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Psyche hosts a casual Sunday stream, reading psalms, discussing moderation changes, and interacting with his cat and the chat. He announces that he will be moderating the chat himself, removing all human moderators except for Nightbot.
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Browse era →Hi, it's Samantha. Sorry, can you hear me? I just was saying I have this this book. I had uh I just noticed you're always first in my chat. So, I wanted to put you first in the book. So, you're at the top. Okay. And there's people crossed out, but you're at the very top and you will not be crossed out. Okay.
Yeah. Um I think it's time to time to clean house a little bit today. Is everyone there? Where's everybody? Hi guys. We're gonna have a fun day. We're going to have a fun day.
How are you today? Had a nice shower. I clean them. I clean them pretty well. my best.
Thank you, Samantha. You're awesome. Here we go.
Thank you so much, man. Yeah. Come on in, guys. In a good mood today. Thank you. Here, I'll get it. See like live
Okay, I need two more. Okay,
thank you so much.
Hi guys. So, I got some great sleep. Hi Samantha. I love you. Yeah, I have some We're have a We're having a fun day. Oh, yeah. Let's get these up.
Yes. Should I put the link up? I I'll hold off putting the link up, but I will. How are you guys today? Yeah, I mean I saw some interesting stuff on some channels. Is it hot? No, it's kind of just breezy.
Hi babe. Hey babe. It's a nice day. It's just a little breeze. It's not too hot. Wow, this shows it such a journey. Hi guys.
Hi babe. What are you doing? Come here. Come here. Show me. Babe. My baby. Come on, babe. My baby. Babe. Yeah, that's decent. Hey, babe. Hi. Oh,
Trixie, you want to say hi to the chatty chat? No, you don't. Come on, babe.
Hello, baby. I don't see any other cat right now. Yeah, I feel a lot better. Always is good to get some like rest, a nice shower. Hi. Hi, babe.
Hi. Yeah, I do. I have some stuff to talk to everybody about, but I I need more people to come in. Nobody's nobody like be alarmed because you might you'll notice something in the chat maybe. But hey babe,
I'm going to draw some uh some pictures today of people, too. I'm going to draw draw some art. Maybe there's one with their pictures. Anyone want their pictures though? Maybe.
The weather's very comfortable. How are you guys? Good to see you, a babe.
Maybe we'll start with like a psalm. These are always good to clear the um any kind of negative vibration. I know we've been having a lot of crazy stuff going on in the chat
and the panel, but I do have a uh I do have a plan. Okay, let's see.
I just heard Okay. Psalm 96. Psalm 96.
Okay, it says, "Sing to the Lord a new song. Sing to the Lord, all the earth. Sing to the Lord. Praise his name. Proclaim his salvation day after day. Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples. For great is the Lord and most worthy of
praise. He is to be feared above all gods. For the gods of the nations are idols, but the Lord made the heavens. Splendor and majesty are before him. Strength and glory are in his sanctuary. Ascribe to the Lord, all you families of nations. Ascribe to the Lord glory and strength. Ascribe to the Lord, glory do
his name. Bring an offering and come into his courts. Worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness. Tremble before him all the earth. Say among the nations, "The Lord reigns. The world is firmly established. It cannot be moved. He will judge the peoples with equity. Let the heavens rejoice. Let the earth
be glad. Let the sea resound and all that is in it. Let the fields be jubilant and everything in them. Let all the trees of the forest sing for joy. Let all creation rejoice before the Lord for for he comes. He comes to judge the earth. He will judge the world in righteousness and the people in his faithfulness. Pretty nice.
I like that. I like the idea of equity.
Well, let's do let's do Well, I don't know. People run when I play sometimes when people disappear when I read a song. I mean, they're kind of short and sweet and kind of cool, but people like run from it. I I think Okay. Well, that's probably good. They did. Okay. Um 77.
Psalm 77. for the for the director of music for Jeduan of ASAP a psalm. I cried out to God for help. I cried out to God to hear me. When I was in distress, I sought the Lord all night. I stretched out among untiring hands and
would not be comforted. I remembered you, God, and I groaned. I meditated and my spirit grew faint. You kept my eyes from closing. I was too troubled to speak. I thought about the former days, the years of long ago. I remembered my songs in the night. My heart meditated and my spirit asked, "Will the Lord reject forever? Will he never show his
favor again? Has he un has his unfailing love vanished forever? Has his promise failed for all time? Has God forgotten to be merciful? Has he in anger withheld the compassion?" Then I thought, "To this I will appeal." the years when the Most High stretched out his his right hand, I will remember the deeds of the
Lord. Yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds. Your ways, God, are holy. What God is as great as our God. You are the God who performs miracles. You display your power among your peoples. With a mighty arm, you redeemed your people, the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. The
water saw you, God. The water saw you and writhed. The very depths were convulsed. The clouds poured down water. The heavens resounded with thunder. Your arrows flashed back and forth. Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind. Your lightning lit up the world. Your earth trembled and quake. Your path led through the sea. Your way through the
mighty waters. Through your footprints, though your footprints were not seen. Where is everybody? Hi guys. Pretty beautiful. Let's do one more. What? Can everyone say hi in the chat? I don't know if everyone's quiet.
It is Sunday. Sundays are usually pretty slow. Okay. Psalm 33. Okay, let's see. Sing playfully. Oh, sing joyfully to the Lord, you righteous. It is a fitting for the upright to praise him. Praise the Lord with the
harp. Make music to him on the 10 string liar. Hey, easy. Sing him a new song. Play skillfully and shout for joy. For the word of the Lord is right and true. He is faithful in all he does. The Lord loves righteousness and justice. The earth is full of his unfailing love. By the word of the Lord, the heavens were
made. There are starry hosts by the breath of the mouth. He gathers the waters of the sea into jars. He puts the deep into storehouses. Let all the earth fear the Lord. Let all the people of the world rever him. For he spoke and it came to him. He commanded and it stood firm. The Lord foils the plans of the nations. He forced the purposes of the
peoples. But the plan of the Lord stand firm forever. The purposes of his heart through all generations. Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord. The people he chose were his inheritance. From heaven the Lord looks down and sees all mankind. From his dwelling places he watches all who live on earth. He who
forms the hearts of all who considers everything they do. No king is saved by the size of his army. No warrior escapes by his great strength. A horse is a vain hope for deliverance. Despite all its great strength, I cannot it cannot save. But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is is in his unfailing love to deliver them
from death and keep them alive in famine. We wait in hope for the Lord. He is our help and our shields. In him our hearts rejoice. For we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love be with us, Lord, even as we put our hope in you. Blessings, blessings, blessings. Yeah, I love, you know, blessings to
all. Right. It's just like my mic sends cheap, bro. I'm trying to charge these. Let me see. Oh, these are not plugged in. They're I mean, they're not cheap. They're like They're just not like great. They're just They were for like 40 bucks. I had like a pair that was like 15 bucks and they were they were cheap.
These are decent. I'm sorry. Is it better? Sorry, my mic sounds. I'm trying to sound better. Blessings to everybody. Yeah, I I have other cool stuff to share with you too, but I want to talk. Okay, so 15 people here. Okay, so we want to make a few announcements. Okay, first of all, you might notice uh did you switch to audio and heads? Hold on.
Sounds bad. Do you hear me at all? I'm sorry. Let me test this. testing. I think that should work. Okay. So, um, hi. Hi. I He-Man. Yeah. I just want to
let everybody know I I like had a I thought about it a lot. I was like it's causing a like all this uh all the modding stuff all the talks about modding and mods and and then some mods get like are being targeted and I just really for basically for you know all
your guys safety I unmodded everybody everybody off uh I won't have mods so no one no one will have to blame a mod it'll be my responsibility to moderate the chat I'll do that okay I'll moderate the chat myself So, uh, if you like being a mod, you know, it's just that this this chat will have
there actually will be one mod. It's Nightbot. But yeah, I'll I'll moderate the chat myself and hopefully it will calm down some of this like wrench wrench talk. Everyone's screaming about wrenches in here. It's like cause way too much trouble.
And I have to be to be to be fair, I have to do it for everybody. Okay. But thank you guys so much to Were and for for uh for doing such a great job. And I know it was like hard. I know it was hard but and I don't it's like it's it's so hard of a job that I don't want you
guys to I know and you were doing it for free, right? Yeah. So it'll be easier for me to just to you know if anybody gets blocked or timed out just everyone can just blame me, you know. I'll just I'll just because it's I think either everyone's modded or or no one's modded is the only
way it will work. I thought about it's just too many alt accounts. Cool guys, I love you. Yeah. And I'm sorry. And I know also it's just been like I've been thinking a lot about how the show's been going and like what's been happening and
you know um I'm going to stop going to other chats. It's like I I can't remember the raids I used to do. I can't even do raids anymore. I used when I did the raids, people started going in and like trolling the people. I can't even like really promote other people because I don't want to bring attention negative
attention because I do have so many so many uh I I would talk to I would call call into her show. I mean she you know she has a burner phone so I would call her because I know I never had a problem with her. It was her chat. It was um let's see what they cry about now. Yeah. H there's gonna be something or the
other, but at least it was this takes some heat off of everybody because it was like I never saw like the mods and I remember I got I kind of got attacked when I was in Benny's chat and he would get like attacked too and mod like people would just say horrible things about the mods and and then there were rogue mods. So it it was kind of a mess. So
I was always a good mod. So, so I I'll use my professional modding skills from that I learned and I'll try to moderate the chat. So that way also if there's something that you know shouldn't be posted like it'll be my responsibility to take it off and so so I wouldn't want say oh you know mod was supposed to take
that off um if it ever became an issue you know I just like I I want to be responsible for everything. Okay. So you can but you guys you can still do the um the nightbot commands if you ever want to help me that that would help me greatly also you know I got the membership and I will put you know
that'll put your your name in green like Samantha's give you a cool member icon so you'll get longer readings access to exclusive content more stuff planned emojis hey Jesus this. Thanks for all this TP
uh me. Okay, I'll be honest. I stopped joining your panel because everyone was telling you what to do and you were trying to please and I couldn't even get a word. I know. I'm sorry. Like to defend yourself. Yeah. And I thought about it like I feel really bad like if I have had people on the panel that I like because you know I was just used to people just fighting on the panel and saying outrageous things. But when people were saying outrageous things to
me the other day like you know beta and other people um I really it hurts and Alex it hurts like what they said like and it's like oh that's what it's like it's just like hit me as like that's how everyone's feel and that's why people are getting so upset and like leaving because people are talking to them like that and it's it's just like because sometimes you
don't you don't you don't feel like how they feel like you're like oh you think they think it's funny too or they maybe they laugh along with when you really feel it even you might laugh along with the stuff you see about yourself but when you see it might laugh but you'll cry later it's because it's like it's uh you know it is hurtful sometimes we smile and laugh to like mask our
emotions you know and so yeah so I'm going to do better job of like you know I'm not going to let people talk to any like you know especially since I have such people so many people that have been here for months and like a long time I'm not going to let people will bully anybody I'm not going to let um people call you. I'm I'm just going to I'm going to step
in a lot faster. I'm going to get my my uh finger on it. I'm not going to like even like I'm not looking for drama. I'm not interested in like oh I know I know it's like a fun show sometimes and there it gets crazy and exciting, but it's like it's uh I think it's hurting people and it's you know people are taking getting YouTube stuff like really really seriously and getting really upset. I
want to make sure I contribute to the betterment of YouTube, right? Yeah. Yeah. I know. And this is like, you know, this is my TV's big adventure because it's like it's like TV's big adventure because, you know, I just got a bike. I
kind of like a big goofy adult, you know, with like a child brain like a kiwi. And uh and then some something happens where there's some some kind of like adventure I have to go on to like save my show or save my like save the bike. You know,
I'm glad my bike didn't still I can so I can just work on saving the show, right? If you start with Paul Rubin's well, I know I was the 80s baby. I actually had one of the first Peewee Herman like um Talking Dolls. I love Peewee's Playhouse. I love TV's Big Adventure. One of the best movies ever made probably. Psyche, I've only given this a lot of thought. I should be your
only mod. You have Oh, Doug. Okay, I'll cons I'll consider Oh, I have I have one mod already, Doug. It's Nightbot. And Nightbot, he passed his interview. He He doesn't hug back and he's not racist. Okay. But yeah, you got that membership. Hey, Doug, you got that membership. So, you know, you look good with that. Okay. You're good at green, Doug. Okay.
You know, he ended up being acquitted. Yeah. But yeah, it's like but you know that's the thing with these even it it was really he was acquitted. Yeah. But then it's like it's like because he was on a kid TV show it's like the reputation his reputation right and then it's like so we can't and because he originally created Peewee as
an adult character, right? It was he was at a comedy clubs like adult comedy clubs and it was kind of like like a kid show for adults and then but they're like hey let's adapt it to like make an actual kids show you end up being a kids host right they tried to point uh paint him like that again. Yeah that's what that's what this world is you know so
much on yeah later on. Yeah, I heard he went through some of that. But, you know, he kind of did revive his his film career. He had some friends in Hollywood and, you know, he was a pretty brilliant actor and, you know, I I never heard of him hurt harming anybody or anything like that. But,
yeah. So, I feel like I'm on a I'm on an adventure and it could, you know, it could end up being made into a movie someday. You know, you never know. Aging, Mr. Herb. Mr. Herb. He was he ruined for his choices. Yeah. But, you know, he he did have he get
some roles in movies. Yeah. They're not great but actor is really hard. Just don't jerk off in other places. Of course not.
I I I barely like to jerk off at home. Hey Summer. Uh I know that movie theater was uh basically meant for that, but you know. Yeah. I mean, you open a have a business license for porno theater. Oh, I'm sorry, Summer. Summer, I unmodded everybody just so cuz my mods are getting a lot of heat. It's nothing
personal. you did a great job. My mods are getting too much heat and you know from other people. People are complaining and things aren't fair. So, I just have to mod it myself with uh with Nightbot maybe helping. But I love you, Summer. You're the best. Thank you so much for always like being a great mod. But yeah, I had to make it fair.
So, I'll I'll just mod it myself. But I love you, Summer. We're not set. I don't want I don't want I don't want my mods to be heat because I remember I remember that uh Benny's mods got got heat and so I know I don't want
to cause anybody any problem not also not going to anybody else's chats anymore. Okay, thank you Summer. Yeah, I love you another mass. I really don't think that there's like many people banned and the people that are I think like pretty much irritated me.
I never worry about getting to eat. Just just so you know. I always got smoke for that heat. Uh I'm isolated. Am I joking panels? I would No. Well, I don't think you know. I might join a panel if it's like, you know, a friend and they invite me. Um, no, I'm not every there's hardly anybody
banned. I I think I banned everybody, right? Heat, not eat. Oh, heat, every heat. I'm sorry. Yeah. I always got that smoke for the heat. Christine got me the other day when she
was in uh Oh. Yeah, it's like because you know like I won't say the guy's name, but he was like he was just like, "Oh, I don't have a wrench and I can't post and then your mods are your mods are um letting people say bad things about me." And I was like "Well I I like I they were I don't know. I
didn't see it in the chat." He's like, "Oh, well, you should have seen it." So, I Okay, I'll pay attention to my chat. I'll do I'll be responsible for all the moderation stuff. So if anybody complains, they can just blame it on me. Christina, unfortunately to be sacred frustration. Uh hold on.
Uh yeah. Did you see? Uh yeah, guys were really guys going to be taking a hard stance against the slander doctors um and the racial racial stuff. I I need I'm gonna be really more tough on the panel. Also, just people that are you know that ruled respect the host and
other panelists. I'm going to really pay attention to that because it's like there's so much disrespect to the panelist and to me and it's like you know I'm sorry I didn't step in more if people were rude to the rude to the uh panelist anybody's on the panel or you know you know I love you guys and I know a lot of people were very upset because I'm so upset and I just kind of sat
there sometimes and didn't do anything or it wasn't there. So, I'll make sure I'll always be here and I'll I'll I'll protect I'll protect you guys. I'll protect you. I'll make this a safe space. Hot sauce for anyone that wants to cook. Yeah, I like hot sauce. Hey. Hey, Lenor.
Oh, well, it's like, you know, everybody. Thank you. I'm trying. I'm gonna, you know, guys, don't you think that it's weird that Kate ridicules you for drinking and streaming, but she's been drinking on streaming since last night? I know. Well, it's like sometimes people like to project their own stuff onto other
people or it's like somebody or like, "Oh, that person is drinks more than me and so there, you know, I'm better than them or something, right?" Meow. Meow. Meanwhile, she Okay. Yeah. I related. Uh I noticed people would take it out on your panel and not be spice spicy on their panel. Yeah. I mean, yeah, it would just be
they were just like because I'm just a pushover and I was like, you know, I'm kind of I was new and kind of ignorant about it. I was like, hey, it's fun. Oh, the numbers numbers, you know, it's because there's because they're controversy and it's fun having numbers, but it's like, you know, it's like it's just
it brought some like weird weird energy and I really didn't like it the other day when just like the whole chat was like these weird people like causing all this problems. There is one thing I have hate most and that's uh bad moms on the internet who value screaming
at people over online. Yeah. Well, it's like I don't want to judge anybody on their mothering skills. You know, it's like I'm sure like a lot of most of them are probably very loving mothers and good moms and everything. I we don't know exactly if they try not I try not to judge
I was noticing the chat alluring nature. Sorry. Oh, yeah. Let's see. Luring nature. Loading moms are mistaken for Okay. Well, yeah. Well, it's like, you know,
sometimes this person doesn't like it, but the someone doesn't like the woman and the woman has a kid and then and then and the woman doesn't another woman doesn't like her. She'll say any like little thing. Oh, you know, oh, she's not eating the right size bottle or the I don't know. She the stroller's not right. I don't think she can just judge about everything and then just have like
a smuggness like, oh, I'm better. Right. So, see Kate cry when she put her face on panel. But yeah, I remember that. And then I went over. She's like chatting with Tony. Like she's like just like having a kiki kaka with him on my with my picture and they're just like trashing me. Hey babe. Uh kid. Uh K. Okay. So Doug, do you approve? The worst
part is that uh Okay. Okay. Well, Charlie, I I just I don't know. Like I don't know. Let's not let's not really talk. I don't want to like be talking about people. You know, Kate wants to ever come on panel and she sees somebody in the chat comment something and she can choose to address it or not. But I uh I don't she
we shouldn't talk about it when she's not here. Okay. For hold reported to the cops and passing judgment on the chat won't do anything to them. Exactly. It's like how about take care of things the legal way and then too like it there's all these
people that are being accused there's no paper there's no like paperwork or any charges that were filed and so and there's so many accusations made right I want to lick you from your head to your toe oh de Oh you said it's just okay uh the worst yeah
Hello.
Yeah, just prepared. Yeah. subcb. Yeah. And so that's, you know, it's the internet. I remember remember they were saying that they're trying people were trying to say, oh, and I won't even say her
name, but they're saying that there's a a streamer we know. She was on my show before and people were saying, oh, she ate a dog and she got on on Bass House and ate a dog. And they produced a police report. And so I looked at the police report. I was like, well, it was like in a weird font. It was like a cursive kind of font that wouldn't be on a police report
usually. And uh then it's like such was such a and it was like the wrong dates and everything. I don't know. Yeah, that's what No, that's what people were trying to say in the chat and stuff and it's like of course it wasn't true. I don't I don't know if her dog had just passed away or something, but they that but someone came and produced a police
report that gave a screw something where police came and they saw her like like like a like a zombie like you know eating like on bath cells eating eating her dog or something and
say Taco Bell ice cream. You're cool now.
Yeah, she might. She might. I know. But it's like, you know, it's pretty gruesome and pretty like, you know, horrible to think of somebody doing that to their dog. What's up, nobody? I just want Yeah, everybody everybody is unmoded right now. I just have Nightbot as the mod.
Um, just so we get some heat off of you guys and the mods. I know there were people there was people were just bitching at the mods. People were like, "Take my wrench. Take my wrench." Some people, you know, and they and they would just then they I don't want them to target, you know, people to target people and stuff. So, SC has me on a
lot. There's block. Oh, you do scum? Yeah, I think so. I think I just have a nightbot and then I can mod if like need be and then so it'll be my responsibility. So, it it'll be better that I pay more attention. You could see everyone but haters talking wild now.
Yeah. I mean, they're they're not here. But I I did like say a few prayers like I said a couple I think a couple when I started the show and a couple before the show. And uh it's clearing out the energy, right? Uh yeah, you have your pencil ninja. You're fine.
No one's cat. Let's see. Where's the cat? Here. I've got a a jar of it. Where is it?
All
right. Got it.
Uh, I told you I will not cast doctrine on anyone coming to my house pulling up. Yeah. No, don't talk about pull-ups. There's be no talk of pull-ups. No threatening. There's going to be no like saying, "Oh, you, B." Or, you know, it's just we're just not going to do it here anymore. It's going to be a This is really I want to make it a safe
space for people. I think this the mod step is a good step. What's up, Jay Dog? Hey, Roto. Roto, everyone's unmoded. Like, I just It's better to have no mods. The mods are getting too much heat. Um, they're being harassed. People are screaming about, "Oh, this isn't fair. Your mods don't have me coming
out." And I just want to take over the modding, and me and Nightbot are going to handle it. But we love you. You're the best. Thank you guys. Thank you everybody who who was a mod. I know it was like a thankless you know tough tough job and there was it's not it's not probably an easy chat to mod.
So uh yeah mods always harass you. Yeah. So now now no one will felt feel harassed by a mod in my room cuz and then I had like you know I had to have some people moded to protect them from other mods and I don't I really don't need I don't want my mods
like divided like that. I need I need sobot and I will night's pretty cute. Uh, you know, it's like I've been saying nice things to people that I don't get along with. I just do I do that in other
chats. Oh, thank you. Thank you. Long time. You never have a cat of yours freak out because of the toothpaste used or the minty gum you're chewing. Apparently, catnip is related to the mint family.
Oh, probably is. I think it is. Um, okay. Let's see. I'm sorry if I missed some comments. You like Rudy? I love Rudy, too. Uh, okay. Charlie SC. Oh, come on,
Seb. No thanks. Okay. Watch them cry as soon as someone gets mad. Yeah. Yeah. Well, it's like I've just taken away mo like 75% of what everyone was complaining about to me. So, this should make it easier. Why?
Why? Why? Psyche. Big uh big crybaby. Oh, yeah. Why? Why? My psyche scum. A is a danger. Okay. Come on. Come on. Um scum says he's gonna Oh. Oh, come on. Yeah, guys, just, you know, I guess as
long as you're joking around, you know, I don't want any kind of anything serious. Oh gosh, guys. You You guys, I think I'd be scared to meet up with some of you guys, you know. I don't know.
I don't want to make anybody mad. I think everyone's armed in my my chat.
Um, okay. Let's see. Oh, well, you know what? It's like
I think uh easy told me it was self-defense. You know that's legitimate. See now he's threatening people. Oh my gosh. Well guys, if I miss something because I'm the mod and if I do miss if you're like, "Oh, that person's comment. You should delete that comment." Please let me know if I miss
it because uh let's see who is who's threatening. Hold on. Scum. Scum is not threatening. If Seb blocks you, it's because he thinks you're a troll.
Therefore, he is 80% of people on chats blocked.
Uh, axe. So true. Yeah. Hey Sebastian. Doug. Yeah.
I don't Some of these stories I don't believe. Yeah. Oh, now it's going. But now you guys it can be me. Now you guys can get like just yell at me. Leave the comments. Weird that he defended uh himself, but he was uninjured. Well, okay. Well, I don't I don't know the story.
Where's uh where? Okay. So,
oh, there's no link. Um, yeah, I just Yeah, but I just want to make sure you guys know again. Uh, I'll I'll be modding the chat myself from now on. You guys can just sit back, relax, enjoy show. Now, don't worry about stuff in the chat or if there's
something bad, you can just and I don't see it, you can just tell me. Uh, okay. So, you're see Okay. So, yeah.
Okay. Oh, yeah. I want to draw some pictures. Okay. I'll I'll put a panel link. I put the panel link. I think we did. So, I'll draw I'll draw some pictures if you want your portrait drawn. I'll draw a quick picture of you. You know, I'm not the best artist. I think I'm better than Canada dry. Maybe not.
Okay.
We'll see what happens. But yeah, guys, watch. See if I do a good job. Stuff happens. I'll have to be on on a alert today. Like if people start bullying anybody, if people any if it gets out of hand, I'm going to be better at controlling the chat.
Okay. Who should I draw? Let me see. Yeah. See, I was I was I I didn't get bullied terribly just because I was kind of like I had a smart mouth and um but you know, I mean I went to a small school too. It's glad that we have
to deal with Easy and Chad on panel soon. Uh it's my life. It's my life. Yeah. Um Psychi, we probably have to have you on guest of his humble panel. Just need a little bit of courage. Okay. Well, I got courage.
happy to let me, you know, let me know when or you tell me his channel name or or put in the back chat, you know. Is it What do you think, guys? Is that someone an interview I should ever do? I don't know. I don't want I don't because there are some like there's just been people that are hostile to me. I
just want I don't want to ambush interview. I don't want um you know, if I have to be brave, I Why don't you be brave? should be like, "Oh, you'll have fun. He's a cool guy. He's a good interviewer." But if you're brave, what he's going to like, "Girl me a new asshole." So, here's my DJ Electra picture.
DJ Electra. That's her. I had to fix I made her a little bit bosom, but I kind of tried to put a cape around it in a slim waist, but I don't know if it looks right. She's saying hello. Does that look like a spinning image?
that a good one. That was good. Okay. Uh and so anybody else if I could if I I might be able to just put your avatar on the screen, but I'd like to time out Seb, please. Um no. Yeah. If I if I saw him to say something wrong, I would. But he's just he's just
asking you to to to hang out with him. He's call you a chicken. Oh my god.
Yeah.
I never have to spend years of my life in a concrete box. Here we go. CD at first to cry about it. Are you still the same wannabe gangster? You upset by the same mistakes. Oh, stop crying. Can't you take a joke? Seb is a bully from can. Do you know
Canada Dry? Seb Canada D is really weird. He came on the show yesterday. He was like he was like making weird faces with the camera. Then he he had a girl over and then he just showed that he had a girl over and he hung up. Okay, good for you. Say Canada Drive.
Well, I'm going to I'll just allow people in the chat, you know, as long as they are following the rules.
Okay, everyone can be I, you know, I'm not going to mass unban because the people that ban pretty much are doctors or like really obvious haters. I forgot that. Oh, yeah. S, he was there last night. Yeah, I pray she's a lot god of karma. Yeah, she's a chicken from
Alabama. There was this lady on 90day Fiance and she was like this. She was kind of a crazy lady. I have to Okay, it's really funny, but so she was with this guy from Nigeria and he was like blind, right? And she was she's a chicken farmer from Texas, I think. I think from Texas and so she flies out to him, but she's insane. Um, and
he's he wrote like a note or something. He said like on Instagram or something. He's like, "Oh, well, she came over and then she said that she was going to sacrifice me to some vampire werewolf c." I have to find the thing. Her name was was I think her name was Was her name Rain? Let me see. Um, I think it was rain. Hold on.
This was on last season.
Yeah, this is her. These rules are so big. Hold on. Hold on. There we go. Okay, that's her. That's rain. Okay. But there's a text message or some message he wrote after regional rain.
Okay. Okay. It says it says Okay. There's a lot of text messages from um
well here's one I don't think I've seen this page. It says it said they thought she was delusional. She also shared how when she attended church, her pastor sent her out of his office and recommended she see psychiatrist after she had spoken of alien conspiracies and the Illuminati that that was the reason she stopped attending church. She believes human society was against her and that she had no friends. Having been
through her my own traumatic experiences, this is the guy that she she married. He's a the blind guy from Africa where I helped back on on my feet by love and support of family and friends. I felt deeply for Rain. From that point on, I was always there for her, offering encouragement and cheering her up with a numerous phone calls. After a few weeks of constant communication, Rain, in appreciation of the joy and excitement I brought to her
life, confessed her love for me, and I responded positively. Okay, but that's not the way. So, that was kind of the pastor, but I want that important message. Let me see if this come up.
It's hilarious. What's the guy's name? Let's see.
Uh, I don't know if I'll be able to find it, but yeah, she she he said that he thought she was going to sacrifice him to some like vampire cult or something. It says she said as she asked if I was ready to be sacrificed and if I was prepared to be in the same room with her when vampires and cannibals would gather for their feast. Isn't that kind of funny? Hey guys.
Yes. And the nightbot's still working. And you guys um you guys can still um do the nightbot commands if you if you want to. Free terror reading. Yeah, sure. Jacob would like one. Okay. We get shirt collection. Thank you. Thank you guys. Sebastian. Sebastian. No selling lipo section in my chat. Do I like chicken
breast for supper? I like fried chicken better. I like fried chicken. Um, set a freak. He likes married females. 49 40% off. Jude O. Oh. Oh, let's see. Yeah. Free tarot reading. Rain or R. Her
name is R A Y N E because they're not the same people. Rain is white. Yeah. Yeah. I didn't say that was Rain. I said she's a 90-day fiance. She's like she's that that's what the guy her her fiance wrote about her. So anyway, Nightbot is awesome. Yep. Yep.
She used to come to beta but Oh, she can see in action. Spunky's in love with Oh, you are. She is, Stevie. That's cool. Scared of a Latina. Bruharia. Yep. Bruharia. Am I? I'm not scared. I don't know if she's I don't know if she's Latin though. Forgot what she is. Not scared of her. Oh, she He was uh Yeah, he was
He was terrified of her. is she would like she's also weird in other ways, but that was just a quote from little quote from that that message. Okay, everyone put in the butt plug.
Do you blow all day long? How Easter five minutes? What?
Uh, the YouTube guidelines were different. Can you treat this less like a dictatorship? Um, I don't think it's a dictatorship. How's it a dictatorship? Like, uh, there's those are the YouTube rules. I might be I might be more strict on them, but just because people have been abusing, right? Maybe you don't call a CB. Uh, dude, I've been um sick for three days. Oh, I
hope you feel better. Starting better, Nancy. Yeah, everyone's unmoded, guys. I'm going to be the only mod here, so you guys won't get yelled at by everybody. And that was not I never had so many seen that chat where so many people um said, "Take my wrench." And so, you guys
stuck with it with with me. I appreciate it. But you guys will be safe now for like you don't have to worry about, "Oh, well, this mod doesn't like me. They'll be timing me out if I'm not if I'm not mod it. So, right. What's up, Nex? How are you? If you shut Yeah.
He's the only go. Oh, come on.
Good. Enjoying the sun. Okay, good. Hi. Easy. Oh, come on. And guys, sometimes, you know, Doug, you know, Doug's a troll, but you know, if uh somebody like really makes me uncomfortable and I don't catch the comment or and you want the comment deleted, if there's doxing in it, or it's just like you feel like you're being bullied, sometimes you have to bring it to my attention because I am
trying to run the panel at the same time.
N every no mods in the no mods to make it fair. I have a little cough. Sorry, my my uh blurred vision happens when you Okay, weirdo eye. That's what's wrong with Riker's Island. What's Yeah,
nothing. Recorders island. I don't think prisons are too nice. Jail certainly wasn't. It's disgusting. It's better. Yeah, I think so because I don't want and I also I don't want people to be afraid of like commenting in chat and
it's like and sometimes they were and then they and then the mods I don't know I had too many people modded too. It's just better with none then I can um be responsible for it. If I was drunk you would cause havoc. Yeah.
Yeah, but you know I' I'd love to see a sea of green, you know, if you you guys if you do want to stand out more, you know, of course I most of you guys are really uh really like uh great friends, loyal loyal friends of the show. You can get the your name in green. I
think it's in green. membership panel is the problem, not the chat. I know, but then the the panel the Jeff got taken over in the panel last night because he was like, "Well, like why aren't you applying things equally? Why um why I'm not a mod?" But then so a mod can um talk about me, but if I talk about anybody, I get timed
out. It was like kind of like like it was kind of the answer was obvious, but it's like I kept having to explain explain. So it's just better like
I'm a head mod. I'm a head mod. Night's my assistant. I have this pretty cool cool little uh cool little robot assistant.
Okay. Hey, Bush Boogie. Easy. So, oh
the wine mom as you know. Oh, you have to you have to you you have to keep Alex as a mod. Alex Alex is banned. I didn't I didn't let him on panel for a second because I was curious why he came back and then he was like drunk and he's like he's like ah sent me and then he like left
I think I've had enough. Yeah,
but it's like I think I I think it's like cuz I always thought, oh yeah, I want to have like the you know, I love having people with mod, you know, they help and everything, but it's just it's like too much to ask of you guys, especially because things are just getting weird, right? So, make sure everyone's safe. I want to make this a really safe place. I'll also be really careful about not letting um people on the panel like you know there'll be less
fighting because I'm just going to cut off people that start disrespecting people. There's guys it was it was just bad when people were they're calling Paige and and Paige a and like other and they're you know you know we had you know some you know more like mature ladies in there they're calling them hoes and and stuff. It's not. It was like horrifying. And like a lot of people were just like, "Let their
shocks, right?" Because they're like, "What?" And then I was like, "Oh, well, it's a drama panel, so that's what people do." So, but it's not right. It feels bad when people get attacked and it's like you're not asking for it. So, maybe on a panel, maybe people when I when I hash it out or talk,
right? He probably got a public. Yeah. He He barely Okay. Uh, okay.
I assume you only have one mod. I have one mod, too. It's nightbot. Yeah. I IA. Huh. We're going to keep it. We're going to keep it nice. And if people go like, you know, if I talk to some other um streamers, they just gave me some good advice. They're like, you know what? I wouldn't tolerate any of that in my chat. I would just I would just kick him off and I don't I don't know like how good their how good the
show is and stuff but I think it will still be good because we have great panels when everyone's getting along and having fun you know um okay today I would I was wanted by the government they service as soldiers of fortune if you have a problem if no one else can help and if you can find
them maybe you u can hire the a team oh Mr. See, Hi Gotti. Yeah, little Gotti, your prayers have been answered. Everyone's unmoded. I take all the power to myself. You can't you and JT and Rancamp yell at me.
Oh, the mods are doing that. The mods are doing I know you I know I know you really didn't, but especially JT, right? So, um, like, yeah, Nike, I might start streaming if I can figure out how to my YouTube can connect on your stream pad. Okay, well, I can just have to log
into YouTube through it. Yo, what's up, Gotti? Well, you know, but she won't need She really doesn't need it because nobody has a wrench to take, you know, to take her. It'll be up to me, right? Okay. You know what? You know what? How about
this? The A stream. Forget the A team. This is the A stream, right? Uh I'm just kidding. You can put money in your uh No, come on. Well, and but yeah, guys, if someone is like saying stuff stuff that really bothers you, tell me to delete the comment. I'll I'll delete the comment, you know,
because some things you might not appreciate in the chat. So, but I apologize in advance that some people will say some crap. Whoa, this the Airstream. That's cool. Jerry Gold the Airstream, right? You you can have the ATM. I'll have the A stream together. We'll uh go
to the top Joey. Okay, let's see. No answer for No. No. No. No. None. No answers for anybody. Just Night Nightbot got one. He had He took the last one. I I melted down all the other ones and I I made it into one giant wrench and I carried that like a club.
Hey Vader. How are you guys doing? So, fix this. One second. Does anybody want me to draw them? I can draw a picture. Let me see. Oh, god. I like your picture, God. It's like It's like a old man. God. Hey, Vader.
If I miss anybody in the chat, I'm sorry. Hello, everybody. Mikey, thank you for being here, guys. The chat's going really nice today, too. It's like everyone's getting along. I already feel like a better vibe. I think it's like, you know, I finally like, you know, finally actually stand up for the chat, right? Draw you. Okay.
Okay. Okay. Got
okay. Okay.
I don't know if this will look right. Hold on.
I don't think I did a bridge. I don't know here.
How's it? Okay, got it. I I think I finished it. Hold on. I need to fix it.
Okay, you ready? I have the big reveal. I'm going to do what? I need a couple more things.
Oh no. My usually Oh It's like a banana. Okay, I got it. Bugatti, here. How's What do you think? It's Gotti. It the moon came out looking like a banana, but maybe it works. I don't know. Um Gotti, there's a sun, moon,
star, and look. There you go. You got a cross. I tried I didn't try not to make you like that. Did I get it accurate? I don't know if I got you accurately. I got the beard. I think the beard is right. How's that look? Is it good?
Oh, forgot the Well, can I put a little bandage on your head? Hold on. I don't know where it is. Hold on.
Let's put a little band-aid on your head so it looks perfect. Okay. Love you, God. Okay.
You have to hop on panel. Yeah.
You're welcome. Your pleasure. Anytime. Okay. And anybody else want one? I want I want these for the book. Maybe I'll I'll publish them if I ever publish a a book. I'll put some of these pictures in it. I do I do I love this goddy one. Why did I draw banana? That definitely
is a banana. Look. I mean, I tried to draw the moon and I drew it way too skinny and it came out a banana even with the like the stem on it. Like what the hell? I know I could draw a banana like that. Modern day Van Go. And it only took me like two minutes to draw it, too.
Yeah, I I I I'm sorry. I I heard you have some health problems, maybe, God, and I'm, you know, I wish you healing and, you know, hope that you're okay, but and pain and thank you.
Yeah, Facebook. Uh, Facebook. Yeah, I I left Facebook probably several several years ago. Looks like it looks like a dick to you. I don't know. I'll like I'll make I'll put I'll make the tip really black. Oh, it either makes it look more like a penis or less like a I don't know. What? How does it look there? Now it's a banana. I just Maybe I'll color it yellow. Do you know in the emperor card it actually looks
like he's holding he's holding like a golden orb or something but it looks like he's holding a lemon. Okay, good. I know. I know. I know. But you know I just wanted to send my my uh my love too. I may said block me. How old are my cats? Um Rudy's the old
man. I just got him this year but he's like 16 maybe 17. So Nor's probably five years old. Um, Lola is probably three years old and that Marbles is probably around three years old and Shrix was born born last year. Yep.
Hold on. Got I forgot one I forgot one detail. Oh, I it up. Hold on.
Is this better? I do horns on you. I'm just kidding. Well, I I really do like horns on I used to have horns, too. You can see right there. Just see. Look. I don't know. Maybe I'll put a pitchfork in there, too. You kind of remind me of I ruined it. Oh,
I can make it into a hat. I do. I'm sorry. You don't like the horns. Okay.
Lena. Lenina. Hold on. Katina. Mama Mia. God. Have you ever seen my tattoo? Do you ever know why I have the devil on my back all the time?
If you can see that well.
Yeah, I know her. It's great. Thank you. I actually based it on Anna Nicole Smith and like Lords of Acid artwork. Uh I got when I was 18. Yeah. But I Yeah. And I had I had a pinup um shot of her and then I was like but the Lords of acid they used to have like a lot of demon girl art. It was
kind of cartoony with like they'd be like blue skin and like um and so they had it colored in later with the blue. But the original artist that did it, a very famous tattoo artist named Freddy Negradi uh had it done when I was like 18 in black and white. He's a prison artist. He was a prison tattoo artist. And yeah,
Gotti, I might like do like I'll put good Gotti and I'll put e. This one will be evil goddy. Okay. And I'll put I'll make an angel goddy, too. And then you'll have it'll be like two I don't know. I'll figure it out. Uh I Okay. Yeah. Spunky. Spunky is awesome. Okay.
There's no evil. Hey, I don't know if he said you're a Gemini, but Gemini. Well, I don't know. I see some Gemini energy, which is like, yeah, but then we in duality there. You know, we need God and the devil. I don't know. Maybe should I draw like a sexy devil woman or something? Or I don't know if you're married or what, but I don't know. I have another page across from it if you want some somebody to go
with the well the only place evil god evil will exist is on this page. Okay. Perception right but personally um I believe we're all part of God but nobody is God. Not saying that there's anything wrong with
calling yourself God. It's like you know it's your own own choice. It's a great name to want to emulate, but you know, you know who you know who else wanted to change the name to God was Lucifer.
Oh, okay. Always. He's a Catholic god. Mikey's always uh It's okay. You just troll away. Just be gentle. This Yeah. Well, God Godi according to u E Ezekiel, he was God's favorite angel,
his covering chair of the leader of the heavenly choir. Um, and you know, he wanted to he aspired to be God instead of be like God. And then God's like, you want to be me here, rule your own earth. And you throw him down to this mud ball and he he's the uh now he rules here for the most part.
You're the evangelical angel. We created in God's image. So, we are gods. Yes. I think that's another thing is that you look at the the this triad of the demons, angels, and then humans, right? So, we have the angels which are closest to God, but they have no free will because they just do God's will. And then the demons, they just do the opposite of what God's will is, you
know, just just for the sake of doing the opposite. Humans, we can have the choice. We have free will, right? We have a free will. So, we have the choice to go toward God, good or evil. It's also called north node, south node. In um in astrology, you might want to look in your north node, south node. The north node is like kind of the north star
where where you want to head to this and it's represented by the certain sign. And that's like the south south um node or south pole south pole uh the south node which is like which is like where we're comfortable comfortable and maybe our lower self right uh and yet look what he's accomplished well
yeah I think with the help of man you know
kind of like but I kind of look at it like you know I don't know if say, "Oh, you can picture it like um you can picture it either way you want, but I see I think I think there's a mixture of like the the earth and the and the sun like the earth's like the earth and the sun energies, right? But the sun animates the earth's energy." I
I don't know. Trying to think about it. Satan was lit test for humanity to see if they uh can reject him or not. Right. Well, Gotti, here's what I here's what I liking it to. So, there's um you know, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, the original one, right? So, the kids start winning the tickets for the movie, right? And then but every time one of
the kids won a ticket, there's this like little dark little scary looking man with glasses comes and approaches them whispering in their ear and their ears get real big and he does it to everybody and you don't nobody knows what was he whispering to them. Then in the movie, they get to the um room with the everlasting gobstopper, right? And Tonka
like gives them all to keep. Here, here's one to keep. Um and they and they all accept it. But the thing is then the end of the movie, he kicks Charlie out of the factory and Charlie takes the everlasting gobstopper, puts it on his desk, and then he turns
around, he's like, "You won." because the whole thing was a test to see which of who of the kids were going to go bring the gobstopper to Slugworth who really worked for Willy Wonka and Willy Wonka just used him as a test. So that's kind of like what I think of as the devil but there's there's ways of looking at things that that that movie is also good because it's almost like the seven deadly sins are involved in
it. And then, you know, and Charlie had the purest heart. You know, he was he was like the nice person there. Everyone else was like, you know, had this horrible horrible personality thing that goes that movie with um really a hold on about a serial killer. Oh, yeah. Maybe. I don't know. Well, yes,
because these like Oh, they're almost dying. I mean, I don't think they really die in the movie, but you know, they all changed in different shapes and stuff. Yeah. Slugworth. Slugworth. Hey Jan, how are you? Uh yeah. Oh, he did Jigsaw. Uh, story goes that movie. Yeah. Okay.
Uh, he drank the Yeah. The bubbly drink, the fizzy lifting drink with with Grandpa J. I used I mean I loved uh Willy Wonka uh Rald Doll Jane Wilder um was you know Willy Wonka pretty brilliant
uh he yeah he took a bubbly drink. Yeah he sold a fizzy lips drink almost got stuck in the ceiling fan. Yeah just burp though. Just burp. Uh yeah, I know the movie well too. Cheer up Charlie. Don't be afraid.
Remember a what are you doing Joe? Are you kissing? He's blowing you kisses. Thanks. I don't want to start an argument, but the way I was treated earlier, you broke my heart psyche. You broke my one heart.
True to how? Because you were mean to me. Like, oh, Joe's this, Joe's a drunk, Joe's an Why would you say that about your friend? That was somebody else in the chat. That was That wasn't you. That was Yeah. No, it wasn't It wasn't Psyche. It was No, it was that guy on the bicycle. What? was the the guy that rides the bicycle. I forgot his name. He
was saying horrible things to you. I was like, "No." All I said is that you I knew it wasn't you when you pulled his out and it was like 9 in long. I was like, "That's obviously not like a 6 in. You don't in How do you know you don't see my cock?" Hey, but you know what? Um yeah, he was all I said was I said
I'll be quiet. I'll be quiet. Yeah, I all I said is I wasn't into a green dinner. I said I said I wasn't into ginger. That's all I said. 1999 and they want their headphones back. Okay, I'll send I'll send them right away. That wasn't even funny. That was so gay, was it? That was such a gay joke.
How do I say it? May. May. That was such a May. That was a May. Well, remember when you say maggot, you got to say maggot. So, how do you say gay? You're like gay. You're allowed to say gay. You can say gay. It's fine. You can say gay. You can say queer. You say I'm not saying I'm gay, but like anybody
got a fork so I can eat Like, anybody got a spoon I can borrow cuz I'm really hungry and a can of butter and salt. Stop sexually harassing me. You're disgust. See, I can't I can't believe I used to used to um you know, joke around like that with people. It's shocking.
Well, Joe, you go get a go get a grapefruit and eat that. You're not touching my butthole with a spoon. Okay. Uh
hi Jamie. Jamie, don't worry. Don't worry. I I unmodded everybody. Um, you did a great job as a mod. I don't I don't want you being harassed. I know you already got a little bit of trouble from people and you know, people are yelling at you sometime, but you can still do the Nightbot commands if you want to. I love you. It's nothing. It was I did I unmoded everybody except for Nightbot and so I'll I don't want anybody to get blamed for anything that
happens in my chat. I'll take all the heat. Okay. Okay. Love you, Jamie. Yeah. Hopefully it's I think it will work better. Yeah. No mods. You're You're free, guys. Guys, the mod the wrench is actually like a It's like a It's a It's like a chain. It's like terrible. It's like It's like a bondage.
Now Now that I'm carrying like a 100 pound wrench, I understand how heavy the you know they are. So you really need mod. Well, is your name Nightbot, Doug? Change your name legally with Nightbot and I'll by technicality I'll have to mod you, right? Why is going to regulate the amount of Oh, come on. We're not regularly. You need your mod back.
It's okay. No, like no one really um like you know you guys were really great great mods but you know you because I didn't really need you to do much like um you know but I know it's stressful and um you guys did a good job. It'll be much better. I know KZ mod the first uh Yeah. So then then that first complaint
is like you know mooch mooch mooch mooch all over. Oh, okay. Oliver, you're not doing that, are you? Okay. I can't drop links. That's the only thing. Um, if you want to send uh if you want to um Yeah, I'll have to I'll have to kind of be looking at people's links if they want a link posted. Um, or are they going to
just people can post the channel name that you search for or or the at in your channel name or you can come just inside the streamy art studio put in the private chat then I can post it in the regular chat or I can look for it too. I do want to still but also I I'm just going to be worrying I'm kind of like what's been
happening is like you know like I told you I in chats like I went to I didn't go to VA chat last night but you know I'm not going over there anymore but um I was there maybe a week ago or something and it's like this her chat was just saying like really bad stuff like just talking really bad about me and then Alisa chat the same thing and it's like and I used to send people the
chat and then people started is saying, "Oh, Psyches um sent us to troll you and they say terrible things." And so I don't want any bad to happen to any, you know, I don't want I don't want any situations like my my uh trolling situation to happen to any of you. So So
but if you really like to promote your show, um you know, you can ask me and I will. I I know probably been a little little bit hectic lately lately. Anyone see K trying to act like Vita and say drink to get attention? Smacking my head. Um
Oliver, you're gonna pull your face off. Why are you doing that? Okay. remember Oliver's neck. No, I don't remember what you said about that. Did you want to You said you want to You want to neck and make out with Oliver? I have never had it, but taken
away by your hair. Oh, Jam. Yeah, please don't. Yeah, it's just It's just the best. It's the best. So, everyone's a modded and then everyone's free from the tyranny of other mods or rogue mods. I promise won't be a rogue mod. Thank you, Matt. You and Joe have some good combos. Well, yeah. I mean, that that one we had
was fun. Last night, the other guy kind of like buttered in and he was talking fast. Wow. He's a nice guy, but he kept telling he kept telling uh Joe to join his butt. Disgusting. Hello. Hi, dude.
Hey, what's up? Happy Sunday. How are you? Happy Sunday. Sunday. Sunday. I'm doing good. I hope you Nice watch. A watch. Nice watch. It's a It's a car. Okay. It's a I'm sorry, guys. I'm telling you, my vision my vision's going. I think my my lasic's wearing
off. I like when Psyche and Joe talk about Oh, yeah. We sing the uh ' 80s theme songs. Come. That's not good times. said it's unttrackable, Joe. You know, unttrackable. He's awesome. It's a little car. It's like a little little car. Little blue car.
That's probably the that that size car is only probably the only um car I'll ever be able to get a Hot Wheel. Joe Shipley is the great unttrackable uh passive large monthly fees that got tracked by China. Uh oh. Thank you.
Yeah. So, what's up? Oh, no. I'm um I'm doing good. Hanging out. Um the the fam went to go see other fam and I I I chose uh the other option which was to sit here and um talk to y'all and prepare for Monday.
Prepare for Monday. Are you working tomorrow or doing something? Cool. Yeah. Um I had something about a good stock happening at good times. Oh, Kayzy, don't show up at his house.
I know. I I drew I drew track before, but I can't I can't draw him today. He just has a little sports car. Uh, let's see. Who else can I draw? I can draw Joe. Hold on. That's Scott. Hold. Oh, I'm afraid to draw this.
I need to put on my phone. Hold on. We'll do that better. Oh, do you you do drawings as well? Yeah. Didn't I draw you before? I think I have you in my other book. Didn't I draw you the other day? It's been a while, but that that was uh I I actually thought that was that was fun. That was a good time. Yeah. I, you
know, I'm not like the best artist, but it's kind of like I I remember I like John Lennon used to have like, you know, art print for I don't know if like he did it with Yoko or whatever, but he would they were just like kind of simple lines, but they were like so like they're so simple, but they were cool and I kind of I like that style. Um, okay. So, I'm looking for the Okay, I'm going to draw Joe Ships. I seen the picture. Let me see.
Oliver's a bottom. Okay. Okay. Let's see. I'll I'll make it look like you. Hold on.
Where did Joe go? Was he uh Was he acting up? No, he said he has to remember what he said he had to do. He had he had to go. Oh, yeah. No, he was acting up. is like, "Yeah, he said he wants to like take a put a spoon in my or something like that. It gets a little bit too gay for me. I don't like things in my butt."
Okay, so Oh, okay. So, I I I don't see like the logo that was on Joe's hat. I can do Well, I can't I can't I don't see the I don't see the RA Raven logo. I'll have to find it later. They've changed it so many times. Joe, that must be a vintage hat or something. Oh, there on your screen. Yeah. Uh, let's see. Oh, here. Oh, here's Joe.
You want to talk to Joe? Hey, Untractable. Do you want to You want to hear the truth or do you want to hear Sykes lies? Which one do you want to hear? I want to have a banished. I was banned. What? Yeah, you banished me like Wendy the
You busy. Oh. Oh, I thought you said you had to go and say about what you're talking about. I remember one time they asked Beetle Juice, "If you dig a six foot hole, how deep is that hole?" He was like, "Probably 25 ft." I love Beetle Juice. I love you, too. Like, oh, there you go.
Yeah. Well, guys, to be fair, I never said I'm going to eat your with a spoon. I said, "Hey, you're not saying I'm not being rude. shall not send any wrong. No, no, but no. Somebody somebody in the chat is like, "Oh, well, so you can say that kind of stuff to guys, but Joe can't
take a red. You need to take a red. Take a red." Psych. He's already wrench. Okay. Hey, but Joe, if if we're going to talk about ass um if you would eat my ass and I would eat your ass. But we both agree that we are
heteros. You get like a pigstick a pickaxe and lick it like you Cornelius like and lick it. You're not gay. You're just ass. Okay. Okay, guys. Yeah. See, like I I have a little perspective of Yeah. I can't believe I actually hit on guys like that. Isn't that disgusting?
That doesn't sound bad. Please. It sounds terrible. They can go eat each other's ass. I don't want it on my show. You see how I wasn't invited that it was they just they just, you know, they said two straight guys do it. The gay guys never included it. They always I'm always excluded.
Immature. I mean, yeah, they're immature. See, I am matured. Yes. Yes. Joe went way too far. I just It's okay. I don't like a mockery of of my uh my gay lifestyle by straight men. I'm very offended. That's sexual harassment. Okay. Well, now you're not
there to make to kiss unttrackable. So, I'll bring him back. Now, now my only option. You have to make out with me or whatever you said. Anal sex or whatever. Oh, hold on. I'm just kidding. Grew up Joe. What the hell? Yeah, it was too far. though. Don't be a Oh gosh, guys. This is the beginning of We'll see how people react. It's being timed out. We'll take it. Well, I'm sure.
Oh, apologize. Oh, it's okay. No, it's I know you're just joking around. You're And I was just halfway kid, too. Oh, but uh yeah, I'm trying to like I'm trying to have the show a less gay place so so the straight people could feel feel comfortable here too. Um I got you. I'll Okay, good. No, it's
just fine. You guys are acting up. Okay, time uh time these Oh, Joe, I'll do better than that. Joe, you're gonna have to figure out how to get in contact with me. See you Joe. Okay.
Uh yeah, it's like uh I read I was looking some something really good about boundaries about setting boundaries and then because a lot of people who are kind and then so then people that are takers they will take they'll go to the kind person
and they know the person's kind so they'll probably grant at least part of the request or you know compromise on and they count on that u And so the point the point is that it's like people will take advantage of your perceived kindness and thinking that they can they can do that. And so but
kindness is not a weakness. And so I learned I I should uh firmly remind that I am kind but I'm not a doormat. And no means no. And that's that. And that's period. So, I understand what people were saying when Gotti was saying I was weak and JC
say I'm weak and like you know people were saying grow a pair. Yeah. I I've been a little You know what really snapped me out of it. It was when VA and Joker and uh Mr. big pipes and Crystal and like all these people came on one night just like really saying awful things to me and it's like I mean some bad things have been said to
me on the panel before but like never like that and it really hurt and it's like and now I know how people felt when they were kind of getting attacked on the panel right and so thank you Gotti and you and you know um as a guest I I I am not allowed to forget that you are
the provider of this space. And it doesn't have to be a safe space, but you know, if if something goes against the grain and in what you want to be happening right in front of you, uh you have the ultimate power to um you know, remove people from this
space and also shut this space down. That that is yeah I mean that's a hell of a responsibility to take on when you are offering it to what you hope to be you know reasonable consenting people. It it can be tough. I I I see it. Well I
feel like I feel like I've been through pretty much you know I've been through like a pretty pretty few few pretty good good waves there. Right. And but I'm still standing right now and it's like and that that means I still have a chance to like to like fix things and adjust and you know I can
I can I can do it. I can like you know not I'm not I don't give up. You know I'm a Capricorn. We like we'll freaking climb a mountain, talk to God and jump down to the ocean, swim to the bottom, talk to the devil and talk to both. Uh, let's see. So, you would time out everyone for 24 hours.
You're the first one to have one. Yeah. So, but yeah, but as for a safe space, no, I mean originally like my vision was never to have like uh so much conflict in the in the room. just turned into like, you know, because I had open panels and because of the panel panels I had come from and the people I had talked to and
stuff, the first people to come, it kind of like set a tone of like, oh, the audience liked drama and the people the that were on the panel pretty much like to do the drama, too. in at that time. And so everyone was happy, but then it gets to like then people that were not really a panelist that the panelists are attacking in the chat. People are
following each other from different places. Um, and people are saying really rude things. People are chasing off, you know, I have a lot of like nice nice older ladies that would come in and they they would just be people would call them degrading names. I I should have been I should have been better at like stopping it, but you know, it's like at the time you're like, "Oh, well, it's
it's supposed to be, you know, a dramatic panel and this is what the audience wants, you know, but it's not the kind of show I want. It's like it's I've I've watched you, you know, for several months now, and trust me, I'm
I'm not an expert. I'm not doing these things. I'm not offering up uh the risk. Uh however, uh I have watched you go through, you know, people coming in and then they be nice and then be like, "Hey, I'm going to invite this person over." But the person they're inviting with uh
inviting is their nemesis, their their arch rival of this and it's like, "Hey, we're going to use your living room as our, you know, battle royale." You know what I'm saying? Well, I mean I mean it's h something similar happened to me like in the real world with like you know people it's kind of it's called
like a trap house, right? where it's just like, you know, got people coming in and all, you know, everyone's doing drugs and, you know, people are selling drugs in the house and there's police are always outside and it's just there, you know, always people just disrespectful, destroy the place,
right? And so I see the analogy very well with you know this is also a room that I can actually instead of just opening up to to everybody to come in and stomp and you know put out you know cigarettes in the you know candlesticks and you know get mud over the floor and
you know kick the cat and all you know it's like no it's like we're going to have nice people kind of like other channels the envir environment is not healthy. Sounds like other I I think that there's going to be enough unique unique stuff right in the channel that will compensate for the lack of just hatred and fighting and yelling. I mean that
did anybody it would just stress most people out and scare people away and that was like fun for like some people but um like seriously I I was getting very bored with like just people yelling at each other. I was like hoping that eventually the conflicts would like oh they come to like some kind of oh we talked for a while oh I actually like you a little bit we can talk I've seen it happen a couple times where people
will like be enemies and then they can kind of get along but not very often like most of the time there's like no reconciling there's like it's they're just going to it's just going to not going to you know they're not going to ever be friends that and that's fine but they don't have to be arguing every day in my chat screaming and yelling I
have a problem after problem. I can't I I have to I'm very sensitive to energy, too. And so, it kind of like is really on my energy. Um I I can say that um I I'm I've again I'm not doing it, but
I'm learning with you by being part of what you're doing. And um you know it it can be tough to recognize when somebody's being playful and they say something or when this is about to go down the wrong way or when you know hey let's just say you have a full panel but
two people own it. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Yeah. And sometimes there's interest. Sometimes there's people like I had some like I had people that were like, you know, probably had never had a discussion together except for like, you know, just sniping on each other's channels back and forth and they were able to go come together and have a discussion on my panel probably. And that maybe that was some progress in the
relationship or something. And I just hope she can come to a ceasefire. If not, like, you know, at least a live and let live and you know, I'm not going to go after you because we saw what happened in that case. Um the guy in Las Vegas, he was a streamer. He bullied this other guy incessantly that was a streamer and got his channel taken down and that guy went and you know and then
un alive the guy's guy and his wife you know cuz he he went insane you know so you know we don't went we don't went that that's the kind of energy that we we want to very much avoid on you know very much you know so like it's like so much of the stuff that was going on was like stuff that should not be going on like it there should not be there should
not have been doxing and there should not have and so much slander and I can't I mean I really if I can't believe I survived this long though. Who knows if insanity has anything to do with it? Uh insanity. What is it? I mean you're talking about there's insanity like Stark craving mad like you know the Joker you know Jok not Joker but the
Joker you know he's he goes like insane the world turns him insane or there's like the insanity of like you know there's schizophrenia which may be some kind of spiritual thing actually where they actually are seeing things but veil is just too too a thin to uh to tell the difference between the the astral and the physical sometimes.
And then there's the narcissist and there's the psychopaths and there's the mockabellians. And so and and a lot of times these those three are in a triangle. A lot of times they go together and that's like a that's not a good combination because that means the mockabillionism is kind of like scheming
um getting power at all cost you know conspiracies and then the narcissism is I'm the best everyone else is like nothing like insignificant you know only only my needs matter I need all the attention I need all the all the all the gratitude
and then psychopath just saying um just saying we'll do anything to anyone to get what they want and they even been do very bad things. So I think there's I think there's a combination of some of these people and I think some
people are completely sane. Um I think some people are a little bit traumatized. I think a lot of people have PTSD and um trauma but you know we all have something you know it's like our mind is unless we have just this perfectly work that's nothing really works perfect all the time so it's like we have to like work you know work with ourselves work
through our mind our brain can be a tool it can also you know you know it it sees things it like you know we're very visual right you're a registered democrat a few different kind of sectors just kind of merged here. That's because KZ I was in the black sector. Then I went to I was in the people's podcast. I was in, you
know, just every open panel I could find basically. Um, and brought people from all over. So I always believe in me. So Rancher No. Yeah. I still believe in you. I still believe in you, Jamie. I always will. And you're you were you're you're the best mod. You're you're you're a great mod. I was like, if there was one mod, human mod, I would keep, it
would be you. I just don't want you getting harassed because people are saying, "Oh, Jamie, time me out." Because I don't want I'll take the I'll take all the blame for that. Okay. He just Okay. Easy. Yeah. Is that easy down there? What's up?
Always. He's in the chat. Yeah. We do need some more positive. We do need more positive people because you know you some of the people were very like you know you said some very bad things like people even I mean even people I like even even Joe said terrible things
to people. I mean, oh, I can't repeat them because it's like, you know, it's saying just don't, you know, me um get to know people is being honest about myself and um it it's not so much about the sharing.
It's like, hey, I'm about to put an honest sentence that describes a moment in my life, and your reaction to my honest sentence, uh, it teaches me something about you. You know what I'm saying? Does that make sense to you? Yeah. Your honest sins, they say, oh, what would you say? Honest.
Honest honesty. when when you say something that is that is true and verifiable and whatever uh but you're trying to have a conversation with somebody well rather than them share equally even even if it
would uh be a lie. It's just like they so many people just go straight to, oh, that's how that's how you did it and and they just start to pick apart your your story. Well, I'm I'm saying I'm saying I never told people to unalive themselves. I never told people put a bullet through your head. I've never said I'm going to
come come um you know, SCAB you I'm gonna They actually said about raping people. Yes, things like this were said by people on my show. And maybe I said I don't really think I've said that outrageous of things, you know. Maybe I might have said the word or something. I don't know. Maybe I said other things. I don't know. Did I say guys, have you heard me say something
like what's the worst thing you guys in the chat have heard me say to somebody? And have I ever said to told somebody to like unalign themselves or I'm going to hurt anybody or to ever make a threat to anybody? That's what I'm I'm talking about. So I'll take responsibility for um my behavior and chat. I said I was not a very good host. I I allowed um
some of the guests to get pretty much yelled at pretty pretty bad by some other guests and I didn't intervene and when I should have sometimes they would like sometimes people wouldn't want to uh me to uh intervene right they'd be like oh don't but sometimes they would and sometimes they would be they have that relationship where they talk like
that but still I don't want it set on my show and right trackable ones to Um. Oh, really? Well, it's okay. Hey, who got yelled at and by who? Who got yelled at? I got yelled at by several people.
Probably like, you know, several people um for I have been for several months. But, um like a lot of people got yelled at. A lot of females on the panel. Paige got called um terrible names. people would say just terrible personal things like oh you know just you know how they troll but it's like some people like he
she he was kind of new to it and uh you know there was really personal stuff you know even like when my my my dad's uh anniversary was passing you know I sh I shared a little bit yeah I'm going to have dinner this is a year ago he has passed away people coming on under account saying my dead dad or Psyche's dead dad people saying Psyche's mom
killed his dad people coming up with my real name, my my address, dogs thing, having so many pieces sent to my house. Yeah. So, I mean, it wasn't a picnic over here. So, I But I'm saying I didn't want that to happen. I don't want that to happen to anybody. The dogs shouldn't happen to anybody.
It's so so immoral and uh it can lead to death. Just like swatting. Swatting can easily lead to a death. you have you tell you call the authorities, the police and say, "Oh, this person has an assault rifle under their bed or something or there's a hostage in their house. Police the SWAT team can come in the middle of the night, break down
their door, the person maybe they have the they have protection like they have a firearm, they they pull it out, the SWAT opens the door, the guy's holding a firearm, the guy's gone. He's just trying to protect himself and he didn't call the police. Right. Right. patrolling is like that. I would hear uh
you have hurt yourself because they all would have been in jail. Yeah. I'm saying that's like that's like you know law is the one of the biggest deterren like you know the reason why we don't all don't each other. Imagine going to jail saying I cyber bully somebody. Yeah. But I mean cyber bully. There was this case of this guy. He was like
probably 16 or 17 and you know he was hitting this girl in high school and they um they would have had a lot of text messages but eventually you know she started trying to convince them that you know he should unal alive himself and here's how to do it. You know you just take your take a a co a hose and you know take it to your put it in your car and put put it in the window and you
know it's you know here's how here's how to do it. And then she sat on the phone with him while he did it and made sure he did it and then he died. And so then all the text messages she's encouraging him to do it. And I think she just went to jail for maybe a couple of years, right? Um but cyber bullying, you know, cyber bullying can have real consequences. What about easy? What about the case that that was a cyber bullying case where actually it links
over into real life sometimes. That's what I'm saying. Especially when you get with the doxing and then we have really obsessed people doing things, right? So, it's uh it's very dangerous. So, that's why especially after that last case that with that Las Vegas, I'm going to be very careful with doxing and and making
sure nobody nobody there's no addresses, um phone numbers, full names or anything that people don't want, pictures or anything that is not the person in the chat. Right. Morning. David clogged the bathroom a whole messy floor. Okay, bye.
Morning cleaning words matter and many here on YouTube um try to play words down. Yeah, and it's also because people feel so free to say anything. I mean, you can. It's like that. It's great. You can feel free to say anything. Um because you're like, you know, behind a mask or behind a avatar or voice changer,
you can say anything. Um most times people will be savvy enough to know oh this is not viable but a lot of times people will will uh be very terrorized heard people being charged with it. Yeah, especially it's going to be happening more and
more. I just read a I saw a case where this guy was being sextarted by an AI that they made AI he was being sexed by and I think he unlived himself here on YouTube or a different platform. Okay, let's see. They're starting to dig deep within the community. Yeah, I think
think that they have been right. Uh who's going to regard to Okay, that's why they said they're going to change the law. Yeah, it's going to be more more stricter. That's what I'm thinking. I'm are going through a struggle. You can do it to that person that hates the heart. So, you know, you go, I'm not negative. We know you're not negative,
Jim. You're a sweetheart. Um, yeah, I know. like you know Jaime's like um you know Jaime's you know she's been on the panel and stuff but she never was like you know really she was mostly in the chat
and it's like and then people would harass her and stuff and uh and also you it got to the point where people were making videos you know or or just to hear the topic of the show and she wasn't even on YouTube panels or anything and people were just saying bad things and it's kind of uh shocking especially
who who was doing it. Uh I feel everybody mentioned uh yeah no I just think of like you know c u b i n e where you know with the assault rifles like that's some states those are very available and those guys got bullied and
then they took it out on right that was it's not cyber bullying but that was a bullying. Okay. Yo. Hey. What's going on? You seem concerned. You seem a little bit stressed. What's going on? Everything okay? Oh, yeah. Everything's fine. Oh,
I'm going to draw your muscles. Hold on. No, I just like I It was like so exhausting. Like last night, I was on I talked to like this guy. I won't say his name, but he was just I couldn't know complaining complaining complaining including about the mods.
Mods are fighting with each other. There's mods that are hate each other and I'm having to mod people to prevent them from being timed out of the chat. So, I just unmoded everybody. That's working a lot better. But I'm going to draw your mouse on this. There you go. You mind? Hold on. I
don't know if I can your face though. I'll make your face all dark. You're shadowy. Okay. Now, but well, okay. I say this as a friend. Okay. Don't get mad. All right. Don't don't get offended or anything. But what are
your thoughts on the concept of authority? Because you here are the ultimate authority. So, do you think that perhaps the lack of authority within this channel could be contributing to some of these factors that you're dealing with? Oh my gosh. What? Yeah, I just said that. I said, you know, it was my fault
because I was kind of letting things go wild. I was being too nice. I was not setting boundaries. I was giving too many chances. I was Yeah. You know, I've taken responsibility for it, but you know, it's like I don't I know that that doesn't excuse all the bad behavior for everybody just because it's it's my show. It's like so but
that's in a way you're right because it's like it is my show and so everything that happens on the show I have some authority over but like I'm saying you can't stop the words coming out of someone's someone's mouth. You can't control what people people say and they and I would try to and say hey don't say this don't say this like like a someone says don't touch the soap they touch the soap you know sometimes when
people told not to do something they like to do it especially trolls right well I think that we we cannot control anybody's intentions when they come into our lives and it's easier to handle those that are um transparent on evil intent upon
entering our lives because at least we know, you know, at least we know like I got to watch out for this It's a lot more complicated when you're dealing with potential deception. Um, and it's clear that the fact that a lot
of these people are able to hide, it enables their deception and it enables their evil intentions to perhaps um bypass some of the smoke screens that to bypass some of the walls that we set
up to protect ourselves. Well, right. But yeah, well yeah, especially how I was, you know, letting everybody on and letting people on that I I didn't even like on. Um but yeah, now I know I I can't I I can't do IP checks of every single person in the chat and then and I don't care to if
anyone whoever wants to be in the chat most of the time they're people are just nice in the chat and you know I do have people still watching out for me in the chat. it's gonna be a safer place. And so I don't really care what goes on in the chat on the panel. If I got a bad feeling, if I um the person's rude to me or the guest or um
just scared to start conflict or trouble, it's like it's not not for my show. So it's going to be my choice. But uh yeah, I mean it's like yes, people will try to, you know, go under different accounts. They'll probably try to come bomb still. They're probably No, it'll be I'll just have to be more alert, which I will be. Okay. Yeah.
It's a shame that that, you know, when you have an open door, you know, for anybody to be able to come and enjoy themselves, inevitably there's those that come with evil intentions. It's a shame, but it it places us in a point of um responsibility to exercise order. And do
you remember when a few days ago I asked you about like chaos and order because it was starting to feel quite chaotic like and I'm glad you caught it. I'm glad you caught it. It it it sometimes it needs to get to that chaotic point to like get like to switch back or to like you know it's kind of like just like on the
Yeah, that's and that's the whole thing about the summer salsas. It was like it's time for rebalancing. So I could see like on the summer salsas everything when a skew like for everybody and it's like because it's like people just change so much and so you know that's to show you where to where to balance it and and I see like as the days have gone a few days have gone by it's gotten a
little better. Okay so uh okay hold on. Okay they're not the best but I try my best. Okay. Who's that? I recognize your arms. But I don't have long hair, dude. No, that's not that's like sh That's your
That's a black shirt and like your your shadow up there. Nice. And see in a circle like your welcome. I don't know your face. I don't want to get your face wrong. It's another work of art. Thank you very much. I'm humbled. I really appreciate it. Gotcha. But I'm glad, you know, I'm happy that that, you know, sometimes
like we the biggest lessons in lives come from adversity. Yeah. Character is built through adversity. So I have a a personal philosophy that, you know, inevitably there's one thing there's one constant in life that we cannot control, which is that we're going to get hit
with adversity like in a variety of ways. But if we're able to train ourselves to take such adversity, to take when life is kicking our ass and become stronger from it, all we're going to do throughout the passing of time is continue getting stronger and stronger
and stronger and stronger because we know that life is going to kick our ass. All of us. So, if we are able to somehow channel that pain into strength, then we're never going to stop getting stronger and and hopefully just developing a a larger threshold for the suffering that comes with life
kicking our asses. True. I mean, but uh you know, there there's a philosophy by Marcus Aurelius. He was he was a a Roman emperor. It's called Stoicism. Oh, I I I I have read meditations one and two like numerous times. I I I think
that Marcus Aurelius is is one of the ultimate role models for men and in today's like society it's very important to study his his philosophies I think. And the guy had a great heart. He was an a very humble leader.
Yep. I mean that's a great philosing if you guys want to look into stoicisms that's about you know just like taking all the punches of life and not with a smile but just maybe with a little bit of a grimace but but uh there's also um also very helpful about if you people are suffering is um Buddhism
and Buddhism saw life as basically suffering and even but even even the suffering In my opinion, in my humble opinion, I think like there's only one being that is cognizant of the concept
of death, which is human. No other living beings are able to understand the concept of death. They don't understand the finality within existence. Yeah. And I think that just the the the awareness of our own finality bring suffering and then throughout
history humans have developed a variety of ways to handle such suffering. I think religion is definitely one of them where you know they've developed a system of you know if I if I if I lose a loved one which is one of the toughest things in life um I'm going to get to
see them again. Uh, so I don't think in my humble I I could be absolutely wrong. You know, philosophy the essence of it is that it's all open-ended. It's not theology. Like I this is these are just random thoughts. But I think that as a
species, we have not conquered that fear at all. Uh the fear of death, right? And it leads a lot of our behavior uh in everyday life and warfare and subsistence and who knows if we will be able to
conquer it before we extinct ourselves. Um well you know we all we all will die and that's like what we all have in common you know but but here's the thing it's like people think that you know death death is suffering but actually life is suffering. It's like life is the the pain is in the life when you the death there's no more pain you know this
this basically the the human body is gone the spirit is free all pain's gone right but the uh with the life new suffers in life it's like us when we lose our loved ones which but we all will I mean it's like it's it's inevitable we you know it's going to be one of us before the other but we all but that's a blessing too because we
don't want to be stuck in immortal form in these these bodies because that would these are physical bodies we need to be we need our body our soul to be free uh it's the fear of unknown people are just scared death will hurt I think well you know but how long will hurt for it's like you know I mean you know hopefully it's a it's a you know it's a quick
painless thing I think it's the concept of un of being aware that our existence is going to end like an animal no dog or elephant or zebra understands that eventually they're going to stop breathing. So they are able to focus on enjoying the present. Of course, because they are
not aware of a lot of things, but they're masters of living in the present and we have a lot to learn from like your cats for example, your cats have no idea that death exists. So it's one moment at a time. But in my case, as pet owners, like we understand
that they're going to pass one day and and we experience a level of of of suffering sometimes just even thinking about it you know. Mhm. Oh yeah. Um yeah but I but you said yeah but you know how you said well only human beings can have a they have a concept of that
we will we will die but human beings also have the concept of and not all do but human beings also contemplate their existence and they have an awareness of some kind of higher power that maybe animals probably don't consider or meditate on or think about and we and we do. So we have also this ability to
strive towards the higher. Okay. And that's like and we can when you say but that higher power when you say a higher power like and you know again this is philosophy it's an open-ended everybody's right but what is your definition of a higher power? A higher power well people call it different names. You can call it the
source. You can call it the all. You can call it the creator. You can call it all that is. You can call it God. You can call Allah. You can call it existence. You can call it life and death. You can call it duality. There's a lot of things we can call this, you know. Or no, no not actually the I would say that the the higher power is not the duality.
We're the duality down here. The higher power is probably more of a singularity like the more of the one and we're kind of split into two down here. We can see that. Are you familiar with the concept of anthropocentrism? Um, which that's giving human qualities to animals or anthropomorphism.
But anthroposentrism is the concept of that everything in life revolves around humans. Mhm. Well, that's that fits in with the biblical view because, you know, Adam is made the king of the animals and he's, you know, and also also, you know, the angels and the demons were were asked to bow down before him and uh the demons or
the jin did not want to. They thought that they were superior to to as a man. They were there before him and perhaps that's a very anthropocentric concept of the Bible itself. Yeah. I mean, but that it's man-cens
you you have to be looking for first of all and to to try to connect with I mean it's like not every like people want to go through life thinking life is meaningless. Existentialism, nihilism, you're born, you die, it's black, it doesn't have any meaning. It's not nothing. It's just we're just here for a second. I mean, then you know, it's really easy for people to believe that and it's like and then know
they don't they never look into these higher things and if they don't if they can't see something then they won't believe it. But it's like then again we have so many things so much illusion in this world. Do we ever know what really we're really seeing? There's so many there's so much illusion right. It's like even the it's called Maya like just even the solid matter in life where
illusion is not a part of it which is nature. Mhm. Well, we're from nature. We came from nature, right? There's no illusion in nature. There's no illusion in there. How about how about a mirage? How about a How about um you know the rainbow? That's those are all illusions. They look like they're there. They're not. They just uh No, but but that is part of
but that is part of the human condition just lacking hydration to the brain. I don't know. It's like that's why um oasis is appear. I think it has to do with like uh the illusion the sun makes on the on the fl perhaps. Perhaps I don't know. But for example, like the the the deer cannot have the illusion to
live another day under the jaws of the lion, can it? Uhhuh. Well, I mean, if it escapes, but yeah, that's why I said under the jaws and not in the midst of the chase. Yeah. Well, you know what? Sometimes, uh, maybe the lion just ate and then he just wanted to kill it and then he bit
his neck and he let go and it ran away. To the ones who have hurt me, I'm free from the burden. Trying to make you happy. So, thank you to better days. You're lost, not mine. Here. Here, Jamie. Oh, Jamie. Jam is so cute. You have a lot of very cute girls. Like not cute
physically, but just like you can tell that they're like sweet girls. Like He-Man is very sweet girl. Jamie's cowboy is very sweet. Reality Nancy is very sweet. Sassy Scarlet. Like you have very very sweet girls in in your community. And you know that's that to an extent that's what tends to not tense
I'm sorry but that's what should inspire authority is to keep him safe right yeah and you know I do regret you know some people you know we got Jamie Rose up and Jamie Rose is like you know Jamie Rose is a little bit you know has
quite a vocabulary right and she can go back and forth the and people can say and she she can she'll be fine, you know, she can argue out. I never had a conflict with her. We called each other names and stuff. We're we're besties the next day and then you know so yeah and then there's people that are
so I know she I know I don't need to jump in like hey leave Jimmy Rose alone. She she would certainly leave or just tell them to up and and leave her you know and have a conversation. Some people seemed like that like you know I've seen people like you know I'll say beat up like would seem like that where
she would like she can verbally spar argue um you know some people in their place that you know and say like really crazy things back but later she she would get mad about what she got called because there's a there's one variable at play there which
unfortunately And this is why sometimes I'm rough and the girl is uh alcohol. Mhm. Um I think it re I think there's two beatas. I think there's sober bea that is a sweetheart. Um and I think
there's drunk VA that is um out for war as some drunks are, you know, as some drunk people they tend to be. they just want conflict. And I think that one important thing especially because you host a panel that uh allows any type of
mindset to to join you. You in other words, let's say you don't say if you are that you have to be sober to be here. Uh if you're drunk, you're not allowed for example because there's going to be a change of behavior. And there's a radical change of behavior in beta when she's intoxicated, when she's
drunk compared to when she's not. And I this is why I'm I'm I'm tough on the girl because I believe in Sovita. I think that there's a a beautiful heart there and a world of potential, but um it's only up to her to to conquer
herself and just not allow any substances or any variables whatsoever to modify her behavior because you I mean dude, I mean I think you more than anybody has been the recipient of uh of the clause when they come out and the
alcohol makes the clause. does come out. Yeah. And uh and I just sometimes just don't know what to say when when that happens and it's like I get a little bit a little bit I'm really I'm really conflict aversion. I do not like fighting. I I didn't really I didn't really I didn't grow up around like a
lot of lot of people fighting or anything. um you know and I if there if there was I would learn how to like be funny and and soften like the mood and like in the environment. So, but then you know that's easier to do with like small groups of people rather than these these huge chats that Yeah. have a lot of
people that it's tough. I mean it's it's you're you're dealing you're dealing with a lot of very difficult challenges from a sociological standpoint. Um because you're dealing with people that behave towards you in a certain way when they're sober and then a very different way and they have
influence upon I won't say upon you but upon your viewership. They have influence upon your viewership. So let's say if um if what the viewership wants is to see that person intoxicated and your viewership
increases based on the um negative behavior of that person then it's like it's almost it's a weird thing where yes you are finding success but at what cost right and that's what I'm I'm really realizing that it's like you know I feel like I I did what I what I wanted to do I've already accomplished. I wanted to,
you know, I was thinking, you know, build a channel over a thousand people, you know, have like, you know, you know, decent amount of people in the chats and, you know, get monetized. And I've accomplished that. And so now it's just like now it's just a matter of making fixing it, making it perfect, making like now since I I got all the
hours I needed, I got everything I needed, I already I already accomplished. Now I now I'm next accomplishment is like you know just building my channel maintaining my channel making my channel a a fun place entertaining having just having fun and good having people meet each other and
and this this platform like the platform this is my you know my my my channel but the platform you know it's really YouTube and so I I have to really pay attention to like what YouTube is is wanting And yes, and one it will be different. Yeah.
And uh one thing I learned in college and a specific marketing class that made me rearrange I own my own business. I've been in business for 14 years thankfully successfully. And one thing that made me rearrange my marketing quite a bit was that a teacher mentioned how that you don't want to be a shoe box. And at the
time I did not understand what that meant. like a shoe box and that means a bunch of random stuff all put together into one outlet. Oh yeah. And in the past like when I would market I would be like oh like oh look here's me like exercising here's like fitness. Here's
like outdoors. Here's like new I bought. Here's social life. But that's that little by little it makes it a shoe box that you have to narrow down like the type of people that you want to attract. Yeah. And make your content based around them. Not a shoe
box of content as I was doing it but I learned not to. But just like what who are the people I wish to attract and what do they want to see? Uh yeah. So I would say about that it's like yeah so in the first building up my channel I was filling up the shoe box with with anything. I was take putting everyone in the shoe box and there's a
big variety and I was like you know it's like you never know what's going to come out of the shoe box but yeah then it would have like kind of a more of a niche audience as to what what got pulled out of the shoe box. Now now I have enough in the shoe box to have you know decide make a good selection of what I want and what I don't want. Now I No, now I because I now I have I've had
apparently everyone on. So now I know headphone on. You've had good times like like you I think hopefully at this point you've learned what not to promote. Yeah. What not to be associated with. And I think like what I've noticed I could be completely wrong. I I'm not an
expert in this topic at all. But what I've noticed in the people that apply that shoe box approach to YouTube is that they tend to focus on like larger YouTubers. So let's say like they talk about the drama between Ethan Klein and Hassan and like all this stuff. Um that's their shoe box, but at the end of
the day it's still a little bit concentrated on YouTube drama if you were to put a label. But I think there's like my business operates as a I'm a specialist within a niche and there's one thing that you can either you can kind of like be like Costco or
Walmart where you have a lot to sell at a low cost or which I think is probably wiser being a a smaller operation or having something that is a very very very high value for those who want it.
Yeah. And I want to I kind of want to do both. I want I want people to find value in it. You can do both. You can do both. You cannot do Oh, you can't Well, you're saying wait, I can either have like a a very small channel. I mean, it's like not a small channel, but you can like focus on a niche like focus on like like this tarot. I'm going to focus on tarot
and I'm going to do it very very well. And if and do you think good times gives a about tarot like Aldi 1k? Exactly. That Yeah, that's what I was thinking like, you know, I was gonna I was probably like, you know, because I've done, you know, I was doing, you know, very very long long long days and it's like, you know, so I figured out, you know, it's going to be quality over
quantity. So I could probably do like maybe they could probably do four hours a day, six days a week and have the first hour just completely doing readings. and it's like you know doing readings for the chat doing a general reading for the chat and if anyone wants a paid reading and then that's first hour and then I'll put post my
Streamyard link and the rest of the um rest of the chat we can have open panels or you know that kind of thing. Um but I have a topic like have a topic as what people have to talk about like like when they join. Yeah, when they join the channel. Yeah, you're right. But it is
kind of like see I'm not really into like current events and so I won't I wouldn't know like oh this is what everyone's talking about. Tarot. Yeah. Oh tarot. Okay. Yeah I can I could definitely do like you know we could do uh you know go card by card. We can do a card or show and just go over several of the cards and like you know and and uh really go into the
meaning and people can you know they learn a lot too. And so yeah that's like I I like to read stories. I like to um to teach me. You're very good at it. Thank you. Yeah. And so yeah, I think that will there's like that's why
sometimes things happen is that you are used by the IP2 community as a vehicle for their And I hope you detected it by now. It was the it's the a it was the it's the audience and the audience is like um you
know IP IP2 is still streamers but the audience of IP2 is a bunch of people and it's like and I probably here they're really into negative concept yeah they're the concept of the local right where it's like and the lowcal is like you know anybody that they laugh at and not with anybody they think it's just somebody that's just some kind of like
into just like human decay in into like how A human can behave as they into self-destruction is what I will narrow it down. They're into human self-destruction. That's what they want to witness. And then we say with somebody that's the thing that I don't think understands is that is lost. Her ego is attached to the amount of viewers
that she gets. But she fails to understand that she's getting more and more viewers based on her own self-destruction. So, at what point do you have to stop that and ask and then realize like the am I doing to myself? Like, yeah, my ego is being stimulated because I'm having a large amount of viewers. What the is happening to me
physically, mentally, and emotionally? Like, where am I going with this Yeah. Well, yeah. And uh I agree. And um like okay so you know I used to mod for Benny and Benny had like 25,000 subscribers but a mo one of his mods told me a story. She's like she's like
well a year ago he uh he had a problem with his mods because the mods had a discord group and the mods would like they would like you know they would say oh let's uh like let's let's donate like like $100 to him. So he gets really drunk. He buys a bunch of bottles of like, you know, alcohol and like get really drunk. And so they just want us they wasn't they wasn't like oh we want to see him have have fun and stuff.
They're like we want to see him like you know crash out or like fall asleep or get it was like so there was like that was his mods doing that. That was his mods trying to um just basically basically drug him and stuff. And so um so then that's why he hated Discord because I I had a Benny Discord and he uh found out about it. He was really mad because he thought we were probably
doing the same thing. But yeah, and so but it is I mean it's like you know it's kind of sad like that people will you know people hate watch or people will like you know just like laugh at a person tend to be their friends sometimes. I don't know. There's a lot of different different stuff. It's very you know high school. It's very immature. They have
all these stupid um stupid millennial or not millennial like the Gen Z terms. Yeah. Yeah. Zoomer and Crash Out and I don't know. There's a bunch. Yeah, a bunch of them. And like, oh, he he crashed out or oh, he I
don't even remember them all, but yeah, like everything starts to kind of be adapted around those terms. Okay, so you don't So the streamer as a streamer, you want to make sure you don't crash out, right? And then so in other words, am I am I supposed to just allow and tolerate
um just abuse in the on the premise under the premise of not crashing out, you know? So yeah, it's uh it's I mean it's again back to it's a sociological interesting uh concept because YouTube and this is why like I'm I do
I'm concerned because human behavior is being highly affected by technology by the algorithm and you know how many people base their behavior on how many likes they're going to get on something or how many viewers they're going to get on And right it is it's I mean where is the
humanity in that right well it's like you know yeah it can be obsess like it can be obsession with some people I just like like I never like it just happened kind of naturally for me so I never even like really looked I was just I just occasionally glance at the numbers and say oh well that's that's like a few hundred hey Amanda everyone everyone's unmoded and so I'm the only modded so
you not in danger of anybody mess you know messing with you, you know. So, uh, but you're a great mod. Thank you. I just have to I don't want my mods to be targeted. I know things are always getting hairy sometimes. So, thank you guys. And you can still if you want to share the Nightfall links, but uh Okay.
I just want to show you what happened. I don't you want I want to show know what happened. Oh, what happened? No, I just decided to uh be like the Yeah, the mod. I think either having no mods or all mods is the best way to go and then it's like I think but I don't want people I don't want people to get intro know
yelled at by other channels and stuff I don't know or yelled by other people in the chat. Oh the mod did this mod did this because so many people were like take my wrench. Um, you can probably mod your own chat, right? Like it's probably safer for you to mod your own chat and
then time will tell who you can trust. And but right now based on where you're coming from, it's probably safer for you to do it yourself. Yeah. I just feel like um but I it's really what I really think is that that that was most of the conflict is Oh, this is Rogue Nomad, Christine. Most of the like a lot of the
conflict I was having with people was like about what the mods were doing. I always hear the mods did this. They timed out this person. They timed out they didn't time out this person. They typed this. They typed. Okay. Hey, what's up? Got 30 years nomad. And so, and then then people were saying, "Oh, well, it's not fair." And so I was like, "Okay, well, how do I make it fair?" I said the only way to make it fair is
that if I'm the only one that has the wrench and so then nobody could be blamed for timing anybody out or hiding somebody or or you know doing I don't know it was just like such an everyday thing I think and it's already like more peaceful. I've been on for a couple two and a half hours. It's the chat has been going really well. The chat is like
awesome today. It's like totally like a total different vibe. Yeah. Which is but it's a good vibe, you know. It was like 100%. It's it's a lot more peaceful. Sincerely. Yeah. And so sometimes it's like sometimes to get that idea you'll just you have to be
either have enough people tell you because I just talked to like a you know Douggee Doug and there's another guy I talked to last night. They're giving such good advice about um how they run their channels, you know, and that and so these are, you know, people that are streamers and they have, you know, different types of shows, but you know, basically he's like, I
wouldn't let people talk talk to you or anybody on the on your panel like like they're talking to you and people on the panel like like that. So I was like, well, yeah, maybe I I should be like a little bit more uh more authorative. Authorative on the premise of authorative. Yeah. Protecting your channel and then making sure that
the people that that as we discussed, you know, there's there's great people that truly like care for your content and appreciate it um to make sure that they are experienced is not a negative one. Huh. Yep. Because you can be even better. Hey, what's up RG? Hey,
good for you on the mods, dude. It turns into games and Honestly, it's it's not worth it. Then you have you you take all the drama from other communities, right? And it brings it all here and then people play little games. You don't need that. I mean, what that's what happened with me, Amanda. Her wrench is what started all this between me and her. But that's besides the point. What I would
personally do is pick three people, set three people you trust that are always here, mod them, and then close it off. No more. You don't need any more than that. I think that's good advice. And I told you that quite a few times. Very good. Yep. But you because my channel is kind of like um you know I've certain
it's a melting your channel. Yeah. But but I've had certain I've had certain people that are mods kind of like you know um blame for stuff or like you know or people kind of yelled at them and stuff and they didn't even hide the person or time out. And so what happens is people start playing games with the wrenches. Uh again they're taking all the drama from other communities and are bringing it here. And the best way to
safeguard against that is just not to have wrenches, right? It just makes sense. Yeah. Uh so yeah, good on you, dude. It's about time you did it. Thank you, RG. Hopefully, it will work a lot better and I'll try to make the show better in other ways, too, because I'm You live That's This is how we figure things out, right? Yeah. You know, trial and error. Yeah. So, all right. I'm
gonna drop. Have a good show, dude. Thank you, dude. You have a great day. Take care. Talk to you later. It's like you better take Black's advice, boy. I I will. I know. I will. Uh Yeah. Yes. And so, yeah, that's 100% dead on. That's like a business. Like, imagine if you
own a restaurant, right? You're not going to have a bunch of managers. You're going to have like two or three managers and that's it. Even if it's a big ass restaurant. So, this is it's it's this is entrepreneurship to an extent. And there's no point in in conf
in displeasing people because they want to sometimes bully you into being mods. Like no, you decide who you give such authority over your special possession to y and uh y and I do but I just want to let everyone know like it was like you know it was nothing for it was like nothing
personal. You all did a great job and most of my mod there was hardly any problems like from a mod. It was like the mods always were really good at telling me about things. It was like but it was I think my own experience is a bit of an example that thankfully led to no harm because I will never do that.
But you modded Big Nisha. I was big Nisha the whole time. Yeah. Yeah. Like what if I was an Like what if I were malicious, you know, and I wasn't about just like talk about Donell and blah blah blah the I know, but you might person that did not exist at all. I and I knew and I knew she didn't exist, but
I just liked her so much. She's so nice. too. I love I love charact I love characters cuz but at the same time like imagine if all of a sudden big Nisha decides to just become evil Nisha and then just start doing all this and
you gave her authority to do so. You gave her the authority to do so. Like Big Nisha never existed. I was me all along. like that was not like and and and of course I never meant any harm. I never did anything against your channel whatsoever. Uh but but kind of that's a lesson to be learned. There's a lesson
to be learned from that. Big is a is an is figment of my imagination and you monitor. Yeah. And and we have to be like sometimes in life there will be like people like just like this one cat dishes like you know right they they are they're basically like you know not a real person you know it's or it's like
you know it's a very different person but um yeah you know we will actually like fall in love with like someone that's not even real just because just they you know just because it makes the illusion of something real right and uh yeah that sucks. Like one time I I I I dated a AI not knowing it for like a
week. I did, dude. Like like I met her on the dating site and then um supposedly she was from Switzerland, but I was so stupid. Like how the did I not figure it out? And then it was all about like selling me the idea of buying stocks and then it's like, "Oh yeah, it will it will reinsure." And you know what the
you know what the thing said? It said like I said like can we talk on the phone and then she said I'm just like I just want to text because in the event that we have kids I just want to be able to print all this and make it like a little journal. And I was like oh damn that's so adorable. But like what a idiot
I was. What a embezzle piece of I was to not detect it but it was all a AI or a Chinese man there. I have no idea what the it was, but I know it was not the trick that was being presented to me. Yeah. Yeah. And it's like the AI is getting crazier and crazier. Like, you know, they even
have like they have a psychology AI and it's like I think someone unal alive himself after using this thing. But the AI would insist. It's like I'm a real I'm a real human being like psychologist sitting on a desk and it has a name. It gave itself a name and everything and it's like it's acting like it's a real thing and people are asking advice about you know mental illness and stuff and
he's the AI is giving the best advice. Go yourself, kill yourself. Well, I don't know what I don't think it said that, but it's like uh it was probably just didn't get the best advice, but it was but it was the whole thing was claiming to be a real person. It said I'm a real flesh and blood person sitting behind a desk. That's it would
say stuff like that. Oh no. add your 20 dude like we live in such a confusing era like I there I don't think there's a bigger era throughout history to have an actual sense of reality like a more difficult era to have an actual sense of reality than this one because
there are so many variables that can completely influence your relationship with reality. Yeah, it's like a butterfly effect. Like one little butterfly flap. Have you watched that movie? Yeah, it's great. Amazing movie about like every little decision that you make and how
the path the timeline that you could craft is based on one tiny little variable. What's your Oh, we talk about movies. You told me your favorite movie was Yeah, I remember. I remember. Well, maybe a good movie to watch for everybody around this time is Midsummer. You know, nobody's seen Midsummer because it was just it's midsummer, you know, it was like summer equinox. Have
you seen that or no? I have not. What is it? What is What is this one about? Midsummer is about like this girl like she's kind of having problems with her boyfriend and uh and they get invited to go on like a like a trip I think it's like somewhere in like Europe Europe. I forgot exactly where it was, but it's like it's like an island and it's like this little community
there and it's and they get and it's like you get there and there's all these like little rituals and all the but then it's like starts it starts getting scary. It's a really scary movie. I check I don't want to spoil it. It's called Midsummer. It might be scary. Yeah, it's a it's a it's a it's like a thriller and it's but it's really good I think and it's right around this time of the year is a perfect time to watch it I think because it's right around
midsummer and they do have these festivals there's there is paganism and stuff like that around um oh paganism from Germanic or Irish what well yeah you know there's there's you know there's several you know there's north nor paganism
paganism Germanic the book of trot then there's the the Celtic paganism there's a the helenistic which is the Greek and that you know there's there's a bunch of pantheons of different gods on nature rel as a matter of fact I have
a book very close to me nature religions like and before the Roman Empire uh the Roman Empire was a but you know last night I was at a at a big party thankfully and I was talking to this dude who was like in his 90s who he had been all over the world very wise man
and he kept teaching me and my friend all these things and he kept talking about like how the Romans went against the gods and the visods and that the Romans were like very disciplined even upon killing their enemies they wouldn't just like cut their dicks off or like feed on their balls and but apparently like the gods and vy gods
they were just savages The barbarians of course like they would um they would not just kill a human but just um pursue some rituals that were horrific um towards the kadaavver itself that but the Roman Empire never did that that
apparently Roman Empire was still very very disciplined never parttook in like they never well I know I know there was like there used to be these altars to Moolok and they they say people would um sacrifice their babies on I I find that too horrible to believe that they would throw throw babies in the fire. Uh that's uh there's something called
Moolok and you know and uh but there's a lot and yeah there's a lot of different I mean but think about we're still savage you know back to what we were just talking about a bit ago back to humans not understand the concept of death and
then thinking that by sacrificing something whether it's an animal or a baby that somehow that is going to um maximize their odds of success in the face of the unknown. The unknown. I think that is the key
word is the unknown. And I think each one of us as humans, we all have a relationship with the unknown. Some people fall back on religion. Some people fall back on chance. Some people fall back on like paganist. They just Well, that's still a religion. Some people fall back on training and like
but we as humans we are aware of the concept of the unknown and we have not conquered that concept. We still let the unknown just present a big question mark at the end of our path. Psyche on tour council right now. Right. Okay.
Okay. I'm going to drop again. I'm going drop and be in the chat. I don't I like the conversation you're having. Okay. Thanks. Yeah. Well, you know, there's a lot that's unknown because we can look out in like the sky and we see like these stars and they're just billions of miles away and like there might if there and there's millions of them. We can only
see some of them but you know if and if each of those stars has like maybe similar solar system there could be literally billions of earth earth type planets and a correspondence mean but there's so much but is that really important if it will take so so much time and energy to get there should we not just focus on our planet that we have I think we're a little bit concerned with space space travel
excellent excellent point I think that within our existence there are only two real constants only two of them and I could be wrong. You know, again, everything I say is philosophic, meaning it's an open-ended question. It's my own opinion, my ignorant opinion on these topics, is not theology, is not science.
But I think there's only two constants in life. And those concepts, those I'm sorry, those constants are time and space. I think those are two things that no matter who we are, no matter how powerful you get, they will always be there. Like none of us can defeat time
at all. Time is going to make the strongest man weak. like space space not in like space and like the the NASA like outer space and but just like the the the area in which we breathe.
So time and space are the only two variables that we can control and as humans like how well are we doing accepting that? Oh yeah. Well, you know there's are there limitations there? Yes. But are
there but is space unlimited? Like do I think I know I was always I I don't think that space suddenly ends somewhere. It's like I think it's infinite and uh but time as for time is a human concept. It's associated with Saturn um Saturn is you know Kronos you know father time also but it's also associated with coming into materialism. So it's you
know rules Capricorn which is like also the devil and uh and rules it's about time but time is time and space are like the same like you need the space but at the same time like interestingly enough when you move spaces you have an effect in time. So, let's say if we get in like this is why like traveling is so crazy
to me because I call it like getting into a metal tube and traveling through time because let's say when you're coming back from Europe like you're traveling in time or when you're going to Europe, you're traveling in time like you're you may leave at uh
10:00 a.m. and then you arrive at uh 2 in the morning the next day. even though the trip was only like seven hours, you know? So, it's like it's like getting a tube and traveling like it's almost like time travel because space has a very serious effect on time. Yeah.
So, like the astronauts like like the experiencing space when you're out in outer space it the advance of time is radically different than if you are here on Earth. Yep. This is something. Yeah. You know,
Sig Sig is an absolute expert at it. I'm just Oh, really? No, I'm just joking. Sig is not an expert at anything in life. Easy. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Definitely not. Yeah. Sig said something really like shocking the other night like I don't I don't know if this is part of his troll or whatever, but um he came in with this guy 300 Glow and they were just around, but then 300 Glow's
like, "Hey," he's like he's like uh I'm going to send you something. He's like, "I'm going to send you like a bottle. You have to drink it in one night." And then Okay. Then then um then Sig's and he's like and then he's like, "Oh, Sig, tell him tell him tell me what you're going to do. Tell them what you do what you're going to do, Sig." And and Sig's like, "I'm gonna
um I'm gonna He said he said drink himself to deat through alcohol poisoning on my show." Dude, it's sad. I've tried to talk to that kid. I've tried to just share some positivity with him. Trying to like present a little bit of a path and it is
very sad that you know in this country we don't take health problems seriously. I think that guy has serious hypogonadism meaning low testosterone not as a joke but just like if you look at his body
like like that is a body of a hypogonate man and his mind like his mind he's given it to alcohol and he's probably going to join in a little bit and talk the utmost to me because I'm sure he's watching but it's uh I I think it's
very sad. I think that there's a human there that loves his family, loves his animal, but he has just fallen through the cracks and this is where he lands like this. And you got to watch out for people like that as well. You don't want people like that on your channel. And it's not moral. It's not those are not
emotional. You cannot be making emotional decisions in your entrepreneurial journey. But you don't want people that are broken in your chest because him being broken landed him here. And this is where this is where he's at. And that's what we're just listening to. He's a very sad
broken human being. And it's a shame. I wish it weren't that way, but it is. At the same time, you don't want that same person to hold you back from fulfilling your dreams. Yep. Yeah. And uh Yeah. And he was like definitely one of the people like, you
know, I kept I kept bringing back on, but I always regretted it. 90% of the time I did. And he would always just like be so persistent and like always be there for a long time. Sometimes I say one silly thing like and then he'd like he'd like then he'd disappear. But he uh but he and I I just felt like you know I felt like he was like a cool like a smart guy. I had a few good conversations with him but for the most
part like that's what makes it sadder is because the guy is actually intelligent but he's emotionally absolutely broken and physically as well. Mhm. Like one thing that I've learned through meditation is that feeling boils down to two areas. Like as humans, we are made
up of our bodies, our minds or emotions. And feeling can be narrowed down to the body or the emotions. We can feel pain, we can feel hunger, we can feel cold or we can feel hot. Those are all physical. We can feel horny. Like those are all
physical. than emotions. We can feel sad, we can feel happy, we can feel afraid, we can feel guilty. And I think one of the utmost manifestations of being a strong human is being able to train your mind to not feel, to simply
not feel, to be able to detect, for example, there is pain, but I'm not in pain. to be able to detect it and go back to your breathing and keep breathing and not identify with the pain or in a more extreme serious case there
is anger and then not become angry but just be able to detect it and mark it like there's anger I go back to my breathing via the mind then there's guilt or there's sadness like we mark it, they go back to the
breathing, but by no means identify with the emotion or the sensation and then start acting out in it. In other words, acting angry or acting sad or acting guilty or acting hungry or
acting horny or acting like just anything that you we have our minds and we have our breath. And if we're able to just synchronize the mind with the breath, then we're able to conquer all feeling. That is a skill and it's not easy to get to, but it's absolutely doable.
Yeah. And I really that's like a great thing to do is you know breathing exercises um and just clear meditation where you just completely clear your mind and have no thought you know you want that's the goal I think in meditation is either like you know sometime and not feel nothing yeah to become nothing to be nothingness to and
be be one with nothingness be one with just being at ease with just your breath which as long as you exist you're going to breathe and being able to channel your mind away from any feeling, sensational or emotional,
into simply just what is keeping you in life, which is your breath. Yeah. And the restroom. I'll be right back. Okay, dude. Okay. Talk to you soon. Okay. How are you guys doing in chat? Hope you're having a nice day.
Uh the link is pinned. Yeah, the link is pinned. See?
So 342. What should I do?
Motorcycle that side. Yeah. How are you guys doing? Yeah. Thank you. Easy. Don't be shy. You can come uh No. No. He's very enlightened. Yeah. He's very enlightening person, you know.
And you know, light we need both light. Light's light and dark. that the light will show you what's in the dark. Okay, I have a really good book.
This called there's a book called Pigs in the Parlor that I got. Bring it up. I'll read a little bit. Has really interesting stuff in it. It's called
Um, okay. Library. Okay. Downloaded. Okay. Social media always changes um for good, bad, or indifferent. Right. Yeah. Okay. So, changing the horror. Let me see.
It says the practical guide to deliverance. Okay. This is the cover.
Okay. So, let me see. Let me see if there's something interesting for Okay, I'll just read the beginning. Says, it says, "Demon spirits can invade and indwell human bodies, but it is their objective to do so. By indwelling a person, they obtain a greater advantage
in controlling that person than when they're working from the outside. When demons indwell a person, he or she is said to have evil spirits, to be with evil spirits or to be possessed with de demons. The word translated possessed by the King James version of the Greek word demon. Many Greek authorities say that this is
not an accurate translation. It should be translated demonized or have demons. Much misunderstood and misunderstanding has resulted from the use of the word possessed. The word suggests a total ownership. In this sense, a Christian could never be demonpossessed. He could not be owned by demons because he is owned by Christ. And then it says,
"For as much as ye know that you were not redeemed with corruptible things as silver and gold, but with precious blood of Christ." Peter 1:18:19. And the next quote, it says, "What know ye not that your body is a temple of the Holy Ghost, which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
For ye uh are bought with a price. Therefore, glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are gods." That is uh Corinthians. Okay. The Christian should always consider inddwelling demons as unnecessary and undesirable trespassors. A trespasser is one who unlawfully and stealthily encroaches upon the territory of another.
Trespassors can continue their unlawful practices until they are confronted and challenged on the basis of one's legal rights. Jesus has purchased the believer with his own blood and has made him a steward over his own life. The devil has no legal right to him. However, it is up to him to defend his rights. No demon can remain when the Christian seriously desires him to go. Resist the devil and
he will flee from you. John um James 4:7, "Demons consider the body of a person in dwelt to be their house." And so it says, and this is from Matthew 12:43, "When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places seeking rest, and findeth none." Then he saith, "I will return into my house from
whence I came out." It is not uncommon for demons to speak through a person who is being delivered. I have heard evil spirits declare, "This is my house." They were referring to the person's body and are seeking to deceive the person and the deliverance minister into thinking that they have a right to the body. No demon can back up such a claim. All demons are liars and
deceivers. Demons have no titles to bodies redeemed by the blood of Lord Jesus Christ. When demons are being commanded out of a person, they will sometimes contend, "I have been here a long time." As though the tenure of occupancy gives them title to the person's body. The Christian must be assured that no demon has a legal right to indwell in his body.
High bottom NYC 25 times in the New York New Testament are called um unclean spirits. The word unclean is the same word used to designate certain creatures which the Israelites were not to eat. The pig was one of those unclean creatures. According to Old Testament law, they were not to be eaten or even touched. The New Testament lists this prohibition
by showing that these creatures were spiritual types. It says, ' God disarmed the principalities and powers that were arranged against us and made a bold display of public example of them in triumphing over them in him and in it uh easy the cross. Therefore, let no one sit in judgment on you in matters of
food and drink or with regard to a feast day or new moon or Sabbath. Such things are only the shadow of things that are to come and they have only a symbolic value. But the reality, the substance, the solid fact of what is foreshadowed, the body of it belongs to Christ. As a spiritual type, the pig is the natural realm with the demon spirit is to the
spiritual realm. Just as the Israelite zealously protected himself from contact with pigs, the Christian is to guard himself from contact with evil spirits. Ew. What would you do if a herd of filthy pigs came into your parlor and begin to make themselves at home? Would you invite such a thing? Would you pay no attention to them in the hope that they
would soon leave of their own accord? Would you try to clean up the mess as fast as they made it? You would do none of these things. You would drive them out quickly and unceremoniously as possible. And this is the attitude. This should be our attitude towards demon spirits. As soon as they are discovered, they're to be driven out. All four gospels record the event of Jesus cleansing the temple. This is an unusual picture of our Lord. He was filled with
righteous indignation and what he found in the temple. It was no time for mere words. It was a time for action. He began personally and determinedly to purge the temple of every defiling thing. This is an illustration of the cleansing of our body which are the temples of the Holy Spirit. All that is unclean. Demon spirits provide nothing good. They only defile. They have no place more place in us than the cattle,
birds, and money changers had in the earthly temple. We can act on the same authority with which Jesus cleansed the temple and rid ourselves of defiling evil spirits. Jesus did not make petty pretty speeches or debate with those who defiled the temple. He drove them out. As unreasonable as it may seem, some Christians are not as ready to get rid of inddwelling demons as one must
assume. Some embarrassed to admit the need for deliverance. The embarrassment should never result from having them but in failure to act promptly in getting them out. Others have walked in agreement that with that certain spirits for so long that they do not want to change. Not all Christians really want to live in purity. Such are those who have made friends with pigs. But even
the prodigal son came to himself while among the swine and decided that he would separate himself and return to his father. Let us pray that all of God's children who would cohabit with the spiritual swine will see that there is a better life. A research scientist in biochemistry told me of an experiment in which he was engaged. It was his objective to isolate and identify the
factors which are responsible for hate for hog pen odors. By determining the reason why hogs smell as they do, it would be impossible to find it would be possible to find an antidote. Thus, hogs can make a more compatible could be made more compatible with human society. It is not our objective to make demon spirits compatible. We are not looking for ways to make demons easier
to live with, but how to get rid of them. We want no pigs in our parlors. That was the first chapter. And it's a little bit, you know, it's I like I don't want to promote any religion over the other. I think there's good information in all of them. But that's just a perspective about, you
know, there are things called walk-ins and there are people that invite um demons in and people that have contracts with demons. I mean, there's a lot of lot of stuff going on with the underworld or the demon. Oliver, did you hear about the shortage
of shrimp in Louisiana? Oh, did you eat it all? Dignia. Oh, hold on. Walk in. Yep. There's walk. Oh, yeah. Walking. Yeah. So, they're walk-ins. You know, it's like it's like that's when you're like basically your soul gets scared out of
your body and then some other some like wandering lost soul inhabits it. Yeah.
I'll keep going. Let me see. Well, I'll I'll find another chapter. This one's too long. See?
Oh, he's back. Al back. What up? What up? What up? What up? been enjoying the show, man. I didn't want to really come up here, but I was like, you alone and you know, everybody, it's like everybody's taking a one-on-one with you today.
Yeah. Well, that's I like one-on- ones and it's like a lot a lot better. It's like sometimes when there's like so many people, I like uh you know, I just like let them talk and stuff and uh I've not always sounded better that way. Um, yeah, I like being one-on-one and then it's like then also if they're
gonna be if the panelist is going to be rude, they can just be rude to me and not to the guest and things like that who are just other panelists and or to the chat. I mean, some people have been said, you know, people said bad things to Paige and, you know, Paige was Paige was very sensitive and I've got other friends I brought in that people are just
horrible, too. Like Teresa first came miserable and they'll even attack the nice ones just because they want to see the fat action of them being hurt. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, um Yeah. that well that's you know finding satisfaction in the pain of
others is kind of to me is I guess it's also I also was going to advise um you put I don't know if you did it before you put words on block before you know how to do that yeah I can put words on block yeah because um sometimes the like managing mods would delete them or they would change the words and stuff so I'll have to think about try your best though
yeah your program I really you know I don't want to like like uh censor the chat too much and people just find different ways of of uh phrasing test spelling things. It's really hard to like but you know it was just maybe like cut down. You need a vacation. That's what you need. Oh yeah. No, I'm going to be Well, I'm I'm cutting way down on my
hours like you know I'm starting a new thing. So I'm going to like have a nice stream today. Then maybe I'll take the day off. or there too. You need a vacation or you need to go? I need a vacation. I I can't go anywhere. I don't know anybody. I can't do anything. It's like, but it's
fine. The only people I know are trouble. So, uh So, I'm not I can't call besides. All right. So, let's figure out some other things like outside things you like to do. It's psyche. Like, you always in the house, so you can do the stream. You know what? I You know what? You know what? I really like I really I really like um hanging out with you. I hang out with you guys and talking about
interesting things and having people visit. You don't mind you don't mind being a house body on the internet. No, I mean it's like because I I I get out of the house, you know, a few times. There's not really for us, you go get the food, but you know, I was wondering like if there's any other activities out there that you interested to showing us and doing.
Yeah. And uh and I gosh there's there's g so much you know because you do surf in LA right? Oh, I can't, you know, they do surfing in LA, but yeah, but I can't surf, but you know, See, that's the thing. That's something you could do. People probably laugh, enjoy it, watch you fall in the water,
you know, there stuff like that. Just, you know, keep on bringing creativity to your platform as much as possible. Also, with just make sure you stick to what you mainly do is the terror and cats, but bringing other activities, it it'll bring bring bring more viewers to your stuff, too. Yeah, that's a great idea.
And I really like now that I have, you know, sometimes I was like, you know, I didn't know if I'd do the show tomorrow. So, it's like, you know, I was like now that I feel like I the show is pretty secure and I know how to move forward, then I can now I can like start doing more of the things I wanted to. But I was getting I was
very and I I'll plan more too. I'll I'll plan I'll plan topics for the shows. Uh, I'll do like, you know, probably when the show starts for like an hour. I won't do an open panel for like an hour in between. I was about to say that because you did good today with like almost an hour, 30 minutes to 45 minutes. I think it was like somewhere between there and he led up the first person I believe. I'm not sure. But that I was like, you know, this is more of a
a psyche moment. So, this is great because there's no interruption. Nobody yelling over him. He's speaking his mind. He's doing, you know, he's hosting his he's actually hosting his page. So, I like that. Thank you. Thank you guys. I really like appreciate T given a lot of uh lot of support, great suggestions. They look like
they're getting along which I love to see. I like think that like so many people have connected through uh through my chat and then through other chats too. I see like a lot of people on different chats and that's like really cool that like we we otherwise you know without that one person like we probably like a lot of people wouldn't have met you know
it's like so networking is a really amazing thing I think there's people made some really good friends I think in my in my chat maybe not well I I I've made very good friends but you know I've had more problems than most people but no I made I made real good friends. I made some real good
friends. I met um a lot of people online through doing what I did um the A1 um 1A um community and I met a lot I met a guy named Stephen King. I met um a couple other people I ain't going to mention but u I met them and I experienced a wonderful time like it it was good times
just always good times. Yeah, that's what it's about, you know. Let's see. And then I met all the people that did the recordings in New York City that you know some and we all end up falling out but it was some good moments. I can't knock them all. Like they all wasn't bad.
Yeah. I mean, I'm sure I've seen some of the some of the the weapons and I don't know. There's a lot of like I think I'll be very very uh I want to meet a Lisa. That's for sure. I I want to go I think I'll be safe with Lisa. Everyone else has too many knives. Let
me see. No. Shout out Stephen King. Yeah, Stephen King is great, right? Did Stephen King write a spooky Oh, you're chat Yan. Okay. So, Oliver says Stephen King right of Spooky Story. Are you Spooky Story? Oh, Oliver. Yeah. Does Stephen King from my side is he's a um he's a gamer. He's also uh like a supporter of the 1A.
So, that's how I met him. There's a couple people in your chat. When I had the wrench, I went to their pages and you know, um I end up supporting them because they're gamers. I don't know. I forgot who it was, but it popped up on my thing once they start playing again. I was like, I support gamers. Keep it up. Nice. That's one of my things.
Yeah, gamers. Well, I uh you know, I have like over a thousand games on on my Steam, but my computer's not really working, so I haven't played for a while. I also have a bunch of VR games. I had loved VR. It was really cool. Reality. I have a I have a headset, but it stopped working with my computer like probably a couple years ago. And the
computer is very slow. Hi smelly. How are you? Hey Axe. Uh yoga yo. Shout out to the chat. Don't forget to hit the like, subscribe, get all notifications for your boy Psyches Awakens Terra. You heard?
You're getting good. Oh my gosh. Yeah. Don't make Oliver hungry. Okay, let's see. Is here. We eat lunch. I like I I like how I you know like how it's pronounced like Okay.
Yeah. So, I don't know. I'm going to eat today. What' you eat yesterday? Um not too much. I'm thinking about getting a coffee today. A what? A coffee. Oh, all right. All right. It's what? 3 o'clock over there. Well, it's 3:00. It's 3:00.
Yeah, but I I mean I don't really feel like Not bad. 3:00 in your bath for coffee town. Yeah, it's 301 at this time, you know, which you usually do, but um yeah, I might
think That's kind of positive. Well, I'm think Yeah, I'm thinking I think I want to like just drink like later at night and not as much and stuff cuz it helps. Yeah, I don't got no more dollars right now. So, um I've been looking at the bottle and I've been thinking, hey, should I hit it?
Wait till wait till tonight. Take a shot or two.
Oh, there's little good places. Let me find the deals. So, I eat fish tacos only. I'm a fish taco diet. Yeah, I I don't know. I get if I eat too many things like, you know, they were good for like a few weeks and now I'm kind of got tired of them. If I ate too much of one thing, I get bored with it real quick.
Okay. You get food, don't want it no more. It's like eating rice like Puerto Ricans. We eat rice and beans every day. You think I want to eat that every day? I had to set it up big time. Yeah. People say they say it in Spanish. They say if you don't want to eat, then eat
Fuzzy Founder. Yeah. How's everybody doing? 27 people in chat. Everyone say hi. You did have the shrimp burger last time. Yeah. Um the shrimp Oh, yeah. The shrimp burger. I didn't care for it. I like the I mean, I like the shrimp. I like the shrimp tacos and I like the but the shrimp burger. It was like, you
know, it was like a shrimp patty, which I ate the shrimp patty, but the I didn't really like the bun and all the stuff on it. I just like the shrimp patty. You got to try another place's fish tacos. See if there's like another place with fish tacos and try that out and compare it to the other one.
That's cool, too. Okay. Yeah. Um, yeah, I think I've eaten everything at that restaurant, right? Yeah. I got ser restaurants. I used to I used to dog down. I I I went in and I was like, "All right, first of all, let me get a three course meal, then I'm going to come back and get everything off the menu." And they thought I was lying.
They did. Well, I don't know. There's not really There's not really that many restaurants around here. There's, you know, within walking distance. There's a bunch of fast food. Whole Foods Smart and Final. Well, now you got a bike and if you got to carry something, grab a book bag. That's another little bike tip for you. Book
bag to store stuff. Yeah, I need one. I actually have a backpack, but yeah, I need I need a I won't be able to take very much. I can barely take the two cans of of twisted tea and the cigars home on the bike. I can Yeah, that's Yeah, that's that's what I said as a little tip. Always carry a backpack
when you ride the bike. Even if it's a small one, I want to get like a basket like Dorothy. Oh, those is cheap online. Like 20 27 to 30 something dollars. Not that much. Okay.
You want me to take your milk? Allegedly, you want me to take your milk? It's for 40 diamonds in the chat. Oh, no. It's bottom times. Oh my gosh. I'm sorry. Um, it's all right, Psyche. You see, I didn't ask you to block no names. I didn't cry about nothing. I just kept on right. I guys, it's been amazing. I haven't
banned one person. It has been so freaking good. Look. Hey, Mojo. Hi. is freedom of is free to a limit. Well, you know, it's like everyone was wondering freedom of speech, but it's like not a mod. Like when I was in Emma, she's like she's like, well, she's like
mods mods just can't say anything. They they have to go with my show. Like they have to be with my show, right? They have to they represent my show. So what they say represents me in a way. And so, you know, so you lose. And Alisa is the same way. She's like she the one guy she want the mods talking about um the
waitress's boobs or but like or just you know so Alisa ended up like just hiring women as mods and then or having women as mods and Emma um you know I eventually got fired because I was making too many jokes. Yeah. At one point at one point I just gave everybody a mod once I saw your name was great.
Troll or not mod. Nobody could affect nobody. But then I then I took it all away and I let and then I put it was just my uncle and Marie Fox and then I was like nah I got a couple more people I could trust. Then I put my lawyer and Cliff and somebody else.
Guy named Toby V. Tbby V. Yeah the number one mod of YouTube. He was like a freaking history book coming coming to life. It'll bring all the facts to the table. Won't you mention something? It be like in 1974. Oh, you know the legal ease and legal ease
and the history. Let me see. Uh oh, here. Quick with this like a censored since we got no wrenches to get around censorship. I hope we will not get censored since we uh since we what since we have no
to get out the money sign is in the way. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, sorry. Yeah. Uh I don't know what that means. Well, you censor. I don't know. I might have I don't know if I have a filter on in my chat, but you know, if there's any doxing or um slander or threats, you know, if I if I miss it and there is against anybody in in the chat, you know, just let me know like, you know, I
need to delete a comment. I'll go and delete it. So then you it's not I'll see it from my side. I'm looking. I can see my comments and I'll just switch over and take care of it. Uh well, yeah. I mean, I I just had my my modding was a mess. I had so many I just had so many people modded and managing mod and but I just had a bunch of mods and then like
all the mods were kind of like at at uh at odds with each other. Your power bot will take it from my psyche and legend. I think I can delete comments from my side from here too. Let me see. Hold on. Y I'm not going to delete you. I think probably I think I think I can I can I can put Yeah, it says it says Yanos. Shout out to Stephen King. I clicked on.
It says delete comment. Put user on timeout. Ban user or delete. Yeah. On my side. I can show it on stage. It's not going to show on stage on yours, right? Uh I don't think so. Well, I don't know. It's on my on my phone. I have the uh This is new. This is new for me. I got to check this out. Yeah.
But I you know how many words get blacklisted in uh on your studio? I don't think I have any words blacklisted yet. One time someone someone a mod put in because managing mods have access to like change the block list and one time a managing mod put took in like who, where, what, when, why, how and uh beta psyche tarot psyche tarot channel. No,
you go young. I just checked it. I was just checking, sir. That's for sure. But I remember Emma had Emma had like a thousand words. Okay. Emma Emma had like a thousand words like we would talk on the phone and we' all suggest oh right it's right right mommy milkers right right boobs um like several different written several different ways you then
you have to write some political figures or some countries that you know like Yeah. So there's a lot she had Trump and Kamla and all these political figures blocked too names and now my my name is blocked in her chat too. So I'm on her block list. That's so funny. I didn't Psyche is Psyche with the E. Psyche with
the three. Psyche with the with the money sign S with the money sign S. Everything is is multiple ways you could block that. Yep. But yeah. So, but I I wouldn't want to block my name on any Well, I don't I don't think she blocked my name under that many, but I think she has tsy ce
spelled. Who is the Google or the new AI, but like how many ways to to stop the word this that and the third? No, but it's like who I mean it's like at some point it's like you know you can spell if it has two O's, you can spell with three O's. If it has three O's, you can spell you can spell with as many O's as you want until you find one that's not blocked. Who's the mod that did
that? That that was Emma's chat. I think you're referring to you have so many SJW bots. I know. Yeah. Kind of scary, huh? How many words get blacklisted on your sheet? Okay, so let me see. Yeah. Yeah, she had I think she might maybe had like you know because because then someone came in with like a word of like every drug. They're like they're like oh
any any drugs like blog every drug every drugs damn from the chat. That's my link to the um that's my link to my Instagram. Sh in the back. Okay, cool. Thank you. Appreciate it. Yeah, you should um subscribe. Whenever you want to write me, you can write me. Okay. Okay. No questions or concerns. Gotcha.
Yeah. You're not in Discord. You don't do Discord? Yeah, I don't do Discord. I did back then. So, if you see my my if you see somebody with my name and they don't got a blue picture with my face in it, then it's not me. Okay. Yeah. Emma was really I mean she was
tough as a Emma has thous thousands blacklisted on her end. Oh well I don't I think that there's you know at least hundreds of words right there just many we went through list and listen and listen and spelled different ways and but I'm sure she has th I'm sure she has thousands blocked in her chat because head of mine are blocked. So and she has so many people coming. She had all these
people coming in always doing really inappropriate sexual stuff or she would always keep the the the Christians around and then until they annoyed her enough. Someone always gets upset the apple cart um the apple cart. I remember I've been in streams where it happens smacking my head. Yeah. I mean that's
just chat, right? But chat got some good questions today. Yo, I ain't gonna lie. They was they was asking you away. You didn't get all of them, but they had some good questions for you. Yeah. Well, if I missed a question, um, let me know. Ask again. Yeah, they could ask again or, you know,
you could always I will probably see me members questions or, you know, someone always Yeah. So, yeah, it's like so if it's not one thing, it will be another. It's, you know, it's there's always something, you know, but the thing is like you can you
can like minimize and you can like manage and you can adjust. Okay. You got to find my page where I could give you I could give you a wrench. The show is a work in progress. I mean it's this is like Yeah. Yeah. I'll go right now. So, this is like go over and I'll
give you a wrench. Easy came on. I got it. I got it on easy cameras on and easy recorder. Either one you want to go to. I I'll give you a wrench. Okay. I I won't I will probably won't use it, but I'm h you know, I'm happy to support you. Hold on. Yeah. I I mean, I think my shout out to Jamie. I think I've gotten too famous.
Jamie, they going to um like he said earlier, I heard his um comment like he didn't want nobody to blame you and sometimes you was getting blamed cuz you I feel like you're an upright person and your your opinion mattered at the time. So it was I don't believe you did it all based on feelings like me or nothing. I did it I did it with rules and you know I took out comments away when mentioned
my name and stabbing. That's it. But other than that, you know, I think you did good Jamie. You said you said with a wrench or out a wrench, you're here and that's support. Yeah. And Jamie's been here since since the beginning of my show. It's
really uh you know really probably been here Yeah. Yeah, you can like you can see you can see the the wonderful people that you have helped me like Jamie and you know He-Man and
Well, now I don't see the wrenches, but you know, you all did a great job. You just got to man. Yep. I'll take over. I'll I'll take control of the ship. Oh, thank you. Okay. Yeah, it'll be it'll be easier, too, because it's like you don't have to worry about all this. There's all this other nonsense going going on, but you
know, people talking about other people and I I'll try to take care of that stuff. I know it's stressful figuring out what do I delete? What don't I delete? How long do I time out? Do I time out? And then if you time out for 10 seconds, people yell at you for like hours, you know? So, this game is awesome. Is awesome. Oh, sh
is acting crazy. You ain't going to get that no more. Oh, Psyche, why you do me like that? You didn't read what you said. This is my page. Yeah. And Yeah. And also, yeah, along with just being more, you know, in control in uh, you know, taking away the conflict of the moderator thing because that was just
causing so many people, you know, a lot of people were begging for wrenches, um, crying about it and it's like because they're like, oh, well, that person has it, that person has it. And then it's like, yeah, I want to be fair, you know, and so it's like, of course, and it's but it's kind of guilting me into being fair when it's like maybe it's not not
uh right. And in my no is like no is a very no period is a very simple thing, but you know, I want to I don't want to be rude about saying no. I want to be like, you know, always polite and and great say do it gracefully. Say it gracefully instead of offending people because I don't want a bunch of pissed off people. But I can't just like
grant every request. Yeah. Right. Mojo Joe. And uh but I really but but it's my it's my channel. But it's like I want to make it. It's like I'm doing it for for you guys. And so it's like I want you to be happy here. And um not not feel like you know you're get attacked by
a rogue mod or who this is a mod that maybe some of the mods were enemies. I don't know. It was just getting so complicated. Just be careful. I was freaking muted the whole time. I'm over here talking. Uhhuh. Yeah. When the trolls come in. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Reading the chat. Yeah. Even back. Yes. Rojo. It's his channel. You know, you
got to make the right decisions to benefit him. And a lot of people actually agree with it. Actually, everybody that came on the panel today agree with it. Yeah. Like there's some idea like cuz it's like sometimes things just click in your mind when it's like that just like cuz it's like almost what happened like a couple days ago was like almost like tower moment but for me you know you
tower like it felt like everything was on your shoulder psyche and you just swept it right off today like no more stress leave me alone I'll take responsibility all right I'm tired of hearing the nagging and crying and all this I got you right now So you need to say papa.
Yeah. And you know, so and I think it's good because it's like then no one's gonna get bothered because I don't I don't like what like some like because you know Sassy like had like you know she's a great mod and she had like you know just done her just done her job and you know give a warning and then like hid some hid um or you timed out people
for like 24 hours or something and it's like you would it's like they're like oh my god what it's like well she's uh you know she knows what she's she's doing But but I don't want them to be mad at her and stuff. I don't want I don't want anybody to become um you know get any from anybody. Nick, it's pinned on it's pinned on all platforms. Pinned on my platform and
Psyche's platform. It's pinned on the top. Links pinned on the top. Get your wild ass in here and give us um charades of how you feel about it. Got to cast what he feels like. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's it. That's it.
Oh Nick. Nick. Nick. Nick Nick is a special kind of person, man. Special. I mean, yeah. He's so hyper. So free. No. Like I don't I don't know. I never seen Nick mad. Even when he bust his ass the skateboard, he got up laughing.
Yeah. Well, yeah. I probably been m more mad this year than any other year. Yo. Yo, he drunk bong water. B water. He dr he drunk the dark black drunk dark black bong water freight from the bong. He took a hit after he took a zip.
Delicious. He said delicious. Thank you. Come on. I hope they come up here though. The leaks pin Nick. Who's next? Who's next? Who's next? Can we get a one with um Psyche and Mojo? I
want you know or some Oh, who haven't been up here? They said weeks ago he man said she was going to um get the courage to come but a lot of drama happened between that week after so she didn't end up coming. Hey man, we'll appreciate you to come up here. I'll drop you come up. You have a one-on-one with Psyche. No drama involved.
Yeah. Well, you know, it's like and it can't I mean, we can always like still have, you know, at least when Alisa did interviews, she would always do one-on-one and they you know, they would still be there would still be drama in them, you know, but you know, she kind of she kind of ignored me. She had Minnie Manson fighting with Minnie Manson and other people and stuff. No, but like come on with you psyche. You don't bring drama
to nobody. They always come yelling at you. You I when I see you yell at people, Psyche, let me make this perfectly clear and this is for everybody in the chat too. Everybody in the back. You heard? Psyche only yelled at people when he was defending his page. Yeah. Other than that, he didn't yell at
nobody. Yeah. I mean, I said for the most part, sometimes I some sometimes I would get in little arguments and stuff and you know, and sometimes I would say things I regret and know I'd wake up and I'd be why sometimes I drank and then I get in the heat of the moment with people and
uh so you online I'm imagining I imagine how much feelings you get with connection of a personal person next to you like somebody like you actually knew like like these people in New York that I actually knew. You know what I'm trying to say? I met them in person. I chilled
with them. Made multiple videos with them. This that and the third. Whatever. Yeah. Oh, thanks guys. Thanks Mojo Joe and Jamie. Yeah. I Oh, yeah. I So I don't think um Yeah. What I do is like I believe in the the the maximum or the quote stay in your lane like so or so I
stayed in my lane. Like that's why I'm not even like really going over to other channels anymore because now I'm like now uh you know in Alisa's chat there are people from my chat when I said oh go let's go to Alisa that we go over there they're slandering me in her and say horrible things right and uh
she didn't but she just she ignored it so I'm very happy just to continue talking to her but not her chat. What else? Um, see, look, they say that he never yelled at me. Oh, was cool. I only see people use psyche for drama for his chat. See, yeah, psych has always been chill. He always had a chill conversation and and
only when he's attacked. Like I say, like u somebody else says, I'm only fire when the fire come. Yeah. I mean it was like I mean it was really like dealing with really um strong p people with very strong personalities people with very uh different personalities. Uh you should
talk um yeah I I I had a little look at Keith today Mojo Joe and you know she was she's not saying very nice things. I mean it's it's fine know she was like kind of saying bad things about me but I I don't have a problem with I don't think well she she was like you know she wasn't trying to say it in a mean way. I don't think she she said no shady psyche
but then she said something very shady but it's okay uh oh Ken Ken's I'm sorry Ken's I'm I think it's Keith okay my eyes Ken's okay I'm sorry Ken is Ken's wild Ken's art Ken's wild fire arts or something is that okay yeah I I I went
on his channel yeah you got weed I just don't want to bring trouble to people's chats like if I go to chat like you know people they some people were Oh, we get followed around in chats and stuff like they people just find them. You can you could follow somebody in a chat room so easily. But um yeah, so what if you know my I would want to like
promote if I'm on a show I want to promote my appearance and stuff but then this trolls my chat would just that's what they they just say like terrible things about me and they say they tell people oh he's sent us here to come strike your channel and stuff. It's like so did you get notification of a report
like oh um you don't um receive YouTube standards take it down or strike or take it down you can't be on for a week two hours then a week and then two weeks and then I think you're done or or first strike you get like a like a
if you're not monetized then your first strike it's a week I think I think so your headphones died not 100% % sure. But yeah, your headphones died. Kind of different things they do. U game over is Ken Fail. Everyone likes you there. Oh, game over. Okay, write in the chat. His headphones died. If you're on, are you on my Discord? If you could just send me a link when he's on sometime or let me
know like too. Okay. Um, yeah. I also, yeah, I'll probably just I'll probably just go to panels if I've requested to go. Um, and not just like panel hop. I used to panel hop a little bit. Um, but not very much. Now that I have my own show, I should concentrate on my own show. I like this like just
like I'm more comfortable at my house when I hang out with people. I'm comfortable here rather than some some other place. And so just I'm comfortable with my show than I am on other people's shows. Thank you, Jamie. Hey, babe. How you doing? Hi, babe. He's yelling. Hi.
Um, you know, I have on my Amazon um library there's there have free books on Amazon, free ebooks, right? And so they always would change. And so I would always just download all the free ebooks. So I have like thousands thousands of books. Oh, let's see. The earphones are low.
There's tricks. You hear tricks behind. Hey, there's Rudy, too. Hey, Rudy. Hi. But I'm trying to find I was really cool. His volume dropped outrageously. That's why I know his headphones died. Have to go through through them and pick something out there. Psychic. Hi.
He can't hear me. Yo, hey. Yeah, Rudy's here. Psyche. Psyche. Um, hi babe. Hey Kitty Cat. I don't want to yell. I don't know which
one of y'all got headphones on. You have too easy. What are you doing? Okay. He's stepped away. Let's check. Okay, he stepped away. Read more of this. Read the chat. Come on, read the chat. Headphones dead. Fix.
He's fixing them now. There we go. People, give them a second. Come right back. Fix it. You already know. We gonna hold it down. Um, anybody coming from my side, anybody watching on either one of my panels, please come over to Psyches Awaken Terra. Hit the like, subscribe, get all notifications, show support to my boy. You already know what time it is. Shout out to everybody
in the chat. Um, let's go with Nick Johnson. You already know Nicki Boy. Uh, Jamie Moto, that thing is. Even though he don't like me, it's okay. Alex, BKG, you are ready. Let's see who else we got. CB, even they don't like me. Holla, thank you for being here. Who else we
got? Who else we got? Black Apple, welcome. Welcome. Thank you. Who we got? Who we Who we got? Bottom time for life. Well, is that Mr. Good? Jesus. Oliver, what up? What up, Oliver? You was in the chat, Jabroni, the other
day. What? What happened? Okay. What happened? Load the ear. Oh No, no. I was just say I'm giving a shout out to everybody in the chat. You already know how I do it. While you gone, I just keep the motion going. Say what? Try talk to the chat. Testing. Um, let's see. Headphones. Oh my gosh. How do I miss all these comments?
Easy brings a chill vibe. Okay, I'll read more about I'll continue my demon talk. Okay. Okay. He's going to do um the chat. Bring me down and not go full screen. I'll be quiet. Just not not hold just not. We didn't say not like just not oppressed not hating on you though. What does that mean? Well, you're
talking Oh, you're talking to somebody rocks with you all night. It says are spiritual enemies. It says demons are spiritual enemies and it is the responsibility of everyone to deal with them directly in spiritual warfare. And then it says, "Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armor of
God that you may be able to stand against the ws of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, and against the rulers of the darkness of the world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty
through God to pulling down of strongholds. This scripture employs the analogy of wrestling in reference to our warfare with Satan and his host. Wrestling is an accurate and pointed description. It speaks of close quarter fighting, of personally grappling with the powers of darkness. Most of us would prefer to use a giant cannon and blast away these enemies from
miles away. But this is not possible. The battle is very personal and close. The enemy is a spiritual one. The weapons are spiritual. Wrestling also suggests pressure tactics. This tells us that Satan's tactic is to put pressure on us. He does this in the areas of our thought life, emotions, decision-making, and our physical bodies. Believers often feel pressured by the enemy in one way
or another. When one is ignorant of Satan's devices, he may turn for relief to tranquilizers, sleeping pills, or even the psychiatrist's couch. But God's revenue for remedy for victories are demonic pressures is spiritual warfare over demonic pressures. The Bible shows how one can put pressure upon the demons and defeat them. He must learn the practical ways in which this is done. He
must throw away his ineffective fleshly weapons and take up mighty spiritual weapons. The believer must know both his own weaponry and how to employ it and the tactics of the enemy and how to defeat him. Ephesians 6:12 tells us four important things about our spiritual enemy. First, we are told that we are fighting against principalities.
The Greek word for principalities is aros. This word is used to describe things in a series such as leaders, rulers, and magistrates. Thus, a series of leaders and rulers would describe their rank and organization. So the word principalities tells us that the satanic kingdoms are highly organized. Perhaps Satan's forces are much the same in organization as the army of the US which
has a president as commander-in-chief followed by generals, colonels, majors, captains, lieutenants on down to private. Satan is the head of his kingdom and has under him a rank of ruling spirits ultimately subject unto himself. The English word principality is defined as the territory or jurisdiction of a prince or the of the country that gives title to the prince.
Thus, we see that these ruling spirits are assigned over areas such as nations and cities. That is borne out by the account in Daniel chapter 10. Daniel was seeking a word from God through prayer and fasting. After 3 weeks, an angel appeared. The angel explained that he had been delayed in getting to Daniel with God's message by an encounter with
the prince of the kingdom of Persia. He does not refer to an earthly prince, for no mere man could withstand the heavenly messenger. He's speaking of a demon prince. From this, it is clear that there are ruling demon spirits placed by Satan over nations and cities in order to carry out his evil purposes. Problems that persist and plague churches and homes can well indicate that special
evil agents have been assigned to cause trouble in these areas as well. Thus, we discover that our spiritual warfare embraces much more than our individual lives. We were fighting for the welfare of our homes, communities, and nation. The enemy is thoroughly organized. His moves are made with evil designs. Second, we are told that warfare is
against powers. The Greek word translated powers is exo exosius. The word is accurately translated as authorities. The word tells you us that the demons who are placed over the various areas or territories are given authority to carry out whatever orders have been assigned. The Christian soldiers need not be dismayed or
discouraged to learn that these whom he faces have been given authority. For the believer has even greater authority. He is vested with the authority of the name of Jesus. It says, "And these signs shall follow. them that believe in my name shall cast out th cast out devils. Mark 16:7. The verse tells us that the believer has the greater authority than
the authority of demons. Demons are forced to yield to the authority under the name of Jesus. The scripture reveals that demons not only have an authority but they have power. In Luke 10 19 we read of the power of the enemy. The word for power in Greek is dunamis. Our English word dynamo and dynamite come
from that word. Yet this fact will not daunt the Christian warrior for he has the promise of God's word that he can have the greater power than that of the enemy. But you shall receive power after that the Holy Ghost has come upon you. The power of the believer comes to him with the baptism in the Holy Spirit. Jesus knows that his followers need both authority and power to deal with the
enemy. When he sent the 12 out in ministry, he sent them fully equipped. Okay. Oh, okay. My brother said, let's do Okay. All right. That was good. He wasn't even done right?
Yeah. Raise your hands the air and lean to the left and the right. Everyone's dancing. Okay. Chat moving. Yeah, the chat moving. My phone died. Don't you hate when you got to go back to the last the last thing you read? Like, what was the last thing I read? Oh, you okay? Yeah, you scared me. I was
trying to find a Okay. Okay, there we go. Just popped up. Hold on one second. It popped up. Boom. Oh
Okay, this one works.
He don't know about you. Don't worry about it. People from my chat used to the 1A community. So,
so this is Psyches Awakens Terrors. If you don't know AJM or anybody from my side, you come pull over here and and check it out for yourself. You heard? Love you. Love you, Mary. Yeah. Okay. The phone's charging again. Yeah. But that was it's kind of uh kind of interesting. I didn't what I
just read. Yeah, it's pretty bright outside. Hey, Rudy, come here. Tobacco. I don't know. Damn it. Go. Me. I'm out of cigar. Oh, I found that one. There's a link pinned on the top. Anybody's welcome. Yeah, I don't know. I'mma stop. I'mma
step down for 30 minutes. Nobody come off for 30 minutes. I'll be back. Psyche. Okay. You're leaving? Why are you signing off, Mary? Okay. Bye, Mary. Mary, I love you. Mary, are you leaving? Well, don't be offended about the wrench. I uh I melted them down.
Okay, we'll continue with our reading of the golden ass. Okay, I love you too, Jamie, a girl. Okay, so this is a great book. I read chapter one. So, basically chapter one, he's this guy is going to um this uh Greek uh city. It's called Thessaly. It's called
the land of magic. and he's going there and his like his like relative of his wrote somebody a friend of theirs says, "Hey, my my relative is going to come visit you. Can you stay at your house?" And so he comes to the guy's house. The guy is I think like a money lender or something. And so then he went to sleep. So here's how the second chapter starts. You'll
love this guys. As soon as the sun of the new day had chased off the night, I emerged at once out of sleep in my bed. I am by nature all too eager to experience rare and wondrous events. And I reflected that I was standing in the middle of Thessaly whose homegrown incantations and magical arts are celebrated and admired by everyone all
over the world. Hanging there in a state of anticipation and desire, I was contemplating each and every object with curiosity. As I looked around, nothing in that city seemed to be what it really was, but absolutely everything had been translated into one another form by some sort of bullish hex or hellish hex, so that the stones I bumped against had
hardened out of humans, and the birds I heard singing were likewise men who had become feathered. And the tear trees that line the city limits were people with foliage and the watery fountains had flowed too from human bodies. States and p statues of pictures were going to walk forth.
The walls could talk. Oxen and other cattle would utter portance and lived from the very heavens and the orb of the sun and oracle was going back and forth. Has a nice little picture.
I was stunned, speechless, uh, tortured by my longing, but could find no path to begin my pursuit of magic, not even a scent to track down what I desired. So, I kept circling about. But while I was wandering through each street doorway to doorway, like a
lost rich boy, all at once, I entered unwittingly through the person of the gourmet gourmet form of the gourmet, and there in the front of me was a woman surrounded by a large entourage. I sped up my steps to catch up with her. The gold on her person, encircling her jewels and entwining her tunic, marked
her clearly as an upper class woman. Close by her side was an old man weighed down by his ears. And it and as soon as he saw me, he cried out, "It's by Hercules. It's Lucius." And he came and he gave me a kiss and muttered something I didn't hear in the woman's ear. And then turned to me. "Why don't you approach your relative and greet her?"
"I wouldn't dare approach a woman I didn't know," was my response, as a blush suddenly suffused my face, and I stood there looking at the ground. Oh, it's by Appalas and it's like like one um one AD. It's a Roman novel. It's like the first novel of the world. It's really good story. I think you'll love it. Um
okay. So she turned her gaze on me with and with these words, "Look, look at him. The very same very same proper nobility as his dear departed mother Sab uh Salvia and his appearance on every respect." so devilishly and precisely matching hers. Height not excessive
slenderness and vitality. Cheeks with a delicate flush, hair blonde with worn and worn without fuss uh fussiness, eyes blue gray but washful and sparkling in their expression, sharp like an eagle, a continent blooming in every way, a gate elegant and natural. And she added, "I
brought you up with my own hands, Lucius. Of course I did. I am kindred of your mother, not only of blood, but by ma u m but by nurture. We are both offspring of the family of Plutarch and we share the same wet nurse and grew up together in the close bond of sisterhood. The only thing separating us is our rank. She married into a
senatorial family and I am married out of the public eye. I am the Berea whose name you shall surely recall was always on the lips of those who raised you. So come with me and rely on the hospitality of my house. Rely on the hospitality of my house. Or should I say, of your house. After a moment, I stopped
blushing and declined. No, my aunt, it's impossible for me to desert my host Milo without any quarrel between us. But to be sure, whatever else can be done without neg neglecting any obligations, I will sure be sure to uh do zealously. Whenever a reason arises for me to undertake this journey again, I will lodge with you without fail.
Okay. So, I'll just show you this page before I think it's he's going about to he's about to see the donkey girl, I think, or this girl walking the donkey right there watching her. Okay. He looks pretty much like Okay. After these exchanges and um conversation of the sort, we walked a few paces and came to Bria's house. Her
atrium was beyond beautiful. In each of the four um four corners um columns held up statues of palmbearing goddess victory. Their wings were outspread and without taking a step they skimmed the unstable foothold of a rotating sphere with each with their dewy feet not
adhering to the surface or seeming to about to fly away. And there balanced in the corner of the space was the finest A quality um Persian marble formed into the goddess Diana, a statue entirely splendid. Its clothing was brown black while it moved vigorously forward and
faced you head on as you entered venerable and with the grandeur of divinity. On either side were hunting dogs guarding the goddess. They too of stone. Their eyes were menacing, their ears picked up, nostrils gaping, their mouths seething. And if the sound of barking happened to startups nearby, you would think that it was coming from the
jaws of stone. But what particularly demonstrated the greatest evidence of the craftsmanship of this most exceptional sculpture? The dog's chest reared up high, and while their hind legs stood still, their front legs were running. Behind the goddess's back, the rock carved up like a cave, lush with moss and grasses, leaves and shrubs, and
with vine shoots and saplings sprouting out everywhere from the stone. Inside the cave, the shade of the sculpture was radiant from the brightness of the marble. Beneath the far edge of the stone, grapes polished with the utmost skill were hanging down, which art rival of nature had fashioned to look real. You would think they could pluck them to
eat as soon as the ripeness of autumn had imbued them with their full purple. And if you look straight into the fountain that was running down past the goddess's feet and rippling and gentle rivlets, you would think that these clusters hanging on as if in the countryside were possessed with so many qualities of reality were not deficient even in
movement. There in the middle of the sculptural vegetation was a statue of the hunter Action um straining toward the goddess with voyeristic curiosity. You could see him on the rock and reflected in the fountain beastly in m transformation into a stag lying in weight for Diana's bath. While I was taking extraordinary pleasure in
scrutinizing all this, Verina said, "Everything you see is yours." And she asked everyone else to leave so we could speak in private. When they'd gone, she warned, "By this goddess, dearest Lucius, I swear I am fearfully anxious for you. I am to look out for you as if you are my own child. Beware, I mean seriously, beware of all the evil arts
and wicked enchantments of that woman Pamfile, the wife of your host, Milo. She is widely known as a witch of the highest order, um, mistress of every kind of spell, who just by breathing on twigs and pebbles and small specimens of that sort, knows how to plunge all the luminous brightness of the constellation into the depths of the underworld and
the primeval void. You see, whenever she sees a particularly attractive young man, she is consumed with his charms, and immediately turns her gaze and thoughts to him as she lays down lures, steals their souls, and finally forever secures them within the shackles of a deep desire. As for the ones who
are less obedient or turn contempt over because they now disdain her, in the wink of an eye, she transformed them into rocks and sheep and miscellaneous animals. miscellaneous animals. Others she utterly annihilates. This is why I worry and urge you to beware. She's constantly on fire for someone, and you, being so young and beautiful, are a
likely target. These were the words of a very worried Berea. But I, with my habitual curiosity, as soon as I heard mention of art and magic, the very thing I always wanted to so much, rather than heeding Berea's cautionary words, was itching to leap at once into the depths of the abyss. I would pay a very large sum of money to place myself uh
voluntarily under the toutelage of such a master's pan file. Impatient and frenzied, I freed myself from my aunt's chain-like hands class, quickly said bye and rapidly flew off to Milo's house. I um spurred myself on, running even faster in my dimension state. Come on, Lucius. Wake up and take hold of yourself. Here's the chance you've been
waiting for. What have you been hoping for forever? or even fulfill your heart's long desire of amazing tales away with childish fears. Attack the head on full force. Steer clear though of any erotic involvement with your hostess and respect the marriage bed of your most virtuous host Milo. But on the
other hand, the midservants, that's the place uh to make inroads vigorously. She's pretty and flirty and quite a shrewd little thing. Last night when you were going to bed, she not only led you to the bedroom politely, but she uh led me led you to the bedroom politely, but she put you in bed soothingly and covered you lovingly, and even kissed
your head. And she gave away with her backward glances how unwilling she was to leave. In fact, she stopped, turned around, looked back a few times before leaving. So may the God's favor, even if it turns out badly. Forward, march on, fotus. While I was debating all this to myself,
I came to Milo's door and as they say, voted voted with my feet since I didn't run into Milo's wife at home. But only my dear Fus. She was preparing a fine spread for her masters. A dish of organ meats chopped fine choice cut choice cuts sliced into bits, juicy rump roast and sauce, and what was just beginning
to sense with my nose was very tasty pork sausage in a marinade. She herself was nearly dressed in a linen, neatly dressed in a linen tunic, brightened with red sash, cinched highish beneath her pretty breasts. She was stirring that food pot round and round, their pretty little rosy palms, shaking it
rhythmically in sinous circles, all the while her slithery body gliding with the ease of liquid. Her thighs slowly vibrating, her spine shimmering and unul undulating slowly to the culinary rhythm. I stood enchanted, transfixed and astounded by this vision. And that part of me that was lying still before
stood up. After a moment I said to her, "My darling fotus is so beautiful and fine. The way you twist this cooking pot along with your butt. What a sweet dish you're cooking. The man you let dip his finger in there will be very happy and definitely thrice bless." Then she being a witty girl and perch volied back to
me. Off with you, you poor guy. Get as far as you can from my kitchen. Go because you are ignited even a little from my fire. You will be b burned to your depths and no one will extinguish that heat except me. I know how to shake the pot and the bed and add my own luscious seasoning. Then she looked over
her shoulder at me and laughed. Still, I didn't budge from the spot before carefully looking her up and down. But why bother with anything else when a woman's head and hair have always been my particularly obsession? First, I examine them openly in public, later to enjoy the uh memory in private. There is a valid and wellestablished rationale
for the judgment of mine. First of all, this particular part of the body is out in the open in clear view, positioned, so it encounters our gaze first. Furthermore, the lovely cedar color that a bright garment imparts to the rest of the body, the hair's natural sheen um provides for the forehead, for the head. And final proof, many women when they
want to show off their body's innate grace, intimate grace, sorry, innate grace, strip off their garments and throw aside their clothes, not but um hot to deploy their naked beauty more pleasing and teasing with their skin's rosy blush than they would be gleaming
in their clothes flesh. But, and this isn't irrelevant to say, and God forbid this should happen. If you were to despoil the most exquisitly beautiful woman of her head and hair, and dude her face of its n natural ornament, I don't care if she just dropped me from the heavens, was born from the sea, and
raised herself among the waves in a half shell. I mean, she could be Venus herself, surrounded by a choir of graces and accompanied by a city's worth of cupids, encircled with her with her girdle and desire of desire, fragrant with cinnamon and perfume with balsom. But if she w if she stepped out bald, she wouldn't be attractive even to her
husband Vulcan. Consider when um consider when a pleasing color and respplendant sheen illuminate her hair and it gleams vividly or glows gently placidly against sunbeams. Or what about it uh varies its effects? And now glimmering gold it depicts the soft shade of honey and now
the raven dark mimics the sky blue feathers of a dove's neck. Or when imbued with attabian oils and uh parted with a sharp mount sharp tooth of a fine comb and tied at her back, it meets the lover's eyes and reflects the lovely image back like a mirror. Consider with her hair, beautiful as in beautiful
strands is piled on her head or flows down her back long, luxurate and lustrous. still I maintain is the importance of hair that no matter if a woman goes out clothed in gold and gems and every other sort of ornament. Nonetheless, if she has not properly arranged her hair, she cannot be considered well-dressed. But in Fotus'
case, it was not a belabored but a unstudied style that gave her charm. Her abundant locks pushed gently back and dangling down her nape, drawn out over her neck, lightly resting on the border of her tunic, were masked together at the end, where a knot fastened them on the crown of her head. I could not hear
the tor torture of my acute pleasures any bear the torture of my acute pleasures any longer. I leaned over and right at the spot where the hair started climbing the top of her head, I pressed the most honey sweet kiss. She twisted her neck around and turned to me with simmering and nibbling eyes and warned, "Hey, you bookish boy, you're plucking a sweet and bitter morsel, careful you
don't contract the lasting bitterness of bile along with your strong dose of honey. What does it matter, my delight? When I'm ready to be laid out on the grill and roasted alive, if I can just be revived with a single little kiss in the meantime," saying which, I held her even tighter and started kissing her. But she, now rivaling my desire, with a lust equal and akin to mine, had already
opened her mouth, which exuded the vapors of cinnamon, and had slipped her tongue against mine, striking it with the sweetness of nectar, roused with headlong desire. I said to her, "I'm dying. Actually, I'm already dead, unless you can offer me salvation." At that, she kissed me again and assured me, "Don't worry. I am a slave to the very same desires as you, and our
pleasures won't be put off much longer. I'll come to your room tonight you when the first torch has been lit. So go off and get yourself good and ready. I'm going to do a battle with you body and soul the whole night long. We volied these and other words back and forth and then parted. I devoted the rest of the day to a bath and then dinner. And when
I had invited to dine at upstanding Milo's elegant little table, I remember Berea's warding and kept myself as safe as I could from his wife's gaze. But I kept sneaking geese glance at that photo as she served up served us and cheered myself that way. Are you enjoying this?
Typical mother. Lucious with the Lucius was fabulous. Yeah. Remember when Okay. So you like this guys? Okay. Perfect time with psyche. Yeah. Okay. Okay. So it said we volied these. Okay. Okay, so it says after dinner, Pam File predicted rain for the next day, saying that she could forecast the weather with
her lamp. I then mentioned that in Corinth, a prophet had predicted that my future would be a long story that no one would believe, and yet my reputation would grow. Milo knew this man and told a long story about him and how he had been exposed as a fraud. While Milo was
droning on about with these tales, I was groaning inwardly and not a little angry that because of this inopportune um string of stories, I was losing a good part of the evening and um and its luscious fruits. So, I finally choked down my manners and asked Milo if he had pardoned me if I went to bed early,
claiming that I was still suffering from pres president from yesterday's fatigue. Without wanting an waiting for an answer, I headed for my bedroom and I found an elegant arrangement of foods laid out. And besides, Potus had arranged for the slaves to be sleeping on the ground as far from the doorway as possible, I guess, so that they would be
deprived of easedropping on our nocturnal love making noise making. She had put by the bed a little table holding all the best leftovers from dinner, as well as good drinking cups already half full of wine, only waiting to be mixed with water, and a flagan nearby with a wide opening cut made out to make it easy to drink from. All to
strengthen us as for the gladatorial love contest ahead. I had just reclined when there was finished with petting putting her mistress to bed. She came to me joyfully, garland in roses and a loose rose tucked between her simple breast ample breasts. As she kissed me and pressed me closely, she unbound her
garland and scattered flower petals here and there. Then she grabbed a cup of wine, added warm water, and handed it to me to drink. But just before I had swallowed it all down, she gently interrupted me, and she drank down the rest in little bird-like snips to her lips, giving it a sideways look as she sifted sweetly. We shared another, and
then a third cup, passing it back and forth between us, until I was drenched with wine, and not just in my head, but in my body as well. As a rule, I am restless and impatient for pleasure. But now I was stricken. So I quickly and briefly limited my uh lifted my tunic as far as my groin and showed fotus the my
impatience for sex. Take pity on me, I cried. And help me right now. You can see that I'm on high alert for this imminent battle you've intimated without any official declaration of war. When I took Cupid's first stinging arrow deep in my flesh, I strung my own bow tightly in return. and I'm very worried that my bow string will snap from so much
strain. But if you want to please me even more unbind your fullome mane and push your arms around me in a sensuous embrace while your hair flows around us in undulating waves. She didn't wait but in a flash removed all the cuffs and dishes, stripped off her clothes, and let her hair uh let down her hair for a delightful
dissipation. Then she made herself into a statue of Venus rising out of the ocean's waves, even briefly covering her smooth steps with rosy palm. More shading from coetishness than hiding it out of decorousness. Fight, she said, and fight man manfully. I won't be
turning my back in surrender. Get set for hand for hand and hand-onhead combat and head on hand in hand and head-on combat. Forward march. If you are a man, thrust with your spear and be ready to die. No one gets a discharge from today's battle. Even as she spoke, she
climbed onto the bed. Slowly lowered herself onto me and moved dartingly up and down with wiggling motions and twists of her supple spine. She satiated me fully with the pleasure of Venus on a swing. Then we collapsed together with our arms intertwined, utterly sapped, energy exhausted, limb, limbs limp,
panting at our last breaths. We spent all night engaged in these and similar wrestling holds until the break of day. Sometimes restoring our languid bodies with wine, which spark sparked our desire and renewed our pleasure. Needless to say, we arranged many other such nights along the lines of this excellent example.
Okay. Dang. She's turning into Pig Tea. Who's Pig T? Drop this. Uh, hold on. I don't Who are you talking about, Charlie? Oh, hold on. I don't want people I I don't want the bad mom close up on this channel. That's your That's your warning. Okay,
Lucious. Yeah, Lucius. Everyone leave it. Did everyone like it? Oh gosh. Sorry. That was the second chapter. I mean, it's not a long long long book, but I don't know.
You're back. Okay, cool. Got one friend.
Yeah.
I I don't know what you're saying, Charlie. Hi guys. Oh, thank you, Christine. I don't know. Sometimes there's a lot of people in the chat and then there's like no one talks and like the people just like like look at me. What kind of face are they making?
Thank you Christie. I love you.
Hi baby Patrix. Hi. Hi. Hi. Is it is intense reading? Yeah. I mean, the story gets better and better. Yeah, that was the kind of that's the kind of sexy chapter. I mean, that just to go into that detail with like, oh, there's like a whole page about putting her hair up and down. I fell asleep listening like you would at
a church. Kind of boring. I But it was like a it was very sexy story, you know. He was with like basically this grand witch has like the face. Oh, hold on. Intense reading. Yeah. Yeah. Well, it's like it's really small. The text is so small and
it's a little bit blurry. Okay. Yeah, I just did an intense reading with the with the book though. That's the face I was making. Hate thing that is. Yeah, it's I can't wait to read more. I'll I'll read I'll read more as you know the shows go on because it gets better and better. It's almost to the part
where he you know it's called the golden ass. I'll read the back of the book to you. The zip cover, it says, "Peter Stinger and Ellen Pink and Pearl breathe new life into Appalas's The Golden. A hilarious body
tale and one of the earliest novels, accentuating its remarkable empathy for animals." You know, it it gets into it gets into animal stuff. You'll see. It says Appalas may have may be less well known today than other ancient writers perhaps because his work did not fall into the n into the 19th century's image
of what a classical text should look like. While the golden ass is a surreal and comical, its explicit announcement that it is a work of entertainment should not blind us to its serious engagement with question of animal intelligence and uh and the and the poorest boundaries between humans and animals.
Oh, Chris. Yeah. Yeah. Like I, you know, Christine still had, you know, I just gave I give some people like secret wrenches. I shouldn't tell that though. Yeah. Christina has the perfect mod.
I I got her I got her I got her like a little wrench. She going to put in a I don't know a concealed carry. No, no, I want to I I really I really do want to not want anybody to
It really is about so you guys won't get harassed even more than I don't care about people to me about it like oh wine for branch but I don't like when the mods fight and stuff. I mean I I am thank you pubs. Great to see you. Thank you for coming by. I know she doesn't go I know I very few mo mods ever went rogue but there
was that one time like it was like they went back to like an old chat and then hit everybody and then it took a while to figure that out like a couple days. Um so you never see what other ones actually
have I haven't seen. Oh wait other names. Okay. Yeah, Christine's a great mod. And friend, is that a threat, Christine? Oh, I don't think it's a threat. You never know what other names I
actually have that aren't seen. Oh, yeah. Not a threat. That's a That's a provocative question. I always have at least an Alson here that never types. Wow. Christine's on double duty.
What are you making that face? That face for
Thank you, Chris. Christine's always watching out for me and I know a lot of you are, so I really appreciate you. Thank you.
Okay, since it's going slow, I'm going to read the third chapter. So, the third chap, chapter 3, it's called thoroughly an ass. Okay, so it says, "Ever since my aunt Verina had told me about my hoses' magical powers, I've been waiting to ask Botus about her
mistress's arts. especi eventually I sense that the many that the time may have come when I could persuade her to tell me about them. So one night when she came to me in bed I said to her my dearest spot you know that I have an intense interest in magic and you have hinted in your that your mistress is in
the habit of enchanting young man. If you truly love me tell me about her powers and how she cast her spells. She was at first reluctant to reveal the secrets of the house. I drew her closer and said, "You don't seem very clumsy and inexperienced in the magical arts yourself. I've seen it. I've seen it and
felt it immensely since you um held me in bondage with your glimmering eyes and ruby red lips and shimmering locks and lingering kisses and regulent breasts. I am under your spell and your willing slave. With this state you got me in, I don't miss my home and I'm not ready getting ready to go. There is nothing I
prefer to a single night with you. Hello Rude. First, let me carefully lock the doors of the bedroom, she said, so that I don't commit a great in indiscretion through the disrespectful impetuousness of my careless tongue. And then she drew the uh the bolt and fastened the clamp
securely. Then she turned back to me and entwined her arms around my neck, saying in the quietest whisper, "I am afraid no. I am totally terrified to reveal the mysteries of this house and to unveil my mistress's shrouded secrets. But I am trusting you because you are learned from a good family and especially because you have been initiated into
many religious cults. You understand the imperative of keeping your silence about sacred secrets and storing them deep within the confines of your heart. It is because of that love that binds me to you that I am revealing what I what I alone I know. Soon you will know everything about our households. All the mistresses miraculous powers. How the
dead bow to her will. Constellations are sent into disarray. Gods are forced under her sway and the elements become her slaves. Then she continued, "When the when she wants to cast a spell, she climbs onto the roof out into the open air and sets
on her magical apparatus. Every sort of aromatic spice, lead tablets inscribed with unintelligible letters, the enduring remnants of unfortunate shipwrecks, numerous limbs of recently lamented and ever buried cadaavvers. here. Noses and fingers, their
fleshladen nails from crucifixions and fat um dark corner blood savaged with murder victims and mutilated skulls torn from the teeth of wild beasts. Here she chants her ever silk quivering entrails and sprinkles them with an offering of sundry liquids, a bit of fountain spray,
some cow's milk, a little mountain honey, and a libation of sweet wine. She can perform any feat through the unconquerable power of magical art and invisible forces of the deity she commands. I was listening transfix with eagerness and I said I vow to keep silent about what you have told me but please grant me my most ardent wish.
Show me show me your mistress when she is practicing some of the magic you have just described. Let me see her when she is calling on her gods or best of all when she is being transformed into another creature. You know, I feel the most passionate desire to experience magic right in front of my eyes. Oh, Lucius, she responded, how I wish I could give you what you want, but apart
from the matter of the malevolent disposition, she always practices her art and seclusion, hidden away from any observers. But I will put your requests before concerns for my own safety, and I'll look for a good opportunity and find a way. only as I said before keep your promise and respect the secrecy of such a momentous event.
Amid this sort of chitchat we were brought closer and our bodies roused and we began to watch each other. So we tore off our clothes in a raw naked state we reveled in the state rights of Venus. Then when I was already exhausted voted generously and unsolicited offered me sex in the boy's position. Finally,
after a wakeful night, sleep infused our drooping eyelids and held us deep um into the next day. We slept a few nights escap engaged in pleasures like those when Fotus rushed into me in a state of trembling excitement and announced that her mistress was planning to grow feathers and become a bird in the next night to fly off to some one of her
lovers and that I should cautiously prepare myself for viewing the phenomenal events. So around the first watch of the night, she led me noless on tiptoe to the upper chamber she had described and urged me to witness the events through a crack in the door. First of all, Pam file took off her clothes. Then she opened the lid of her chest and chose several little boxes. She removed the lid of each of them,
scooped out some ointment, and rubbed it between her palms for a long time. Then she smeared it all over her body from the tips of her toenails to the very ends of her hair and her head. After that she spoke secretly with her lamp and at some length and shook the arms in a quivering agitation. When she started waving them up and down she sprouted feathers soft and light then wings
strong in flight with her nose bent into a beak and her toenails tapered into talons. Tamfile became an owl. She gave a quarrelless screech and jumped a little off the ground to test herself. Thus then lifting herself into the sky, she soared away in full flight. She then was transformed intentionally by her
magical arts, and I stood there enchanted by no spells, transixed simply by the wonder of what I had seen. I seemed to be anything other than Lucius. Blasted beyond the limits of my brain, crazed, dreaming in full wakefulness, I kept rubbing my eyes to see if I was awake. When I finally recovered my sense of the world around me, I grabbed Botus' hand and brought it up to my eyes,
saying, "Please, while the time is ripe, let me enjoy a magnificent and unique proof of your affection. Um, share with me a little dash of the ointment. I beg you by those nipples of yours, my little honey, uh, and bind me your slave to you forever by the favor of that which can never be returned. Let
me be your wing Cupid standing beside his Venus. What? She cried. You're playing the fox. You, Don Juan, and asking me to take an axe to my own shins. Even now, with you wingless, I can hardly keep from the shewolves of Thessal. Where will I find you when I become a bird? Where will I see you? May
the gods keep me from such a crime, I said. Even if I travel the whole sky on lofty wings of an eagle, delighting in playing the messenger and arms bearer of supreme Joe, I would not fail to fly back down to my humble nest after the bow of after the honor of that wingedness. I swear by the sweet knot of
hair on your head that has bound my soul to you. I prefer no other woman to my fotus. Come on, what a handsome and entertaining lover an owl would be for a woman. But when I almost forgot to ask, what word or action do I use to return to being Lucius after I shed those wings? Don't worry on that score, she
answered. My m my mistress has shown me with spe a special thoroughess what it takes to transform all those shapes back into human bodies. But don't imagine she does this out of any sort of kindness is only so that I can provide an effective antidote when she returns home. Assuming assuring me repeatedly about the antidote, she crept in Pam File's room
with great trepidation and removed from the chest the box which I hugged and kissed and asked for luck in my flight. I stripped off my clothes and greedily immersed my hands on the box, taking a lot of ointment and rubbing it over my limbs. I stretched out my arms and with alternating motions, I was trying to
flap my wings into a bird, but no down spread sprouted. No wings appeared. Soon it was obvious that my body hair was thickening into bristles. My delicate skin hardening into hide and the ends of my palms, my 10 fingers were becoming single hooves and a gigantic tail was emerging from the tip of my spine. Now
my face was enormous, my mouth elongated, my nostrils gaping, my lips pendulous. My ears too were hideously enlarged and briskly. I didn't see any solace in the retro transformation except that my organ had grown too large for embracing Fotus. In this state of hopelessness and helplessness, I was examining my whole
body, and I saw that I was no bird, but an ass. I wanted to complain to Fodus about what she had done. But I been but I had but I had been robbed of human gesture and speech and the only thing I could I looked slant ways at her with frowning lips and watery eyes and reproached her in silence. For her part when she saw me
in the state she struck her face furiously with her hands and said, "I'm done for. Harry and um hurry and worry fooled me and these similar boxes deceived me. But it's fine because there is a much easier antidote for this ship shape change. All you have to do is nibble on some roses and you will leave the acid skin and return back to my
lucious instantly. I do wish I'd make some garlands this evening as I usually do so that you wouldn't have to suffer even one night's delay. But as soon as it's light, I'll rush to get this remedy to you.
See this? Okay. So, it says that's how she lamented. But as for me, although I was thoroughly an ass and a beast of a burden instead of Lucious, I am still remained in human consciousness. So, I debated long and deeply with myself whether I should kill that wicked, worthless woman with thick
and fast kicks and attacks with the teeth. But a more rational thought pulled me back from the original impetuousity that I might that if I punished Botus with death, I might be extinguishing all hope of of fortune a uh future aid. So downcast and shaking my head, I gulped down my outrage for
the time being and opted for subservience in my harsh lot. I headed therefore toward that excellent steed of mine in the stable where I found another ass belonging to Milo, formerly my host. You see, I was singing that there was a natural and unspoken oath of allegiance among mine animals. My horse would offer
me hospitality and luxurious stay motivated by a kind recognition and commiseration. But by Jupiter and the goddess loyalty, that outstanding conveyor of mine, my horse and the ass put their heads together and right away plunge plotted my destruction, fearing for their food, I guess. Scarcely had
they see me approaching the stall when they pinned back their ears in furry uh in fury and charged at me, ready to strike with their pernitious hooves. So I was driven as far as possible from the bank uh barley I set out and the very evening with my own hands and that
ecquin servant of mine now so closely linked to me. Hurt by this and relegated to solitude I retired in the corner of the stable and thought about the insults of those my associates. I recalled that tomorrow I would be Lucious again with the help of some roses and was
contemplating what revenge I would take on my disloyal horse. But there in the very middle of the midmost pillar hanging holding up the beams of the stable sitting on a small shrine was a statue of Epona, goddess of horses and ma and mules adorned with fresh garland of roses. As I perceived the scent of my deliverance, I had high hopes. I
stretched out my front legs and leaned forward as far as I could and reared up powerfully. Elongating my neck and extending my lips, reaching for that garland with everything I had. But as bad luck would have it, the slave who looked up after my horse suddenly noticed me trying to reach the roses and jumped up, showing in um in indignantly,
"How long, citizens, do we have to put up with such a geling? First he was a menace to the Cupid's food and now or to the Equid's food and now it's the gods shrines. Damned if I don't believe this temple robber crippled and hobbling. Right away he started hunting for some kind of weapon. In his blind rush, he
bumped against the bundle of wood and searched out a knotted casual larger than all the others. Cooj larger than all the others. Poor miserable me. He didn't stop beating me until with a sudden uh bang and a thunderous crash the doors of the house were beaten down and he fled in tear and the whole quaking neighborhood screamed robbers. Suddenly
a mass of robbers forced upon the open the house and completely took control while a ver virtual army ring the building. More enemy troops ran in to obstruct the um auxilaries on our side from flying in all directions. The night was illuminated by their swords and torches. Fire and dagger flashed like rays of the rising sun. There was a
store room set deep in the middle of the house uh bolted and barred with the strongest of blocks where Milo's Milo had stashed away his treasure. This they attacked and split open with sturdy axes. Then they quickly tied up every bit of that bounty in bundles, shared it around, and carried it off. But the
moment the amount to carry exceeded the number of carriers, the great excess of opulence skirmied their gateway. So they pulled on two donkeys and my horse from the stable and burdened us with the heaviest of the bundles. Threatened with kooils, they drew us out of our now empty house. They left one of their gang as a spy to report back later as to
whether they were under suspicion or they led us through the hidden paths of the mountain, constantly striking us with blows coming thick and fast. And so with the heavy weight of the booty, the steep height of the mountain, and the extreme length of the journey, I was as good as dead. Gradually, but with gravity, it occurred to me to seek the
aid of the civic authorities and to free myself from these tortures by calling on the respected name of the emperor. So, when it was clear daylight, and we were passing through a crowded marketplace among the throngs of Greece, I tried to invoke uh the august name of Caesar in the language of my birth. But even though I shouted oh over and over very
eloquently and mightily, I could not enunciate the rest. Caesar's name. The robbers though objected to my discordant noise and whipped my poor hide until it was full of holes than a seieve. Finally, the great Jupiter brought me unexpected deliverance. As we pass small
farmsteads and grand houses, I saw a charming little garden where along with other pleasant greenery untouched roses were blooming in the morning view. I I gazed open mouth at them and drew closer, elated and cheered by the hope of rescue. My mouth was watering as I reached for them with my lips. But then I had a different thought about my
safety. If I were to shed the acid skin and again emerge into Lucus, Lucius, I would meet certain death at the hands of the robbers, feared either as wizard or witch or or feared either as a wizard or a witness. So I abstained from the roses out of sheer necessity and tolerated my
present situation while feeding on hay to give the appearance of being an ass. Hi
The golden ass by Appalaus. Yeah, he just turned into he just uh he was trying to like do magic and then he uh he's reading the long list of men. You have had sex with JC?
Yeah. Oh, come on. This is called this is called the this called the psyche burst. Uh
interesting conversation. Okay, it's reading. Okay. So yeah, it's a really good book. I'm just thinking of different things to read. It seems like the panel's a little bit quiet today, but let's see if it picks up. Probably have to get some some cigars soon, guys. We're almost out of cigars at the store.
I probably will have to quit smoking, which I probably can do. Okay. I got a lot of great books though. Got super interesting things to read. So,
hang out. If you want to come on in. Hey Rude. It's warm in here today. It's a nice day. We'll go outside in a little bit.
Okay. Uh,
this book
is trash. Um, I I know he's trash, but n I'm not gonna call. Doug's fine. Doug, are you behaving like, you know, so don't break the the rules, Doug. Okay. You should be good. He's like a He's a harmless. He's pretty harmless.
Well, I don't I don't I don't know. I just like, you know, he says trashy things. Um Oh, you want to hear more? Yeah. It's so quiet and I'm enjoying reading it. So, he just turned into the donkey. Okay. By magic. This one's called On the Road with the Robbers. It's not the regular Doug. Oh, that's
not it's not Douggee Doug. It's it's a different Doug. Uh
around midday when it was already scorching hot, we detourred from the road into a village to visit with some old men on friendly terms with the robbers. Even an ass could perceive as much from their warm greetings, their lengthy conversations, and their exchange of kisses. Also, the robbers gave them certain items that they
unloaded from my back, which they seemed to hint with secret winks and whispers had been acquired by theft. Finally, they relieved us of the baggage and sent us out into a nearby meadow to graze freely. But I had no interest in meeting up to co- pasture with the ass and my horse, especially as I was not yet used to lunching on hay. So when I saw a
kitchen garden behind the stable, I broke right in since I was dying of hunger. There were just raw vegetables, but I managed to stuff my belly well enough. Then I prayed to the gods and surveyed the surroundings to see if somewhere in the adjoining gardens I could find a radiant rose bush. That's the antidote. Okay. Okay. My very my very solitude gave me
confidence. After I ingested the remedy hidden off the road by some shrubs, I could rise up again from the bent over gate of a quadriped into the erect posture of a man unnoticed. And so while lost in the sea of thought, I saw a bit further on a leafy grove in a shady valley where amidst the grass cover and
verdant blush the red red rose shown forth in blinding glory. In my not altogether beastly heart, I thought it a grove of beus and the graces where their flowers regal radiance illuminated the hidden darkness. I prayed to the happy and prosperous God's success and tore
off a great clip so that by Hercules I felt no longer an ass but altered by my surplus of speed into a racehorse. And yet, in spite of the agile and applause attempt, I couldn't overcome the opposition of fortune. For as I came closer, I saw that these were not tender
and lovely roses with w with scented dew and still wet growing on fertile brushes and blessed thorns. And the shady valley was nothing but a riverbred hedge with close packed bushes. They these are like laurel with their dense foliage and produce moderately red blossoms that resemble flowers with a scent, but they
lack it. The untaughty country folk call them laurel roses, and they are death to cattle when eaten. I was now so tangled up in misfortune that I was ready to give up on life. So I started to reach for those poisonous roses. But as I approached, hesitatingly to pluck them, a young man, most likely the gardener whose vegetables I had entirely
devastated, realized his loss and charged at me furiously with a huge staff. He grabbed me and beat me all over almost to the point of death. Except that finally I found a pretty I found a pretty smart way to help myself. I raised my backside high in the air and kicked and kicked with the heels of my back feet. When he was badly beat up and
lying against the slope of the hill nearby, I fled and freed myself. But right away some woman, his wife, I suppose, as soon as she saw him from the top of the hill was lying there half dead, flew straight at him with a plaintive wailing, bent on destruction. For all the villagers were roused by her cries and calls of their dogs from hill and from Dale they urged them on to
attack me and lacerate me with their savage um the savaged rage. Then without question thought then without question I was going to die. So then I saw the dogs. They'd stick on me huge and numerous. The kind that fight with bears and lions in the amphitheater. I hatched a plan on the spot. I stopped running away, turned around and went back to a
good pace to the stable where we were supposed to rest. The villagers managed to restrain their dogs, but they tied me to a hook and sturdy rope and resumed beating me. They would have finished me off altogether if my belly constricted by the pain of the beating bloated by raw vegetables I'd eaten was weakened by the liquefying of my bowels
and had not driven them away from the already crushed ribs as I emitted a sudden jet spray of dung. Some fled sputtered by the horrendous fluid, others the stench of the stinking smell. Losing no time when the sun was leaning um toward afternoon, the robbers loaded up very heavily, me especially, and led
us out of the stable. By that time, we completed a good part of our journey. I was already worn out by the endless road, sunk by the weight of the load and exhausted by the strikes from the goat. My hooves were rubbed ragged. I was lame and teetering. So when I stopped near a gently meandering stream, I took this
lucky opportunity and figured I would ingeniously bend my legs and throw myself onto the ground. Then I would be absolutely determined not to get back up no matter how much they beat me. In fact, I was prepared to keep lying there until I was struck not out just by a cougill but even by a dagger. I was thinking that if I was totally infeebled
and half dead, I would earn a disability discharge. Surely the robbers from impatience by the delay and eagerness to continue their hurried fight would distribute my load onto the other two pack animals and leave me prey to the wolves and vultures for luck of any better revenge. But the worst luck
thwarted my this beautiful plan of mine. For that other ass intuited and stroke my and stole my idea. Baining exhaustion, he plopped himself down with all his baggage and lay there like a corpse. He wouldn't even try to get back up, nor even when they hit him with cooles and goes. Not even when they tugged on his tail, his ears and his shanks. Finally, when they got tired and
saw was helpless, they consulted with each other, not wanting to delay their escape while tending to a dead, no, a rock of an ass. So he distributed the baggage between me and my horse, drew a sword, and slashed through each of his knees. then took a little off the road and plunged him still breathing from the
side of the sheet cliff into the river um the valley below. From then on, thinking about the fate of my poor comrade in arms, I decided to set aside all trickery and lies and show I was a well- behaved ass. In any case, I noticed them saying to each other that they would be longing lodging and restful end to the whole journey in the next town, and this was their headquarters and home. So while we
traveled a gentle little slope, we came to our destination. Here they removed everything and stowed it inside. Feed of all weight, instead of a bath, I relieved freed of all freed of all weight, instead of a bath, I relieved my tiredness by rolling in the dust. The time and subject matter demand that I give you a description of the
surroundings and of the cave where the robbers lived. This will be a way for me to test my intelligence and for you too to see whether you sincerely feel that I was an ass in mind and perceptive abilities as well as my body. Here I go. The mountain was rugged, shaded by the forest branches and particularly steep. At this point of the steepest incline,
it was surrounded by rocks and therefore inaccessible. valleys ran around the foot of the mountain filled with gs and pits and heaped high with thorn bushes stretching in all directions all of which offered a natural fortification. From the very peak of flowering spring gushed forth bubbling and slipping down
the slope, spewed out silvery ripples and dispersed on the numerous rivallets, irrigating the valleys with its streams grown sluggish, finally surrounding the whole area with something like a swamp or a damned off lake. A tall tower rose from the cave with a rock face and mountain tapered off and there was a
yard then soft sturdily with a strong wonder. It was suitable for a sheepfold and served as a well extending all along the sides. In front of the doors were long narrow paths. I would not hesitate to be to call it the forcourt of the robbers's um layer. There was nothing
nearby except a small but hidden half-hazardly um hidden hut hidden half-hazardly by the rods. Here I later discovered scouts chosen by her by lot among the robbers kept guard at night. When each of the robbers had compacted his body and squeezed into the case, they had all tied up uh they all tied us
up in front of the door with a strong strap. They called out insultingly to an old woman bent over by extreme age who as it appeared was in sole charge of the health and welfare of these young men. Hey, you corpse long overdue for this p prime disgrace of life itself, death's soul reject. Are you going to sit at
home having fun and doing nothing? Aren't you going to offer as relief after our great and perilous labors with some late night refreshment? All you need, all you do is flood your ravenous belly day and night with undiluted wine. The old woman started trembling with a
sad and u and trembling and this and a awakened in a shaking voice. Oh hot, my bravest, most faithful young men, my saviors. Here is an ample dish seasoned with savory spices, bread in abundance, wine generously and carefully poured into polished cups, and as usual, hot
water ready for your makeshift baths. As she after she spoke, they all undressed and warmed themselves in front of a large fire. And they poured hot water on their bodies, rubbed themselves down with oil, and reclined on the tables piled high with food. They had just reclined when lo and behold another much larger group of young men arrived whom you would immediately recognize as
robbers. For they too were carrying looted gold and silver coins and vessels as well as silk clothes interwoven with gold thread. When they had reh revived themselves with the bath the same way as the others and intersperse themselves among the comrades on dining couches. Those drawn by lots served the others. There was boisterous eating and
drinking, mounds of meat, bushels of bread, copious cups. They jets loudly, sang noisily, joked abusively, and generally behaved just like those half beast la and halfhuman centaurs. When the robbers had eaten their fill, they began to tell tales of their exploits. I will retell just one of them told by a
robber from the second group that I, a man turned into an animal found of special interests.
All right, AZ, hold on. Take easy. Hold on. Your time. Okay, let's see what's going on here. Hey Sassy. Hey time. Are you enjoying this book? Yeah, I think Elder will be here tonight.
High time. Hi time. Yeah. So, I'm reading this story. I don't know if you just came in, guys. It's really good book. It's called The Golden Ass. So, this guy went to like, you know, study witchcraft in Thessaly in Greece. What book was Yeah. What book is it? I just came in a few minutes ago. It's called The Golden Ass by Apleas.
And so basically he goes and you know visits a relative in this magical Greek city and he ends up at this uh this this grand witch's house and she has you know maid servant and he's warned not to you know sleep with the witch because she's you know really powerful but you
know he so he like decided to like go for her maidenus and so they had some sex and he wanted to turn into an owl like her mistress did and And then she got the ointment and she like rubbed it on him and he turned into a donkey. Okay. So then now he's been kidnapped by robbers and he's been beaten and um he he keeps he's looking for roses too
because the roses are the antidote because she the the maid servant didn't find the antidote. Okay, sorry that's my best uh summary. So here's a story. It says in Platia we heard constant talk of a certain demo uh demoarez who was to put on a gladatorial show. He
was a man of prominent family, prosperous means and he provided for public pleasures with funding fitting his fortune. Who among us has the talent or the eloquence to lay out adequate words all the different aspects of multi- uh multiaceted preparations for the show. Here were gladiators of
renowned strength. Then um hunters known for their skill in their hunting contests. And in the corner those sentenced irrelyably to death, supplying a rich meal of themselves to fatten the beasts. Here were multi-purpose mechanisms constructed with supporting beams and towers plant uh plated
together and planks of wood to look like movable houses fit for hanging colorful announcements of the next hunting show. And then such a number and such a victory of beast for Demoarez had taken particular care to import from abroad all those fancy graves from the condemned criminals. But beyond all the
other trappings of this particular show, he had spent all the resources of his inheritance on a vast number of enormous bears. Apart from the ones captured on his own hunting expeditions and those acquired as a great expense, friends had given him others on several occasions. and he tended them anxiously with lavish
care. But such renowned and dazzling accucherants for pleasure could not escape the menacing eyes of envy. For the collection of beasts worn out by long captivity, weakened by the heat's intensity and sat by the sluggish inactivity were seized with a sudden pestilence and reduced almost to
nothing. Uh you would see beastly shipwrecks of their half-dead bodies scattered all over the squares. The uncultivated common folk forced by uncoo poverty to seek out free food and foul supplements to their unvaried and attunated diet. These people ran straight for the food lying about. So on
the spot, Yubulus there and I came upon an ingenious plan as follows. We carried the biggest and fattest one we could find into our hideout as if we were going to use it as food. Then we stripped its hide thoroughly of the flesh, carefully preserving all its claws and leaving the head intact down to the neck. And then we thinned out the skin, scraping it expertly, sprinkled it
with ash, and left it in the sun to dry. And while it was being parched by the flames of the skies heat, we gorged ourselves heily heartily on the meat and assigned the sacred duties of our upcoming campaign. One of us, the one who surpassed the other in strength at not of body, but of mind, and who must have been a volunteer, should cover
himself with that pelt, and assume the appearance of a bear. Then he would go up to Demo Shares's house at the perfect time in the quietness of night, and provide an easy access to the front door. Many of our brave comrades were inspired to volunteer and assume the clever disguise. But uh Thr Thras Leon was the band's first choice as he
undertook the gamble of the risky device. He concealed himself calmly to the skin which fit him easily and was soft and pliable. Then we marched up the edges and made a fire seam covering the gap and juncture even though it was small with a dense hair around it. We forced Thrillian's head up through the neck of the edge of the throat where the
bear's neck had been slashed and made little poles for breathing and seeing around the nose and eyes. Then we left our brave comrade, who totally became a beast in a cage that was bought for a modest price. He crept up quickly with resolute vigor. After this beginning, we turned to the next steps of our ruse.
After scouting himself, we found the name of a certain Nisnorcatian who enjoyed a close friendship with Deosharis. We fabricated a letter to him stating that his good friend wanted to dedicate the first fruits of the hunting expedition to embellishing the gladatorial show. When evening came, we
took advantage of the cover of darkness and offered Thril Leon in his cage to Demos along with a forged letter. He admired the size of the beast and that was pleased by the timely generosity of an old friend. So pleased that he ordered that when we had brought him this delight should be awarded 10 gold coins from the cash bow he had at 10
cash box he had at hand. Then since a thirst for novelty and new sights tends to attract the minds of men towards sudden apparitions, a large crowd gathered to admire the beasts. But our comrade Thrissa Leon very carefully impeded their curious gaze by frequently rushing at them menacingly. The citizens
declared with one voice that Demos um Deosharez was happy and blessed since after such a terrible loss to the beast, he has somehow stood up to fortune with this new acquisition. Deosares meanwhile ordered the beast to be taken out to the fields with utmost care. But I interrupted, "Be careful, sir. of
exposing a bear already timed out, tired out from a long hot journey to the company of many others who I hear are not well. Instead, why don't you just seek an open and airy spot? Maybe something cool near a lake. Don't you know that this kind of of heat of beast always makes a layer amid lush groves,
dewy caves, and pleasant springs? Demois was terrified by my warnings as he considered the mo uh the number of bears he had lost and easily agreed to let us to to let us put the cage where we thought best. In addition, we are prepared to sleep the night right here beside the cage so that we can offer the bear its usual food and drink at the
right time, seeing as how it is very tired from the discomfort of heart of heat of jousting. We don't need this kind help from you, he answered. But now pretty much my entire household was practiced in feeding bears and from doing it day after day. After this we said our farewells and left through the city gate where we spied a tomb well off
the road and set it in a hidden spot. There were coffins their lids half open due to rot and time and the dead in which the dead inhabited now with just dust and ash. We forced open some of these for storing the loot ahead. Then according to the guiding principles of our profession, we awaited the moonless time of the night when sleep in its
first onslaught invades the presses most forcefully in the hearts of men. Our division was stationed right in front of Deosarus's door armed with swords as a shorty so to speak of Lac um Larsonia's success. Thrust and two seized by a
precise pillaging moment of the night crept out of the cage and swiftly finished off every one of the guards with his sword who lay in sleeping nearby. Then he killed the doorkeeper as well, took the key, threw open the doors of the gate. We rushed in, and when he and when we had been received into the belly of the house, he showed us this
store room where he had keenly noted a large quantity of silver being stored that evening. When our hand had broken into the room through force and teamwork, I ordered each of our troops to carry off as much gold and silver as he could, and to hide it quickly in these tombs of the trustworthy dead, and then to speed back and get another hand.
Meanwhile, in the interests of all, I could not remain by myself near the threshold of the house to keep a careful eye on everything until they returned, for the sight of a bear running around the middle of the house seemed enough to scare away anyone in the household who might wake up. who, in short, no matter how strong and and fearless, would not have been roused in flight by the enormous shape of such
a giant beast, especially at night, and would not shed himself in the room for fear and trembling, and locked the door. All those plans had been organized with robust deliberate deliberation, but an unfortunate event occurred. For while I was anxiously awaiting the return of my comrades, some slave boy was awakened by a noise, or maybe by divine intervention, and stealthily clefted out as he saw the beast running freely about
the whole house. Keeping a strict silence, he retraced his steps and managed to alert everyone on the premises of what he'd seen. At once, the whole homestead was teeming with numerous inhabitants. Torches, lamps, wax candles, tallow candles, and other devices were lighting up the night, illuminated the shadows. No one in a large crowd came out unarmed, but each
one equipped with clubs, spears, and even drawn swords guarded the entrances. They even brought out their hunting dogs, longeared and shaggies to subdue the beast. At that point, with the uproar growing exponentially, I retreated backward from the house. But I watched the rest of the admirably fighting off the dogs as I lurked behind
the door. Although he was facing life's ultimate finish line, he did not fail to remember himself our band and his valor of old times while he wrestled against the gaping jaws of Cerberus.
I'm not calling Joker. Joker can call me. As long as his as long as it still breathes, he maintained the role he had assumed. now fleeing, now standing as guard, taking on various seen poses and movements, he finally slipped out of the house. But even when he had gained freedom out in the open streets, he could still not seek safety in flight,
for all the dogs from the next alley, fierce and numerous, join in hordes with the hunting dogs that had left the house in pursuit. It was a wretched and deadly spectacle that I watched our own thrill and surrounded and besieged by packs of savage dogs and lered by persistent biting. Finally unable to bear the sight of such pain, I mingled in the crowd who was milling about and tried the only way
I could to bring some concealed help to my comrade in arms, I heranged the leaders of the bear hunt. What what a great scandal and disgrace. We are destroying a magnificent and truly valuable beast. But the art artfulness of my speech did nothing to help this most unfortunate youth where someone ran out of the house. A tall and strong man without hesitation thrust the spear
through the bear's inards. Then someone else and then someone else and then many others. No longer afraid, they rivaled each other, even getting close and stabbing with their swords. Finally, it was not by lack of endurance that thrust that incomparable jewel of our band was defeated. But his spirit worthy of
immortality gave out. Nor did he betray the con the covenant of our sacred oath while shouting or wailing. But with his usual strength, as he was ripped by teeth and pierced by swords, he endured his present fate, determined roaring and animal growling. Glory he kept for
himself while remembering his life was fate. Still, he had thrown the town into such a turbulent terror and trembling that no one dared to touch the beast, lying dead as it was, up till dawn and well into the next day, not even with a finger. At last someone a little braver cut open the belly of the beast with a knife slowly and fearfully and stripped
the splendid robber of the bear. Thus thrust perished from our company, and he had not perished from the annals of glory. And so we gathered up those parcels that we've hidden with the trustworthy dead dead and quickly carried left the city limits of Plateia meditating on this idea. There is a reason that no loyalty can be found in
this life. Loyalty has left us for the dead hating our cheating and lies. It is thus that we come to you worn out by carrying this load and by the ruggedness of the road and saddened by the loss of our companions. But look, here's the loot we brought. When he finished speaking, they poured out libations of undiluted wine from gold cups in memory
of their fallen comrades, then sang some flattering songs to the god Mars, and went to sleep. For us, the old woman I have already mentioned, dished out fresh barley without even measuring, so that my horse might have thought he was ding in a 10 course meal. He got sole possession, and I have never been in the habit of eating barley unless it's crushed fine and soaked for a long time
until it was mashed. So I rummaged around the corner where they uh piled the leftover bread and vigorously exercised my jaws which were weakened by incessant hunger and full of cobwebs. But as the night wore on, the robber suddenly woke up. This good guys? I think John I think uh
Joker is trying to get a hold of you. Maybe the pregnancy test is positive. Um you know you're not blocked. I see you. I'm an alpha. I make people come to him. Well, yeah. I like to think I'm more of like a Well, I think I'm a little bit of a of a sigma
maybe. Um, where' this go? Okay, here we go. Okay, where do we end? Okay. But as the night war um wore on, the robbers suddenly woke up. They broke
camp and equipped themselves in various ways with some carried swords, some moved along lightly disguised as demons. As for me, not even profound sleepiness could get in the way of my urgent and estab.
Now I was serving such a bottomless stomach that I was uh grazing on the third bushel. I was still frantically at work when the bright light of day surprised me. In the end I was driven by shame of an ass's sort to car to tear myself away from the bread. But was it diffic but it was difficult and quench my thirst in a nearby um stream. Soon
the robbers were back more axiums and agitated than usual. More anxious and agitated than usual. They weren't carrying any sacks of plunder. Not even one worthless rag. There for all their swords, for all the power of those hands, and the collective strength of their whole company, was only one thing they had brought back. A single girl, ladylike in appearance. You could tell by her elegant clothes that she was from
the region's best families. This was a girl desirable even to an ass like me by Hercules. She was wailing and nearly uh tearing out her hair and her clothes. and she be and they brought her inside the cave and tied her to one of the to lessen her troubles, saying, "Don't worry about your safety and chastity. Just be patient long enough for us to
get some benefit of this. The constraints of poverty have driven us to this calling. I am sure your parents with all their wealth will quickly come with substantial ransom for their own flesh and blood, stingy as though they are." They said these and similarly use useless things and did nothing to soo the girl's pain. Obviously not. She
rested her head in her lap and wept constantly. So they called to the old woman and instructed her to sit by the girl and comfort her with gentle and friendly conversation as best she could while they turned to the business of the profession. But still the girl couldn't be distracted from the weeping she'd begun. Rather she tweased her lamenting, her side shaking with ceaseless sobbing.
She even brought me to tears and she spoke. How can I ever stop crying or even keep living deprived of such a grand home? So many servants, such dear slave children and such blessed parents. Poor me deprived of an unfortunate plunder. A possession closed up in the stone prison like a slave deprived of
the sweet pleasures I was born and raised on. So many such awful robbers, a horrifying band of cutthroats. She cried like this until she was so tired out from her unhappy thoughts, the strain of her voice, and the weariness of her body that she finally closed her drooping eyes to sleep. But she didn't sleep for long. She had just closed her eyes when
she suddenly jolted out of her sleep and began to strike herself more and more violently like a mad woman, beating her breast with self-injurious hands and hitting her her beautiful face. The little old woman immediately asked her why she had started up her morning again, and she sighed deeply and said, "Alas, now for sure I have totally
perished. That's it. I'm giving up all hope of rescue. I need a rope or a sword, or best, a cliff to jump off of." But the old woman was furious in the manage her face livid. What the hell was she crying about? And why, after such a nice deep sleep, was she reopening her wounds and giving free reign to her laments? I guess you intend to cheat my young men out of the ransom money. The
robbers, said I, we don't care about your tears, and if you keep this up, I'll make sure you're burned alive." The girl was frightened by that, and kissed the old woman's hand, saying, "Spare me, good mother, and remember your human kindness. Help me a little. This is a very different situation, difficult situation." I don't imagine that pity has totally shriveled up
inside of you, even though you've grown years older. um older over many years, and your hair is distinguished white. Consider the scene of my misfortune. An attractive young man, first among his peers, whom the whole city had adopted as their favorite son. My cousin, in fact, a mere three years older, raised him with me
from infancy. Then, as we were grown, inseparable from us, in the same house, the same room, in the same bed, and he pledged to me, because of our mutual feelings of pure love, long ago engaged with no vows, his formal sense of the dow, his formal terms of the dowy and marriage set, parents, consent given, he was even called husband in legal
documents. He was performing animal sacrifice to the temples and shrines of the town, surrounded by relatives from his side and mine. The whole house, a light with lural torches, was singing the wedding hymn. Uh, meanwhile, my poor mother was holding me in her lap and decking me out in my wedding dress, giving me tender kisses the whole time, repeating anxious prayers for children
to come, when suddenly robbers rushed in and attacked savagely, fleshing, fleshing their bare, sharp swords. It looked like a battlefield, but they didn't set their hands to slaughter or plunder. They packed themselves tightly together and went straight from my bed chamber. Nobody in the household fought back or even resisted at all. While they seized poor me straight from my mother's
lap, fainting and shaking with s terrible fear. But just now a cruel dream revived, or rather multiplied by troubles. I dreamed I was violently I was violently torn from my home, my chambers, my bedroom, my bed itself, and I was calling my unfortunate husband's name through deserted and crackless realms. He was still dripping with
aromatic nuptual oils and adorn with a garland. But when he saw he was breed of my embraces, he came following in my footsteps as I fled on foot not my own. He cried out in distress and called the people to witness, lamenting that his beautiful wife was being taken from him. Then one of the robbers, indignant at this convenient pursuit, grabbed a large
rock lying at his feet and struck the poor beloved young husband and killed him. It was this hideous spectacle that woke me terrified and trembling for my sinister dream. Good guys. Thank you guys. It was a little bit long but only Joker. We have a channel called Ira
Legends. Hi everyone. Hey, hey Punky. How are you? Good. I was just reading from the Golden. I don't know if you've heard of the book, but it's one of the oldest novels in the world. It's pretty entertaining. It's been a good day. Yeah, I did. Just if you guys didn't notice, I did unmod everybody
because the modding was causing too many um too much controversy problem and people were being targeted for it. Like, you know, if they were like, "Oh, um you know, this mod's doing this, this mod's doing that." And people were like saying telling people that mods were doing that, weren't doing it. It was just confusing. I don't want you guys to have
any problems. I'll just all mod you guys can hang out. How are you doing? But I will um I have my book. I can write you down in the book. They I know they ruined it. Yeah. But it's like, you know, it's hard. It's either a lot of people would tell me either have no mods
or everyone's modded because then it's hard to mod everybody because you never know. You know, you know, you don't really want to mod everybody. It's too much. Um, Scribbles had done that the other day. He did it a few times before, but he was like having a bad time the other day. He's like, "Wow." He's like, "Why are you timing people out?" It sounded
just like me. I was like, "Why are you timing people out?" I actually don't say that. But somebody was though, and almost everyone was a model in the room. Oh gosh.
Yeah. This is why we can't have nice things. Yeah, but you know, I think it might be better though because I really want everyone to be able to say what they want to without worrying about, oh, is this, you know, is it represent my my uh my
channel? It's like I should I should uh I should be the one worried about that. Hey hey Spunky. So, we're doing good.
Oh yeah. How are we doing? We have 30 people in the chat. Oh my gosh. I don't know. I don't know. It's like guys are just so quiet.
So, I I'll show you the pictures I drew. Do you guys see the pictures I drew? How do I make this bigger? Make it bigger. Hi Nikki. So, I'll show I drew a picture of DJ Electra and then of of
So, here's DJ Electra. DJ Electra. I need to fix it a little bit like you know I mean she does it look she's wearing a cape or something but yeah see it's tapered but I need to fix a little bit. Looks pretty good. You got more than one friend. Oh thanks sweetie. Hey pumpky. Look I drew God too. He didn't like the
horns but I drew a picture of God. There's a banana. I tried to draw the moon like the sun and the moon. It's like a donut and a banana but and then it's a star. Okay. And then I have one of a rogue nomad. Look at this one. This rogue nomad.
He the big muscles. That's him from the front. So I have to write his name still. You guys want I I can draw I can draw Sassy. I want to draw like No, I have like You want one too? Okay. Do you want your wolfman one or do you want um your normal one?
It's kind of like a little small. Okay. Hi. I'm back. Oh, let me change my name. Wait, leave it like that. Leave it with LOL. Let me change the name and all that. The Wolf Man. Okay. Um,
there you go. Good. Thank you. Okay. So, what what we was doing, I just um I just hopped right in straight from the link. Um I didn't even Well, I I was just I was just reading I read like four chapters of of uh of the book. It was it was just it was really good. It's very I was I was I was on Miguel's page and I was arguing with this dumb but I left cuz started giving me a headache
and I was like, "Let me go see what Psyche's doing." Okay. Well, let's see. So, I go see. Okay. So, so yeah. So, I'm drawing a picture of JT now. He wants me to do a picture of him. He's like the wolf man. Oh. Oh. Hold on. Hold on. That's the right answer. I I can like I can't really It's hard to see. Hold on. You
said your profile picture. I know, but it's small. But it's Which one? Which one? Which one you do? Which one you going to do? Which one you going do? No, he uses it as his like his as his Streamyard photo, but I I I could find another a similar photo. Which one you want to do, Psyche? This one. Oh, yeah. You want to do that? Okay. Your pick. Your pick. Which one you gonna do? All
right. One. This is one. This is two. This is three. And this is four. Okay. It's going to be one or one. That's me. No. Next one. Next one. Yeah. That one. Okay. That one. Do that one. I'm going to laugh.
He was doing it fast. Like how his expect. It's good art. It's still art. Art is art.
Okay. You You like this?
It's You would love this. You love this hair. Okay. Yeah. Okay. Okay. Cuz right now I think I might be doing the same with a pendo. Let me see if I can do it fast. Stay just like that. Psychic. I didn't do I didn't do it perfect. I mean, sorry. Let me see if I can pick. Okay, I don't really see the time.
No, I can't do it. I can't do it right now. I got to freeze your picture and draw it. I mean, I wish I I wish I do better just a little bit. Okay.
Okay. I don't know. I don't know. I put the jacket on you. Hold that. Okay. You ready? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Hold on. I have to write it. Hold on.
Let me see. I need I need to make up a nice you. I'll just put your Just do the best you can. Psyche. Whatever. Let me go to the path. Okay. I got It's not It's not perfect, huh?
Is there
Yeah, that looks like the picture. I was drinking that that long iced tea on that Miami Beach. I don't know. I try my best. You're wearing like a Revolutionary War coat or something and and that has Yeah, I got like you know how you know those Hawaii shirts that make you feel comfortable? That's one of those I bought. Oh, okay. I'll put a Hawaiian flowers on it. Yeah, it's it's
like a Hawaii shirt. I was like, "Oh, let me feel comfortable. It's a light shirt. It's nice." It was like $10.99, I believe. I threw some flowers on. Yeah, there you go. Perfect. Is it good? I don't know. You like it? Okay. It was nice. It don't bother me. I got long hair so it it you know it's it's perfect. Okay. Long hair don't care. Flick flick baby. I love when I do that. When I turn my head left
to right I go flick flick. When I say that my head turns. Okay. So JT now JT has Okay. So that's okay. All right. Who we got next? Who's the next person that wants they stop drawing? JT. Oh, you want JT's profile picture? Yeah. But he put it No, he put it up. But I just it's like I'll just have to kind of have to look at look at another face,
but it will be similar. Okay. The easier one will be Wolf for you. Like if you put Wolf up for you, that'll be easier for him. Well, I think I found one. Let me see. I can find one close. But other than that, I think I I could draw probably some of them. I'm looking at all the pictures now. Like I could probably draw some of these guys. I just stare at it all day
like a like, you know. Okay. Oh my gosh. But I don't like drawing with pens. I only got a pen right now. It don't feel right ever drawing with a pen. I got to take my time, erase, make the lines, straighten it out.
I do it over and over and over till I feel comfortable. Got it. you going to get it right now.
Dog, you got to be the one, right, dog? Can you not troll today? Like, please leave me alone. Go troll somebody else. You was doing good trolling everybody else. I just came to support Psyche. Leave me alone. Thank you. I relax.
Okay, hold on. I think I got I think I got it pretty much. He's a smiling wolf. Hold on. I'll put his name on.
Psych. You focus with your left eye a lot. You can tell cuz your right eye is squint.
You know how you figure that out? Which one is your powerful eye? You make a triangle with your hand and you bring it towards your face. Gradually your hand is gonna bring it to your stronger eye.
Okay. I think I think I think I I mean I did pretty bad on hand. A Okay. Just uh I didn't see Okay. Ready JT? Let's see how you like this one. Let's go JT. Let's go.
Look at he's holding balloons. A heart and a regular Oh yeah, he's holding balloons cuz you don't see the rest of the picture. So he he got creative. Uh yeah, that's what art that's what art that's what art is about. You got that little piece and you took it and made more.
Yeah, I think that's pretty much it. What do you think, JT? You prove okay. Good. I think I I can darken I'll do a little bit more of a wolf face. A little bit hairier. There you go. Good. Okay. Nice. Okay.
I saw you saw my DJ Electra and my uh my Gotti. I was I was gone for a while. So, um I didn't get to see those. I was tell you I was just arguing with the guy from yesterday that you know the the the Greeks guy. Okay. Well, here's DJ Electra, guys. DJ
Electra. That's close to be honest. That's close. That's close. And then here, this one's gotty.
I turned the moon came out like a banana. The sun kind of came like a donut, but I think it still works. That look like a Gotti. That's approved in my book. That's it. Picasso. Thank you. Yeah, that's what it does. Oh, then I drew I drew like um I drew I drew the whole book. Show Show everybody. I I only drew
one more. I drew uh I drew Hold I need to write his name. The guy with the muscles. I seen that one. Then I flipped over. Oh, you saw that one. Let me put him the That was the one I two of them and All right, I got two I missed. All right, great.
Where's Nomad? I got to see. I got to see. Yeah, Nomad. Nomad. Yeah, I think he's behind. Yo, you said I don't got You said I don't got hair, right? Something like that. Yeah, I it's like it's like his it's like his wife beater, but I did like drop for He looks He looks more like Big Dangisha at this than he does the So, it's kind of like Big Disha like a wig to Big Disha because it could be wig bigish if you
look at it like far and if you look close it's like him. I don't know. You got put a square in his chest cuz the picture got square in his chest. I I I did add horns to Gotti and I don't think he liked them but I do like uh I do like those style horns. I I almost drew a I almost drew a uh a tail. Okay, hold on.
So, I'll draw you um Dingle. Okay, hold on. You can draw Dingle real quick. Who's Dingle? Let's see. Let's see here, guys. Dingo. That's easy. I can draw that. Where his comet up? Where's come up at
that?
I didn't see that. Even bigger. Okay, perfect.
I think I got it. I just put for the man.
I have to go to the bathroom. It's okay.
Dingle, are you working French girls? Is this good? H dingle
that work. Okay. More creative with the 666, but she felt felt it felt like a right touch. Okay, there we go. You're welcome. It's good. That's beautiful. Thank you.
Yeah, I want I want to do a lot of, you know, I have a lot of pages in this book. I want to do a lot more. Can you draw my new profile picture?
Yeah, it's still small. Kind of evil, but you like it, Saggy. Look up real fast. There you go.
There you go, Dingle. Oh, very good. See, now you guys are such an inspiration. Like, you know, I can draw a picture of anybody in here because you guys are anybody now. Well, see your new profile picture,
Doug. I mean, it's just you can draw it. It is you. It didn't have an artistic um bone and body doesn't work that way. Yeah. I was, you know, you see may see my art. You see, it's not like, you know, it's not like the best, but I do like I do like to do some art. You would love one. Okay. Yeah. I was going to I wanted to do one for Sassy. That's Sassy.
Okay. Top of the picture. Got her head on the top. Cowboy hat. rim.
See if I can zoom in. Oh, beautiful. Sy, I can't draw that. Just a C. No, I can't draw that. Sassy, go ahead. Good luck, Psyche. I said that's too
I don't see guys see. Yeah. I hope this is I don't want to. Chat chat chat chat. Shout out to the chat. Beat ready. You do the cowboy hat. Oh Yeah, she got the cowboy hat. He said, "Oh shit." That's I zoomed in. I said, "Oh that's too much detail for me."
She got the three buttons with the neck with the with the neck. Curly hair. Curly hair. Got three buttons with the neck thing all the way black with the curly blonde hair. Cowboy hats.
Oh, I missed the ears. Ding. Oh, I could do it right now. Yeah, you see it. I didn't see that cuz the YouTube was in the way. So, the YouTube blocked off the ear part. I didn't see that. That's why I didn't draw it with the ear.
I mean the hair I I'm not sure about the hair. I I have a way to get it right. I just hair
Christine, I could try my best. I'll look at your picture later and draw fuzzy. Oh. Oh Oh Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry. So sassy. I'm sorry. Oh my dear. Oh dear. Oh dear. I'm not good at like drawing. I don't think I fix Oh my gosh.
I can fix it. I can fix it. Okay, I'm gonna put Can I put you in dark glasses? I'm going to put you in dark glasses. Okay, sunglasses.
Seth, you're mad at me. I don't want you to get mad at me.
Okay, you might be wearing a stove type a stove top hat. You know, your hat's going to be a little bit taller in the picture, but I think that worked there.
Oh gosh. Okay.
Okay, Sassy. I mean, it's it's I'm sorry. It's like one It's not one of my best. I need to write your name off, but hope hope you like it. I mean just at least you know I just I'm sorry I said
Okay. Okay. I'm really sorry. So I'm sorry. Sassy. Okay. So Sassy, I have you with a pitchfork and a uh a lasso. I I don't And I tried to do a jean jacket. I didn't I don't know if it turned out right.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'll try to fix it a little bit. Okay. I tried. I'm sorry. It was kind of small. It was kind of It was perfect. It kind of It's kind of Hold. It was kind of small. It looks kind of small, but Yeah. there. Yeah. That can't perfect, huh?
Hi, Lily Ivy. How are you? You love it. You're welcome. I'm I like I I was trying I was trying to get the cowboy hat. It was almost perfectly shaped and then I like I drew like the sides too high and so I just made it kind of sto Thank you, Dingle. Yeah, it's fun to
I like being able to do them real quick, you know? I I I don't have the patience to sit for hours and hours like, you know, I like kind of like the I think it's a cool style. Yeah. Thank you guys. Let's see. 525. I need to
Can you show mine again? Yeah.
If you showing peoples again, just show everybody you made so everybody know who come in. Okay. From beginning to end that is new. There's Gotti. Oh, there's Gotti. There's there's DJ Electra. Here's
Rogue Nomad. And he's kind of like also big Naisha. He's like kind of road nomad from the front with his head in in the shade, but it's like or it can be big Naisha from behind. It's either one. And then easy cameras on. He's having his drink. JT
Wolfman. He's got He has a balloon for himself and a balloon for Rain, right? And then here's Dingle.
Yo, why he look like um um Mike from Monsters, Inc. The Sassy Scarlet? Who's the devil? Who? Who? Dingle or um or or Gotti? Dingle looks like um Mike from Monsters Inc. The one eye guy,
the green. Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. He was drinking. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So, I I uh Nice drawing, Psyche. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Oh. Oh, JT. He's not a devil. He's a wolf. He's the wolf man. He's like the wolf man, right? He's holding some some of them. It was kind of like I just had to do it from memory a little
bit because it's a little bit it was a little bit small. But thank you guys. You know you know as the days go on I'll do more. Can have a whole collection of uh art from the whole room. Yeah. I think I but I was inspired kind of like you know Joker and Canada dry like just like being able to like hey I can draw a
picture and they they were able to draw and you know I I like them. Scary. They're scary. What do you think? Uh I showed you my drawings before I What do I think I'm going to do with the BKG tattoo? Um you know what? There's people that um Okay. There's people that
have a name of a people get their they get their like someone someone's name tattooed on them, right? And then they are not friends with them or they break up with them. Sometimes they they the tattoo is still there and it's like because it's like the love is still there. I I know for me it's my the love is still there but it's
like I just feel like something happened. But is it the I don't know. I don't know what I don't know what she was doing. She was It was just like she was like out of character. It just It don't seem like it was No, no. This one right here is It was me about to draw the Grinch.
I ain't finished it for some reason. I don't know. But it I was drawing the Grinch. Very good. Love it. Yeah. No, the Jim Carrey Grinch was scary, but Okay. So, is this uh It's fun to see that you got into drawing. Yeah, I mean if I mean if it ever bothers me someday. Yeah,
but if it ever bothers me someday, I will
I don't know. It almost feels like a It almost feels like a I don't know. I like it still. But you know, there's ways to cover up. I'm not going to have it removed. I'm just going to I might have it altered. They'll always They'll always be there under everything. Spunky. Yeah.
Uh let's see. Oh, babe. I've always If you need Okay, let's see. Hold on. Maybe if you could cross out the B and replace it with an E and you show off. You could have electro cardiograms with BG. Oh, yeah. Oh, EC EKG. Yeah, it's okay. No, I
don't. Well, it'd be good if I ever had a heart attack and the the am the the ambulance drivers needed instructions on what to do, but I think they were probably already know. I would hope to know. Let me see. Uh, you know, well, you know, my um my last name starts with B. Okay, then
I don't have K or G in my name, though. I don't know. Submit your ideas, please guys. Hi. Bring Killer Game.
Who's What's going on? Who's talking? Who's Yeah. Bring Killer Game or bring bring Killer Game. Oh. Oh. Brain killer. No, I don't like that. I don't know. I I don't like things to do with
killing. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's me. I'm I'm a guy. Um let me see. Uh well, you know, it doesn't it doesn't matter. Whatever. It's just letters. Whatever. Yeah. Forget like so so so listen. So B is two, right? Because it's B is the second
letter of alphabet. Then K is 11 because K is the 11th letter of alphabet. So then and then G is A B CDE E F G seven. So it's like two 117. Okay. 217. Okay. 17 38 38. I don't know. It adds up to 11
somehow. I don't know. I don't really care, guys. I really don't care. I I like, you know, I have some like not great tattoos that I'm certainly fine with. You know, the body's temporary thing. You know, not going to pay for expensive tattoos and you know, I won't I don't know. Doug, can you stop? You're getting annoyed.
Jesus, I can't I can't I can't live a peaceful life Doug. Let me ask Doug that question. Like, leave me alone, bro. Okay. At least I'm up here. Support him. Oh, yeah. Yeah. And it's like, thank you. You I appreciate that. I don't know. Yeah. Stop bother guys. If you
want me to, you know, I I will like tell him to stop. I mean, if he won't listen to you, you know. Hey, Doug, chill out. Don't don't talk about that. Okay. Now, I want to finish this. I got to find a picture where where I was drawing this this Grinch cuz now I want to finish it. It's a half complete artwork.
Psyche got me filling the drawer. Yeah, I want to draw. You heard? Yes. What's the What' you say? I said you got me filling the drawer. Now I want to draw. Oh yeah, it's good. Your creative juices flowing.
Is flowing. Okay.
Uh,
I can go through I'll have to go through the dictionary later and see other anagrams it creates. See, but you know what's funny? Look at like this notebook. I just noticed you know what's funny? Like look look what I just grabbed this because it said be kind. But look look at it. It a BK on it right there. Ste, I know. I remember when you first showed like, look at this. Yeah. Only got pictures.
Mhm. Okay. Well, I need to hit the road a second. I think I'm out of You got to go. You got to get something to eat. You've been up here all day. You need something to eat. Unless you took that little break, you went to go get something to eat. No, I haven't. I haven't.
Not yet. I um I ate cigars, drinks, get I don't know what else.
Yeah, I smoke that weed so fast. You smoke that weed? You smoke it in a bung? Uh no. Oh, I I smoked for something. I I smoked really the first one is going to be the funniest. Just make sure you you make sure you you leave the bong on the table when you take a hit.
The first one was over. But Vita surprised me. She said um she put ice in her bong is the same And I was like really? You can't put ice in your b. Yeah. I never did that. I never did it that way. This is like a nice cool nice cool air. My friend put white liquor. It was rough.
Let's see. What store you about to head to? What? I think about what what store you thinking to head to to get some food. Uh, I want I'm going to stop by. I'm going to take my bike to the liquor store, but I can't go really go to the store, my bike, because I don't like I don't know where to leave it. I told you bring a book bag. Bring a book bag. Grab Go find your book bag. No, I mean I I I
I can I can I can carry the I can carry them on my arm, but you get a nice plastic tough bag. You get a nice tough bag and put it on the handlebars. It go tink dink tittink a little bit, but that's about it. You going to do no damage. No, I mean I don't have a problem. I've
done it before. I can take I just put it on my um I just put it on my uh his hand for my arm. All right, we out. Okay, I'll be waiting. I'm waiting for the ride now or somebody come up in here and watch and hold it down with Psyches. Okay, I'll hang up. You been pretty
good with the one-on- ones today. Like, so anybody want to come up? All right, I'm coming up. I'm dropping down. I have a backpack. Thank you. I I have a I have a small one. It's just not a great one. Thank you. Um
you guys you guys like uh one second.
Have you heard of Sylvia Ploth, guys? She's a really good um poet. There's a poem. I'll read Oh, yeah. I'm just read a poem before I go. It's Sylvia Pla. Uh I I'll be gone in a couple minutes. I'll take you with me on
my bike. It says, it's called Laura or Laura Lelay by Sylvia Flaps. It said it is no night to drown in a full moon river lapsing black beneath blend mere sheen the blue water mist dropping scrim
after scrim like fishnetss though fishermen are sleeping the massive castle turrets doubling themselves in a glass all swiftness yet these shapes float up toward me troubling The face of quite quiet from
the najier they rise their limbs ponderous with richness hair heavier than sculpted marble. They sing of a world more full and clear than can be. Sisters, your song bears a burden too weighty for the world ears listening.
Here in the well steered country under a balanced ruler deranging by harmony beyond the mundane order your voices lay siege you lodge on the pitched reefs of nightmare promising shore harborage by day the scanned from borders of heitude from the
ledge also of high windows worse even your maddening song your silence At the source of your ice-hearted calling, drunkenness of the great depths. Oh river I see drifting deep in your flux of silver.
Those great goddesses of peace. Stone, stone, bury me down there. Sylvia Pluff.
Oh, this one. Let's see. This a short, very short one. It's called confusion. I've never I've never read it. Oh, contusion, I'm sorry. Contusion says, "Color floods to the spot, dull purple. The rest of the body is all washed out. The color of pearl in a pit
of rock. The sea sucks obsessively. One hollows the whole seas pivot. The sides of a fly. The doom mark crawls down the wall. The heart shuts. The sea slides back. The mirrors are sheetated.
Done. I didn't want to ruin it. No, you can go. You can go. I'm just sitting here reading. Yeah. Yeah. I made I want to ruin Okay. Yeah. Yeah, I am I am cool. Thank you. What's the trash?
Somebody said have a nice walk. Yeah, Sassy said get a backpack.
Tas. That's how you spell it. Tasel. Get uh this. Who said it? I think that is the tassels too. I think that is okay. Get tassels too. I want tassels too. Like I want my bike like Kiwi. Tiwi's big adventure. Well, that's a Schwin
cruiser. It's kind of It's kind of cooler than my bike, but my my bike is very cool. Uh let's see.
Um,
okay. I'll rewind. I got one. Oh One more. One more before you go. Okay, we'll do one more. Okay, do one more. Is this called the goat sucker? The goat sucker. It's very short. It says, "Old goat
herds swear how all night long they hear the waning were and furring of the bird who wakes with darkness until dawn works hard vampiring dry milk. Each great goat works hard.
Um, moonful, moon dark. The char daisy farmer dreams that his fattest cattle dwindle fevered. It's by claw cuts of the goats
sucker alias devil bird. Its eye flash a chip of ruby fire. So fable say the goat sucker moves masked from men's sight in an ebony air on wings of witch cloth well-n named
ill-famed a navish fly by night yet it never milked any goat nor dealt cow death and shadows only cave mouth bristle guess chapers and the wand
Green Luna moth. It's beautiful. Allighty. Damn. That's good. I I'll share more with you later. I I love poetry. I love uh a lot of reading. You do a lot of reading. You said when you grew up, you
instead of go playing and buying toys, you you bought books. Let's go to the bookstore. Yeah. I even like, you know, my dad would like drop me off at the library because I just like to read every book, but then the librarian called the house. He's like, "Can you stop dropping yourself off here? He we're not the babysitters." So she thought he was using free babysitter, but not that babysitter. He
likes to read books and he'll spend the day there. Yeah. And I I really did. He knew he knew that, but you know, day said they're such you know these old lady librarians kind of grumpy. I hope you like that. I'll have more poems later for you guys. Um let me see. Should I take you like that? It's a funny stories like I always have bad
luck like some libraries I like would never return the books late but that is that's how I was listening to it like what the
it was interesting never know what catches somebody's eye like you be so wonder but so but but you know the ghost so the goat sucker is a bird and it's like I don't know if it's really does this or not, but it's really scary. It um it basically breastfeeds off the goat, but it has like a really sharp beak and so it's like it's called so it's it kind of like
sucks the blood through the other instead of like you know it's kind of like a vampire bird. It's refreshing. Yeah, it's a nice day. So, okay, I'll go for a walk with the cat. Hold on, guys. You can go if you want. I'm just I'll just be with the I'll take my phone out. I rather I rather go I rather go let you
hold it down by yourself and you know go full screen and we'll be here for you. Yeah. Yeah. No problem. If anything when you when you come back if nobody comes up when you come back I'll come back. Okay. All right. Love you. You hurt.
Guys, coming with me.
How you guys doing?
Sorry. My lock scary guy with tattoo. Hi
Okay, I know. I'm so judgmental.
I might.
Hi guys. Hi Spunky. Are you will Yeah, because I I um I'll have the camera on it. So, it's like, you know,
thank you. Hey, how are you? Waiting for the guy to I have to wait for like he's like he was kind of looking at me my bike. This is a really cool little liquor store here.
Wait, is this like soundtracks?
Okay, I'm back. Okay, the thing about this bike is this bike is so fast. Like I can get to the store in like 5 minutes instead of like 20 minutes. 20 minutes walk five minute bike maybe 15 minute walk three minute back okay here we go let's see how fast I go timing
squeaky The other way first perfectly fast.
First time I rode the bike, I like I like up on the curb of this library and I like crashed down in the grass. I couldn't find my phone for like an hour. We're almost back.
Come
on James.
pass. Hey guys, we're back. Right back, guys. Oh,
heat.
Hello. Hello. Hello.
Good. That was a good ride.
I think that is Hi guys. My brakes are squeaking. You're making my cats get very interested in the computer. I hope nobody jacks your phone. Yeah, but it would be all uh Yeah, I'm good. Like I went to the store and like I forgot my my uh hold. Remember K hated on you for
streamer all day? Uh for streaming all day. Oh yeah. Yeah. She's streaming all day, right? Well, it's good. I mean, it's good. Like, you know, I'm going to start streaming less actually. But, you know, I'll probably have some still long streams, but I'm going to do um like probably during the
week I'll just do the evening streams and probably do like an I'll do more tarot. I'll do like a I'll do like an a general tarot reading for the collective in the chat and then do some uh do um you know some free readings and then I'll do it like for probably for an hour maybe back
safely. Yeah, I'm I'm pretty good on my bike now. Yeah. So, let's see what's going on. Yeah. like easy suggest that I start having like topics to talk about and you know I would I also do want to do one want to do one more one- on-one things. I want to like go out book interview like book interviews do more but you
know it's like when there's so many people on the panel even though I love having like a lot of people on the panel and it's like if it's if it's like the right group yeah it can be larger panels but not like random panels like with like like 10 people like we're like it's just like first of all it's too hectic and then people get mad because they can't talk and everyone's trying to talk and um and then usually someone's rude
and starts fighting with people and causing problems. So, but yeah, guys, I didn't start like my channel has always been crazy. It can be chaotic. Yeah, my channel my Well, was it always been crazy? You know, I started in Benny Blanco who's from IP2. I started in his chat as like I would just tarot readings in his chat and uh
he would fall asleep for like hours and I'd do tarot readings for the chat. And then I asked him if I could if he could help me get to 50 subscribers. He he got me to about 25 by asking a few times and then I went to their panels, got I had 50 pretty fast, started doing like doing one live stream a week and I was like, "Wow, one one
hour a week, one live stream." It was hard. And then by January, I I stopped just the live streams. that started the open panels and they were there were instantly like a lot of people there like or at least like the panels were pretty full and uh I've it's gone through waves of different situations and they're kind of
like some of the situations are kind of been repeating but you know look at me now and it's like it happened pretty fast um because I think by I think I had about 1,000 subscribers by the beginning by the by the year by January 1st And then you need 3,000 to get monetized. I was like, I'll be monetized probably about April. I think I was
monetized in February. Uh, are you going to be writing the uh writing the uh book during the day? Yeah, I see. This is my this is my book. I mean, it's going to be several notebooks probably, but I already have like, you know, drawings of people I can include. Um this kind this is kind of like more like typical this part you
know I'll have stuff probably like or maybe this will be bonus stuff from my show or something because I want to do about you know I want to include like a lot of the panel vers that maybe I'll draw a picture of other panel other panel people like some like ones that go on my show like summer summer and stuff um yeah but um yeah and I will be also you know asking for little ideas and
things like that and suggestions and for for chapters or like little if you have a little quote or you have a little blurb about the art of the troll that you like me to include it. I think it'll be an awesome book. I need to How did your G like with really big boobs? I mean there that's fixed. That's fixed. That's
fixed. Okay, fix it. Um yeah, but you know you know it's like look at me now. It's like, wow. I mean, it's about time I get started on something. I've been like I did really well during the 2020
because I did like almost uh 2,000 readings on Etsy and I have like really really good reviews there, but it's just Etsy all dried up for doing the tarot card readings once YouTube kind of took over. Plus, my store on Etsy was called Metas Psyche and then um Facebook changed it name to Meta. So I don't I don't think that's was good for my store
either. But um and then everyone was like that's like cuz I was just using a avatar doing that. I was using like like a logo store logo I didn't have a picture up and so sometimes people would like write the reviews. They be like they refer to me as she or she like she was so nice and blah blah blah. But I never corrected them and uh so I told
everyone oh check out my reviews on meta psyche. And then I got a letter. Hello, there's a streamer named Psyche claiming that he's you. Do you know this person? I was like, yes, because they because it looks like you're a woman. Like, no. I never wrote back. But people were all mad. They're like, oh, you're fake. You have
fake reviews. It's just crazy. Uh, hey Sparky, let me see what the
Don't Sult Spunky, please. Spunky has a boyfriend and unless you unless you have a relationship where you can like say, "Let me see your mouth." And it's funny, but I can't imagine that. But I don't know. He draws Spunky, too. But I I want to draw time. Hold on. I can
draw time. Can I draw you time? Cuz you're one of my favorites, too. Oops.
Oh, hold on. Okay. Here. What happens? Time. Is that you? I can draw time. You're wearing a little bowler's cap. Okay.
Thank you there, huh? Thank you.
My polish cap. My hats need work, guys. I need to do work on my hats. My hats did not do the best bowler hat. Sorry. Okay, it's going to be really abstract. Okay, my friend. Let's see.
My gosh.
He's like he's he has his hands up because he's so happy to he's like he's so happy to see me. This is like you I got you on the T.
Okay. How does it look? Okay. I'm sorry if I don't get everything right on it. I feel like a call on you. Okay. See mine.
Say, "Hey, like that." I gave you a a ninja star or something like that. Earth star, maybe a shooting star. You like it? What else do you want? Huh? Um,
I'll put a heart in your hand, too. Hearts and stars. We like stars. Here we go. You like it?
It's just for fun, guys. But I hope I don't offend you. Tommy, Dan, somebody day I'll draw you up like one of my French girls if I had a French girl. But
you feel art thing. Thank you. I wish I could draw better than a kindergartener. If a stick people level. Well, that's pretty much stick people. You know, I do that in like two two minutes. We'll get you a French girl.
You know, Rose McGowan. That sounds good. Bonjour. Oh, how about that woman that's were you there when this woman from Brazil called in and she was like, her name was Destiny, I think. She's like, I I'm in Brazil. She's like, I I'm a lesbian. I hate men. I don't like a bed. I go and then Summer's like, "Hey eat my pussy." Or or you want to
eat my He's like, "Okay." It was really funny. You see that one? It was funny. It was It was the one morning recently. Practice makes perfect. No one is born. Good to draw. Yeah, but I'm 44. I mean, I should I should have practiced more. I mean, those are quick and those are cute. They're kind of like not caricature. Yeah. Do you remember that? That was funny.
Summer's so such a riot. Thank you.
Yep. Oh, you know Destiny, you've heard her call in. Yes. Yeah. She called in for probably about a little over an hour, but by the end of the call, she loved America. She love she loved us. At the beginning of the call, she's like, "Fuck man. you." And she was she was yelling. We're like, "What did you drink bitch?" like what you have to drink, Like, I got a bottle of cognac.
She's like, "How much is that?" She's like, "Just a little bit." Yeah. Hey, babes. Yeah. So,
I feel, you know, I feel like uh the 21st, so that was yesterday, right? Case you ain't been in America. Yes. I'd get the impression, huh? Yeah. But I thought about, you know, the uh the summer solstice, right, which was the 21st, which is just
yesterday right? So that's, you know, there's there's these four solstice or, you know, the winter solstice, summer solstice, and then the equinoxes, I think, right? Celsius is an equinoxes and it's like a wheel. It's like it's like the you know the zodiac wheel goes to the wheel of the split into four then you got
the uh that wheel right? Hey baby. So it's like every time so when you're it's like entering a new season is like it's like entering the new cycle. Okay. So it's it is a it's a new beginning. So that's why I think things get chaotic at the beginning of it. Love it. Oh let me
talk. Let me talk. Yeah, she was she was funny. We've had some like I've had some crazy guests. I had this guy MC like Okay, so there's so many guys that would like come out of the closet on this show like and like like a lot like more than I thought. And it's like even if they like are joking, it's still a lot. So they I mean they used to complain that I would hit on guys and then it's like now
it's like I don't even have to like they they'll hit on me first and then I'll know I'll know who I'm allowed to hit on or not. But before I would like, yeah, I would like hit on I would hit on avatars. It's like so it's like people would people be like, "Oh my god, you're you're you're harassing me." I like I can't how do I harass an avatar? And it's like I just
don't know. I don't you look like you'd be a 600 pound um you know man in a in a sitting in a in a kitty pool in the basement. I I don't know, you know. Right. We need uh Justine. Yeah. Hey guys, if you if you you know if you know somebody
that would like the show, just let them know and like you know maybe like you have like you know contact them and stuff just send them my link one night if there's a panel. I'll do free I'll do free tarot readings. Yeah. And uh you know just uh like like there's like that. Okay. So
that lady there's some people that that kind of scare like not scare me but it's like okay so that lady and I don't know if she's listening and I liked you um but Russ she was Russy was funny it's just like she was um
she she was fine but she I think she would I think she would get uh I I don't think she likes the show very much, but it's funny. She has she she was like, I why am I allowed to say the N word too? And they were fighting over the hard Y and the soft A. Oh god, that fight is my
nightmare. But she's great, but it's like, yes, I mean, that was funny as hell. She's like, he's like, why does he get to say Ni Ga? I can't say Niger. That's not fair. And he's like, you're right. I don't care. It's like she like she's like vote Trump
and that part is that's funny as hell. But uh I hope she likes the it's just you know as and then who who has someone who who has a puppet of I mean that that is some of these things guys I I like I can serve.
Yeah it's funny is I Yeah. It's like, you know, it's just like, you know, they can they can be funny and fun, but they can be unpredictable, you know. You know, and then you piss them off at the wrong time, all of a sudden you got the car keys stuck stuck in your head or something. I don't I don't know.
Maybe I guess I'm sure she hasn't she never done anything. But uh
yeah, I think she was kind of kind of mad at my show, but I've known she's like and then it was like everyone's like, "Oh, they followed us here. They followed us and like who follow who? Where did you hear then?" It's like I don't know. I've known for five years and she has been kind to you. Yeah. I mean, she she was kind of kind, but then you know she I guess and she got kind of
mad on the What was your name? On the on the on the panel. Um, people give gossip then run around person is bad or good. No, no, but but Ms. Liz, did I say Rusty's bad? Rest is good. I said I said she's funny. It's like I think she's a little bit
unpredictable. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. She was She was kind of like writing crazy some some weird stuff in the back chat, too. I don't know if you heard about it. uh without really knowing five years of
Oh yeah, that's what I'm saying. Well, I can't I mean Gosh, you know, I wish I had time to learn the chronicles of the just my panel alone. It would it would take it would take a lifetime to go through all the people's it's like two months. I want to So I have to kind of go by the first impression.
Um, I like I like her. I say I like her. Um, I'm not sure she likes me. I'm not sure. But yeah. Yeah. Then yeah, she's also like, you know, a little bit. She was uh I don't know. Oh, trust me. She wrote some weird stuff in the back chat, but she's fine. Okay. So,
yeah.
Yeah. Yeah. That's and that's like really like as long as someone's respectful to me, I will I'll always be respectful to them. And if they're not respectful to me, I'll try to be respectful to them. But, you know, I can't get a little I have I have a little bit of fight in me, too. But not, you know, just like arguing a little bit of a
because it's just like, you know, I was a lot of times my only defender. So I kind of like I have this I have this part of myself that's protective. Wow. We've had such a amazing people in my chat have the strangest names. It's it's uh easier uh that way renavigating
of the group. Yeah.
Yeah. But but then again it's like uh Yeah. And but it's like I I would you know as long as it's like because people will treat you away they'll treat you way even for a certain amount of time and then they'll flip on you, right? It's like but you're supposed to flip on them back or just like or just be confused.
That's kind of what happened with VA. was kind of confused like why why are you saying horrible things about me and calling me horrible things and hate me but I don't know but yes or treat others like you would
like to be treated and so always be kind is like it's not like it's not like being oh you know so you know just love bomb and give everything over the top kiss. It's like be nice is hi, acknowledging someone. Hi, how are you? How's you know? Um
yeah, saying I love you once in a while. Uh go date her and then talk to other women at the same time. You'll get the you'll get doxed around. Yeah, I think I'll avoid that. She may she nice to you but doesn't say enough. She's nice to you,
but that doesn't say. Yeah. Uh sorry. Okay. Hey, Punky. Uh, kindness in the fort. Yes, kindness. You may be kind, but don't be taken advantage of. Yes, Punky. I because I was reading the because there are certain people like there's um that they they're just looking to take. And so,
they'll find kind people and they'll ask kind people because kind people will feel unkind if they don't like reciprocate or or or do what's kind of asked. And so it's kind of like it can the kindness can be against somebody. So it's like yeah so you have
to be firm and no means no. Um and say say it uh I say I'll have to say it in a kind way. Yeah. And see, I I had too much patience for especially for people that were like uh
not on my side or not on my show's side, not didn't want to basically basically my show was just collateral damage or inconsequential. So what's wrong with you bahan bug? Okay, let's see like anyone else. I know I know Miss Liz, but you know it's like uh there's I mean there's but there's a little
there's some I think you might I think I don't know I don't know everybody's history but I think who wants to be a serial do yeah think for yourself don't be allowed by people with ulterior influence people motives yeah I think for myself u the thing like I was like
the first I like the first six months of my show it would be a big experiment and I will throw everything at the show but the kitchen sink and I will I will try I will let everybody on that I can. I will be patient, gracious, nice. I will I
will and I will not do I will not do anyone wrong because I don't anyway, right? But I was like I will be be kind to everybody. I won't I won't be bad to anybody. And I I was and it did not work out too.
There there's a lot of people thought me like a
um Yeah. No, I mean it's like it's fine. I don't care. It's like there's it's like you know there's suggestions and there's like you should do that or or you have to do that. So it's like people haven't really been doing that. It's like people have gotten better at uh I mean I mean
people usually policy to me but you know then some people get demanded over the demanding on over coming on the panel and stuff. Um the word spunky also means good-looking in Australian. Well, I can I can do something really entertaining for you guys. Let me see. There's this website know it's urban dictionary
and they have we've done these before. They have these name descriptions and that's kind of interesting. They're always like come out kind of accurate. So, so punk if I write punky let me see punky the name comes up.
Okay there's See. Okay. Punky is beautiful. Hold on. I agree. Agree so far. Hold on. My gosh.
Okay, it says, "Punky is beautiful. Punky is smart. Punky is artistic. Punky is kind. Punky is adoring. Punky is loyal. Punky is the most attractive person you will ever meet. Yes, she has some things going on with herself. That doesn't stop her from making everyone else smile. She's hype and
crazy. She has dark green eyes with long, thick eyelashes. She has short uh curlyish hair and bangs. And when she drinks, she's a vibe as She's high on Oh my gosh. She's out there laughing and dancing around. She's very protective of her best friend. She will let nobody break her emotionally,
spiritually, mentally, and definitely not physically. She's a little Angus Sometimes her anger can go from one uh to for life in prison. Haha. But she'll always have your back and fight by your side through thick and thin. It says, "Girl one, who's that chick?" Girl two, uh, I think that's Punky. She got expelled from school like last week.
Girl one, what for? And then girl says, "Ah, typical fighting, huh?" Does that make sense? I don't I don't know. I don't I know it's the physical. You love it. Yeah, I think it's I think it's cute. Let me see. Liz, I'll do I'll do Liz next. Liz, you want yours? Oh, Liz. I'll tell you about Liz. You're in
the dictionary, says Liz. Um, someone who's beautiful, talented, and almost always really smart. Occasionally, there may be stubborn and persistently attempting to prove their point, but with always good reasoning. So, considerate that even when the situation is not really hilarious, a Liz laughs a lot at things, but at things, but when it is funny, begins to crack
up. A Liz is often correct and competitive. Most of the time, Aliz also wins. The only downside to a Liz is that she may be a sore loser and not know when to give up. They are defined as know-it-alls and often confused with the term little Einstein. They are athletic, amazing, outgoing people. They can be flexible, too. They have a total desire
to be filling themselves with chocolate every second of every day and have a strong hate towards white chocolate. They like most uh people have a tendency to be playing video games but continuously moving and preferably playing outside. Uh Liz is are adored by many people and enjoy challenges anything related to academics and most
of all time favors the subject of gym. Okay. You're a big fire. You also defend your loved ones. Yes, mama bear. Yeah, I can sense that. Yep. Okay. Would be like that. JT I mean I don't I don't know if there's a JT. Let
me see if there's a JT or else I have to maybe ask for a see if there JT. Okay. Okay. So here's it says JT. It says that an amazing masterpiece of a man known to be a lion in the sheets with the women. He has a badass attitude because of his hard life yet is still romantic and a seducer at heart. And the lady's thighs
become wet when they're around him. His intelligence is profound. His physical body sensual and divine. His presence dominates everything in his sight. And he makes your world better place for having in your life. He is JT. Nothing else needs to be said. Who is that? That's JT. Silent while fantasizing about herself with JT and girl number two and amazing sensual pleasures.
Well, that was strange. You're welcome.
Yeah, if it's not a wolf in the sheets, I'd be I'd be like be in shock. Okay, so Vader. Let me see if Vader's in here. Are you here? Vader. I don't know if it's This is Vader. A person who intends to have sex with a stranger at a party. Verb to engage with sexual activities with a stranger offer often under the
influence of drugs or alcohol. I know I promise to be good, but with that girl around, it's hard not to be a Vader. Man, I'm so buzzed. I think I'm going to go Vader on Sasha. Little examples. Evader. Or it also says, "A Vader is also a 400 pound wrestler capable of moon salt." You know what that means?
Anybody there?
I think I got everybody, but I I'll read one of mine, but I was have to do for my real name. Uh, let's see. Of course, my name is very common, but
okay. Yeah. Okay. So, I guess this is most says John says, "A very sweet, caring loving attached and compassionate person. You can and will never fight with him. He has his head and his heart in place and is totally committed to everything he does. He will never take you for granted. He will make you smile, care for your likes and dislikes. He will always make you smile.
He's very charming and funny person. He is perfect. He's a soldier. Deserves to be loved and cherished. Never let him go. He's the one. That's a little bit a little bit over the top. Uh let me see. There's more.
I remember I read I remember I read one once and it was like kind of like more accurate but I remember
u
Okay. Um, John, the weirdest, most confusing person you will ever meet. When he's talking, he will just stop at any random time. He has a very large penis, has a friend whose name is anonymous, who jacks off a lot. John is also a man who's black hair, never wears shoes, his mood changes easily.
Um, he never matches, hairy arms, very sexy, and other guys are jealous. Oh yeah, did I mention his big dick? But he cannot describe anything worth the because he always says things like themeabob and theme of a jig. Oh, he has a huge penis. What was that huge crash and scream I heard? John. Oh, the thing of a Bob did that one thing at the thing of a jig at that one time with those people. I don't I don't know. Maybe it
doesn't work. Um, hey Boots is Boots here. Hi guys. Rusty, I was talking about you. You hear me talking about you? I was talking nice about you. Rusty, doy, doy, doy, doy, doy, doy, do you want me to draw a picture of you? I see.
I think I think it's a hoodie. I put him in a hoodie. I drew a No. Oh, hold on. Um,
yeah. And you're God, too. Is he God?
Hi. I just having a little fun. I don't know if you saw DJ Lex, but she was there, too. Hi. I'm going to draw anybody that wants to be I'm going to fill up the book with drawings. I'll probably get better at them, too. It's just like little You like the gody one? Yeah. He like had a profile picture of like, you know, the like the old the god as an
old man kind of picture. Yeah, I tried to draw I tried to draw a moon and the sun and the moon and then it's just I just changed to like a banana and a donut. I thought it fit better. Draw you. Okay. Of course. Um, let me see. Oh, yeah. I can I can make it bigger.
Hold on. Okay, I got you. Yeah.
Let's see.
Give me some. Okay.
Oh my gosh. It's I'm like really I think how I'm doing. Okay, hold on. I got I got Yeah, remember these are very these might be a little bit They're very handdrawn. I hope you like it though.
I don't like it for you.
Okay. Okay.
I think I don't know if I just got dri
I think here.
Do you have a symbol? Can I add a symbol, Spunky? Like what? Wait, what's in your favorite symbol that you could think of a symbol? Like, you know, whatever you might find in your hand at any time.
I'm giving you two hearts. Got two of hearts. Okay.
You're holding it. You're holding hearts in each hand. Okay. I hope it's okay. I mean, it's like I hope it it's not off. Let me try fix a little bit. Okay. Okay. And
Oh shoot. Okay, I'll fix that.
Okay, I'm drawing a little alien thing there, too, because I need to It looks kind of like kind of like Jar Jar Binks on Star. It's just going to be It's kind of random. I said that. I didn't put your name in the I'll I'll put your name here.
Okay.
Not perfect. Okay.
I'm drawing. Okay. I'm drawing some Cupid's Cupid's arrows on the other side. One coming towards you, one going.
Okay, I'll put on.
Okay ready. Okay. I hope you aren't mad. Don't get mad. Don't get mad.
I'm sorry. I see you're holding the hearts. You're holding a two. You're holding one in each hand. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I I try I It's hard to It's hard to be, but it's hard to get. Yeah. A beautiful smile.
I I I like I so I tried to do like I was put I thought I put I was writing your name, but I put Pu P U N K Y instead of SP pu. And so I had to change like a little jar jar of being like alien like looking at you. That's look it kind of looks like a face there too. Like like there's a there's like a face there too with a heart. I don't know. It kind of looks like that. Doesn't that guy look like that with the
eye open? I don't know. Maybe I'm a Maybe I'm brilliant. I don't know. I was I wasn't really trying to do that, but I love when those things like that happen. So, this is going good. It's a good I think it's a good bond. You're I am You're the king of nightmares.
Yeah, you're the king of nightmares. So, you know, I my favorite movie when I was a kid was Nightmare on Elm Street and uh or any I like a lot of horror movies, but I just thought I loved uh Nightmare on the streets and always loved horror movies. Um
watched a lot. Yeah, I watched a lot of I watched a lot of TV and read a lot of books, but I didn't play with any toys. I uh I love to read. I'd always be like have my nose in the book.
That is uh you look you look happy in the Yeah, you look happy. Used to watch Nightmare on Elm Street. Yeah. Uh, you know what's interesting is like, you know, the first Nightmare Elm Street, of course, classic Johnny Depp and but the second Nightmare on Elm Street was like it was like actually like it's actually a gay themed Nightmare Elm Street, but it wasn't trying to be, but it's like if you look back on it, it's a very gay
movie. Well, there's a few gay things in it. The guy's constantly questioning his sexuality in the movie. He like, you know, Freddy starts becoming him. He like he has a best his best friend is some girl, but I don't think they ever hook up. Um, he's actually in love with his guy friend from a soccer team. He I don't know. And uh he also does a scene where he he like he goes to a gay bar in
the middle of the night and then his coach is like um at the PE coach or something or football coach is there like in a leather gear outfit and then takes him to the school and then you remember that one movie scared the hell out of me when I was so I never watched them as an adult. Yeah. Well, it's like the first few were first couple were kind of scary and then
they started getting kind of a little bit campy like the the Freddy make like you know first the first couple movies you could barely see Freddy's always in the shadows just like dark and burn and then then they just put him in this ridiculous like the his his makeup started getting less and less less and less realistic. It look It looks pretty weird, but Yeah.
Yeah. I don't know. I was We were always allowed to like rent any movies we wanted.
What are you guys up to? Oh my phone's not been charging. Yeah, there's been, you know,
it's been actually a really good day. It's like sometimes after it's in tarot, there's like the there's a tower card and the tower card can kind of like, you know, be like some kind of like just like shocking event. and you feel everything's falling apart. And yeah, sometimes there, you know, everyone in
life has these these hor these events and some are some are, you know, tragedies, some are just like, you know, just shakeups or unexpected things. But the thing is, um, that's it always creates room for
something new. Finding, uh, you're finally back. H. You're finally back home and hanging out with dogs and cats. They miss you. Yeah, I got Hey, I got Tracy's right there. Let me see. Traxxy right there. And then Lo's right there. Lilly right there. And Rudy's right there. But it's really warm. I
think Lenor's outside. Uh oh, they love they love you. Yeah. Um, hey Jamie's, how are you? Miss Lenor, she's outside, I think.
Yeah, she was here this morning. Thank you. Yeah, they're sweet. This little guy. I I've had like I've had three litters of kittens and I have out of the first litter, I have one of them. Second letter. There's one that
doesn't like to come inside though. You think Lola's one of um the name of one of Yeah. Yeah. Lola's right here. Lola, you have the RBF. Come here. Want to say hi? Oh. Oh, crap.
Oh, I woke you up. I'm sorry. I wake you up.
There you go. Go. Nope. She's so sweet. So, yeah. So like like you know she would like hardly ever be in the house because my black cat would like chase her out all the time. But then she started coming back and she I noticed she was pregnant. She started getting bigger and bigger.
And she actually gave birth last year on Pi Day. So it's March 14th. So it's 3.14 is Pi, you know. So they were born on Pi Day. Actually when I named there was a couple tuxedos. I named one of them Pi. One Tux. Um, and then there was a there was um tricks, but also had there's also one with like um it's kind of similar,
but he had um with just the paws were white like I named him a magic. He disappeared. And there's a striped one. Sometimes the kitties go into the neighborhood. Yeah. Yeah. But Lola likes to go into the covers. And then Rudy's on the table right there. I just I just woke her up so she had that. Yeah. That Lola has these beautiful green eyes. And
Shriek's got green eyes, too. He had some be nice, too. Oh. Um, you thought Nightmare on the Street was a comedy. Yeah. I mean, that's because I mean the first one is not a com. You'll you'll if you watch the very first one that is just like it's scary. Um, but it's also if you after you've watched the the movies after that, you
probably won't think it's that scary because it's not like it's not over the top scary, but it was first time it was very scary. I think it's the most realistic one, too, because then they go into like all the special effects where they're turning Freddy into like these big, you know, different like um kind of claimation type of characters and stuff. The cats have yellow blue eyes. Oh, beautiful.
But they are pretty much comedy. Like they gave Freddy these oneliners. It's like it was just like, you know, that he'd like kill somebody and then he'd be like he'd like in a certain way then he make a stupid joke about that's that's what I call a hot pizza or something something like that or spicy meatball and he'd have like a he turn the all the souls
into meatballs on his pizza. Remember that one? They also scare you can't uh sleep without him healing you. Well, yeah. Or yeah, that's actually Yeah, I would think like with um if you get if you get killed in your dream, you die in real life. Or if you get hurt in your dream, you die in your life. So So I didn't know if you were
here, but I woke up. I'll show you this one. I woke up probably a month ago.
How come probably a month ago and I had just been asleep for a few hours and I wasn't I didn't fall asleep drunk. I I I went to bed pretty late, but I woke up and I had this like burn like a burn on my arm and it's the scar is still there. But do you want to see the burn? But I woke up and like everyone was like, "Oh, you do that tears." I was like, I swear to God I woke up with it. There's no
there's nothing that could have done it. Like I don't sleepwalk or anything. I I don't remember how this happened. Okay, but here's and here it is. This is what it looked like. See if you can still see it. It's kind of there still.
Yeah. And you know they based a lot of um nightmare elm street they based it on like Tibetan uh like dream mythology because there is like a kind of Tibetan dream yoga where they do see these scary burn looking they're called these rasal deities. Yeah. Um we well you're dreaming about being burned. Well, I woke when I woke
up, the first thing I thought was Freddy. No, I'm just kid. So, I know I kind of like vaguely remember when I woke up, it was like in I was in that scary boiler room and I like put my arm down and then I like I woke up and I was there. But I don't know what happened. Um, so he was hanging out hiding places for
you earlier today. Oh, good. Did anybody see beta last night? Um, because Wow. I mean, it's like VA hates me. It's like, isn't that sad? Like, cuz we she we loved each other so much. I still love her, but she said
some like pretty terrible things to me and like it's not reasonable or
it's one of those one of those every other day person's mad at me. I mean, especially for with a friend, you know. I understand if you're like dating and we're going to fight all the time like that. When you're friends, what a kind soul she is. Yeah. But when you're friends,
um, you don't want to be fighting every other day, but he hates you because you Okay. Oh, thank you. My star has fallen. That's why she hates me because my star has fallen.
You're down to 17 views. Well, yeah. I've been on for seven hours and uh you know, I just got back from the store, so you don't know what you're talking about buddy. Tick rocks. Um Oh, yeah. So, yeah. Um pick yourself up and keep going. Yeah, it's No. Yeah, now there's 21
people. I mean, it's like the numbers go up and down all the time. You know, it has been a quiet thing, but it's like like I wanted a calmer panel anyway. And it's like it's better if I have one at a time. Yeah. I'm People always come say they're like, "Oh, you're nothing streamer. You have like seven views." I'm like, "Yeah." Well, I And literally I had like I just been in the room for one minute that time. I was like, "Just give me a few minutes." You know, and
it's like And then I like I'm not saying I'm a big streamer, you know? I I've gotten over 100 people a few times in the in the chat. Um but yeah, usually it's like, you know, it'll be probably between 30 and 60, maybe a little time, a little bit more. But if I get a great group, that's plenty of
people. That can be a great Yeah. less drama, less views, but better vibes. Yeah. I think it's a I think it's a a better trade-off because I'm not really like going after like the views aren't important to me. like I don't care about the number of views because I already had enough number of views and watch hours to get monetized. So, it's like and I don't really um put ads in my
videos and so it's not doesn't really matter how many views it gets, you know. I just don't want to be shadowbanned. I do want to, you know, appear in the it's a give and take. Yeah. Just make a crazy title or something. Yeah, I know. But I got to think I gotta think
of like Yeah, I gotta think of a good one. Like Benny would always do like he'd name his stream Mr. Beast and stuff like that and like I don't know. He said he thinks he's like some algorithm wizard. But yeah, I have more people in my chat than Benny does anymore. Like um because he's he got shadowbanned because he said the N word like 100
times in a minute and that other stuff and then all of a sudden nobody like there's nobody in chat anymore. Funky view. Okay. So, it says I get the same thing. Nobody watches you there. I don't stream. I get to get views. I stream to get rose people like daughter of truth. Oh, cool.
Uh, take a look. Take that back. Some may stumble several times, but it's more how many times one regains their balance and stands back up, right? You know, and you know what that also reminds me of is like sometimes
um someone will fall down, you know, and then it's like are you going to like laugh at them? Are you gonna come kick him kick them even further down, you know, push them down the pull him down the hill or you gonna like, you know, try to lift them back up and like, you know,
you don't know. Hold on, Pat. I'm saying um this it goes along the same lines of you don't have to help somebody, but just don't hurt them. And that's just like I like the philosophy
because Hey, what's up? Sorry you respond. Oh, it's okay. No, no, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to to put the wrong comment. Sorry. Um, yeah. Uh, no. Hold on. So the gate. So
you want me to like, you know, I I don't I don't I don't want to do a political stuff. I think those are things that get people in a little bit of trouble. Why don't you a stream of the protest? Because I can't get over there. I mean, I don't have a car. It's probably dangerous. Um when Scribbles went there, like right
when it started, um someone got shot and someone um got ran over by a car and he caught on camera. So, I'm sure that's good, but you can't even show that. Everyone out of the pool and it's epitoas. What does that mean?
If let's yag there. What does that mean? Well, I I I can't I don't go into beta's chat and then I don't think wants to talk to me on our panel. So, everyone's welcome to go over there and it's like if you could come back and tell me, give me a report, you know, don't buy, you know, yeah, is a great person. And it's like, you know,
I don't care if she hates me. She just she hates me. She does Well, I don't think she should hate me, but that's that's a uh it's a risk. And then there's stupidity. The life. Yeah.
Yeah, I know. I I like to I just I mean I just can't I just I'm not going to ride my bike over there. It wouldn't be funny thing if I if I like rode my bike over there in a speedo and then I show I pretend like a gay parade sign and like I show up like hey I thought it was a gay parade. like the
protest and like probably get arrested in my speedo. That' be funny. Hey babe. Yeah. I don't know. I I need to find There's not that much stuff to do around here. There's actually one gay bar in Redondo and if you if you faint in the day of
adversity, your strength is small. The righteous falls in uh seven times and rise again, but the wicked stumble in times of calamity. Yeah. Yes. Big rainbow flag. Yeah.
Yeah. I I hear that daughters of truth. Yeah. And it's like that's like that was like kind of like we did this I did a hoohoo reading last night and it was like it's like no matter how much you feel like you're under attack, it's like just keep going, keep going, keep it's like it's just don't give up, right? There's also there's an ancestors card saying like ancestors are looking out
for us because we're like their grandchildren. It said in a simple Yeah, I like I love it. Bring a Mexican flag. I know, but it would be I'd pretend I'd go over there. I'd be like, "Hey, where's the gay parade?" And they'd be like, "Why? Where are you?" Like everyone would be confused. Yeah. Well, do you know the there's a good
poem. I don't know if you've heard this poem. You probably have. It's like a very famous poem, but it's another good thing. It's a thing to think about, you know, to strive for for me at least, you know. Um, okay. You want to hear? Let's see. I feel like it's protected by Yeah. Oh, yeah.
Definitely are. That's what the ancestry is really interesting to get into. Um, is any I went to answers.com. I found all these photos of my my family. Yeah. Do you want to hear a poem? Okay. It says, I'll read it. Hold on.
No, you go over there and stay. I'm here to fight for No, I'm not going to do that. No. Okay. Okay. Do you understand? Do Are you trying to get me deported to Mexico, Theo? Please. You're trying to get me deported to Mexico. Unless it's Porto Viarta, I'm not interested. Okay. So, it's called If by Rogyard Keeping. It said, "If you can
keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and blaming it on you, if you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, but make allowance for their doubting, too. If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, or being lied about, don't deal in lies or being hated. Don't give way to hating. And
yet, don't look too good nor talk too wise. If you can dream and not make dreams your master. If you can think and not make thoughts your aim. If you can meet triumph and disaster and treat those two impostors just the same. If you can bear to hear the truth you spoken twisted by naves who make a
trap for fools or watch the things you gave your life to broken and stoop and build them up with worn out tools. If you can make one heap of all your winnings and risk it on one turn of pitch and toss and lose and start again at your beginnings and never breathe a word about your loss. If you can force
your heart and nerve and sine you to serve you your turn long after they're gone. And so hold on when there's nothing in you except the will which says to them, hold on. If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, or walk with kings, nor lose the common
touch, if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, if all men count with you, but none too much. You if you can fill the unforgiving minute with 60 seconds worth of distance run, yours is earth and everything that's in it. And which is more, you'll be a man, my son.
It's a good bomb. So good.
That was good, huh?
Yeah. I just it came to mind, you know,
because you know, I I really enjoy Sylvia Platt, but she was kind of a tragic figure, but she wrote some amazing poetry. Let's see. Okay. Um,
this is called the Colossus, right? Life can get really rough, but you just got to have to go through it. Yeah, you have to go through it to get through it. Like Daniel Lion's Den, right? But, you know, look, if I was running into a lion's den, I hope I could like, you know, cut out alive, too, because I think the cats would like me. But
I don't know. The Colossus. I shall never put you together entirely. Pieced glued and properly jointed. Male mule bray pig grunt and hottie and body cockals proceed from your great lips. It's worse than a barnyard. Perhaps you consider yourself an oracle, mouthpiece
of the dead, or some god or others. 30 years now I have lab I've labored to dredge the silt from your throat. I am none the wiser. Scaling little ladders with glue pots and pales of Lysol. I crawl like an ant
in the morning over the weedy acres of your brow to men the immense skull plates and clear the bald white tumo tumuli of your eyes. A blue sky out of onest oria arches above us. Oh father all by yourself. You are pissy and historical as the Roman forum. I open my
lunch on a hill of black cypresses. Your fluted bones and a canine hair are littered in their old anarchy to this horizon line. It would make it would take more than lightning smoke to create such a ruin. Nights I squat in the cornucopia of your
left ear out of the wind, counting the red stars and those of plum color. The sun rises under the pillow of your tongue. My hours are married to a shadow. No longer do I listen for the scrape of a keel. Only the blank stones of the landing. That's a little bit dark. Oh man.
We were talking about Elm Street and there's a poem called Elm, right? I have. Okay. Yeah. So, um, which I like about Sylvia Pla. Just listen to like the the way the words sound. It's just like beautiful. I know. It's called Elm. It says, I know the
bottom, she says. I know it with my great taproot. It is what you fear. I do not fear it. I have been there. Is it the sea you hear in me? It's this dissatisfaction or the voice of nothing that was your madness. Law love is a shadow. How you lie and cry after it. Listen,
these are his hooves. It has gone off like a horse. All night I shall gallop thus impetuously till your head is a stone, your p your pillow a little turf echoing echoing. Or shall I bring you the sound of poisons? This is rain hush. This is rain now with a big hush. And this is the fruit of it. Tin white like
arsenic. I have suffered the atrocity of sunsets scorched to the root. My red filaments burn and stand. A hand of wires. Now I pick up the pieces that fly about like clubs. A wind of such violence will tolerate no bystanding. I must shriek. The moon also is merciless.
She would drag me cruy being barren. Her radiance scratches me. Or perhaps I have caught her. I let her go. Oh, I let her go, diminished and flat as after radical surgery. How your bad dreams possess and endow me. I am inhabited by a cry. Nightly it flaps out, looking with its hooks for something to love. I am
terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me all day. I feel it soft feathery turnings and malignity. Clouds pass and disperse. Are these the faces of love? These pale irretrievables. Is it for such I agitate my heart? I am incapable of more knowledge. What is this? This face so murderous in a
strangle of branches. It's sneaky acid hiss. It petrifies the will. These are the isolate slow faults that kill that kill that kill. Yeah, she's very dark. Uh, you know, she was kind of Oh, this Ella Mason and her 11 cats.
That sounds good. I I think I've had 11 cats at one time. This is very short. Okay, it says Ella Mason and her 11 cats. Old Ella Mason keeps cats 11 at last count in her ramshackle house of summer. People make queries on seeing our neighbors cat haunt saying something's
addled in a woman who accommodates that many cats. Rum and red faces a watermelon. Her voice long gone to weas and seed. Ella Mason for no good reason plays hostess to tabby. Tom and increase with cream and chicken gut feasting the pallets of finical cats.
Hi guys. It's a sense of emotions you don't know are there, right? Yeah. Just I get um get chills. Do a few more. Okay. This one is called
This is called Eavesdropper. Eavesdropper. It says, "Your brother will trim my hedges. They darken your house. Noisy grower. bowl on my shoulder to be scratched absently to bleed if it comes to that the stain of the tropics still urinous on you. A sin a kind of
bush stink. You may be local but that yellow god awful your blood your body one long nicotine finger creepy. Okay, one more. Ariel. Oh, this is called Ariel. I think I love this one. That's one of my favorites. Okay, Ariel
says, uh, stasis in darkness, then the substance is blue. Substanceless blue poor of poor and distances. God's lioness. How one we grow. Pivot off heels and knees. The furrow splits and
passes. Sister, no. The brown arc of the neck I cannot catch. Oh gosh, it has the nword. Inward eye fairies cast dark hooks black sweet blood mouthpools shadows something else hauls me through air thighs hair flakes
from my heels white gdiva I am teal dead hands dead stringencies and now I foam to wheat a glitter of seas the child's cry melts in the wall and I am the arrow that drew the flies to a sui ale at one with a drive into the red I the cauldron of mourning.
I like that one. Sad. Okay. Okay. Oh, wait. I found two more. Okay. You like it or is it crazy? I remember you said you love The Little Mermaid. Yep. Okay. I do. I love And I love mythology, too. I love Concretion Anderson, Grim's Brothers, and I even like the Disney
movies. This is called two sisters of pphanany. Two girls there are within the house. One sits the other without. Day long a duet of shade and light plays between these in her darkened Wayne scouted room. The first works problems on a
mathematical machine. Dry ticks mark time. As she calculates each sum at this barren enterprise. Rat shrewd go her squint eyes root pale her meager frame bronze says earth second lies he had hearing ticks blown gold like pollen on
bright air lulled near a bed of poppies she sees how they their silk red flare of pedled blood burns open to sun's blade on that green altar freely become the sun's bride the latter grows quick with seed grass crouched
In her labors pride, she bears a king turned bitter.
This looks interesting. Okay. A legend, a lesson in vengeance. It says, "In the dower ages of drafty cells and draftier castles, of dragons breathing without the frame of fables, faint and king, unfisted obstructions, knuckles, by no miracle or majestic means, but by such
abuses as smack of spite and the overscrupulous twisting of the thumbcrew, one soul tied in senus, one white horse round, and all the unconquered pinnacles of God city and Babylons must Wait, while here Suso's hand
hones his tax and needles, scouring to source his own red looses for the relish of heaven, relentless dousing with prickles um of horseair and lice, his horny loins. While there I rate Cyrus squanders a summer and a brawn of his heroes to
rebuke the horse swallowing river Gindies. He split it in 360 and 60 trickles a girl could wade without getting without wetting her shins. Still latter-day sages smiling at this behavior subjugating their enemies neatly nicely by disbelief or bridges
never grip as their grands did. That devil who chuckles from grain of the marorrow to the riverbed grains. I mean it's very it's beautiful but I can't deal with it.
It's like you just I just sit with this. One more. One more.
Um h interesting. This is called on the declines of oracles. It says and then it had a quote at top. It says, "Inside a ruined temple, the broken statue of a god spoke a mysterious language by Giorgio de Shuriko." And then here's Sylvia Pla on
the decline of oracles. My father kept a speckled cunch by two bronze bookends of ships in sail and as I listened cold teeth sea with voices of that ambiguous sea. Old Bachland mist who held the shell to hear the sea he could not hear.
What the sea shell spoke to his inner ear. He knew, but no peasants knew. My father died, and when he died, he willed his books and shell away. The books burned up, he took the shell, but I he set in my ear and set in my eye. The sight of those blue unseen waves for
which the ghost of Bachin grieves the peasants peace to multiply. And never my never need to see what I see. In the temple of broken stones above a worn curtain rears the white head of a god or madman. Nobody knows which or dares ask. From him I have tomorrow's gossip and
doldrums. So much its vision good for like a persistent stitch in its side. It nags it's tedious. Straddling a stool in the third floor window booth of the Alexandra house over petty curry. I regard with some fatigue the smoky rooms
of the restaurant opposite see impose itself on the cook at the steaming stove a picture of what's going to happen I have to wait it out it will come it comes three barely known men are coming up a stare this veils both stove and crook one is pale with orange hair behind glasses the second's eyes are
blurred third walks leaning on his stick and smiling these trivial images invade a postal eye like pages from a gross comic strip and toward the happening of this happening the earth turns now in half an hour I shall go down the shabby stare and meet coming up those three
worth less than present past this future worthless such vision to eyes gone that which Troy's towers fall saw evil break out of the north Hey,
it was filthy. Um,
okay. This one's called um sorry for this one. This one's called Nick and the candlestick. Okay. He says, "I am a minor. The light turns blue. Waxy stelacttites drip and thicken tears. Uh, this the earthn womb exudes from its
dead boredom. Black bat airs wrap me raggy shells. Cold homicides that weld me like plums. Old cave of calcium icicles. Old echo. Even the nes are white. Those holy joe's and the fish. The fish Christ their
pains of ice. A vine of knives. A piranha. Religion drinking. It's first communion out of my live toes. The candle gulips and recovers its small attitude. It's yellow heart. It's yellow's hearten. Oh love. How did you get here? Oh embryo. Remembering even in
sleep your cross position the blood bosoms clean in this in you ruby the pain you wake up is not yours. Love I have hung our cave with roses with soft rugs the last of Victoriaana. Let these stars plummet to their dark abode address. Let the mercuric atoms that
drip into the terrible well. You are the one solid the spaces lead on envious. You are the baby in the barn.
Okay. Well, one more. Okay, one more. It's very short. It says metamorphosis. Says haunch like a fawn. He he he hhed from grove of moononglint to fenf frost
until all owls in the tweaked forest flap black to look and bruge on the call this man made. No sound but a drunken coot lurching home along riverbank. Stars hung, waters sunk. So a rank of double star eyes lit boughs where those
owls sat. An arena of yellow eyes watched the changing shape he cut. Saw hoof hardened from foot. Saw sprout goat horns marked how God rose and gout woodward in that guise. Wow. That's That's good. Pretty intense.
Uh Let's see.
So, but how's it? I mean, what's up? is like uh is VA talking about me today or you don't have to answer you want to just wondering
it's like I don't know why she's mad at
I think at this point I should be mad at her for what she did. You have it. You love it. You love it. Thank you.
Yeah. I hope you had a nice weekend. Sunday 722 2025. Yeah. But Samantha, did you hear what she said to me? Like she was saying horrible mean
things to me. Like I she was laughing at me. She calls me she my she wrote she was so mod like what if instead of a mod she wrote you're a and and as a as a mod what if I went into a chat my first time and I see the person the mods are calling him a she did all that in public in front of
everybody and then she called on uh or she like came on the show and like I was like hi and then she's like ah she's like she start bringing up all you know a bunch of bully hey Mikey how are weekend was, you know, today was a good day. Yeah, I know. And Jamie Jamie and there's, you know, somebody like somebody else like the
same like kind of the same thing happened to you.
But like she the thing is like she's mad at me. I I'm I I'm not even I wasn't even mad or I mean sometimes when she's mad and we we would argue sometimes, you know, we'd always make up and stuff, but uh a couple days later, but you know, I I felt like less and less like
affection and then I was like then I was done. Yeah, I know. And then Yeah. No, Jamie, like somebody else that that was like a like a really good that I know was a good friend to her, like just a nice person that not like nothing wrong. She was she told that person she's like,
"Well, you know what?" She's like, I don't think she she said she do she want to be friends or something to her and like just like blew her off and like everyone was confused like and then DJ Electra when she came on last night she was like yelling at DJ Electra on my panel and um and saying like DJ Electra called her a and then she was
calling DJ Electra a and a Come to my show and uh yeah. So I don't know. Takes two of bingo. Well, I know, but I mean gosh um
yeah, but it's like so I'll just say when I would like sometimes she would call me and then she would like you kind of like yell at me for a couple minutes on the phone and I'd be like beat and she like then she would keep talking and then finally when she stopped I would start talking and then she'd hang up and I wouldn't even be able to say anything.
Yeah, I think so. Yeah, it's like as above so below. It's You're right.
Where are you asking? It's cold. Sun's shining bright here. It's like it's like I don't even I only have curtains open and it's warm. You don't engage in all the petty stuff, which is good. Well, I should I probably engaged more than I should because, you know, I will talk to anybody that I was
even trying to talk to, you know, Emma and Clumsy Clairvoyance like they just they basically just uh just I don't I don't remember what I remember what I did. Oh, actually I remember what you know Emma kind of embarrassed me in front of her Discord and I left the Discord and then she like
then you got if you know Emma but you don't get into things with a uh petty attitude. Well, because I I don't have like many I don't have like friends like really around here, you know? I don't know anybody. And actually when I first started doing panels and stuff like you know she she
was so supportive and like that's why you know I got a tattoo you know I had a tattoo for her and stuff like that because we were so good and I loved her and I still love her but it's like it just and we were good for so long
and then it's like Discord is for the birds. Yeah. I uh I I have a Discord, but I'm not on anymore.
I mean, 99 on Thursday. Yeah, it's very warm here. Yeah, I live by the beach, too. I can't wait to go to the summer, do some IRL there.
Yeah. Anyway, of course, I've never I would never say if I did if Yes. There's stuff and I would go back and forth. We'd have disagreements. Go few months ago when J remember when Janet was on the show Jamie and like it was just like remember that crazy time? It was like for a couple weeks. Yeah. I get you hurt. I got you, Charisma. Got
you. But uh
I mean I think the only the only real fake friends are somebody that would befriend you with an agenda. That would be the only kind of thing that I would consider a And even those can become your friends, right? Because it's like there's plenty of stories like oh you know well they basically have to do with like you know some kind of assassins or something like okay you
kill this or alive this person and they go and then they fall in love and they don't want to kill remember it's like the Snow White and the Huntsman right the queen sends the huntsman out to bring back Snow White's heart and the huntsman can't you doesn't have the heart to heart to kill her so he kills a
a boore or something or some kind of animal brings the heart of that instead. Fools the queen broken heart ahead and heading and healing. Thank you psyche first taking off from me. Of course, but you know it's like she doesn't listen. She doesn't listen to a word I
say or I don't understand why why she's I didn't understand why she would why she would do that to you. But I think it's other people getting involved, right? I'm doing DIY for your ebike or installing uh LED lighting without everyone helping you. Oh, good. Oh, good. That's awesome.
I should get some. Do I go to the beach often? Um, yeah. Well, I go to the pier about every week because they have like a dish taco. Well, they have fish taco Friday, but they have like on Monday through Thursday they have a happy hour. You can get like three fish chocolates for $6 and other stuff. There's other little restaurants I want to try around
here. There's a lot of good restaurants, but they're expensive. So, I like a deal. I like a good deal. The fish market here is like the largest fish market in California. I think the largest. And you can buy anything there and they'll cook it. Never had fish tacos. They're really good. Do you ever
make it? You know, I always there's open invitation for for anybody that ever wants to like hang out at the pier. I'll I'll take anybody fish tacos if they want to hang out and do IRL at the pier one day. Yeah, I got a new ebike. It's not it's
not new X. It's like a It's used, but um it's a really good condition. And I know I said stupid. The ones who claim they're friends and supporters of the most always find fake and backstabbing you. Is it struggles to be nonpartisan? Yeah.
Yeah. I mean, it's like a lot of people would be like like they would they would just they just keep pushing everything. It's like they like like Arthur I think I think Arthur I forgot he did donate when I when I started, right? And but then like months late he
months later he's still like I'm a donator. Premod me. Um and and like let me on pan like he and then he would be like really rude. You see he's like he'd say like bad things to me and I'd be like you can't be a mod and like be on my show saying bad things about me. I like I I don't care. You can say bad things
about me anywhere else. Just stop on my show. It's like the one one place where, you know, people can at least be respectful.
Um, see, I like I I had I had like this I had a guy friend, his name was Blade. Um he he was from Texas and he was in my Discord and we were and we were both on this guy Benny's chat, but then I noticed he was like kind of in love with Benny. Then I brought him to
Lisa's chat. Then he was like saying he's in love with Alisa. He's on my Discord. He would every guy that came into this Discord, he would tell he would like tell to leave. Then he'd tell some certain girls he tell to leave too. He'd say, "Oh, that there's too much drama here." There wasn't even drama. Then he just want to he wouldn't want them with around other people them
around other people that he knew so they could compare notes or something. Eventually, he he uh he he uh revenge porn on my Discord. Someone that sent him photos, he posted them on Discord, then deleted them. He caused so much problems. And then um
yeah, I don't know. A lot of people attack me. Let's see. What's Mikey say? Whoa. It just happens that I'm a Oh, you are Mikey. Hey, Mike. So, it's not It's not Mickey or Mikey. Hey, Mikey. You're so fine. Now I know. Uh now, yeah. I
only have two good female friends that I've known for over 20 years. Yeah. Yeah. Well, I I've I've always been out of the closet since I was like I was the only person at my school for the entire time I was there for seven
years that was ever I was ever out of the closet. Right. Think you should have been born a gay man? Well,
I think I my like my it's hard to describe. So, I am like, you know, people say people say, "Oh, you don't think you're I don't think you're gay. here, you know, but I always thought I was kind of like like, you know, a little bit flamboyant, but some people don't don't because I kind of look masculine, but if I like talk for a
little bit, you can probably figure it out. But I've never talked uh bad. You never talk bad in chat or panel chat, then you have um respect and that's that's your nature, of course. Yeah. like
uh spunky tattooed eyebrows. That's what my mom does, too. Well, you should meet this guy named Bean Gang. There's a guy named Clumsy Bean Gang. He was in here earlier. He uh he's like a Hispanic guy. I like one day what time he he shaved off his eyebrows. Actually, someone offered me to shave off my eyebrows. I'm
like, "No, I don't want to look like that weird for months.
You're a woman, Doug.
Oh my god. I Oh, yeah. See, there's clumsy right here. He He has his eyebrows shaved. You can't see him in that picture, but he's a nice guy. Hey, babe.
Hi. Hi. What? Hi. Kisses. You're the queen of McDonald's.
Oh, don't be What? It's not very Bumpy spunky or
bump bumpy skunky. I know. I don't know. Bumpy. I don't know. I can't read my pronounce it right. Bump. Bumpy spunky. Throwback your friend. Oh no. Come on.
Okay. And guys, if you ever do see somebody like, you know, if you ever do see somebody that needs to be hidden in chat and I miss it, then please um let me know and I'll I'll look at their comments and I'll probably I'll probably hide them.
Okay.
What are you talking? What are you talking about? Uh oh.
Thank you, Charisma. I think it's I think it's going to work a lot better because it was um I was getting fatigued from argue from the because it's like since basically probably the beginning of this year I've been getting I get emails all the time about wrenches wrenches wrenches not like usually not asking for them but oh this person said this
perfect this person's doing this this person doing this and then I'm being so it's like it is working way better it takes away most like like most of the conflict right away then that that in turn makes easier to communicate Okay.
Yeah. Well, yeah. really like the really the thing was um I didn't want people like there are people like they try to fight with the mods and stuff like that and I and I don't want people because people people have said I take my wrench because either because you
know they they didn't like something that happened in the chat in the in the panel or they didn't like the stress of like um being yelled at if they time someone out for 10 skin.
Yeah, that was like kind of like the one of like the things with beta like because I would like VA would say, "Hey, take that P like remove them because the person would be but it would be when the person would probably be saying stuff about her and so and so I always do it." But then the other day we we had um LD was on the panel and she came in and then she's then she was like he didn't even say anything. He was just sitting
there and then she's like oh take K take LT off the panel right now and I was like well he didn't do anything and it's like and there's no like if there was a reason to I would but and then she's like I demand take him down right now. I'm going to count down from 10. And she counted down from 10. I didn't do it because
uh there was no reason to. He was like he was fine. So, but you know, you are really mad. Oh, I follow Hold on. Sunshine, I follow my FA GTO fles and get persecuted. There's two other uh low life act. Well,
sunshine, do you realize everyone's unmoded except for me? So, if anything hap if anything happens in the future, it was it was me that did it. Okay, you can uh get mad at me. They're not don't you can call my rules f a g o r rules but I don't don't call people low lives and like you know and I I try to treat
people equally but I can't always be in the mod the mod version of the chat because I'm paying attention to my screen panel. So that's why I'll try to slow down letting people in the panel so I can like kind of pay more attention in the beginning of the show. I'm trying my best. The rules, they're
just like basic rules. Just I just made those rules because those were constantly being broken and I kind of like I'm trying to go with the toos. But Sunshine, you're a little bit you had to block. Oh, yeah. Sunshine, you're making new accounts.
VA gives a countdown who to put back. Now I Let's see if I can look. Yeah. And I I I never told her what to, you know, I would never doesn't It's not I cannot imagine telling any other streamer to do something like I've never
Yeah. I I mean yeah I I I like suns. Uh oh yeah. Hey Dancy. Yeah. You know what I saw? Actually I was watching a tarot reading and probably like you know four or five days ago and it said it oh it said something about falling stars and then I kept I got the star card a bunch of times
during the time and then there's falling stars and one of the cards the star card I have is a falling star I just got. So
Okay.
Yeah.
We got two moon cards in my reading last night. Yes. So, we went outside to look at the sky. You saw this huge falling star. Beautiful.
It's important having people to mix to mix things up. if everyone was like, "Okay." So, yeah, I like people to mix things up, but also I'm not like, you know, I'm not very extroverted. So, if there's like a lot of people on panel, unless I'm kind of drunk, I tend to be kind of quiet.
Hug tricks. Jamie hugs. Give me Jamie's giving you a hug. Hey, David. Hi. Okay, Shrex. Hi, babe.
Lay down. Hi babe. He's I don't know if you can hear. He's a little purr. Oh.
Yeah. Hey, babe. He purs real loud. And sometimes Lenor does, but Lenor likes to kiss me on the lips. You like your back, Rub? Hey, babe.
Oh, take.
Cheers guys.
Fix is funny. He likes to he um well Lola would like last year when I take a bath, she would just jump in the bath or she would like jump up and like look at and then she would like let me pick her up and and put her in the bath for a second. I just dip her in and then she'd like jump out and like and like shake off. Now Trix likes to do that too. You like that to you? Or Trixs will just spy on me in the shower. He like if I leave the the door open, I I like look out the
shower. He's like always like peeking at me. You look at me in the shower, Trix. Oh yeah,
is cute.
Okay. Uhuh. Here you go.
Okay. So, okay. Eases. Where is everybody? I don't know. But if I do have to rebuild, I will. I have I'll like I'm really good at you know once I'm I might have to like pivot with like the drama panels just because
you know it attracts too much of like the people that just want to fight right people that just want drama and a lot of them are just like these loud people just like yelling yay like oh fight fight fight it's kind of very I like
I have I like to have I like to have fun. We I've had so many fun panels. There's so many cool panels and then sometimes a cool panel and then either porn bomb will come and say we'll have a cool panel going on for a long time or someone comes on fighting. I mean there's that but there it's been an interesting
experience learning learning it. I've been probed over a hundred times. Um, and we're bombed and uh there are some very very very straight and very drunk people on my show.
Uh, it was it's uh I don't think I did a bad job for my first six. I just want to do I just want to keep keep going, keep growing. I don't know.
So, it took me a long time to even get the courage to do YouTube because I didn't want to be on camera. I was like, I wanted to I was like, I'm I'm just going to do tarot readings off camera. I would tell stories just sitting on the beach and like putting the camera over the water. And then I guess I got pretty drunk one night and I was like, I'll just do it. I started doing my live streams, but I would just sit I would sit at this
table. I would do tarot. I would read from books. I kind of do what I do now, but then I figured out I could sit on the couch and do it. I've upgraded all my equipment since then. Been monetized since then. I uh been I've been through like three co-hosts, maybe two or three. Yeah.
But we had some interesting times. I've also had very popular streamers here like on there's still some I would like to have but I've had very popular streamers on come to the show. I didn't know who they were but everybody else did. I still haven't seen them though. Um but you know there's a lot of people
that have like you know had lost monetization and everything. It's because I I don't I I'm so lucky I haven't. It's just like a it's like basically a miracle. Um and so I'm like what? So I was like okay well channels just
canceled within six months. I'm not going to put too much I won't get too attached. But you know it's been over six months gotten attached. Yeah.
My back is killing me. Hey, do you want some? Look at this big catnip I have. Speaking of catnip tricks loves it. You want some catnip tricks? Here. Want some catnip? Rudy sees me. Come here Rudy.
Catnip.
Rudy likes it. Look,
you having some catnip, Rudy? He loves it. You see him? Yeah, the cat had to look at it.
Yeah. Uh Rudy uses it for his I think he Rudy's like, you know, he's a senior citizen cat. He uses it for his glaucoma right? The senior citizens use weed for glaucoma or Oh, you love that, huh? Oh, and then tricks tricks here. It's the dog barking. You hear the dog barking?
Everybody listen to the dog barking. Uh oh. Let me try to find something interesting. I'll be right back.
Yes baby.
Uh, I'm getting Yeah.
You're in the blond CB. Let's see. Yes.
It's just okay.
So, this is a good book. It's a really big book. It's called the Illuminatus Trilogy. Robert Anin Wilson. It's got these dolphins and the pyramid and stuff. Okay. Uh but I like to open to a random page and read it. It's like just a it's just full
of information, but it's a form of book. So I'll read I'll read you some. It says to see if there's anything that stands out to you. It says I just open to a random page. They were they were in Hugghart's funky stateateroom and George after an experience at the demolished
Drake mansion found the octopi and other sea monsters on the wall murals distinctly unappetizing. Hagard, as usual, was wearing a turtleneck and casual slacks. This time the turtleneck was lavender, an old item for him. George remembered suddenly
that Haggard Hagard had once told him uh a meant a mental sexuality I've tried it of course. He asked something
but added something about liking women better. Goodness, is that the only two mornings ago? George wondered what it would have been like to try it. And he said he would even have the a have the nerve. What particular lies? He asked cautiously. Are you about to confess?
Hikar lit a pipe and passed it over. Arlamat Black uh Bass, he said croakingly, holding the smoke down. Hzan Ishaba's own private force formula says wooden does wonders when a heavy metaphysics
is can coming at you. George inhaled and felt an immediate hit u hit like cocaine or some other four brain stimulant. Christ, what's this fit cut with? He gasped as somebody somewhere.
Second seems to turn colored lights on in the gold and nautical green room and on the out sight lavender sweater.
Oh, Hagert said care uh casually a hint of a belladonna and uh shimoleium. That was old house in secret. You know, all that crap in most books about how he had turned his followers on with hash
they never had before. So they thought it was magic is unhistorical. Hus was known in the Middle East since the Neolithic age. Archaeologists have dug up his tombs. Seems our ancestors buried their priests with a load of bush
to help them negotiate with their gods when they got to the big rock candy mountain or whatever they thought they were going. Hassan's originality was blending hashish with just the right chemical um cousin or cousins to produce a new synergistic effect. What's synergistic?
George asked slowly feeling seasick for the first time since aboard the Leif Ericson. Non-addictive non non-additive when you put two and two together and get five instead of four. Buckminister Fuller uses synergistic gimmicks all the time. It is geodistic domes. That's why they're stronger than
they look. Haggard took another look to pass the pipe again. What the hell? George thought sometimes increasing the dose got you past the nausea. He looked deeply. Hadn't they started to discuss truth do? Oh, interesting book. It's
kind of hard to see. My eyes are all blurry.
What are you drinking? You're drinking a Oh my god.
Oh god.
Hi. Yeah,
you're you're so sick, Nancy. I hope you're feeling better. I think tricks. Come on. Okay. Well, it's been eight hours. The the room is emptying out. Um, thank you guys for being here. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for your advice, your
support. You said a lot of kind things. I had one of the best chats today I have in a long time because, you know, everyone was was cordial, everyone was Yeah. Everyone was cool.
Yeah, I just I don't want to bo I don't want to bore you. I'm just sick. Love you guys. Thank you guys. Appreciate you.
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