Psyche discusses Steve Jobs' spiritual awakening and technology, then addresses interpersonal conflicts with panel members Alexandra and Beta, focusing on miscommunications and blocked communications.
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The episode starts with Psyche talking about Steve Jobs' spiritual awakening and its impact on his approach to technology ▶ 0:33. He then shifts to a discussion about his interactions with Alexandra and Beta, reading out text messages and addressing perceived miscommunications ▶ 4:05. Psyche mentions being called a name by Alexandra and responds by saying he was raised well ▶ 4:48. The conversation also involves Beta, with Psyche sharing a message where Beta discusses not believing in God ▶ 7:19 and later talking about a black widow spider as a metaphor ▶ 11:13. The episode also touches on personal stories, including a mention of an ex who was murdered ▶ 13:24.
The episode appears to explore themes of communication, misunderstanding, and personal relationships. It suggests that Psyche values open and respectful dialogue, as seen in his invitation to discuss Steve Jobs [1:05] and his reactions to the conflicts with Alexandra and Beta. The use of the black widow spider as a metaphor continues the pattern of using symbols and stories to convey complex ideas and emotions, a common approach in the 'Cult of Psyche' podcast.
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He was like, "Honestly, I think a lot of this is spiritually channeled through the program." And I'm like, "You're kidding me." And he's like, "No." But when you look at the story Have you ever learned about the biography of Steve Jobs? tell me. Tell me. Uh Like I I know yeah, I know a little bit,
>> He went through but a huge spiritual awakening that led him to focus more so on creating technology to even the playing field between the rich and the poor. But he he had a very strong base, especially in like the Indian um
theologies and whatnot. One day If you don't mind, maybe I could invite you Would you ever want to do like a commentary panel with me about Steve Jobs cuz I'm I'm a big Steve Jobs um fan. Which is weird. >> Uh-huh. But if you ever want to like review his
like like a YouTube video about his bio or something on a panel, I will do that with you because I would love to >> would love to. commentary on that. I would love to. And uh and so I figured out a way to like get it to talk to me. I would love to. Let's let's do that.
Welcome to the night. The cards laid out for show. Stars shine so bright. Watch the secrets unfold. There's >> >> magic in her hands. Whisper what the future holds.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow. >> >> Let the tarot move with the rhythm. >> >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow.
>> >> Hearts in the balance. Every card an open door. Feel the romance in every arcane lore. Destiny entwined as the moon begins to soar.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow. >> >> Let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Flow. >> Crystal
visions in her gaze. Time can't steal this moment. Life's uncertain dance we chase with love-woven golden dance. Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Flow. >> >> Let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow.
>>
>> Hi. I do have a comment on Alexandra. But it'll be my one comment, and then I will not be speaking about her again. Um I enjoyed meeting her. I like knowing her. Um
I can read the comment. I mean I She shared text messages. Okay. Well, good.
So, she shared text messages, no private messages. Okay.
But did I call her a name? Did I Did I Was I Was I cruel to her? Was I mean? Was I abusive? Was I I want to I want to How did I come off on the text messages? Maybe I was paranoid for one day, for two messages. She said I was a brat.
Well, she's acting like a brat now. Well, I just had a dream about her. She bought a yacht and she was out traveling on this yacht. Mhm. Accountability? For For what? I want to know I would love to know what exactly I mean, but anyway, I can I
really can't talk about her. I came to talk about Beta actually. Um and I'll share a message with about Beta. I'll Beta says Cuz you have to hear what Beta said to me now. Now, this is something. Hey Gotham, how are you? I just woke up by the way. I just woke up. Where's my phone?
Whatever happened with Alexandra is exactly what I knew would happen. Exactly what everyone told me. But anyway, that's it. Here's what Beta wrote me. Oh, she said she wants to make up with you last night? Here's what she said. I just saw your messages. Definitely not sending anything to you. Just protect yourself, but I don't really appreciate all the
nasty things you said about me because I didn't check your messages till now. If you think I'm so so annoying and such a bad person, you don't have time you don't have to watch me and talk about me. Okay, this is a woman last night, you know? This is a woman last night. Beta called me a on the show in front of everybody last night, okay? She's saying I'm calling her nasty
names. Okay, I called her a That's the worst thing I called her. She is one. Anyway, um I was unaware, but again, keep disrespecting me and calling me nasty names. It just goes to show how you were raised. I was raised just fine, lady. And I really do not want any any communication with you any longer.
You're blocked. Okay. Yeah. Right at Right, Samantha? Didn't you say she was You know. Oh oh hold on. Beta? No, I didn't. Beta said that herself. All I said to Beta was
Beta, you said you don't believe in God. Right? I don't know. It's like I I don't remember how it got brought up, but demonic satanic? I don't know. I'm a Luciferian, so I I really I I have a different view about demons and everything than It's like I'm not I'm not mad at you guys. I'm very kind of like Okay, guys, here's
Beta and Alex teaming up, right? the next thing that's going to happen. If If I If my my psychic skills are right right? Mhm. So, watch for this one. I can't even keep the lie straight. What's the lie, Loki? Oh, and this is Oh, hold on. Loki, let me just block you. Bye-bye. I did learn some great
things from Alexander Alexandra. Like use that block button. Bye. Hi babe. Beta is demonic. Do you need to see the uh video again? Show it.
Whatever is there is not God. Right?
Ooh, I want to clip clip me showing I mean, what did I say?
Yeah, let's let's see. Okay. Oh, perfect. You know what? It's funny. Alex and I are right in sync cuz she started exactly the same time I did, too. Exactly. So, that's how in sync we are. That's kind of funny. Hey, babe. But anyway, okay. I'm going to find a trip kick.
Black Widow video.
And let's have a chat in the meantime in the chat. Hi babe.
Let's see.
>> I'm just going to show you the part where she says she doesn't believe in God. That's all I said. Hey Kate, how are you? I don't know if you Oh, if you've seen this, let me know already. Hold on. This is great. I'm not a religious person at all. I
don't even believe in God. Oh, that what I said? Is that Jiminy? I don't even believe in God. Just like I would do a mercy killing because he manifested that that in his life. He got murdered.
Yeah, my ex got murdered. I would do a mercy killing. >>
>> Stunning. Sly and ruthless. With legs that go all the way to her abdomen. This bulbous beauty could knock you out with just one bite. But don't jump to conclusions. This iconic arachnid is mostly misunderstood. She's not a bad girl. She just looks
like one. This is the black widow. Black widows are a type of spider perhaps best known for well, you know, sexual cannibalism. That memorable behavior is where the black widow got its name. She has a sweet side, right? And this side mean side is mean.
Cruel, vindictive, um and this is stuff I I can't believe she was saying some of the stuff she was saying tonight. Basically it seemed I don't know if I want to repeat it, but basically she was asked about you know, oh, you know, you didn't you had a relationship like five five exes or something and she's like she said, "Yeah, and like one of them
was murdered." And uh And then the whole little part where And then it was another thing, you know, you have to be divorced and she's like And I what happened, baby? And she she said, "You'll never figure it out." And it was like She said it seriously. And I was like And then And I would have been like, "Yeah, it was a joke." But then after tonight she's like, "Oh, yeah, I I called clumsy. He said he's going to
take care of if he ever bothers me from Texas, he's going to And I don't know what he I mean, something bad, you know? It's like something like violence or something. And it's like she was she was referring to Alex. I mean, it's like I don't What the hell's going on, Peter? And what's what's going on? And then it's like And then I hear all of a
sudden people are telling me about this CarterVerse that you're part of. And like >> know these people, they clip me. That's what they do, dog. If you go on your YouTube and all this >> was paralyzed, I wouldn't want to live. If I was paralyzed, like the whole body paralyzed. >> Don't say that. Do not say that. I don't say that. That's horrible. Don't ever say that. Cuz my ex used to say that all the time. And cuz he had MS. And
he was like, "If I ever become paralyzed, I am going to kill myself." I don't want to live. But he didn't do that. Like he was a like talented artist, like made like $30,000 a month. Are you really going to bring that same thing up again? But but he didn't because he manifested
that that in his life. He got murdered. Oh, wow. See. What? You're The guy that was making 30k a month got murdered? >> Yeah, my ex got murdered. And not when I was with him. We were already divorced, you know? Oh, what was he doing What was he doing to make Yeah, was he running? That's why he got murdered. No, he didn't get murdered for that. He was a cabin He was like a What do you call it? He did like, you
know, Cabinet maker? No, he did contract work. He was a cabinet maker. He was a hard working man. He was a really good person. So, who murdered Like how how that go about? That's one thing that you guys would never figure out. Oh.
That's something that you guys will never figure out. I do get paranoid and I admitted it. If you If you read all the messages, you'll see the next day I apologized for being paranoid. But that was it. That was it. The The turned on me had begun. Um nothing I could do about it, say about it. Nothing I could apologize for.
And yes, I have been um I I've told people I've been mindfucked with a lot. So, occasionally I do. So, when I saw my or I saw what was supposed to be my cats. They didn't look like any of my cats. But what I What was supposed to be my cats dancing over my my dirty body when I'm
when I'm laying in on a couch when I fell asleep on the stream I thought well she didn't like me anymore. She like she she sees me in a negative way. She used to defend me for um people say I was dirty or whatever and I was like now she's making AI of me like all unflattering or whatever.
That was maybe it wasn't even that I asked somebody else about it. I got another opinion about it and they were like well no you look fine. You don't look dirty. You look I don't think she meant it like that. And I was like okay probably it was my own insecurity. Right? And that's what I said. I mean if you saw the messages I don't want to I'm not going to pull out the messages. I'm not petty like that. I mean except with Beta
you know. I'll be petty but I'll be petty like that with Beta but you know I I do respect Alexandra a lot. Uh I still respect her. I think that she's been probably been through a lot of things too. Right? I would think she'd have more of an understanding of me. But she doesn't it's okay. It's okay. You know what? Not everyone's going to
understand me. Even if I think they do right? Yeah. I have my own insecurities, right? But do we all? Do we all? And sometimes someone pokes at pokes at and maybe they don't mean to. Maybe they don't mean to, right? But do we get triggered? Is it is it is it human thing to get triggered? I don't know. Is it like just a human thing? Is
it forgivable? Is it forgivable? I think so. But me but like like I said I'm not I'm never forgiven. I'm never forgiven. I always forgive. I always forgive. My worst enemy I'll forgive. The the oh
I will always forgive. I'm through with faults. I will forgive. Even if they're not sorry just for myself I will forgive. But do I deserve just to like never be forgiven? I don't know. I'm I don't know maybe it's something
about me, right? Yeah little writer she did.
Thank you Samantha. Yeah and Samantha I'm sorry about yesterday I like I I'm sorry if I like you know I go I get paranoid. I jumped to the wrong conclusion. I sometimes when I smoke weed I get paranoid. Sometimes when I don't smoke weed I get paranoid. Sometimes I just a little bit on edge a little bit sometimes just cuz of what I've been through.
It's not a joke to me. I believe I believe you. It's not a joke to me. It's like uh
But I apologized to her.
I even would apologize to Beta. I feel bad. I feel bad when I call someone a But did she apologize for calling me last night on her show? And she said I call her nasty names. I think that's one of the worst names you can call a gay person you you know. That's just homophobic. I mean it's like
cuz she called me too. Yeah. I'm sorry to anybody if I I for jumping to the wrong conclusion. It's hard sometimes online. You don't see the person's face. There people will say things that remind you of other people and then they they they guy coming in on 20 alts and stuff, right? And so I
I don't know who's who's who sometimes. I can only do so much. I don't know. I'm not perfect. I'm I never said I was perfect. I'm a very imperfect person. So I'll take all I'll take all the responsibility. I'll say it's all my fault with Beta. I'll say it's all my fault with Alexandra. They're perfect. They're they're perfect they're perfect women. They've never
done anything wrong. They've never jumped to the wrong conclusion. It's all me. I'll say that, right? Is that okay? Does that work? And what else can I do? I I tried Nancy. I tried. Why do I even have to talk about it? Cuz she told me not to talk to her anymore. So and Beta's got me blocked. So I can't
I can't talk to them. They've cut me off completely. So all they all they want to do is talk about me. How about they try to work it out with me behind the scenes. I would have loved that. I tried. I tried this whole time with Alexandra. Up until yesterday. I tried. You can see I text message her even today and showed her like the thousand
pounds of of concrete outside my house, you know. They don't care.
I don't care. Beata's like, "Well, I get sent things, too." Alexandra goes live and reads all my text messages. Okay, well, fine. It's like everyone can just be their own judge about things.
I'm not I don't mean to be like snippy or like mad or anything. It's like I'm hurt. Um I'm really hurt. But and it's like, right? Especially right before Christmas, too. It's like, you know, I don't know maybe they don't consider Christmas. Like I said what I was saying to Beata, she doesn't care about Christmas. Right?
Beata had I mean, come please. Negs please. Beata Beata um plants in here, you know? There's a lot you know, there's a lot of If you're Beata plant, just leave. Go away. I don't need I I'm I'm done. I don't need I don't need to deal with it. I don't care if you're over on Beata's, I don't care if you're Hermit, I don't
care anything. I But if you're here to go run back over there to her and tell every every single thing I say, which is like what a lot of people do, I can't prove it who it is or whatever. Thank you.
Okay, I'm sorry I don't I don't I'm sorry, Samantha. I miss my dad, too. I lost my dad last year, you know? And Alexandra lost her dad this year. And it's like, you know, it's it's hard. I I I I bonded with her over that. There's trauma bonding sometimes, you know? Um
Holidays are hard, but it's like really holidays I would say, "Hey, how about like just give give someone like a little bit of leeway about it." May maybe maybe I mean, if I feel attacked, I sometimes attack back. I'm trying not to I'm I'm trying not to lash out. I'm I'm trying not to just be emotional about it. I just had these crazy crazy dreams about being on this yacht
in Greece or something like that. On Alexandra had a yacht and she was um you know, I don't know. The only thing I The only thing was said about Alexandra really that she maybe maybe didn't like was that the FBI ACF was asking J Dog about her, but J Dog said that. I didn't say it.
I know. I'm trying. I'm trying. I need to order some weed. More weed. Okay.
Uh It's a mess. It It turns into a mess. And I didn't blame Beata's. I didn't say It's It's cuz I was All I said to Beata was "They're using your name when they send stuff." And he sends me text messages. I mean, I
can share these I'll just show them on the screen, okay? These text messages I get from him, this guy.
I can't show them all because it puts my family's Look.
See it? Hold on.
These are the messages I get.
"I know where my dad is buried."
"Stop gatekeeping, Wait, you ordered more concrete? You ordered 20 bags? Wow, John, that might be a bit too much." It's not focusing. I'm sorry. Well, it says
It says basically diddler a lot of times. "I'm sick cuz I have LD on." Just the same that she would say, I mean. Personally but Yeah. Doesn't it sound like that, Lil Rider? With sacks.
I mean And then till there's picture of Did she show the picture she the AI picture she did of me? I'm talking about Alexandra now. Did she or Alexandra did she show the picture she made of me? Even if it was in good spirit. I find it. Hold on.
Yeah, it's a new word. It's uh because of P. Diddy. That's why. Which is just a psyop. It's like not none of that's even true. He's not in a prison or anything. I mean, he's like in a hiding but uh he's not in prison. Please. Uh but you people just take
what? Like they're showing like so so at face value, you know?
Are they going to come up and have a conversation with me? They wouldn't do it off the air. How about How about on air? How about that? We can have some good content at least out of it, right? How about that? They don't want to talk to me in private. Other than like rude text messages and like that, right?
What I wanted to know from Alexandra was do you just think I'm like just some dirty person just thinking about money all day? I don't I'm not dreaming about money. I'm dreaming about cuddling with my cats. I'm not dreaming about my cats going out robbing
people or doing criminal activity. Any of that. Was it a joke? I don't know. I still don't really get it. I mean, Gotti said it was he was making a joke about it and maybe it would make sense if I watched back, but I deleted that stream. I can go find it on True Trek maybe or on
on a on a panel versus VODs. If it's there, but it was a 12-hour stream. So, I don't know even know if it's there, but I don't I don't want to sit there for 12 hours and like figure out Well, I won't be able to see the chat, right? I won't see the chat. So, I won't know what was said, right? Cuz the chat wasn't up.
I tried to talk to her. I I was in her chat last night trying to talk to her. Tabitha. And she called me a f a g g o t.
Which is like just like why is that word in her vocabulary? That's nasty. For it to be in a woman's vocabulary. I understand like some of these guys or like a really like low-class woman maybe saying that word just regularly just slip off the tongue. But it's like she's supposed to be have some little bit of class. Tabitha has no class. She just talks
about how I wasn't raised right. Please. She was being nice to me early morning. Well, I was there last night. I Yeah, I went to her chat. Yeah, she was in a good mood and I was like and then people were saying, "Oh, come on. Get up." Everyone was laughing and having fun. I was like I didn't feel it. I wasn't feeling it. So, I just like left and went to sleep and stuff like that. >>
>> She's not a nice person. I'm talking about Tabitha now. Alexandra, I never I didn't have one problem with Alexandra. Not one. Until she posted that. I felt some type of way about it, right? I I confronted her.
And then she said, "Don't talk to me anymore." That was it. That was That was the negative part about it. Now now she's going to take off on me and now every everything's going to be negative, but you can see Oh, I don't I think she deleted everything that I did on her show, but you know, you can go back and see how our relationship was. We were we were fine. I don't know what happened.
I don't know what happened. It very I'm So, I'm in a state of confusion, okay, again about it.
>> >> I love it. Do I want to go leaving care to go? Watch this. You hear a bunch of bad things said about me that I'm whatever she said. She said I'm What she say? She said bad stuff for sure. Cuz I heard a little bit this morning when I woke up. This morning there was another She did this other stream about
me where she didn't say my name, but it's like obvious that it was about me, right? Then I texted her the picture of the concrete. And then she did a live with my name on it. Whatever. She didn't She doesn't She doesn't care
to talk to me. I've tried to talk to her several times, so if you saw the messages, you see. You can You can see. I mean, it's like that I'm telling the truth. Any questions?
Lovely lady, I have to kind of agree.
And she And the the thing is like she says I used her. Like I used her for publicity. Everything she She came to me for everything. I mean, I mean, like she said I mean, or I I would go to her I would promote her like crazy. I mean, it was like I did I wasn't using her.
Using her for what? I mean, it's like I didn't ask her for anything. Not one time. I didn't ask anything of her. I just wanted to friend.
Like one friend. I thought that there was one person at least in the stream as that was a streamer that was like kind to me, like, you know, or like, you know, saw that there was something good in me, but like now even like she doesn't, so maybe there's not, you know? Maybe there's not. And I'm like And I'm And I know Oh, I'm just being some expert manipulator right now.
Um well, like nobody can see it now that I'm not like just this piece of human garbage, then maybe I am. Maybe it is all my fault. Maybe Yeah, like I said, I'll take all the blame for everything.
Do you hear the construction? That's See, that's not like That's probably what people heard the other time. That's the construction. It's like it's It's like a power saw or something. It's across the street.
I don't know. But you can see You can All you have to do is watch the video I made with Alexandra. Where she's like a space goddess. And that that's that's the how high the you know, if I use use AI to imagine something
goddess in beautiful crystal dresses with powers and just badass awes- That's That's that That's how I see Alexandra. How does she see me? Some like dirty loser sleeping on his couch covered in cats dreaming about money. That's how I thought That That was my thought process in this situation, okay?
That's even if that was not what she meant, that's how I felt at the time. Now I'm starting to think, yeah, maybe that's what she does did think about me the whole time.
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