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The episode starts with Psyche explaining his internet issues and how he's using his phone's data to stream. He talks about his day, sleeping in, and having intense dreams ▶ 1:41. He shares stories about his cats, including Lola and Rudy, and mentions that some of his cats have wandered off ▶ 3:31. Psyche also discusses his experiences with Discord servers, getting kicked out of a couple of them [4:11, 4:43]. He invites viewers to join the open panel and offers to do tarot readings [6:03, 9:30]. Throughout the episode, Psyche chats with his viewers, responding to comments and engaging in conversations [8:11, 10:19].
The episode appears to revolve around Psyche's personal life, sharing stories about his daily experiences, and interacting with his viewers. It suggests that Psyche values his connection with his audience and is willing to adapt to technical difficulties to maintain that connection. The episode also touches on themes of community and social interaction, as Psyche engages with his viewers and responds to their comments.
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hello guys yeah um today my internet started flashing it's not working well lately it's like been going out a lot and so I finally called the cable company or you know Spectrum or whatever and they said um they're
sending somebody over tomorrow so I just have a phone um with data tonight and so I don't know how long the stream will last tonight and I'm just might be like lower quality um resolution tonight because I want to use as little data as possible I also won't be able to share anything from my uh my end on my U my tablet because I just have no internet right now but I'm glad I'll be able to
stream from my phone and maybe I'll just do a short stream and have a chat hopefully it's good yeah I slept all day I slept until I think I woke up at 10:00 p.m. tonight I woke up a couple times during the day I was just up for a little short while but I don't know I maybe I needed the sleep which I think I look a little bit
refreshed and I had really good crazy dreams too really intense like kind of um a cultish kind of dreams like about well at one point in my dream um I was at a gas station and the there was all these people in the red and white robes coming by and like Mark it was really
strange and uh I also had a dream I was like being kidnapped by people and uh and I don't know people were being mean to me and also I was in a car and the car was going so fast it would like go up a hill so fast that um that all my things would like fall out of the car I thought I was going to fall out so it was just kind of fun it was kind of like
a roller coaster that's fun when you have dreams that are like so scary but it's like there um hey what's up guys I'm sorry I'm looking at the comments okay yeah so if anyone wants open join an open Panel tonight you guys are welcome I don't know how many people will be here tonight it's a little bit later in the night um last night I went
on really really late and there was like nobody around so I know you guys are um and know lot of my lot of my people are asleep but I I I woke up I was up all day so there's the streamyard link if anyone wants to join the streamyard has Lola Lola came up and S next to me
want see Lola CU I do promise cats little she's a very sweet very sweet cat that's that's magic and trix's Mom she she had five kittens
unfortunately I well tux is tux is at the neighbor's house but uh um I haven't seen pie or Toya for quite a while and that's unfortunate that sometimes cats they wander they disappear they moveing with other people um they don't
always get along in the house but I think we have a good group in the house um but yeah um unfortunately um some of them fight sometimes and it gets a little bit Close Quarters sometimes and so but I hope everyone's doing okay no one's commenting yeah it was a it was a crazy
night last night it was a little bit dramatic last night um I won't go into I I'll tell you I kicked off probably a couple Discord servers um one of them I just got I got in fight with one of the mod told the mods to shut up he timed me out for 10 minutes but I think uh I was getting everyone else in the server was getting
an uproar about me and demanding that I be kicked out and stuff like that I wasn't really doing anything wrong I was trying I was trying to be friendly and make friends and stuff the other one I think that I posted my um my show or something and you're not allowed to post or advertise and I think so I got kicked out of a couple servers that I like but I don't those both of those servers they
didn't have the the really the host of the show associated with the server like in the server it was like other people running it if it makes sense and uh and uh I never saw the host of the show ever those um in those servers talking so it's not it was just mods having a difference with some mods but I have my own server and I did make a few friends
in that in one of the servers that um I was able to friend request today and um yeah so that was good so I'm here with Lola and Rudy's walking out I have the heat on I slept all day but I look refreshed last night I had kind of bags under my eyes I think they've kind of left so everyone um CH
at hello I don't guys if my if the stream ends abruptly I'm just I ran out of data on this phone like I said I I um my my uh my cable internet is not working all day it's been out and they're sending someone tomorrow to fix it but I'm just using the data on my phone I think I had like three gigs I don't know how long it will last but I think it might last a little while
because I was on um I was playing YouTube shows and stuff like that and uh didn't use very much data it seemed yeah everyone shout out in the chat um how are you doing you know it's like a little bit quiet night I'll do readings tonight I'll do anyone open Panel um yeah last night we had some trolls in the chat too someone said my cat was ugly and then I was ugly and
blah blah blah I just muted that person is uh when you're you know I don't care if you insult me but don't insult don't insult my cats my cats are beautiful cats and I think everyone agrees and so that person was just has some kind of other problem in their life but yeah I organized my cards um a bit today and um
I'm GNA planning on uh cleaning my house for the for the cable guy tomorrow maybe know cable guys are sometimes cute except that that that uh that the Jim Carrey Jim carre is kind of cute but um yeah so I have a cable cut coming tomorrow we'll see how that goes Rudy's not sitting I'll start Lola again Lola
you want to say hi okay want to say hi Lola she a sweetheart she's purring look you're on TV you see she's on TV I'm not drinking tonight um yeah I'm going to take a little break this week um at least for couple couple days on drinking
but I do have my cigars that's all I'm smoking cigars tonight um whatever you guys want to chat about and say hi I know a lot of people are shy are shy the chat they tell me they're like I'm in your chat but I don't talk but yeah you don't have to be shy because everyone is really usually really nice in my chats and I do have really good mods I don't know if um yeah I think my chat is
working I just can't check anything today on my um on my tablet and so um I won't be able to pin my link I won't be able to share any prank calls or anything but I'm happy to chat with everybody and see how everyone's doing and I'm happy to do readings or take questions or talk about anything you want to talk about I do have some energy right now like I said it's left until 10
p.m. I've never it's like the longest I so since my dentist I had a tooth cold and then the next week after that I uh I slept almost like 20 hours a day but uh right now I'm a little bit awake and I'm down to to chat ter what's up Susanna how are you good to see you thank you for
coming yeah I'm doing uh doing okay tonight was a little bit depressed I got kicked off of a couple Discord servers and uh you know maybe I was maybe had something wrong in in in a couple of them by like you know the I was being antagonized by people and then the mod was telling me it's my fault and I was pull the mod to shut up in this one one server he just tied me out for 10 minutes but then he's like one more
thing and you're kicked out and maybe I just said I did one more thing I'm not sure I kept coming back saying I was I couldn't sleep in that server the other server I think I this advertise you know sometimes people don't care if you advertise your channel it's like you know it's not like you know it's G to take anything away from anybody else and I'd be happy to shout out all those
people too on my my show and um but like I said the host was not always there so but I don't know how long this stream will last because I just have a few gigabytes of data and um but I'm willing to use that for my show because I like doing my show and I like uh even if my internet's out I still have a you know some data on my phone so I can uh down
in the chat it's a little bit quiet in chat tonight but everyone feel free to to say hi and uh you know I love you guys and uh I'll p cards I'll do a collective reading if nobody says anything and uh but if you want to have a topic we we also you know I can't necessar I can
just tell you I basically have to go off my uh off my brain tonight if you have a want to talk about angel numbers or talk about life path numbers and things like that have to go off your off my brain because I I have no access to Internet otherwise so I hope everyone's doing good thank you guys for even stopping in stopping by like I said I have 6 1,600
you know 66 but probably more now probably almost 1,700 hours of watch time get a really active fun show last night we had beas kitties in here we had Nick Johnson we had uncomfortably numb we had uh um we had oh DJ Electra was here I really appreciate her your dad smokes cigars well I smoke uh these are these
are like swisser sweets like cigaros and uh see they're all they're all uh almost empty like all out what's up St Nikki how are you yeah so I'm I put them in this little corn pop corn cop pipe or whatever and I I just have a few left of them but down to hang out
for a couple hours and uh and then uh maybe I'll get my house clean like I've been wanting to clean it up for a long time and uh good to see you st Nikki I like the smell of like real cigars and uh the switcher sweets it's kind of like someone refer to it as blunt guts or something like that oh I used to buy them when I lived in Glendale I smoked cigarettes in Glendale
and he used to we used to buy them for just like blunt wraps and so he would take just all the tobacco out and just throw all the tobacco away I'm just thinking back what a waste that really was like you know so but uh this is all just
tobacco it's not bad tobacco and it's much cheaper than um it's like I you know $3 or $150 a day compared to like I used smoke a pack of day cigarettes and it's like now it's like 15 bucks in California so yeah good to see you guys um got the fair book I I'll get some cards let's see here P the
collective I got some some of these message cards these are questions to consider they they might apply to to everybody in the chat as a collective um unless someone was specific um card pulled you worked many long days in a row and Mer a we one a lot of sleep during the day yeah like I suzan did you
hear I slept um all day I think I woke up maybe like 800 in the morning or something and was up for like a couple hours and then since noon I've just been I think I slept for like 10 hours and so I think I uh my eyes look better today there were a little bit there were a little bit uh
dark circles last night okay so let's get some cards for everybody this one says what am I looking for outside myself that is already Within Me are you looking for more guidance confidence peace wisdom love or something else when we search outside ourselves we can become overwhelmed frustrated and never feel quite good enough it's time to go inward to find
the answers you seek all the answers you need lie within you and how true is that for me today you know so it says breathe in your favorite essential oil inhale deeply into your belly drop your shoulders and spend some time hanging out with your soul today ask for what you need and be ready for the answers oh absolutely but yeah that that card you know maybe I look outside myself and
I go to other Discord servers and last night I was like you know somebody called me from this one server I was like somebody call me I want to talk to somebody and like no no they're like oh don't give out your phone number don't no and I was like it's a burner phone it's fine they're like no yeah but then nobody nobody call but some somebody did contact me and I also I also met some friends that server for Susanna little scum you're
sick oh I'm sorry scum I hope you feel better I understand I I don't know if I'm sick or not but I was just asleep all day until I'm awake and I have a nothing's working right right now but hopefully hopefully things will be better tomorrow so Susanna this one says am I on the right path and this one says sometimes are we
second guess what we are doing we lose trust in the process and question if we are even on the right path at all know this you are on the right path keep going keep believing keep remembering that you made a sole contract that you are current fulfilling in every area of your life even if you can't see it that doesn't mean it's real so Susanna today search for the ways you are aligned with your Soul's purpose the signs will
appear let this new found trust feel your next steps I hope you like that if anyone else wants one of these cards or I'll just do collectives I'll do another one another collection with the cards very good cards very good questions ask and I constantly question am I on the right path and no matter what's happening and matter what what
um my dad's been the name of some lady you remember her name sometime your dad had the same name as some lady okay oh some lady your dad's were the name of some lady decades ago you remember the name
sometimes for so this for everybody this one says is this no this one says what expectations do I have that are impossible to meet it says the expectations we have are mostly delusional and impossible to meet when we experience then we then experience disappointment with ourselves or with a relationship when they are not met it's time to dissolve your
expectations and replace them with gratitude so it says be grateful you are being summoned to more peace peace is home for our soul and it is accompanied by trust when it comes uh it comes when you surrender and focus on what only what you can control if you expect nothing and are grateful for everything you're experiencing extreme
fulfillment oh good well yeah my yeah um my sleep today um was very rejuvenating um and it was and I must I must have been in a deep sleep because I was um I Dreaming very vividly so it must have been the RM deep RM sleep and so I'm
refreshed but it's like now I'm like what do I do because I can't I can't uh watch TV uh you know I can't I can go on YouTube and and watch something but um unfortunately I have no internet and so yeah I'm just happy to have some gigs and happy to be able to spend time with people oh juicy gossip who server was I kicked off
of um I'll tell the name of it it's called it was called Diego's crib and uh okay um he's a guy on Instagram he's a he he's a really cute guy he was he's never there I never saw it was just the mods to haed me and then but I brought pie over there and we explained the Fe e
d i n g d h e f a game that we play on this show sometimes and they're like what does that mean that's weird you guys are strange um you guys you guys are you guys are two this is for people in their 20s and 30s and blah and uh but they thought she was beautiful they thought I was good-looking like a lot of
people and then there's just one baby basically a big wher there um that um you there's whiner there that was uh that was complaining about me the whole time and so yeah and then there's another another guy L who I'm a member of his channel
and stuff I think I just might have posted um my show link and and like and uh you're way behind oh yeah it's okay you're way behind in the in the game yeah or the in the not the game in the um in the chat okay in the the video it's fine yeah
um yeah I just might not always know exactly what you're referring to um but yeah um we there server um there is some drama in a in theer and Friends server oh okay the Discord server uh the Discord servers were um Diego's crib
which was a private server but he opened it um oh he smoked mual the Diego's CRI with a yeah Diego's crib and it's kind of like it's kind of like a sagging base I don't know I was explaining to uh to Bea last night about sagging and it's kind of but uh but they're just very immature people there they there were an upro
over pi and I P like I showed up with pi they're like who are these new people you guys are weird guys are strange like blah they and they're yeah and so uh so yeah um also there was a little bit of drama in Alisa's server last night um just the Kermit and friends server and Kermit and friends has a lot of lot of drama in it sometimes I was trying to
diffuse a situation and there was somebody I was talking to on the phone and and I while I was talking on the phone with her she started uh I started typing in the server trying to trying to uh you know calm everyone down and I was like I was like oh you know I I was like I can I've forgiven somebody because I was stabbed in the ear before which I was I told my ear stabbing story before I how I was
stabbed in the ear by this guy and I forgave the guy he eventually went on to to un alive my neighbor and then um unived himself in prison by hanging himself but um yeah and so uh but I was then she got really mad and she started screaming at me on the phone and so you know I I'm not not going to know mention
this person's name or anything for privacy but uh but I did just mention to Alisa I was concerned and that I said Alisa this person loves you she has a good heart um and but I like I just talked to her on the phone trying to help her and she started screaming at me like the Exorcist what she did she she was hanging up she said leave me alone no no no no no and it's okay it's okay I know
we all have our our moments where we have our Exorcist our Exorcist moments right but I was like I'm worried I'm just worried and uh today there is still drama there but then um then I think everyone by tonight when I looked in the server everyone was getting along that person was was fine with everything and so I hope I hope everything's fine with that person I won't mention your name
like I said I just was trying to I just like to demonstrate what goes on in her life sometime my life sometimes um and like you know with that with Welling privacy just for a lesson our intuition tells us that if you're paranoid about somebody that isn't giving you a reason for it you might that then you might be the issue right yeah but but SC I've dealt with people that are like um they kind of
like mind mind you know they play with your mind and then um in my real life this is like I know with all these people for for years you know and it's like in the drug scene and stuff like that that I was in at the time and that's there's very toxic people of course that scene but uh maybe they don't give a reason for it but then they'll say things to make you paranoid you know and plus if you're smoking weed
and if you're doing other stuff like that you can get more paranoid and so but yeah I always like look to like to look at um people's actions like and so it's like then I'm more willing to forgive if like they say all these bad things and then it's like but their actions toward you are mostly kind and St like that then maybe I'll give them some leeway there but I understand I I'm
paranoid yeah paranoia often is like just us us uh being insecure often us um telling ourselves things and you know sometimes I think oh no one likes me no one wants no one wants to um wants me to be where you know anywhere but it's like it's not these are things just lies I
tell myself you know and sometimes I just need to sleep on things then I feel better the next day so are we uh you guys uh can relate to that at all like uh you know there are there are some people that are just that do like to make you paranoid and so but also there's something called pronoia pronoia is actually a Greek goddess but
uh pronoia is like a like an idea that yeah the universe is conspiring but it's all to make your dreams come true it's all and your help for your greater good and so you can look at even the negative things that happen yeah well I think in scum you said giving yourself an inventory check while sleeping that would be the perfect life yeah and somebody said last night in the
chat I think they said they said right before they go to sleep they say I'm really thankful for this and and I I love my life because of this and it's like positive selft talk before you go to sleep that's going to lead to better dreams that's going to lead to in in our dreams we can um we can um decompress a little bit and we can um live through
scenarios and things like that that uh that will help us um to um help us to psychologically heal a lot of things so um but I had just weird the weirdest dreams last night one of the dreams I had was the it was a very random dream I was driving around and um and I got lost and I didn't know where I was or or how
I was going to find my car or something afterward and I ended up in this like weird impound lot had like a dirt floor and it had just people sitting all around and stuff like that thank you I return to senders right and had yeah and I return yeah for for those for those negative people in the Discord that were send um in the The Other Guys Discord that were um that
were being mean to me and stuff like that and saying bad things and telling them to kick me out and stuff like that I returned all your negative energy to sender and uh your car your karma will be your karma and Return to Sender with love but whatever whatever it was you know if you you didn't if you're trying to get that out of you and put it on to me it's like it's not going to work
right um yeah suzan suzan is an expert at that right so I was in this impound lot it was I think it was an impound lot and there's all these lines of people and there's this beautiful blonde lady is sitting on the floor and I just recognized her from the real world but it was from The Real World Seattle and the real world is this MTV show that that used to be on years I don't know if it's still on just on years ago and like the real world Seattle was like I think
the real world seven eight or N I don't remember exactly the season it was it was one of the earlier ones it was one of the best seasons um but I just recognized this chick from the r and Sh and I asked are you the chick from The Real World she's like yeah and um and then I looked her up today and I found exactly who it was her name is Rebecca Lord and she's really pretty blonde lady but this she she was like a helpful in
the dream and then somebody else too my my phone was dying and I was like by by um my phone dies I'll never be able to find my car again I'll never be able to to uh turn on my GPS or something and so and then I was like asking these people in the line I was like doesn't have a charger and this one guy gave me this nice really nice charger and I was able to plug my phone in and I think everything worked out with there also I
was having dreams about aliser Crowley um tonight and about the goaa and I was reading actually and also I also kept opening my B and there are certain tarot cards in there I wish I could remember what tarot cards there were you know that's interesting that's interesting that's that's like a tarot card reading in your dream but I think I remember a few of them but uh but yeah I kept
opening my B and so I was having dreams about tarot cards and then the ult and like U reading this book about the goaa and I remember there's like a lot it's a lot a lot of Al it's an A L it's like but it's like that stands for aliser Carley I think then I was in I was being kidnapped I think by these people but they were making me think I was going somewhere with them and they I was
sitting in the very very back seat I was afraid I was we going to get pulled over and then they and then then uh I just remember they weren't very nice and so just weird dreams I know sometimes when you explain uh explain dreams to people they're like you know doesn't make any sense to them and stuff like that but I think it's kind of interesting to look into them are you up
here Lenor you're you're saying hello Lenor Lenor you're you're up here hi give me a kiss she's a sweetheart isn't she my little my little plant there you could how you give me kisses you having a nice day nor is here Rudy sitting here um chck is right next to me too you sitting next to me
Trix hi Trix Hi how are you do you want to give me a kiss too yeah maybe know he's a sweetheart Rudy sitting by the fire I have a little I my uh my little furnace going right now so it's a little bit warm I was also listening to Eric the
all um Eric the or Eric the actor he was interesting character on the Howard Stern he uh he was of course like three foot tall they always said he was like 3 foot five and he was like you know had a his fingers were curled and he had no use of his legs and but he he was just a character because he loved American Idol and he Lo he was
obsessed with like the contestants on American Idol and then he was obsessed with uh with WWE wrestling or WWF WWE and meeting the wrestlers and but uh his life was a constant um Make A Wish Foundation like like how Howard would just make all his dreams come true he
was able to go to um the the Bunny Ranch which is a basically H wh o r e house in a Nevada I think yeah Nevada and you know all can you say Howard Stern's name you know it opens doors for you but he was able to get him on to TV shows and to make cameos and shows and Howard would always just tease him like he wants to fly him with balloons But Eric
would always call in and just angry he would just be fighting all the time you yeah the first time he called in is because Howard was saying oh Kelly Clarkson it was like 2002 or something and Howard was like oh Kelly Clarkson is so fat and then like ah Kelly Clarkson is beautiful she's not fat and Howard's like what's there something wrong with you and he's like he's like I'm disabled
and Howard's like we got to have you on the show and uh and he would just call in and be fighting and when time he he he befriended this kind of gangster guy I think he was the son of some Godfather his name was Johnny fro and uh and so Johnny would be his manager and stuff like that and one time some guy called in the show and said I went to high school with Eric and it was a nightmare he just ruined the whole um whole four
years because um they had to build all these um all these all these um um wheelchair ramps and and you know handicap handicap accessible things and there's all these construction going on and Eric called in and said Johnny that guy that called in find him he said find him and you you
know what to do you know what to do so he was like a little King but he um he passed away a few years ago the subject is mudras for you today so you guys don't know what mudras are mudras are um they're like hand gestures um and uh you know I know a few from studying Tibetan Buddhism I know they teach some of those
and they're uh but you know for example and in Hinduism like this is one I think this is called the Yanni mudra is this called the Yanni where you touch your your index and your thumb together it's called the Yanni and you can meditate holding that one uh it's JN an i and then there's this is a mudra this but this is in Tibetan Buddhism you know
this is like the horns whatever and uh then Tibetan Buddhism the mudra is uh it means um it means just chasing away devils and things like that and so um or so it's kind of or scar scares demons away and things like that there's also there's this is a mudra in a certain way um or all the fingers you can touch all the fingers that all means different
things try them all try them all in meditation or look into them because they are very powerful they do have like some kind of magical effect and things like that but they they will open different chakras and they will have different effects you know and so um I bet this one is for knowledge I believe it's it's it's a called the Yanni and it's a one of the most famous um
meditation ones you hold when you're you're meditating in Tibetan Buddhism right but it's also it also has different meanings today too yeah like in our cultures and stuff and they're also very ubiquitous where they everyone makes these hand gestures and like no one knows what they mean some people say that they have negative meanings or they and there also we have gang signs too
and some of the gang signs are based on these famous mudras and things like that right so
but when I make a mudra I'm not making a gang sign at you that's be needs to teach me the kitty gang mudras I think she said I'm in the kitty gang so B needs to teach me like the kitty gang mudras if there are any that will be my gang signs I don't know well you know this this kind of is like a k a k for Kitty
like sometimes it's okay but I don't know I think I think maybe maybe the Crips stole that one or something oh my gosh I was on some um panels last night and uh you know I went I just searched open panels and like one of them was a was a fun panel and i r to
Nick on the panel and stuff like that but I kep but like you know I would do taror readings and then like some somebody would insult me or something and say oh teror ter was and then I would like I go peace out and I kept leaving but I kept accidentally going back into the same chapter like why you keep coming back and then another one was like football it was about the football like um like super
football um Super Bowl Afterparty or something like that like the with your thoughts on the game and stuff like that and I'm just like I just think I just think they're uh I just look I just I said I I I actually predicted the game if you didn't hear last night guys um I predicted the winner I would have won a lot of money if I would have um placed
my bet I said the Eagles um um um 40 like 40 up under and they were under 40 under 40 yeah no no no the E Yeah Eagles under 40 or something like that I just want have W that I think I was exactly
right but uh the guy was like you're out of order you're out of order and so he kicked me off the panel and I was I was and I went on some other guy's panel too and I was just freaking him out I was and it was like just me talking to him and he's like and uh I was just kind of hitting on him a little bit and and he's like how' you find me how'd you find me I was like I was like
I just I was like I I I know people and he's like what does that mean he got he got all I like I just found you put some searching YouTube and stuff like that but it was fun I went on a bunch of panels and you know I was a little bit I think I had a six-pack of of the voodoo Rangers last night and so um I was a
little bit by the end of the end of the night it was a little bit late and I had to delete the I came on very late probably like three in the morning and and there's nobody nobody around and so I I had ended my stream after a few minutes but I'm getting a nice I like my nice little group tonight and uh know it's like a a little bit later in the night so maybe it's a smaller chat I I'm
going to probably keep it like to an hour tonight just because um I don't have um you know my my tablet to share and it's like late and I don't have internet so I'm used using my my data right now but tomorrow I'll have a nice silver stream and then on Wednesday I
think I might order alcohol on Wednesday um you know I I'll gr pu some some uh my food Ranger te's over um and uh I I'll get enough for a couple days and then then we'll have another wild wild Friday the weeks go so fast guys they just go so fast and that
uh you know I I'm being consistent as as I can with my uh my YouTube channel it's going really well hopefully it's monetized soon um I really like the people I'm meeting I'm really like uh the little Community we're making happy Tuesday Mary good to see you always wonderful to see you yeah happy Tuesday then I it's oh yeah it's it's still it's
still Monday for me but yeah I slept I slept all Monday unless it's is it still Tuesday let me see hold on it's still Monday for me but uh but yeah happy Tuesday to you and I just I'll have another 45 minutes till Monday till Tuesday for me but yeah that's my Sunday my Monday or just bluring together because I slept all day I slept until 10
p.m. I was a little bit down today and a little bit you know my internet's not working and so um I have a limited um you know way to entertain myself and uh and I can't stream as long and stuff like that but I really wanted to come on tonight I had some energy maybe I'll after this maybe I'll finally like um clean as much as I
can thank you very much thank you yeah I uh I think I look okay tonight you know my hair looks is on point tonight for the most part so it looks okay but uh yeah thank you so much appreciate that my little Co yes thank you for uh thank you for sharing uh sharing Mary's Channel and for always being great about sharing everyone's Channel
I a little bit about you know I I when I drink sometimes I I'm good for for a few drinks and then I get to a point where I'm good when I'm buzzed and then when I get drunk I'm kind of a nightmare and so even to myself because when I get drunk I like will we say a lot of stuff
and I'll um what was the matter I just like I got kicked off of a couple servers and and then one server like I was trying to like make friends and I was trying to like say call me I like you guys like blah blah blah and like um and then they're like oh you're weird you're weird like blah blah blah um and then uh um but one guy in particular was like get this guy off I'm like he was
just like you know and he guess he's been there for a while and then the mods were kind of on his side I was like I told the mods to shut up and then I don't know then this morning I just woke up I was kicked out of the server another server I was on um I uh it's a guy I like um and he um I don't know if he did it I think he's just I never seen him in the server I think other people run a server but I I
think I advertised my show because I I like to say come on over to this my show right now if you guys have time not when they're not not when they're on yeah but but Mary Pi was on that server I brought pie over that server too it caused it was just causing upw because they're like where did you guys come from where and uh you guys are so weird blah and they're like who are these new people and uh like they kept going
what's going on what's going on what's happening right now like like I was don't mean to like cause an upro but sometimes my I my presence has an effect on some people you know I don't know I don't know what it is but I did post some of my pictures there and they're like oh your cats are cute you're you're really cute blah blah blah and then they thought P was beautiful and like most of most of them got us it's just like I
offended the wrong mod and stuff like that and then once you're kicked off a Discord server you're just basically banned right yeah it's like I prefer like if people have problems with other people on their on the servers you can just um block those people those particular people just individuals can block them and like you know let them talk to other people and stuff like that unless they're like causing too many
problems and stuff like that so uh because I've unfortunately had to kick a few people from my server but um yeah for the most part um everyone is like you know I like everyone to get along and like not you know Discord can be a little bit of a place of a conflict sometimes it's called Discord Discord means chaos you know and so so you got to expect a
little a little conf clicked on Discord but um I like to create create a kind of order out of chaos if you know what I mean and uh and I think it's a good good uh really cool um software for it shares my show when I go live it like allows people that come in the chat to um socialize after the show and to share things with each other and to you know
just like it's about relationships and stuff and so I like to I like to help I'm not banned from I'm just banned from some servers not not from all Discord just from particular people's servers yeah they have the right but it's like usually I hate when it's like mods that ban me and not like I think mods should just have like a timeout timeout ability and then uh and then the owner of the
server like just like and Alisa's um in her current and friend server she is the only one that can ban people and then she's the only one that can unban them you know but some servers the the mods um the mods are in charge you know and so unfortunately I've been kicked off of a few friends so servers U and then it's like I they even brought me back and then the mods kicked me right out again
and so um what the is this this is the best show on YouTube Welcome most one of the best I think Alisa's Alisa is pretty damn good and you know there's a lot of other shows but yeah it's tarot cats open Panel So you you're welcome on the open p I'm gonna post my open Panel link again anyone wants to chat tonight um yeah and I hope it's a you're you'll
find out it's a cool show yeah and I had that problem as a I like I never like when all in all the places I modded very rarely did I ever uh mute somebody only if they said something really really out of the line you know um but on most of the time and I hardly even timed out people I like I like to have a fun chats and stuff like
that and even on my chat like I think there's nobody banned on my chat except the guy that came in last night on my chat and was like oh your cat's ugly and you're ugly and stuff like that and so that didn't mind it's okay if he says I'm ugly and stuff like that you know everyone has a different um different standards for beauty and things like that and maybe I'm not the most beautiful person but um um saying
that my cat's ugly and the Cat my cat is always beautiful it was it was tricks and tricks is beautiful and everyone loves tricks he has a little bit of a lazy eye you're go eat them yeah F has a little lazy eye but that's just that just adds to his cuteness for me that just adds it looks like he's always always winking at me he's a little happy cat he's such a sweet cat you know
guys want to see tricks how can you say this cat this cat is not ugly this cat is adorable look at this beautiful cat he's a sweetheart you're such a sweetheart you're so I love his long white arms he has his beautiful long white arms that's why his Trix well magic has like the little gloves magic has the white white
paws Trix has a long white arm so he reminds me of like a a white someone with long white gloves you know and Trix has a little white cloes yeah um when I see something that will blow your mind okay um yeah thank you yeah the the guy from the Discord server that was that was causing
all the problems his name was Jose and then then I I then I said oh well you should see what Jose says to me and like you know how why Jose responded to me and friend requests of me and then he posted all all the all our chat but he just deleted what he said and then he's like he's like this is he I didn't say anything to him I you know and so yeah so so it just made me look stupid and
stuff like that so what will blow my mind um 7 pnt but you better better not be something uh coming coming in oh okay ber gox I'll try to remember that but I can't um I can't necessarily go on my tablet right now um if anyone wants to see um if anyone wants to see like have a look at the channel and see if it's something that will blow my mind but I'll try to
remember it I'll try to remember is that your channel I don't mind people sharing different channels and stuff like that um I basically like when there's uh panels on channels that I can visit later I'll write I'll write it down though vertigox I just I remember you're scared you're scared to go yeah I don't know something that will
blow your mind I don't know it's on YouTube probably is not that bad but uh yeah and also yeah also guys never feel pressure to go on my oh it's a cool show okay I'll check it out for sure um I'll remember vert it's like vertigo X is like vertigo 9 cuz I ex is
ex is n right so I'll remember that and I know vertigo okay it's a cool channel oh vertigo politics Channel okay can you tell me a little bit I can't visit it you can you can just tell me a little bit okay seea you're just
here to plug the channel okay it's fine everyone um if uh Susanna said it's a cool show then um maybe it's a cool show that guy's just here to uh here plug but that's fine that's what this channel is about too is uh yeah mind yeah I don't know if I need my mind blown again my mind my
mind's kind of been blown before you know so so uh but you know I'm always I'm always willing to check out anybody's channel that anyone want anyone wants me to you know I'm actually I subscribed to so many channels like I have to unsubscribe to channels to go to subscribe to new ones now it's like it says I'm at my maximum amount of channels for the number of subscribers I have which is that's pretty surprising
too I I think I have a decent number of subscribers but yeah I'm at I think I'm at 2,000 channels and uh when you get 2,000 subscriptions you can't subscribe to anymore and so I just had to go through some of my channels and find people that have no content or stuff like that yeah he's an awesome Kitty right you're here you are awesome Kitty
and he was he was cuddling me all night I guess I kept waking up and uh he was always like right next to me sleepy and he or he goes under the covers yeah he's an awesome Kitty the channel explains a lot okay I'll check it out for sure I promise hey what's up
C3 yeah yeah no it's not I'm not um it's not collecting channels there it's actually like these are channels like I I liked well yeah some of the channels um I did it was like a um I just like people in chat were like saying oh please subscribe to my channel and I was at a certain point I'm not trying to collect channels most of them most of
the channels I actually watch you know like but I I have so many channels that it's like all of a sudden it's impossible to see notifications so I'm just looking for people's channels right now that have uh content coming through right so uh but yeah and I do like to support channels and stuff like that and anybody any Channel that I um that any of you have and stuff like that I want
to get people to 50 subscriptions and stuff like that so I just had there there were just some channels um that had no content on them or they had little content or content that I'm basically um not that interested in so okay is it about like Illuminati stuff or or political stuff I'm into both of that kind of stuff I used to be more on Illuminati channels but they're just
like I found they were so um they're so biased and they were so and they were like sometimes they give good good information but they also give these false narratives about things and uh there's some false narratives it's a lot of the stuff can confuse you from the truth you know it's like I like to find the truth okay I promise I will look up I will look it
up yeah I know and then it's like and then also when if I watch too many of that that conspiracy stuff then I can get kind of like conspiratorial and people will say oh you're to do too many conspiracies blah blah blah I think there are a lot of conspiracies good night C cpnt nice to see you um make sure you subscribe and like my channel too okay yeah so uh you know there's a
lot of different different narratives oh my show is a cool show okay thank you yeah I try to uh I try to create a cool show it's like you know it's a little bit a different tarot show I've uh I can party a little bit hard on the show oh Lenor and Rudy are laying together look to the fire I'll see if I can show you hold
on yeah we still need to go to the moon right never quite sure about the moon are you you're laying with Lenor in front of the fire you guys see okay lay in front of the fire and you're over here what's wrong with what's wrong Hear Me
Owen yeah I will I will say I will say with the moon thing like I'll talk about the NASA and the moon stuff okay around that time in the 60s or whatever we were at a we're at um basically um in a contest with Russia who could get to the moon first and if you look at Russia's space program and our space program they even have some of the astronauts look like they're the
same people and stuff like that yeah Lenor a beauty Rudy the beauty but uh what happened there's a okay so there's a movie called Capricorn One it has OJ Simpson and has Elliot g in it it's I think it's in the 70s or whatever and it's about this man Mission to Mars and so the beginning of the movie they all go and they all the astronauts are in
the in the in the space shuttle going ready to go to this man moon man mission to Mars and then it's like right before they take off some government guy comes in and he says everyone get off get off the ship immediately come on we have to tell we have to um they're like what all the Asters are very confused right and then they they're taken to a little briefing room where they're said um they're basically shown up a set of Mars
like they had this whole set of Mars in this in this sound stage in Hollywood or something where wherever they were and they're like they're like um they're like it's way too dangerous to actually send um you to Mars and then there would be a big public up you know uproar like you know anything happened to you so we're having a we're just going to send
it unmanned uh unman Tom Mars or whatever and you have to you guys have to hide out and then once the once the we you safely back then we'll then you have to say that you went and stuff but what happens is the space shuttle like crashes in the sky like they you know maybe the Apollo or something did that same thing and and it exploded or something and so then the astronauts are
like well we're going to be killed because you know we can't now we can't we can't uh we can't reappear because then it would prove that it was fake and so the astronauts were all all afraid the astronuts like escape and stuff and so it's kind of like but I think that's almost like a little the same story as the moon mission and if you watch um there's a press conference um with Neil Armstrong Buzz Aldren after the moon and
when they they all they all talk and they are just confused like if you if you watch this press conference they look just very confused and they're like and they're really careful about what they say and they're look kind of like disappointed but they're like yeah we went we went it's like there's something going on if you ever watch that look up NASA um press conference like Neil Armstrong after after the moon right
you'll just see they look nervous it's they look nervous and they look Disturbed and they look upset about something and very somber like you'd expect them to be oh I'm I'm so excited they're like that was amazing you know like really really cool yeah so yeah yeah yada yada y you know fill in the blanks yeah just that's how it goes you
know so who knows is it's a really worth exploring space like to a great extent anyway I think we should be more focused you know NASA's uh space program is billions and billions of dollars a year and things like that and so we never know uh is this money being used well I've seen a lot of stuff about how
they're there's a lot of shenanigans going on in NASA but I'm not I won't talk about I talk about I'll give the benefit of the doubt NASA whatever your official story is keep sticking to it right they're greed by aliens well that could be maybe by aliens on the moon but you know I'm not sure I'm not sure but I but
also they have the footage of them playing golf on the moon and riding around in like little go-karts in the moon and there's no or oh the ship explosion oh okay yeah yeah so who knows what happened you know I wasn't there I can just I can just speculate but it just seems
like who knows what happened you know but this also now there's official story that Russia was actually orbiting the moon at the time but just never landed and stuff like that okay okay interesting there's a lot of stuff in history though I think is like Shakespeare said the world is a stage and we are all players on the stage and stuff like that and so um maybe the
official stories are kind of a staged maybe history is written by the by The Victors or whoever's able to write history maybe maybe people believe whatever they hear but it gets hard because then there's then some of the conspiracy theories are conspiracies or it's like they're trying to like they'll put out these other conspiracy theories so people believe the other things and then it just confuses people right and so who
knows what to believe right I'm always just skeptical but it's like not trying to say I know what happened right it's like I have my own theories about it I think that there's people that play the same roles like I think I can for example I think John WIS Boo and Eden Poe are the same character and
uh different things like that we know John WS Booth like he he uh have you see the talking Tarot deck it's so beautiful you can't say Mary okay um yeah and remember you mentioned that the other day I'm gonna I'm gonna look that up for sure like um I love new tarot decks and that sounds like an interesting one if you can just um tell me um why is it called the talking tarot
though it's like I'd love to know why it's called talking tarot I haven't I haven't seen that but it sounds really interesting is it just a really descriptive um descriptive uh imagery on it or that it just talks to you like that but yeah I love the new Tarot deck um I've been using this the writer weight um for the readings here just
because the writer weight is like I have that very memorized and I use other people's decks they have the their own idea of uh of the meaning and the imagery and so I like to read from the book on some of those other um unique tarot decks based on what they think each card has a YouTube clip oh that's interesting okay great that sounds like
a great way to learn tarot too is like you know it's like especially if the deck goes with YouTube and then it's like you can like watch a video and that will even put the put the put the um card meaning in your head even more how can I get Bush just by sleep sleeping and drinking skullbot not putting in any effort well I don't know does any anyone have advice for official ambassador of
MTO race how can you get Bush are you the bush guy from Alisa's show you know Alisa Jordana she has a a burner yeah you have to check that one out yeah Alisa Jordana has a burner phone and so people can call her but there's this guy that always calls her he goes you got a big old Bush and she hates this caller she always just like hangs out on she's tried to talk to him before but that he'll repeat over and over you got a big
old Bush and he and uh so everyone in the chat gets a gets a a chuckle out of it and just seeing her roll her eyes and say oh God oh God she always he has he has an anonymous number but she every show I think he calls at least once everyone gets a kick out of it but it's just fun see Lisa roll her eyes
about it you know anyone have a any U yeah you can't I don't think by sleeping and uh drinking scho vodka is not going to get you much Bush I don't think okay like might understand it's a a lot of 84 different beings that are in and not come and go from Earth about 84 types of being yeah and who knows what they're
covering up and who knows um what our DNA is we have alien DNA and and we have Anunnaki DNA and um I've heard about all these other beings you know I just like um I just haven't really seen conclusive evidence about it but there's a lot of they could be Spiritual Beings they could be actual Cryptids and things like
that who knows what are being hidden from us but also all the animals in the world are these amazing types of beings and there's millions of animals and things like that and so who knows what are we are just a big like Garden for the universe like where the all all different kinds of species and everything comes together you know it's interesting to think about um yeah but I've heard of well yeah there's this
there's this like you know alien autopsy video and they they have Grays and they you know it's like but then it's like they showed how it could be faked pretty easily to to do that and you know nowadays there's so many cameras and I've seen very bizarre stuff on camera but it's like um you met things other than humanoid well do they speak English and
I mean how do they communicate telepathically there's a lot of interesting things and like are but was it in astral Realms I know my friend D um de oans woo like she knows about this stuff she goes on the astral plane and she takes other forms your your Panther mixed with a little bit of piglet well we might we might have similar DNA
because I relate to the the Panther and I I relate to to the pig you know so um there's also theories about like pigs you know there's the there's a ansus he goes on this one Island and all his men go and there's this beautiful palace there and they're invited to like this big banquet but it's like the the woman
their cersi was a witch and she was able to transform all the all his men into piglets into pigs and stuff like that there's also a lot of other Pig um mythology okay Susanna yeah but I don't know if anyone had advice from MTO about the bush question but I don't know if he's just asking being silly or something like
that but yeah I hope everything's okay I hope you're okay um Susan I hope the power doesn't go
out but there's a theory about how pigs could be like like certain human beings that evolved into pig or like Devol or whoever or they were crossbred and stuff like that yeah but that's a good if you read uh the Odyssey and there's you know heus meets up with a couple witches one is named Calypso but but cersi um is a very
interesting witch and like and he was able to like eventually get her to change all the men back and uh also there's a stuff about Jesus and pigs like Jesus would drive um um evil Spirits into the pigs and stuff like that and then they would they would kill the pigs and stuff it's kind of sad also like pigs in spiritual warfare pigs are known as like kind of the Demons um
there's a book called pigs in the Parlor and it's just makes a correlation about well would you let a pig Run free inside your house and like and like and make a mess like no you want to keep the pig and pig at Bay inside the barn and stuff like that so uh I think pigs are really um I think they're I think they're beautiful animals I love Charlotte's Web like I was saying and I like I like the
movie Babe and my sister really loved babe and refused to eat pork ever ever since then but uh but do I also love bacon and do did I like my the luau luau pork yes but my mom has um she had seven pigs last year um or her she had two female pigs one was pregnant she had
seven seven pigs and uh and someone someone was trying to get her to sell it for a luau and she would not sell one of the pigs for the luau you know thank you Mary I try to um read you know I have a I try to read a lot and uh or you know I love mythology I love different stories I love uh you know conspiracy theories
and um I just like I just like to be my to be my mind to be working and stuff like that and I have a very abstract thinking mind and a um you're to have a movie marathon of all the clash and Clash of the Titans and God movie yeah I want to see The Clash of the Titans um
yeah I know they have really cool Medusa scene in that movie and uh I also like um there's like um if you go back um there's um a m movie Med was um this witch that um she was like the she she she was with this guy named Jason and basically she was with her witchcraft
was able to help Jason um do all these really cool like like get the the fleece of the golden RAM and she she show she showed him how to do it and she showed him how to had to um pass all these tests and stuff like that so he could be the king of this one place and uh and then but it's a tragedy because they had children and everything and then he
ended up um trying to marry this other woman and mday did something very very very bad um it's a really interesting story and also you want to look at between Meda Medusa they have the same prefix on their name and things like that but oh we have a guest tonight say hello to Our Guest okay give you a
shot hello hey hi how are you clean up a little bit off screen uh yeah um I just wanted to to stop Vin and uh say hi and I just wanted to thank you for the uh reading the other night I've been kind of mauling it over uh for for a little
while now and I don't know if I've gotten any like that what the hell that I don't know if I got any uh definite qu uh answers on any of it yet so I've been facing a little bit of confusion I did want to say thank you for taking some time out to be willing to do that for me uh it means a lot I know that a lot of other people would
really like to like rech charge or anything else like that and sometimes we all like get into positions where we need answers but we don't have like the resources behind it so I just wanted to say thank you you're welcome and I'll say like sometimes um you know I don't give these definitive answers to the specific if people have very specific questions you know it's like I I kind of
avoid like predicting the future or like you know this kind of thing but I want you to be able to think about it just like you said like mle it over and it's like some things may make sense later and and it's also I'm looking at current past energies maybe and you know but you know it's true that we all can relate to like every every card is is part about too just you know it's like and so
there's something in our lives that that can relate to it somewhere but I try to give the the best reading just and usually without knowing anything about the person and stuff like that but I just ask I ask the highest energy to help me give the best reading I do have an oracle card if you'd like an oracle card tonight and they just ask it's basically we ask a question and then maybe that question will have relevance to you on your on how you're thinking
but it's like a little short um this oracle card reading if you're down but um if you're not I understand sure um yeah so you want me to ask a question well you can have your question in your mind or or you can ask it um because these are these are little bit different cards and they uh will basically the card will ask you a question and it's like a question to ask yourself and uh
so just have it in your mind right now I'll try to get I'll try to shutle and ask for Spirit to come through and give the best uh question that will help you the most of this time okay okay okay what I have for you is so okay so this one
says how can I be more more kind to myself and offer myself and offer more grace in this very moment and it says growing our selflove is medicine to this world's broken heart when you heal we all heal when you give yourself more grace we are able to give the world more grace so it says today's action is look at yourself with a Grace filter you're
meant to be in this moment of your life release the inner critic and fill in that hole with your Soul's truth that you are infinite that you are loved and that you already there okay so maybe that has some relevance to you maybe not but it's like you know I think um what I'm feeling is that you're a little bit hard on yourself sometimes
and a little bit um you're probably your your own worst critic or or you know we we all can be our our own toughest critics and things like that but give yourself the grace and know that know that you know you um you should be more kind to yourself and you know then if you're kind to yourself and you heal yourself you're able to heal other
people right so I hope that hope you like that I do thank you very very much I appreciate that I know that uh I've been have a lot of U I know that this last year that I've been through I've went through a lot of uh a lot of emotional and mental trauma
so uh it wasn't until August that I was even amongst and wandering these YouTube streets as I guess you could call them and um starting to engage with the the community but um I've been I've been trying to I guess get my own kind of inner darknesses and well if you're if you're trying to heal yourself and
you're um you know because you know I I went through some trauma last year too and it's like and we we can uh we can hurt ourselves more or we can and just like um you know we can go through trauma and then pass the trauma on other people or we can like um heal our trauma and then be able to heal others and it's called like the wounded healer kind of theory and so it's like maybe everything you've been through is like to make you
stronger and so you'll be able to more able to help people I think as you heal more you'll see the world kind of transform around you so um that's my thought I like I like your background by the way your background is really beautiful and uh oh yeah I I've always had a fascination with angels and and
wings of like this color hair of this color with the yeah just I don't know maybe it's because I'm bu a red head so always had a fascination with angels you're very cool and and I hope to run into you is what panel is that called again can you just give that that panel a shout out that I'm or if you have your own channel you can give that channel a
shout out um I currently do not have a channel although there is a number of people they uh trying to push me into the direction of doing it and uh I'm not against it I just had some self-doubts and some worries about doing that but um I come I come from a number of
different channels uh from from from around me uh most of them are ones that you know uh G2K get to know uh he has a channel that's devoted to spreading awareness of uh how do I want to phrase this for your for your channel abuse towards people are underage and things like that making
them aware of that so I come from that Community I like being able to help out they host po tournaments and to help raise money and things like that so like you I I try to devot uh some time with about some time some resources where I try to help people out so well great it sounds like a very noble cause and uh it's always better it's always good to
the spread awareness because that awareness will bring light to a lot of things and to help and to help heal our society because when the society's sick that the people and can it can reflect on the people and things like that and if we all together with make some agreements and things like that I think we can all heal together so it's very uh very Noble of you and uh it's pleasure having you on the show thank you for
coming and stopping by it's great talking to you you're always welcome here come back come back again and see us soon okay absolutely thank you so much you're welcome have a wonderful night you too thank you you're welcome so that was a that was a great guest guys and a interesting person that's somebody I've read for on on
another Channel and things like that um and uh I hope I I'm helping that person I think somebody asked another question um I'm sorry about uh Ariana oh Ariana um Ariana so how does Trevor feel okay I'll pull some cards for you Ariana if are you still here you the education system should change how to teach school studies to help kids um evaluate
emotional stability interactions with others in different dyn right that's the kind of stuff they don't teach in the schools right sister the where they uh you know school's all about you know the learning math and the and English and stuff like that I think sometimes you know they can get into some social issues but it's like they uh they don't teach you how to how to live okay you're
here okay I'll get you a few cards s okay okay so we have this Ace of Wands and so this is this is a maybe you felt like you're reaching out with a lot of passion think this is like but I think this is always a good thing I think he he um maybe maybe it made him a little a
little a little passionate um but uh there's also this hand from the Divine know so maybe that was a he feels like it some kind of higher higher being contacting him how does he feel it looks like it's going to go well it's a real fortune card looks like luck isn't um Fortune is your in favor not necessarily luck um fortune in your favor things are
are looking good that's very very positive card you know and finally uh yeah it looks like the fool it's like he doesn't know what he doesn't know what he's jumping into but it's like you know take a leap of faith and I think maybe you reaching out to him um was a leap of faith for you you know um maybe it's I think but in the full
and the upright I think it's usually um usually just coming through things from from a a good a good place about it an innocent in innocent mind rather than a foolish foolishness okay so just take take take the leap you know take the leap go for it see what happens you know but I think uh I think it could be a new experience for both of you it looks good hi clumsy how are you great to see you
that's good okay hope you enjoyed that sister girl we're having some good conversations tonight clumsy you know clumsy I I um my my internet's out today and so I'm on my I'm a little bit lower resolution on my phone I'm just I'm a few gigs of bit data so I don't I think it's going to be a shorter show tonight but we just had a really good really had a really good guest on I got the cat surrounding me
you want to say hi clumsy there's my beautiful tricks saying hi to Clumsy hi hi Rudy's here Rudy good to see you clumsy always good to see you youd like a card tonight let me know um and uh yeah we're having good
talks in the chats yes okay of course flumsy I'll get you an oracle card and then if you'd like um um you'd like some writer cards if you have a specific question but I'll just do oracle card of the Soul truth I know you like this deck with the feathers and the really good questions in
it and I hope that I just did one for this other guy and I think I hope that uh that qu that the question helped him right but clumsy this one says how can I Surrender even more in this moment and it says it is essential to have clear strong intentions of what we desire but it's equally important for us
to detach from the outcome it's time to surrender let the universe have some breathing room to work let go of the wheel and Trust so deeply that your trust turns into gratitude for you cannot see it but you know it's coming you love feathers yeah it's a beautiful that's a beautiful feather too little spotted black
feather and it says today's Soul action no this so deeply that your soul vibrates You Are Not Alone your life has purpose and more than you and the more you surrender the more God can produce miracles in your life so today's Mantra is I Surrender I accept all that I cannot change I release the outcome and
I joyfully trust the process what's up Gayla how are you great to see you guys yeah it's awesome you oh you love Wings yours usually been gold well you know it's funny story about my avatar you know the little Avatar hold right there little Avatar I created that with AI and stuff and I just I said Cupid and psyche
embracing flying through the sky or something like that you know and then um and then some I I kind of think it's like you know hupin has the wings and and he's and he's holding he's holding her carrying her up but it looks like they both have have one wing and that also makes kind of sense like you know because together um sometimes together we only have one wing and we have together we have two wings and we can
use them to f and stuff like that we we get to balance right but uh but someone said oh having One Wing that the the the mechanics of that seem like a disaster right you haven't subscribed them in this lifetime yeah all I all I have is I have these um I just have these horns where my horns used to be right I the little place in my head it's not it's not I've always had this it's not
balding or anything it's just that's where my horns used to be I think I used to be more of a devil you know I think I'm I think I've been both places you know know I think my wings my wings have uh they need to regrow still you know but also the you know your brain your brain is kind of your wings too you know
and your with your brain you can fly you can use you can you can imagine and you know no matter where you are you can you can always dream and you can always um think about other things yeah so great to see you guys tonight yeah suzanna's here everyone say hi to clumsy clumsy is such a great friend um and there some a
mod can drop her Channel because I um I love uh going into her her fun late night streams she's awesome awesome person there really wonderful readings helps a lot of people and is like just a sweet person and good friend of the show and uh I love you
clumsy and uh yeah I've been trying to you know keep my show um happier um more respectful um safer for everybody um you know we do have sometimes where it's uh things can get like everyone says the Jerry Springer kind of kind of side of it and I I'm
that's not really my style you know I like to have debates I like to have fun-spirited things I don't I don't like when it gets to people yelling at each other or being disrespectful or calling each other names and stuff like that or you know that kind of stuff it's um I'm more of like the Howard Stern style even though I know not Everyone likes Howard
Howard Stern and stuff like that um but I think Howard Stern has a really good interview style he had a lot of different types of people on his channel and uh and he was always respectful to them and he always made made them feel like a star and he he gave a lot of people that would normally be outcast in society he gave them something to he G he gave him basically a good life just like with Eric the I was talking
about earlier Eric got to go to the Bunny Ranch uh he got to go to American Idol premieres he got to go to wrestling premieres go backstage he got to be on TV shows um and you know he was he had he was in a wheelchair and you know he he was a he was never really that grateful for anything and he's always
asking for more and more and stuff like that but uh he was a little fighter too because there's people like you know the like they were saying when he passed away they were saying how could such a big fighter be in such a little body he's like where did he get the confidence for this like his manager would say he would just see a see a woman he liked on the street
and uh oh yeah I can change it and I I I am I and I had a good talking too for my mods Club I had a good talking to and and with really good advice about about uh maintaining control and I'm uh I'm uh I'm trying to I'm trying I'm trying my best but again like you know we have a lot of have a lot of people on panel and
a lot of different personalities and then then also int some people are intentional trolls and some people are will intentionally like you know be nice and then they'll try they'll switch up on you and stuff like that and and then or or also there's people that there's trolls that I end I am not I'm falling in love with but I do like you know I do like like that some of their sense of humor some of their personality and I
actually like them and uh it's hard to like tell people you're not welcome here to go away and stuff like that because I've made mistakes and I've said stupid things in chats and stuff like that and like I've been forgiven and I've been not forgiven too but uh I always like to go on the side of forgiveness and like trying to see the best in people and I care about people and uh yeah so I'm I'm
doing my best it's a balancing act you know if I was a six life path who is more more of the more of the balancer I'm a nine life path which is kind of like the six has fallen on its head a little bit and uh things can things can go off balance sometimes right but uh or or the sixes the summer S I don't know I don't
I'm not explaining it perfectly but um but yeah I try to I want the best for everybody even even uh your N2 Gayla yeah and even people that you know even people sometimes that that a lot of people don't think they deserve a second chance I'm willing to give them a second chance because I've been given Second
Chances what's up dirty be yeah some and it's sometimes they're funny and sometimes it's a yeah we're nines guys clumsy gay and I are all the nine life path the humanitarian path yeah some trolls are hilarious right but it's like there's a because of kind of trolling where it's like just like on Alisa's show Alisa will have the the guy calling the big old Bush you got a big old Bush
and you calls every day and then she just like rolls her eyes oh like I hate that guy I hate that guy yeah and uh but then you know she always will take his call and stuff like that the tortured poets yeah yeah and Poets sometimes are tortured you know I I I get that um I guess that tortur PO poetry comes out like a lot of the best poetry comes out of a
sounds sexier than it is yeah sometimes the poet poets will uh they're they're they're they're beautiful poetry because they're suffering like Sil be a Plath is one of my favorite poets and and you know she she came to an unfortunate end and she was very tortured but her her poetry really speaks to me and is really really beautiful right being witty is one thing I me don't that
attacking people exactly exactly and uh and sometimes we can like you know poke fun at each other and and just you know just like on Howard Stern would like you know they would have can just kind of call it goof goofing on or or something like that but it was always done in mainly a good-natured way without saying you're a bad person you're evil you like that kind of thing it's like more like
oh you're funny when you're funny that you have this personality characteristic and you know and this is funny right well CL clumsy you know you should uh you should put it on a website you should um put it a and a book on Amazon you know I think that people want to want to read your poetry and and uh I think you probably have some beautiful poetry I I just I've never come across
it yet but I'd be interested in in looking at it yeah yeah that's the thing being witty is one thing I I just like when people attacked like the other night someone on the panel called someone on the panel of and stuff like that and even if they had that kind of relationship where she knows it's like he doesn't you know she doesn't take it seriously or whatever and that it's like I I worry about other people
in the chat that that might uh have their feelings hurt or or you know just it's just not the vibe right I like yeah I like a nice safe space I like to have a safe space where everyone feels comfortable yeah thank you thank you Nikki I like where everyone feels comfortable um and everyone can have a laugh and a good time and we can just like like clumsy does it perfect on our show like you know like someone said the other night she's like like like I like
the clumsy um sense of humor which is like a lot like a lot of innuendo but not um not meanness it's like a lot of it's like kindness and a little bit of innuendo and everyone can laugh and you know the good sense of humor about it but uh but not not not anything mean or degrading to anybody or like trying to hurt people's feelings or to or making
people say oh this is this is toxic this is not a good vibe um for me and stuff like that I want I want to have a good high Vibe also just as a reader I'm sensitive to negative emotions and stuff like that and it could affect readings negatively if I'm upset and stuff like that or if people are upset and stuff like that so I want to be the best Channel I can and give the best readings and stuff like that and so I that's why
I understand clumsy was talking about um SE maybe separating um the kind of things and so I'm trying to got to keep them separated but I'm trying to as much as I can um while maintaining this the same show just a little sass right and it's like and I I think I uh I think I'm I'm gonna I'm doing a better job of it now but yeah it can get out of control
when there's a lot of panelists and when I had people coming on trying to attack and whatever no electrical outage this time Susanna yay yeah I think the electricity oh yeah suzan and like maybe is there something in the air today with electrical problems or because my my my modem has just been out all day and it's just like it's just and sometimes it see and then um somebody else said they
slept all day and uh I slept all day and so I'm I'm right awake right now I think I'm look really well rested last night I noticed I had like little bags under my eyes but today my they've gone away it looks like i' I've like gotten a little bit little bit of rest and I felt better even even though I got kicked off of a couple Discord servers that I liked and uh and people were mean to me on them and stuff like that and I was
misunderstood like I I'm just used to be being misunderstood what's up Jam's Cowboys how are you you see Jamie sorry if I guys I'm sorry if I missed any comments especially during that interview I was just doing or the last interview because I um I I do hyperfocus sometimes when I'm interviewing and so I didn't mean to miss any comments or questions and uh I try to read
everything um yeah but it's great you guys are here great to see you I think I'm doing okay on data tonight um but like I said I'm just on cell phone data the show might just suddenly turn off at any time if I run out but I think I have enough I think it kind of goes as slow so thank and than thank you for being so good with promoting the channels a Nikki yeah that's really great anyone else
wants a car everyone wants to talk about anything we're just having a little fireside chat I got my little my heater on and um got little bit tobac her left and good to see everybody
I want to have a I maybe I'll walk to 7-Eleven later I get some cigars or something up in 24 hours and uh I want to clean my house a little bit now I have all this energy but I slept until 10 p.m. in the at night tonight so that's probably the most I've slept in a long time but I was having great great crazy vivid dreams like where I was in a car like going up
a hill and the car was like it was like a roller coaster where like my things were fall fall out of the back of the car and I was afraid I was going to fall out of the car and stuff like that but it was like you know kind of fun in a way you know it's like kind of like a being on a roller coaster without like really being in danger and stuff like that or you know having these experiences also I dreamed of like this celebrity from The Real World that I
haven't seen in like 20 years and stuff like that and pretty interesting like what a random person to dream about it's just a lot of Randomness but that that person must have been somebody that I liked or something like that I think I ended up kissing that person later in the dream I'm not even straight and uh yeah I think I I posted on my Discord the picture of her her name is Rebecca Lord sounds like a porn star name but
she's not she's in a band called Becky I think like that and I don't know if she's still in the band but she was just on that she was just a very sweet she was like the very sweet like blonde um you love you love the challenge the real world challenge the road rules challenge I see my wood stove warming up before I go to work I'm supposed to get snow today
yeah it's it's kind of cold here tonight um I don't know if it's why it's when it gets cold sometimes my internet just goes out but it's just been out all day like all day usually we'll come back on you know and just be intermittently bad and usually on my show when I do my show it's always on and stuff like that but yeah good to see you cl3 yeah warm up um if there's some snow
around you DM bmxr yeah so yeah so that was great and also I had like you know I was dreaming about um tarot card in my bag and stuff like that I just wish I can remember what cards they were and stuff and I was dreaming about reading this goaa book and it was a really cool like gaaa book where it was like almost like a magazine style where they said really cool
articles and stuff yeah no nightbot yeah yeah I I consider I consider getting a nightbot for my channel but nightbot is pretty cool I mean I've seen it I work on Alisa's Channel and basically will just promote um promote the different links in the show and then you can like put little commands in and
we'll post the Discord and stuff like that but uh but I've gotten in fights with nightbot before like nightbot will say will say oh it'll chastise me for saying oh you repeated this ban phrase and things like that I'll be like shut up nightbot and something like that like and it's like a and I've actually seen it Go Rogue and get into fights with people yeah what do you think about
there's something called stream elements clumsy that's kind of similar to nightbot but it's like a little bit friendlier can have like people get points and stuff like that and I don't know yeah but uh there's there's some kind of bot in that Discord yesterday where I was like I would talk and I got to like level three and I thought oh I got maybe I got cocky because I got to
level three because they kicked me right out after that and so uh and so yeah um but there's also one this lady named Apple Luna her name is appal Luna she's a reader she's on during the day usually and um you just have to type when you go in her chat you type X Point join and then it's like and then it makes um puts you on the list and then it tells you
okay this person's next on the list and it's like it's pretty cool it just like keeps track of stuff and then it's like and then that yeah um guys I'm really excited about I'm uh I'm almost at my uh I'm not almost there I'm like almost two-thirds to my uh to monetization I think I'm at almost two-thirds to my
watch hours I need like got six U I need 3,000 I'm almost at 2,000 so I'm almost a um two3 there pretty exciting um I'd like to start a re a membership program too like a reasonable one you get more readings you you get emojis to use like I I've just learned I think that's pretty cool um way to also
support the channel and stuff I'll you know I'll be able to uh to do some really cool things um once I get to 3000 my stup education Cuts me off in the bottom that cuts messages send as a level St by the streamer yeah you use dictation when you type on these that's pretty
cool I watch I watched 90day fiance and they use um these interpreters they use these like uh the these translators sometimes sometimes the couples don't even speak the same language yeah clumsy has the best emojis like uh she has really really cool Emoji I think they are the best yeah yeah
I got you scum yeah clumsy um has clumsy has a really cool she a really fun uh fun chat and I think I just I think I just got my seven seven months on clumsy's channel you know and that's like I think clumsy was one of the first people that I met that um I became a member of her Channel
and stuff like that and uh you know it's a really fun um fun group and the fun chat and you know I think you guys will if you haven't been to her Channel I know a lot of people um um um here I see I see and there and stuff like that and so that's really really cool yeah you know who makes mine now clumsy is um I don't know have you seen my Emojis
clumsy like pie made all mine um there's like the cat paws there's um really my favorite one has to be um Lenor and trix's hugging there's one where he's hugging Lenor it's the cutest emoji and there's like all these cat paws a bunch of hearts and stuff like that so we have just a few emojis right now but um she's she continues making them and she likes
to make them on um Picassa I think and she does a really really good job yeah so I'm really happy to have cute emojis and I like to also I'm on the Discord premium where I can um post other people's emojis in other chats and stuff like that and when I do that then it's like they can sometimes click on the that thing and they can sometimes if it's a if it's a public server they can
go visit the server and stuff like that but uh but I like using the different um mode on different different panels and stuff the the chat I just got kicked off of the Discord I got kicked off of he had some cool emojis but they weren't that great and so I'm not even that disappointed it was like I was I was not really accept I was some people were nice to me in that
chat but I was upsetting a lot of people just by my presence there for some reason and people were like what's going on they kept saying what's going on what's happening right now who are who who are these new people because I brought p over there and then p p and I were like you know talking a lot and stuff like that and it was fun but yeah so today uh you're you're just a Transformer that exploded
at the station in the road you didn't lose electric electric company is on Mars is in retrograde yeah Mars in retrograde when when uh Mars in retrograde yeah there are are that kind of thing possible electrical stuff and maybe that explains why my my internet's just been really bad for the past um past week or something it's just been really bad like sometimes usually it
would just be like just for a few minutes and then I unplug it replug it in and it's back today I called the company and they're like unplug it um I'm I'm resetting it from over here and like nothing would work it was just offline he's like it's something from outside and uh we're sending a guy to you so hopefully it's it's the astrology looking good for things being fixed you
know how does a great job on the Emojis yeah and uh and guys um if anyone knows about yeah a c for all let's do it yeah no I'll get i'll get my uh my guardians Guardians of the night deck because it's getting kind of late so hold
on okay this is I got this i got this from U suppressed anger and passion yeah well that guy the guy that got got me kicked off of the server last night he was very repressed he was very he was writing me about weird things and then like and then he uh I kind of like and he was like telling them to kick me off and I
was like well I see what you've been writing and stuff like that you you you responded to me my comment about this and started ref friend requested me and started writing and then he then he like posted the conversation but he just took out what he said in the conversation so it just made me look stupid like I was just writing him all these messages and stuff like that when he was writing back and stuff so okay that my cards are mix up this is
this is the deck I got from clumsy called Guardians of the night I won this on our show one night it's a really really awesome deck and I will read from the book on this one but okay so first so we got this two of Swords first okay two of Swords can mean something when something you're not seeing not being seen but it's really cute frog I just love frogs you know
they're love the Kermit and friend server I love Kermit the Frog I love I love frogs okay so the two of sword says it says the the poor the poor frog is stuck on two swords sticking up out of the water of course if you ask this frog he'll tell you that everything is fine he's just hanging out but in reality he can't see land and the and
the fog that hovers above the water reveals only murky Shadows of what may be potential threats and this frog is scared to death you see the there's his shadows and he looks like he's okay he's holding on to his onto his reads for dear life but you know he can't see the land he's he's unsafe you know so he doesn't know he doesn't know what to do so the energy of the two of Swords is
one that carries indecision of avoiding discomfort because you do not have enough information to make a choice fear of being injured or making the wrong move is creating a barrier blocking you from moving forward the two of Swords May indicate that you know exactly what needs to be done however emotionally you're not ready to acknowledge the truth as a result you find yourself mentally unable to deal with
responsibility you may be consciously choosing to stay in the dark if others around you possess the information that would require you to take action that results in losing a comfortable position ignorance can be Bliss but rarely does it help a situation Advance the Frog represents prosperity and New Life a master of transformation this creature has moved up and out of the mud and into
the clear night sky says call on the Frog when events require you to take a frightening leap or take you out of your comfort zone when you connect with this energy not only will you enjoy the benefits of change you will spark a transformation within that will open the doors for new and fatuous possibilities so a frog represents growth balance Prosperity
transformation and good fortune okay do a couple more of these and then we'll probably chat a little bit more and and uh we'll see what else is going on tonight okay we have a six of Cups we have these beautiful elephants six of Cups so six is six number six is
like the lovers card and and so this almost reminds me of a lovers card and the they're having a nice glass of of chardonay and and uh the other animals surrounding them too there all these cups there a lot of Happiness involved in this okay I think it's more of the light side of the lovers um I'll tell
you what the book might say about this it says remember the days when you would wake up and your only responsibility was to play for many of us that may seem like a lifetime ago life was easy it was Carefree it was fun each day held new and exciting possibilities for amusement when it is time to go to sleep it was simply joys
of life that left you feeling cared for and content that is the energy of the six of Cups it is a sentiment of childhood innocence when I read for myself and this card appears I know I've been taking life a little too seriously and that it is time to get outside with my daughter for some goofing off aside from the quality time an hour or so of play and lead to several hours of productive work that I wouldn't have had
without a break it's hard to be in a blissful State it's hard not to be in a blissful State when you're are outside playing and it is the state of being that you're open to the channel for positive encounters and new ideas when you draw the six of Cups your situation may benefit from taking your inner child out on a play date depending on the situation however you may also need to
consider if you are not taking responsibility or playing the innocent as a means to avoid feeling feelings of guilt so the high-spirited young elephants are in the happiness Zone with their trunks in the air like they just don't care focusing their energy on the simple pleasure of being in the water elephants have this Larger than Life natural cheerful quality and vibrantly express happiness when they play when
you feel uneasy about letting loose or feel the burdens and responsibilities of adult life zapping your positive energy call upon the elephant this wise animal will help you strike the perfect balance between work and play the elephant's powerful force in body and in the mind will help you break through obstacles that may be preventing you from enjoying the Simple Pleasures of life so
elephants are heart centered relationships love Harmony wisdom okay I'll do one more from these because it's such a nice nice message is coming tonight you know it's like maybe like we we don't see things and everything's not clear with the with the two of Swords but then we have the six of Cups maybe like getting in touch with your inner
child maybe going having enjoying the Nostalgia and just enjoying life and playing and everything and maybe that's the way out of the indecision right maybe make a decision to just just play and enjoy life I'll pull one
more and there's the Knight of Swords is a uh terms a fish what kind of fish is this it's a interesting looking fish okay I think I've seen this fish recently on a on a post but I'll tell you what kind of fish it is this kind of fish is
a it's a baruda okay there's a barracuda it says okay take a moment get get the song out of your head oo Barracuda is there a Barracuda song I'm not sure ooh Barracuda I don't know heard that song have you ever encountered a person who is sharp as
attack someone who can grasp the most complex of subjects within a few minutes and at the same time seems to lack any sense of humility or compassion this is a person who may or not be aware of how opinionated they come off or how sharp their words cut when someone is focused on the facts and only the facts social cues go out the door tact is not their Forte to say the least when you need to become when you need to comprehend a
situation or understand a contract the swords energy will help you cut through any brain fog this energy will help it make much easier to make decision be decisive and confident in your decision knowing it is after all the most logical choice too much time with the Knight of Swords however will leave others feeling a bit chaffed as your social skills will seem to be lacking if you need to go
into a legal proceeding and have let emotions dictate your energy so far when the Knight of Swords appears it will be time to put feelings aside and focus only on the facts the Barracuda is ruthless stealthy and fast they cut through the waters with precision and clarity as they go after their prey call on the Barracuda when you require feeling power powerful and sharp the
Barracuda is also a matter master of patience and will help you ease your mind while you are waiting for the perfect moment to strike Barracuda sharp patient focused disguises itself okay so you know it can be a little bit of a trickster energy it can be a little bit too logical sometimes but if you if you're looking at something has to do with just all the facts and stuff like that like legal proceedings it's very
useful like I think it would make a great lawyer that kind of thing but you know a little bit ruthless a little bit of a shape shifter yeah California in the house over here yeah West Virginia yeah oh suzan you don't I mean you don't have to worry about cussing like I just don't I mean you know I cuss too
sometimes but uh yeah I don't mind cussing it's like it's just it's just when when there's certain certain words and certain certain uh it's just the way you cuss rather rather than cussing itself I really don't mind cussing I know I know we all can have a little bit of little bit of a potty moue sometimes
but no uh no shade no so hope you guys like those cards like the Barra you also have a barracuda fast back cool that's a cool name for a car you know the Barracuda has a has a word bear in it too
so yeah but I like I like May uh I like my unconventional show I like um how I have so many different kinds of people from all over YouTube people coming in that are not necessarily the tarot that that get into tarot um I think I have a good mix of male female now I had mostly more more males um when
I started out but I have now I have slightly more females I have uh I looked at my demographics I have uh um United States Canada India UK Bangladesh I have had Israel's here I've had North Korea here I've had just people from all over the world um and so it's really cool to be worldwide and people from all over
can uh can become friends and things like that everyone has been really cool tonight in the chat too I'll stay on for just a few more minutes because I had to keep a shorter stream tonight just a couple hours tonight just because um I I just going off data I want to have enough data for the rest of the month and stuff like that and I think uh cable gu is coming tomorrow maybe he'll be cute maybe maybe I'll get a date but I
have been told by Nick U who comes on on the show he does he does an unconventional kind of reading thank you he does unconventional kind of reading where he uses these children's flash cards with like little apple and um pie and uh you know Hamburger on them but he got for me he got firefighter uh a tree and he's like you're gonna meet a
firefighter you need to go climb a tree and then call for help and then you then you can have a date with them and I'll be like and the firefighter has a nice hose right and so yeah Barracuda good memory of a song with that I don't know I I need to look up the Barracuda song all I can think about is yakity yak and that's do with a yak not a barracuda but the Cable Guy used to be a firefighter
we won't we don't know until tomorrow right so uh I'm excited usually I have a cute Cable Guy come in usually or you know he's like he's gonna be from Spectra Spectrum so uh maybe I'll get a date who knows it certainly wasn't successful in that server I got kicked out of when I tried to get someone to give me a call out actually so I I did
like I asked um I said give me I said I want to talk to somebody give me a call tonight whenever get I posted my number on this this Discord server and then um and then I got kicked out of the server but then this maybe I got kicked off because I put my number on there who knows but this morning uh I did get a um somebody that was pretty cute um in my
uh in my Discord um messages asking where am I from and stuff and so I friend requested him because I can't I got kicked out of the server I can not message him so he accepted the friend request and maybe he'll get back to me and who knows maybe I'll have a date um yeah I almost got I almost got a couple dates on that Ser that's why I kind of kind of like that server a little bit but it's okay you know if
it's not meant to be it's not meant to be uh your Cable Guy's name is Rocco he's from New York yeah it's not meant to be it's not meant to be maybe I was or maybe I was just meant to meet that one person right and then and it's done so I like to think like everything happens for a reason uh I want to be where I'm welcomed right fingers crossed I cannot wait you know tomorrow at 1: in
the afternoon between between 1:00 and 2 o'cl there a little ecstasy in the drink yeah yeah I've had some ecstasy experiences with people and stuff like that I think that's I think that's the only I've made out with a few girls before but at Raves when I used to go to Raves I would get I would get um girls just come up to me and make out with me
and stuff like that and so but I haven't been to a rave in a long time and uh but uh I'll tell you the first time I ever made out with a a a woman her I was like 16 years old and I was at this college program and there's this girl there and she was like um she was a little bit eccentric but she like really had a crush on me and then so one night um like in like my like we had a little
DM we're in the college Dormers or whatever and so she made out with me but she got she had like lipstick on and she got the lipstick all over my face and so I came out just like with lipstick all over my face and it was kind of embarrassing but uh but then uh you know I I think I I think I avoided her after that but uh I know
oh then I did I did um I did a date a woman when I was 33 and I think we did make out a few times and stuff like I don't know we had sex once um no we had some SE we had official missionary position one time I'm not giving too much information now yeah but she was interesting though
she well she was like hioka hioka type um and she was like she she came over the first time she came over she if it gets too graphic the first time she came over she was like oh let me give you a massage and then she she started giving massage started humping me and stuff like that so you know um yeah you have to always always watch
always watch who serving your drink right there's now now in days where we've heard all these horror stories about that we know but be careful always always make sure that the if you're someone buys you a drink that you're there watching the bartender pour it and hopefully the bartender hands it to you but if not make sure that you you have keep your eye on that drink right you don't want
we don't want to be taken advantage of especially on on on drugs and stuff some people are very sadly will use drugs to take advantage of people even if not in a sexual way they'll take advantage of people um in a uh in a psychological way and stuff like that it has to be the funnest drug and whipits I did some whipits in college too I got a cracker and then you buy these little Whi it things and you w a
balloon but I felt it kind of like kind of I think it might have been hurting my brain cells or something kind of dumb afterwards yeah the massage massage worked for her yeah I mean this massage worked I mean it's like yeah because uh then that was the first that was the first date and so we continued to she this this lady was in her 50s she was in her she was like 20 years
older than me she had a daughter um and like a 16-year-old daughter and stuff like that and and this lady when we move in with her and like in this isolated place called Lancaster where it would be like you know yeah you always yeah always always it's always about um consent and uh and about um knowing what you're what you're
intaking it's just like it's just a dirty trick when uh people like they just like when the I think the CIA had a thing where they um tested the first acid on one of the uh one of the scientists and he just got they had had a videotape on him in this room and he eventually just jumped out the window cuz he was like just going crazy didn't know what's going on and stuff like that so you always want to make sure you know you're careful with them substances
lancast Lancaster California is not that isolated well not it's not but it would be for me because it it was just in like it's in like the middle of nowhere for me you know it's like I'm I'm in LA and it's just like you know and it was just like I I would just be stuck at her house with know like I I just imagine her locking in her basement or something like that so I I never ended up even visiting her in Lancaster she would always come over to my house she's this
is a lady that I that when one night when getting intimate whatever she shape shifted into this um into like a much like probably like a 21-year-old Indian girl with like blue skin and like braided hair it was just like the weirdest thing I ever saw in my life that's what like kind of like woke me up to like oh there's magic in this world like there's like even if it's like an
illus illusion kind of thing it was still very um very um shocking and got me really into studying Tibetan Buddhism and and uh and it was almost like a spiritual waking which that's what I was seeking by being with a woman in the first place I was like I want to be initiated into whatever to women to women and so I I just said that was the
way I had to have sex with a woman to do that and so I eventually did and there's more there's more stories but uh it's every other word you're excitedly talk you yeah well she was a hyoka and she was like Thunderbird Thunderbird tribe and all this kind of stuff yeah Marcy fox wants a reading I'm sorry if I miss Marcy Fox are you here Marcy
is Marcy Fox here I don't see that person anywhere did I miss
her okay is Marcy Fox with some one with you but yeah I have I have I have a few other more explicit stories that I won't share on this channel but I have shareed on other channels more channels that you know are a little bit more okay oh yeah for sure Marcy Fox you're welcome in the chat anytime yeah I have I have some interesting stories but you have to you'll have to go on some of
other panels and catch me there to see it also I was on this guy's s Sam Man's channel the other night it was really funny um and and the he eventually kicked me off his panel I was behaving myself as much as I could but I was like a I was kind of a little bit of a verbal sparring with one of the guests and hitting on him and just and everyone in chat was cracking up like everyone was like we like this guy he's funny he's
funny but I think um I think someone eventually paid to get me kicked off the panel or he just he got SI of me but I was told that people he get kicked off his panel you basically have to pay him to put kick you off and so somebody was willing to pay some money because they got so annoyed with me that's what that's what happens sometimes I think that's maybe have on Discord server the guy just Gott bitching about me so much everyone just was like okay shut up'll
kick him out and stuff like that so you guys you picked the wrong person and also and it's also um I think Suzanne Susan said she's doing a return s Return to Sender for that negative energy he was sending me and stuff so I appreciate that always get people have my back just like me too I will have your guys back
and uh and I and and it's not just because oh you know you know I'm just standing up for women or I'm standing up for it's like I I really do like to have my friends back and I know clumsy is really the same way and uh and you know all people here Susan's like the same way just really had my back and uh and understand like I'm not always perfect on the on the thing and it's like you know um but uh you know when when I'm
being attacked and stuff like that and it's like sometimes I'm not not kicking the people off and stuff and I don't sometimes I only pick up pick up on it but uh it's good to have people have my back and and and I'll have your backs as much as I can and uh we're all we're all a little community and family here and I I love all you guys right yeah Mama Bear energy definitely
clumsy yeah that's really really special that you you've seen you've seen my side of this my at least you know there's always two sides of the story but you you you've basically heard me out and and uh and had my back a lot of times and so thank you yeah I think we have a lot of lot of Mama good Mama Bear energy here it's always good it's like a you know
I'm uh I don't know what kind of I I kind of have some kind of Road Runner energy think I just like be I'm just running around and avoiding avoiding like being being eaten by a coyote you know it's like um um I don't know um I've have a little bit of goat energy where I'm able to you know climb all the mountains but the Capricorn energy is the has a fish
energy too which is able to swim the deepest depths climb the highest mountain and stuff like that and also pretty agile pretty dexterous pretty like lucky I haven't fallen off yet but uh I'm a little bit surefooted right I don't know how I'm able to climb the mountain with that fish tail but I've been doing an okay job and I will not
stop until I get to that top of that mountain right I'm very uh and very slow and steady wins the race kind of thing and uh I'm always trying to get to that higher Mountain you're a Capricorn what doesn't fit you well you might want to check your ascendant sign and also a SE C3 are you a male or female I'm sorry I'm not 100% sure but um also for
females sometimes the moon sign will have more of um relevance to them um so the sun is very um about the identity and then the ascendant is also how others see you and stuff like that but Capricorns are in my opinion Capricorns they can be horny right horny goats they but they're also very persistent your female okay so check out your moon sign
and check out your ascendant sign because those will have a big um a big impact on you too what's up great to see you Prairie winds wonderful to see you the moon yeah the moon sign is more revealing but I think especially for women I think women are more connected to the Moon you know I I I I I'm um I resonate with my moon a lot on my
emotional side but yeah um but but we live in such a culture and India too in India how do you know your moon you have to go to a website called astro.com or there's other websites you can run your chart all you need is your birth time um from and your birthday and stuff but the birth time is kind of important because the moons can cycle kind of faster so it
might be the two moons in the same day so um and that also for your ascendant it's kind of important to know your um your time of birth but go to astro.com it's free and you just create a chart and it we'll have your moon sign your ascendant sign there and you can also um run a bunch of free reports on that site it's really good really good website for that I think it's one of the best ones I
ever found so astro.com it's all free and stuff is it yeah it's Astro and it's called Astro but it's just astro.com my sipping on Margarita is not tonight I'm taking a couple little Margarita break I had a little I had a few too many voodo Rangers last night and got kind of emotional and got kicked off of Discord servers and and uh but I had some fun
shows and stuff like that but yeah no mango readers tonight uh yeah check out that and then clumsy has a good website too that will tell you exactly about your moon sign probably give you specific information about your moon sign um even even more so right so yeah I I do love my favorite is the mango Rita the other night they had one mango Rita left I think I buy all the mango Ras out out of this liquor store because
they're always running out and they're and sometimes when I come in they're like oh you got the I just restocked these and they're not even Cold Yet right and uh but I like the those mango readers are damn tasty I thought I would like the watermelon the most or the strawberry but it's like the mangoritas tastiest for me and so yeah tonight I'm just today I'm just drinking
milk um like I said I woke up at 10:00 in the afternoon or 10 at night tonight 10 at night tonight and so I'm still have energy I'm down to hang out I'll do I'll do a I'll post my link one more time for a panel if anyone wants to come say hi otherwise I'll just probably be wrapping up soon I don't want to use too much data tonight because uh I don't I'm on track phone and I only have like I think I have three gigabytes of data
I'll see how many much I have after the show how much I'm having a couple hours on the show um affected it but surprised it doesn't go faster you know it's like the data doesn't go faster but I uh I listened to I had listen to stuff on my phone today instead of my my internet my internet's just flashing red I'll show you what my internet looks like right now you
see flashing red which is bad red light yeah you Google emeris yeah there's like a lot of a lot of good sites for that but I mean I just like I like Astro because they can give they'll give you personality reports for free basically you just have to go for free under the free report section once you
do your chart and you also it's a good chart too it's a detailed chart you have use how use uh use to have t for 15 months unlimited that's a good one c yeah Astro Deans suzan that's that's the astro.com is the Astro and so that's a good that's a good one there's also one called uh can't even remember but uh something is strong oh there's
really there's a really cool one that it puts up all these pictures and stuff I can I can look it up um I have my my my phone available but um it has all these pictures of personality traits that go along with the placements and stuff like that and it's really cool website um and I have I I might have it downloaded on my thing
I'll see if I have it down oh it's called Astro Matrix I think look up Astro Matrix and you can run your chart there too U Astro Matrix and it it will just bring up all these pictures with all these like categories they have based on the on the placements and all the detailed placements too I it's really resonated with me highly there I
really recommend checking that one out I have a I have a have one little cigar left whenever I run out of cigars and tobacco I start getting a little bit sleepy but uh I still have some on the table like can scrape up and stuff okay I'm going to now I have some energy tonight I might um finally like finish
off my dishes uh clean up all the laundry the litter box cleaned um you know um um vacuum I need a few things to do uh I want to make the the house look nice for the cable guy tomorrow right if anyone else wants to chat um you're welcome to hop on panel anyone else has a question anyone else wants a
card anybody else have a topic to talk about um I have another five minutes otherwise I will start wrapping it up but guys I want to say thank you for coming tonight I had a good uh really fun uh long chat um you know always makes me feel better when I when I when I come here
and like I see friendly faces and the my great uh great chat great mods um great panelists just fun really fun um yeah you guys help me out with my watch hours I know you guys you guys have been commenting um and you know so fortunately there's a lot of streams I have to private um or delete and stuff
like that just because something happens on the stream but uh but still I I know I'm really happy with the streams like got up there I have over like I think almost like 200 streams now or something or two over 100 I know I have over a 100 100 uh videos and stuff like that and um you know there's there's interesting interviews in these videos um there's interesting panels there I mean so some people say oh I watched this show I saw
this person and know you never know what's going to happen yeah you never know it's going to happen on a panel um or on on one of my shows that's part of the fun of it it's a it's a fun show I wna um thank you guys again I want to thank you for supporting the channel for I see so many of you here over and over again and just you know what a pleasure to know you an honor to know you and
thank you for your support thank you for being here I hope you like the show you guys uh go ahead and comment um I don't know if clumsy's going on later tonight but make sure you check out her Channel she she'll be streaming soon I think um I'm sure this week at least um and uh um you know so you want to check out her show I'll probably see you there yep
anybody else um plug your channel Now's the Time um just thank you guys I'll just hang out let's see I bring Lenor over here because I don't think we saw Lenor tonight much let's see Lenor Lenor come say goodbye Lor's a little she's like a little fire
C because she loves she L whenever I have the heater on oh we have a
guess hello it's um cl3 hi cl3 how are you good how are you good to see you pleasure thank you for coming on I'm at work you are so you you to chat for a little bit or um I was going to see if you could pull
a card and see okay I'll pull one of these Guardians in the night cards for you and I'll read from the book and this will be like a nice little kind of has good detail on these U on these and this is a good deck okay okay so for you I have this Eight of Cups hold on I'll put it on full
screen for a second you can look at the card okay and you know the eight on the the eight is traditionally um traditionally on the major Arcana the eight has to do with strength and things like that it has a lion on but this one has a tiger on it and and it's Eight's about emotions too and this uh this tiger is guarding
guarding its happiness and I think you have a lot of strength when it comes to to protecting what you have and protecting your happiness um let me read from the book for you because it has some good detail in the book of the author of the book says the Eight of Cups brings to the surface feelings that can arise from examining your current status in life and discovering something
is missing there's almost a holess that comes with the energy the Eight of Cups an emptiness that is waiting to be filled you may notice that your current situation no longer leaves you feeling nourished or excited the card is not all doom and gloom Quite Contrary what it does offer is a glimpse of the brighter future of Greater possibilities that are waiting in the distance when you draw this card you may already know that
there's a grander opportunity out there but you may need to abandon something challenging in order to to release in moving forward that is why I approach the Eight of Cups energy in that it is uh and it it comes from graduating or moving away from a situation you have outgrown there's part of you that doesn't want to change because your current situation is so familiar so
comfortable it's easy but in the end you know that it is time has come to say goodbye and embark on A New Path I think uh on the traditional card it has a guy with all the cups and he's that he's like looking somewhere else he's like looking for something else like maybe like and but he has all these cups there but maybe he's not fulfilled with all the cups he has and he wants to find that ninth to 10th cup you know the
Eternal happiness the the grand fulfillment right I get it it says you may love a job that you have held for years without a promotion you may have a creative bonds with your co-workers but when the possibilities are slim for any advancement and the feeling that surfaces thanks to the eight of cups is one that leaves you teetering between anticipation andess you will know A change is needed the
mighty jaws of a tiger can Crush just about anything yet at the same time the Tiger's mouth is gentle enough to carry its young use the power of the tiger to claim your future while maintaining control of your emotions when you call upon the tiger you will be amiable yet firm in your decision- making tigers have a Regal graceful quality they are true leaders and possess a strength that commands respect use this energy when
you need to communicate your plans for the future with others and you will notice that the support you have enjoyed will move with you when you move forward so it says tiger strength nobility and emotions I hope you enjoyed that I did um it resonated do you just pick a random card um yeah I mean I mean I don't I
don't like choose you know I don't I don't choose the card I just like it will just come up and then I'll so he it's a random card um and uh but yeah and I I don't know about your circumstances or or or the specific question even but on so pretty on great to
hear ever to come up on any panel because I'm pretty Country Side so I'm from Mississippi and I don't I don't never call because I'm So Country I get picked on so oh well I will never pick on you and I don't think I think we have a lot of uh we have a lot of Southerners in in my chats and I I I love I love the South too and um you know so you'll never get picked on for that here and
you know we have lot of great people but I want and thank you so much for for coming on the panel and I know yeah I I know you this your first one and I know you're probably busy but thank you so much I appreciate that and thank you for your question I hope to see you again come back again soon okay okay bye okay love you bye see that's that's why I love the
show it's just like all the really amazing wonderful people that I meet and uh and I'm able to you know offer them a card and uh and hopefully um help him out in a lot of ways okay so yeah I want to say thank you guys um I'm just going to wrap it up I love you guys um thank you for coming tonight um
thank you for everything I appreciate you I love you and I will see you soon okay have a great night guys bye
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