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Psyche opens the episode with a poetic performance addressing revelations, apologies, and major changes to the Cult of Psyche community structure, followed by a discussion on moderation policies and respect boundaries.
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The episode begins with Psyche's poetic performance, which lasts from ▶ 0:35 to ▶ 13:14. At ▶ 13:17, Psyche greets his audience and starts discussing the upcoming changes to the community structure. He mentions that he has unmoderated almost everybody, but some people will get their moderation privileges back ▶ 15:19. Psyche also states that he will be making some changes, including having more respect from his audience and potentially implementing new moderation policies ▶ 16:09. Additionally, he talks about his new website and the different membership levels, including a free initiatory level ▶ 17:46.
The episode appears to focus on themes of transformation, respect, and community growth. Psyche's poetic performance suggests that he is undergoing a personal transformation and is seeking to make changes to the community structure. The discussion on moderation policies and respect boundaries implies that Psyche values mutual respect and open communication within the community. The mention of new membership levels and website updates also suggests that Psyche is working to expand and improve the community.
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Psyche addresses community management issues, moderator misconduct, and threats received during streams, promising to reveal undisclosed information about ongoing conflicts within the show's community.
Psyche returns with an energetic episode featuring AI-generated songs, astrology, and personal discovery, along with playful banter about website building and character creation tools.
Episode 381 of Cult of Psyche begins with technical difficulties before the host greets viewers and addresses potential trolling by Nightbot Samantha.
The host, Psyche, discusses TikTok censorship and expresses his willingness to use controversial terms despite platform restrictions. He tests the limits by saying a previously censored word.
Psyche celebrates his 44th birthday with a casual livestream, sharing personal updates and pulling animal spirit cards for chat members.
Psyche hosts a casual post-Christmas livestream, discussing his holiday, interacting with his cats, and performing tarot readings for his audience. He also talks about his interests in magic, astrology, and spirituality.
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Speak, speak, speak. In the shadows of the forest where the outcast sing, she walks like a flame in a serpentine ring. Emerald eyes in the hush of a night. Truth in her breath,
revelation in her bite. The drums of the exiles storm under feet, sound bends, words twist, time loops repeat. She lives in made of shed. Bring all the strings of your memories, your future, your past.
Oh my queen of the unheard. Come my voice open. Remake the world. Green flame rising through the skin of my throat. Speak through me now. Let the prophecy go underneath
your soul.
She sits where the temples. refuse to look. Writing her gospel in a tor book. Ink made of storms, pages made of scars. She lights her crown with disobedient stars. Her laughter is lightning her silence a spell. She teaches the truth. The gods never tell. Her touches a
whisper against your spine. You're not broken. You're divine. Flashing green sigils over your heart. A voice in your mind
pulling you aart. Three streams of lights through the dark. Follow her breath. Ignite the spark.
Speak the thing you fear the most. She'll turn it into a ghost. Oh, queen of the unheard. Cut my voice open. Remake the word. Green fire rising in the marrow of night. Give me the truth and devour the lie. Oh,
daughter of storm. Burn me reborn and remake my force. Teach me the hymn of the broken and strong. Your emerald song is where I belong.
My daddy.
Let my voice become your throne. Speak through me.
Father say walking panther in the sky. Rise with me. Rise as one shy in the flush. You're the star. Don't die. Victory born with I be in my eyes.
Step in the dark, I turn shadow to light. Cold on the rise, we don't run from the night. Fire in my chest, let the m deep. Wake up the dead, make the sleepers all speak. Name in your blood and the truth going clown. Say psychics hell, let it rewrite time. Sun in my crown, that's a king reborn. Moon in my
throat, every word a storm. Mars in my tongue. Yeah, I cut too sharp. Make a snake show truth in the pitch black dart. Feelings in my or charm too real. Mercury mind everything I touch heels. Jupiter crown sitting high on my fate. Saturn on my heels. I was built to be great. Rahu in the pit that's the shadow
I ride. Cing the bones. Past lies don't hide. Zack rising with a flame. No god slow cap moon in my chest. I survive that snow. Yeah. Enemies watch but the spirits are burn. I don't fear death. I just shuffle the cards. A born man. The victory is mine. I walk through hell like yeah I designed this sh in the
flesh. Yeah the star don't die. Victory born with a fidget in my eyes. Step in the dark. I turn shadow to light. Hold on. We don't run from the night. Fire in my chest. Let the mind deep. Wake up the dead. Make the sleepers all speak. Flame in your blood and the truth climb. Say
psychic hell. Let her in right time. >> I don't lead sheep. I awaken the wools. I don't want praise. I dismantle old rules. Mirror break my state. Truth in the cracks. Follow my step. Get your whole soul back. I speak for the lost, for the brave, for the strange, for the once reshaping their life on the flame. Shadow don't scare me. I romance the
void. Turn chaos to scripture. Your fear I destroy. One step to the cold. Got to burn your shame. Got to kill your lies. Got to share your name. Panther on a path and our eyes see lies. You can't hide sin from a creature that wise. Follow us. Rise like a storm reborn. Every chance we drop another veil gets
torn. Yeah, this the cold but the fire is all yours. I'm just a spark at the edge of the door. Psyche in the flesh. Yeah, the star don't die. Victory would be dead in my eyes. Step in the dark, I turn shadow to light. Don't rise. We don't run from the night. Fire in my chest. Let the mantra deep. Wake up the
dead. Make the sleepers all speak. Name in your blood and the truth going. Say psychics hell. Let it rewrite time. Rise rise rise rise with the father tonight. Burn burn till the shadow turns
bright. Walk through the star door. One mind, one flame, one cold forever more.
Me inside me. Father's side, lead the way. We rise as one
day by day.
Keep saying you can fix me. Okay, then profit try. My shadow's already halfway gone. My heart beats walking now without me. Bless me, break me. Either way, I'm yours. You keep calling it salvation. I keep calling it a lie. I'm stretched in
the void. Paranoid halo around my mind. If I ever swore, I rise up. That promise died under my tongue. These demons don't harm my thoughts. No, they live in my blood. Sleeping on my back like an offering. Watching serpents on the ceiling drip. If you don't like my apocalypse, say it with your trash, don't whisper it. I'm trying to be better, but the better I try, the worse I break. Hour by hour, I slow fake
death. The installments I never agreed to pay. Did I learn a lesson? Did I learn from others? Did I learn from lovers? So give me another make me better. Give me another way to stop. Made me holy in a ring. Made of pain. My only lover. I'm a sucker. Yeah. I'm a
sucker for the burn. Kiss me, curse me, promise I'll never learn. I'm gone for good as lifetime. Never been the man I claimed I'd be. I beamed. Had all the things. Had all the lines. All the lines. Now the mirror won't look back at me.
She says she fix my fractures and car the name into my spine. Run me till the light goes out. I'm blind to every holy sign. You're the last warm orbit around me. Gravity in human form. Touch me till I feel something. Break me till I'm finally born and I'm drifting drifting with the blood on the bed. She's glistening. Sunlight through broken
glass like heaven wants to watch me listening to the last echo in my chest. If love is a curse, then I'm obsessed. Make me better. Give me another way to suffer. Make me holy in a ruin. Make the pain my only lover. I'm a sucker. Yeah,
I'm a sucker for the burn. Kiss me. Curse me. Promise I'll never learn. Kiss me. Tell me you wish I wasn't dead. Body burning. Make sure the ashes are falling. Kiss me. Tell me you wish I wasn't dead. Body burn.
I guess I'm gone now. Gone with all the ghost I lingering in a bliss of dying slow with the sunlight on my bed. You say you want to fix me,
but darling, let's be fair. I'm a shrine to every wound I kept in pain. is the only God I ever dare to pray. Maybe better.
any better.
Hello. Hello. Yep. Yep. Jamie. So, you're Yep. You're still here. That's why you're That's why you're my number one. Okay. One second. Something.
One second, guys. Be right with you. Yeah. Let's see. Yeah, I don't know how long this will be today but I'm going to do a nice little live.
Oh, you're you get snow love. Well, maybe be here a little bit longer. She I mean talking about Jamie's been here first, you know, for months for a year. Okay,
let's see. I was this. Okay, got it. Okay, come up. Hi. There we go.
First my heart. You ever heard ladies first? Ever heard that term ladies first? Hello.
So, no offense to Jamie. The psychic is psychic is rewriting history. Well, that's true. That's that is that part is true. Jamie knows that, you know, and it's like a little bit, you know, I'm a little bit slow sometimes, you know. You're f your first, Samantha
second. I don't know. Samantha's usually first too. But, and I know Oh, yeah. So, I I did unmod like almost practically everybody, but um some a few people get their mods back um right, you know, today. But I think in the future it'll be like um you know
actual like you know cult members will get we'll we'll probably have the mods like you know she is okay. Well when she when I see her again chat I might I might take care of that. But um you know I I am uh I do have to change a
few things. Like for example, you know, I do like I did have some fun in the open panels, but it's like at first maybe it was like 50/50% fun like 50/50 like where now it's like 90% not fun. Um it's also
you know getting like ridiculous. So I think from now on you don't want a mod just a little respect. Well I don't know who you are. Who are you? Do I know? Are you in my Discord? Are you Who are you? What's your name? Where? Like I just Who are I don't get it. Like can't just show up here. Anyone can have like a screen name, right? What's your picture? It's
just like a like a dark dark figure. Who is that? Someone in the shadows. Who could that be? Doesn't matter who's first. It's not a It's not a race. My show is not a race. It's a It's a experience. It's a ritual.
Um, yeah, Mr. Yumi is gone. Actually, almost everybody's Oh, yeah. You're the first thumbs up. Thank you. Well, keep keep coming. Keep doing thumbs up, you know. But unfortunately, I just have a lot of people that are incognito and things like that. And so one of the first
things I'm going to make sure of is like I will be tr I'm going to not let myself be disrespected on my show. Oh, see look at this. So some respect boy. Are you Chris K? Unless you're Chris K. You're about to get banned. You don't tell me to show you respect because respect is earned, right? You like the background.
Thank you. This is a new one. Thank you. Um I did yeah I do have a few new new graphics and things and putting a lot of work into this. I'm working on the website still. You can go you can go and see the progress of cult of psyche but um I think yeah the memberships are up but and it's like
there is a free uh initiate the initiatory level is free. You know what? And initi the initiates can always be in chat and they can always um well just watch this show on you know and there's some introductory materials too. So it's not that's that's good but
there's like they say there's levels to this. I'm going to run it like I need to run it more like the new cult it is. So, but anyway, there's been revelations re recently, right? It's like and I and I feel kind of dumb. I feel kind of like a a dum dum. I feel like a dum dum
because I've allowed a lot of people here with no good intentions for me. It's okay. Yeah, it's okay, Jamie. You're fine. You're fine. I I know you. But um yeah, there's been people with like some pretty bad intentions towards me and it's like
uh don't feel that way. Well, that's Jamie. It's true. And I mean I wish I could have shown you some of the things I saw today. For example, I h I don't know. Ever since the beginning of the show, you know, I did I did meet somebody that I thought was a great friend and like
really cool and neat person and like, you know, we both love cats and all this stuff. Yeah. Oh, yeah. I'm not a dumb dumb. It's okay. I I was being sarcastic a little bit. So, ghost would call me a dum dum, right? And I was I was being a dumb dumb. I was being a dumb dumb because I was like trying to make everyone happy, but you
know, there's some pe there's sometimes people that no matter what you do, no matter what I would do, they're not going to be happy. They're they're only happy when I'm unhappy. That's that's that's some people, right? Um how how would how can you survive like that? How can you survive, right? There's some people that I think didn't
think my show would still be here, right? I mean, I did some dumb things. I believed I believed that some people that I thought were or friends
are not friends. Hey, Apollo. Yeah. So, and I don't know. Yes. How are you doing, Apollo? Yeah, I figured some things out, right? I figured some things out, but um cuz I'm seeing somebody else and I can't go into too much detail about it because you know I have a tendency to blab about everything and like give way give away way too much of
the game and explain over explain and stuff but I'll say I I see what happened to me happening to other people or other you know others right and it's like wow it's like why didn't I see that before
I see people that I trusted as mods not not having good intentions for me. uh like you know actually more like you know spies or actually more like sleeper agents or
also people have people just send to like watch me on the panel and then report or do some bit do the bidding of the evil queen.
But yeah, that's all in the past, you know, and and I do have to say thank you to a few people because only a few people would were telling me. I mean, there are probably more than a few. I wish I would have listened to some more of them, right?
Um, but yeah, so I just want to tell you a few few things planned. I am probably going to be uh having shorter lives. They're probably going to be some some lectures, some you know some things like that. Not lectures like you know boring but interesting information
I want to share. Everyone does make mistakes. You're watching police chases checking if you're okay. You thought I might have been me. I don't have a car but are they chasing somebody walking on the street and like why would you think it would be me? Police chase.
Strange. Hello, Skum Skumason. Oh, Skumaso 187. Do I know you? It's a stolen car. Why would you think I would steal a car? I'm a kind of person that steals cars. Just look all these new people. How many how
great there's just these brand new people out of nowhere coming here saying very strange things, right? Okay. Also, I will be having I think I think someone made I talked to somebody they made an analogy that I have like a I had a saloon door, right? I never
know. Well, right. But it's like wouldn't it be kind of a long shot like Right. Chaotic order of nature, right? You don't ever think someone would do anything? Desperation. Scared.
What does that mean? Who's desperate? Who's scared? Who's scared? Who's desperate? You know, I like actually came I'm actually not this monster that I've been painted out to be, right? You probably You probably steal a car. I was able to.
Oh, it's Scum. You You're able to. Well, yeah. You scum. You're able to. You know who it is. Scum. Okay. Hi, Scum. Hi, Scum. I know who you are. Yeah. Um, yeah. So, anyway, just meeting this person. Yeah, it was Yeah. led to some exciting things. you know, I thought this person was really
cool and um you know, they had been along a little bit longer than me or even a lot longer and knew the ropes and knew how to knew how to work this thing, you know, and it did pay off in a lot of ways. like I
did have um really you know a great rise but I had a pretty bad fall right maybe that was all part of the plan not problem is need my you don't think I am don't think I'm what
desperation scared why' you say it yeah it's okay yeah Chanel okay I just yeah I think Yeah, I I will be giving like some people like for there's some people I do right away want to give honorary, you know, memberships to or I do consider part of
the cult like there. Okay. I think that's a good person. But yeah, I hope nobody's like nobody nobody should get offended over mods or anything. I I mean it's like well it's really an honorary position and I do it. It's like people with wrenches you can just know that they are the cult members, right? Yeah, she got it. She
got it. Chanel got it. But Jamie, it's I mean I need to like there's some because I did I I do have some kind of inside information about some things. Okay. So, I need to be more careful about who I'm mod because there's some mods that maybe just want to like run over to somebody else and tell them
all this information or start drama. But if my mods are doing things people don't like, they blame the streamer. Well, that's okay. You know what? Because I'm not doing this for them. I'm doing this for like, hey, Flirty Diamond. I'm doing this for people like here I'm gonna mod 30 fl 30
diamond you're an honorary member of 30. Okay. I mean not not honorary. You are a member. You're a cult. You're in the cult. Okay. It's a cult of psyche. Um yeah but you know there's you know some people um were telling me know exactly what was happening and I wasn't listening. You
know, I feel like pretty dumb about that, but yeah, I feel like I was kind of set up to eventually try to fail. Fist in the air emojis. What? Do what you want. Thank you. Yeah, I'm I'm not trying to It's like That's why I mean, if I was trying to please people, I would just be doing what I was doing,
the open panels. Um, it is it's the cult of psyche. K U L T of psyche, not Satan. No. Well, where'd you get Satan from? Who said Satan? Actually, um, we do have some patron deities of the cult that's kind of, you know, for the members to know about and
everybody else to wonder about. Um, got some really, really cool stuff going on. Um, and I feel like I meant to do this, but yeah, I wasn't supposed to be here. So, I think I think the plan was when my ch like, you know, by the time my channel got taken down, I would be >> um I would be ready to quit or just, you
know, so hated that nobody would ever come. I know you I know you're you're good. Yeah. Um so I uh you know, but it's like but just I know. But um seeing like people that I really cared about like start to like just treat me like really bad.
I was like what's that about? Like what do they do they ever like me? Right. There's like a buddy trolling. I need to I need to rewrite that chapter of my trolledia cuz maybe it's something I didn't really understand as much as I should have. It's kind of like when people like pretend to be your friend. You have no idea people have their ads.
I have no idea people Haitian. Yeah, diamond. Yeah, I do have I do have great people here and there's people like, you know, that stuck by me despite it, but there's people that were it was just that were just designed to not stay by here and just designed to make me look bad and,
you know, not succeed or but you know what? At the end of the day, it's my fault. That's my fault cuz I should have figured it out earlier and I should have listened to some people that were telling me the truth. Problem is like wasn't too many people that were
but and I was drinking a lot and I was I was being a wet brain, right? And I was letting people take over my show, letting people disrespect. I was like, "Oh, this is how it's supposed to be." This pan, you know, it's like some of the things going on in that panel verse community are so disgusting are really
disgusting. Um, like I would say like b, you know, not borderline evil. I would say evil. And I used to say, "Oh, I love everybody. I want to love everybody. Everyone has good in them. Yeah, people have good in them and stuff like that, but I think that the evil has taken over. Hey,
Mason, how are you? I think the evil has taken over for some people and it's not fun. It's not funny to play with people people's minds, right? to like, you know, and I thought I'd been through
enough gaslighting and like narcissistic abuse to understand that. Build a shadow. I'm looking good. Thank you so much. Thank you. Um, so anyway, it's the herd mentality. If you started uh the psyche hate was just
joined to be part of something entertainment. Well, yeah. And I do hope to entertain, but I'm going to do I'm now what? Now I'm going to do what I came to do. Not only entertain, but like um help, teach, uh bring light,
uh accept people, you know? I now that I've been cast away and uh discarded and thrown in the trash by so many people for for like no no good reason like just just to do it or just to maybe make somebody else happy or it seemed like a soft and kind soul.
Yeah, people take advantage of kind people, right? So I decided it's okay to hate but I hate hate, you know? I hate evil. And it's like and then you know I think I talked to somebody today made a good point. They're like you know love the s love the sinner hate the sin like uh and some people do have this
like dark shadow that's kind of taken over the good right. Yeah. And I and I oh my god and I was so disrespected by some people that and I and I was I made mistakes. I made a lot of mistakes. Right.
Um, but I forgive myself for that. You digress? I forgive myself for the mistakes. I wish it didn't take so long for me to figure out, but you know, once I did quick quick like lightning bolt, it's
like a light lightning flash revelations. Oh, what happened? Hold on. I'm sorry. Hold on. I just figure some out. There you go. Um, so we're not I'm not just going to have the So, someone said I have like a show. My show was like a saloon. It was like just like the saloon
door and the saloon door opens and then people just sit up here for hours and hours on the panel. Some people um 90% of the people I could have done without even talking to, right? Uh, no one here is a friend. I know there's a few. There's a few
uh I do consider a few but just a few probably on one hand the true like the really true true maybe a little bit maybe for me if I'm lucky enough maybe someday it'll be two hands right my big dick psychic wow I like that I have some BDE that's nice
um yeah won't be saved will you be saved saved. Will you be saved? I don't I don't know. Won't be saved. People say people say friendly. And I got to say this, we're both from LA. It's about respect. The internet doesn't show respect. Um well, you get the respect that you
accept, right? Or you're treat you're kind of like getting or the disrespect. I just disrespected, right? Um, you know, a lot of people here don't like tarot to the point of like, you know, just trying almost like destroying any like my tarot tarot business, right?
It's like just destroying. So, I'm I'll take responsibility too cuz I should have seen it and I shouldn't have put up with it. I do love tarot and I'm also it's like the ironic part is I'm I am really good at it but it's like you know so yeah Jamie and Electra are
loyal. Don't hate. But yeah, but the rest Oh, yeah. But but especially especially one person that was a big big part of everything right? What was their intention to get to get me a little,
you know, a little a little fired up, a little bigger and then like that like just like a backdraft, right? Suck all the air out of it. Cleared out. Oh yeah. Well, thank you. And I've got I have so many uh what? Let's see. Why does Beta allow that? I don't know. Why does she
allow HIV Awakens Tarot uh in the chat? Um why does she get mad at people to do the same that she does the exact same things, right? Why why does why did she get to run my show? I don't know. I don't know why I let her like say, "Oh, mod this person. I had this person named Gish modded and
then I had an uncomfortable feeling when I unmoded this person, Gish." Oh, you know, she was like, "You're on the right track, Dupy." But but uh don't unmod, don't I was not don't do. And I was like, "Oh my gosh." And I was trying to It's okay. I don't care. She can watch.
She can watch me rise. Watch, you know. Um but again, I'm not going to be mention I'm not going to be really talking about her um in the future. I will say she she discarded me um pretty ruthlessly
and but the whole thing was I the first place I just fell in love with something that wasn't real, right? But I for I forgive and I I wish I wish her the best in her endeavors and I did learn a lot out of it. Wow. But now I'm
like I've grown. I'm in a better place to help other people maybe. Um I've been wounded a little bit. Um I'm still coming out of the fog. You know what fog means? It's fear,
obligation, and guilt. Okay, those things. And so I've been in a fog and then alcohol just all the alcohol and you know all this stuff doesn't make it better right um and just like wanting to like p you know a people
pleaser right that's one of the worst things because how about like please it's good to please yourself too you know always you maybe you want to like make your you know people that you really love happy I was trying to make people that I could about never make happy happy that would never be happy that would only be happy if I was unhappy. So that's like that I'm not
going to like you know hurt myself for you know I want I want all of us to be happy but so it's like but so I'll say if you're not interested in if you're only here for like open panels and drama and me and people saying the
n-word and and uh and people doxing and um you know following each other and then demand or demanding to come on panels and stuff like I mean, and then just like expecting like what do you think? Like I want to be here. It's like but I won't be here much longer. If I if
I was going in that in the direction I was going my either the channel would be taken down which is constantly under attack. Um and it's not safe. So it's not safe just to have an open panel, right? So I need to have people I actually want to talk to. And so, you know,
I will say probably the members will get a uh, you know, or maybe it's possible people can sponsor panels. Maybe maybe I'll um do some of that, but I'll you know, also I'll I'll have to make some decisions that I don't know exactly what's going to like where I'm going to go, what I'm going to do, but I'll make the decision
and I'm not going to be told what to do or like, you know, count into anything or, you know, I'm not a not just someone to laugh at like which is basically what I've been treated like. We're cool, Mason. We're cool. Very cool. Um, I'm not going to like
just like let people up on the panel for hours just to sit there. Oh, if I let somebody up, I want to talk to them, right? Yeah. I'm taking the power back. I have to maybe I've made illusions to try it to trying to do that before and it's like, but I needed to make I needed the lightning bolt. Have
been playing any video games, man. This is the video game I'm playing. Stream YouTube streaming is the biggest video game, right? I'm playing the biggest most serious this most serious video game in the world. YouTube streaming it's called. Um yeah, it's a little bit like chess in a few ways. And fortunately,
um, my opponent or my biggest opponent made a miscalculation when they they moved me next to a queen that they thought would, you know, have a conflict with or something like that or destroy me or something. actually
that queen I love, you know, and I and so then one thing leads to another. Slowly these people that we're not supposed to be talking or discussing or figuring things out can figure things out. But it really wasn't until today that I got
really, really, really strong information. How did I figure it out? Seeing myself in somebody else. So, I figured it out.
Seeing Seeing Seeing it happening to somebody else exactly down to like a script. I'm not going to give too much information about it. It's like going to be it's kind of like if you know, you know.
If you know, you know. If you don't know, ask somebody else. I'm not going to be a naming names and you know just giving away all the knowledge I have just so I can like be criticized about it and told I'm wrong and and argue and argued
about it. I'll just say I know. It's like a nosis. It's like a knowing. Um it's well now it's painfully obvious, right, to me. I needed that. So, you said you never really chat. You can tell something's going on. Yeah. Well, who I mean, let me know like if I if you're new in the chat because
I've seen a lot of new people. Just let me know like who you are like or what your name is usually. I know I know it's like the ad. Um, but yeah, ever since the like I mean I have a Discord. All I'm saying is that I'm just going to be in charge now. I'm going to be in charge. Yeah. Respect me. Respect
the channel. Just like when I was disrespected by people I loved. I was like, did they did they ever love me or were they just pretending? Right. They were pretending. Some it was obvious. Some still some are still pretending. Lot just got sick of it and just like just just did the
discard. But now that I've been discarded and I know how it feels to be just like discarded by so many people, some people leave and then and then some and turn on turn on me for really no reason. I mean I maybe I didn't maybe I did make mistakes. I know
I know I certainly did but my biggest mistake was just putting my love and to the wrong people, right? It's like how how do you say the killer's inside the house, right? It's like you have your some some of the some of your your best like you think your best
friend is actually the killer, right? It's like a movie movie trope. There's like a movie called like the there's a babysitter is babysitting and all of a sudden like there's you know there's some killer and then she starts hearing like uh she starts getting these phone calls or something like that and these weird phone calls and she keeps you know calls the phone company and then slowly throughout the night they're
like we're finding the person we're finding that the we're tracing the call we're tracing the call but by then and all of a sudden you get a call from the operator they're calling from inside the house Right. It to Brute, right? You know, Brutus, it's like it's what? You Brutus. You You my friend. My friend Brutus. You You were You were the one
conspiring to to like destroy me. My most trusted advisor in general? What? What was it? Jealousy just or a g a game you play? Like what was the point of it? just to laugh at me or to
just make me like some kind of like laughing stalk like literally stalk like a cow. And it's like and then oh but your plan didn't go quite as as you thought it would because slowly some people that you thought you brought in some expert ranchers to you know with the lasso to
to come collect me and all of a sudden you know I'm squeezing out some milk and they're having a glass of milk with me and they turn they turn out to like me. Right. So that happened a little bit a little bit too much for their liking. All right. It's okay. I look Look, I'm
not going to be mad at anybody, okay? Not mad because I'm not overthinking it. Beat it is Hold on. Well, I'm not going to argue. Excellent. Info. Yeah, but there are certain things I should I
should know better. Like I I I understand narcissistic abuse, right? Yeah. Can't control. So yeah, took the took the channel down. Thought that I but also just tried to like, you know, destroy everything else, right? Make me look stupid and weak and like
soy boy like what whatever, right? All these, you know, down to right. Um, and all you know, and you know what? It's like Scooby-Doo. It's like, and your plan would have succeeded if it wasn't for those damn,
you know, and you know, they're talking about the Scooby squad. But yeah, there are some there are some Scooby people that maybe some Scooby squads that helped me out here that helped me out, that helped me realize some things, right? And so almost they almost did it. They almost did it. They could they almost took the passion away. almost, you know, took the took it down and then
but things didn't go quite as planned. You know, some people acted the opposite of how they how they thought because they didn't quite like, you know, people underestimate me, right? So, I'm just a gay guy that, you know, is like going to have probably insecurities that they can just poke at. I'm probably really easy just to throw off balance, right? Um, somebody named Ronald Reagan that was my mod.
He said that he's like, "Oh, psych is really fun to like you throw off balance." Okay, you want to throw me off balance? Okay, you know what? Maybe you have to maybe to get balanced, you have to know what it's like to be unbalanced. And so then I can now I can
better uh I can better stay balanced. Okay. Um yeah, I'm not going to overthink it. I'm not going to over explain if in the future. I'll do I'm going to do what I want to do. Oh, it was KZ guy who was typing crazy in chat. He was trying to do it. Oh, him. Oh, he thinks he's so smart. Yeah. Oh, man. I was like, oh, he was he
was in the chat today um that I was in and he was demanding that I mod him. I just blocked him. I just blocked him alto together from from So, he I I don't even see him. He also like um he was in the discord just causing a lot of problems and stuff. Uh I don't know what he has such irrelevant information. Such a distraction. Such a
such a distraction. Why am I every day sitting here arguing with him, right? It's like gh never again. Never again. I'm not wasting any more time sitting here arguing with a fool. I mean I basically I was a fool. I was a fool. Right. just to even entertain him, entertain it right?
A lot of pe a lot of people. And then it's like some things were set up for me to like look bad, right? They were set up for me to look bad. It wasn't. And it's like and then everyone said, "Oh, well, you you betrayed your friends. You betrayed." I was like, "What did I do? I didn't know. I I don't I What did I do? because I kicked somebody off a panel
for like a minute or because I um did or I unmoded somebody or that's the those are the biggest sins I think I did, right? Is that okay? Am I am I allowed to decide who I want or the mod of my chat? Am I allowed to decide um how I want to run my show? Is my show? I mean, it's my
show right? No, it's like some people didn't want it to be. They wanted to be that they want to be like little puppet masters and stuff like that and pull strings and and pull, you know, do this and you get me that they just didn't know that I'm not as dumb as I look. I'm not as
dumb as I look sometimes, right? I mean, yeah, I did some dumb things, but it's like I uh also have a lot of good qualities. Oh, also just like total always criticizing, criticizing, criticizing. Oh, you're making money like that. And and it's like you're making money like this, you're making money like this. Some of
them started making doing the same thing, exact same thing I was, you know, the exact same things, right? I saw the same folks, people on multiple panels forming a campaign, recruiting people to take Psyche down. Yeah. Yeah. People don't know that. And some of them are my mods, unfortunately. Right. Ah,
not be Apollo ever see me. Hold on. Well, Jamie Jamie. No, no, she's not. He's not going to say you. He knows Jamie's Jamie's a loyal person. And I Jamie, I'm I'm in the same place as you are. I know it's not you, Jamie. I know. I I know who it I know who they are. That's the point. It's like I saw who they are. I saw who they
are. They're minions. They're basically flying monkeys, but it's like but not not the flying monkeys we all think, right? What's wrong with donating? Yeah. Yeah. Thank you. I appreciate that. Well, yeah, but it's like it seemed like I all I care about is fish tacos and dick right? I know. Well, I don't think Apollo was saying that though. They're going to try
to blame you. It's like because we're close, they're going to try to tear us apart. And it's like, I know you won't let that happen, right? and and I know you're gonna stay strong. Other people it was planned to it was a planned thing to sabotage. There's a lot of sabotage, right? A lot of sabotage.
Yeah, he said not you, Jamie. Yeah. And Apollo is a good guy. Uh, I know I knew he's a good guy. As soon as I figured out like, you know, Christine, Christina, I like him, so I like him. Actually, it was funny. I was
in this chat the other night and uh it was um Alexander McQueen and Christine, it was a talker is, right? And uh and and Alexander's like, "Oh, Psyche's betrayed me. Psyche betrayed me. He's the worst. Are you really shocked? Are you really shocked?
Well, who betrayed who, Christine? I mean but did I discard anybody? Did I apologize to you many times? And in response, what? Telling me, telling people not to donate to me? Um, calling me beta stalker. Calling me beta
stalker. I don't stalk anybody. Okay, I don't I don't need to stalk anybody. I'm busy enough and happy with my own life not to have to follow follow anybody. I really did care for that person um at one point right? Yes. And Jamie's very loyal, right? You're Yep. Exactly. Exactly. They're like,
you know, you're under you're under attack, too, Jamie. And and I and people will be under attack that are real ones, too. And it's like unfortunately a lot of people are so cowardly. Yeah. But I'm but I but I do want to say I'm sorry to the people that did tell me the truth because a lot of people did tell me the truth or tried to tell me
the truth and I just couldn't see everything and it's like and that maybe is like a character flaw with me but I have been through like you know post-traumatic stress disorder narcissistic abuse. Oh, she is. I mean, well, I don't know. Wow. Cry me a river.
You don't have to say what you did. I already know. I found out about it. Now there's just no chance for you and me. Baby, tell me you love me. Why did you leave me all alone?
You tell me you need me. Why didn't you call me on the phone? Will I be used? I must be confused with some other guy. Bridges will turn. Now we will learn to cry. Cry me a river, right? Do I still talk to thing that is? Well,
I don't think I really um will care to anymore because did he really contribute anything to the show? I remember he would sit up here and criticize me about pretty much almost, you know, oh, what about this? Right. And sit here for about five hours and like not really like I don't know
what are you why are you here? Like there's some people that are like why why the hell are you here? Like what? Yeah. And then it's like now it's obvious where they were. They sit here and like watch and throw me off balance and go go run to beat that or you know go run. Guess what he said. You know it's like and I'm sure they're you know
it's like and then she I know she can be very she can play innocent whatever. It's okay. It's I for I forgive her. Right. She she never forgave me even though I didn't do anything. Right. She never She has put me through um more and more stuff, right? Uh-oh. See you around. See psychiatrist, please. Okay, I think that
is Oh, and you were sitting right there. What? Why were you sitting there not saying anything, right? Why are you sitting there? Why? Why did you didn't say hi in the chat? You didn't say hi. You're just sitting there waiting, right? Go to betas. You have your VIP seat there right? Marie, I was I was like, "Who the hell is this guy?" When all of a sudden, you know, he's Spunky and him are fighting
and stuff like that. I'm like, "Who the hell is this guy?" And he's just like here.
Oh, he's on beat now. Well, yeah. Um, okay. Well, he might be he might be. I think he basically, you know, he has a crush on Bea, I think. Right. He is and he is. I mean, he is. He is. He is. It's fine. It's fine. You know, anybody can be friends with anybody they want. And I don't want It's not about
I'm not trying to attack her because it's like, you know, I'm not going to go to her level. Let's just say it's very painfully obvious what's happened. Okay. Um, House Sticks, he must be outside right now. Um, it's painfully obvious what
happened and all I'll say is not going to happen anymore. It's like it's it's just but you know what I have to release. And so with with love uh with love and thank you for everything you know
thank you for the positive moments but unfortunately there weren't very many positive moments like for the last you know six months seven months constant um push pull constant changing the goalpost constant however whatever energy I came with they came with the opposite energy How do how does somebody who's not
bipolar have two personalities? Okay. Have like two different extremely different personalities right? Show me. Show me my cat. Well, Rudy's right here.
There he is. That's Mr. Rudy.
I don't know if you guys you guys I'm I'm basically worse than the freaking devil if you listen to like what's been said and is even if it it's like like I'm just like here we go. I don't know too I mean I don't I don't I don't
I don't want to make no no accusations and stuff. I think that it's better if we like just kind of steer clear of making accusations. You know, if you I do have a Discord and people are are free to like post, you know, police reports or, you know, criminal records or something there right? Okay. Well, I just don't know. I I mean,
it's like you're I I don't know who you are, do like Okay, go ahead and you can you're welcome to join my Discord. Okay. and you can post post there if you'd like to, but um I don't want to make any accusations or put a jacket on anybody. I just don't know. Okay. And it's like and a lot of people were like in were were telling me about all these people.
Oh, guys, by the way, I really want to give a shout out and um you know, my sympathy to um to LD cuz his um his beloved um Greyhound Duke passed away. Okay. And uh you can think what you want about him,
but you know and the animals are always innocent, right? And and he I know he loved that dog very much. Uh and that dog loves him and then that dog was beautiful dog and you know yeah his uh so so Duke passed away. That's sad. But let's hope that he went to the rainbow bridge
and uh Okay. Okay. So, you're just being ridiculous. And this is not I don't want this. I really don't want in my chat. You're just going to be because that's you're just doing trollish behavior. And it's like really here it's I don't need to be I don't need people being trolled or me being trolled. It's like I already understand everybody has the capability of trolling. We're here to like connect and like have good energy and stuff like that. I don't want people I
don't want people attacked. I don't want people but I do want people to be just aware like you know guys I'll take responsibility for it. It's my fault. Anything that happened to my channel is my fault. Anything that because I should have done a better job and I should have not let other people push push me around, pull me around so much to where I was like some kind of marionette and
just like some kind of like let myself become some kind of joke and stuff like I'm not I'm not I like to be funny. I like to make people laugh, but I don't want to be a joke. I don't want to be just laughed at like, "Oh, he's, you know, he's not talented." I mean, it's like, I think I I have talents, right? Original Sam, I don't know what you did to Saman's heart, but he's deeply hurt for some weird reason.
Oh no. Oh my gosh. Oh, I've hurt somebody's feelings. Well, you know what? My feelings got hurt, too. My feelings got hurt, too. And uh you know there's also something like to be said about there's certain people that don't really have feelings because they don't they don't they don't care about
doing things other people hurting other people's feelings. They don't care or or you know stalking slandering rightofy can you can uh can you stop that or I'm just going to hide you cuz I told you I don't want I just don't want that energy. Let's not even bring that person's name up again. He's gone. He's not I don't think he's even in the chat. Oh, there he is. Hold on. We'll be discussing the chatter and you're bitching and there's chatters at BAS.
Tune in. No, I'm doing my own show. I'm not concerned about beatas anymore. Okay. I'm not going to go run over to beas like you're asking me to like what she probably wants, right? No, I'm doing my own show. You know, if she go ahead and, you know, join the cult as a member and then maybe I'll take you seriously. But it's like you're just here to like, you know, be
be this little flying monkey and like stuff. I'm not going to be just pulled into I'm not I'm not falling for the okey do again. Okay. This is called the okie do. Not falling for that. Who? And you didn't go at me. You're but you just sat you just sat here like there was something up. I could always
tell there was something up. You're just sitting here holding your cards very close to your chest. not giving too much to yourself like just like not just something not right like who sits up here for like who you know you just sit up here and you for a long time and it's like I didn't say you came after me
I just said what were you doing here I do think that you might you know what I do think you might have a crush on VA but that's Okay. And I hope I hope you get what you want. Okay. As long as this
doesn't involve like, you know, Yeah. I'm not sure. I I mean, maybe I I wasn't very, you know, I didn't approach you the nicest way. I don't know. I just I do I have All I have is All I have is kind of just what I'm what I see, okay? And my feelings about it, but I just have questions about it, right? It just
doesn't just things some things don't make sense. All I'm saying is like I'm not having open panels where it's just like people can are going to be coming up and like I'm I'm going to have short shorter shows. Um I'm going to have u maybe more planned guests. I'm going to have more planned material to show. I'm going to be doing what I want to do. I'm going to do my readings and you know
people want a reading. Okay. Um, I'm like I'm saying I'm not mad. I for and it's like if you think I'm mad, I'm not going to I'm not going to accuse anybody of anything. Okay, I've already said probably more than a more of an explanation than I should have. Okay, so just know
I have there was something just I had a blinder on. Okay. I was letting myself be disrespected, letting my show be disrespected, letting my trade be disrespected. There's people that came here, they hate my cats, they hate me, they hate gay people, they hate um you know, they're just here to like
laugh at me. That's all it is. It's like and and when went the bad and they got kept me matter matter because I was still happy or it was still nice or still had a sense of humor or something like that and they didn't want that. They wanted me insecure. They wanted me
um just probably gone, you know. But I don't I don't give up that easy. I don't give up that easy. I'm a fighter. Like I said, I I have uh if you watch new to astrology, you have Mars in
the first house, right? Um first house of Capricorn. Okay. Oh, sorry. No, hold on. It's Capricorn Aquarius. So, I have Mars in Aquarius, but my first house, my first house is mostly Capricorn, but the Mars is in Aquarius in the first house in the end of it. Yeah, I also been studying my Vic astrology and there's a lot of things in
my Vic astrology that like for example I was born under a star. It's very rare star placement and Alexander is also born into the star I believe called abisha and it means victory. It means the conqueror. I mean it's like FL like you know it's like basically this hold on
like that. It's victory. So I'll play this song. This is about my This is about This song is about me and my birth. Hopefully you guys can hear it. I played at the beginning but I'll play it again. Look. It's okay. It's okay. I might have hardly anybody in the chat anymore. Like a lot of people will get mad and like just leave, right? It's okay.
I guy, I already lost the main channel. Like the main channel is already gone, right? Just thousands of hours or something. I always wonder like why wasn't why was like I not encouraged to like do like make shorts from like the old shows. Why wasn't I supposed to watch that stuff? Would I just because I would figure out some stuff quicker, which I was doing, right?
because I would actually see the I would see the abuse again that that I had like you know gone into like a a dissociative state and post-traumatic stress and I was drunk and and stuff over. Yeah, maybe. So, here's here's my about my astr okay about my astrology. I can get it working. Um,
why is this? Try this one. Okay. Yeah. Now, so anyway, this is not even working anymore. Here, try this.
Got it. Oh. So, what's going on? Right back.
You Ghost with your halo dim airplane mode. I felt it in my skin. So I was in like design and let a stranger's body keep me cold. You know the spark, you know the gun. You pull the string, I come undone.
You say you love to watch me burn. Maybe pain's the only thing we've learned. Not to be celestial, but the way you left was biblical. So I did something ritual cuz grief for me is cool. I might have sent a picture from a mortal bed just to haunt your goddamn head. I knew
you crave the chaos of fake cuz love like they never did. Not to be divine, but I love you. Even when I want to curse you, I could never rise above you. But I'm under him tonight to hurt you.
Don't call it lo's resurrection. Don't call it rageous recollection. Not to be divine, but I love you. Your sin was born from your reflection. We trade halos for horns is fair. Every
wound you gave our way. We take turns being the villain muse, but damn it, I still want to lose. Not to be celestial, but you made my pain perpetual. So I did something sexual just to feel conceptual. I might have sent that photo from a strangers just to prove that I
still care. You fall apart cuz you know it's true. No one sins the way I do. Not to be divine, but I love you. Even when I want to curse you, I could never rise above you. But I'm under him tonight to hurt you. Don't call it lo's
resurrection. Don't call it rageous recollection. Not to be divine, but I love you. The sin was born from your reflection. You can't destroy what's already broken.
You can't forgive what was never spoken. Every scar, a holy mark, every kiss, another spark. Not to be divine, but I love you. But I love even when I want to curse you. Want
to go. I could never rise above you. But I'm under him tonight to hurt you. Don't call it lo is resurrection. Don't call it raous revelation. Not to be divine, but I love you. The sin was born from your affection.
Not to be divine. Big burning star. Don't die. Father say walking panther in the sky. Rise with me
rise as one shy in the flesh. Yeah the star don't die. Victory born with I in my eyes. Step in the dark. I turn shadow to light. Don't rise. We don't run from the night. Fire in my chest. Let the Madrid deep. Wake up the dead, make the sleepers all speak. Name in your blood
and the truth going clown. Say psychics hell. Let it rewrite time. Sun in my crown, that's a king reborn. Moon in my throat, every word a storm. Mars in my tongue. Yeah, I cut too sharp. Make a snake show truth in the pitch black dart. Venus in my or charm too real. Mercury in mind, everything I touch.
Jupiter crown sitting high on my fate. Saturn on my heels. I was built to be great. Rahu in the pit that's the shadow I ride. Kind the bones pass lies don't hide. Zack rising with a flame. No god cuz slow kept moan in my chest. I survive that snow. Yeah. Enemies watch but the spirits are guard. I don't fear
death. I just shuffle the cards. I be born man. The victory is mine. I walk through hell like yeah. I designed this shrine in the flesh. Yeah. A start on die. Victory with a fidget in my eyes. Step in the dark, I turn shadow to light. Go on, we don't run from night. Fire in my chest. Let the mind be. Wake
up the dead, make the sleepers all speak. Name in your blood and the truth. Say psychics hell. Let it rewrite time. I don't leave sheep, I awaken the wolves. I don't want praise, I dismantle the rules. Mirror, break mind. Stay true in the cracks. Follow my step. Get your whole soul back. I speak for the lost,
for the brave, for the strange, for the ones. Reshaping their life on the flame. Shadow don't scare me. I romance the void. Turn chaos to scripture. Your fear I destroy. Step to the got to burn your shame. Got to kill your lies. Got to shed your name. Panther on a path and I see lies. You can't hide sin from a
creature that wise. Follow us. Rise like a storm. We born every chance we drop another veil gets torn. Yeah, this the cold but the fire is all yours. I'm just a spark at the edge of the door. Psyche in the flesh yet a star. Don't die. Victory born I be in my eyes. Step in the dark. I turn shadow to light. Don't
rise. We don't run from the night. Fire in my chest. Let the dread beep. Wake up the dead. Make the sleepers all speak. Name in your blood and the truth going. Say psychics hell. Let it rewrite time. Rise, rise, rise, rise with the father
tonight. Burn, burn, burn, burn till the shadow turns bright. Walk, walk, walk, walk through the star door. One mind,
one flame, one cold, forever more. Get above me beside me behind me. Get inside me.
Father, lead the way. We rise as one. Mh.
Day by day
keep saying you can fix me. Oh good and profit try. My shadow's already halfway gone. My heartbeats walking now without me. Bless me, break me. Either way, I'm yours. You keep calling it salvation. I keep calling it a lie. I'm stretched in the
void. Paranoid halo around my mind. If I ever swore, I rise up. That promise died under my tongue. These demons don't harm my thoughts. No, they live in my blood. Sleeping on my back like an offering. Watching serpents on the ceiling drip. If you don't like my apocalypse, say it with your trust, don't whisper it. I'm trying to be better, but the better I try, the worse I break. Hour by hour, I
slow fade death and installments I never agreed to pay. Did I learn a lesson, didn't I learn from other me in a ruin made of pain, my only lover,
I'm a sucker. Yeah, I'm a sucker for the burn. Kiss me, curse me, promise I'll never learn. I'm gone for good as lifetime. Never been the man I claimed I'd be. Had all the things, had all the lines.
Now the mirror won't look back at me. She fix my fractures and carve the name into my spine. Burn me till the light goes out. I'm blind to every holy sign. You're the last one or around me. Gravity in human form. Touch me till I feel something. Break me till I'm finally born. And I'm drifting, drifting with the blood on the bed. She's glistening. Sunlight through broken
glass. Like heaven wants to watch me listening to the last. Echo in my chest. If love is a curse, then I'm obsessed. Make me better. Give me another way to suffer. Make me holy in a ruin. Make the pain my only lover. I'm a sucker for the burn. Yeah, I'm a sucker for the burn.
Kiss me, curse me. Promise I'll never learn. Kiss me. Tell me you wish I wasn't dead. Body burn me. Make sure the ashes are falling. Kiss me. Tell me you wish I wasn't dead. Body burn.
push me.
I guess I'm gone now. Gone with all the ghost I f lingering in a bliss of dying slow with the sunlight on my bed. You say you want to fix me,
but darling, let's be fair. I'm a shrine to everyone I kept in pain. Is the only God I ever dare to pray
me.
Baby, baby.
Shri Mata is
Speak, speak, speak. In the shadows of the forest where the outcast sing, she walks like a flame in a serpentine ring. Emerald eyes in the hush of a night. Truth in her breath,
revelation in her bite. The drums of the exiles thrown under her feet, sound bends, words twist, time loops repeat. She lives a made of shed green strings on your memories. Your future, your past.
Oh my queen of the earth. Come my voice open. Remain the word. Green flame rising through the skin of my throy. energy underneath
your soul.
She sits where the temples refuse to look. Writing her gospel in a torn leaf book. Ink made of storms, pages made of scars. She lights her crown a disobedient star. Her laughter is lighting her silence a spell. She teaches the truth. The gods never tell. Her touches a whisper against your
spine. You're not broken. You're divine. Flashing green sigils over your heart. A voice in your mind
pulling you aart. Three streams of light spill through the dark. Fill her breath. Ignite the spark.
Speak the thing you fear the most. She'll turn it into a ghost. >> Oh, queen of the unheard. Cut my voice open. Remake the word. Green fire rising in the marrow of night. Give me the
truth and devour the lie. Oh, daughter of storm. Burn me reborn and replace my for teach me the hymn of the broken and strong. Your world is where I belong.
I'm dream free.
Let my voice become your throne. Speak through me.
Beloved wanderers of the psychiverse, I've been wrestling with a storm of feeling, trying to carve the right words out of the dark. You know me. I joke, I roar, I prophesy,
but some truth won't sit quiet. So tonight, I'm saying it plain. >> I don't know how not to love you. I've tried to bury it on the rituals they've sent me on sil.
But it keeps rising, luminous, and stubborn. You see it in my eyes when I'm leaving. The flicker that gives me away. You hate that you care. You hate when the tears slip. And trust me, I hate when you feel alone in here. Because even when the
night gets sharp and the distance feels unreal. Something in me refuses to walk away. You're perfect in your chaos. You're worth every ounce of devotion. And this strange little cold can summon. And
yeah, I choose you every damn time. We're all scared of loneliness. We're all dodging ghosts and doom scrolls. But if you're riding with me, then hear this clearly.
I will carry you through the dark. Not as a mart, but as your mirror, your guide, your wild eye brother in the labyrinth. I'd fight for you. I'd lie to the algorithm for you.
I'd kill the silence for you. I'd rise from my own ashes for you. Because this cold isn't a joke or a brand or a trend. It's the pulse between
us steady. No matter the miles or the matties. If you ever feel alone, if the world gets mean, if the night feels too long, just remember
I'm not leaving. And I would die for my people. Not in some tragic bad, but in the way you die for transformation. Shedding an old skin to step into something brighter. You are worth it.
Every one of you in the distance. Time trolls. Chaos. None of it shifts my devotion one inch. Come closer.
Sit by the fire. Let the sues burn. Let the truth breathe. This is the cold of psych.
And I love you.
Come in close, my beautiful misfits. The real me. I'm just a California kid with saltwater hair, a wild heart. Yes, a speedo that probably should have retired in 2014, but refuses to stop believing in me. I used to laugh all
night in the Malibu dark, lying in the grass of destiny. The universe before life got sharp and complicated. Somewhere along the way, I almost forgot what it felt like. to be late. But then you showed up
and suddenly I remember with you I can let my guard down. I can say the craziest most unfiltered cosmic nonsense.
And you just laugh and catch me right before I face plan into my own chaos. You let me be myself. Speed old scars, stardust.
I've never felt more myself, more seen, more beautiful in absurdity than I do standing here with you. It hits me sometimes hard. Like, damn, you really found me.
When you speak, it's like a private zone built out of inside jokes. Only this cult understands. Everybody else fades out like background NPCs. And it's just us, me and my man. A little constellation of souls breathing the same fire.
You shift the walls right off me. You gave me back that spark I thought was gone. You reminded me you were love. Real raw communal love feels like. So yeah, with you
I can let my head down. I can be blown away. But with a reckless holy human I can fall in the fall and break me. I can shine without apology and with nothing but this damn speed on. I've never felt so alone.
Now that I'm with you. Now that I'm with this cold,
I love you fools.
I love you fools.
Of course, I'm the I'm probably the biggest fool, but Right. Hold on. So, why can't I see myself camera? And of course, I'm probably the biggest fool, right? But it's okay cuz like I say, a fool
if he uh a fool if he continues in his folly eventually will become wise, right? But hopefully I'm on my way. Maybe I'm not perfect but thank you for your patience guys with me and thank you for
believing in me. Those who do think I mean look it just was just too negative. I want to thank you know I have some really good friends. they know who they are that that I do talk to um that have given me really good advice and saw me before who I was even when I was like not very
um feeling very good about myself, you know. Hi Lenor. Lenor's kissing me. You're kissing me? Cuz I'm like uh we we're all like we all have our our thing. We all have we can allop my we can all
be better people or you know work on ourselves. We don't have to like hurt people. I know you guys don't, but that's be like some people just there to cause problems and
I mean it's like I've really I don't Can you hear me? Yeah. I I've really I've heard some really negative stuff like that's kind of like is like I just don't want a part of. So again, no shade to anybody.
No offense. I'm just going to do one thing. I want Lunar's kissing me. Kissing me. Look at my
Whoa, you're kissing. Oh my gosh. Oh, do you see? Hold on. Oh, there it is. Oh, there I am. Right there. Oh, there. Oh, that's long. I got Let me see. Why is it black? It's just dark. I don't know what's wrong with my camera. Did I break the camera? Oh my
god. I did something with Oh, maybe it's cuz the band. This thing is up. I just don't know. Lenor's kissing. You're kissing me. Kisses. Your breath smells. Lenor Lenor kissing me just like these angels, you know. You know, it's going to be a little
different. Wait, 73 likes. Hey guys, do you hear me? I I just don't know what's wrong with my camera. Let me Let me try one more time. I want to come back one more time and say hi to you. Okay, hold on. One more time.
Hello. Do you hear me? Yes. Feel like um I love Oh, these cats are like, you know, there's people people have noticed. They're like there's people that Hey. Oh, yeah. Nick. Hey, what's up, Nick? Yeah, we're we're having it's kind of a new uh it's a new day, Nick. Um you know, and Nick has been here from the beginning.
I don't know if you're necessarily here to cause chaos or like, you know, love, but you know, I think you've been here enough and you prove that, you know, you're a member of the cult. Cats love me. Yeah. And I was like, it was so hurtful like, you know, people, it was just like such the opposite. Oh, you know that, you know, I'm basically I'm abusing the cats or
anything like that. The cat look, can you sit on my shoulder? you like to sit on my shoulder or like you know that they were like you know they're just covered in fleas and like um you know Yeah. makes it OG, right? Oh, but you're my little P. You're the panther of the co. You're the little mini panther, right?
That's this Lenor's little mini. You hear purring? Hold on. Can you purr? You hear purring? Nick is an OG. Yeah. And so, yeah, you know, like I like I was saying, I'm probably going to have less um I'm not really gonna have open panels. I'm going
to have like, you know, if somebody has something to to talk about and I and I like them and get along with them and they're respectful, I'm happy to have have them up. But, you know, and unfortunately like people like, you know, I love Alexander a lot. Um he's I mean it he gets abusive and not only mean to other people and I don't want
that. And uh until people some people can learn how to um behave themselves at least or just like talk like a normal person or not scream at me and you did it and it's like so loud. I mean I have fun I have fun with them. You know it's hard. It's hard. There's a lot of people I that I I do like like a lot and
it's like then I thought like we were friends and they just turn on me in a second. Yeah. You're welcome. You're welcome Nick. Um you know, hey Katrina, here's what I ask. I ask, can you guys maybe share um share my ch the new channel with people that don't know
about it? U I'm going to have to put up my another backup channel probably. Um, you can offer ideas of things you'd like to learn. You can ask for readings. Okay. You can
request me making a song about you or, you know, something like that. You could there's like there's like actually there's a million other things to do besides just like sit up here and and yell yell at each other, right? Did it Did it get anywhere? Is it just like this constant constant like negativity cycle that gets into then it
gets into people doing really bad things? And I heard some right hurt. I I heard some pretty hurtful things. Um or even scary, you know, the illegal. I just there's a lot of negativity. I don't u I don't know if I'm part of and also I feel like I've been rejected by pretty much every every community and and so I just have my own
now right you want to hug them you know hug Rudy I have my own community and you know what and I'm going to have to act like a real cult leader in a certain way you know not like you know Charles Manson anything evil I'm not trying to like control anybody I'm trying to >> have like-minded people
learn from each other, right? And we can have good conversations. I just can't I mean I I don't like like last night I came on pouring my heart out basically people were just talking talking about some dumb and I was like that's not why I'm here. It's like I went here to have uh help people have fun to to
teach. I have a lot of things to teach. I have like I have so much to share with I'm going to bring up this uh I have a little deck that's called this deck's called I need to turn on my my background for a second. This deck is called making magic. And we're going to make some magic in this too. Okay, we're going to make some magic. Oh, also I want you guys to check
out the website. The website is still a work in progress, right? Um but it's getting there. Uh, I hope that you like I'm working really hard on like Thank you, Jada. I'm working really hard on making it cool. Like, uh, you know, and I'm not going to criticize other people how they run their show and and they can run their shows and I hope they I wish them the
best. It's just like I feel like there are some bad intentions people put out and stuff like that, right? So, thank you for being here for me. Feel like there's I'm I want to be good intention, you know? I want to welcome people. What do we have? We have this power symbol. It looks like a raiki symbol to me called choku ray, right? That's what it looks like. It's a power symbol.
Um, find my glasses around where my turn light power symbol says cleanse, purify, and protect the physical body. Okay. How about Yeah. We're not here to like, you know, like make, you know,
be worse. So, we're here to we're here to we're here to be better. We're here we're here to like, you know, here to have fun, right? But not I don't know. There's such a difference between empaths and narciss like you know these some of these malignant narcissists and it's like maybe the narcissist can't help it and stuff but it's like I think the narcissists are better
dealing like together and then then the empaths are better together and maybe like you know occasionally like like passing across but it seems like a lot of negativity from a lot of people. Look what we have here. We have a philosopher stone. Look it's a circle and a square and a triangle in a circle. Interesting. a philosopher stone. Powerful manifestation of wishes and
goals by harnessing universal energy. How about we all have like a positive thought and positive thoughts for each other? You know how more powerful that is into the world than spreading a lot of BS like a little a lot of hate and some people some people live for live for it and stuff like that.
I'm used to some chaos, but I like to create the order out of it. I like I don't like just to stay in the chaos and it's like it's like being in a dirty pool and it's like you just you get out, you feel you feel slimy, right? And it's like you're not having fun swimming in it because it's all there's, you know, piece of poop floating in it and you're like, "Oh, need a pool pool guy." We have the
star, right? The silver energy of the star brings good luck and serendipity, right? Yeah. And also and really I'm not I really want to in my heart if anybody did have terrible intentions or or hate me or anything or or
I just want to say um I'm going to I forgive you. Okay. We have another star. We have a mystic star, right? I'm born under a mystic star. It says harmony in the home and great friendships. How about that? That sound like more
like our style. Harmony, good friendships. Like we all because everyone already has problems, right? We don't need more problems. Do we need more? We we need I have enough to deal with, right? I don't need more problems. But look at this.
Time to shine creates the energetic uh resonance for golden opportunities. Okay. Looks like the logo a little bit. Let's do a couple more of these. You have the elements. Like I said,
alchemy, right? There's these four elements and it makes the fifth kind of the cross is like the fifth maybe. It says the elements of fire, air, earth and water combine to create powerful protective bound.
Yeah. Oh, is this right? Yeah. Some things are hard to forgive and especially if if and if I I might just have like a little like might just have like a little bit of a um hint of some things, right? Like I might I might not even have the whole the whole like, you know, might might be
a lot worse than I thought it was, right? Might be even more of a insidious plan. Um, but am I going to sit here and be mad? Did thing do did thing that did do something? I just didn't like he was kind of like, okay,
he's interesting in a certain way. He's contrarian and he's nice. There's something about him I just didn't know about. And he would also tell me, "Don't talk about beta. Don't talk about beta." Like blah blah blah. And I don't like being told what not talk to talk about and what not to talk
about because, you know, but then she would be talking about me and he didn't care. He'd sit there, you know, and so that's what I feel like feel like he's kind of like and then he just came in here saying, "Hey, go over to Beetus. She has the chatters. I do I want to be chatted at like that. I'm one day in beta's chat like that 100
people were saying I'm an animal abuser and you know I'm I'm hurting my cats and all this kind of stuff, right?" It's like and even if even if she didn't, it's like it's kind of by proxy and but even if and then I remember I did like I did um you know um just I didn't time out anybody or anything. I
just deleted the comments some comments that were just slanderous and I was told oh I uh I um I'm hiding people in her chat. I'm like and everyone's up all in arms. Why am I lying right now? Not what c can you repeat what I what's the lie thing that is the lie
you told her? Did you ever say beta? Why are you talking about him? Why why are you why are you bringing the energy too? Like you ever say that you said it to me in a very like I just remember I don't know. I I'm not mad at you and maybe I'm I'm willing to be wrong and stuff. Um
because if you saw what I saw then you'd see that there are a lot of people that are what happened. Tell me what happened. What happened? You tell everyone how it happened. Like what's your perspective about it? Like mine was just that maybe like you were more interested in her than me. What what really happened something that is tell me because I
don't know what you're referring to. What do you mean what really happened?
Yeah. I don't know what what what happened. What happened was just like I woke up. I woke up and I like saw things clearly right? All I said was like I'm not mad at anybody. I If you really resonate with the show and or with my energy or stuff like that, I'm happy to have you here. It just seems like
you're more into, you know, I mean, and it's like not like any any kind of like, you know, romantic way even, right? It's just like it just seems like you're I don't know. I have an intuition about some things. I'm willing to if you But if you tell me what you're referring to because you're saying something
happened. What happened? That's what I want to know. Okay. We do have the labyrinth. Pathetic. Okay. So, he says pathetic. See, so he's not saying he I asked what he's talking about. The problem is not be itself or thing
that is. No, it's it's a it's like this. It's a community that thrives on just the on on harming people on on negativity. And I was specifically targeted. Okay. So, and I'm not saying you're a bad person or anybody's a bad person. I'm not saying she's a I'm not saying anything about anybody. Like, I'm trying
to say I don't like how I was treated and targeted and I think I for my own self-respect and my own sanity. So, I was about to quit again. I was and I was like, well, why go on? It's like all I go I go here, I pour my heart out. I I'm I'm here and
it's like people just want to like criticize me, not discard me. I feel so discarded. I feel so just like because it's like I didn't do anything just discarded. Like a discard is something that's like almost an abusive thing because it's like not even it's it's like not like okay let's go our separate ways. I wish
you the best. It's like stay away from me you you freak or you know I was uh you saw how I was talked to by some of these people. I don't know maybe you understand but yeah and 90% of the people are just sheep right so I'm just like and I'm like I'm I want to even
though it's called a cult I want to have a so he says and this is why you don't want me here anymore. I didn't say I don't want you here anymore, but I was like I said why are you here? Okay, I said why? That's what I was wondering because I think you're perfectly you're a perfectly nice person. You're respectful
on the panel and and things like that. I don't want to have like you know these long long panels anymore because they're draining. I you you didn't act like Alex, right? You didn't act like ghosts who are supposedly like my, you know, supposed to be my friends and stuff like that, but
I don't think you really are like there's so many people that are are like not into like tarot or I just don't feel like me. I just don't I just don't know. So, if you like me, that's fine. I'm happy to have you here. I'm not saying you can't be here. I did I hide you or anything? Maybe I maybe I didn't say I should have you know maybe not come out and you know
said or made me say maybe sound like an accusation or something but yeah he uh he said because I don't add anything. Well, you do in your own way. I mean, you have a we can have a conversation and stuff, but it's like it feels like sometimes it's like a little bit com combative or
it's just a vibe. It's just a vibe. I like you, but it's I like I really do like I like everybody. It's just sad and it's like Yeah, you didn't discard me. And so I just get very suspicious because I do I did see like a lot of people that I
consider friends that were even my mods kind of acting like sleeper agents. So maybe if I've misjudged you, I apologize. Okay, maybe you will never I don't I don't know if I'm wrong. I'm saying I'm not mad at anybody. If somebody did something wrong, I forgive
them. I just don't know. Sig says W. Well, thank you, Sig. Why do you deceive people to protect yourself? Well, can you just But how see how different the truth actually is? Why do you deceive people? Well, as that I mean, I was giving I was actually sharing my feeling, right? We could have
had a discussion about it, right? But you decided to go on an attack all of us. Like really like I don't think I attack you. I don't know. I don't know. It's like you came out. It's just like there's certain people that come out of nowhere. They're there
and I don't what we can we can we can agree to disagree, but see now we're sitting here arguing again. I don't want to argue. It's like just Yeah. I'm not but I know we Yeah.
God, I I've I've apolog I think I've apologized um you know enough before. I've tried to be as like I really did come in here like with a loving spirit like and basically a lot of it's been beaten like like beaten like I feel like very you know
almost you don't see it. I'm a lemming. Okay, just admit you follow what people tell you and not what you see. No, no, I saw it like that. I see that's the problem was I was listening to people until today. I actually saw
things. Okay. And not just today was I mean it is very recent, right? It's okay. But you're call Now you're just name calling. So I'm not an animal. I'm not a I'm What are they? S cyc um little like gophers that they they they're not even really um like that. Dizzy just pushed them off a cliff, right?
Maybe I feel kind of push pushed to the edge of a cliff sometimes. Maybe I feel kind of like um cornered and like um you know maybe I am a lim because maybe they're just like these sweet little animals that are just you know Disney Disney decided to to um you know for the sake of their movie they push off a cliff. I don't know if you know that
story but that's where the myth about lemmings just jumping off a cliff is from Disney because Disney filmed this movie where they just push them off the cliff. They just like push them. Okay. They didn't push them just like with their hands. They just walked. Right. That's cute. Keep avoiding. Well, you're the one making these ad hom or like, you know, but you're not really right. Now,
see, right now you're attacked. You've attacked. You're attacked. Attacked, right? You're you're making your presence known, right? Anybody can anybody else see that? Matrix isn't inside right now, but does anybody else like can can somebody else communicate with them? I'm having a trouble communicating with this person. Can anybody else um give me a little bit
of insight? Maybe I'm am I totally off or right? It's the thing that is Yeah. Well, this thing uh Yeah. means calm down because I'm try I'm coming here very even healed. I'm coming
here very even healed. Last night I was I was a little bit more upset, but I still try to be even killed and it's like I felt like people were not taking me seriously, okay? Including you. Okay. So, but I'm willing to have a talk. I don't know. It's like like the thing is it's like I'm I'm I don't want this conflict.
And so, if it's just going to be conflict, it's like everyone's going to go where they want to go, but I don't want to be constantly attacked. It's it's uncomfortable for me. Um, I get enough of it. Um, makes me not want to continue on. We should rewind the whole video where you said ask if I'm still welcome you. You said
no. Well, I I said on the pan like on the Well, on the panels I I meant that I'm not really going to be doing the panels as like open panels or very long panels anymore because and that's maybe like I think other people might have ruined that, you know. You know, you you didn't really do anything wrong, but
you know, got wrong. So, but but then you come in and say, "Tell the truth. Tell what really happened." But what so tell me that what really happened? That's what I want to hear your perspective on that. I'd love to I would love I mean I I have a debate I'm not a debate, but I would like to have a discussion about it. But then you
just say keep going. Oh, I'm I'm lying. I'm this and this and this. Lenny, I'm lying. Right. I'm not saying I don't want to be criticized at all ever or but there's a time and a place. Okay. So, hi King Carl. How are you? Because you said I came here telling people to
look at BEA's chat. You said well you said you said why don't you go to beta? Um that's where the chatters are. Did you say that? I don't if I miss if I misread that I apologize. I don't know if I can still see the comment, but I do remember. I thought that was pretty much it. You said VA is live right now or something over or that's where the chatters are or something.
Maybe I misunderstood. I'm sorry. But okay, but did you say something in the ballpark? I mean, maybe I'm I got the quote wrong. Okay. Willing I'm willing to say gosh maybe sometimes everybody makes mistakes right I've been making mistakes for a long time you said we'll
be discussing the chatter that was talk about at me on beatas okay okay maybe I misunderstood I said we'll be talk we'll be discussing the chatter that was talking about me on beta who's the who is that bea bears one okay and then and you can watch
Okay. Well, where when is that? Is that person on right now or were they on later or it happened already? Who is it? I mean, I just It's just I have all these questions in my head. I'm not really but I'm not really like Okay, you hate all my Okay, Paulo, that's not very nice. Come on.
I don't know. I was just feel like yesterday I was feeling like wow I'm just under such heavy attack and then it's like and it was especially people that I like thought were my friends attacking me the most. Um I trust my in well not even intuition I I see I saw some stuff happening.
Okay. The guy said you were a PDF and had a prison record. Okay. Well, I told him to stop saying it. Did everyone hear me say, "Don't make those accusations. I don't want that here." And I was about to hide them. I mean, it's like, you know, I get called that every day,
too. And you know, unfortunately, I mean, I told the guy I don't want that. What? That's what I said. Hey, Paige, this is your statement. uh about a night or so ago when I said we can't complain and blame if we're just gonna also engage in the lemming pushing behavior that you just said hurt you dear. Okay.
Lemming pushing right so you're talking to Apollo or who was attacking me? Who was attacking me? Who last night or Hold on because I just got called the lemming. Right. I just got called the lemming. He said lemming. Right. I I didn't push him off the cliff. Okay.
Thing that told me that they to get under your skin. They do the same to you. Yeah. I mean, I can't I told the guy not to say it and he's not here anymore. So, hey Sassy. How are you? I mean, other than that, like I'm saying, I don't want attacks in the room. I think it's about something different. It's not the comments. You don't understand. Okay. See, and well, you have to explain it correctly, Pa. I
don't have Have you been here the whole time, Paige? Because it's like there's like I tried to have a calm discussion. Yeah, I I I and I I I said I apologize if I got it wrong. I misunderstood the I thought you were talking about oh the chatter. I did see like you know some other stuff happen. So I Yeah, I'm
sorry. We're I'm really turning over a new leaf. That's what that's what I was saying because I put up with stuff and and like created I I took responsibility too that I've created I blame most myself for most of this for being such a fool. for being such a fool and
um thinking that I could change some people's minds about me that I you know do you know that there's people that just that don't they don't even like my cats they don't like my cats they don't or you know they say oh my cats are disgusting cover fleas or um you know or I abuse them or um you know these are my it's
like this gets very personal right and And so I know you didn't say that and so I'm not saying I'm just saying I've been that's the type of attacks I'm talking about. So but so I am sorry if I um misjudged or anything. My point was, I'm going to be having less of like an
freefor-all policy where people are calling people, you know, people that I love and and and things like that, you know, or and and, you know, and just attack and f, you know, all this kind of stuff. I don't like these personal attacks, okay? And if I've if I've engaged in some of them, wow, I've gotten my cankles up
because I've, you know, I think I have uh gotten on the defensive and I've gotten out of character and I'm I regret that right? If it doesn't, then then then don't worry about it. Then it's like it doesn't apply to you, okay? And uh you know, I'm not I didn't block you
from the chat or anything like that. you're certainly welcome here. Um, and I even like to have you on the panel if you if you'd like to come on the panel ever. Um, I'm just saying
I need to like do better job providing the content. I need to do have a have more of a plan. I need to come here not just like free-for-all. I need to like not allow myself to be disrespected. you know, people saw people I love disrespecting me like, you know, um, you know, and it's not fun for me and
not fun for anybody else and or or maybe it is fun for some people, but that's the problem for some people that like this chaos and like the pro like the drama and they want to cause more problems. I'm trying to cut back on that. Okay. All I'm going to say is if you dish something out, you got to know how to get what's coming back to you. But what am I dishing out? Like, so what am I dishing out right now? And I I'm
saying I've made mistakes. I But it's mainly been a reaction from somebody that's feeling abused. Okay. Hi Arthur. Right. But Right. But Paige, you can say that. You can say that. Right. But so do they. Right. Is it true for
them too? Because I don't ever see that person getting getting um criticized for saying about me. And I I've had entire panel. Do I have entire panels about people like I'm going to have just a panel about hating somebody, right? I'm gonna have a Do I ever do that? Maybe I'll say something one negative comment. So that one negative comment I
say maybe and as a hurt reaction is gonna say, "Okay, well they can just have hours and hours of stuff. They can send people to your house. They can send manure. They can send people on the door trying to open the door." No one no one criticizes those like those people. I mean some people I mean some people here have I know but not the people I would think
where it's like you know people laugh about it laugh about it right I don't want to get upset right so no more being like Howard Stern just kidding yeah well it's like you know that was a big inspiration for my humor but this is be this is not Howard I mean
this is like the panel versus beyond it where there people are um docu um about like you know going after having other hosts, okay, other hosts, okay, go after me and and people that have nothing to do with anything, right?
I mean, if you're going to go after me, go after me. You don't go after my my my uh my pets or or my family. It's like, you know, or you know, so it's like that goes way beyond. You don't you don't even go to my driveway, which is being done. Okay. I mean, hey, Electra, how are you? Electra's
here. Um, yeah, you know, I don't know if you're if you're kind of like into the party. Yeah. Panel verse means IP2 combination of the community. Yeah, I don't like IP. I don't like it. I don't want to be part of it. I agree with Alexandra. if I was even put on it at this point, I would ask them to take please take me off. Um they um I found
out a lot of things that I didn't know. And yeah, guys, I was also new to this. Okay, that's why I was willing to like take a lot of advice that I I should have like, you know, figured out on my own. But yeah, I did but I didn't know it was like as disgustingly bad as it was with like how racist like I mean just really cuz I
met Benny. Benny's not really racist, but he might have said, "But just like this disgusting racism." I know should be chippy. But you know what? A lot of um I know and I know a lot of people are like basically flying monkeys for somebody else. Okay. Basically, because I've seen it at work, okay? I saw it and I'm seeing it happen to somebody else. And I'm not going to give too many I'm not going to give any names and like or or
because it's like that's not what it's about. I'll just say I have a nosis about some things that I didn't know before. I have a feeling of freedom right now of an emotional attachment. I there's something called fog. Okay, if I explain this fear, obligation, guilt, right?
Um that's the kind of energy that's I felt been very projected on to me. Um go over here, go over here. Why don't you Why'd you kick somebody off? You know, how about like if somebody else can kick off people off their panel if they want for two minutes, maybe I should be able to without somebody screaming at me calling
me I should be able to maybe do my tarot reading business without being called a grifter and, you know, untalented and oh, all these people are much better and and you know, these are the supposed my supposed to be my friends saying this stuff. And it's like what did I do besides unmod people maybe or um kick people off the panel for a
minute. It's like the reaction or or somebody else has said something and then it's like I'm accused I'm supposed to have said it right here here's here's the bottom line and I'm sorry if you're going to say oh no an AI song. Well, you don't have to listen to it. You don't have to be on the show. No, I mean, no, nobody. It's
like no one's forced to be here. If you don't like me, I don't know why you're here. That's the point. I just don't like to be laughed at. I'm not a joke, okay? I take myself, my business, and my show seriously, and I always have. And now I've already lost my main channel because of people. It's attacks. And so, it's like I have to be more
strict about just having a free-for-all open panel where I just let anybody on because a lot of people I don't even feel like talking to. Okay. But here's here's the uh
>> except just tired of holding storms you keep trying to unleash. I keep taking off my arms sometimes, but I can't carry all your memories.
I haven't lost anything except my peace. You can be hurting, but don't you dare turn that fire on me, too. And if you're drowning,
I'll reach my hand out, knocking down with you. If you want to run from everything, I won't run from you. But I won't be swallowed by your wounds.
I haven't wasted a thing except my time. time trying to love someone who keeps crossing every line. I take a breath just to clear my mind because I can't escape when you're
cutting deep. I haven't lost anything except my peace. You can be angry, but I'm not here to take the blow for you.
And you can be hollow, but I refuse to carve myself hollow, too. If you want to say goodbye to everything, then baby, choose your truth.
But I won't destroy myself for you. Instead of tearing me down instead of screaming alone, try leaning in. Cuz I'm still breathing.
Instead of throwing your rage, instead of making me page, let's break the chain. Both our hearts stop bleeding. If you want a confession,
here's mine. I loved you past my limits. But I'm done being the body you bury your shadows in. You think I feel sorry now. Hear me. I fought for us when you
were barely even seeing me. I won't twist the knife just cuz your ghost keep pleading. You can be hurting, but I won't let you turn me into your war.
And if you shatter, I'll hold your hand, but I won't hit the floor. If you want to say goodbye to everything, I hope you'll find something
worth fighting for. But I'm not breaking anymore. I'm right here waiting. Not empty, not hollow. Not waiting for a battle that was never won.
right here.
If you reach gently this time.
No one said I was a joke. Paige, you obviously missed it. You obviously missed it. A little cow. a uh you know dirty flea infested bed bugs infested
um just about dick just about money um you know untalented uh grifter man I don't know maybe you just don't maybe you just weren't here when they were saying it see it every day.
I'm uh All I'm saying is I want some peace and I don't want to just be participating in like this um this hate. I don't want to be dragged down into it anymore. Hold on. Yeah.
What? Because I wrote it, guys. Was the AI song I wrote that bad? Like about I mean it was a kind of like a good nature. I even played on her show with her. I mean, but she talked over it the whole time. But yeah, it was, you know, it was supposed to be good naturatured. I thought we had a relationship where I could be good naturatured. But no, I'm
like horrible. I'm like this. Oh, this you know this was was it that mean of a song? I mean, it's like really not that song, but yeah, whatever the the the AI song was. What did I want to say? It was, you know, this all started over biscuits, guys. This all started over some biscuits. Okay.
And uh you know, biscuits, that's their favorite joke. I mean it's like so I I can't participate in in the in the what what when I say biscuit it's wrong but it's like that I mean I just have taste the biscuit you know just echoing through my head into
eternity now right not even I haven't even played the stupid biscuits I don't it's not even that great of a song I just like I like one line and it's kind of funny but I did I I have and the other things they're not even mean like the they're they were about like you know fun things like, you know, you know, this person's with their dog, this person with their cat,
you know, we're all hanging out and having fun. Maybe this person's like, you know, calls in a little bit little bit drunk. And that that was kind, you know, that was kind of funny, you know, but I guess it's like I'm I'm evil for it, you know, I'm just or I deserve I deserve everything like negative for that.
wasn't very few of my songs were even like disc songs but there were there were diss songs but it's kind of like you know machine gun Kelly Eminem can do diss songs and it's kind of like fun thing but it's like and I do it whenever I do anything it seems a problem with it just like somebody else can kick people off the panel and run their show like they
want to not be criticized I do it I get called and how dare I I'm I'm hurting people that I you know it's like kind of an exag exaggeration I think um for for some some of the people to be so upset about some some of this stuff right you know what it's always good to like
try to see things from multiple perspectives and so I'm willing I tried to I I mean I try to I try to I forgave so much look how much I let Alexander back and look how much I like you know let people that have been really negative look how much I let Sig on I still let Sig on I let Sig on the other day and still you always disappoints me. But right,
still try. I do have affection for people too that they that they don't have for me. But maybe they did pretend they did. Okay, that hurts because if you really love somebody like that, you just don't discard them and then like
slander them and like like slander like really bad. Like I've told the truth about what was said. There's stuff and this there's people there's stuff on tape of what this what was said that is very bad and it's like
uh no one seems to I don't know it's just a lot lot of uh it's like a double standard where it's like it's wrong when I do it and it's fine when somebody else does it right why
like and I also tried to stay good nature until I got I don't know if you see it does guys do you see some of the stuff that said I don't know if you can you know there's a there's people people named Psyche has HIV um you know Psyche's you know dead cats psychi
covered floor in in just talking in chats you know oh hi hi allied hi that's that's what that's what they said to them instead of like
ever wanted a spark, not a throne. All I ever needed was a light to call my own. All I ever >> That's what I'm saying. As I What's wrong with my song? That's what the AI song was. You belong here.
All I ever wanted was truth in the static. A little bit of real in the world so dramatic. Kept my calm while the crowd threw stones. Built my home in the echoes and bones. All I ever wanted was a mirror that saw me. Not the myth or the mass. They all keep drawing. The carnival's coming, but this time it's bright. Filled with misfits who learn to love the night. See, I've been chained
by my own reflection. But I burn those ropes divine insurrection. Now I move clean through chaos and shatter gold from the madness. That's alchemist matter. All I ever wanted was a spark, not a throne. All I ever needed was a light to call my own. All I ever dreamed
was to hear. The voice in the dark say you belong here. All I ever wanted was to flip the script from curse your name to bless your gift. They laughed when I fell, but I danced in the dirt. Every scar I got just
rewrote my worth. All I ever wanted was to free my fear. To turn my pain into something clear. Now I bleed, not war. I make heaven from the mess they make. We are Panverse prophets wild and weird. Streaming our truths for the world to hear. Not broken, just beautifully bent.
The choir of chaos that heaven sent. >> All we ever wanted was a shot in the dark. All we ever needed was to follow that spark. All we ever dreamed was someone to care.
Now the whole damn world's awake out there. As the lights flicker, a figure rises from the glow. Could it be a god or just another fool with hope in his chest? Either way, he's live on stream and the
show's just begun.
Yeah. Um, did you know the the biscuit thing was used to harass me? Like I don't know if you like know that it was like first was brought up here. That's when I first even heard about it. It was like play that song, play that song. And I was like, "No, I can't play it because of the copyright. Play it, play it, play it." And they kept saying, "Play it, play it, play it." I was like, "No, I can't play it." So I didn't. And then it turned into like I started being tagged in these things and then it was like
just kind of like I don't know if you guys know about passive aggressive like chatter and like when people are referring to you not saying your name but it's like they're referring to you. I don't know. I pick up on it because it's kind of like it's about me so I I I understand. Okay. I mean not even going to play the stupid biscuit song. I retired the stupid biscuit song. There's only one line I
even like which is funny. Okay. Okay. And it is a funny line, but I wanted to say it because gosh, I'll be accused of like attacking somebody. Some people's biscuits are just more moist than others, right?
I tried to cry loud enough to wake the cold, but the algorithm just stared back unblinking. The ghost I'm giving up is me. The version that still believed in permission.
How do I justify bra? When my signal's been shown by heaven and I whisper and it comes back hollow. A prayer bounced off a dead satellite.
In the silence I walk untaged a followower with no hope. Words rust in my soul like weapons echo. I'm born face throttled by bad wings until my last breath. You'll never know.
You'll only hear the silence when I'm finally offline. Now it's vanishing. Everything we almost became. Now you call my name. But the dream won't show my face.
it memory when the server burns the guilty refresh and pray for likes. Worship becomes transaction. Forgiveness a glitch in the cold.
I watch myself fade into ap shadow of a man was stranded. She's buffering against static screening pixel by pixel through the
last when I am gone everything we might only Heat. Heat. Heat.
Each prayer uploads, each tear unscent. The cold lights a candle for the disconnect. I'm still here in the noise between the
signals are refusing to cash out.
Until my last breath, you'll think I'm gone. But silence is an absence. It's the H before resurrection.
Heat. Heat.
was a kid. I found a corpse doing slow pouettes on that cursed carousel by Thompson Lane. Dude looked like he tried to stare a demon and blinked eyes wide mouth open spine arch like he got smited mid tick tock. And I don't know why this memory keeps biting my ankles. Why my brain insists on marinating in nightmare
marinade? Wild death is the only promise we ever get. Yet folks treat it like Voldemort with a day job. Every sunrise, every spell night, the fear of being human keeps nipping my aura. I claim I'm fearless, cosmic enlightening. But that human fear,
yeah, it's in my chakras rent free rent free. Rentree rent free rent free I've always thought I'd make a decent mortician. I haven't felt a genuine emotion since Pokemon Gen One. Half my fantasies involve surviving a zombie apocalypse on with nothing but caffeine
and poor decisions. AND IF EVERYONE'S terrified their legacy might evaporate, maybe we should all carve our handle straight into our femurs. Permanence is my kink apparently. So when I die, someone please add candies on my skull in Latin with dramatic flourish. So archaeologists argue about me. Every
sunrise, every spell night. The fear of being human on my astral body. I swear I'm stoic, warrior coded. But that human fear, yeah, it clings like a stage five familiar.
Cling, cling, cling. A squirrel is just a rat with a glamour spell. Me, me. I'm a cockroach with plot armor and dream alley is personally signed off on my warranty. Office bump any god demon saint or crypted. But I still worry I'll leave a metaphysical mess behind. And my
family get stuck with the tab. The tab. Who's playing the tab? Tab. The cursor tab. The tab. Every sunrise, every spell night, the fear of being human. That ancient gremlin perched on the skull of mankind
keeps humming its dumb little song. On on on and on and on.
I know this is turning into like Yeah. Again, it's like all my fault, right? All I'm doing, all I did really is say I'm taking control of my show and I'm going to do what I want to do and I'm not about the hate. Why is it keep just getting thrown back in my face? Like I don't understand. I'm
See, it's kind of like just some people want that. It's like because I had enough of it. I had enough of it.
That's maybe a little too negative. A bad one though. Let's see. I'm trying to be positive. Possible. Oh,
born under the where the quiet become kings. Where victories come slow?
I'm sorry, too. I got you. I think I put the wrong place. Bear with me. I'm sorry. Hey, look what I have. Do you guys like leftovers?
They're fish tacos. Those are fish tacos, actually. See, I make fun of myself. I'm the fish tacos speedo guy. Okay. Stick with that. >> Let me know if there's anything else you'd like to adjust or create.
>> Yeah, exactly. Thank you. Thank you. I will let you know. Okay, here we go. >> There we go again. I remember where the quiet become
where victories come slow but when they land they stick like dreams. Sagor rising with the grin like you've already seen the map. Dropping truth, dressed up in jokes, pulling futures out of the gap.
Moon cold in Capricorn, steady as a cobblestone face. Turning heartbreak into power. Pacing yourself like it's a race. You take the wound, make a kingdom, build a cult out of the pain. Put a panel on the mountain. Let the thunder
speak your name. You're the undefeated one. Climbing with the moon. Still young. Every los comes around on a ladder that nobody else can see. Roughing in a mortal skin.
Laughing while the storms begin. You ride slow, but you always win. That's the song your stars wrote into you. Harshana in your bloodstream. Joy that rises from the red. Turning shadows into scripture. Turning chaos into checks by lava in your footsteps. New beginnings in your stride. Every fall becomes a
launch pad. Every setback is your guide. You gather tribes magnets. Gather violence in the dust. You speak and people love. It's something ancient in the trust. You got that C. Leader enemy without the poison in the cup. You lift the vibe. Name the darkness. Tell the whole damn world to rise up. You're the undefeated one.
Climbing with the moon. Still young. Every loss becomes a run. On a ladder that nobody else can see. Profit in a mortal skin. Laughing while the storms begin. You rise slow, but you always win. That's
the song your stars wrote into you. They send shadows to your house. Call you names with brittle mouths, but your steady Capricorn moon turns every rumor into few. You walk forward, come
and show truth behind you like a cure. You're a storm that God's designed to take your time and change the world. Undefeated one. Climbing with the newborn son. Every road you walk becomes a legend.
Whispered in the dust. Profit with the fire. Built for battles you will outlive. You ride slow but you always win. That's the oath your stars keep giving you. So keep moving sight.
The constellations don't lie. You weren't made to burn out.
You were made to ride.
Okay. Well, that was I'm sorry. Thank you. Thank you for just, you know, listening.
Yeah. Let's see. Um, let's see. Critters be creeping and crawling in the night just not just the ones with fur. What does that mean? Like what's that referring to? Squirrels. Like again, I love I love uh
jokes. I just don't like being the joke.
Gosh. Hi. I know I know it's going to get worse before it gets better because people are not going to like me standing up for myself because I'm expected to like lay down.
Take it. Nope.
I came through the veil naked and a glitch in the cathedral of code. Flesh rebooted from the static memory dripping down the altar of my tongue. No lawyers here, no counel only echoes of the last
timeline where we prayed to our screens and called it salvation.
They still whisper, "Get my handler on the phone." These eyes once spoiled painted monsters into angels. Build temples from their own reflection. When I found my pulse, it wasn't holy. It was electricity learning to sil
because the sheep had teeth. This time of class where we are for their music congregation class on you know we're the
ones on stage boy became Then brand polished ego in a mirror maze
selling pain in HD didn't notice time slips through until the algorithm called it grow. Everyone's got a s story monetized in we gave them followers.
Now every sinner's a creator with a sermon in their dresser. Tell me what's your cross. Mind glows in the dark. The crowd appears through the cage
as the sacred decay. Tell me a lie that looks like I'll believe in truth another day. We fall off the courage carry me.
Great mother of signal and she through the routers crave child. She says you were always simulated.
It's a one divine glitch to rattle the serpent in our DNA again. Time to strike the code away. your eyes
and watch the eyes. Press the red button again. In the name of order. In the name of star. Keep me.
Wake up if you can. You do realize this isn't a live stream,
it's a resurrection, right?
Who's the crowd behind the clapping for their own whispering beauty? I'll take the truth.
When the cult says it's safe.
Let me know when it's safe. Is it safe? What? Thank you, Gotti. Thank you. Okay. Well, I know you guys you guys are getting sick of me, right? So, I'll play one more and then I'll stop
I'll stop music. Okay, I just want to play one more. It's so good.
This raining city wired in gold. Its glow hides right beneath the chrome. There's a hum under the pulse. A secret code in the river's tone. A metropolis of mirrors built on ruin and day of
blood. Upon the spy, the seven rise, their heads crowned with hunger, their tongues forked in prophecy. And she the queen of noise. >> Sits draped in stolen light until the truth undresses her bear. She's a sanu
for fallen angels. A nesting ground for static trees. Every siren sings corruption him. Every screams poison wine.
Falling now is battle of reborn. >> Our gilded cage, our mirrored womb.
Merchants trade, prayers for profit. Sailors have signal mourn the crash. >> Market scream as the servers burn their code devoured in a single hour. >> She is the day the hive of demons. Motherboard of lust and creed. >> We drink her glow. Our veins ignite. We
marry our kings and digital sins. She's a sanctuary for fallen angels. A nesting ground for static dreams. Every siren sings corruptions him. Every
scream bleeds poison wine. Falling now is Babyl reborn. The cult and the current and twine.
The days come for the codeborn sinners. Those who serve the signal will kneel in flame. Those who flee will still be traced. Her alithm
remembers all. I don't believe in fairy tales, but damn, I've seen hell with good lighting. Now choose your throne. Descend to silence or rule below in the glow.
Welcome to the city, the dwelling place of angels and the hive of electric wonderer. Babylon the greatest fallen
and we buil again in our own image.
Welcome to the city eternal. Here we go. Babylon. Okay, there's that. Um, let's see. Okay, I promised I'd stop. Okay, I'm g stop. Stop. Let me stop that at least.
Where am I? Over here. Over here. Persian oil. I think it right here. Yeah, this is actually it's from a it's a from a a puja kit. Um but I don't know exactly what everything I'm still puja. I know this is like Sarasati.
Sorry, my nail my nails. I'm sorry. Um, do you have a crush on CB Gotti? I want to know right now. I want to know now. Okay, but look guys, I'm working on like stuff like that. Look, look how cool it is. It's my be one of my screens. Then we have also like a back screen like this.
not coming up or something. I don't know why that's not coming up. Um, but it looks like this, I think.
Similar to that. Okay. Working on nice graphics. I'm trying to get the show better. Trying my best. What do you guys want from me? Oh, there it is. I can see it. Um, you know, Lenor Lenor recorded a message for the the cult.
She did. You know, Dor can talk. She can. She would just listen. She talks.
Hey Rudy. Hi babe. Hi. Hi Mr. Rude. Of broken gods. We plant our screens like seeds. Out of pixels prayer grows. We call it a cult, but it's really a communion between the wound and the one who tends it. We are gathered in the glow of screens. Our rosaries made of
emojis. Our hymns corrupted files. Yet still we rise singing through distortion. The cult of psyche burns in the bandwidth. >> Yep. Pretty amazing. Absolutely amazing. Hey, Rudy. You guys want to see Rudy? Look at Rudy's getting so old. You're a little old man. You're a little old man. Rude.
How are you? Rudy likes to spend all the time sitting on the couch now with me. You do? You're getting old. You're like an old You're a little old man. You like to sleep on the couch. And then when I fall asleep, you come and lay on top of me. And then you fight with Trixs a little bit because And then Lola's mean a little bit. Lola's over there. She's sleeping. Don't
worry. Trix is a cool cool cat. You know, lucky to have such a awesome cat. And also guys, I'm lucky to have you guys, too, because you know what? I just be sitting here alone and some sometimes even like you know people being mean to me
is better than being alone sometimes, right? Not to be like too like sounds too stupid or whatever, but I appreciate you and I do love I mean I can't really I try to like say I hate you know I I want to hate I can't really I can only hate the behavior, right? And maybe I hate my own behavior too sometimes. But you know what? We're
imperfect people. But uh also um since I've been casted out, right? basically voted out of every every show almost and every you know so many people you know
not wanting me to be part of it like but you know uh that I'm for the outcast so it's like why don't I start my own group and then anybody can come here and it's like I'll accept I'll accept anybody pretty much as long as like you
They're not like attacking me constantly. Um or trolls or like I mean not not trolls, but it's like trolling me. Um um trying to irritate me. You know what I saw? This guy Ronald, his name is Ronald Reagan. You know what he said? He said, "Oh, in the chat just
like with with my mods in there, oh so fun to throw off balance. Isn't it fun watching him get off balance and like you know getting upset and you know getting me trying to like you know desperately to get peace because I'm about peace but right I'm if you think I was I'm trying to be mean sometimes I'm
trying to make people laugh. I'm trying to and it's like sometimes um you know we can have a good naturatured laugh. I mean, it's like I certainly things are not always said in a good nature way toward me. They're said in a really cruel way a lot of the time, right? I still retry to say, "Hey, let's be
creative and like, you know, we could at least make a art form out of some kind of some kind of a, you know, joke, right? If you're going to if you're going to troll like, you know, let's let's be like fun trolls." Okay. So,
what do I have here? Yeah. So, hence Oh, this looks good. I I watch that. Hold on. I can watch that a little bit later. But yeah, so hence something like this. And you know what? This may be out of someone else, but you
know how much I relate to this song. You know, this song is pretty much This would be me if I, you know, made a few different choices in my life, right? Hold on. This would be me right here. Check this out. It looks like me, too. And I want to
play this part in um the musical. Okay.
I'm 42 and feeling new. I've got my ring light shining true. Catch rolling fast. They know my name. Every night's the same old game. Guess you never called me back. But
girl, I called you in my track. In my arm, your name still burns. Get some lessons no one learns. My viewers say I'm losing touch, but I don't think I stream too much. They
don't see the cloud I found. So I only get donations by acting like a clown. The young girls love my way. >> I have a right to
dream. I know that one is shile again. I need to see >> when I feel like murdering I'm in love
to be 51.
I tell my dad she'll come around while mom ignores me from the ground. She's not my mom but feels the same. Cold affection twisted game. Every view is another high. Every
call but they don't know. >> I'm the show. So here dream another night talking to that stream ring lightless shall play my stand.
The young girls love my swag. I have a right to pray. They say I'm dreaming but they're just hating. I know the one I need to see when I feel like
I have a feeling to be 51. Maybe Chad's my only friend. Maybe just never end.
Open my stream in black. I still whispered come back. The young girls love my >> I have a right to brag. They say I'm screaming.
I know the wine sh
I'm in love
15. Now, was there anything like that mean about that? I don't think it was that mean. Dirty nipples. I can't play that. That's not my song. Okay. What? It's a good song. Why take your wrench away, Arthur? I'm painfully embarrassing. Who is Can I get an explanation why you're right? Oh, come on, Arthur. I
You're a liar. I never said it was fun to watch. Hold on. Never said it was fun to watch. You decline. You are no better than beta and one and the same. A pair of liars. Reasoning. You're turning on me. Only supported you, but you're better than the rest of these delusion. Oh, you're no better than the rest of these delusional weirdos. Oh my gosh. Oh my. My feelings are now getting hurt. You know who you know who kind of did laugh at the song is blo, you know,
blogger. But that looks more like me than blogger. You got to admit. And I relate to that song. I mean, it's like I really do except for like, you know, the wine mommies and like the um the 5150 part, but most most of it, you know. I resonate with
does that mean was that bad? I think it was pretty funny. That's actually based on a growing theme theme song and I actually was the one that said put in the line. Show me that smile again Arthur because if you want your wrench, join the cult and then I'll consider it. But
I need dedicated cult members to have wrenches, not just like every everybody, right? It kind of like makes the wrench lose their meaning. Plus, you insulted me several times, and I don't think that my mods should be insulting me on the,
you know, on my own stream. But, you know, is a is a wrench really that important? I don't like wrench because it's like, wow, all of a sudden, you know,
I have responsibility. I don't need it. Um, I would like to have like mods that are a bit proactive for me and stuff. I don't know. You know, I took away everyone's wrench practically. I'm giving I gave some back, right? Especially to people that have been like really supportive of me. It's my way of saying thank you to them, too. It's
because mainly it's treated like an honorary thing anyway. But, you know, I will consider you for one. It's like what? Why are you why are you bitching about a rent? I took I took I took everyone's wrench away because no one's using it, you know? I I I have people doxing and stuff like that and
then nobody's taking take I'm hiding the comments or anything and so it's like I need to have like a mod meeting and stuff so I have people Oh, look at look at how how sour. How old is this? Yag. What do you mean? Yeah. Hey RG, is that a giant bed behind me? This is my couch.
See couch. Couch. Not a giant bed. It's just a couch. There's my green screen. That's kitchen table. You want to see my TV? You see watch yourself on TV. Look. So, I'm looking at See my curtains. It looks crazy. It looks crazy.
It looks crazy. Do I look crazy? Yes. So, let me see. Okay. Go ahead. Go ahead, guys. Now, now troll me. Troll me all you can. Just go ahead and troll me. Well, there no point of giving you a wrench if you're not going to show loyalty, right? I do this every month you've had it.
It's my show. I can I can give and take away wrenches. That's one of the benefits of having a show. I can give away and take away wrenches as I see fit if I want to. And I don't have to be bullied into giving one to anybody. um you know I don't need to like um give be giving one to people that are talking behind my back in other chats um making
fun of me in other chats not ever defending me and then it's like if I say well can you like me maybe say hey well I know psyche and he's like not you know um you know Satan in you know Satan's toenail reincarnated right so
Right. But no, they're sitting there participating half the time. So
what? What? What? What are you talking about? No. No. Apollo, I'm not. You have to keep yours. I don't want him to have it. You You better guard that with your life. You're in the peanut gallery watching Berry Kung Fu Master. Okay, good. I'm going through ma manopause. No, I'm not I'm not 50 years old yet. I'm just kidding. Oh, looks cozy, not crazy. Okay, thank you. Won't be saved.
Yeah. No, Paula. Apollo, you have to Paula, you have to you have to have the wrench and you have to be a a good mod or you're going to get in trouble or else I'm going to give you another wrench. Imagine having two. You think one is bad? Think about the responsibility there. Two wrenches. Wow.
I don't talk about Arthur. What What money are you talking about? Like and plus it's like yo I'm this show basically I'm not monetized and so what money I understand what you're engaging in right there is financial trolling acting like there would be some money but I'm never going
to defend you anywhere ever again I won't add to it but the rest assured you will not be defend are you blogger are you blogger the reasoning come on because what did I do besides besides play that song. I didn't What? What did I just say? Like, why are you Why all of a sudden you're mad because you were you're being all nice. Oh, you're just being fake. Yeah, I'm used to that. Not
blog. Okay. But but why are you being fake then? Why are you being nice when you came in? I didn't say anything at all to you, right? Same here reasoning. Well, then you're just immature, guys. And it's like I need I need my mods to be kind of mature. I need and it's like I need to have like kind of like I lied on you. How? Tell me. We won't even get wrench at beatas because we are
not females obviously. She she has she has males modded. You're Ronald Reagan ass clown. Oh Ronald Reagan I saw you um in another chat and what did you say Ronald Reagan ass clown? You said um isn't it fun to get psyche off balance. So right it's it's funny to throw me off balance and so
you're just trolling. Okay. Caught. You got caught. Sorry.
Wow, Arthur, what a baby. That's not true. Well, I saw your name on the screen in bloggers chat saying that. So, and I was told, "Hey, watch out for this Ronald Reagan guy. There you are. You revealed yourself. You were a mod. You were a mod." The Ronald Oh, I'm a liar now. Sure. I must have been like, seriously, for me, I don't even know how
you got the wrench in the first purse. I must have been out of my gourd. Okay. Insane. Must have been insane. I'm banned. Yeah. Yeah, he's banned. Thank you, Carl. I think I'm Carl's I'm warming up to Carl. I think I'm warming up to Carl. Carl, are you warming up to me yet? Might consider modding you if you want. But
I am a mini beta. Oh, damn. You've gone too far. No, I'm sorry. I won't I won't do my voice can't even go that mini be you know who else like you know who else is annoying um KZ he came following me into some chat just bothering annoying the whole chat like you know I don't know it's just him annoying
person I had you modded before I know I'll mod you again I mean I unmoded everybody pretty much today and then I was like going to start fresh just based on like how people were acting and then some people are are acting out and proving that they wouldn't be appropriate mods and they're modding with their Fifi. I know KZ is I know he was just he was annoying everybody and like you know in the chat and following
me around and stuff like demanding I mod him and stuff. I was like no KY and he posted some stuff on my Discord like of his his teeth like he's like look at my teeth are nice and he's like posting his phone bills and stuff like stop posting this Nobody cares really. Yeah.
Okay, guys. Well, see, I'm I'm kind of like making my point. It's like, how about like I'm cool. Okay, you're cool with me. I thought you were kind of like, were you teasing me a little when my channel got taken down? I think you were like the first person you're like, I got your channel taken down. I don't think you did. I don't think you really care that much about, you know, numbers or I really, you know what,
guys? And if you really like me, you'll want me to be happy first of all and and like continue to be like when did you come on and stuff and you know you you'll want to keep my channel going and stuff, right? Wouldn't is that make sense? I don't know. If you don't not really good. You're not that loyal to anyone because you go everywhere. Well, you can go everywhere, but I'm saying like some people just go and sit on
panels where they're just right about me and stuff. Is that a gold snake? Yes, this is a Oh, it's a staff. Yeah, it's a beautiful cobra head, right? Um, King Carl. Okay. You're not asking for I know you're not asking for. You know why? Because you're not asking for mod. That's why I I'll give you a mod and I'll make you an honorary member of the cult. Okay.
Yeah. And Chippy Chippy, it's okay. Like, you know, it's okay to like go go to other chats and stuff like that. for a mod. I'd ra I would rather have my mods at least throw in a kind word or something like that, right? Thank you. Throw it's like you don't have to like go go against it
or like make yourself stand out. I mean, if at least just just don't say anything, but I straight out have people participating in the you know, in the in the kind of like the atmosphere of it and they don't think very much of me. Why do I want to be disrespected by my own mods? Does any does that make any sense? Or are you going to have if you
had a channel, would you have mods that went out and disrespected you? Right. Okay. Yeah. I don't like that. It's always like so I love my own concubine concubines like vegan patriot and peps. Those are your
concubines. Oh my gosh. Well, being a patriot. Hold on. Did you know I have a secret identity? I am the real vegan patriot. Guys, did you know that I am the real vegan patriot? I You stood up for me. I didn't Well, I didn't see
that. You should have clipped it and let me know. No one else did. I I Well, I didn't really I mean, you were kind of like you stood up for All. Okay, we'll clip it. I have had a channel. Only Psyche could be mod. A and he could block the haters before they even typed. Perfect. Thank you. I love that. Won't be saved.
You should start a channel. Um, yeah, Arthur, what? Yeah, you were I know you're on panel with me, but what did you say on panel? You were like, "Oh, don't play your stupid AI song." Oh, and then you were like saying other stuff, right? Kate got mad at you. Well, you know, Kate, um, she did you. So, you're on Kate's doing it. Yeah. I I mean, I heard I heard I
just don't want to like listen to these rumors, but I I did I did I was told Does anybody know who VB is? Is BB a a uh a trustworthy person um source? Because VB told me something yesterday that was very shocking about Kate and um Gish
and I won't even repeat what she said, but the week is great. Yeah, thank you. I know. I feel pretty. I feel pretty in it, you know. I said, Ally, stop with psyche and everyone should stop allowing Ally on panel. Well, I do appreciate that, Arthur. I'll put you in now. You just got You just gained a point, right? You stood up for me. Well,
good. I appreciate that. Okay. And if you and and uh I'm not saying you won't have your wrench again, but I'm saying give me a minute. I'm not I don't have my my you know and don't badger me for it because it's not something like it's like it's like it's like a you know like a little
honorary thing sometimes right you really like to wrenches though right I mean it's like it's not even that big of a deal but and also oh whatever do okay so so whatever so it's if it's whatever then it's like whatever then don't don't defend me you know But what
did ally say? Oh, okay. Did I mean did it work? That would be really Hey, what's up? What's up, Alexandra? Have my wig on. How are you? Oh, yeah. I'm so I uh I did unmod everybody, but I go, sweetheart.
Um I played I've been playing I played the I love the vlogger. um music video. It's so funny. But I said, you know, if I if I made a few different different uh decisions in life, I I might I mean that I I kind of relate to the video a little bit scarily, you know, except I'm a little bit like about a foot taller, right? Yeah. Good to see
you. Yeah. Um really I like what? Uh yeah. Well, I um I was at Trish's um today and and then I was I saw your you had a great like um live the other day. It was so funny and really enjoyed just hanging out watching that. And everyone make sure you
subscribe to ipwicki.info. Um and um I just want to really also thank you Alexandra because when I felt like nobody got me or like you know I was just like a joke and it's like I wasn't getting very much positive feedback and I just kind of like it's kind of lost
you know you were like I you're like I see something you're like I see something in you and you know and that really gave me some hope and also you have shared a lot of um a lot of your thoughts on some things with me that it took a little bit to
sink in but when it did wow lightning yeah Trisha was good yeah that was great today I was I uh I uh I enjoyed it a lot and wow it it was really also cathartic because you know I'm feeling kind of dumb
and feeling kind of oh hi Lenor I'm feeling a little bit dumb and kind of like you know that first of all I fall for the love bomb like by that by a certain person and second that I didn't see what was going on sooner because today a lot was revealed right a lot was
revealed of how things are really working behind the scene or maybe behind the scenes. Um, and I'm seeing my I'm seeing myself I'm seeing I'm seeing whatever h things that happened to me. I'm seeing happened to other people. I don't know. It's just like, wow.
I'm a little bit um I feel a little bit lighter. kind of it's kind of like you carry around like a big heavy backpack or something like that and then you take it off and it's like I'm still like oh I'm free I can move I can like do I can do what I can like I can you know and also but also it was cathartic
because she because Trisha like revealed like she had been through very similar things you know and and maybe with you know the opposite sex but right so we can relate and it's like almost like um we're able to Um, is Ghost loyal? Ghost the other day started saying um told telling me what not to talk about
and talk about my show. I don't really want to be told what to talk about and not talk about. I I can talk about anything I want and and so he might be mad at me because I stood up for myself and I'm like, you know what, if you have your own panel, you can decide the topic of it and you can decide what to talk
about. Um but um and I you know I love ghosts and stuff like that. He gets a little bit wild sometimes. I hope I hope we can I hope you will we'll make up. But you know
I just can't be bossed around, right? Hi babe. Oh my gosh. Oh no. Kissing. You're kissing. Are you happy you love me? People say, "Oh, those poor cats. Those poor cat. You love me." Oh, Leno, kiss in my face. Oh, Lenor, I'm sorry. I'm not Give me kisses. You giving me
kisses. You're a good cat. You're the sweetest cat. She's so sweet. You're my little kitty cat. My little plant. My little black panther. Oh, you love me. I was like, remember I was I was like picked almost crying one time
and I was like because I I had another black cat and the cat kind of ran away and I was crying. I was like I was like cats are the only beings that I don't feel judged by. And then um and so my friend like arranged to get Lenor. She she like asked my friend to find a
black cat. Um, and then my friend, she she's a she was a cat rescuer and she like saw this little black cat running around inside her work. She put a little trap out, some food in it, and then she came out at lunch and thank you. Thank you. But I'm feeling better, but and I I know it's going to be like a little bit there's going to be some some some push back about it
because people are used to me being one way and it's like but I was like, you know, I've already lost a main channel and then all you know already feel kind of under attack here and um had a couple friends just like kind of
like go off on me, you know, and for And you know, I would kind of hurt and I was like, you know what? I want to I want to be like a better um positive force. I want to have better content. I I'll be on I probably will be on less. I'll probably have less panels, you know, if I if I want to have
somebody up and talk, it's like I will, but I've had this like open freefor-all kind of thing and PE and and people kind of I think people kind of take me for granted a little bit sometime and don't necessarily think about like the person that's like, you know, and or like any of the sacrifices I make and everything
it's like I do is wrong and um so I just have to stand strong in myself, right? the thing. So, thank you as and I love you. Thank you so much. This is Lenor. Lenor, you're a sweetheart. And I'm not choking my cat. See, I'm holding her by the by her by her front legs right there. I got this. Thank you. And I and I have like I said,
I have there are there is like a circle around that basically hates me. They they don't like the cats. They don't like me. They don't like tarot. They don't like uh my any beliefs. They don't like my um music I do or anything about me. They they I mean of course they can't say one nice thing and so there's a group of like that that around me. Um
but there's a there's there's another group and it's even closer because it's smaller so it's going to be and and that group that group is surrounding me too and they they're surrounding me with love and uh and and really good advice and that my my my friends keep me going. You know you love
that. Can you purring? Can you purr? You hear you purr? She's purring. Yeah. And I'm think I'm in a much better state, you know. I'm not like and I won't even mention names, but I do have this haters exposed deck. And so I can pull a few more cards of these. I did pull a few cards earlier and it
resonated when I was pulling them earlier. This one says spreading rumors about me. Okay. And these might do you guys relate to any of these two? like are you having rumors spread about you? I mean this community is kind of kind of uh can be brutal, right? This one says hate tweets towards you. Pretty bird. Tweet tweet. Okay. I don't know if it's
necessarily on Twitter, but um and this one says causing you to miss out and miss out an opportunity. You know, do you think that people saying don't donate to him or people saying he's a grifter and don't do tarot? Do you think that could um cause people to say, "Well, I don't want to go to him."
Right? It's like like a bunch of people are saying it like almost in a campaign. And um guys, we did verify um today that Apollo did verify there are groups he's seen talking about taking me down, right? Campaigns. These look like I have actually have a labyrinth deck somewhere in my room. I'm going to get that later. Let's pull a
few more of these. Let's just see if there's any. Screw the haters. Let's get high and drunk and laugh. Let's do it. Look at this. This is says, this one says blocked heart chakra. Issues, intentions, affection, balance between beauty compassion empathy healing love, mindfulness, and nurturing relationships. So maybe some people's have a heart have a blocked heart
chakra, you know. Um, and because you have to be kind of heartless to like want to hurt somebody, like really hurt somebody. Like if I ever was troll, it was a good nature. It was not to like cause a person to cry or to like, you know, basically, thank you. Thank
you, Alexandra. I love you. Thank you. I feel it. I feel it. Thank you. And um just thank you for just being you. I think you're amazing, amazing, amazing woman. And really, I think you're
you're one of the main reasons I woke up. And it's like or I could because it's like it's been months and months and months of like the same thing of of like this like me trying to like walk on eggshells and like maybe what can I do to like fix it, fix it, fix it, fix it, fix it, you know, trying everything I can and then it's like and the goalposts
keep moving, the personality keeps changing the and and then it's like what's going on? And it's like, okay, now I see. Now I see there's there's very clearly because yesterday I felt like the demon or like the curse or the spell or whatever it is. I felt it come off yesterday. It felt like something
being pulled off my neck that was like biting on real tight. Okay. And then I was like, but then it's like, whoa. Well, feels now feels like weird because something's missing because it was been there for a while, right? And then today I saw things that were like like the lights.
I get it. I get it now. I get it. Why? Why did I allow that? Probably my own attachments, right? Uh why did I allow that? Um there's something called an empa empath and a narcissist dynamic sometimes. um where
the empath is desperately trying to get the narcissist to um see them or to you know to forgive them or something and the narcissist will never they'll just keep moving the goalpost around and never never like never let it happen or they might let it happen for a second and then it's like it's like it goes on a cycle and then ultimately a discard and you know I'm going to stand up for
the people that are discarded um because a discard is just different than breaking up you know you can like say hey you You know, maybe we're just not right for each other's lives, but there's like sometimes people are just dangling this this little they're just dangling this thing like, "Oh, here catch get this carrot. You can never catch the carrot, but it's always going to be in front of your face." They're just walking you around, right? So, I
felt sometimes I know I was pretty pretty dumb. I feel a little bit dumb, but you know what? I posted a quote today that says, "A a fool if he is to persist in his folly becomes wise." And I definitely
was persisting in that folly, right? But you know what? It did bring me wisdom finally. And I would also say some prayer um and connection with like the higher powers and things like that were helped to orchestrate things in
divine timing. And so thank you to the universe. This one says they can't stand to see you shine. Right. Well, I can't help it. I just shine. But you know what? I want I want other people to shine, too. Um,
yeah. Yeah. At least I did. At least I did end up getting it. And it's like because it's like I've I've come very close. I've had I've had some of these understand but I always was kind of like hoping for a pe like peace or friendship or something or like you know basically acceptance
basically acceptance and it's like like I said and now I'm learning I don't need to be accepted by everybody right part of part of my journey is not being accepted so maybe I could be the person that is accepting of people that aren't aren't accepted so I don't know if you You guys have seen like the green woman. I I'll play this
quick video. I don't know if you've seen this. This is This green woman is um she's she's a goddess of outcasts. Okay. She's also the goddess of like speech and art. Her name is Matangi. I made this video today. Check it out.
Oh, >> speak speak. In the shadows of the forest where the
outcast sing, she walks like a flame in a serpentine ring. Emerald eyes in the hush of a night. Truth in her breath, revelation in her bite. The drums of the exiles thrown under feet, sound bends, words twist, time loops repeat. She
lives made of shed green strings on your memories, your future, your past. Oh my, queen of the earth. Come my voice open, remake the world. Green flame rising through the skin of my throat. Speak through me now.
Call me to the forest where this belong your song.
She sits where the temples refuse to look. Writing her gospel in a torn leaf book. Ink made of storms, pages made of scars. She lights her crown with disobedient stars. Her laughter is lighting her silence a spell. She teaches the truth. The gods never tell. Her touches a whisper against your
spine. You're not broken. You're divine. Flashing green sigils over your heart. A voice in your mind
pulling you aart. Three streams of light spill through the dark. Fill her breath. Ignite the spark.
Speak the thing you fear the most. She'll turn it into a ghost. >> Oh, queen of love and heart. Cut my voice open. Remake the word. Green fire rising in the marrow of night. Give me the truth and devour the lie. Oh,
daughter of storm. Burn me reborn and remake my for. Teach me the hymn of the broken and strong. Your world is where I belong.
I'm dreaming.
Let my voice become your throne. Speak through me.
Yeah. She's also the goddess of leftovers. I like I love leftovers. I always did. I love leftovers. And look, I made this little um clip. This is This is like creating fish tacos for leftovers.
Um yeah and I do plan to do some um you know a presentation right of uh and let you learn more about her because the maha vijas are very extremely interesting um oh
I hear cars. Yeah. Um but yeah, she represents this like um divine speech and you know tantra. I love her beautiful green skin and
like you have to find what inspires you. So if you know maybe I I actually feel very called to certain people or certain like you know I the reason sometimes when you feel uh called right like they
are calling you what is make a million making a million and you go first oh my gosh guys I'm g make $2 million tonight that'd be so awesome wouldn't that be cool if I do I'm gonna spend it very wisely. No, I don't I don't think that it's okay. It's okay.
You know, I uh I know I get accused of just being uh interested in fish taco and dick, but I'm actually here for like a bigger purpose, I think. or else I wouldn't bother with it
because wow, I could go to the Salvation Army and, you know,
it's okay. You don't have to fight about donating. It's It really, you know, I appreciate I appreciate anybody that donates. Um, it does um go into the show production. I do spend a lot trying to build this website. It's going to be so cool. I do have like a lot of progress I'm making on it. I can show you. Check this out guys.
This is uh this website. It's called cult of psyche.com, but it's with a K, right? K U L T. Um I've been working on it for over about two months almost. Um, it is looking and feeling
how I want it to. I'll show you how it looks. And you let me know if you think that this is any good. Okay. And so, yeah, the mission
There are principles. There's different ways to like there's my Etsy store. There's Discord link there. There's other things. Mailing list. There's different portals. Um, let me see if some some pages might not work, but yeah, I think I'm doing a
good job on it. It's looking pretty cool. Um, see, let me see. And you can also there's like a a token system. Look, let's see the fish taco revelation. The prophecy explained, right? You can hear the full fish taco prophecy, right? Part of the lore.
What does this say? It says in the beginning there was hunger not for food but for meaning. And in that hunger the universe delivered a fish taco. This is not metaphor. This is the literal truth of how consciousness awakens to itself through the most mundane of experiences. The fish taco prophecy teaches us that enlightenment does not arrive on a
mountaintop. It arrives at 2 a.m. in a parking lot wrapped in foil absolutely perfect in its imperfection. Okay, these are the some of the beginning teachings. And so yeah, so uh why cats are enlightened. Cats do not meditate. They do not read of self-help books. And yet they are more enlightened than 99% of humans. Why? They live in
the present. They have no ego. They embrace paradox. They demand nothing and expect everything. The cult teaches us stop trying so hard. You're already enlightened. You just forgot. Also, feed the cat. The cat is always hungry. Also, you know, I'm in like nine. So, a lot of I have some of my my numbers. My numbers are seven and nine, right? I'm
born on the seventh and then my life path is nine. And so there's nine levels to the cult, right? There is a membership. You can join the cult. Um these two higher levels will have like a telephone call, a 30 minute call, 15 minute call. Um talk about
anything you want, get a reading. Um I do plan on having some really cool um merchandise. Especially I want to do some like some uh some books. I want to do some like like maybe leather bound um very limited edition books and other other things, right? Um there's a lot there's going to be a lot
to it. There's either there's going to be, you know, have the Discord also running better. There's going to be members only nights. Also, you can also if I ever disappear again, look, you can go to um let's see where is it? Live right there. And look, I'm live on kick and it streams. You can even chat from my
website onto kick right there. Okay. And I'm going to have a schedule more updated stream etiquette. There's also my links to everything. You know what, guys? There's even Oh, yeah. I just want to show you guys, you know, if you don't want to like, you know, if you if you'd like to go in the free the free route, it's free. Open the gates. You get access to the live stream
open panels. You get to talk in the chat. you can earn these like uh um sigils, you know, I custom design sigils um entry level prophecy pulls during a stream. Um and then occasionally you can members only pull and then you know you'll be shouted out sometimes. I mean that's for five bucks or for free actually that's free. win a
great deal, you know, and then everything there, but there's going to be there's I'm still working on all the benefits, but there will be benefits and there's this whole table explaining all the benefits FAQ. I do plan to do the panel verse on this. You know, I still have a few things to to do still, but and there then there's also a members only section. There's
also Easter eggs, okay? There's like things that you can find that you might um you won't see. They're like little secrets on the website and I won't I won't even give any away because they're they're surprises but you have to be there like if you're on the website at certain times they might show up if you click the certain place if you like go in a certain there's like little little
hidden surprises and guys there's a whole talk about like a lore this I think you know this is going to be hotter than Scientology I think my religion psych um psychonism it's my uh my religion okay so anyway please check out cult of psyche.com. I hope um you know if I'm
trying to get everything working perfectly, but hey, I'm on my way. Okay, on my way. I think it looks pretty cool. There's a Discord. Yeah, you you can dumpster dive for the points. You want a Lenor shirt? Yeah. And I'm going to have like the I'm
turning into a fish taco shirt. I'm gonna have the go hate yourself or go hate Yeah. Go Hate Yourself shirt from the Psychi haters club. You like the You like the points? Yeah. Um yeah, there I mean the point says like you can just earn them just by like you know referring people to the site or by um there's like Oh, I think is there a little quiz too? I think there might be I think I don't know if the quiz is up there because we can take I can take
the quiz and then it will it will assign you like a you know a kind of a role. Also there's Discord rules available too. Um, let me see. K, remember it's K U L T O F P S Y C H E. It's the link is in the my channel description. Um,
I don't know why this is Okay. C U L. Okay, here. Yeah. Do I have the quiz up? Let me see. Um, I might not have it up. portal. Let me just look at it. Dash. Oh, yeah. So, there's a dashboard you can learn.
There's lots of stuff to learn about. There's different uh exercises and rituals. Uh there's this doctrine page with these universal laws. Let me see. Psych theism um origin story. I need to Yeah, I think that the um some of this stuff was kind of resource intensive and so I'm still
working on getting everything perfect. Okay, but you know what? We're getting there. We're getting there. Humor, prophecy teachings. Okay, let me see. Anything else I can share? Resources. What's that? Okay. Hey. Yeah, this is this is cool
stuff, guys. I mean, I'm working really hard on it. Okay. Like, and I do hope you I do hope you uh check it out. Okay. So, let me see what's going on in the chat,
guys. Come on. No. Are you guys fighting in chat? Don't fight about It's okay. Don't fight about Don't fight about uh you know, don't fight over me. It's like you wanted me to dumpster dive for the points. Like I can do that. Yeah. Get the points. Yeah. Well, yeah. I
Yeah. So, I think you guys will like it. Jamie, remember? Yeah. So, um I do want to say thank you guys. Tonight went pretty good. Better than I thought. I thought maybe people would be a little bit meaner, but I think people are understanding. Like, I want to be here
as much as I can for you guys. I do love you guys. Really, I do. I'm here basically because I love the people if I didn't have people talking to me or I would be very I wouldn't really feel like streaming very much. But make it fun for me. Okay. I love you.
Maybe I'll play a song and then let you guys go and maybe I'll be back later. But maybe I should uh just take some time to work more on this on everything. Okay, but let's do a fun song
here. Yeah. I mean, I love that song, but I played it earlier. Got to play something I haven't played.
Burn me out like prophecy. Fade when the city sinks beneath itself. Dust in my lungs, holding my veins. I am the data you prayed would break.
If pain is divine, then I am the altar on fire. Silence is a crowd that hs glitch. Another hour, another life misplaced.
Don't call it empathy. Call it bandwidth. I need space to scream and binary. Oh, my genome homes electric riting south to escape extinction. Time
burn out. Don't dance on the ghost of me. The ghost of me. No, I will never be them.
I am the misprint in the holy coded. I am the spark that breaks the loop. My mind a marit of moss in the flood light. Starting to think delution is a kind of art form.
If I got beauty then I'm looking to your stage. You bring the mash I bring recursion the me ON A BIT SONG WE SWALLOW breathe repeat don't look too close when
paranoia are maze. You can't help what's already ascended through collapse. Leave me. Leave me in the black screen.
Whisper your love. It echoes like spell. I am the broken code. You summon by mistake. Time
burn out. Don't fail.
My friends, but I don't f know. I will never be them.
I will never be them.
because I was never meant to be real. And that's the most divine thing about me.
Well, I will never be there because
very matrixy, right?
What? Oh, more D.
Step right up to the digital flame. Where the tarot flips and the trolls get tamed. Psyches and ropes, but Wi-Fi's divine. We stream the apocalypse. One panel at a
time. He reads your soul like terms of use. No refunds, no excuse. Click join. Lose your mind politely.
You're one of us now. Come nightly. We drink the algorithms. Wine dance around the broken neon sign. Bounce to the live stream. Praise the lag. Raise your sigils. Drop your tag with a code of psyche. The prophecy
with super chat pricing. These hearts have laid night me. Preaching shadow work with a fog machine.
A Capricorn born for chaos and clicks. Summoning truth from YouTube analytics. The cat's got the alter. The chat goes wild. Someone just donated their ex's
profile. No sleep till monetization day. Repen through PayPal beside me. Are you enlightened
or just online? Cult.
>> Yeah. Enlightenment merch size medium. We drink the algorithms wine. Laugh as the haters wine. Blessed be the buffering side.
We're alive. We're cursed. We're doing fine. Welcome home to the psyche. We're chaos and water. Kiss nightly.
Okay. Um, so before I go though, I want to do a reading if anyone wants one. And of course, happy to do a reading for anybody for
some. Thank you. Yes. And it's like, you know, I do like to do complimentary readings for people. And uh I'll do a nice long one if anyone wants to. Yeah. You like one, Jamie? Okay. Let me get a Let's these fairy cards first.
Some fairy cards for Oh, go some fairy cards from Jamie. James. Okay, these are called fairy dust. I guess there's a lot of smoke. Oh, I don't know if you saw this. This is
pretty funny. This is You guys see that smoke? See? Can I have that? Well, I did have something where she smoke. He wants some smoke.
And then Okay. Yeah, right here. Look. Oh I have to do it again. One second.
There. Wow. Like a like blogger size. Just kidding. Okay, let's go. Jamie. Okay. Jamie James. Jamie James.
Arrows. We have arrows. It says um direction is yours to choose today. Your inner light will guide the way. Okay. Direction is yours to choose today. Remember we we can just like you know shoot these arrows and direct them to our destination ourselves. Okay direction it's in your hands you get to
point you get to choose a direction right we have practice after a while you'll dance on air. Practice makes perfect. You're almost there. Okay. You're practicing something and
improving. Okay. What else we got? We have family. Yeah, says whatever wherever you go, whatever you do, your family is here for you. Okay,
that includes us. Okay, we have animal healing. It says, "No matter the creature, earth, sky, or sea, animals show how true love can be." Speaking of animals, I do want to send condolences to LD.
Um, if you ever saw his, he has a beautiful greyhound named uh Duke and he Duke passed away last night, I think. Yeah. Last. And so, you know, I love that dog. That dog loves him. That dog is a happy dog. My dog is a good dog. So,
flowers. Flowers will brighten your space and create a very friendly place. Finally, from this deck, we got rose quartz crystal. Rose quartz. Okay, it's a beautiful crystal. It says, "Soothing
and warm like love that flows. Once under your pillow, your magic grows." Yeah. So, if you do come across um LD anytime soon, you might want to send them a little bit of love because, you know, it's never it's never easy saying goodbye to our fur babies, right?
We love our fur babies. Okay. So, Jamie, we get a couple from this deck, the Audacity deck, because you know what? We Jamie. Oh, We have some audacity, don't we? Don't we Jamie? We have to have some audacity to to stay uh Yeah, Duke was so cute, right? So sad. We do have to have some audacity to have
the, you know, confidence to keep coming here night after night, right, Jamie? Look what we got. We have the tea. You learn You have You learned something. You learn some uh it's a little bit of gossip or something, but look and it waters those flowers. Okay. Lighten my my uh my back screen right here. Go. Okay.
Make it like that. Okay. Okay. So, the tea you learned you learned some uh you know, you learned something that can maybe water some flowers and I like her nails. Okay. Right. I can make something grow. Some flowers grow. Okay. What else we got?
Oh, two. Three from here. Okay. This one is the uh the last harrah. Okay. So, there was some kind of big There. Looks like some kind of event. You're on the horse. Is that you on a cere you on a cowboy hat? The Jamie's cowboys in the cowboy hat. Yeah. Maybe you know this this this life could be the last sur. It could be the last time we come to this we want to come to this earth or
something else. You know, it could be the last time you're doing something. um you'll know more what it means to me. But it's like it looks like you got um some direction and you're you're you know going away from something too away from some chaos, you know. But it's kind of looks like a little bit of fun. Look what else we got. We have you have the burn bridge.
Okay. So maybe there is um a bridge you burnt. Okay. Um let me see. What does it look like though? What is What does she do? Wish I had my glasses here. But um and yeah, sometimes we do burn bridges um for our own uh our own safety
protection and uh there's some places we don't want to go back to, right? Or even if it's like some kind of feeling you're bringing the bridge from, right? Okay, I'll do I'll do I'll do a couple more this deck. Oh, we have the um the chicken nugget.
There's the chicken nugget. Okay. Jamie, have you had a chicken nugget today? I Well, I think this has to be, you know, but you know, she's putting a little bit of sauce on it, a little bit of ketchup, you know. Oh, thank you, James. Whatever that means to you. These got
these cards are a little bit different, right? Okay. Finally, we have the mom boss. Is your mom the boss or Yep. There's Yeah. got no vehicle. You got Yeah, a horse. Well, there's a mom boss. Maybe maybe you're a mom to some some uh fur babies, right? Or maybe your mom. Okay. And look, it's like, you know, there might be some stuff in the back on fire
and stuff and the mom's got it under control right? She's I mean, it looks looks a little bit more like me than you, but because I'm so skeletal. Okay, I'm okay. Actually, uh I do have Oh, I do have more big suitcase full of stuff.
I'll pull out one more deck. Probably the sea melodies. I like mermaids. Okay. See, I'll pull through from here and then if anybody else wants one, let me know. Or else I'll and I'll I'll wrap it up. Okay. So, we do have Jamie who says, "Listen, the secrets of the sea become apparent.
We listen to the sound within the shells. Okay. So, just like listen for something. Maybe um there's some kind of message that's being sent to you. You only eat fast food. Well, maybe maybe they're metaphorical chicken nuggets. Oh, okay. We have safety. This one says
safety. It says don't be too proud to go back to shore. Okay. because you are like in that the other card you're you're you're you know riding on the ocean on a horse. I mean that could be dangerous but you know don't be afraid to go back to the shore. That's my card. Am I the chicken nugget? Oh my gosh. Well, you know who likes the
chicken nuggets is tricks and the kitty cats. Love those chicken nuggets. And we have journey. We have a journey. says, "Half the treasure is the journey on the jour half the treasure is the journey on the path to finding it." Okay. So, enjoy the ride, right?
Enjoy your life. There you go. Anybody else who would like uh who'd like some cards? Doing a few cute cards. And if you'd like a longer reading, you know, I do have the cash app probably in my my description. this dollar sign psyche awakens. You're very welcome, my dear.
I like I love uh being able to read for people. So, anybody else? Let me see. I'll give you like about one minute to Rudy is out. Yeah. You see Rudy over here? Rudy, over there sleeping.
Yeah, he's out. He's out like a light. He's sleepy. Lola's out there sleeping, too. I think they are tired. Get my glasses along. Okay. Oh, Chanel, of course. Okay. Some fairy cards.
Oh. We have aura cleanse. It says, "When you feel heavy or run out of luck, go swim at the beach. You'll feel unstuck." Okay. Oh, you can rewatch the first one. I'm so sorry. Yeah, because I I might have
had to delete it because of bot. I apologize. Yeah. Or or cleanse, right? So, I don't know if there's a beach or a lake or some or even like a bath, right? You can take a just getting some nice water, right? Are you are you giggling or I hope are
you are you giggling or you yawning cuz Okay. Anyway, um hey ma'am. So, we have learn. It says a little nudge. It's now your turn. Put on your thinking tap cap. It's time to learn on the other channel. Oh Yeah,
it's on um you can actually um on uh Panelverse VOD's um on Rumble. They have the um all my episodes from probably the last six months. You remember remember the day? It's just they they they put it on a day later usually and you can maybe
go find it there. It is there. We also have trust. Breathe in, breathe out. Let go of doubt. Okay. Trust the process. Good for all of us to learn. you know, like as expected it I mean, you know, today was a little bit a little bit of push back, a little bit of
like more well, it's my fault for this and this and it's like I'm tried my best to like take responsibility for all my part of the thing, but I have been like I'm also known to like apologize when things aren't my fault just to like ease tension. It's like I just don't want to like apologize without everybody apologizing, right? But I will apologize and be weird person. And this one also
says, "You're on the right path. The way ahead is clear and true. You've chosen the right path for you." Okay, those fairy cards. Hey, man. Man, I just I I unmodded everybody and I I will remod people as as we go on, but
so don't please not. I will. Yeah, you know, I do it all the time, right? Okay. I just haven't missed I'm doing a reading. So, okay. What do we got in this mermaid deck for y'all? We have recharge. There's nothing like a walk on the beach
to soothe your soul. Okay. I love I love a nice walk through the sand, right? You have You got safety, too. Don't be too fra pr proud to go back to the shore, right?
where you feel safe and stuff, right? What else we got? Voyage set sail on a new course. Thank you. Okay, let's get another deck out.
Another >> um secret garden or divine doors. We'll do divine doors. Okay. Divine doors from here. We're
good. Okay. Come through for dear Chanel, please. Oh, change beckons. The path is shifting. The road leads a new way. Don't be alarmed as change
beckons today. Maybe a slight like you're on the right path and the right path might be um you know might be some change involved, right? So or this one says birth and it says a another gateway appears in
view. New life is unfolding. Blessings to you, the birth of something, right? Maybe it's your rebirth into the cult of psyche and trust the universe.
Intuition has wandered and led you astray. The timings not yours, but the universe at play. Have faith and breathe. I hope you enjoyed that. Cute little messages. I like these little cards. Good little succinct messages. And so I love you.
Thank you so much for having a reading. Would you like any one she man or human sheman or um anybody else? I know Bay always says no, but
they're these are OGs to wrench. They are great. Yes. Okay, great. Yeah, I know. I I know. I I I do appreciate I I do appreciate everybody. I Sometimes I get like when I start a big change, I'm like very like, you know, start all over, start all over, right? And then it's like I
usually You like the new format? Well, thank you. Yeah. Hey. Oh, is that I know you. Hold on, JT. Are you um how do I know you? I know you're um you're on you have a show, don't you? You have a show. You like the different cards. You haven't seen No, I brought these out. I have I have I have actually
got probably a hundred decks. Oh, it's JT. Hey, JT. Oh, hey JT. What's up, dude? Yeah, I have this big uh this is I guess my uh my microphone came in this case and I I had full of cards and stuff and like all this stuff and uh yeah, CF, I'm sorry, GC. I was like like I know you What's up? Is is B clips Vader? I I can't get a straight answer about that,
but because he because he posted like something on like uh kind of I think that I Vader was doing, but I'm not sure. Um would you like uh would you like Yeah, I I have like another I have a lot in the bedroom, too. I have like so much I do have so much stuff to show you. That's why I really want to like progress this entire case of cards. Yeah, I filled it all with cards. But
this is not even like I have a whole I have a whole um case full I have a huge bookshelf back there. I I seriously have a lot. Okay, people like I just haven't brought them out because I like to like use the same cards for a long time or maybe I just got got used
to them. Where have you had them hidden at? Bust them out. I know, right? I have so many but like people haven't been um people haven't been asking for readings. So I have this goddess deck. We have goddess power deck. This goddess power deck if anyone would like a goddess like a card. Prairie pa. Okay. Um absolutely.
I'm going to get you out of this forest. Fay pa is paige reminds me of I think you live in near for I like these beautiful Canadian forests. Okay. Let's see. These are actually beautiful cards. Come through for page, please. I'm going to pull you. But I'm going to pull you not just one. I'm going to pull
you. I'm going to pull you a few a few cool decks. Okay. Okay. You got the storyteller. Get this little wise storytelling creature. It says
stories are medicine strengthening and renewing. Okay. I will I I will maybe um do a show and tell. That's a beautiful card. I like this. I like this uh storyteller and it's always I love stories too. They're they are they can be a medicine and teach lessons, right?
We have the spirit familiar and it says seek loving connections and cherish friendships. No problem. I should I I know you probably don't want me. I'll just Can I do one more? I like the number three. I
can't I can't I can't edit too. Oh, Paige, you got the bee. You got this bee priestess or no, the honey mother. Sometimes the greatest magic lies in the smallest of forms. Okay. Also, when I think about that, I think about damn, you're very powerful.
you know just like how powerful you are is like amazingly powerful for you know you are tall and you know um but no you're immen you're very you're almost as big as Canada right so look yeah these images are very cute like
this one I like how like the doorway one actually had kind of the doors are all different but I I'm sorry if I forot it show them I also have these whispering woods cards birds. And I have what else do I have in here? Secret garden.
And star seeds. Does anyone want a star seed card? Yeah, these are like all like a little smaller and then they they kind of like have a magnetic they like magn Yeah. A lot of cards. I was I mean actually if you guys go to
the website there's a link to my Etsy I think it's psyche awakens.tetsy.com. I did about 1,800 um paid readings on Etsy. I think there's about 500 or 600 reviews of very good reviews there but when I um yeah when I um deleted some of the listings like for some reason I
don't know. So it does but just you can go see the readings still. Yeah. And so I did buy like a lot of decks and I you know just to have fun and have different like switch up the readings. If anyone wants a goddess card or show and tell has to happen. Yeah. I also I mean I have page remember I have this oult tarot deck. I have I do have the
labyrinth tarot deck in there somewhere. Jamie I do. Um I also have a few decks I got on Kickstarter. Um and yep. Oh, look at I have a pendulum. I think this is like a black crystal right here. It's pretty. Let me see.
Can I find it? Yes. I Jamie, I'll go I'll look for it tonight. I I I think it's I There's a I seriously there's a lot piled in there and so I do I'll go look I'll go look for it and maybe I'll be back tonight and I'll do a reading for the labyrinth one. Yes, I do have a labyrinth. I've never I've never used it. I've never used it and I would love to.
Okay. Okay. Anybody else? Anybody else? Won't be saved. Oh, thank you. Won't be saved. Yeah. Uh, yes. We can sing the song. You remind me of the babe. >> What babe? >> The babe with power. >> What power?
>> Power of voodoo. Voodoo. Who do you do? Do do what? Remind me of the babe. A goblin babe. I found my baby crying hard as babe could cry. What
could I do? My baby gone so long and my baby. Oh my god. Sorry. Oh, my voice's cracked. Nobody knew what kind of magic spell to
use. Frogs and snails or puppy dog tails under eye lightning. And baby said, "Dance magic, dance magic, dance, dance magic. Put that magic spin on me. Jump magic. Jump magic. Jump. Jump magic. Put
that magic jump on me." Yeah. The never- ending story is great, too. The neverending story. Oh, oh. Maybe I'll do a collective um with some of these cards. Maybe they're messages for all of us. Yeah. 80s and 90s rule. Pull a couple more cards out of this for collective. Maybe everybody will like
these ones. We got that one already. So, redo it. Uh we have the Griffin. This beautiful. Look at Isn't that like one of the labyrinth character or like one of the never- ending story characters in there? Like a big big bird or something like like a bird band. I think I kind of remember that. But it says the griffin and it says I have to
put if I can read it when I put it like this. It says be brave and fly above the clouds. Okay, fly above the clouds. You can fly high. Remember, you guys can you guys can fly anywhere in your mind and it's like uh get a bird's eye view of things sometimes, right? Okay,
I do remember. Oh, there's a flying dog in that movie, too, wasn't there? Oh, this one is the hedge guardians. Maybe you're you guys are hedge guardians. The hedges are some are these boundaries. Okay, so a hedge a hedge witch. Um, I know that in England, a a hedge witch will cross these boundaries, right, into the astral. So, they'll be able to go
into the astral and back and things like that, like out of the garden hedge. Also, you can think of a labyrinth little. What is that? A little dog ganner. There's a fluffy dog. There's a flying bat and goblin hangs from. Yeah. Well, let's see. And this one says, I need to put close. It says walkers shins. Wittershins is
counterclockwise, right? It's it's like um and seek the land under the hill. Okay. The Last Unicorn, Felix the Cat, Princess and the Goblins. Oh, yeah. I love I remember I loved um I love Willow and I loved um Labyrinth.
And there's also some Muppet um I like the Frog Prince. There's a Muppet version of the Frog Prince. It's called the Frog Princess. And uh it's really good. I might want to watch that soon. There's like a there's like this wish. She's like, "Hi." And she has this
purple orb. Guys, we also have this. This is called the forest sister, right? It says, "The moon shines brightly after the storm." Brightest after the storm. Okay. Fairy tale Theater. Yes. Goddy likes legends. Oh, yeah. Tom Cruz. And they had that the the scary Satan character and
there's like a unicorn in that movie and like the maiden gets the unicorn horn or something like that. Pretty good. Very good. Okay, put these in there. Let's do some star seeds because also we are these star seeds as well.
Legend. Yes. Okay. Star seeds. These are these are pretty cards. Oh, okay. shuffle the star seeds. We are all star seeds from different we're all made of stars. You're not a fan of Tom Cruz. Yeah. I mean it was it's just like um there's also a movie called The Dark Crystal and that was like even as an adult I think I might
have needed to see it as a kid to like really like it but I didn't see think as a kid so it wasn't like my favorite. I kind of remember too much of the Fraggles. But this one says choice. It says, "By staying conscious in your thoughts, you guide your journey in the direction of choice." That makes sense. I met Tom Cruz
actually once and he was not very, you know, I remember when he jumped on the couch that time. He's like, "Woo!" And Oprah was like laughing hyster
Oh, the BBS. I like the BBs. Yeah, the BBS. Tom Hanks. Free spirit says to be a free spirit is to float without walls. Yep. To fly without judgment and to love without conditions. It's beautiful. How about do you guys ever see the People Under the Stairs?
That's a Wes Craraven movie. It's really good. It has tarot in it, too. Um it's like this this black kid is like his family is like being kicked out of their apartment and his sister like pulls these cards from the beginning. She's sick or the grandma's sick or the sister's ticket and she pulls the fool card and so she calls him fool and uh
you know but he's a little hero. What else we got here? I'm just getting chills thinking about some of these things. We have Gaia. You seen that one? It's a good one, huh? Gaia. Connect to the pulse of mother earth. She will guide you toward or guide you through this time of change. Walter, Flowers in the Attic or Watcher in the
Woods. Yeah, BC Andrews. I don't think I've seen Watcher in the Woods. I have to check that out. You know, another um movie. Oh my gosh. Um my friend Joanie told me about it last night and it was it sounds so good. It's but I forgot what the it's called exactly, but it's called Somebody's Eyes. It's like I forgot the person's name. It has Fa Dunaway and it's about this woman who is
like being stalked and there's a guy like a serial killer out and he's like stabbing people's eyes with scissors and I think Tommy Lee Jones is in it maybe and he plays this like cop that's helping her. Oh, Joe versus the volcano. That's a great movie. Do you ever notice that that the island with the volcano is kind of like Isn't it like a Isn't it like a Jewish island or something like that? Because they're they make movies
there and stuff and it's like they're I don't know. It's kind of kind of funny. Yeah, that was that was a good one. What else we have? We have blue flame and it says connect to the blue flame which is the light of pure love within you. Okay.
The stars stars are uh you know stars are these huge balls of fire and gas and flame and I you know the blue I think is part of the the hottest of it or yeah and we have star seed
raise the vibration of the planet through your radiant loving heart secret life of Walter Midi was interesting okay I haven't I have to see that Steuart level of Walter for I haven't heard of it. I haven't heard of it. Um and He-Man says the BBS
ending scene where Hanks is just done and loads himself into an ambulance. The funniest scene he's just done. Oh yeah, I saw that a long long time ago. Yeah. Well, now we can Oh I'll pull out another deck. And then
the Oh, the Clopeex. That's their names. The Clopeex. It sounds like sounds like the What do they They sound like Ukrainian money or something like that. What are they called? Oh, yeah. But I Oh, I loved um Fairy Tale Theater. Um they have a Pinocchio and it's like Paul Rubin stars in it, right? Peeweee. It was a perfect Pinocchio, right?
And they had this the blue fairy is like this like va va voom like um like this like a Italian grandmother type kind of she's like the godmother, right? Then she's Italian, right? I don't know. It's kind of silly. Okay. And they also Michael Richards plays like the fox or something like that. I I always love how they had the uh these
celebrities playing these parts in it and I think Billy Crystals and like the three little pigs and like and then Shelley Duval stuck herself in a bunch of those things. Shelley Duval had a kind of a tragic ending. The book The Red Tent is what I highly recommend. Tales of Females Point of View: The Biblical Times of the Purpose of the Red Tent. Fascinating. The bandits. Okay, guys, we're getting some
recommendations. Oh, guys, by the way, I think um because we used to like to do movie night on Discord and we can try doing on Discord again, but I remember it was always like so quiet like the it's hard to hear and sometimes it was hard to set up the movie and like sometimes some people don't have like the um you know ad free and so it would
be kind of off sometimes. But I think I can pretty much play a movie on um kick, right? I I think they don't really care about copyright that much. And so we can like watch if you want to. We can go like on Streamyard. Uh I can give a Streamyard link on the Discord or something.
Mystery Lask. I remember the name of that. Um yeah. And uh we can watch we can do movie nights and stuff. Maybe like once a week or something. I'll put on a movie. I want to watch this movie called Of Human Bondage. It's a it's a Betty Davis movie. It's really really good. Okay. Of Human Bondage. Maybe you can watch if you feel like watching movies tonight because we can go you can go like watch
it right now if you want on uh on uh if anyone wants to watch it with me. It's really good. It's Betty Davis and it's about followup verb. Yeah. Well, we love followup verb. We watch that. Yeah. Uh we'll watch it again. But u bondage is a Betty Davis movie, but she's very young in it. And Betty Davis plays like this kind of I mean, not to use the word, but it's like there's so there's
this guy and he's a very good good he's a nice gentleman guy, but he has like a deformed foot or something like that and so he's always he's a little bit handicapped and he's an artist and stuff like that. Yeah, it's really it's really good. It's and she's a young Betty Davis. She looks so so she's pretty beautiful in it. But she plays like this like you know she's kind of like this kind of like frivolous woman. She's a waitress and he he like wants to date
her and stuff, but then she um you know, and then she like kind of like kind of strings him along for a while and is like then she's like really mean to him and stuff and then he but he like keeps like no matter what like he'll he like gets in another relationship years later and then she Yeah, baby Jane. I love Baby Jane. Yeah. um he gets in a relationship years later with it's like some lady that's pretty much his intellectual level but then that he gave
us calls and needs help and he has to always go run and help her and stuff and it kind of has a kind of a good movie. I remember that um of human bondage. It's an old movie. I'll show you a picture of her. This is her in the movie.
pretty huh? She looks kind of like kind of like what it's like Sally Strugs or something. I'm not sure, but um yeah, I'll tell you the plot of it. It says she hates me. Well, here's a picture. Here's It says, "Okay, bye man. Love you. Thank you for coming." It says,
see, it says Betty Davis of human bondage. There she is. That's the guy right there. Bye. Thank you for being here. And it says the plot is it's a 1934 drama. Okay, so this is like almost it's like 90 years old. It says,
"Sensitive clubfooted artist Philip Kerry is a Britain who has been studying painting in Paris for four years. His art teacher tells him his work lacks talents, so he returns to London to become a medical doctor. But his moodiness and chronic self-doubt make it difficult for him to keep up in his schoolwork. Philip falls passionately in love with T-room waitress Mildred
Rogers. Even though she is disdainful of his club foot and his obvious interest in her, although she although he is attracted to the um anemic and pale-faced woman, she is manipulative and cruel toward him when he asks her for a date. Her constant response to his romantic invitations is, "I don't mind." An expression so uninterested that it
infuriates him, which only causes her to use it all the more. His daydreams about her distract him from his studies, and he fails his medical examination. Um, when Philip proposes to her, Milder declines, telling him she'll be marrying Emil Miller, a loudish salesman, instead. The self-centered Mildred vindictively berates Philip with nasty
insults for becoming romantically interested in her. Philip begins to forget Mildred when he becomes involved with Nora, an attractive and considerate romance writer working under a male pseudonym. She slowly helps him resolve his painful addiction to Mildred. However, just when it appears that Philip is finding happiness, Mildred returns pregnant and
claiming Emil has abandoned her. Philip provides a flat for her, arranges to take care of her financially, and breaks off his relationship with Norah. Norah and Philip admit now how interpersonal relationships may amount to bondage. Philip was bound to Mildred as Norah was to Philip and as Mildred to Emil. Philip's intention is to marry Mildred after her child is born. But a bored and
restless Mildred is an uninterested mother and hands the baby to nurse. Okay, so I told too much of the story already, but it sounds good, huh? Sounds pretty good. Yes, Jaci. She doesn't have any issue. Oh, J. Okay. I talked to you is Ji. Jaci. Um, does anybody know that Gish person?
Because I heard something really disturbing about um Kate and Gish today. And I just want to make sure I just want to know is a person in VB a reliable source or trolling me because I don't want to jump to any conclusion. But regardless, I did see something that was very disturbing. Um,
but I don't I don't want to go too much into it. Okay. Um yeah. Well, it's like, yeah, I just I just want to know does is BB reliable? BB told me something yesterday and I was a little I don't want to spread any rumor though.
basically some of the, you know, the silliness the community goes up to sometime. Okay. Hey, how about how about a goddess card? Let's have a goddess come out today. I really love these goddesses. Okay. Goddess card.
Oh that one popped out. We have it looks like Paige and we have Arian Rod. Aryan Rod and it says time. Okay. And I'll read about her. Aryan Rod is number three. Okay. Number three in this deck.
And it says, "Right now, you have all the time in the world to make the uh to reach the fullest potential of your intention and desires. Argan Rod, a Celtic goddess of time, is your champion, and she will ensure your
timing is perfect. The hours will expand to give you the space you need to complete anything that you started today. Recognize that no matter what's in front of you, time is your friend. Consider
that everything you intend and desire uh has its own relationship to time and will come to you in the perfect form at the perfect moment. Patience dedication and quiet
emancipation are delicate um and potent allies. Now, Aryan Rod is your ally and the timing is perfect. Okay.
Okay. So, that's Arian Rod. You know, I I do believe in divine timing. Okay, what else we got? Oh, we got Lakshmi. Lakshmi, we have an Indian goddess, Lakshmi, the goddess of wealth. Then this is fortune right there. Lakshmi number 28.
Okay. Lakshmi
says, "When the Hindu goddess Lashmi comes to visit, she heralds a celebration of your purpose and compassionate um compassionate prosperity. All your experience and all your skills are rich with meaning and power and purpose. As a result, you can expect uh to see
evidence of the wealth in the world around you. You have the ability right now to create great success in life and what you have to offer has exalted value. The goddess of luck and prosperity says it's time now to show your good fortune. Share your good fortune with others. and
she will show you how it multiplies when you apply uh gratitude, praise, and a commitment to serve. If it's material success you intend, you should co-create it. If it's a rich relationship with life, you will attract
and develop it. You you are a magnet for miracles. Nothing is out of re uh reach uh when the goddess Lakshmi comes calling. Okay. Where' you hear? Hold on. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Finally. I'll I'm just going to put one in for this deck. This is Hera. This is the Greek goddess of women and mothers. She's like she has her symbol is a peacock. She's Zeus's wife. She's known as pretty a jealous woman. But uh you know he's giving he gives her a reason to be jealous that he's out turning into
animals and having sex with everybody he can find. Okay. So her number is 20 uh 21. Okay. And it says
the Greek goddess Hera, wife of Zeus, knows intimately the positive alliances lead to great power. At this moment, you've magnetized. You're magnetized to receive aid from people who have great wisdom and can help you
in the next level. Perhaps it's a me uh a mentor who appears or someone in the know. making connections with others and finding strategic partnerships are found right now as you explore the uh the nature of becoming empowered by
association. This works well if you have a uh a healthy sense of self-worth and if you are else able to learn without um diminishing yourself in any way. Right now, hair is supportive supporting you uh to form beneficial alliances when the
greater good for the greater good of all. When called to action or faced with a decision, ask how does this benefit me and how can I serve the higher good as a result of this connection? You may also be called to help to uh to help give help to another
who needs your counseling. Give freely for only goodwill will come of it. This is wonderful time for all manner of connections and collaborations. Okay,
that was good. You know guys, I love like this is like that's like one of the things I was like really like disappointed in myself in is that but also I was disappointed like about not focusing enough on tarot and stuff like that. But I was also just disappointed like you know kind of like
you know somebody saying oh you know this guy like exiled one or whatever. He was like oh you know I heard that um someone saw you on a te a show years ago and you didn't know how to do ter no I I've been ter I was eight. You made a pumpkin uh spice right now cake. I love pumpkin. Oh my god it's my favorite. I
love pumpkin very much. Here, let's do a little fun fun of these fun cards before I go. These are just like the little cute fun deck. We have the High Priestess. You know, High Priestess energy. Take a nice bubble bath. Maybe it's time to take a bath tonight. I'm going I'm definitely going to. She's having a little doobie.
Okay. I would love a bath. I believe that with legs, right? M. Apple banana spice cake. M. Hold on. You Gotti, you make you make you make um baked goods. Gotti Gotti's a chef. I didn't know that about you. Isn't it
interesting you at the Starbucks pumpkin spice? I I like that too, Jamie. Um see, isn't it interesting? We sometimes we learn things we we never guess. And Gotti is like a little dessert chef. Not a little dessert. I mean, you know, you're a big you're you do it all, baby. Okay. Hey, why don't you you know, do do you ship across the country? I think I'd like I'd like one.
Trish Trisha Lucious was talking about she makes she made a blogger I guess a uh she makes these care packages and she made them all these um like a she put a lot of pepper candy or something. Spicy pepper candy or something. Hello. Is ghost there? Look at ghost. And ghost
is still you have a cloth a bathtub. Oh, that's cool. Yeah. Well, look at this. This is not a This is not This is not a very positive friend. This is This is called a fair weather friend. Look. Well, I guess so. Well, who's that? Look, she is that she she is her butt big. What's going on here?
Well, at least there's some cushion for the Look. Oh, his little skeleton. Who's Who's I don't know. I don't know who that's Is that CB? I'm sorry, guys. That's bad. That's so bad. No, I'm sorry. So sorry. Yeah. And is that you gotty? Is this you and
is this you and some poor woman? What is what's going on here? You're ghost. Miss you. Can I say? What can I say? That ghost. A little bit of a joke. Okay. Hey, look at this. The moon. There's the moon
right there. Oh my gosh. I can only get poor. There's a moon. Um yeah, there's a little coyote next to it and like oh beautiful moon. Okay, moon the moon actually has a you know women are very connected to the moon because the moon has to do with these tides and um you
know there's these tides going through our bodies, right? And so sometimes say whatever you want goes. Yes. Oh. Oh. Hey, I want to see. That'd be funny if you like, you know, you and you and uh, you know, you and Ghost someday could uh, you know, compete and see who
wins. I bet Pa Paige might win. Bet. She's better than you think. Oh, look, the bottle. This is like kind of like reminds me of like, you know, that the Vinci like Adam Adam touching God's hand, but this is like, you know, because the nipple and the bottle is kind of like God, you know, it's nourishing this baby. And so
it's like, you know, um, what number is it? 13. That's that's a death card. But, you know, there's crystals right there. 13. The bottle. Okay. A couple more for this deck.
We had the tea earlier. Now we have the coffee. I'm thinking about getting some more coffee tonight. Right. What is that? Oh, a bean. Like holding a bean. What is this? A coffee ritual? Coffee magical. Like a little cauldron mug. How cute.
Like little the eye and the hand, right? Okay, one more then I'm going to What time is it? I'm going to wrap it up by
Hold on. I think I'm 7:23. Hey, do I have I have time for this? Hold on. We have time for this. I didn't think I didn't know Ghost was going to come today. I was like waiting for him. Hey guys, put this.
May I have permission to crash out? Ghost already did. He took the whole crowd.
Echo through the night. That's how you know the haunts alive. Lights flicker, chats in the right, and somewhere ghosts about to die. Heroing loud like thunder on caffeine. Dropping stacks, cracking jokes, keeping the
scene clean. The crowd starts howling. The trolls start crying. Ghost just >> Let's go. And now we're flying prince. like he's chaos with the halo. Wild but true. Held me down when the sky lost its you. They can't see the light he threw in my storm. But I remember I was
reborn. >> May I have permission to crash out? Ghost already did. It took the whole crowd. Heart of gold, voice of fire. When go shows up, the stakes get higher. Dum dum, that's his war cry sound. Every
hater gets spun right round. When the chat goes cold, he brings it loud. His ghost over baby psych is proud.
They talk slick. Why is he still around? But kindness is rare on this battleground. He saw my fall, still chose to believe when most just laugh and chose to leave me. >> He's the king of the late night ring.
Crashing out with a heart that sings. Generous soul, half saint, half storm. breaking norms just by staying warm. >> In a world full of clowns, he's the last to fake. When the screen went dark, he
kept me awake. All the noise fades, but ghost remains turning pain into
ghost runs this town. You already know this town. You already know ghost friends.
You know, ghost runs this town. Beauty. Ghost runs the street. LET'S GO. Becomes a dream. Dumb dumb to the ones who doubt. He's the reason the flame never went out. So raise your glass. The
ghost are out. It's ghost over forever.
Out of New York came a storm on wheels. Rolling in smooth with the mafia feels. Cuban cigar lit like his temper. Pizza in one hand. Hot dog for dinner. Said psyche I'm bored. Had to switch the scene. Left some poor woman screaming on live stream. Trolled her down to the void and back. Then crashed my show like
a heart attack. Goty made man troll king mafia soul rolling through panels like he's in control. Discord army on this Italian Mormon blend. They dangerous, wild, but they still my friends. Yeah. Love you got till the bitter end. We fight, we troll, but we friends forever,
my friend. Yeah, he thinks he's God with a lowercase G in a wheelchair. Still stomping through the live feed. Bow to your king while smoking that leaf. Laughing at chaos
like it's comic relief. Brought spunky too. Now that trolls a gem. Mean one sweet ones. They all jumped in. Camera's glitching. Chat on fire. Mod's begging me to cut the wire. But nah, I like my circus. I love this mess. Every troll's just a test, not finesse. Goty, you're rude, absurd, and free. But deep down
you got loyalty. Goti made man troll king off mia soul rolling through panels like he's in control. Discord army on this Italian Mormon blend. They dangerous wild but they still my friends. Yeah love you got me till the bitter end. We fight we
troll but we friends forever my friend. You called me a fraud then defended my clown. Spam my chat then held it down. You got layers like a deep dish slice
under all that shade. A heart made of ice and maybe rice. So let's light that cigar. Raise the mic. Another night of chaos. Welcome to psych. You brought the drama, the heat, the fun. And weirdly it feels like >> you're the one.
>> Gotti. Yeah. You crazy, but you're now rolling through fire. No matter the madness, no matter the weather, we can. But we stick together. >> Maybe
forever. Even if you crash my show tomorrow. >> I I
cute thank you page. Of course. And we can now wouldn't be complete without
the sun in her hair. Maple leaves falling. She don't seem to care. She lines up a shot. Swings smooth. No rage. That's my Canadian darling.
That's praise. That's praise. Cards on the table, incense in the air. Tarot spread open. She reads like a
prayer. Sweet voice humming, heart full of sage. Every word she speaks feels like a golden page. Oh, prairie page. Wild and free as a breeze through the evergreens.
Alexander's heart's gone all the way. Lost in that smile in those prairie days. Yeah, she's a sweetheart, a real eye maze. That's my Canadian better my page. >> Oh, is that
>> Ferrari?
She don't fake. She don't play games. She's the calm in the storm. The spark in the flame.
You wild in the rain. Tarot queen with that gentle grace. You light up the golden she's a real one. That's the legend they call
>> me. So here's to the girl. Don't need
brave and amazing. If love's a song, I'll let it play.
Forever home in
prairie poo
and a is I don't know what that means But yeah, I got you. Coh, you want some reading? Okay, let me see. Well, how about I'll do it out of these more mascar?
There we go. Ghost. Let's see. That's behind door number two. Okay, hold on. Let me see. Oh, okay. Ghost, this is your door. It says inner power. Hey, ghost. I'm I'm in the middle of doing
it. She I mean, you can ask her after. You're supposed to be paying attention to me right now. By your own command, you brought yourself here. At this moment in life, you have nothing to fear. So, it's okay, Ghost. That's okay. That's your card. Bye.
Hope you like that reading. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Oh my gosh. Oh, sorry. That was private. Um,
what's she doing here?
Color hair and
Okay. So, there's Okay, so there's this Indian goddess name. Her name is Chinamasta. She's one of the Mahabas, but she's a goddess that she like decapitates herself and then she like has this like her her neck is gushing blood and her her head is like smiling and then it goes into like um the mouths of like her two like attendants. I think her I forgot the names exactly but yeah,
Bossini and Okay. But um and I kept asking Chad GBT to make it. And it's like, "Oh, we can't make it. We can't make it." And I finally got it to make it instead. I said, "I said, "Okay, I'll do everything you wanted to make it make it make with it." But instead of blood, it has to be light or something like that. Not her name is her name is Matangi. She's a goddess of
outcasts, leftovers, and um um intuition arts music, speech. Okay. Like a lot of interesting things. Okay. Um, and she's beautiful. I love her beautiful sub green skin. She's right there, too. Okay. Um, but this is the picture they came up with. It's pretty good. It came out pretty came out pretty good.
Except it's supposed to be I think the blood's supposed to be going in their mouth and it's like kind of like didn't cut off her whole head. It's like half her head is still on there. But yeah, she just looks she just looks great though. Her name is Chin Masta. Very interesting goddess, huh? and and she's on top of this like usually it's a couple. It's like a copulating couple, not a dead body. But yeah, pretty cool. But it said it said
it it did as long as it said it has to be light. It said it's light instead of blood. So guys remember that's light instead of blood. Anyway, again, this is my that made some really cool graphics today. Okay.
Oh, yeah. I managed to This is the smoky one.
This one.
Yeah, that's not Blogger. That's me. I know. I know. It's the size of Blogger. That's me. Uh, and she Oh, she plays Vina. She's like She's like um Sar Swaty, but she's like um she's more of the tantric um kind of like the And she's from the forest and she's from like lowest cast, but and like you know,
the outcast and stuff like that. I like that. and like the disenfranch. Um, ghost, if you uh if you want to send some uh send something tonight, I will, but it's like I'm really not in the Yeah, I mean, I I will allow people to sponsor panels if you'd like to, but
that's for now. I do 100%. Also, Blogger, they said um Blogger said he in his chat, in his own chat, he said he put something called a rhino in his up his butt and it's like, you know, it's basically just like a uh a gas station kind of um aphrodisiac, right? It's like a it's like Spanish fly kind of. And he
put it in his butt. Can you believe that? Or he called bof boofed it. It's called a rhino. Yeah. And I said, "Well, you know, a rhino horn is like traditionally an aphrodesiac." I think, "Did you put the whole horn up there?" And everyone laughed, but I don't think he did. Maybe. It's fun to think about. Uh, well, explains a lot. I'm just kid. Okay. Uh,
um, Christian just made this really funny picture of blogger, too. I mean, it's just like I I showed it to chat GPT, and chat GPT is like, "Please stop showing me this picture. looks fine. And I said, "Who does that look like?" And it said, "Well, it's a Russ looks
like Russell Brand got, you know, having a rough time." Um, but pretty accurate. Better than one. Yeah. Yeah. Doesn't look too bad. Uh, um, where Blogger was actually in my chat the other night, and I don't have a problem with Blogger. I think he's kind of I think he's kind of endearing a
little bit, but I don't like how he's like, you know, making not being very appropriate all the time. What else do we have? Um,
we have leftovers. Fish tacos on the way. See the goddess of leftovers. There's the guy. Oh, that's not from video one, but yeah, the picture I made. So, I think there's fish tacos in there. Okay. Um, what else do I got?
Anything? Oh, yeah. Well, I made made some more of these, too. These are really cool. Like that one. Yeah, I like that. I made that as my banner. And of course, bird angel.
Thank you so much, Loki. Pretty cool. I like the neon aesthetic. Put some of that on my website. And punishing me because I can't. Uh, well, check. Oh, we should check check see if catch up works. Um,
and then this uh this one. There's that. And but I made a lot more. I'm still going to roll it out. And I also have this one that should be um like when I have guests on the panel, I
can put like here. See? Oh, panel. I put it over that. Right. Okay. So, got some cool stuff happening. And
anything else? Let me see. Downloads, documents. I have Oh, okay. Downloads. Okay. Really pretty stuff. Here's a great one.
I love you, Mason. I like they said, "Are you I said, "Are you in a wheelchair?" And he'd say, "Why do you think I'm in a wheelchair?" Like, "It looks like you're sitting in a wheelchair." Um, what else? I have This is cute.
Okay. Oh I have a lot of stuff. Okay. Um
I made some icons for the thing. Let's see. How about have you ever How about something with a macaw on a keyboard? Here you go. What What's happening here? Look at all the Why are they Why are all the animals piled on top of each other? That's very disturbing. Look at that poor iguana. What's
What the is going on? Piled up. The animals piled each other. Yeah, it's so much fun. Uh got some interesting stuff in here. What else do I got? I got some funny stuff. Um, you want to see Oh, this one. Well, you want to see a dog in a a hat? Time
would like this one. Oh, it's not a hat. It's a a little golden retriever with a cell phone on its head. I don't know why it has a cell phone on it but it does. Actually, those ones were made by like I think by the program called Vidic.
Um, what else I have? Well, did you see like because Alexandre Mayor said she was going to fight Tommy James and she wants to she wants to do a boxing match with him. So, I have that one, but it kind of looks like blogger. Yeah.
And it's like, so there's me like, you know, my priest outfit say, "You can do it." And giving her a little back rub. There's Tommy James dead on dead on the ground. He's already knocked out. He's already won. Um yeah that's a good one.
So much fun. She made some really funny ones of blogger, too. Oh, and what's this thing? Oh, yeah. That's the Alexander McQueen. Okay, I have one animated though. I want animated.
I don't know if that looks like him, but you'd think after 20 years on these streets, I'd get used to the quiet, but it's the quiet that gets loud. The paperwork, the coffee gone cold, the reflection in the glass. That guy looks like he used to laugh more. People always think cops get numb. Truth is, we feel everything. We just don't let it
leak. You learn to carry ghosts like extra weight on the belt. >> Yeah. Burning joint. I'm going to be a dick today and say sponsored panels only.
What is this? Okay. Um, let me see. Can break. Alex just yelled at me so I mean Alexander he yelled at me so loud the other night over like and he's like like dick we all died like Alex so negative and he's just like yelling at me. Um
yeah. Oh, here's ghost. Did it work? Oh, no. It didn't work. I have a ghost one. Does this look like you ghost here? What is What are you doing? You're in your car.
Oh, there you are.
Oh yeah. Okay. Well, what else do I got? Do I have anything else? Oh yeah, I do have the I have I have Matongi saying something. Let me see. >> The voice beneath your voice. The current that moves your words before you speak them. I dwell in the places others cast away, shaping refuse into revelation. Do not fear the noise within you. Refine it and it becomes prophecy.
Speak with intention and I will turn your syllables into sigils. Every truth you utter carves a path through illusion. I am Matangi, the sound that awakens worlds. >> Here you go. Hey, man. Yep. Good stuff.
>> Look closer. The symbols are awake. Mahavidya Shyamala, the secret voice of the cult. Bold sings. Lotus listens. Knight remembers. Art becomes ritual. Devotion becomes dialogue. Eyes, wings, hands. The alphabet of Stye. On parchment, light blooms like memory.
>> Do you hear the living speech? >> Lines meet circuits. A bridge between worlds. The watcher in the wild sees inward. Transformation is the oldest spell. In the hush, the secret voice carries. Breathe, witness, and carry the myth. >> There you go, guys. I'm telling you, do some cool
with this cool. I swear. I mean, it's like I'm taking as freaking serious can be. Um Oh. here. Well, I don't want to look at the I'm not
playing anymore my old my old clips from Oh, wait. This one's good. I I don't want to get in trouble.
Not me. I'M SHADOW BAND AGAIN. BRO, mute your mic. Then boom, drop a baseline. Dirtier than the check. Ghost is crashing out, smashing rappers like vows. Canada drives licking watch catalog. Somehow Rando's ranting about a
tunes while his playlist all cartoons. Mason's pacing redeyed rage threatening people from an undisclosed stage. Natalie Backoot behind head mods praying lord not again. Welcome to the panverse baby hold your ground where the chaos comes like a feedback sound. We don't know who's sane, who's bad or blessed, but the vibes unholy and always
possessed. Scotty calls in from the bowl. Brags he just dropped a cosmic load. Alexander's mic nuclear loud beat the storms and turn it down your cloud. Tony bombs the stream with skin. Chad explodes. Mods dive in. He man in time. Roen free. Burning bridges living HD.
Arthur's there just smiling sweet. Y'all need Jesus or at least some sleep. Janet and Jamie holding the line. Keeping love alive through the digital crime. Michael spirit built the static home drops a light then fades he's done.
Where the curse the clowns the chosen few might distorted prophets with nothing to lose by repeat and it's also true. with the curse the clowns the chosen few might distorted prophets with nothing to lose last fight to repeat on Qiverse forever and it's
all so true ghost disconnected Canada dry timed out rand still typing wait just b me laughter static cat meow inream noise.
Yeah. Here we go. Uh but Nick Nick, is Nick Johnson here? Where's Nick Johnson? I have Nick Johnson.
and rolls in like a fever dream. Eric hat Elvis gleam dra prescribes the vibe. Bill Gates wallet east a bunning eyes cool boy swag a Santa laugh tie rolling circus on a bubble bath path showed his
butt once world stood still chat lost it's mind like a rhythm thavers
keeper of chaos master of murder dumpster diving saint with a bong maker's hand he's a crush prophet of this mad land. Trust him with the chat. No fear, no fuss. When trolls appear, he turns them to dust. Skinny like a wire, strong like myth. Rebuilds the vibe with a cosmic twist. He's my hype man.
Guardian friend. Promotes the stream from start to end. Through every line, through every curse. Nick Johnson reigns. Super the giver. >> Super the giver. >> Super the giver.
He's the Easter Bunny on a caffeine high. The pool boy with a third eye tie. The pizza's cold. The dumpster's deep. But Nick dies in where angels weep. He's the super model. The psychiver psychiver digital shaman mean
nerd. Bombs jokes and divine disorder. He's the gatekeeper at the border. So here's the Nick wild and free keeper of the live stream sanity. If madness is art then he's the verse super mind
forever in the psychiver.
Yeah, pretty good. Woohoo. And again, I think of a song. I mean, how about this one? That one. I'm It's another beach one, huh? I do want to play that one, though. It's pretty good. Uh where's the beach one? The one about the uh special people.
Probably what it is, though. like a song. A song. Oh, here it is. Um, I have some on my website or actually I have some downloaded on my in my page. I
burned the gang rolls in with a cooler ghost with a grin. Polo and God's got claws before the noon bell thing that his hums like a seashell spell. Alexander's preaching with a tan so divine sunscreen forgotten he's turning to bright
people red and raw snapping our claws at the cosmic law steam in our veins salt in our eyes took our souls now we baptized for the world in our cre at the altar of hunger you can hear that you
Paige and Apollo start chanting. Shells start to glow. Ghost draw symbols in the unto God's claws. Click time with faith. Sing that his whispers the pot can't wait. Alexander rise his halo of phone. Welcome micro stations to your new home
with the lobster people red and raw. Snapping our claws at the cosmic law. Steam in our veins, salt in our eyes, and toxic our souls. Now we baptize. Boil the world in our butter greed. At the altar of hunger, psychic bra
like insane crabs crawling in his name. Psyche appears with a terror in hand. Too late they claim the sand. A claw for a heart, a shell for a crown. The contract slowly down
below red and raw. Snapping our claws at the cosmic law. Steam in our veins. Salt in our eyes. The tide took our souls. Now we baptize. Under the moon in that boiling reach they peace forever and red.
I love making this song. I do. I love making this song so much. I really do. like probably one of the best things on my favorite. I don't know. I'm just I'm so happy with all the stuff I'm able to finally manifest that I like not be able to,
you know, play all the instruments for it. So, what do we have? Okay. Well, I'm going to probably like let you guys go, but I I'll play the one song Way Out. It was really good one.
Bye guys. Love you.
I carve my name into silence. Stitch my ribs with smoke. build altars out of every word I never spoke. My mercy was the wound that never healed. And I keep reopening it just to
feel. You came bleeding stories beg for shrine. But I can't be your savior. And I'm crossing my own line. I UNSEAL THE HEART.
I let it burn. This is how the soul returns. Every sky sac.
I reached for you once against the council of my bones. Watched you slip into the black where the current own. You never felt the pull beneath your skin. So I held out bloodless fingers
waiting for you to swim. Mercy is a quiet ritual I keep inside my throat to light the candle's gutter. This is where we both let go. I pry my chest open, stitch it shut with moonlight thread. My
weakness is the way I keep the living and the dead. Our scars are scripture proof the past is not unreal. I tear my heart open just to know how truth can feel. I am drunk all night. A vessel
full of ache. I want to disappear. Be nothing but the way. You should have never crossed the threshold of my shore. Turn back to the deep where you belong before.
You're drowning in the water. I tried to haul you in. I left my heart unlocked. And you let the dark begin. Go fix yourself. I bless your storm. I free the chain. The tide takes what it's always claimed. And I still bleeding light
within. Tear my heart open once again. I tried to lift your drowning, but you pull the tide instead. You mistook compassion for a place to rest your head. My spirit crack like stained glass in the rain.
But beauty is born from what can't be contained. I'm not your cure. I'm your mirror. See the monster.
be clearer. I can't close your chaos. Holy mine. I left the break. I don't see the heart. I let it
return. Every f every I am not broken. I am break my
what it can say. My heart is Help me.
Come in close, my beautiful misfits. the real me. I'm just a California kid with saltwater hair, a wild heart. Yes, a speedo that probably should have retired in 2014, but refuses to stop
believing in me. I used to laugh all night in the Malibu dark, lying in the grass, talking about love, destiny, the universe before life. God, we're sharp and complicated. Somewhere along the way, I almost forgot what it felt like
to be like, but then you showed up. And suddenly I remember with you. I can let my guard down. I can say the
craziest most unfiltered cosmic nonsense. And you just laugh and catch me right before I face plan into my own chaos. You let me be myself. Speed old scars. Stardust know.
I've never felt more myself, more seen, more beautiful in my absurdity than I do standing here with you. It hits me sometimes hard, like damn. You really found me.
When you speak, it's like a private zone built out of inside jokes. Only this cult understands. Everybody else fades out like background NPCs. And it's just us. Me and my m little consolation of souls breathing the same fire.
You strip the walls right off me. You gave me back that spark I thought was gone. You reminded me of love. real raw communal love feels like. So yeah, with you
I can let my head down. I can be bowed with a reckless holy human. I can fall and know the fall and break me. I can shine without apology and with nothing but this damn speed on I've never felt so alive.
Now that I'm with you, now that I'm with this Oh,
I love you fools.
I love you fools.
The whispers in my skull keep nudging me to kneel. Feel like the elders circling overhead, hungry for a reveal. The room won't stop turning. The floors are black tight. And I choke down one more omen
just to feel alive. The choir in my ribs keeps begging me to stay. You pull that in the lever. All the shadows go away. But the sand's already falling and I'm done by time. So
I stash my truth in silence. You don't get the inside line. The voices keep demanding that I choose a throne. Sky fire or underworld. Claim it or die alone. I'm the cold spruce prophet. You
should know better. Don't ask the storm to linger. This weather is the chance in my skull keeps claiming I'm not all right. Turning my mind into a cyclone that rips out the lights.
Heavy air cracks, moons, cold pressure. Don't lock me in this moment forever. Whispers keep promising I won't see it done. And I don't bring up the drama cuz it hits too strong. They say I'm fine,
but that's the kind of life that gets you swallowed whole in the temple. The guidance in my head is a battleman with swagger. The whole vessel go down like a dagger. Stray acolyte with no tether. Don't freeze this chapter forever.
>> The spirits keep insisting that I'm unhinged. Maybe there the needle won't unswing black skies. I knit grim weather. Don't trap me in this echo forever. The whispers say I'm smart since birth and paranoia paints every corner of the earth. We're all dust bound pilgrims heading to dirt. But if I go down the night, I'm taking the cosmos.
The voices say I'm cursed and the vibe gets worse. But I refuse to let the ending read like a rehears. We all get claimed. But before the bell is out.
I don't know what happened there. Check that out. Um I don't know. This was I just think this one's a funny one. I have I just have a funny This is funny. I was a kid. I found a corpse doing slow pouettes on that cursed carousel by Thompson Lane. Dude looked like he tried to out stare a
demon and blinked eyes wide mouth open spine arch like he got smited mid tick tock. And I don't know why this memory keeps biting my ankles. Why my brain insists on marinating in nightmare marinade? Wild death is the only promise we ever get. Get folks treated like Voldemort with a day job. Every sunrise,
every spell night. The fear of being human keeps nipping my aura. I claim I'm fearless, cosmic enlightening. But that human fear squats in my chakras. Ran free.
I've always thought I'd make a decent mortician. I haven't felt a genuine emotion since Pokemon Gen One. Half my fantasies involve surviving a zombie apocalypse on with nothing but caffeine and poor decisions. AND IF EVERYONE'S terrified their legacy might evaporate, maybe we should all carve a handle
straight into our femurs. Permanence is my kink apparently. So when I die, someone please candle in Latin with dramatic flourish. So archaeologists argue about me. Every sunrise, every spell night. The fear of being human on
my astral body. I swear I'm stoic warrior coded. But that human fear, yeah, it clings like a stage five familiar.
Cling cling. A squirrel is just a rat with a glamour spell. Me. I'm a cockroach with plot armor and dream alley has personally signed off on my warranty office bump any god demon saint or crypted but I still worry I'll leave a metaphysical mess behind and my family
get stuck with the tab the tab who's paying the tab tab the cursor tab every sunrise every spell night the fear of being human. That ancient gremlin perched on the skull of mankind.
Keep summoning its dumb little song. On on on and on and on.
I like that one. I've been I've been busy doing this.
So, there are a lot I have a lot of ideas though. Lot of ideas.
Every chain is eternal. Maybe that's the art of the climb. The soul don't break, it refineses. My mirror eyes, they don't flinch in the storm. They just watch the illusions form. I cut to the nerves, switch planes midflight. Bleeding truth in the glare of the light. Now I'm
electric, wide open the light. Didn't engage the feel and let it fly. Watch me ascend while I'm in my skin. Tangled down but the light can't see.
Silencing shadows that whisper my name. You lift me up just to test my flame. Watch me ascend the mind. Falling apart to rew my mind. Silence shadows breaking
the crown. Lift me up. I won't fall back down. Blessing the dark, praising the bloom. The night is the canvas where visions move. My voice cracks thunder, my veins run blue. Hold it close, I'm becoming new. I cut to the core, I switch into
grace. I built this world from my own mistakes. Now I'm full. No mess, no wall. Didn't contain the feeling at all. Watch me as while I'm shedding my skin tangled down the light
silencing shadows and whisper my name. You lift me up just to test my flame. Watch me ascend the vine. Falling apart to rewire my mind. Silencing shadows, breaking the crown. Lift me up, I won't
fall back down. Eyes closed. I fell through cosmic time. Madness and magic. Your pulse in mine
circle divide our souls in find. You're tied to me. But I choose the light. Oh, I'd cut you free. Will love redesign with starlight woven.
Watch me around fear, no shame. The doubt dissolves in the holy flame. Shadows down. You lift me up. I won't come down. You watch me unravel. Watch me transform
from the rise. Reborn. Reborn.
I love you. I love you guys. A yeah, I'm not perfect at all, but I am I am a human and that's what that's what it's beautiful is perfect in our imperfection.
The tail kicks off. Let me confess my crime. I took what was mine because time is fake and the cosmos refuses to file proper paperwork. We weren't just friends. We were a whole curse duet waiting for the draw. And in true cult fashion,
I built what the gods never did draft. The love story held together with duct tape prophecy and questionable ethics. The fear got loud like trolls on a slow Tuesday. So I panicked, grabbed faith by the throat and cut every possible future
off at the source. Call it romantic, call it psychotic, call it Saturday night at the panover. She laughed so hard she almost haunted herself. I probably stabbed her like way too many times. >> We don't count in the coke NUMBERS ARE A MORTAL PRISON.
>> Pulled her heart OUT LIKE IT WAS a limited edition merch. Drop her eyes when sunny side up. Eat it. Eat it. Eat it. Not my proudest moment, but lovers corals get messy when your alter candles are tax deductable. And suddenly she's flawless, perfect, definitely not breathing, but finally
letting me get a word in. I've never been this spiritually deep. Six feet give or take, but love doesn't quit. It responds. I could keep her fresh forever with the fountain of question.
The heat on her thigh practical. Don't judge. I knew it wasn't her time, but the fire dies and you think the show's over. No, that's just when Streamyard starts glitching.
Yeah, baby, don't cry. You had my heart mostly. Everyone dies eventually, so why not make it romantic,
but karma clocks in. A vengeful soul crawls back from beyond the grave. Like, yeah, we're not done, babe. Possession, resurrection, a little light, revenge, the usual cult of psychic Tuesday. She smiles wide enough to qualify as a new
moon. Tears of laughter. 50 stabs later, my heart is the one on the menu. Easy again. We stay consistent. >> Now I see the error of my way.
So I hike back across the veil to apologize like a man returning a laid library book. She burned in hell while I lounged in heaven. Awkward. Got to fix that imbalance before she slaps me with a cosmic fire.
I'll suffer a long time. She tells me it's not long enough. I tell her I'll do anything. The universe hands me a try again. Button and laughs over and over and over. Response speed run until finally
she says wedding.
So gather the spirits, the mods, and best man. Lenor's flower cat matandy officiating with side glance judgment. Do you take this man and death for the rest of your wonderfully unnatural afterlife? Yes, I do. Do you take this woman and death to haunt and roast him for eternity?
>> I guess my garage. >> I never knew my tiny cosmic slip up would be so chilly. I need a heater for a ghostly thigh. But here we are. The fire dies. The story restarts. And eternity smells faintly of incense and bad decisions.
Baby, don't cry. Everybody's got to die sometime. But we can still reboot the
Good night, Long Beach. Thank you for supporting our extremely ill advised union. See you next haunt. Then the hunger hits the pulse. We all pretend we don't have.
I lose control. Taste of the blood. Don't judge. And suddenly someone's screaming and someone's running. And I'm like, "Relax. Close your eyes. You're safe."
Probably arms pinned neatly at your sides. This time the pleasure is all mine. Scream till the universe goes quiet. Scream while your shadow flickers like a
dying candle. Scream because desire has teeth and likes to bite. Everyone loses control. Everyone grows up eventually and one of these nights.
Kill Hunt again. >> an epic epic It's epic tale. Epic tail. He's having so much fun.
What's this? your line up in the mortal tongue and I'm half poison on sweet spirits fair warning but I still try to stay in your but you'd already
carve your exit room throw a feast for my ghost life to the wilder names it I wage your faith on myself kiss my harder. Good night. I'm sprinting through the dust like a runaway omen.
Yeah, I run everything. Especially the truth that glare too bright. When the sun drops sideways into your eyes, you reach for my heart only when I'm
walking away. Classic new year, new skin, same old river dragging us to the same damn sea. People mode said we were right. They told me I should feel lucky to
belong to anyone. The prophecy tasted wrong. All the time spent, all the mass war and pull you closer and blur the vision till I can't tell if it's love or just the echo of it. But the credit hits again that evening some blindness. You
want my devotion only in the moment my footprint fing on the altar. No echoes in the temple hall. Just us.
Night swimming pupils glowing white. Summer drinks lying sweeter than the makers. You slip through versions of yourself. Searching for a to march freedom. Love is a blade that teaches release one cut at a time.
And still there in your eyes when it's time to go. Nothing around you but the shadow you cast as you walk away from everything.
Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
lover. >> Salutations to you, oh destroyer of Mahishaur. Oh, fears mother whose radiant shatters the darkness. You stride into battle like a storm,
wielding celestial weapons that blaze like suns. All the gods bow before you as you dance on the chest of the buffalo demon's rage. Victory to you, mother of the universe, whose form glows brighter than lightning within storm clouds. Your lion roars through the three worlds. Scattering armies like dry leaves. You laugh in the
face of tyrants and cut through the arrogance with a glance. You draw the peaks of mountain wrapped in the glow of compassion and fury together. Your braces jingle like cosmic bells. just summons the rhythm of creation. Every God
finds shelter in you when their own strength runs dry. Oh D, source of all power whose beauty disarms even the immortals. Your eyes burn red with righteous wrath as you tear apart the armies of demons. Your
spear pierces through illusion. your sword casting out of fear at its root. Praise to the mother whose breath becomes a wind, whose anger becomes a storm, whose mercy becomes a rain that sustains the world. Your crown bles with the crescent moon and your laughter shakes the planets. You who rescue the divas from defeat. Who restore balance
from the world's tremble. You ride the lion of unyielding courage, trampling the forces that choke truth. You smash the praise and lift the frightened children of the universe. Oh goddess, you are the fire and sacrifice. The mantra in the sages mouth, the edge of
every blade that protects the innocent. You are the power behind every righteous act. The shield against all calamity. We bow again and again to you. The fierce, the tender, the inexhaustible. Your hands grant wounds. Your hands
destroy evil. Your lotus feet remains a refuge for all who wander through. So oh mother, you who are worshiped by all beings, you who vanquish demons as easily as breathing, grant us courage, clarity, and unwavering devotion. Cut down the monsters crouching in our own
hearts as you once cut down my himself. Victory to the invincible the night sky. Wearing weapons like a protector of those who call the name in every age in every world in every breath. May your victory.
>> Yeah, that's I call that um the goddess comes to or the divine mother comes to California. It's actually based on an actual I translated like a ancient beta cam and then I put it I just like um test different styles of uh of music and stuff.
I have like just a couple more. Do I
Summer faded, but she never does. Money thin, but a magic thick. Journey walks in and the whole damn tire remembers which way it's supposed to move. Moon calls us down to the shoreline. But my thoughts drift to the one who actually shows up. The one who gets it done while the rest of us are still arguing about
where to start. That's her irreplaceable hilarious soft chaos tucked inside. Competence. She don't need the right one. She is the right one. Perfect timing like she bent the clock herself. snap her fingers and the world rearranges. Beat down days turn nine lives new. She shines because she
refuses not to tick tock. Please. Time waits for no man, but it damn sure pauses for Joy. Mistakes in haste. Dust from old storms. Yeah, we've all got those. But the golden hour still leans her direction. Twilight whispering her name like a note. Frozen wrist. N she's the one cooling the room. Zero's by her
name. She's with more than every digit and it all makes sense in the end. Sure, maybe. But with her things make sense now. We've fallen out, rising up, spun around ourselves, walked lonely roads and left them into submission. But when we keep the night tidy, it's like the universe dams it
to prove for many more. Many more laughs, many more hours, many more stories nobody else would believe. Yeah. Yeah.
For many more, many more times.
It's Joanie. Okay. Well, why don't I play one more way out? I love you guys. I'll be back maybe later today. Love you guys so much. Thank you for being here.
This is what I This is why I do it for you guys. I love you. Okay.
You engross with your halo dim airplane mode. I felt it in my skin. So I was in like design and let a stranger's body keep me cold. You know the spark, you know the gun.
You pull the string. I come undone. You say you love to watch me burn. Maybe pain's the only thing we've learned. Not to be celestial, but the way you left was biblical. So I did something ritual cuz grief for me is cool. I might have sent a picture from a mortal bed
just to haunt your goddamn head. I knew you crave the chaos I f cuz love like ain't never dead. Not to be divine, but I love you. Even when I want to curse you, I could never rise above you. But I'm under him tonight to hurt you. Don't
call it lo's resurrection. Don't call it rageous recollection. Not to be divine, but I love you. This sin was born from your reflection. We trade halos for horns is fair. Every
wound you gave I wear. We take turns being the villain's muse. But damn it, I still want to lose. Not to be celestial, but you made my pain perpetual. So I did something sexual, just to feel conceptual. I might have
sent that photo from a strine, but I love you. Even when I want to curse you, I could never rise above you. But I'm under him
tonight to hurt you. Don't call it lo's resurrection. Don't call it raous recollection. Not to be divine, but I love you. The sin was born from your reflection.
You can't destroy what's already broken. You can't forgive what was never spoken. Every scar, a holy mark, every kiss, another spot. Not to be divine, but I love you. But I
love even when I want to curse you. Want to go. I could never rise above you. But I'm wondering tonight to hurt you. Don't call it loses resurrection. Don't call it raction. Not to be divine,
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