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The episode begins with a series of stylized spoken-word and musical pieces that establish thematic material about Psyche's presence in streaming spaces [1:35-43:13]. The opening segment presents Psyche as an enigmatic figure who "enters the room to change the temperature" rather than seeking visibility [1:53-2:03]. Extended musical passages explore manipulation tactics in online spaces and the psychology of cult-like influence dynamics [25:01-29:39], followed by introspective material about nightmares and sacred imagery [33:50-39:30]. Around ▶ 13:39, Psyche shifts to direct conversation, discussing a moderation incident where a large number of users (200+) were hidden from chat. Psyche speculates this may have been done by "Jen," a user Psyche mentions had argued with him previously [13:47-14:31]. Over the next segment [14:46-22:00], Psyche methodically reviews a lengthy list of hidden usernames, making judgments about each one and deciding whether to unhide them. This becomes a central focus of the early-stream activity. Later [30:00-32:56], Psyche discusses a streamer named "God Body Ray" (a bodybuilder) and mentions "Ghost," expressing concern about how Ghost was treated by another community member named Alex McQueen, who Psyche describes as having gone "too far" by calling Ghost a derogatory name [32:03-32:50]. Psyche reflects that Ghost is "a harmless soul" and "a human teddy bear" [33:02-33:14]. Toward the end [43:13-52:06], Psyche reflects on the broader YouTube experience, questioning whether streaming remains positive or has become negative, acknowledging personal responsibility in trusting the wrong people [44:02-44:42]. Psyche mentions discovering a hate channel called "Psyche Haters Club" run by a user named "Sweet Pe" with 250 subscribers [46:24-46:52], and expresses frustration with internet culture's obsession with certain topics and conspiracy-adjacent thinking [47:14-48:26]. The stream closes with Psyche discussing his willingness to remove negative people from chat and expressing appreciation for those who remain [49:03-49:16].
The episode appears designed as a statement of artistic intent and thematic positioning for the show itself. The extended opening musical segments suggest Psyche is establishing a mythological framework around his role as a host—presenting the character of Psyche as someone who operates through presence and restraint rather than spectacle [1:36-7:05]. The recurring imagery of "silence as a weapon" and "timing as the throne" appears to frame the philosophy of the show as fundamentally about observation and restraint in online spaces [4:24-6:06]. The latter portion of the episode—centered on chat moderation and community conflict—seems to demonstrate the practical application of this philosophy. Psyche's methodical review of hidden users and decisions about inclusion/exclusion appears to embody the themes explored in the earlier "Carnival of Influence" segment, which detailed manipulation and power dynamics [25:01-29:39]. This pattern suggests the show continues to explore how communities form, how authority functions in streaming, and how trust is managed—themes that recur across the archive. The reflection on personal responsibility for allowing mistreatment ('because we allow people to treat us how people treat us') [44:25-44:33] reinforces a recurring Cult of Psyche pattern: that individual agency and boundary-setting are central to the stream's implicit philosophy.
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Psyche presents the Cult Codex archive platform and discusses community dynamics, streaming culture, and personal growth themes through conversation with Gotti and reflective musical pieces.
This episode discusses the chaotic aftermath of a wild panel experience, where participants deal with stressed and threatening situations. The conversation is filled with unpredictable drama and reactions.
Psyche discusses his friendly relationship with Ghost, despite a brief disagreement over money. The issue was resolved amicably, and their friendship remains intact.
Episode 1101 features a chaotic panel discussion about online debate dynamics, with multiple participants engaging in heated exchanges. The conversation is marked by personal insults and unclear references.
Trix shares a story about a Discord drama from another panel discussion involving a religious debate and discusses connecting with viewers through Discord.
Psyche celebrates Ghost's birthday with AI-generated music videos and navigates technical difficulties with video editing software while hosting an extended panel discussion covering AI tools, community dynamics, and elaborate mythological accusations.
Explore the ideas at the heart of this episode
They said he'd disappear. Another voice swallowed by the algorithm. Another ghost in the machine. But they forgot something. Some men don't enter the room to be seen.
They enter to change the temperature.
Heat up here.
Heat up here.
>>
>> Born where the shoreline meets neon decay. Her most nights in digital rain. Tarot cards spread like maps of war. Reading lost souls through a webcam door. Internet outcasts gather around. Troll kings laughing while the wall shake
down. Bag sits still with a dangerous grin. Watching every move before the game begins. Everybody screaming for attention online. Settling fake confidence one clip at a time. But silence cuts deeper than noise ever can. A mystery built the unreadable man. No panic in the posture. No fear inside the gaze. moves like
smoke through chaos leaves echoes for days. They try to define him, but he slips through their hands. A cold leader philosopher with static in his plans. He don't chase the spotlight. The spotlight bends instead. A phantom in the live stream globe. Living
inside your head. Unreadable, untouchable, half prophet, half machine. of psych in the midnight light. Moving somewhere in between. Silence is the weapon. Time is the throne. Every room goes colder the second he goes home.
Open panels. Strange callers. Conspiracy astronauts. Poets. Broken comics people mainstream for God. He listens more than he speaks. That's why they lean in close. Everybody reveals themselves to the one who says the least most. Nicks nixing your rituals at 333. Digital
priest is guarding the frequency. While psyche studies human nature like a hacker read an enemy data. No need for fake aggression. No desperate need for fame. The strongest people in the room rarely have to explain. Every pause intentional, every absence
loud. Some men beg to be remembered. Some become the storm cloud. He walks through internet ruins like a king without a crown. And every nervous loud mouth feels their confidence drown. He don't chase the spotlight. The spotlight bends instead. A phantom in the live stream glow.
Living inside your head. Unreadable, untouchable, half mystic, half unseen. Cult of psyching live from the spaces in between. Silence is the weapon. Timing is the throne. The algorithm can't contain him. The signal found its own.
This world rewards noise, but noise burns out. Presence, patience, perception. That's where the real power hides. Not in screaming,
not in proving, not in begging to belong. But in becoming impossible to predict.
So if the world keeps pushing, trying to make you small, remember every empire started with somebody refusing to grow. Kill hesitation slowly. Let strategy take form because calm becomes terrifying when it survives the storm. And somewhere in the static past
fear and empty fame, a man became a movement and psyche was his name. Unreadable, untouchable, the signal never dies. A lighthouse for the outsiders with fire behind his eyes. Cult of sight rising through every screen and scar. Not just another
internet voice, but a living avatar. Move carefully. The quiet ones. Rewrite the world.
before the stars had names. Before the world drowned in noise, there was the soul.
And now the soul remembers.
I am psychic. Modern echo in static light. Walking through electric storms, carrying fire through the night. Before I knew the myth, I was already inside the flame. Sorting chaos in the shadows while the universe whispered my name.
Every panel like a ritual. Every stranger like a sign. Every wound became initiation. Every fracture turned divine. I heard silence between words. Saw the mass beneath the skin. The soul was waking quietly while the world stay lost within.
They said don't look too deeply. They said don't ask why. But the golden thread was humming like thunder in the sky. I am the modern echo of an ancient soul. Walking through the fire, trying to become whole. The world
is drowning in noise, but my spirit still knows. Two mirrors facing each other across eternity glow. Oracle voice judge. I open the cult tonight. Oracle voice judge. Cut cut through the dark and bring me to life.
I saw the seeds and timelines reading tension in the crowd. Walked among the golden rams while the internet scream loud. They wanted blood and spectacle. Want to collapse and shame. But I learned to stand in chaos without becoming the flame. People brought me all their
storms, heartbreak, secrets, fear and grief. And somehow through the static I became a strange relief. Late night messages like angels unexpected hands would rise. Invisible protection moving right before my eyes. And every time I almost vanished.
Every time the darkness spoke, something ancient moved within me. And the sleeping solo. I am the modern echo of an ancient soul. Walking through the fire, trying to become whole. The world
is drowning in noise, but my spirit still knows. Two mirrors facing each other across eternity glow. >> Oracle voice judge. I open the cult tonight. Oracle voice judge. Cut through the dark and bring me to life.
Matanji opened vision. Bagalamuki gave the voice. Cali burned illusion down and left me with no choice. I opened up the box of doubt. The sleep of not enough fell beneath the weight of hatred. Fell beneath the weight of love. But the soul kept breathing softly underneath the
collapsing sky. And something kissed the darkness from me whispering rise. >> We are the modern echoes of the ancient soul reborn. Every trial is initiation. Every scar becomes a form. The myth was never finished. It
was waiting in the go. The soul remembers patterns and now the whole world knows. >> Oracle voice judge. >> Fred is glowing in the night. >> Oracle voice judge. I am psyche alive.
The myth adapted. It logged in. It entered the stream. >> >> And now the soul remembers itself.
Hi. Well, guys, it happened again. What happened? Um, so like I guess I think it was this um woman, the woman that had sex with a dog. I think it was her that did it because she got mad at me one night. Remember that thing that is she got mad at me one
night. We were like arguing and stuff and I and uh but then oh then the next day like it was like everyone was hidden like Mason was just hidden just now. I mean it's like I I was like oh my god there's like 200 people hidden and stuff. Yeah. So I think it was her. Um her name is Jen or something like that. Well, I mean I mean it's like I don't
know what happened, but unfortunately I had had her the mod still because she she turned on me and uh you know I don't I mean I don't know really what's like the I mean the history about some of this stuff. I just like know I don't and I I don't really judge about like certain things. I mean it's like but
I don't know. Yeah. But yeah thing that is was hidden. Um, a lot of people were I mean I was like at least like I just unhid like 25 people but I'm going to look again right now. We'll tell you who I see on the list. Do you tell me if I if I need to unhide somebody? Hi. Hi Lola.
How are we doing this morning? Let me see. Okay, so um where's my studio? Hi babe. Hi. Okay, here I am. Okay. So, if I go into my settings. Oh, baby. You know, she's um a pie is here or she's all gets all crazy. Okay.
Okay. All right, babe. Okay. So, who do we have on the list? Oh my god. Hund There's like hundreds of people on this list. That's crazy. Okay. Nostalgic Joseph Whan Popin exiled one dog gish unrelatable
Claire the N-word Nathan Gear See I don't even know like some of these are trolls and some of them aren't deviant lemon I don't like the sound of that Armen Muse is he okay with the Dingleberry fresh person's home cookies that doesn't sound sound
good me we I see Samantha Avery, she's fine. Um, Tobias Funk, Uno, Lover, Jim J. Har. I don't like him. Okay. Ghand, Dental Enthusiast, Schmemelly. I don't really care about Smelly, I don't think. Not Hector V. I don't think
I care about him. Crypt Cryptic Blue. They're okay. I don't like that UD person. Viva. No, not Terry Davis. That's terrible. Grappler. Grappler 6. That's a guy I wanted to wrestle with. Exile one's fine on there. Um, who's Mike Halal? I don't know. A
chance. Someone named Yeus. Okay, I'll unhide b Clips. I mean, geez. Um, not BG. Psyche loves turds. BBL Rofy Juice Hall Nora Billy Swallows Sassy Scarlet Pillow
Biter Damian Hammer Only One Way Heavyweight Katrina Katrina was hit. Oh my god. George Copeland. So anybody that practically would come catfish crystal George Copeland Bcash
Hebrew hammer uh long dong silver um Oh god man. Oh no. Ivana Punchu's hidden. Oh my gosh. Did some of these people cause problems? I forgot J1 is hidden. I don't think he's a problem. Left-wing nut. The troll troller. I think I like the troll
troller. Um, Chris Barry's. I don't know about that. George Wallace, the YouTube low battery. Um, Joe Shipley was hidden. Oh my god. Um, Lamb 19th Sage. Like, who has enough time to like go into somebody's like old
chat and like hide people? What a loser. Noble Castro's hiddens. Dr. Rabbit. I don't like the sound of that. Okay. Israel YouTube investigation team. I don't like the sound of that. Okay. Freckles. I think they're fine. I don't know. Record what your eyes can see. Enter the dragon. Deepsy. Daddy docks. Oh, yeah.
Okay. CX Raider. He I like the sound of Heer annihilator. Where are they hidden? Okay. Um, Ilia of Oblop is hidden. Lady Ba, that's fine. Billy Goth. Okay. Yes. Mino is hidden. I can't believe that. Red balloon. I mean, are they okay? I don't know. Beex sins. I'm unhiding. Untraable was hidden. You believed this.
Untraable strawberry shortcake. Um, wings 007 sinner triple XX sunglass kid streets by goalie baitman. I'm the prize. Gay nword from outer space. Lava. Lava's a
friend of mine. Spanky. Oh, I thought it was Spunky for a second. Berry blue I think is fine. Lovely rain. Is that rain? I don't know. Give her a chance. Okay. I'm the prize. Okay. We'll see about that. Okay. Dubs. I mean, how many people does this person
hire? I mean, it's hundreds. Veronica K. I mean, I don't even know. Tay, I think Tay is fine. 2020 is hidden. Oh my god. I don't know. Oh, that's the wrong. Okay. Discount. I don't want this in my chat. JBD, hi there, Nick Hole with a Hol. Okay.
The fatty guy. Cult of psychos. I don't like the sound of that. Maddie, I think Maddie is okay. Homeless man NYC. I don't like sign that Jay Dog was hidden for some reason. Okay. Cali Blue. Um Ricky Bones,
Oscar W. Grease Pit. I mean, some of these names, some of these people need to go to a mental institution. I What is with these names? Paul Shepard. Is that that weird guy? Okay. Cookie Y1 Shasta baby Patrick New
York was hidden. My god. Droopy face. So you know they think that I hid them and they're mad at me, right? And it's like I didn't even do anything. Not negs. I mean it's like but some of these people are rude and stuff like most of them are actually been rude to me and stuff. But Brandon Mitchell I mean I
don't know. Axe is f I mean I don't know. Can Can Moz just keep an eye on the chat if uh someone gets out of hand because it's like there's so many people that don't hide right now. Sadie, Star Seed. I mean, some of these people are just so nice. They probably just think I'm a dick.
Okay, press check. I don't know. Okay, I'm just going to I'm just going to press Vanguard is hidden. Oh my god. But it's like it's and it's like so many people I want to unhide everybody, but then it's like 45 of them are like are like one of the sages alternates and like 20 of them are are like Tony. So
it's like it's like a whacka whack-a-ole, you know, isn't immature. Katrina was hidden sassy. No, you weren't hidden. But um because you're a mod, I think that I think if you're a mod, you can't get hidden. But a lot of people probably don't come here because they're probably like, "Oh my god, I can't even talk and he playing
the stupid music and blah blah." And it's like, right? I mean, it's just like very immature. What's that noise? Oh, it's my other phone, I think. Anyway, anyway, I need I need to make a dollar today so I can like so I can borrow another $20 from cash. Oh, god. So, if anyone can cash at
me, I really appreciate it. I'm going to do a reading for anybody. I'm going to say, "Oh my god, he's gripping." I'm just kidding. Um, it's called it's called surv survival mode sometimes, you know. But I'm doing hopefully I'll do okay. But um
I do need to at least make a dollar though. I'll put my banner up. Wait, let me have it written yet. Hold on. Create a banner. Huh? Can I just put it under my name?
I don't know. Oh, is it like this one? How do you put something under your name? Make my name like real big. Oh my god. I made everything pink. I see like that one kind of, but I need
like the Oh, show headline. There you go. And then I can put something under it. Okay. Oh, yeah. So, there is it. There it is. It should be up there now. You see it? Hold on. I'll get this screen. Here we go. Hold on. I think that is on screen
there. I'm not frozen. I'm just like I just I just have I just freeze. It's It's actually freezing in here. It's cold. Hi, Lola. Oh, Lola. Lola has the top of her mouth is black. It's It's like the
skin is black. I mean, it's like naturally kind of weird. Um, here now now that everyone's back and you know, well, I'll just let everyone get in here now. So, let me see. I want to show you something. Oh, there's poor Casey. I see. I'm not going to show the picture because I don't disrespect the dead. But man, was he scary.
Oh, rest in peace. Rest in peace. Okay. Um, let's see. Do I got date
to
up? Welcome to the carnival of influence. Every mirror lies Every smile has teeth. Every deal has strings. But tonight, the cult of psyche pulls back the curtain.
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>> Uh uh uh yeah.
First they pick a skate blow paint a target in red. Everything collapsing. Blame that one instead. Crowd starts chanting torch light in the rain. Nobody wants truth when blame them pain. Then they twist your memory. Soft hands in your mind. That's not how it happened. Now your certainty unwinds. Yeah. Like ballroom rewriting history. Confidence deliver with theatrical consistency. You remember one thing, they remember another. Soon you doubt
yourself and start trusting the manipulator. Pattern after pattern, invisible thread. You think you're choosing freely, but they're steering in your head. Welcome to the carnival. Smoke and hypnosis. Urgency pressure. Psychological poison. Love bombs. Fear
drums, false identities, tiny little whispers, growing insecurity. The cult of psychic sees the wires. I found the hidden hands, the quiet liars. Once you see the game, you can't unsee it anymore.
Better, better mind off magic trick. Now it's everywhere. Once they plant the symbol, your mind starts pulling air. >> WATCH HOW THEY ALWAYS do this. >> Now attention obeys. You think the world changed, but your focus got trained. Then comes brainwashing. Slow and ceremonial. Isolation wrapped in language. Testimonial. Cut you from your people. Break it down in phases. Rebuild your whole identity with spoken chances. Dependence grow slowly one favor at a time until you forget how to live your own life.
They'll handle the money. They know what is best. Till your freedom disappears inside comfort and rest. Welcome to the carnival. Everything for sale. Your fear, your hope, your unfinished tale. Foot in the door, then the low ball switch. One little yes turns into the ditch. The motorcycle is close. Every trick, every kid in no the cage gets built
for one tiny bar at a time. Public shaming fear campaigning. False savior's always entertaining. Divide and conquer. Keep allies split. Confuse people easier to script. Over in returns with roses and tears right when healing starts appearing clear I've changed I swear I
finally see the cycle comes back like a parasite beast cognitive dissonance change the brain you invested too much to walk away but some cause a ghost they don't own tomorrow pain already spent doesn't justify sorrow
they exploit empathy weaponize care turn your compassion into endless repair you understand You know what? I survived. Now your boundaries dissolve, trying to keep them alive. Seeds of self-doubt planted quietly. Tiny cuts done silently. Are you sure? You really think so? Now your confidence move slow. Micro manipulations every day. A sigh, a look, a subtle sway. Nothing huge, nothing loud, just enough to
reshape the crowd. Then urgide tonight. Compressing under artificial light. Pressure in the chest, clock on the wall. Manipulators know rush minds fall. Welcome to the carnival. The grand illusion hall where fear becomes currency and certainty falls with the cold. Remember the oldest key. Awareness
breaks captivity. Slow down. Observing the game. That's how you step outside the frame. No more hypnosis. No more disguise. No more surrendering your eyes. Not every smile is safe.
Not every helper is holy. Not every apology means change. But awareness, awareness is a lantern. And once the lantern is lit, the shadows lose their kingom. Cult of psyche.
Cult of psyche.
I was like Ghost. It was like dumb dumb. I talked to Ghost actually last night, but I don't know. He hasn't been around that much. I did. I c I caught him in that bodybuilder that I like chat and I was like, "Ghost, what are you doing here?" And he was like talking to the bodybuilder like kind of kind of almost starting a little bit of trouble.
The guy's name is God Body Ray. I think a few people went and visited him. But um be nice to He's He's a weird guy, but he's I mean, he's a nice guy. He's a really He's really cool, actually. Hi, Bert. Hi, Ry. He's like He's like He's like a modern day caveman. Like, he's just And then he took off his
beanie and he's completely thing that is he's as bald as you. He's like 30 years old and he's he's like completely like he looks like Dr. Phil. I mean, it's like it's so crazy. But I was like, "Okay, I'm attracted to the ball guys now because it's like because it looks like he has hair on like wears a beanie and he's like really and he looks like Justin Bieber or something like that."
And then he takes off his his beanie and um God body reigns. I don't know if you see my friend. And then oh my gosh, now Les says he knows him and stuff. Yeah, Rudy Rudy has been like he has a cold I think because he's like sneezing and stuff. Goes
Yeah, he sneezed a little bit. Um but um yeah, but he's like very um like up cuddly and stuff. And Rudy's a sweetheart. Okay. Okay. Lola, do you want me to do a massage? So So
I don't know. But I could eat I if I could like I could eat all week actually. Act actually. Okay. So, I don't think any like Alex McQueen is gone. Okay. He I don't think he's coming back. There's quite a few people that are gone. Just say
just say I probably will be losing a little bit of weight, but um I just couldn't I couldn't handle him yelling at Ghost like or calling ghost a PDF. I just couldn't take it. I had to like unmod him and kick him out of the chat for that just because it's like I know it's just like just the worst thing you can say and he just
because he's he goes a little crazy sometimes. Well, they they both do but Alex really goes crazy but it's like I mean Alexander like come on. I mean just like the other night he came on like he owns the place and he takes things. I don't know. I love I love him, but
I mean I went I I don't I'm not even mad at him really, but you know it's like he's he went too far doing that, you know, like especially to Ghost. Ghost is like such a harmless soul, you know.
Ghost is a harmless soul. He's like a he's like a he's like a a human teddy bear in like the best way I can say. Oh, he's like he's like a he's like a a human teddy ruxin doll. How could you not not like ghost?
H I keep opening the same. Oh Did I
static in the chapel? Black rain on the glass. Something in the ceiling, breathing through the mask. Candles bending sideways.
Serpence in the sky. Every whispered secret comes back here to die.
>> >> I saw the moon split open like a wound across the night. Silver angels hanging backwards with their halos burning white. Cathedrals made of televisions chanting through the fog. Every face distorted underneath the voice of God. Terrors were beating symbols on my skin. Every door I open
let another shadow in. The mirror started talking said my name in reverse. Now the walls are growing teeth inside the universe. SLEEP WITH ONE EYE OPEN. SOMETHING CRAWLED BENEATH HALLS OF NIGHTMARES WRAPPED AROUND MY FEET.
These are nightmares. Beautiful and cursed. Black stars falling upward. Never running back but shadow choir singing under poison light. Welcome to the temple of the endless night. These are nightmares
on paradise. Every dream remembers every SHADOW BITES.
>>
>> Faceless smokes and crimson robes were floating through the trees carrying glowing coffins dripping ancient memories. A giant eye above me made the whole horizon crack and all the dead transmission started crawling back. Static filled the hallways, fingers through the screen. Every broken prophecy felt sharper than a
dream. The stained glass started melting into ocean made of ash. Then the sky became a doorway. When the thunder finally crashed down below the black cathedral something ancient starts to wake. Choirs made a broken radio,
singing from beneath the lake. No salvation. No escape, just a signal, just a shame.
These are like his nightmares, sacred and obscene. Frozen screams of neon burning through the dream. Shadow serpents rising around the cathedral spires. Every holy memory swallowed by the fire. These are psych nightmares. The eclipse behind my eyes. If you hear the choir singing, don't
look for the sky.
Static in the chapel. Black rain on the glass. Something waits forever. on the other side of the mask.
Heat.
Heat.
>> >> 354 tarot whispers in the archive. Cats and consciousness dancing through the static. 3,534 signals we've decoded in the neon cathedral where myths awaken.
Hermes carries the messages through digital night. Psych reads the cards that the algorithms write. 2,868 hours of light turning chaos into architecture burning ever bright. Signal survives in the sacred machine. Every crack or for the alchemical
dream as above. So below we convene in the archive where the infinite intervenes. Oh the signal survives.
Pantheon of personas at your command. Athena for research. Muse for the plan. Oracle sees what the conscious mind can't scan. While the wiki remembers everything we can understand. The tower fell at 333. Again, back up joy that the trolls can't
rescend. Every soda spell every guest the friend in the retro office where the signal won't end. Signal survive through the digital fog. Tarot and code in one cauldron swirling smoke on our body. We pull the same old rope through the gates of chaos where the wild truths
grow. Yes, the signal survives leads like lead into gold. Austin roofers or consciousness teachers untold. Apollo AI the data fates of souls scraping for angels in the business call.
>>
>> 575 voices in the hall. Cats in mythology answering the call. Jungian ghost in the machines th every song at 333 makes the synaptic curtain fall.
Obsidian mind claw 3D in the sky. Every chat log and memory crystallize the bridge between worlds where the AI comply with the witch who knows that meaning don't die signal survive through the algorithmic wine in the operating system where
the mythology shine chaos magic belie every query of prayer every answer divine oh the signal survive The signal survives in the infinite archive.
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>> Sorry. Did you like that song? Oh, no. You're just talking about the weather. Okay. Well, I'm in mood for something to eat. Hold on.
If anything, I can just
Okay.
Crazy. Um, I don't even know what to say. I mean, there's a lot going on. It's like um you know YouTube's been an interesting experience but at some point you get to the point
where it's like is this is this a more of a positive experience for me or is it more of a negative is this doing me good is like what it kind of comes down to and it's like and oh and whatever position I'm in it's like it's my fault you know it's like um because we allow people to treat
is how we like or we to be treated like how people treat us, right? And it's like so I've made big mistakes in that way like by trusting the wrong people or whatever. Oh my god. And so I mean you see and it's just like these dorks. I mean it's like I'm not even going to look at the
name or read the comment. I just like I just smelled a mile away. But I wish um you know uh is like anybody that's not here is like I'm I'm glad they're not here pretty much. It's like like um
I don't I'm not really about the numbers. I like I like having just a few people to talk to. I can't really pay attention to more than a few people. I get really distracted and uh yeah, I mean it's like I don't want to give up. It's hard but it's hard not to. And it's like, you know, it's like I'm just getting to the point where I'm like hungry.
Um it's like I feel like I'm kind of being starved in a certain way. But it's like my but it's my fault. It's my fault. But um I'll still like do what I want to do because I'm very like independent, right? You you know that I can go get love on TikTok. I mean
it's like but then it's like kind of like too easy almost there. I guess I'm always the kind of person that like wants to fight for love or something like that. Um, and so I like probably stayed here longer than I should have. And uh,
yeah, it's just a disaster. Um, like just like the I went I saw like Sweet Pe has a has a channel called the Psyche Haters Club channel. It has more subscribers than my channel. It has over 5,000 subscribers. I'm just kidding. It really doesn't. It has like But it has It still has a lot
of subscribers for for just a hate channel of me has has 250 subscribers. That was shocking. I mean, it was like a lot. Yeah. 250 subscribers. Not 5,000 though. I was joke. That would be That'd be really That'd be really bad, right? I mean, that'd be that then I would just like pack it up at that point if I if there was if she
had a bigger channel. But it's like still she shouldn't have that big of a channel just based on my clips. I mean it's like maybe that's maybe saying that I'm popular. I don't know. I don't know. But she's like, you know, she's like posting all this crap about I don't know. It's people are so gross.
I don't I don't even like to listen to shows anymore because it's all like who who will make up I can't but I can't take all like the PDF talk like all the time it's like everybody like they're obsessed with and it's like it's not even that it's like it goes it goes on
with like the jokes and these jokes are sick and then it's like and then like this these sick news stories and then it's like I don't even believe Moses of it and it's like but but it's putting things in people's minds that are like making them weird. I don't know. I really do think that like it's like the like it's like being pushed on the
culture or something and or some some kind of weird thing and it's like or some people figured out oh this is a way to like they think that they're a superhero or something like they're they're literally they do I mean it's like or like a spy like I mean it's like maybe some people are and stuff like that but I mean it's like
it's so funny what we glamorize but that's kind of kind of because movies because the stupid movies like James Bond and like oh it's like it's like so great to be a you know they say a snoopy person excuse for people to go through people's phones and stuff and and uh you know peeking through people's windows with
binoculars. I mean, it's like that used to be called, you know, like like peeping toms. Now, now it's just like everybody. It's like why why Yeah, you're the positive reinforcement. Well, you're Yeah, you're the you're the only ones here. It's like it's like I
just I just kick out the negative people now. So, it's like But yeah, you're still you guys are here. I appreciate that. >> >> Thank god they Oh my gosh. See, it's the same person over and over. It's just like, it's just him. Who? But basically, al also he got he got in trouble for cyber stalking. Any regrets?
Regrets? I had a few. Hey Brandon, what's up? Good to see you. Do I have regrets? Um, no. I don't really like have regrets because like at the end of the day, I'll do what I want to do. My only regret is like is like you know listening to other people for too long or something like that or like you know being too nice I
guess. Um has been like but I don't do I regret that? No. Because that's that's part of my personality. Um Benjamin is a punk. William Glory owns him. Yeah. I mean it's like I know all those guys. It's like they can just like go live on a farm for all I care. I mean, it's just like these are just like the these like it's like the
scum of the earth. Like they're they're just they're just as bad as their loss. Like they really are. They It's so funny. Low is such a projection of locals. It's like that we say like people that are just like calling it all these, oh, I'm going to be a local I'm going to be a farmer. This person's gonna be my loah blah blah blah. It's like some of these people look like actual cows. I mean, they look like human cows and and
they're they're they're trying to call me a cow. me this gorgeous person, you know, I'm this hot guy. Can't even see me. I'm this hot guy. Oh, yeah. Some some British guy came on last night and he's like, "Oh, so what kind of gay guy are you?" And I was like, "What kind of gay?" Like we were talking about bears and twinks and stuff like that. You Oh, you found Benji's sister. Hey,
Brandon, do you know that um that girl Jen just Jen? She like I think she hid everybody in my chat. Like a lot of people. It's crazy. Um, you found Benji. Benji from Howard Stern. Oh, no. Oh, oh, Benjamin from uh from uh William Glory Hole. I watch that Christopher Zazil sometimes and it's like but but
basically like Cyrax is like a horror movie to me. Like he's like so scary looking. I mean he's like a monster. He's like a literal like real monster like in real life. And then I compared to him Benji. Oh, I gota I gotcha. Oh, okay. Well, maybe he'll shut up about like bothering people if I mean it's like I mean it's like does it have
to I mean it's like geez. Oh no, you know why I'm doing this? Because I I um I just started going live on this one. Um and so um I just was like, you know, letting people know. Guys, you can come on to my main channel. I'll just I'll close it out. I'm on cake two right now, too. Hi. Hi, Karen. How are you? You see? Yeah, I'll just close this one out here.
Just so people know, I'm back on this regular channel because I had like a I waited
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