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Psyche addresses his community after a wellness check by police and performs tarot readings for panel guests, discussing his personal life and experiences.
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The episode begins with Psyche explaining that police performed a wellness check on him due to concerns from his audience about his safety during the previous night's stream ▶ 4:25. He shares that he was awoken by the police at his door and was asked if he was thinking of harming himself, to which he replied no ▶ 5:28. Psyche also mentions that he had been honest with the police about his actions and that they were understanding and concerned for his well-being ▶ 6:10. He then discusses his personal life, including a recent date that he felt was a trigger for him ▶ 11:35 and a stream where he felt he had gotten too intoxicated ▶ 11:13. Psyche also talks about his relationships, including a 15-year friendship that he considers to be a complex and potentially manipulative one ▶ 9:11. Throughout the episode, Psyche references his interactions with his audience, including their concerns for his well-being and their comments during the stream ▶ 8:38.
The episode appears to focus on themes of community, concern, and personal vulnerability. Psyche's openness about his personal life and experiences suggests a strong connection with his audience, who are invested in his well-being. The episode also touches on the idea of boundaries and the importance of being mindful of one's own emotional limits, as well as the potential risks of sharing personal information online.
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what's up guys okay I just want to P my link one second uh and do something else hold on okay I uh but just as soon as soon as I clicked my uh I go live Alisa started Living so there's her show link for right
now so you know you guys are always welcome to go over there um I I don't mean to go live at the exact same time as her I don't plan on doing it like a live all day right now I'll probably do a shorter live right now so then I'll post her link again and guys you can all go over there too um you're if you're a
Lisa fan or you want to check her out KY what's up okay I'll pin the link one second my link and for streamyard got it the first time this is kind of Lucky game yeah it's catchy and gay like me
right okay how are you guys doing okay I just want to First apologize guys um thank
you yeah okay like the case Okay pie yeah the cops cops are pissed okay yeah um yeah well I don't I don't lie to my stream um so I'm going to say
U yeah I was I did get a wakeup call oh I was actually I woke up before it happened I woke up and I was just I remember just being cold and like just fix was next to me cuddling and he he's keeping me warm and stuff like that it was the window was open it was cold and stuff and uh and then I hear knock knock knock at the
door and I go down and yeah yeah well yeah uh I went down STS and the cops were there there actually a really cute cop at the door he's like hello he's like are you my name okay my guys you guys probably Know My Name by
now I've shared it enough times it's it's my PayPal my it's my PayPal PayPal link and the what's up VA how are you up guys yeah so I'm just I'm just telling what really happened the cops um came to
my door knocked a few times um he said are you so and so like yes and he's like um are you think were you you thinking of hurting yourself or um harming yourself tonight and I said no and they're like and good than Alex I
know and uh and they're like are you a streamer and I was like yeah and he's like well we got several concerned calls from your from your from your your audience um very concerned what happened what happened were you're taking something and know I'm always honest you're not in trouble you're not in trouble they're like don't don't worry you're not in
trouble we're just concerned for your safety and your health and they like I was like and I just told them everything and they said okay well you know if you ever need someone to talk to it's just like that be funny if I like I just need someone to talk to I call the police I'm like I your private number I think I think your community was worried
about you psyche I mean I know I know and I really saw when I when I woke up um well after that happened I I went and you know let posted on the Discord that what happened and that I was okay and uh sorry for worrying everybody and then I saw that like five of my five of my like
best friends were in the voice chat like and it was it was it was 6:30 in the morning by now right yeah me well I'm not I don't know if you want if you're com Shar who but dude we were we were so dude I thought you died bro I thought you know we were we were really worried man but it's good it's
good that you're here we're glad we're glad that you're alive and well you know doing your thing like this this uh I guess sector really does need like a gay voice and I think you're that guy you're
that guy psyche you know hi SE hi bet good morning goodno it's afternoon by now we also still morning yeah well yeah I woke up and I was like I was like what time is it and then it was like 12:20 and so I went and I got my lighter I didn't I my lighter
burned out last night and I couldn't smoke any more cigars and so it's mely stupid but when I run out of tobacco it's like I get sleepy all of a sudden like it's like I just like because I don't know it's like I usually usually when I pass out on my stream if I if I pass out on my stream it's because I'm out of cigars you know and so and I just like
I'm just like I fall asleep I don't know I it's weird but if you mess with those green cigars like weed cigars they're swisser sweets they're like cigaros and they're like they're just cheap they're like we used to buy them bad no us to buy them just to we used to buy them and just throw away all the tobacco inside to like roll up roll weed and stuff like that
so asking comments in comments asking for proof of life I know I was I was uh looking at some of the rest of the live a little bit ago and like just seeing what else happened after I was gone and stuff and yeah it was really it's actually really touching that you guys were concerned about me and you know the
part of my thing is like I like I worry like if the chat's Turning against me or you know and then feel like I'm get I get GID a little bit by by by some comments um on the chat and stuff like that and um and but I've also been through a lot of gaslighting and like I actually my my best friend for 15 years
was Russian she's in prison right now he gets out next year and she she was like more like a Handler like now especially the last five years where she was just uh she basically taught me a lot about like uh psychological manipulation and things like that just just by using it on me and me not using on other
people it's like me just deprogramming myself right and you know I was especially able since she's been in the jail the last two years to like really do that deprogramming without her influence other than when she writes a letter and then it's like um you know then it's like oh I want to forgive her I want to forgive her and it's like but I I and I forget all the bad stuff that happened and uh and I remember all the
good stuff I remember all the good times and stuff and it's like that sometimes happen too it's like we have to keep sometimes we have to write down all the all the really negative things that happened that were like all the things that when it goes to your mind I'm never going to talk to this person again whenever that happened with her I remember some of these moments and I wrote them down but then I ended up throwing it away or burning it or
whatever uh and uh but and then you know a lot of the and I also I'm forgiving I'm very forgiving and it's like into like a false where it's like Capricorns are very loyal and it's like if you're they're your friend they're your friend for life no matter what you pretty much do to them they will pretty much always try to be there and forgive you um you
know okay I'm user what's up let's see we're checking the mail let see what we got I I hope my stickers hey what's up I'm sorry um
yeah yelling me yeah worried about you last night I know you were worried and I'm sorry I'm very sorry I felt really bad but it's like I thought I thought that you know I was like I thought like last night I was like you know getting intoxicated and stuff like that and going too far with
it and then like you know just a lot a lot of a lot of things happen at once like you know it's like start started off like so happy that on Saturday when I went and got a manicure shave and a tattoo and like and then uh and then had that horrible horrible date and then you know I like I still also a trigger date was a trigger
because that that I feel like I'm like you know I don't know it was just like I just made to feel like I was like unattractive or like undesirable something something like that or just someone to like use or like I don't know um but uh and so just by that that day alone you know and so um and then I had
like a I had a really good stream the second night I had a fun like I had a great stream the second night and I was like I I was the perfect amount of high I think and I was like but I was able to handle better in the first night and then last night I was just like I don't know it's like it just was the um the combination of all these things hit me at once and
uh and then I was I was I was going up and down and then I did actually like when I left I was I was about to pass out and I and I did pass out I did not take the whole or anything and uh I didn't do I huge amount you know it's like I I
wasn't even text that that strong it wasn't you know so it was just I just kind of like had a little bit of a a moment and I'm definitely sorry to sorry I doxed you I'm sorry okay go ahead all you talk oh I you know
it's myself enough on the chat like I think I've said I even said my full name last night when um as someone for my PayPal and I gave my it's like my full name is my PayPal address whatever but not my it's just my middle initial but yeah I know you're I'm sorry guys it I like I'm gonna be much more mindful of what I like that that kind of thing I don't want to trigger be triggering
other people or like put people in anxiety I just felt really bad about that um I don't want to like hurt anybody's feelings um I don't want people to be I don't people to be worried about to the point where they they do feel like they they uh that you know they I need to be 5150 or or the cops or something like that um but the
cops were um they were very nice they were very concerned I just left a message that they were they were watching my stream or something like that I don't know so so uh he said they're they're mad your stream was on but she probably left before she could really explain yeah thank you guys yeah but uh I
think yeah kind of embarrassing I was like um I was worried about you psyche but I almost had a feeling you were probably sleeping and I keep saying he's probably just tired and sleeping but you got to remember that we're not there to see so people are going to get worried everyone's going to get CU it's not like
you you know just kind of whatever but no I'm glad I I was I thought for sure you were just passed out sleeping and but then all this as the night went on as the time went on all these scenarios started going through all of our heads you know so it's important to like somehow keep in touch but it's your life you're able you should be able to get
eight hours of sleep without people worrying you know but the way you left the panel the way you left the panel it was a little off you know so people were worried yeah I know and guys I have passed that on my stream before but um I know I know the comments I was making were like I saw them today and I was like whoa I was saying that like I was
like I was definitely not in a good state of mind I don't know if it was to do with like just my me like I said I've been like gas lit um like for several years by back by people like in in my house and stuff like that you know and uh just like saying cpic and so I take sometimes
jokes people make or like um kind of General General comments that they take personally like and that happens when I smoke weed too that's why I don't seem to smoke weed right now because I get way too paranoid and then I like sometimes you know but yeah a lot of us were concerned because you were making those comments like if you if you would have just passed out like normally know everyone would have like all right he's
probably sleeping right you know and that's what like that's put me into like dude we got to go see if this guy's okay mode because like you know I've never seen you do that before you know right I was not there earlier but I when I was when I did come in like maybe an a half an hour before you left you seem so
off and I was like trying to cheer you up then you left and I was like me is up here come up here mether was down and I was like just like okay then I came back and it was like it was just yeah but but I guess it's just like the circumstances of it you know all the thought that like can go through their head after you met
up with that Weirdo And grinder and you know like having try to freaking assault you who knows you know yeah yeah who knows yeah nothing like nothing happened that guy the guy just was the guy just basically he just called and like some other you know sometimes gay guys have like a lot of big Social Circle of Friends and and sometimes they have
friends that do drugs and so it's like his his whole thing was like he he probably like um finds gay guys um gets them to buy them in Uber to their house um then says hey can you call your friends tell them I got some stuff I got Stu for sale and stuff like that and then he makes a bunch of money and then you know and then probably he like leaves or something everyone so
up you but um but yeah but but then that night I was I was just playing I was like you know I was like going through my my YouTube history trying to find because I I could I I didn't know liked or whatever I was trying to like find like music that he liked and then of course you know I like those stupid parody songs you know that like some people think are funny like some people don't like them you know remember Jamie
one night was like saying through the whole parody song she's like this is so stupid this is stupid this is stupid well that's what he was doing too and I was like oh so I only played like two or something like that because didn't like he said Nicki Minaj I played Nicki Minaj Anaconda par and then I played the real song but then um and then he's like oh I'm allergic to cats um or he just started he hold his sleeve he's like oh my gosh I can't stay here
I'm itching I got to go like um and then he said on the phone he's like to some he talk he called some friend in the area he's been in this local area before he told me and he's like he has a friend in the area and he called him and he's like hey um yeah this guy here the guy here's not cooperating with me and so um you come pick me up and I'll send you
the address whatever and so and then he like sorry it's okay like we were running through these scenarios it's like I mean we thought we thought you might have got like serial killed or something we were we were really yeah well I don't think that guys
ever coming back tell you you um despite what you think so many people were worried about you and they love you and they're concerned one of them Alex up here Janet you know Nether um mether whatever all of us but if you run a panel every you can't please everybody
you know you're doing a great job if you can get a handful of people to have your back but you have a lot of people that love your show they love what you're doing you know and you're it's a trial it's a learning one week one day you might have a bad show now get everything you want another day you might have a you know a fabulous show so just take it
as a grain of salt as experience and you learn you know you get to learn personalities panelists yourself and you're doing a good job like I this is my favorite panel to come to you know that of course Janet too I don't know be I'm I'm worried a little bit for
you though be like why that stream oh oh well you know what I mean I'm not worried because I'm not I didn't do anything so I don't think you either I don't know if I mean I don't know I don't think you did either I think if I if I allow groovy Jimmy on my panel and I ask you know somebody to change the
picture cuz I don't want groovy Jimmy to be like humilated that's my panel so if you're going to go and do a whole live about it and be scorn because I didn't let you up do it you know again this is what I'm telling psyche is like you can't please them all you know absolutely yeah I mean I don't know be too worried but I mean yeah I don't know
I don't know what they're you know doing see now you're giving me anxiety like what is what's gonna happen all over me the grease Court the I was like enemy for the grease verse for a while now now you know they don't really care because I'm not like I'm not like committing like
grave Crimes by them you know I'm I'm trying I'm I'm over here with psyche now you know I'm helping psyche build his Empire you know I join groovy Jimmy's panel one time and now I have a whole Army after me it's interesting though no iced I've renounced my uh I've renounced
my connection to the grease verse I'm no longer involved you know I I don't want I I I actually told psyche to Blacklist Jimmy from this panel but you know you know I think I I don't know guess like I'm just gonna try to like keep it like you know I'll let anybody like in the chat like now
because it's like I I don't know if like that guy 2020 is like from um from your when he was from your show Bea and like because um or like people are from your show and that's just's never taken a link he's just a chatter I um I see him in a lot of chats and you know what I do with um people that troll I ignore it most of the time if you're not going to
come on the panel and confront me and talk to me I you're just somebody with a name and an ALT you know no I theyve never taken a link so yeah so I'm G to try to be less sensitive about about the people chat like what the trolls in chat I'm always gonna care about my friends in chat like and like and someone goes after someone like I'm a I'm like a public figure like I mean a
lot of us have shows and stuff like that that on the panel and stuff and so it's like I guess people I guess people on the panel are are really good handling trolls and don't care and probably ignore it too but if like if someone goes after someone in chat or something like that like that's not you know that I want to keep the people in chat that aren't like kind of more public figur
safe and things like that and not have them it's so hard yeah I what I do is like do no doxing no disgusting talk like you know PDF or no accusing people of that stuff I will remove sometimes people's pictures it's like that but for the most part if it's just somebody in the chat I look at them as they're so
thirsty for attention they're trying to get your attention it's almost like they're kicking in the chat you can always take the link if you're brave enough to speak know right call keyboard Warriors they're keyboard Warriors that's it yeah exactly and I tell people like come come like hit the link if you want to say things like and talk have a conversation about
it yeah but it's like I people making like these random random comments about like some some of the people like they were doc say I I have no idea who that person is and it's like I don't know what like what the reason is for that and and it's like it could be dangerous for that person and so yeah so that's like that's like going to be like pretty much the Only Rule you'll you'll uh
you'll either get um or like The Other Extreme stuff and it will be like up to up to the mods like and myself 24 hours or like I'll just if you're if you go keep going at it or if you spamming or Stu like that I'll just hide you but you know I want to keep Mo everyone here I want to help the most people I think I can even help the trolls that there I'll give I'll do a reading for trol just all
I ask if you do a reading like someone came on asked for a reading the other night they said their their husband was cheating and then they said oh yeah my husband his name is uh his name is Rob and he's big tall and sexy or whatever he's from Samoa it was like it was just that big tall sexy Rob guy or yeah pretending to be his wife and I was like okay well yeah well your husband's cheating on
with you on me on me with you and uh and or however it goes your husband's I'm sleeping with me and he's uh he's cheating on you with the chat right and so and then she was like what what goodness gracious me but I was like yeah I'm like I figured him out in a second yeah I don't I like I don't don't waste my energy you know I I a genuine reader and it's like you know
there's cards G to come out I'll give my best interpretation of it even if there's not like this the channeling energy which usually comes with authentic person and stuff like that you know I was a little like that was confusing reading for me because I just I I just saw the cards then I didn't really really get a feeling about it so I can kind of tell some things not right
um but you know and so you know I'm also going to start a membership and and it's like um if I um when I start the membership then you know you're guaranteed a reading on the show you know it's like um but um but right now I'm just trying to do free mini reads for everyone and letting them get you know it's always good to get a sample of the reader to see if the read you're
compatible with the reader if the reader if you think the reader is good or not you know you can judge it on that and stuff so I'm happy to give like like a and I do quick readings you know I do quick readings I'll do more detailed readings for members and stuff like that so I that's why I'm also excited getting monetized because I I don't like just like you know send money for my PayPal for a reading I'd like to you know um
have members and stuff like that and um and super chats and stuff like that um and get the excitement going I think Super chats will like also help YouTube promote me more they'll they'll put me more in the algorithm if I'm doing super chats because that they benefit too if I if people send super chats even though they take a large percentage I think it's it's a probably like the best way
to promote um promote payments on the show but yeah because I don't want to hurt my algorithm I don't want to like and also all these band words like people are using it's like there's um we Janet like read it to me last night there's this hate hate speech policy on on YouTube and it's like certain words um you can say can can get flagged by the algorithm and it's like even if it's
like you're saying Free Speech Free Speech it's like well it's like yeah but you're not supposed to say these certain words and I've warned several people several times not to say the word or the words on the on the pan and and the same people I keep having to tell again and again and they're like the only people that had to ask you know and it's like but they're they're also like Friends of the show like and stuff like that and so
it's like you know I'm just gonna have to like you know keep asking or hopefully I won't have to like ban start Banning them for like a week or more you know it's like I don't like to do that I don't like to I don't like to hide people but it's like some stuff with the other night was so was so I was if I if I hit a person for a special reason and then he comes on 10 alts and I recognize all the alts but then other people are
talking like him too it's like some people might in the crossfire that's what I'm say if you I I ban you it wasn't fair and you you know you weren't doing anything I'll I'll unban you and stuff like that if I I unmodded you and you want me to reconsider like I'll give you another chance and stuff like that but I'm I'm coming down on moding and stuff and I'm calming down but I'm also coming down on the hiding and the unmod
it's like you know I'm pretty much you know we're gonna try to have aover i' I've been a mod for chats with very bad Trolls but I I never saw myself get trolls as bad as like a few days ago but then it all stopped as soon as that one person left and so you know I don't know I don't know if it was like just a concered effort by some a few people I
know people send their discords over here sometime to troll and but um you know I'd like to like yeah I just try I try to ignore it the best I can you know you can't you can't you can't win them all but you know you got to fight through it you got to fight oh I got to I got to charge my thing I'm a fighter you really are man I and I really think you're
fighting for like gay rights and stuff too and I respect the out of that yeah well it's like yeah I just I mean it's like I just well actually I just want to be treated like treated like like a like a like everybody else is treated like um you know like respect it's like G gay it's like one of the last people it's okay to disrespect you know and it's like and then it's like and then sometimes you know I will troll
guys but I'll by like kiding on them and stuff like that like some of these guys don't even have photo I I have no idea what they look like they could be 600 pounds like slobbering and and like a you know and it's like I was like you and I like hit on guys I'm not I'm gonna be real I'm not big into fat guys even though I kind of a fat guy I like skinny guys you know well if you guys saw you
guys well groovy Jimmy's not fat right but he took off is fat groovy Jimmy that I like I liked his body I I thought I thought he looked good and it's like and I don't want to like shame I mean everyone thought it was funny when I like he he like took it off and I was like both times I was in the room and he's like there and that thought that was funny and stuff hopefully he got the
joke with I thought it was kind of funny but he was like that night I I went to his chat for my chat he's like I I told my chat to go to I'd be there for a little bit and then um and then there were some there's some girls in the chat and he's like okay I'm just taking it this off for the girls in psyche's chat or the girl the girls in the chat and then but it's like it's like a joke it's like not me not I would I would always
respect boundaries and stuff you don't have to say you're gonna put a bullet in my head like some some it's like you know it's like that's a little EXT I and also I don't like that kind of violence against gay talk and like they responding violent because there's you know people do um do do do violence to gay people over that stuff and it's like or even if it's like P they perceive it that way right and we've had you know
Matthew Shephard of course and um like a lot a lot of a lot of people and stuff have there stories of like people like meeting up and the guy like the guy will meet a guy at a gay bar and the guy's just pretending to be gay and then he'll go and he'll beat the guy up because he hates gays and it's like it's like it's it's really I think that's very rare
though it used to be more prevalent back then but I think now Matthew Shepard met these guys at a gay bar I think and then they like took him and they like basically crucified him like like a you know like on a fence like a scarecrow and Stu and it's like um so that that story sticks in my mind I was a teenager at that time and you know I'm like but I'm libertarian I'm
like not for special rights and it's like you know you know I I think that there should be like protection for um classes that are targeted like on a like a higher basis and that are that are targeted just be because of their race or sexuality um and and or you know or their gender or whatever whatever there
there should be um protections against hate crimes and stuff like that but it's like I'm not trying to like you know get special rights I wasn't even really that that that excited about gay marriage I was like I'm not too into the idea of me getting married it's like that just sounds like I married either because I'm in and out of relationship so much it's
just like damn I can't I can't I can't be doing I don't want to settle down you know especially especially on the gay side of the like because I am by but on the like on the straight side maybe like because like you're supposed to settle down you're supposed to settle down with a girl but you're I don't know I I don't feel the same way about guys well guys can settle down and stuff but
they know there was like a domestic partnership I think Bill Clint had domestic partnership and it was basically gave all the same legal rights as a marriage but it was for you know it's like you know it's like you know I don't know it's like there there can be a wedding still you can always throw a wedding even if it's like a commitment ceremony right you can see you're going to throw like all these symbolic things and like but it's like when you get so
wrangled up in leg the legal side of it you know I'd rather start a business with a man than get married to a man I'd rather you know then that's a m it's all about tax income and the government getting a share of whatever yeah you know it's not like it's it's not it doesn't mean as much as it used to like way back you know but now it's just like yeah we're married you
know yeah yeah Matthew Shepard's a terrible story I don't know if you guys have heard of it that happened like 90s and he went to like this bar and these two guys picked him up or whatever and then they like beat him up or they drugged him they beat him up and they like left him on a fence um and K he died and so but not not to sh
time this guy me if I've been to a gay bar I've been to several I go semi frequently yeah it's not it's not a big secret like at one point I went be like no dude I never go to those but now it's I don't care and there's if there was a gay bar near me near me like I I probably would go you know but there's there's not like
I'm talking about within walking distance of me there's just a sports bar right and it's like and then it's it's kind of like a more conservative Community probably in that respect like um you know I I don't I I don't I don't just like see gay people everywhere I just like maybe sometimes like working at like like a certain like food shop or something like that or like the Whole Foods maybe but it's like you know
they're my type and it's like um you know and so I the internet's like one of the only um ways I've been able to like meet people also we have a big much slower dating pool and it's like and it's harder and then there's like all these dangers and it's like and it's like everyone just wants to hook up and it's like and it's the hookup culture
really upsets me you know yeah I'm more romantic but it's just like it's part of the culture and it's like that's what it's like gay guys instead of like taking someone to dinner I used to like go and be and they would take we we go out to dinner and stuff and then it would be like we'd have like a real date kind of thing but it usually didn't last very long you know it's like like once I've been out of the class for like a week
now bro it is what it is oh congratulations like for you know really happy about that because I am like I do feel a lot more comfortable you know you know I do I mean I I go both ways I like women I like men you know it is what it is at least you know you're there's a lot of men like that are like that I
know men that are married with Children and they're scared to say what they you know they have feelings for sexual attraction to men too you're brave you know for people that actually oh trust I'm I wouldn't say Brave I just I just finally feel like I'm like ready to be like you know what
this who I am you know I don't want to I'm not pressed I'm not acting pressed I'm just uh I'm like a little bit High be real yeah I've been to more bars than like probably like regular bars in my life CU I would go to Hollywood all the time the best bars were like the best clubs were the
G yeah you know G like straight guys some straight guys will go to a gayar with their girlfriend and it's like and it's like um because their girlfriend's not afraid of guys hitting on her there like she might like she might with her boyfriend and like he he has a he has a more getting hit on but like you know if
a straight guy go g I wouldn't call it a bar psyche I would go to clubs like in Hollywood and they had like six different rooms and they were all like it was like pretty much gay club but there was a bunch it was probably more females there it was a lot of fun but this is like the bar that I sometimes go
to is that one that's owned by like Trixie yeah tells the famous famous drag queen that music videos yeah she's cool the bar is very nice it's very well run you know yeah and yeah drag shows and and it's like you know everyone can have fun at a drag
show it's like you know it's like like stand up comedy and like and usually they'll hit on the straight guys there so yeah look at this oh oh my God what a beautiful husky I know he's so cute
Janet you up here I see J but I didn't see in the chat I was like
H can you hear me my sound is messed up sorry I'm here hello everyone here I know I'm behaving I'm being good psych said go on mute Janet I said yes
sir has it been eight hours yeah I think I SLE I slept for like six hours shout out to everybody hope everyone's having fun I'm gonna go make some more coffee guys yes can I apologize last night I got a little Snappy with you but I was just
under a lot of stress I understand I forgive you it's okay thank you being Mama beer I get it you know and I I I was a little uh yeah I got a little Snappy with you but it's okay like apologize I understand I am security around here so I understand but no
worries you're fine if you could take your shirt off and uh show your chest will'll forgive you all jly yes do it and please know names in the um chat and if you're disecting the host you will be
timed out I'm going on mute thank you all love you J I got you love you too and this is Vu I love you Janet yeah enjoy that Berry Bo you enjoy that with your shady he's like
prepare for another live a live they're going to do on me really nice friend are you gonna watch that live why should I torture myself I'm sure I'll hear about it and it's like what are they gonna say anyways oh
whatever I defended like groovy Jimmy I lit him on my panel oh I'm so scared is it going to be alive or is it is it going to be it's called breast cancer awareness and it's like has a thumbnail of Ruby Jimmy me and um some other dick or whatever no it's a it's a
picture of groovy chimmy with this tits out be and a picture of Abdul oh okay I'm not I'm not I'm not I don't like the weirdest thing that picture is from my Instagram I don't know how they found that picture be you look like someone my age taking a picture like that
well that was a picture from a long time ago that's my mom's hat cuz my mom wore the same hat when she was like young so I wore that hat that picture is probably like maybe five years ago so I took it just to do a replica of my mom's pictures like you know she passed away when I was like 15
so I always had that like little hat she would wear that so I just that's like a that was in my private Instagram but that's just a little Side Story I wouldn't wear that hat out it's a 70s hat it's very that's like no that's like a 60s hat that's like one of those uh turnup hats you see someone like picking turnup no it has a little pom pom at the top it's like 70s like
it's I don't know how to explain it that's a hot top you ever see those like pick turn turn-ups and they wear like hats like that it's crazy you know what it is like an optical illusion you never know what it is
let me borrow that top let me borrow that top let me borrow that top me wants to borrow the
top me have you ever done drag me no I've never done drag actually I I went to I went I was in like seventh grade and I went to school on Halloween as a girl and fooled a lot of people never done drag dude I was forced to do
that when I was younger bro they forced you to address Allied yeah dude when I when I was like four I had this gay friend name well I didn't have it my cousin had this gay friend named Shelby and they put me in a like I think they put me in like a tank top top and like a
tutu it was so embarrassing one one time on Benny's stream he came on like in full eye makeup and he the story was he had gone over to this um to this um this girl he likes house and then she like convinced him she she had put on a full face of makeup on him and stuff like and then he like he didn't
wash off the eye makeup so he just had this like eye like dark ey Shadow and like an eyeliner on and he had on the stream it was so funny yeah um did T he they think they think I have a crush on you even though they even though they they realize that I I I I mean I'm not
trying to hurt your feelings but I stated how I felt previously you know psyche yeah it wasn't it wasn't it wasn't like I I was trying it's not a bad thing you're a good guy psyche it's just you're not my type you know yeah everyone's always saying that that they're always telling me that some guy has a crush on me in this chat it's like
and he's a straight guy and it's like probably you know I don't know it's and then like guy like like Barry with with Sam man he's always like Sam Man's asking for you on his panel I don't know if samon was asking for me on his panel but day that's why he just you know he just doesn't want to come out and that's
why he's a little whm but um yeah we go by action not you know his action I'll hit I'll hit on ber I have idea what these guys look like K KK had like a picture up of like her on the like it was like AI of her on the couch with these like five black I don't know if these are any of these guys but I was
like I wouldn't let any of these guys be in a gang bang with me you know I was like dooke I know I know yeah that was a no I mean with me not not that she like would or something but yeah it's like I bet I didn't they were those guys were not my type really but um I don't
know maybe that bbcs or something like that and I would Overlook their face I only hang out with goodlooking people is that narcissist of me I only like no I'm just kidding all my friends are beautiful that's what I that's what I think too I think I like know them people that come on the panel are so beautiful people in the chat are
beautiful and that's like you know it's like I I think I've always like um just had beautiful people around me and it's like but maybe that's why maybe I get insecure sometimes because everyone's beautiful but you know you gorgeous oh my God I I don't like that like you say that you know if you were straight I would already been over there like I would have made love to you and
we would be together we're not that far but you know what you can't always be that lucky in life so I'm not that lucky man I'd like to go to those like gay clubs in the 70s bro can you imagine the drugs and at them bro godamn no
drugs studio4 well I mean drugs in a club like you know it's like that's like a special occasion and stuff you know it's like I but it's like I I really don't like I don't do drugs anymore like you know it's like this weekend was an kind an exception um but I don't even smoke weed right now I'm just I'm just like smoking cigar and I alcohol is a drug right and
I'm a thank you Charlie girl I'm smoking I'm drinking alcohol kind of a lot and uh and it's like but I don't feel like I'm drinking alone though because I drink on my panel you know it's like I think every time I drink I'm I'm paneling like every time so it's like I'm and people on my panel drink um too sometimes and you know and so it's like I like to have like a party atmosphere
it does get um sometimes I get like too drunk and it's like hard for me to to focus or to you know to run the panel like it should and of course I shouldn't be passing out and stuff I'm going to try to like be better at that but now you know Janet um you know is going to be here she can like either run run the panel for a while or like end the stream for me and stuff like that so it doesn't
just run all night and stuff and so Janet is good what do you think like I do the same thing I get buzzed and I start you know I get that's why I get porn bomb on accident all the time because I'm like I just get trustworthy so you need somebody up there that's like on alert you know she's like security right so yeah you have to yeah
I it's very hard to like rotate everything when you're buzzed yeah I and and Jan like you know some sometimes I don't like times I don't stand up for myself you know or I don't explain things right like she's she will like she will you know she'll like you know explain things or and she back and stuff like that and it's like that's what I
wanted that's what I really wanted and in like a co-host or like a someone running the the streamyard is like like someone to defend me and like like a you know I don't know I think she I just I just know she has my back and stuff and so um yeah buzz and drugs not the same yeah but but bar I've been getting drunk like I've been I've been like drinking
like really strong like 8% I I've been getting blasted on like three mango Ras and then it's like if I drink any more I'll pass out from like pass out on the pan by the third one I'm like and even over like eight hour period I'll be three and I'll I'll be drunk you know so you know sometimes I I need even eat more you know I'm trying to like make
sure I eat more and I'm very skinny so I probably get drunk faster and stuff like that you know I'm like 150 pounds you've seen how skinny I am you've seen me take take my shirt off on the show yeah love you jet yeah and so um yeah but it's like you know but then there's people that like skinny guys and like you know it's like not everyone wants a big muscle guy
I like big muscle guys and but I don't mind like a cute skinny guy too and and like you know I like I'm I'm attracted to all Races and everything and and like and uh I even had a girlfriend for like three months and she was like in her 50s and she was overweight and stuff like that and it's like you know I I still like really liked her no not not I shouldn't like her but
it's like she was 20 years older than me it's like um kind of like a like quite I was 33 she was 55 or 54 oh there're the sirens are they are they coming again guys stop calling the cops on me the only on who have their
info though I think good yeah but yeah but but I do like it's like especially because they didn't like I they made sure I wasn't in trouble or else I would have said no no um but uh yeah it was like but I was like I woke up and I didn't remember like really what happened like too much I didn't I like so when they I was like why are they at the door like I was just
like running so I was like why are you guys here like I'm just C confused about that and they said you're a streamer right and they're like they're like we got we got we got calls about you and stuff that um they were saying like Okay so it's like yeah even like on the like the cops were kind of like yeah they probably thought we were trying to like SWAT them or
something but like dude like no we're trying to help this dude like you know we trying to trying we were trying to make sure you were okay because like yeah we just didn't want you to Benny has gotten like not swatted I think I kind of think of the SWAT team coming but the cop cops s Ben police to
Benny's house several times and like they all know him by now like he's like and uh also then someone wants one night send a pizza to his house and stuff like that so I would mind I would mind getting a pizza someday like sent to my house that'd be that'd be pretty cool but uh but yeah sorry
sorry one I talked to um from um from Alisa's stream and then um I won't say her name but um one day she got um a pizza and it was like delivered to Alisa at her house and she was like so freaked out she like invited the pizza guy in and then she like as like videotaped him and stuff like that with her cell phone and then she sent him away it's said
well he the pizza wasn't paid for by the way it was like it was like just a a cash on delivery order or something like that so yeah I'd probably send away pizza if I didn't pay for it but um yeah but if I got a pizza from Alisa Jordana I would I would eat it you know I to deliver but I don't know it can be it be scary
like I used to like her but like I don't know she seem she seems uh she really wants to get in with those ip2 guys well yeah she like she got she got kicked I don't think I think she got kicked from ipu but she like she likes she get and she thinks like some of
their sens like she had this guy Edward Kim U on her show as a mod and then he kept like she had Min yeah and she had I saw that episode and she also also DJ Electra like Minnie Manson like Jamie Jamie Rose and and
Marty would mention like he met Mar man Min man like suck sucked his fingers in his butt and stuff and uh well he was wearing shorts and it was he didn't ask for he bent over in front of picking up his keys or something but but DJ Electra knows Minnie Manson she knows Wendy I don't know if you guys know Wendy from the Howard Stern Show and she's like texted them telling them about my show
and so maybe someday they'll be stopping by and things like that and I know JD from Howard Stern I know um I know this guy Jerry who was the writer for the Howard St I met him through Lisas and uh so I know like really cool people from Howard Stern I'm a big Howard Stern fan you know and uh of course Benny um Alisa dated Ben Benji what do you think about
s yeah s and Richard like they had a they George to in and then all of a sudden they started doing gay Sons they were getting naked Richard was showing his s was getting naked and like they're all they they this um skateboarder I for they had this famous skateboarder this Australian skateboarder and they had and he I think he said he was bisexual or something and he like got naked and like let George
Decay touch his balls and stuff and uh on it was like it got turned into the gayest show and there that's when a lot of people got mad because the show turned so gay they're they're actually having gay sex in the studio basically on serious radio yeah so but yeah but yeah oh by the way I started my stream today as soon as I clicked my go live then I got a notification that Lisa was going live I
didn't mean to go live at the exact same time with her I did post her link and I'll post it again before I leave of her show right now and you guys anyone wants to go over and be like talk in her chat and everyone wants to call in sometime too she like SP the call in the end of the night she went she's alone in her car and stuff but yeah she'll like take open calls on her on her phone she'll give out her phone number and you'll will be able to to talk to her and like
you know say ask anything you want and like you know she but she I've called several times and she's always really always takes my call one time she even called me back I've never seen her call someone back she accidentally hung up on on my on me on hold or something and then she called me back um and I've never had somebody or I never seen her call anybody back that called the show and so and and she she'll ask me to call
in and uh and she always replies to me on Discord like usually within like 30 seconds like she's so she you know she so I've never had a negative experience and so that's why I pretty much judge her on uh it's like her relationship with me I like a lot of people bring up other stuff that about it and it's like and then um but I I really I wasn't around when all the other stuff happened
and it's like so she's controversial a little bit but I I'll I'm a definitely a big supporter and she's also let me post this show I asked her can I post my my show on her Discord she I don't think she really lets many people do that like I don't see many people doing that and she also said that she she shouldn't let people do that but she allowed me to and she said I could post
um I could post my link anytime and she's never said any like she's never told me to take a link down or said stop please stop posting your show and everything I posted some lives I have and stuff and uh and you know some of her some of her people I met in her chat are in here sometimes and things like that and I'll always you know make sure to mention her show um especially if I'm on at the same time she's streaming
which sometimes happens um you know always like be sure to promote promote her and tell people and then I'll see people in here at her show and it's fun except this person in the chat named huge labia and all the huge labia would talk about is our labia like labia smells my labia is seven inches long like and then she was then I I brought people over to Alisa one night and big
Leia was there when I was on the phone talking and I was like I'm Sor I say I brought really cool people like I brought Alexander and he he was having a good time in her chat and stuff and he he like really likes her but I brought Alexander was there the other night but then I was like I brought Alexander and he's really cool on my PD and he's you know he's funny but I was like I brought big labia here I see her in the chat right now and then Alisa was like looking and
like big lebia you're so welcome in Alisa's chat you're talk welcome to talk about your lebia just to maybe think of another topic you playing guitar me I like it the song me there multi-talented musician
artist you know very talented artist a talented tarot card reader um you know's he he many talents very goodlooking cool guy I wish you could do I wish you could play music on YouTube and not get stru right well like I play I was playing like so many songs I was like
we're just doing karaoke nights where we just and or and me playing music videos because all that would happen for the all the time I ever do that because I do that sometimes or sometimes like something that turned out to be copyrighted every time I did that it just said oh your videos either like sometimes the video gets blocked usually the video doesn't get blocked but it's like it it's like sometimes it gets they
say there's copyrighted material and it can't be monetized but if I was monetized but I'm not and it's like but so you can uh you can clip it out really easily and so I would usually just clip out have all the songs clipped out and stuff and that's what I thought they would always do but then we were playing all these music videos other night and I had like 10 copyrights on one thing and then 10
copyrights on another and uh and then I got this email like after like we right in the middle where we're were doing it and it's like you this is your warning and like no copyrighted material can be played um or you'll get a play that that will get you struck instantly they will strike you so fast if you play wish you were here yeah and so then so when someone was kept playing stuff even it's on
their phone I don't know if there's a rule you copyright it's on a speaker or something like that Alisa gets around it I don't know if she she pays extra to say the copyright stuff but um then you know she never gets I've seen I've seen one time her video got it said it contains copyright materials cannot be played but I don't know she can probably take that out too so I don't know I don't know I don't I'm still learning
the rules and stuff about it but it's like I really I'm trying to I'm might I'm I'm just waiting till they can tell me I can apply my the rest of my hours I've already got 3,000 hours it just has to be um they have to be logged officially or something like that they so I'm just waiting for that them to invite me to be monetized and I'm hoping I'm able to and start a membership and the super chats
and stuff like that it'll and it'll be kind of exciting it'll be and then I can like you know I'll have more of an income stream with this YouTube I can I'll be able to really focus instead of worrying about oh I need to get another job I need to get a job or something like that or you know so because I'd love to do this this is my this is my dream uh my dream you know this is like
my this is what I really want to do and I think uh I think I have a fun stream I have a unique stream I I I do offer like a service on the stream and like um you know that like terot tarot is like you know something I can like do that you know I used to do readings on Etsy for like 15 20 bucks and stuff like that and
that's slowed way down since the pandemic but um but also I'll be able to prom mys Etsy more maybe I'll redo my Etsy store and you know it just just be a way to like promote um promote things promote other people and like I want everyone to be successful here I want I like I think people everyone can stream and like share their life you know even if um you know be started a Channel
about her cats right and it's like um and you know it's like now it's it's it's turned into like her own like fun panel and and fun show and things like that oh short no man these are not imped meion I'm totally sober I'm completely sober I'm not even I'm I I didn't even get didn't get really high that that night like
you yes yo it's a kitty I love that
kitty KY Mouse right there oh you oh that is so cute have you had that bet yeah that's my mouse pad I've had it forever it looks like was like doing my office work right now and then I was like oh like cat stuff but I was like that looks like kind of
like your tattoo it looks like it
do yeah what me said that it do you do you like my tattoo you like my tattoo oh boy cut I love it so much okay thank you I love it too I was like
I could have turned out more perfect more perfect I showed you off I didn't show I cut off where you couldn't see any that my skin and I just showed your tattoo thank you thank thank you for yes I saw I loved it thank you so much get a matching one one day too
but mine is gonna say CS a Psy oh wait can't wait yeah no wait P A P A P a wait okay it's gonna say Pat think you
have yeah I'll put Pat that's even better yeah Pat easy Pat gang guys Pat gang everybody Pat each other on the box love
it yeah well I never know I never know it was called Pat and then people in chat started calling me Pat they they because it's easier to like type in psyche awakens tarot and they'll say hi Pat and I was like oh my gosh Pat Pat was like that Saturday Night Live character you couldn't tell if a man or a woman you remember remember that yeah got the
EJ Jill I know the I know the name he's on he was on he was on Saturday Night Live Like recently his skits were like uh but like they did they did one with uh salitsky in the Oval Office I think that was them and it was really funny yeah the only Satur live I ever thought was funny
live lady with the small hands what is that girl the lady with the small hands she has all these sisters and they're looking for husbands and come out with Milton Burl show yeah it's a Milton bur show and it's like the sister they Milton Burl would have he like an old old TV show and he'd have these like little musical acts and they're like all these sisters and they have the one that
step warmed hand like they're like snapping that's a funny one that's actually a funny one that's one of my favorites um yeah I I actually posted um um a Milton Burl song on I requested I put out as a song
on Lisa georan Channel um I forgot what it was called but it was like um but it was yeah but it was a I don't was funny cuz she had this she you know she had these old ladies as her assistants and stuff it's like tonight she has this lady named Stephanie she looks like she looks like she look like rose from The Golden Girls and she had this other other like lady on last night she was like the lady got drunk and then
she has this guy named tanad and like tan like tanad had the old lady get up and start twerking and she was like this like little this kind of chubby lady and she was like twerking and he was like smacking her ass and stuff like that it was so funny I like I like favorite assistant Todd gold Goldfinger was my favorite assistant for Alisa and that's
how I met DJ Electra actually through Todd we were we'd always be in his chat and he would take out you know his guitar and he's like you know just like play the guitar for the chat and just like sing and then we would throw in lyrics for him and he would just follow along with it but I liked him and then I mean God there were so many people that she streamed with whatever happened to
that old guy that was like weird that would walk around with her on the bicycle oh okay so that that guy that name is Edwin I think and Edwin is like oh not him she had like she's I've seen like a bunch of her old clips and stuff I saw this old guy once like start to like like really cuss
out this woman like and he was like you know I've seen like her assistant she had a woman assistant that that had seven knives in her purse and like she like oh yeah that's Wesley that was Wesley the the homeless one yeah she had a bunch of kniv if she like threatened she threatened Alisa and like at least and she threw Lisa's bag in the street and Lisa started running through the street screaming and knocking on police
car windows and like police she has seven knives she had seven knives in her purse she I say his name was Donald or something it was this older guy and he would like literally take advantage of the show and he was like the guy beat up who that was whatever yeah because that's all I
know her from is from beating up that guy that like Jewish guy yeah he's like Persian Persian D um from like La yeah like he's like very wealthy um and then so he donated $2 million supposedly $2 million through the TTS system um to her over the time like and then so she
she flew out to meet him and stuff and then there but he was verbally abusive on the phone with her and like he was like a jerk he has multiple sceris I think too like one time his tooth fell out on the stream and uh he wasn't like I didn't find him very goodlooking at all and like yes yeah yeah and so but then yeah yeah I just like that was the first well the first time I saw her in years because I saw her at Howard s i
remember from Howard S I remember her name and I remember like she played the piano that time and she saiding you I'm fine and um on the
piano yeah all the time when um before went really crazy you know yeah but I just found her like probably six months ago and um I saw like I saw like she she went viral for the incident and so I watched and I I watched something called like that this is the most unhinged live streamer ever and
that and it was by Jamie French who's a really good uh good funny YouTuber um and then um so then I was like oh I just like you know fell in love again or and then she did look like a completely different person and know like Jamie French even said I don't even think this the same person from the Howard is this the same woman CU she she looks completely different and uh I do know she had like a she had a nose job or
something like that um I had a nose job too so nose shade on nose jobs um but uh yeah so I I then I just found her and I found her stream and then um I uh I was able to like call in and she was just like and I did a tarot reading for that first show and then she named the whole stream after me she it's called the amazingy um the amazing psyche she named
the whole stream after me and stuff and I was just on she does eight hour streams like hour stream I was just on for like the last hour for like 15 minutes or maybe 10 minutes and so I was just on a short time but she named The Stream after me and so and she was she always calls me sweet psyche and uh she's like this is the nicest guy she she like I sent him um or t m tan dad saw a message I said I said I love tan
dad and he's like who's the psyche guy she's like oh he's a really sweet guy yeah and so you know I I just I I just I VI with her we Bond over the Muppets and being 80s babies and you know um uh you know like we're just a couple years apart so she's a couple years younger than me but yeah she's always been nice to me and uh always been sweet
kind and it's like I know she has like a lot of she has a whole body count of assistance and former friends and fiances and but uh I hope I never have a falling out with her or any of my friends I I hate falling out with my friends usually it's over some some stupid misunderstanding and or me being stupid or something so but yeah but like like I said once I'm loyal to you I'm
loyal for life that's a very true that's a Capricorn tra that's very true of me so you can't speak yeah Nancy yeah Nan nany tried to come in the chat last night um but her speaker wasn't working that happens on mine sometimes too I have to use my phone on Discord to talk in the voice chat what's up guys what's up J Nancy good to see you yeah so it was like yeah so that it
was quite a night last night but yeah I just in case you just tuned in to the show I'm okay um I'm I'm fineing I'm not even hung over a little bit um you know I didn't take that much I was just like probably just a little a just kind of coming down off the weekend and a little bit maybe cranky and paranoid or something like that and uh so I apologize to the chat if I worried
anybody I apologize to the panel and all the people that were worried okay I I saw I saw I saw the rest some of the rest of the show I I I was able to even read the live chat on the the rest of the show I think I'm privating that stream but um yeah I I just saw that there everyone was really really heing genuinely and and just thank you and thank you guys for being like being
there too like in the voice chat on Discord um when I when I came when I woke up later and it was like hours later and you know you're like you're still you're still well worried and you're so happy to see me and stuff like that and so and they're like is that him is that him is that really him we couldn't sleep we were Tracy my God Tracy and Janet and Jamie and we just
couldn't sleep we were you know just waiting and I was like he's going to pop up and you came up I thought I saw a ghost yeah my I knew you were gonna come up I just I knew you were gonna I knew you but I was like you know we got to worry because of the circumstances but
it's all good thank you yeah and yeah and I and I because I I love the show and I I like wouldn't I wouldn't I wouldn't leave you guys um I'm I'm sticking around here you know I'm a I have a I have a good life I have you know I've got my cats I've got my my YouTube channel and all my friends and
my and my nice chat and um and my family and all these really good things you know I'm got i' got a place to live and I'm you know I'm just I'm just I'm very blessed and you know and I you know I don't take my life for granted let me see let me see if I can fct your
your speaker your speaker is a little messed up but um yeah it's okay I like looking at you um yeah um yeah it was was I was like just I was just probably like a little emotional and um you know sometimes
sometimes I get that like that but you know I'm I'm over over the uh that the weekend it's past history it's like lesson learned I deleted my my grinder uh you know I'll try to take be's advice to like meet people IRL maybe even I'll I'll start trying to do IRL streams like on the pier like walk around and maybe
I'll meet somebody or you know meet somebody walk something and like idea because people would love to see like the beach like interact with people you already are brave enough to cam up you can get out there gets fresh air interact and you're going to meet so many people I mean not just men like you know of course you're you know you're
easy to attract but like good friends and different character you like what Alisa does you know yeah you could do the same thing and you're in an area where it's beautiful it's great and a lot of like diverse people yeah and there's always people the street people like looking at dogs and you get some art hold on they
got a puppet on that guy's Street sorry I read the der but there was a puppet the puppet on your there was a puppet on your stream it was it looked like a Crank Yankers puppet and it was like you're like this guy put a por on me and uh that's the groy Jimmy puppet he joined like one time it was the first
time he joined he joined as gy Jimmy puppet on my I like cards man look at this guy's terot cards are fire yeah I like those cards that the emperor yeah that emperor look how sexy that guy is that's
a looks like me a little bit Empress is a sexy dude I mean the boots the boots I don't I don't I don't like guys with boots he sand wear he's wearing those sandals that tie up he's wearing those tie up sandals like like those like not Jesus sandals actually now you know what now you changing my mind I'm d the sandals yeah I wear
sandals you know I I've worn sandals for like year ever since the last time I like really wore shoes regularly was when I worked in like 2008 I've just worn sandals for years we got the ace i i i ace of cups and so that's like that new new kind of Happiness being offered like there's like there's like the it's like the hand from God yeah like last night I was like
seeing like three of swords and I was seeing like me as a skeleton and then I was just you know all these things were going through my mind and I was like yeah Emperor yeah I like that I'm gonna come into my rulership there's
be that that does kind of look like me funny the 10 that's like the ultimate happiness seven of Cups 10 oh seven seven yeah that's like all all all these yeah all these cool all these cool options
I think that's I think that's you there's all the there's all the guys you have to choose from all all these guys in love with you go with the one I you look there's a there's a t of Cups so that's ultimate happiness that's the
ultimate happiness and that looks again look at that lesbian couple it is it's women it's two women oh yeah that's you and Janet kids we're holding a cat or dog oh yeah there's cat a cat who's that look at that chubby
little girl oh we're holding kitties look at us we can't even we can't hide anything they R our cards we're in love hi Alex we're in love girl we're in love what our look at our children our
kids our goats all the goats out here shout out to all the goats I don't know I don't know why that kid is like don't come around right now we're busy um judgment
is that please please that me me who's that there's oh there's a EMP there a like a pharaoh or something they're all begging to Pharaoh that kind of look I like it well judgment judgment I usually think is like judgment is gonna be called in your favor since it's in the upright I think like something is gonna
be made fair for you or for all of us I think are good cards yeah these two just flipped up is that the empress okay there's be again oh my God that was Janet
kidding she oh she's is she picking the fruit from the tree oh she got the heart from the tree okay is that my heart yes you got you my heartbeat at so there you
go oh and then celebrating celebrating I like it you're having a little party everyone's doing the cheers we're all dancing that's that's uh that's me and me and the dress and there's there's um Janet and be we're all three
partying they got they finally got me a dress I'm doing drag at that we're have a we're doing a drag ball or something like that and I'll be at I'll be I'll be the lady of Lady of Honor no good cards nice nice nice reading thank you thank
you that's what I want my to be oh look at this sexy guy is that Meer the little Craftsman working on some art the Terry chest I like it it doesn't look like me sir yep working on he's gonna be
stacking stacking his bills working on something maybe maybe um doing some commission art pieces or something and he's got all the stuff ready already a lot of stuff is already in already in the works completed he's just working on the last last step right that's joking remember when Joker came up remember the other night when we we were all dancing
and stuff like Joker like pulled down his pants and like started twerking I love that the fool they leap of faith I woke up with um pencils all over the floor a lotion to the side and a fast drawing of Janet I think we all
next and then I freaking woke up and I was like what the hell why is all those pencils on the floor coloring pencils see like like he's like sometimes I like to play the clown and like make people laugh just by being silly and stuff like that so I I like I like relate to the clown also one of my ancestors like the his name was Grimaldi actually they they they rule Monaco now
but um he was he was like the first like clown like first like kind of like that wore the makeup and like they like basically founded the art of clowning so that's a family family family uh family practition or occupation and look at the little black cat there's a little black cat in this one I love that that's totally me but you know what the thing
is there's Lenor Lenor is like she like wait watch out watch out the thing is I'm a I'm a I'm a Capricorn and so if I if I as to fall off that clip I could just like scale the side of the mountain right we saw those goats you can just like climb the side of the mountain I have a nice ass right there I'm just look at well and I've got upgraded my shoes is that you or Janet
Can it can be any of us it's like but he has the little black cat and then he's like um he's like the like the clown but you know Joker is fun yeah we do want you yeah um Nancy yeah we were all excited and then um you you was on mute and I tried to unmute it love you love you thank you you un I unmuted Janet and um
all and it's still like there's no sound coming through so I I don't know maybe you have to unmute it yourself or I don't know sometimes there's there's weird settings and that that I can't can't always um voice chat on my I can't voice chat on my tablet I can just voice chat on my cell phone so oh gosh I didn't but I did woke upt freezing cold I just was and I was just cuddling with tricks and I I was like I think I was
dreaming too like I was like I think I had good dream someone said Janet was off um doing blessings on me where they're saying like Lord's Prayer and stuff like that in the chat or and uh and I did like I didn't feel like better when I woke up like and I didn't like have that like the negative um feeling I wasn't like hung over and so and I just I didn't even know what happened when there was a knock at my door and I was
like who is it I was like sometimes I have I used to have people come in the middle of the night and stuff like like that you know um but uh like they haven't been around in a long time but um but then they're like you're not no beach police I'm like oh my God and I was like and then I like didn't have a shirt on remember I had my shirt off last night and stuff and so I didn't have a shirt on I was and so I was like looking I couldn't find a shirt I just had my button up that I couldn't find
and so I just I wrapped this like this like leather like bomber jacket that I just had like laying out and like and like wrapped that around me like sideways so and then my hair was like all messy and stuff so I probably I was sleeping and I probably like looked crazy oh and then the cops were like are you a little bit they're like you're a little bit jittery that's the thing whenever like I get pulled over by a cup
like no matter if I'm doing nothing wrong or something it's like I always like start getting jittery and like you know I'm a little bit you know I'm a little bit like can be like erratic anyway but it's like I was just like I get really nervous and I was like probably like thinking I was gonna arrested or something like that and so my voice might and I had no voice either I woke up without a like my voice was
like oh and I was like it probably it was like it was kind of kind of uh embarrassing but they were really cute cups one was like the guy the door was really cute then I looked and there was another guy was coming from around um the backyard because I think they they thought I was wandering out outside or something like that so they were like taking the backyard for me and stuff and
he the other guy had glasses and he was also really cute so and they're like they're like so if you ever need to talk to somebody you know we're here and stuff like that we don't know you know we're here like it was really caring and it's like but I was just thinking like yeah I'm gonna call the I'm gonna call the cops if I need someone to talk to it's like they'll just come pick me up and like take me to a mental Asylum like
basically like but but thank you for the off I was gonna ask for their numbers but yeah I uh I thought better of it you I didn't I didn't I didn't look in my my best at the moment so um that was but that was um that was it was uh it was uh it was it was nice to think that they do check on people without
just make sure they're okay without you know making letting me know like you know you're not in trouble at all you know know just they're just worried worried that you know if I overdose or something like that and or if I had like thoughts like bad thoughts about something right and so yeah it's it's nice it's nice that that the cops can be cool like they they were just cool and
it's like but it was a little bit startling but it's like I just know you know I I really know you guys care and I know I worried you and I I feel bad that's what I feel worse about it's like that I I made you guys worry they caused anxiety I didn't want anyone to worry about me like I'm always I'm always gonna be okay you know no matter what and I even you know if something ever did happen to me um I would I would I
believe in afterlife I believe I believe I'll be okay know so you know you don't need to worry about me you know but thank you for thank you for worrying about me and like thank you for just I I know you guys true friends yeah they really they're cool they they were cool like and my my uncle was the sergeant of this Police Department like years ago
right and he's for served for like 30 years and he retired he passed away and they did like a we were on like a at a restaurant at his at his funeral his wake or whatever and uh and then the boat pulled out and they started like firing guns and stuff or I think firing guns they or something off this boat they're like like the salute you know from the police department So and I've never had problems with this Police
Department the Glendale department they used to pull me over when I walked down the street they pull me over all the time people used to um report me for like shoplifting at Stores um and it's like I and I wasn't and stuff like that I just would like be running around the store like going to get cat food and then something else I needed you know how like I'm just I kind of run around too and so I had the security guard following me I've had and then uh so
I've been like I had police meet me outside the store and stuff like like that and and then one time I got the police T me outside a rid it was a rid right yeah or no a CVS which was up the street and then they they they talked to me outside and then I home and then coincidentally I got pulled over again right when I got before I got to my house and and they're like did you just get pulled over five minutes ago or did
you get did you talk to you five minutes ago it's not the same one it was different ones but they like they like saw the report that I was just talked to or whatever but Rondo I've only been um the police have talked to me twice one time when this guy got in a fight with his girlfriend outside my house and like the police or the the neighbors called the cops and then um and someone and then someone was trying to run inside my house and stuff like that and
but they just let me go and then uh and then another time was just recently I was walking to the liquor store and uh I don't know they thought they thought I looked bad or something I I might have been in my pajama pants or something like that and then they were like they saw that I had like drug arrest in the past and they were like okay just give us just give us the the pipe or whatever and I was like I don't have a pipe I
haven't I haven't smoked drugs in years and so um so yeah let me go oh yeah when I and when they let me go I I like shook I tried to shake the one guy's hand or the one cop was really cute then I tried to shake his hand and he just like looked at me weird and then he gave me a b bump and stuff like that but uh did I sh try to shake the cop's hand I did I shook the cop's hand last night I think I think I shook his hand at the end and
he just shook my hand and stuff so and then said Thank you whatever so that's that's my that's s of it since I've been Redondo and that's you know so I don't even know if I'm on a list here or anything but but they were they track they tracked me down we have another guest oh um me me came off and's he fell off it
he's back hello Meer yeah see guys I didn't even fix my hair I think my hair looks similar to this it did last night kind kind of like shampooed it the other night it dried out and now it's like all all funny but I think my my beard is come in a little I think I look a little bit better with a few days at um five o'clock shadow and stuff and
so I'll just it'll just get better and better until I get the Abraham Lincoln link look going on yeah you look better you yeah yeah you look very good very cute these are have the same hairline too you know the same look like horns it's going
away yeah so so yeah so that was a it was it was an interesting night and stuff I I uh I probably did a probably did a little too much GHB and passed out and stuff like that I don't even know if it's legal or not or anybody or anything but yeah I know it's not good to you know they don't promote I don't promote
drug use or anything like that um it's just um once in a while I'll I'll I'll bu but you know I'm really trying to not even trying to smoke weed right now I I could have got weed last week and actually I ordered it last week and then it um and the D by time the driver came I already passed out and so I missed the order so but I
saved a few bucks that week so that was a good thing like I'm kind of sort of like on this you know like I should we call it the wagon I don't know because it's not alcohol but either way I'm wagon right now like from substances you know but uh aside from
for develop bipolar ex
my yeah I've been trying to but last year I like for six months I I I did not do um did not do practically anything not not like I quit weed for after 25 years and uh yeah now but now my the good thing about my weed thing is like even though when I smoke it I get like more paranoid
and but I've been like able to like keep it way better under control I don't I used to be so addicted if I didn't smoke weed in in the day I would start getting like really I I don't know or like really like just like you just don't want to be around me when I didn't have weed I would just get like I wouldn't be able to eat I wouldn't be able to sleep and that was like it was
like torture like and but then I was just able to last year so um I'll I'll take a question for for Raymond Raymond if he wants I'll do I'll do um readings um like quick you know my quick readings if anybody wants a reading today I'll probably stay on for another half hour I do want to um you know at least at least I started streaming right when I right
when I um push my live and stuff like that so at the end of the show I will U post her um her link um for her live and everybody I'll I'll be in there and stuff like that and um and then I'll probably like stream later tonight too and uh but yeah I mean I if you like her or you don't like her she still has a funny
stream she has like um she has um interesting guests there's like a lot of strange people um you know she had tan mom on the tan mom basically one night almost like assaulted her starting to punch her in the face and like yelled at her and called her a narcissist and like and threaten to break the camera I was like Alisa do not leave tan mom alone with the camer you can't go to the
bathroom I she had to meet a guy on the street and ask him to watch her camera and stuff because uh oh Tado got his cell phone stuck in his ass again well I'll hope you take that out don't worry I know about key string and stuff that it's like you got stuck in there you're you're not supposed to put two in there you know you're supposed to only put one at a time not supposed to put some big big oldfashioned ones up there right you're supposed to put one of the
smaller ones the SoDo the soda was keying something yeah she's live and you know it's like and I don't you know sometimes I'll be streaming at the same time as her like but she does like very she does long streams and so I'm usually I'll go for my stream back back into hers and um and any anytime any of you are streaming
too uh you know like you can let me know and I'll like you know I'll sometimes I'll I'll end my live earlier and I'll send them up to your chat and stuff like that and I'll go over yeah yeah I can go on streamyard again make sure you post your link so everyone in the chat yeah put in the Discord yeah I'll put it in the disc okay and anybody in anybody in
the chat like what you know you want to even if you don't have even you have like zero subscribers and you want to get to 50 you know I want to help you get to 50 so you can start live streaming you can start live streaming at 50 you know I know like a lot of people are into the live streams and like um it was Tech it just ever it was like it was like a few it's like as soon as I pressed the live the notification
came up so it was like you know I was a second I second but it was like you know but it wasn't it wasn't intentional or anything and uh and I'll always I'll always try to promote her or anybody um I'll if you guys are streaming at the same time I'll I'll post your link and people can go over there and it's like you know so we can all it's all about helping each other I'm not in competi I'm not in competition with you guys I'm
like I'm like I'm like on your team like really I'm on your team um and I want I want everyone to do well because it's like know you know some some of us have um you know like Lisa has like 20,000 subscribers um you know Emma had has like about 20 she over 20,000 now um and but it's like there's still people with a million subscription we can't we can't you know we we need more and more for
everybody right we all need to help each other out we can we can get to that those big levels and then we can like make a career out of this and we we can private jet and all and all fly to like somewhere and and uh take a vacation together or go we can go to Vegas or we can like um you know we can have a big party and stuff like that all kinds of cool things we'll be able to do and
we'll be like and then we'll have like you know we'll have being a streamer it's like it's good it's like I was not very confident like I wasn't even confident enough to show my face in my first video I just um I when I started streaming I I showed my face when my first videoos I made which were like were like just like regular videos where I just told stories I didn't show my face and I was like kind
of insecure and I didn't know I was you know kind of like um putting off starting um streaming and and stuff with my face um for a while but then I got some good feedback on my videos I got I I just I just was able to get some confidence up because sometimes that's the thing it's like we don't have we we have all these things are saying us we
can't do it or nobody wants like I swear to you everybody has something especially the people all these people I've talked to here we all have something that people there's GNA be an audience for and you're G to find your own fans and we'll have we'll all have like like we'll all have our people that find us and like and then you know it's
like people like all of us and stuff like that and so um it's always good to I like to connect people and network and especially from all these different parts of YouTube and like there's you know there's all these different sectors and there's and I've had people from almost all of them come come in and say hi and stuff like that and it's like my Show's not for everybody but it's like
you know people will still come by show their support and stuff like that and it's really cool and also also I say start do um start if you don't want to start streaming like start doing live panels and and just start your channel and put a little bit of content on there because they'll they'll usually let you promote your show if you're on your panel and or I don't even ask most of the time they're like oh you have a show let's post your link you know it's like like a lot of people are very helpful
and stuff like that and I'm just been very lucky and uh I've gotten really good response on I've gotten not so good responses on panels i' but I've gotten some very good responses especially with my readings and stuff and I love reading for for panels and stuff like that and uh you know there's usually a panel around at all times you have to to search open Panel and uh and then pick
on preferences or or filters and then you just go Um live streams and then you can see who all who's live and who open panel you'll you'll find new shows that way you'll find new um people that you'll Vibe with and you like and stuff like that and uh so there's there's a lot of good uh good ways to start building your audience and uh get those
first 50 subscribers right so can know you want to go soon anyway if you have it handy can I get a quickie absolutely look my cards out you do you well you do everything but what you do best I need a quicky okay I got you I love your readings thank
you okay well I see the king of Pentacles so I don't I don't know who this this guy is or this this could be your you could have I think you have queen and king energy too but there's all this abundance and there's all the you know this uh all all these good things happen around them and uh um they can manifest things in the material world and they they're good at um you know Law of Attraction because basically
they're sitting on their throne and things are coming to them they're just they're attracting these good things into their life and so I I feel that for you certainly also we got the most positive card in the deck we have the sun he's like a little the guy riding the horse but there's the Sun looking over all these sunflowers and all this bright light and just like it's all
happy to see how happy he is and there's like the horse like the hores face too like look but yeah there there's a beautiful there's a beautiful sun is radiating this there's a lot of positivity positive things happening also this could be um collaboration with other people this is also the three of Pentacles and so yeah usually this is
the kind of work collaboration it's also people like looking up um just checking in on you and seeing wow wow you're you're you're really um you're you're really like things are going really well look look you're you're almost finished building this beautiful this beautiful Temple and you know so it's like you know we we can build we can build things in the phys physical we can we can build
um other things like you know you're you're really building your channel and so I'll do a couple more for you okay thank you we got the seven of cups for you again and this is like and this is like you have you have all these you have all these um really cool options and every every cup has it has its um has it an attraction for you and so you know just remember like go with go with
your heart on it um and you can have all these cups um you just have to take it one at a time and just focus on one time don't don't spread your chil too thin and know that um just go for what you want one at a time and you'll be able to get all these all these cups for you all this happiness and finally we got the the fool it's like taking a leap of faith
and we got fool card again right and And The Fool is just like yeah again and so you know idiot that last one means I'm just a fool sometimes no no no it doesn't mean no this if it was in the it was in the reverse it's like a negative fool but in the upright it's like a fool as in a
fool as in a childlike mind it's like an in it's like an innocence card it's a very innocent um it's a very um pure pure purely innocent like usually I just think of a good a good heart and also you know you got that little that little dog companion that I know you have cats there's a dog on this card there was a
cat on that last card right but thank you so much psyche hope you enjoy that I love it pull the three I pulled the same one ex
time yeah really yeah really right here yeah is that good is that good me or is look that's the
truth okay that makes me feel better I'm having some anxiety thank you so much guys welcome definitely that U yeah when you see you see the same card and like like different readings especially side by side that's definitely good confirmation right so yeah yeah we're
we're all the way across the country from yeah that happened instantaneous you know that's really cool I love it thank you me thank you PCH you're always amazing your shows are always amazing I can never get enough I
love you so much love all Bye Beautiful by guys I'll see you on your next show good night I mean good night have a good day love you good I know good night it's already five here though I might I might hit the road
too man I gotta get some work done here I'll be in the I'll be watching chat though making sure there's no but uh thanks for having me up here man it's always a pleasure any time and uh yeah yeah Alexander wanted a reading he actually asked
before oh okay yeah okay then you can wrap it up you know again yeah gonna wrap it up because I I wanted to I just wanted to address that let you all guys guys all know as okay it's going to be a shorter stream I just do want I do want to post Alisa's live right now be heading over there and I
hope that I will see some of you over there and like say hi in the chat you know you can say hi to Alisa and uh and uh she's really she's really cool um you know the there's controvery but I think you know to me she's always been really cool and she's she's also let me promote
my uh my show on her Discord and she has a very large Discord and things like that and uh I I really appreciate her for that and so always be supporting her so I'll see you guys over there and uh thank you guys for coming today and I'll be back tonight and Alexander you come over there I saw Alexander the last time I think he had a fun time she's driving
with Christy and Stephanie in her car right now she's wearing a beautiful lime green she's holding her microphone singing and stuff so I think she's having a nice day did the my the link show up in the chat or didn't it show up yet hold on yeah the link showed up in the chat so you go check that out and say hi and uh and I'll be back tonight okay I'll be back and I'll do a fun stream
tonight and uh I love you guys and thank you Meer thank you be for being on the show thank you Alli Master computer and thank you thank you Janet and uh I love you guys okay love you darling you have a wonderful day guys I'll see you soon okay peace guys bye
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