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Hello.

How's everybody tonight? Good to see

you.

I got some mood lighting going on. Maybe

if it gets distracting, I'll change the

setting. But I hope it looks good.

What's up, guys?

Yeah, we had a quite a night last night.

Um, I was on for like four and a half

hours and

um some really good discussions. Um,

some nice people. Um, also some not very

nice people were in the chat and not

very nice people were on the panel

sometimes. So, I'm going to try to do a

better job of moderating. I just want

all I ask is that you be respectful to

each other and some of the things that

are said I just don't appreciate from

some people and so maybe I'll have to

um adjust the mods and things like that.

Hello guys.

Also try to

have a more organized show.

I'm on a little bit earlier tonight, I

think. Maybe like earlier and then we'll

do like,

you know, more tarot reading stuff the

first couple hours and more um

more open panel a little bit later in

the show. But um I do because last night

I had a lady a nice lady came on the

panel and then I had just other people

came on at the same time and it's I

think you know you know she got scared

away. We don't have all the same kind of

senses of humor or we come from a lot of

different places on the on YouTube.

What's up Raymond? Yeah I'll I'll answer

your question tonight. But yeah I hope

you like the uh the new mood lighting.

I've always had this thing, but I uh

Yeah, Raymond's um

I'm thinking I'm thinking um

Valentine's Day right now

around Valent But also if not

Valentine's Day, maybe that's not maybe

that's like kind of a time where

emotions are kind of high. Love it.

Thank you. But uh I would definitely see

it too this month. Yeah. Sometimes um

when people reach out to us on holidays,

it's because sometimes we're feeling

vulnerable and lonely on holidays. And

so not 100% sure that's

how you would feel that day, but

um it's just a it's just a tactic I'm

aware of that some people use. So, you

want to always be a little careful when

people reach out to you on holidays that

you haven't heard from for a long time

and then they reach the holiday, they

reach out to you or maybe they're lonely

that day, things like that. And so, it's

always better after like the emotions

are a little bit less heightened. I'll

read some cards for you. I'll read cards

for anybody tonight. I will post a a

open panel link. I just want to make

sure

that I got that out of the way.

How's everybody doing? Good to see

everybody. It's Tuesday. It's also

what will she want to say? Well,

I'll look into that for you. I'll look

into that. Just give me a few minutes

and I'll get my cards out.

Yeah, I have stories I want to read

tonight and maybe some music and um and

chat and and I want to see how

everyone's doing.

I got I'll do a three card reading for

you Raymond on on uh on all those

questions. Okay. Or on local acting.

Good. Very good. Tonight

another sober stream.

And my sober stream turned out last

night to be like more wild than my by

drunk streams. We had some guys taking

off their shirts, professing their li

their love to Pyana,

putting putting names and stickers on

their bodies and things like that. It

was interesting. Okay, Raymond. Yeah,

I'll I'll get some cards for you. Um,

but yeah, just want to I do want to tell

a story. This is like a Yeah, collected

and like, you know, Yeah. Pi was my

wingwoman and in one in the one of the

situations and then the other guy that

came on was jealous.

The other guy took his shirt off for P

or for me and the and then he he lit up

a shirt and he had Pyana written on his

on his stomach.

So, it was very cute.

Um, okay. So, this is like an abridged

version because I have these I I love

fairy tales and fairy tale books, right?

And uh and so I have this Hans Christian

Anderson like from the probably like

1930s or 40s and I I read this uh this

out of that and I remember I cried when

I read it but I so this isn't a bridge

version because I don't want to be the

version. Hung Christian Anderson's

stories are very long and very detailed.

This isn't a bridge version, but this is

also kind of has the lessons with it.

Okay, so it's called the ugly duckling,

right? You've heard this by Hans

Christian Anderson.

So it's and this is not it's only it's

five short little parts. Okay, so it

says the first chapter is one by one and

it says once on a farm long ago, a mama

duck sat on her nest. How long must I

wait for my babies to hatch? I have to

sit here all by myself. But what could

she do? A mama duck must keep her eggs

warm till they hatch. At last, the eggs

begin to crack.

Uh, one yellow duckling stepped out of

its shell, then another. Each little

chick shook its wings. Quack- quack.

Look at you, cried Mama Duck with joy.

You're all so cute. Quack, quack, quack,

they said with pride. Come line up, said

Mama Duck. We will go down to the lake

for your very first swim. She counted. 1

2 3 4 5. Oh dear, she said with a frown.

I had six eggs. I should have six

ducklings. Okay.

One large egg was still in the nest.

Well, said Mama Duck. It looks like that

egg will take more time. So, she went

back to sit on her nest again and wait

some more.

Part two. Unlike the others. The next

day, the big egg started to hatch. Out

popped a baby boyird.

Yet, my goodness, how different this one

looked. He was much larger than the

others. He was not yellow, but dark gray

all over. And after he stepped out of

his egg, he walked with a funny wobble.

One of the yellow ducks ducklings

pointed. What's that? He can't be one of

us. I've never seen such an ugly

duckling, said another.

How can you say such a thing? Said Mama

Duck in a very stern voice. You're only

one day old. Your brother hatched from

the very same nest you did. Now line up.

We will go to the lake for your very

first swim. all the way. The other

ducklings quacked, "Ugly, ugly, ugly."

The ugly duckling did not know why the

other ducklings were yelling at him. He

fell behind to take the last spot in

line. When they got to the lake, each

yellow duck jumped in and swam behind

Mama Duck. When it was his turn, the

ugly duckling jumped in, too. But he

started to paddle. "At least he can

swim," Mama Duck thought to herself.

When the yellow ducklings got out of the

water and started to play, the ugly

duckling tried to play with his brothers

and sisters. They yelled at him, "Go

away. We will not play with you. You are

ugly and you walk weird." When Mama Duck

was close by, she would not let them

talk this way. Be nice, as she would

scold. But she was not always close by.

Hey, sleepy energy. We're just reading

ugly duckling.

So, it says part three, get out. One

day, one of the yellow ducklings said to

the ugly duckling, "You know what? You

would do us a big favor if you just went

away." All of them started to quack. Go.

Go away. Why won't they let me stay with

them? Thought the ugly duckling. He hung

his head down low. They must be right. I

should go.

That that night, the ugly duckling flew

over the farmyard fence to the other

side of the lake. There he met two

grown-up ducks. May I please stay for a

while? said the ugly duckling. I have

nowhere else to live. What do we care?

said one of the ducks. It's a big lake.

Just don't get in our way. Woof woof.

Suddenly, a big hungry dog came tearing

by, chasing the two ducks. They quickly

flew up in the air and their feathers

flew down on the ground. The poor ugly

duckling froze in fear. The dog sniffed

and sniffed at the ugly duckling and

then it turned around and walked away.

"I am too ugly even for that mean old

dog," said the ugly duck duckling in a

sorrowful voice. The sky turned dark.

"Crack! A bolt of lightning lit up the

sky. Then came a big storm with heavy

rains pouring down. In just moments, the

ugly duckling was soaked through and

through. A cold wind started to blow.

Brr!" He held both wings close to his

chest. If only there were some place I

could dry out.

All at once, a tiny light blinked far

off in the woods. Could it be someone's

hut? The ugly ducking flew to the door.

Quack, said he. The door of the hut

creaked open. What's all this noise?

said an old woman, looking right and

left. Her eyes were not that good, but

she could hear. She looked down. A duck,

she picked up the ugly duckling and

dropped him inside her hut. You might as

well stay here, she said. But mind you,

I expect you to eggs. A tom and hen both

crept up to the ugly duckling. Who do

you think you are? The tom cat hissed.

Coming here and taking up room by the

fire. Squawk, said the hen. I'm the only

one around here who lays eggs. You don't

know the first thing about eggs. You got

that right, said the ugly duckw. I'm a

boy duck. Then why are you here? Sneered

the tomcat. Didn't you hear what the old

woman said? Impostor, get out of here,

yipped the hen. Go away, dear the

tomcat. The door was still a bit open,

so the poor ugly duckling crept out the

door and went back into the storm. No

one ever wants me, said the ugly

duckling with a tear in his eye. Part

four, a new lake. The storm ended.

Finally, he found another lake. Looking

up in the water, the ugly duckling saw a

reflection from above. A flock of large

birds were flying overhead above him. He

turned to admire them. They were the

most beautiful birds he had ever seen.

Their long bodies and slender necks

winged through the sky with ease and

grace. He watched until the very last

one had disappeared from view. The ugly

duckling stayed at the lake as the days

grew shorter. U the leaves turned deep

red in gold and the fall and fell to the

ground. Winter came setting a blanket of

white snow. The cold wind blew and

clouds darkened. He had to dive into

small holes in the ice to find fish to

eat. Under the ice, it was all he could

do to keep paddling so the water

wouldn't freeze around him, trapping him

underneath the lake. He became terribly

tired. The ice grew thicker and the wind

blew harder. In that moment, two giant

two giant hands swept him up. "You poor

thing," said a farmer. He held the ugly

duckling close to his thick warm wool

jacket. "You didn't fly south with the

others." The farmer was carrying him

someplace where the next months were

lovely, warmth from the heat of the

fire, and from the heart of the farmer

enveloped our poor hero. For the rest of

the winter, the father the farmer cared

for the ugly duckling.

Part five, spring. At last, spring came.

Little dots of green spotted the tree

branches. Short bright flowers popped

from the ground. "It's time for you to

go back to the lake to swim again as you

were born to do," said the farmer. He

took the duckling back to the lake where

he found him and set him on the water.

"I feel good," said the young bird,

flapping its wings. "Why, I don't think

I ever as strong as I do right now."

Spring passed, then summer. The leaves

started to change colors when one day

the ugly duckling heard quiet splashing

sounds behind him. He turned around. A

flock of those same

beautiful birds he had once seen winging

through the sky now sat on the lake.

"Don't worry," he said to the beautiful

birds holding out his holding out one of

his wings. "I'm leaving. I won't make

trouble for you." When he happened to

glance down at the lake, he saw a

reflection in the water and that looked

like one of those beautiful birds. "Hi,

Mimo."

"Why was the bird so close to him?" He

jumped back. The reflection jumped back,

too. "What's this?" he thought, puzzled.

Our troubled hero stretched his neck and

strangely the reflection of the

beautiful bird in the neck stretched its

neck too. Why are you leaving so soon?

One of the beautiful birds. Come back,

said another. Stay with us, said yet

another swan. We'll be friends. Then the

bird who used to be the ugly duckling

realized what had happened. He was no

longer an ugly gray bird that wobbled

when he walked. He had grown into a

beautiful swan. Then a dark thought

crossed his mind. "You only want me

because I'm a swan and I look like you,"

said he. That's not it at all, said the

first swan who had spoken. We saw you

alone down here and thought you might

want to join us. We don't care how a

birds look. Well, take a look at that

pelican over there. No one would take me

for a swan, squawkked Pelican. How did

you end up with them? asked our hero who

used to be an ugly duckling. Stayed up

too late the night before, shrugged

Pelican. Slept till noon. My flock took

off without me. Was sure glad the swans

came along when they did. Thanks guys,

said the second swan who had spoken. And

there's Egret.

What can I tell you? said Egret. I loved

to ride those wind currents. Then found

my out my entire flock was gone. By then

there was no way I could catch up. If

the swans didn't come along and invite

me to join them, who knows where I'd be

now. The hero who used to be an ugly

duckling considered these stories, yet

was still skeptical. Winter may get a

little cold on the lake, he said. But no

one bothers me here, and spring comes

eventually. Eventually, said the first

one, why suffer if you don't have to?

Where we fly to, the sun shines hot all

day long. Imagine it. Thick, delicious

pondweed. For as far as you can see,

algae, wateride grasses, um

um let's see. Um the works. I see your

point, admitted our hero. Besides, said

the third swan, I bet you'd love to fly

farther than just circling around this

lake. We sure do. Another good point.

Our hero often imagined how lovely it

would be to stretch out and just fly fly

some more. The birds who used to be the

bird who used to be an ugly duckling

considered, "These birds may be

beautiful to look at, but they are also

beautiful inside. This is the flock for

me." So the entire flock, including

their newest friend, flapped their wings

together, and in one moment, the flock

took off in the clear blue sky. Thank

you for listening, and I hope you like

that.

And so, yeah,

it's a it's a you know, a children's

story, right? But it has like a lot of

uh a lot of deeper meanings. A lot of

deeper meanings. And it's uh it's about

um finding who you truly are and also

finding like your soul family. And so

and then you might have to deal with

people and species or different things

that don't understand you along the way

and call you ugly and call you weird.

But

what's important is your inner beauty

and also that can translate to outer

beauty. We ordered two new tarot decks.

Um, Notoria Tarot in Light and Goa Tarot

in Dark. We'll make a mega deck out of

them. That sounds amazing. I'd love to

um I look I'd love to look into those

decks. I do have a um a deck called the

Occult Tarot and it is has the Galatia

spirits on them on there. I also have um

an app. It's as above tarot and so below

tarot. And so that's pretty cool, too.

I'm just going to light my cigar back

and then I'll do readings.

Okay.

Did everyone enjoy the story? Um, yeah.

I I'll have to see I I uh it's one of

those decks I haven't really dug into

yet. I just did see the the pictures

from the Gata in there. That's the

occult tarot. What's up, Theo? How are

you?

But that looks No, Notaria. I know

there's like the um Notaria is a book of

Solomon, too. You might want to check

out um the book of It's called Art Arts

Notaria or something like that. Artaria.

It's a book of Solomon. Um it's and also

the Galatia is also the the key of

Solomon. Um

yeah it's called no it's called the ars

ars notoriia um textbook by Solomon the

13th century Latin textbook of magic now

retroactively called the grimmorary from

northern Italy. It claims to grant us

practitioner an enhancement of their

mental faculties, the ability to

communicate with angels and earthly and

heavenly knowledge through ritual magic.

And so,

oh yeah. Oh, cool. Yeah. I I um I have

the uh I have the Key of Solomon book

and uh it's an interesting book, but

it's not you have to be you have to be

be very careful, I'd say. Yeah,

follow the instructions carefully in

those books, right? Five volumes in one.

It sounds very cool.

Yeah, I love medieval grimmories or

grimoirs. Grimmores.

Let me grab some cards.

Where's my

Yes.

Okay.

Yeah. Oh, yeah. The le the megatone.

Yep.

I know. Well, if you decide to practice

the practice the ritual magic, it laid

out everything and you just uh make

Well, also but also I also recommend

this book called the the book of

Abramelon the mage.

um because that will tell you some

different

ways to look at like it doesn't put so

much emphasis on timing and everything

and it um on the timing of things and

Solomon's very about the timing and the

moon how the moon cycle and also

about prayers and things like that. So

it's called the book of um the Abra

Abramel and the mage. It's very good. It

was written by Abraham the Jew, I

believe.

Okay.

So, let's go for

a reading for

Raymond's Raymond. So, you've been just

worrying a lot about this. You know,

you've been sitting up worrying about it

like when is she going to call? When

will it happen? It's like, you know, um

it's like you're in your mind a lot

about it, right?

So Raymond I but I think this is a

position. I think you're you're starting

to get over it and whether what whatever

she reaches out if she doesn't you know

you will be okay.

Okay.

And maybe it's for the best. Whatever

happens whatever happens is for the

best. You'll meet the right person. If

it if it doesn't work out or if she's

the right person then you'll you'll get

back. And also I see this Empress. Maybe

this is all four queens of the deck. Is

this her? Is this Is this another woman?

Also, the Empress can indicate a

pregnancy, a fertility pregnancy, but

it's also a really good woman in your

future, I would say. Or maybe you you

know her now. This is in a present

position.

Is she this empress person? Right. Yeah.

Yep. Gayla, just because people um

people can get obsessed um when they

with with the meditating on the sigils

and stuff like that and and the things

like that and and some people can uh you

just have to make sure you cast a circle

of protection around you when working

with those spirits. Also, we got the

star. You know, it's also looks to me

like whoever is this person is like

she's the star of your life like

and we'll pour love into the

relationship. Is this is this her? Not I

can't tell you if that's her. You'll

have to answer that for yourself.

But it looks like you you need to stop

worrying about it because things will

work out because you got the Empress and

the Star. So, it's like sounds like a

good woman in in the future. Okay. I

hope you like that, Raymond. Yeah.

Yeah. Unfortunately, I I I always lose

my lighter last minute. Hey, Teresa, how

are you?

Yeah, guys, if anyone wants a reading in

the chat, I'll pull a few cards for

everybody and then

um

then we can do Oh, I found my lighter.

Hold on.

Then we can um do an open panel if

anyone feels like open panel. I just

like I said, it was a fun it was a fun

open panel last night. Um it was just

I'm we I'm out the negative people. You

like a card? Some cards? Okay. Good

for Gayla.

This one sticks out. Hey Gayla, this is

like a lot of fast moving communication.

This is almost in also in like the

recent past position. So some news has

come in or something has happened very

fast. Probably something that you've

been waiting for or wanting and all of a

sudden there's a lot of activity and a

lot of movement. There's so yeah the

eight of wands is very about fastm

moving energy communication

something exciting too passionate okay

gayla we also have maybe it's this guy

running in this knight of swords okay

some guy on a white horse um also with

with with the communication with the

swords right the swords are

communication maybe maybe coming in to

bring a message you have to watch out

for these new knights though they're

known for rushing in rushing out. You

know, they're a little bit flighty.

Okay,

sure. You get your next Teresa in line.

Okay. And Gayla, also I have this nine

of pentacles for you. And so there you

are in your garden of these things

you've been growing. You there's a bird

coming down like landing on your finger.

Look looks like kind of like a New

Zealand kind of bird too to me. And also

she's very serene and she's secure and

she's happy, right? Sleeping energy.

Yeah, we got Teresa and sleeping energy.

If Ma can help me keep track, um I'd

appreciate it, but it's okay. I'm kind

of good at keeping track right now. So,

hope you like that, Kayla. Yeah, be

careful with those knights, right? They

are known for for rushing in rushing

out. Maybe not the Knight of Pentacles,

but definitely the Knight of Wands and

the Knight of Swords are fast talkers.

Fast talkers. And you know,

Knight of Cups is a little bit guy, but

also a little bit romantic. Okay, so

Teresa,

Teresa's waiting for something. We have

this three of wands. You're also a

little bit guarded, but it looks like is

he Yeah, he's watching over,

not the ocean. It looks like

it might be water. There could be ships

coming in. You've been waiting for

something. You're also a little bit

guarded, but you're ready. It's like

you're at a ready stance right there for

something. You're welcome, Gail. I hope

you like that. Anytime. Okay, Teresa. We

also have this Oh, 10 of cups. A lot of

happiness. This is like a lot lot of

happiness. Um, you know, and also maybe

was with another person that you're

you're either currently or about to be

very happy with. There's there's the

rainbow, which rainbows always come

after after the uh you know, the rain

and the storms. And so the and so but

there's a lot of happiness. There's all

these full cups there. There's the

there's the children around them. Um

just happiness and they're working

together. It looks like long-term

generational happiness. And then we have

for Teresa,

you have a lot of options coming for

you. We have the seven of cups. Also a

lot of water. So there's a lot of

emotions involved in the situations, but

there's a lot of different options. You

might be confused because there might be

a lot of options available. So, you

know, you have to pick out which cups

which cup you want to focus on, you

know, because it's like if you try if

you try reaching for them all at once,

it could be a little overwhelming. Um,

it's also known as the the the

psychedelic card or and things like

that. So, I hope you like that, Teresa.

You'll be able to make your the right

decision. Just go with your heart. Go

with where you're most attracted to. Go

with what you want the most. Okay. The

energy got you.

Okay, sleeping energy. You have this

four of wands and this is like a happy

home. It's also a very guarded home, but

uh you know it's also it's also it's

welcoming in a way. It's but it's kind

of like there's a gate right there and

and a little in and you know a little

kind of above in front of it but it's so

they are celebrating. So it looks like

some celebration going on in the recent

past. Um some happy times and some

protection. Okay, you got that for you.

And then sleeping energy, we have this

queen of wands. So, you got this, this

is probably you with the little black

cat right there. Um, and holding the

sunflower, this fiery, passionate woman.

Um, really master of her emotions. Um,

but can be very emotional at the same

time sometimes. Okay. There's a lot of

passionate there. Hi, what's up? Pi.

Yeah. And I'll probably I'll after the

readings, I will start I'll start the

panel. If you if you'd like to um to

co-host, that'd be wonderful. So, uh

Queen of Wands, you got the little cat

cat the little cat's guarding. I love

the little black cat right there. It's

It's like no one no one no one no one no

one's going to no one's going to cross

this queen, right? Little black panther

with her. And energy I have for you

Knight of Cups. Is this a love offer

coming in? I just mentioned the Knight

of Cups. Now we have another Knight

coming in.

uh you know, he may be a little bit more

um immature with his emotions, but he's

still

maybe a drinker, but um he's uh he's

romantic and he's coming with a a cup of

love offer. Okay.

So, you enjoyed that sleeping energy?

You're thinking of the black cat just

seconds before the card. Yeah. So, these

are little these are little um

confirmations, you know, that we get.

And so, but I definitely sense that that

that uh that Queen of Wands um fiery

energy with you, right? Okay. So, black

cat and how about this one? Lenor, can I

come over here?

Is this my little black panther?

Yes.

Hi,

Lenor. Do you want to say hi to the chat

real quick? Here, Lenor. Where's Lenor

saying hello? You have a black cat and

her name is Waverly. A this is Lenor.

Yeah, Pi is Pi is famous.

Okay, I will post my my link. Hold on.

I'll post the link.

You're welcome, sleeping energy. I hope

you like that. If it resonated,

I'll post the link. But this is for for

pi.

um just for the moment so we could have

a chat and then we'll open up to

everybody

or unless you know I think we have nice

people in here right now so you're

welcome to to join everyone's welcome to

join okay Lenor Lenor is in the the um

Lenor yeah like like LA noir right

there's also it's Lenor from Edgar Alan

Poe um the Raven

and and he has he has Lenor

calling out for Lenor. That's where I

got inspired at. Like my hair is not

fixed. I just got out of the shower. Um

I have my lights on here. Let me You can

see my light on.

Turn this one off.

Trying to get some cool lighting in

here. there look a little bit cool. The

entire reading resonated into the garden

home vibes. Okay, good. Oh, 30 minutes.

Okay, fine. Yeah. And so if anyone wants

to come up before Pi, um I'll I'll I'll

chat with you. Hey, Beta, what's up? How

are you up? Bea, you can hop on the

panel if you want. Bea Hi's Kai will be

here in 30 minutes.

But uh I love you and uh thank you for

the other night. Hello,

Teresa.

How are you?

Hi.

Hi.

You're here. Okay, good. Okay. Um, yeah.

How are you doing? Did you like your

reading?

Yeah, I did. It was nice. I didn't know

what I was doing here. I blinked. Is

everybody seeing me or is it just you?

Everyone can see you if you don't mind.

Yeah.

You don't like that? I can turn off the

camera or I'll make it smaller if you

Okay, hold on. Hold on.

want.

Okay, I'll do I'll Okay, I'll do smaller

layout and then I'll just put you on.

Okay.

Um, take off your camera. Hold on one

second.

Um, you have to turn off your own

camera. There's a little icon with your

camera on it. You just have to push the

camera button. It should be at the

bottom of the screen. It says cam. And

then you just push that and you'll go

off camera.

Here you go. Uh oh. Yeah. Um, I'm I'm

sorry guys. I didn't mean people that

don't want to be on the camera um to uh

to be on the camera, you have to um it

should say microphone and camera

settings when you come in and then you

can um turn off the camera and if you

don't want to be on the show and so I'm

I apologize Teresa, but thank you.

You're beautiful, you know. But yeah, I

understand we have people that don't

want to be on on cam and stuff like

that. So,

okay. Yeah, you can come back, Teresa.

I'm sorry. Um just push the push the

camera button and make sure the camera's

off. I think you just ended the or

exited the stream. Yeah. How are you

beta? Good to see you. And yeah, thank

you for having me on the other night on

your panel and you're

always so kind and and sweet and

complimentary. Yeah, Teresa is

beautiful. But uh yeah, here we go.

Teresa. Yeah, perfect. Oh, hold on.

Tesa, make sure your camera is um turned

off if you don't want to be on um

camera. I um I see you. I see you.

Maybe. But okay, we'll try. shut the

whole thing off here. Okay, got it. Now

I'm off. Okay, good.

Yeah, perfect. Okay.

Okay, because I'm I'm in bed.

Yeah, I understand. It's

time.

Yeah, I'm lounging.

Yeah,

thank you. But yeah, wonderful to talk

to you um in person or in Yeah. over the

over the internet and phone, you know,

and wonderful doing a reading for you.

And I will do it. I will pull um another

card from a soul truth deck for you if

you'd like.

Okay.

I'll pull one more card.

All right.

Okay. This out.

Well, this is a different kind of this

is an oracle card. And so this is like

this this will be a question to ask

yourself. And I'm just

real quick, but then I'll I'll do this

I'll do your reading real quick. Okay.

So, for Teresa,

hello beta.

Hi. I'm listening. I'm listening to

Teresa's greeting.

Okay, Teresa, take this card and I'll

put myself on solo real quick. Solo.

Okay. Okay.

Teresa, you got this card. This card

says, "Am I willing?" Okay. And it says,

"You are on the edge of something great.

Can you feel it? Yes, there is risk,

uncertainty, and imperfections ahead.

Failure is certain, and vulnerability is

a requirement. You must have to trust

yourself more uh than ever before. You

will reach the dream, but you must

stretch yourself into a whole new level

of belief and and a willingness in order

to move forward with courage. So today's

soul action says to be brave, follow

your heart's compass, and lift the lid

on your own dreams. Today's mantra is

it's possible. Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

There you go. I hope you like that.

That's deep. It's really deep.

Yeah. And so I think that's that's a

perfect um thing to the question to

meditate on and hopefully it resonated

and it's something that you've been

thinking about. So

Oh yeah. Yeah. Okay.

Hi.

Hello.

Say hi to

What's your name?

Hi.

It's Peta, but everyone says it's

easier.

I'm sorry. And I said that I the same

I've been saying it wrong the whole

time. I'm sorry.

Okay.

No, everyone does that. Everyone I even

do it myself. I'm like beta. I mean it's

the same to me at this point.

But yeah. Did you like Sykes reading?

Yes. It was nice. It's leaves me open to

a few things or been contemplating.

Good. Well, that's that's what I love to

hear. It's like I love to hear that

because it's not telling you this is

what this is will happen or this

whatever whatever it's about you asking

yourself the questions and confirmations

for you and and that's why when I say

when it resonates it like

um sound like what you've been thinking

of right

yes it it resonates with yes

wonderful opening that can of worms is

something I just don't know if I'm ready

for yet

well I would say it's always better to

like take the leap of faith because on

this earth, you know, we have the

opportunity to take the leap of faith.

We have um I feel like you have the

resources and the everything you need. I

think it's all about the confidence. I'm

just sensing I'm saying it's like it's

like don't don't um doubt yourself and

uh and just be confident in yourself and

go after your dream. Right.

Right. It's just the stuff is going to

get stirred when I do, you know? That's

just I just don't like conflict,

Conflict.

right?

That's that conflict will come when

you're being revolutionary and when

you're when you're doing new things and

when maybe like when you're

not uh when other people have

conflicting interests and things like

that, but just uh be brave and know you

can do it. Okay. I really feel that for

you.

Okay. Good. I know I can.

Good.

It's gonna be funny though. Okay. Thank

you. Sometimes I want to do something or

a lot of times but I get overwhelmed

because I overthink it, you know, right?

Sometimes you just you just do it.

I know you know.

Yeah. And then I'm the same. I have I

feel I'm not diagnosed or anything, but

I feel like I have ADHD. As I'm getting

older, I'm like there must be something

wrong with my brain because I want to do

a lot of things and then I'm like I'm

going to do that and then I'll be like

no, I want to do this. I'll change my

mind all the time.

That reminds me, beta of this energy

which I pulled earlier. This this um

this is like the eight of cups and

there's because there's so many options.

There's so many things you want to do,

right? And it's like you have to

pick the pick the cup. It can be

confusing and it can be overwhelming

because there's so many possibilities

and so many wonderful things out there.

But I think, you know, focus on what

makes you happiest and what really your

heart is attracted to and then you

really can't go wrong. Right.

Right. Right. Right.

Right.

And I'm like time is like short. We

just, you know, I mean, we just got to

do it cuz they fly by like that.

just like my guest last night um D

Oceans was on and she talks about how

she would just say oh because she's you

know she's like she said she's very you

know like very uh she's very youthful at

heart and very young but she's like

she's like I I would say I'm too old to

to be a streamer. I'm too old to to be

on YouTube to to have a show. I'm a I

won't be able to do it. no one will like

like all these just negative thoughts

and it took her a while to to do it and

now she she like has met her soul tribe

and she's met all these like wonderful

people and supporters and is and she's

doing a really great job of it and also

I had I was the same way I to start

streaming I wasn't even able to talk in

a chat when I first like found chats I

was like too shy to talk into the chats

and then eventually I started chatting

and then I started chatting more and

then I started um be a moderator and

then I started um doing open panels and

then I started my channel and um would

just do like little short videos. I only

had like three videos that I did and

stuff like that at the beginning and

then eventually I

cannot imagine you ever being shy sight.

I can never imagine you being like shy

at all. You seem like so confident and

yeah you're you're good with everybody.

Jamie, I'm sorry about your mom. I'm I'm

hoping and I'm praying that everything

is going to be okay and um yeah, just

stay positive. I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm sorry to hear that, Jamie. And I

hope everything's okay. And we're going

to say let's say prayer for Jamie's mom

and uh yeah, Jamie's awesome person. And

you were saying

Teresa and Psych. How did you guys meet?

Yeah.

On what the site? I just popped in his

his um

YouTube. Yes.

Oh really?

Cool. Well, you know what? You you guys

both both got really lucky cuz he's like

a really really good person and you seem

like a really sweet person. You're going

to love him and he's funny, too.

I just something I just stumbled on. So,

I thought, well, confirmation. I need to

be here.

Yep. And I believe I believe things that

I believe in I believe that in that I

love when people just find this dream

like because you know there's a lot of

people here that I I I just know for a

while and but it's always great when

like new new wonderful people come here

and also great that you came on the

panel when the panel was I'm trying to

keep the panel like a little bit calmer

and yeah so I want I'm glad that I got

to give you your full reading and uh

I actually punched a button and I didn't

know what I was doing but it's good.

Well, it was meant to be. It was meant

to be. Right.

Right.

You're saying be like how confident I

am. Like I really um I have a lot of

social anxiety. I am very shy like in in

like my public life. This is like um I'm

an introverted person, but I uh I'm

confident in in front of the camera like

well now I am especially I was I was

very shy at first when I started this.

Um, but uh it's like and now I've just

gotten confident because I just get good

feedback and now I'm used more used to

talking to people. But this is basically

my my uh my more my social life now. I

don't have much of a social life outside

of outside of the show, but I'm happy

I'm happy with that. I've just had a lot

of problems with people in real life.

And so,

see, that's been kind of like I'm the

opposite in real life. I'm like

not self-conscious at all. I'll be out

like whatever. I I'm always been like

this like since I was young I would run

away from the camera and I came up you

know I came up especially when I drink I

get crazy whatever but um I'm I think

I'm shy like definitely camera shy I

mean like as family parties I'm the one

that's always like I'll take the picture

cuz I don't even want to be in the

pictures like no no no there's not that

many pictures of you I'm like they're

pushing me in there but yeah and you

know you and pie you guys like motivate

me So, you know, I'm gonna try to count.

I guess I got to have my hair done and

everything, you know, being seen in

public.

And I was ready for bed. Oh my gosh, I'm

in bed.

That's it. Sometimes you just want to be

comfortable, you know,

and a lot lately, though.

Yeah.

Yeah. People get mad at me. They're

like, "Oh, you know, you you never came

up on your panel. You have a bunch of

people with It's like, so what? We're

we're communicating and socializing. You

want to come up, come up, be

comfortable. Even better. If you don't

want to, it's fine, you know.

Yeah. Yeah. It's just perception, you

know.

Then we can we can kind of evaluate

other people's perception. It just kind

of it just leaves doors open that all

the possibilities that of why people

might do things the way they are or

whatever. And just I don't know. I just

I kind of closed off. I've become the

invert, you know? I'm just closed off

from people.

Yeah.

I'm I'm I'm more of a hermit kind of

like you know my my life path is nine

and nine is like the hermit tarot card

and so I'm comfortable with drawing

withdrawing and it's like that gives me

energy and things like that but then I

do get to a point where I get kind of

bored and then I like and then I like

can kind of like go a little crazy when

I go back out and I go I like to

I like to party a little bit but then I

take long periods of not not partying

and stuff and so

Right. Yes, that's kind of what I'm to

do right now.

But I'm I'm happy at home alone with my

babies, my, you know, Wely and Bonnie

and several of them.

You have cats or dogs?

We got cats. Oh, awesome.

More cats. We have a lot of cat lovers

on like I just noticed we have so many

cat lovers. I have eight cats. I'm

Teresa and uh

Good. Good. I've got five little boxes

today. Yeah,

I love them.

VA has some beautiful cats. VA has

beautiful cats. Beta's channel is

actually called Beat's Kitties. And uh

yeah, the funny thing is people are

like, "Why are they called kitties when

they're cats?" you know, cuz they got I

created my channel in 2019 and like you

I I just started doing streams like 3

months ago, but I would just be in the

chats and I would take panels once in a

while and now it's like 2025. My cats

are almost six and they're like, why is

it kitties? It's like, well, what do you

want me to do? Change my whole channel

name? It was based on my kitties.

Kitties tuxedoes.

My son, my son's daughter, our

girlfriend brought a a cat in here and I

didn't know her name because she has one

eye. She's she's lost one of her eyes,

but I've been calling her Bitty Kitty.

She don't have a name, but by Kitty.

Oh my good.

Oh, that's so sweet.

Acclimated well. Yeah, she's acclimated.

Well, she was scared at first, but yeah,

her name is Bitty Kitty. I didn't have a

name for it, but it's funny. I run

across

here. Hi, baby.

This one is a boy. Well, both of them

are boys.

And then I have two boys.

This one is Muhammad Ali. Like Mama Ali,

like you know, he's a little

He's got a long mustache.

Yeah.

over here. Just leave it.

And then you have to rotate if you you

know it's Yeah. another time.

Yes. Yes. Yeah. Mine are asleep right

now. Few hours they're gonna be up like

little rampages to run into the house.

Is that magic or tricks? Oh, it's

tricks. Okay.

I always get magic tricks and stuff.

My body. My body.

Where's my baby?

And Rudy's Rudy's sitting over here,

too. Like I have a new cat, um,

Teresa, and his name is Rudy, and he's

like a he's 15 or 16 years old. And, uh,

he moved in a few weeks ago, and he was

hiding under the bed for the first

couple weeks, and now he's like now he's

like cuddling with me and and gets up on

the couch and sits with me and like when

I sleep and stuff. So, he's and the cats

get along with him well. And beta, you

know about Tux? Like what happened? Um,

Tux.

No,

my cat he's well Tux is my tuxedo cat.

He's like he was a black cat with with

the white on him on his chest and um he

like he doesn't get along with Lenor and

there's another cat, Marbles. And like

um Marbles scares him and like he

doesn't really get along with my cats,

but my neighbors have two cats and like

so he was like starting to like go to my

neighbor's house and stuff like that.

And then so it was her birthday today

and so she asked her boyfriend. She's

like all I want for she has two cats.

She has like a cat named Lola and a cat

named Peanut. And so she would and she'd

always be like not wanting to really

bring my cats inside because she didn't

she was like, "Oh, um he she

didn't he was not vaccinated."

But so for for her birthday, she asked

he can be vaccinated so she can bring

him inside and like and have him stay

there and and he gets along with their

dog. I can show you this picture of him

with their dog. Um, well, I can't show

it to you now because it's on this

phone, but he's like

adopted your neighbor and you got the

best of both worlds. So, you know,

And they have a golden retriever and

Yeah.

then he cuddles with the golden

retriever. Like, so he likes dogs. He's

like more of a dog person.

Tuxedo cats are black cats and tuxedo

cats have a lot of dogike qualities.

They're like they're kind of like more

like I heard they have 30% dog like

qualities like 30 more% than regular

cast. Like mine will greet me at the

door. They're like guard dogs. When I go

to bed they follow me there. Like that's

why they're always here. These two

tuxedo babies.

Someone just

I don't know.

Someone just beta and their name was I

have a crush on beta but they couldn't

bring them.

Someone has a crush on you beta. Secret

admire.

Well, last night somebody came on my and

they said I said it said said I miss you

and that they were being a little bit

provocative in their backstage video. I

think it was just meant for me to see

Nick Johnson.

I don't know skateboarder guy that with

the nice abs.

Oh yeah.

Yeah, you would like him. He's he's

cute.

Okay.

He's

got like blonde hair and blue eyes and

like a sixpack and he's like, you know,

I think Yeah, he's he's like

Nick. He was on your panel last night.

He was he was doing you card readings.

His own version of card readings. He's a

goof. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. Yeah. Oh yeah.

And he he lifted up his his abs and he

it said it said a pyana on a and then it

said gymnick later in the show. He put

stickers on his

shout outs for the ladies on his chest.

I was like, "Where's my I was like,

"Where's my uh where's my stickers?" And

he's like, "Oh, I don't have enough."

So, but that's that's fine. I

understand. But yeah, he was like he's a

he's a cool cool guy. Yeah. Nick Nick

Johnson. Yeah. He's awesome. And then

but yesterday, Gina, we had this guy.

He's like um he's like from Denmark and

he's like a b professional basketball

player in Denmark. The guy with the

watch. You saw him, remember?

Oh, yeah. Denmark. Andy. Yeah.

Yeah. And uh and uh and then I asked Pi,

I was like, "Pi, tell him to take off

his shirt." And then she's like, she's

like, "Um, Psych Psyche asked for you to

take off his shirt." He's like, "What?"

And he's like, "I'll just do it for you,

Pie." And she's like, "And so it's like

our segment called feed the

fag."

He was um he was wild yesterday from I

saw him on another panel and I don't

know if you want me to say what he did,

but you know, he was doing some snow.

Oh yeah.

And then and then he was here. So I was

like, "Oh my god, this guy is like high

as a kite, you know,

and I was like kind of just watching and

doing my stuff cuz I kind of multitask

as I'm doing other stuff while I'm

listening to you and writing in the

chat." But um yeah, who is that

backstage?

Let me see.

Oh, it's Chris.

We have a private Chris.

Yeah,

it's not Chris. are bugging. Chris

doesn't talk like that. Chris Hall,

he was on her. I was on early. Yeah.

Yeah. Teresa, sometimes I do have like a

little bit of a wild panel sometimes.

You You came on at the right time where

it's it's a little bit

maybe on the weekend if you ever like um

have like a little bit of wine, you you

know, you can kind of you know, tolerate

it. But if you're just relaxing and

trying to go to bed, it's like what the

hell is and I've been there when I'm

just like I'm watching a panel and it's

chaotic. I can just imagine mine get

really bad.

I'm actually not doing it for a whole

month. It's like I'm No, I'm not one

month. One week. One week at least.