Episode 2122 features a lengthy educational segment on the Hindu goddess Lalitha Tripura Sundari, followed by an extended personal crisis involving the host expressing distress over perceived social rejection and conflict with other streamers.
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The episode opens with a detailed mythological presentation on Lalitha Tripura Sundari [1:16–7:53], covering her role as both a playful cosmic figure and supreme ruler of the universe. The host discusses her symbolic attributes—the sugarcane bow (mind), five flower arrows (five senses), noose (attachment/divine love), and goad (spiritual direction)—and her relationship to the Sri Chakra yantra. The presentation concludes around 7:50. A significant tonal shift occurs at 8:05 when the host transitions to recounting an incident from a panel appearance on another streamer's channel. The host describes making a joke about putting a finger "in Saman's butt" during a panel with Pepsi, Zaya, and others [8:15–8:21], stating this was intended as humor but resulted in visible offense from Zaya [12:03–12:07]. The host expresses feeling abandoned by the group and spends the remainder of the stream (roughly [8:05–41:06]) cycling through expressions of hurt, allegations against an individual named "Benjamin Kowalski," references to unwanted food deliveries, concerns about ritual magic being performed against them, and repeated assertions that "everyone hates me." A guest named "Ghosts" appears late in the episode [36:07–41:28], offering support and attempting to ground the host's emotional spiral, with brief exchanges about trust and friendship.
The episode appears to illustrate a stark contrast between structured, formal spiritual education and uncontrolled emotional expression. The first half presents Hindu theology in a reverent, organized framework; the second half documents what appears to be an acute emotional crisis triggered by perceived social rejection and misinterpreted nonverbal cues. The host's repeated cycling through themes of abandonment, betrayal, and attempts to reframe offensive comments as 'testing' or 'truth-telling' suggests a pattern of externalized blame and difficulty accepting social boundaries. The introduction of conspiracy-like allegations (doxing, unwanted deliveries, ritual magic) alongside requests for validation from a sympathetic guest indicates the host may be experiencing significant distress around social connection and trust. This episode represents a notable departure from the show's typical format and appears to document a real-time emotional episode rather than a curated discussion.
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Explore the ideas at the heart of this episode
Have you ever heard of a goddess who is both a playful young woman and the supreme ruler of the universe? A Devi who embodies the fierce protective love of a mother and the serene detached wisdom of a sage. Today, we journey into the heart of Hindu mythology to explore one of its most fascinating figures, Lalitha Tripura Sindari.
She is known as the beautiful goddess of the three cities, but her essence is far more
She is the ultimate paradox a being of delightful contradictions who teaches us about the very nature of reality itself So grab your curiosity and let's unravel the mystery of the goddess who plays Creates and reigns over all existence Lilitha's story isn't just one of epic battles and divine drama. It's a deep philosophical tapestry
Her very name Lilitha means she who plays this isn't just any game It's the divine player, Lila, of creation, preservation, and dissolution. Imagine the entire universe, with all its galaxies, stars, and life forms, as a spontaneous expression of her joy. She isn't a distant, stern ruler, but an artist delighting in her own creation.
This playful nature is beautifully captured in her form as a 16-year-old girl, radiant
She reminds us that the cosmic dance is not a chore but a celebration, but don't let her playful demeanor fool you. Lolitha is also Tripura Sindari, the transcendent beauty of the three worlds. What are these three worlds, or three cities? They represent multiple layers of existence. On one level, they are the physical, subtle, and causal planes of reality.
As the ruler of these realms, Lalitha is the consciousness that permeates and governs all of them. She is the thread that connects every state of being, the ultimate reality that underpins everything we experience. This aspect reveals her as the Supreme Empress, the sovereign power holding the cosmos together in perfect harmony.
One of the most powerful stories about Lalitha is her manifestation to defeat the demon Bondesura. This demon was born from the ashes of Kama, the God of Desire, who was burned by Lord Shiva's Third Eye. Bandhasura represented a universe devoid of love and creativity, a world of sterile, unchecked ego.
The gods were powerless against him, so they performed a great sacrifice, and from the sacred fire arose the glorious Empress. Lalitha Tripura Sundari seated on her throne, armed and ready. She didn't just fight a battle. She recreated the universe bringing back love beauty and cosmic order This story illustrates her dual nature perfectly
She is the ultimate warrior fierce and unstoppable, but her fight is not for destruction It's for the sake of creation for restoring the beautiful loving play of existence This brings us to her incredible form Lalitha is often depicted holding 5 floral arrows, a sugarcane bow, a noose, and a goat. These are just random weapons.
They are profound symbols of her power over our minds and senses. The sugarcane bow represents the mind, and the 5 flower arrows are the 5 sense perceptions â sound, touch, sight, cased, and snail. With these, she can captivate our minds and draw them towards the divine. The noose symbolizes attachment and divine love.
She uses it to gently pull her devotees closer, binding them with affection. The goat, on the other hand, is first stirring us away from paths that lead to suffering, prodding us forward on our spiritual journey. She doesn't just command the universe. She guides each one of us personally, using both attraction and gentle discipline.
This paradox of being both gentle and fierce, playful and all-powerful is the core of her teaching. Shambhati's Sri Vidya, the supreme knowledge. This isn't just intellectual knowledge stored in books, it's the experiential wisdom that everything in the universe, from the most beautiful sunset to our deepest struggles, is a manifestation of the same divine feminine energy.
She is the union of opposites. In her, Shiva, pure consciousness, and Shakti, creative energy are eternally one. She is the point where the formless takes form, where silence becomes sound and where potential becomes reality. To worship Lalitha is to embrace the totality of life, its joys and its sorrows, its beauty and its challenges.
Seeing all of it as part of her divine play. Let's look at her home, the Sri Chakra or Sri Yantra.
It's a geometric nap of the cosmos and the human consciousness. It's a complex diagram of interlocking triangles, circles, and lotus petals, with Lolita residing at the very center, the Bindu, the point of origin for all creation. The nine levels of the Shri Chakra represent the journey from the outer, material world to the inner, divine core.
Meditating on the symbol is a way of traveling that journey within oneself, moving through different layers of consciousness to finally realize the unity with the Goddess at the center of our own being. She is not just out there. She is the very core of who we are. So, Lalitha is the playful girl, the beautiful queen, the fierce warrior, and the ultimate reality.
She is the mother who nurtures us with love, and the teacher who guides us with wisdom. Her paradoxical nature isn't a contradiction, it's a revelation. It teaches us that the spiritual path is not about rejecting the world, but seeing the divine in it. It's about finding joy in creation, strength in challenges, and love in connection.
She shows us that the highest truth can be both majestically vast and intimately personal, as powerful as a supernova and as gentle as a mother's touch. By understanding the Letha Tribhura Singari, we begin to understand the beautiful, complex, and playful dance of life itself.
but it's her divine, beautiful play. Thank you for joining me on this deep dive into the world of Lalitha, Tripura, Sindari. If you enjoyed this exploration of divine mysteries, don't forget to like, subscribe, and hit that bell.
Yeah, I was like, kick me off, because I'm gonna say something that will offend you. They're like, no, no, no, you can't offend us. We're the biggest trolls. And then I said, well, my fingers literally in Sam An's butt right now. And then Zayas said, why is it always going to be Sam An's butt?
That was my W for the night. And I love you guys, but I knew I was going to be able to offend you. Yeah, I mean, it didn't have to be like that. Because I really love you guys. I really do and I'll still promote you and I don't want to be in a fight with you but I
Actually offended him. I've never seen him offended in my life and I did it. I did it a bit of a message alone. I Did it? Stop what Jamie?
Like, I literally offended the un-offen- It was Sam-Man I was going after. He was there on the panel. And I was like, I know I'm gonna be able to offend you, but let me tell you, I warned them several times.
I did warn them, because what thing? Jamie, come on. Jamie, you know you can't stop me. You can't stop me. If everyone leaves me, it's gonna be okay. Wait, wait, Lola, everyone I love turns out to hate me. Everyone, no one talks to me anymore.
Wait, Lola, and I knew they would take his side over me like Sandman, I knew they would, but it's okay. I still like them, I still like them. Unless they start hating on me and stuff, then I'm gonna be offended, but I was like,
Know I know you love me Jane. I know you love me You know Lola loves me too, but I was like as a Xea if they didn't have a sense of humor about it Cuz he has a sense of humor everything Maybe he like gets a little riled up when I say a Sandman
I'm just trying to help you guys really It was no shade. It was no shade. It was just you know what Sam man does to me He's made hundreds of dollars kicking me off his show. I keep letting him do it But if I make a joke about his butt
Just to get riled up about that and I try to tell you don't I'm gonna say something they'll get you riled up and he did I Like I still think he's cute and stuff, but you know what no one likes me anymore Except for Jamie, maybe No one likes me anymore really my cats love me few I
Try to tell them I was like I'm gonna piss you off. Just let me let me leave. No, you can say don't say you're not gonna find anybody I say Samans, but The world's over Saman is like literally probably 350 pounds Right, like literally he's like gross. I mean it's like you saw him
And say it it means you're so much hotter. I just wish you would have gotten it. I wish you would have gotten it It's okay. It's okay They hate me it's fine now and they can hate me now
My babe But I just knew I just knew I knew the tests and I just had I need to go that far and say that and Then once I saw his eyes turn from like laughter to like Make the kind of like this mean look it's some Paco eyes once I saw that I knew it was over with I Knew they're gonna turn against me, too
It's okay I'm always gonna be the
Always it was fun. It was fun hanging out with them for like, you know the 15 minutes that I did and stuff
But I knew they would turn against me and they would take Sam outside Because he's a little bit more Puerto Rican than I am I guess But still Go go go subscribe to their channel and stuff. I support them. I don't use a little bit to them not very much. This is like all that Probably like, you know a lot that I have
But I was like I needed to find out what's gonna be the limit and then once it got to like Making a joke about a butt Why you got a joke about the butt
You know probably joking about his button stuff But Samans, but I guess Sam it was Sam it has like something special about Samans, but I don't I still don't understand really You don't know it's okay. We don't need we don't need to millions of dwell on it. I Do like them a lot The fact that he like his eyes changed
When I said that and he got Well, Sandman's my homie and it's like in your your this is just this bag it. That's that's what that's what proved it I'll try to ignore it. I Thought that would happen. I thought it would happen
Pick out rage I know but what is it but why but there are so everything I said I called the n-word everything and they were fine until I said something about Samans, but and then it turned to I Did something wrong? I Don't want to go anywhere near Samans, but Samans, but is disgusting It has pimples. It's big. It's like
It's just like I'm almost throwing up my mouth thinking about it But they're protective of Saman's butt and not about me. It's okay. Has Saman done anything for you?
Maybe he's donated a thousand. If he donated all the money I sent, I didn't send him anything. I didn't donate probably $10 over the years for two songs or something like that. The fact that it was all of a sudden like, why are you talking about his butt?
And that was a big deal His butt's pretty much open to like the fucking
Harlem Harlem choir It's okay
Guys everyone will show me who they are All I do is I'm just a tester. I'm like a teacher. I know it's thing that is this crazy. I'm just like a teacher And I just want to see where the mind is at. I don't like being lied to and stuff. I just want to see, where's the thing that didn't grow up? And who are you really for?
Thanks for him, for Sam in.
Okay.
I wanted to hang out with you guys in Vegas and stuff. Everyone would have Sam in there. And everyone would put my finger near anyone's butt. Don't know where ghosts went ghosts is having a bad night He's having a bad night. I'm having a bad night, too. My feelings get hurt and stuff. I Really if you just give me love back if you can like laugh at the worst joke I can do
I'll have but then it's like when you get all changed. I literally see the eyes go from like laughing to like These these these eyes My feelings will get hurt Because you said I could say anything I wanted and stuff you didn't say I could say anything I wanted
Ghost got offended it goes goes to ban on me like six months ago Ghost left me Everyone pretty much left me be the hates me Everyone hates me as I just need to like Push things a little bit and to find out you hate me. Do you hate me anything that is who else hates it? It's okay
Once everyone hates me. I don't have to be here anymore Not in the world, but I'm just on the chats I'm just a tester. I'm just here to like test people see if they have a good sense of humor You don't hate you don't hate me you strongly is like me you strongly is like me Right, it's okay. It's okay
It's okay doing stuff I just make a joke Me a joke You like me No one likes me, but I'm not a likable person. I'm not here to be liked. I'm here to be real and It's like if you do like me You like real you like me Jesus Christ. Thank you. I like you too
But I'm not here to be liked I'm basically here as a test for people to see if they're gonna like when I put Danny stranger who just died They're gonna make fun of Danny And be it a dead Oh, oh, oh, he's making fun of it. Oh, are you like, you know, Danny danger died? Who cares?
Why would she say something like that Vita? Like really? Why would you say something like that if I say? Think you're in Samans, but this guy is just like he shows Everything horrible about me every negative thing. Did they understand? No, it's okay Take his side because he's more Puerto Rican than I am I guess
I'm just this fucking stupid white person, you know, just just hate white people Danny hated me barf and you are actually Tony You're actually you're actually your name is Benjamin Kowalski in Wisconsin and the police are looking for you They're looking for you right now Understand why you act reacted like that because Samman is like more Puerto Rican than I am
That's why he reacted like that Benjamin Kowalski in Wisconsin. The police are looking for you You sent the Domino's pizza to my house three times you sent me 3,000 pounds of cement the police are looking for you And the FBI is involved too. Okay, Benjamin Kowalski Benjamin Kowalski me to say this right now Benjamin Kowalski in Wisconsin. You're fucked
You're absolutely fucked. You're done Not only the restraining order is already in process, but you're fucked Because your karma is so bad because you picked on me He said he sent me guys. He sent me three thousand pounds of concrete He sent at least a hundred people knocking on the door on my house to harass me This person that I said one person that I said one person to his house now
The police will be coming to his house and knocking in the store Benjamin Kowalski. His name is Benjamin Kowalski in Wisconsin He's Tony the conductor. He's also known by other names Yeah
Benjamin you're fucked I got two, I learned OSINT. Hey, Joni, Joni, Joni, help me, help me right now. I need a little help. And I'm sorry, I was on the ZMPEVs thing and then I made a joke about Sandman. It was all fun and laughs until I made a joke about Sandman and then they got kind of riled up.
Yeah, if you can come up. But you don't have to I know I don't put attention. I'm sorry. No, you don't have to talk or anything Benjamin Kowalski in Wisconsin the person that sent three Domino's pizza believe the Domino's pizza was very confused three times in a row Sent them to my house and said knock on the door in the text message. I'll say his name Benjamin Kowalski
in Wisconsin
Yeah, you didn't see oh s-i-n-t open source intelligence. Oh scent It wasn't free pizza wasn't paid for nigger. It wasn't paid for I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say the n-word. It wasn't paid for it was all PoG and I'm not gonna pay for a piece that wasn't sent to me. I'm sorry. I said the n-word
I'm sorry, you know, I get pushed so hard. I get pushed so hard Laughing at me I'm sorry I said that And I like Zaya. I like Zaya Zay was cool Until I said something about Sam and then he had a problem with it. He I'm probably saying about him I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I
Need someone to talk to me right now. I'm gonna put the link up You can come up and talk to me. I Don't care you call the cops. I'm gonna call the cops on him I'm gonna explain exactly what they're doing to me what he's doing to me This person has sent 3,000 pounds of concrete to my house
This person has sent people looking for spoons and weed whackers and lawnmowers and lawn chairs He's that he's spent he's wasted literally thousands of hours of time of these poor people Looking for shit and he sends three pieces to my house tonight. I'm so sorry that is okay I said the wrong thing. I don't bring attention to me. I'm gonna shut up. I'm gonna shut up all in the stream
And I'll delete it if it went too far Wow, can someone come up and talk to me? I need a friend. Can I have one friend in the world? Everyone just wants to laugh at me and shit My heart hurts. I'm not a bad person. I will treat you like you treat me So if I like yell at Sandman on someone's panel and say shit about him
If I was to say shit to Zaya like Zaya, I want to do this to you, which I kind of didn't he kind of laughed about but no Yeah, I fended over something Sam and about Sam and Sam and ultimate hmm I
Can't even say the word can't even say the word clumsy can come over here clumsy come over here I'm not gonna call Zaya that because I respect Zaya on a level because they was just kind to me What has happened? Joanie I got three pieces sent to me tonight
Three times in a row this confused Mexican pizza lady came to my door. Well, he keeps you keep writing me saying Saying knock on your door louder and stuff. I said I just told you this person is harassing me having you knock on the door She's confused. She's like, well, he's he it says here's a text message It says knock on the door louder. He'll I'll come down and give you the the pizza money in the tip
Bita I'm gonna send the screenshots to him Say is not homophobic he wasn't homophobic, but he didn't he didn't get it He was fine with me joking the night, but when I said something about Sam and his he did his cockles got riled up And I donated to them tonight and stuff, but whatever
He is okay. Well, personally, I think They're not really but maybe they are. I don't know. I was on Joker's tonight, too But I have people coming knocking on my door every day. I Tell Bita She's like I'm gonna send him the screenshots of you
Jamie I'll talk to you privately don't don't move against me. We have a guest Jamie I'll talk to you privately How do I feel about Christine? Again, it's pretty much about Christine. It's something like Katrina or something like that. But second of all, she's a whore. What?
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I don't understand. I really don't want you apologizing for it. Fuck them Cuz I cuz they said I can say anything I want and then I said it Like I was like as I just give me off now cuz I'm gonna say something will offend you. I said it and They got offended and that's just sucks. It just sucks that they can't laugh it sucks We can't help that they're a little bitches. That's not our fault. I mean, but I was trying to like
Help them and stuff and just like you know better than I know I was trying I was like I want to go to Vegas with you guys and hang out and have fun and Sam Man's there and I took the Sam Man's light over me he literally made of the probably $100 off me in the weekend just by kicking me off his show I feel so
stupid I feel I'm stupid I mean it's my fault I got kicked off the show too they
Couple hundred bucks am I part of the groom game I'm part of any nobody wants me part of I did tell you I offered money to come back up, but they want to double the money Well, I'll Triple the money for me and I'll just let you Be my king and send him on me
The fuck I don't want to be your king. What the fuck you say You mean like I'll be your queen No, oh my god Hey, yo I'm so sorry. I'm so oh my god. I'm just understood. I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry That's what you've been doing all night Crying basically mostly crying
Everyone hates me and like, you know, Bita hates me. I tried to tell Bita, hey, three or glow Porm bombs and this guy's dox me in your chat and he sent you the concrete you know what she said I'm gonna send him the screenshots of what you said about him. That's what she said
Well, does he porn bomb? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. He porn bombs her. He tried to take her show I probably took her show down the first time he probably did a lot of shit to her. I'm trying to tell her Don't trust this person and she's like I'm gonna send him
You probably shouldn't tell her anything she don't give a fuck well, she's she's she's a beetle She's just but she's another Spider ritual about me tonight, too. She said oh, here's a spider And it's not time to psyche and then it was like wink wink and time was in the chat I think his name is definitely a psyche wink
And then she backs up and then she plus in the toilet. That was my baby I send that spider to her house and she keeps killing the spiders. I sending over there I can't lie, man. You're probably give them what they want. They want you to get out of here get out of here
Can someone just like have my side once in a while. Oh, I'm just giving them what they want. Uh, no You didn't hear what I just said. She's literally Saying the spider is named psyche and flushing him down the toilet No one's in it. No answer to my McDonald's. I already ate the already ate my Big Mac for the day
I had my McDonald's for the day. I don't need it doesn't mean starve the cats have food I don't need to eat food anymore I'll go Lick the trash can at the beach if I need to the cats will be well fed That's all I want. That's all I care about is the cats are fed if you want to donate just donate to the cats You can send a cat food. I don't need anything
Let me starve to death watch me die. Okay
They took Sam man side over mine could I said something about his butt his butt is enormous first of all it is Disgusting it is like this big, but it's like I wouldn't go anywhere near it, but I made a joke And they told me I can say anything I wanted and nothing. They said they're trolls. Nothing will offend them
I offended them. Do you understand that makes me the king of the trolls? You understand I won over pet. I won over pepsin Zaya. I won They want it. I know they do Q Q Q come up here. I know they do Q they want it. They when I die They love a party. They'll request ashes for my family and they will smoke them with weed
Am I joking? Tell me I'm joking Q. Q. Have you heard of smoking the ashes? Have you heard of this that they do? It's in every rap song now But I'm crazy, right? I'm crazy about it, right? They literally want to smoke my ashes They literally are
Covering photos of me in menstrual fluid and honey and burying them in graveyards. It's not a joke. It's not a joke This is true. They're literally doing this Joni, it's just upsetting. It's upset. I mean literally I'm not kidding. If I was kidding Okay, that was stupid. It's stupid. They're literally doing this
They're literally doing this I can see in my mind I see them in the graveyard. I see them digging up a little hole. I see them taking my picture where I'm smiling, covering it in menstrual fluid, and dousing it in honey, and burying it and saying a prayer, saying I hope he kills himself. Literally, literally they are doing this. Do you think I'm joking? You think I'm joking?
Does this face look like it's joking? Look at this face.
Okay, no, no, no, I wasn't laughing. No, literally they are doing this
You had the tea and honey that started the ritual Thing that I wish I was joking. I wish I was I wish I was I'm gonna stop though Lava knows lava knows if you know about magic and This is called sympathetic magic you take your picture They fucking cover it and period blood
Maybe I am. Maybe I am. I'm sorry Peppers and Zaya I was having such a good time with them. I said something about Samans, but and Zaya got offended Finally, I was trying to offend him all night Everything was a joke until I said something about Samans, but then he got defensive That was the end of that. Okay. I'll stop. I'll stop
I will, I will, I'm not gonna, I'm not making any money. Sandman's making money off of me. I'm sorry. You steeped your tampon in hot water and you added honey. Not good honey, cheap dollars for honey. And what did you do with it? You didn't pour it in my picture, Katrina, did you? Katrina, don't say you, not say you poured it in my picture. Please don't say that.
Okay, I'm sorry Joni, I wish I was kidding. I wish I was kidding. I love Joni, but She thinks I'm joking. You drank it. Oh my god. Oh my god, oh
Fuck I Don't do anything with my menstrual fluid. I don't have menstrual fluid. I Have semen But I don't do anything with my semen either
Okay, you guys hate me, it's okay. If Jonah hates me, everyone hates me, it's okay. Hey, Lenore, you love me? You know who loves me? I have one friend, like, in the world. I have actually four, all my cats. But everyone else hates me. Everyone else thinks I'm going too far. I just, I just want to tell the truth. Man, I'm sorry I prank called you last night. God, I gave you the phone number.
I just called the number. I didn't know it was you and your husband. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I didn't know. I would have known. I would not have called the number But I'm sorry or your boyfriend I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry No, you may not try this semen. No, you may not I didn't call you
I thought it was you is Virginia and it was a Southern accent and it was a boyfriend and girlfriend arguing and it sounded like you
I mean it's like everyone hates me. It's okay. Even my best friend hates me. It's okay. I'll just lay down. If you want to come up, if you want to come up, go ahead and come up. Everyone else hates me. Am I crashing out? No. I'm just sad that Zaya turned on me for some
Samman joke. That's what's sad because I like Zaya. I didn't want to believe what Alexander Mayers was because I liked him a lot. I liked him a lot. But everyone else hates me. I guess everyone's
right and I'm just going to just go away. So if you want to come up on the panel, you can. But otherwise, I'm just going to lay down and cry. Thanks for being here. Bye.
Everyone hates me
You have a guess so welcome our guests welcome ghosts to the show
Most of your tired you want to get a bad that's fine, but I don't hate you Thank you. Well, that's one person of the baby ghost likes me. I actually defend your ass. You know that I know but Does anybody else? No I'm the master debate or I defend you. You're the only one that likes me, right?
No, I don't know about that. I wouldn't put that out there. I think there's a couple of you that like you
They don't like you. She likes me. She made me bald. I love you. You know that I love you too But nobody else does and it hurts. Well, that's okay. It's okay to be upset about it, but
it hurts my heart. I know it does. I'm the most hated person on YouTube, bro. Nobody likes me. My heart is actually broken. My heart is broken. Well, let's look at the positive side. The positive side to it. I hate buying me dolls. I buy everything. I mean, it's like I do get gifts and stuff, but yeah, for the 90 90% of the time
I'm taking care of everything trying to do everything trying to feed my family of cats and stuff like that and then it's like I'm a bad person You know, you know what be honest with me Let me ask you a real question what happened today because there's obviously that something to happen What happened is like everyone just takes a man side No, it's not cuz you're feeling like type of way. What happened today? I went to pebs and Zayas.
I was on the channel with like salmon and chicken cakes. We were all laughing. And then I said something about putting my finger in Samans butt and then Zaya got offended. And Zay never gets offended about anything. If you decide to make it up to that. That's a grown ass man, right? Zaya? You said, well, maybe it's a woman. Is it a woman? Sam, Samans a woman. Yes, he is.
I'm just saying brother He has me on the show like six hours a day Unless he's doing control streams And it's like but then they're gonna get mad at me And I was like, please just keep me up I don't think anybody's mad at you dude They are, they hate me now They hate me now Well they hate everyone but they're not mad at you I saw Isaiah's eyes change from like this is funny
to I'm gonna kill you That's what I saw in his eyes maybe you saw that but that's not what he said or that's not what he projected maybe I felt it I felt it yeah you felt it I agree with that let me a hundred percent agree with that but that's not what he meant by that okay but I donated four dollars to them yeah and it wasn't very much but it was like all I could do
and they let me on and they were all used to beat yourself up about it I do I think I'm done and now and now Joni hates me and she's like I'm done you know again It's like I can't take this constant Leaving me when I need to help the most I need help the most right now
Let me help you motherfucker. Isn't the best thing that is to talk with friends It is to talk, but it's like I can't trust anybody anymore. I can't trust anybody You can't trust me I can trust you, but you're the last one, you're the last one. Yeah, well, that's probably true, but...
I thought you're letting these people literally you're giving them like ammo They all hate me they all hate me. Why does hate me as well? I don't give a fuck. I'll debate them all I like you. They don't talk shit about I mean, they don't talk shit about you, but oh You know that I got a band in you like I get a band that constantly
That's you know, you're my boy if I want you to fucking join I'll tell them that shit. I fucking defend you. I mean, you know that
What happened what actually happened I was having fun on Zeus channel, and then they decided to thank you. Oh, he said he made a joke about Sam and I'm say I made the face and then he said why are you joking like that and then that was it
I know I know but everyone's gonna leave me and so I'm just gonna go but thank you goes for being my friend and Thank you everyone for my friend, but I know Ghosts is my real friend, and you know, there's a few of their real friends and stuff like that, but it's okay You can just leave me and stuff and I'm a piece of shit and you can just hate me and have a good night Thank you so much for being here. I love you ghosts
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