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The episode features Psyche and guests discussing moderation experiences, personal stories, and philosophical reflections on trust and nature on Father's Day. The conversation covers various topics, including relationships, personal growth, and trust.
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still. No,
man. What up, man? Can I just Good morning. Good morning. It's okay. Okay, start banning them. They're going to have to get new devices, make new names, make them struggle to come pong. You know what I'm saying? Make them struggle. Start banning the names. Telling you. Um, I'm a little busy right now, but I just wanted to tell you that. Just before you end it, make sure you
ban them. Make sure you get them. All right, I'll see you later. I'll join in later. Bye. Easy. Thank you.
So, I'm thinking about trying to find some clippers today, like shave to go to the Father's Day. So, maybe I'll go get some clippers in a little bit. Hi, Elijah. Hi, Nobody. Hi. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, it's like what when it when it happens. When that happens, yes. I'd
like to like ban them, but I just like I just end the stream real quick and it's like you can't really ban them. I should ban them before, right? But yeah, I put headphones on my other neighbors. Uh oh my gosh. Okay. Hi.
Well, that was interesting. Yeah, I was talking to myself for a second there. That's okay. But uh sometimes I don't know when people leave backstage. I can't see man. At least not right now.
Okay. I see that the other guy has a beard and maybe a red baseball cap. Mhm. Yeah. And then Psyche is Psyche. Psyche looks like Casey Jones without the mask, you know? Remember Casey Jones
from Ninja Turtles? Yep. Yeah. Casey Jones. Just not like a New York tough guy kind of. You're You're not that intimidating. Yeah. We have uh we have Fred Durst on the show. It's Fred Durst from Lump Biscuit. The red cap.
That's That was a It was It was a I thought about getting it. I thought about getting the Red Yankees cap, but there's too many New York Yankees fans on these that would all over me because
I don't like the Yankees that much. I like old Yankees, like the great, but the new Yankees franchise is not my bag. I got a um I I got a pretty good compliment. Um
I my dad was a Red Sox fan, so he taught me to love the Red Sox. And uh right, it in most of the places where I lived, um there wasn't a baseball team close that you could, you know, be like, "Oh, I'm, you know, rep your city type of shit."
swiping socks and um I wound up, you know, getting the thing and I kept the sticker on it and I went into a strip club and I was wearing it like low brow, stiff brim and I walk into the bathroom at a strip club and there's an attendant there and he goes, "Hey, that's a hell
of a fresh bucket you got on your head." And I said, "A fresh?" I was thinking to myself like, "I've never heard that term, a fresh fresh. But he said, "A fresh bucket." And I was like, "Thank you." You know, I don't know what to say. And then he handed me a towel so I could dry my hands. And I
gave that guy $5. I was like, "You all these titties out here, you get $5." If there's an attendant in the strip club, that might be a good place and you would tip them. But there's some strip clubs that don't have attendance.
Oh no, those places you should just walk out. I haven't been to the strip club in over 15 years. It's crazy. You haven't? Nah, I don't get invited to bachelor parties.
Hell, the the last uh I gotta say the last three times I've been to a strip club. It was with my wife and a group of friends. So, it was always a party. It was like, "Hey, everybody loves titties." Yeah. And money and throw throwing things at naked ladies. It's like, "Hey, just ball it up and you don't even have to go up to the stage.
You just ball it up and throw it at them. They love it." Yeah. I don't know, man. I spent a lot of time in those places um as a job, but it felt like weird uh
going as a celebration a couple times, but uh when you go as a job, it's it's hard to differentiate. I did it as a younger man, you know. Well, I mean, in whatever capacity that you
participated in, whe whether the bouncer or the bartender or whatever, uh, do you consider yourself a sex worker the same way as, you know, No, I've never never
uh but I do know what goes down. Yeah, but if you bosses don't isn't that considered sex work? You know, you're part of the industry. Well, this is the thing. I wasn't part of the industry,
but I was privy to what went down. You can say I did air quotes and we're on vertical. So here, I'll fix it. Part of the industry.
Uh because if you want to talk about helping your friends get to the club or, you know, I don't know, being your friend. I had a friend that would work at the club or I
had a friend that would, you know, need a ride to the club and then they would help me. They'd pay me pay me for driving them
or, you know, it was weird. And it was like, be ready after your regular job to pick this person up at 4:00 in the morning, you know? It was a weird job, but I didn't care. It was like unlicensed taxi service.
Does that make sense for my neighbors? Oh, it makes it makes a hell of a lot of sense. I I also felt like a guy like me shouldn't have I my neighbor friends
shouldn't be standing and hopefully not being uh stalked by their weirdo regulars they called them or who knows goes into those clubs because
uh these women would just have these stories it made. I don't know. I'm not I'm not I'm not built for that kind of I guess. Uh cuz I just go immediately go to Hulk smash, you know?
I want to smash head smash head, you know? So, I don't know. Uh and that's not that's not how you deal with things, you know? Right. It's all lessons to be learned. Oh yeah, I've learned it. I'm I'm almost
40. So that was when I was, you know, 21, my man. 19 years ago. That's why I said it's been a while. It's kind of wild. Um I I think we're all within reasonable closeness of age.
um to be able to to to hear the words come out of your mouth. Uh 20 years ago, you know, it feels weird, but yeah, it it feels Oh, well, no, it's not 20 years ago. My brain, like I said, I have a
brain injury. So, it would have been 200 I was 21. So, I'm 38. So it was like 16 years ago maybe 2008 17. Hey so 17
you you round up. So you know you're pushing you're pushing uh the lessons that you learned you you remembered them for you you can round up and say damn near 20 years. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. I got to I got to learn my vernaculars better. Sorry if I
keep looking off. ADHD. Oh, you're all good by me. Psyche. Yeah. Are you nursing a hangover? You got the coffee? Well, let me see. I still have a half of a drink here. Right here. Um I'm uh I
still have a whole coffee left. I still have Dell Taco and I'm going to a little barbecue this afternoon. We used to call it Del Snatcho back in the day. I don't like it anymore. I don't know why. Chug it. I don't know. I'm like afraid to chug it. I might chug it. You don't
have a fridge. I do. I'll put it in the fridge. We'll put Yeah. I don't know. I left it Some food is best left out, but some food isn't. Yeah, it's best to have a cold drink. Thank you. Also, by the beach, boy.
Yeah, I miss uh I miss living by the beach. Yeah, me too. I love the ocean. I think I think the ocean saved my life. How so?
It's just um because you know some people go to places to interact with people but I went to to interact with nature and um the ocean you know it can be calm and glassy and make you feel so safe but
then there's so much underneath and then it can it can be so violent and you just sit there and you fight water. you you just battle the water and it it's so much fun. And then it's been a while, you know, when you um when you walk through the sand and your feet dig
in and the ground gives out from underneath you. Yeah. Yeah. It it teaches you a thing or two about trust. It's like every step I take, um I can only trust you so far. Yeah. But but I have to be mindful of where I'm stepping as well. So it's a
it's a personal responsibility u to guard yourself but at the same time you are taking those steps. So you have to have a certain level of trust in which we're going to give somebody because you know what Lance Adams is. I
I am going to take this step in front of me. Yes. I can see it. I can see it and um I I want to get through it. However, um I only trust you based off of the evaluation before I step. And when it sinks under your foot,
you don't blame the sand for failing. You gave it enough before you took the step. And it's like, okay, you know, I get it. Do you know what Lance Adams is? Nope. So, I have this syndrome that uh
prevents me from walking correctly. Although for a while it was working for a minute after, you know, working three sessions I had with PT. I was taking enough steps with holding on to like
walls and Relearning I'm relearning how to walk and then I and I haven't been as good since then. So I see your metaphor. You just got to just take that step in. How much that say? Is that a book about you and your cats? No, it's a My friend sent
me like these She made these little posters. I got a book when I was a kid about me and my uh my dog and it was made just for me. It was one of those books, you know, it seems like they customized for kids. That's cool.
Yeah, but I made it with the Very sweet. Also, uh this guy in the middle, he's very wise. Thank you for the inspirational uh me, you know, knowledge. you're uh
it's a um breath of fresh air sometimes to hear some words of guidance on a Sunday morning that isn't from a preacher. You know, I like preachers and
I haven't gone to church. I wish I do. I wish I could, but you know, internet church is the internet church, right? It it's it's kind of funny like we have a u a chaplain um that is assigned to our our company.
So we we have a chaplain that walks around and says hi to people and ask you know introduces himself and you know a man of faith walking around u a building of people that are trying to earn a living and it's like you know you you have a lot of mind on your mind when you're at work. You have a lot of
motivation. Uh everything you do in your real life is your motivation for why you even go to work in the first place. And so having that person around is it's amazing. Uh not all jobs have that. And um
uh I always said hi to the guy, you know, and he he kind of cornered me. I was having a cigarette break and he introduced himself, you know, quite aggressively is I'm the chaplain. It's like, "Hey, what what are your feelings on this and that?" And um what was supposed to be a quick smoke break
turned into an hourong conversation and I told him what I what I feel, what I believe. Um and now now we just shake hands and smile at each other. It it it's it's nothing against uh God
um or or religion at all, but it it's about finding your some inner peace. And I I think um you know I think chaplain help people through religion, you know, find their inner peace, but when you find somebody that has inner peace, um
it's like, yeah, you you can you can preach from the mountain tops. Uh I'm still going to be me uh holding this together. You know what I'm saying, right? You got to do what you got to do to get by. Um, I used the chaplain in
the hospital when I was in the coma or in the ICU and in the coma. I remember the prayers and I I remember them saying last rights. So, it's really weird. Um, so interesting enough.
Yeah. And and something that I found is uh you know so many people say are you religious and it's like oh are they talking about like Catholicism? Are they talking about Judaism? Are they talking about Buddhism? Uh, and those seem to be like subscriptions, but yeah, it's a loaded question, but um, what what I found, and maybe I
Googled it one time, I may not be sure, but to me it makes sense uh on a simplistic definition, is that religion is faithbased actions towards a perceived outcome. So if you believe that means you don't know but you have
to do things to know things and and the actions you take will give you knowledge and knowledge is knowing but you're also going towards your perceived outcome which is something that you believe will be in the end and uh you know you you brush your teeth why to keep them. Yeah. Because when you have because when
you like have knowledge then you'll then you can act wisely or you can act on what you know like you know but you have to you have to come to like knowledge through the action you have to you have to you have to explore it explore and then you'll get some knowing about certain things and it'll be beyond faith because faith is just a strong belief but like
knowing is a just in inner knowing and that and then you If you if you know something, you will. When you know better, you do better, right? I guess that's the saying. Yes. Some something that was brought up and it it was a question I saw on, you know, some short video on YouTube was um do do you believe in God?
And you know, they said yes. It was like, well, do you know your parents? And it's like, yes. It was like, what's the difference? It's like, well, you know, I was given birth by my parents and uh I was raised by my parents and I saw them every single day. It's like, how many times have you seen God? Well,
I've never seen God. It's like, well, but you believe, right? God is everything. So, we see God, but we see his creations, right? Yeah. So, you know, um you you conduct yourself
um to I guess hopefully be on the right side of God or wherever it is that you see yourself going. Like some people say heaven and hell. It's like, well, if you want to go to hell, if you really want to go there, um the the people will send you there.
However, if you want to go to heaven, it's all on you. It's all on you. Yeah. Or what about reincarnation? What do you believe in? Oh, I would love underneath an apple tree.
Well, reincarnation would be like you chose, you didn't choose heaven or hell. You want to retry it again. Learn the lessons that you might not have learned and just go again. and hit the reset button. I I do believe in reincarnation like I
said. Um you know, send the body into the into the dirt and uh plant a seed on top of it and then the tree will grow and then the animals will eat it and they will spread the seed of your
body. Will it carry the knowledge with it? No, I I don't think so. However, you stayed alive uh anatomically uh not anatomically but in through molecular form through Yes. through the
transfer of energy. Uh, my broke down into this and it fed the tree and then the tree beared fruit and then the animal ate the fruit and then the animal walked and the animal shat and then the seeds were born and then you got another tree and next thing you know your existence is more than just your body. It's an entire field.
Yeah. And entire entire entire acorn. There's a whole um there's a whole uh forest of oak trees in in one single acorn, right? And so so it is and there's also energy cannot be created or destroyed. It can only change form. And so we go into maybe different forms or
our energy goes someplace though. It just doesn't just die. You know, just that's just the body, right? Joe wants to go straight to hell. Oh my gosh. Or what's ill say? I failed. No heaven for me. It's okay. Oh, well the devil uh there's always repentance in some religions, right? Well, yeah. And
that's what it's this is what like a lot of religion is really about repenting and like you know getting a connection with the higher higher source and and striving toward that source rather than just living in like a meaningless existence where everything you believe everything just randomly came together and you know it will be
just it will randomly go and nothing nothing means anything. What really means is like the you know what's really important are the things that are not things and uh what we learn. I think our our our body may not carry on lessons but
our soul certainly does. I think what we I'm listening. I'm just looking off. It's okay. No, I'm I'm sorry if I'm rambling. No, no, you're not. I'm listening. I look off and I don't want people to not take me seriously. Um the
the whole what you were saying about re seeding the earth. Yeah. It's interesting. You do. I feel like we learn our lessons even though we're born ignorant, you know, to everything. Yeah.
And then I I felt ignorant as a year and a half ago whenever. You know, definitely was something that's that I heard as well um was like um
never stop being childish because being childish means uh you know trying things that you don't know and asking questions. Um, however, becoming an adult, um, is the difference between being able to handle the answers to the
questions that you ask and okay, as an adult, you know, a lot of us, we don't like to ask questions anymore because we don't want the answers. However, um, continue to be childish and be like, "Hey, why why are we doing this? Why do we act this way?
However, in my inner thought, however, you must be prepared for that harsh truth when you ask a question. I I I do believe that. Keep asking questions, but be but you know, uh I think we are all men up here. Be be a man about it and and handle the answer
because you like it or not, that that is the answer. I c I can't handle it. I'll be the one to admit. I'll say that. I I can't handle some answers sometimes. I'll say that. Yeah. Well, sometimes the truth isn't pretty, right?
But you know that's why that's why we like to sometimes lie to ourselves because the illusions sometimes more more attractive than the truth. They can be but the truth is what's real, right? So nothing you just fall in your kitchen but you didn't find anything. That's weird.
Yeah, we're talk we're so many of the spirits with these talks. See Oliver yourself. Oh, I don't think so. No, we No, I think they're just joking. I think No, but yeah, but some someone said something their kitchen just fell fell. Oh, no. There's no Latin phrases
going. We're just discussing, you know, I'll go I'll go and go listen to my Latin phrases translated into English and then translated into something I can then, you know, hear and
acknowledge and listen to later because it's Sunday, you know. I take part in my Sunday rituals. Yep. And Sunday, it's the day of the sun. It's the first day of the week. Um, how are you doing, Mojo Joe? Oh, cats
are jumping around. Yeah, I got to shave today. I'm just If you want to say it in another way, go into church. Yep. Really negative one. Call it rationalizing, not lying. Yeah. Well, sometimes many things aren't true at the same time. You know the the the
truth is like a truth is what is it relative or truth is objective subjective. How do you cut your hair scum? How do you cut your hair scum? You cut it with the shave my head. You shave your head and then let it all grow back. It's like it's a ritual. Yeah. It's called caveman.
Yeah. And then I have to shave a little bit right here because of the tape to hold my lumens. And I had 12 IVs. Oh well. Mhm. I had a three lumen port
right here somewhere. And I had a little bit of body air. Little bit. But yeah, I'm just seeing what happens when you just let it grow. No, that I I think that's the way to do it. I've had many conversations with
people um my brother-in-law and a good friend of mine and my my good friend, he's uh he's Filipino and you know he says you know always you know oh your beard your beard and it's I I get that a lot. Yeah, a beard is a it's a an art piece in and of itself.
Um, but he's like, I I let mine go and I just get this and this. And I'm like, well, you know, your heritage just defines your your hairline, you know. Uh but when you let it go um you will be
extremely you into the natural versus um the the you know hey there's nothing wrong with shaving. There's nothing wrong with shaving every day. There's nothing wrong with it if that's what you got to do to to get your dollar. But, you know, to
really connect with the world, I believe you have to be the you to the fullest. And and don't be jealous of anybody else's hairline or uh you know, anything like that. It's like be you to the fullest, I guarantee you give it a year without shaving and you will know what
you look like uh untouched. I haven't given it a year. It's still under a year cuz they had to go back I had to go back under. So it's it might be still under a year. You're right thinking about it.
There's all because there's all kinds of things that you could shape it into and you know yeah trim the neck and make it look longer and make sure it's not hanging in your mouth. But you know what? when it hangs in your mouth, that's when you realize like, hey, my hair is trying to choke me to death. Uh,
so then you do this a lot, you know, you get a little bit of ear wax, then you and it's like, oh, okay. It doesn't it doesn't hang in my mouth anymore. Ear wax. 100% you. That is being 100% you. Ear wax, right? Uh,
that is Yeah. using well ear wax is ear wax. It's all it is. But um I use beeswax if I want to shape my mustache. I used to have a mustache. It always shaped into a dirty Sanchez, you know.
I mean, Nacho Libreistics, they grow names over time. You got the Foo Manchu. You got the dirty Sanchez. You got the, you know, the the Irishman with the chops on the side. Oh, I've had the sideburns. Be be the best you you can be. And um
what you you can really only even shape in my opinion, you can really only shape your hair once you let it go u for a very long amount of time to see what you're actually working with because you can find the places where it grows, where it doesn't grow. You know, are you a goatee person? Are you a
mustache person? Are you a long-haired on top person? I'm not a long I got no hair on top. I'm about to be Captain Pequard up in this I say sport it, man. Or bald. I mean, whatever do you want. Whatever makes you feel good.
Hey, Michael Jordan, I think, did it right. Yes. He even sports a unconventional mustache. I thought that was insane. Yeah. angles. it it there's this thing
that kind of touches certain people and it's called like proof of age because you know you might be 40 50 years old but if you look clean as hell and you're in shape somebody might take you for like a 19year-old and that's hey when they ask for your ID when you about to buy some beer or something like that
like oh more than gladly more than gladly go ahead and scan it on the machine too don't just look at it. Scan it on the machine. You'll find exactly who the I am. I was buying beer when I was a teenager, so none of the ID
in the B bothers me now. But when I was a kid, I it would I'd fight to the bone. And when I see people doing that, I feel like they're like just starting or
they're have something to hide. Either way, it's it's what's the point of getting just get your ID out. Hey, I I don't argue. If I was a customer service guy, hey, they ask, I pull it out and I smile
the entire time. It's like once you see it. Um, but you know, it's funny because even and I believe in the system, you know, that's their system. and to it. It's not about, you know, asking me for an ID. It's about does
that person have what it takes to ask anybody for their ID? And if you're if you're willing to ask somebody that is clearly good to go, then you're willing to ask anybody. You know what I mean? It's like impress guys like you every day. Sorry.
You know, I'm in the uh what do they call it? The uh the I'm in the scooter. I'm getting my groceries. I got a full beard and it's white as hell and I got no hair on top and I I'm wearing like a a Vietnam veterans uh you know vest. It
It's like, "Sir, may I see your Hey, hey, hey, make you. If if you can ask that to see your ID, you can definitely ask somebody that is in question because that should be giving free beer." I'm going to say this though, that guy might work for the alcohol board and you're
supposed to ask everyone, especially after you've been busted. they have this probationary period. Uh if say say the guy I was always the guy that asked in the liquor store gas station
uh you know liquor and beer. So I never got busted. I get in fights with good customers because of it because the other shift would not ask get busted because they sold to an undercover snitch
uh or even a child that parent bought back the and goes, "What is this kind of shit?" And the the commission comes in the alcohol board and they make people sign out. Eventually like
bars will have to sign everybody who buys a drink that day has to sign their name and then put their driver's license number on it. I went to a biker bar. Patched up people going in there. by the
way, doing that kind of So, I don't know. In my state, Arizona, it's it they don't around liquor laws, you know? I don't know. I didn't want to be the guy that lost the liquor
license for the gas station. I I felt like I had that duty and I didn't want to be fined five grand. It's five grand minimum. I don't have five grand to spend on them. Somebody else's tobacco habit.
Well the the signs that they put on the register here say um if you appear it, not in quotes, but I'm quoting it. If you appeared to be under 40 years old, Yeah. And it's like um I I have a wedding
ring. I have a beard sucks. I have a beard with gray in it. I I'm I have no hair on the top of my head. And I look tired as hell because I'm getting off of work and I want to buy a 12-pack. And it's like, "Hey, do your job. If you're going to ask for my ID, I give it to you. Zero
problems." But when they look at me and they laugh and then they just type in the code, it's like I've you come here damn near every single day. The ones who recognize recognize. And the ones who check, it's like, hey, no problem. I want to make sure you know, you know, it's a good thing. You know, it's a good thing. And all this guy is doing being
is a dick. I know that one. Hey, I know that. You know, it's it's not about being a dick. It's about, hey, if I know the protocol, you know, then I respect them upholding the protocol. I' I've been through way
too many systems to deny the the facts. And if you want customer service, um, their policy trumps uh your belief that you look old enough. If you want to participate in this transaction from this grocery store, you
are you have inherently abided by the rules of public decency and uh you know private property law. So if the state law says hey check them if you don't trust them well if you've never seen me before I might be the oldest
looking underage person you ever met before but you got to have some nuts and be like hey let me see your ID and and we do have scannables. We have scannables now. So, yes, if I pull it out and give it to them, they they don't just look at the date. They they can just run it across the register like it
was a product and it's like, "Oh, boy's good to go." Um, the scannables or the phone the phone QR code that I think changes, you know, so it's extra secure.
I don't know. state runs it. But, you know, we're all uh itching closer to midnight in 1984. But you can enjoy the time while we're here.
I mean, I'm down for it. I'm down for I'm down for whatever. I'm DTF, buddy. Yeah. I I can't say that. I can't say that I I can't say that I can fight anymore, but um I will defend myself a little bit
to what I think like you're not going to come in and rip my family apart kind of thing. Um, I don't believe that's one of those things
you should do to somebody, but if say it's weird. There's there's a lot of bad I could bring up, but Sykes panel is not the place. I I feel like we can get into things and it might get into
dusty territory, constitutional territory and I know politics kind of keep we could keep it a happy place. You know what I'm saying? Well, it's hard to say that you shout out to Mel Brooks.
Oh, that's bright side of life. That's the um Monty Python guys if you didn't know Mel Brooks. You are correct. And um I just saw something and I hope it's true that they were going to do a Space Balls too. Yes. That's why that's why I said
Mel Brooks. But you know I grew up with all them guys. Um I think uh Yes. Yes. Comedy is comedy is not a sin. So I think it's do a sequel considering that um you know the original Star Wars
started in the middle of this story and they had to come back uh damn near 30 years later and be like oh well here's one two and you know they did history world part two so I'm happy for
the part two of this. So, hell yeah. Do you remember Hamlet 2? No. So, they came up with Hamlet 2. It was
uh Matt Stone and Trey Parker from uh University of Colorado or South Park, you know. Yeah. They they came up with a movie called Hamlet 2, which I don't think Hamlet
one. It I think the end of Hamlet was a tragedy. You know, there there was no going to be a Hamlet 2, but it was funny that they did. I I forget the whole concept. Uh maybe somebody else can like
Psyche has seen it but it it was a strange movie and the only thing I can remember is he was a failing actor went to Tucson to be a drama teacher and it was that um is he Australian or
is he British actor? I don't know. I don't know what I was going at with that amulet too. And you know, that's kind of where I was
leaning was um comedy. Yeah. Without a part two. If if you're going to be Hey, why so serious? Let let's uh take your serious topic and uh make fun of it. You know, that's to me that's comedy. Oh, I get
it. Real happened. You know, some people um you know, tell a joke about uh well, Kobe Bryant's uh oh, horrible uh death. However, you know, well, think of the cops that joked about it because
they probably had no choice because that's the way they handle their emotions. Oh yeah. Uh the same thing for soldiers. It's like that guy's dead. But in the meantime, like there's
literally a dead person there, you know? I think like Yeah, it's bad. I'm just taking the count. Click, click, click. But to to keep those on your phone and as your like work phone and showing it to people at the bar, is that ethical?
As a professional, I would say no. Right. Well, there there's levels to stuff and um you know, gaming. There will I'm I'm
sorry, but there will never not be some sort of war trophy, whether it's the pistol off of of a Nazi officer or a sword off of a Japanese uh you know picture or a flag that you know you capture. There's there's a lot of
bodies. So each and every one of those items comes with thousands of bodies behind them. So if one thing exists that is the horror of war. You think he was brought down? I don't think he was brought down. I think it
was pilot error. He's high profile. Who's that? Kobe. Oh, I think that was pilot error. Honestly, I agree. I I think it was pilot error. I think um
You know, I I think uh the priority of the flight took priority over the safety of the flight. Like Aaliyah, I I would probably agree there too. Yeah, cuz I don't know if you followed
that, but they over stuffed the plane. Another lowp profofile incident out in Scottdale. They missed the runway, but they had like five people or six people in a mini
plane that was meant for only like two and it's like you can't even take off. Well, I mean join made a they hate they made a whole movie about um uh some South American soccer team that
um got on alive. Yeah, you know what I'm talking about. So yeah, you know, you had to send the people who were willing to do the work um to make these bodies not look like bodies anymore. So that way you you can eat
them. And just imagine being tear a human body apart so that way your friends don't feel so bad about surviving. I did. It gave me nightmares. I listened to the podcast where they were describing it in very
detailed form. Hey, what what what's up Alexander? Good to see you always. Yeah, he's at I think he's at he's at is he at a Mets game or something? Someone said he's he's at a baseball I don't know if it's the Mets or something like that, but he's I think he's at a baseball game today. Is that Is that Mets Yankees? Not sure. Alex, do what is it? Does
anyone know if it's Mets and Yankees today? Either I'm not even kidding. my mother-in-law if it's if it's Yeah, that should be a big He looks It looks like he said there's gonna be
thousands of people there today. Nice nice day for him to I like baseball. You like baseball? Yeah. Yeah. What's the Arizona team called? The They're the Diamondbacks. Oh, the Diamondbacks. But they can't keep an image for more than a
couple years. They changed their It's got to be marketing because the the teams never changed their imaging so much lately. Yeah. I like it when they keep it one thing. And I Anaheim Angels,
you know, they've always been the California Angels and we had the Los Angeles Dodgers. Keep it Keep it the same. I know people from LA like the Angels. It's Yeah, it's a thing. I'm an Angel fan. I wear a Dodger hat.
Lance Adams. Yeah. Oh, it's a cool It is a cool Dodgers do have a cool cool logo. Well, I wore it to represent back in the day and then I'd wear the uh
CA California Angels hat cuz if I wore the A hat, people would take it wrong. Some people take it as other, you know, they take it
wrong, right? you know, um I'm a bit of a hat fan myself and uh when I was in El Paso, Texas, and you guys know about Lids, they that's the store that the hats, I got a uh a World, uh baseball classic Mexico hat, and I
wore that you know, being fullblooded American, I I just want to shout out to my neighbors and uh and and good sports. and good sports as well. And you know the color fit. It's like, you know, I rock that Mexico hat like nobody's business. And people would look at me and they would be like, "Hey, white boy, why why are
you wearing a Mexico hat?" Like, "Why don't you mind your own goddamn business?" Yeah, it's a Yeah, mind you. A mind you said status. Yeah, I It's a mind you status. I I've got pressed up for a lot of things like
that. I felt like when I was younger I couldn't handle more. Now I I I don't give a No, you you got a good attitude about things
today. Uh that that's that's a good good thing to keep, you know. Yeah, you're good. Draco is always very wise. Let's see what's going on in the chat. Taking
over. I don't know. Maybe I don't know if hats make me bald faster because I don't know. I I my jeans make me my legs my legs are hairless because my I wear pants all the time so I have no hair. I heard about that. I think it bends your follicles. If if anything, it bends your follicles.
Yeah. Like you I have my hair fall out all the time. Yeah. Hat heading. Yep. You have a nice long hair wearing a No. Ela, come on. Ilia, how's everyone in chat doing? I like you, Ilia. I love you.
Whatever you're saying, I love you. Well, what did I say? Ilia said, "Let's go Panthers." Um, that's all I see. Let me see. Go Panthers.
How's everybody doing? Let's see. I have a lot of people blocked still on my other account. So people still asking that or no cuz they always press me about it when I'm alive. I recognize that I recognize that band
that shirt from what what band is that? That Sublime or something or Yeah. I'm seeing how long I could wear it before it falls off. Oh my god. Probably for a while. It looks like it's high. Maybe my my No, it's coming. I think it's Walmart.
Oh, it is. I don't know. It represents Long Beach. Yeah. So, I mean, the right this is 20 years old. Yeah. Yeah. I got a Go ahead. He's on there. He's on there. He's on the He's on the He's on his own shirt. Is that you on track on the
shirt? What's your shirt? It's the North Carolina. Is it embroiderer? So, no, it's the it's the it's the what do you call the the iron on ink whatever it is
sub sublimation. Yeah. But this thing's 20 years old. Oh, scum. You went on a blocking spree, Scum. Everyone say you block them in your in your in your chat or where you have a blocking spree. Scub,
never mind. Never mind. I couldn't hear you. Did you go on a blocking spree? You blocked. Oh, yeah. Wow. It was more like I didn't want to hear it. I don't want to hear it. Is that Do you have a Is that your chat? You have a channel? my channel. I didn't
do it on my channel. I did it on Sam Man's panel or on Sam Man's channel. So, a lot of people got like I blocked my own wife. Oh my gosh. So, it's nothing personal. It's uh it's
really strange. and YouTube changed their options. So, you know, I I could go find it with the voice over, but I got to keep turning on and off voice over. Mhm. Yeah. So, you you you went rogue as a
mod. You started hiding everyone. Oh, no. I was never a mod in Sans. Oh. Oh, you just blogged. only mods women and Barry. Oh, he only mods women and Barry. Okay, I guess. I don't know. Have you seen his chat? Yeah. I mean, yeah, but I mean, usually
if I go really No, I'm just But I go on his I go on his panel sometimes, so I don't really see the chat as much. But I don't really care about the status of mod. Uh but you know
I I think people do and I acknowledge it. So I can't not acknowledge it if it's a an idea around here. Although you can you can choose that.
It's funny when you do blocked his own wife. Wow. on YouTube, right? On this YouTube area, right? Like on Saman's chat. Like she's not next to
me and my caregiver all the time. Yep. My cigar out. you just wanted to silent what but the the voice to voice to text or the text to voice would wouldn't stop and so you just had to block everyone I think that
might have been a thing too I don't know I was uh going off and they kept blocking me so I said it I'm going I went rogue I guess you'd say but um I have my issues dude and when somebody
starts putting their fingers in your, you know, butthole essentially like and you don't want it, you're going to say some I could have come on the panel and give them a bunch of content, but I didn't cuz it was serious to me.
They were trying to smear me and I was taking the wind out of their sales and they didn't like it. They didn't cook me like they thought they did. They think they cooked me. They've been trying to. It's more like
sushi. Ice cold. Hi, Alex. Where are you at? What baseball game is that? No, it's a little loud, bro. I'm I'm at the Mets game. I just wanted to share with you guys. Oh, hope you're good. Good. Enjoy your game,
dude. It's scum. Yep. Scum and trackable are here. Yeah. Have a great day. Is that a dog? There's a dog in a cowboy hat.
I don't know. Is it too where they play? I see the arches.
Where's this? What? What's What city is this? Is this New York? New York City or uh I don't know. I think they changed the stadiums completely, didn't they? That's pretty cool. Pretty cool architecture. Looks very like Alice in Wonderium is no longer a thing. No. Right. So, I
don't even know, man. I started following MLB last season and it wasn't even the right stats. Let me see. I'll look it up. Mets game. Mets game. Type meta. Okay. Mets.
Hi Lenor. Hi Lenor. Oh hi Lenor. that whole with the Dodgers and Angels. Uh, and then Aftermath was crazy last year. They're playing they're playing the Rays. Oh, let me
see. It says on Sunday, I think today at 10:40, they're playing the Rays versus the Mets. And then I'm not sure where it is. Yeah, I was center field um for the most part, but then my asthma
started to uh kick up and they put me on catcher. Also, I intimidated the runners and it's an illegal move, but you're not supposed to do it. I would block the out of
the p plate unknowingly. My coach used it as a tactic.
It's uh unethical baseball. I would say
this is fun.
weapons in any of the vehicles. There are no checkers.
Here we go. Going into the game. We're going inside. Everyone's excited. Why does it keep pausing? Oh, he's buffering. You're buffering the video. Make it straight.
It's uh It's probably a track to get to the stadium. Got to have good footwear. That Alice's feet. I saw Alice's feet. Yeah. Uh, show kicks, Alex. You got some kicks. All right. Look at it's I saw some white
shoes on his feet. You got You got a shirt. You got What is that? Oh, we Oh, I like IRL content, you know. Yeah, that's so cool. Oh, here. I I came into this through IRL content.
See the Nor on my shoulder. She just jumped up. Lenor, are you sitting on my shoulder? I almost thought you said the Norseman just jumped on my shoulder. See? No, it's Lenor. Lenor, are you jumping my shoulder? CBD products make you hear things. Funny. Lenor think Lenor thinks she's a
She's a bird. You think you're a bird? Yeah, I got bird cats. Cat bird. Do you know uh do you remember the CKY videos? Yeah, I remember actually that I I Oh, they used to I mean they it was like after they like way after they came
out, but they used to like sell like bootleg copies of it on like eBay and back when I had I had a VCR and I would like it was probably bootlegs. They're probably regular copies. Or did you get them cheap? I got them on 25 bucks. Yeah, I think I I got them I think I got them on eBay. I think they were copies or something like that. And I probably
like, you know, I think I got them kind of cheap. They were right away. Whoa. I was one of those they made Yeah. One of those super fans, right? But uh it was skateboarding in fact that got me into that kind of stunt work.
But uh you know Brandon Deio I guess is I can't say that name very well. Brand do they called him, but uh he did the freestyle rap and he he's got a meme on the
internet now with the bucket. Um Scott, what did he say? Um Scott something. I'm 19 years old and he gets hit with the bucket. uh but he's looking to get back into
entertainment according to uh a podcast host and I was like stoked to hear that because he was doing some in uh pitch for the History Channel last time I heard going through
old uh outouses in the Pennsylvania and the East Coast because in old outouses you find artifacts, right? Historical artifacts people throw in toilets, old artifacts.
And one thing those guys aren't afraid of is toilets, right? Yep. Yes. The cats. The cats have eaten. You failed that one. It was all They're all cuddly. Where's Lenor? Hey, Tex. Come here.
Rudy's all good. They're all good. You think Bam Mar uh led all his friends astray or do you think uh his energy was positive at first? Well, I think, you know, it's like he I don't know if there was like, you know, he had more power than other people or anything like that
in the or how much he owns in the franchise and stuff like that. So, he probably had there was probably some kind of uneven power dynamic going on there. It's interesting, right? I'm not trying to like openly talk about it. No, it it
seems kind of um it's it's an individual reflection. So, I think Bam hung on to the loss of his friends, whereas like Steo cleaned his life up and did the complete opposite of what Bam
has done. When when Bam does good, I cheer. When Bam fails, I'm like, "Let's start again, brother. Please. I I want to see you again. And you know, it's hard the same way. It it's hard when you're a fan
because I was such a fan of Steo being Steo, but I I think you know we are of the same you know we are within brotherly age range to where Steo just being Steo is uh is a mentor as a
celebrity because it's like remember when we used to get up and do dumb it. It's like, hey, um, I'm the one that taught you how to do that and I'm the one that's teaching you to, you know, get your together and and that is I I think it's amazing. So, you know, being a fan of BAM as well, it's
like hey um, even as we grow, there is still an opportunity for failure. Um, but we love to see Bam recover, whereas like Steo is uh the poster boy for recovery and Bam is like, "Hey, the the struggle never
stops." And I'm I I understand that completely. So, I'm thankful for Yeah. Steo does what he does now and he still gets I've still uh I played a a song, a diss track, but I think the diss track is the
same thing. Uh even people dissing you is promotion in some of those people's eyes. I although I think some people take it personal. I know I have. Stop buzzing me. Um,
yeah, you're 100% right. He's holding on to Ryan Dunn's death. It hurt him. It was his best friend in skateboarding. He can't uh when he's not doing good, he he beats himself up
too much, I think, too. But who knows? I I agree with you. Uh untrace untrackable trackable untraceable. Um yeah, I agree with you on that.
I wish uh that never happened, but a a couple people Steo went completely vegan when he uh went to Len Cenus or whatever
when he got sober. And then I saw him finally at his comedy tour. I think he was doing great. And people are still on him for not being a comic. I think he's does his
comedy like anyone would do. You tell your stories, philosophy stories. Do it in a funny way. Do it in a sad way. Hey, M Mike Tyson is not a comedian, but when he did his standup tour
uh and told the story of his own life and and he made fun of himself. If you don't like the story, that's a you problem. He was a man that was prolific. He was epic. He is uh sensational. He is beyond words. and he talked about
himself and told his own stories like, "Hey, they were saying this about me, but I was busy doing this and you know, he's up there sweating. He's truthful, too. Ping his soul out and also making fun of himself. So, uh, hey, if you when it comes to comedy or it comes to any entertainment,
anything that you think is about entertainment, if you don't like it, well, then don't watch the I don't know what to tell you. But saying that, oh, you're you're not a real comic. It's like, well, no, I'm not. I'm a world championship
boxer. And um I live that life and this the entire set is about my life that I have accepted and uh I'm I'm thankful I'm thankful to even have a celebrity like Mike Tyson. You know what I mean?
Happy Father's Day. Yes, Mike. You you find you find leadership u in these people that actually do things. Uh, and I'm thankful to have witnessed Mike Tyson. Mike, I'm I'm thankful to have witnessed Steo as well because he helped me through my childhood was like, "Hey, be
brave Hey, but don't get too up." Well, he reminded you by doing it in front of you and then fixing it in front of you and that you can if you want to, you can fix it. I didn't think I'd recover
or see again. Yeah, it's like or talk. There's a lot of ores. I got you. it. Hey, it's it's full sin Sunday. I don't
know what to tell you. No, I don't I try not to sin, but we can't avoid it. If you believe in the Bible, we're born with sin.
Well, there will always be questions. Yeah. you said something earlier. Um, what and then it reminded me about the there are no stupid questions
that teachers would say, but then they also would get into those conferences with me and my parents and say, "Yeah, he disrupts the class too much." So what is the what what's the institutional learning experience that you want from
me? Like am I supposed to act a certain way for you? I mean, you know, I don't know. Yeah. Sometimes I think the um the biggest learning I I think it will always come from within. But um teachers
for some shape or form, they really know how to put the shame on you because it doesn't matter if you got a math problem wrong or if you were, you know, talking out of line or you fell asleep in class, they always found a way to put the shame. It's like shame, shame this
person, shame this person. And and then you know uh and then when you feel it it's like you know it's almost like an out of feeling shame is like an outof body experience where would I have been just as mean to myself should should I you know you put
yourself in the teacher's place and it's like oh this kid's falling asleep in my class and it's like to feel the pain of somebody falling asleep while you're talking is like the idea of shame it it does mean a lot.
It's maybe it's jealousy. They spend all night grading your halfass homework for you to, you know, maybe play games all night. So, you're sleeping. You didn't even turn in work. They would say you're right.
For shame, right? They shame you. But you I spent all night playing games, but I also spent all night reading on the internet about I'd wanted to read about and not doing the work. I failed school, dude. Sorry.
I got independent study finally through the Los Angeles School District and then uh got 4.0, I know but never graduated. I had to uh I had to get a job.
Hey, jobs are okay. Yeah. And I ended up, you know, I ended up being like when I needed to collect my social security, I was paid 100%. I've been working my whole life over the table. I'm paid up.
So, I'm not some I'm paid up and I'm temporarily gonna do this. I'm gonna find work soon. I'm sick and tired of not working and it's causing me problems. Cabin fever. You ever heard of that?
Yes. Yeah. It's like you you got idle hands. Even if I was just pressing a button
or what is the old man from the Willy Wonka from Johnny Depp Willy Wonka? He was putting toothpaste caps on. You know, there's got to be a a Walmart greeter job.
I mean, um, I'm I'm thankful. Um, yeah, it, you know, it's one that involves almost no people. Yeah, I had that too. It was awesome. Used to be people, people people. Yeah. And now it's uh
beep beep beep beep. And I'm like, "Oh, I love these beeps. They give me serenity." Beep beep beep beep. Honk honk. Beep beep beep. Oh, we don't have to talk to each other. We just have to not hit each other. Beep beep beep. Hong Kong. I love it. I don't have to talk to anyone all day if I don't want to.
There's uh there's certain jobs that I could do all day like surveillance probably do that. Mhm. If I wasn't blind. Psyche. What's the topic? Oh, whatever you guys want to talk
about. I'm just just Shooting the Yeah. There's Mr. Trix behind me. Hey, Trixs. Sitting up there. Hey, it's it's a much love. Happy Sunday. Uh I I don't know what to tell you, man. Hey, bring something up. What do you want to talk about? Something on
your mind? You see something lately? Oh, no. Actually, I see a lot of but the topics I want to bring up are uh it's the the the Middle East and stuff, so I feel like it's loaded with uh
that people can be mean about, and I don't want to invoke that cuz both sides are um committing the the same problems that we've been dealing with for the last thousand years or 500 years. I time
is kind of up for me right now. So, but I think uh everyone wants a piece of dirt and that's not going to I've already accepted that fact. I might not get a piece of dirt, but you know,
it's sad. It sucks. Um, and I don't know. I've lost all my before, you know, when you lose all your more than once. I I lo I got all my toys when I was
nine. I had to donate them, you know, like you learn from it. You learn from it. I think about things like that and it's like, what is it? Toys. it. Well, we outgrow toys and then other people can enjoy them, you know?
Honestly, I see what people need their land, but You're going to live. You want your people. I don't know. Maybe it's an organization thing. I could be nomadic.
Good morning, Paige. People take from me all the time, you know. Yeah. Well, we share basically. I say me being up here, I'm sharing. It's like Joe Joe always like whenever whenever Joe's friend Kim leaves like
the house to go get beer, he like checks he finds he has like a big bag that's full of like his toilet paper and his you know his food bag of chips. Yeah, he's just sharing. He's just sharing.
There you go, Psych. You're getting me Yeah, you're getting me fired up now. Thank you for the farts. I want you I want you uh What clip? Flirty Diamond. There's a clip. Let me see what's Flirty Diamond say. Uh oh.
Flirty Diamond will stir this pot. I know. Did anybody see Did anybody see when Q porn bomb last night and he does anyone have that clipped? Q porn bomb last I don't know if it's on my I'm sure somebody did if it happened.
I'm sure it didn't get away. I'm sure you did at least. I didn't I I deleted it because I didn't want to keep that up and so but I wonder if somebody clipped it. It was pretty shocking. you would have just if you would have waited
you could have waited like when I think if you're going to do um sexual things I don't think he was intending to show you his I'm just being honest.
Even maybe it wasn't his. Oh, you said he stood up. Oh, damn.
I legit thought somebody had a picture of my one one time. I'm not kidding. I don't take like my girl and I are always together. Why
would you do that? You know, but um I I had this thought in my head out of nowhere. Um my nudes were leaked. I woke up cuz I get these PTSD wakeup calls, you
know? Um I'm calling it that. It's just a nightmare. But it was somebody had my I had to rationalize at at some point. You have to understand that if if you put it out there into the
world, it it will exist. So, you know, the ancient aliens will come and they will find the picture, a sim card that was buried in the stone and preserved and be like, "Oh, hey, it still works." And what did we find? Oh, it's just some dude's dick. They whether they they're not going to
know enough about dicks. They're just going to know that like it's a dick. That's all they're going to know. Yeah. Well, I mean, it's been like over a decade since I've taken one. So, is
think about that. At the end of the day, it it's just a dick. If you put it out there, the world, it will exist. That was about 10 years ago, too. 15 actually. I split my pants at a party and I had no
underwear on. So, and it was a mud pit, you know, kind of punk rock backyard kegger style thing. That's the other place that it might have happened. But other than that, pretty modest. I've threatened it.
Well, I mean, what does it entail to Hey, what does it entail to threaten to threaten nudity? It's like, I don't know. I'm fixing to get naked up in this Well, it's the uh Well, it's the I stole it from
Dave Chappelle. I'll be honest. I'll whip my balls out right here. You know, kind of It was a stolen joke. That's the threatening of nudity. It's not really It's not real. Yeah. And you know, some people are
scared of seeing the truth uh you know about human bodies and and some people are looking to be like, "Oh, that's a violation of to I got you, Oh, that's the worst ones that wait for the toos violations and get you. It's like you're obsessed, man.
It comes from experience. I just hang around for somebody to violate another person because I love to see it. It's like sometimes I antagonize people be like, "Hey, violate me. Let's see what happens." Yeah. It's not nice. I feel like
everybody has a point of violation, right? You have a there's no I guess completely submissive person. You you would have to fight back, right?
Unless you're paralyzed. I mean, sometimes your fight back against uh the that comes across these verbal streets. Sometimes your best fight is to, you know, remain silent and be like, "Oh, this this son of a talking crazy now. Hey, you
you said my name. Just just let me listen to what you got to say." You know, you can appreciate that, too.
Is this looking at Oh, here. Hold on. Who is this person? Are you a real wave? Wave again. Wave again.
Kiss. Yeah, I'm here. Are you Ezy's friend? Whose friend? Easy. I don't think so. No, I don't know nobody by that name. Okay. Hi. But I do know a lot of people. I've been checking out your stream. You have a lot of people on your panel and in your chat that I do know. They just don't happen to be here now. Oh, that's Doug D. Is
that Douggee Doug? Douggee Doug. I I don't go by the other names. There's a Douggee D. There's other Duggies. There's Douglas KDson. There's all kind of Doug, but Okay. You're not only one Douggee Doug. Okay, cool. So, nice to meet you, sir. I'm good. I want to say hello. Untractable. I've
seen on other panels somewhere, but I'm not sure where. My name is Scum A usually. You scum? Yes. No way. Yes. So, you scum a you go you go by Surf Dogs. Yes. So, you know me from Surf Dog then? Yes. Maybe. Absolutely
you do. So in chat I have eye issues and brain issues. So it it it's my brain that makes my eyes not see well. So if I don't recognize the name, it's because of my brain injury. That's fine. But I I
see you at Surf Dog and I see you other places, too. Yeah. Um now Psych Psych Awakens. I don't think I've ever seen you in any other chat anywhere. Of course, I heard about you. So, I came to your your stream. Oh, you did? Where'd you hear about me? Um, who do I know? I know Gotti. I know Tiffany. I know JT. I
know you know that those people, you know what I'm talking about. Yeah. Yeah. I have I haven't been to too many panels lately, you know. I'm just focus on my I used to go on a lot more. So, but yeah. So, you know, do you know thing that is? I beg you pardon. Thing that is. There was someone named Thing That is who says
this is the miserable Doug D. Miserable. No, I don't know. Thing that is. They change their names. It don't matter. The names don't matter. Like like Ronald said, he said, "I'm scaring. I would have had no idea if he didn't tell me." You know what I mean? Yeah. So, yeah. Names don't matter. I don't change my name. I've always chatted for five years
under the same name. Um, it never I never had any good reason to make a different name. You know what I mean? Uhuh. I don't have a good reason. I just play around with names. Yeah. Some people change your name every week. I You know what I mean? Still the same person. Yeah.
Yep. Well, happy Sunday. Happy. How come I don't see that comment? Let me go undercover. Father comment that you posted. I don't see it in the chat. Let me see. No, I I I think that's very important as far as um the idea of integrity. It's um your your recognizableness.
So, yes, you can change your name as long as you come up under the same face. Um you know, we all have uh this anonymity that we're going to try to have. However, yeah, how however entertainment there there was nothing like somebody's voice and what their
face actually looks like and that's why panel is different than chat. Panel is different than chat because you like exactly like you said as some people don't ever show themselves on panel but you do get to hear their voice. So, I don't know. But, um, I I don't change my
name because I actually I want people to know who I am and recognize my name and be recognized that way. I don't, you know, I'm not I don't want people to, you know, not I don't want to go into a chat and not be recognized, right? You know what I mean? Right. Yeah. Yeah. And and it it can also be said like what's in the name. So the levels of
communication between the places where you uh spend your time, if you have um extended communications like emails and phone numbers, text messages, uh you you can let somebody that you're in cahoots with know. However, when when you're just being you out here in these streets, uh you have to be recognizable
because you can completely go undercover. You could use AI everything as long as as long as you let Psyche know like, hey, I'm I'm about to be somebody completely different today. Yeah, he's Yeah, there be no need for that with me. I'm kind of low tech. I've been in YouTube about five years. I've been streaming maybe a little over four
years doing panels and stuff. I know a lot of people um and I know all about everyone change their name and they and they make and they don't and they don't want you to know so they pretend there's someone else and you know it can be a whole pile of right well like we
got into it earlier about uh coming forth with um I might have said something to the fact that might have been controversial on another stream and I wanted Psyche to know that I wasn't trying to bomb his
stream. It was all passion whatnot. Um, well, I'm not malicious in that way, but I guess I've been looked at as that and painted that way. So, you know, you can believe what you want.
YouTube, you don't believe anything. Don't believe anything. Sorry. I tried to explain to someone. I'm like, you know, if you if someone says something in YouTube and and you and you know, chances are it 95% chance it's You know what I mean? No point getting upset about what they say. It's You know,
like Yeah. I have I've formed in the five years I've been in YouTube, I've formed very specific ideas and opinions. I understand also unttrackable to your point some people change your name because they want to play a character. They don't want to be themselves. They want they want to be like someone completely like like on like as if you're making a movie. They want to be a
character. Right. So that's why some people, right? But but I'm not, you know, I'm not I've never felt inclined to to to try and make anybody think I'm somebody else or even just to pretend to be somebody else. You know, I chat with people who are in character the whole time they're in chat, just dumb or
being stupid or silly, but they're not like that in real life. You know what I mean? It's like a character that they create to play on YouTube. Whatever gets you off, you know what I mean? blow off steam. Yeah. But yeah, whatever you need to do. I see it. I've seen it, too.
In fact, a lot of people I know in YouTube are just playing roles as if it's a soap opera and they're just acting the part. You know what I mean? Yeah. or people because you that's all like ever since I started the internet I would have you know just on be on AOL I'd have a screen name and then you could you could play any put anything you want in the profile be any kind of character you want and it's people
people have just taken that to the next level with the with the video and the characters and the panels a lot of people that's why a lot of people probably don't show themselves they're probably maybe some people are multiple people multiple characters and and so they can't show themselves because Yeah. Yeah. I've always given up my extra
channels. I always tell them or I change the channel name to my name and it gives it up right there. Is your name really Ronald McGillicuy? No, no, no. That's Ronald McDonald and Lucy's fake name
from I Love Lucy. But Lucy's maiden name was McGillicon. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Um, okay. And Unttrackable. I've seen you on somewhere else chatting some. Do you go to like Gut Rot or places like that?
Um, I I go damn near anywhere that will have me. Yeah. And I'm I'm okay with it. Well, I hope you check out my panel, too. I do a panel about twice a week. I noticed Psyche since since I spoke with Tiffany about you like three days ago, you seem to be up more than you're not. Like you you you stream a lot, right?
Yeah, I do stream a lot. Yeah. Yeah. I don't pretty much like a lot of the time that I'm awake. I'm I'm streaming. Um I stream for like four or five hours twice a week. You know what I mean? Okay. Yeah. What's your Tell tell your channel name and let if a mod or a mod knows Douggee Doug. It's my name. Douggee Doug. Can a mod can a mod um
post that channel so and we can check out Doug's panels? Let me type in the chat. Okay. Yeah. I'm not sure if Yeah, if you type the channel name then uh I'm not sure if you can post a link yet cuz it's just WD and it's the avatar the orange shirt. Guy in an orange shirt and
a boat. That's me. Okay. Okay. Yeah. Let's check out his channel, guys. Um, I have certain rules at my panel which is, you know, it's not for everybody and that's why people like Gotti don't come to my my panel because I end up having to get rid of them. It happens every
time. You know what I mean? The basic rule basic rules. Thank you, Hot Pocket. The basic rule of my place is we're not going to get on on people's we want to keep the chat pleasant. That means we're not taking the sh taking, you know, we're not giving everybody and harassing other people and stuff like that in the chat, right? That's the basic rule is we don't fight
in the chat. We don't call people man. The other thing what I really when I started with the rules at first I didn't have no rules, but I figured it out over time. I've been doing this a while, right? The first rule was don't talk about people who aren't here. That was the first, but now that's been modified to include much more. You know what I mean? We're not going to talk about anybody whether
they're there or not. And now a lot of people don't they don't come to my panel because they they they can't talk about other people and they want to be somewhere where they can. So I just say that it's not like a like a warning. I'm just telling you that so so that you know you understand what kind
of channel I am. Yeah. Sometimes that when you think about the way that we experience these open panels that you have to explain rules to people and be like, "Hey, if you ask a question, you know, you are one person
asking a question. There might be nine other people that all have answers. If you're not willing to listen to nine answers, don't ask a question. Don't ask a question." Yeah. But I think it I think it becomes funny that we talk about, hey, h how do you conduct yourself out in the real world? You you
you speak on business, you wait for results, and then you keep it moving. I I I don't know about y'all, but that's how I do it. Well, I ex people don't act on on on in on in YouTube or on channel I don't think much you know the way they do in the real world because because you know why because we have all
this distance between us right I mean it's like it was what Psyche said it's like it's anonymity right even though we can see each other you can't you can't reach out and punch me in the face, right? So, it's like, you know, I can I can literally behave
any way I want to depending if I don't care ever care to talk to you again or whatever. You know what I mean? I'm not there's no physical danger. I've told people that, too. They're like, "Oh, well, it hurt." I'm like, "Nothing in YouTube hurts. Nothing nothing inflicts pain on you
when you're in YouTube." Right. Right. But emotional distress, but not pain. Right. pain is something different, right? And and and also it's like if you came here to listen and to have your two cents, right? If I ask you a question, um you want to answer it, everyone wants
to answer the same question. So if I just, you know, put it out there, right? Um then then I have to be willing to listen to one, two, and three. But of course, you could direct your question to one person specifically. That is to say, I can ask Psyche a question and I can say, "See, this question is for you. I'm not looking to get your answer."
Right. Well, would it hurt your feelings if you asked Psyche a specific question and Psyche answered it and then the other two people that didn't ask the question also? Yeah. No, nothing in YouTube hurts my feelings. I learned that lesson a
long time ago, too. If you're going to get emotionally involved, then you're going to have issues with your YouTube experience, right? Like in my chat, I say keep it pleasant. We talk about all kinds of crap. What we don't do is talk about people, you know what I mean? It's like it's hard because you can say good thing about someone and someone else wants to say the opposite about the same person.
So, it becomes difficult. You know what I mean? Yeah, it's never the first comment. Somebody could say, you know, anything, right? Never the first. It's when everyone else responds to the comment that things become become dodgy in my opinion. Mhm. I noticed your accounts from May of last year, but
you're only 13 months in YouTube. Yeah. I started this channel and I and I started streaming probably eight months ago. I started um maybe not even streaming maybe. Yeah, maybe eight months cuz now it's June. Yeah. So, six months. So, maybe eight nine months I've been you've done. I see. I see you're
monetized too. Yes. I'm never I'm not monetized. I got I got like 2,000 subs, but I'm never gonna I'm not my YouTube. I'm not trying to make any money. I never want to ask anybody for money. I never want to have memberships and that stuff. I don't know because I I don't need it. I'm not I'm not here to make money. I'm here to have fun. You
know what I mean? Just I don't want it to be a job, right? I don't want it to be a job. And not only that, this I know I don't want people's money. People need their money. That's why they earn it. You know, that's why they work or whatever. You know what I mean? Now, not that I'm against monetization. I think you've done very well. you've
got more subs than me and I've been in for like five years doing more or less the same thing, right? Like running a panel and blah blah blah. But um you know, I don't have any I don't have any content to offer. I don't do I don't have I'm not like I'm not sitting here juggling. I'm not singing songs. I just
sit around like this on my panel. You know what I mean? I get it. And I'm very low tech. I can't even put other things up on my screen while I'm paneling. I know it's possible. I know I could learn how. Someone once taught me how, but I don't remember. You know what I mean? I'm not that worried about it.
Well, you use Streamyard. I I have Streamyards. Yeah. I also live stream in YouTube sometimes for various reasons. Yeah. on Streamyard it's a little bit easier to put up. Um you can like in the media assets you can like uh upload a photo or a video media assets. Yeah. Yeah. I just
I got to learn the moves by rope. Yeah. I won't be able to repeat them. You know what I mean? Yeah. I've learned I've learned a lot like just through actually this year I've streamed every day except for one day. There's I took one Monday off or something like that. But I've streamed every day done open panels every day. every day this year.
So, um, so I've been very, you know, just like really spending a lot of time on it. Yeah. And work and working on building. I just I just I've just been going step by step and I went to other panels. I used to go to a lot of lot more other panels and and uh and then I can do
readings and then I just attract att track a lot of people. So, u I just I don't know. I've noticed a lot of people on YouTube. There's a lot of people on YouTube that read tarot cards, too. I noticed. Yeah, it's really taken off because it's a good it's a good it's a good it's a way to it's a way to offer a service, you know. And uh and a lot of people are are
interested to YouTube also because it's visual, right? You can Yeah. Yeah. It's very Yeah. Very good. cuz I used to do readings over Etsy like and I would say I would do them I would just write them out and take a photo of it and that was like you know 2020 and then then I think now it's pretty much everything's moved
to the v the video and so um so I think YouTube's almost a better place than Etsy right now but Etsy was Etsy was popular for tarot at one time and now now there's everyone's going for the video readings there's so many free readings available out there um you know
and or you know short sample readings and Mhm. there's great general readings and so yeah but I have a very different kind of tarot show. It's a it's not the typical tarot show. It's not the typical open panel show. I was checking your cards out in your live stream last night. That's not a standard tarot deck. Um no like I have this this is like the writer deck. This is like just a gold
foil. I made a mental note of the queen of knives, right? With all the knives hanging up behind her. I've never seen that on a tarot deck like that. Right. Yeah. Well, that's a Yeah, that's called I think that's from the Hudoo Tudoo Tarot. Okay. And so that's a it's a unique deck with like uh and it's a it's a great deck because every every card has like, you know, just like the
writerweight, every card is full of full of symbolism and a and an actual picture rather than just the picture of the cups because makes it easier to interpret when there's like a kind of a story laid out on the on the card a little bit. That's about right, Flirty Times. That's about right. Just about right. Although I try not to complain a lot.
Flirty time. What do you got? Nipple rings. Well, I don't know. I don't think it's a I don't think it's a real flirty diamond, but um the flirty diamond does have nipple rings. Have you met Flirty Diamond yet or No. Flirty Flirty Times address me in the chat. I know. Yeah, but there's somebody named But you said something about about nipple rings and there's actually there's somebody named
Flirty Diamond. I think Flirty Times is is like a par parody account. And listen, there's par there's parody accounts of me. You'll see if you go to those unmoded chat rooms, you'll see people par parody my name and my account. I've been I've been I've been in YouTube long enough. I've been
cloned. I've been parodyied. I've been, you know, people try and you know, uh, you know, get an emote, get a rise. You know, they want to they want to get you in chat arguing with them, right? that's their goal. So, what I've learned over time is some people I just completely ignore them. I don't I don't uh I don't block anybody and not I don't
have anybody on my block list. I want to see what everybody says. And of course, I chat on two devices, right? You see here here I am on your stream in YouTube, right? So, so I I use two devices so I can always see everybody who has me block. You know what I mean? Um Yeah.
But what I do, my my defense's mechanism is to completely ignore people, carry on my business without acknowledging them whatsoever. Right. Yeah. Now, that seems to work pretty well because after a while, they seem to get bored and be like, you know, Yeah. You know what I mean? Yeah. But some people I've had one guy been been
trolling me on a name similar to mine, uh, Doey Doe, right? Picture of the Pillsbury Doughboy in the avatar. Right. Do and he's been doing it for years, right? So, there's another guy in my chat named Doug D. I don't know. Oh, there's Flirty Diamond. Flirty Diamond. If you want to say hi to Doug, you can meet Doug. But
you can't show him your nipple rings, though, unless we go back. Let me check Flirty Diamond account. Wait. Yeah. Okay. Flirty Diamond. So, they're both So, they're both in here. Yep. Diamond. I'm going to go ahead and sub to you Freddy Diamond because what the heck she rushed on.
I'll leave you a comment on your short hard don't you think psyche so did you you jumped on the scene hard too with beta at least from me my perspective of things. Well, that's okay because I met I was able to, you know, I met Bea and was on
her panel probably right before I started um I started open panels. I don't know if I was streaming at the time, but I and I met, you know, I met her through Joker and I was on Joker's channel last year. I was on and I met a lot of people in Benny's and so I met like a lot of IP2 people, met a lot of people through Alisa and you know, Beta
and even even Alisa Jordana. So, so that I know, of course, I know Todd, right? You remember Todd? Okay. Yeah, I I've seen I've seen him on video. Todd Goldfinger was live only an hour ago, in fact. Oh, he was. He's gone down to Ecuador. He's moved around. Todd actually lived not half an hour from me.
I've I've visited Todd. Mhm. He doesn't have a very pleasant story to tell about Alisa. I don't I've never spoken in her chat. I've gone once in a while. I haven't been in a long time. And watched it. I know what she's doing and what it is. It's all fine, right? It But I I never went into a chat and spoke. I never felt inclined to to do that, you
know. Yeah. Yeah. Well, her chat her chat's turned against me, but I'm I'm friends with her and so I I'll call into her. I'll call her in on her on her phone or sometimes um play a song or, you know, um play a song. You know, you can send a song. Nobody you you I I share that sentiment about his stream. I
don't want to talk bad about the guy and I I wish him all the luck and support in the world, but yeah. Um, but that's what people say about my stream, too. Nobody Everybody says my stream is boring. And you know what? I I pride myself in having a boring stream. See you later, Untrackable. Have a good one. Unttrackable. Did he
wave goodbye and I missed it? Is that Yeah, he he he did a peace sign. Yeah. And he Okay. He said goodbye in the private chat. I'm going have to go after the cigarette. We're going out for lunch. I got to play bridge this afternoon to my parents. Okay. Well, happy Father's Day and Oh, thank you. Yes. Yeah. And to you, I don't know if you have kids, but happy Father's Day
nonetheless. Yes. I have cats. I'm a cat cat to you guys. Yeah. Thank you. So, we probably know a lot of the same people. Yeah. You know, you know, I've seen the name. It's not someone I know. I've seen Yeah. Well, she because Well, I asked because she knows um she
knows Todd, too. Like, she was like That's right. She That's where I know her from. Um her channel her her channel's called Bea's Kitties BKG. Like, she just she's got a like a new channel, but she does open panels, too. BKG. Okay. Beta's Kitties BKG. Be tas BKG. That's her new
channel. She does open panels. They're pretty wild. I think you probably enjoy. Well, yeah, because I know maybe maybe you like to have more I don't know I know your your panel you like to have, you know, have a nice calm pleasant panel, but I don't know if you like to go to some kind of go to wild panels because I know I lurk I lurk I lurk at some of the wild places I wouldn't talk
I go to and I read and I listen. Sure. But I wouldn't talk to some of you know it's it's not that I don't feel the urge to call people out because of course I do. But I I try and show I try and restrain myself in YouTube. You know what I mean? Yeah. Mainly because because I know that it doesn't matter. It doesn't have any relevance or bearing
on my daily life or you know what I mean? It's not important. So why get in a if you're going to come into YouTube and every time you leave YouTube, you're upset. You're not in my opinion, you're not doing YouTube right. You know what I mean? Like if you're going to let people piss you off,
what I mean, you know, but I also understand that some people thrive on that. Not everybody's like me, and I appreciate and respect the differences, you know. I I don't get mad at people who are trolls. No, they're just they're doing their thing. We're all different. They're doing their thing. I do my
thing, you know. It's not like there's there's a there's a right way and a wrong way. It's really just your own personal opinion is is what it is, right? Mhm. Is Justin Bole. Justin? I don't know. Justin, isn't he God? Isn't Justin and Gotti the same person? Am I wrong? He said he ain't no I think. Yeah, he says he ain't no Gotti. I think
so. I think that you might be on. I think I think they're the same. I've thought that for several years, in fact. But once again, I may be wrong, so I don't know. Yeah, I don't know anybody by that name. You don't know Gotti? I think you were on the panel with them the other day. I'm
not sure if you uh maybe. Yeah, maybe. But like I can't see names. I can't Sometimes they come up blurry or even characters I can't read. But then sometimes they perfectly come up. So
it's the oxidable oxidable lobe. So my brain damage has it's funny if my meds are working. I can read. Yeah, Doug, I think you're I think you got some goddy trolls in the chat. I'm
not sure there. Yeah. Yeah, sure. I'm reading them. I'm not worried. But I do got because we got to be down there at 1:30 and it's quarter past. Enjoy your Father's Day. Yeah, happy Father's Day. Flirty Flirty Flirty Diamond subscribe back to you. I don't know if you saw that, but yeah, I did. Thank you, Flirty Diamond. I did sub to
her and I went to her channel and left you a comment. Okay, awesome. I didn't sub to to Flirty whatever the other guy Flirty Times cuz his avatar, he's sitting there holding his nipples. He just looks like a troll. Yeah, I have no content either. So, there's Yeah, I generally I I will sub to people without any content, but only
like friends. I don't just sub to people who have no content on their channel. It just makes you know if there's nothing to go see. You're never going to get a notice. Why be sub to them, right? I don't Yeah. Okay. See you later. Thank you. Thank you for coming. Have you have a great day? Come back. Come back. Okay, sounds
I talked to Tiffany I don't know half a week ago and she told me about the play I've been coming I seen I seen who's on your panel I've seen who's in your chat and scum actually I actually know because I go to Surf Dogs awesome great talking to you and that you have a wonderful Father's Day have a blessed day okay look out for you see
Yeah, he's a he's a I like he's he's a cool guy. He's a I like I like him a lot. He's a knowledgeable and seems like a interesting uh interesting person. So, let's see. Yeah. Am I overstaying my welcome psyche? No, you're you're you're f you're absolutely fine. Yeah. I'm just cons I'm considering going for
a shave today. I don't know. I saw this like a sign yesterday. It said like men's haircuts. It said men's haircut. It's $22 or something like that. And uh but it's kind of like a little I think it's kind of like a manicure pedicure place mainly. You're welcome, Doug. Great to see you. And so uh so I don't know if they do shaves, but I think they probably do do shaves if if they you
know if they do haircuts. And so they're going to upsell you. They're going to do what? They'll upsell you if it's discount haircut place. Well, it's like, you know, it's go shave your head. No, I'm just going to shave my face because I have like a, you know, my family event today and my, you know, when I have a beard like this, it just drives them crazy. So, yeah, you don't have a
Gillette. I have a like a mock I do have a a mock razor. It's just like my hair is just so crazy. It's like so long right now. It's like last time I shaved, it took like an hour to shave. I mean, I can, but get the Baldi special for $5. I take it all off. Yeah, I'll have to I'll see how much they charge for that. Maybe I'll just get like the a full shave and a
haircut that I would look kind of weird. Guys, was anybody here was anybody here when Q porn bomb last night? I just need I need I need a I need to coll I want someone to collaborate my corroborate my story where he he was fully erect um slapping his wiener on my stream. Did anybody see it? Can anyone
collaborate? I don't know if it was me to know. Yeah, I want you to know like I'm the only one doubting. Q person Q Q did it. Q at the at least right now. You doubt it right now? I don't know.
That's what I'm saying. I'm doubting. I'm the only one I feel like is doubting. Was this big? I don't know. It looked like it was It looked It looked kind of big. I don't know. I was thinking it was either like a dildo or like like a like his It was not his finger, I don't think. Oh, he does the
finger thing. I forgot about that. Yeah. Well, well, his finger isn't the If you said it was the thick six, his finger isn't as thick six, but he does finger thing. This He must have a He has a big finger.
You block Did you block You blocked Amber in chat? Did I? I don't think so. I see her all the time. She says, "Why did you block me in chat?" Did I? Because I've been nothing but nothing to you and always and always offended you. You blocked everybody. It's not a
sensitivity. It's not a personal thing. I keep repeating it. If people are going to keep asking,
that's exactly what he did. Psyche, you horde dog. I couldn't see you the other night in someone's chat. Oh, when I can figure it out, everybody is getting unblocked. Yeah, you have to go like you have to Google Google like Google because it's not it's like you have to Google blocked
contacts and then it's like there's like a little there's like an area on Google where you can um take them off like anybody blocking chat. Yeah, figure I figured it out. I just you know it's it's pure laziness and then I have to go through and block everybody else. You know, I'll unblock.
Mhm. And then when I see the people that I want to block, like I don't want to see a man's penis every time, you know, come up on the screen. I think you don't want that on your stream. No. So, I mean, you can
accidentally click it. I'm blind, so I can accidentally click it. put it up on the screen so people can see and get my channel struck. Oh, that sounds fun. Or taken down. Sounds fun.
Yeah. It's not that I care too much about the actual content of my channel. I just, you know, I don't want to up the anything like people want to up and people want to destroy you uh for
whatever game, whatever thing is. And I have um you know memories and and people uh I think honestly if you're sabotaging you're either sabotaging because somebody has done something to
uh piss you off or you're trying to get rid of evidence. Mhm. Hey Loki, let's see though. They say they say you you blocked somebody. You said you saw like
a a penis on an avatar. No, I don't care about penises. I don't I just don't want to you know, accidentally I say I put a panel on, right? I go on my channel and
put on a panel, right? which I used to host. I would host panels. We'd watch I Crystal Marie Sig and Blackout join. That's my only guests. Oh, Oliver Brick Layer.
Whoever that was. He was a Danish guy and he's not been around. So, I wonder what he did. You know, who knows what witch hunt came from that, right? So, I went down and I haven't done it
since because of what goes on on these panels. I do it on Rumble in a heartbeat because it doesn't matter. But it does matter on Rumble, too. So, when I can do the hand eye coordination, I'm working on it. You know what I want
to do is remember the air hockey tables. That was my We used to play air hockey. It requires me to stand. Also thinking quick with my hands.
Um, so I'm thinking air hockey is going to help too. And uh not that I don't have confidence, but martial arts and uh combat sports was another thing I wanted
to do, but I need to do my occupational therapy. What do you uh what time are you doing your Father's Day thing? Um probably like, you know, probably like 3 3:30 afternoon.
So it's 10 afternoon sometime. So right now it says 1072. Yeah. 10:22. Yeah. That's what I see. I see 1072. But yeah. Yeah. I might uh Well, now so the barber
shop is probably I don't know if it's a barber shop or it's like a it's like a nail place, but I I'll probably go over and check out if they're they're they're uh they're doing shaves and then I'll come back and then I'll show you guys my shave. How's that sound? I will look forward to it. I got to call my dad's.
Okay, you have a wonderful day. I'll be back. I'll be back. Okay. Love you guys. I'm going to go see if I can get a shave or I'll get a razor. Okay, I'll talk to you guys soon. Oh, hold on. Alexander wants to come on.
Bye Sassy. You don't want to see it? You want to see? You will. You'll you'll you'll love it. Not my nails painted, just my hair today. Or just Yeah, just my my just my shave. What if we don't want to see the shave? Well, you don't you don't have to
watch it. You can you can see you can see it after let you cook. Oh, low key. Okay, be polite to my mods. Gam, I don't I don't think they're serious. Uh oh. Okay, have a great day
everybody. I'll see if I can get a shave. I'll be back. Okay.
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