Psyche hosts a casual Sunday night open panel stream featuring cat interactions with Lenore and Bubbles, reflections on a recent interview with Alexander Mayors, discussion of the Fisherman and CEO parable about wealth vs happiness, and commentary on YouTube trolls and channel growth.
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The stream opens with a high-energy rap intro describing the show's chaotic regulars — Michael, Alex, Vita, Diamond, Paige, and Sides — at 0:04. Psyche appears on camera at 3:39 greeting her cats Lenore and Bubbles, explaining she's in a good mood after fixing her vacuum and taking a shower with 'spiritual soap' at 4:08. At 6:01 she notes it's 'a better night than the last few nights' and wants a happy show. She mentions doing a members-only live earlier that day at 6:24. A chat interaction with 'Kate' or 'Casey' at 6:58 briefly sours her mood when they accuse her of not caring about poor people, which she dismisses as ridiculous at 7:09. Psyche then recounts the Fisherman and CEO parable at 8:17 to illustrate that happiness matters more than wealth. She discusses her interview with Alexander Mayors at 13:19, calling it 'a perfect guest' who 'gets me' and reignited her love for YouTube. At 14:29 she speculates trolls may be bored, lowering numbers, but feels she's 'on the right track' with good people in her community.
This episode appears to continue the show's pattern of blending mundane domestic moments — cat care, household chores, mood fluctuations — with deeper philosophical discussions, suggesting the host uses the stream as both community anchor and personal processing space. The Fisherman and CEO story, delivered spontaneously in response to a troll's accusation, suggests a recurring thematic framework where Psyche reframes class resentment into a spiritual lesson about contentment. The extended gratitude toward Alexander Mayors indicates that guest connections serve as validation milestones for the host, reinforcing her sense of purpose amid platform pressures. The casual mention of YouTube's 'new rules' at [15:03] hints at ongoing creator anxiety about platform governance, a likely undercurrent for future episodes.
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Welcome to the madness
It's 9 p.m. Lights up Mike's hot chaos in the stream Vita calling in slurring words starting up a scene talking all that trash Then she flips rage queen mad at me girl, please the show runs on caffeine Sides twisted laughing loud whiskey in his veins slurs flying left and right we cut the feed no shame, but the chats on fire can't stand
podcast this a runaway train welcome to the madness buckle up tight boob slash an on cam chat losing their minds michael getting gong alex taking flight it's wild it's wrong and we do it every night page got him symptom hearts in the chat but she ain't got time for a dude like that diamond flirting hard let the girls react it's a freak show party no filter all facts
Yo Michael drops a line gong not tonight Alex tried to joke boom sent into the night panel looking sideways Someone's got a fight producers on mute praying this don't spike diamonds feeling spicy shirts slipping down low Oops, she says with a wink. That's the whole show sides half asleep, but still cracking jokes slurred out wisdom with a bourbon so glow
No rules just rolls we pretend to play
and we're trending in the press. Welcome to the madness. Buckle up tight. Boobs flashing on cam chat, losing their minds. Michael getting gong to Alex taking flight. It's wild, it's wrong, and we do it every night. Paige got him simping hearts in the chat, but she ain't got time for a dude like that. Diamond flirting hard, let the girls react. It's a freak show, party, no filter, all facts.
Yeah, all facts.
know the vibe
Hey, Bubbles. Bubbles, you like that? Oh, Lenore's coming. I say your thing. Hi, Lenore. You came right up. Hopefully, this is good luck. You're a good luck black cat. Hey, what are you doing? Hello? You can make kisses. Kisses.
Sweetheart. Hi, sweetheart. What
Oh guys, I feel so good right now because I mean not only did it take a shower with like, you know Nicely, hi, baby
Oh, it's a good nice shower. I'm like, I had this really good smelling soap It's like a screen spiritual kind of soap I got Um, but I also like I was able to fix my vacuum today. And so I was able to like clean up the floor fine Oh my gosh, and I came up the floor. I came up. Oh my gosh all the rooms
Hi, Lenore. I have to do a show right now. Okay. Oh my god. I'm kissing kissing kiss Okay, no, are you showing your butthole? No, no, no, no No, no form bombing Lenore. No form bombing me I expect that from other people, but not the nor. Oh, I love you, oh, she loves me, oh my gosh, she loves me.
See, sometimes when I get out of the shower, she likes how I smell, and she comes over, she likes, or she, or maybe, I think she maybe doesn't smell herself, but she usually does if I have another shower for a second. And then, so she has to put her scent back on me. Okay, you're just marking your territory, okay. Your sweet cat
I'm trying to do a show you kiss him. Hey go up there go sit up there. Oh Hey, how are you guys? Hey Samantha. Hey Jamie. Hey bubbles. Yeah, that's Mr. Lenore What are you doing? Hi, you're on TV Lenore. How are you guys tonight?
A little bit, it's a better night than it. It's a better night than the other last few nights, but I'm in a little better state of mind, okay? But I was like, I'm in a good mood. I'll come do the show. I want a happy show.
Hi, babe.
How are you guys? Yeah, I had a good show today, you know, I had like a little I had a members only alive It was just a little I mean it's accessible to members or unless I don't know if I believe you're not it's a very short little chat like how can I Won't say too much about it, but I'll say how I just wanted to know I just wanted to feedback from like, you know people
For the members and so and I think I will do like a members slide Yeah, I'm in a better mood. Hold on Kate. Oh, is that it's not the case. Yeah, I can't be it. It's not crazy, right? Okay, my mood my mood now my mood's bad again I mean Casey I just understand Casey Casey
Last night said like oh well, you don't care about you don't care about poor people or something ridiculous thing like that Where'd she even come with that? Oh, I blocked that guy. Okay, let me see you. Who is this guy home? Let me see Kate. He's the same name Looks like Is that the picture of the Sopranos cast? I think I see
Tony and big pussy and I'm just kidding. Yeah, this is a linar get your butt away from the screen, please Why are you so excited? Why are you so happy? She's happy too. Oh You're so happy Seriously, she's up for this my fate. Oh, you're kissing me Lenore Lenore. You're just so happy Why are you so happy? I
Think Lenore Lenore. It's it's gonna get a little bit explicit if you kiss me any more Lenore, please You think he was joking, okay? I don't know if he was joking because then he said I don't know Emma and I was I said Poor people because you don't care about people. They're talking about
I always have this story, it's called The Fisherman and the CEO, and it's about the CEO that takes a vacation, and then he meets this fisherman on the beach, and the fisherman
He said, hey, you know what the business man goes, you know what you can start a business and you can like you know You can start, you know, you know You can buy a couple buy a couple more boats and then you can hire some employees and the employees can go fishing instead of you and then you know, you just you'll just collect the money and it's like it builds a bigger house and and you know and
Then and the Fisherman's like well, you know
I am pretty happy like, you know, I wake up every day and then I go and I, you know, catch some fish and then I go, you know, I sit on the beach and I go home to my wife and, you know, and, you know, we have a simple life that it's, you know, we're very happy and and he's like the business
be making a million dollars a year. And then the fisherman's like, well, then what am I gonna do? And the guy's like, well, then you can go take a vacation to like some exotic islands and, you know, and like fish on the beach. And the guy's like, well, that's what I'm already doing. That's kind of like the idea, right? It's like where wealth is like, you know, the real wealth is actually, you know, our happiness
and like the love, like all the different, like the real wealth of things, because things, it's just, Come and go right real well to think the love of It is you know, and we live of course we live in a place where it's like, you know Not everyone can just like live on the beach and stuff like that, you know, but I Think you get the point. It's like it doesn't matter really
You know how much money you have it's like how happy are you and there's very happy Poor people okay, and there's very miserable CEOs, you know, it's so Like who's on the right, you know, it's like I'm sure there's happy CEOs and there's miserable fishermen, too But I think in general, it's a good kind of analogy of like
You know, like what were to where do the millionaires go on vacation? They go to these like, you know, maybe like third world countries with a tourist, you know a tourist kind of, you know, program or high tourism and something like that and
They they go to go vacation to experience like a life like kind of like a simple like, you know, pleasant life Away from all these worries the concerns and it's like there's so much to worry about and be concerned about in this world Hi, babe. Hi, this miss Lenore. What are you doing? You see Lenore tonight Jamie like
And this is just, no, she's so happy.
But, you know, it is, I mean, maybe it is harder here because it's like, we are all taught to like, oh, get this, get this, get this, build, build, build. And I was like, yeah, it is, but, you know, the more, but there's a saying, like more money and more problems, right?
Sometimes that's gonna be true. So it's like, unless you're happy, doesn't really matter how much money you have, the point is you want to be happy, right? It's better to be happy than
Just having everything you want Sometimes and sometimes having everything you want it takes like a curco ban used to say something like It's like well once I got like I did nirvana. I keep like you know all of a sudden I had a million dollars I could go into any Any store and buy the most expensive thing and you know, not even care
He's like but I used to like I used to love going to like antique shops when I was poor and like, you know Maybe I could afford Like a little something like little thing and he's like in that little thing I could afford at that time was more Valuable to me than all this other stuff. And so it's like, yeah, there's there's good ways to look at things Yeah, this is a mystery
Jamie Jamie worries because Lenore Lenore has been outside for a little while and like meowing outside But maybe it's because my I don't know it maybe she but what's like like really clean the house like really really good like She's like happy. She's really happy. So You happy yeah, this week at
You sweetheart cat. Yeah, I miss Lenore. Let me see. I have I need some Let me check if you have anything on you
Little combing
So anyway, I want to talk about a few things that so but yeah, so then today. Oh, yeah, please today I had Alexandra mayors or Alexander mayors on the show and that was such a pleasure. I mean it was like It was just a perfect guess for today like in just like that
Great conversation and it's just it reminds me of why I love YouTube and like why I love the show on YouTube because sometimes You know, you know, I can get down a little bit and sometimes they get trolled a little bit hard and stuff like that There's just people like her that like get me like they get me they understand they their
You know, she's a very kind cool person and I just want to thank her for everything. So yeah, I don't know how long I'll be on tonight. I saw there's some other people on tonight that might be more popular than me and stuff. I just wanted to come by and say hi. It's OK. And look, and I think maybe it's like sometimes
maybe the numbers are a little bit low because the trolls get bored or something like that.
With my numbers and stuff. I do have like a lot of trolls come in they come in they're like, you know I'll just say they don't like the street. They don't like this year. They do the quite the opposites, but uh
But I think I'm uh You know, I think I have some good uh, I think I think I'm on the right track on YouTube I think I think I've got some good people here. So I Want to show my appreciation and come on tonight and You know, let's have a good time while we can like
You know, the YouTube's coming up with some new rules and stuff like that, right? Yeah, these age verifications things they have they're starting to Run the the moderation by some kind of AI system and stuff You know Interesting
We'll see what happens. I don't know if I'll survive YouTube, you know, it might get too strict like, you know, tick-tock I like tick-tock a lot tick-tock a lot friendlier than here at the same time tick-tock is like I my most of my lives there You know get get restricted after like a little short time because
There's so many they have this AI running everything that every like little thing that happens You know, it's just like automatically they'll say oh well you're promoting outside channels, you're smoking cigarettes. One time I just had a little bit of smoke coming out of my mouth and they're like, you know, they just like, they all of a sudden just immediately says restricted.
Restricted is not necessarily that bad, but it's like, it does kind of a, it says, you know, it doesn't go into live fees, like the main recommendations. It's like, you know, all kinds of stuff. Wow, the door. Yeah, you can't really know a little calm. I wonder if I think that's some sweet medicine. Let's see if I can get that for you Who else is better than who else is on better than me? I don't say better than me
I'm that I saw like, you know, I saw blogger was on with Aldi and
Hmm, who else is yeah, it was just blogger was on with a couple people and he had like a nice nice amount of people in this chat I don't know who else is on really I just was like, you know, I want it to come on. Okay. I need to go see if I have some I think I have one more thing To be to be medicine. I'm gonna put it on the door. Oh, you sit right here. Wait, right back Okay
I'm burning some really nice incense do it smells so good. It's called evil. Is it called evil be gone or something like that? Yeah, I think I have one Being at this
I used it already, maybe I used it, I'm not saying it, okay.
Well, I need to take some more, okay.
The north is spending so much time outside that it really is, like it is, like here's my spot right here. I got stuff all over the place.
But hey guys, it says
Lavender okay, yeah, I'll put some lavender but I'm bringing this really good incense. Here's the incense I have right now. It's called go away evil this hand Rolled marsala incense six and it's pretty cool. I have a few so go away evil where they get this I think I got on Amazon. I think so
Got an Amazon, but it's a and I also got this a few other ones. Hey lecture. How are you? This is called go away evil and I am burning this I'm burning in front of the gongs. See there's my gong the lecture got me Hold on Little bit dark here
No, don't bring your tail there you have those incense burning I got everything clean I can see my vacuum I got things vacuumed Everything is Looking better, right? It feels pretty good. No pesticides. Yeah, we don't wish you know But yeah, it is some of the flea medicine is pretty effective
You know, but some people my friend gave me like this like a little pack of this like kind of flea medicine and It helps but I really needed a vacuum and I'm really happy to have vacuums
Hey guys, yeah Yeah, and so hey, Lexra and everybody Hopefully you're having a great day. I know I might be a little loud because they have my my Washing machine going right now But that thing's charging here. There's my little alien friend and some like lighting
I'm still working working on the lighting your kitty left all day yesterday. He never left the yard before Now you don't you can't let him it's outside anymore. Oh Is he fixed because it's like I know like, you know Like it's fixed isn't fixed but he's like the only male cat I ever had that's like didn't like that didn't want to wander He's like a little like
Yeah, he's like, you know, he's like a daddy's boy or something he like tricks and then like Lenore is always here And like Lola is always here. Where's Lola? I don't see it right now, but um Marbles I haven't seen in probably a couple weeks. He you know, he was back after like six months for a few weeks and
You know, he's gone again. I don't worry because that's that I know that he's probably at somebody else's house, you know Well, that should help a little bit from like the wandering like you know, I would say but um Yeah, they still like there's cats that like female cats are me out meowing I think the male cats can hear them like from a couple miles away
No, the Norseman back the Norseman, but she's like she's I would show is here She's usually outside like meowing and stuff and now she like naturally to come inside. Hey, can you give me a kiss? Oh, you mean kisses? Oh Yeah, thank God. I mean, it's like it it's it's when I had so many cats
Like my last litter on like it was on pie day last year. I have four boys one girl So and so tricks was one of the boys had magic a cat named pie cat and tux and had a female named Toya and All the rest of them took off all the rest of them took off your Christian
Um, but I know they just like like sometimes they don't sound like being in a place with so many cats and stuff and You know they were fighting with the mom and stuff now It's just like it's just tricks and like Lola, you know Like you know Lola's tricks his mom and so it's pretty calm Like they get along now like they like his they were they didn't get along like when like right as soon as like
She'd have to breastfeed anymore like when they when they'd hit eat of a solid food. She just started swatting them away So, oh Okay, so there's mr. Lenore. She's all up in you. She's all up in the mix tonight, right? You're all up in the mix. She's happy And I think cats are like she must be sensitive like to energy because I've been like such a good mood right now
But it's like and then she like she's here. Oh, there's oh, there's Lola too. Lola's coming over. Are you coming over to Lola? Hi You come and say hi to hi
Tricks is where I saw tricks you sitting right over there, but I think you got up and get some food Yeah, the Norse. Oh, you're very you're very protective. Yeah Oh My little black panther cat and she's so sweet. Are you sweet? I'll put on my link if you want to come up and say hi, I don't know how long I'll be on tonight
Maybe some maybe like maybe about an hour. You know, I'm trying to like Shorten my streams a little bit not to burn myself out on the show too much and just have fun and stuff like today Like yesterday, there's porn bombs and stuff like that, right? or the N were bomb and like, you know, attempted four mumps. So today I finally like realized and think, okay, well, I need to start, I need to ban the person from streaming or first of all,
if it's eventually they're gonna run out of accounts to user, I hope so. I hope they do eventually run out of accounts. It does sound limited go on forever, but I just recognize the names now. And so people kept coming up and the key because I started putting in like three readings in my tags. And so people started coming up saying, I'm here for the free reading. Oh please, I need a reading desperately.
I need help, I need help. And I was like, well, I recognize your name and you're like a porn bomber. And then they're like, oh, F-U, you know, you're ripping us off, blah, blah, blah. And I was just like, all this crap, you know? It's just like the same, probably the same people or something or the same person even, right?
Horn bombing it's probably even people I know some of the sometimes that might be people I know like unfortunately Alice might be doing it to me and stuff like as I The other night Alex I had him on the air and had talked him for a long time And I was like happy to talk to him. He started going over these conspiracy theories about who's who he thinks like I
Even like I think in summer said he's a strolling if he was going on and on about it for like at least an hour about it That is theories And it's like if you're just like trolling why you're just gonna waste everybody's time by making up shit like because he says stupid shit like oh learning So burdo burdo is raging demon I
Actually sick. I mean so it doesn't really make sense. It's like you have to be you have to be like either like really insane and Kind of like a little bit Not all there and a little bit not intelligent to kind of figure out like in the sticks on on when I'm on We talk at the same time that Think is on camp. I mean, it's just like it's just like just waste the time
but eventually He started like talking to you me and he's like oh instead of nowhere He's like oh and you mean looks like a man, you know, it's like you means a transgender and like blah blah In like a really kind of like rude way And then Yumi's like, she's like, I'm going to, and then she said that K-I-L-L-U, and she said it a few times. And then the people, someone in the chat was like,
oh my God, she's threatening, they're threatening, you know, she's threatening to murk him, oh my God. And it's like, of course I have to delete like a lot of streams because it's like, and it's just like a pain in the butt. It's like, and it's like, and I feel like sometimes I'm having a good time. And then it's like, There's no reason and it's like how many times have I have I told that it's just like calm down that you know just like behave yourself and
Everyone's having a good time that he has to come on and try to ruin it And it's like and I know like you know a lot of people you know some people like them some people don't like them But it's like he's just not appropriate for the show neither is they're appropriate for the show neither Are a lot of people appropriate for the show and so I'm sorry, but I'm just gonna have to like you know Refuse entry sometimes and it's like I know it's like some people are like
Oh, well, it's like freedom of speech and you know, it's like you're preventing No, you're you know, and some people are really into the freedom of speech stuff and I understand it's like I'm into I'm a libertarian I'm into like you know human rights and you know the abilities and you know not but I'm saying it's like There's some things that are just not appropriate and it's not the right context
And it's just like and I can't it's like just like the thing right now. They're like on YouTube They're like saying oh well, you know, we're doing age verification for everybody because they're like think of that the children It's all about the it's like and someone made the point. It's like, okay. Well, you can say
Well, there's lightning strikes, maybe like a certain number of children a year, so let's just keep all the children inside forever, you know, it's like, it's like, there's not very big correlation, you know, between like the child, the children stuff, and all you have to do is say, it's for the children, and then it's like, people really can't argue with it, because who's going to disagree with the protective children, right? I mean, it's like, and of course you should, but it's like I'm saying.
It goes overboard, right? It goes overboard with like, you know, it's like of course we should protect protect everybody, you know and especially children but You know, it's like that just can't be the excuse for Making things difficult for everybody else all the time, you know, and because of like under the
Excuse it because I just feel like it's kind of like they're just using that kind of like as an excuse. Happy Monday, Yumi The problem I chose my chat over Gaudi and Tom Flash. That's why I got poor I chose my my chat over Gaudi and Tom Flash. Well, Gaudi and I are friends and I mean, I don't know if that's a real Tom Flash I don't I mean, I really don't care. It's like You know, he was on the show, like I got like porn bombed by somebody,
you know, in a really like disgusting way. And then Goddy is defending that person, other people are saying, oh, it's not the same Tom Flash. I don't know, I don't know who would pretend to be someone named Tom Flash. I don't think he's that big enough of a YouTube star to like go around imitating him. And then I did see someone in that, with that name in Vitas chat saying, oh, I'm taking down Psyche,
And thinking that he is my can't take it now I don't know if it's the same person or not But I did have him on my show very recently and so I still know why is it cool coincidental someone's gonna come under that Name is heading to be that person like I don't even I barely even know who the actual one is, right? so
Tomflash only took his dick out on your panel one time and you hate him ever. No, it was because he came on another time Phone command and he he put a cp ball It was like he played and I didn't see it but some but some people were saying it was some kind of like Dan Schneider Nickelodeon kind of I don't know what it was that it just sounded like it's very inappropriate for my show and it's
People were like, oh my god, take that down right away. That's that's a really big gap So I did and I just like thought like oh my god Well, if someone's gonna put that kind of stuff like and people do Horn bomb with that because it is like very serious and kind of take people's channels down really I'm a little bit too fast for them. You know these people that try to do that shit but
I don't know and I don't know what you're here and defending that person Yeah, you me and I just and I know I know it was it was this hit he pushed you to that level where you get you Gonna go said I know you wouldn't normally say you know That way where you said it. It's okay. It's okay It's just like I can't have him on anymore because he's and he antagonizes people to such an extent
And it's like of course like you know and we do have I do have my show monetize, you know kind of based on You know, I get donations sometimes based on people wanting to kick people off and so sometimes I have been kind of like, well, I'll have controversial or bad people on sometimes because, you know, maybe, you know, it'll be good for business, but it's not really worth it.
There's some people that are just like, it's gone too far.
There's a lot there's so many people here that are such great people and are such the supporters and there's such that businesses beginning Then to and it's like I don't want to like make have them feel like I'm choosing somebody else or You know over them or I care so I Just have to be more more cautious about
Especially now we're going we're going into a more dangerous kind of YouTube era where it's I think that the AI is gonna be moderating things. On TikTok, it's a little bit tough. TikTok is a nice place and it's a fun place and it's really cool. But at the same time, it's really strict with what you can say. Oh, you're never leaving, Jamie. Thank you.
Yeah. And, uh, hey, can't see me. One, two, three. No. Wait, who's No? I'm not a NoList, but yeah. So I mean it's like and then sick I like like sick I was like I was like Let me just try one more I tried a million times that I keep always say I'll try one more time with him and stuff like that
But I did try one more time with him last night and he started saying it's just some bullshit, you know instantly like not even like oh I'll be nice for like a minute and then you know that I'll go into it He just instantly goes into his bullshit. And so I was like, yeah There's some people I just don't need to have on you know, and so I'm sorry if like one of your favorite people
because like you know some people you know some people are like oh put on sick I want I want to talk to stick I want to talk to you know there are people in this like they're basically a troll you know kind of trolling communities that think that these people are funny I think the jokes the jokes over it's like it's not there it's I don't think it's I don't think n-word bombing I don't think
I'm gonna put up my rules right now too. I just said and I guys I did update my channel description I put the rules in there the rules are on here. You know, this is not for the this is not for the trolls. This is for everybody else to know I'm not gonna put up with it. You know, it's like I The trolls aren't gonna follow the rules, you know, it's like but I do take them seriously and I've had these same rules
I haven't altered that in months, you know and
And it's going to be pretty much no tolerance from now on about the rules. It's like, maybe I'll give up mourning or something like that, but it's like, I mean, they're so simple. No threats, no hate speech, no doxing, no playing music, no slander, no nudity. Respect everybody. Your main account's hidden. Well, yeah, probably JT. I don't know if that has anything to do with the other night
Where it's like you were extremely rude also somebody named rain was very extremely reaching me last night Just talking about your trash in the chat that I had to hide So I'm not sure if that was her but her name was rain And it's no offense to you or your girlfriend or anything And I don't mind you. I mean you're okay, but it's just like I'm not gonna have Like I'm at the point where it's like
Now, I have a lot of people upset with me over things other people have said, right? And they're like, well, why didn't you defend me? And at the time, I was like, well, I was like, I was trying to, you know, maybe it's entertaining for the audience, but then it happens to me. And then it's like when, you know, people do it to me, it's like, okay, I understand. It's like, it's not funny. It's not fair. It's like, it's like, it's offensive. And then it's like, and then it's like,
sometimes I look to the hosts like, well, why aren't you at least saying like, something, you know, like why are you and it's even worse when the person laughs along with it or Elaborates or like agrees with that especially if they're your friend and it's like that's very painful And I never did agree with any of that or you know, I would know if the person if I felt the person was truly offended
I would either like you know, take the person off and they'll leave the episode and things like that but It's like I've missed not it's like it's just not in a second. I know God he was talking about oh, well I'm just no I'm just having some fun. This is just what I do, you know, and it's okay, and I think but I'm trying I was trying to say like you know because that was like you know
We had D oceans on and like there's all these people like JT you're rude to her and you know God he was rude to her and LD was rude to her and There's like two other people. It was just like the ray one guy was rude to her and all these people were rude Did not even meeting her before or knowing anything about her just very rude to her
Getting very personal about weight and you know all this kind of stuff and then And then people are like, well, that's why it's why, you know, we take people off. And then people are like, well, why did you defend her and you wouldn't defend us? I'm like, because I'm trying to, like, change, to, like, defend everybody now. And I haven't had the opportunity to, like, defend you yet. I'm trying to keep people off that I know we're going to do that.
And some people aren't going to go after you. Like, they'll go after other people, you know, like that. So you could have been rude. You never called her, oh, you didn't? But it's interesting you bring up that point because I didn't say what you said and you're bringing up this point About what you didn't say and you did say it in another words, okay?
I'm just letting you know is like you're not I'm not gonna have people be rude to the anymore guests. I'm not gonna like it's like
It's I mean it's like I mean rude maybe they'll be rude right nor it can be back and forth It's not gonna be slanted. I'm not gonna let this like any kind of slanderous things go and it's like or it's like and there's There's things that are just too rude, like things that are just so inappropriate and off-topic and just throws off the energy offend people and also I have a few I just a few people here that are like, you know in the
Terrarier or psychic or channel or community a Lot of them just like come in here and are like, oh, I don't like the energy, right? It's like and it's like and I can't take the energy sometimes either. It's hard sometimes And then so it's like if I have somebody that has actually on the on on topic of my show because my show is not
Supposed to be just like talk a bunch of bullshit all night and then you know and then you know Hey don't hate on me. Hey don't all the guests and and hate on tarot and everything. And just like everyone had a free reign up here. I don't understand why it's like I'm expected to like just allow everything. Like even like when I was like, you know,
when I started I was like, you know, oh, ban this person, like ban this person, ban this person. And I had so many people saying, oh, no, no, no, no, no, don't ban them. No, no, we like them, we like them, we like them. And it's like, and they have their little. They're a little group too. I don't know who some of these people are. Okay, yeah, so this is, okay. So there's someone backstage, this is a porn bomb. They already exposed themselves. Patrick Rowe, guys. If you see Patrick Rowe ever in your chats,
that Patrick Rowe is a porn bomber. And just make sure you do not let him up on your screen. I just saw a very shocking thing backstage. I didn't want to see it. It was basically an obese man masturbating. That's what I had to this to you right now. I don't want to put anybody else through that and So fuck you Patrick row, you know, you're not gonna get on anymore
I'm gonna be you said I called her you know You said something very along the lines of that where he's like, well, how do you know that's real or what? What do you what do you know about anything? I mean, it was just like a very and then I think and that was after Ray and then you know Dottie says something about her weight and then Then then LD of all people are is also harassing like what what right LD?
Do you think you have the right to harass anybody either? I mean it's like I mean it's like we just think you're like I Mean it's like after what people do to you, and then you're gonna go do that to other people. I just don't understand I'm like I'm like I'm waiting for compassion for someone and I think that some people would have compassion because Yeah, they get people saying all kinds of crap about them and there's accusations and there's like, you know
Oh, we have your police report this and that and I was always like on their side But it's like anytime it's like as soon as is that sad anytime anybody else There's any kind of weakness and anybody else these same people that are jumped on will jump on people. It's sad, right? It's okay. It's okay. And I got that in. Yeah, I just see I need to do some clean up in my chat because it's like
Yeah, it's like all you chose that you chose this is like, you know It's your fault. It's your fault for winning a show like Howard Stern, right? And you know, you can't do anything about it or if you do you have to dismantle the whole show I don't do this man a little show. I can just run the show differently I can just decide have people who I want on the show in the chat and mods if I hide somebody Please do not
unhide them, okay? Do not untie them out. If I see that, I have to unmod you because I have been seeing a little bit of that where someone's hidden for like hidden or put on like a 24 hour timeout and then it's put on like a five minute timeout by somebody else. Sometimes it's an accident, but I need to trust the mods.
And also mods is like, yeah. I mean, there's, I don't think people understand, they're like, oh, well, why'd you unmod me and stuff like that? Well, it's like, well, you're insulting my guests, you're insulting the chat, you're breaking the rules on the show. I need mods to be able to enforce the rules. And so if you're not able to enforce the rules, just say, unmod me. And I just want to be a part of the chat, I want to be able to say whatever I want,
because I expect a little bit more from the mods, like to be able to, stand behind me not to like oh well I have a problem with this person I have this person said this is about me and it's and it's personal right it's like because people will like Like antagonize the mods and stuff like that and so and I'll do my best to protect people if you feel like you're being attacked by anybody
But it's like and you can let me know if a mod is like being unfair or something like that But I've just seen mods being way too lenient. So you're saying good about what? Good about what JT I can't see and so there is that rain into rain slapping JT show him you mean What is the MIP you went to mr. WD's treatment barking a lot about psyching your friends and you recorded it. Oh Alice did
He went to Mr. W. Oh, can I um, well, I can't listen you mean you have discord I don't want to play it because then they're gonna be like, oh my god He's playing, you know, the sort of copyright strike me But I do want to hear it and so if you can just do it from privately on discord or something or um You know, I'd appreciate that robot no
Um, let's see and rain is laughing about what and just need to see and she says anyways and then she said I wasn't lose anybody Don't know maybe Nate rain and JC. Are you like are you right for the show? I don't know. I don't think you I mean I Don't I don't really think you are I don't really think you are
Like what do you I don't think it's similar why you're here. I mean at least Goddy is like There's like a reason like right and it's like in it. Hey you guys I really don't understand like why are you here?
You can't laugh about anything. You're weird, psyche. Okay, well I can laugh at this right now. Oh Rayne got hit on the channel and so did her boyfriend JTA. I'm never gonna talk to them again. Ah! It's a free country. Yeah, well, it is a free country, but it's not a free show. Okay. My show is like it's like, you know You know, it's basically I'm gonna be running it like a dictator now
Okay, because it's my show and it's my responsibility to protect the show and the guests and everybody I know I know I know and it's just way too long. It's just way too long I mean, it's like they there's nothing like I was so nice I like made a card for him I know I was like all his girlfriends just been a CUNT to me And then he's been an asshole the whole time and it's like there's no redeeming quality to either of them
So bye go to somewhere else go troll under some other bridge. Okay? This is a nice place. This is like This is not I mean, I was I would hope that you would like you know At least Gotti get like kind of get like he's like, you know, I think he has some kind of affection for me You guys never did you guys were just assholes the whole time and I was nice
I tried to be nice and you're fake. You're fake too with your little emails I don't want to even share your emails like JT, but you're just like kissing my ass and it's like, okay You're not like you don't feel this way. You're just kissing my ass just like be able to like Stay or like to get modding begging for mods by the way begging for mods after he's doxing
Like the mentally ill children or you know, so no no 30 comments ago. Yeah, I know they can take I'm taking a little longer Robots streamer. Maybe I will I will uh, you know, take you up on that offer. Hey 44 people in the chat. This is awesome. Hey, what's up guys, you know?
It's an honest I key art in case the in case the I don't know if you're the same KZ or not or whatever. KZ seems like a very, you know, like a little bit of an unusual name for a bunch of people to have that come to the show.
Sorry guys, I'm gonna be like as bitchy and as mean as Emma now Okay, you know Emma like if she sees one person say one thing she doesn't like I was her mod for months And I was always just like on her side on her like, you know Promoting and no modding. I was just such a good. I did one joke She didn't like it like and it was they kind of like
They're gonna be debate about the joke or how how appropriate or inappropriate it was But she she didn't like something she'll just kick you out and that's it. I'm banned on tape accounts there, okay? Am I gonna go cry about it? No, I'm just gonna finally accept accept it. And so you're just gonna you guys are gonna have to too, okay? So, okay
Thank you, Yumi, I'll go check that out, you know And I will consider modding you too Uh, let's sort of doctor mad. I just like if I'm gonna mod somebody from now on like I've modded enough people now again I've remodeled some people and stuff and that I am me watching them, but um
Yeah, it's like I need to need to know you I need to like just like know you a little bit like at least Where's beta? So I mean this morning. I got I mean yesterday. I got I don't know if I should go into this But yesterday got a message from sweet he Yeah, it was a post and she's like, oh, she's like, okay. Well, she's like, oh, well you're it was just like basically like
Oh, well, I can't even like be friends with you anymore because you know You're overreacting and like, you know, and you're making me feel bad because I made a joke and I didn't mean it like that or whatever and then I was like, okay, well I Was like, okay, well you're being I think you're being a little oversensitive about it Cuz I wasn't even like you're really that mad about anything. She's like well, I'm and then
She's like I'm over sensitive and I was like well, it's like and then I just mentioned I was like well like you and Somebody else were kind of like harping on me. I felt bullied actually because I kind of like Just to test as I pretended I was offended about some certain word to see if like it would be like hammered down my throat You know after that
And it was and they did you guys you can see I'm being tagged in posts with these stupid songs different songs and parodies and like this like And it's like well am I supposed to think it's funny or am I supposed to have my feelings or I mean it's like It's like why would you share stuff with somebody if you didn't want to like?
If they didn't think it was funny or if someone's bothered by something, I mean, some people are like really good friends and it's like, you know, they just goof on their friends and they don't care. But it's like... If like all these people are more carpeting on it then gets other people involved and then it's like and then it's like everyone's thinking Oh, okay. Well, let's think this is funny to troll and it's like if it's trolling then it's not like you're being a like a good friend
So and then she's like, well, I'm sensitive and so anyway beat is mad at me I mean be the be the like I actually called me at 10 or she could but she's not been around but I'm sure I might hear from her You know and the chat or something like that, but every every time she says anything. It's it's almost always negative and it's like she has them like really you know care about me that much for the last few months, but
Again, it's like it's other people have gotten in the middle of the relationship Like I always told her I was like I could see when the Janet stuff was happening like when it was Janet and Vita And I were like, you know, like we're all up here and stuff in the And people would say, oh, Bita and Jan are trying to take over your show. They're doing this or do that. I'm like, well, it's like they're going to try to split us apart because we're tight, right? And it's like, and they don't, nobody,
certain people don't like any tight relationships. And so they'll start trying to get people's suspicions of each other, which they, I mean, unfortunately, this exceeded. And it wasn't with me. I didn't, I never left these people. I mean, it's like, or, you know, and, but I feel like, Especially in one of the circuit circumstances She has a lot of people around her that hate me
They talk a lot of shit about me to her And then she agrees with it. I mean it's like even if she doesn't agree with it She laughs she elaborates on their jokes and it's like You understand it's like They're doing this so like, you know pushes the part and it's like and you fell for it
It's called the okie-dope or something like that, right? And it's like and it's hurtful And so I'll talk to her but it's like every time she calls she'll be mad at me And I did something wrong and it's like and then I will go back to like oh well You didn't have my back when Arthur said this like six months ago. I Mean it's like we really have to go back six months I mean it's a can't we ever move on from it. It will never we'll never be able to move on, right?
What? Where do I stay? Can you come visit it bad by breeze? I can put it anywhere in his puppets called the flying monkeys They'll do it MPD MPD says. Yeah. Yeah, we'll call him NPD from now on Alexander NPD because it's just Alexander narcissistic personality disorder What was the joke you're talking about the joke on Emma's?
The chat is doxing hand. No, it's not doxing handles. This is like how YouTube is doing it. So what are you talking about guys? It's not something I do with me. Are you are you are you crazy? I Can put it anywhere. I'm avoiding the question. What are you saying? Where do I stay it? Can I come visit? I?
Can't change it back to names guys hot you mods can just hide these people these people are insane I don't have anything that it says that it is I'm it's not me. It's YouTube you idiots I mean are you like dense do you think I have any control over how people's names appear in my chat? I didn't change the setting to put other people's handles if there is a setting like that
What are you guys are you dense you understand YouTube is changing right now and YouTube is changing how they're doing things There's nothing to do with my show
Ridiculous And see this see that guys this is just like people annoying me you to get it They don't get it The thing are you on any other shows? Do you think? You think that was somebody using a voice changer a bad boy breeze who he's talking about you're like Okay, yeah, okay, so bad boy breeze please please mods. I'll do it. I'll do it
Yeah, I mean it's like but this is the kind of people. I don't want here. Okay. These are just people just trying to Try and to distract and take it like it ruin the show basically. I don't like it Okay There's the other person you see they're gone. Okay, I
Mean the other person their message is don't even coming up on my screen. You see bully. I don't see. Oh, I don't see any bully Thank you Do you guys see that bully first? I need to go all messages, all messages, okay? And now I see it. Because their message is going to come up because they're so unconsequential,
but yeah, these kind of people I don't want in the chat. Okay, they're just they're just trying to stir up trouble because then some people will think oh my god Do you know it's like him doing that like and they're gonna think I did it to all of YouTube or something right? It's like because people are just like sometimes they just listen to other people They're I'm gonna be blamed for people's handles the other chip by the way change your handle is
Oh, it's really dead Canada dry and by the way Canada dry go fuck yourself How about you're how about you're hidden too?
Mods, if people start saying that shit, kick them out, okay? It's really dead, 45 people in chat? Really, it's really dead?
Sure.
45 people is a very decent amount of people. I mean, especially since I've been on for, I've been on for almost an hour, but now it's 46 people. I mean, it's like, Guys you see it's like not the question it's like people that ask that kind of question That's not it's not like an honest question. Am I supposed to know where everybody is? Am I supposed to? Oh? Oh, well there it you know am I supposed to know everybody's no
It's just like to make me looks bad them to make the show look like it's dying or something like that, right? That's all that's all it's about and I see their game It's like their troll game is so weak if I and I don't troll And I don't troll them, but if I was to troll them, I mean, and that's why they didn't let me have a show because they couldn't, they wouldn't last a minute to a professional. Like I mean, it's like, yeah, Canada lie. Bye, Canada lie.
We're real, real sorry to see you go. You brought, you were such a joy to the show, right?
You guys I mean some of these people like I think I must be insane like why I put up with some of these people for so long I mean, it's like they're just unpleasant People and it's like but I was like oh Well, I can help them. I mean I was just illusion made me it was my fault I wasn't a state of delusion thinking that
These people can be helped. They're there. They're there's some kind of mental thing going on with them like I mean it's like They say there's stuff going on me. I mean, I don't know. I don't and nothing against people with any kind of mental Illness or disability, but it's just like it just seems like These people are mental like I don't know
They all they do is sit around wait to go on my show and to say some stupid thing and that's the satisfaction to get in life Like just like trolling me. That's like and then they feel good about it for for why I just don't get it. Okay, I mean I'm not gonna put up with it anymore and I don't care if people say oh free speech or this or that or you should do this
Or that how about we'll just run. I'll just run the show like a dictatorship from now on. I'll just be like what I say goes Okay, and then that's it. There's no other like No, there's no argument. There's no question if I say it's because I don't think people will want to argue back and forth That's part of trolling too I'm sick of it
The show has so much potential and that's what people have said it's like they're like oh well you have a lot of potential I think I have potential too. I think I would have better potential if I hadn't been like just been it under a constant attack and Slander and blah blah for months and it's like oh, I know people will say I know people now people are gonna go run over to like
Whatever channel to hear what psyche did. Oh, he said this and this and he's oh, he's like he's charging people with the panel And he's not letting me on and I don't give a fuck anymore Okay, you'll fuck yourself if you if you don't get on the channel don't get on there's probably a good breaking reason why i let everybody on guys i'm like very nice
you understand to push me to this state it takes a lot it takes a while right it just has to be like totally proven to me that that that it's like beyond a shadow of a doubt that it's just like sad people scrolling i mean it's like i mean it's like now it's sad at this point it's just
Have I spent like one minute going over to somebody's uh to like you know show and like try and say like have I ever done a porn bomb? No, have I ever done an n-word bomb? No, I've I said the n-word with a hard hard er. No, have I you know You know gotten naked on people's health. No, I got my speedo on Ruby Jimmy's once
But that's like that's like the worst thing I did and that was like a joke and everyone thought I was funny There's there's actually funny things people can do that are not going to try to hurt the channels, right? But anyway 50 52 people in the chat by the way that my show is failing You know, I see people with one or two people in their chat and people that've been on for a long time, too
or, you know, and the people that are trying and it's like they're frustrated and They don't have numbers, right? And it's like I could give them advice about it and stuff like that I do try to help a lot of people and some people are like, you know
Yeah, it was a speedo bomb it was the yeah, Jamie they don't I mean it's like Because if they did they would understand like I might well it's like they should think they should know well They they do know I have a good nature because they take advantage of the good nature, right? So they know I have a good nature where it's like I'm forgiving. I have a really short-term memory when it comes to like
Being angry at people I wake up the next day. I'm not angry at anybody. I'm not like I don't like I don't have hate in my heart for people. I'm not even mad at the people I'm talking to right now. It's just like they're not right for the show. Maybe in some other context, if I was working on like a job with them or something or something, I might have a different side of them
or something that is like, yeah, I'm not right now. It's like they're just not right for the show. And it's like the show, unfortunately is,
It's not gonna just be like this like, you know place to Blow up their steam, you know the show to be the show to be from me blowing up me blowing off some see it not Not the you know, you know, it's fine if you want to come on and like, you know
Have fun I have fun and like, you know, there's a ways to have fun that is not against the TOS that it's not against But my ethics morals or you know It's not there's a way to do things that are not cool. I mean, it's just like there's just this mean
People around like and especially like and I'm talking to somebody like I know and it's like it's not tiktok And we're the person I'm not gonna tell you who it was, but they were like wow They're like I was on tiktok, you know, just like nobody know who I was and stuff like that and say I he's like I didn't know like
There was like nice people out there that people that are like supportive and like cool You know because the first one was just on YouTube and this troll on you for years, right? And that's so we kind of think that all there is then we all of a sudden we see another platform Where it's like we're getting this love and appreciation And it's not just because we're new it's not just because we're new because it's like we're gonna it's like these other
platforms doesn't have like it's not like usually like a Normal audience that follows you is kind of like, you know They'll come across you a lot of most people will come across you There's always fresh traffic coming in there's a lot of new people and some people will like you and you can develop Relationships with and some people will never talk to you again, right? Okay
Yeah, I'll figure I'll figure it out. Oh, what's up, Yumi? What is oh? Thank you so much, Yumi. Oh my god That is so sweet of you. Thank you so much the Mars older brother Bye Bye, I mean I say I don't care. I don't care. I Don't care if I lose them, you know some some population of chat because it's like so many people are just trolls
Thank you, Yumi. I really appreciate that. That's very nice of you Hey, oh my gosh and the cat. Thank you so much. I didn't see it. I'm so sorry
Anyway, thank you very much
Oh, it's okay. It's okay. You know, you know what I? Appreciate if someone sent me one penny. I appreciate it There's people there's people that have taken advantage of the show and brought a lot of negativity to show That have not donated one penny. So if you people so someone donates a penny You know, I consider that You know
Good.
It doesn't matter what the exchange rate is. I could care less about the exchange rate. From the bottom of my heart, I appreciate anything. And I just want to thank, and I don't know if all the donors want to be named out right now. Yeah, I'm sorry, Jamie, sometimes I don't look at the chat. I get caught up in my little rant and stuff like that.
So I apologize and if I miss anybody's I am sorry. It's like it's not intentional Sometimes I'm just not used to getting sometimes, you know, it's been a little bit slow sometimes and You know, I don't sometimes I just assume that like nobody cares anymore about you know, but then
Great people like you me and like you know other people have really yeah, every penny every penny does count. Yeah I like that number one two three. It's one twenty three. Yeah, you know what it is. It's like I can get I Think like they got a couple a couple of Ramen noodles and I love ramen noodles, you know, I can get a couple ramen noodles for a dollar, right?
That's that's that's food for a day, right? I Remember like it low. No, it's like it's been on You know, I won't be I won't be hungry, right? But I have to survive too, you know, and so I really do appreciate people Will look out for me. Okay, because so many people they don't even care They don't they don't not only don't take care
They don't want me to get anything they're like, oh, they tell people don't donate to them and stuff like that and or you know They should not only are they not then they're telling other people. Oh this person this and that right?
So, I really appreciate everybody and that's the thing. I realized that like Summer was so right where she's like, you're focusing on these stupid trolls that Summer, and thank you because you're so right about this. You're focusing on the stupid trolls and caring about them and their feelings and what they think. And you've got such great people here
that are actually being hurt by these trolls too You're not paying as much attention to even like, you know, and it's like and I'm and she's so right about that And I'm really gonna be working on that like really appreciating the people that are here there's so many people that are here that are great people and I think the majority are and
Like right isn't but isn't it sure the trolls will like just demand all this attention and then if they don't get it They'll you know, and I was dumb enough to fall for it, right? Yeah, so I Can get a taco I can get a taco bell, you know, it's like
I can stretch a dollar, right, you know, but I'm a I've been very fortunate that I've had some super super generous people and it's like even if the shows been slow at times, like, you know, they're cheap. I'm just lucky people look out for me and I really do want to apologize if I didn't have somebody's back when they should when I should have or something like that.
The drama or the trolls or anything rather than their feelings because it's like I really do I really do care about the people that The support to show and it's like now. I'm really seeing who does Because why am I putting up with JT and rain like why? All they do is say he's called me
Week, you know, he's called me, you know, and she's saying oh, you're just stupid and like, you know, there's nothing positive No, hey, what's up? No, never anything. Oh like the stream never and never a drop to ten cents on the show But they want all this attention they want to be mods, right? You guys see how it's illusion of some of these people and I'm delusional too for even considering Yeah
They're siblings, not even a couple. That seems like too, right? Seems like it's really incestuous. I mean, not to say something weird, but it just seems like, yeah, there's something not normal about it, but let's not even bring them up. It's like, let's not even bring them up anymore. This is banner names.
Yeah, you know the way but you know the only the only troll that I'm gonna put up with or not even put up with or anything I Think Gotti actually just from knowing Gotti he has a Good heart and he has some he has a level of respect and but where I can I can communicate with him I guess it's not it's like we can work things out. It's not like he's just gonna like
You know say something to me and then go back on it. He's good with his work. I like loyal people like that or like at least like, you know You take their word as bond, right The other people There to talk a bunch of bullshit, right? Go through and madam JC's dream. It's Tiffany's dream and now my stream
Yeah, and I don't I and I don't I didn't necessarily know about every like the thing that they do but yeah, I do know that They're they're about ruining streams basically and not about not about supporting or You know having fun. It's just like they're here to like maybe they're miserable and they want to make everybody else miserable You know what? This is not a place to be miserable. This is the place that I want people to be able to heal
I want people to be able to have fun. I want people to be able to communicate and You know go back and forth and maybe like you know goof on people a little bit maybe sometimes that that you know But not like go to insult total strangers that are the only positive force of light on my show Okay, so
I'm gonna let this cabala incense and then I'll Do you want to bring my new cabala deck? We'll see who wants to do a reading. Let's give you the new panel or chat And then we'll wrap it up and we'll have a it'll be a new day. Okay, there'll be a new day on the show It'll be better. Okay, I think I'm figuring it out. It takes it takes me a while sometimes, right?
But I do figure it. I will figure it out guys in some some time I've made I've made mistakes except the same mistake many times before right readings are fun Yeah, I made the same mistakes where it's like, you know, I can say it's forgiving some people will say it's just because I'm like, you know soft or Too nice or dumb or something like that But yeah, I believe in human beings
But it's like I can't fix everybody and it's like and it's like especially if people don't even want to get a reading and stuff like that There's I mean, it's like I'm offering guidance and not telling people what to do. I'm basically giving them things to think about, right?
And so we'll do some haters exposed cards. We'll do it for the show, and this is for all of us, because we're all part of the show, everybody here. I don't see any trolls in the chat right now. Oh, he's really hurt Sebastian. Okay. Well, are you gonna be hurt, too? You're gonna be hurt, too. He's really hurt really
Really oh Shades so immediately I should I Should unblock him right how about I'll do that instead That works better for me then I don't have to hear about People whining because I was like, you know for myself. I said no more whining no more complaining It's like it's it's like it's not a good vibe for the show when I'm when I'm whining complaining
Which I was a little bit right and I'm like why why is everyone saying this to me? I need to develop a thicker skin, but I don't need to like subject myself to things right which I've been doing Ever since the wreck why are you so forgiving right? We have these we have these moments. Hey, Athena. How are you? Oh Athena? How are you? All right, Athena?
I remember you from a you remember me. I think you remember me, but you're you're you're on Some of the same shows that was on I should I'm not gonna say the names because I don't think those people like me very much anymore So I'm gonna voice in the names, but great to see you in a long time. No chat Yep, I'm I'm still I'm still here You know actually
Actually before when you met me, I didn't even have a channel basically I hadn't started my show and Now I have and so I'm very happy to see you. Great. Thank you. See you And it's like see like look guys all of a sudden when I start kicking out like the right people or the wrong You know the people that are wrong for the chat or I kick out the right people that should be kicked out
Then it's like actually the right people Begin to appear like people starts and it's like and then they won't be a harass and you know They do this stuff in the chat sometimes and Jamie sees a lot that goes on here But I'm thankful that you're here I'm just going to pull for a general some of these haters exposed and this can relate to my show it can relate to people
They're friends of the show. I think those messages in here for all of us because we all have haters, right?
Okay, we've got hey Paige, how are you? Yeah, Paige, I don't know if you heard much about it, but yeah, it's like no more. Mr. Nice that page is like I Get it. I get it. I get it and I know and then I apologize to you I have apologies to a lot of people actually and it's like I think genuine apologies for like letting The trolls just run wild and like
I shouldn't have been allowing certain behaviors here and I was like just way too forgiving and so But I think I'm I'm I understand I get it I get it like because it happens when it happens to me I don't like it and so I have like the empathy thing there where it's like wow so I see how they feel and
I asked you, it's like, you and everybody help keep me on this track, because sometimes I do have a short-term memory for things, and I'll, a few weeks later, they'll come back and I'll be like, ah, well, I'll let them back. Just remind me, guys, please, that it's like, we want a good group here.
It's like, this show has never meant to be like a hateful, I just like some of the things that have been said are just so crazy. I can't it's like in some of it You know when it happens to certain people, maybe it's like entertaining for something when the trolls get trolled I like that but there's people that is this will deserve it. There's such nice people here
and I really know you guys have proven beyond doubt most of you that you know your genuine real people like Loving people I really care about I really care about people's hearts Like and when I see people that basically have no heart because how could they act like that otherwise unless they I
Can't heal them and they don't even want help. They all they're here to do is Take take their anger out on other people and the films deserve it and it's like None of us deserve it. So let's help this stuff. Let's turn over a new leaf. Okay And I hope you guys can forgive me and it's like and all those people I kick out too. I forgive too
I just I cannot have you on the show. Okay, cannot have you even in the chat You just time after time and now I see now. I just recognize things better Okay So let's look at the haters expose that we can see Maybe what's been going on to all of us. Okay, because I think we've all been victim to some of this
This one says scorned large. Okay. It says an old thing of your current or recent ex-partner still feels deep pain of rejection and betrayal Okay, so that's kind of a that's kind of a weird one because it's like an old friend of your old sling of your current or recent ex-partner Okay
So Somebody might be mad at you for like reasons that aren't even your fault, right? Really, it's like they they were hurt by your boyfriend or something like that possibly Like it's a little bit complicated, right? We also have this Jupiter retrograde so when troopers in retrograde Yeah, it gets a little bit mean because Jupiter is this planet of like
Generosity abundance and love and so if it's in retrograde is going backwards It says problems with making important life changes for the future benefits, expansion, abundance, and prosperity. Okay, so that's the blockage that this person, that this person who might just be like your, you know, your boyfriend or your girlfriend or your husband or your wife's ex sending you negative energy
because they're mad about them, so, right? Okay. Do we have our own worst enemy? Well, this is a good one to think about too is that we can be our own worst enemy It says you caused most of your problems for most of the bad things that happen to yourself Yeah, I'll take a responsibility for all I'll own this one It's like I can be my own worst enemy and I think that we all can be our own worst enemy because
Nobody can really hurt us as much as our ourselves, right? we and Okay, so this one says unexplained body Well bruises or scratches. Has anybody experienced this?
Oh, oh, it's so funny. Oh, you're so funny ratchet game. Oh, oh, hold on, hold on. Guys, guys, mods.
Gotta, gotta, um, yeah, can you, can you please, uh, keep an eye on these people? Look, look what they're saying.
Okay. Yeah, it's like for a page like tonight when I came in, like, you know, JT and rain, we're just like being negative as usual. And then other people, like there's certain people that are just probably the same person over and over. If the Canada dry came in and said, once you're so, so dead, where'd everybody go? There's 45 people in the chat. I mean,
Like nobody here like five people. Yeah, I would say that but it's just like just saying that this puts out the image like the shows dying to people and it's not the shows Look at there's 55 people in the chat. I'm happy. This is like a great number for me. Why are people coming in saying the shows dying when there's like 50 people so anyway, I'm just saying I'm putting up with them anymore and I put up with them way too long
and that they're not right for the show or the energy and I'm and now I recognize who's not too, okay? I think so, I think so, Joni. Oh, hey Joni. Good to see you. And now I'm seeing people come back to the show. Isn't that crazy?
Like you just, I took out the trash and then it's like, People come back, you know, and I really I really thank you. Thank you. It's the I look healthier. Thank you That's great to see it you guys and yeah, and yeah, and Jamie. Yeah, I think yeah, Jamie is Jamie is like part angel, you know, Jamie's been
she was like my first mod on the show and Just always been always, you know, there's a good and the bad and she's seen everything, right? And also, thank you, Joni.
See the people like Hannah Baby or just, they say, I'm losing it and stuff? These people, they're just making themselves obvious now. It's really, really easy just to really kick them out. He's complaining a lot. Where is he complaining? Yeah, he was complaining here for one comment and then I kicked him out. This one says unintentional.
Okay, so this is something to think about too. Maybe there are people that unintentionally send evil eye or negative words and actions and there's reasons for this too. Maybe they're just miserable people and it's like, or have had trauma or something bad and it's like they're just lashing at other people and it's like, I would be happy to help anybody
if they come to me and ask for help, You know I was really and I was really and said I can change people like I can help people I can think you know I can't can't fix people people want to want to change even me like I had to I Had to decide to make the changes rather than
People tell you because people have told me a lot of this and that's like and I just didn't get it until I Got it I think I got it now. I had burns. Yeah, I did have burns Remember could be at the marks and I still have them right there. No, I woke up with those one day Kind of weird, right? It's still there He's complaining on panels
Well, let it let it as long as not complaining on my panel. I Don't give a fuck Okay, and then here's the advice. This one says possess a talisman to amplify positive vibes. And so I would say find some kind of symbol or gemstone or whatever you most resonate with, some kind of something empowering for you.
And then carry it around and just remember and whenever you're feeling unsure or attacked or anything, just hold on to that, right? Hey, Marcy. We're having a good, we're having a good night. And Marcy too, like Marcy this morning, you know, I had like a little members powwow because I was like, a little, I was like, I'm doing something wrong.
And then, you know, and Marcy was there and you know, gave me some great advice and encouragement and how easy it was there and some other people. It was a short live, but I really do appreciate that. And it's like, right.
And I really, and I'm, but it's like, I'm so like becoming laser focused on this because I just, I just reached like the point of like complete frustration where it's like, thank you.
But yeah, and it's like, so, you know, I'm gonna, I'm gonna stay on this track, guys, and it'll be, it'll be a new, better show. But I just like I just feel bad Let it go on this long And then I was you know, and I was like, you know, explaining right it's like
Is it's like I need to be a positive force here and I keep it positive right so This one says they constantly convince people they are this and that, right? We know those people too that will constantly like, oh, well, I, you know, they're,
they're just throw illusions out making themselves look different or something and they really are, or get people scared of them or things like that. So sometimes, Especially with the patrols you just take what they say with like not even a grain of salt a pillar of salt I think Jamie you have to I don't know if you're you click the little wheel on top of the screen. It'll say
Chat filter Let's say chat filter make sure it's on all because then sometimes it won't come through Because uh, yeah, I noticed that I didn't see some messages and it's because it's just defaults to defaults to Top messages. I'll pull a couple more of these
This one says spirit team the ancestors the angels spirits gods guides gods and goddesses got your back, okay? so don't ever feel like you're alone like you have a whole spirit team and the spirit team is like, you know Probably more awake than we are
My case though my spirit team is like there's there's like a mean of like a guardian angel go like this And it's like this is my guardian angel looks like half the time. It's like Right, it's like but our spirit team is committed to us and waiting for us to To open our eyes about some things Thank you. Yeah, I appreciate I appreciate you guys hitting the like
Your name is long, but it's a few letters now you're oh, you're so your live stream at okay. Hey, what's up? Yeah, I Appreciate you because I know you've brought a lot of people to the chat a lot of times and so I appreciate you And everybody that you know, let's people know about His show and recommends the show
Yeah, it's weird Marcy is weird and then but I see everything on stream yard that come through but then it's like if I go back to like Sometimes it's too like to hide the person. They're not there. And so it's because it's just be false to that. So You got a dirt guarding demon and angels, but it's a demon guard number one. Yeah, and the I will say that too. I'll say
You know what the best thing to do is to be able to make friends with your demons and your angels, right? It's like them because you know Angels are not all Sincerely a hundred percent good. I don't think the demons are a hundred percent bad. I think similar to the human beings They might be of a mixed nature and or complicated, okay
That you you me I think isn't you me back say that you just make sure You don't have to be on camera, but just when you wave, I just want to make sure it's you. Or just let me know in chat that it's you.
Yeah, at least to be aware of them. And well, I study Tibetan Buddhism. And Tibetan Buddhism has an interesting story behind it. Just go ahead and post. Hold on. Let me see. I see you. I see you. I just don't know if it's... Can you post in the regular chat, Yumi? But in Tibet, they were basically under...
You know, before they were Buddhist in Tibet, they were more in nature or into religion. Not only that, but they had these basically demons. And so if you see like the... the Rathful deities and stuff like that. You'll see, I'll show you an example of a Rathful deity once called, hey, uh, let me see.
Okay, like, they have different names, okay, so Rathful,
Sebastian, okay, they're called Rathful deities
They kind of look like this
Right and it's like this kind of scary like you know they have like these animal features and they're covered with fire And they're very just angry, right? Well, yeah, because there's there's like We would have had some different forms like for example, there's somebody named Okay
Let's see. I'm a little bit rusty with my Tibetan deities. Okay. Okay. White, that's what they're called. There's one called Vajrasattva. And so there's Vajrasattva. And he looks like this. And he says he's associated with purification of negative karma and development of positive qualities
And so usually looks like this, which is very Buddha-like, right and Peaceful and no, but there is a wrathful version of Vajrasattva. If you get wrathful Vajrasattva And And he looks like this, right?
Like there's a wrathful form. But what happened in Tibet was that they were under the, like there's all these mountain demons and different things. And so there's somebody named Padmasambhava and he came into Tibet for I think from Afghanistan. And what he would do is he would convert the wrathful deities
It's a Buddhism and you turn them instead of like you know tears on everybody into like just they use their tear as a protector of Buddhism right and so There's this dual aspect of a lot of the deities and that's why they will sometimes it seems like they're maybe they're
Worshiping some of these wrathful deities, but they're all converted and so they see it as their protectors of the of the tradition and that kind of thing right In the bowels and understanding I yeah, and it's like and then yeah, and I think you know how Leo like that's totally right, too And I know how Leo is like in an angelic name
Right your husband's soul is the demon my husband my higher self is married to said demon They aren't evil most want earth to get to a better place Yeah, and that's the thing. It's like he really was he was able to convert these demons into the protectors in a, you know, kind of like, you know, kind of,
maybe it was in a coercive way, but I mean, it's basically a way of thinking about things. It's just basically transforming. Just like Solomon has these demons and he would summon the demons and then he would have them build parts of his palace, right? And so they would do like the masonry of it or they would do like the sculpture and the paint. And so they would basically build the palace.
He had to subdue them You know, it's kind of maybe threat me threatened or something like that but I like to think it's like they just admit it look like it was their best interest to instead of like terrorizing the people to use their aggressive form to protect as a protection, right? It's kind of like a
You know If you think about I mean just one lady she was a mom and no and I was like in school And she told the story about how it's you know She heard that her son like ran out into traffic and she like went out and grabbed him and she's like, you know You stupid like you screamed at him in this wrathful angry way, but it was about love
It was like so he wouldn't do that again. It was like because she would be so devastated, right? And so even sometimes people will get mad at us and it's not necessarily They're angry at us that are being there. They're Maybe there's rat that of love and stuff. So you rather say lower energies. Yeah, let's I mean there's different ways of putting it and
But we do have these It's parts of our mind that maybe consider demons or different negative attributes that can be personified into Demons and things like that, but I do believe that these can't be transformed and it's like and sometimes the way to transform them is not by
It's a threatening or you know starving them, but by maybe sometimes offering compassion and understanding
I do believe that. But then again, it's like,
sometimes we can only do so much sometimes. But I'd say like most things can be transformed into a positive. The type of beings are different than a demon, similar, different though. Yeah, hold on. So is that you, me, is that you, you, me to go in? Is that you? Cause there's a you, me, the something backstage. I just wanna make sure that's you, you, me. I'll let you, oh, it's you, hold on.
Can you do that again? I didn't see that that I saw something weird one more time
Okay, I see a doggy. Hold on. Is this you me? Let me just make sure
You mean
Hello
Something weird. There's something weird because she's not replying in the chat Yeah, what you said about Jim. Okay, the Jim are as far as I know our spirits of fire, right?
Okay, see you okay, I just make sure okay, I Had a few people going on different names. Hey, what's up?
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