Psyche addresses stream moderation issues and discusses astrology and mythology on a chaotic open panel episode, featuring technical difficulties and chat drama.
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The episode started with technical issues and chat drama, with Psyche addressing stream moderation issues and discussing his phone plan ▶ 2:25. He also talked about being accused of things he didn't do ▶ 5:05 and dealt with a banned user ▶ 7:02. The conversation shifted to astrology, with Psyche discussing Capricorn and Aquarius traits ▶ 8:27 and mentioning famous individuals like Kurt Cobain ▶ 11:57 and Jared Leto ▶ 14:22. He also discussed centaurs and Chiron from mythology ▶ 12:15, highlighting Chiron's unique story ▶ 12:20. Throughout the episode, Psyche emphasized being himself and not putting up with abuse on his own panel ▶ 10:47.
The episode appears to focus on Psyche's personal growth and self-awareness, as he navigates challenges on his panel and discusses his interests in astrology and mythology. It also suggests that Psyche values authenticity and respect in his interactions with others, and is willing to set boundaries to maintain a positive environment on his panel.
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I'm doing okay. I'm doing okay, guys. How are you?
My phone
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Sig, why do you have this crying? What? Um, did you hear me? What' you say? Why do you have beta crying? I I was just laughing. I was doing the laugh. How are you doing, Psyche? Good morning. I hope you're doing well, buddy.
I have no I have no idea. It was out of nowhere. It's I don't know if she's in a bad mood or something. I I don't know. I was just She called me. She's like, "Hey." She's like, "Are you going to do a live?" Jackie, your mic is doing the thing. Okay. Do you think you could just refresh the page and then it would should fix it and then come right back?
Yeah that sounds I don't know. I think somebody I was on another stream and they said they said that it helps if you change your output. I don't know. You usually have to keep talking. It'll show up at some point. It'll like make the sound again. Yeah. I don't know what happened. It I think you're good. No, you're good. Yeah, you're good. Yeah, I have no idea what happened. I have no idea. Somebody
suggested that like it would it helps to switch your like go to your settings and switch your audio input. Apparently that helps. I don't know. Last stream I walked to Starbucks and I guess I'm out of data and so I like had to leave the stream for a few minutes. Are you out of data? What plan do you have? You have like a
limited plan? Yeah, I do. I mean, I'm unlimited um text and and minutes, but it's like a limited. It's like I think I get five gigs data and I can buy. Yeah. No, you're trolling. You're trolling. I get five. I get five gigs of data. Another This is another psyche like
graph, but that's fine. That's okay. You can look up, guys. You can look up Trackbone and you can look up their plans. Um, they give the plan I have is $5 or five um five gigabytes a month and then I can buy for $10 I can buy extra gigs. So I don't need to be cigar
banned. You're not you're not welcome back anymore.
Bye. Hold on one second. I mean I was a I mean I was asked a question. Oh, you have you you have limited. You can go to trackbone. I mean, I'm not going to put up with any work, guys. I didn't ask for anything. Bye. Now try your band
check. It's like you can't say anything, right? It's like, oh yes, I have. You can look at track phone. I can show you on my phone. Not like I have to prove anything to anybody, but I'm just getting accused of all these things. Call these names. I'm doing something wrong. Yes, I'm on a track phone
plan. I have to prove anything. So, let me see my account. Yeah, by the way, I'm getting messages. Oh, you're ugly. You ugly Clean your nails. I get these all day. Hold on.
So just so you just so you know just just so you know I just'll show you the
plans. Let me see by plan add-ons. There it is. I can actually buy 3 gigabytes for $10. 3 gigabyte data card $10 and I get $5 with my regular $20 plan. Hey Rudy, I like I owe anybody.
Anybody got to set up with the phone from a pre-release? Yeah. So, it's a wild morning so far, right? Yeah. I I'm thinking I'll change my plan. I just don't want to change my number because I have my number connected to all of these accounts and it's just like maybe I'll just use this as a burner phone. And then because this phone's already
I've already get I get like probably got like a hundred texts a week telling me I'm just garbage telling me I'm like this worthless piece
of but anyway I can take it call worse by better
Hey, Avana. Yeah, so Sig is banned and I'm actually going to start banning more all the time. Okay, hold on one second. One second. One second. I'm sorry. Yeah, guys. Uh I'm going to get some hate right now because well, no reason. I didn't do I really Oh, I
deleted the stream, but I didn't do anything. I wish I could play the phone call, but I don't record my phone calls like some lunatic. Hold on. You hear how people talk to me, but um so this person's banned. Let me see. I don't want to read your message. Um
hide. Okay. Don't see you anymore. Well, good. I'm not bummed. I'm really happy. I'm really happy. gibbop. Yeah. And it's like in these It's situations, there's going to be people taking sides. And of course, like, you know, I don't want people take Don't
take any side. You know, have a relationship with me if you want to have a relationship. I don't want to interfere with anyone in this relationship. You have your own relationships. I'm not going to get in the middle. I'm not going to ever tell anybody them or me. Choose them or me. You're not defending me. You're not defending me. I'm not never going to do that. I'm just going to be myself.
Let me see. I need to make sure I just delete this. There we go. Bam. You're a Capricorn. You're safe me too. Cap Capricorns. Hey, we're used to this right? I'm also Aquarius moon. I don't know if you have I know a lot of Capricorn Aquarius people. We got the earth. We got the air. We got we're kind of like, you
know, cap Aquarius moon kind of a rough kind of rough. Yeah. Yeah. But I but I had a thing where I was just like, "Oh, I'll just let Sig back on." Then he's just like that kind saying that kind of I don't need to put up with it anymore. So I have this little thing where I can
just ban. So you know, Emma uses it, other people use it. I'm use it on me certainly.
So, yeah. Like me or hate me, whatever. I treat people like I I'd like to be treated. I I you know, I've lost my temper before. I've said things I regret. I never did anything down that. Okay.
Okay. Um Daniel, uh if you like study astrology like I have, you will see that there's there's truth to it. There's a lot of truth to it. Not. Yes. I'd say the I'd say the world works on cycles and there's certain patterns and stuff in these cycles and there's just like
Aquarius Aquarius women Aquarius women are very gorgeous like in my my experience. I think Vanessa Fox is one. You're psyching yourself up. Yeah. You like you like to either give me a you like to bite me or kiss me. I don't know. Or I don't know. Or talking about somebody else. I'm sorry.
Um, guys, all I can do all I can do is be myself and people are going to say all kinds of but I don't have to put up with just go on, you know, there's other there's other panels you can go on talk all the you want about me. People certainly do. People certainly
do, but I'm not going to sit on my own panel be accused of and call names on my own panel. I mean, this is, you know, this my it's my house. It's like someone coming into your house. Oh, it's like peeing on the floor. Oh, you're telling me I'm a piece of It's like, get out of my house. Get out. Get No, it's Jeffrey Dmer's birthday
today. Not going to be abused on my own show. You hate Dom. I mean, it's like I'm not fans of them, you know? It's like I'm not like, "Oh, I want to be Jeffrey D." Like I I just c it was just I got called that on um in the beef sector, which I started out in the beef sector on panels and stuff. And
so I was called that. They were like, "Oh, you look like you look like Jeffrey Dom." I don't I wasn't even wearing the glasses. You're a Pisces. Yeah. Pisces ruled by Neptune and Jupiter. Very dreamy. A lot of them have blue eyes. A lot of them have like I have a couple brothers that are One brother's a Pisces. He has blue eyes. The other one has brown eyes. But my grandfather was
Pisces, blue eyes. Kurt Cobain, famous blue-eyed person, had a is a Pisces. Um, there Sagittarius. What are your tendencies? Sagittarius is fire. It's like they like to travel. They like to um, you know, they're the archer, so they they like to focus on things. Some they set fire to things.
Um, I would say the earth angel energy. Also, centaurs, you know, they're kind of they kind of get rowdy. like the centaurs got rowdy, but then there's Chiron who was like a different kind of centaur. He was the same he was a centaur, but he had uh he had really been through a lot of stuff and you know he was wounded a couple times in his
life. One the first time when he was born he was kind of had a birth defect or and then like rejected or was a product of a of a of a unsa unsavory kind of relationship. He was a product of that. So he was rejected and then he was injured by an arrow accidentally by
Hercules, but it was by a really powerful arrow that the wound would never heal. He was immortal. Um but then he was in such pain he gave up his immortality to save Prometheus. So you love Marilyn Manson? Yeah, I love Marilyn Manson too. But Charles Manson I'm not such a fan of. I
thought Charles Manson I just you know I thought he was kind of a abusive person. I the cult leader kind of stuff is I don't I don't I'd like people to I like if I if I ever was any kind of leader or people look up to me like that. I would want to create other leaders, not have a bunch of followers, you know? That's why I'm very into like, hey, you start
streaming. You start you start streaming. You start start your own show. You run your panel. You run a panel. Like not just like I'm just going to go with this crowd and they go everywhere and whatever everyone thinks. It's like a big guys that's it's like a football game. Someone there sides. There's you know they're biased for no reason. They're they're all even
football players will tell you. It's kind of like they they compete against each other and stuff, but it's like they're all football players and so they kind of they like each other. So you'll see people that are on different teams that are friends and stuff and you know and they understand they're competition,
right? Thank you, Daniel. Thank you. Jared Leto has a sex I've heard Jared Leto may be a FTM. I'm not sure. I mean, think about that though. I but I watched Jared Leto on My So-Called Life. Um maybe I'm not saying I'm anything special. I I'm not trying to create all
I'm Maybe I have a little bit of narcissism. You have to be kind of on YouTube and just be confident enough cuz if I wasn't confident enough, I would just be like sitting in the corner crying after what has been said to me. I would be like I would be like, "Oh my god, babe." you know, I would I have to I have to have some kind of self-confidence beyond whatever other anybody else says. I have people that do
love me. I do. That that won't that won't just throw me away. Um, and so, let me see. Probably at 6 a.m., maybe a little bit later, I'm going to make a phone call. Um, I'm going to try to work out something with somebody. Not not not with beta but
so yeah sex cult is very distasteful to me like that kind of thing and like you know like a lot of sex cults I've seen the people it's like basically the it'll be like centered around a man and then there'll be other couples and then the man will like or the the leader will kind of like use his influence to like
have sex with all the women and is it's just I just very distasteful to I'm into I'm very kind of old-fashioned with when it comes to like you know monogamy. I believe in monogamy. I don't believe in like you know just like I'm I'm very also kind of approved um when it comes to like you know I'm you know it's just by my how I you know there's
some people and they'll say oh that woman or that guy is like a or whatever but they're actually pruds they're just you know they just like maybe project an image but they're not really like that. How about that? Yeah. Wouldn't that be Wouldn't that be something? That's like I was
like people like there's men that have like all these wives. See, I'm not going to I'm not going to ban you. I don't feel like talking to you right now. Okay. Okay. So, um yeah, I'm like I'm like it seems like one wife would be plenty like or not or even one husband at this. So, you're listening to a fail. Also, Laura, you were behind 10 minutes. You miss everything. Well, I'm not Jimmy
anyways and this love is not my community. So, it doesn't really matter. Hey, hey, Hara or Hannah. Never seen I' never seen you before. I don't know. Um, whose island? Whose island is that? Oh, the Jared Leto one. Oh, yeah. I've seen I think I've seen a video on that.
So, uh, he was a very good-look guy, but I like him in that 30 Seconds to Mars. I like some of those songs pretty good. Like guys, like that's what I started doing when I start getting these texts. I I get these texts all day. You're a piece of You're bad. You're bad. Why do you keep coming back, Sig? Like, you don't like me. You want to call me names. You want to accuse me of things. You want to say I'm lying about things. Why do you come back here? Why do you
keep coming back? That's what I want to know. You hate me so much. You said you hate me. No, no, no. You No, you did. You did. No, no. Don't shake your finger at me. You're shaking your finger at me backstage. No, no, no, no, no.
Um, Swami, I mean, is it I'm not a drug addict. And see, that's not that's not nice to say to me either. I'm not a drug addict. I smoke weed, but I'm not even smoking weed right now. I ran out of it last week. I smoke um tobacco and I drink voodoo rangers. That's all I
do. Even if I have done and I've been very open about my drug use in the past. I've told everything. I've said I I said I did the hardest drug you probably do for you know probably 25 years. I've never lied about it. I've always So if I I would say I never done any drug I would just say I would just lie about it. I don't have a habit. I don't have a habit. I have a coffee habit. This is
what this is what I got this morning. This is my This is my energy for the for the morning, right? So, if you'd like to donate to have him have him on, just let me know, but I'm not not going to push it. Right. Yeah. I mean, it's like if if you
just want to troll, you can you can troll me. Throw me a few bucks. I'll let you troll me. But um otherwise why like why am I putting up with these people that are just like just abusing me basically I do K well K let's not get into vibes right I'm not going to call you names
okay nah I mean I I'll in good faith I Well, you know, if if I don't stick to my word, you know, I won't hear the end of it. So, I I'm always broke. I'm having coffee this morning. Enjoy. I'm always
broke. Yeah. Oh, Hannah. Huh?
So, I don't know who's texting me.
Yeah. So, so one day, one day I got donated for someone sent me money so I could get fish tacos. So, and I didn't beg. They they donated, right? But then I found I'm out of data and so I needed to buy three mega gigabytes of data that day.
know sometimes sometimes uh sometimes we're up, sometimes we're down, right? Uh I don't think that will I don't think uh I know beat is feeling down. I don't think she wants to talk to me right now. So I'm just going to let I'm just going to let her cool down. I deleted the last stream.
Yeah, just because I left I when I went I met I'm out of data again, but I went and so I left. Yes, you did, Mr. Big Pipes. Thank you. Uh I left and then I didn't know exactly what was said when I was gone and so and I was the stream went out. So, let me
see. Hey, Philippy. Yeah, just let her like sometimes like I sometimes you know in families we we fight sometimes and then the next day you get some rest sometimes we get you know hey Michael hey what's up hi I want
to apologize like um yeah I was like what the hell like she my my girl wasn't even rooster or anything no no not at all no I I don't I don't know what happened there I don't know what happened there must have came late into the chat because we just woke up and then we noticed that you were uh you were live and stuff and just trying to you know
show love and support and all that and then be started going off on me and then my girl my girl was trying to be polite and be like you know just hey how are you how and then all of a sudden be's like that's why I was like I already has beta been drinking all night or something or I don't I don't know was like I I Like I
talked to her like like I I was I was sleeping. I slept for a couple hours. I woke up and then she called me and then I said she's like hey she's like are she's like do you want to go live? She's like or I'll go live. And and I was like sure I'll go live. I wasn't really planning on it but I I was like okay. And I and then I was like just ready to have a good time. And then she just came on started going off on me. And then um
after I just ended the stream because I did I just wasn't comfortable with what was being said and like Yeah. And and then she called me back and she was like just she was she was so mad that I deleted the end of the stream. But it was like I would have I just wanted her to calm down. I don't know. She see she's very very upset. I don't know why exactly. She's going to have you know I I don't know. I'm already getting messages. Oh, you're an ugly
Clean your nails. Like u they're posting pictures of my yearbook photo which I just show I showed. I don't care. Like you have a yearbook photo. It's just it's just me when I was 18, you know? Yeah. I'm not everyone's cup of tea. Not everyone's going to think I'm good-looking and some people do. I I I have enough people drink cup everybody has their taste. So yeah.
So just because just because you're not attractive don't don't get me wrong chat. I'm I'm not gay. But you know like just just because somebody just just because somebody doesn't find you attractive doesn't mean somebody else doesn't find you attractive. You know what I mean? Right. So I know I mean I have enough confidence. It's like I'm not even like I'm not out there trying to like attract people and whatever.
I I know. I love I love be I I I don't I didn't have a problem. I was fine. I I mean I apologized a million times if I you know got got in an argument the other night. She said to me stuff that was like I won't even repeat what she said. I mean it was just it was just not very nice. And it's like and just like I I I highly doubt she means all of it. I mean she when she gets into her feelings especially when she's drinking and I
mean she don't mean it. You know what I mean? So, it's it's Yeah, I don't know. But she said she said some pretty Sorry. It's okay. No, she said some pretty pretty final things like she's like, "I swear I She's like, "I'm never going to talk to you again." It's okay. Um, yeah, she always says that.
Yeah, but she she said she said it she said it in kind of a more more serious way, but n she she she'll always come back. I mean, come on. Yeah, you literally have a tattoo of beas, you know, beatas, you know, on your on your heart for all things. You can put it anywhere in your chest. You have it on
your heart. So, I mean, come on now. So, but I don't know. I mean it. I mean it. It's like I I mean I mean it. I mean, it's like and I'm never not mad at anybody. I'm not mad mad mad at her. I understand she might be having a bad night, a bad day. She might be triggered about something. I would I'll talk to her, but it's like I can't just be
yelled at, called a called just a like a bad person, called just call me. She calls you She calls you a snowflake and all that stuff. I was like, "Damn, I'm all right." My girl's like, "Just just get off. Get off. Just get off." Yeah. I was like, "All right, I'm off." So So, but you you ended up ending the stream before we got off, so I was
like, "All right, well, good. There you go. We're both mutual ways, you know." Yeah. I just it's just like and that's like people are like, "Oh, why'd you in the stream? Why'd you in the stream?" Like not not that one, but like all the time I It's because there's certain things I'm just not comfortable like me putting as a content creator like there's just negativity I don't want to put into the universe that
comes on the show. Sometimes I'm working I'm getting better at like taking it out. Like I I've pretty I've never seen like anybody on YouTube. I've never I mean I've never seen anybody maybe maybe Cyrax gets it pretty bad but maybe but he might deserve it. Like I I've never seen anybody that didn't deserve it. I don't think I deserve to be just
like degraded like screamed at like I'm just like I'm a all I'm doing is me. All I do is come on here like I wake up want to stream. I I want to hang out with you guys. I want to have fun. It's like not I I I want to like help people. I want to Yeah. Yeah. It's not about not I'm not It's like just because the drama is on this channel and maybe it's a little bit of a drama channel. Maybe I enjoy
the drama sometimes. I'm not I'm about like at the end of the day like everyone comes to understanding or like you know it's just and I understand we're also this is like you know it's a different kind of format. It's like you know when you're on anybody that's on camera is going to act different on camera than they're going to be in in their normal life. Not not Yeah. In real person. Yeah. In real life. In real life. Yeah.
And so I mean it's it's not even like they're trying to. It's just like they naturally will. It's like because it's just like I don't know. So but but I basically the same person I I am in real life on the show. Like cuz I'm on the show so much. It's like if not the mask would have dropped, you know, I would have been revealed. But
yeah, good friends have good fences. Yeah, I agree. I mean, I I I I think I think me and my girl came up at the wrong time cuz literally like we woke up like at well our time, Eastern time, 6 something in the morning and then we're like, "Oh, I was like, "Oh, Psyche's on. You want to go? You want to you want to chat with him real quick?" And she's like, "Yeah, I'm in the mood." Okay. You
know, we just finished She was in a good mood. And then she was like, "Yeah, I I'll I'll go on." I was like, "Okay." And then she gets on and then all of a sudden Bea starts chewing her out and then she starts talking about me but then at the same time forget about me like then she starts going off on you and I'm like damn like I have a feeling she's been drinking all night so
yeah. Oh, it's like and you know I I drink I drink too much way sober. So or that's the thing. It's just like cuz it was like it was like not provoke. It was like everyone was just chill. Everyone was just going to have fun and just talking and it's like and then it's just like they get like attacked like everybody like so it's like I just I just felt like it's like okay let's separate and calm down for a second like
time out time out. Then sometimes that makes it even just like when I put if I put someone backstage if they're you know for a moment there it's like it's like I might it's like I kick their dog or something like that. It's like it's like the worst offense I could do is just to try to run my show and and have like you know be able to talk talk and not not have people screaming and cuz like you know people get heated and stuff. I try to stay out of my emotion
but yeah but I do apologize to to you know MNA and yourself for No, she's not mad about it. No, she that's why she was like all right I'm out. Bye. Yeah. So, but yeah, but I'm not I'm not saying and I'm not saying I'm perfect. I'm not saying I'm perfect and I'm like I'm this calm person, you know. Yeah. But I'm I'm in a I'm in a calm mood this
morning. I'm in a good mood today. It's supposed to be a fun fun day today. It's supposed to be a good day. I'm excited about today. But and I I I kind of almost knew that just this kind of stuff like would happen because it's like whenever things are going really well, there's going to be there's always some kind of monkey wrench thrown into things. So, hi guys. Hey, nobody. Lactic acid's
hidden. Do some push-ups or something. Nobody. Let's
see. If anybody wants to come on the panel, that'd be great. That way, you know. Yeah, I'm boring. I'm boring. So, not that boring. No, you're not. No, you're not boring at all. Um, what's today's plan? I don't know. Um, I'll stay up for another maybe a couple hours. I might get a few more hours sleep. I'm awake now. I uh I don't know what will happen today. I don't know
what will happen today. Hopefully, it's just going to be a fun fun calm day just hanging out and uh I don't know what it is. It's Wednesday. I don't know. It's like I I do hump day. Yeah. But um yeah, every day every like
I always say like every day above ground's a good day. Actually, I should probably change let's go. Let's all get along and put like every day above ground's a good day. But I don't know if I can fit all that in there. Every day you wake up is a good day. So yeah. And it's like this world is temporary and it's like I mean I could like I could I could get hit by a bus
like and it's like what if that was like the last thing she said to me and then I got hit by a bus and then it's like you know she would feel bad and it's like so you're not supposed to like like there's always say they're saying like never go to bed angry like we don't know how how long any of us are here right um hold on you want to see the arm hold on it's doing better you see my arm
I don't know how that happened. I just What the happened? I have no idea. I have no idea. Fell. Did you fall or something? No, I woke up. I woke up and I wasn't like I uh I woke up yesterday. I had a coffee and I was on and then I slept for like maybe two or three hours and I woke up and my arm was like that. I have no idea. I'm not putting that in the
universe. I'm just saying. I'm just saying that could happen. Like you don't know how long anybody has. Like uh life is a fragile thing. Like life is you know it's like you know we live in these bodies that are very you know they're not immort they're not like these like you know super superhuman bodies usually that you know we can be vulnerable to like a lot. It's a big it's a big world full of full of hazards and and danger.
I'm not putting out the universe. I'm just saying it's not like that's why I don't want to like end I want to always end on a good note with people or like you know tell let and also let people know I love them. That's what I I said. That's all I said to be in I messed. I was like, I love you. You know, the demon's not taking over, mermaid. The only demon is I think inside of you, mermaid. If you're like you're projecting, you know, I don't accuse
people. I don't I would never accuse people of having demons. That's what like that's what they would they would do exorcisms and like you know when people had mental illness sometimes and they'd say, "Oh, they have a demon coming over." Right? You saw the aftermath of the person that jumped in front of a bus. Oh my gosh, my cousin are coming back. Oh my gosh, that's so sad. Right. Live on air. That's true. That's what I was reading about. I was reading. Oh, you meant me. You meant me.
I know you meant me, mermaid. You meant me, fool. The demons taking me. What's the What do you mean the demons taking over? I don't understand what you're
saying. Okay. So, but I don't I don't want I don't want anybody I don't know what you mean, though, mermaid. Like, what are the demons taking me over? I don't understand. I mean, if I think I'm fine. No, I I have a feeling they're just trying to answer your feeling. There's just trouble. So, yeah, I Yeah, and I
understand that's Oh my gosh. I get I just And I I've been I went to I was a mod for Benny. You know, you know, I was a mod for Benny. And you saw this time, too. I was for a long time. You saw how bad he got he gets trolled, right? Just like after another. You have to be kind of strong um and not take things personally. It's just it's just words basically. Yeah. And so everybody that's
that's a lesson is like you always want to say like even if you're mad at the person, make sure you say I love you because you don't you don't know how long we don't know how long we we're going to be here, right? It was in the 80s. Let me see. Hold on. You saw an eyeball in the street. Oh, that sounds scary. Um yeah, it's a Yeah, yeah, you can say that mermaid, but you know, I
don't really need your negative energy in my chat, you know. Um, so, so you can just go on your other troll account. Troll me somewhere else. Okay. I'm trying. I want to go for you say these things. Don't let Sig on. But that's, but you are Sig. Why are you talking in the third person and Sig I I didn't appreciate I don't appreciate
what you were what you're saying to me and accusing me on my own show. And so it's like and I I keep warning you again and again. You keep doing it again and again. So, since you're just you're never going to u compromise or negative Nancy stop the cap. Wow. Yeah. So, anyway, I mean, I'll keep you
on. I just don't want to hear it, you know? It's like if you have if you have if you have accus I'm being negative. I'm being I'm being very positive. Yeah. Tomorrow's not promised. Somebody died last night and somebody didn't wake up this morning. That happens every day, right? Would you was you would you let Sig up
here if you wanted to come up here? Um well some somebody said if I I mean I've let Sig back on probably like yesterday probably kicked him off and put him back on maybe 10 maybe 10 times in the last few days 10 times. No I I don't at least I mean probably over probably almost 200
times since I've known him. I keep saying, "Don't say the N-word. Don't insult me. Don't don't like just whine at me. Don't lecture me." Like, I He's been cool. So, you know, he was really cool last night when he was asleep. That was that was that was my the best thing appearance where he was asleep and just didn't say anything. He was just asleep in his chair. That was the best that was the best appearance I think of his. Yeah. So, yeah. I'm not going to allow
him to ruin my channel anymore. That's all he's trying to He's not being healthful. That's how sick is sick. I don't know. He's always drunk. Like when I say drunk, like he's like he drinks that like vodka or whatever he drinks. Yeah. He's not drinking beer. He's drinking that hard liquor. So I don't I mean I
wouldn't say vodka's hard. Well, vodka is liquor, but I mean he he drinks out of control. So then he doesn't even know what he's talking about like the majority of the time. So isn't that true, Gabino? I And I I don't sit here. I don't go on other people's channels and say, "Hey, here's how to
run your show." And I I run a successful show, you know? I relatively successful. I'm not saying the best like the most successful show on YouTube. I'm saying I'm I've started out. Yeah. I But I I come on here, I don't I don't I I don't go in other people's chats, tell them how to run their show, tell them what to do. I I don't If someone askked me for advice, I'll give them advice if they ask me. But it's like I don't go
unsolicited and start start just just harping on, oh, you're doing this wrong. You're doing this wrong. Thank you. Yeah, I'm trying to I'm going to try to have more positive vibe. I want that's what the show is about. It's like tarot and cats. It's supposed to be a And it's like it got descended on by just this troll community. And it's okay. I I mean it's like I I appreciate some trollish
humor. I appre I can like laugh at myself. It It got It gets taken too far. It gets taken not only with me, with other people. And I mean there's a lot of people that get attacked on my show. There's a lot of people that got chased away. You see, did you see last night I I got you know Chona? Have you know Chona? Have you ever been to Chona's chat or No. No. Me personally, no. Yeah. She's She's a Filipino. She's a Filipino
lady and she's just like so sweet, so kind, and she came on just saying some songs. Joker and I were dancing. We were all just having fun, smiling. That's the kind of that's the kind of energy, you know? The cat the cats are the cats are very sensitive to to me like the to my energy, too. And they that's why when I when I was really hurting recently, they were just always on they're always just on me like always like discomforting me.
The cats love me. But it's like I don't want to I don't want to stress out the cats, right? Yeah. Yeah. Filipinos are, you know, why I love uh Filipinos is my dad had um he had a lot of Filipino nurses and you know he was he he passed away but um you know near the end he had these nurses and they were very very kind,
very sweet, very um caring and just this like it was he he loved them and so I uh I always have a soft spot because they took good care of my dad. Yeah, single I single I can't I I always I always forgive people. I'll forgive I for I've forgiven poor bombers. I mean it's like is if they can
have a some people have I'll have a nice conversation with some people sometimes and they'll be cool and then they'll come on and they'll be insulting and it's like um it's like if I'm on another panel I'm putting myself on other panels and stuff. So you can go insult me there. You're going to insult me in their chat. I mean it happens all day. I don't it's not it's not my chat to moderate but in my own chat I channel yeah my own channel it's like it's like
it's like do you like how do you like guys would you like if someone comes in your house and starts telling you what to do telling you how to run your house telling you how to raise your kids telling you how to do this do this and then and then you want do you want some would you like that somebody that doesn't that's not just somebody off basically that you don't even know come in and tell you what you're doing wrong what to do right it's like no it's like you're going to like say hey if you're
going to be a guest in someone's house. You're respectful. Like, I I can't believe I have to put rules up. I mean, most people don't have to put rules up about no no doxing, no um no threatening, no slander. I mean, it's like just I mean I these are these are just broken so many times. Yeah, they're they're awesome people. Yeah, they're awesome
people. Yeah, I mean I'll I'll forgive I forgive him. It's like I just don't feel like it dealing with it right now. It's just like I just don't feel like dealing with it right now. And so it's not like, oh, I'm censoring people. Oh, it's like it's my show. I'm allowed to have whoever I'm allowed to run the show I want. I I don't even have to have a panel. I like having panels. People just try to ruin a good thing, right? And
it's like And also I I let Sig promote a show every day. He has, you know, so it's like what? It's like what? What? That's fine. You're just saying you you're saying one thing and doing the other. Well, what am I saying and doing the other with my rampant? Okay, Sig, I don't want you in my chat.
I don't need to hear. I don't need to hear it. I don't need to hear it. So, just go talk. Go talk to the abyss. I'm not going to hear. Done. Done. You're You're not You're non-existent to me anymore. Go on your other troll accounts. Okay. When it first got on Psy's panel, you got a lot of hate. People love to judge and all I wanted was a cardboard. Yeah, I know. And I And it's like that's what people
will do. They try to scare away the good people here. They're they're mean. They're cruel. I mean, it's like even like Oh, here. Okay. We Arthur. Hold on. Psyche. Good morning. How are you? Good morning, Psyche. Uh to the Mr. Linguini, I think that's how you pronounce his last name. How you doing there? Good morning. How you doing, Arthur? I'm doing good. I you know, I
don't want to argue with you today, you know. So, I'm feeling pretty good, brother. Okay. Feeling pretty good. Trying to bring some positivity to the good old psyche. Yeah, it's been a rough It's been a little bit of a rough rough morning. It's like, you know, it's kind of took me off guard. I thought I thought things were were cool and then, you know, people just take off on me. And I mean, it gets it gets weary. It gets weary. It's like, you know, I don't care.
people people can text me call me ugly, stupid, dumb, um just dirty, the you know just I just get called the worst things in the book, but it's basically just people trying to trigger me and they see it doesn't bother me. You can you can say whatever you want about me, but I don't have to put up with it in my chat. Go you can go on Kate's Kate's uh show and talk all the you want
about me there. They do anyway. So I maybe we'll watch it, maybe won't. I'm definitely not going to participate in it. I'm I'm just watching. I So I see it. I see what you say about me. I see I see some of the people in my chat over there talking about me. I've even seen my mods mods do it. That's one of my mods. Most of my mods are are good now. But, you know, I'm I'm watch I'm watching some of the stuff, but it's like I at the same time I try not to
watch too much of it because I don't want to take things to heart and it's like cuz it's going to be there's a lot of cruelty and a lot of like, oh, let's just laugh at this person. How about like try to lift people up instead of try to tear everybody down? Like if we if if we keep trying to turn people down and they eventually start falling down, it's like how about like try to lift people up and make them better or help them or give them encouragement or like
give them some good advice rather than like just be cruel. But I guess that's some people's some people's, you know, like I said, hurt people hurt people. And I I know a lot of people have been through trauma and it's happened to them. I know certainly who like who's has something um yeah I I won't say any names but I I just know people have been through some some bullying and then they turn into
bullies and I'm not like that. Yeah. Internet. Yeah. I'm not sure what is up with Beeta. It seems like whenever she's on the bottle like her true intentions and thoughts come out. You know what they say, a drunk man's words is a is a sober man's thoughts. Yeah. Like that. I
think I think you need to start probably disassociating yourself from her. Uh she's always coming in here. I love you. I love you. I love you. And then you know when she's on the bottle, it's a whole different thing. And I I think it's time you kind of Well, it's I mean it's like it's okay because it's like uh when people drink sometimes they like I've drink and I've
gotten out of character and I've I've I've gotten you know when you drink sometimes like it's like a fuel for your for the fire whatever emotion you're having. If you're really happy it's good but if you feel attacked and you get all I I get defensive and maybe I'll I'll call names. I'll get mad. It's like, you know, I try to stay balanced in my emotions and my logic and alcohol can like just put you too much in your
emotions sometimes. And so I understand and it's like I'm not going to like say, "Oh, you're a bad person." Cuz he's if someone's drunk and they go up on me, I'll say it's like, "Yeah, I' I've done that to people, too." So whatever. But uh I I would like to like, you know, be able to like revisit it and come to like an agreement and, you
know, and and uh make up. I like making up. I like making up. Yes. I'll be right back, brother. Would you like some uh dark coffee? Half and half. What would you like? I'd like a like a a caramel macchiato, please. Okay, I'll be right back. Okay, thank you. Hey, Trix, go to
come and sit with me. Hi. Yeah, I I mean I I drink my Oh my gosh, he's such a cutie pie. Yeah. So, it's just like but guys, uh just just treat all I have to say is like and this is what I used to say on my as my sign off when I started the show is like be kind to yourself. Be kind to each other.
I don't know if I stole that from somebody else or like you know maybe it's too Mr. Rogers for people but it's like I I say love love yourself and love other people. Treat people well. Be be kind. You don't know what you don't know what people are going through. I could be having a lot of personal problems like and a lot of sadness happening and maybe I put on a brave face and it's like and so you don't you know you don't know you don't know what others are
going through. So why would you attack somebody especially when they're down it's like you know if somebody's out if I was in the ocean drowning and I see a boat coming I'm like help and then they they just like take the paddle and just start bashing my head. You know it's like that that that's kind of like how I feel sometimes that people do. It's like I I need help. I'm I'm I feel like I'm drowning sometimes. I need I need
someone to like put the ore in the water, let me grab onto it and pull me into the boat rather than hit me over the head with it. That's how that's how I kind of feel. I don't know if it's a good analogy, but Yeah. Yeah. And treat people like you want to be treated and don't do unto others that you don't want done to you. And it's like there's so many times that it's like people will do that. They'll they'll they'll have they'll be hurt by people and then
they'll they'll hurt other people. I have been hurt by people and I try not I try it just teaches me don't don't treat people like that. I don't like that how that's done to me so I won't do it to other people. It's called empathy and it's not like dark empathy. It's actually like I see people as we're all connected and so um so if I'm mean to somebody it's like basically be mean to myself.
But anyway so yeah how's the chat doing? I don't know. It's like it's not all about Yeah. hurt people hurt people. That's another thing, right? And so that's that's that's why I've also like I give people a lot of leeway because I know there's people that have been through terrible trauma and it's and it's like and sometimes they don't they're not
like they're not they're outside of themselves sometimes when they're when they're behaving like that. And so it's not necessarily their fault, but I don't have to subject myself to abuse, right? It's like I can uh I can decide who who who I let in and uh not to be not to be mistreated, right? I have to stand I I do have to stand up
for myself sometimes, you know. I have to make sure that I'm uh I'm taking care of myself. But let me see this in backstage. What does he say? No. Okay. Bye, Sig. What? Why' you get rid of Sig for? Well, he's keeps he he just keeps posting no and he just posts this dumb He just he's just arguing with me. I don't
really argue if he wants to chat. He wants to have a nice chat and like he's it's never it's never nice. It always turns into like a rude thing. I'm like bad. I don't know why I don't know why why I'm such a you should give you should give him a chance. I could probably talk him through it. I've been I've been through sick through all other channels and I think I can I think I can go through like Well, I just
don't feel like it this I don't feel like this morning. This not it's just too negative this morning. I already been through enough this morning. Yeah, I guess I want to It's the beginning. It's the beginning of my day. I I don't want to start off the day with like, you know, a negative energy. I've Michael I've let him on probably like, you know, five times already this, you know, or
maybe 10 times the last 24 hours. every time he's he's done something that it's just like, you know. Yeah, he did. Yeah. Well, that's how Sig is. So, yeah. I I just have to be careful. I'm just I'm I'm kind of under attack right now. And so, I'm on the right track. I feel like it I feel like I'm getting the And it's like And people will see they're like, "Oh, he's not putting up with it anymore. He's he's not he just he'll
just block you and he and Wait, wait, you can just if you want to then you guys, if you're if I block you, you can still sit in the chat. You can still type. I no one will see it but you can you get out all your ne get out all of your emotions just it just won't be seen you know if you'd like to have a conversation if you'd like to you know but it's like you know Emma doesn't put up with trolls um like other people
don't put up with trolls thank you I'm applauding myself today because it's so there's so far I can be pushed there's just like if I if I took to heart what people said to me I wouldn't be here anymore if I took it to heart I would quit I would I would I would just basically just be sitting in the corner crying if I took it to heart cuz I Yeah, that's what I'm trying to do. They're trying to make you quit. That's what they're trying to do. Yeah.
And I'm not going to I'm not a quitter. I'm like actually like a um I'm actually a pretty pretty strong person. And it's like that's because I've been through like a lot of bullying, you know, from even from like a young young age I went through a lot of bullying. And so yeah, and it's even be especially being gay, right? It's like there's people that and especi in being gay,
there's a lot of people that will look down on you, but then they'll be they'll pretend to be your friend and stuff. They'll, oh, they'll pretend to be cool with you and then they'll just then you see then you see like especially on YouTube, you get to see what they're they're saying about you on other shows. It's like it's like before we couldn't before people could just say it behind your back and you would never know. And
yeah, he's in the Yeah, I agree. Marcy. Yeah. Persona. Yeah. Hey, Marcy. Hi. I see Fox. Hey. Yeah. And it's like and then when they have no pan when they because you know when they have no panels left to go to what are they going to do? It's kind of they made it their life mission just to troll and it's like but people have enough right. So maybe they'll look at
themselves and say hey maybe I'll if you want to be part of the want part of the crowd the group you want to be part on the panel like I've had him I I like I like what I like don't I've been I've been so rejected at times and like oh no not invited. No, he's not invited. He like he can't you can't sit with us. It's very high school kind of stuff like where it's like, "Oh, you can't sit with
us. You're not invited." And uh and so I'm like when I see people that are kind of like, you know, maybe a little bit like outcast or like on the outside, I feel bad. I'm like, "Hey, you come, you know, come over here and hang out." But when it's like when they when they start attacking me, it's like I don't have to put up with that. So I I like to I like to welcome people and I give people chance. Oh my god. I give people chance
after chance after chance after chance. I I will and and I will I probably will again. I'm just I've had enough of it today. He always let have panels. He doesn't need to be Yeah, he he that go there's other panels there. There's there's people starting new panels every day. So you can go on some other panel and just go go talk their there that until they they get sick of you, right? It's like he just viewing panels to destroy, right? Is that so that what
he's trying to do is just destroy, right? It's like, do I want to like, like I said, this show, this channel is my like my baby and so I'm not going to like let somebody some some stranger come take over the stroller or kick the baby. No, no. It's like I'm not going to put up with that. I'm going to protect the baby and say, "Get away. Get away." Or, you know, if I need to, you know, I
I'll get higher higher powers involved. You know, it's like I I have I have I have resources and stuff and I'm just saying like, you know, like you're on Rumble. He's on Rumble for a reason. Yeah. He's telling me how to run my YouTube channel. He's he's he's kicked off of YouTube. So, yeah, he must be permanently kicked off because it's like or else why does he
have a channel? I don't understand. Like, he must have like lost a lot of channels. So many trolls go to your pages suspended from porn bombing for years. They've been flagged. Your pages down. Yeah. And so I just have that they'll the people will come on porn bomb you and then try to flag you like for nudity and stuff when they when they did it. It's a and so yeah.
So so I'm just going to I'm just going to try to hang on to this baby. Um I'm going to try to try to nurture this channel, try to grow this channel, keep it healthy. Then it will grow into, you know, it'll age healthfully and then it'll be a good channel. will be a healthy channel. I I can't have it a toxic channel anymore. U it's been a
little bit too much toxicity. I I don't mind like uh you know, debating and you know, but it's like some of the stuff like I had on and I like Alex. I like Alex, okay? But he pissed me off last night when he's like I had my friend Shona and she's from the Philippines, right? And she's very sweet and she really she helped me a lot and I was like I was like Alex behave. I like just be nice. Calm down for a second. And
he's like do you have a and like and he he was just like being really obnoxious. I'm like no. I had to kick him off. I was like no. And it's like you you be you like you don't you don't talk to my you know to my friends like that. And so I know I know people have like said terrible things to be and it's like um but from the beginning like I I realized it's like oh she just had to
stick up for herself. She like I I was like just stay out of the way when there it's like it's like the the story about Chiron. He got in the middle of this fight with like certain like certain centaurs and Hercules or something. He just got in the middle of it. He got accidentally hit by an arrow. I don't want to be hit by the strap, you know. Yeah.
Yeah. Right. Mercy. And that's not I don't That's not the vibe I want for the channel. And he's still sitting back there. I mean, he's just still sitting back there like he won't leave. It's like he's like a little barnacle. Sick. You're going to treat me. Let him up. No, I don't feel I don't feel like it. I don't feel like it. It's going to be I I feel like the energy is all already. Give him a chance. Give him a chance. And then No, Michael. Michael. Michael.
I know. I already gave him I I gave enough chance. I gave enough chances. Okay. All right. Some other some other day. Some other day. Oh, yeah. I know. I like I love Alex's heart. Sig is not great on pan. Swami, are you Sig? Are you Sig? Are you Sig? Are you Sig Swami? Hey. Oh, hold up.
He-Man, what's your beef with me? What's your beef with me? You so obsessed with the whole thing that has nothing to do with you. Come on now. Sorry, I had to say that. Like these people, they're like they're white knights for like somebody that they don't even know in real life. Like He-Man, just chill cuz on on the other
panel on the other panel, you wouldn't talk that way to me. You'd be so nice to me, but you want to be on Saki's channel and then talk about me. Just be nice. All right, that's all I got to say. That's it. Yeah. Yeah, I know. But Marc because Marcy, I had this this I don't know if you saw, but Chona, she's like she's very very sweet lady. She's
from the Philippines. She's just like she's like this, you know, she's a she's a mother. She's um she just dances and stains and just is is a kind person. She's a very kind person. And he was like yelling about does she have a And I mean it's just like it was just offensive and and it's like so um Oh yeah. So, I mean, and Alex is a good
guy. He's a supporter of the channel and I and but I just have to be careful. I had a lot of people that got chased off this channel, I would say. And, you know, I don't want people I don't want any more people chased off. Like, I've so many friends of mine like that I I really cherish and love in this. Like, they're like, "Oh, well, this person said this or I don't like your channel because of" and it's like, "So, I'm going to be more careful about,
you know, and I wish I wish I wish I I would have." See, it's a balance of like sticking up for people and letting them defend themselves. And so, it's like that's the whole white knighting thing. I'm not going to run in like, "Oh, I'm this I'm going to rescue. I'm I'm going to I'm going to fix everything." Yeah, I know. I know. He-Man isn't isn't disturbing. It's like it's like disturbing behavior. Oh,
yeah. And so, he can he can sit in the chat. I mean, he can sit in the chat and under his troll accounts. Just talk in the chat. Say whatever you want in the chat, you know, until you annoy me enough to to hide you in the chat. But um I have a I have a very high tolerance unless unless you are really out of line and so many people are I shouldn't have so many people blocked as I do. But these people have said really horrible
things like really really really out of pocket horrible things and so and I don't I don't most of them just are some avatar right they can just hide you can hide behind a mask and say whatever you want. I'm here with my face out and I'll I'll tell you to your face with from my face and you'll see you'll I'll I'll tell you on p I I hardly even go in chats anymore. I'll go on I'll go on panels and talk to you. It's different
when someone's face to face rather than hiding behind a mask, right? Yeah. Antisocial behavior. Antisocial. And it's like antisocial is like it's basically antisocial is another word for psychopath. I mean, if you study this, it's psy psychopath. And psychopaths do not care about they they they look at people as to be used, things to be used,
not as people not as, you know, brothers and sisters to be cherished, right? And uh and people they just look at people as their victims and they don't care. That's also why the prisons are full of psychopaths is because they get caught. They just they're they can't they have this thing called dupers delight. And it's like they're not really duping anybody. They're very they they get very obvious in their behavior where it's like people are like, "Oh, I got to get
I got to I got to separate myself from this person because this person is just trying to destroy me." And so yeah, it's not Yeah, I know. All he's going to say is that's crazy. He'll like do stupid like little his villain laugh and it's like and just say that line over and over again and then in the middle of that he'll just talk a bunch of I mean it's like not really not any anything new. It's like it's like you
get a new get some new material thing. It's like this guy calls to Alisa's show and everyone thinks he's funny. Everyone thinks he's funny. Everyone always laughs cuz he calls in. She she goes hello and he's like you got a big old bush. And then but then she sat there and she's like okay and and he's like you got a big and that's all the person can say is you got a big old bush and she's like okay get some new material. I mean it's like it's it's and then
everyone laughs cuz it's kind of funny saying you got a big old bush but it's kind of like really it's like that all Yeah. I I can I can go on some panels and say that some people will laugh because it's outrageous and it's but then it's like if I keep doing it it's like oh that's kind of getting getting old, right? I agree. He I agree he man. I don't
know. But I'm not gonna I'm not going to judge him too I'm not going to judge him too hard. I don't I don't know. I I you know he he he likes to judge me. I'm not going to judge him too hard for it. But it's just that's just him. Like I understand some people are just like that. Some people some people are just natural trolls. Um yeah. So one um yeah I know he get the guy he get he
get kind of hostile for like no reason, right? And it's like but maybe sometimes and that's why I was kind of nervous about when I left the p like I my phone um went out for a little bit when I walked to Starbucks. I didn't have data like I said and so um so when I got to Starbucks I didn't know exactly what was said and so I just had to delete delete the stream. Plus I was I didn't want to like walk back and just leave the panel
on and stuff and so I have to use my I have to use my uh Yeah, he said he said a few he said a few interesting words. Yeah, he said a few interesting words. I mean, it's like, you know, not not everything. And I know like I've talked to people that are like, "Oh, well, he's uh he's he's helped me with this, he's helped me with that. He's like he, you know, he's a good guy in person. He's maybe he's
lonely. He maybe like I don't know." But so I'm I don't I don't judge him too harshly. Um but I just do have I have to protect my channel a little bit better than I have been. I It's been a free-for-all. I'm I'm like, "Oh, you did good, Filthy." I kind of like um I just need to protect the channel more, you know? I don't I don't know like why some
people just have this all I'm sitting here doing tarot showing my cats um trying to trying to be interesting entertaining trying to talk to
people yeah exactly yeah go ahead no I was going to say there's a lot of people that talk a lot of on here but they don't want to come on panel they're always in chat So, I'm just wondering like one like one out of the 10 people that you know talk on
here, they don't want to come on panel and I Right. You you don't even have to show your face. Just come up here. You don't even have to. I think that people have like a I think maybe see they're they have a lot of aliases or they're the same maybe the same people on several accounts and so it's like they they would just be that's why people have the voice changers and you know or
disguise their voice or or never come up on up here. I don't give a You can change your voice all you want. I don't give a Just come up here. Yeah. But it's a kind of like it's kind of like the cowardly thing where it's like, hey, I'm hiding behind a mask. I'm just I'm behind my keyboard. I can say whatever I want. I I can just find the triggers and stuff. So, I'm not That's why I was trying to like I'm like trying
not to like take some of the unless it's being positive. All the negative stuff I don't really believe because they're just saying it to be negative. They're just saying it to hurt me and stuff. And so, but the problem is it it people can sometimes be sheep and that it can infect other people and then it can turn into like people people like to gang up. They like to be part of like the the popular crowd, the real crowd.
And so it's like even if I'm if I'm alone, if I'm, you know, if I'm alone, it's it's like it's gonna be fine. It's gonna be fine. I'll be okay. I'll be okay no matter what with with YouTube, without YouTube. I'm I'm a blessed person. I'm a very blessed person. Uh I do this because I love it. It's like the people are like, "Oh, you just care
about money." You know, the the money is Well, you have you have to focus on the money, too. You know what I'm saying? Like Well, yeah. And it is it's part of it's a business and I do spend a lot of my time and time is my energy and so and so it has to be you know worth it in some ways but it's like I really the number one reason that I do is for love and the money is like a icing on the cake but it's like you know I like to
have icing on the cake. That's what happens to those that join. Yeah. Okay. Here Arthur. Hold on. All right brother. I got the coffee right here. I bought your coffee right. I bought your coffee. It smelled good. I drank it. I you know I taste it and I'm like oh damn. But this is Sykes. I promised him I was going to get him one. And so then I went ahead and finished it. Okay. Well, it's okay. You don't
need you don't owe me anything, Arthur. You know, I as long as you're as long as you're respectful in the panel, that's all I really ask for. It's like um I uh you know, I don't I like some of this stuff that's been said back and forth. I I really don't want to be part of it. And it's like there's stuff there's stuff said that's outrageous between people. I don't know their relationship. Sometimes people are friends one day,
the next day they're they're enemies and the next day they're friends. And it's like getting me in the middle of it is just not going to serve me well because I just want to have my own unique relationship, my own personal relationship with people and not and kind of not not judge based on what other people say because there's a lot of trolling. Let's see.
Uh if you're getting your Yeah. So, so it's going to I'm going to try to do a better job, guys. Like, and I've said this many times that I can try to do a better job. And sometimes I I do a better job than other times. I'm kind of like, you know, I'm sober right now. I'm in a good state. I I had my coffee. Um,
okay. Good night. Uh, hey, Marcy. You know, thank you for being here. Yeah. Maybe you could do like some like challenges. People donate money. Like you could go to 7-Eleven and buy one of those like spicy chips and then you could uh you know someone donates $10, he'll go ahead and take a bite. No water
for a minute or so. Well, yeah. If anybody I mean it's like I'm I'm down for like challenges. I mean I I can always say yes or no to the challenge and people can off people tell me and it's like if I accept if I accept it, I will I'll I'll do the challenges. I mean, if you have ideas, it's like that's why kind of like you guys can kind of help produce the show. You can
help you can help in that way, right? And it's like and then if you but basically I'm not just going to be like this monkey uh you know just like for everyone's everyone's amusement like I I want to uh you know it has to be a it has to be a win-win for everybody, right? Not just like a donates money. Yeah. So if anyone has ideas, if anyone has ideas or
suggestions, it's like, you know, Alisa allows people to kind of the audience produces a show and so yeah, I I need you guys to give ideas. Yeah, I asked and he went ahead and somebody donated and he did it. How much would it take you for to go bald? To go bald? I would Oh god. I don't
know. I have beautiful hair, you know. My hair is beautiful. I would, you know, I would probably do it for 5,000. 5,000? No. I'd probably shave my head for $200. Nice. $200. Damn. Damn, bro. Come on
now. Eldo was uh talking about you um you um shave your eyebrows for like 100 like $50 per brow. Yeah. You were talking about $200 straight hair. Come on now. The eyebrows are crazier than the hair. I would I would look very strange without eyebrows. My my bald would look
okay and it it just grows back. Sometimes eyebrows don't grow back. Um whatever. Swami, you can say that. But then um what is it? What is a business? Is it a business where you know you you make a profit? Um so right it's not a hobby. It's is it a is it a hobby for Logan Paul? No. I know I'm saying I'm Logan Paul, but it's like, did he did he
was he a success overnight? Don't touch my man. Yeah, I won't touch my mane. I love my beautiful hair. It's like, you know, it's some people are more successful than other people. It is it is definitely a business. That's kind of kind of a use. I'll tell you this much. If you if you shave your hair, then DJ Electro is going to have to do a new that new intro for not a new intro, but
that one um that graphic that she did for you. Yeah. So, yeah. I mean, I just I don't want to turn into like, you know, it's like I see like a lot of people sometimes on YouTube have deteriorated and and like Okay, so it's Benny, you know, Benny, like Benny, I So, so I I don't know if
you know Kelly or Kell's from Benny's chat, right? But um she was a mod like probably over a year ago cuz so one night Benny got all all mad because I said I have a Discord with like a little room dedicated to him. It was afterparty for it was basically after his chat and Kels was like, "Well, Benny had an issue with his mods donating to him so he
would get up cuz they and they wanted to see him get up and they wanted him to crash out and all." And it's like and it's like they were trying to orchestrate this kind of stuff and so don't shave my head ever. Yeah. Don't Yeah. I I I will Well, I mean it's not like I I haven't been given a solid offer for any of that, but I'm saying if someone had a serious offer, I would consider it. I would consider it. and
stick by it. But um it will it will you know and uh it's a business. People drop money to Mr. Beast PewDiePie and Twitch streamers. They get rich off going live like Alden Ross. Yeah. Look at I mean there's a million people there people that make half a million dollar. I mean they're make hundreds of thousands of dollars and so you saying saying oh streaming is a hobby not a business you know you're obviously not a streamer and
if you are you're probably not monetized or making money from it but some people are making money right? So, you know, I probably I could make more money right now. I could probably make more money working at McDonald's for like for for less hours, but you know, I prefer to do this. And it's like so um I get to actually like, you know, I get to party. I get to hang out. I get
to um design the show. I get to do readings. I get to have a lot of fun on this show. And so, um so even if I'm not making as much money as I would make at McDonald's, which McDonald's here pays 20 bucks an hour. So, you know, I'm making not making that kind of money yet. I'm not making I'm not making McDonald's money yet, but I'm I'm uh I'm I'm I'm doing okay. I'm doing okay. I'm
just I'm I'm I can't complain right now. I can't complain. Well, good. Good for you, Swami. Good for you. But, you know, I consider this work. I consider this work. It's It is play. It looks like Play-Doh people, but it is work. It's my energy. It's my time. I I pay for Streamyard right? And so I don't know. You can have your
own opinion. Good for you. Good for you making, you know, and I I'm uh I'm doing fine. I'm I'm I'm happy. Okay. So, I'm not going to really worry about other people unless they're like, you know, I'll take if you're a streamer and you're you have and you run panels, I'll take what you have to say more seriously than just somebody in the chat saying
blah blah blah blah blah to me. It's just like that's all I see is blah blah blah for some pe from some people that are telling me what to do, what I'm doing wrong, blah blah blah. Yeah. Didn't you cut your hair like a year ago? Yeah, I did. Mother like last Mother's Day I I uh Damn, that should grow quick, man. Damn. Yeah, last Mother's Day. I cut it really I I I pointed to a picture of Let me see.
What's the guy's name? It's the guy that played Ken in the Barbie movie. I for Ryan Gosling, I think. I pointed to his picture. notebook. Yeah, he he played he played Ken in the in the Barbie movie. Okay, we have KZ. Hold up. Yeah, Barbie movie. Hey, what's up, guys? Hey, how are you?
you know, saw you alive. Figure I hop, you know. Yeah. Say good morning. Yeah, it's been a crazy morning already. Maybe it's gonna be a crazy day. Why? What happened? Uh well, Beeta came and she Bea came she she yeah she went off on me and and then screaming at me on the phone and said
all kinds of like you know and then a lot of people have been just you know wait so you beta going at it again she was I I wasn't I I wasn't even all I all I was all All I said all I basically could say was beta and I couldn't get a word I could basically say a word. It was just an opportunity. Yeah, exactly.
She was my girl was on my girls in the chat or on the on the live um what do you call live stream panel and she she went off on my girl. I was like what the Like damn. Like I could obviously tell she was been drinking for like a long time, probably all morning. So yeah, I was kind of I mean I was surprised that I got called like 3 in
the morning like, "Oh, go live. Go live." And then it's like it was kind of like an ambush because I was like she had to kind of plan that long. You've been going all night straight. No, I Oh my god, my my light just black flickered. Okay. Uh I uh No, I woke up at probably probably 3:00 in the morning or 4 in the morning. Yeah. And then um and then I was awake. She called. I went live. I went had I was live for a couple
hours. Had my coffee. So I've been up for a few hours. Um that's why I But yesterday I slept from like 1:00 in the afternoon. I was up for a few hours in the afternoon. Then I I I took another nap from like 5 or 5 to 8 or 4:00 to 8. So I got a lot of sleep and so I know I have a weird sleep schedule, but I do get enough sleep. You can see my eyes are looking better. Like I used to have these bad dark circles. I look I looked
like a like a few weeks ago I looked like a wreck. I looked like a wreck. I was so stressed out. And now I'm relaxed. I'm like I'm kind of come to terms with like you know what's meant to be is meant to be. Life you know I'm just gonna not not uh not stress too much. I'm gonna take better care of myself. I'm gonna stand. So So what? Mike, you and your girl were up here and then Beetle was just going wild on your girlfriend.
Well, we were we were up here for like maybe what Saki tell me like maybe five 10 minutes at the most. And then yeah, she just went off on my girl, bro. I was like I wasn't even on there. Like I was I was speaking maybe maybe two minutes out of 10 minutes and she was just like going off on her. I was like damn. like and my girl is just trying to we were both trying like every time I come up
here I always come in peace and it's like damn like she's just wanted to bring up I don't understand that mic hate that that everybody gives. I don't get it. I don't see where it comes from. I don't know what you've done wrong. I don't see you doing it. No. Well, it's it's a long story but I I don't want to bring it up because then it's going to bring up controversy. But
there is there. But yeah, she my girl my girl came up here in peace and like damn like all of a sudden like Vito wanted to go beat her up and Beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat her her up. Yeah so beat beat beat beat beat beat beat beat I mean it it was not provoke it was unprovoked. It was kind of like just out
of the blue. It was kind of shocking. It's kind of it's kind of what the Yeah, you end you you actually ended the chat. I was like well the streams I was like what the cuz it was just like because that negativity bothers me. So I do I do wish her the best if she comes back if she doesn't. I just wish
her the best and it's like there's no no hard feelings and you know I I I have no actually when I went up on the stream I said hey Bea how are you? How you doing? And you know hey beta I love you. And then she's like just want start going off. And then as soon as she heard my girl's voice, she's like she's like
started bringing up like oh you know all the oh why why you being why you bringing up um not why you bringing up why um why you separated from Mike for a year. Obviously he has um you know some some stupid She's just drunk. So I was just like all right. So I was like all right. I I mean it's like I
hope everything's I mean it's like I hope everything's okay. I hope she's not like something worse. No, no, no. She's she's in the other room. She's cool. She's okay. She's good. And I hope you know and I I hope I like I I worried about beta too. Like I don't because I don't know like what like what's wrong. I don't know
what's wrong. I was like and it's like and I I I didn't do anything to like warrant what she was saying to me. But maybe people will disagree. You know, there's there's always different perspectives. But it's like I I thought I was I thought I sometimes sometimes I'm not the best friend. Like I said, I'm kind of socially awkward a little bit. Nobody's perfect, right? Nobody is. And that's that's part of
being human. It's like we're but but it's like we're we're always we're always making mistakes. We're learning from our mistakes. We we can we have the ability to change. And so and I believe in second chances. I believe in redemption. I believe I don't believe people should just like make a make a mistake and like all of a sudden be be banished from the depends on the kind of mistake. It depends on the kind of mistake stuff like this. This is
silliness, you know. Yeah. Yeah. I mean it's like Yeah. It's like it's not it's like like I said, I get sometimes get treated like I just like kick somebody's dog or something like that. It's like and it's like but it's like I I never done it. Tell tell Sam man we're gonna kick his dog. Sam man, we're gonna kick your dog, man. I hope y'all in chat sand because we gonna kick that little dog
in Minecraft. In Minecraft. This is a joke. It's a joke, guys. A joke man loves watch. He's going to flip out. Nobody sucks. Anyway, I don't know. But, you know, it's like um I'm sure will get over it. Psyche. I I scraped a little bit of I scraped a
little bit of resin from this, but it's not It's just tobacco. And I'm almost out of the tobacco, but I scraped a little bit of resin from this pipe, but I think I'm pretty much out of it. Oh, man. Resin's so bad for your lungs, bro. Yeah. Pretty much smoking tar, bro. Yeah, that's what I got right now. It's like a little bit of I smoked like a like a about a half ounce of weed out of it.
Does the job though. Yeah, I see a little I see a little little But then it's like that's then then my fingers get dirty from from it and then it's like people are like, "Oh, you're so dirty. You're so dirty." It's like, well, I'm digging through through some nails. It's on your nails. Oh, yeah. I mean, my nails I mean, yeah, people always say that. You have to You have to scrape
that up. So, obviously you get some, you know. Yeah. Stuff underneath your nails and you know. Yeah. I mean, I took I took a shower last night. My nails are already dirty again. But then it's like I'll just take a shower today. They'll be You can see this. There's See, they kind of like That one's It's not terrible, but it's not It's not You got You got You got to clip you got to clip your nails, bro. No
offense. I'm just saying cuz then if you clip them, then you won't get anything accumulated. But I'm pl I'm planning on getting a manicure as soon as I can. You know, I'm planning on getting a manicure as soon ASAP. But, you know, manicures are like 30 bucks and so whenever I'm able to, I'll I'll get one. But it's like, you know, I have a All you got to
do is all you got to do is just flip your nails and then you won't get that. But I understand why you keep your nails. I That's true. Do that yet. Yeah. Well, if if correct me if I'm wrong, but the the main reason you keep your nails long is so that way you can like scoop up whatever you're No, that's not why
that's not why my nails just grow fast. I No, I had a I had a I had a manicure on 420. They're already Well, it's about a month ago. I guess they of course they've grown back by now, but uh they go pretty fast. Um you should go someplace to get your nails done. You can't do it yourself or you can't like I I I I just like a I like a manicure, you
know? It's like do do like do do women like like to just do their own nails? I mean men men get done too. I'm just saying. Yeah. I prefer I prefer to I I like to I like to just like, you know, I I could I could cut my own hair, too, but it's kind of sometimes better to go to a professional. They'll get Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah. Yeah. That's also supports the that supports the community that supports them. I mean, it's like, you know, I uh Yeah. Yeah. So, it's also it's also, you know, it's like nice to have, you know, it's a lot, you know, there's a lot of stuff. There's a lot of stuff going on and it's like nice to like sit back and relax for a few minutes rather than than having to
do do everything myself, but, you know, also making myself. and jiggle jiggle. Um I know um the place I take my girl to to get her nails done. Uh pett mainly a pedicure and a manicure, but it's like uh for both of them it's like $105. And um she uh they give her like a wine if
if she wants if she wants Okay. If she wants wine or she wants like a Coke or something like that, whatever she wants. Um yeah, it comes with the price. So yeah, she she just chills, she relaxed. Um they massage your feet, massage your hands. So yeah, I had it like when I my
last man my last manicure pedicure. They were like rubbing my my legs, my arms. I had two people working on me at once. They were digging under it like they they fixed my like my It's just It's just nice. It's nice to treat yourself, too. My sister was like, you know, she's like, "Instead of like drinking so much, go treat yourself to like a manicure." and uh you know and and you know just
like pamper like it's worth it's worth it to like you know to have that also you know you're confident plus I'm on I'm on camera and so I should I mean I should I know my nails have been dirty sometimes but it's like it's not the it's not the end of the world I mean it's like I uh you can always but people people act like it's like I'm some kind of like monster for it you know it's like but I guess they figured out like oh that's something that irritates him
when you say there's something I can say to irritate it but it doesn't really irritate me anymore it's like If if it if it was, I'd probably do a better job at at cleaning them. I really don't I really don't care what what people say about it. So guys, I I get them I get the craziest email. I get the craziest text messages literally literally hundreds of text messages since my phone number got leaked. I get literally just hundreds of like
threatening um horrible text messages saying the worst things. They saying the absolute worst. It's all it's all it's all It's all nothing's ever come out of it. But it's like people will just say things to during my especially during my show. That's when they'll start texting to like so it'll distract me during the show. They want to see the reaction like really. So it's about a reaction guys. So that's when I'm going to be I've learned a lot about the trolling. And so that's part this is
it's all going to go in my book. You know I'll I'll make I'll turn lemons to lemonade. I'll turn these these un these bitter or sour experiences into into sweet uh refreshing experiences. Right. Yeah. They look for any like little thing to get under the skin. Right. you look for any little thing. If you have any if you have any reaction that shows a weakness, they p they pounce on the weakness. And so, you know, I really
don't care anymore. You know, say whatever you want to me, but it's like if you're in my chat on my panel, you know, I'm going to be a little bit more strict about just letting myself just be abused and called names and and made accus accusations made and slandered on my own show basically. So, um yeah, I don't appreciate it. I uh I don't do it to people and so
hey second let me let me ask you something u you don't have to answer uh it's probably a sensitive topic but um what about um the channels that remember uh two days ago you're talking about uh rating other people's channel and I'm not going to say other people's channel. Yeah. Um y'all cool or like what's going
on with that? Am I cool? Am I cool with who? Am I? Hold on. Well, I don't want to say the people's channel. So, okay. No, but so those channel. Okay. So, well, of course, like I I got this scratch like I got this like this burn and so that's uh I think that was um I don't know. That looks like that looks like some from the oven.
It's not I don't I didn't use the oven. I didn't use the oven. Nope. I do have a heater, but I don't I I I would have had to be sleepwalking or something and like put my arm on it and I would have woken up. And so I just I I just I went to sleep on my couch. I woke up on my couch. It was there after a couple hours. I wasn't drunk. I wasn't passed out. I was Yeah. I can be kind and still stand my ground. Yeah. And that's what
I'm just going to be. So am I cool with them? Um I'm going to talk to one I'm going to talk to one of of those people today and try to make amends because I did raid the channel. It was supposed to be a friendly raid. Unfortunately, you know, I have these I have some trolls in my chat that go over there and start saying the N word and like being really offensive. L literally literally all I did was just put Saki sent me here. That's like we
told me to. So yeah. Well, I mean I don't know if it was in if it was in the you know the the Succubus' chat then um she wouldn't even seen that because my name is banned in her chat. In the other chat um I don't know if she saw it or not but she she was kind of bothered by it. But I'm going to try to I'm going to try to make
amends. But one of one of them you had one of them you had like um how do you say it? Like u almost like a mutual like like you brought her up here on your channel and you know you know what I'm talking about. The one that looks kind of like a vampire. Yeah.
Yeah. Yeah. Oh yeah. I I was her I was her I I hate I hate to I hate to mention people's names. No, it's it's okay. I was I was I was her mod. I I was with her. She got she got kicked off of Tik Tok and then at like 23,000 subscribers. Now imagine that guys. She's on Tik Tok making good money. 23,000 subscribers she gets banned from there. Okay. So she
starts YouTube. So I was there for the beginning. I was there before she was monetized. I was her first member when she was monetized. I was her mod in her chat for hours. She's in the middle of the night. I was on for hours and night modding her modding her channel. I bought a lot of lot of readings from her to encou also to also encourage other people to buy readings. Uh and all I did
was support and then I then she kind of like said something that offended me one time and I left her all I did was leave her discord and then she since then she just like has turned on me. Um yeah, Summer's awesome. Yeah, Summer's Summer's a baddy. Yeah, she's cool. Let me see. But it's like but people people you
don't have to like me you don't it's like people are welcome to like me not like me um my channel not me like they you know but I do I do like sometimes like feel like hey I I like I like poured a lot of love and then it's just like kind of like they kicked my cup of love over like I I like it's like I offered a big cup of love from my bottom of my heart like poured a lot of love and energy and it's like they just like
kicked it over like it was it meant nothing is nothing like just kind of felt you know like they're not anyone specific, but I'm saying that that's what it's it's happened a few times where it's like I I poured a lot of love and maybe it wasn't enough or maybe they just didn't want it. But um I feel kind of thrown away sometimes when I did really really really try to support and I was nobody at the time. I I had no
channel even at the time and they did inspire me and I really wanted to help them too. And it's like and then and I did I think I did a lot because I I went to those chats and I saw a ton of people I know that that don't go to here. They don't come here anymore. They you know they basically took a side and and hate me now too. And it's it's like a kind of group me and it's it's hard. It's it's
hurtful when that happens. You know, it's just like and it goes back to like when you're in high school and you have a best friend in high school and then like some like there's a new person in town and then and you you may have known that person or something from before and you introduce your friends and then they team up and they're then all of a sudden they're going places doing things together and like not telling you and not and then it's like all of a sudden they hate you and they're talking
and it's like and you introduced them together cuz you were like, "Hey, let's all be friends." And it's like so you know that kind of hurts, right? It's a human thing to hurt, right? So, hey Charisma. Yeah. Um, so I mean it's it's hurtful, but it's like but you have to remember that it's kind of high school, middle school kind of kind of mentalities and when we're adults and we
can like we can do better. We we can like, you know, not be so childish about things. What am I getting getting messages? Hold on. Okay. Okay. It's not it's not uh Okay good. Okay. Oh. So, uhoh. So, Michael dropped off. Okay. Love you, Michael. Hopefully, you come back. But
yeah, you know, guys, I'll be okay. I'll be okay. I just I I'm worried about some people, though. I'm worried about some people, though, cuz people think I'm coming unhinged. I mean, it's like I'm getting like a I'm sitting here calm talking like trying to have a conversation and I'm just
getting take my kindness for weakness kind of thing. Hey there Trixs. Hey Trixs. Come on over here. Hey babe. Hey babe. Come on Mr. tricks. It's very cute,
huh? Hi. Hi. You want to say hi to the chat? Say hi to the
chat. No, it's like, you know, if you get to know somebody like, you know, a lot of people don't know, Summer does um if you don't know, she does this outreach work because she really does she has a great heart. She she's very selfless thing like you know out there not not I'm not even like you know she's not she's not trying to get it say oh I'm such a good person like I'm just
saying I know she does like a lot of um selfless selfless uh selfless kind acts and cares about people and I I've seen it in me and that's why some people know even if she got mad at me one time it's or a few times and it's like we have dis we got a disagreements it's like I I um I see I try see the good in everybody. But Emma once told me, she's like, you're she's like, she's like, you know what? She's like, I think you're a good
person, but she's like, I think you have a really bad judge of character. And I was like, well, I said, I'd like to see the best in people. I like to cuz a lot of times people haven't seen the best in me or tried to see because there's a even if you don't like me, there's there is a there's a I do have a not not to say I'm perfect, but I have a I have a heart. I have a I have a loving heart
and I care about people. And sometimes sometimes uh I care about other people's happiness even more than myself. Yeah. I don't know. Yeah. He man is another it's another probably another one of those people, right? It's like if you're if you're not a mod in my chat, there's probably a reason. Either I don't know you or you you've just been a
total troll because I'm I mod a lot of people. I've modded a lot of people. It's bit me in the butt a few times. But um um you know, you just so you know, if you're not a member, you're not a mod, you know, it's like I don't know how how serious we can we're going to take your uh take your criticism,
right? Yeah. Some people's purpose is just to just to just to troll. I mean, that's kind of like, you know, it's like that's what that's their kind of fun, you know. My my fun is doing fun panels and having who knows who's going to come up next, who knows what's going to happen next, who knows what interesting things will happen, who knows what conversation we'll have. We
have there's just a million different topics we can talk about. And then it's like, but then some of some of the the drama is getting kind of old, right? Can you hear me? Yeah. Oh, okay. I was going to say um the the only one issue that you have psyche is
that and this is just my personal opinion so nobody has to agree with me but the only thing is that you're too kind to other people so you give you give them many many multiple chances you get what I'm saying and it's like after like you know give them a second chance after the second chance so that means
twice doesn't mean that you have to give them, right? Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me, you know. And so it's like, yes, I understand it's my fault, right? I understand it's my fault. Yeah. And guys, also, I know it's now it's harder because it's like we do have like the the chat coming on the screen and so you'll you'll probably see comments from people that you've blocked and stuff like that, but if you don't
like if you have problems with people in the chat, it's always good to like just you can just um you can block them. I don't know if the I don't know if Thank you, He-Man. I don't know if like the um the mods can just um can block people. I think they can other than hide people. I don't know if they can block people, but um yeah, it's like I I I and I I can't I can't um block I I can't really block people rather than hiding them because I
need to be able to see what's being said in my chat to make sure it's safe for everybody. But in other chats, too, if people are harassing me in other chats, I definitely will just try to ignore their comments. But you know, sometimes sometimes you'll see them. Sometimes you'll see them and so you just can't take things to heart. Well, if you block if you block somebody from a certain channel, you only block them from that certain channel. But if you go to
another channel and you find that certain person on another channel, then you have to block them on that channel, too. Yeah. And then people have multiple alias. They then they can have, you know, like Emma was like saying, "Oh, well now he's like he's like he has all these troll accounts." Like then I don't have troll account. I don't have accounts to troll. It's like I have I
have other accounts, you know, and sometimes I if I get blocked on some I'll try another account sometimes, but at this point I'm blocked on all all my I don't have she if she thinks I have hundreds of troll accounts. She's like he literally has hundreds of troll. No, I don't have hundreds of troll. I maybe have about 10 accounts and I'm blocked on all of them. So, and a few of them were like, you know, we're just fun. like, you know, she she laugh she
laughed when I was Nicholas Cage or she laughed when I was Elon Musk in her chat and she thought it was funny and then she named the stream, oh, Elon Musk came in the chat. You know, it was it was funny. It was like it was not anything to be to be hurtful. But now I understand it's like, you know, some people some some people are just want to focus on their show and not I don't know. I just like I just don't like people to forget about me or just like
to throw me away. But it's okay. But it'll happen. It'll happen. Especially people that I love. But um you know, I'm doing okay, guys. I'm doing okay. So, I'm going to finish this tobacco, maybe go back to sleep. Um I have I have some tobacco left, though. So, I'm down to hang out. If you guys
want to hang out for a while, maybe by 8:00 I'll I'll take off and hopefully we have a hopefully have a nice day. Hopefully everything goes well. So, I got I got to get off soon, like probably in like 10 minutes cuz I got to my girl already on my case about helping out with the garage, cleaning up the
garage. That's going to be like six That's going to be like six hours doing that My girl is so unorganized. Like, I literally cleaned out this garage like maybe two months ago and she already filled it up with a whole bunch of junk. I'm like, damn. So, I clean out the garage so that way you can
put back in there. I'm like, oh god. So, back at it again. Yeah, I probably I need to spend some time cleaning up. My my bedroom's just been unorganized for a long time and I I kind of You probably got You probably got to uh clean up that kitty litter or not kitty litter. Uh
what is it? Well, probably kitter, but I was going to say um not that. What's that? Oh, catnip. There you go. Oh, the catnip. Yeah, the catnip's all over the the couch still. It's okay. It's okay. Hey, hi, Trix. The catnip. Here we go. He sees I think he sees like a moth and he's he's very intent on catching. It's on It's up on the wall, though. If you
see the moth, there's a moth over there. Yeah, I can see him. Who's that? Trixs. Yep. Yeah, that's Trixs. Yep. He's hanging out over there. Hey, Trixs. He sees a moth up there. I think that's a catch. Lenor's right here. Come here, Lenor. Lenor, gonna come over here and say hi to Michael. Lenor's covered in catnip. You're covered in catnip. She's just covered in catnip. Hold on.
See, she's covered in catnip. She's been rolling around. Oh, yeah. Seen on the fur. Yeah. On the back. Yeah. Oh, on the face. Damn. It just rolls. It's on the table and stuff. She was just So, what exactly is
catnip to? Um, so they can't eat it, right? They could just Yeah, they have like I have like five cats in here. Yeah, they they eat it and Well, it's actually if you look up look up look up cats eating cat like natural catnip. If they eat it from the garden, they'll actually they'll start foaming at the mouth and stuff like that and like rolling over. But yeah, they eat it and they smell it and they like let they
roll around in it and they Yeah. But is it edible though? Like can they actually eat it? Like I don't I don't know anything about cats cuz I never owned a cat. I always had dogs. It's edible. It's edible. Hey babe. Hey babe. Wait. You got tricks too. You want attention too? This is
Lenor. He gets mad. Tricks. Wait. Come over here too. See Lenor. Lenor. Yeah. Uh, it's just They're all getting jealous now. Yeah. If if Lenor if I'm under the covers with like tricks and then Lenor comes to get under the cover, she sees tricks in there, she gets real mad and she like she like she goes in the
bedroom and stuff. So you get a and then Oh. Oh, she's very affectionate. She's the sweetest cat. Oh, baby. I love you. You're my baby. See? Yeah. She's laying on me. You're a good cat. You're a good cat. You're my babe. You're my
babe. You're my babe. Do you know why you're my babe? Your mouth is wet. You've only seen two. Yeah. Have you seen Rudy's? He's an orange cat. Lola is like kind of like she's Trix's mom. Hi, babe. And then um Lola, Rudy, Trixs.
So many to keep track of. I know. I know. I'm pretty sure you've been asked this question so much, but how many cats you got? I have five cats and then there Well, and then um there's even more, but it's like a couple of them are more outdoor cats. They want outside. Yeah. Yeah. A lot of cats do that. Lenor's Queen Sweet Lips. Yeah, you are. Are you sweet? Oh, kisses. Oh, kisses. You like to give
kisses? Oh, your mouth is all wet. You got a mouth. You got a wet mouth. What are you doing? Have you ever seen Alisa? Alisa like um has a dog name. I think it's Fuzzy or Pickle that she There's something she's there she There's a time where she was like letting letting the dog like lick lick
her mouth. The dog was like licking the inside of her mouth. The kind of French kiss. It was pretty funny. Oh, you're coming over here. Chew tricks. Come on over. You want to come over, too? cats. He got eight cats alto together. Wow. He man including outside.
Yeah. No, I I um actually like last year um last year Lola gave birth to five cats and I and uh Luna watches over. She knows she know she knows she's like she knows I'm in a little bit of a of a little bit of a m of a I'm a little bit hurt right now. So, she's a
very empathic and she comes and she comes and says, "Hey, you know what? It's okay. And cats never judge. Cats the cats won't get mad at you. The cats will just love you." Hey, babe. Yeah, I think she got high on the catnip cuz she's drooling a little bit. You're drooling. She got high on that catnip. She's a good cat. She does watch over me. Oh. Oh. Oh.
Oh. She shook her head and like, "Oh my gosh. How are you, babe?" Yeah. So, so you have do you have your one dog or do you have one dog or more? No, I have um I have a pit bull and I have a um how do you say it's almost like a
gold uh uh German Shepherd, but it's a noise shepherd. So it's like a German Shepherd like what they had what they use for police dogs for in in Germany. Uh Belo Benois
something German shepherd something like that. Mhm. I may be saying it wrong. I love I love dogs too. My family has dogs. My mom has a bunch of dogs. But yeah, dogs are a little bit more uh cats are more independent which is like really cool. I love how independent they are and how they and they could they
could pee in their own box. You don't have to take them out. Yeah. So, yeah. So, they're more independent. And dogs Dogs you can't just like let go run outside, right? You have to No. No. No. I mean, you could you could let them run outside, but you know, if you have a back if you have a backyard if you have
a backyard, you can, but Yeah. Yeah, I have I have a fence in the backyard. So, you don't Yeah, you have to But you have to watch. Yeah, you can't you can't let them out. Oh, the cats cats sometimes will take off. They'll sometimes go to different houses. They'll they like to go around the neighborhood. They like to walk outside. They like to chase birds and
squirrels and mice and they like to they're little hunters and so, you know, it's like it's hard to keep cats inside all the time. So my babe, you have a You have like a a cat door like one of those flap doors. You do? I do. I do. I have a cat I have a I have a cat flap and so they can come inside and go as they
please. Rudy started going outside. I I went outside today and Rudy I saw Rudy like running out in front of the house like he's exploring outside but he comes back in and stuff. Yeah, he's really cute cuz he was inside. He was just inside for I didn't I I thought he would just be like a house cat, but he's like he he likes to run outside and play too.
And Sig is still sitting. You want to go to say I don't know. Should I bring I don't know. We're having such a good good vibe. I I you know I I just feel bad when I see him sitting backstage like you know for you know a long time. But he's doing his own thing on Rumble, you know. So I don't feel that bad. I'll I'll be
around for, you know, hopefully a long time on YouTube, so I'll have plenty of plenty of time to chill in my panel and plenty of time to hang out. You know, it's just like I just feel today that I want to keep it light. I want to keep it, you know, I want to Hey, He-Man, chill out. Chill out.
All right, stop getting my case. All right. I never knew about how many cats he had. I never asked him in all these almost a year. So, just chill. All right. Stop getting on my case. Thank you. Hi. Hi. Hi, Ruby. How are you? Hi, Madam Ruby. How are you? Yeah, he's probably he's probably on multiple pan cuz half the time I let
him on, he's like not he has he's muted on other panels and just like sitting there like, "Oh, there he left. He left. He left." Okay, maybe he got the hand. I mean, it's like and I don't like to I don't like I don't Oh, coming back. I don't like to I don't like to keep people backstage. He's just back there. I know. He It's like It's like And it's like that's like some people persistence.
It's like Yeah. Cuz I then I'll let my guard down. It's let people back up and people some people don't like Hey, I'm pretty sure I'm pretty sure I'm going to get hate for this. But let let let's sig up for a little bit. Like at least for a minute. I'm But I'm leaving. I'll let you guys talk for a second. All right.
That's the worst mistake you could have made. No. S Oh, damn. Come on. No. Let him up. Let him up. Come on. Let him up. Let him up. Let him up for a minute. He didn't say anything bad. He said that's the worst mistake I could have made and like is laughing at me. Just Okay. It's It's your channel. So,
I'm not going to tell you what. So, sick. You gotta be on your best behavior, man. You can't You can't be saying this man. And And you're pretty It's pretty early in the morning to be drunk, bro. Come on now. Yeah, I know. But I'm sick, man. Madam, I I don't I'm sick of deleting streams. I'm sick of deleting streams and restarting and it's like it's not good
for the algorithm and it's like it's a it's risky. I got you. I got you. No, no. It's your It's your channel, man. I I can't you know, but s is entertaining though. But I wish he would. I don't find him that entertaining. I don't find him that entertainly entertaining. He's He has
the same shtick where he's just goes he has a laugh. Okay, we have Dehi here. Do you know Dehy? Yeah. What was that? What was that? Hey, what's up, man? What kind of y was that? What was what? That was sick. That was
that was signal slashcape. So yeah, I know Madam Ruby, but there's also there's certain there's there's certain people that are like trying to like say, oh, you they're trying to like they try to say say things and then flag you for like certain things. It's just not it's just like not you know, it's like I'd rather have a clean a clean uh
a clean show rather than No, I feel no I feel Yeah, I got you. Yeah. So, we're just keeping the vibe vibe high today. We're trying to trying to have a calm, peaceful day. Not not uh not a not not worry today. Let's just have a day. I I don't know. I've been through enough I've been through enough stress and and stuff today. I feel like
it's going to be a good day otherwise, you know. Uh hopefully everything's going to be okay with my relationships. And I sometimes you need to give things time. You need to give people space. Give people time to think. Some people sometimes they they're not going to ever forgive you. Sometimes they will. But
okay. Yeah. What do you What's What's up with you, Dehi? How's How's the weed? Uh, it's great. I love having weed again. Good. I was smoking that stupid THCA. Whatever fake You talking about Delta 9?
Yeah. I don't know what it is, but it's bad. That's that fake ass sweet. I got I got some good stuff now. So, yay. Yeah. Good. Yay. Yay. Yay. Now my lungs won't have uh you
know, cigarettes as much. Yeah. You don't have to smoke. Yeah. That's a good thing about weed is you don't have to smoke as much cigarettes. And cigarettes are kind of like, you know, they give a you, you know, they give a little bit of a buzz or a little bit of a nicotine buzz. And it's it's kind of good with weed, but then just smoking so many cigarettes, it's like I If you smoke, if you smoke tobacco or weed, it
intensifies your eye. So, yeah. I'm just talking, you know, when I'm out of weed, I smoke way more cigarettes, you know. Yeah. Me, too. I don't have my bowl to pick up. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. Everyone is everyone gonna have a good
day? Let's hope everyone has a great day in chat. Looks like it's like kind of slowed down in my chat right now. So, I'm probably going to wrap it up in a little bit. Back and demand an apology. No, he won't he won't apologize. What is this? Literally feeling your soul when it's time to move on from people. Time to make a change in your life. Time to get rid of unhealthy
habits. Time to want more for yourself. Right. Very good. Yep. That's what you know I want everyone to everyone to we can all do better. It's in certain thing I can do better. I'm not saying I'm not saying anybody else is I'm perfect. I'm saying saying we can all do better. We can all improve ourselves. That's what life is about. It's about learning living learning improving as much as we
can. We'll always we'll still slip sometimes. We'll still make mistakes. We'll still um get in our emotions over our logic. We we need a healthy balance of logic and emotion. That's the most powerful thing. That's like having the masculine. Yes, he is. Uh, Sig, your hand right now and then eat it and psycho forgive you. No, no, no, no. I
don't want to see that. I don't want to see that. Is he still in the background? He's still in the backstage. Yeah. Let him up. Let him up. Come on, Saki. Let him up just for Let him up. Let him up for a minute. All right, let's see what Saki I mean psychi
signal just be nice bro don't don't say anything offensive bro cuz you know you're going to get kicked off man you know what I'm saying Dr. Green aging Dr. bring them. See, he's not saying anything. Sick. Don't Don't Don't say anything that you know that is
going to trigger too high, bro. He's too high, man. Nah, he's He's drunk, man. He's on it. Sig, throw throw up your bottle. Sick, throw up your bottle. Look at those eyes, man. That even look
like sick. Sick. Throw up your bottle. That's crazy. Whose eyes are those? Saki was just saying that. That's what you always say. Throw up your bottle. Come on. Throw up your bottle. Come on. I know you drinking all that. Come on. If you ask him to do something, he won't do it. He'll do the opposite of So, you have to say, "Don't throw up your
bottle." And then he'll he'll throw it up. Yeah. All right. Psyche. I mean psyche. I keep saying psyche. Signal sig throw throw up your bottle. Don't throw up your bottle. That that made no sense. Don't throw Yeah, don't throw up, man. Don't throw up. He might hold up his dildo.
See, he's cool. He's cool. At least right now he's cool. I mean, I like when he he had he had I saw him. He had a cat. I think he had a cat. A cat. I think it's a cat and it was a really cute and the cat likes him and stuff and so that kind of touched my heart. I was like, "Oh, I like he's not a bad person like the cat you know when people's cats cats love him that you know." So, let me
let me let me let me let me ask uh Sig a question. Hey, Sig, you still talk to Py?
Sig. Hello. What's up? Hey, what's up JJ Coer? How you doing? Good morning, buddy. He's talking to He's talking to his own panel. This is just This is not This is not It's not This is not working. He's not even listening to us. Just mute him and then, you know, we can do our own thing. But he can unmute himself.
There's no There's no reason to mute him. If he unmutes If he unmutes, then he's acknowledging that he knows that, you know, like that he's muted. Okay. See? So now I muted it. Now he's just going to be on camera and he can't ignore you because he's going to have to unmute his mic.
Look at him. Look at him though. Look at him. He's probably listening to that new Kanye West song that he Yeah, he's plotting something. What are you doing, s What What are you What What are you wearing? Are you wearing like a like a a robe? Is that a Is that a
fleece? I I don't think he hears us. No, he didn't pay attention. Let's watch him. Yeah, just ignore that he's there. You know, just like do your own thing and Oh, it's it's hard. Oh, here we go. What you do, Psyche?
What's up, Eldo? How are you? I'm all right, man. I'm good, man. See, Eldo, not Rondo, it's Eldo. Yep. Everything good. Everything good. No, you missed all the drama. Oh my god. Again, what happened? I literally don't know what was going on. You know what I'm saying? Oh god. You don't even want to know.
Besides, besides Kate, Besides Kate, I know Kate. Uh, I think I seen Kate talk about beat a little bit. That's about it. She said she was crying. That's about it. Is that what you talking about, Psyche? Well, no. like this morning like at 3:00 in the morning like she calls me and she's like hey she's like are you going she's like go live and I was like I was like okay I was
like I was I I just woke it up I was like okay I went live and then she came on and she just started going off on like me and and Michael and his and his girlfriend and like then I just she was calling she kept she kept calling me a and then I just like ended the stream and then she called me and she was like she was so mad like I've never I've never heard her so mad and she's
like I'm never talking to you again and then she like came in my chat. I don't know. I don't know. I understand why she was so mad about that. So, what did you do? But what did you did you do? But think about it. It's like did you do anything? Did you go did you go back on something you said you were going to do or no anything? Nothing. I I couldn't even say a word. All I was I was just like beat up beata beat. I was like trying to like talk and
she would just scream and she was just she was just yelling and um you know Yeah. It was it was weird. And then she's very mad at me and I have no idea why. And she's like, she's like, "Oh, I" She's like, "I hate you. Like, uh I'm never talking to you again. I swear to talk to you again. Trust me, she's going to talk to you.
What the is going on?" I don't know. But it was kind of I mean, everybody turning on beta. I'm not saying you are, but Flirt Kate, the turtle side, you know, and it's like what's going on? I mean, damn. I don't I don't join one day and and you and Be are fighting again. Well, you you you said you ain't do nothing,
you know. But I'd like to know maybe Be will join or I'll talk to her later. Who's drunk? Eldo. Eldo. Bo is drunk. Drunk. Yeah. Hell yeah. She was drunk. You know how she is when she's drunk. Eldo, you know how it is. So she talking all that trash. And and literally all my girl all my girl like this like what six something and my
time. So psychic time was probably like 3 something in the morning and she started going off on my girl. I'm like what the Like all all she literally said was all she literally said was hey how are y'all doing? Then she wanted to go off on I was like oh god. So I was like I gotta I gotta talk
to her. That's not I mean I understand she do get a little Tiffany start spazzing and Um well she was like she was like oh like cuz I ended the stream and then she's like well she's like you never she's like you never defended me against um you know against Alex and I don't even know what Alex said to her like I I don't remember Alex actually going after her. I just I remember like you know I don't I I don't
know sometimes maybe I'm too drunk sometimes. Maybe I but uh and then then of course I get the army and then everyone I got I got a text message. Oh you you're you're an ugly and then she called me ugly and all this kind of stuff and it was just not nice. I mean it was like and all I was saying I was saying I was saying beta like calm down or not because she was just going off but
I don't know why I really don't know why I mean at this point I don't know what you could have done you know I didn't do anything that's she was mad at me she was mad at me every other day for like every I mean everything it's like and it was like a lot of it was to do with like how I'm running my show or like what people on the show say and it's like I I sometimes I'm not in the chat I don't read the chat as carefully as they
should. And like there's people that say things in chat. There's there's people that it's just like there's so many complicated relationships. Let me see who who's a riff raff. What you're talking about, Sig or who's a riff raff on the panel? What are you talking about? Oliver. Um but you know, but I love her and as a she doesn't she doesn't like me anymore. It's okay. You don't have to like me. But I really I
don't think I did anything wrong. But but maybe I did. And uh or maybe in her, you know, maybe in her eyes I did something wrong. But I feel like it's almost like it's almost like a a troll or something like that. I almost feel kind of ambushed cuz she was like she called all calm and was like, "Hey, what's up? Go on go live." And then she comes on and like just like just like
starts screaming at us and so all of us. And so you don't like any of them. Okay. It's okay. I think I think it's a good panel. A nice nice little chat going. Hey Oliver, how are you doing? Um so we'll see what h we'll see what happens. But it's like at this point it's like I'm I'm emotionally exhausted right now. like I've just been through so much and it's like and some of these days I'm exhausted emotionally and then other
people other people like I I can't get in the I have enough my own stuff to worry about then these other people's relationships and it's like it's it gets very tiring and emotional and it's like I don't like to be on be on different sides and um then then then all of a sudden they're friends again and then I'm I'm the because I took someone's side over the other and I'm I
I just sometimes you can't win for losing, right? or you can't you can't win for losing. It's like no matter what you do, it's like, you know, you can't you're damned if you do, damned if you don't. So, I'll just I'll just focus on being myself. Keep doing my show, you know? I don't know. I I can't I can't uh I'm just I'm doing my best. Maybe my best isn't good enough, but I'm doing my
best. Yeah. And uh Yeah. Like she was like she was like, "Oh, well, you didn't you didn't you didn't say happy birthday to me." And and I was like and I did. She wasn't on uh on live on her birthday, but I text messaged her on her birthday and you know and before her birthday and you know I don't I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know what she I don't know what she wants. I don't
know what she wants. But uh hopefully it was just maybe she was just having a bad a bad night a bad night and letting off some steam and it'll it'll all work out. Yeah. I mean she was she was live streaming while she was on with you. So well that was I think after I think after she got That's crazy.
So everything will be okay. Everything will be okay. It's like some of it's like these are these are I take I take these relationships seriously that I make here and I I I take I take them more to heart but it's like um but I have to realize at the end of the day it's like you know we're all different places in the country. Not seriously at all. If if it was a life or death
situation and I had to let any one of you starve to death. Okay. S I was about to say give us your wisdom, Papa Guru, but you over here trying to say some wild Yeah, see there's nothing good. It's just a bunch of It's just a bunch of You got like S. You got to
calm down with the threats, man. No threats. Like, come on, dude. No threats. And then you're not even respected around here. So, you get kicked out before any of us. Like, come on, S. Get it together, man. Cuz people like to see you. I don't know how, but people like to see you sick, man. At least five or six people. Hey. Hey. Uh, by by the way, by the way, Charlie, what
what's do you care about? Why do you care about my situation? Why do you care about my situation? Mind your role. All right. Know your situation. Care about yourself. Don't care about other people that have nothing to do with you that you know online. All right. Plain and
simple. Shut your mouth. All right, I'm done. What up, Jabron? Jabron, chill out, Jabron. I don't know, man. It's a lot going on right now, man. It's a lot going on. We gonna get to the bottom of it, you know? We gonna figure it out. But yeah, it's just hard. It's hard. Kind of
hard. It's just like I try my best. And I'm not I'm not And I'm not I'm an I'm a very forgiving person. I'm a very I'm a I'll give you a million I'll give people a million chances. I don't get one chance. I make one mistake, I never hear the end of it. Everybody else, they can call me anything they want to, say anything they want about me. Just call me I've been called the worst I've been called
the worst And so, um, and I know I know I know we we all get it from the trolls and stuff, but it's like it's it's different when it comes from who you think is your friend. And then it's like and then they're just like so they just throw you away so easily. It's like like true friends. Yeah. The thing the thing the thing is the thing is that um Bea called you like she called you a whole bunch of names that she would normally not say if she was sober. So
you should correct that right now cuz she was talking about you're a snowflake, you're a or I don't think she stayed a Let me take a look back. But she um you know she was she was calling you a whole bunch of names and and I was like damn like just because when a girl got up on the channel you like you want to like revert
your anger all out on on psyche like what the like the thing I can say is kind of up man it's kind of up you know I you know I don't agree with everything sight do just like I don't agree with everything other live streamers do but sometimes you just got like deal with it, you know, like you're
not going to agree with everything somebody do. So, but I'd like to hear from beta to see what's, you know, bothering beta, you know. Well, no, she said she's never coming back and stuff. So, I I said that before she always she always says that. She always says that. She has said that before. We're gonna we're gonna figure this out. We're gonna figure this out. And it is what it is.
That's it, man. I mean the fact that that you know what bothers me is that you know she gets like this and then she goes live you know if she feels some type of way she got to talk about it behind the scenes not go live so people can you know clip it and then make fun of her you know for spuring all drunk and and getting emotional. There's two things she does, you know, is she spurs and then she
starts crying, you know, she gets emotional, you know, and it's it makes for content, but I know she don't want that like, you know, like it's making for content cuz she's sping, you know, they know she going to get to drinking, you know, and she's going to spaz out, but it got to be a real good reason to spaz out. It can't be for some dumb ass
you know? Like I said, you know, she was drunk though. She was drunk. She was, you could tell she was obviously drunk. So, and you know how she is. Come on. She's drunk. Like, 12 12 white claws in and Come on now.
Yeah. Hopefully we figure it out. Like I said, man, cuz it's it's, you know, things go went well a couple days ago. Psyche was having good trivia night, you know, trivia day, you know, and people were having fun. Then they had to transition over to Amber from what I'm hearing. Like we got to we got to try to stay a little positive, you know? I like a drama, but at the same time when it
when it comes to people that supposed to be close friends, I don't like it. I don't like it at all. You know, right? Basically, we have it's like that's the thing is like too is like there's people whenever there's a friendship then there's a lot of people trying to break up the friendship and it's like and it's like the friendship is supposed to be strong because it's like you know if you separate people then it's like they're weaker, right?
It's like and so it's like we're stronger together but so people are constantly trying to like say things and so they're they harp on things and I don't take it seriously. I like kind of so I don't necessar I like kind of block out some of the trolling and so I don't necessarily see what happens to other people. I'm sure they are trolled too. I I'm just not I'm noticing basically what's what they're saying about me and stuff, but uh and it's like it's it's too many people to like worry about, you
know, it's like I do worry about her feelings, but it's like too many too much to going on with all these different people, all these relationships, and I don't know anybody's history cuz it's like there's like a lot of people that it's like she's friends with her and her moms in her chat and then it's like she's mad at them, she fights with Crystal, Crystal said horrible things to her and now they're friends again. I mean, it's like it's just so confusing sometimes. And
so, I have to like try to stay out of out of out of the drama, you know? I I try to like stay a little bit neutral, but I do have loyalty to her. And it's like but it's like at the same time when like I remember when she first came out on panel, someone was calling like I think Sig was calling her a or something like that and I stepped in and then it's
like Paige. Is that what you said? No, no, no. Oh, like beat up. Oh, they said Paige called her over it. No, no, no, no, no, no. But someone come but and I and I or they would say that to Pi like like Sig would say horrible things to Pi and stuff and I would step in and then then I think Pi was like oh I can stand up for myself and be like I can you know I you know and I just like I
like I look stupid. I look like I'm trying to be like the the uh the captain Savaho or whatever, right? And it's like no, it's like I think they're strong women that can handle themselves like she she's very good with her, you know, verbally. Kai is very good verbally, you know, and so, um, I don't know. It's like, so I just let them, but then it's then it's like, oh, why didn't you do this and this and this and this? I'm like, well, I'm I'm like worry about a
lot of different people on the show and trying to and trying worry about what what's being said like otherwise. And uh I have loyalty to I have loyalty to all my friends, you know. It's like and so but it's like what? So, what if you have loyalty to somebody and then you a bunch of people and then they're fighting? It's like who you're supposed to who's what if you're loyalty to all of them, you know? It's like you you care about
all of them, right? You can't necessarily I don't know. It's like, "Hey, Christine, how are you? Good to see you, Christine. Good morning." Yeah, Christine. It's just been a crazy morning, you know? What up, Christine? Yo, it's oddly weird that you only got a couple people uh chatting in the in the chat. Did have
you checked your ban list? make sure people ain't, you know, go rolling. Um, yeah, check I keep checking up. Yeah, I have 30 people here right now. It's like it's like it's not it's a pretty decent number. I mean, it's like, you know, I remember when I started I uh I had like five people in my chat when I started doing live streams. And now I have I have between 30, 50, sometimes up
to 100 people. And so, you know, it's it's it goes it goes, you know, up and down. It goes up and down. you know, there's going to be, you know, not everyone's going to I'm on a lot, so not everyone going to watch every day. You know, everyone needs a even I take I took days off from watching Emma when I was there and stuff. So, um, you know, so I I'm happy for everyone's here. I appreciate you you guys all and I love I
love you guys. And it's like it's it's hard sometimes. It's emotional, but I have to I'm going to try to keep my show more positive, you know? I'm going to try to keep a I like the drama and stuff, but it's like I can't It's not It isn't like a certain extent. To a certain extent. Yeah. It goes too far sometimes and then especially when it gets into the threat threatening and the
the the bad the racial language and then and it's like and some people you just can't, you know, if they can't behave themselves then it's like why are you in my chat? And it's like if you don't like me, if you don't like my chat, if you don't like my show, why why are you why are you here? or like really it's like you know it's like I know people like to hate watch and all that kind of stuff. Some people do and there and some people like are like to lurk and some people
some people just like to listen to the show and a lot of people are supportive and wonderful. Um you're going to get a whole mixed bag of people you get you get you get the most views when people are arguing. I'll tell you that much. Yeah. Yeah. which is like it's kind and it's kind of unfortunate but also I think like some sometimes when there's that many people here I I notice like when there can be 100 people here and there
nobody's like nobody's joining membership nobody's donating and stuff and then it's like or I could have like 10 people and it's and it's like and it's like a higher it's like they are more participating in chat they're they're they're like you know promote promoting my my nightbot links and it's like so I have like so it's like it's really quality over quantity like it's
like just having a lot of people just like spectating is like, you know. Yeah. But as long as you're participating in the chat, that's help that's helping the helping the algorithm. Hey, shout out to El for the free membership, man. Appreciate that, bro. I know. I know he's gonna hate me right
now. Yo, where's my Okay. So, how you and Summer been, Psych? Have you and her made up or have you has she been on panel ever since the fallout or what's going on with that? No, I I I I was just on her show last night and we were fine. We were fine. We were fine. So, I mean, she was on Sam Man's not that long ago, but Well, she was on She
was she was on uh Dr. Ish was on last night. I just stop I stopped by for a few minutes. Um there I stopped by um by uh TY for a few minutes and just said hi to say, "Hey, what's up?" You know, just making sure I'm cool with everybody. It's It's hard. It's like, you know, the night before playing trivia. Yep. So, okay. Okay. Okay. That's good. I
know. Juice the juice the hoe. He's going live now. So, I don't know if you subbed up to his channel. You might want to sub up, you know. No. Well, he was he was here this he was here this morning talking to me and say, "Oh, why do you beat he said beata is your best friend." He's like, "Beta is so much for you. What? Why'd you do her like that?" And I was like, "I didn't do anything." I was like, "I didn't do anything to I like what did I do?" He's like, "Oh, you're just playing." I'm trying to
figure right. I'm trying to figure out what's going on, you know? Like, what are people? Who am I? I'm trying. Is anybody know what's going on? Like, can anyone explain it to me? I don't I don't I don't even know. It's like all I know is like people are mad at me one second next day they're they're cool with me. I I uh I don't I'm just trying to I'm trying to keep my head above water kind of.
Just I'm trying my best, guys. I'm trying my best. Maybe my best might not be good enough, but all I can do is try my best. I can't do any better than I I'm putting I'm pouring all my love into this channel. Oh, that's all right, man. Now, have you talked to Empress? I heard Empress and Rob are no longer together. I don't know if you know anything about that situation. Oh, Yeah, I heard about
that. I I heard she pornbombed him and there was something about like um uh she he was using his Streamyard. He was using her Streamyard and like or she was using his Streamyard or something. And I I don't know. There was some some problem over that. I I don't know. But she porn bombed him so he would end his stream. She wanted him to end. I I don't
know. I think RG went live yesterday with the whole show. I didn't I didn't I didn't I missed it, but yeah, just got out not that long ago, so it's it's kind of wild that it's already fallen apart, you know? But yeah. Well, I I mean I I just I haven't been to her show for a while. I don't know. I think she's mad at me still. I mean, there's
so many people I've fallen out with. It's very unfortunate. Like locked up for years. Yeah. It's polit Yeah. But I got like someone said that they're like like a year from now you're going to have like some of the same people. You're going to have a lot of people that are staying with you, but it's going to be like mostly new people. Like it's going to be like you know it's like
people will go through different phases and some people some people come people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Yeah. People go everywhere, right? Yeah. No, it's true. It's definitely true, man. I'm trying to focus on my maybe my own show more and so I'm on less panels
and stuff. I mean, I was on a lot of panels before I started my own my own panels, but I um I do want to support everybody. I want to, you know, if you want to um if if you're not if you're not a if you have a channel or like it's like the guy Isaiah, I was trying to get him to 50 subscribers so he could like start live streaming and so we were trying to help him the other night and I really want to get people started on
their own channel. I don't feel it's competition. Some people think it's a competition and they get they get all Oh my god, this person is getting this this many people. I I see I see people going everywhere people and wherever we want to wherever people want to go, they can go. They can go. Friends are like the like the leaves, branches, and roots. Yeah. Friends are like trees. The leaves, branches, and roots. Yeah.
Hold on. I'll be right back. Oh man. Hopefully everybody having a good Wednesday. You know, hunting day Wednesday. It's crazy how we're in May almost June and it's cold outside. Like ridiculous man. Yo, how's it cold where you at? Where
you at? North. I'm in uh I'm in like uh Pennsylvania right now. It's like 50 something degrees. What? Yo, bro. I'm over there in the Florida scorching right now. It's like 97 right now. I don't believe it. This weather ain't making no sense for real.
Weather ain't making no sense, man. Who's Dei? Who the is this guy? Oh, I have no idea. I don't know. He's been on mute for a while. I don't know. Second likes to leave people up here that that Oh, there he goes. Yo, what
up? Yo, hi. Are you there? Yeah. Say hi to Eldo. Do you know Eldo? Hello. No. No. No. No. No. Wake your ass up.
Yeah. Yeah. I'm awake.
Yeah, but I think I will get a manicure today because my nails are getting kind of long and a little bit dingy. And I think uh I think it's time for a manicure. Hey, hey, Saki, save the money. Just do it yourself, man. Just clip your nails and do you want a manicure, man? Come on. No. No. A Come on, Saki. I think I
deserve a I think I I think I deserve I think I deserve a treat today. You're thinking about a pedicure today? Awesome, Christine. I think I deserve a treat today. Yeah. I'll see I'll see what happens. But hey, Dehi. Oh, here he is. What's up? There he was. Yeah. Right. Right. Madam Ruby, it's like the enemies will be friends in a few weeks. So, what's the point? What's the point of me? Then I get
involved and then they both hate me. It's like Right. It's like they're all why did you take this side? Why did you take this? It's like, so it's like I'll let people I let people work out with their own their own stuff. There there's so much in people's relationships I have nothing to do with. And so I I can't really I don't really I can't really judge. I don't really know how to judge. So yeah, I mean it's happened 100. It's
happened a 100 times where it's like, you know, especially if it's like like you know, I had my friend like, you know, she would like her boyfriend. You can't you can't you can't you can't. I just I'm just trying to just trying to maintain hold it together and uh wanted to just see man to see what's up with it, you know.
So, did did YouTube hit you with the check today? What's going on? Like you get that YouTube check. If it ain't making if it ain't dollars, it ain't making sense. Something like that. That's what they say. What else you doing with that money? Huh? You going to Manny and Petty? I'm
gonna invest in a maybe a new cell phone. And what else? Whatever else I want to I want to do. I want to do better. I'm going to invest in my show. I want to do better IRL streams. I want to um you know have a better quality so better quality show. I'm going to I want to get some I want some some more
trivia games. I want to you know. Do you use your uh phone for streaming? Yeah, I use my I use my cell because my cell phone has the data. I I actually I'm on my I'm on my uh my iPad right now. My iPad I use for streaming. So I have to pay I pay I pay my Stream Art. Stream art is 45 bucks a month, you
know. It's like it's it's not a Yeah, but there is actually I can I can buy I can get 40% off what I'm paying now if I do if I buy six months. And so I'm thinking about doing that. So I could just have the I have six months prepaid, you know, I can get quite a discount. All you have to do is cancel the account and then you can um you need
to use Prism and not Streamyard for IRL. It does. Yeah, but my my um I need your Prism. Okay, I'll look into Prism for the IRL. Yeah, I'll look into that. I need to sign up for that. Is that is that like easy to sign up for? Does it cost a lot of money? I don't know. No, it's easy. Free. There's only one way to find out. So it's easy. And you can you you can pin
your cash app on the screen. You can uh you know what I mean? If you want if you want to pin like a photo, you can pin a photo. Yeah. I just want to wait for a bit. It's also like my phone is like not that great quality for streaming and so I just need kind of a better phone. So um I'm thinking about about doing that. Let me see. I was the first person to start doing chat on the screen. Yeah. Well,
that because it I think that it just started yesterday. They they just started like um they just started um doing that yesterday. Prison free. It takes two seconds. There's a reason your IRL gets five view. It's not I my IRL does not get five views. I I I get 40 to 50 views when I'm doing my IRL. Not five views. All my streams all my streams do pretty well. Um I usually get over a thousand a,000 views on all my all my uh
all my shows. And so like just from the lives. So it depends depending on how long they are. Sometimes lower. Hey, hey, Saki. Let's let's see how back your uh your memory goes. Who was the very first person that ever went on your channel and like comment on your channel
when you started going live streaming? Maybe Jamie's Cowboys, maybe Chonah. Um Chon, like Chona was on last night. She was one of the first people that was on my channel. Maybe Traveling Gypsy. Um um I know the first person on the panel was MC Nemesis and like Jamie Rose and Marty and Beta and Beeta, but when I started doing the live streams, first people in
the chat were like, you know, Emma used to go to my chat, Clumsy would go to my chat. There's a lot of people like a lot of lot like a lot of people are not there anymore like or they they've chosen other sides. They they've uh they've just basically, you know,
outcasted me. But thank you. As soon as my IRL with nobody on panel, the count drops below 10. Below 10. I don't think I've ever had below 10 on my on my live streams. I hardly ever get below 10 on my chat. Sometimes I do, but uh yeah, my my IRL does fine. When I go to the pier, um you know, I usually have about 30 40 people in there. So, no. I was saying
like originally when you first started though who was the first person you noticed I just I remember Jamie's Cowboys has been with me pretty much since the beginning like a lot of people from Benny's um Benny's never come to my chat like uh you know but uh a lot of people I met from Benny's and uh cuz they were some of my first uh subscribers I think I think Chono was
one of the first people traveling Gypsy Tarot um Oceans Woo um there's just there's so many people and if I'm if I'm missing anybody if I I don't mean to I don't mean over overlook you. I I I love everybody like but there's just a lot of people that aren't here anymore. Oh, Pyana. Pyana was one of the first people that on my stream. Yeah. Now, now she's now you know Pyana said to me she said
oh by Aldo Pyana said oh she's like you're you're just a gay cyrax. You're um you're just a lull cow and we we're just going to laugh at you. Moo moo. That's what she was typing in the chat. Like pretty pretty awful to say. And then she's like and then I was like oh come up on panel. She's like, "I'm not going to talk to you, let you manipulate me with your words." And she won't even talk to me on the phone. That's the thing. I'm talk I'm going to be talking
to somebody else. I think somebody else today and hopefully working things out. And uh you know, there's some relationships that can be salvaged. Uh some that can't. You know, sometimes they need time. Um but you know, I do like to, you know, what's even what's the the the worst some of one of the worst thing is like, you know, the the fallout, but one of the best things is the makeup. you know, it's like, you know, not make, you know, how they say
makeup sex is like the best sex or whatever, but it's, you know, I don't know, not not like sex, not like not saying I'm having sex with anybody, but, you know, it's like it's just I like making up with people. I like I love peace. I love having peace and like not not uh not worrying too much about, you know, things and things that aren't are not worth worrying about. Like I I like
to I like to um you know, but I I do believe the relation relationships are the most valuable things. It's not the things in our life, it's like the relationship. But but Py, speaking about Pyana, Pyana was um she was like a like a loyal follower of yours and all of a sudden y'all fell out. So yeah, like Well, yeah, but that's because and you
know, she you should I think I've read some of the text messages like where she was like she's like, "Oh, you're" She's like, "I don't I don't like your new friends. I don't like Bea. I don't like Janet. I She's like, you know, I She's like, "You you um you wouldn't let me ever talk when I was on the show." Like, she's like, "You're you're using cult mind control tactics. You're you're you're manipulative. You're a narcissist." I mean, it's just like just
like all this negative. And I was like, she she seems like a narcissist. Like, I don't know. Like, she all she cares about is like how um I'm not going to talk bad about her, but she like long story short, she seems like a narcissist. So, yeah. I know. And and like I said, maybe I am a little bit of
a narcissist, you know, as like I I have like my in order in order to be low key narcissist, I guess, because I haven't noticed it. So, well, I'm just saying I'm saying like at least I just have a I think I have more of a healthy self-esteem. I don't have the like the malignant narcissism, but you know, everybody, especially in Los Angeles, you know, a lot of to survive here, you have to have like a little bit of
self-confidence or else cuz or else you're just bullied. Bring you down. Yeah. Exactly. Yeah. I'm like sick of being bullied. I'm sick I've been I've been through it. I um so I just try to like not do that to other people. Uh I'm not a bully. I'm not I'm
not I'm not a um I don't know. I'm not like I said perfect, but it's like I'm not like, you know, I'm not um not trying to hurt anybody. I'm not trying to to to use anybody. I'm just I'm just trying to hang out, be friends. Well, Charlie, like what? Like what? It's like that like you know how
how you feel if I'm sick of being bullied? I I don't know what you mean by that really because it's like I'm one person. That's like that's like you're kind kind of talking about an entity and I'm I'm like one person, right? Oh, I know that's terrible, but they they've said they've said horrible just as horrible things to me. Like, you know, Sig is holding up alcohol. What's going on here?
There we go. He's finally held it up. He's on mute. I like it like that. I like it like that. I know. I know. They threatened that. I know. I know. But it's like the I don't think that I think it even, you know, I think even Kate said she didn't mean it. Like if you just some some people say things that they know will bother people and trigger people and that you know it's like and
then so you can't like show weak you can't show weakness by like saying like being so affected by you just I'd say don't bring attention to it because that that u that makes things worse and it's like so I don't I don't know it's like I'm supposed to be taking sides. I'm supposed to be mad at people. I'm supposed to be blocking this person I'm blocking this person and it's just like it's a lot it's a lot for me. So I'm
being I'm being bullied there. I'm I I'm getting I I've had to I like I like blocked all these text messages I was getting, but they I got called, "Oh, you're you're an ugly motherfucker." And then putting my high school yearbook photo up and it's like, "Yeah, I was like, I have enough self-confidence in myself. I'm not the best looking person in the world." Yeah. Who cares about what you look who cares about what you look at like in the past? It's about
what you look like now. I know. But they just they just posted my yearbook photo and like they can probably play with it and stuff like that. I was just I was just showing my I thought I looked pretty good in my year before I was 18 years old, you know, a senior in high school. So, I look probably look better than I do now, but you know, apparently I'm just an ugly or whatever. So, we always look better in
our past time compared to now. So, but I think I think I look I think I look fine now. I'm a little bit, you know, I'm a little bit, you know, I'm surprised I don't have more gray hair. My my beard is getting a lot more gray in it. I noticed like this is where all my stress goes. It goes to my beard. You see how gray it's getting? It's getting Hey, the girl. Hey. Well, you're No offense.
You're You're gay. So, but like I would you, Whoa. Okay. All right. I was going to say, no, bring him back. He He's giving you a compliment. He was his Hey, no. Hey. Hey. All right. No. Sick. Sick. Damn. Keep saying it. It's like it's
like I told him I exactly said not to do that and he's now he's laughing. He's like sitting there laughing like it's funny. I said don't say that kind of stuff. All right. Well Well I was going to say what I was going to say. Um when I start out my when I start going out my g my gray hair. I'm going to sport that Women like the salt and pepper
look. So believe it or not the silver fox. Silver fox. Yeah. Exactly. You know what I'm saying? It look It looks good on you. No. No. I mean, I'm not gay, but it looks good on you. You know what I'm saying? So, thank you. Do Do you dye your hair or No, you have no hair on your I have no You have no gray hair on
You have Well, at least I can see you have no gray hair on your actual head. I don't. So, I don't know. Nobody believes me. Like, nobody believes me because my my beard is so great. My If I If I was If I was to dye my hair, I'd probably dye my beard as well, you know? So, it's like Nah, sport it out, man. Sport out. But yeah, my hair is like, see, it's all gray. This is like new, right? All this
gray right here is brand new cuz all the only part that was gray was this. And now that's grown all like I noticed just getting all my gray goes to my face. And so my I'll probably turn gray. I'll probably turn gray pretty soon. I just I just haven't s seen a gray hair yet. But my dad was gray like you know, very early on. My my my brother was is gray. He's like 5 years younger than me. He's
already full fully gray. And uh I'm I'm I'm I'm 36 and I'm just starting to get gray hair. And uh um I'm sorting that out. that. I don't give a My girl my girl my girls like my girl's like it makes you look more mature. Like oh thanks babe. Have you ever read the Catcher and the Rye? Have
you read Catcher and the Ry? No, I haven't. That's a really good I think you like that book. It's basically a book about a this guy's a psychopath, but it's like he's a he's like I think he's like 18 or 19 in the book and he like already has a full gray head of hair and it kind of but it was kind of a distinctive look on him. So I don't know anybody seen it's the book that like the
guy that unalive John Lennon um he read that book and then he did that like so people say that that book's like a MK Ultra trigger or something like that. You should check it out. It's actually I think it's from like the 20s or 30s. I think it's like an older What is it? What is it called? What is it called? called Catcher Catcher in the Rye by I think JD Salinger. Is that No. Is that right? JD Salinger. Catcher in the Ry. Or am I am I wrong? I don't know if
that's the author. Catch in the R. Is that what you say? The catcher like C- A T C H E R. Catcher in the Ry. R Y E. Catcher in the Ry. Okay. I'll tell I'll see if I can Google a little Yeah, you can Google it, but I'll tell you. I think it's it is JD Salinger. Let me see. I'll give you like a little tiny synop synopsis of it because it's really interesting book. He's like he's like this kind of
like let me see. Okay, hold on. C catching the R sucks, Charlie. You think so? I think I thought it was a great I remember one night I read it in a whole night. I just read the whole thing in a night. I I think but I think the last time I was I was 18. Um let me see.
Catcher. Okay, Catcher and the Ry by JD Salinger. It says Uhoh. Catcher in the Ry. It says the novel a catch in the r is a coming of a This phone says catcher in the r.
Okay. Catcher in the ry is a coming of age novel by JD Salinger published in 1951. It follows the experiences of hold on. It follows the experiences of Holden Caulfield, a disillusioned teenager who spends who's been expelled from prep school and spends his a few days in New York City. The novels explore themes of alienation,
the phoniness of adult society, and the desire to preserve childhood innocence. And then it says, yeah, so it says and he has and it's like basically he's he's a narrator. He's the narrator. So it's boring. I thought it was a good book. It's it's uh it's a powerful and enduring novel that captures the complexities of adolescence, a search for meaning, and the challenges of navigating a world that often feels artificial and
superficial. So that's little synopsis of it. You like Archie? Like Archie comics? What are you talking about? Archie. Oh, is Archie a character? That's cool. So, what are you doing? Dehi. Hey, Oliver. Meow. Meow.
Per. That was really But yeah, but uh but like um when Bea called earlier today, she was like when she asked me to go live, she was like, "Meow." And I was like, "Girl, meow." And she go meow meow. And I meow meow. It was like really cute. And then I was like, and then when then she hung up. Um funky butt love. What do you think of you like Oliver? Do you like Catcher in the Ride?
Did you ever watch that or or read that read that book? It's a good book. What time is it? It's 8:07, you know, for two and a half hours. Wow. The time flies on uh on on YouTube. And that's that's another reason I just love streaming. I used to I was sleeping for like 18 hours a day like last year. I was so depressed. And so now I'm sleeping for like maybe six to eight
hours a day. Okay. I only got four hours of sleep and my girl woke me up. I got four hours of sleep. And Princess Y. I was I was literally asleep, man. Literally. And she woke me up, if you know what I mean. So,
I've been getting a lot of sleep lately and uh or like more sleep than I than I usually do, but not probably not enough. But I have fun. I have fun uh hanging out with you guys and doing my stream. Hopefully, you guys like it. I hope I'm entertaining, you know, if if uh people are mad at me. I all I ask is that you judge me on me and not like what other people are saying because people people
are saying just and like making just saying crazy things and you know so and sometimes when people that's like a there's power in words there's that's why witchcraft is also known as like you know gossip, slander, smear campaigns that's or using words to to harm and stuff like that. Words can use be words can harm words can heal and words do hurt. That's why the psychological
operations they they say, "Oh, we make wounds that you can't see because the you can ruin somebody's mind." You can like beat somebody down so much they don't feel like you either you're going out of the house or talking to anybody or or they have no sense of self-confidence and uh they're just they're just based on what people can say, right? And so it's like we want to we want to be
I'm getting messed. Hold
on. Okay. Well, the person is send me the text message. I know I know you're watching and stuff. And I wasn't trying to make any accusations or I I I I I I wasn't trying to lie on you. I was just saying I was saying I all I was doing I heard I heard the story that you porn bombed I don't know what's going I don't know what's going on. So So I Yeah. So I don't I don't want to bring any more into it.
Um yeah. What are you doing Michael? You're you're uh um yeah I'm about to get off cuz um my girlfriend with the garage just talking about earlier. So well thank you very much for being on. No problem man. anytime, man. You know, I'm always on here. Even though people hate
me, but you know, I'm always here for you. That's that's all that's all that's all that matters. So, thank you. Well, have a nice day. I hope you organize the garage. I talk to you later. All right, man. See you. Take it easy. Bye. You
too. So, D. Hi. It's you and me now. What's up? What are you doing? How are you? Uh, just this game's pissing me off. When did you Oh, the game's pissing me off. When When was When did you cut your hair? Cuz you sent me a picture. You have long hair in it.
If you uh asked me like about that a long time ago, I could have told you that was a fake p. That That's not real. A fake picture. That's not real. somebody just saying uh you know how your picture you know
how you make how somebody else may make maybe look. Oh it's like an AI kind of thing. Yeah. You can't tell it's a fake picture. Let me look at it again. Hold on. Yeah. My hair's uh not even that color is dark brown.
But have you ever had your hair like that? You're making your rounds for for legs and copy this morning. You could tell like you can even look at the beard of it. Like it looks like a kind of like a fake photo. I don't know if it was him or if it was AI. It was really
Yeah. You look you look pretty good. Have you ever had your hair like that or No. Nah. No, you haven't. I mean, I've grown my hair long, but it doesn't look like that. It looks nothing like that. It looked very 70s. I look like Yeah. like Jesus or
uh what was that place called? Uh what place? What? What? You look like a Charles Manson or something? Oh, that uh place where all the uh big artists like and stuff. Woodto Oh, you look Yeah, you look like you're from
Woodstock. It looks very 70s. Yeah, it does look like 70s. Yeah. Where's Trixs? Where's Kitty Cats? Lenor, come here. Come sit. Want to come sit. Get under the blanket. I don't know how long I'm I don't know how much longer I'll be on, but I'll probably be on later today if I get might get a I might get a manicure if all goes right today. If all goes right, I will I may be able to film it
or something. My nails are getting kind of long. No wonder they get kind of kind of groy, but I apologize, you know, for that, guys. I'm going to try to try to do better, you know. Um, but I'm having having a good time, guys. I know it's unfortunate like there's been some some fallouts occasionally, but you know, I don't have
hate in my heart for anybody. I just like I just want to get along, make up, be friends, hang out, just have fun. I I I love that. I don't like I don't like conflict. I'm uncomfortable with it. I I didn't grow up around too much conflict. My you know, my and some people that was normal for them. And so it's like but it's not it's not it's not normal for
me. I'm sensitive to it. And uh that I have to I'm also like can detach myself a little bit and not get too emotional about things. Um because you know I I believe that you know things can always change for the better. So yeah guys so how are you doing?
Anybody want to else want to come on the Anyone else want to come on the panel? I got my I'll get the link up. I don't know if I ever pinned it. Here we go. You're welcome up here if you want to chat. Otherwise I'll probably be wrapping it up pretty soon. But come on babe. Oh there there's tricks. Come on. He ran in. You heard me calling? You heard me calling? Trixs, come on. Come on. Come over
here. I love cuddling with Trixs. He's like a little cuddler. If he goes under the covers and he just starts purring and then I and he and I just like I just like hold him in my arms and and fall asleep and some and I I'll usually wake up and he's still the same. It's like still the same position. Hey, come on. Come on. You're my babe. You're my babe. He's coming up there. He's walking up
there. You can see him. There he goes. Hi. Hey, what are you doing, Trix? Trixie, he's a little He's a sweet He's a sweethearted cat. Lenor's a sweethearted cat. My cats are sweethearts. They're They're good cats. I'm very lucky. I'm very blessed. And uh yeah, I hope all you guys are having a great day. Happy Wednesday. Hopefully, it will be a great day for all of us.
And uh I wish I wish everyone a lot of happiness. Please, everyone, you can stop by. You can stop up. I know it's like a little it's a little bit quiet in here right now. Maybe maybe everyone's turned against me, but you know, I know I know there's there's the chat's kind of quiet, but uh I do, you know, they want to see what I'm gonna say or do next, right? But I'm just I'm chill. I'm
happy. I'm doing better. I've taken a lot of the advice to heart, you know, about, you know, slowing down a little bit and, you know, taking better care of myself. And so, I'm trying to do better, you know. So, I appreciate everybody that, you know, supported me and, you know, forgiven me for any mistakes I've made and, you know, giving me another
chance. And I appreciate you guys and just thanks for sticking by me. You know, a lot of people have not. And, uh, so I do notice the people that that do stay with me because I have a lot of people that just kind of just, you know, discard. That's like a thing. I don't I I don't discard people cuz people are not like trash, you know. It's like And so I'm always my door will always be open. My um I'll always be I'll always
be what who's this guy? Caveman rocking this what? I don't have bloody lip scale. What do I do? I no he calls me caveman. Oh my Hold on. It's resin on my lips. Hold on there. It's resin. It's not scabs.
Yeah. It's that smoking too much resin. Tobacco. Okay. Yeah, I spoke, too. You do? Yeah. That was just a little mine up. Like, I'll scrape my uh bowl and, you know, save it up for whatever I know I'm going to be out and eat it.
Yeah. And and it's like the caveman caveman is not really an insult to me because I think the cavemen were like actually like the first people that were like oh smart enough to go inside inside caves to get out of the weather, you know, the sun, the rain, the you know and have have a nice shelter, you know, basically using using the natural thing. I think uh so you know I don't
necessarily think Neanderthalss were the it's not an insult. It's just my name now. It's caveman. I really like it. I think it's cuz I have this this thing on my forehead, but that's my dad had that, too. It's kind of a distinctive um eyebrow arch. And so, and I also have this little dent there, but I also had my nose fixed. I'm not I'm not too much of a caveman. It's like just my name. That's not an insult. It's just my name.
Okay, whatever. I have a lot of names. My name You can call me Psyche. You can call me You can call me John. You can call me whatever you want to call me. You can call me Tarot, Mr. Tarot. You can call me Awakens. You can call me anything you want, but just call me psych. Call me. Yeah, you call me
psych. You call me physique. Yeah. Hey, babe. Come here. Come on. Come on over here. Hi. Come on. Want to cuddle under the covers with me? Yeah. You do? Said, "Yeah." And you say, "Yeah." Go under. Go under. No. Come
on. Where is under? You're under. Oh, he's sitting down. You want to sit down? Oh, you're here. Go ahead. He's right here. He's right here. What do you got planned for the day? Just, you know, you playing your game or
anything planned for the week or anything? You woke up from and beat his mad. Uh, beat his mad. What happened? I don't I don't know. Yesterday, you're going have to ask her. And she's Apparently, I'm just the worst person in the world. Why was she? I don't know. I don't know. She She was She she had a lot of a lot of reasons that I don't necessarily agree with. You know, I understand like we have a
different person's opinion. We should be able to talk through talk through things, but she uh she was pretty said some pretty bad like hurtful things. But, you know, I'm not that hurt cuz I understand people are you know, people Yeah. I I hope I know and it's like, you know, sometimes when you wake up the next day, you're like, "What happened?" You know, like what happened? Like I I'll wake up and I'll be like, "What happened last night?" And I won't
sometimes I won't remember. That's why I had to kind of slow down on drinking. Like I used to drink a lot of vodka like last year. I haven't woke up the next day and I had to go watch and then I saw that clip of it. Yeah. Sometimes sometimes we'll say when we get drunk we like you know a different side of us will come out and it's like some people think oh that's
our true self. I don't think it's our true self. I think it's like you know it's almost it can be almost like you know our our lower self sometimes that comes out and we can you know whatever it amplifies whatever emotion you're feeling will amplify and so you know and and you know so just I have to I just try to like you know moderate my drinking a little bit and you know just have a couple be like last night I had
two beers that was perfect I just had a couple beers you know had my Starbucks this morning and it's like and then you know so yeah I I I got I I get in my emotions too sometimes when drinking and it's like uh well I'm not I'm not you know but it's like I basically I I get defensive sometimes. How's my morning going? It's good. It's good. I mean it's
it's other other than that you know just people being mad at me and you know people being being mean to me and I'm I'm shorting out a little bit. I just have some people you know some some people just are just very negative or or or you know say horrible things. I'm I don't do I don't I don't do things to people like I I mean drank on your show
uh well the first time I joined. Yeah. Yeah. After that because everybody hated me. I don't know why. Oh, I don't think I don't think everyone hated you. But it's like I mean this is kind of like people hated me even like you know when I came back or Well, if they if people
hate you first they know I that I was on camera you know ugly. You're you're you're being you're being rude ugly. Do I identify as caveman as the bearded lady? I I don't Yeah. So I don't I'm not a bearded I'm not a beard I'm not I'm not the most masculine person in the world. I'm not
the most feminine. I I think I'm pretty balanced in my in my my gender. I'm both I was born of a male female. I have a good feminine influence and good feminine influences. I have good masculine influences in my life. So I have a I have a balance. And so I'm not going to be masculine enough for some people. I'm not going to be feminine for some people. You female. Is that really what you just said?
No, I was born of a female. I was, you know, we're all we're all born male from a male and a female, right? No, I'm not her mapper. I'm saying that I'm well I'm saying internally I have like my my my right side of my brain which is like the feminine side and the left side of the brain which is more the masculine. The the right side deals with emotions and things like that. The left
side deals with logic and so I have like I think I have a good mix of both. Like some people are like on more the emotional side and one brain and it's kind of like but that's kind of an imbalance sometimes. makes the ladies drip. Yeah, ladies like a masculine guy, you know, but it's like I you know, I'm since I'm since I'm gay,
I actually I can be encouraged to examine my my uh my feminist side. It's good to not have only half a brain, right? So, I mean, it's like everyone have I mean, it's like I'm not saying people have half brain. I'm saying that they some they overemphasize sometimes one over the other logic or emotion. And so, it's like there's ultra masculine people, there's ultra feminine people. But in the end, it's better to have a
balance of both, I think, because you can like, you know, you're not so ruled. If you're ruled by your emotions, you get into your, you know, you know, you um you don't think logically. And if you deal with it all in logic, you can be very cold and unemotional. So, you try to be massive to not scare people, but your balls are too humongous. Yeah.
Well, you know, let's let's shout out to guys with the big balls, you know. But uh how big are your balls, Zhi? Uh I don't know how to compare them. I mean, you don't know how to compare? Are they Are they Are they like oranges? Like oranges? No. No, that's too big. Like like
nectarines, like cubquats. What the hell? Like like cherries or grapes? Your balls are oranges, bro. No, my balls are Maybe maybe just one orange. normal. I I would say there was like Oh my gosh. Maybe there's to the South Park. There's a South Park where like Randy like they open like a um a
dispensary in the town. That one. And so Yeah. And so um he goes to this. Yeah. Yes. You like that grapefruit, Oliver? You got you got a big ruby red grapefruit. Yeah. But he then he decides to uh he needs he decides he wants to like um get medical marijuana. So, so it' be this card. So, he starts
microwaving his balls and then his and then all then all the men's balls grow to a huge enormous size and it's like but it's like yeah it's maybe not the best old people love I love grapefruit too. Grapefruit is one of my favorite um juices. I I love I love a nice u a ruby red grapefruit juice or I like a like a I like a good pulpy orange juice. I love
watermelon juice. I love I love I love basically natural juices. I don't like the um the fake the fake stuff. I like kombucha. Some kombucha. It's kind of refreshing. You ever try
kombucha? Have you heard of it? Kombucha. You're kind of cutting in and out. Hold on one second. Let me fix your
mic. Is that better? Hold on. It's a little better. Hold on. Oh, there we go. Or who's are both grapefruit is for old and gay? Oh, yeah. Old gay man. Isn't there there's a saying there's nothing sadder than an old queen. So, but there's not there's not that many though because like an old queen old queens us, you know, queens
sometimes have a shorter lifespan. So, I'd like to live to be an old queen or whatever. What's the best fruit do I think? I like strawberries. I love strawberries watermelon grapefruit of course. Um I like the I like kind of um sour fruits. I like uh you know like a good
beef steak tomato, which is a fruit, right? Um I like avocados, which is a fruit. Um and so yeah, I like a good good uh so I go with pineapple. I love pineapple. I like coconut juice, coconut
milk. Okay, watermelon. I'll vote to watermelon nuts, too. I'll give vote to water. So, you like watermelon, too? Oh, yeah. Watermelon. I love uh I love There's actually at Whole Foods, they have this juice. It's like 100% watermelon juice. It's so tasty. It's It's very refreshing. It's kind of expensive, though. I I don't really get it that often. It's like $8 a bottle of it, but uh pretty tasty. Hey, Sh. Come on. this point put
yours well the focus on which is the best but no I really like I really like like I like a nice p like a nice sour pineapple you know like pineapple's like really like juicy and I like like fruit salads you know so fruit salads have a lot of different fruits in it so I'd say watermelon's my probably watermelon's one of my favorites but I see grapefruit
too and u like apples are yours is the apple mine's not like I like a good um a good I like more sour apple like the green apples. I like the taste of green. I can't I don't really like the Granny Smith. I like the the green apples cuz they're a little bit more sour and tangy. What a mango. Mango's good. A
nice sliced mango. Yeah. Very good. Very tasty. Um I like some of the like the you know these the uh the a those Asians have like different kinds of fruits. Like there's fruits that we've never even heard of and without the mango. I know. Well, mangoes. I like a I like a nice mango juice, but it's not really my favorite fruit, I would say. Um, but
it's tasty. It's tasty. I like a nice mango with like I don't know. What do you put on mango? Oh, I like lemons, but I like more lemonade. Like, you know what? Hybrid fruit's like plu. What is pla? I've never heard of plu. Plum is a plum and tomato or something. Do you remember the Simpsons? They had something called tobacco and it was like it was actually like it was like on the
show they invented it. It was like a crossbreed of tobacco and tomatoes, but they actually were able to do that later and they grew they can grow tomatoes with grow with tobacco inside of it. You can get like a nicotine high on these tomatoes. Interesting. There's also these also there's also um goats that they they crossbred the go the DNA of a
spider with a goat these certain spiders and the goat's milk was like they could spin it into a thread and it's like the strongest thread in like the world. You can look up um look up look up um spider goats on YouTube. Very interesting. They they actually like crossbread the DNA of a spider and a goat and and the goats will now like their their milk you can spin into like the very very strong
silk interesting hybrids. I know not on goat I'm on goats now. Right. But I like goats milk too. What kind of milks do you like? I like goats milk but I goats milk is a little bit uh I like more goat cheese. I love goats cheese. I love a good cold glass of cow milk. Um I I'm not really into like the the
rice milk or the um the um what kind what other kinds of milk? Rice milk or uh watermelon's a top tier. What before what's below that? So what's below that? I would say grape the grapefruit. The citrus fruits, le oranges, lemons, and uh and h grapefruits, I would say, is the next tier down as my
favorite. I like sour. I like sour a lot. I like strawberries and straw like a strawberries. I love strawberries. I love a good strawberry. A grapple. I've never had a grape a grapple. Is that grape and apple? Yeah. So, it's 8:30. I wonder what time this I think I time the liquor store opens cuz I'm out of I'm out of tobacco. I don't want to keep scraping
off the table. Maybe I'll go Let me check one thing. I'll be right back,
guys. Okay, I'm back. I'm back. It's like a grape and an apple bang in your mouth. Sounds good. grapple. Yeah. So hopefully it'll be a good day, guys. I think I think it will
be a good day. I think it will be a good day. Every there's always there's always a calm after every storm and then it's like and then, you know, it's good to like people, you know, take a deep breath. They're going to disconnect your energy from other energy because I'm sensitive to I'm very sensitive to to negativity. I can read you about my birthday. Hold on.
There's a book you can actually go to this website guys and uh it will tell you your birthday. You put in your birthday and um it will tell you all the astrology about your birthday. And so I have January 7th. Oh, sorry. Okay. Um it's called secret language.
secret language of birthdays. Okay, so it says for my birthday it says uh me find if I find the website. Hey
baby, it said well here's a different one. It says this is it says January. Okay, so it says my birthday is it says horoscope of the philosopher. I'll just say I'm Capricorn. Okay, says my greatest challenge is to stop worrying about what people might think. Wow, isn't that true? That's my biggest challenge. What people might think, right? The way forward is to realize that what others think is their concern, not yours. I'm drawn to people born
between February 20th to March 20th. You share an intuitive knowledge of the present and a tolerance for the past, making this uh a loving and creative relationship. It says, "Luck maker." It says, "Hang out with happy people. Seek the company of people who make you feel good about yourself, not people who drag you down. While those born on my day give the impression of being serious and intense, they are irresistibly drawn to
anything different, strange, and unfamiliar. They have a strong sense of duty and responsibility, but secretly dream of living an unconventional life in which they can follow their own rules. This is this is so right on, guys. Says, "Mentually, those born in this day are both logical and intuitive, which makes them unique." Remember I was just saying like the logic and emotion like the that they are artist with a scientific mind or scientist with an
intuitive flare. They have an instinctive gift of being able to sense the moods of other people and despite their apparent distance from a situation, they can often understand more about what is going on around them than anyone else. Their nature is also highly sensitive. They find it hard to switch off from the suffering and injustices of the world. As a result, they frequently become involved in charity work or generously give their time for the benefit of others. Because
they can tune in so quickly to what's going on around them, they are always in danger of absorbing negativity from others. Seeking out situations and people that are positive and steady. Are you are NY? Seeking out situations and people that are positive and steady and avoiding the negative are therefore important. It says they are dreamers but they rarely let their themselves get carried away. As a result, their
occasionally tendency to drift off into a world of their own can make them feel lonely and cut off from everything and everyone around them. They often have a real sense of connection and the natural world and a fas an extraordinary imagination. Fascination with the mystical with unexplained phenomena in the afterlife is common especially after the age of 44 which is my age sometimes sooner. Although fear of being criticized or thought weird may prevent
them from pursuing their interests. It is extremely important for those born on the state to develop their self-confidence and to accept the opinions that the accept accept that the opinions of others although valuable are not final. In this way, they will be able to let go of their frustration and find the freedom of expression that is so crucial to their happiness and fulfillment. It says on the dark side,
isolated, intense, dreamy, at my best, unusual intuitive generous. Okay, it says those life path of those born in this day is to learn to have faith in themselves. Once they can do that, their destiny is to share their talent with the world by crossing boundaries, healing differences, and uniting opposites. It says power
thought. I am good enough just the way I am. Okay, that was really good. I like that. Uh this is from uh this best zodiac signs.tumblr.com. I'm being I'm getting raw dragged by the algorithm. You did you did add
Oliver. You just boosted me. It just boosted me 100,000%. Oh, you push buttons. Thank you. I'm getting raw dragged by the al. I don't know. Let's see. Let's see if it works.
I'm kind of freaked out that it says, you know, this if I got this this burn I got it looks like it says lith and it's like if you know about succubus like the queen of the succubus is Lilith and it says lith. That's kind of creepy. But that was written on my arm like in a burn. I have no recollection of how I got. This is weird. This is
weird. So what do you think guys? Well, is the algorithm going to do better? We'll see. It's been 3 hours. It's just 20. Oh, it's going down. People are leaving. I think the other people might be on right now, but I think it's going to be a good day, guys. What is Sig doing?
I'm on Rumble. I think I've shared it with you. It's same username as written in my name. Yeah. Got to say, I'd rather be drunk if I'm being wild by a bear. I don't know. I guess. I don't know. I don't think there's any good way to get mauled by a bear. All right. Okay. Well, so Signal 66. Well, I wrestled bear once. That's actually that's
actually never banned. I know. Well, he comes up on YouTube, too. Okay. He he joins on uh he joined. Yeah, I'm rereaming this. He joins on Good Times all the time. I think he used to be a mod on Good Times. You're familiar? Well, I don't know. I don't think he's talking to me. Hold talk. Hold on. Are you talk? Oh, what's up? Maybe are you
talking to me or Redemption 2 later, guys? No. No. He He's talking to his own stream. He's He's doing his own thing. Oh god. I'm getting I don't know what's happen. I'm getting robbed dog by the algorithm. Is that Is that Is that Yeah, I don't know. I don't know. I don't know why my algorithm is off today, but that's why I, you know, people don't like a lot of people that
are not content creators do not understand how the algorithm algorithm work. I was talking about you. They don't understand how the algorithm work for it's like I've seen Benny like Benny would have like a 100 people in his chat when he started and then he kept saying the n-word over and I was like, Benny, stop saying it. And he kept saying it over and over and eventually he got shadowbanned just because what's up Prairie Ghost Ken? He got shadowbanned
and then now he has like 10 people in his chat or less. Also, he also has his mods like he did his mods like uh where he was this one particular mod like hi to everybody even his donators his um his people in the I'm I'm blocked on a couple of my or a couple of my accounts he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. People just try to start trouble saying oh you're taking advantage of this he's they called him like He's not
He's a very very smart person. He's uh he's interviewed me before and he was a very professional and easy to talk to and nice and he's one of the first YouTubers I would watch regularly. He helped me he helped promote my channel. I asked him once I asked him recently kind of ingest. I was like hey can you can you give me a shout out? He's like I've already shouted you out enough like he was like so he's not
like a big fan of me anymore I don't think. But I never did anything wrong. I never I never even um I never I didn't I did not uh do anything to Benny. I was always I was always I I promoted him a lot actually on my my channel when I started. But um and I know a lot of people from um from his channel, but
he's not a big fan of me anymore. So it's okay. It is what it is, right? So I get so annoyed when people say that. Oh, look. My my it's going up. My my numbers are going up. So we've been here for three hours. Guys, if you feel like coming on the panel, you can come on the panel. I'm just chilling,
laying back, sitting back with my kitty cats. Benny and the
jetsa. Yeah. Hopefully you guys are having a fun day. Let's see what happens here. Want to come up? Come down, Trix. Trix likes he likes to sit on this pile of catnip. Want to come cuddle with me? Green cuddle since Dehi doesn't want to cuddle with me. He'd rather cuddle with Ice
Poseidon. That's the noise you're going to make when I meet you. You like that cat? This is a cool cat. Come on down. Come on, Trix. Hi. Hi, babe. Yeah, Trix is a sweetheart. He's a sweetheart. He was born last year, but he was born on on March 3.14, March
14th, which is Pi Day. So, hi babe. You're such a good cat. He's beautiful. He's the only He's the He's the one He's the one remaining cat from that litter that I have, which is kind of sad in a way, but you know, there I hope all the cats are all doing okay out there. You know, there are coyotes in my
area. I kind of He's a handsome little fellow. He's a very sweet cat. You're sweet. You're a sweethearted cat. You're sweethearted. Good. It's a very handsome little fellow. Oh. Oh, you come under the covers here. Go under the covers with me. Come under the covers. Do you mind sharing what day in January? Oh, yeah.
January 7th. I'm January 7th. January 7th. So, Capricorn, I don't want to share my birthday. I've already I've said it enough. I'm completely doxed anyway. So, I' I've don't mind sharing. Hey, babe. Hey,
babe. I love you. I love you. Hi, friendly. Hello. Hello. Hello. Why not? Oh, you're third. Oh, awesome. Yeah. And we're right around like, you know, the beginning of January is like, you know, right there. Like, I think we're right around like Marilyn Manson is right around I think he's January
5th. And I know Elvis is January 8th. David Bowie I think is January 8th. Um Nicholas Cage is January 7th. Like you know the same birthday. And think about celebrities guys. Celebrities are all docks. I know they have more security. But think about how many more people they have that insane stalkers they might have or people that try to mess with them. And so you know it's possible to be protected in this world even if
your information is out there. You know all that's what Alisa told me. She's like she's like you know what? All celebrities are already doxed. And so I know I'm not a celebrity, but I'm a I'm kind of like, you know, a little bit well known in some communities on YouTube now. And I'm uh have an interesting time. Anybody want to come on the panel? I don't know if I let me see if I can pin my
link. If anyone wants to uh anyone wants me to like read about their life path number or if they want me to read about their uh their birthday or something, you can let me know. I can I can tell you something about that. Um, if you want to ask about astrology, if you want to come on the panel, I'll try to try to pin my link. Otherwise, I'm probably going to
take a nap until I'll wake up and the store will open. I'll see. Maybe I'll get a maybe I'll get a a manicure today. I do need probably need one. I like to have Okay. So, I know what's going Okay, so like a lot of I just see there's people on right now streaming right now that we have kind of similar
audiences and so I appreciate everyone being here. I I don't I don't I don't want to like I said, I don't like to go talk about other people and stuff. I don't want to and I don't like to go on other shows and like tell people what to do and stuff. So So I uh try my best. Let's see. Oh. Oh wow. I see. Okay, I'll try to pin my link though
channel see live. I'll keep going guys. I will keep going. Trying my best. There we go. Look at my link pinned. Let me
see there.
Uh yeah, guys, can you go ahead and hit the like for me too, guys? You know, four likes. Let me see. There we go. Oh, it's already pinned. Okay. Well, I guess I'm going to check out something
else. And so, I'll be back um later today. Maybe I'll get a a manicure on stream if everything goes right. I love you guys. Thank you, Dehi. Thank you. Thank you, Sig. Thank you, Michael. Thank you, everyone that's been on. I will be back. Okay. I love you. I'll see you later. See you.
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