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The episode features an open panel discussion where Psyche provides tarot readings and discusses community dynamics and relationship conflicts with his guests.
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morning. Not perfect.
Let's see how this goes.
Hello.
What's up? How's everybody? Yeah, couldn't really sleep cuz I slept a little bit and then um got a coffee which is good. Some tobacco in a little bit. How's everyone doing?
Yeah.
So hey rude sit up a little bit. Hi Marwell. Hello dear. Hey, how are
um Okay. Hey
Paulo thank you. Welcome. Welcome to the show. Thank you for being here. Greetings Mr. Rudy. Mr. Rude say
hi. Did you get the job?
I think so with the cat too. This is moving forward with your plans. Okay. Hey, unttrackable. Is the job is a job mixing? I saw the temperance card, too. I don't know if you're like like a
bartender or something. I don't know. See that mixing something? I don't know. But whatever it is, everything in moderation. Don't don't overwork, you know. Keep keep one foot on the ground, one foot one foot in the water. Okay? And you you have an idea about this too
if you like that. Oh, you're insurance. Well, alchemy is like another thing, you know, insurance agent. Okay. Well, I would say don't overwork yourself. But it looks like you're going to be moving
forward. Just don't go too fast. Oh, Marine. Awesome. Marine assurance. Awesome.
I live by the
water. Cool. And hi, babe. Just applied. I think it will move forward pretty quickly. He'll I think he'll probably get an answer pretty quickly.
We shall see. So 10 days waity already. But the chariot like moving forward, but it may feel like things are standing still sometimes. Got to get these lions lions up and running. The answer is yes or no. Are you going to
get the job? All signs point to yes.
Okay. Kind of like specific. It's very specific question and I I usually don't like I like to do more. You're welcome.
thinking over crying. Okay. Although don't worry too much about it because the whole night don't worry cuz if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. You know, there'll be other opportunities if it doesn't work out. But, you know, there's a there's a lot I think there's a lot of opportunities.
I know it's stressful looking for jobs and I know and I I remember that process. It was that's not a fun process. So don't don't worry too much.
Okay. You study all your life for it in the company. Yeah. little payoff because insurance agent your dream job. Look good. I wish you the best with
that. But don't be, you know, don't be don't be disheartened if you don't because you know the bet maybe a better opportunity will come along. One probably will. I think things work out like they're supposed to eventually. Might be some turbulence, right? You're
welcome. Do you guys like my new my new uh We probably use this for a banner maybe or
Incredible. It's just like me. Yeah. Smoking on some probably half catnip, half tobacco, maybe a little bit of weed in there. Not sure.
I do taste a little bit of the catnip though. Hi guys. Yeah, it's just uh a lot of conflict in in relationships I've had on
YouTube. I had a lot of conflict. First it was Emma. It probably been some before that too. Emma, Benny clumsy
clairvoyance, you know, you know the rest. People just get mad at me. It's like, oh, don't you don't take accountability what you did. Okay. Well, Sometimes I don't know what I did. I get confused. So I'm wondering did I did I do something wrong or should I be taking all the blame you quit everything pills
me pill cigar. Congratulations. Yeah they're stopping to stop selling Swisser sweets here. So I'm thinking about either quitting quitting smoking maybe trying Zins. They're like 750 a thing maybe. I don't know how long that would last me,
but it's kind of weird about putting is it is it gum or is it like a It seems like nicotine gum to me a little bit. Maybe I can wean myself off nicotine with that. Remember the remember they used to have nicotine gum to help you quit. People get addicted to the gum, right? And so then they're just like,
"Let's just make the gum a product or like a like a smoking, you know, a tobacco product. May you get your soul family. Thank you." I'm meaning a lot of them, but it's like, you know, and sometimes families are dysfunctional. Sometimes families fight and stuff. Um, but I like
to get along and it's like it's I I really shouldn't have Well, maybe I should have. I shouldn't have gotten such a diverse because I went out to to very different panels that were probably
people that were hostile to me or some trolling communities and and so you know they've done a lot like I had a lot of good people that have just left then not to say another word again right they just leave because someone offends them something offends Um, and there's
very very offensive people on the I'll say they're very, you know, sick as I'm I my new thing is like if you don't like me like don't come on my panel. If you don't like me, not that you have to like me, but just don't come on my panel.
like yeah I'm getting a lot of I get a lot of emails messages m people mad at
me it's too much for me to keep up with I I know. I know. I I'm like overexposed. I come here too much. Very addicted to streaming. Um it's
fun. Then it gets when something happens, everyone gets an uproar. Oh, I'm confused.
I'm not not very good at the social stuff. I'm still pretty new to it. Never had a lot of friends. Um I've been betrayed by a lot of friends. So I have a lot of trust issues. It's easier for me to like talk to people through the internet and now
through video. Now I can have face to like face to face on video but um it gets really stressful because there's always conflicts with people and then they're like constantly wanting me to take a side constantly me oh do you like this person better than me do you like this
it's like no I love it's like it's like a it's like a like a parent I like every everybody the
I love all my cats the same. They're all special. Thank you. I don't I don't be a downer to anybody. I just came on this morning to you know, think maybe it's time for, you know, you stream stream a little bit less, be around here a little
bit less. Maybe less is more, right? Like I was saying, like with the viewers, quality over quantity or Yeah. And so maybe with my streaming, quality over quantity. So maybe I'll try to do a better job of putting together a show. Maybe I'll just do like a two-hour show a
day. Maybe depending I don't know, maybe a little bit longer then because you know shorter panels. I just want panels that go on all day and stuff. I have I already have enough hours. I have my
hours. So there's nothing really left to achieve, you know, except my 50,000 subscribers, 100,000 subscribers. I'll get there that something's something's not going right with especially with the I don't
know. It's like I I keep letting everybody on like the people that hate me. Sig told me straight up. He's like, I I don't like you. I don't like your show. He's here all the time wanting to come and part participate and doesn't like me or my show. That makes
sense. I think secretly he might. I don't know. Maybe there's some kind of something there. I don't know. But people like they just think it's like, "Oh, let's just It's like a bunch of people. Oh, let's go to this house. Let's go this Oh, this house. This person's having a party. Let's just go there. Let's just like pour beer all over the floor. get toilet, clog the toilet, you know, steal steal something from the bedroom, eat the food out of
the fridge, and uh and then leave the place a mess. And then let's we'll go to the next next place and just leave that person there to clean
up. Isn't that
interesting? Well, I don't really like having enemies, you know? It's like because it's
like, "Hi, Michelle. How are you? Hey Joe." Well, it's like, you know, some people like, you know, they do love and support me and then, you know, and they can shout it out and they can, you know, they can let me know and it's like, I appreciate it, but it's like if you love and support me, I know and I appreciate it. It's like I, you know, I would not go to people and say, I would not go to
anybody's channel and say, "Don't have this person on. Don't have this person on. Don't or go and and like yell at and like or confront somebody on their panel or and like say some say something horrible to something the panel to make them uncomfortable or to scare them." Maybe maybe I've made some guys uncomfortable. I'll take that back.
Right. but in a different way than like you know talking about like some in threatening ways. I just had too many people say oh you're letting people threaten me and like you know like Mr. Big Pipes was like oh you they said they're going to do this and this and I'm like well no one really does
know does they don't it's mostly just trying to scare you. It's like 90% of the stuff is like gaslighting and some people and there's a lot of people that are have paranoia and I have paranoia sometimes and so it's like it's easy to trigger people's par and people and when they when they see it then they just they certain people will they see they they smell weakness and they go they go
for a kill right it's like smelling blood in the water for a shark you know but I I'm a dolphin So sometimes I'm kind of I'm kind of smart. I can see that I can see that dumb shark a mile
away. swim. I can swim too. So yeah, I'm just But I'm so But I am sorry to anybody that I've offended, okay? That I've if I've done anything wrong to you. I'm sorry if I haven't
appreciated you enough. If I haven't like said thank you, if I um if I in any way did anything wrong to you, I'm sorry.
Let's take a shower so not not itchy just wet. Rudy, hi guys. Yeah, so we'll see what happens. I think the show needs to
change directions. It's just getting a little bit No, I don't like like Eldo was like, "Oh, don't you like the shit?" It's like, no, it really wasn't about the to me. It's like this showed up. It happens and the crowd gathered
and it's just like I just kind of feel like sometimes like I get I have people come in like you know step on my heart and then on to the
next. That's my fault.
So, need to need to think what's going to make me happy with this. Yeah. As well as continue to entertain. But it's not entertaining for me to have people threatened and called names and called, you know, and and PE doxing and then, oh, oh, you're you're reporting
this person, you're vetting this person. I'll talk to anybody, but it's like, you know, as long as they're respectful to me. I've talked I let people on that were so disrespectful to me for so long. Why would I like just like not have people here that at least respect me? You don't even have to like me, but if you're respectful, then you can come on the panel. But your blogger, oh, you're oh, you're
just a repulsive person. You're disgusting. You're you're you suck at tarot. You know, this person doesn't even know me. This person didn't like me from the moment he met me. He's very happy to come on the panel when there's certain people here or or to like, you know, oh, I'm all holier than thou. It's like, you know, I've never gone on
anybody's show and like lectured them. I just get I get lectured all day, you know, like I'm like some bad some bad, you know? What's up, New York native? Like I'm some bad person or something. Oh, you know, you Oh, you're just
terrible. You're just terrible. Oh, you beg for fish tacos, which I've never
done. It's just like the story gets repeated. It gets convoluted. No one wants to hear, you know, no one wants to hear my side of the story. Salute. I've been constantly under attack.
balls. Well, yeah. I was like then like my best friend who's been like really here for me, you know, a lot. I have a few best friends, but one of my best friends. He's been here and been so kind and supportive and it's like people want to come on and and
and chase him away like disrespect him and he's a good guy. He's a really good guy. He's he's a smart guy and he's he's a kind person. He's just like someone that was like a a pleasure to talk to. And then people
that don't like me, that don't have avatars up come on and and say horrible things. And then I'm not always able to like, you know, pay attention. I was, you know, I was kind of distracted at the time. I was picking up something and and I miss and I miss it. And it's like I know I
need to I need to do a better job at running my panel. I know. I need to enforce my rules. People just talk really fast and it's like some people are entertaining. Gosh, the split personalities I see with people. I know. I know. We I know we're
very complicated people, but I see it's too it's too like too it gets too hot and cold with me. It's like I like just have let's just like let's just be warm to each other instead of like they're like cold or like angry. Just like it's like warm, you know, warm heart. Hi, Ilia.
Ilia. I like I like to see people do well. I like to see people happy. I like to see people getting along. I like to see people supporting each other. I like to see enemies become friends. But it's like again it's like so many times I've introduced people and then it's like they're friends and then it's like and then they hate
me like that's what happens in high school. It's like oh it's the same here. Yeah. When I was at high school. Yeah. Oh meet my friend. And then it's like then all of a sudden they're they're meeting up and you're you're you're out in the dust or I'm out in the dust, right? Um,
so a lot of people rec a lot of people acknowledge that I've I've made a lot of connections. I' like help brought up and that's you know at the end of the day if if I'm left out of all those relationships that's okay as long as you know I hope I hope you guys are very happy together all you
guys. What happened though? I don't know what happened. What happened? It happened. Like so much has happened. Like I'm literally in like 20 Discord conversations about different people that are mad at me. Like literally 20 conversations there and I can't All I get is like
negativity. Everyone's like I don't know what happened. What? Like what what what did I do? It need to be explained. I don't understand. It's like I'm very just confused. And if you're confused, if I'm confused, there's not a there's a lack of clarity
and where there's there's a I don't know. I've been through a lot of gaslighting with from people, right? Like making me think I'm crazy, making me think it's I'm at fault and like I'm bad and I did something and I really don't think I did anything wrong.
If I did something wrong, I think it's pretty pretty insignificant at the end of the day. Like, did I do something really that wrong? Did I go, you know, do anything to anybody? No. Did I maybe like did I call name? Did I, you know, maybe pick people off my panel? Did I maybe like, you know,
get mad in a um in the heat of the moment? Did I maybe mess up on letting somebody on the panel when I shouldn't have? Are the are these like serious really serious transgressions to have everyone just hate
me? How I get dragged and some of the stuff I do. Yeah. Well, it it happened, but it's like dude, it shouldn't happen. I should be like strong.
Yeah, right. Are you talking to me, Joe, or are you talking Are you are you saying that's what I should be saying? Can we all we can we all call each other names if we get a little angry, defensive, or maybe drunk or maybe just um in a bad mood or
maybe do we all we all are we all are we all is everyone like everyone just comes at me like they're perfect? like not every I'm not saying all you guys just saying like a lot of people come out this very holier than thou attitude and it's like we're all we're all
human never forget I forget I forget what I call when people are building instead of tearing it down sometimes you just got to say it what it is what it is right it's like I'm getting tired of just like it is what it is. That's what Sig says. It is what it is. That's crazy. He just says these little things over and over
again. It's kind of like uh kind of kind of cringy. It is what it is except when it isn't. Sometimes things aren't what they seem. Sometimes things are not as they appear. There's a lot of illusion going on. There's a lot of e people are just
such sheep. They're so they're so easy to to uh manipulate. I just see it. They're so easy. Oh, this it just it's people just all gang up. They all just group up. Oh, because it's like because then the attention's off of them for a second, then they can point the finger at
somebody else, which and I don't do that. I I don't I don't I've been hurt and I've brought up I've brought up stuff that's been done to me and sometimes I've told the names of people that that have done it, but at the end of the day, you know, I might have had my play
part to play in the in the relationship, too. The end of the day, I think things get way blown way out of proportion. Um there's like a mob mentality. Everyone likes to point the finger. No one likes to point it at them. But we all get it sometime or another, right? So, I'm not complaining.
It's Isn't that crazy? Blogger. Blogger. You don't like me. You don't like You don't like my show. Like, why are you here? Just go
away. Call me repulsive. I kick you up. Oh, Br. Oh, bring him bring him back. Bring him back. No, this person on this on my show. I don't go on your show calling you repulsive. So say whatever you want to say. Isn't that crazy? Blogger crazy. Go
talk to the abyss. Worry about your own show.
I'm over it.
I'm just over people that don't like me coming on my show and telling me what's wrong with me. And it's like no
other I don't see any I don't see any other content creator allowing themselves to be so disrespected. I mean it's like so maybe I allowed it too much.
feel a lot double
standards. Maybe I don't deal with things the best way. Again, I'm just like learning to walk on doing this, you know. I I took it very slow before even I took it very slow um learning, you know, watching other streamers like a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot moderating other
chats. Um doing panels a lot that were very hostile towards me. Holding my own. starting videos, starting doing lives, building the chat gaining subscribers, having really big
chats. I don't know who Panthro is. Um, but I'm still I've had my channel less I've had this whole channel probably seven months, six months, seven months. seven months I've probably been doing the the live
streaming. So that's that's in my infancy. And so trying to grow and then I'm under attack and then it's like people are so
mean. Okay. So
I don't think Alexander is Panthro. I don't think
so. I don't know. People are under all these aliases.
That's I mean that's the thing. It's like so just like I'm not sure it's like people know like oh Alex Alex sent pizzas to your house or Alex said this that to you. It's like he said he didn't and it's like I don't have proof that it's his number 100%. So, and anybody can say NYPD always
wins, which he said he maybe said in the chat, but everyone else knows he says that. So, they can make it very easily or turn make it look like it's, you know, it's just like with Emma. Oh, so you're calling her business line. I don't I've never called her business line one time. I've never had her phone number. I've never I've just been on Discord as a friend of hers on Discord
and I sent messages, but I never ever had a phone. I've never called her on a phone or anything like that. It's like I had to change my business number and he's on other social media. I was friends on her on Instagram or just followed her on Instagram. never contacted her on any other social media besides Discord or her own
chat, but other people can like call and say, "Oh, it's psyche." or something like that on the phone or it's like or text message and say make it think make it look like that. Right? So, you have to be take everything with a grain of salt. Like there's people trying to stir up They do this thing for fun. It's like a sport. And
so I think I've been I maintain my calm pretty much. Well, a few times I've lost my cool, but I've been pretty calm while people have been have lost their at me and I've just listened. Taking it. Yep. Yep. Okay. I've heard their points. I hear every
point. I I hear it. I get it. I know I'm not perfect. I don't go lecturing everybody else on what to do and how to live their life and how to they how they run their show. It's like I don't I don't mess with
people. So, it's Friday. Let's see what happens today. Just want to come say hi because no one wants to come up. So, I'll try to cuddle with Rudy, get some sleep. Maybe I'll be in a better mood later.
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