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Psyche is Back. Open Panel Tarot Cats and Fun

Psyche returns with an open panel discussion, sharing personal losses and emphasizing the importance of forgiveness and love. The episode features tarot readings and explores various occult topics.

Psyche Awakens Tarot

🎤LivestreamPsyche Awakens TarotFeb 7, 20251h 54m1 guest∞The Current

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up guys than you guys are coming back hold on what's up guys I got the stream L not pinned yet I have to pin it I'll pin it P they on for just a few hours tonight as long as one guys want to stay you're welcome had a really good reading

tonight from Capricorn soul trap I'm going to post her Link in the panel in a minute in this chat how are you guys what's up Jamie Jamie you're so awesome thank you for always being here thank you for being here for me you're r one Jamie and I got you

anytime my rules don't apply my normal rules don't apply to you I got you anytime okay um let me just pin my link doing good good thank you Jamie I know I'm a dick sometimes what's up St Nikki how are you I'm trying my

link I'll get it eventually we get it few more minutes

there crazy as usual what's up David how are you doing David you got it guys okay who guys whoo whoo whoo all negative energy be dispelled all negative energy return to cend there I'm a little bit magical too but I think you

guys have good energy in here so all anything anything negative to me me and the chat um or mean the panel is dispelled yeah it cut out it cut out for a second because my my phone just keeps I'm going to try to can I do like a don't shut off kind of thing I'm not sure I I'll just keep I'll keep tapping it you're doing good good got tarot readings for you guys tonight I had

really I had a really good tarot reading tonight from Capricorn Soul trbe I'm just GNA post her Link in the channel guys she's really cool she her name is Deborah um she's just awesome lady I've been subscribed to her channel for seven months she gives really good advice really good readings I really recommend you check her

out I found her okay and she's been in this chat before too I got it I got it okay how am I doing I'm doing pretty good I'm doing pretty good well I just had a little sad news today like I have an Aunt Terry and Aunt Terry was always like a little bit of the little bit of a my mom said today

she said she she was a little bit of a lost soul she was a really sweet really loving oh she was just always nice to us and always nice to the to the um

nephew she was always really nice to all of us she's a little bit of lost soul not because of anything sexuality she kind of drove some of the family members crazy a little bit a little a few times kind of had her own own

agenda her own way of her own way of dealing with life right my mom called today and said she passed away my mom's little sister it was really sad it was really it's really sad then we also had we had music Biz Marty really cool guy what's up Sean how are you really cool guy music Biz Marty who

was in my and who was in my panel and just so nice to me he passed away last week so I've had I've had a little bit of death to deal with past couple weeks and it's not it's not fun it's sad but also we have to remember that all of us have a temporary time on this Earth there somebody that you're mad at maybe you don't know if they're they're

they're going to be gone next week you don't know if they're going to be here the next day you want to always let them know you love them always let always be there for them if they call for you or they need you you know it's unfortunate it's unfortunate death is the unfortunate part of life right

but always want to like give give us give the people in your life love you never know how long anybody's going to be here everybody's here for a temporary amount of time you don't want to be mad at them and yell at them one day and then the next day they're gone right so forgive and forgive forget especially the people that really are in your life and you love

right okay so okay guys how are you guys doing though I'm doing okay I'm doing okay it was not nice to be woken up with that news about that it was really sad I loved Aunt Terry Aunt Terry can I say about Aunt Terry she was also LGBT just like I am

in my family and sometimes LGBT are a little bit controversial for the families um but she was a nice person yeah thank you thank you thank you for saying that and and and she believed she believed in God she was like you know she like you know she would became a Christian later in

life and was yeah thank you Jamie she was a she was a she had a good heart she had a really good heart person she was she had a really good heart conflicts with the family and not everyone agree with everything she she did and stuff like not not the LGBT part that it's like some of the

other stuff but we want to always love family right and they they call and trying to say hello and stuff like that we want to take their call yeah thank you be yeah it's it you know she was my Aunt Terry Aunt Terry was always a little bit wacky she a little bit a

wacky family member but uh she she she had a good heart she had a good heart and nobody knew you know I hadn't talked to her for several years that I saw her probably several years ago and things like that and then she called my mom and stuff all the time and my mom was going

through her own stuff and everything and then she really didn't say that she was um I think she had a brain tumor or something like that and she went to hospice she didn't really tell anybody and then all of a sudden you know we never know we never know when the people in our life are going to be gone the next day so even our enemies that we that we hate and stuff like that right and then we're like oh I don't

like this person and stuff like that well isn't it kind of almost fun to if we have a vivid enemy that we can like that we can like uh go back and forth with aren't they kind of like is that kind of love in a way we have somebody even if somebody hates us a

lot somebody that brings up emotion in us maybe it's time to forgive them time to really say you know I love you and I hope you're okay and I don't want anything bad to happen to you

right prayers for Aunt Terry and I hope you're in a better place and I hope you're out of pain I hope you're uh you're she always like wanted to meet Jesus you know she always she always wanted to she just I think Jesus was her homeboy and stuff like that so I think she always want to meet Jesus and stuff like that I hope she me Jesus right yeah and even our enemies and so also like we

really don't don't even hate your enemies see them for where they are they're a lesson in our life right there's somebody that's there to teach you a lesson or you're there to teach them a lesson right we not in not in a mean way in a in a in a way that we all can grow together right what's up ba I love

you so dealt with that a few times in the past couple weeks and I know it's like it's harder for those people that were even closer to them right yeah rip an Terry yeah and Terry was a cool aunt you know it's like even she uh you know when I was little she would like she put like a $1 bill in the in the birthday card and stuff like

that even that was that was pretty cool even as as a kid for you know no I love you I love you be yeah but it's sad and my mom you know my mom has dealt with some stuff in the past couple years and now her her brother died her

sister died my dad um passed away his brother his brothers died and stuff like that I don't have any aunts or uncles anymore right and then someday someday all the nie and nephews all some somay all of us will pass away and someone had s my sister said something really interesting she said there's only going to be one of us that goes to everybody's funeral

right right there's only be one of us that is going to survive to see everybody else pass away right and is that the worst position to be in or it's just gonna it's it's sad we have to deal with this right but also that's why it's important to know that there's something Beyond this Earth and that there's

something that Elsa look forward to there's something that uh that is better than this Earth and also when when someone passes away they're out of the pain they're out of the the the worry the concern they the real worry is them for us it's okay it's

okay and so my friend Marty passed away and then I had um she passed away and my dad passed away last year I'm sure I know I have a lot of brothers and sisters you know all of us will pass away maybe I'll be the first you know I'd rather me be the first than

any of them I don't want I would to see I I would not want to be at all their funerals but no we all want to we all want to live life and so but just thank you guys for your prayers and wishes about that you guys want to come on the panel we can have a chat yeah God gives and takes away but also also God gives and takes away but also God gives and then he

gives the more so I think that there's other there other there's other places to go yeah angels all around thank you you yeah we all and we all have Angels surrounding us it's in the air it's uh in our heart in our mind every chakra has Angel there's just we're always being watched over right and I think we orchestrate some of this

in our life and we know when we're going to go right no but it's hard for everybody else but I wanna I just want to say a prayer for Aunt Terry and Aunt Terry I love you and and I'm sorry if I was not the best nephew and uh I never judged you for any any of

any of your sexuality or anything I know that I I feel bad that I didn't I wasn't there more I wasn't calling you on every holiday and saying I love you and stuff like that right so that's up how's everybody doing tonight like last night I had a I last night I don't remember even what

happened I last thing I remember I was with Lisa Jordana on watching Lisa Jordana she was at a whiskey tasting party right and then I was like I'll drink along with you and so I had a few and I hadn't drink in a few days so I started had some I had some harder lemonades and Voodoo Ranger rized cheese the next thing I remember I just woke up I woke up in my

underwear okay I'll talk yeah I know Chris K I got you I got you I'm not I'm a man of my word I got him I got him I I said on Friday I'd pay him so I know even if the dice game wasn't fair I don't I thought about it I was like so I had to get gets the exact number out of out of um 12 possibilities I gets that

exact number or else I lost maybe it's not a smart bet but I'm learning how to I'm learning how to bet but yeah I uh and five to six I know I got I got I got them I got them and yeah guys I'm a man of my work I totally got them I know gambling is like right know gambling is a losing BET

right I certainly did I certainly didn't win last night but yeah Sig I got you s came on my um show earlier he had a he had a Dorito or he said it was upside down triangle or something and then he had a um and not aasa on the other side of his head like Charles Manson drawn on his head I was like okay what's with that he didn't really have a good answer

but he's oh it's a Dorito and it's a it's oh it's not the real schwas it's it's a it's a sun sign Hinduism he's really you know like is he not sure I understand all this but he wants to send a message or something like that yeah I got I got you I got I got them I got 15 bucks you know 15

bucks for for I had fun last night I I I was in my underwear the whole time and they put up with it so I'm willing to they they have to they have to reach out to me and ask me for it though because I I do not just know Chris K from from Adam right now I need I need him to reach out to me on Instagram seyi awakens Instagram sey awakens

Discord say you can just tell me to my face on when you come to the panel or if you don't it's fine but yeah I'm not I'm not uh thank you for reminding me too yeah I'm not I'm not a one to go against my word I'm very happy to pay off my bets and you know stuff like that I'm not gonna say uh oh I don't remember anything I passed out three I know I did

because I woke up and then the stream was still on I don't remember when I passed out someone came to me today this AC my uh my one of my mods and friend of mine she said what happened last night I said I don't remember what happened I said all I remember is I woke up in my underwear and I saw like on the

um on my stream it was titled underwear stream Nick is being a collector I know Nick Nick you have to Nick you have to ask me yourself he said Nick is it Nick hold on oh no chrisk okay Nick is being a collector yeah the be Nick came on last night in his underwear and then I was like I'll be in my

underwear and then I got in my underwear and then they like everyone like left the

panel be come on chat with me for a few minutes if you want to I'd love to chat with you I have another beer left I have like another cigar left it's 11 o'clock it's still kind of early but I've had three drinks tonight I just four last night and I got up oh my God I woke up still drunk I having the two

days off really makes a difference when you drink alcohol I drink way too fast and uh had a Starbucks this morning I stream for 45 minutes it's 2 am there David but if any wants a reading and and uh and uh by the way Mike K I think his name is right I was flirting with all the boys last night I know guys I'm

sorry I I can't help I was a little bit drunk then he came on with with his shirt off and like see his shirt off and then I was like I'll take my shirt off be I know I don't know what's going on but guys I'll send you the cash app or I'll do a reading for you or I'll um to these guys last night I'll I'll make it up to you some some way but uh if you

want a cash up I'll send you a cash up okay I'm a man of my word seriously I've had people people um I've sent money too okay thank you sweetheart I hope you see you soon i' I've had people promise me things for cash apps and then they said oh that wasn't me that was that was my cousin on the phone and stuff like

that oh I understand I I really I really am a man of my word no problem I I lost the dice game I lost I don't know I think we were playing strip poker or something like that we were playing some kind of game the all I know is that my underwear and then I owed 15 $15 to people Sig

I'll have a talk with you s you might owe me you you might owe me a few doar s s no I got you s yeah all I know is I woke up my underwear but at least I was wearing I was wearing my nice red underwear box or breef right and so it wasn't like I was naked or I was in tidy

whed or something but I think I kept asking I kept asking Nick to show me his bul and you wouldn't he' just showed me his butt a bunch of times you know through his underwear and that's fine guys I hope I don't mean to harass anybody and if I if I do harass

you just just leave the room I don't mean to I don't mean to it's like it's all good nature

it's my my camera keeps cutting out because I uh I have my look at I have my whole um I'm like half I have my whole stream you can see the whole picture now I'm not vertical streaming anymore I've graduated from vertical streaming I've graduated from doing just videos to going to panels I graduate some panels to having really cool panels tonight the

lady on Capricorn Soul tribe I post posted it earlier you're still sing for S oh okay St Nikki yeah St Nikki yeah you have to show me that but you can show me later but St Nikki are you there hold on I have to go back to my stream St Nikki you don't have to show

me that only if you want to someday hold St Nikki I don't even see you what St Nikki where are you hold I don't see you in my chat you like you took it off oh hold on I found you hold on okay congratulations welcome to the

team welcome to the team Nikki and Chris K I'll make you a moderator if you just forget forget to bet and Sig I will unmod you if you don't forget the that a forite last night

yeah ohome all I know is I I I I woke up in my underwear and the stream was still on I don't remember anything about

it but it was fun it was fun it it's all worth it it's all worth it in the end right grab my last beer I'll be right back

thinking about ordering a fat burger tonight yeah Sean James yep St Nikki now you're mod since St Nikki if you want to come up to the panel too I have one more of these left one more of these left tonight who these are my favorite they are

$280 they're 9% alcohol it's pretty good pretty good yeah but those guys will have to they'll have to come to me and ask me themselves that I remember if they ask me I will send it or they want me make a donation to my cats I'll get some extra catnet this

month how are you guys doing though are you guys having a good night I got book of matches I got my cigar another beer it's only 11 I'll probably be off by an hour by now by 12 I had fun I had fun like I told AC last night AC is one

of my mods really good friend of mine and AC was like what happened last night I was like I was talk my underwear but I was like it could have been worse I could have woke up naked then look what happened do you guys want to see Lenor Lenor wants to look at the camera hold on you want to see the camera you're my little black panther

are you happy can I give you a kiss can I give you a kiss in the in the ear Len nor you're my friend I pet your neck like that you like that when I pet your neck like that my little black panther your sweetheart Len nor you just came up on my lap Lenor can you look at the camera in your eyes can we see your eyes Lenor

open your eyes those beautiful eyes you're happy okay my little black pants Lenor I have a little black panther protecting oh oh you like that oh you like that when I when I like this on your neck are you smiling what's you smiling are your eyes opened your eyes opened you're happy I love

you so I was trying to go on Lisa's panel earlier but Lisa was busy with some other guys and so actually last night I said to Alisa I was like cuz some guy in the chat was like oh psyche always says in her Discord that he loves her and stuff like that he's like what a weirdo and I was like so last night I went to her Discord I

was like I'm gonna shout from the rooftops I love you Alisa and schwarzer Donna and then she's like oh she's like oh that's nice hun so I probably sound kind of a syy to her but she's she's a she's a really good friend of mine and she she's weird I think she you're smiling look at the smile on his on her face this Lenora she's a

girl you look at this camera look at Lenor look look at the camer you're on TV okay that's Lenor nor is good we also I had scum on this morning scum is such a cool guy he was with Mrs

scum his wife Mrs scum and then he was asking me some uh some some he he said he wants to do a reading soon and he wants to do some astrology and he really cool and then he asked me for some fashion advice you guys know I have a fashion degree merchand a fashion merchandising degree then I have a marketing

degree I I barely passed college but I I graduated college I graduated college not like college is that important now that it's like a big deal but I did but I had a lot of help I had a lot of but when I was in college on my Um

passion merchandising degree and my my marketing degree I got all A's but when I went to college when I was 18 years old I got all FS I got kicked out of the school basic well they gave me another chance oh you're fine they me another chance to go for another semester I then I passed

it yeah I promise I I will take care of all those people you know you have to put pants on Jo panel and celebrate the rench receiving ceremony okay good yeah everyone clap

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okay I'm sorry about that guys hope you guys like that little little break brief break my my my camera come out for a second I have like a full camera now look I'm not vertical streaming look guys I'm a official like full stream streamer right pretty

exciting what's up Takeo prisoners how are you great to see you take no prisoners have I have I met you before or have you been to the chat before welcome welcome man thank you for being here L you're happy here I'll put on my mask guys want do my mask

for I am the king of Hell welcome to my dungeon see I got that mask from it's made in Italy I think it was made in Italy I was making some good money on a well I plug in my phone hold on I was making really good money when I was on Etsy so I I uh I was able to buy some Co

stuff there go chat won keep playing everyone good but yeah this is my Italian math this from Italy welcome to my show see my smile a cute smile what's going on we're just doing we're doing

taking prisoners if you want a terrot reading if you want to come on panel we have a fun show like I was talking to Capricorn Soul trbe she's like your show is so fun she's like it's like Howard Stern and that's exactly the vibe I'm going for right yeah subscribe to take no prisoners thank you for coming take no prisoners I appreciate you coming here tonight you have a channel I'm GNA subscribe to your channel I just need to

unsubscribe from I'm I'm subscribed to way too many channels so I need to unsubscribe to some also unsubscribe to this one okay got it unsubscribe I'm going to go to your channel and I'll subscribe I want to subscribe to my my friends and stuff

okay here oh there we go got it Jose what's up I got you take prisoners unsubscribed everyone first time did where how did you find me I I'm always interested in how you found me if I was on the algorithm or you you met someone what's

up Jose you love it okay good do you meet my cat Lenor Lenor where's Lenor have a cat around here I need a cat around I I have all the cats around me all the time but they're all in other places right now you love it yeah Jose's awesome guys by the way I don't know if you ever have want to start a channel Jose I want to see you sometime Jose

come on the panel some Jose Jose's a little bit chicken to come on the panel oh he he's not he's not CH I know I know I would have I would have bought several several cigarettes but I I said I wanted I said I want a couple beers tonight and a couple cigarette cigars I'm halfway done with

this one I'm gonna put this out right now I'll just take one more a bit of discontent is that the channel guys I go on open panels all the time open I go on open panels all over the internet how do I stop my phone from like not shutting down all the time I'm trying to figure that

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you're feeling off okay guys are you see me now I don't I think I'm back on I think I'm back on I'm sorry about that guys I'm just figuring out the streamyard right TR to figure this out but someone said uh this Capricorn Soul tribe of woman was like wow she's like you have a fun Channel you're like it's like Howard Stern I love your interview I Lov I

loved the people in your chat it was fun I I was afraid they would go ahead Sig come on join the panel if you want to S you're my mod take no prisoners if you're if you're over 18 if you want to be a mod I'll make you a mod um because you're a cool person yeah follow Emma Von definitely there Emma's Channel I think Emma's streaming later tonight too she's really

cool I did ask her for my mod back she doesn't want to give me my mom back it's F I said I made a diddy um I made a diddy baby oil slip and slide joke it was inappropriate for mod right but I understand she she she never lets me back but we're still friends and she was my first interview and I really appreciate her cheers guys cheers

whatever you're drinking if you're drinking lemonade if you're drinking beer cheers okay thank you for um posting that St Nikki yeah thank you and St Nikki you can o now go to other people's channels and post anything you want in my chat I'm fine with that okay really cool the cigarettes are rough I

have a cigar there right now but yeah P withy soul.com exactly same are you are you from you're from Emma's Channel So you you're familiar with Emma so yeah Emma's really cool she's really cool it's like when I was a kid I was a big El virra fan right what beer what's beer well this one is called vood Ranger

food Ranger Imperial IPA and look what percentage alcohol it is 9% it's veryy strong so I just need one more last night I last night I was drinking like seven 8% 8% alcohol Mike's Hard ice teas Mike Hard Lemonade Harder Lemonade my energy is good okay good you

want to reading tonight by the way it's a voodoo yeah this is my favorite beer basically my favorite beer you're welcome you you like to be a you want to be a mod I'll make you a mod you don't have to do anything but you can uh support anybody else's Channel you want to basically I can take care of myself when it comes to like the trolls and

stuff like that but I do like to make people moderators just to so I I know I know them and uh so there you go you're you're mod congratulations welcome to the team right it's been going on since before time right so there there we

go but yeah Emma Emma is like the future queen of hell you know and so I have to I have to make sure I respect her always right I think I figured out how to not to and Sig yeah subscribe to Sig too you know Sig Sig you're an awesome guy like s Sig you know he's a little bit controversial sometimes um he's a little

bit a kudin type he's a little bit he'll tell he'll just tell me the truth sometimes and then sometimes the truth hurts but I don't think I don't think he means any any harm also helps me a lot whenever someone actually helps me instead of just like she's a future king

queen of hell right and uh 2025 right I like you Sig yeah you're welcome take no prisoners welcome to the channel

have a cat around I need to get I need to grab a cat hold on one second I need to grab a cat is there a cat around where's my cat are you here magic magic is here bring you over

magic like cats this is Magic little magic man oh Magic come on I come over here can I give you a hug this little magic you magic my little magic

man yeah do6 cash app yeah Sig remember remember this when you ask me for for the five bucks I owe you right remember remember I'm I'm helping you guys out too yeah clumsy what's up are is Clumsy here too yeah clumsy's awesome I hope you guys go to clumsy's

channel you guys know I have this really cool cool LED light you see how my my my face is changing colors look they turn blue now it's purple turning yellow pretty cool clumsy's here clumsy saying hi hey what's up clumsy how are you clumsy you want to say hi to magic magic wants to had a clumsy want to say

you want to say had a clumsy had a clumsy why are you being so grumpy you're little grumpy boy you're grumpy guy are you little grumpy guy you are you hump you're you hump tricks are you humping tricks and tricks you're you bite tricks on the neck and now he's now he's fighting back and he's

biting you on the neck I know magic it's okay come on Magic come on you're coming up here yeah you love me you're a good cat huh you're good kitty you're kitty cat you love me can I pet you he's a sweet cat he's a really sweet cat give me a kiss come here me a kiss

one give me a kiss you want come up here and give me a kiss I love you magic guys want to see magic this is Magic he's my little magic man your magic man okay yeah clums is so awesome everyone loves clumsy yeah everyone loves clumsy and be his kitties thank you st Nikki St

Nikki's got she she has she has the the drill down and St Nikki if you if you uh have a channel too make sure everyone promote your channels all the mods post your links I want everyone to like subscribe to everybody right if you're a mod here you're uh you're definitely welcome to promote your

channel and to but I want everyone to support each other basically right everyone to be happy are you have you know his name is Magic by the way what's up Capricorn Soul tribe what's this is Magic right okay he do he doesn't be H go ahead Capricorn Soul tribe is here can everyone welcome Capricorn Soul tribe if if a mod can um post her

Channel too she gave me a great reading tonight really great reading about my channel she told me about the trolls she she basically told me everything I needed to know and she's a really sweet person and she has yeah yeah clumsy um I know that was not okay clumsy but she

just lost somebody and I I understand and I know that wasn't appropriate she lost her basically best friend and her and her ex-boyfriend and and she's a friend of mine and so it's okay I I I that stream is no longer available right I know I know and sometimes we

we'll say things that we don't mean right yeah it's grief and I understand and so I yeah I know and clumsy you know I lost my my mom called me today I woke up in the afternoon my Mom calling me and she said you know Aunt Terry has passed away and Aunt Terry was my my mom's the last remaining sibling last week um music is Marty

passed away which is who is Jim's ex-boyfriend and her best friend she talk to every day so I W to right I understand we can say things we don't mean In the Heat of the Moment I don't think it was not a malicious thing on her

part I understand but I did I did mute that stream thank you CA what's up CA is a ca's awesome guy too and he he remember my Discord yeah she's healing she's healing and it wasn't like she came saying that word over just for like you know to to

hurt my channel she she just said In the Heat of the Moment what's up T-Rex T oh T-Rex you're friends with Clumsy too I think I think you came from from clumsies so guys if you want if you guys want your your link dropped and most of you are mods and so you can like drop your link drop anybody else's link you want to I'm here to like I really want to

help people right I really want everyone to help Pi picture of someone like Phyllis was in your chat and heard that though thany that's BS Phyllis was in your chat and heard that yeah I'm sorry I'm sorry but yeah I know it's uh and I I'm sorry about that I can't control what other people say that and it's not it wasn't a

malicious on her part I I don't know yeah that is BS yeah so I I guys I apologize if someone offends you in the chat and Stu like that someone says something inappropriate I do have people from all over YouTube yeah I I understand it's not it wasn't something I was happy about

hearing about right that she was B she was in my chat c crying with me right it's not it wasn't a malicious thing it was it wasn't I don't think she was trying to hurt my channel I don't think she was trying to hurt anybody's feelings yeah and I I apologize the pills I'm sorry but I didn't I didn't see pills in this

chat yeah yeah all I can say is like I can't control what people say in the chat yeah yeah but I do ask everybody to please when it comes to certain words you know please be respectful of other people's feel we have all people all

different races we have I have a lot of people from the Philippines here and a lot of people from a lot of everybody right CA is an incredible friend CA made my Discord he made my new Discord he made the Discord of my dreams actually someone can yeah someone can drop the Discord link yeah I don't want to offend anybody I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings

she was she was hurting and I'm just going to give her a pass for that that that time okay you know yeah I do I do dis I guys I I do disavow that word that word is not

appropriate to say my shat I totally disavow that I'm not going to I'm not going to go to her and say oh you know I'm going to ban you for saying for saying that in a moment of hurt and anger right that that's what empathy is for me the empathy is like you know words are

just words right it's the intention behind it it's like the that kind of thing so people come saying that sometimes just to hurt my feelings and stuff like that I'm a I really I don't appreciate that I'm not happy that that happened that stream is muted and stuff like that I really didn't want to hurt anybody's feelings it's not it wasn't it

wasn't I don't think it was a racial thing either I don't think it was a racial thing I think it was something said and he Heat of the Moment anger about something else and and the worst words you can think of because she was angry at that person that passed away just like we all are right okay

clumsy and I love you so much clums clumsy and I love you forever her best friend and her ex-boyfriend she talked you every day passed away she's from a different state I don't know about I know I know I know but am I I'm not gonna I'm not gonna yell at her and that person is still welcome here that person is still

welcome here I'll talk to her about it I'll talk to her about it I'll tell her and I'm sorry if anyone's offended things offend people they're just words it was I don't think it was it was not meant I know I know you are clumsy clumsy you're fine you're fine it was I don't it was not meant as

a racial thing she was upset I feel bad I feel bad can you guys tell her I'll talk to her personally and I want to apologize personally for that and I will talk to the other person about it I will that person was crying with me last

night and we were crying together and upset it it was it was not right right I yeah I I understand guys guys I understand I EMP I empathize with you guys so much I I really detest racism and I'm really upset that it happened especially in yeah especially in front of Phyllis

and stuff like that and I want to apologize to her right I get you clumsy I get you

wake up the next morning wish back that's a lesson for us all is like once you say something you can't take it back G and grief is tricky and guys we also have people from all over YouTube and and Al you know she's a she's probably she's A different race or a different religion too and and she

gets the same kind of she can be offended by the same same words and stuff like that all I can do is try to moderate but I'm not going to be mad at her in the middle of her grief she wasn't in she would had a kill cow I just surprised you wouldn't take her off right away well but clumsy she's she so

clumsy what happened is that um this guy Marty who's a really good he's a really cool guy really nice sweet he was nice to me he's a side 's Troll and he uh he could have been my troll right he could have he could have like been been mean to me yeah I know you're with clums it's it's fine and guys we it's not a better

argument um she just lost somebody she was in grief and we say things in grief we we'll call that person the worst name we can think of when we're in grief right we're not in our right state of Minds

right clumsy but I think she was like saying that word about the guy that passed away because she was so angry at him she's going through the anger stage of the Greek I have empath I have empathy for it and this and she's not a bad-hearted person she's not a bad-hearted person I've said things I regret too and

should I just be totally thrown away and stuff like that or yeah so I'm just and and that conversation at this point is that she was deeply in grief it was not a racial thing it was not not the right word to say I didn't I didn't I basically I didn't hear it P

told me about it and then I was like I was surprised I didn't even hear at the time you know maybe that's my bad that I wasn't like paying attention and stuff I I didn't hear at the time I just want to apologize yeah guys can we can we can we take this lesson that even when we're in our our strongest emotions and we're upset and

things like that to just make sure we're being sensitive to other people I I I want I want make yeah I'm sorry if anyone's offended it happen all the time okay I've said I've said I've said horrible I've said wrong words I've said um hurtful things to people um before and then it's like I

regret it the next day and I don't realize I'm saying in the moment it it's it's yeah it's not that that person is actually a really good friend of mine and that person is a sweet person that doesn't have any any um animus or any um animosity or any any anger and it was not said in a way that

was meant to offend anybody but it did and I I muted that stream I'm saying she just lost her best friend basically her best friend trying to say the worst word because she was so angry so angry know we there's this there thing called the stes

of the first stage is anger when we lose somebody first we're like so mad they left us that's like the first stage and it's like and then sometimes we'll say things we regret right am I gonna am I gonna yeah we all say dumb am I

going to like um um kick somebody out or am I going to um ostracize somebody because they said something dumb right I said I say dumb sometimes I say dumb and then I'm apologizing for a long time sometimes and sometimes I'm not a sometimes people

don't think the apology right I know Jamie Jamie but Jamie it's different people different parts of the country different cultures we we have all the guys we have so many different people around here we have so

many different cultures things that are appropriate to say or not so guys can we just forgive can we forgive we're all works in progress we're not perfect we're not gonna say always the right things I said a lot of things okay right and it maybe clumsy but also

I'm GNA stick up for I'm going to stick up for her and and she said that I I understand I understand she might have said that and it was it was not appropriate I didn't hear it I didn't hear it personally I was just told about it I if I would have if I would have heard that from her lips I would have taken her off the panel and like had to

talk with her she's not a bad person she's a good person she love Marty I love Marty I I can't excuse someone else's Behavior if it reflects about on me I'm willing I'm willing to take the the hammer on the head right I'm willing to

I'm will I'm willing to take that BR I'll take it all I'll take it take it all from her take put it on me blame me blame me for it blame me okay she's a sweet person she like really from the bottom of my heart she's a good person she does not she's not racist she's not

hateful she was angry and maybe said something really most inappropriate thing I know I I didn't hear it I didn't hear it it reflects bad upon me it could hurt my algorithm I do not allow that word my channel if I hear it and stuff like that um I did not hear that at the

time but I forgive her I forgive you Jamie Jamie I forgive you she's a good heart of person I know she's a good-hearted person I know she's a good hearted person she was crying with me last night about this about person that passed away I understand clumsy and I hope clumsy I hope you're not mad at me and I

hope uh you know I would not allow that on my channel I just didn't hear it I'm not happy about it but guys this for us all to be uh yeah Jim Nick sub to Jim so listen for us all to be mindful of our words we don't know who they're going to hurt we

don't know who they're going to affect words are like swords right it's like it's the the air signs the swords the Gemini the the Libra Aquarius right those signs right they can they can cut cut cut deep you know people say scks and stones will break your bones words will never hurt you words do hurt and

words words are words are very powerful weapons we can use right but can we can we just all agree it wasn't right we can forgive that person you can forgive that person I say forgive that person that's just my opinion or my feeling I'm going

to forgive that person I hope you guys can forgive her too a lot was going on last night guys the the the uh the the ethers the uh the emotions the if you go look at the Moon the mo the Moon is really bright lately right so and then we have I have death going

on right now I have my aunt my aunt my my mom's sister my last remaining um Aunt out of all my Aunts Uncles and a lot of aunts and uncles she last remaining one has now passed

away I feel bad I feel I feel horrible

that at least they're loved right yeah I I can't do anything about it anymore thank you thank you s n l the energy yeah the energy is going crazy right now it is it is last night last night I did seven hour I woke up and I had had my stream still going and I was in my underwear and then I saw I

said I was I said underwear stream I don't remember doing that you know but I woke up my underwear yeah okay I understand I understand I know and I'm sorry I'm sorry and Tracy Tracy is RAC those

racist words are the worst right they hurt I've been called the racist words before too even as a white person I've been called I've been called that word and so it's it's not a nice word it's it's a but there's different people I I I I don't know what

on that person's mind she was very in a in a state of anger and a state of sadness at that person said the worst things she could say she has the worst thing she could think of but I will forgive that person okay and Tracy you're a you're awesome if you want a reading tonight Tracy and Tracy yeah okay Tracy are you're you're

new to the show or or a fan of the show or they'll make you a mod too and it's like and I want everyone to feel welcome and if anyone in chat is like that's that's in the chat trying to say like that word or horrible things they're out and if that were to said I will I'll I'll take off the

stream I just know that person has a good heart I know that person didn't mean in a way to offend anybody they're trying to say the worst thing they can say because they're so angry and how how is we we knew we knew when we lose someone we love how angry the first stage of grief is anger right when we're

angry we can say things we don't mean sometimes okay oh so so Tracy Tracy I don't know I I haven't moded Tracy because I think she's new but Tracy you're mod now you're awesome

okay through the night yeah well I but I didn't I didn't hear her say that like I was told later through private chat about that that if I would have heard that I would have taken her off the air and stuff like that I would have I didn't hear it I'm not perfect guys either I'm not perfect I don't always hear every word

that said and if I would have heard that I would have taken her off the air I would talk to her privately but that person is a friend of mine and she uh she's a good person she she really a good person and she you know she is not traditionally the white or whatever you know she she is a different race okay yeah I didn't I didn't hear it

clumsy and so if I would have heard it I would have taken her off um I just didn't hear it but I didn't like that what's up yeah you're Mike's girlfriend you're on my panel before Tracy are you are you the are you mad at me are you the one that that post it

about I did not know Mike had a girlfriend or anything yeah good to see you Tracy and thank you for being here but I I don't know if you were the person that posted the the comments in the chat that night that I was like my Show's toxic and that I uh I'm hitting on on guys you know just because they're cute and stuff like

I did not know he had a girlfriend and I did not mean to offend you okay guy right but it was it was it's a word it's a word right it's a word and words I've been called a lot of words right I've been called I've been called the worst things you can call somebody and I still forgive those people that that called me that because they just don't

know it's it's out of ignorance and and people that are ignorant that means they have to have learn some knowledge and then they can yeah but I I don't want anybody to feel offended um offended um personally I it was not meant towards anybody personally I think but I will still I still um I still stick up for

that person because I think she was was in a state of extreme grief okay guys can we have deep breath we all like let's understand there's people that have different upbringings that have

different um words that are said around them as children different things that are appropriate not s them as children and it's it's out of ignorance right is bliss right but you have to look at their heart and examine their heart I examine this person's heart right yeah I'm not supporting her

actions clumsy I totally disagree with I totally disagree with that I know but it's also kind of like is this going to be like oh it's gonna be like a thing like oh this this happened and so this this is this right how about let's take a deep breath and say am I willing to forgive am I willing to let that person

grow am I willing to yeah yeah I know it's terrible it's terrible it's it's I didn't hear it myself and I I deleted that stream before I could even watch it over and and see what happened exactly I'll talk I'll talk to that person I'll have a conversation with

that person and but let's uh let's let's not have people make a mistake and then they're done right and their Shadow ban their ostracized and the we all made mistakes

right it's okay clumsy you can you can you have your own opinion about it yeah I'll let her back because she is my friend you know I'm not GNA like and she's a good friend okay and she's not I know it's not out of malice right if it was somebody

if it was somebody that said that that I didn't know and stuff like that and they said it directed towards anybody particular I but this person was in a state of extreme grief I'm this is the last time I'm gonna explain it she was in a state of extreme grief

she very salty person right um I don't agree with what she said I didn't hear what what you said yeah it's a wrap yeah that's a wrap on that that topic

right okay Tracy I know Tracy and Tracy I think you're a really cool person and Tracy I like talking to you on on the on the on the show and stuff like that and I yeah it's okay and clumsy I'm willing I'm willing that not everyone's going to be okay with with my decisions but that's what I have the right to make my decision and I hope you forgive me okay because I don't have that kind of malice

in my heart right really that's what the point is I don't think she did either it wasn't directed anyone in particular that kind of thing it wasn't trying to hurt my channel it was said in a moment of weakness

right yeah when people just pop off yeah like I had this guy MC Nemesis in my chat and he was just swearing and like saying the FW and saying oh I'm I have no empathy because because I didn't agree with his opinion and stuff like that you're offended by you and

other I'm willing to listen yeah and thank you yeah it's okay clumsy it's okay clumsy can we agree to disagree I'll talk to you more later about it but I can't keep explaining again and again yeah I know I know I know M clumsy I love you

and Tracy do you understand what I'm saying too it's like I can't control what people say um and I feel empathy towards that person that person lost somebody very very close to them and was in a moment of anger saying the worst thing that she could say out of anger towards him

I didn't and I didn't hear it but I understand it's not it's it's bad it's bad I understand it's bad but what can I do what can I do I I I forgive that person I will talk to that person before she comes back on air I promise you that and she will not do that again and if she ever does then

it's thing right I feel like Tracy's a good energ too I like Tracy a lot and Tracy you you made a very thoughtful post about how you felt about that night but I I want to say Tracy there was no offense ever meant to meant to you about that I I never know he had a girlfriend right I never knew any about that he disappeared in the chat one

night and I like you I like you on the phone I like you on the phone I think you're a good person and I'll give you I'll give everybody else leeway yeah and I'm sorry any if anybody was a feelings were hurt I'm sorry okay and I didn't mean to hurt anybody's feelings my guess I have guesss that sometimes might hurt somebody's feelings and well they hurt

my feelings sometimes I had people saying even really like I didn't go back I just would deleted it right away because it um because there was copyright issues on that live so I didn't watch it watch the live I just heard I just heard that it was said one time and then I I uh I uh I either deleted or privated it and I will go

back and watch it but I was crying too at the time I I I love the guys too the passed away it's okay you guys are fine you guys are fine guys s for me there's no malice okay there's people that come on the channel sometimes that might have malice the people that have malice I

will try to not have them on the show or that kind of thing but I don't believe that person had malice and and I forget So Jamie Rose I forgive you that's that's all I have to say she she said it like three yeah I I didn't I missed it I missed it I'm sorry col I guys I was I was drunk last night

I started drinking at 3:30 in the afternoon I hadn't drinken in a few days right I was I was in my underwear most I didn't remember I was in my underwear I woke up in my underwear and I was like and I had a underwear stream on post I was like what the freak did I do last guys I'm not perfect I'm not

perfect okay guys anybody want a card tonight let's let's have some positivity right now let's like anybody that want say you want a card if you want a card or come on the panel the link pinned I think everyone forgive me I hope you have in your heart to forgive her I don't think she's a racist person I don't think that she has a evil

intentions for anybody yeah I was wasted last night guys I was wasted and things happen sometimes when you're wasted on stream and I can't control other people what they say I'm not going to be like put into a corner about oh this person said this you're not you're not you're hating this person and stuff like that because I'm I'm still grieving about

about Marty too Marty was I'll just say Marty was a really cool guy he came on a panel he was nice to me you don't have to be nice to me you don't have to you don't have to like me a lot of people don't like me a lot of people he was a he's a Cyrax troll like cyra's biggest troll but he liked me and he was sweet to me and that that was his ex-girlfriend but she talked to him

every day on the phone and then last week I was like did Marty pass away and she's like I don't think Marty passed away she's and then uh and then we found out Marty passes away and uh Marty was a sweet person he was really nice and uh yeah we're all guys we're all far we're all from we're not perfect as human beings that's the point is like

we're not perfect we all have we're growing to do can we all like apologize for our mistakes I'm not getting interviews until I do a balls out stream I can't show my balls on the stream right clumsy I know we can we can agree to disagree on that we can agree to disagree I'll talk to you about

privately clumsy um it's just like it almost feels like I'm being put in a corner and say this is wrong this is right you should have done this you should that when I didn't even like understand at the time I I understand yeah let's let's let's guys can we all learn a lesson from it flumsy forgive me flumsy forgive

me I know I'm not if you never want to come talk to me again if you think I'm a bad person because of it it's okay it'll be sad for me because you're not understanding my heart right but I understand understand that person's heart and I try to look at the best in everybody but it's okay clumsy

you you can be mad at me and guys if you're all mad at me everyone wants to leave the if I'm Shadow ban and no one wants to watch channel again because I let one person like speak have a grief and speak their mind in a state in a state of extreme grief that I didn't even catch it's okay clumsy clumsy it's okay

I'll talk to you privately clumsy it's okay I'll talk to you privately

clumsy it's not it's not the time right now it's like um you're just you're just making it worse not I'm not mad at you but it's dragging and it's dragging out reminding people over and over it's like right unless you're trying to do

that like I said I'll talk to you privately about it um I think I've explained myself enough on that I love you clumsy clumsy you know I love you and I'll support you I I I'll be there I'll be your BFF I'll be your friend to the end I can't control other people I said I didn't hear it I said okay it's fine I love you clums

it's okay clumsy clumsy you know I've been there for you and you know I'm not going to like I would I would defend you in the same kind of situation if anything happen I understand I understand I'm not perfect I might disappoint people it's okay guys you

unsubscribe to my channel you can you can leave my channel you can say I'm a bad person because of that I just I'm not um I'm not gonna um talk about it anymore I'm not going to put her in a corner I'm going to let her let her have her grief and uh the person yeah clumsy yeah post clumsy's channel

in the chat by the way I want you to all subscribe to her Channel and she's a awesome awesome person she's a little bit mad at me she's disappointed to me what can I do you know I can't explain any better than I have but I I for you know I I'll for forgive forget

her and I forgive you if you misunderstood me and if I you did Mis understand me I'm still I'm still here okay thank you colums if you unless you want a card I don't want to dis situation anymore hope you

understand can we all just like take it as a lesson can we take it as a lesson also clumsy what if I died tomorrow and then the last thing you remember is that you're just mad at me for something that I had no control over right or mad at me for being a forgiving

person right my I lost my aunt today I lost my friend last week I'm in grief right what's up beloved Divine hello Rocky thank you I saw you last night too the point is we don't know how long each of us is going to be here all of us say stupid things all of us I said so many stupid things that I should I should

have no subscribers everyone should be mad at everyone should be mad at me I've said so many stupid things okay I'm not I'm not clumsy I'm not gaslighting you clumsy seriously clumsy I go from the bottom of my heart you're saying I'm gaslighting you now clsy can we talk about it privately okay

good I'm talking about it too because I explain as much as well as I could and I love you so much you've been there for me I've been I've been with you for months and months and months I love you so much okay guys I said I'm not perfect I'm not perfect I've said stupid things I can

forgive other people for saying stupid things I've said really stupid thing

okay okay thank you all I want is people to have empathy for one another get along but it's okay I understand if if uh people are mad at me for just being me yeah I'm trying to learn from my

mistake I'm trying I I'm I'm seriously I think I'm doing so much better too I think I'm like improving but if I there's something in the Bible it says if you want to be forgiven you have to forgive I'm so I'm willing to forgive anybody for whatever mistake they made I'm willing let them go on their path

and improve if they keep doing the mistake over and over right they keep doing the mistake over and over it's one thing then they're not really trying to improve if they like learn from the mistake the lesson is learned right okay that's all have to say about that anyone I want really I really want someone to come on panel right now

someone can come on panel I would really want to talk to somebody I'll post my link my link again again I really want to talk to somebody clumsy come up or you probably don't feel like it okay yeah how about forgive if they learn the lesson if they don't you can say get out of my

life and stuff like that thank you guys I'll post one more

link okay I almost feel like I'm G light I mean I've been gaslighted so much I can build a gas station okay I'm an expert in gaslighting I'm an expert in not gaslighting because I gasl gas liting because it's been done to me so much I'm an expert in all these things because it's it's all been done to me

right am I am I right or wrong you guys can tell me if I'm right or wrong whatever it is I'm willing to I'm willing to listen to you guys but as for that topic I'm done it's sealed it's done with it's over it's over

okay thank you take no prisoners yeah and guys have we have we all said something that we regret right this is off the topic of of the the other topic have we all said I want to hear clumsy come on come on let's let's have a chat clumsy let's have a chat let's have it out I want to hear you I want to talk to you

clumsy because I love you clumsy so much like like from the bottom of my heart you're like one of my best friends in the world I I'll listen to what you have to say too I'll I'll listen to I want you to get your your point across you want to talk about it we'll talk about it come on up clumsy you can tell me tell me exactly

what you feel and I'll let you have every every word you every word you want to say come out I will I will listen to you I will consider it I will take it into my heart right because you're you're one of my best friends yeah where's everyone from clumsy everyone wants to hear from you too everyone else wants to hear about it too

from you okay but if you don't want to I understand but clumsy you know how much I love you you know hold on here's how much I love you clumsy from the bottom of my heart okay look at the eyes B and it hurts me that you're

hurt it really hurts me that you're hurt and it makes me want to consider everything okay but if you don't want to come up it's fine but I'd love someone to come on my panel I'd love you from the bottom of my heart clumsy and I hope you're not mad at

me but guys I'm running a I'm running a show here I can't control what my guests say I can have sympathy for my guests for what how they feel at the time but it's okay if you don't want

to Clumsy I'll give you the plat I'll give you the I'll give you I'll give you your time to say everything you want to say I will I want to argue with you all I want to say is I'm sorry if I did something wrong um and I'll apologize for my guess too if my guess is something wrong and

it was not nice to say that and I've had other people come up and say that too but it was a different intent with the other guest this guest it was a it was a m momentary moment of temporary insanity I'll say

but guys okay I want someone to come on panel I have minute 20 20 one minute 20 seconds or one hour 20 minutes what's up guys I'm gonna post my link in my

Discord right now and invite my Discord to come up

okay I I I'll ask her I'll I'll ask her to I will ask her to come on up come on up I want to talk to you I'd love to talk to you take no prisoners let's go let's go you just have to click the the pin link uh Arizona you're chosen yep

invite Lisa's chat too and Emma Levan's

chat I'm waiting here I will have a nice chat with you I a friendly person I will not shame you I will not um say anything to shut you down or

anything okay well I don't see anybody coming up but it's

fine okay go ahead go clumsy please I want you to I want you to and wait I want clumsy I want I want to I want to I want to chat it out I'll chat it out yes please but only if you want to if you don't want to it's fine but I do want you to come up here you have to click the click the streamyard link I'll post

it again you just have to click this link and then you have to go join panel and then you will pop up on my panel okay so let me just do more post comment I'll post it again there you go just click this link right here you will come on panel

we'll have a good chat guys I really want to talk things

out okay yeah clumsy if it's if if you come up it'll just be us it will just be you and me it'll be you and me clumsy um and if guys also respect if I bring clumsy up then I'm going to not take any guests until it's just me and clumsy chatting and she can say whatever she wants to

me okay good here's Lenor guys this is Lenor guys you know you know trying to love look at my black cat right there look at her this is Lenor this is look at Lor can you look at the chat Lor the chat's getting a little the chat's the chat's not happy tonight they're not all the way happy wait are you my you my

little my princess this is my princess she's my princess guys what you're you're meowing like that look at her eyes can you look at the chat look look at her eyes look at look at yourself let's have a we have our guest

tonight Ashley let's have a chat with Ashley Sorry my phone's under attack your phone's under attack Ashley yes dog I've been I've been hacked been hacked yeah I can relate I've been hacked too sometimes

you know but I don't if you've been hacked that means people can put whatever they want onto your server they can put whatever they want to to say about you they can they can put anything they want and so if you been hacked that's not that's like an illegal kind of thing it's not admissible in court right let's welcome Ashley to the panel what's up Ashley how are you do you see

my cat Lenor this is Lenor right here Ashley do you hear me okay Ashley left Lenora are you're looking at you're looking at the you're looking at the yeah maybe Ashley was like a little bit of a troll saying oh I've been

hacked oh I'm hacking your phone oh right Ashley H okay well

Ashley right Ashley you're a little hacker right nothing is admissible in court nothing you say will bother me nothing you do will bother me oh I've been hacked I've been hacked go hack yourself

Ashley geez what what a troll that was what a troll oh I've been hacked I've been hacked that's you come on the panel and say I've been hacked I've been hacked go f yourself you loser go hack yourself Jesus Christ what is going on with

people's minds I don't understand Ashley you're lame orless that's you take no prisoners and you're cool but gosh I've been hacked see you come on saying you've been hacked what does that supposed to mean like I've been you're supposed to make me think I've been

hacked and I'm supposed to worry about that for some reason if I've been hacked that means you can put anything you want want on my server you can put anything you want in my in my uh my internet right am I supposed to worry about that I supposed to be concerned about that I don't care if you've been hacked you're supposed to come on the panel and have a chat with me and not say I've been

hacked if I go on someone's panel I've been hacked I've been hacked lame okay I'm just saying I'm going to saying

is weird right was that you Tak I don't think that was you taking you're my mod I don't think you would do that Ashley I've been hacked I've been hacked oh no I maybe I've been hacked too right oh I now I need to be worried about I need to sh all my phones and unplug everything and I can't ever be on

the internet again right okay I'm sorry if I was jumping the gun okay Ashley I'll give you another chance I don't know if that okay Ashley go ahead I'm sorry if I jumped

the gun I I misjudged you okay I make mistakes I apologize oh no no you're good you're good good um I'm sorry I'm I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I got involved is some like a some like La type type business if you know what I'm

saying and yes yes with a certain uh you know individual and talking about twe twe Tweakers right Tweakers yeah well you know all all different

type LA Los Angeles gangs there's a million of them right okay Ashley is gone I didn't cut Ashley off I don't know what she's trying to do Ashley are you a good person you're bad I don't know who you are Ashley you're the first time I've ever seen this but I'm sorry if I

was making fun of what you were saying and stuff like that yeah it's weird yeah oh la la wow I'm in La SH now I'm supposed to be afraid right now I'm supposed to be afraid of these la la tweaker Gams right right I'm scared Ashley I'm scared I'm

scared I'm scared of Hollywood I'm G to end up in a bathtub with blood in it right Ashley okay Ashley don't come back again unless you have something um logical to say yeah I know who guys whoa guys is that you taking no

prisoners because you don't look like that person in the chat that was okay it is okay okay take them okay take a prisoner you're my mod you have to tell me you have to tell me right okay I don't mean to offend you but yeah now you first you said I've been hacked then

you say oh LA gangs are after me okay I'm in La now I'm supposed to say I've been hacked by LA gangs I'm really scared of LA gangs have I survived the last 44 years in Los Angeles with LA gangs after me right you keep okay come on come on back I'm not knocking you up okay Ashley let's have a chat okay I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

it's my bad my bad I didn't mean to judge you I didn't mean to judge you let's let's have a chat I'm not knocking you off maybe it's the LA gangs that are doing it am I being hacked yeah I know okay Ashley maybe it's better another time

Ashley you're my mod too okay you need to I'm not kicking you off right clumsy come up yeah guys I I don't even know anymore I I don't know who to trust anymore you know I I get a lot of from other people in different people I'm not

scared of of life you sound wild it's okay no no you're fine you're fine let me just take a deep breath it's okay Ashley it's Ashley thank you for trying to come on anyway way you're welcome on another time you can try again come on I'll talk to you but I just don't like to say oh gangs

are after me my phone's being hacked the these are all things that paranoid right I'm not afraid of gangs I'm not afraid of my phone being hacked Joanie baloney what's up girl Joanie baloney thank you for coming here tonight Joanie if you want a reading right now you don't have to come on panel um if you don't want to but Joan's

is my really good friend everyone all I'm sorry oh know you didn't okay it's just Joan it's been it's been a really crazy night it's been just a crazy night right I'll joanny I I'll talk to you on

Discord privately I didn't mean to I didn't mean to like call anything out yeah Joan's my I just I just love Joanie okay I just love J you're a sweetheart you are awesome I'm not GNA say anything else about it we will we'll try take no prisoners we'll try another time we'll try another time I I appreciate you for

for even trying but anybody want a reading anyone want to come on panel anyone want to chat we just had a wild night I've just been put in the corner over things other people have said I'm my show um I'm a good hearted person right thank you st Nikki I'm a good heart person I and I I see the best in everybody and I believe

that everybody deserves a second chance everybody has a chance to um rehabilitate or to redeem themselves I don't want anybody's feelings to be hurt my shows a little bit wild thank you okay yeah you you guys are awesome you guys are so awesome and I'm sorry if I said something wrong I'm sorry if

someone on my chat said something wrong I can't whatever one says in my chat or my panel and stuff like that I feel like we need to forgive people we need to um give people a second chance we need to give people their own chance to present themselves I'm not perfect I'm far from

I'm very I'm a very imperfect person I've made a lot of mistakes I've uh done stuff I regret I've like done stuff that makes me cringe of myself right but I I still know I'm a good person and I know other people are good people yeah

Joanie you got a wrench you got a wrench Joanie I don't know if Jon's still here but Janie gets a wrench Joanie you're my friend yeah Joanie and managing moderator I know you're a good manager I need to light my cigar I'll be right back

and guys there's nothing nothing you guys have ever done that is anything that I will hate you for that is anything that I will judge you for I anything that is is beyond forg yeah I'm smoking a cigar is anything that I'm saying this person's a bad person because I believe everybody has good in their heart that everybody has good in their

hearts and I will forgive anybody for anything okay as long as they are really apologetic about I mean it's like as long they really you rather candy bar you like a Snickers Janie well Joanie now you're now now

you're you're managing moderator now Joanie you're you're a manager yeah but guys Jes Jesus said okay Jesus Christ said if you do not forgive you will not be forgiven if you forgive you will be forgiven

okay and so I'm a forgiving person I'm willing to forgive I'm willing to excuse because we're human beings we make mistakes we say things we don't mean we we do we do things we don't want mean to do but I look at the heart and I think everyone in their heart has this little little spark in their heart this little part of

her heart that a it's a good part even if it's a little tiny tiny little part part of their heart I believe everybody has something good in their heart right little they have they have love they a little bit of love everybody okay clumsy welcome clumsy to the stage I will not add anybody else what is up

clumsy hi hi my darling what's up I'm gonna put on fullen okay clumsy I think there's been a misunderstanding I think there's been maybe something happened it was not right that the person said maybe the person was in a state of

extreme grief and anger and saying the worst thing they could think of but I know I know you have a good heart I know I have a good heart I know we're both forgiving go ahead and say say whatever you want to say well did you even so you said you didn't even watch the live right you didn't rewatch it well because because in the live I got in my underwear and stuff

like that and then I had like 12 copyright um claims because I played a lot of music on the live so I just deleted live go I know but for well like earlier you're old Piney like oh she didn't really say it maliciously like how would you know you you didn't watch the live you didn't even see uh you didn't even you weren't even watching the conversation or listening apparently

because because I was talking to her and and it's like and I didn't you're right I didn't like maybe I me in the chat and I was like who is that I was like was the other person I like no this is this person the hard R and stuff like that and I was like I didn't hear that and I didn't but but I

I'll say I was a little bit drunk and stuff like that and then and all that but um we had a friend named Marty Marty's a really cool gu he was in my chat he was in my panel and he called me the underdog and I would give him like he basically said give me a sport give me a football team to to bet on is it the and I just said I said I don't know anything about football teams I just

know how cute their Jo straps look in their the pants I say there to many the color of the pants and so he would say the white white pants or blue pants of the football team then I would say over under and then and then he would uh he would send me a few bucks if you want and stuff like that but he was a he was a cool guy and then I found out he passed away of a

drug overdose in a motel room a few days ago and that was his best friend she's devastated and so we're talking about notice any um any of of what the any of that what she said racially or the the the bad word and stuff like that

someone had to tell me that later um but I was like I was like forgive her because she's in state of grief and anger and it was not meant in a negative way but I don't appreciate that when people do that in my chat when people say that I will I will take them out right I and uh and and ban them and

stuff but this is a friend of mine and I I just said she's she's she's angry she's she's upset she she said the wor thing she could say probably but I didn't see it and I didn't go back and watch it was a seven hour stream I it was called the underwear stream and I woke up

mywe but to opine to opine on on her her intent and you didn't even watch it is disingenuous to me that's totally disingenuous um you're saying she's your friend I'm your friend and I'm telling you and I'm telling you like what she did was not okay like it's not okay I don't know if you talk to her after she

could be very sorry um I'll give you that I mean I'm not saying everybody's unforgivable and stuff like that I my whole point is just her behavior what happened was just not okay it was not cool and embarrassing it was embarrassing I was embarrassed I was embarrassed for you I I agree with you 100% And if I would have heard that at the time I would have dropped her

immediately right and I would have talked to her privately and said what's going on here like what what what's going on I didn't hear it I had to be told about afterward I was very drunk and I did my own thing for several afterward after that but um and I didn't watch it back because I did my

own weird things on the I know that person and I know she's a good-hearted person I I don't think she meant it against anybody specifically in a negative way she did she said it to him that's what I'm saying you didn't even watched the stream how would you know she said it to

him in response to him telling her she sounds like a man she her ego was so hurt that she decid decided to drop you know call him the nword with the hard R um with no regard and she said it more than once to him she said it repeatedly okay well I didn't I didn't I didn't hear it

but CU what I was saying I thought she was referring to the guy that passed away right angry to him she said in response to him because he was saying you sound like a man and she was like I said her ego was hurt she's pissed off whatever and that's her that was her response to him

was to call him that and she said it a few times to him all within the same like conversation but she said it repeatedly she knew what she was saying and she kept saying it to him okay well because I didn't understand that I didn't know that she was saying to somebody in the chat but also um people in my chats um know other from different

places and they have their own um they have their own way of talking to each other and sometimes it's like they talk to each other like that and not saying it's right not saying I forgive that and not saying that's appropriate at all on my channel but she probably knew from another chat and she was well if you're gonna if you're gonna excuse it Al my whole point was if you're gonna excuse

it don't expect people to support you then because people will start to feel differently about you because of who you're supporting and if this person and you're saying this is your friend oh you just keep excusing oh this is my friend she's grieving she's this she's that we're all grieving we all have loss we're all up and people don't just do that

so I didn't understand that she was say I didn't understand that she was saying it to someone particular on chat but also they may have known each other from somewhere else like because I'm on other channels and then some people on the same channels come to my channel and they talk to each other like that sometimes and that's appropriate for them like when like but I didn't I didn't hear that and stuff like that so I'm just totally in the blind about it like I was

I was so up I just passed out of my stream last night I woke up you know I was in my underwear I I had an underwear stream and stuff like that I I don't know but sometimes people talk like that and they're fine with each other and stuff like that and with whatever race they are you were on a you were on a live on YouTube that's the difference

that's the difference we're not oneon-one alone in the basement talking to each other okay so that's why I'm saying like I don't want your channel nuked and stuff like that and you might say oh I don't care I don't care okay fine you don't care then I'm just saying from a point of view of someone who cares about you you're being extremely Reckless

extremely Reckless okay but also on Howard Stern okay so Howard Stern who's my idol right Howard Howard Stern and he'll have he'll have the Daniel car the KKK Guy come on and like speak this and then it just makes the KKK guy look bad whenever he says that and everything and everyone gets that oh this is this guy

is like ridiculous racist and I mean it's like so it's like that makes them look bad but I'm g i all I'm saying is that I'm trying to respect the platform I'm not trying to get demonetized I'm not trying I'm not even monetized yet but I'm trying to get monetized and but I seriously I did not he when that

happened if I would have heard it the first time I would have took that person off right away and said hey you know you need to calm down you need to not say that I just didn't hear it and so then the next day I wake up and people are like oh this person said this this person said

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I love from the bottom of my heart hold on Clumsy I live from the bottom of my heart it froze I live from the bottom of my heart my heart to my soul top to the bottom inside outside you're you're like

one of my best friends okay clumsy and I don't have best friend I I have like best friends they're like one two three maybe three clumsy I love you so much and I will listen I listen to what you you have to say always I'm not perfect I'm not perfect I'm not mad at her she was in a

state of grieving I'm not going to yell a person in a state of grieving it's okay if you don't if you if you're if you don't mad at me okay construction criticism I know I know you care I know guys I know you care clumsy clumsy here's how much I love you clumsy from the bottom of my heart my heart to my

soul prayers love hugs don't be mad at me okay I know galac this I I know I can't I can't I can't control what people say to people people I can't control words they

say cuz I love it I love people on my channel I love people on my channel yeah a guess come on Clumsy hey you totally clumsy you you CL you

know is he Frozen again I think your connection is bad lovey hold on okay now I can hear you it's bad hold on Clumsy here so much I love you yes

from the bottom of my heart my soul top to bottom I love you so much I I would never want to hurt anybody anybody your feeling I would never want to hurt anybody anybody you're hurting yourself though psych you're hurting yourself you're hurting your channel that's the whole point that's why I'm giving I it it is

not to say oh I want you just to go condemn this person and all this and that it's because I care that I'm giving you this input I know and clumsy it will Happ it'll happen clumsy I have people some so many be more self aware be

self-aware okay be self aware can I just give you a big hug and say we're still friends and I'm sorry that I let that happen I won't let that happen again again and I will be more more proactive but I was in a state of grief last night I was crying about Marty and I'm sorry about that I'm sorry

about your loss yeah it's it's horrible but death is a part of life but also I want to see the best in people I want to see people improve themselves and learn from their mistakes and I believe everyone makes mistakes everyone has said what happens is when you excuse

every everything for everyone you become a doormat that's what happens you're going to become a doormat and I don't want that to happen for you because I do care don't thank you and I understand I understand I'm trying not to be but then there's people that have malicious intentions sometimes that come on the channel and I don't I don't think she

has malicious intentions she was basically I was crying with her and I didn't even hear anything besides let me give you a hug and say the guy's with you and and I love you and stuff like that I didn't even hear any of the negative stuff and and maybe it's my mistake it's probably my mistake that I

was like filtering out anything negative and I just wanted to comfort that person Jamie Rose if you want to come on the on the panel tonight too you can say but clumsy clumsy really from the bottom of my heart my heart to my soul I love you so much I know you're really busy and I know you have your own channel to run

and I but and you're you you really St with me to because you care about me and I care about you so much and I hope I I hope I making mistake I'm making a mistak sometimes I'm not perfect I'm not perfect but I really W to forgive people if they if they say things in the Heat of the Moment that they don't mean you

know it's like lot of women don't some women don't like being called a man being called they look like a man and stuff like that and it's like the most offensive thing you can say to them right and they say the wor that's just an excuse you just keep going on and on I'm grieving and they called me a man oh well there's certain things that that are just unacceptable you can't excuse

and you can move on from it of course you can but like I said it feels disingenuous you didn't even watch the live to actually see her behavior yourself to to make these conclusionary statements about what her intent was like I I just feel like it's that you're better than that so the was

seven hours long live was seven hours long and I got my underwear and I was like showing my crotch to a bunch of guys on it like later in the Stream and stuff like that and so I was not thinking about her and what she said I was thinking about what did I do that that was wrong and then I had all the copyright strikes for

the music and stuff like that got like clumsy I'm so imper I me so imperfect but that's as humans we're imperfect she has not come back to say anything guys yes it has nothing to do with that though you could forgive her I mean that that's between you two like I said to me that that's kind of like irrelevant a

little bit I'm just saying this to you as a friend you keep saying how she's such a this person's such a good friend and I'm forgiving them well I'm telling you as a friend this is bad for your channel I understand you don't care about your Channel that's fine but I'm just I'm trying to uh give you as as

best of to First tell you how but to give you an evaluation of how others might think too and how others might and clumsy clumsy but also dis heartening it's dis heartening because you're not that person right you're saying you can't control that person's actions but you're you're not even being

aware enough to know what's going on on your channel that's the difference can I say my channel is my baby like I don't have kids right I have cats I have my channel this basic it's basically my life right um but well then care about your channel care about it and know what's going on

with it that would that's my input my two sets my opinion care about it clumsy do you know how much I love you I just want to say how much I love you before you go I love you from the the Sun to the moon the stars this guy you're my best friend I

love you till I die I love you too but I I am actually gonna go because I got a live coming up soon I know I'll be I'll be there have a good show and I will talk to you later thank you clumsy yeah yeah guys guys we had clumsy CL Boy song and the first time she came on the show and uh I list

know what what she to say right guys I'm a I'm a little bit of a a lush I'm a little bit of a a little bit of a drunk these days right I I've had some sadness I'm not perfect I don't hear everything that goes

on I'm not a perfect person I'm not a perfect person there's many things I wish I didn't do okay guys maybe I have to go right now because I I'm hting people's feelings people are upset with me I have

to like I'll go back tomorrow I I'll watch the streams even though I deleted it I just I have to watch the streams figure out what I did wrong I did something wrong if I didn't

right I'm not perfect no one's perfect but I forgive I forgive that person if they said something wrong I forgive myself if I said something wrong none of us are perfect none of us none of us are perfect right we can look at each other and say you did something wrong you did something wrong right did

you do something wrong to you did every do something wrong guys I want to talk to one person before I go one more person come on the panel right I'm I'm not perfect if my channel gets B bands that will be really sad

right but it's because somebody else came on trying to make my channel banned right okay guys you guys hate me it's okay I love you guys anyway okay I'm sorry I have to go have a good night guys

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