You Don't See Me

My head is a hallway of slamming doors.

[music]

[music]

My head is a hallway of slamming doors.

Every thought a threat, every breath a

Every thought a threat, every breath a

chore. I laugh like a lighter that won't

chore. I laugh like a lighter that won't

catch flame. Spark, spark, [music]

catch flame. Spark, spark, [music]

spark, and it's still the same. I'm

spark, and it's still the same. I'm

talking too fast. I'm clenching my jaw.

talking too fast. I'm clenching my jaw.

Trying to look normal. I'm breaking the

Trying to look normal. I'm breaking the

law. Keeping it quiet of [music] acting

law. Keeping it quiet of [music] acting

okay when I'm on bed. Sending some

okay when I'm on bed. Sending some

slipping away. I don't want to scare

slipping away. I don't want to scare

you. [singing]

you. [singing]

I don't want to [music] be but I'm

I don't want to [music] be but I'm

crawling inside myself. Dragging my leg.

crawling inside myself. Dragging my leg.

[singing] If you could just hold me

[singing] If you could just hold me

without needing proof. I swear I'd come

without needing proof. I swear I'd come

down from the edge of the roof.

down from the edge of the roof.

I'm not going crazy. [music] I'm going

I'm not going crazy. [music] I'm going

unheard. [singing]

unheard. [singing]

I'm not out of my mind. I'm out of your

I'm not out of my mind. I'm out of your

world. I'm not asking for magic,

world. I'm not asking for magic,

[singing] not asking for forever. I'm

[singing] not asking for forever. I'm

asking for one moment where I don't feel

asking for one moment where I don't feel

severed. [singing] If I look like

severed. [singing] If I look like

[music] I'm dying,

[music] I'm dying,

it's cuz I might be.

it's cuz I might be.

[music] But not from the start.

[music] But not from the start.

[singing]

[singing]

From you not seeing me.

From you not seeing me.

I'm shaking the cage just to hear it

I'm shaking the cage just to hear it

rain. Do anything just to [music] feel

rain. Do anything just to [music] feel

something. I pick at the past like a

something. I pick at the past like a

scab on skin. Make it bleed again so

scab on skin. Make it bleed again so

you'll lean back in. I turn into thunder

you'll lean back in. I turn into thunder

when I'm scared to be rain. I'd rather

when I'm scared to be rain. I'd rather

be hated than ignored in the frame. So I

be hated than ignored in the frame. So I

throw my voice like a glass grenade and

throw my voice like a glass grenade and

cry [singing] in the silence that is

cry [singing] in the silence that is

made. I don't need fixing. I don't need

made. I don't need fixing. I don't need

a judge. I need your eyes on me. I need

a judge. I need your eyes on me. I need

you to touch the part I keep locked up.

you to touch the part I keep locked up.

The kid in [music] the dark. The one who

The kid in [music] the dark. The one who

still flinches. I leave it.

still flinches. I leave it.

I'm not going crazy. [singing and music]

I'm not going crazy. [singing and music]

I'm going under. I'm out of my mind. I'm

I'm going under. I'm out of my mind. I'm

out of your [singing] world. I'm not

out of your [singing] world. I'm not

asking for rescue. Not asking for

asking for rescue. Not asking for

forever. I'm asking for an honest. I

forever. I'm asking for an honest. I

know [singing and music] you. I get you.

know [singing and music] you. I get you.

I look like I'm dying.

I look like I'm dying.

It's cuz [music] I might be.

It's cuz [music] I might be.

But not from the start.

But not from the start.

From you not seeing [singing] me.

From you not seeing [singing] me.

Say my name like you mean it.

Say my name like you mean it.

Say it slow, say it warm.

Say it slow, say it warm.

Put your [singing] hand on my heartbeat.

Put your [singing] hand on my heartbeat.

Like a shelter from home. [music]

Like a shelter from home. [music]

Tell me I'm not [singing] too much. Tell

Tell me I'm not [singing] too much. Tell

me I'm not a sin. Tell me you're not

me I'm not a sin. Tell me you're not

watching. You're letting me in. Cuz I'm

watching. You're letting me in. Cuz I'm

tired of performing. Tired of proving.

tired of performing. Tired of proving.

I'm real tired of screaming. I'm

I'm real tired of screaming. I'm

[singing] drowning and getting offered a

[singing] drowning and getting offered a

pill. Hold me like you [singing] believe

pill. Hold me like you [singing] believe

me like I'm not [music] just noise. I'm

me like I'm not [music] just noise. I'm

a person. I'm a pulse. I'm a desperate

a person. I'm a pulse. I'm a desperate

human [music and singing]

human [music and singing]

voice.

voice.

I'm not going crazy. I'm going unseen.

I'm not going crazy. I'm going unseen.

I'm not out of my mind. [singing]

I'm not out of my mind. [singing]

I'm stuck in between who I am and who

I'm stuck in between who I am and who

I'm supposed to be. And I'm bleeding

I'm supposed to be. And I'm bleeding

from the distance between [singing] you

from the distance between [singing] you

and me. I don't want a [music] kingom. I

and me. I don't want a [music] kingom. I

don't want a throne. I just want to be

don't want a throne. I just want to be

love. Like I'm [music] not alone. If I

love. Like I'm [music] not alone. If I

look like I'm [singing] dying.

look like I'm [singing] dying.

It's cuz I might be,

It's cuz I might be,

but not from the storm.

but not from the storm.

From you not seeing me. [music]

From you not seeing me. [music]

So if [singing] I get loud, if I get

So if [singing] I get loud, if I get

mean, please [music] hear the soft thing

mean, please [music] hear the soft thing

underneath.

underneath.

I don't want to fight. I don't want to

I don't want to fight. I don't want to

flee. I just want you to look at

flee. I just want you to look at

[singing] me

[singing] me

and see me.

and see me.