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Psyche explores his Greek Magical Papyri tarot deck, sharing mythological stories and interpretations of various cards featuring Greek and Egyptian deities, while also discussing his personal experiences and connections with his cats.
so how are you that was an interesting
night I'm
sorry a little more
professional so it was a um it was a
interesting few days because I was
really stressed up up to Halloween and
all this stuff was happening and nothing
was going
right what's up Chris thank you for
coming
too um
and then on Halloween like you
know um because I I don't really hang
out with many people very often so then
Halloween like I got a little bit happy
and then uh then these people called and
of course I'm like come hang over I mean
um I already talked to my neighbors
asking them to go to the Halloween party
and everything and they said no but uh
so these people came over and they came
over and they were fun and nice and
stuff but uh probably not the right type
of
B thank
you but I got some good um stuff out
tonight though but tonight yeah that was
um just uh people saying really weird
things and trying to like trip me out
and stuff and so I'm used to all that
stuff
though so what do I
have I have a
deck right around here someplace
yeah the tarot of the
Greek magical
papy the PGM tarot so I bought this deck
a couple years ago but this has all the
Greek gods in it so there's like
her that's
a yeah heck it say I'm right
okay so I know Greek mythology pretty
well and so I think I know who all these
cards are but I might not that's I have
a little cheat she right there
but let's see if I know a story I can
tell out of these cards about one of
these
people okay so this is a brassex ABX
he's like a gnostic God and they used to
make Talisman out of him he had a head
of a chicken he had legs of
serpents and
uh also it says I a that's pronouned
like yo right there i a o so braxas and
he was very powerful in Magic and
protection so in the go in the notic
tradition he was always used as a
protective Talisman and that kind of
thing and he he he has a lot of Martian
energy what does this have to say about
a brassex a brassex what card is that
and so this
is a major a major I believe
okay
brass but uh I do I did stud him a lot
there's like a lot of Talisman that are
made of him like there's protective
Talisman of him and basically that's
where his name Abracadabra comes from
there and so Carl y would talk about
abrasax and he would say he's the
perfect example of Duality and all the
Duality coming together so it's almost
like a Baff character and he has a whip
too so he's like and a shield and so
he's defended and he's like he can
attack and everything he's like U he
also like is associated with the number
365 like the entire year and so he's
like
representing the everything he's like
good good and evil he's God and the
devil that kind of thing in the Gnostic
tradition he's seen as the symbol of the
perfect blendings of of um all the
dualities yeah you got some lips you got
C cat and Ninetails or anything
interesting like U yeah I I I don't have
um I don't think I have any whips right
now
but I have my cats protect me right
there this is this is this is my cat um
this is this is Trix and Trix like went
away for a couple days and then I was
like as soon as I I let him go I was
like missing him so bad cuz he's like
the one that is like licking my nose in
the morning
he uh he like just cuddles under the
cupboards with me oh my my other cats
all do too but he's just was one of the
more friendly ones and then so then that
on Halloween morning I woke up and I was
just like sad about it and I was like if
there's any way I could get him back
someone gets an allergy or something and
then that day they called and said they
they had an allergy and then he has he
had to come home so I yes I was so
happy and
so yes yeah is definitely oh my gosh
magic magic tricks Lenor I mean all my
cats have like a spirit they have
protetive protective quality and they're
always very concerned about me that's
why I like this
sign they should say cats
but something called worse than that but
um worse than a witch but uh cats are
definitely like they're like little
astral ninjas they can see all kinds of
things
yeah so U so yeah so he's like the most
he's very affectionate Lenor is so
affectionate and I've had Lenor for the
longest but and she's my black cat and
uh I've just had certain circumstances
where they've chased bad energies away
even off of me they they' come up and
scratch me before chasing things
away I see so this is like a a Le a
Libra energy
okay Urban Adventures holy math that's
really nice to say um but it's not
necessarily true I don't know um thank
you so
Fus so I've got yeah I've got people Pro
they were already laughing at in the
other chat room about me but uh Theus is
the goddess of justice and and uh law
it's all it's like the um it's like the
goddess ma ma and she had the scales and
so my would always weigh your hearts up
but that looks like the Libra scales and
so it's basically about finding balance
and then she's holding a torch so it's
like a bringing
Enlightenment and that's like the big
Enlightenment is like justice in the
upright because when things are like in
like fair and as they're meant to be and
as like things are balanced out then
it's better for everybody so it's always
but in in the Egyptian
story there's a nubis was in the picture
too and Anubis if you had a good
relationship with a nubis he would tip
the scale for you and help you if your
heart wasn't
quite light enough but and then we have
the sun god it's the sun god Apollo he's
holding a looks like a Laurel Laurel
Branch and he's holding his
liar so he was a god of Music um and the
god of the sun then uh he's depicted as
a beautiful youth and uh the this uh
this Branch the Laurel Branch is
associated with Victory and so they
would always wear these Laurel crowns
and so that was it's also a very
powerful healing herb and things like
that but yeah he was the god of Music
one
time um one time the
Centaur challenged Apollo to like um
like a a
contest and
then um okay no actually it was pan that
did and then the Centaur judged the
contest and he said Apollo won and
so um or he said the pan one so Paulo
had him skinned and stuff like that um
but yeah um so he was he could be brutal
there's also a good story called
Cassandra Cassandra was a a propheus but
nobody would um well and she and she was
dating
Apollo and
um Apollo wanted her to be his wife and
stuff and she said no and so he Apollo
spit in her mouth and said said whoever
hears your prophecy no one will ever
believe your prophecies basically and so
that was Cassandra and so there's
something called the Cassandra complex
where it's like somebody's saying things
and they're never
believed and
so very interesting I also see on this
the liar has like a pine Pinal cone like
a pine pine cone so it's like very
associated with getting into like these
cores of the
brain hey blade what's up thank you
thank you guys for coming um so I'm just
coming up with these like I'm
remembering stories about everyone I
know a lot of stories
about about them and this has like this
is a a nostic deck and so this is
Egyptian is mixed in with this because
the Greek and Egyptian are very similar
and there's all these corresponding Gods
there hey r witch nice to see
you
and we have a nubas right here and it
looks like like a like a two of Cups
kind of card but there's like that kind
of Jackal like a Anubis
dog it says says world that such a man
be called my husband would would that
such a man be called my husband and
so I think they're saying that U there's
like a lot of loyalty there
and these are also spell cards too and
so what card is this the two of
two of
Cups suit of
Cups says it says love connection and so
yeah would that I would that I meet such
a great man so maybe they're probably
comparing it to I like the loyalties the
character of a dog I love how the dog is
so loyal loving caring somebody pulled a
car from me the other day and and the
dog card came up and I almost started
crying because it's like it just said
there's unconditional love and loyalty
there and I just relate to that so much
and I always love dogs and everything
and I wish I could have a dog but
uh but he would chase the kitty cats
away this cat is so happy being back
though she's so happy because she has
all these brothers and sisters and they
were playing and running around and
stuff she never was running around like
that before with them
and we have another card it
says it looks
like I wish I have from one more light
I'm
sorry it says on
it act it
says act in whatever
your
mind is moved to and no longer can hold
back so this is saying listen to your
gut instinct listen listen to your mind
and uh and go forward and like we're
creating a little lattice pattern there
this person is always also very
protected right there with it's almost
like a serpent but it's also like really
reminds me of a bow or like a some kind
of weapon but this
says don't don't think about it too much
it says whatever comes to your
mind and is like at the Forefront and
you cannot like no longer hold back go
with that okay I'll do one more of these
cuz these are a little bit
obscure okay well the card is
Kalisto and
so I think this is the star
card he she's doing the ads above so
below and
um I I know um the story of kie the
Indian goddess and you know Indian
goddesses also correspond to the
Egyptian goddesses because dionas went
to India the go diis went to India on
elephants and stuff like that and uh
tried to bring the culture there I have
one more hold
on so this is th this is this is the god
of like writing he's a scribe God he
like writes down everything that's going
on he has the head of an
Ibis um and he's showing like a
little it looks like the scales again
but it's something flowing and there's
like a oh yeah there's an ank right
there there's an ank there and it's
coming out of like a little a little
jar um and then so the to there's a deck
called the thth
deck bye rainbow thank you for coming
it's a little bit you know a little bit
late for me tonight but but I wanted to
come on and say hi to you guys cuz I
haven't been on for a while so I'll go
with like another I'll go with this book
right
here it's called The Book of
symbols it's a nice big
book and
so I'm going to be opening up to a
random page and we'll see what symbols
are so we got the symbol today of the
arm so then almost like the symbol in
the last that last car we saw it almost
looked like an arm like an
elbow and so of course the writing is I
need magnifying glass to see but I can
still see a little bit say whether um
whether one
feels um feels the need to mouth with
the hand or lives hand to
mouth or
sometimes words with gesture the arm is
a middleman
and
so you see it like the gods had like
more than one arm because they had like
many jobs to do it once and so we're
almost the same way so that's that's my
another cat hold this is pie p wants to
sit right in front of the camera he's
like you're choking John um Let me let
me like cheer everybody up you see him
hold on here you go see
him
okay I so I really have never looked at
that that book and the writing is very
very small and it's like the lighting is
not very good
so but that's that's like the armor is a
really interesting symbol though it's
like think about how powerful having
arms and the hands and and everything we
can do with
them and it's like we can do amazing
things with them and we can create
anything we want with them and we're the
only creatures with the posable
thumbs and so we can build things and
use tools and that kind of thing and so
we have a little advantage over other
other um some other species but animals
all have their own special
gifts um they said when they created all
the
animals uh they gave each one of a a
gift and then by the time they as humans
hey what what's up by the time they they
uh they made humans all the gifts were
were gone and so um they they decided to
make um man a gift and so they made
Pandora and uh
but see we can't like we can't dig as
well as you know go first and stuff like
that we can but um animals have their
own special qualities and so I that's
why I don't mind being turned into an
animal on you know people using animal
decks or being compared to the animal
because animals are every animal is a
part of us and
so that's
Magic magic help
me so yeah my my cats like every morning
knock a bunch of stuff off my
desk and I they just uh kind of moved
this card around I saw that this is a
the card
Seth see Seth Seth was a kind of a his
head it's an unidentified animal it
looks like kind of kind of like a rabbit
or ante eater a little bit in the head
but set was the basically the devil he
was red he was the opponent of
Horus um Isis could not stand
him there's some very explicit stories
about Isis and horse andet and
everything but he was basically means
the opposer
okay so with every in the in the Dual
system if there's a God there's a devil
and so there's there's always like the
opposer and everything so he was that
opposing Force he's and he was uh there
was a few pharaohs named after set but
he was not very popular God I would say
now he's more popular now there's a
whole Temple of set that came out of the
Church of Satan that was Michael Aquino
and things like that
um and Nicholas Shrek and Zena
Le okay let's see what's
here each time I choose to tune in with
uh the spirit guidance of the highest
truth Tru shows up for
me and so it's a simple process of like
getting in alignment and tuning in and
messages messages will come to you the
answers will come to you like anybody
can learn to read cards or whatever it's
a matter of being able to listen to your
intuition oh excuse me excuse me I'm
sorry oh my
goodness set is instead my this font is
really small I'm so sorry I don't know
if I can fix that I'm
sorry your ears won't stop ringing well
that's a good sign that's a a good
confirmation sign or a good uh sign that
these beings are trying to communicate
with you so I always look for the
ringing of the ears and I always also
look for like if I hear motorcycles
outside if I hear car honk at the same
time if my phone rings at the same time
it's just like the synchronicity you can
you can always like
look for little confirmations even even
if you burp sometimes people like that's
a confirmation burp people will be eing
psychic greeings and then they'll start
burping for some reason and so it's just
like it's a sign that something's going
right
okay
okay let's because it's not it's almost
daytime so I have the Guardians of the
night
tarot and I'm sorry if I miss anybody's
question or Miss anybody's comment CU my
comments come like one at a time really
small
yes
yes I'm so I'm sorry like can you tell
me his name Teresa I I just missed the
comment but uh and if you um I will try
to like fix the settings of this to like
show
me everything hold on can I look at this
okay the chat comes up the chat chat
viewing options okay there I okay it
came up I see it now
okay blade Blazer how I'm great blade
thank you
okay
so first
card this is a really nice deck I won
from my friend clumsy and I won on her
giveaway show and they came and they're
so
beautiful and
it's so this card the hangman came
up um and it's a possum and you know
possums they are meant to hang and they
can hang from their tails they will also
play dead if they're threatened or
anything they'll they'll play dead and
one time baby possums moved under my
couch and the mom would CU I had my door
open all the time for my cats I didn't
have my cat door at the time and so baby
pums move under to the couch and then
they would come out at night and then
they would eat the cat food the mom
wasn't here of course but um but so so
necessarily being stuck I love the
hangman card because the hangman is like
always hanging upside down caught by a
split or whatever but he's in peace and
on most of the cards he has a a halo
around his head so he's enlightened and
he
also sometimes it's a pick and sometimes
it's not but he has a knife and so if he
can like you know like get himself up
and cut down the Rope he can free
himself because he's not hung by his
neck he's hung by his foot and
so if there's any kind of situation like
just use like the P also teach you like
to use gu G and wisdom like how they
play dead and stuff and you see the
posum too has the halo around his head
right there like they represented that
with the sun behind him and so he's
chill he it's like BR rabbit and the
Brier patch where BR rabbit's like don't
throw me in the Brier patch please don't
throw me whatever you do and then
they're like okay we're going to throw
you in the Brier patch and they throw
him in the Brier patch but BR rabbit was
born in the Brier patch and so he was
not afraid of that and he so he just
kind of used his wits
to survive and out with any kind of
negativity
okay let's
see live chat can I see okay I see
better
okay
yeah yeah yeah he's upside he's upside
down hanging from one leg and he has
like the other leg kind of crossed in
like a l or a seven
position and uh yeah but I really like
the hangman because he also has time to
think when he's H when he's hanging up
there because he can't do very much and
he just has to try to think about how to
get out and
so um there's there also the story of
Odin who hangs upside down from a tree
for like seven days and then he he
discovers all the rooms when he did that
and so and then he also like gave up one
of his eyes so he could get some extra
wisdom too and so Odin has one eye I've
studied North mythology and U you know
you know German mythology Russian
mythology England you know all I love
all cultures I studied every
culture yes okay I'm sorry okay for
okay can you please do a reading for
John okay
John do we have the devil card and it's
a Jackalope and so the if you know the
Jackalope the Jackalope is not a it's
not a real creature it's like they would
just like take a rabbit skeleton or
whatever and put these like antlers on
it or horns on them so this is for John
and so there might be some kind of
negative um pattern negative belief or
like some kind of overindulging in
something something that you can get
freedom from you're it's a you're
voluntarily with it right now but I see
like I see this crocodile and the mother
crocodile is like watching all the baby
crocodiles and you know how you know
viciously she will protect protect all
baby crocodiles and look there's a
little lotus flower too I see those
little lotus flowers floating around and
so she's just keeping watch um
and she's protecting them cuz these are
these are all Guardians by the way and
then
uh so it means highly protected it means
highly protected by like a force bigger
than yourself or or you also are Force
bigger than some other Force you're
protecting because we can all protect
each other down the
line and like we I got the tiger card
earlier tonight but it's the Eight of
Cups and so that's like a lot of
long-term happiness it's like there's
some Ships coming in for you there's
some there's some things coming he's
because the Tiger's waiting for somebody
the Tiger's been through a lot too the
tiger is has like you know gotten in
fights in the jungle
and you know has to like you know kill
kill other animals to defend itself
but um like and he's also a mass he's a
mass a lot of stuff and so
he's sitting fine there I there's like a
lot of prosperity there but there's also
like a lot of emotional attachment or
emotional fulfillment but it's coming
it's going to be coming in it's like the
ships are coming in he's I think he's
but he's just trying to protect what he
has right there because there's always
Predators around it okay if I got go
okay so if you got a question you can
ask me the question I can see a little
bit better
now okay
one
second so this is my cat Lenor this
Lenor yeah this is Lenor this is my girl
this is this is my
little this is my I would say my my
number one familiar this is this one is
like this one she has my back you know I
never be afraid of her her
leaving so he's in the service okay
you might go out of service well you got
another eight so that that's an
88 and this one is like it's like the
Mexico flag a little bit it's like a
it's like a hawk and a
snake you
know the H in the Mexican flag that's a
it's a it's a h picking up a snake too
but the eight of Wands is a lot of fast
movement coming it's like a lot of
something will happen really fast
there's going to be communication about
something you've been waiting for you're
going to get news about something but
it's about communication
something exciting and it's fast coming
in maybe unexpected because the snake is
not expecting like but I'm talking about
a more positive
way but just imagine that that that bird
like just like coming so fast down and
and getting one at once and
stuff I I'll do one more
for and it's a it's a Two of Wands and
so that's also these are it's like
that's also the number 11 but these are
also like a fierce protectors kind of
energy and two people coming or two
people coming together to to watch out
and and help
everybody they all have their
different they different things but look
there's there's a bird on top of the
lion's head that's how gentle the lion
is is that it's the most ferocious thing
in the in the jungle but like a bird can
land on its head and it will just sit
there it looks like
and then you can see that he's like
sitting down but the female lionist is
like standing up and she's like even the
more vicious type you
know the male lion has kind of like you
know he he's a little bit like has a has
his hair perfectly combed and a little
bit of a peacock right there just and
like no one's very scared of them even
like the birds will land on his head but
always has the mother lion who's always
detective and standing up the whole time
and she's ready to go out and strike
she'll probably she probably go out and
get the food and stuff for the night M
Lions will just fight with each other
and
stuff
so I like these cards a lot this card
these are like sacred geometry
activation
deck so these are all really cool
patterns and then there's like really
nice me messages with them and they they
always resonate whenever I use them
so I'll do I'll do a couple a few
General and then anyone wants a specific
card let me
know um yeah I I actually I I have like
50 decks of cards I mean I have like a
lot of stuff that I have I'm just like
very slowly bringing things out just to
find out what works and like to not
overwhelm
myself cuz the cats will knock over all
the decks of cards in the morning and
then they'll all be mixed stuff and so I
got to keep stay on top of that let's
see what we have here for the
chat it's a integration card it's also
this the three yantra right there it's
always it's a very powerful Sy symbol in
um in
Hinduism thank you in the integration
card of card 30 so number 30 might be
significant or the number three and it
says the frequency of integration
supports art um our Embrace of many
aspects of of ourselves allowing what we
perceive as possible and what we
perceive as negative positive or what we
perceive as negative to become in a
balanced Symphony Of Life to harmonize
into a balance andin of life and so this
is like all things coming together there
because they're complete opposites on on
the sides and everything but it makes a
really beautiful pattern and there's
it's called like the it's like the yra
of creation and you if you meditate on
it I've actually meditated on it for
like a long time before and if you
meditate on it different patterns will
start rising out of this pattern so it's
a whole creation and so it's also been
compared to a yon and what number is
that so that's number
30 and you see there's like a you
there's the center point is called the
Bindu and so you're supposed to
concentrate on that Center Point and
then slowly work your way out but
there's a lot of triangles right there
see
so this is about taking all we have the
highest and our lowest part of ourselves
and if the highest part of ourselves is
always in
control and we don't know our lower self
then we're going to be in a disadvantage
we need to be like half on Earth half in
spirit need to be able to navigate the
Earth world and our negative qualities
and to face our darkest part and then we
can enjoy our like highest
part and become better people and
everything and we become a we become not
just like a d dual being with all these
um opposite qualities we become have we
have one unified quality because it all
comes into one and it creates a
beautiful thing a beautiful pattern
right there but it's it's one it's going
both above going below going side to
side there's stars in it it's really
beautiful pattern if you look at it
that's really nice it has like the kind
of the sun colors in there okay let's
see what's next
so we have Gaia so Gaia that's card
28 very beautiful blue card the
frequency of Gaia reminds us that we are
infinitely connected to one another just
as we are to our great mother and to the
universe that's behind it all so that's
what that's another thing I was just
saying it's like on this Earth there's
there's one Earth and there's all these
billions of people on but we all share
the same Earth so we're all connected to
it and we're all very we we're beings
that are um we rely on each other we no
one can
survive completely on their own it's
like there's always going to be some
time where you could use help from
another person or you could be helpful
to another person and so just remember
like any person that you meet is not
going to be that different than you
you're going to have some kind of
quality that's why it's impossible for
me to hate anybody is because if I know
somebody for amount of time I'll find
something that I have in common with
them and then it's like I feel like
Brotherhood they kinship and so I'm
really I I think so much like negativity
and like adversity about it but it's
like really I'm and people think I'm
being fake or like I'm just like Kiss
You know and really I've been always
been like this where it's like I've just
like uh very loving happy person I
been
wanting everyone to get along um and not
wanting bad for anybody not wishing bad
on anybody only wishing the best for
people and
so yeah well it's like well but
constantly having to defend myself or
like being questioned or like being
being told you know people people will
believe what they want to believe but
it's like those people don't know me so
people know me at any am of time they'll
know I'm not a bad person or I'm not
like you know I don't have evil
intentions
or you know people think tarot is evil
sometimes and Tarot is like the most not
evil thing it's the most one of the best
best ways to get in touch with your
subconscious mind and to learn more
about yourself and how could that be
evil in any way or negative in any
way you know there's some positive
negative cards sometimes but basically
they're they're to help you make the
best decision for your life and
so the right cards always seem to come
up that's why I really love Tarot it's
like it always like just it resonates
and it will just be your feeling that it
feels
right and we have a transition card so
someone's in a period of transition and
there's a beautiful s right
there yes you got one next the frequency
of transition supports our deep
understanding of the everchanging notes
of existence nature of existence and of
Our Lives that we may learn to let go
remember um remember it's the process
and to allow
transition
um transition to occur with ease and
Grace and so if there's any transition
you'll be helped through this transition
it's like a there's a path that you'll
take for it and it
will it will be effortless because it's
43 too 43 like that's 43 is like I love
you or love you you know and
so there's also that really reminds me
of like the there's like a sword going
through the serpent right
there reminds me of the the dollar bill
sign a little bit
or a spiral like it could spiral
out things go in circular patterns I am
seriously impressed thank
you and I'm I'm still working out the
king of my stream I'm Ser impressed as
you know Teresa I have a very big
project happening well yeah so yeah so
there's that transition happening and
it's going to go smoothly because you're
you're thinking of everything ahead of
time and you're supported by the
universe thank
you and I'm really glad it helps and or
and it resonates because uh that's what
it's that's what it's about and Teresa
so Teresa for
you it says realization and and so you
come to some kind of understanding or
realization and it's number
37 um also like a very resembles an eye
it's also all these um things are very
connected and everything they're um they
all are patterns the sacred geometry
patterns it says the frequency of
realization supports our internal
process of becoming aware of what our
heart- centered goals truth are as well
as the external process of becoming with
our highest expression of the
world and so yeah you're just you're
realizing things that are helping you um
integrate with the world more um and get
in touch with your heart space because
this is there's a green there and a blue
and the green is the heart chakra and so
that's what that's where the real
realizations will happen is in your
heart it's like your mind will think of
it second but really like the heart the
heart is your center of the body and
like the Earth represents the heart um
and the Earth is green you know too like
the blue and green just like similar to
that um and then we got the guia card
earlier too so that didn't make a lot of
sense and uh so I'll pull another one
for you
Teresa Teresa so you have Miracle
card and so some there's something like
just said the other day I got a
miracle um where it's like you know my
my cat was I was never going to see him
again and then all of a sudden like he
was back when I when I when I asked for
it so Miracles are possible there's like
there's like a there's some red in
there um I think there's a lot of like
fire energy associated with this the
frequency of Miracles supports our
belief in ourselves as part of the
source and therefore our belief that
anything is possible so how beautiful is
that so that's like the source energy
that we're all we're all part of and
then realizing that anything is possible
because everything is a miracle in our
lives you know when you look at it like
that there's so much that we would think
is impossible that if we direct our
attention energy and good intentions
towards it will work out
so and everything will work out in
Divine timing and as it was I think as
our when our when our souls incarnated
to the planet I think we planned out a
lot of lot of these things and so it's
like our spirit is not really surprised
about anything that happens on but our
but our physical bodies are we don't
have the especially some people don't
have the connection to the to the higher
self so they don't know what's going on
and so those shocking
things but if you like just have trust
that everything will work out in the in
the best and you'll everyone will be
okay and everyone will we all and we all
go through a very similar process for as
human beings you know a lot of very
similar things happen to
us okay
okay
so this is called the a gotho demon and
that's it's very similar to a braxus too
but this is the this is um the lion
headed serpent so it's almost like
chubis and I feel that too I feel like I
was supposed to be dead like I feel like
U it's a miracle that I'm alive you know
so we are survivors defitely you I'm
sure we've been through a lot and uh a
lot of close you know near misses in our
lives and everything but then things end
up working out for us and uh so we're
protected and so this is like a this
lion serpent it's like it's a symbol of
wisdom you can see around it its head
it's almost like the solar thing but uh
so it's a lion Serpent and this is like
representative of our soul and so the
ago demon is like there's a good Demon
and there's a negative
demon and
so this is a I think a very protective
demon sometimes people will say that
the the lion is like representative of
the ego and stuff like that but it's
really he's he's
enlightened and he has the power of like
different animals you know the The
Serpent and the lion and so he's power
powerful so he might be fiery and uh
hard to
control but I believe even our our good
spirit and our bad spirit will fight for
us if we have a relationship with it if
we don't shun our Shadow Self because a
lot of people will just like uh ignore
their Shadow and they just want to look
at everything happy and everything and
uh but the shadow is like where you can
like find like shade and shelter and
rest sleep and you can't necessarily see
in the dark but you can bring your own
light into the dark and then you then
light brings understanding and so
there's always a a good balance of light
and
dark but uh yeah it's it's a powerful
card I got that
card I got the C see C here
okay
BOS okay it's a it's a headless
being they're all very magical though
but uh and he's holding the rod this is
like the this is like sets sets Rod
right
there and
uh headless but still holding looks like
Laurel
and covered and protective symbols you
know what the phus is but uh if I can
find my little piece of paper Okay
follows but yeah it looks like he's
undergone some kind of
transformation
um and
yeah I think I know so much about Greek
mythology then there's like all these
cards I don't know
so
uh of course they can't find the thing
right now I'm going use my phone
okay I got
it no problem John anytime thank you for
coming I'm I'm sorry I'm a little bit
scatter bra right now but uh whenever
you use use new cards and everything you
you bring out the first
time you're going to have like little
hiccups okay
phos aalos is a Greek word that means
headless and has multiple
meanings in Greek Egyptian magical
tradition AOS was the name of a divine
power that was believed to be effective
in spells for revive revation or yeah
Revelation demonic figure in Greek
popular belief aapos was a demonic
figure that was interpreted in
ambivalent ways AOS could be views
negatively as a spirit of the Dead who
appeared especially evil due to Violent
circumstances of his death however
Christianity also viewed ailos
positively as a special group of
headless Martyrs who perform Miracles so
do you know like the martyrs they would
they would kill these Martyrs in the
worst way like the Martyr that would say
that they um they believed in Jesus and
Jesus was the Lord and so they would be
thrown to Lions they would stage these
reenactments of the of the myths where
they would tie one guy up and like
have like a eagle come down and eat his
liver and stuff I mean they would
reenact these whole things and then
there would be this huge crowd and um so
they died in horrible ways and so
Christianity would actually look at
these Martyrs as special people and
everyone else would think oh they're
they're evil because they got they got
killed in this worse
way
so in Antiquity there were rumors of
various species of mythical headless men
who inhabited remote part of the world
these men were known as ble blemy and
were also described as lacking ahead
with their facial features on their
chest when I was in first grade actually
I we I was doing art and I drew these
bodies they were headless bodies and
then like I would draw boobs and the
boobs would be the eyes and stuff on the
Torso and my teacher was like what is
this and I was like I thought I had
dream dream about it or something but
they're actually real real creatures and
stuff the
blems this one doesn't have as like much
of a defined thing but you can kind of
see he has like a little mouth and two
eyes right there with the
nipples thank you yeah and I I love to
learn I mean I learn as much as I teach
and it's like I'm learning as I go along
there's especially with astrology and
Tarot there's so much to learn it is
like lifetimes of of learning you can
like spend the whole time lifetime
sitting astrology and you still haven't
learned everything about astrology or
you know it's like so it's like always a
like a something that you're always
learning from and like and you can
always teach other people
from you can use like a lot of times it
really helps you just to listen to your
intuition about things because your
intuition will tell you the right answer
even if you doubt
yourself it says or will
you or will you motor your purpose
or will you alter your purpose the
hearts of the good and and
uh the hearts of the good and
flexible that's an interesting card they
have these two women like rolling these
balls down the street and then there's
like this one with a whip up there with
holding a doll
these are cuz these cards are like part
of the magical tradition of
it so or will you alter your purpose the
hearts of the good and
flexible so the heart
so you might have like a purpose laid
out and you might have to you might
change your mind about
something because like the person that
you're concerned about actually is a
good person or is willing to work with
you and that kind of thing and so if you
can like always work with people rather
than fighting against them that will
make things a lot easier for everybody
people like to fight and compete all the
time when really it's like we could
really be helping each other a
lot yes have a wonderful night and thank
you for
coming and I'm like really enjoying this
too this also reminds me of Gemini
Gemini Spears and they're chasing these
balls and
then this figure above them is like
maybe making them do it he has a whip
and holding a doll it's interesting can
you read
that bye John thank you so much for
coming I'm G do one more of these
because I just want to get I want I want
to nail one of these
cards so we have
aloon and that's almond raw this so this
is another sun god thank you John thank
and you see like I love these crowns
these these wonderful crowns these like
tall crowns they
had and so there's a god named amanra
and am Amon means the hidden one and so
and then it's also similar to the word
Moon and everything because the Moon is
like always like hiding hiding part of
itself hiding part you know so he was
the Sun and the Moon together and so
amen raah very powerful Sun
God and you see he must be smart because
like you know they had these crowns he
must have like his brains all the way up
to you know top of that right there
just a lot of like little interesting
messages you can see from the from the
how the Greeks designed they designed
all their High very carefully with like
so much symbolism in
them okay so this is a good one we have
the goddess
Athena the goddess Athena she's wearing
that that Roman helmet she's a spear a
Athena was known as a spear Shaker she's
also called the gayyed
one I'll tell a story about Athena so
Athena was actually the one that sent
Medusa to be killed because it was
Athena's Temple that Medusa was a
priestess at and then there's different
variations of the story but supposedly
Medusa was a beautiful Priestess and
then she had sex or was forced to have
sex with posidon on in the temple and
then she got pregnant from that but uh
so Athena was Furious and she H she like
gave
this um these weapons and these and also
shoes from Hermes wing wing sandals to
go kill Medusa and had to do it and
everything and he did and then when he
killed Medusa out of her neck came um
Pegasus so and so that was um her horse
because Poseidon is associated with
horses as well like he horses were his
invention like they had a competition
where they like come up with the best
invention and he came up with the horse
and Athena came up with the Olive Tree
and so Athena won that competition of
the Olive Tree but some people think he
might he should have maybe won that
because horses are pretty awesome
awesome
creatures especially Pegasus who can can
fly and it's a white horse so Athena is
a goddess of wisdom and also the goddess
of
crafts one more story about Athena is
that there's this um woman and she was
The Phoenician
princess and uh she was a weaver and she
can weave the most amazing things but
Athena is the patronous of of weaving
Athena invented weaving and everything
but so this princess named
Arachne was like thinking that she was
the best and she was boasting that she
could do even better than Athena and so
Athena dressed like an old lady one day
and came up to her and and talked to her
yes
444 and Athena said you know you you're
being a little bit prideful maybe you
should apologize to Athena and you don't
want to offend her and uh and just say
that Athena's maybe more talented
because she invented the crafting and
weaving but arachi was so proud she was
like oh no screw that old lady or screw
that screw that goddess you know she
just was very and so then um
Athena showed her true self as the
goddess and then challenged her to a
weaving
contest and so in the weaving contest
Athena was weave everybody very
flatteringly and you know they had Zeus
and his you know Zeus and with Hera
sitting in the heavens and they he
depicted famous parts of Greek mythology
that were that were flattering and then
Arachne made this like soap opera kind
of version of it the tapestry where it
showed like Zeus chasing around a bunch
of women and Zeus sleeping with the Swan
and Zeus you know it just like a all the
bad things that gods were doing and
Harris being jealous her being jealous
and turning women into cows and stuff
like that but but arachne's work atha
did have to admit was better quality you
know it's like she was she was she was a
better Weaver but you still can't get
away with offending the Gods like that
that's called hubris where it's
like the gods just want to be in that
Reverb position and so for like a mortal
who they really taught in the first
place even if the pupil surpass them
they still want the due
respect and
so um Athena was like you're better but
then she hit her with the the shuttle
and uh she like Arachne was so
humiliated so Arachne hung herself but
then um Athena was like okay I'll lessen
the thing I'll turn her into a into an
insect and so she turned her into the
spider so that's why the spiders are
called the Iraq name so she was a very
wise goddess and she was a battle
goddess she came out she came out of
Zeus fully formed there's a lot of
interesting stories about
her um but and she wasn't you know offer
was the most beautiful goddess and and
then
uh you know Hara was the wife of Zeus
and she was also very
beautiful but uh they had a beauty
contest once
and Aphrodite had like a couple secer
golden apples and she grabbed one of the
judges with the golden apples um that he
that she would give him whatever woman
he wanted in the world as the gift if he
would have chosen her and so he chose
Helen of Troy but Helen of Troy was
already married was the problem
and so he went and picked her up and uh
it caused a big thing called the Trojan
War and so Helen of Troy is called the
face that launched a thousand ships he
was the most beautiful woman in the
world who he wanted to marry but love
always love always causes that kind of
like you know it can cause conflicts
like that like the war the wars start
about you know love and stuff like that
and Men that's all the fights in bars
start about man one man talking to
another man's you know girlfriend or
whatever and so there's a lot of
conflict that can come out of
that just like um the planet Venus is a
planet of war and a planet of love it
has it's a Morning Star and that's the
it's a night star the Morning Star is
Lucifer I love
you
oh
yeah and so also Mars is also a planet
of wordss like Mars is the Martian
Planet but um but Venus is associate
it's like there's two stars to it the
morning star and the evening star so
whether you're born the day or the night
it depends on like that will be the
Venus influence on you so some people
have a stronger Lucifer Venus and some
people have a stronger Aphrodite Venus
but you need you need both sides it's
The Duality to it okay
so what do I have I'll just do a few
more things and then if anyone has a
question I'll answer if any wants to
talk about anything else but I like this
book I like Martha Stewart a lot there
is nothing to do with Martha Stewart
except has her logo or her her all good
things she always talk about good things
in
life this is a treasury of images and so
let's see what we get out of this
book
okay
so I think that's a page out the out of
the boish manuscript perhaps I can't but
uh it looks like a rep reptile iguana
maybe salamander it's probably the
salamander like a fire salamander
and they were known as like the
representing the element of
fire okay little
emergency that's what you have cats you
got to expect little
emergencies no harm no foul everything
wipes up don't worry it's very watery
beer anyway they probably just give the
cards a little
cleaning the cards were
fine it was my fault you know I should I
really shouldn't have had my beers right
there I should have my beer somewhere
else let me just wipe the cards down
and they're all fine there're just a
little
bit but
uh
yeah I uh what's see what's this one
yeah that was a little bit of a mess
okay
so let's see I want to talk to you
guys let's see anyone anyone want want
to have a
discussion or anything any like question
or
probably going wrap up
it's like disaster disaster my life is a
little bit of a disaster sometimes but
I've always been able to clean it up you
know I just have faith that things will
work
out this two shall pass is a good quote
you know if you ever
have some kind of problem in your life
just know that everything is
temporary we're we're here on this Earth
for a small amount of time and just
appreciate as much as we can while we're
here and to do as much good as we can
because we can do a lot of good we can
be forces we can be very positive forces
in the world that will literally just us
one one person can change the entire
world for everybody in the better please
guys please please pleas everything's
falling on the floor cats the cats have
just like caused caused chaos but that's
a good thing about cats
too Lenor I you're knocking everything
down you're knocking everything
down sometimes I come in the morning and
the entire table all everything's just
pushed off a bit they'll get everything
and so yeah the ripple effect the
butterfly effect and the Ripple so
Ripple is like that's that's like
circles and circles and circles and and
they go out and uh Butterfly Effect is
like a butterfly flaps his wings it will
just change like the trajectory of
little piece of wind and that will
change like the cause a hurricane on the
other side of the world you
know so every little action we do
can have a lot bigger consequences we
have to be mindful just have the best
intentions because sometimes they the
consequences are completely unintended
and we
want jackass started started purring oh
that's so sweet yeah she make it a cute
little girlfriend for Jack us she's like
she she's like kind of like one of the
meaner cats than my other cats like
she'll Chas them out of this house and
stuff cuz she's very protective in gels
but yeah look how magical her eyes are
and stuff they're just like pure her
orange she's such a Halloween cat and
she's this cat is sweet this cat will
just literally I don't want to be weird
but she'll come up and she'll kiss me on
the lips and she'll like you know
she'll other cats will you know do that
a little bit she like she she wants to
kiss me the cat she loves me she she
loves me so
much and I got her and I I had another
black cat
named Salem and then Salem just
disappeared from my house one day and I
was like devastated cuz Salem was a
really cute cat too a little black cat
and I was devastated and uh I I was I
looked for her for weeks and I came so
close to finding her and it it was all
these problems and everything like where
I was you know they thought I was
trespassing in this Auto lot that I was
trying to look in the middle of the
night and people were chasing me out of
there and stuff and yelling at me but I
was looking for I was so desperate to
get my cat back and then say I never got
I never got that cat back but then my
friend uh introduced me to this cat lady
and so Lenor that's Lenor right there
Lenor after a gr po book and Lenor was
wanding around her parking lot and she
put out some food in a little little
trap and then she came back out like a
couple hours later and Lenor was in the
Trap and she was just a little kitten
and when she brought her over like there
pictures of me and like we're just
hugging like we're so we're just like
and she's just like been the most loyal
loyal cat and everything she's stayed
here through a lot of cats but she's the
she's the boss she's the boss around
here you know she's my little that the
cat that uh this is referring to it's
not not KN enough FL but yeah when it
says like be Beware of the cat that's
this cat right here this this is my
little this is my
little you know my little guard cat my
little you know my cats also the
anything that has to do with like the
cards or anything I have they always
want to be around that stuff they have
such attraction to it and just like
jackass with your cards like how jackass
just gravitates towards them and it's
like natural with them yeah thank you so
much I I we have the best cats like we
seriously dud jackass is
so so uh so sweet he looks just like my
other cat Romeo and I I'll send I'll put
a picture up of Romeo because uh Romeo
was the only blonde cat out of that
litter but he had like
striping like kind of similar to jackass
and he was such a cute cat and then when
my other cat got pregnant and gave
birth Jack wants to be the yes well
jackass can certainly come courting like
I'm sure like Lenor would love that you
know cuz uh she doesn't kind of care for
my other male cats and stuff
but jackass is a really cute cat um I'm
sure she would be
attracted CU she has some good
taste yeah I have one cat that's not
fixed right now too and that C is like
I'm I'm worried she'll get pregnant CU
and the only people she get pregnant
from is one of the brothers and so I
have to be really careful right now um
that there's a lady that does free free
spay clinics um like once a month and so
I just have to schedule it right and
then I can get her her fix and then I
don't have to worry
anymore because it's de it was it's
devastating to have to I I had 12 cats
at one point now I was fine with that
like I had 12 cats and uh
they don't like being that many catss
together in one house like and all this
naturally like start to run away that's
why Romeo ran away he ran away right
before the other litter came they just
instinctively knew and
so I just think that the neighbor got
him we have really people that love cats
around here and he'll probably live
he'll live the best life and a happy
life here I just wish he would come say
hi
but then again you have to
like you know let the cat let the cats
do what they want to do so I have a cat
door they can come as go as they please
they they're they're here cuz they love
me and I love all my cats but I
understand like it you know when they
when they fight with each other and and
they don't some cats like to be like
single people I think a lot of cats like
to be single cats they don't like to be
in a group of other cats and
stuff especially some of mine they like
to be they like to be pampered and
everything and so when they see me with
another cat they get jealous and it's
like only have too many hands and
so
yeah yeah and they they are like uh they
can be pack animals too but
uh like really they they they do get
more jealous I think than dogs and stuff
like that like uh dogs just get really
sad they'll feel sad and don't feel sad
and everything but uh cats will get
jealous you know cats will get they
they'll see it and they'll look in the
corner of her eye and then then they'll
all of a sudden start fighting with that
cat and stuff like that dogs will just
like love everybody like know the whole
time and uh so they all have their
really individual special
points I would love I'd love a dog it's
just they would not do well with the
cats and
so I'm just cleaning up here so there
wasn't it wasn't as big a disaster as I
thought um that's
fine you know it's like the
uh it's it's not about the cards
necessarily it's about how you how you
read them how you how you interpret them
and
so you just got to expect like little
things will happen like that when you
have animals
and so I don't ever get mad about that
kind of
stuff the crisis was
averted
so uh let's see I probably been on for a
little bit of a Time keep reading okay
I've been on for a little over an hour
but I will be happy to keep reading so I
have this deck it's called The Oracle of
black enchantment and so if you know the
Deviant Moon Tarot
deck I miss you too I miss you so much
and I I love going on and talking to you
guys and everything and so even if I
wasn't like the best frame of mind
tonight
cuz you
know I'm a it's a little bit late and
I've been drinking a little bit but
uh I thought I'd go on and say hi to you
and spend some time so this has a really
cute little devil on the back thank
you so that's an interesting devil card
has a kind of like a brais with the the
bra has a chicken leg chicken head but
this one has chicken
feet and he has the crown and he's he
has breast he a very bathat type
creature
so this is by this is by the guy that
does the Deviant Moon deck and so if you
ever see the Deviant Moon
deck this is one of his oracles and
there's a whole book to it um that
online but I'll see like if we can
interpret any of these as as they come
do
I okay yeah so we're gonna have to do
our best just to be interpreting
ourselves and
so that's cute little card it's like
a little devil he's he's fallen
asleep he's had a long night but look
and he's he's winged and he has a
sword and there's like a is that like an
ink or there's a cup so he has the cup
the Pentacles the
swords so he's yeah he's so he has this
reminds me of like a magician type card
um where he has all these tools and then
but maybe he's just like
worked himself worked himself out too
much and so he needs some
rest and then he'll be refreshed and
then he'll be able to look at his tools
again in another
way yeah this is a really cute deck this
is it was a I got on Etsy it was like a
little special on
Etsy these cards are fine okay let's see
call a couple more of these
cards okay so look so this woman is
buying dolls
and it might be she's just buying these
cute little dolls for good purposes but
look look at the hand of the
arm it's kind of like kind of like a
it's not I'm not saying it's necessarily
evil but it's like you know it's it's a
hairy this hairy arm like a beast arm
handing out these little voodoo doll
kind of things and she looks very she
looks like a wealthy
woman and so there's a there's some kind
of practitioner right there and so no
matter um it's about the intention and
so he could be like you know he could be
like he can have bad intentions with the
adults and she has good intentions and
she wants to play with them and play you
know make a little cute little family
with them and have the happiest thing
for them but you also have to know
there's people that will try to
manipulate
and so always make sure you protect
yourself and like and understand like
that that that kind of stuff really
can't hurt you if
you have faith that you you're protected
in that
but and then we have another thing we
have these we have a cauldron and who's
in the who's in The
Cauldron can you see
that they're cooking something there the
black cat right
there the number three is all always
associated with like a lot of like a lot
of
um like there's three witches in MC Beth
and there's three witches and instead
like the Hocus Focus those three witches
so there's you know there's the number
three is a Divine number and everything
and that's the power of three like the
show charms and everything but
definitely indicating that and then the
Black Cat and everything it's definitely
indicating that they're into like some
kind of magic
practitioners and you can see the sun is
like shedding drops
too so that that's that sunlight is also
like a power it's like the fire is like
a representation of the sun too and it's
it's able to cook things so I don't know
if they're making dinner but they you
look like they're very con look what is
that she has like a a like a dress
making torso or something like that so I
hope it's not a a real torso but and
then she has like she has a a snake
wapor on her
arm yeah so I I don't know what these I
don't know what they're up to it's
it yes and see the shedding light the
shedding light too that's also very
similar to Egypt where they had like
that the the Rays of the sun would come
down and they would like the Pharaoh and
his family would go collect the Rays of
the Sun and everything and so no was
called an energy called the Aon the sun
was an energy called the Aon so we have
these drops coming off of it I'll show
you a couple more of these cards because
they're
interesting I like this card a
lot
so she's flying through the air and then
look she has these little little cherub
in these little these little head head
of the cheram coming and carrying her I
don't
know she was at
a gathering
but the cherubs are associated with like
with like glove and stuff like that and
so maybe there's a a good purpose that
that is being orchestrated that she's
going to these places but I don't know
she also looks kind of like she's diving
into something she doesn't know where
she's diving she's like where are they
taking me I hope they land me safely and
stuff what are these these little cute
little
beings doesn't know quite where they'll
take her but hopefully it'll take her to
that Watchtower right there
yeah these are yeah and especially um
these cherubim type type Angels they're
associated with with the fire element
like there's the Garden of Eden that the
cherubim um gave the sword they gave a
sword to the cherubim the the Flaming
sword and stuff and so but they're also
associated with air because they have
wings and they're flying and stuff like
that and then one's on her head and so
one that's almost like attached to her
head like a second brain like a higher
self kind of thing and that that one has
her foot so they're just they have her
whole body like balanced out perfectly
so they can
fly and take her
somewhere she doesn't know where she
doesn't know if she's going to land safe
but they're going to watch out for her
yeah you can always
trust like you can always trust Angels
sometimes with the other ele Elemental
beings they're they're not honest
sometimes a lot of them don't like
humans especially demons don't like
humans very much traditionally and they
always try to mislead them or put them
into like a a deal or give them wrong
information or create conflict or have
the human owe them something if they
help them and then they don't even help
them very much or they help them in an
unexpected way like the genie and
Aladdin and stuff
so something to consider especially
there's these xinn Spirits which are
fire spirits in the they're known in the
Middle East and they're known for not
really like they they don't like humans
very much because at the beginning of
time God said for all the creatures to
worship Adam and then the Jin Spirits
were like Adam was
created after us and we're created
before Adam and so we're not going to
bow down to Adam and
so God kind of punished them and he sent
the the thein king like you know I Bliss
it was a very similar story of Lucifer
where he just set him off to create his
own thing and
everything but
um the sh are very notorious nowadays
too I mean they're still they're still
very believed in and they don't even
they'll not even mention them in some
some countries they're could they're
they're very powerful spirits
but and like here's another um this guy
on a cliff and there like a castle on
fire it's card 19
and there's like a bird coming
down bird or a dragon and he has a
little black cat next to him
too but I think it looks like I don't
think he started the fire unless he sent
this one over to like set everything on
fire I think he might be rescuing this
one from the blaze i' like to think of
the positive uh interpretations too yeah
maybe he maybe he said the castle on
fire you know
so you also want to be careful
about um just like I that's why I also
try to be like uh respectful to
everybody at all times
because there's some practitioners that
if you get mad they'll go right to the
Revenge stuff and the the malice and
there's nothing you can do about it
because it's like that
that's they're being led by their
negative emotions in that way and
so can you can always try to like steer
people in the right direction and
everything because really destruction is
not because what does he get out of this
destruction like that that all the
people here are are screwed you know and
then but he's happy that that they don't
have a a castle it's
like
so there's definitely an evil and he
looks like a skull
being little
alien little skull and
he's poting at the that bird so these
are maybe not what the author intended
but I like to just examine them and just
think about different things because
there's a reason it came up and maybe
has a good message for
us and look
here's look at it's it's the angry angry
towns
people they've heard something they're
going to go try to kill somebody but
look who's in the very back whispering
in all the ears
in inciting everybody you know so that's
like one of the things about like
witchcraft or witchcraft can be it can
be the words it can be gossip it can be
slander it's like trying to affect
things through communication and
interpretations of things and so that's
why the music is very
powerful um the media is very powerful
in things because then you can get all
these people upset
but the person causing all the trouble
is
like what is he doing hold
on looks like he's he's pickpocketing
him I'm not sure or he he's holding a it
looks like he has his hand in his pocket
and he's taking out his watch and stuff
so now everyone's distracted and
so there was a good movie I saw it's a
Russian movie called The Thief and this
uh this guy like um they meet this
Soldier a woman in her her child beats a
soldier and they go stay at some
boarding house and keeps putting off
paying the rent and then one day he um
he buys tickets to like this opera or
some show that's nearby in town for
everyone in the house and so everyone
goes to the show and while everyone goes
to the show then he goes in the house
and he steals everything and like runs
off and
so always beware is like if if someone's
trying to like get you all up in your
head about something is like is there
something they're trying to distract you
from there's something that they're
trying to redirect you that they don't
want you to be looking at and so they're
they can play with your emotions and
then get you to go in some other
direction always think about that that's
why I try not to get too upset about the
things people say or like comments
because it's like some of the comments
tonight and some of the chats were
like very jarring like some like there
was a in the meme War the guy said he
posted something it says like bring back
the crucifixion and stuff like that and
because the because the detestable
people need to be killed and stuff like
that
so it's just like a mean there's like a
mean-spirited kind of thing about it and
then I was like you know so and then I I
I just take things personally because
even if it's not directed towards me
it's like I'm seeing it and
then but sometimes I feel that things
are directed towards me it's just like
U I can be a magnet sometimes for for
like certain people also I noticed a lot
of people will um a lot of people will
project their Shadow onto me like
they'll like Shadow work is about like
recognizing we all have a shadow we all
have a dark shadow we all have like the
a light side of ourself a dark side of
ourself and then we can work on it
integrate it but then some people just
think that other people have all the
shadows and they're perfect and then
other people need to be shamed or
ridiculed or just something bad happened
and
so I always like try to like not project
my shadow on other people and then
recognize that their Shadow is probably
being project on me because I I'm also
very receptive I'm
also a lightning rod of controversy
because I'm you know I'm uh I'm gay I'm
like I do tarot I like
U um have interesting religious beliefs
and I have an interesting sense of
humor but uh
but I'm I'm a I don't consider myself
you know a perfect person but I'm I'm
like I'm a good person and I have
negative qualities too and I think same
for everybody but I'm I'm aware of them
and that's G gives me some kind of
advantage of working on
myself I love you too and thank you for
like encouraging me to go on T I
probably wouldn't have come on
tonight I uh and look I might even drink
a beer right now look what I have it's
called the culture pop watermelon soda
it's not bad it's from Whole
Foods wipe up a little
bit so um what am I gonna be doing well
so she I got some good advice tonight uh
from Emma who's like basically said to
go to retreat and to heal and work for
myself
and I agree with that but I I am
retreating right now you basically I am
on a retreat I've been alone a lot of
the time and that's why I get bored
sometimes s and I need
to you know have some people I know you
know come over and hang out and party
and uh so I did and it was Halloween and
so was a special occasion so I'm not I
don't apologize for that and I had a lot
of fun I had a lot of
fun
and you know it was a one night thing so
I had my fun for the
night now I
can you know take a breath and relax a
little bit and then after also after
that I was able to really clean my house
which I really needed to clean it and
so it uh it brought me some kind of like
energy and
relaxation and now I'm ready to like
pick myself up a little bit more it's
it's been a it's been a really terrible
year for me and
so I'm just like uh you know I and plus
I was really sad about my cat too but uh
I'm in a much happier place now um I had
a happy Halloween and so I had a fun
night and so even if everything back
fired in my face and
like hey I got I have I have all my cats
everyone's happy healthy I have I have
food in my refrigerator I have uh people
in my chat I have good friends to talk
to and so I'm very blessed like
extremely blessed and uh I I don't have
anything to complain about like
basically
thank you and so do you so do
you like I I know we are super empath we
are like yeah you have you have you have
the very heart centered thing going on
like very caring you know people
gravitate towards you all every all my
friends like loved you instantly you
know and now they're your friends you
know and so I really like being able to
like bring people together and that kind
of thing and then having a part of that
and then everyone else can or you can
they
can start you know doing things together
with them and then that can continue and
US need more people so it Al I think our
channels are going to be taking off like
I think like we have a good support
system just like and I have people that
I know I can
trust it's like just the there's certain
people that I have to I question
sometimes and uh or I I wonder what they
said and it's not necessarily I can't
really ask them about it at that time
like what do it what does it mean or if
I do ask I I get like an answer that is
like not
satisfying I've dealt with all this
before I'm I'm I'm an expert in
psychological warfare um with of like
the meanings of of certain words of like
certain terms of the 48 Laws of Power of
gas I've been through I've I I met I met
this Russian girl a beautiful Russian
woman she taught me almost everything I
know about that but she taught me in the
wrong way by by using it on me and I had
to figure out my way out of it and so
it's the whole thing it's been a it's
been a journey I'm lucky I'm I've
maintained my mind I've gotten stronger
from it but it's just not it's not the
most Pleasant thing to go through it's
like
especially so I'll tell you something
that someone said the other day and that
I don't know if they were referring to
me but they said oh the best way to
drive a person crazy is to find somebody
that re um really they want most of all
they want friendship or they you know
they want love and
then to basically to fake it and then to
like do reveal all at once that it's all
and that will destroy the person's that
psych you and it was like and I don't
think that person would do that kind of
thing I think he's against that kind of
thing but that's a mindset that a lot of
people have and and they would you know
people it's foreign to me that people
would want to hurt other people like
that because
I I I would not h a fly but uh there's
people that literally would they want to
destroy other people for really no good
reason lot most of the time it's
jealousy it's like a it's like the evil
eye the evil eye all comes from
jealousy um that's where it stems from
or Envy that's where the the evil eye
comes like comes from that basically
it's like someone stares because they're
jealous and and they think bad about you
and stuff like that so I think everyone
has something you can be jealous of you
know everyone has
their their burdens and their you know
their benefits
and I'm not mad at anybody for anything
I want people to do better that's all I
want and uh and I want people
to be well and I understand I'm like
going to be like the very unconditional
loving person like uh all the time and
like I'll be the sucker I'll be
the I I don't care it's like because
that's that's me it's like not not not
the sucker NE necessarily because I've
learned so much that I'm not really a
sucker
but yeah I'll like I'll fall in love way
too easily with the wrong people over
and over and over again I'll never learn
the lesson I'll give them a million
chances I'll always forgive them I'll I
think it's my Capricorn part the
Capricorn side of me is like so loyal
that it's like once I love you I love
you for life and it's like really I
won't stop loving you even if you you
heard me I'll still love you but now I'm
to the point
where I just like try to take myself out
of the situations that are like not
loving and like just focus more on
because then I have more time to focus
focus on people that do love me and
stuff because people will reveal
themselves you know
um like eventually
like I was friends with a Russian girl
for like five years and before she
started getting weird and then for like
the last seven or eight years it's been
like the love
bombing the IDE idealizing devaluing
discarding then ghosting and then coming
back a month or so
with love bombing again and that over
and over and over and over again and so
then you get used to the cycle and so
it's like it's hard to fight against
because you're so habituated to it and
so now well now she's in prison and so a
lot of these people are in prison it's
given me a chance to step back and work
on
myself yeah and you know and and she had
um she has good qualities too but yeah
like she was basically had all these
Third Party friendships and everything
that and then she would make fun of me
to them and stuff like that but then it
was like the Mean Girls kind of thing
where it's like they would like come in
super nice and their friend and
then they pull the carpet out from you
or they take the trust and betray it or
then
they they'll just do something that is
off they'll like come in and they'll
start whispering about you and like in
front of you or saying the weirdest
weirdest comments and
so I've uh I've dealt with some a lot of
mind and so so but the good
thing about that is now I can help
people that have experienced that and uh
maybe help them not make the same
mistakes I did because I've made a lot
of
mistakes I cringe at myself I still make
mistakes I'm
like you know but I don't hurt anybody
and I don't do anything intentionally
to to harm or hurt anybody's feelings or
I'm very concerned
about wanting people to feel loved CU
not a lot of people I think the biggest
problem is people don't feel loved and
then they take it out on other people
and they take it out on society or and
then they're they don't they're not
loving people because they never had the
love and so if they if they never had
that Foundation how can you expect them
to be able to give it to other people so
I'm just very forgiving about
that the Russian girl I love the Russian
girl I wish wish the best she's going to
be going to fire camp or she's in Fire
camp right now so she'll be a
firefighter and she's a minimum security
and stuff but I know if she ever gets
when she gets out it'll be the same
exact pattern she's not
gonna change her whole person
personality because every time she's
she's been out of jail before and it's
like it's always the same thing it's
like always like the same pattern start
again and uh I'm really ready to end
these patterns and it's like if I do
have like the scary thing about the
internet everyone's connected I hope you
don't mind I think Teresa I think you're
just here it's just doing me right now
but
uh yeah these uh these patterns will
happen over and over
again and if and then if now everyone
can collaborate
and and talk like for example like you
know I showed that the girl that came
over um the other week I showed her Emma
and like said this this is I'm mod for
Emma I think Emma's awesome but she can
just as easily go find Emma's Discord or
find Emma's whatever and like say
anything she wants about me or talk to
anybody there or there's a it's a
communication thing but it's like it's
like the game of telephone where it's
like one person hears one thing one
person hears another thing it gets
exaggerated it gets turned into like
this thing where and it's like where and
especially like when people like to feel
better about themselves by putting other
people down that's like a big thing with
narcissist and I dealt with a lot of
narcissists and uh they love to push
people down so they look better because
they want to be the the highest and
everything I don't care about being the
best it's like I care about just being
myself and uh I want I want the best for
everybody I want the best for everybody
like really there I canot I cannot say
there's like one person in the world I I
I hate I mean there's horrible people
and people have done horrible things but
when it comes down to
it they've done horrible things horrible
things probably been done to them it's
like there's cycles that people go
through there and these Cycles are not
just like by one lifetime they're
generational Cycles so they could be
hundreds of years old it's it's happened
in certain families and they just have
these patterns they repeat and so I'm
really trying to be like a generational
cycle breaker myself too and if there's
any like negativity or curses you know
around my family I want to take all that
I want to be like the lightning rug and
protect
everybody and I have a big family too
I'm I have a big beautiful family and uh
so when people
start when people mess with with them it
get me that will bring out the the devil
in me when people like
will say things about my family and
stuff so or even my you know my my cats
my family my friends it's like now I'm
getting this like big like very
protective
urge
because you know I don't know you never
know why people on the internet are like
they like are acting like they are like
the trolls or whatever but it's like
some of these people have have have very
said very personal things about me like
uh that I I'll said to other people in
conversations but it's like how would
they have known this like the certain
personal information unless there's some
kind of of
like because people always like oh I'm
psychic they'll say they're psychic
about certain things and it's like okay
well the information we not coming out
that exact about like you know names
and C C like there'll be just things
that they they'll know and that will
just bother me and it's like so I I
think I saw a card I saw image today it
said the triggers are the are the way
the triggers are the guide like look at
the triggers watch what's triggering you
and now I I'll teach you how to get get
pass your triggers so I'm going to be
really working on that see like what
upsets me why it upset me where it's
really coming
from because uh I really do I'll Take
Everything very personally um even if
it's not directed at me I I'll feels
directed at me because it's it will be
something not explained perfectly it's
kind of out of context of the
conversation that almost you would think
that they would think it would apply to
me
so I don't know if that's what's going
on with with uh with Emma but I I love
Emma so much and uh I've been with her
for like six months probably I was with
her when she had 3,000
members and she just got kicked off of
Tik
Tok
and I I like instantly loved her and I
like you know instantly wanted to you
know she modded me really
quickly we did like I would do I used to
barter readings with her because she
wasn't doing her paid readings yet and I
would barter a card with her and
everything we would just have fun and
laugh and uh now it's like now
like I love her I love she has a great
number of people but it's like there
just seemed like there are a lot of
people that I didn't know tonight I've
never seen before they came in they all
acting like they know me all acted like
they know her I've never seen them
before I'm there a lot and it's like and
then it just got a little personal and
I've had other I've had stage I've had
stag readings I've had I had a lady
stage a whole reading before all base
her on me every she had the cards all
picked out already to say she had
whatever she had like people
were call you know calling her on the
phone outside of her show and telling
her what to say and stuff like that and
like being really obvious about it and
so when that kind of stuff happens I'll
leave the show then it's
like I won't I won't leave Emma like
it's like I even if like and if she did
say something to me tonight that was
like under the radars something like
that it's like I forgive her she's she's
being told things and who knows what
people are saying either they'll never
say what they're saying it will always
be like some kind of like they're trying
to get you to admit to something that
you didn't do like kind of thing they'll
just like fish trying to get you to feel
guilty about something and then you'll
say I apologize for this and this um
when it's like wasn't even like that
they're trying to get you to um self
incriminate yourself or something like
that but I didn't do anything
so my my heart is light as a feather
like really I uh I don't feel guilt if I
if I felt guilty I would just be like
under a rock or something like that but
I'm willing to fight for myself and
like because I know I'm not doing
anything
wrong it's like if they would tell me
specifically what they think I'm doing
wrong or why I deserve to be told
like they'll say horrible things about
like oh you know like
U talk about Rob like robbing you you're
B like you'll be homeless you'll be like
and all this kind of stuff you'll have
no money and like and uh I don't even
care about that all all I need is a deck
of tarot cards a backpack and a I I have
the beach right
here and I I could live on the beach if
I needed to you know
I'm I could be happy living on a beach I
can be
happy you know living in a mansion
I better I I would have a lot of fun
doing tarot like that though on the I I
I would be able to support myself like
that like I have a
whole skill where I could be talking to
people and like
not you know sad and like not talking to
anybody I could be I could still thrive
in the world you know but that I'm just
I'm
I'm I'm blessed to have what I have and
I I would
uh I would like to to have everyone be
happy in my family
I don't want my family to worry about me
like I kind of like I will isolate
myself away from my family not because I
have any problems with anybody but
because I don't want to bring
my Firestorm of of issues to anybody
anybody I don't want to cause any
problems for anybody else everyone has
their own families everyone has all
their kids their own kids everyone's has
their own
jobs I'm kind of this chaotic Force
your heart your heart is black he
said your heart is black where's your
heart and I protective of your
heart so my heart is my heart my heart
has a bunch of has at least three swords
in it and then there's like 10 swords on
my back and I pulled all the swords out
of my back then those are
healing um the swords in the heart are
like they don't heal as easily um and
then it's like
but you know I keep I keep going back
trusting again my heart my heart keeps
getting stabbed in the stabbed three
times and then it it
keeps I heal it my heart is Evergreen
you know it's like it's
a it my heart is like the most genuine
part of me it's like that it doesn't lie
and uh I
could blackening your blackening your
heart it's it's good too it can be good
too but it's because that doesn't mean
it's it's like it's the evil heart or
anything it means it's protected by like
it's it's shielded and it's insulated
it's insulated from these attacks and
it's like and but
uh I I try to forgive and then move on
and
like I just uh will not deal with those
people anymore and so then I won't have
my feelings hurt like tonight once I
started if I got weird feelings I would
just like not talk in the chat
you see by the way there there was uh um
Nicholas Cage was in the chat
so that made things kind of entertaining
a little bit a little comic
relief and the heart is the heart the
heart is very the heart is like it's
fragile you know the heart is fragile
and it's
like it's the easiest part to to break
of anybody you know it's like that that
that's and that's and it hurts just as
bad is breaking a bone or breaking
anything else it's
like when my heart hurts I just I take
that as a guide to
like protect it protect myself more be
wiser I really want to be like a a
smarter person in how I deal with some
things because I'm I'm just
like I'll be so loving so accepting so
opening I'll be and I'll be sometimes I
am delusional of cuz I'm I live in a lot
of fantasy because the whole Venus in
the 12th house thing comes with a lot of
fantasy
and dreams and that kind of thing and so
I live very much in that world uh and so
I will have like a a different view of
the world in other people I'll have the
rose colored glasses on and I'll see and
so I won't see things I won't see like
the negative qualities in people or
I'll I'll filter them out I'll block
them
out thank you that's you thank you and
I and that's what that's what I love
myself the most and so when you pulled
the cards the other night first you
pulled the Archangel Uriel
card and then he's called the love and
light of God and then you pulled the
goddess or the angel of Love
card and then she has roses in her hair
like an Aphrodite has roses in her hair
and uh and that just made so much sense
and so I I went and reexamined like the
12lt house and what it means the 12l
house is a
very it's a very serious house like it's
and it's usually very dark and so you
it's like you're blind in there so I
can't see my Venus in there and I can't
see my Neptune in there I can't I can
get to them I can navigate through it
but it's not not apparent it's like it's
the darker side it's like so when the
sun is over it then you then you can see
you can see more into it but it's the
dark darkest side of the wheel and so
has a lot to do with like darker sides
of ourselves and like it has hidden
enemies but also but but the Sagittarius
and so Sagittarius has a bow and Cupid
has a bow and then Neptune is a Pisces
influence and so there's like fire and
water there um and so there's creativity
and dreaming and like but there's also
like Obsession or falling in love with
the wrong people it's like I do it's
like I I don't I don't know why I'm
attracted to the people I'm attracted to
it's like it's a curse it really is
because if I would just like like some
normal person like some normal normal
nice nerdy white guy I I would love to
be able to do that but I just like I'm
not attracted to that I
like you know I'm not even saying I'm
trying to say not felons or gangsters
but I'm attracted to them but I I want
like a reformed gangster I want like
somebody that's been through that and
like they've changed their their life
and I would love to meet someone like
that that that wants to get their life
together and start business and stuff I
would love to find that I would love to
help make somebody better and
like find the perfect person but I'm
really resigned now it's been 43 years
and it's like i' I've had one serious of
relationship with a woman I uh I dated
mostly when I was in like high school
you know and
so yeah and with the thing is yes but
that's why if you have any of the wrong
people in there they can have so much
damaging effect on that because if I
open my heart to people I'll open it to
them and so then they can just easily
take advantage of that or easily take me
for granted or try to you know that kind
of stuff and so it really is it's like I
think we can count the real number of
friends we have on like one hand like if
we're that's most people if they're
lucky can count five like real true
friends and so I feel like I have I have
have the two friends and so but some
people have questions about um cuz
they'll just
like they'll say weird things
um I don't know I'm sure I love blade I
talk to Blade all the time um and stuff
and he's always really cool so he has a
screen named death and then the guy
tonight had a screen named black
death oh my cats are fighting outside
and the guy was talking
about I don't know if that certain
things I mentioned to Blade but there
are certain stuff I had me I think I I
mentioned I don't know if they're the
same person whatever um but look how
easy it is I mean everyone thought I was
Nicholas Cage for like two hours tonight
you know and and so that's how easy it
is to hide behind a Persona and
everything it's like very easy but I
just I Did It For Fun purposes I did it
for comic relief there other people use
it for negative purposes this is like
magic well there's magic you can use for
positive healing magic protection magic
love magic not manipulative love mag
magic but sending love into the world
like sending imagining like ripples of
love and everyone being happy and like
receiving the love and everything that's
that's part of
magic I know that was really weird
because I because you you were there and
then but Teresa honestly and there are
some mods are really
weird there are there have been mods
that she's kicked out before they would
block almost everyone in the chat like
they would block people that bought
readings just after they bought the
reading like and she was like trying to
she was very confused and it's like I
don't know why they do that it's like
um and it's it'll be the weirdest things
and so like also like that guy tried it
like one time when I he moded me one
night and uh he he also modded AC and AC
is Emma Emma mod but that night AC AC
blocked every single person in the room
she would have blocked me if I wasn't
the mod already
I oh definitely I'm G to write her I'm
going to write her a letter or I'll
write her message tonight and definitely
like yeah definitely say you you loved
your reading and it really resonated and
thank her anything else you want me to
tell her I'll be happy to to share the
the message and she really she really
enjoyed her reading from you
and yeah yeah so and so you know AC's a
really good mod like when AC became a
mod I I told Emma I was like just watch
I like watch her because she was in trid
Dan chat and she blocked like 20 people
in the chat it was just seriously me and
trient talking like everybody else was
blocked in the chat and and then uh but
then she she's done a really good job um
and most of the most of the mods are
there really good but there's also been
a few mods that she's had to let go um
or that just started having breakdowns
and stuff like getting mad block they're
blocking everyone in chat yelling at
people in chat and
stuff I mean I've Had My Moments too
like that you know her chat her chat can
get U intense and interesting
sometimes it was just like tonight it
was like a different
vibe it was
like it was like
the kind
of conspiratorial vibe a little bit I
don't know if you picked that up at all
but and know I'm of course I've been
through like you know my own paranoia
and stuff like that
but I mean but it's like if I did
something wrong you know confirm me
about it if I did something illegal
arrest me you know I don't it's just
like this constant insinuation about
everything or where it's like
insinuating really horrible things too
like um and then okay tell me like what
this this it's been it's been happening
for years and years and years with like
this kind of thing it's like so I've
learned this like pattern of
it I
know well you know I do get I I drink
sometimes too much I say I've said
stupid things I've like I've woken up
the next day and saw like I said stupid
things too I mean not not too horrible
but I've definitely like you know cringe
cringe the next day like why did I say
you know I've said ridiculous things but
nothing really even that bad I'm sure if
you it's like really um
not anything of GRA gravity so but like
I said like I'm a I'm a lightning rod
sometimes thank you and well you know
because I I was trying to like just
drink a little vodka and mix with like
juice for a few nights and one of the
bottles last for all these days but then
it gets I have put I put so much juice
in it that you hardly taste the Vodka so
can you drink so much of it and then
before I know it I drink the whole
bottle then I'm yelling at my window at
my neighbors to invite me to the
Halloween party and they they're saying
no and then I have you know then I'm
embarrassed and uh but you know luckily
I don't get too embarrassed
because I've been about as embarrassed
in this life as you can get like I've
had you know
so but not not not ashamed and just
embarrassed and just you know I've just
cringed at some of my past Behavior but
then there's like a recognition of like
um there's something I need to fix there
myself and
so with all those guys I was hitting on
I I figured out like you know some guys
just don't want to be hit on especially
by another guy and so especially like on
their show you know and there's other
people there might be embarrassing for
them and it's like I'm just like I'm
trying to be funny half the time like
I'm not trying to really Ser being
serious about it or but yeah sometimes I
just go
overboard I don't know I I'm trying to
reain especially now that I have a
channel and stuff I want to be more
professional and stuff and
I I want to give like the best readings
and stuff for people and be in the best
head
space
yeah that's the only way and you know
Teresa I'm opening up so much it's like
I I wasn't like last year around this
time I wasn't talking to anybody on chat
like I I had never chatted on on YouTube
in my life it took like a few months
after um I had like nobody here then I
would like start commenting a little bit
in chats and then participating and then
like then I like started meeting people
I met Benny and then Benny like would
promote my show promote my channel like
when I had no nobody there and he made
me a mod too and then I met so many cool
people from there and then I see the see
I met I I find shows like Aiden and I I
meet you and Aiden and you were so nice
when I met you in Aiden's chat that
first night you were like instantly like
um asking for my channel and asking for
me to pull car for somebody
and yeah it's like YouTube's a great
little family it's like it's like it's
like such a good way to talk to people
communicate with people and
like have your own design your own show
and like and I know D that was see last
year I uh everyone went to jail around
like October 10th or 11th or something
like that or you know around like early
October and so then I was like I had
nobody for like and then a couple months
and then probably around January or
something I started to to to CH and now
now it's like I'm social you know it's
like I have a whole different
personality where it's like
it's you know that's why I try to keep
the it's kind keep the alter ego under
under control you know because it's like
it's fun to it's fun to create like a
character that makes people laugh and
like some people you know it's fun and
also that's not completely yourself so
you can like kind of like do different
things and
like bring parts of your personality
come out that that haven't been out
before so I'm coming out of my shell
definitely I just like I'm coming out my
shell and then it's like I I want to go
back in sometimes and uh I get burned
once in a while still but I'm pretty
much after seeing how other people
handle their chats and the things other
people say to people they say things
just as bad to them as they say to me
so um definitely I try not take things
too personally and uh get a stronger
skin or try to get a stronger skin
and just be myself and not let not let
them change me for the worse or
anything thank you yeah well you know
about you know cancers have a shell
right so cancers love their their um
their like homes and stuff like that and
they love like you know being safe and
protected and
uh my mom's a cancer too she loves she
loves being in her house
and they're also ruled by the moon and
the moon almost has a the moon kind of
looks like almost like a shish kind of
thing too but
uh yeah so I I I have a little bit of
cancer cancer
um sign through my mom it's it's like
where I I like to be home a lot I'm a
home body I don't really like to I don't
have a
car there we
go thank you thank you for being like
thank you for being so supportive and
here it's like really I would not have
come on tonight if it wasn't for you I
would like probably just like have been
like just quiet I probably would have
just gone away for a while like like
because
uh it'll always feel it's hard to be
understood when you're on
the on over like a text chat or on a
computer and stuff and
so so yeah so it's just like the most
frustrating thing is when people think
they know me so but and they don't and
you do you definitely know me
so thank you and I I had so much fun and
I'm sorry it wasn't like a perfect
reading tonight like I don't know I'm
trying new things I'm getting my format
kind of down I got to keep my cards more
organized I
gotta protect my beers from the cats
getting on
it
okay yeah and I just thank you guys for
just letting me chat and talk it was
more of like
a I I was able to to get things off my
chest and a little bit and it was really
nice talking you guys and just thank you
for all your support and I love
you and
uh I'm having the best time on this
channel and uh it's only it's only
getting better I it's always just it's
improving more and more and I'm I'm
getting the picture more and
more so thank you for being here
everyone I hope you have a wonderful
night and I will talk to you later I
hope you guys come back to my chat and
I'll see you on the Discord um Teresa if
you're if you're still up for but uh but
I love you
guys we are and you are too Teresa we're
going to do it together okay I love you
have a great night guys I'll see you
soon
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