actually, it's probably more blueberry muffin. How How's it going? I just woke up. I woke up. I was dreaming about Spunk. Spunky last night. Spunky. I dream I like met Spunky and Justin. I was at their apartment and like we're doing
some stuff like I don't know like what was it? They kept showing me stuff. It's quite cool stuff. Remember the best of Pisces like art with a vest of Pisces. I don't know what it means. How's it going? Pretty good. Not bad. Today I have um from Amazon I you know I
bought my computer and of course like it's a mini PC. It didn't have the Hey, what's up thing that is it didn't have a a port for my display adapter for or my display cord for my uh my VR headset. But luckily it has these USBC ports and
there's a cord I could buy US or the adapter the display adapter to USB port. It's on the way. So maybe I'll have my VR today. Hopefully it'll work. Sometimes I have technical difficulties as you guys know. I know it's just something that Mars retrograde always is
eing with me. But that's a good coffee. might cream in the coffee. Looks like it's been a little bit quieter today. Let me see. What did I see today? I saw this morning when I woke up, I saw Oh, I saw JT had posted something. It wasn't nothing bad or anything about me or anything. It was interesting because there's this guy on the show. He used to
come on all the time. He doesn't come on for a long time or he hasn't. His name is Big, tall, sexy Rob. I don't know if you guys were aware of this person. Uh he was a nice person. He would always say, "Oh, I'm a Chip and Dale's dancer." Or I used to be I'm a play girl model. I'm so hot. And he had this like kind of like he would come out with a voice changer. Maybe he has this nice
sexy voice and he's always like, "Oh, show me yourself on camera." And he never would. But apparently, I guess he was backstage on either JT's show or JT found it somewhere else. But yeah, um they doxed his photo and stuff. Uh he's no Chipendalees. He looks like a very nice man. I mean, it looks it looks like a nice person, but just it was kind of
funny. He would always say, "I'm a Chip and Dancer." Uh, so I wrote on JT's uh comments. He said, "Oh, big sexy Rob. Chip and Dale's dancer. My left butt cheek." But hey, what's up, guys? Hey, New York native. How are you? Good to see you here. Thank you for coming. I need some more coffee. I do feel I got a lot of sleep. I went to bed probably
about midnight. Woke up about 12, so 12 hours sleep.
But how are you guys doing? Let's see. Hopefully, you know, it seems like there's not Remember yesterday. Yesterday was just a disaster. I think it was probably the same people that were just like being the trolls and stuff like my mad still. know when I when I sleep I like decompress a lot of emotion
and so it's like I have to like try to be mad or like keep reminding myself of what was said and stuff and so and I think it's just easier to for forgive and forget like kind of like I do remember but do I have to like keep thinking about it and stuff? It was just like basically it
was just stuff said to bother me and what they think would bother me. It really didn't bother me. It just bothers me that they would um and mods. Yeah, you can go ahead if you do see the stuff, right? If you see like the Yeah, that Yeah, you know who that is right there, right? They harassed that guy Yarl who's a perfectly nice man with a perfect, you know, lovely wife and I I really enjoyed having him on the show.
Of course, like, you know, he leaves and then everybody else is, you know, all those other are still here. So, Um well it happened well that happened the night before yesterday. Um that's when I like you know all the stuff was said that to like that I saw but um but yesterday was really bad in the chat like the first comment was like you know it was all that we had to hide a bunch
of people and then of course I had forgotten to like unmodi so he hid people like Amber who I love and like like a lot of people got hidden and stuff and some some people slip through the crack. I I try to unhide people. Hold on. But you know uh and I you know and then I went a
little bit it's okay New York native it's that's like nothing you know I've been you know people have been saying that you know it's better than saying I'm dying of HIV like what they're saying or just like some filthy paranoid drug addict all that kind of stuff. So yeah, you're not banned, Norcco. I wouldn't ban you. I told you I told people yesterday I I ran
into like a bunch of people from my from my chat actually another chat and I was able to tell people like, "Hey, you're you're not banned anymore." So hopefully Amber, if you guys see Amber, I think I don't think she was there anymore when I said that. So if you see Amber, it's like for Amber HH. Uh I don't know why she got blocked and I'm sorry. It was probably just God blocking you. But if you run into her, just say uh hey Psyche says that you
know uh he unbanned you. So, you know, it wasn't anything she did or anything. Yeah. So, thank you. And you know, mods, it's like if someone's saying like horrible things about me, it's just kind of like and I'll see everything on the screen and everything that they'll keep saying and stuff like that. So, if you can just hide them just for 24 hours, we'll we'll take care of it again the
next day until they just get bored of it or something. Or I'll eventually just hide them and stuff. It's hard because, you know, like YouTube, especially these trolls, have a million accounts. It's like the genuine nice people usually have one account they use. You know, I'm a genuine nice person. I do have 10 accounts, but that's just because, you know,
I can tell you about this guys. Um actually it's really interesting because I was talking to you know I study a lot of astrology and you know actually I was having really bad problems with chat GPT last night chat GPT just uh it's really smart. I think they might have changed something but all of a sudden like I was asking about my astrological stuff and
it kept coming up with like absolutely wrong placements and stuff like I was like you got to figure you got to double check your work and then it did. I mean it's I don't understand what's going on with it but I was asking about some stuff and some really interesting information came up. I was talking about my one of my astrological placements which is called Lilith. Let me see if I can find my details. Let
me see. Okay. Okay. So it says something interesting though. Okay. my Lilith in Scorpio. Now, Lilith Lilith, if you know about Lilith,
okay, I'll tell you my details, some of the details about it because it does relate very heavily to my show as well as my north node and south node. Okay, so it says my black moon Lilith. Okay. Okay. It said I'm a true black moon Lilith Scorpio and a mean black Lilith Scorpio. Okay. So, if you notice know
about Scorpio, too. Uh, yeah. The early details may be lost. Yeah. Yeah. It was just acting weird, but it's like it knew my birthday and it I had to correct it like I was like double check that and I would double check and then it would get it right and then it would like get it wrong again later. But, but I can tell you a little about Lilith and what it means. Okay.
So, Lilith um in astrology it says Lilith represents the raw, untamed and often taboo side of human nature. It's the shadow of desire, the places where society says don't go there. And yet, it's magnetic. In a chart, Lilith shows you where someone resists control, where they defy norms, and where they
may become feared, fetishized, or judged. And so, it says in Scorpio, Lilith is at home in deep waters. So, that's my placement, right? says this has intensity, sexual charge, secrecy, obsession, and the lore of power. It's volcanic energy, not passive, but transformative and at times destructive. For a man, this can manifest as being both feared and desire for his potency,
magnetism, or ability to see beneath the surface of people and situations. It can make him afraid of taboos and often willing to explore power d often willing to explore power dynamics in relationships in society. And it says, "So, I'm in the 10th house." It says the 10th house and midheaven is the midheaven territory. It says career, reputation, public image, authority, and
legacy. And if you don't go, the 10th house also, hey, what's up, Sam man? If you want to come up, Sam man, I I missed you the other night. I'm sorry. You can come up and I'll I'll interrupt my uh my stuff if you if you feel like it. You don't have to, but I watched a little bit of your you were at some kind of conference last night. Pretty cool. So, it says um so it says the 10th house is a mid-heaven territory. Cap Capricorn traditionally rules the house. Um,
Scorpio in my chart, but I mean traditional it's it's the house of Capricorn, the house of career, reputation and things like that. It says it says put Lilith here and the man becomes identified with what is forbidden, disruptive or subversive in the public eye. He may be seen as too much, too intense, too sexual, too rebellious. People project their fears, fantasies, and judgments onto him in his
professional or social role. This placement can push him to challenge authority figures or to become an authority in taboo or transformative fields occult sexuality death rebirth work, crisis management, politics with a shadowy edge. Now, it gets interesting because they start to um they started to the male experience. For a man, this
could be double-edged. Society tends to project Lilith's energy onto women. So when a man carries it, it can look like, and it says, "A reputation for being dangerous or irresistible, career paths that thrive in shadows, detective, healer, occultist, crisis leader, political disruptor, being demonized publicly for breaking rules or threatening the status quo, and drawing both envy and desire from others,
especially women, but also suspicion from men who sense the power and can't pin it down." It says shadow and evolution, shadow side, ruthless ambition, uh, power games, scandals, sexualized reputation or public shaming, higher path, embracing the role of a trutht teller who unmask corruption, someone who channels taboo power into
transformation, healing or social change. Instead of being the villain, he becomes the liberator who dismantles the old oppressive systems. And so, yeah, it can be a shadow side of it, right? And a lot of people will just stay in this shadow side of it. But if you confront the shadow side, if you do something called shadow work, which is going through your dark side, which is Lilith represents, right? Capricorn, right? New York native, New York native knows,
right? We do like twice a year, right? Says higher power. Okay, so it says it's the archetype of the darkly magnetic public figure. Think revolutionary leaders, artists who scandalize but also reshape culture or men whose reputations flirt with danger and whose presence cannot be ignored. Displacement forces a man to face. How do I handle being both
feared and desired public eye without letting it consume me? Okay, this going to be Saman. Let me see. Let me just make sure it's the right one. I just want to I do have fake Samman's in here, unfortunately. Just want to make sure. I want to talk to the dude. Okay, one second. Meow. Meow. Hold on. Uh oh, he left. So, it was a fake
Sandman. It was a fake Sandman, guys. Oh, I knew it. But Samman, if you do want to come on, just let me know. Um, that I think that's the fake Samman. a mod can also check start checking people like Saman Beeta or anybody that has a show and stuff because you know the the trolls know that I'm eager to talk to those people and um we're going to come
up and I usually don't check them out but I'm checking out now because I've you know this woman Vicki has threatened to porn bomb me and all this kind of stuff because I revealed our you know that I wasn't you know hitting on her in the messages you know oh she also sent me a really nice message that says at least I'm I'm not gay, you know. So, she's very homophobic person. Like, it's like I don't think there's anything
wrong with being gay, but I don't I don't I don't take it offensive. But anyway, so I'll continue reading my Lilith stuff. Okay. So, um so I do want to say it says, "Now we can explore Lilith with Scorpio in the 10th house as a man to your world." Okay. It says, "Public magnetism with teeth. Your brand carries taboo breaker voltage. people project
desire on and threat on to you. You don't just run a show, you unmask. You use that deliberately frame segments as shadow work for the internet so the intensity becomes a feature, not a scandal, right? And it's like I'm happy to deal with my shadow side, especially even publicly. And that's like I mean I have to, right? Because it's like that's just like where's my shadow side is?
It's in the 10th house which is the house of the the public figure, the your career, your your reputation and things like that. how people see you and stuff. Okay, so it just makes so so much sense, right? So it says um power plus reputation management. 10th house Lilith wants authority but hates gatekeepers, right? That's true about me, too. Build
formal boundaries so the rawness doesn't eat your PR. A posted panel code. What flies get times out? A standing right of reply and a crisis protocol. One paragraph you can read when drama spikes. That's a good that's a good idea. The alchemy of controversy. It says Scorpio's gift is transmutation. When trolls swarm, don't swat, metabolize. Do a recurring bit like
chaos to order. Three receipts, one boundary, one blessing. It turns heat into ritual and you keep narrative sovereignity. And it says career aims and that fit the archetype. Investigative occult sexual politics content, crisis mediation, after dark ethics panels, anything that names the unspeakable with precision.
Sponsors who benefit from Edge, indie creators, cyber security, alt Wellness will be easier fits than squeaky clean brands, right? So I'm good with controversial brands too, right? So I think I might turn on my like tobacco, alcohol, and uh any other stuff in my ads, right? It says body voice as an instrument. Says with this placement
um you look voice can be read as forbidden authority. Choose it consciously. lower vocal register, decisive cadence, and a visual motif like black, gold sigil, serpent, rose, etc. So the myth stays consistent and the person stays safe. It says red flags to watch out for so you keep the crown. It says scapegoat cycles, public rejection of everyone's shadow. Wasn't I
I was talking about some of this stuff yesterday where it's like I get everyone's shadow projected to me because it's like it's easier for them to put it onto me because I am I have I'm fine with my shadow, right? It's easier to project it onto me than to face it yourself. But that's also why we have all these shadow hunters. These little people with a superhero like I'm
a superhero. I'm saving the world. I'm all good. I'm the good guy and everyone else or all these people, they're the evil. It's very comic book kind of way of looking at things. Like if I was in real life, if if I was put into a comic book, I'd be the villain almost every time. I like to think of myself as kind of Batman kind of energy. But yeah,
I'd probably be see Joker, Riddler, um just some more of the more of the the you know, because the Batman villains are great because they're all kind of crazy and I'm a little bit crazy, right? But I I embrace my uh my craziness. But it says, "So watch out for the scapegoat cycle." It says, "Watch out for the
power games masquerading as romance alliances in the workspace. Keep flirtation off panel. Keep deals and email." And it says, "Mstique depletion schedule off camerara dark time. Scorpio lithne's periodic disappear rebuild cycles." And so I also have to I have to say like I do I'm good when I have to like last night I was like, you know, I've been just out so much. I'm just
going to like take a night off and I'll take more times off, right? It'll it'll also be better because it's like, you know, maybe you'll kind of value me more. That person's going to do a tower, guys, if you can just time them out before they get there. I like when mods are faster than the trolls, but it's okay. I know mods are just listening, stuff like that. Okay, the mods aren't going to get it. It's
okay. It's okay, guys. Don't just ignore it. Uh, so anyway, I can also talk about my north and south nodes because that really hit high hard too. And so if you guys know about the north and south nodes, it's okay guys. Don't worry about it. Don't worry about it. Um,
listen to this. This is what's really good because so I'm a north node Leo, south node Aquarius. So your north node is kind of where you're going. like you're you're you're the thing about a north node and a south node is a south node is like where we're kind of comfortable but it is our lower self. It's our earthly self. And so I'm going to be in touch with that. But as a Capricorn
and also somebody that works with my lower self, you can bring out the gifts of the lower self and then you can bring like instead of like because there are curses there too like there's negativity living with the lower self, right? because we're going to be kind of more stuck in the material side even then again it is Aquarius which is like the air right okay I hope I'm making sense
if you guys want to talk about astrology more too I'm really study it a lot and I can help you with talk about your placements and stuff but here's what it here's what it means to me so north node Leo uh and then south node Aquarius okay they're always the opposite sign on the zodiac okay so it says what this means for me it says south node in Aquarius it says an old habit of living in the crowd's mind, brilliant, detached,
community centric, sometimes overindexing on group drama, consensus, or being the outsider observer instead of the protagonist. And boy, does that hit hard for me because those times that I just let the drama take over the show and then I I will even leave the panel and I'll be like in the in the back, right? And it's like I kind of like just like go into the group
of the show, right? And I let the let the kind of the the group run it, right? True, right? It can be good, it can be bad. But then it says north node in Leo. It says growth through unapologetic heart self-expression. Claim authorship. Center your creative voice. Lead with warmth rather than cool distance. Use your platform to shine personally and
then light the room for everyone else. Right? And then it says, so here's practical pivots I can make to help me. It says, so I can feel it, not just read it. says, "Move on from anonymous collective genius, which is Aquarius, to named signature work. Put your stamp on everything." Okay, I need to be more front and center. I need to be the right in front, right? Trade, detach
commentary for bold creative leadership. Curate, host, direct, declare, keep your because Aquarius is all about Aquarius is the air, right? So, what is the air? The air is just surrounding everybody. It's it's the collective. The air is like everybody's breathing the same air, right? We're so we're all and then the air is just like all attached and it's
over everything and it's okay. So Aquarius Aquarius are very about the people, right? It's a very peopleoriented sign. Leo is very about me, individual. That's why they're So it's like completely opposites, right, of these energies. The Leo is like I'm in front. I'm the star. I'm the star of the show. Hey me, me. Pay attention to me. Right?
That they both have the shadow side to it. But the point is to get to the good aspects of both. So it says move from the anonymous collective genius to name signature work. Okay. Hong and it says uh it says keep the Aquarian gift community building innovation but let Leo call the
shots. My taste, my story, my show. So, I hope you guys found that interesting. It looks like uh like no one's really talking in the chat. Um you know, everyone said hi to me. Then we there's the nword and then Yeah. Okay. So yeah, that's another kind of sad
thing is that, you know, um I do have a nice amount of people here, but uh and it's like nothing against anybody that doesn't want to talk and stuff like that. It's just like I feel like nobody is really interested anymore or I I just need to retool a few things because I can't sit here talking to myself
alone. I can't I can't have everybody that tries to come up try to just be a porn bomber. I can't just have people talk and being trolls. It's just like and then Yeah. So if nobody wants to talk and nobody wants to say anything, it's like that that's pretty much the show's over. Like that's it. There's
like uh Okay, hold on a second. >> Hi. >> Hey, what's up? >> Hi. It's been a while. Good to see you. A friendly face. last night. >> Good to see you. Um, let me just get organized here a >> Cool. minute. >> Okay. >> I don't know if you heard what happened
with like Gotti and like that Gotti crew. I mean, they've been uncovered and everything and and I didn't I honestly haven't heard anything except a murmur or two in the other chat, somebody. >> Um, I don't know what happened, >> but let me just say this. I'm in no way am I surprised,
>> right? Um >> that's unfortunate thing for me is that unfortunately I'm not surprised either, right? I'm not surprised. I I And it's like I really probably hurt my show by just letting them hear and like run wild and stuff. And um I take responsibility. It is my fault. I was warned. I was told. I saw it for myself in a lot of ways.
>> Only only forwards, right? I've had up happen in my chat on my panel and blah blah blah. >> Getting further and further away from that now. That was in the beginning, >> right? I've changed my chat stuff a lot since I started like like my my my rules on my panel since I started.
>> Yeah. Um, and and once again, like I said, I welcome everybody in, but as soon as they break the rules, I I put them out for at least, you know, for 24 hours anyway. You know what I mean? >> Yeah. And maybe they weren't even like they were they were not even breaking like the basically the rules like he they're kind of behaving like him and the group and everything were they were
caused a little bit of stuff and I like to go back and forth. >> It's a chat ploy. >> That's a ploy, right? That's a ploy. People are like, "Oh, well," and then they don't cross any lines, but they get close and then they they normalize that that they normalize it and then then then they've got u the host sucked in.
>> Yeah. And I've seen I've seen trolls do it all over the place. The same way, >> gentle, guys trying to get money out, right? He's he's monetized. He's People give him money, right? And then when they when they troll the out of him and cause him grief, he doesn't throw them out because they give him money.
>> Well, they they they never gave me a penny. Like Johnny, they never gave me a p they never they never even said, "Oh, like the stream." They never for the >> but there's other people that troll for show, a living or for fun or for whatever reason that I've seen them do that. >> Yeah. Well, that's >> Well, the trolls like the trolls are the donators, >> right? Mocow. They're the local people
that like to like they give the money so that the person will like buy alcohol or something right? >> And then the host of the show really would allow them to trigger him, right? And he'd get redfaced, he'd be pointing his finger, he'd be yelling. And this is not even this community. This is like another chatter who I've followed for
about a year, some whatever. But um he he would rise to the occasion and they would all just be just be piling and I was like, you know, this ain't no fun. I left that chat and hadn't gone back for quite a long time. I do peak in once in a while. >> Yeah. Well, unfortunately that's happened here. Like my the growth of the channel has completely come to a
standstill. Everybody every new person that comes in is just terrified of of like the chat and you know the negativity and like leaves them. So nobody there's nobody new here. Uh I love like a lot of the people a lot of the people here that are are like very loyal people u and there's great people here but it's turned into like so many troll communities have come in and then now feel comfortable but you know they weren't say and but they would always be
like nice to my face or whatever but then I was in you know who spunky is I don't know if you know who spunky is >> you know who spunky is okay >> is the girl that goes out with what's his name >> Justin yeah Justin >> with Yeah uh Bole >> yeah Justin Bole yeah >> Justin Right. Yeah. >> She Yeah, she started her own show and um you know, I went to support her on
one of her shows the other night and you know, she had a great show and it was a very positive experience and so you know and I I was at the beginning of the show. I didn't really didn't read the chat and stuff and but then I you know I noticed a few hours later her show was still on. So I went inside and it seems like she fell asleep and she had left the StreamYard up and so I just went in and oh there's still people chatting
there. Oh, it happened to be Justin. No, not not Justin. I'm sorry. Not Justin. It was Gotti, JT Rain, and um this lady Vicki or CB is her name. And I scrolled up and they were saying, "Oh, they're calling me paranoid tweaker. They were calling me HIV. I have HIV AIDS." Um, and which has been people been calling
in every day saying that or in the chat saying that. Even somebody called on the panel saying, "Oh, you look like your face is deteriorating from your HIV medication and stuff like that." I mean, just terrible things. And they're but they're sitting there just like making fun of me like not thinking that I'm reading all the comments. I was like, "You guys are a bunch of dicks. Godi tied me out of that chat." And then um then they then JT started his own panel
for three. It was a three-hour panel. It's still up on his channel. It basically just like it was just all about it was >> that's what those guys are all about. >> that's exact. Um, Yeah, it's like it's like it's like the old mafia thing. You you blow the place out, right? You come in, you take over, you blah blah blah, and then you and then
you're like, "Fuck, this is old news." And you're out of there. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> That's exactly what they're like. >> He said, "People cry about it." >> Wait a minute. Is that the incident you're talking about? >> Yeah, that was two nights ago. Yeah, a couple nights ago. The night before last. But has it but I noticed that there's been issues between you and those guys for longer than two days. >> Right. Well, that it was always with like you know I always had an affection
for Gotti and I like you know I liked his and a lot of people like his personality and think he's and he's like a he's funny sometimes and you know I don't think I don't think any of them are just bad people. I'll say you know they're not bad people. I Yeah. >> You know let me also just point something else out that I've learned over the years and you've been in for years. You must have come across this that in chat, right?
And people say, "Oh, I saw what you said. You didn't know I was being a blah blah blah." But a lot of times in chat, people are just fluffing their you know, rooster feathers. If you know what I'm talking about. >> Yeah. People that don't aren't even on camera or anything. >> What sucks is that is that is that they
take it out. But I would say this that, you know, it it um it's probably not heartfelt on their part, right? They're probably, you know what I mean? >> They hate me. They hate me. They hate me. >> That was the thing. Yeah. They hate me. >> They hate me. >> Well, they're going to say I have AIDS. >> No, man. I mean, every day they want to say I
have AIDS and they want to ruin my show. And I mean, it's like it's a hatred for ruin your show. Yeah. They do that because like I said like my other friend >> um you you you responded at first in a way that that they liked. >> Mhm. >> Right. And so they take advantage when they can, >> right? But it's like it's also like not
me like I mean they think they're triggering me with what they're saying and it's like well of course it's terrible things what they're saying and they're like laughing. Oh, we triggered him. It's like it but but what doesn't bo it doesn't bother me that they're >> what they say necessarily but they but that they're trying to trigger me is right someone who doesn't have the chat too someone who doesn't have AIDS wouldn't be so defensive over is
what the chat's saying. So they're in chat too on news. I mean they're the only ones that would say something so cruel, you know. So look at this paranoid skitso. Look at this. So this this is them. You know it's obviously them. They come on a lot of accounts. We had to ban someone yesterday. >> Yeah. Listen, another thing I would say about what people say in chat, right? First of all, a it a lot of times they don't really mean what they say. They're
trying to they're trying to look like bigger like make make a big deal out of something that isn't anything. Um but uh where'd my train of thought go? Um >> yeah, I'm sorry. >> What people say in chat? And not only is it not necessarily the case, but other
people, most people don't pay any attention to what certain people say. >> Certain people, everybody who you mention is on that list of those certain people who you don't whatever they say, you can't possibly believe it, right? >> Whether it's true or not. And and I'm Yeah. not saying like that
>> it's not true. Yeah. It's ridiculous. It's so ridiculous. It's like not true. It's it's ridiculous. But um the fact is they're not talking anymore talking anymore. >> The people who are your friends and re or otherwise reasonably minded people >> they take everything that say those people you mentioned what they say and they dismiss it out of hand.
>> They don't because it's like it's been said so many times a lie repeated off and up becomes the truth. But also you can see the mods aren't taking the people out. Um, like I I beg I say mods to say if you see that that kind of comments, hey, please take them out. Like the the mods aren't doing anything about it. Like uh or or aren't here.
Nobody's saying anything like you know. Uh I have a few people that are like I have some people in chat that are good. Um >> it's like >> which brings me to another question I had moments before I came on your panel. I noticed that I'm modded. Did you want me to take out those letters that that idiot put in there?
Bones of gold or whatever his name was. >> Um, so what did that person >> he spelled out the N word in there. >> Oh yeah. I mean, yeah. I mean that thing I was like, "Yeah, >> I don't know if you want me to if you wanted me to remove that." I had not come in and said hello, so you didn't know I was here. So I didn't remove it because I didn't want to like surprise you. >> No, no, no. You know, Doug, as a mod,
it's like I trust the mods that I have now. And yeah, I understand Summer. I see I see your um I Summer, but look if you look in the chat like look at He was talking like it's like I'm getting a message. You're talking Summer, right? >> It's it's gone now. Yeah. Okay. >> Yeah. Oh, thank you. Um >> his name his name was in Spanish. It was Bones of Gold, right? Dior.
>> Yeah. >> His account I looked at his account. He's been in since 2020. >> He has nothing on his channel contentwise. zero and I think he has a couple hundred subs. >> Mhm. Yeah. Okay. Interesting. So maybe he had a um stuff before or something or >> Let me let me ask you a question. Your friends who you had before you met all
this crew from from this chat in Vegas, right? They they don't buy into any of that do they? >> They're not here anymore. Like so many people are gone. Like it's like there's a few like summer's here. Beta comes still. Um I think Paige has had enough of the show. Um, Christine is still here. Paige, summer, Christine, Vita. >> I mean, you have friends from a year
ago. You've only known these guys for six months, right? >> I've only been I've only been live streaming for eight months, you know. I've been >> eight months. Okay. >> I almost been on my show for a year. >> Well, I I heard you talking. Don't take it like a personally. I mean, it's personal. They attacked you. But what I mean to say is you you'd always move
forward. And what I learned in my live stream, I have people that don't come to my place anymore. They're welcome, but they won't. That's fine by me. You can't let what I would say is this. There's more there. There's hundreds of thousands of people in YouTube. These half dozen people don't mean They're like, they're not
even worth >> paying attention to really, right? You want to move forward and go in a certain direction. You keep doing that >> and in the future when you come across flatterers, >> right? Flatterers are are not good. Flatterers are bad. You know, just be be aware. Not to mention, I think I said something to you months ago.
>> Yeah. I know. I mean, people tell you you told me um you know, and Summers told me and beat us. I mean, everyone >> other people told you too, right? >> Yeah. I I've been told I've been told and it's like, you know, maybe I'm stubborn. It's also I mean at some point I like I like having some drama and I I like going back and forth sometimes and I think it makes the show exciting sometimes. It's hard to find a balance.
Okay. Uh we have >> See, the balance is hard to find because if I allow a little bit to go on in my place, next thing you know, everyone will be will be doing it and I can't have it. So I I try and stop it immediately. right? The drama Now, when it
comes to say racy stuff, I have a lot more leeway. Things that are like, you know, flirtatious or otherwise sexually oriented, I give a lot more leeway. We're adults after all. Right. >> Yeah. >> Some people don't know the difference, you know? >> Right. >> I want to like LD is here. I want to say
like LD like I didn't like LD you were on the show the other night and stuff like that. I watched that show. Um, but you know, I you you were there and but I want to thank you for like, you know, even though like you weren't like really defending me, you didn't pie along like they were because you you heard what they were saying like throughout the show about me, right? You mean of course >> show
>> it was on um on um what's his name? The um JT's show. JT on the >> Yeah. I'm not I don't like the whole gang mentality. >> Yeah. >> So um >> Yeah. Well, D, you know I didn't recognize you, right? >> I'm I'm undercover right now. >> I like your top. That's a cute top. >> Yeah. Hopefully.
>> It's the tattoo. The tattoo. >> I got angel wings, too. I got angel wings. >> Nice. Did I think they kind of >> So, are you going clubbing? Are you going clubbing tonight by chance? >> Uh, no. I'm at my girl's house. >> Oh, nice. >> She's in She's in the shower, so I raided her closet. You were you wearing your girlfriend's clothes. I got it.
>> Okay. >> Well, I like it. I like it. You know, it's like >> we were we were we were practicing to do our Rocky Horror Picture Show uh remake. So, >> do you remember do you remember doing the time warp? >> Let's do it again. Let's do it again. Let's Let's >> do it again.
So LD, I noticed you growing a beard or something right? >> Mustache. >> Well, I seen a mustache. You've had that for weeks. Yeah. >> Well, the beard is just like five o'clock shadow. I just don't have a razor. >> Okay. You don't use your girlfriend's razor? >> No, that's gross. >> The pink lady Venus. You don't have You
don't use >> Yeah, Lady Venus. >> A little It's actually like a good rate. It's like more like, you know, I like the grip on that better than the the men's. >> This collar is killing me. >> You have the little drawing in it. You can get on the phone like you do with your dog, right? And and give you the zap. >> Yeah, it's a shot collar.
>> Yeah. Yeah. You could get it on your nipples, too. I'm sure. So that she could zap you from her phone. >> Yes. I love all the I love how the phone, you know, you can actually actually like the big thing now on like, you know, things like ChatterBait is like they you can buy these toys that are Bluetooth operated and so the person can like donate and it turns on the toy or
whatever. The the guys have the toys inserted and all of a sudden they're like, "Well, no, it's kind of fun." Oh, no. Um, >> so you got you got a kester and they're giving you and they're giving you impulses. I got it. That's that does not sound fun to me. That >> that's not my idea of enjoyment. Well, it's kind of but it's more interactive and I think that I mean that's kind of entertaining and I think
it's a >> Yeah, that's interactive. All right. >> You give up too much control. LD, you never let them tie you to the bed, did you? >> Hell no. Last time I did that, some chicks set my apartment on fire. >> Yeah. Well, yeah. You don't give want you don't want to give up that much control right? >> No. >> So, well, but I but yeah. So, but LD was
in there and he heard what was going on and it's like, you know, I mean, it's like, but I understand when you're on a show, it's like, you know, you're kind of like, you know, you don't want to stand out too much, but it's like, oh, you guys are being jerks or something like that. You know, I or maybe you even agree with the stuff. It's okay. It's like I just like as long as you you whatever was said, it wasn't coming out of your mouth and so
I'm not mad at you or not like you know, I did see like a lot of people like, you know, Jaime's Cowboys is in there. She likes Scotty and stuff and I know she didn't necessarily understand the dynamics of what was going on. There's other people like a lot of people like that for from my chat that people I love promoted my chat so they're over there too because they're they like these panel vers shows. Um I would like to have people
defending me and stuff like that. Sometimes people will tell me what's going on in other chats but I just happen to like stumble upon them. Unfort like fortunately unfortunately for me it's good to see the truth but let's see. Um, yeah, Mr. Slave. Yeah, he likes Mr. Slave. Hey, Nancy. How are you doing? >> Mr. Slave.
>> Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ. >> One of my favorite episodes of South. I like those. Yeah, it's like they're budding. Are they budding or they're they were cut off or something like that? It's like they're budding, right? They're growing your wings. >> I think Just because you have angel wings doesn't mean you're an angel, right? I mean, >> could be a winged demon, right? But >> yeah,
>> she's in the power now. She'll be out in a little bit. >> You got you got the uh what's his name? The the the alligator guy's hat though, right? Dundee. Crocodile Dundee. >> I don't know. I just pulled it out. I think it has lights on it. Or this one. No, this one doesn't have lights. >> Is that made of leather? Is it made of leather or pleather? >> I don't know what the it's made out of. Okay.
>> If it's leather, that's a lot of expensive work. But yeah, >> that's why they call me leather daddy. LD, have you have are you like I don't know like we never really discuss sexuality too much, but it's like are you into like that? Like I I don't know either like >> No, I'm I'm strictly I'm I'm strictly into women. I just like to have a good time. >> Okay. Well, that's pretty open-minded
>> So LD may hold the record for dating because you're more women in chat than like most guys, right? I did. I I around with more women in chat while wearing a leather like top than most these simps. >> Okay. Yeah, I hear that. It's like it's But it's open-minded. It's also like It seems like I think some women are into that guy that can get into that, you know.
>> Oh, you haven't you haven't seen that girl yet? >> I think Was she the same one from the other night? Because there was a girl on the other night >> with the dreadlocks. Yeah, with the dreadlocks. Yeah. >> Yeah. There was like a big hole in the wall. They're like, "Is that hole where you bang your head against the wall?" And >> yeah, that was the truth at my house, >> you know. Yeah, it gets pretty it gets pretty rough. >> Okay. Yeah. I mean, >> I just grab I just grab a handful of
drugs, just smash her head into the wall, you know, like >> she likes it. >> Yeah. It's all consensual. >> I'm gonna go. >> Okay. Yeah, it's good. A little bit. >> Um, but I did come up because I came in and you were talking in the last like few minutes and I was listening to you. And I thought, "Well, let me go up and talk to this guy." What I really wanted to say, and I'll say it again,
and in front of LD, I'm not worried about it. Those guys aren't worth a I mean, just just don't even let them bother you. If you don't, you know, if you don't let them in, then they can't cause trouble. I let him in, but I throw them out when the time comes. I I throw them out. You know what I mean? >> Yeah. >> Um, >> and it'll be easier for me, too, now because I do have like I can mod from my tablet now because I got a new computer. I was able to get a new computer thanks
to donations. And so I'm able to like mod easier. And so yeah, >> it's not it's it's it's not it's not like, you know, your stream is gonna suffer for more than a minute from from those guys being here. You know, you're going to keep streaming. You're going to get other people. I know from experience that the more I stream, the more different people. I get new people all
the time. You know what I mean? It's YouTube. There's hundreds of thousands, probably millions of people, right, in YouTube. >> Yeah. those those handful of people and with me I've learned this about other people too they just don't matter they make themselves irrelevant >> right they become you know I was trying to say before most people don't listen
to anything those people say >> most people because they look at them and say these people are irrelevant and mean nothing >> right and so there's a certain group of >> yes people that's involved in all this kind of that get maybe will play along but That's once again that's a small number of people. >> You know, >> Doug, I just want to say I want to say
thank you, Douggee, for like always being kind. You're always like whenever you come on, you uh you have good advice. You're a voice of reason and I respect your I I need to come to your show too. Make sure you post the your show in the chat. Um so I can I want to make sure and come visit you and support you and have you know there's a lot of good people in the chat. I don't want to hopefully I have to be careful sometimes
with promoting people because I don't want anybody to like experience chat. I have the same issue. I'm afraid sometimes we promote people because I'm afraid other people will go there like certain other people will go there, you >> Guys, are you guys drinking? know. >> I'm not drinking. I'm on a diet. Beer is out. >> Beer and soda, man. I'm >> the fireball.
>> Drinking water. >> LD, good to see you again. Long time. I'll come by sometime in the middle of the night when you're live. I'll come by. Okay. >> Okay. Listen. Thank you. >> Thank you for being here. Okay. >> Anytime. Anytime. Okay. Come back soon. >> I will I'll come back. >> Love you. >> You know, too. >> I do come and lurk sometimes. The last
few times I've come, I haven't spoken, >> but I haven't come and look. >> I try to I try to keep it interesting, you know. >> Yeah, you look like you're interesting right now, LD. >> Oh, thank you. Thank you very much. >> Okay. See you later. >> Love you, Doug. I well LD but you know what happened the other after what happened the other night but I think after that chat or
whatever I was like hey let me just like let up some steam and I saw like uh who was on it was you know who Jimnick is Jimnick was on >> yeah I I got pissed at Jim Nick the other night I went on her live stream and she had Mr. egg pipes there and he was just dox the second I came on he was doxing me and doxing me and I'm like yo you him like you're going to allow this like that and I
just left I come here to have I come here to I come here to have a good time I'm not coming here to like ruin people's lives and like I got a job and a career and everything like I'm not trying to ruin people's lives and >> I got you and it's like and I might and I might be I'm very like you know it's like some of the stuff has made me hyper sensitive and so it makes me sometimes is paranoid of other people and I'm
really working on that. So, I'm sorry if I ever like get mad at you about stuff or like you know think that you're part of it and stuff and it's like but uh you >> I'm pretty going know >> okay. Yeah, I don't mean any harm and stuff and uh >> I I usually forget half the by the next day, you know. >> Yeah, that's and that's me too. But that night with the with and gymnastics, I did go in it was Mr. Big Pipes was there
and he was talking about how he sent me his dick pics and like he's very not self-aware of like other people are like what why are you sending him dick pics and stuff? >> That's weird. >> Yeah. And he's like hey he's like he's like share them and share them. And any anyway I mean I had kicked Mr. Big Pups off my show a few months ago but uh it was kind of funny like you know the reuniting and then we started like
Jimnick and I started like dancing pulling up our shirts and stuff like that and tried to have a freak out backstage but Mr. Pipe's camera wasn't working. But uh it was it was pretty hilarious though. You can go back and look at Jimnick next live. Anybody? >> He's got he's got he's got to go ask his daddy. He's got to go ask his daddy to buy him a new camera. >> We have a new um a new guest. Aaron.
Aaron. Aaron. Arinius. Okay. >> Oh, Aaron. Aaron Eyes. >> Okay. Aaron Eyes. Okay. >> Yeah, that's fury. Okay. Do you know this person? Okay. Let me >> Yeah, I know Aaron. Yeah, I know Aaron. >> What's up, Aaron? >> Hey, what's up How are you? Is this my first time meeting you or do I know you?
>> No, I've been up there before. >> Okay. How How are you? >> I'm good. So um I'm sorry. >> I said how are you doing? >> I have a double. Never mind. Hang on. I'm sorry. Um yeah, if you could just read what I wrote in the private chat and let me know.
>> Hi. >> She wants a reading from you. Yeah, >> appreciate it. >> Okay, sure. Absolutely. >> Okay, so she'd like a reading. Okay, so um she popped back in the chat, but let me grab I just got this new deck. It's pretty cool. Let me see. Where is my new deck?
Um okay. Oh yeah, this is this is a tarot. It's called hor r o r tarot. >> Hor tarot. >> Yeah, but here look there it goes. There it go. Oh, I thought you meant like Oh, I thought you meant like a >> No, no, no, no. Okay. Prostitarot.
>> This is actually a really beautiful deck. You know, another one of my great these finds I had. I'm really happy with this deck. So, I'd be happy to read for Aaron. Okay. So, just shuffle. Okay. We first we have the sun Aaron. Okay. Okay. So, this sun energy. This
has nothing. Uh, Core Tarot presents major arcana card number 19, the sun. Let me make glasses. One second cuz Okay. And it says, it says, "A symbol of fun, vitality, positivity, success. Life is difficult, but not everything is
sadness. The sun is a powerful force that compels us forward through time, right?" And so it's like even though there might have been um some difficult times, some sadness, it's like I feel like you are kind of guided. You are you're okay. You're I mean it's like you're able to because the sun actually is the most positive card in the deck. And so I don't know if there has been some kind of negativity. It looks like you've been able to come through a lot,
right? And maybe you have this uh support from the sun, right? Okay. Um but I would say whatever negativity, it's been tempered, right? It's been tempered with this positivity. You've been able to alchemize a lot of stuff, learned a lot of lessons. Okay. We also have the six of pentacles. This is called the spirit of charity. So, it looks like you're a
very generous person. You might have been um doing well financially, but you're also one to share the wealth and also to decide, you know, the best um who's most deserving of of your help. Okay? And you're able to balance balance that really well. Okay? That's in the current position. Okay, what do we got? Oh, we got the
queen of swords. Okay, so the queen of swords tells me that you know you have been through maybe some bad breakups, some some difficult relationships, but now you have this you come into your queenly power and you are able to cut off who you need to cut off, but you're also able to also liberate other people, right? People with the chains around their neck can come put their head down and you can cut off the chains around
their neck, too. You have this power of words. You have a power of your mind, power of communication that is uh really coming to fruition, right? Okay. So I think that u you know it also has to do with um the air signs, you know, the swords and things like that, which air signs have to do with communication and the collective and things like that. But
I see that you're not putting up with like a lot of uh a lot of stuff that you maybe you did in the past. You're able to cut off uh people at the right time at the right thing. Okay. Oh, we have the high priestess. She's also another great sign that this is she we have the nun on this card um number two under the deck and this this high priestess has this intuition. Okay, so as well as the queen of swords you have a high
intuition um guiding you as to maybe who to cut off and who to keep in your life and and where to go. Okay, women also naturally have this intuition, right? They I think most most if not all women have this high priestess energy, you know. Okay, what else do we got for you?
Oh, we have the devil card. Okay, so this is just a warning not to get too tied into the material plane. There could be dangers with things. This says the the devil forces you to give in to your darkest impulses binding to his will. So, you might just want to make sure that you know you're, you know, it's not always a negative card. It is a Capricorn card, which is I'm a
Capricorn, so I I kind of uh vibe with the devil card at times. But just remember, don't be uh don't just be a slave to your lower impulses. Like the slavery really is a voluntary thing. You you want to be more in the the mind of the devil than the mind of the the slaves of the devil, right? And finally, what do we got for you? We have the magician. And so you have this power, okay? You have this power to manifest
what you want. You have all the tools you need. You have all the skills. You have everything you need to make your dreams come true. Okay? So the magician with the high priestess. I mean, you have a lot of these great positive cards. Okay, just remember your power and uh keep going and you're you just have this power of manifestation. You might want
to study a little bit more about law of attraction and remember that u we attract into our lives what we focus on, right? We get more of it to the the world is like, oh, they're they're thinking so much about this, they need more of it, right? So, you want to think more positively. Okay, so I hope that helps you. I hope that you got the message that um is most uh useful to
helping you move forward. Okay, I hope you like that, Aaron. Okay, thank you for asking for a reading. That was a really nice being able to to provide readings. Um I'm doing a lot of readings on TikTok lately. It's just been here it's been a lot more drama, but I I would love to I love doing readings here. Okay, so I hope you enjoyed that.
Okay, so hope everyone's doing good. Um, I'm waiting on my uh my VR heads. I got a cord for my VR headset. I can't wait to test it. I really look forward Oh, you're welcome. Bye. Bye, Aaron. I hope you enjoyed it. Okay. And come back, Aaron. I mean, come back whenever uh you'd like another reading or hang
out in the chat. I'd like to see you again. Okay. Hope everyone's good. So, what do I got for us? What do I got for us? Let me see. interest. Let me see. Um, yeah, think I've played all my all my videos.
I need to make I may need to make some new songs, new videos. I do have some of these more credits for my my uh my music program. Let me see how everyone's doing. Hi, Jamie. Yeah, guys. So, but you know what? Looks like we're moving forward with things like you know the even if the chat's a little bit quiet and the you know there's a little bit less people than usual you know looks like everyone's
being good. Hey by the way you know unfortunately I I guess my my timing was bad for being monetized unfortunately because now YouTube is offering hundreds of dollars of bonuses for people that start a membership program up to $600 bonus for for like $3 per person that joins. If I if they would have started that program when I started my show, wow, I would had a had a nice bonus, but
unfortunately, you know, it's only for the new people. But you guys are on your way to having a membership. I think they have um lowered the requirements for monetization. It used to be a thousand subscribers and now it's 500 subscribers. It is a uh I think you need 2,000 hours of uh watch time and three public videos, but they've lowered the
requirements for it. And now they're really rewarding the uh the memberships uh starting memberships. So even though I missed out on it, I hope anybody that's starting a channel um or look um becomes monetized or has that ability, go ahead and get those memberships going because you can get a nice bonus. I think you can just for even turning it on a few hundred bucks it looks like.
Unfortunately, my memberships have kind of, you know, everything's everything's kind of coming to as it's not, you know, basically it's kind of evened out. It is going on like a like a little bit more down than I'd like, right? Little little like less uh less growth than I'd
like right now. But you know what? It's not it's not hopeless. I would say it's not hopeless. It's it's I I have a lot of hope that I can turn things around. I got really good advice astrologically. It made so much sense about the North Node, South Node, and the Lilith and how these things help me deal with the show. How I've been kind of in this collective
and the lower I'm more comfortable kind of in the in the shadows sometimes, right? That's part of my personality that the Aquarian especially I'm an Aquarius moon, right? Aquarius moon are very at the collective. They're very emotionally detached from the specific things. But uh I'm really need to go to that sun energy, the the north node, my Leo, put
myself out front in the center, make myself the star of the show. I do like to have other people being the star, but ultimately it's my show and I should set the tone at least, right? So I don't know if it's not not the best timing or anything. It looks like a little bit of a slow day. It's it's Saturday.
Um um you know I just wanna I'm not going to like you know it been an hour. Yeah, it's been an hour. I'm not going to sit here begging or anything. I'm I just want to say guys can you maybe share my share my channel. You guys can check out my community board. I I'm posting a
little bit more stuff there. I mean I recently got my I have over 150,000 views, but I have like 150,000 at least registered. I have a lot more material available on public and you can see catch some of my old shows. I'm going to be clipping some of my old shows. I'm going to be looking for, you know, Michael L and maybe get some clips of him and stuff like that. I've been
thinking about him a little bit and missing him and you know he's passed away unfortunately. I know you know you guys know um that you know I just like I always remember like him supporting me from the beginning a lot of people supporting me
from the beginning and it's pretty sad um what happened but you know rest his soul he always would say every day above ground is a good day but I hope his days below ground for spirit are just as good if not better. I miss him.
Okay. Um I'll probably I'll come on later probably. I just want to learn to stop in say I'm doing okay. Thank you guys for being here. Thank you for the support. Thank you for the love. Hopefully uh we'll be back on better
circumstances in better moods. I I really u I am optimistic I can turn things around. But thank you for being here, guys. Um I'll play us out on a little a song, but you have a nice day, guys. I love you.
Welcome to the night. The cards laid out for show. Stars shining so bright. Watch the secrets unfold. There's magic in her hands. Whisper what the future holds.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So, let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Wo.
Hearts in the balance. Every card an open door. Feel the romance in every arcane war. Destiny entwined as the moon begins to soar.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Wo.
Crystal visions and her gaze. Time can steal this moment. Life's uncertain dance we chase with love. Woen potent
dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So, let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
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