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Psyche discusses his recent conflicts and jokingly refers to his channel as a cult, while interacting with his cats, Lenor and Lola, during a morning stream.
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The episode begins with a poetic introduction ▶ 0:30 and then transitions into Psyche's morning greeting ▶ 2:40. He talks about being accused of being a cult leader ▶ 3:00, but claims it's all in jest. He introduces his cats, Lenor and Lola, and engages in playful conversation with them [2:44, 4:22, 6:09]. Psyche shares a story about his previous cat, Salem, who disappeared ▶ 7:16, and how he got Lenor afterward. Throughout the episode, Psyche interacts with his cats, jokingly referring to himself as a cult leader and his channel as a cult [3:13, 5:43].
The episode appears to be a lighthearted and humorous take on the concept of cults, with Psyche using the term to jokingly describe his channel and interactions with his audience. It suggests that Psyche is aware of the accusations and is using humor to defuse the situation. The episode also highlights Psyche's affection for his cats and his ability to engage in playful conversation with them.
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Welcome to the night. The cards laid out for show. Stars shining so bright. Watch the secrets unfold. There's magic in her hands. Whisper what the future
holds. Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow. Let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah. Flow. Hearts in the balance. Every card and open door. Feel the romance in every arcane war.
Destiny entwined as the moon begins to soar. Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow crystal visions in her gaze. Time can
steal this moment. Life's uncertain dance we chase with love. Woen pen dance to the
mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah. Good morning my loves. Good morning. Lenor say good morning. You want to say good morning, too? You want to say good morning? You having a good morning? You having a good morning? What's up, guys? I'm not here for a quick stream. Just a little stream. You're there, Lenor. You're there. I'm
such a cult leader, guys. I'm a complete cult leader. I found out using mind control tactics through my channel, guys. This is a cult. Okay, full disclosure. Okay, it's a cult. It's a Psyche Awakens cult. Okay, I'm the cult leader, but I'm going to worship you instead. It's a different
kind of cult. Okay, how's everyone doing? Wonderful to see you. I went and got Starbucks this morning. I got Starbucks. I'm in the Starbucks cult. See, look at it. It's like the mermaid cult. So, my nails are really horrific. Okay, look. It's a I'm in the Starbucks cult. You guys see this? That's That's a real cult right there. Okay, I just have
a little cult. I don't really have a cult, guys. I just get accused of it. How are you guys doing? Good to see you all. 6:28 in the morning. I don't know. I'll go. I know. I'm not a I'm not a cult, guys. It's not a not it's not Yeah, I'm
not a cult. But I'll worship you. I'll worship you. Have I slept? No. I just got coffee though. I just I had like I think I drank like a six-ack of kombucha. I had a few twisted teeth, but I took a nap earlier today. Like Oh, you're
there. What? You're on my shoulder. Come on. Hi, babe. I'm not a cult leader. I don't have cats just jumping onto me. I don't have cats just jumping onto me, kissing me. I'm in I have a cat cult, guys. It's called Bea's Kitty
Gang. I'm not the leader. This is Miss Lenor. Bea is my leader. Okay. I'm just a cult member. Okay. But wait, you kissing me? Come on. Hey, babe. Miss Lor, he's a sweetheart. She's a
sweethearted cat. You're a sweethearted cat, guys. Okay. So, my cult has a few rules. First rule, think for yourself. Second rule, make whatever rules you want. I'm not in charge of you. We're all in charge of ourselves, right? Hi,
babe. My babe. Bae. It's called a Baywatch coat. Okay. It's Baywatch. B A E W A T C H. Oh, you're you're good. You're happy, Miss Lenor. I love you, Tracy. Thank you for being here. Yeah. Yeah. I'm Guys, it's a little tongue and cheek reference. Yeah, I know. I'm not a cult. I'm not a cult.
Everyone just accuses me of being a cult leader, guys. My feelings are hurt. I'm a bad cult leader. Oh. Oh. Oh, Lenor. No. No. Don't hear your starfish to the chat. No. Star. Oh, Lenor. No. I can't see. I can't see. Oh, Lenor. Can't see what you're kissing me. Can't see when you're kissing me.
No. Don't show your butt to the camera. Come on, Lenor. Lor's my girl. Oh, hi, babe. Lenor's my girl. She's precious. Yep, I know. Yeah, we're just playing, guys. Yeah. Where's
Lenor? Lenor, don't show your starfish to the camera. Lenor, be a lady. Lenor, don't show everything at once. You're not Don't be like me. I show everything. I show everything at once. Lenor Lenor kissing me. Yes, guys. Lenor, you're sitting there kissing
me. Kissing. Oh. Oh. Oh. Look. She's the camera. You're on camera. Oh, she saw she's on camera. Lenor, you got caught on camera. It's okay. She didn't care. You see? You see Lola over there? Lola's sitting on the couch, too. All hanging out. I love you, Lenor. I love you. You're my babe. My baby. You're my baby. I got
Lenor. The story how I got Lenor. So, I had another cat named Salem. And Salem was a black cat. And Salem was a beautiful, precious. I love Salem. But when Salem and and I I went to the vet and had Salem checked and everything. And then I had I had a I scheduled to have to have him neutered. I think Yeah, he was I was a I think he was a guy cat.
I had scheduled to have him neutered. He was very sweet. And then the next couple weeks he just disappeared. He just disappeared from my house. I got phone calls. Oh, I see this black cat here. I was running around every time I was like, "Oh, he just he just I saw him leave." It was just like a nightmare trying to get him back. So, I was
heartbroken and I was like, I want a black cat. I I want a black cat. So, my friend, my Russian friend, okay, the notorious Russian friend, she had she knew a cat lady. And so, she brought over an orange cat one day and I was like, "Oh, I was so happy." And the orange cat was adorable. His name was Toby. He was very sweet and he was he
was cute. And but I was like, "I kind of wanted a black cat." But that night, she had arranged for me to get another cat. And and so she brought Lenor and the story of how Lenor got brought was like Lenor was a little kitten. She was she was seen in parking lots and stuff like that wandering in parking lots. And so this cat lady went to work one day and
she put out her trap cuz you Lenor, you were in her parking lot. You were in the cat lady's parking lot, huh? But she put a cat trap, put some food in it. And Lenor, you came out at lunchtime. Just a couple hours later, Lenor, you were already in the trap, right? And when I got Lenor, she brought Lenor over. Lenor, did we hug and we kiss? And
immediately it was love at first sight. It was, wasn't it? I have pictures of it, too. When I got Lenor, she was a kitten. You're a kitten, right? There was kitten around. She was kitten. Lenor. There you go. So, that's how I story. I got Lenor. I still have photos of I'll find it sometime and tell you and show you the photos. When I first got Lenor and she's she hugs and kisses
me. And she always hugs and kiss Lunar. Do you want to hug and kiss me? Here kiss. Come here. Hi babe. She's so sweet. She Guys, whoever says black cats are bad luck. It is a cool story. It was a It was a sweet story. And I got Lola. Tell the story about how I got Lola. Miss Lola
there. Miss Lola. Oh, there's tricks. Tricks here. There's tricks here. This is Lola. So, I had to show how I got Lola is I had so many cats and the guy brought over a cat. I was like, I can't have any more cats. I told him tonight, I can't have any more cats. And he's like, "Oh, well, can you just leave her here for I'll leave her here for a couple. I'll be right back to get her." And I was like, "If you know, if I if I see the cat, I
will fall in love with the cat. I won't be able to give the cat up." So, I was like, "Come back very soon." He's about to come back. Okay. Then I heard she was in her little carrier. She was sitting next to me on the couch. I had the carrier just zipped up and stuff and then, you know, 30 minutes, 20 minutes, I couldn't resist. She was meowing. I opened the carrier and she came out and
she had boogers all in her eyes and I wiped away the boogers. Did I wipe away your boogers? I wiped away the boogers and look at her beautiful eyes. She has these beautiful green eyes. Look at Look at her. Look at those eyes. You have some gorgeous eyes. Yeah, Tracy, I love how you have
bunnies. I love Tracy has bunnies and butterflies, but look look at her eyes. She's the most beautiful eyes. I saw those green eyes. And I was like, okay, you're mine. You're mine. You're mine. Yeah, she's beautiful. And and and then and then did you get pregnant? Oh. Oh. Oh, your eyes are roll. Oh, they're rolling, huh? They're just rolling. They're rolling. Did you you got
pregnant? Remember when you went outside all the time and you would and you that that male cat was meowing outside and you'd run out. You remember that? I remember. I remember. I remember. Oh, remember? And you would run outside when that male cat would come and then you came back home. Preos, you got real big. Yeah, you did. You
did. She got real She got real big. I had another cat looked really similar to her named Remy. Remy had two litters the year before. So then, Lola, last year, it was last year. Yeah. On last year on Pi Day. Hold on. March 3.14th. It was March 14th. So, it was a little bit maybe a week ago to a year and a week
ago. And then got you came you went under the TV, right? And then you had five kittens and you kept all of them survived cuz Remy Yeah. She's still little. Yeah. But yeah, she Yeah, but she was she got big, right? She got she got she's been fixed now. Okay. you're not having any more kittens, right? But
she had five kittens and cuz the other cat had like two litters and the first litter, one passed away and the second litter, two passed away. One one the first night and then the next one a few weeks later. It was really sad. Oh god, guys. It's terrible. It's terrible when a kitten Yeah. Even though there's a little kitten passed away.
Yeah, it was terrible and that really difficult. Right. But and out of those Trixs is still here. But all she And she had How many How many did you have? She had one girl and four boys and all of them disappeared. Or ones was the neighbor. Yeah. It's super It was really Oh my god. And the first litter was the
saddest because it was like a little gray cat. Like all the other cats were like there was one blonde cat and there was a gray cat and the gray cat passed away. And then the blonde cat, his name is Romeo and I haven't seen him either. Um, but yeah, I have a little I have a little pet cemetery. I have three kittens buried in the backyard because, you know, sometimes things happen and
stuff like that. But Lola, all her kittens survived and then she and so the first cat she would um she breastfed them until they were fully grown. Like they were bigger than her. They were breastfeeding. She was still breastfeed. Lola, as soon as they
got um to a certain size, she was she had nothing to do with them anymore. Right, Lola? You still hiss at tricks? Yeah, I pray for magic. I think just like Bea said the other day, she's like, "Magic is in a beautiful house. He's inside. He found some home. He wandered off." Because I know in this city people love cats. There's not even a cat. There's not
there's not an animal control kind of thing here. um like where they would like pick up a cat or take them. What's up, Titus Santes? What's up, Ty? Yeah, there's not like a um there's no there's no shelter for cat because there's no need for a shelter for cats here because it's like people just take them in and stuff like that. Good to see you. Want to come on the panel? You're welcome up,
guys. I still have like a little coffee left. I have a couple more cigars. I'm just like up a little bit early this morning. 6:30. Yeah. I just had a kind of crazy night last night. I'm all energized. Yeah. Yeah. You know, yeah, Tracy and Ty, you know each other. Yeah, you guys are awesome. And thank you for being here. Tracy is so awesome. Ty Oh, sorry. Sorry. T Y. You're T Y. T Y to
Sant. Look at Lenor's back here. Say, you're Are you spying on us, Lenor? You're spying. You're a little spy cat. You're a little spy cat. Samantha. Yeah. Yeah. Last night was an emotional night because, you know, clumsy clairvoyance. I was talking to her yesterday on messages and I was hoping it would be cool and we were just
talking cordially and I said, "Oh, well, am I welcome back on your show?" And she's like, "No." And so, of course, she said, "I'm not welcome on her show." So, I went to her show last night. So, I went to her show and then, you know, Jaime's Cowboys, I I love you, Jamie's Cowboys. I really love you. And I And you know, Beetlejuice, too. I talked to Beetle Juice about it already.
And several of her mods who I introduced her to Galactus and I came in and she's like, "Oh, Psyche is banned. Psyche, kick him off." And they're like, "You Oh, you got him. You got him. You got him." I I have over 10 accounts. Okay. So, I I was back and back and back. But I I always give myself away. I'm just say I you know I guys I can't help it because I'm like if I'm going to be banned on one account, I'm going to be
banned on all of them. So, I kept coming back in coming back in ban ban ban ban ban. I was already banned on my main account and then yeah, she was like, "Oh, kick psyche. Kick psyche out." And they're like, "Oh, get him. Get him. Get him. Oh, you got him. Oh, hooray." It was just like It's like, "What the fuck?" You know, half the people in that room tonight. She had 20 people there.
Half of those at least I introduced to her show. I brought to the show. What's up, dude? Hope you have a good morning, Ty Ty. Thank you. Okay. I like you, dude. I like you. Okay. You want to do an interview on the show sometime? We talking about boxing. Yeah, my Mike Tyson, Jake Paul, whatever. But I I want to say thank you for coming by TY. Okay. Hey, Lenor, are you happy? So, yeah. So,
there's just some drama with that and because and then Oh, yeah. She But she finally unfriended me on Discord because the door was open always like I was just I was still texting back that No, now she's pissed. Okay, now she's pissed. I got I got her I got her inner feeling. She does not like me. and she was talking about it was like I heard from a person or like I just hear people tell
me things. Okay, I'm sure they tell other people things but I got told Oh, you're she's mad at you already, man. Okay, good. Flex, I want to see a flex. Um Ty, yeah, Ty Ty is awesome. Yeah, Ty is awesome. Are you there, Lenor? Lenor, you're there. Thank you,
Ty. Anytime, TY. Okay. Oh, you're there. Okay. Yeah. So anyway, guys, the finally she unfriended me and Emma unfriended me and so and now I'm going to put my interview with Emma back up because she who's going to tell me not to. She can't she can't talk to me anymore. She unfriended me. There's no way to contact
me. She can post she can see me in court. You want you know that's my my property my u my interviews that I do on my show. You can't a guest can't Beetlejuice can't go, you know, Beetlejuice can't go on Howard Stern and then say a year later, oh, I don't want that episode on it's Howard Stern's property. Okay. So, I can have you agree
to the interview. It's going to be it's going to be public again. Okay. I'm sorry. Tell me otherwise. Contact Contact your attorney, Emma, if there's a problem with that. Okay. You want to waste some time? The interview only has like 300 views anyway. I I've my shows now do over a thousand views a show. Not maybe not this one, but when I do my long
streams, there's over a thousand thousand. Okay. So, I I I took it down as a courtesy to you because you asked, but then you didn't do the courtesy to respond to my emails to And you put a poll up saying, "Oh, should I give him a reading or not?" When I paid after I paid for the reading, you put a poll up. I won the poll. I won by a little bit, right? I
won the poll. You did the reading. I like the I like the reading. But you know what? That that interview that was that was my interview. That that's my show. If I do an interview on your show, I'm not going to say, "Oh, take down my reading. Take down this. Take down that." Right? And then not if I do, it'll be as a courtesy because we're
friends. Not because you just tell me to and then just dump me in the dirt, right? Oh god. So you guys, as much frustration I have with these situations, I just want to say I will be here for you guys. Guys, even if you even if we hate each
other, right, if we stay talking and stuff like that, if if we have a cord relationship and stuff like that and we're but if you cut off communication and like there's no way to contact Yeah. or and you keep blocking my every account in your chats and just for for nothing. I apologize to you guys several times if I did something wrong. Okay, I apologize several times. You never accepted my
apology. You never told me what I did wrong or why you were mad at me. You just dumped me after everything. Emma, I was her first member. I was her first member of her of her membership. I was the first one that signed up. There's a bird screaming. I was the first one. I was I got more readings from her than anybody.
Okay. I donated a lot. I donate. I was there all the time. She She fired me as a mod because I made a Diddy party joke and she has a whole stream called Diddy Baby Oil. Okay. She has a whole stream called Diddy Baby O. I made a Diddy Baby Oil. No, I say it. Something's wrong. Right. Oh, you're not you're calling me
a blackmailer, extorter, and a molester. That's what she actually said to me cuz I made a Diddy party joke. I don't even know what the did Diddy did. Like Diddy did what? Oh, oh, this. Everyone I I go to chats. They're like, "Oh, I remember you cuz you're the one promoting Emma Leviathan in here. I just went on the chat tonight. This guy Rayu." He's like, "Oh, you're chair like
Emma Levi." I was like, "Yeah, I told you about her. What's up? Follow him, baby. Good morning, guys. You heard the birds?" Yeah, I live right by the ocean, so there are some loud birds outside. Beautiful. Good morning, Baldwin. Awesome to see you. Thank you for being here. This is Miss This is Mr. or Miss Lola. Guys, I have this mind control.
You see this this lighting? That's total mind control, right? Cuz I'm a brainwasher. I'm a cult leader, right? What if Guys, the things people say? I'm not even that I mean, I'm like I mean, have a I have a small YouTube audience. I'm a I have a cult now. That's what people are saying. It's ridiculous.
Guys, I I wish I had a cult, you know. I'm just kidding. I don't want a cult. I because I like people to think for themselves. And that's like if I have a cult, it'll be a cult of leaders, not followers. It's It's like a It's like I want people to be I want you guys to have your um have your have your channels and have your your own audience and stuff like that. I'm here to help people. It's like it's so weird. It's
like I'm not trying to control people. I'm not asking for anything. I'm not demanding loyalty or anything, but if I feel like I'm done wrong sometimes by people, I'll say go raid their chat. I'll say be polite and just say I'll say psyche you or something like that. I'll I'll I'll some you don't have
to go, but I do sometimes have some drama with people and I'm not afraid to say go to their chat and say my name. It's not harassment. It's not anything. But with those two since they say they cut they cut me off. I'm cutting them completely and I'm not going to be because usually what I was just doing is promoting them. Usually
I'll say raid. So raid to like join their channel, join their panel. Um and it's like but I don't like it when it's like they cut me off completely. They have their mods ban me. They don't tell they don't give me the courtesy of telling to my face, right? They're like it's all like oh oh just block this person. I don't want to I don't want to talk to them. I don't want to talk to them. So I can't I can't. No, it's
fine. I know. Everyone's like, "What drugs are you on?" I'm on like I'm actually on like six beers. Um, no weed, which maybe is why I have a little bit of energy and a cigar. These are just normal cigar. I'm out of weed. I'm out of everything. Okay. I have some coffee. What's up, guys?
But I love you guys so much. It hurts me when people will turn on me for no reason, right? Like I and then I didn't do anything wrong, but it's like my fault and I apologize and they don't accept the apology for something I didn't. It just doesn't make sense. I don't know what it is. Is it
jealousy? You know, Clumsy been at it for years. Emma's been at it for a year and stuff like that. I'm just a little fish. Okay. Emma's a big Leviathan. Okay. She's a big sea monster. Clumsy's, you know, clumsy is doing her thing. Half her chat, I'm sorry to say clumsy was people I brought there. Okay. And then you tell me I'm banned. I'm banned.
Okay. Doesn't sit right. Oh, so I was so trying to get her to 1,000 subscribers. I was trying to help her so much. Oh my god. Every chat, but half her chat was my people I brought there. Her mods, Galacticness, other people. J I don't know if Jamie is her model or not. People I brought there. Did any of Jamie stick up for me?
No. The Beatles just stick up for me? No. Did Galactis who I brought there? Who's her M? No. She said she said oh go away Psyche. I was like go eat a dick, Galactus. And so maybe I said I said wrong stuff, you know. But jeez. Jeez Louise. I'm going to smoke the rest of
the cigar. I'm s for maybe an hour this morning. I finished my coffee so I'm not tired. Oh gosh. But guys, this ridiculous. It's ridiculous. I'm sorry if I'm like bothering you. Good morning. Good morning, kitties. Good morning. Baldwin baby. What's up, guys? Who wants a reading? I got a
reading for you this morning. I'll do a free reading for anybody. Guys, I just pour here's what it's like. I poured a lot of my love, my my heart, my soul to these people. I just I just like my my my thing is like I'll just give love freely, right? But I really really really gave a lot of love to these people. Like I I gave a lot of
love. I was really on their side. Like close like and so it's like then they just like throw me away like I'm garbage. Throw me like like I'm nothing. Not not no no no no no explanation. No, they won't even tell me what they're mad about. Like I even asked CL I was like, "Oh, so you're mad at me about Hell Walker? This guy, he's a little he's a little He
complained. He complained about me." Okay. Okay. Yeah. So she he's mad about Hell Walker. And she's like, "No, it's not Hell Walker." Well, why was it that you said it was about Hell Walker? It was the next day after some Hell Walker incident, right? Hell Walker who I don't want to get into it, but he's a because he can't take a gay joke. I can
take a dick. They can't take a joke. Okay. I don't know. I don't know. But from now on, their names will be stricken from my vocabulary. I'm going to put that interview back up. So, no one can tell me not not to because I'm blocked, right? That interview is going back up because that
my property. Okay. That interview was on my show. You agreed to it. There was not a stipulation. Oh, you're taking it down any time. I'm putting that interview back up and everyone can see how nicely I treated her, how well I treated her. She had so much fun. She did from 30 minute went to 90minute interview. She was having so much fun. She's like, "Oh, keep going. Keep going." She said afterward, "Oh, that was a great
interview." And then for no reason. For no reason, guys. Really, I didn't I don't I'm still like I don't know what I did. Everyone just turned on me. Everyone left. You know, she said my show is toxic. My panel's toxic. I get drunk. I pass out. I got scammed by a butthole. Okay, that's what she said in front of everybody in the chat. I I'll tell the story. Yes. Yes. I
was maybe I was scammed by a butthole. Okay. Stupid me. Okay. But all I did was ask her, "Come on my panel. Come on my panel if you um I have a cool pan. Be on my panel. Michael, I think they'd like you know you have a fun." She came to my Discord chats and had no problem recruiting everyone my
Discord chats as moderators for her and then firing me as a moderator. Oh guys, the story it goes so deep. It's a rabbit hole. It's a rabbit hole I don't want to get go down to. I'm not mentioning their names anymore. They'll be they'll remember now their names are Mud. Okay, I'll say Mud did this, Mud did that. Their names are Mud.
Okay, welcome to the cult, guys. Welcome to the co. How are you guys doing? Good morning. It's 6:52 a.m. I finished my coffee. I'm going to finish the cigar. I'll take off early, you know. I don't I don't mean to vent, guys. Good morning, everybody. I don't mean to vent. But I'm going to share everything, okay? I'm going to tell everything. I'm not going to like And then pi. Can I
read the messages from pi this morning? Oh my gosh. You want to hear some guys? So pi this morning, I'm gonna read pi, guys. These are these are these are messages to me, right? I just want you to know what
happened. Oh my god. I love you, Tracy. I'm I'm reading your um your your email. I'm sorry. I was seeing that. Yeah. I love you, Tracy. Good morning. I know, guys. And I won't I'm going to get this out of my system and I won't
mention it again. Okay. Pi this morning I said I said I said um she I said stop and she said turn right. Okay. And then I said press go and enter here. And I put my
Discord and she said I can't afford the drama. I said try one more time for me. She said you're a liar. I don't trust you no more. I said, I'll make sure you're treated right. She's like, I'm not worried about them. It's you. And I said, one more chance. And then I posted the Biggie song. Look at this. The Biggie song. One more chance, Biggie.
Give me one more chance. And she said, "No reason to. No reason to." Okay. And I said, "Did I did you see how Good Times treated me?" Good times. I was on this chat last night saying, "Good Times." He said, "I don't like you cuz you're gay." basically. And she said, "You've got nothing to you show me nothing to trust you again. What about it? What about good times?" I said, "You kicked me out because I'm a panel
because I'm gay." And she said, "No, lol. Not because you're gay. Only because he didn't feel good talking to you." You know, I wasn't I didn't even talk. I didn't say one word. I was holding up tricks. Okay. Maybe he just doesn't like cats. Okay. And I said, "Beta did the whole show after it happened. I posted be the show." She goes, "And I said, talk? All I did was hold her tricks. And she said, "Fuck
Bea. She's a fake bitch." And I said, "And yet she's by my side and you abandoned me after everything." And she said, "No, you were never really on my side ever. Just full of like she is. Enjoy each other." Good morning, Nick. And I said, "Okay, you misjudged." And she goes, "You're a liar. I caught you. Go talk your shit." I said, "What
was my lie?" She goes, "What's wrong? Can't keep track no more. I spoke to the cops. You lied. Spoke to the cops. What? I said what? Explain. Now I'm intrigued. She said, "And you lied to the audience saying I left because I wanted to focus on my own channel. Lol. Like you know for a fact I was never interested in growing my own stream. So much
And you just want the drama to give content to your stream. I'm not into any of this. You're fake as You and Beta are meant to be." I said, "What do you mean about the cops?" I said, "Don't do me like this. You can come on on my show. Tell your tell oneonone on 101 and tell your side. I said I I thought
Clumsy would forgive me, but not Mud. Okay. Mud's going to forgive me. Mud never will. Okay. She said, "You were never my friend. You wanted my face on your stream. Always shutting me up while clearing the way for anyone else. Don't think I noticed that. No way, man. I don't want to be used no more. I'm out." I said, "Wow."
And she says, "You don't get it. I don't want to be your content. You're fake." I said, "You're mean." She said, 'Go enjoy your YouTube onscreen only crew. I said, "You're a troll." And she said, "That makes no sense." And she said, "Well, when I'm nice, you walk all over me, so you don't listen when so you don't listen when I'm nice." I said, "Can we talk this out?" She said, "You
waited so long to talk this out now." And I said, "I came to my senses." And she said, "Not I'm wondering now. I'm wondering if the only reason you're you're here again is because your stream got dull and you need fresh content. You're like Alisa. This is not my style. Stop manipulating. I said, "Can I call you on Discord? This texting is bullshit." She says, "No, whenever you're on voice, just talk and use your
cult manipulation skills to wash and rinse brains away. My voice is only noticed when I text. So that's all you get." I said, "You're absolutely insane." She goes, "Fantastic." And I said, ' Only if you truly love me could you be this angry with me. I love you, too. She said, ' Okay. I said, 'I will grant your wish and leave you alone, but I'll always have the door open. I'm
sorry. And she said, "Your door is a trap. I wish you'd stop bullshitting so much." So, that's the conversation I had this morning, guys. Wow, guys. Isn't that amazing? Okay, so I know I'm boring you guys. We have a I scared everyone away, but yeah, I will share everything that I'll share. I will share that because it's like, you know, she's not leaving the door open for communication.
So, what can what else can I do? I said, can we talk? No. No. It's just like it's like we can't work it out. So, I'm just sharing. This is like the the relationship's over. So, I can share whatever I
want. But guys, you can see this is a this is a unique circumstance, right? It's only because she was like, if you guys came at me like, "Oh, you're a liar. You're all this like you're a cult leader and stuff like that." I'm going to tell that someone's people are saying I'm a cult leader and stuff like that. Like
seriously, this is so ridiculous. So ridiculous, guys. Oh, there's a wild clumsy appeared in Beetlejuice. Well, yep. I guess I won't be talking to her. She's blocked me. Okay. Hey, Nick. Well, thank you guys. I know it's so early in the morning. I'm
probably going to go to I'm so hyped up right now. Like, geez, guys. And if you tell me, I know I like Pi, too. But Pi's accusing me of She's like, "Oh, I I I'm just a liar, a manipulator. I'm just bullshitter. I'm fake. And Beta is fake." and and uh and I was trying to I
said she wasn't working on her show. She asked she told me she wanted to be unmoded. She told me she's like I don't want to be your host anymore. Okay. And I So then then she said so she said oh she had no idea why it happened. She said it that day. I don't want to be your co-host anymore. Oh god. But I love I love pie too. And it's like you know I said the door's open now. Your door is a
trap. So I can't even like have a door open. I can't even like say, "Hey, I'm always here, right?" No, it's like, "I can't do anything right, guys." Right? I can't do anything right. It's my fault. I did something wrong. I'm just like accused of and
like, but guys, if you ever say, "Keep this between you and me," I will. Right. Yeah. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Nick. You dead car battery. That sucks. Yeah. You know, if you say, you know, everything will be private, but when they're saying like that and then not letting me, not
working it out, not talking to me, just like accusing me and saying, "Oh, the door's not even open."
Right. Okay. Okay. I'm I'm done, guys. I'm I vented. I love you guys. I hope you guys have a good day. I'm going to try to get some sleep and I cuddle up with my cat. I got Lola here. I'm sorry guys. I don't mean to bump you out. You don't want to read before I go. I'm just here for a couple more minutes. Where are you? There you are. This is
Lola. I got I got I just know you. I know you wouldn't do me like that. It's like these people like Emma, Clumsy, and Pi, you know, is like traveling gypsy. You know, she was mad at me, too. But she made up with me. Like, we she she like typed it out. She gave me all her feelings. I I accept I took her criticism and I and and she accepted my
apology cuz she understands me. These people that will like they basically don't even deal with me. They're like they tell their mods to block me in every chat. They tell their mods, "Oh, I don't like this person." Blah, blah, blah. It's like, oh, keep me out of the room. Blah blah. Guys, I'm a nice person. Okay. And guys, if you want any help,
even even if you guys even if you hate me and stuff like that, I will still help you. Yeah, Teresa's awesome traveling and she's a sweetheart, right? And she forgave me and she's still like she comes comes to my chat. She doesn't like my the panel sometimes and you know, my panel is like not for everyone. I said if she wants to be on my panel, I'll do one-on-one with her. We we and we can talk to the chat and stuff like
that. I I'm a reasonable person. just don't I just feel like I was thrown away like garbage by these other people and then like then I'm wrong and then it's like my fault, right? And these people I've done a lot for. I did a lot more for them than they did for me. I'll put it that way. Okay? I did a lot for them and they threw me away like trash. That
that's what hurts. Okay? So guys, you know, I will be here if if you hate me, if you love me, I will if you as long as you are in my life, have the communication open, will talk to me back and stuff like that. We can work things out. I'm reasonable. I'm a loving person. These people are getting me out of my element. This is confusing everybody, too. Everyone's like, "Well, I don't I don't see what's happening because Emma took down she made me take
the interview, but I'm putting it back up." You can see our relationship there. Okay. You can see the affection to be just to just throw me away. Not cool. Okay, guys. You don't And you don't have to be here. You don't have to. If you don't like the show anymore, you don't have to. But it's like to abruptly like, and they say I talk trash. They talk trash
about me. Okay. They talk trash about me on their shows. Clumsy was really cruel. She was really cruel last night. She was talking a lot of about me. Oh, get him out. Get him out. Mods, get him out. Oh, he's not welcome. He's not welcome in the chat. I was Oh, Okay, I'm not. So that's that's it. My venting stream, the cold stream. Has everyone everyone had a good night? Okay. I love you, Tracy.
Tracy, I'm going to read your email carefully and and respond to that. I thank you for writing that. I saw I saw it's really sweet. I want to read that carefully. Okay. I want to thank you guys. I'm a little bit hyped up, a little bit adrenaline, adrenaline running through my veins because I feel like it's unfair how they treated me
after after all I've done. Okay. Clumsy. I brought I brought Clumsy. Half her chat. Half of her chat that I saw in her chat I brought to her. I love you, Tracy. Thank you guys for being here. And it's okay cuz now now she's cut me off now. Now I She can't say anything to me anymore. She can have her
mods and Emma can have her mods come like come yell at me and like that. I'll be blocking them um my Discord. They come harassing me. I didn't harass them. All I did was brought people to their chat. That's all I did. All I do is promote them, show them
love, guys. If if you ever have a problem with me, talk it out. I'll talk I'll call you on the phone, okay? I'll call you. We can talk. If I made a mistake, I'll apologize. Don't just throw me away like trash. I don't like to feel like trash. This is doesn't nice. This is not nice to feel
like a used condom, you know? It feels like a dirty like oh feel like oh then Beetlejuice was like oh well you are her stepping stone. And I was like I'm not a stepping stone. I'm a gushing waterfall. Okay. I'm not the little not the little rock in the thing. I'm a I'm a water I'm the waterfall. Okay.
So I love you guys. I'm sorry to vent too much. Is everyone having fun? I hope everyone had a good night. I thank you guys. Thank you guys for be my friends. Thank you for being there. I love you. Okay. Um yeah, I don't like I don't like I don't want to feel like a used condom.
Okay. I'm I'm the dick. Okay guys, with that I'll see you soon. Okay, I'm going to take a little nap. I'll wake up. We'll do some more streaming. What is it? It's a Sunday. Sunday morning. Sunday morning. I love you guys. You're beautiful people, okay? You're my heart. You're my
soul. You're my love. Going to cuddle up with Lola. Have a little nappy nap if I can. Okay, I'll be back soon. I want to thank you for being here. Thank you for letting me vent. I'm going to private this stream. I don't want I don't want people say, "Oh, look what Psyche said. Look what Psyche said." You heard it. You did. You didn't. I'm resting cuddle with the kittens. Okay, Tracy. And I love you,
Tracy. You're a sweetheart. Okay. sweetheart person. Good good heart. Beautiful soul. Beautiful heart. Beautiful person. Okay. And I got your back, Tracy. Okay. And everyone else in the chat. Is everyone having a good day? I'm gonna cuddle with Lola. I would do maybe a sleep stream, but I think you guys might get bored. And so, unless anyone wants to say um something in the Yeah, I guess I guess we're done. I
guess unless anyone wants to go on the panel, but I think we all have a busy day ahead of us. Sunday. Happy Sunday morning. Love each other. Love yourself. Love one another. This is not a cult. I'm not a cult leader. I'm your friend. You're my friend. We're equals, okay? And I want I want I I I want leaders here. I want I want people I
want, you know, people to do their own streams, too, and have their own open panels. And I'll be on your panels. I'll send people to your panels. I'll send people to your channel. 50 subscribers if you want. I will help you. Okay? No charge. Just out of love, okay? I will help you. each and every one of you that wants help, I will help you. Okay? So, I love you guys. I'll talk to you soon.
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