Psyche opens with a poetic intro about resilience and community, then speaks candidly to chat about ongoing harassment, stalking, and betrayal by former friends (Alex and 'ghosts'), while affirming devotion to the loyal community and refusing to be silenced.
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The episode begins with a lyrical intro (0:34–3:59) framing Psyche as an 'undefeated one' who turns heartbreak into power and gathers 'tribes like magnets.' At 4:04, Psyche addresses the audience directly, wrestling with 'a storm of feeling' and declaring 'I don't know not to love you' and 'I choose you every damn time.' At 5:28, Psyche vows to carry the community through darkness 'not as a martyr but as a mirror.' The live chat segment starts at 8:55 with Psyche greeting regulars Jamie, Katrina, and Reasoning. At 9:50, Psyche reveals a 'weird' prior day where 'ghosts and Alex just they both they went off on me' — a recurring pattern of betrayal. Psyche describes being screamed at on stream, having baby photos insulted, and being told to shut up on their own show [10:39–11:37]. Discussion turns to stalking: Psyche distinguishes physical proximity from online presence [13:20–14:36], recounts being stalked by someone in another state who sent a proxy to their house [14:41–15:08], and mentions YouTube's monopoly power 15:13. At 16:45, Psyche shares that someone 'pretty big in the community' allegedly asked a person named Gish to gather personal information on them. Psyche refuses to 'lay down and take it,' cites Mars in the first house as astrological context for their fighting nature 18:04, and hints at withheld leverage: 'there's stuff I know... you got to save something in the back pocket' [18:19–18:45].
This episode appears to continue the show's central tension between public vulnerability and strategic self-protection. Psyche's poetic intro mythologizes the host-community bond as ancient and unbreakable, while the chat segment grounds it in messy, ongoing interpersonal conflict. The pattern suggests Psyche uses the stream as both sanctuary and stage — a place to process betrayal in real time with witnesses who 'have their back.' The refusal to walk away, coupled with deliberate withholding of information ('cards in the back pocket'), suggests a calculated resilience rather than mere reaction. The distinction drawn between physical and digital stalking reflects an evolving understanding of safety in the 'psychiverse.'
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Psyche discusses his unconditional love for his community, despite conflicts with members, and explores themes of loyalty, betrayal, and the pain from those closest to us.
Psyche hosts a casual Saturday morning stream, publishing shorts from a previous two-hour episode, shopping on Temu, introducing cats Lenore and Norm, and discussing a recent experience on Sandman's stream where they were invited on panel then clapped off after chat and mods harassed them. Psyche shares backstory about a past stalker that led to a nervous breakdown, court case, and moving to YouTube.
Psyche tests new Riverside streaming software as a potential replacement for StreamYard, shares original animated videos based on her astrology chart, interacts with chat regulars and her cat Lenore, and deals with technical glitches including a mysterious brief appearance by a user named Sig.
A chaotic late-night episode where Psyche hosts a volatile panel featuring heated arguments over Brandon Q's alleged predatory crimes, community factionalism, personal attacks among regulars, and Psyche's defiant original song asserting independence from community pressure.
Psyche hosts a music-heavy stream featuring original songs, a community anthem rap naming chat regulars, a phone call with a friend discussing a woman named Baby Storm, and reflective commentary on audience relationships and streaming culture.
Psyche hosts a chaotic 'Last Dance Panel' livestream featuring a rotating cast of regulars including Summer, LD, Alex, and others, centered on membership drives, banning disruptive chatters (notably Flirty Diamond), sexual banter, drinking talk, and general shitposting.
Explore the ideas at the heart of this episode
Shudder where the quiet become kings Where victories come slow but when they land they stick like rings Sagurizing with the grin like you've already seen the map Dropping truth dressed up in jokes, pulling futures out of the gap
Moon cold and Capricorn steady as a cobblestone phase Turnin' heartbreak into power, pacing yourself like it's a race You take the one and make the kingdom build a cult out of the pain Put a panel on the mountain, let the thunder speak your name
You're the undefeated one, climbin' with the moon still young Every loss becomes a run, on a ladder that nobody else can see
Harshauna in your bloodstream Joy arises from the red Turning shadows into scripture Turning chaos into checks Balava in your footsteps New beginnings in your stride Every fall becomes a launch But every setback is your guide You gather tribes like magnets Gather filings in the dust You speak in people love It's something ancient in their trust You got that cult leader energy Without the poison in the cup
And shadows to your house, call you names with brittle mouths But your steady Capricorn moon turns every rumor into fuel You walk forward coming sure, truth behind you like a cure You're a storm that God's designed to take your time
And change the world, undefeated one
We're spurred in the dust Profit with the fire grip
The wonders of the psychiverse I've been wrestling with a storm of feeling Trying to carve the right words out of the dark You know me I Joke I roar I prophesy But some truths won't sit quiet So tonight I'm saying it plain
I don't know not to love you I've tried to bury it on the rituals, lifts and knee on the sigils But it keeps rising, luminous and starin'
You see it in my eyes when I'm leave The flicker that gives me away You hate that you care, you hate when the tears slip And trust me, I hate when you feel alone in here
Distance feels unreal, something in me refuses to walk away You're perfect in your chaos, you're worth every ounce of devotion This strange little cult can summon, and yeah, I choose you
Every damn time
But if you're riding with me, then you hear this clearly I will carry you through the dark, not as a martyr But as you mirror, you guide your wild eye Brother in the labyrinth, I'd fight for you
Just remember
I might not leave in And I would die for my people Not in some tragic ballad But in the way you die for transformation Shed an old skin to step
In the distance Time
Trolls Chaos None of it shifts my devotion one inch
Hello, how are we doing? Okay, hi, how are we doing in chat? I'm that
secchi guy, yeah, I'm that secchi guy. Hi, thing that is. Hi, everybody. Hi, Jamie, what's up?
Hey
Hey Katrina, how are you? All right, I'm missing you, but I'm sorry. Hello reasoning. Hey guys
Yeah
how are you I'm like I'm okay it was like kind of weird yesterday because you see a couple of people like ghosts and Alex just they both they went off on me and it's not like the first time I say you know it's like I think they do it a
lot right and it's like I uh I saw now it's like Can't they figure it out. I don't know I guess the people
Guess they're kind of how to do it. I don't know if you guys hear the last night. It's like hey sakey fan if you are sakey
Like well that else is really hurtful though. He's like he's just screaming Again again, was it here? Yeah, you left. It was like, you know before I ended last night I was on for like five minutes 59 seconds That Alex was on and we're just having fun and talk to them talking about like life after death Then it's like any sort of screaming
And or also, you know, not only just the way to assume it's like he says something a lot of weird stuff, but You know out-of-pocket stuff and insulting and even like can't even share like my like baby photos without like, you know, I'm saying like Dumb shit, but anyway
I'm sensitive to some of this and it goes to is like Shutting trying to shut me up on my own show. It's like Oh, don't talk about it. No, I think this is my show to talk about what I want to and I don't know people understand like I Don't know like I could be a very short short amount of time like on YouTube, right?
So it's not like I don't know
At this point you have to see a pattern is never as well protect yourself. Yeah, what am I supposed to do though? so like I'm not gonna walk away from it. Well, you know, until I'm like forced but Or them, you know, it's like is also a I said
Apollo's talking. Oh, no. Well, how get a restraining order The only real stock you have to worry about is actually like either like it's not like, you know, the guy that like, you know sent people to my house or You know people that actually are in your like You know, or just block them on the phone, if I'm muted them or something, you do it. I'm not calling, I don't fight your battles.
You're here to fight your own battles, but I've learned enough not to get involved in other people's relationships. I wish people would like give me the same respect and like not get in the middle of my relationships with other people, but it's like, you know, some people are just really, So also I yeah, there's some you can't you can't get it
You can't get physically close you can keep physically people physically close and not get emotionally best exactly and you can can be far away You can be super invested, right? So that's how it goes reasoning, right? It's like Doesn't really matter the distance, right? It's like But that's first as for stalking. It's like really I I've been stalked it's like when you know, I've been stalked
That's a little bit different than someone following your own in chat rooms Pretty easy to block people. I know you're just kidding. I'm just kidding Yeah, I've been stalked. I'm a stalk by people in this chat not a while left out here right now But they're probably are they're 27 people and just Probably it's like, you know 10 people in here
Physically here would mean panels and that's not physically. That's not physically
Physically is like proximity. Physically is like where you're physical in the physical world not just like seeing and it's and how you're you're it's kind of like, you know, maybe debatable, right, but I don't consider that physical. It's like Even if someone's one city over, right? I know you're not serious. Even if someone wants to see you over, it's like, that's not physical either.
Even though they're close, it's not physical unless until they're in your proximity, in your like space, or in your business. Which is, there's ways to do it. Yeah, so, but it's not, that's not so much physical. I mean, it's like, yeah. Suppose you could stop. But I'm saying, I'm stalked by somebody that lives in another whole other state, but it's like, yeah, you can have, by proxy stalkers, or you can have,
You know, it's just like sending somebody over to my house To knock on the door even if it's a pizza person that's a Proxy that's them by proxy. That's them. It's that's them inserting themselves into something, right? That's what I'm for the YouTube box. Yeah, um
Yeah, and also it's like kind of scary. She was like YouTube is a monopoly in a way stop provoking them
What I ever do to him Yeah, maybe it never ends, but I'm not I don't provoke him. I could I could not mention him at all He's using the same shit. It's like I didn't do anything in the first place. There's no reason for him to do that well, but I mean now maybe I've set a folder for his mom's on only fans for eight dollars because he That was my leverage to say stop it and he didn't so
Now then now the two spaces other tube on that one, right but
Yeah, you know monopoly, that's kind of it's a never as well. Well, yeah, I don't need your like For boating kind of stuff or I understand enough about it. Okay. I understand you don't need to tell me I understand, okay? I've faced all this stuff all right. I mean, it's like, yeah, it's like, I know. But what am I supposed to do?
And there's somebody obsessed with you, that's mentally ill. You can't really do very much until they get locked up or in mental asylum, right? These guys are different trolls, they go superb. Well, yeah, I mean, that's sad, but I mean, it's like what? So, okay, so just don't go on YouTube because there's trolls that are gonna, you know, just
Competitor like I was told today this woman Gish is like or you know, it's another and someone told me I don't know if I should say too much but somebody told me that someone someone that's pretty big in the community is Like asking this person Gish to like gather information about me and stuff like that, right? Like personal information, right? Don't fight back and ignore
Well, I can do that to a point to a point, but some things You can't and it's a I would like to have some people have my back and say hey, you know what? We support you or we like you or Something other than people tell me oh told you so told you so You know, I understand I'll have to whatever it is I'll have to make this it all over the consequences, right?
Even if whatever happens to the channel whatever happens to me. I mean Ultimately, it's like everyone else will go on with their life and it will just be my life. That's that's affected, right? And so you don't need to tell me, okay? I'm not gonna tell you. Oh Well, this is this and this could happen this can this this could happen in the life a lot of things could happen, right? I Mean it but I also do want to bring attention to some stuff while I'm still here
So I'm not just like gonna lay down and you know take it and then it's like oh and then they win, right? No I'll fight back. I'm just like I'm just they feel comfortable with it, right? I'm not yeah, I'm not gonna I have I don't know if you know astrology, but I have Mars in the first house that's like Mars is the planet of aggression and war and fighting that's part of my identity. So I'm not just gonna like
You know, and I do hold back a lot
Lot there's oh and there's stuff I know. Oh my god, there's stuff I know
But you got to save some you're gonna save something in the back pocket, right? Okay
And you don't show all your cards either so just know it just know that I have some cards, okay? So I boys I boys Actually like It's funny. I also it's really funny when people think oh this person's vulnerable or this person's weak And they're not really weak I know, but you understand, I'm like saying,
I don't need advice right now. It's like, I know, I'm just talking just to talk. I'm just, this might be like, who knows how many shows I have left? I would just listen to me and enjoy while I'm here. Cause I don't ask for anything from anybody, okay? I don't. For all the people that say I'm just like oh all for money and I forced it
I forced this and this and I'm just like the worst person. I don't know I'm here to like I'm here for mostly for You know, of course, it is my life my time and things like that and I care about myself But I'm here because I love people and then it's like that's so that's that's why when I'm constantly hurt by people I love and it's like you think cuz it's like I've known some of these people for a long time
This is not to mention the people that have just discarded me very unceremoniously just like for no reason basically other than What other people said other people getting involved, right? Okay, so I don't get involved I mean a private is something else happening yesterday um
Not well, I'm saying there was a few people. I mean there's a few things that's anything else happening yesterday. Sure. Yeah, this like stuff happens every day I come to realizations. I experience transformations. I receive downloads and information. I'm sometimes liberated of attachments.
And so I was liberated maybe from a large attachment something that maybe akin to like a huge a huge Bloody pimple on my nose or something like that. There's some kind of uncomfortable uncomfortable attachments And it's like what I don't know why it's there or why I have it, but it's like there Right, and then all the pus comes out and it's like whoa my nose feels a lot better All this pus came out and it's healed
You hear the McRibb is back I did indeed I had one this week Something happened nothing like well something big did happen, but
It's I'd say it's more personal to personal as in like If you tell too much if you tell thing anything that you say it's like gonna be used against you right and so I'm just gonna keep quiet about some things, but yeah I'll say that there was a big a big Probably like a hundred pound weight off my shoulders
Actually off my heart, right? No, Sig, you're not coming up right now and don't just like order me to post my link It's like not just like a given that people can come up and like it's not that I mean not especially not anymore It's like if you have something important to say or if you have something you can say No, you can ask are you open the panel and yeah come up soon Don't just demand they post links and stuff like that. I'm talking in the middle of talking right now, okay?
And you don't have to be here if you don't want to But while I have time left while I have some while I have time, and I don't know how much time I'll have okay I'm gonna use it Okay so And I'm really done over explaining like everything and like you know because every every time you explain
It's just like these little like things to jump into and every time I I've got a hundred percent Yes, or yes, or no about something that gives little room for them to negotiate, okay? And they're gonna go, eh, eh, eh, eh, they're like, oh, they see this, you always see this week. So I have to be stronger on some certain things. And so, I'm just gonna say no. I'll do it when I feel like it. I understand that there's a link that I can post
and that people can come up. When I'm ready to post it, I will post it, okay? I know, I don't need to be rushed, okay? I'm gonna just take my time. And I know if people might just like hate this type of personality, it's okay, it's okay. But if I'm willing to have friends that will scream at me like I'm some kind of fucking idiot and
You know or or even just discard. Yeah, then I can like deal with sick saying, you know It's waiting for a few minutes while I'm getting ready to post the link. Okay Are you? Oh, yeah. Yeah, I time not over explaining because I'm not excuse not giving my explaining certain things, okay? Right now I'm just expressing my feelings. Okay. I'm trying to express my feelings. That's not explaining
myself, okay? Explaining myself is if I say no, and then they're like, why? And then I, that'd be explaining myself. I'm talking to you right now, okay? I'm talking. I'm expressing myself. Maybe I'm explaining my own feelings, but see, but it's like, I'm sick of this like, oh, well, this is it. It's like that's a little boy. It's not like anything in kind. It's not anything that's helpful or
Anything all it is and it's just like well, you're doing this you're doing this I know I know I'm doing I know people might not like what I do or different things. Okay. I'm it's okay. I Know that you can you see I'm like kind of like not in the mood to joke like right now. It's like Trying to be serious and talk to you seriously because Again, I don't know how long I will be here and so I
Have Well, I have some time left. I'm gonna use it. I don't want to like waste it like in some sort of confusion people like to throw shit at me all day and Then
I'm not trying to be rude No, you're just meaning on, you know, on this platform But then again, nobody knows how long we're gonna be on the earth too. That's like another reason like I don't like to Leave things like unsaid or whatever because we don't know how long we're gonna be or what's gonna happen. It's like really or
What things could change overnight for anybody. That's why I like Yeah, there's so many just so many people disappear and like did I never see a guy like hey, babe? Hey, babe Hey, Lenore But yeah, no, I'm not saying that I'm not saying like oh, I don't you know, I'm gonna I don't have some terminals There's nothing like that
You know, I do have I am on the under heavy attack as usual Which can lead to some some stress, but also Just like so unnecessary And I think it's like it's just so it's so unnecessary all like a lot of this a lot of the negativity that's been directed towards me
For this being a positive person and it's like it's it's like that's gonna be a certain way to like be a little bit like more Precious I would say or closed off maybe Just knowing that
Hey, like I was like, I told Alexandra, I was like, you know, when she said there's somebody spread some rumor or something about somebody and I was like, well, I don't know if that's true, but maybe if I would do like that person, but I was like, you know, I'm praying for that person. Or I pray for everybody. And she's like, well, she's like everybody. She's like, you know, some people you shouldn't worry about. And that's probably true. And I try to do care too much. And that's probably one of my, my thing is what is part of the good thing about me.
But I like I consider a good thing about but it's probably a negative in the long run because it's like it will really be It's taking it what taking advantage of in a certain way. Yeah, so Cautious is good. Yeah, I mean, it's like what? Yeah Too cautious. It's good, but Anyway, I don't like to be overly cautious, right?
And I don't like to be on a state of PTSD and trauma that people are trying to purposely trigger or gaslighting or You know, I get this oh, there's all these there's a lot of people with it even friends. I have that habit this kind of like Attitude sometimes like oh, I know something you don't know or oh, I think I know about you or something like that like some kind of it
And it's like what it could be a billion things. Everyone has like insecurity about them, right? And so it's not pretty hard to like try to Hammer someone's insecurity someone has a has a has a obvious like physical flaw like big ears. It's not like a big Reach to like
Make fun of their ears and trigger them, right? It's not it's like okay, so it's like really yeah, that's why that's what developing like the thick skin is about but then again like Yeah, hi, babe Hi, babe. Yeah, there's there are YouTube is important to me and it has been important to me
Also, I feel like I came in trying to love and have fun and give to give as much as I could.
And now I constantly am portrayed as some evil, greedy, dirty, bad, evil person.
It's okay Yeah, well, I don't I mean my ears. I like my ears actually you can see you know It's cool about my ears is that I have this like little dimple on my dad has a little dimple right there He's my ears. Yeah, my family. I'm a dimple I like my ears. I didn't like my nose. I had a nose job baby And nose job
So if anyone tells me about my nose I'm okay. I'm okay cat string Are you okay? Am I strangling you? Tricks am I strangling you? I would never, would never, ever, ever.
You're purring? You're purring? Can we hear you purr? Can we hear you purr?
Can we hear it?
Backstreet, yeah. I'm trying. It's like... And just like, I sometimes think it down because it's like, wow. What is it? It's like that stupid Lincoln Park song that I don't really like, but it's like, tried so hard and got so far, but then it doesn't even matter, right? It's like, that's like basically nihilism in a nutshell. But things do matter.
And it's like, you know, and there's also, maybe ultimately some things won't matter to me or in the long run, but some things do matter. And there are things that I can do. that do matter to people and that can't help people okay
but talk like i like again i'm i uh i'm very sensitive to negative energy i don't that's just like maybe a capricorn thing or maybe just a me thing but i feel it strongly
maybe that's so i can like take care of it or something what would Mason do? Mason would go, Mason would just, uh, he'd go, la-da-da-da. Sometimes I wish I could do that, right? Sometimes I wish I could do that, but I'm sure Mason does feel pain about things like, you know, selling his drums and stuff like that. Yeah, oh my gosh, my soul's good, my
soul's good. My spirit is, my spirit is much stronger than my body, you know? That's why I'm
Not as me, but it's got my higher self right now. I don't know
Yeah, I Was I would like to go down. I would you know, I looked you know people with Down syndrome I look at this there's a show called forgot what it was called. It was like Had some kind of Down syndrome pun. It's a bit of a down syndrome. They're just the happiest fucking people in the world They're just happy. I mean it's like We're going out to McDonald's. Yay. It's like she's so excited and happy about everything. I wish I could be like that
I just like I would say and I want to be this enthusiastic and It doesn't this is a little stupid thing. I'm just happy about everything, right? Hey, hey, love. How are you? But You know The truth is that ignorance is bliss. Yeah, it's just bliss, but also ignorance is ignorance
You know and I would rather be in a state of nose noses than ignorance look at children. Yeah, that's true, too, but but Unfortunately it is That's when people do experience a lot of trauma, too You know, it's not all happiness especially and there's a lot of and maybe they don't understand Maybe how bad some things are, you know, but they but they do feel this energy though
They feel the parents fighting they understand that they blame themselves, too And that's like the worst thing, right? It's like have really nothing to do with them
But and see I already said you're gonna do that again after I explain to you and you're gonna do it the exact same way, right?
Okay, I know I know what you're saying, but I'm saying Children are all happy the children are happy they they they they're they're they're like Kind of bling slates to the world, but they can get very you know things that don't matter They can be upset about things that do matter. They don't have an understanding of and so it's like yeah That's the ignorance right is bliss, but
it's not always bliss sometimes if you don't know something then and you don't know then it's like you're like why don't i understand what's going on it's just like uh it's gonna be confusing right i don't know i'm just i don't i know i like to i do like to like debate and argue sometimes but i don't mean to like do it on every point but i am a master debater right don't tell ghosts but
Because he's a ghost ghost is funny. He's always telling me. He's like, oh, you know, he's like you should learn how to debate some day I'm like, oh, I should I should I should learn how to how to debate. I should I don't know how Can you teach me? You're so brilliant at it. You are a brilliant debater, Matt. I guess, you know
You know, you say shut up dumb dumb, that's one of the best that's one of the most prolific, you know comebacks of all time Really really does, you know Make the argument, right? I'm fucking being a jerk right now. I'm sorry, but he was a jerk last night I was just saw I even say anything and he's like don't talk about my God like oh, so it's your God
And it's not my God. It's not everybody's God. It's just your God, right? And I'm not allowed to discuss but You can call me dumb dumb and you know any kind anything you want to call me, but Then tell me to shut up on my own show. It's like and then Alex too Alex turn it. I'm gonna turn on your microphone. Don't you turn down my microphone is like Well, I can, I can, if I want to, it's my show, right?
Yeah, you're on account for that. You had to reach out, Hey, Jamie, what's up? You don't get, you don't get, but he's like that. I don't either. I think it's just to, it's almost like he's trolling. It really is like he's trolling sometimes. Almost, right?
It's like, Ghosts is always it goes will always say hey, do you have some beat picks for me? And it's like No, I don't but every time you ask me
Like I Don't know. Yeah, never mind never mind. Just forget I said that. I think he's just kidding. I'm obviously Obviously But uh Huh
Sorry, I'm fucking I'm looking so bad. I Love girls, but you know like look, but then he's mad at me. He's not at me He talks to me like that she gives me You know he goes off on my friends calls my friends bitches and stuff and makes me uncomfortable and then You know it's just a matter, right?
I don't know. I don't, I mean, I don't, I don't know where the joke ends. I don't know. It's the same thing with this gaslighting kind of thing, or it's like, it's like, a lot of it's inside jokes. Hey, Mason, what's up my friend, Mason? You're a good guy, Mason. Um, yeah, sometimes there's like these little inside jokes people have,
and they think they're so funny. They're like, there's some kind of, oh, and it's like, especially where, you know, then people will also get this morally righteous kind of attitude, you know, I'm better than you, I'm better than you, I'm really, you know, that kind of attitude, or it's like, we, I know something you don't know, you know, well, I know things people don't know
either, right? But I'm not saying, I'm not laughing at them because they don't know it, right? It's It seems a little bit bullish to me.
And also, it's like, you know, and also, it's like kind of like, what if there's like, there's like some person in school or something, like what if they're like from a low income family and whatever, and they have like, you know, their mom, they buy a second hand clothes or whatever. And it's like, and then everyone's kind of like laughing at them about it, and they don't really understand because that's just, they don't buy their clothes, it's like, they just wear what they. That's just, you know, but they're, they're given, right?
It's like, you know, cause, but then it's like, and then it's, and then it's like, oh, you know, it's just very, like, again, this is all grade school, like kid, like, you know, young. Things that kids do but it's like the sad that the adults are like that. Especially when I'm hearing I'm reading some of these comments today in chat rooms with this Gish this Gish person This Gish what they were my mod before and I remember unmodding them over something then beat it was like
I'm sorry. We bring up her name, but she was like how don't how dare you unmod get and it was like Oh my gosh, there was like this huge thing Like, why can't I choose who I want to mod or not? You know, it was like, I remember when I started, it was like, don't kick people out. Like, let them talk. And people are like, don't kick out. And everyone would go up and all in arms when I would do anything, like try to moderate my room. Like, I'm not allowed to moderate my room. No, Gish wasn't streaming,
but Alexandra showed some of these chat room messages where they call themselves, N-I-G-G-E-R princess. Everything, like a lot of N-I-G-G-E-R. And then, yeah, and like I said, somebody that I know and you trust told me, oh, well, somebody else is asking this person to gather information about me
and whatever my life, whatever. Hey, J-Dob, which is kind of disturbing because I haven't talked to that person in a long time, but it's like, wow. So, yeah. And for what reason?
They don't like me or the other person? I don't know. I don't know the reason, but it's not like right. But yeah, I always think that you're like, I should have not been so trying to please people.
But it's like sometimes you want to please people that you love, right?
But look, look at my love turns you, look at my love turns you, it turned into a joke. Sig, if you say it again, I'm gonna ask Amod to just hide you, okay? I told you twice already. And so if you don't understand, I told you, don't tell me what to do. Someone hide him, just hide him, please.
Are they going to, no, nobody's gonna hide them, hold on, hold on, don't like those.
Well, I don't, my tablet is dead right now and like, you know, that's another thing, it's like, I'd love to have mods have my back, I'd love that.
But I have, I, because I do have people that do care about me and they tell me, they're like, well, Your mods are not doing anything about it, and that's my fault for like
Okay, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Yeah, well, Jamie's good. Yeah, show me my cat. I'm just tricks
Sixty I Shouldn't know I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm gonna bad. I'm sorry. It's just like I just like I get like You're like, wow, I've already lost my main account. This one's, you know, who knows, right? And it's like, I could be gone,
I could be, anytime I could be off here and then like nobody would care. Like that thing is like nobody would really care. Like, I mean, some people would, a few people, right? But most would just like, okay, let's go to the next one. And it's like and I'm like here like pouring my heart out sometimes like trying to like be people happy and it's like that And it's like they don't care. Are they good? Sad
Shout out to oh look at there he is again. He's back already back already
It's okay, I got it. Don't worry
Just keep coming back and I'll keep hiding you Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you
You care, thank you, thank you very much
Like I get blamed for like That happens to me and as I get I'm sure I have responsibility and everything right, but it's just doesn't seem like It's like somebody's adding up, especially Libra would understand that thing that is you'd understand as a Libra, right? It's like you're always balancing making sure everything's fair even right and everything, you know
You can show right less. Well, this is Libra. It's not to do that, right? Um And so they there's like, oh, there's okay. Yeah, there's like do you say? Oh, yeah, this is like A different kind of response to this action. It seems like this part is overblown or something is off about it and I don't know if it's just about it.
But it's kind of sad, but it really is kind of scary too that people can be like this can be people's like really, because I've always been just like criticized for even trying to make money here like even though.
I'm spending a lot of time here, so I was trying to be, you know, maybe like be able to like survive And there are people that that do make and it's like, you know, it's like people Especially with this, you know There's a system or whatever. It's just not a fair system It's not a fair system People can penalize for other people's actions and that's like, you know
Yes, I'll play a song actually do I have this ready yet here I'll play a happy song I'll be like talking right this second And then oh, oh my god Besides for everything. Oh shit. We didn't work on besides for everything
Basically, I'm not trying to annoy people with with music or I'm trying to like share something sometimes Express my express myself. Oh, you're not you're not you're not you're not anything you're anything. Well You can people can say that but you're I mean dirt the wrong They're wrong. Maybe it's a different kind of creativity than they're they have or is a different
a different method or Something that they think that they could do this as well, right? They think
Because it's just like oh, well, it's like oh, it's just this and this and that's right. It's like
This works May not work It did Oh shit, well, I don't want to do that
I don't know how it's going on in me today.
I think last night, I just was sort of disappointed how... I don't know, Alex can't control himself sometimes, but he would talk to me like that.
I mean, it wasn't even like, what he said, it's how he said it.
And it's like this is the first time it's like oh so much so much so like overlook and
Adapt you so I can you know
Care didn't care he might be one of the people that are doing this shit, you know The last thing about it. He's one of the gas lighters for sure And that's not a short list, it's a long list. And that makes things very uncomfortable, especially as opposed to my friends. Like a real friend would actually, like I said, so if there's someone in school that they don't like their clothes or they smell or something in school
and everyone's laughing by their back,
who's gonna like go to the person and say, hey, everyone's saying this, you know? All right. Maybe somebody will maybe probably but probably the teacher or maybe a teacher or something like that and who knows You know the members of trying to not hurt space feelings or something But now they are trying to hurt feelings right they're trying to hurt feelings. Hey, what's up? Well, I'll play this song
Come in close My beautiful misfits The real me I'm just a California kid with saltwater hair a wild heart And it's a speedo that probably should have retired in 2014, but refuses to stop believing in me
I used to laugh all night in the Malibu dark lying in the grass talking about love Destiny the universe before life We're sharp and complicated Somewhere along the way I almost forgot what it felt like To be late But then you showed up
And suddenly
I remember
sometimes hard like them you really found me when you speak it's like a private zone built out of inside jokes only this cold understands everybody else fades all like background NPCs and it's just us
Feels like
Except my peace I'm just tired of holding storms You keep trying to unleash I keep taking off my armor sometimes But I can't carry all your memories I haven't lost anything
Except my peace
But don't you dare to
Did you turn me into your war? And if you share...
animation that will happen in the near future.
Yeah.
Oh, this is my group. This is my group.
I can't. You know, these cats, too, are my group. And it's like when when the people are yelling and stuff and like I get upset they get they get upset and it's like I Don't want them to be stressed out. Hey, baby All right, I'd be stressed doesn't make me stress out the root is getting so old. You're almost 18
I was 18 or the old man
Because they're even more sensitive than I know
Let me pixelate it soon, but what does that mean? Like, do you mean that it's like people BSP on the computer? I mean, I don't know. Like, I just like, can't really like go anywhere or do much. And so, I don't want to have any kind of like social life.
This is gonna be it. I'm not very good at it.
Obviously I'm not good at it like look at my like record my my record of
of uh I have a few I do it's true but it's true in life too like you know in like just like in physical world and on the thing it's like you know a lot of people there's just gonna be a few
or that will tell you things that other people won't tell you. I'm luckily, I do have some of those people, because they're rare, they're rare. And if you can count that number of people on one hand, you're lucky. And I can count that number of people on one hand, you know?
Okay, well Everyone's decided yeah, that sounds like a real like you know positive like happy thought, right?
If we're not already depersonalized dehumanized enough, right?
Yeah Okay, guys enjoy your inside jokes and everything happen. Bye
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