Psyche discusses a video from a former co-host that criticizes him, and he shares his thoughts on the matter. He also talks about a recent intense conversation on his show between Raging Demon and Beta, and how he had to end the stream abruptly.
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The episode starts with Psyche introducing the show and discussing tarot readings. However, he quickly shifts to talking about a video from a former co-host that criticizes him, saying he is 'very dangerous to the community' and 'hurting gay people' ▶ 3:07. Psyche expresses his shock and denial of these claims, and mentions that he has many gay friends who support him ▶ 4:00. He also talks about a recent conversation on his show between Raging Demon and Beta, which became intense and personal ▶ 6:50. Psyche mentions that he had to end the stream abruptly because he didn't like the direction the conversation was going ▶ 7:26. He also shares his thoughts on how some people can be strong and combative online, but still get hurt by personal comments ▶ 9:45. At ▶ 10:40, Psyche reflects on how the show's spirit is not about endorsing or promoting hurtful behavior. He also mentions that he needs to figure out a 'safe word' to use when things get too far ▶ 10:20.
The episode appears to touch on the theme of online drama and criticism, as well as the importance of maintaining a positive and respectful community. Psyche seems to be navigating the challenges of hosting a show where intense conversations can occur, and he is reflecting on how to balance free speech with maintaining a safe and respectful environment. The episode also suggests that Psyche values his relationships with his friends and co-hosts, and is committed to maintaining strong bonds with them.
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Yeah. Good morning. How's everyone doing this morning? Oh,
wow. Hi. What's up? I had a good night last night. Um, I didn't drink last night. I drank a little bit yesterday before the beer. Hey, baby. Um, yeah. I don't know. I just watched an
interesting video. I'm not going to say who made it. Um, it's somebody I'm acquainted with. Um, and I do care about. Um, and basically the gist of what they were saying is that I am very dangerous to the
community. Um, and I am hurting gay people. Um, and then I am letting people perpetrate. I chose my my my straight supporters over my gay supporters. I'm
um I am perpetrating something. I don't know. Um, what else was it? that I am I'm pushing the boundaries and like you know oh I and then I'm like allowing hate crimes to be perpetrated on me and I so you know first of all I'll say
um I don't I didn't I haven't really noticed that many that many I mean I'm sure I have and I do have you know some some great gay friends here and like you know trans trans friends and things like that And I didn't know I didn't notice a huge outpouring of support from any any particular community you
know. She was No. Um, no, it was Oh, you think so? Oh, No, I don't think it was it was somebody else. I'm not sure. Is there another I know I know I know and I think maybe the person was referencing that you know
um she was I mean she did reference you know you know trans people too and stuff like that but um I think she was she was talking about oh you know I don't know maybe she was maybe she was referencing just sorting diamond reality Nancy
See? Wow. What the hell would shock a super? Yeah, but I'm saying Yeah, I'm in shock, right? No, I've been I've been shocked before. Yeah, and I'm not saying I did it every I said I I said I smoked weed for 25 years, but I uh I did off and on um do other So, you're incorrect. You
say I just did it 20 25 years straight. I I I've uh I don't think it's Alex, but um yeah. No, no, no. I know. I I think I think Yeah, I think you're talking about a different person. I'm talking I'm talking about a person that used to be used to be kind of a part of the show. More of a part of the show. I'm not 100%
sure who Alex is. And I don't think, you know, I don't think um that person's been talking about me. But I mean, I keep hearing, oh, this person's talking about, and she doesn't ever use names, and so I won't use her name today. Uh, that she doesn't use names when she talks about it. Um, but it kind of became obvious that she was talking about me and
uh or maybe and Flirty Diamond and you know, other people too. is like and then saying that I'm um well that I'm a I'm not I don't know. She said very dangerous for the community. She might because she's like I because um
I'm I'm hitting on straight men and but maybe she was talking about Flirty Diamond, you know, but there was other stuff that made it sound like it was about me. But yeah, maybe it must be paranoid. Hey, what's up? Yeah, but it's okay. So, last night also like you know raging demon came on
and it's like I kind of um you know talked to beta and after hung up I did allow um I did allow and he was saying terrible things but she did she asked me to put her on on um on oneonone and I let them talk and stuff like that. Um, but then after that, you
know, I put Big Rob and who else? And, uh, Maser on and I just stayed backstage and then I was kind of falling asleep and so and then it was just like it was they're kind of too low too noisy for me. So, I just ended the stream very abruptly. Also, I didn't like the direction it was going with like, you know, it gets it was funny, but it was
like not enough is enough. You can't have, you know, I don't, but I I do I sorry I do I was falling asleep, you know, um for a lot of like during a lot of that and just like letting VA do her thing and stuff like that. But are you invest investigating might me and Benny? Okay. Well, good luck with that. Good luck with that. He's going to have to
he's not going to find very much. I think I made one joke I made one joke with Benny one time and I I said, "Make me a robot." And then he's like he like he kind of like joked back and then I said turn me into a motorcycle or a motorbike and ride me and then he's like and he kind of gave me a weird look and he's like oh never say that again. That's the only time I ever made any
kind of maybe joke but and it was a joke because I'm not interested in Okay. I I know I know It was some It was I'll give the I'll give the uh the um I guess I could I'll say it's a woman that used to be a co-host on the show. Okay. So, it's some you know and
maybe she is referencing Flirty Diamond, but she's saying that you know and also Flirty Diamond does have a show too and she and she was kind of talk but she I think she was also referencing me in this video. It was supposed it was like a 15 minute maybe 10 minute video she posted today. Yeah. So, I mean the raging demon versus beta. It was pretty, it was
pretty intense. Um, uh, and I, you know, I don't like those words being called, oh, then some of the things being said were just like, oh, very out of pocket and, you know, to say terrible, terrible things you should, that should not be said. And it's like, I don't want to seem like I'm endorsing any of that if I allow because, you know, Vita said, oh, put us oneonone,
you know, and she wanted to. So, I think, and I know she understands, right? But, um, but I I do get upset when like there's certain things being said like just very hurtful things and I know it's like she can she's so tough and stuff like that but when you get so personal when you talk about people's family people's um
people's animals and you know he said something just horrible like you know and it's like like I know with me like I can I can like have a tough front sometimes and I can laugh at things and then it's like and I'll be hurt and it's like I've seen also with like a Lisa Lisa is the same way. She's like so um
so strong and and uh and can be combative and and joke around, but then it's like some things are said and it's like a few hours later in her car she's she's sobbing and stuff like that. So, I know things hurt people, especially things that are said like that. And it's like and we can like, you know, maybe laugh things off sometimes, but it's
like I just I I need like a I need like to figure out some kind of safe word when things get too far and it's like the person doesn't want to deal with it anymore because I don't sometimes I just don't I don't know. I don't know like you know I think if I should have like you know cut it off earlier and stuff and it was it's really not the spirit of
the of the show to like I mean it did go on for quite a while with him screaming you know and stuff like that and I know he's not maybe maybe he's having a some kind of um mental mental breakdown. I don't I don't know what got him so upset. I have to check back and like look at maybe VA's
live and she might she might be explain because he just was um very very angry um and screaming at her and then but you know Vita has my back on so many things and you know she's proven again and again people will say it people will constantly be trying to um to get between us and
to that but we're we're very strong together. We we we we talk every day, you know, off offline and things like that and about about things and stuff like that and we have a very strong relationship, right? It it was it was kind of Yeah, it was kind of a it's kind of crazy though, but um you know, I don't like when things
kind of go that get that far and it's like maybe I maybe I was a little bit tired last night. I do want to apologize if I did let things go too far for anybody because some people I noticed like when I left the chat last night there were seven over 70 people and stuff and and I just I ended this live and I hate you know I don't like to end lives when it's just it's like so um
going so well and stuff like that but um um it was still was that the vibe was the vibe was going off and uh you know it's also kind of like you all the all these good things um are happening, but there's a lot of emotionally draining things that are
happening too, like you know, with people kind of abandoning me. Um u it's okay. It's like, you know, it's kind I know it's like high school sometimes, right? It's like when you're in high school, you have you have a best friend in high school. Not this and this I'm
not saying this in a general way, okay? Uh and I'm not referring to I'm not refer I mean be beat is my best friend but I'm not referring to be in this situation. I'll say let's say you have a close friend a good friend in high school. Okay. So, and then you have another group of friends and so this is like the new the new student in school,
right? And it's like and but you've known this person whatever for a while. And then you introduce people you introduce your friend to another group of friends of yours. And then not only does your friend leave you, but all your other friends leave you for that for
that person that you introduced to in the first place. Um, that's how I feel and I probably it's probably happened to me a lot in school and it's how and it's but that's how I feel things have been going with a lot of situations. Okay? You know, and I'm going to refrain from using names and things like
that of people, but it's just happens over and over and over and then it's like and then you see you walk down and you see oh you go down, you know, and it's very high school. It's very like, you know, you know, I don't want to seem petty about this and stuff like that. Um, you walk down and you see all the your your your old friend
and all your old friends all together all laughing at a table and then they all look at you and they all look at you like point at you and start whispering and stuff like that. That's how I feel sometimes. And maybe maybe I'm wrong. Maybe it's not that serious. Okay. I and also I'm also a connector and I understand some people are going to like some people are going to like other
people more than they're going to like me. It's just to go from friendship to like hating me and then they're all talking and all this stuff behind the scenes going on that I'm not I'm not hearing and stuff like that and it just has not a good feeling.
It's just not the best feeling. Um, so that's how I kind of feel about certain things. And so that's why and I'm not I'm not calling anybody out for anything reason that happened, okay? But I'm saying um, you know, that's happened. You might I don't know. And you don't have Oh, no. Nobody's forced to be my friend. Of
course, nobody's forced to be on the show um to come on or to come on the panel or to or let me in their Discord or anything like that. And it's like they can they all have the they all have the right to decide for whatever reason they want to at any time to terminate the friendship but it was kind of done pre with some of these other people. I'm not talk I'm not talking about
necessarily what just happened. I'm talking about from before that. And I still think about these situations where they don't listen to my explanation. They automatically take take the other person's side. They you know obviously they like the other people more. Obviously, they're they're having fun with other people, but it's like, wow, I see like so much of like
um kind of just like and I've talked about this before. It's like I feel discarded sometimes. I hope I'm explaining it
right. I bendy eyes on these words. I'm avoid I'm not mean to avoid chat. I'm just deep in thought a little bit. I'll I'll come back and look at it. I'm sorry. I was kind of deep in thought about it and just being a little pensive. Good
morning. So, Alex is now investigating me and Benny. Well, you know, interesting. I'd like I'd love to see that episode. I'd love to see what what Alex uncovers because honestly except for I I just mentioned the the one maybe offolor joke that I made and maybe inappropriate joke. Benny by the way is is 23 years old. Uh, you
know, Aldi yesterday was trying to say, "Oh, beta, you were doing this with under, you know, you're buying alcohol for minors and you were um or a minor, you bought a hotel room, blah blah blah." And it's like, it turns out the person was 22, 23. You know, I know these people. I know some of these people are younger, but it's like,
no, some people have older friends, like, you know, I I, you know, older younger friends like, you know, it's basically online. It's basically I think harmless thing. You know, I'm sure there's I think there's people I've seen in Benny's chat that are in their 60s and like 60 years old and things like that. And maybe I don't know if they have an attraction towards Benny or anything like that. It's really none of
my business. Um Benny Benny um Benny basically helped me a lot. Um he let me was the first one to let me promote um on his show. He let me do tarot readings in his chat. Um well, sometimes he would just pass out and I just end up doing them. I also uh then there's so many
situations that I had with people like when I was then I became his mod, right? He modded me and there's then all of a sudden I get so many uh messages from people. I' I've been blocked in Benny's chat. Can you like can you find Can you please have him unblock me? Like a lot of people probably at least 10. Um and I
was and I then I did notice in his chat that there was a lot of weird stuff going on. Um, like there was people blocking people for no reason. You know, it's kind of like what happens people some people say happens in my chat p sometimes. So I understand. And then he would, you know, he had he had thousands of people banned by the way. He I think he had 2,000 3,000 people
banned and I don't mind. But yeah, if you're but if you're going to make up if someone's going to make up lies because people are like I know like someone was saying, "Oh, you know, not I think you did phrase it this way. They were to say, "Oh, you're you're hitting on a a um a kid." I mean, it's like that saying that saying something like that is slanderous
because Benny is um 23, I think, I think. Yeah, I think you know, 23 and a half now. I met him when he was 22 last year. Um, but I was always respectful to Benny. I, like I said, Benny is not my type. I'm not into the twink twinkish kind of guys. I I don't know if I don't know if they call him twink or not. I I
thought he was a good-looking person, you know, and I I liked his personality. Um, you know, I thought it was kind of funny when he'd do like a little dance, you know, and he just just his bulletproof vest and and like, you know, and stuff like that and dance around and, you know, just kind of be be funny and stuff like that. But,
uh, there was no real sexual attraction to him. Now, Benny is another one that all of a sudden without explanation, I'm unmoded. He admoded a lot of people too again but you know um and then um
eventually one time when Jany I imagine being a Janney came around and started causing trying to cause problems or I don't know they were saying saying weird stuff you know he started to block me and so I have no and I didn't do anything like I just I think I as I asked And what was
what was he saying or something like that about me? Cuz I was being told and I have to be careful. That's why I like to go to the source and talk to the person like, "Oh, are you saying something?" Cuz I'm being told, "Oh, Benny said you tried to seduce him and groom him and stuff like that." These are very these are kind of like really unfair terms like um because I never was disrespectful. You know, I I didn't donate a huge amount of money to
Benny. I donated a few dollars at a time. also, you know, I was friends with other mods and some of the mods did um did um donate quite a bit to him and I was there to to as in a spirit of celebration like you know excited you know that u and having fun and then he's he's blocked those people like some of those people too. He's he knows he's
blocked some of his biggest donators. Like I'm not I was not I I would donate maybe one to $3 maybe like every so often you know. But uh I I know someone that donated $150 on a show was so excited and then he he still would hardly acknowledge this
person u or you know and he was very thankful that that day. But then he and he also had another donate and he he talks about this donator and he has the donator's name is John. I know my name is John. This other John is um donator that was before me that was a different John and that John actually just left his show because he kept getting blocked but then history repeats itself. No,
I've been blocked. It's not sus at all. Oh, thank you for thank you for uh thank you for agreeing with me Jany there. Okay, whatever. I know people say I'm you know whatever. Okay, hold on. I'm sorry. So, I'm so sorry. I'm missing some of the chats. What's up, Tracy? How are you? Am I cool with Penny? I don't I
don't know. I'm I'm blocked on um I'm blocked on my main account. I'm blocked on my backup account. I mean, I have other accounts. I'm not just going to go keep trying, though. It's like I I've I've had enough of like just being like blocked by people um and and then or having just their mods block me and stuff like that and then I can't I can't I can't contact the other person in any way like then I'll hear oh people say oh
he unblocked you I go back I'm not unblocked. Um but I was always good to him um supportive of him and I when I started my channel I was I was I was trying to promote him too and uh stuff like that. I just wanted to cover the Benny situation,
right? Oh. Oh, yeah. This is the VP. Um, no, it was it was a female. U and you know I think she she might have been just referring to Flirty Diamond but some of the things she said um were I think referencing me like but I um cuz she's talking about a gay she was talking about a gay man and stuff like
that and it's like I don't so I think I think maybe she if she was talking about a trans a trans woman or a trans woman I think that would maybe make more sense but she kept talking a gay man is is has abandoned and his his gay community to go um hit on straight guys and to let the straight guys um like um dash and I I don't know may but you know maybe Flirty Diamond and I are similar in that
way where it's like we'll be we'll be called out or or accused of doing um you know hitting on straight guys and like you know pushing ourselves in patients and things like that and it's I know it can be much more dangerous with Flurry for Flurry Diamond but Flurry Diamond I don't see her pushing Like I just don't see cuz you know people would still say, "Oh, you're hitting on straight guys from me,
right?" And it's like I think I don't I've never really seen her hit on guys. I think I've seen guys hit on her, right? And so it's like and so it was kind of referencing me hitting on guys and stuff like that and then having and then and choosing the straight community over the gay community. And I don't because I don't know if like three Diamond had a huge
gay following. nor did I, you know, I think, you know, and I think, you know, we both had um like a large amount of straight people that we've dealt with and stuff like that. And we both I think we both been in our own ways you can say, you know, I mean, she maybe at first she was a little bit mysterious about about things and
it's like, you know, that that's called that's called passing, you know, it's called passing. It's like, you know, um, and and it's when you and sometimes when people recognize you as transex transgender or transexual, it's called being clocked and stuff like that. And being clocked is one of the worst nightmares for a lot of transgenders who like to um who see themselves as this as
a sex. And I know flirty diamond has come since then and she's revealed um she um is interex with um an extra chromosome maybe maybe her mafro hemaphrodite born with both gen both genitalia or born with male and her body is male and
female that's what she's that's what she revealed okay and so you know I'm not a doctor about it you know and it's like I don't I don't know you know maybe That's her her way of but however she wants to present herself. If she wants to say I'm a I'm a I'm a rainbow unicorn, you know, I'm a
gummy bear. I'm a you know, I'm a you know, a pony, you know, whatever she wants to say. We're we're free to make make ourselves who we want to be. Just like, you know, I'll say Minnie Manson has, you know, I won't say anything about, you know, Minnie Manson. Also I'll say about Minnie Manson is that he's created a character for himself.
Okay. And he's presenting himself as his character and you know and and as an entertainer and things like that, right? Kind of similar. Yeah. And so it's like um you can present yourself as anything you want. I mean, and then I've always said it's like if you're about to be have intimacy with someone, you know, it's obviously you're going to want
to disclose before there the intimacy goes too far, right? Because it can be very dangerous, right? But if you go out in the world, you don't have to present yourself as anything. So there's a transgender that goes into Miss Universe pageant and it's like that's just based mainly on looks,
personality and things like that, not sexual performance and and so if you if you go into Miss Universe and then it's like and you're you're beautiful enough to win and stuff like that, is it is it going to be a huge scandal if the person is transgender or can we or is it unfair to for transgender but you're competing as against women and stuff like that? It's not like weightlifting and stuff like that. It's a beauty contest and so
it's like and you know it's like and I mean women are beautiful. All women are beautiful, but I say there's some beautiful transgender people, too. And it's like, you know, and I've I've heard a lot of women say, "Oh, you know, like she's prettier than me, stuff like that, or he or he or she's prettier than you, right?" You know, there's also al also, you know, a lot of transgender and, you
know, especially more in the drag side is about um illusion and it's about makeup and there's very talented female male makeup artists and there's very talented male makeup artists. I don't think anyone will deny that. And so also, you know, fashion and a lot of these, you know, a lot of gay men relate to women with the with the makeup and
the fashion, you know, and it's like sometimes they they can teach each other tricks, you know, it's like like with with the with them and stuff like that. And it's like but it's some of it's about illusion with especially with transgender, right? They they're working in illusion and it's like in the visual image and sometimes men are very fooled by the visual im. I'm so sorry I'm missing a lot of comments. Okay, I'm I'm
going to try to go back and and look, but um Troll Blaster. Okay. Have I seen The Crying Game? Yes, the the Crying Game. It's a great movie, and it's about this um this military. He's a he's a black military guy in the military, the British military, and I don't see I haven't seen it in a while, so I don't I
might get all the details right, but I just remember he um he meets this this man, and he says, "Oh, this is my girlfriend." and he's like and she works at this bar this bar and stuff like that and he ends up getting kidnapped and stuff like that and unalived but and I don't know I don't know if like he tells him before after but he says go find go find her and tell
her I love her and stuff like that and so the guy goes and he finds this exotic beautiful black um I think she's an exotic dancer or something like that at a at a bar and he ends up falling in love with her right u but then the crying I don't want to spoil too much of the movie. I'll just say there's a very shocking part where and it's kind is pretty obvious
and like a lot of people know the story, but he was there's a part where they're getting intimate and then the dress comes down and he goes down and there's just a wiener hanging down there and it's like and this guy is a homophobic guy and but he's in love but he fell in love and so it's like he's he gets a very he gets into a big mental conflict about society and and himself that is questioning his own sexuality and all
these things and So, it's a very interesting movie you might want to check out. He's a member of the Irish Republican Army, right Mojo? Yeah. Yeah. You got to move on. Okay. I'm sorry. I I know. I know. Chad, I'm sorry. I'm not I'm not paying attention to the chat that well. I've just been deep in thought, you know, and I and it's also my my vision's kind of blurry this morning for some reason. I It's harder to see. So, I will have a look at the chat. Okay. And also, you know, I will
since I get so many messages, I have to like pay more attention to the mod, what the mods and the members are saying. But I don't I do appreciate everyone else participating in chat and talking to each other. Okay, so I just have to I have so many messages I have to just pretty much look at the the green and blue names. They both need a good spanking. Mermaid,
hello. Flirty Diamond, hello. Um so Flirty Diamond is here. U I will I think the link is pinned. Uh I'm allowed to U. Abana said, "Oh, raging." Oh, raging. That's to I mean it's terrible. I mean it's like if there are those kind of threats I I need I I mean that's terrible. Um I know it was just I mean I was
falling asleep and stuff like that and so I wish I would have like been more there but I just heard some stuff I did not like and but it's like I was like when she doesn't it's like when she doesn't want to address it anymore because it's too much it's like she she'll leave and stuff like that. I I didn't I don't care about the content of it. It's like I know people were clipping it and stuff like that and it's sometime sometimes there's drama and
stuff like that. I don't want her hurt. I don't want her to think that I wasn't I didn't have her back and stuff like that. She cuz she I was falling asleep and then she said um but I I hope I hope she's not mad at me. I'm not sure. But I was falling asleep and she said, "Oh, put like take everyone off the panel. Just leave us up here." And it's like and you know some of it was you know a little u some of the content
was like you know interesting content but it's like it's not I don't like to see my friends hurt or called out and it's like and I feel bad. It's like if I should if I should have stepped in sooner and just you know kicked him off and if they um if I would have heard a direct threat like that like someone said that that was threatened I would have kicked him off earlier. Okay. It's
like but and I but I didn't like what I heard about I hope this person these people someone dies or I don't I hope your cat you you deserve your cat your cat your cats die and things like that that is just so so inappropriate and you know you don't say that to anybody and not even your worst enemy and so it's like what could have there's nothing you can do to to warrant people saying that it's just the most hurtful thing it's
but it's almost like to me it's like almost like so ridiculous and and overreactionary and and you know trying to say the worst thing you can say to somebody kind of thing, right? Rather so I almost couldn't take it seriously.
Yeah. Hi guys. Hi idiosyncrisha. I'm sorry if I missed your comments guys. I've just been kind of in thought. Okay. Good morning Sassy. Good morning Milton the witch king. Were you at the gay show? Are you Are you mad at me, Milton?
I I have the gay show. I mean, you're I was always kind to you, Milton. You don't have to like say it like that. Okay. Oh, okay. Hold on. Well, yeah, the couple's arguing. Yeah. I don't like I don't like arguing, you It's like my parents really did not
argue that much, you know, and it's like and so I had a you know, so it was very it was if they ever did it was very traumatizing. And so u and then as and I also it's like I don't like yelling and screaming and stuff like that. I'm a very like I'm more of like the type that would be like trying to like lighten the mood or you know with humor and like you
know let's all calm down. Let's all you know this that and maybe I'm not doing the best job at that anymore. Uh, and it's like I don't and I don't want to like just for content and stuff like that. I think my content's good enough, you know? I don't need content that is hurting people and stuff like that. And then it's like and then um I don't necessarily know they want me
to step in or they are they want to stand up on their own. is like I need to I'm I'm learning about about more I'm trying to deal with the more you know I know Paige experience like some trolling in the chat and like just they just say ridiculous untrue thing I mean she's such a beautiful woman and then she'll they'll say oh you know this very
insulting things and then get personal things too. I said um well your mod page you know if you want to hide that person you you can hide them. They might be it might just be unhid because it's like I do mass on bannings and stuff like that and uh I don't like to but if you want if you want if you every day when they come in and they start saying that you can time them out for 24 hours they were
coming on many accounts which is like the know what trolls do. Okay let's see. What you doing big boy? just hanging out. I woke up at like 4 in the morning and a little bit it was a
little bit cold inside here and then I turned on some went turn on some shows and I thought interesting video. Hold on. Hold on. Yeah, I'm good at that, man. I got my devices aren't the greatest. I got certain types of stuff that run on
my device that do certain things and sometimes it affects stuff. Okay. I I might I ignore it. Let me see. Oh, it sounds better already. It sounds better. Uh, is Benny I I don't know. I don't know. But Benny is Okay. I have sex relationship with that
one. So, let's see. Okay. You talk to me because I'm I'm echoing. Oh. I remember you you were on yesterday. Are you or not yesterday, the day before
yesterday. So, um Right. Yeah. Yeah. I've been busy. Kevin over in another community dealing with uh a guy named Dave25 that likes to post people's channel names and their real names with
uh you know titles like they uh did things with their you know little ones that they raised and you know just calling people pedos and stuff like that. And I was on the phone with the detective last night in his area and I
had to point out to th this is crazy. I had to point out to the detective what laws he was breaking that they could prosecute him under. I got to tell the cop what law he's violating because the cop tells me, "Oh, well, there's nothing we can really do." And then I was like, "Hey, you know, the
he's putting in his title is inducing panic into people, which is a disorderly conduct charge." I looked up the Yeah. Yeah. If you induce panic into somebody, that can that in the state of Rhode Island, that's the disorderly conduct.
Mhm. Yeah. crazy, dude. Well, it sounds like that person is a doctor or and maybe, you know, Oh, dude. Oh, dude. He's got CP on his phone and all that dude. Well, some of the some of these people are, you know, mentally ill in the first place, especially people that go around accusing like some people I've seen this woman accuse that
everybody basically everybody in the chat of of that, like calling them. That's exactly what he does. That's exactly what he does. anybody he doesn't like or or if he sees somebody getting more money than him or or or they see their channel doing better than them, then he'll come out with the slanderous
stuff, you know, to try to like whatever. I don't know. But what his uh his partner Kamisha just got served uh papers yesterday. Uh cease and uh not cease and desist. actual court restraining order.
Yeah. Well, it's like, you know, I think maybe some of these people are mentally ill that are that are doing all this doxing and all, you know, and are and are accusing all these people of this. I try to like kind of just avoid those people when I when I see them. I don't like and I don't like that stuff going on in my chat and stuff like that. But I I like to mind my own business about things. And it's like, you know,
yesterday I was walking around. I know. I'm I'm saying I'm saying what pier I'm at and so people then people are like trying to say, "Oh, are you on this street? Are you on this street? Where is the Starbucks on this street?" It's like, "Well, why?" Yeah. Somebody wanted to swat you somehow. Somebody wanted to do something. Whatever you do, man, if you go out and you're live streaming like that, uh,
don't don't don't have any weapons on you. Okay. I mean, I'm saying, but also at the same time, I think it would not be a bad idea to be carrying like a bear mace or something like that because not only like Well, I mean, you can carry Well, you might want to check your local laws because that spraying somebody with that is a felony in California. You cannot
spray somebody with bare mace. You have to you have to get the regular bare mace. And then here's the thing, too. You can't be a convicted felon. You can't really have a criminal record either because then that makes it a felony too if you use it. Well, I'm not I'm not a convicted felon and so I you don't have to worry about that part, but um thank you for like
letting me know. I I'll check out the laws. But it's like I do know that if I have somebody coming up to me aggressively, which I might have, which might happen cuz I am out filming people and you know, some people might get irritated if I if you know, but um or think, you know, think I'm you know, I'm not trying like I was really careful careful not to try to harass anybody. I
was just very friendly. They told me, I'm not mistaken. If I'm not mistaken, under California law, uh, if you're legally allowed to carry that stuff, once somebody puts their hands on you and makes you fear for your safety, then you can spray them. Well, I
I think maybe maybe what if what if they what if they come running up to you in an aggressive way, like about to hit you? You have to wait for them to attack you or do or do you can you do it as a defense so they don't they don't if if they're coming at you in an aggressive manner and it's making you fear for your safety
and they're closing the distance on you then yeah uh in the state in the state where I come from u there's like a castle doctrine if you break into somebody's else. They can kill you. Same as say unal alive, but yeah, I
think I don't know if it's Yeah, they can. Yeah, they can delete you. My cousin my cousin deleted somebody at a at a bar on New Year's Eve. Some convicted felon just got out of prison, not even supposed to be in a bar. Was drunk. My cousin was a bouncer. Tried to
get the guy to leave. dude was giving him a hard time. Then busted a beer bottle over my cousin's head, which cut his head and put u blood in his eyes, so he's having a little difficulty seeing. And then the dude started advancing on him with a
broken bottle. And my cousin put 245 shells in his chest. Oh my god. Well, I mean, I have been um I have been um sabbed um in the ear and at the same week that happened, I was also assaulted with a 7-Eleven pizza crust. You know, it's in
my eye. It was thrown in my eyeball very very hard. Um and my eye was was bleeding and stuff like in my eyeball. Um so I was like, "Oh my I was like eventually I'm going to go blind or blind or deaf with all this, right?" Um uh let me see. So I wish I would have had some
some bear bear mace at that time and things like that, right? Yeah. Uh also if also if you're going to get any mace, get the kind that has a dye in it. There's a mace you can get that has a
dye in it. Yeah. That is a certain color and it's easier to track your asalent down because they got this colored all over them. You get what I'm saying? It stains their faces. It stains whatever it touches. It stains it.
Yeah. Let me see. I'm looking in chat. Um, no. I And people are asking me about I'm sorry. People are asking about me. Did I pay Benny to do this and that? No, I never paid Benny to do anything. I just I just They're just trying to uh It's what it seems what it looks like to me is they're they're trying to create a narrative. They're coming up with just
Just trying to get, you know, responses and answers out of you. Yeah. But but I do want to say I do want to defend myself and say like um no I I would the only time I gave him a tip was when he or tips I was like through the TTS or cash app and I was very small amounts and it was it was um with a
message and stuff like that. Sometimes the message would be on the screen occas occasionally he would let me um um play a song or something like that and request a song. I don't maybe once or twice that but I never paid him to do I never paid him um to do anything. Right. So that's that with Benny, right? Some beautiful cats there. There's a beautiful cat right there. There's a I
don't I don't see Lenor right now. But how many cats you got? Six cats. Oh my lord. I have Lola. I can kind of my hand. Lola Marbles. Okay. Um this is Trix
Lenor. Um, Rudy Freya does six. Oh my lord. Yeah. Hey babe, what are you going to have your hands full? Cuz cats can live for 20 years. Well, good. Because it's like I was just thinking I was like I I'm going to be devastated
when when any of them go. Oh, dude. It's good. Uh yeah, if if if they're fairly young, dude, you got you got a lifespan of up up to 20 years. Yeah. Know that about cats. They can live up 20 plus years. Yeah. 20 plus. Like
Rudy's I think Rudy's almost 17, 16 or 17. I hope he's 15. I hope he's 15. So if he's 15, then he get nice five years with him. You know, whatever you do, don't feed your cats that frisky or that that other stuff. Uh Friskies, nine
lives. Don't feed them that dude. Cuz that's that's garbage. That's garbage dog. Uh garbage foods. It's got additives. It's got chemicals. It's got dyes. Uh it causes uh uh bladder problems in cats. Uh there's a uh kind of a
grainfree diet uh dog uh cat food that you can get. And also if you have pet stores uh I used to when I had my cats I used to supplement their their food. Yep. He's happy and content. That cat's happy and content doing that with its paws. Whatever.
whatever. It's It's very happy. Well, anyway, I would supplement my uh uh cats nutritional stuff with mice. I'd go to the pet store and buy mice and cats would catch him and eat them. Yeah. Well, it's kind of like it's kind of difficult like it like I I do feel ter like terrible for the mouse and
um and also like it's hard to hear the mouse squeaking and kind of like you know the cats will kind of kind of torture them a little bit. Um, yeah, that's unfortunate. Or or or if you don't want to do the whole mouse thing, you definitely want to supplement their uh you want to give them meat, man. You want to give them like, you know, cooked
ground hamburger. You want to give them cooked chicken. You want to give them fish and stuff like that. Well, I tried to do the chicken thing and it's like, you know, I I was I need to I think I I should have I should get the boneless chicken because I was just so so afraid that there'd be like I got, you know, I got a I roasted a chicken in a um in a slow cooker and stuff like that. And I
went through and like you take out all the bones and stuff like that, but I was just like so paranoid that there was because there was there's little tiny bones in there, too. And I would like You ain't got to worry about bones, man. Uh cooked bones maybe. Raw bones. No dogs can eat chicken raw chicken bones. It's the
small large breed dogs have no problem. Yeah, you still have to monitor them though. But it's what you do is you take chicken leg quarters, man. You hear me? Take a chicken leg quarter, you put it in a pan. But before you put it in the pan, you take something and you break
the bones. You break the legs. You break all that. You want to break them open that way when you're cooking it. And you cook that chicken until it falls off the bone. Yeah. And then you just pick the bones out and give everything else to your kid cats. Yeah. There was just a lot of um a lot of like really like
sharp tiny smaller bones and I was just really afraid that the I would not be able to get them all. So if I if I was to get a boneless something and it's like and there's this lady on YouTube and it's like you know she also would like put it through the uh the food processor and stuff like that. Um you know and um and then she would add
pumpkin puree to it and but I don't I don't know if they care for it too much. Um so how's everyone doing in chat? Pumpkin puree. Yeah. Um, trying to think.
Are you a vegan? Who? Me? No, I'm a straight up meat eater, but I don't eat meat sandwiches. Yeah, that's a good That's You don't get meat. Okay. Well, if you're I'm learning I'm learning I should not be I know I I used to I used to hit on hit on people like you know even if especially if I did not not see their picture and stuff like that and
it's like some some of the people got so offended it's like but some of most of the people had I'm really just testing for a sense of humor and if you're if you're here in the first place like um obviously you're not homophobic unless you are and that's
I'm not homophobic. Oh, not not not you. I mean people in general. I know you're not homophobic. You've always respectfully I'm not homophobic. As long as they're not pushing their agenda on me. That's the only problem I got with homosexuals and these drag queens and transgendered is, you know, stay the away from our kids.
Quit trying to cut their penises off. Quit reading story books to our children. You're a a you're the uh drag queen is the equivalent of a stripper. So, you might as well go down to the local strip club and get Bambi, Ginger, and Cinnamon and have them read read your children, right? But I again I I
think we I think we've addressed this before. It's like drag queens do not usually have a political agenda. You know, maybe maybe the person it's like it's not really like they're not fighting for drag queen rights. Drag queen is basically an entertainer like you said. You know, there's sometimes some maybe maybe akin to a stripper, maybe sometimes more akin to like a cabaret singer or akin to like, you know, there's different types of drag queens and stuff like that. But I'm
saying there's different kinds of drag queens there. The thing with a drag queen is they dress provocative. They act provocative. And and that's something that you want to read stories to your children so your children can grow up and be like that. The out of here. No, I don't I don't think that's a thing. Like and also I remember like I
used to you know we used to go to Palm Springs my my family and like sometimes it would be during the white ball the white ball is these big gay circuit parties so there'd be a lot of drag drag people and gay people throughout the town throughout the city and like you know when my like my family was at a dinner one night and then um a drag queen came up to the table and and we were all just laughing and it was just it was just funny like you know it was I
don't think they were trying to corrupt now I'm like the oldest oldest kid like I have I have a younger sister younger brother. What about these? What about these gay pride parades? Like I like I even seen this years ago. All right. You got kids that's in the you know that's with their whatever you know family friend
or their parents their garden guardian whatever. And then you got a float going by with somebody in assless chaps with the YMCA motorcycle hat on with like some kind of thing and
he's pissing in somebody's mouth. Okay. Well, I don't think that's like a big I mean it's like I don't think that's really happened that I think that's a kind of very dude. It happens more often than you think. It sounds like a very extreme example of a parade a parade float. I mean, I know I know that there's maybe some like
leather men and stuff like that, but a lot of these Dude, dude, I've seen it in numerous numerous pride parades. I used to travel with a company that went from town to town to town, city, city, and I would sell gay pride
Mhm. I had to sell the gay pride buttons, this. I sold 8 inch dick pops, which were uh eight 8 inch long big fat thick suckers, you know, that were in the shape of a penis with cocking balls. Uhhuh. Uh why were you selling why were you
selling the I'm just kidding. And that because it was money. I was able to make money. Well, that's the same reason they have a lot of like the gay pride parade. And also like that's a that's a big part of why gays are kind of almost almost been able to like kind of integrate more easily to society because
they are um they're what in marketing they're they're known as dinks especi well it's like a like a a dink you know you know dink stands for d i n k it means double income no double income no kids. So, a lot of gay couples, they'll be like they'll both have a job and a lot of times a successful job and then they'll have the both incomes and then they'll have no kids and so they'll have expendable incomes and so they're spending a lot of money and things like
that. So they're they're a market that a lot of people will see. And um you know I sold flags, gay pride flags, you know, I sold you know I sold flags, I sold buttons, I sold pins, sold you know, just the variety of that you see people selling, you
know, at, you know, walking around selling at uh at Pride events. Mhm. I made damn good money, dude. I made $375 dollars at Uhhuh. that day. Well, yeah. I mean, it's like and it's like, you know, parades and different not only gay parades, but you know, there's different different conventions and different different places where people can, you know, sell their wares and things like that for for
the targeted audience. You know, that's part of marketing. But I'm saying like um you know, okay, so I've heard of Gab, okay, I don't really like find a reason to like go and like go march on the street and like and like say I'm here, I'm queer. get used to it. You know, I'm like not I'm not very big into activism like that. And it's also, you know, you know, pride is one of the
seven deadly sins in a way. And it's like and so it's like not necessarily something that should be encouraged. I don't like, you know, it's like it's like it's like you're proud of like, you know, I'm more into like Well, also also, you know, two gay people want to get married. I mean, go ahead. because technically it's not before the eyes of
God because God doesn't condone that Well, that's that's an opinion. That's that's definitely an opinion about it because God also it's not an opinion. It's in every religion book. So in the world religion is all religion is all written down created by man. may be inspired inspired by by the by God, but it's like also like a lot of
social engineering. And it's like so you have to take religion with like to know that it's it's a mind control kind of thing or to control society. A lot of the a lot of the a lot of the anti-gay laws are in Leviticus and which is like, you know, you're unclean if you go to the bathroom or have a period and stuff like that, you know. Well, it's like this. It's like this. I tell people, you
know, that get married. Uh marriage is before the eyes of God. Okay? And when you go and you involve the state and the government and this and that in your wedding plans, you're just opening opening yourself up because it's like a
contract and it's the way the contract plays out nowadays is if it doesn't work out, the takes half your Well, that's what I I mean I say I I personally am not I would not want to marry either a man nor woman. It's like you know it's like I said if I want to enter a business contract contract I can enter a business you know start a business with them and that's you know we can have the same thing. Also there's
like there was a lot of domestic partnership laws in California before the gay marriage. So I mean it's like you know I I'm done with the gay marriage debate really. It's like because it's like it was like not something I was I was ever interested in doing anyway. And so I'm happy that other people are able to and it's like, you know, it's good if they want to raise raise a raise a family and things like that. So they have protection, they
have hospital visitation, they have they can um they get the say something now. I'm going say something that you're probably not going to like. All right. Okay. Here's the thing with gays. The gays, the transgenders, and this and that. Gays and transgenders, they can't
reproduce. They have to recruit. No. So you're wrong about that. So they don't So they don't have to recruit because it's like you're saying, "Oh, they are looking for more gays." Like like most two gay guys cannot have a baby. They cannot forate and have a baby. Cannot fornicate and have a
baby. It takes a man. Sir, so you're being very a lesbian in order to get a lesbian pregnant. So, you're being very obvious. Okay. So, that is obvious. I understand how biology works. I I know 100% like how Yeah, that is true. Okay. But I'm saying you're talking about recruiting like we're trying it's like
it's like a a a group to join. No, it's like you know gay people um I'm saying gay people can't reproduce recruit. No. Okay. First of all, you can't recruit. You can't change somebody's sexuality. Second of all, I'm saying you want to bet I bet I can turn you straight.
I don't know about that. Maybe if I maybe if I saw you, I'd be I'd be I'd be so turned off that I I might decide, you know, I'm just going to go with women from now on. I can't I can't stand men anymore. But that might happen. Yeah. I'm like 350 pounds. Okay. Well, don't worry. I I like I like big
fat guys. And so you're you might you might I'm I'm I'm a Oh god. Are my cats fixed? Black apple. Are my cats fixed? My um um tricks is tricks and marbles are not fixed. Um they're they're males. Okay. All the female cats are fixed. And so better get those males fixed, especially young.
Yeah. Well, it's like marbles is going to be hard to wrangle like like to do that. And uh and then you know, Trixs is like you know, I kind of like I kind of just feel bad. He tricks is like not really he's not like really an outdoor cat. He's more of an indoor cat and stuff like that. And also he doesn't spray and stuff like that. And um so he's very sweet. I don't know. He's not aggressive
and stuff like that. Marbles is a little bit more aggressive. But it's like it's kind of it's you know it's it's kind of it's kind of difficult to wrangle wrinkle them up and stuff like that. But um I'm not really I would like I would like you know if you if you ever got somebody pregnant you know I know people in this neighborhood really take care of cats and they love cats and there's no there's no even shelter for cats here
because there's no demand for or need of a shelter necessarily or shelters in other cities where there's like a lot of feral feral cats but there's no feral cats here because people just take every cat. How did that how did that LA fire affect you? Um the LA fire like around my birthday it started and then um like the day after my birthday there was ash over the all over the cats and like and
all over like out from there they were outdoor cats and ash all over like the cars outside and there was a smell of smoke in the air and then I did get these these messages that said um you know you might there's might be an evacuation in your area and I was kind of freaked out about it a little bit like I was like how am I what am I going to do with the all the cats and like where am I going to go but it turns
Turns out like that wasn't it wasn't even a threat to my city like and also I live by the ocean. It's like I can always go up and down. Do you have a vehicle? No. All right. Do you have somebody that does? Um yeah I I have I have I have family that does that. They have vehicles. Reason I was
asking is cuz you're the closest person. We need to we need to see what they are doing to revitalize rebuild the area because remember that Hawaii fire? Yeah. The Maui Maui fires. Yes. People
that had property in their family for generations gone. No money to rebuild, no nothing from FEMA. And then you got these real estate companies coming in trying to buy buy the land up from the people that lost everything for pennies on the dollar. And I heard the same thing was happening in the LA fires that
uh uh you know real estate companies and brokers were uh reaching out to fire victims, right? I know. I know there's a big thing. What what is the Pacific Palace? They had they had a huge amount of fires there. There's million dollar millions of dollars homes. Um, and then the insurance was not necessarily wanting to pay it out. Also, oh no, four months,
four months before the four months before the fires hit, the insurance companies cancelled everyone's policy in the area. Just up and canceled their Mhm. And then four months later, there's a
fire. And I don't know if you saw that uh uh clip of the mayor's private conversation with somebody, you know, a cryptic message be like, "I can't explain. You'll understand later." And blah blah blah. And yeah, it was crazy.
Yeah. Yeah. One leaves leaves her town, her city when it's on fire during the actual national crisis. Well, I know it's very sad. It's very sad what happens. I don't And I don't know if it's some kind of like, you know, I also there's a lot of stories about, you know, there's maybe some other stuff involved in just, you know,
be it arsonist or lasers or things like that that that, you know, here's what you should really be asking yourself. Okay. How is Gavin Newsome buying a 20s something million dollar property in the state on $250,000 a year?
Well, I thought thought he was already quite wealthy or something. How come is Jasmine Crockett, who was a poor black in Texas, only been in Congress for 18 months and has $9 million in property? Well, it's because um How about how about How does the How does the
president of the United States, you know, how much or Yeah. How much do they get paid a year? I think it's $150,000. Exactly. Nancy Pelosi, $175,000 a year, but yet she's worth millions, right? Because they also because they because they make a lot of business deals and things like that and
they're able to of insider information. Sure. Sure. That's why people want to be in Congress for as long as they want because it's it's like a piggy bank. People are about to get arrested. They've been caught with their can their hand in the cookie jar. Okay. Well, I kind of like I kind of like want to like
talk a little bit less about too much political stuff because I don't really I don't really know too much about it. Like, you know, I was much more interested in politics as a teenager and stuff like that. And so, I it's like really not what the show is too much focused on. I mean, some of the topics are interesting, but I really kind of want to avoid some of the more political discussions as much that has to do with,
you know, the I'll talk about the gay stuff, like, you know, you know, you you know, they're talking about giving people uh $4,500, right? Everybody in America from all the money they saved, giving it back to the Americans. Well, I know during the during the lock lock lockdown times, people were getting, you know, a few thousand
dollars in uh relief checks and things like that and also they started the unemployment again. And I'm sorry, but the difference with this money versus that stimulus money is they had to
generate print that money. this money that they're planning on giving out has already been allocated through the system, whatever. And it's just something that it's not going to affect inflation more or less. When you print
money, you affect inflation. When you don't print money or you use already existing money that's already been generated, it's it's not going to affect um inflation. It should actually help the economy because I mean I know what I'm spending my $4,500 on, right? I mean I mean I
during the during the lockdowns like I was able to, you know, start my like an Etsy store where I did tarot readings and um it was like it was like a perfect storm where it was like everybody was wanting to get a tarot reading and people were inside. people were worried and concerned about the future plus they were getting um some extra expendable
income and so I I got a lot a lot of business and stuff like that. Uh and then now the business on Etsy has kind of dried up due to different different factors of including that um you know the the readings have gone more to the video readings on YouTube and things like that and there's so then there's a a plethora of of YouTube um people that
that do the tarot reading and things like that. But uh so I've uh I've started um to do to focus more on the YouTube side of it. Um and it's like but I it was like it was very good money at the time. people just were able to to spend but people were also defrauding and stuff like that and buying buying cars. Okay. Yeah. So, thank you for our guests. That was interesting. Um that
was interesting conversation. It's like the microphone's a little bit echoey and stuff like that. And you know, but I do thank that guest for coming today. The homo sector you call this. You know, I I don't know. It's like I really like, you know, I'm I always say I'm a gay man, but it's like I as far as identifying so strongly with the community or with my sexuality necessarily, I'm just a man, you I'm a man and it's like I'm attract
I'm attracted to who I'm attracted to. It's not a political ideology. Like I don't like to make it that but I understand like you know gays have been targets of of like a lot of a lot of hate and like a lot of you know bad things have happened to gay people will say in the past and stuff like that. Um I do have a special I'll do a 13 card
reading if anyone's interested. Hey what's up? What's up Tracy? How are you? If anyone would like a 13 card reading, I'll do 10 writerweight cards. Um, and I'll do three oracle cards plus I'll I'll pull an animal card if you can um help me out this week. Um, uh, it will be, um, $10 cash app. The things are on the screen right there. And, uh, the
information is there with the cash app and everything. Um, you know, YouTube, um, does not pay out weekly, it pays out monthly. I thought and I thought I had misouted a little this weekend. And so that's why I'm asking um about the c the cash app because it's like um the super chats you know will take will take uh
will take longer and plus you know um cash app it you know it's kind of a little sometimes easier sometimes. Thank you classy sassy. But if you're interested and uh but uh and I I'll do a great reading for you and you if you had my free readings, you'll see you know my style or if you watch my readings, you'll know I'm I'm
the real deal. Like and so I will give you most the most genuine best reading I can. I'll just I'll do a few tonight if anybody wants would like one. There's Mr. Trixs. Hi Lenor, are you there too?
Yeah. Uh, I had a dream last night. What was I dreaming about? Oh, I I I wake up talking in my sleep now. Um, talking and thinking I'm talking to the stream and it happens like almost every day now. It gets a little bit It's a little bit strange. It's a little bit. I'm like, am I getting addicted or is
But I was like, I wake up talking in my sleep or I catch myself talking and I think I'm on stream. Tik Tok is $50. Yeah. Yeah. Tracy knows. Yeah. Yeah. They Yeah. So, it's like,
you know, the I I I love being monetized. Um, you know, it's like also I have to like, you know, know that it might not last forever. The monetization I' would love it to I' love for it to and I'd love to just keep getting bigger and bigger, but you know, I do have like kind of a a show that can be controversial at times and I can be under attack by people and it's like,
you know, I have some people just determined to see me not succeed here. Um, but I have so many people that that uh that have helped me and things like that. And so, you know, there's there's ways of monetization. And I can like always um spruce up my Etsy store and come up with come up with some new readings there and promote my Etsy store more heavily here. Um um I can, you know, I'll also do private readings if
you'd like a reading in private, you know, for I'll do an hour for um $25 on um over the phone or on um on Etsy. Not Etsy on on Discord if you'd like if you're interested in that. And that's probably like that is a very good deal for an for an hour. Um, and I I have gotten very good feedback. If you want
to see my feedback or my Etsy store, it's metaysy.tetsy.com. Me- T- psyche.tetsy.com. And I I sold over 2,000 readings or it's probably 1,800 almost about 2,000. And uh, and I I have very very high ratings and things like that. So if you want to check out my my ratings and things like that, you can always go and read it. I never sleep when you do it a few hours and a few
hours there. It's like you said doing vampire hours, right? Yeah. It's really taking my subconscious mind and it's like and then it's like and I just have and I I dream like I'm on panels or I'm on I'm doing my panel. I'm talking to people and then it's like I I've been waking up like almost every day talking in my sleep um thinking I'm on stream. It's kind of it's kind of like a a little bit
disconcerting, but how's everyone doing? Yeah, I mean it is, but like you know YouTube um yeah, YouTube is a good platform. It's like a you know I love they do they can't they do promote you and things like that bring new new audience and things like that and so now
I understand that they they they make a profit too but yeah it is it is a little bit a little bit much but hope everyone's doing thank you guys. Yeah. And it's like I And yeah, I think I think I have very good deals, you know, and even even like if you want
like a like a a short Okay. Uh hello. What's up? Are you doing okay this morning? Yeah. Okay. Like I don't I don't know if I don't know if anything that last night had to do with me and so and or you know or people on the panel. So, I did like,
you know, step out and stuff like that and let you two hash things out. I didn't like a lot of what I heard. I think, you know, you lose your temper and you do you say things you regret sometimes. Yeah. Well, whatever, whatever in it. I'm just sick and tired of people bum licking when someone's wrong in it. You're all ass licking when whenever someone's
wrong, but then you want to jump on the bandwagon whenever my name comes up. That's what I'm sick of. You're quick to believe everything about me. You're quick to believe everything about me, but then turn a blind eye to to someone that is a known and pa a pathological liar and has been proven and you still want to turn a
blind eye, but believe everything dirty and up my name, but believe everything bad about me. Are you saying are you saying that? No, no, no, no, no. Let me just explain. I'm not saying you, bro. I'm saying people in the community. Yeah. They'll believe anything about me, but when it comes to their bum chum, they don't they they turn a blind eye and lick their bum holes. So, you know
what? I'm done with it. I'm done with it. Whatever comes up about me now, believe it as believe all you want. Believe it. I don't care no more. Cuz you not turn a blind eye when it's your best friend though in it. When your best friend wants to act like a imagine if she was your daughter or your sister. I bet you wouldn't turn a blind
eye then. Huh? I I really have no idea. And then you understand why why why and then you understand that when I care about someone Yeah. I just can't turn my can't turn that off. And then I get pushed. And when I get pushed to not caring no more, you all want to look at me like I'm the bad
guy. So it's all good. I'll just come up to say I didn't want to do that on your panel and whatever whatever in it. So my bad on that one. Have a good day. Slight. God. All right. Hey, have a good day. Have a good day, bro. All right. Peace out. All right, man. Thank you for letting me up, big man. You're welcome. All right. Love you, bro. Love you, bro. Okay. Love you, too. All right. Yeah. I
Okay. Yeah. I mean, it's like, you know, people, you know, I've been so many I've had so many relationships where it's like I' I've been triangulated in there before and it's like some people like to triangulate themselves into relationships. I have no idea what even the the the fight was over or that there was like there was more conflict or something like that.
So, I don't really know what was going on. Plus, I was really tired um last night and I like kind of was falling asleep and stuff like that. I just didn't like the way he was talking to Beeta and things like that. She did tell me to um to put them on solo solo and stuff like that. And
so I did, but there was things said and that maybe I didn't catch and stuff like that. I mean, I did catch some things that were like just outrageous, but it would just seem so outrageous. I almost seemed like, you know, it would almost seem like, you know, like nobody could believe what what was being said and stuff like that. Like I don't think anybody would be that
hurtful toward people. Um, but I didn't like I didn't like what was said. Not necessarily. And it was I think it went on for too long, you know, like he was but I just let I let it take its course and then but then when I came then after Vita left and then it's like then uh I
brought up Miser and um and big tall sexy Rob and then they started going at it again too. I was like okay it's just it was too much. I was trying to I trying to sleep at that time. So go feed the ducks. get your mind off the world, right?
Uh so yeah. Um yeah, I'm actually I'm actually like, you know, I just woke up kind of early in the morning and uh I think I'm about asleep like 11 11 at night to 11 to 12, 12:00 to 1, 1 to 2, 2 to So 5 hours and then uh so just five hours sleep. So I need some probably some more sleep. Uh I guess uh nobody's
interested in a reading at this time and so I did have a dice uh nice panel today. Well I appreciate I just appreciate people coming on panel but um yeah some things I just don't I just don't know about well enough to address and stuff like that.
So yeah, I know Rob kept coming back in with his mic all the way up yelling in it. And then Alex was doing that too. I was like I I only have my mic put up to 50%. Just like and I said it said well actually it just says automatically adjust the mic volume and so it puts it to 50%. And so it's like then I have I think if I if anyone's mic should be the loudest it should be mine. But they have people like they have learned the trick
of like yeah, you can just turn up your mic up all the way and then start yelling in it and then it's like then you you can talk over everyone and it's like now but I've now discovered that trick and I can combat it and stuff like that. So I do apologize if people are yelling at our ears and it's like or just trying to be the center of attention and stuff like that, you know.
I think because I I continually turned down Rob's and Alex's microphone and they kept turning him all the way back up. I say I don't know if it just automatically did that when they when they uh when they because I would also kick him out of the studio several times or or move to the green room, I would say. And uh and then when they came back, their microphone was all the way
back up. All the way back up. And so, and then like I I when I turned it almost all the way all the way down, it's like I can still hear them loud and clear. I mean, it's like they're so loud. It's like so it's like really like it's really out of out of hand to be able to for them to keep turning their mic up
all the way. I think there might be an possibly, you know, it's um if I mute somebody, they can unmute themselves immediately, right? if I and but then if I if they mute themselves, I can't unmute them because it says the guests chose to mute themselves, right? And so she's like, I understand you should be able to mute
yourself, but I think I should be able to keep you on mute and stuff like that, too, because it's like they just like we'll just unmute right away. And that's something then I have to resort to like putting people in the in the green room, right? Yeah. So, I will be doing more more streaming outdoors. Um, yeah, Alex's mic is the worst, right? You know, he's a he's a very he's a very generous man. You know, he's like
he's donated many memberships to the show. He's uh he's been a a pretty good good defender supporter to me. Um I think he has kind of I think he has a good heart, but I think it's kind of disrespectful to keep raising his mic all the way. When I asked him, I was like I was like, I shouldn't be louder than my mic is my
and I'm at especially his, you know, because it's like and I'm at 50%. And so you can't that's over talking to hosts and things like that. I know I'm I'm still working on becoming a better host and things like that, being able to run the panel better, like keeping a happy medium, keeping everyone happy. I don't want to hurt people. I don't want people to
like, you know, have these horrible brawls and feuds and like, you know, hate speech and stuff like that on my show. It's like, you know, even though I know there's a lot of different communities and there's going to be a lot of conflict and it's like I like to be a peacemaker, I like to bring people together and it's like at the same time even the people I bring together end up
hating me, right? It's like and so it's like people they'll hate me for like it's like you can't you you're damned if you do you're damned if you don't they uh they hate me for bringing them together. They hate me um for you know when they get into conflict or they they get trolled. It's like so it's like I just hope people will judge me for their relationship with me cuz you can have a
relationship with me like I'm happy to I have I have a Discord. Um, you can, you know, I'll, you know, if I, if I know you well enough, I'll add you as a friend there, or else you can just chat in my Discord and stuff like that. Um, I was I was going through all the Discords that I've been kicked out today. And that that's like Hell Walker's Discord, um, Clumsy
Clairvoyance Discord, Traveling Gypsy's Discord, Emma's Discord, Aldi's Discord, Beetleju's Discord. That's six just sticks off the top of my mind. There's these are Discords I really didn't cause any problems in. I never did anything, you know, maybe the exception with Beetlejuice's Discord where, you know, I did try to get someone's
attention there because that was the only way I ended up contacting them and it kind of did work where we were able to like have a conversation about it uh in private messages and things like that. Um, it was it just irritating. I'll tell a little bit more about the Beetlejuice stuff. the Beatles Juice. Um, you know,
there's a guy named Cifa, you know, Jamie Jamie um Cowboys introduced me to and he created my Discord and then he left my Discord and then he created Beetleju's discord and so he's in Beetlejuice discord but I've known him for a while and then it's oh yeah who through who met who through who? I mean there's like you know he said she said but I definitely did introduce through the through this web some of these people together and it's
like then I'm being told oh don't talk to like this and stuff like that. I'm like, "Well, I know Sifa for longer than you have, and I we we were joking about stuff in the private messages, and so I don't, but maybe he was offended if I if I called them a name or something like that, you know, but it was like basically you can't police everybody else's relationship." I let people The
only reason I ever kick anyone off my Discord is when there was somebody was causing a lot of problems in there. Um, and he posted actually revenge porn that I found out like, you know, he posted nudes of somebody that somebody had sent him in my Discord and then they were deleted before I saw and then but when I found out about it, that was like the last straw,
right? And then uh but I've had so many people leave my Discord like they leave in groups, they'll leave in groups, they all they'll like, you know, things and it's like these are groups that have like a lot of people that I introduce together and stuff like that. It hurt it's hurtful, you know. It's like especially when I've helped these people a lot like and not without asking anything, expecting anything. It's not you don't have to be my friend. You
don't have to like me at the end of the day. You don't have to leave me in your Discord. I don't It's like It's okay. I'm like I'm in I'm in plenty of Discords, believe me. I'm in way more than I can keep up with or manage and stuff like that. Um I have my own Discord to focus on and stuff like that, but my Discord's dead now. It's like really like no one even posts anything hardly anything there anymore. Everyone's everyone's left and gone to their own Discord and and then now
there's now everyone's active and and it's fine. It's like and Discord's not the hugest part and maybe I'm not posting my link. I think my link's expired on my nightb and stuff like that. Yeah, times and sleepy so you didn't know what happened. Yeah, that was a lot of stress. I was like, let's recap their own stream before the night before and every morning. I should recap my own
stream. Yeah. Well, so last night, what happened last night? So, you know, last night, um, I had Paige up and I had Beetlejuice up and I had, um, Maser up and I had, um, Summer up and I had, um, a new friend up. I think his name is Mike, right? And, um, and we were all chatting and I did a
couple readings. It was, you know, everyone enjoyed the reading I did. Um, it was a little bit hectic with people talking over each other. I think that we got that corrected. And like you know sometimes it's there's microphone problems, sometimes there earphone problems, some we don't hear when someone's talking. Sometimes we're trying to make our own point and sometimes it's just there's six people and it's like everyone sometimes you
can't help interrupting. I I know I know I've interrupted people before and it's like and some of them got have gotten pretty offended and stuff like that. Um but it wasn't like intentional and it's like some you know conversation that will happen occasionally. Um but I'm I'm trying to get better at that. And then you know beta beta came on and she
didn't quite um like you know she came on to defend me and she didn't quite like how I've been treated by some people or how know I've been just thrown away thrown away or or kicked out of places by people that I've helped and things like that. I'm I have a different I'm I'm actually like I don't it's already happened to me
so much. I'm like my heart has already been broken that like so much that it's like just another I'm I'm fine with it. And I'm like you know people can run their Discords. They can run their shows like they want to. That's another thing. It's like I let people run their shows like they want to. I don't tell people what to do. There's actually a thing on like ChatterBait, okay, that where it's like it says, you know, don't direct, no
directing, unless unless you're like tipping and stuff like that, you know, they they'll say don't direct. It's not you're not supposed to tell the model, oh, do this, do this, and you're sitting there not tipping and you're getting all you're getting your own gratification by having them do what you're asking, but you're not sending a tip or something like that or, you know, and so that's kind of like called directing, right? I know life's up and down life's ups and downs and there's people that will come
in your life for a reason, a season in a lifetime and it's just like, you know, um I can only apologize so much. I can only have so many regrets. Like, you know, sometimes I've gotten drunk. I say things I regret. I wake up the next day, I'm like, "Oh, why did I say that?" you know, and it's like sometimes I make jokes that don't that don't go over and
they're and they're I say things in jest and and they people will get offended and stuff like that and it's like I don't mean malice to anybody. I don't want to hurt anybody. I don't want to u you know make men unc men too uncomfortable, straight men uncomfortable just by because I'm I'm I'm uh flirting with them a little bit. Like sometimes, you know, in the world you go out and you men will flirt with women and then the women are interested and stuff like that and it's like the men will have to take the hint, you
know? It's like sometimes maybe I need to take the hint and stuff like that. It's not doing something maliciously. I just have a small dating pool. Uh how am I supposed to know like are guys like I'm until they tell me they're straight, I don't know they're straight. And so, you know, also it's kind of funny sometimes like when I I think it's kind of funny like when I when I hit with hit
on some guys like the other night we had Warog and um I forgot what's the other game there's another guy's name but then they were like lifting up their shirts. I was like fake I was like you know making out with one of like one of them like through the panel and stuff like that. And it's like and some guys you know it's kind of you know some people will call oh they're they're gay or it's like
they're not gay. It's like, but it's like they're just like secure enough in their own masculinity not to be so shy about um oh yeah like we had nobody on last night and he would flex and stuff like that and I would be like wow you're cute or whatever and he would just like say thank you and stuff like that you know it's like not a lot of a lot of straight guys find it um flattering you know it's like that they that someone
finds them attractive and stuff like that and I like to maybe like help people feel good about themselves. I don't want but really it's not about making them feel bad about themselves. I know there's a lot of uh they might get a lot of from their male friends and stuff like that but it's not nothing like where I'm trying to hurt them right or trying to like offend them and like half the time I don't even have I don't know their picture. I I don't I
don't I don't know if their voice is real. I don't know um you know if they're 500 lb or or 250 lbs and stuff like that. I just don't know sometimes. Yeah. like there's ups and downs, right? But you know, there's people like Beeta, people like
Alisa, these are two names. Oh, yeah. people like Reality Nancy, people like Sassy Scarlet, um people like Mojo Joe Jupiter, and like a so and like so there's like a lot of other people that are just like they're here supporting, they're kind, they're loving, like um I never had a bad relationship with them.
knowing in Beta and Alisa's case, I know they're more controversial figures and and I'm constantly people are are constantly trying to say this and that about them to me and trying to maybe maybe saying trying to say this and that about me to them, right? But it's like throughout all that we we we've stuck together right? And it's like if it's a real relationship, it's a
real friendship. It shouldn't be just able to crumble away so easily over, oh, this this friend got offended by this thing and I like this friend more than you, so I'm I'm leaving this friend and I'm bringing all my other friends with me and stuff like that. I never like tried to like, you know, with clumsy I never tried to like say, "Oh, don't go to clumsies anymore." I never said, "Oh,
it's it's her or me." But I think that was said about me. I think I'm I'm I think people are constantly saying, "Oh, it's because I'm I'm constantly being put in the middle of relationships where it's like, oh, it's them or me. It's them or me." I don't like to do that. I I don't I don't like I don't want to choose. I like I
want to have a a one-on-one relationship with the person and not have some other drama with happy with their friend that they'll probably make up with next week and stuff like that. And then it's like I look like the because I like took a side in it, right? And it's like but I don't even know the side or you know I will I but I will be loyal. I
will be loyal and and things like that to people. Very loyal. I'm a Capricorn. Capricorns are loyal. We're friends for life if you like you if you have us. But a lot of people don't don't want us won't want us devils around, right? They don't want they don't know the goat. We're the scapegoat. We get blamed. We get we always take the we're always like
the it's always our fault and stuff like that scapegoats. But yeah, hope you guys had a um a good stream. I'll try to take a little nap. I'm out of tobacco and the store doesn't open probably for another few hours, maybe 10:00 a.m. Uh maybe I'll be back soon. I love you guys though. Thank you so much for being
here. I hope you had a nice uh nice day. Okay, thanks everybody.
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