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Psyche discusses a personal issue with friends who left his Discord and chats without explanation, and then introduces his new intro video and welcomes a special guest, Pyana, to the show. The episode is a celebration of reaching 1500 subscribers and features tarot readings and discussions about cats.
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The episode begins with Psyche discussing a personal issue where two friends left his Discord and chats without explanation, allegedly due to loyalty to another person Psyche introduced them to ▶ 1:39. Psyche expresses sadness and surprise at the situation, stating that he was not given a chance to explain himself ▶ 3:45. He then shifts the focus to the celebration of reaching 1500 subscribers and introduces his new intro video ▶ 5:20. The intro video features a tarot-themed song with lyrics about magic, mystery, and romance [5:23-7:04]. After the video, Psyche welcomes a special guest, Pyana, to the show and they discuss the recent events ▶ 8:27. Pyana offers words of encouragement and advice, suggesting that people will find their own way and that Psyche should focus on his own path ▶ 10:27. The conversation also touches on the topic of toxicity in online communities and the importance of understanding different perspectives ▶ 11:21.
The episode appears to explore themes of loyalty, friendship, and online community dynamics. Psyche's experience with his friends leaving his Discord and chats without explanation suggests that online relationships can be fleeting and unpredictable. The introduction of the new intro video and the celebration of reaching 1500 subscribers, however, suggests that Psyche is focused on moving forward and building a positive community around his show. The conversation with Pyana also highlights the importance of resilience and understanding in the face of adversity.
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Hello guys. What's up? Good to see you. going on with my phone. Okay. Oh. Oh, that's really attractive. Okay, let me just button up a little bit. How are you guys tonight? Had a nice shower. Nice cleansing thing. I've got something exciting. I'm just going to wait for a
few more people to enter the room because we have premiere of my intro um by DJ Electra that she did for my show. And so this is what the uh the new intro that I'll be playing at the start of the show. And uh I just want every a few more people here today so I can uh I can start it. But I'll address something first. Okay.
Okay. So last night, you guys know the whole story. I I'm sorry to have this person's I won't even say their name, but I was on their Discord. I reentered their Discord. What's up, guys? How are you? I ran their Discord and I posted um I was talking. Oh, I have a new boyfriend. But I was noticed I was in the pet section, right? And so and a few minutes I was
kind of kind of drinking a little bit, right? And a few minutes later I uh I was just going through my photos and I saw a really cute picture of this guy that I kind of had a falling out with. We were kind of um talking again and stuff, but um and it was him with my with tricks right here. And I was like and then I posted and I then I saw oh it said I have a new boyfriend. And then I like I posted his picture and maybe was I was like, "Oh man, that doesn't make
sense." So I was like, "Oh, it's not this guy. I said it's somebody else who whatever." So I was telling the story, what? And then um this morning I get a message. I was like, "Did you say something like you you said you said you were the person's boyfriend?" I was like, "No, I I didn't." I was like, "I said it wasn't it wasn't my boyfriend." Whatever. And uh so what happened is that there was a screenshot of it and so
and then it was deleted from the from the discord. And so then I looked in my um my goodbye section of my discord. Oh actually I went to to a certain person's tarot page that does tarot that was a former supporter of the show and stuff like that. And um I was blocked in her chat. I was like okay this is interesting. And then I went and then I
looked at my discord goodbyes and yes, she had left. And then another very close person that also I always in this chat and stuff like that. I've been friends with a long time. I've been friends with both of them for a very long time. Not not very very long, but you know, it's like, you know, probably eight months or something like that. Um member on one of their channels and I noticed Okay. And so then they left and
then I was kicked out of their discords and I'm probably banned from their chats and everything because of the incident because they're so loyal to this person I introduced both of them to. By the way, I introduced both of them to this person. Um but he had he, you know, they didn't um talk to me first. They didn't um um let me know their concern. No, they just
just did it. No uh no goodbye, no nothing. But they left their their emails open on Discord. So, I I sent him a message and I said, "Well, thanks a lot um for not even hearing me out, not not asking about it, not not asking one question about it and then just just like disposing of me, right?" And so, interestingly, they both left me on their um on their just I'm sure they'll
I'm sure they'll delete me or whatever. I'm sure else maybe they won't. Maybe they're just waiting for me to like say something. I don't know. I don't know. But, uh but that's kind of sad. But let's not spoil the mood cuz guys, you know, tonight's a 1500 um subscriber celebration and we're going to have a fun night and it's going to be a lot of cool guests and a lot of fun. I have seven people in the chat right now. Oh,
we have comments in here. I'm sorry if I'm missing the comments. I I was on this media page, but I I do I have this premiere of my uh Oh, what's up? What's up? Bea's here. Tracy's here. Guys, are you ready for this? Pi's back. Okay, guys. I'm sorry. I didn't see the comments because I'm waiting to play this video. So, this is my new intro for the show, guys. And so, I got got Jen. I gota I got pie here. I got a lot of my
friends here. A lot of great friends. And if Yeah. Tracy. Oh, I'm gonna read everyone's name so I don't want to miss a person. Um Pebby's Jenny girl beta. Um Pi. Yes, I will drop the link in one second. I'm just going to play this video real quick. I hope you enjoy the new intro to the show. Let me see if it works.
Welcome to the night. The cards laid out for show. Stars shining so bright. Watch the secrets unfold. There's magic in her hands. Whisper what the future holds.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Flow.
Hearts in the balance. Every card and open door. Feel the romance in every arcane war. Destiny entwined as the moon begins to soar.
Dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Crystal visions in her gaze. Time can steal this moment. Life's uncertain dance we chase with love. Woen
potent dance to the mystery. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So let the tarot move with the rhythm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Awesome, guys. Wow. How cool is that? How cool is that? What's up, Janet? What's up, Jenny? Yeah, isn't that cool? What's up, Tree Frog? How are you? Hi, Pi. Okay, got the link. Going to post up the link. Um, yeah, the pi to come join me and anybody else um would like to come up
and stuff like that. We can have a great chat and we can have a little um little party tonight, right? Because it's 1500 subscribers, over 2,000 watch hours. I'm really proud of myself that sometimes the bigger you get, you know, there's other feelings involved with people and you know, um, so we'll see what happens. We'll see what happens with that. You know, I'm a forgiving person. I'm a very loyal
person, too. And I didn't I never was disloyal to these people, you know. Never. Thank you, Tracy. Thank you, Tracy. G Electra is amazing. Let's welcome up Pyana, our special guest. Hello. What's up? Nothing much. How you been? I'm okay. Like I'm I'm fine. Um you
know, just like I was a little bit of a shock before tonight's show and you know it's like you know these people um Hey Christina, nice to see you. Yeah, these people um these they're my friends, you know, and um and then you know I introduced them to this person and stuff like that and it's like and then they kind of like just like drop me and
They don't owe no one owes anyone loyalty, you know. They have to do what feels right to them. And they didn't block you. So, I think they're just waiting for Facebook. Okay. They blocked me. They blocked me. They they kicked me off their Discords. Um they um they blocked me on their chats and um they didn't block me on their on the on the private messages yet, but I'm sure they will. I mean I
mean even um even um you know the certain person that I had a conflict with recently let me back on their discord and stuff like that but I was in her chat and everything last night and then she would not address me well she would just say oh this person just wants to start controversy and conflict and drama and stuff like that like I like am I a big drama star but maybe I was like a little bit
I don't know I was if there's an elephant in the room you have the courage to want to address it a lot of people rather not open that can of That's where my feet and I was trying to like, you know, she made me take down the interview and stuff like that. That interview like that my first interview and stuff like that and it was a really special interview and it was like, you know, she was like, I just did that as a
favor to you and stuff like that. And I was like, well, it's like kind of like it's kind of like for both of us because I've introduced a lot of people to these people's chats and stuff like that and I was very happy to promote that. I enjoyed the stream. When you stopped going, I stopped going. I would try to go, but I just wouldn't have any fun because you weren't there at the time. So,
yeah. So, let them fly. Honestly, they're going to find their own way, right? Guys, guys, I wish them the best. Um Right. Yeah, she made me take it down. Yeah, she made me take it down. And um yeah, it was and it wasn't a mean way and stuff like that. Well, cuz the first the first thing she did was like say,
"My panel's toxic. I get drunk. And this is this is all nothing she witnessed personally. She just witnessed she just heard somebody say that to her and then she's like and people are telling me Yeah. She didn't see it herself. No, she was she was it. So that's a vibe she's getting. Okay. Yeah. She was told by somebody else by one of her mods like who was who used to
be a mod here and stuff like that. She was told uh she was told oh he he passed out. got drunk and uh and he um and he in the panel's toxic and stuff like that and that's what they were telling me and stuff in my in like the private chat. All these people they're like, "Oh, we really care about you. We love you. We're here for you." Yeah. But is it true though? Is like I've been gone for the last four weeks.
Okay. Hi. the panel has gotten so much less toxic and it's gotten like even like toxic people like are like like are getting along and stuff like that and it's like there's really good like breakthroughs we're making and stuff like that and like you know we I just have I've had like porn bombers like a lot of people didn't like sig and stuff like that and and they had a problem with him and they're like oh he's sexist or whatever or whatever you
it's easy to that's toxic so you have to understand it's not everyone's cup of tea do you see Do you see the comment on the screen? Panel toxic. See, it ain't so. No, when you have a panel, guys, you never know who's going to come on the panel. Sometimes you don't know them and it's like and sometimes you come to like
them and you get their sense of humor and it's not everybody's sense of humor. So, it can be considered. I mean, I I think that the the the people that were coming in doing the porn bombs and stuff are like the toxic people, you know, and that that's like the and I took them off right away and stuff like that and people and Yeah. And it's like Yeah. Um Yeah. Well, yeah. She said other things, but the reason I got upset with what she
said, um was that she said it in front of everybody when I asked her to come on um on my live panel because I thought she would like the panel. There's some cool cool people on the panel. I don't think Beto is up here and like Jan's Chicken Army and uh and I was just like cool people and I was like she'll love this. That's and then she's like oh I'm she's like I'm not going to go on your show because I don't I think all this stuff okay and not even mentioning her
name. Um but then I so I left her Discord after that and then I like then she wrote me back to say she's like oh okay well take take the um take the interview down. She's like I if you if you dislike me so much I've heard you're saying awful things about me which I've never said awful things about her. Right. And it's like she she just and it's like that's another thing. It's like did she see for herself? Did she
come and listen to what I said? No, she just listened to to the mod like and then all these people left. Okay. All the people left to discord. Then people were being mod she's listening to she's gonna find out eventually like everyone else has about that person. So that's how she wants to learn. She's an adult. Pebby's is Pebb. Yeah. I'm excited to have you here. you know, um yeah, they
mentioned last night you're a streamer and um that's awesome that you're here. Thank you for coming to the show. Yeah, I I need to check out her show. Definitely. Can you drop um Pebby's link um in the chat? Like I I am subscribed to a lot of people today and so um yeah, if you ever want to come up on on panel too, but that's his personality, right? And like it was funny cuz then
the other night he was on and he was like he made some like inappropriate jokes about you know chaining someone in the basement and stuff and then Michelle hopped on the panel. You saw that clip today of Michelle like just chewing him out and his his face where he's like he's like he's calling her ma'am and stuff like that. He was like being so respectful and stuff so hard. So hard. It's rare to see Sig Brick out of
character. You learn about people, right? And when I saw him like do when he saw when I saw him like being respectful and like listening to her and like taking the constructive it was just like shocking. I was like I thought he would just like yell at her and call her, "Hey get away." No, no, he was just like really really nice and like he's like he's like I didn't mean to offend you. I'm you know I'm sorry I
wasn't referring to you. And he was like doing his best to like to like um you know make up for it and stuff like that. And then that was just it was like a cool like and I cuz it's like he and then she like she like said oh he has a you know he's not a bad guy and stuff like that. She's like, I'm She need to calm down. And she was like, I'm you saw and then another guy came in. He's like, young man, here you're you're just being young. Did you see that other guy?
I didn't finish watching it. Yeah, there was another guy came in and he's like, and his name is Sanctuary Seeker, I think, and he's a really nice guy and uh who was sick. Yeah, he was on the panel. He wears like sometimes he's shirtless. He what does he wear? He wears like a a beanie. He wears like a beanie and he's like, "Hey, what's up?" up and he's Yeah, I'm subscribing right
now. Um Oh, I got to start to get into my um my chat. Sorry. Yeah, just a little bit. I'm just a little bit amped up right now because um you know, I got this adrenaline rush from all these all these people just like leaving and you know, misunderstanding me and stuff. Okay. So, but I but it's all all the all the good good people I have here. All the really people understand me. I know
all you guys in Yes, Christina knows who it is now. All you guys in here are just like awesome supporters and like I know you would not like you would at least talk to me or like get my side of the story. You know, there's two sides of every story or like and sometimes people misunderstand things and because I wasn't I wasn't like actually I was I just I just noticed it looked weird. And then I like clarified I was like no no I don't mean him. I just thought it was a
cute picture because I was in the pets section of the Discord and I was like, "Oh, here's a cute photo and like and I talked to him about it before like um like about oh, you know, like like even after we had the fight with him like of Hell Walker and stuff, I was like, "Oh, you know, um yes, Pebble, I got you right now. I'm gonna subscribe." Yes.
Show me the screenshot. It did look like Awesome. what he was worried about. Oh my god, that was so funny. Right. Did you see I think that the um but they they didn't put the bottom two parts. I think that screenshot it just said the top like oh this is my new boyfriend and then his picture and stuff like that. Then it didn't show the bottom where I was like oh it's not him it's um it's I met the guy I'm met on my
panel and stuff and it's like and so I was like I clarified but then they don't have that part of the picture. Right. And so and then it's like and then it's all deleted and I can't explain it and stuff like that. Okay. I'm subscribed to you Pebbles. I want everyone to to check out Pebbles. I think I'm going to get my link pinned right now. for my StreamYard link. And if anyone else wants to hop on the panel tonight, you guys are of course welcome. As long as, you know,
you know, we got Pi here. I'm so excited. P's been pretty busy lately. Um, but uh I always love when she's here and she always brings a smile to my face and the in the chat's face and I know people been asking. I got the message pinned. Thank you. Thank you guys for being here. We already have a great chat going on tonight. Yeah. So, we're having a I'm having a good
night and it's my 1500 subscriber and it's like and I have my new intro um the DJ Electra made and it's like and it's like I was so excited to play that tonight and uh cannot wait to start streaming tonight and so um um then it's like a little bit of a damper when I went to I went to Traveling Gypsy um tonight beta and uh went to her chat and I typed in her chat and I noticed oh my my messages aren't
coming up and then I noticed I went to my Discord and she had left the Discord and then she had kicked me out of her discord. board and you know and also clumsy clumsy clairvoyance the same thing she kicked me out of her discord and um just left my thing and it didn't without saying a word um just because and I introduced hell walker to both of those people I'll tell the whole story yeah so that I mean that's the thing I introduced them and maybe it's not
doesn't matter I introduced them but it's like it's like I knew them longer it's like and then maybe I don't know maybe I think I think I you know I knew them longer but they I guess they just like him better you know if I was offended by something he said I don't I don't think they would like they would not like like they would not like you can or something. I would not I would not ask anybody to leave somebody over
that. I'm not even asking I I invited more people I I put Emma I put Emma's um Discord on my my Discord and I was like everyone join and four people join and stuff like that and stuff like that. I I still promoting I'm still promoting her. Yeah. Why? Yeah. Teresa Teresa is like a little Hell Walker um fan person um who doesn't really want to want to address it with me. Well, Teresa was not not a
fan of my show and like she was like, you know, she was like, "Oh, you know, if you're" She was like always like telling me, "Oh, your show's bad because of this and this and this and like and you got to take I don't know." She was trying saying she's trying to help, but they were very negative about it. And I was like I was like, you know, I know I know how my show is. Like I say, I want a Howard Stern vibe. So, I I I like some excitement and like and drama and stuff
like that. Sometimes it's not supposed to be all rainbows and and uh and unicorns on my show. It's like my show is like a different kind of stream. It's like kind of like the my you know I I grew up on or I didn't grow up on but you know I started my first like a streamer I was watching was like Benny Blanco basically and so you know it's like I don't know if that's a bad influence or something but I just like I
thought and he was but he he was also the one that like got me to my first 50 subscribers and like promoted help me and like let me promote his show and my show and stuff and so and and I really like and I like the guy. Right. Yeah. Okay. I'm gonna I'm gonna be sure I subscribe to all these people to everyone tonight if I'm not already subscribed. Um, but if they want, they can join the server
and post their link so we can subscribe to them, too. I'm not I have I have a I have a self-promotion link. You can post it in my server. You can post it on the self-promotion link. You can post it on the general page if you want. You can um but the the the self-promotion is basically there's like a listing of your channels and stuff, but when you're when you go live and stuff, go ahead and post post. I don't care if I'm on at the same time. You know, I I I want everyone to like
basically I just want everyone to help each other and stuff. Yeah. And Yeah. And panels are So, I was on this panel this morning. It's called Money420. And I went on and um it was like there was all these people on and they were like and then somebody in the chat was like this guy's a good guy. Like cuz I always see people that recognize me from other panels and stuff and they're like he's a cool guy. He does good readings and stuff like that. So everyone's like I want a reading. I want a reading. I want
a reading. And I did reading after reading after reading. I think I did 10 readings and everyone was like that's amazing. They were like, "That's so cool." They're like, "We love you." And stuff. They're like, "You're family now." And stuff like that. And so it's like such a good uh such a good vibe and stuff like that. It was like so so I don't know. It's just like so cool. Like just going on panels and it's like Yeah. that like the other day some guy was on his panel that was like, "Oh, I have a
friend and he like he met this beautiful woman and they went and she was giving him a and then he like took down her pants and she had a penis and stuff like that." And then he's like and then he tried to punch her but he's like but he didn't punch her like he just walked the punch and then he then he like knocked him out and then the transsexual knocked him out and then stole his wallet and stuff like and then he was like saying I'm going to burn down I want to burn down his house and I was like violence is not the answer. I was like, "That's not a very nice story."
and stuff like that. And they're like, "Oh, there's mocking me like, oh yeah, look at this like I was like, you know, but uh but that guy still am I going to say if I wouldn't have gone back to his panel and stuff, I would have said his panel is talked to or I don't like what the story's on, whatever. I can share my opinion there." And the guy the guy didn't care. I share my opinion and then I come back the next night and then um I had like the best night in the thing and everyone like
everyone liked my readings and stuff, right? And so um yeah. Yeah, guys. my a little bit drama. And guys, by the way, and I also like, you know, I've been clipped and I went viral recently like cuz I I like my my channel's like gone way up in subscribers. I'm just meaning like the best people like and so it's like the negative like I don't I don't find my panels talk like
I don't I I just don't and it's like yeah and I drink and sometimes I like will get so tipsy that I'm like I don't that I don't want to end the show because people are having a good conversation and so I'll just drop out and maybe I'll fall asleep and stuff. It's not like I'm passing on like I'm not like on streamer you know just like nodding off on streamer. I'm just like have I ever been have ever been like this? Have you ever been like asleep on the stream like in
in the panel when everyone else is talking? No. It's like I always like able to like exit. Have I? Maybe I have. No. No. I hate Hey Jerry, Jerry, what's up? Hold on. Jerry is my friend from Alisa's and and also I saw him in the DJ Electra's chat and stuff like that. He also um really interesting um really interesting
background and I really appreciate you tonight in in her chat. Oh, okay. VA um or um pie dropped off, but tonight in um in Lisa's chat um um he said I was mentioning thank I was just thanking Alisa for um for um letting me promote my channel cuz Alisa's always been like she was I post I was like can I can I post my channel link and she's like yes
of course. She's like you can post you can post if you want whatever you want here and stuff like that. she's just really generous, you know, and uh I appreciate that. But um he asked me tonight about he was like um he's like, "Oh, you have a channel." And I mentioned I did. And so I'm really um I'm really excited to to see her. Can I mod you, Jerry, if you don't mind? Or you know, you don't have to do anything, but I do like to um just allow you to like um visit other people's channels
and meet meet people here if you'd like to. And uh so um yeah, how are you guys doing? We're really excited. Pick beautiful tonight. I I love your I love your ponytail. Yeah, Christina's here. Look at my hair. Do you know if you like Well, you look you look Well, look at my hair. Like I'm having
like a I just got out of the shower. But yeah, and I have my beard my Abraham Lincoln uh beard on fully growing. Yeah. But uh I had a nice uh nice cleansing shower. I had I had a nice day actually. I met like some also I was um I met some like really cool streamers like I met this guy Scribbles. I'm going to try to try to post their links. This guy name
Scribbles and I met this guy who's like he's like a giant like he's like he's like a body like I think he like he's he's just a big giant guy and he he bench presses and stuff like that but he's like really funny and uh and like like he doesn't mind like I make all these jokes and stuff like that and like he you know I just I kind of test people sometimes with the with the jokes. Okay. Yeah, Jerry. Yeah, I'd love to
You gota be sure. Yeah. And uh but but he was like cool and and he has like his long-distance girlfriend like he's talking and she was on the phone like laughing and and I was like and she was I was like who's that is I like why do I hear like a sound of a hyena and like then she's like but they're like but they don't get offended and stuff like that and then and so I was just and then I met that this other cool guy um I forgot I'm forgetting his
name right now but he was like he's really cool. He's like a Hispanic guy in Los Angeles and he was talking or he has his girlfriend and his girlfriend's like like was like wouldn't let him go in the room and was telling him not to stream and then she was in a bad mood and then she like then he she let him go in and they have a really cute relationship actually and he but um and he's that cute guy I showed you, right? I showed
you that really cute guy that that video. Did you think he was cute or or no? I thought he was really cute. He does. He has nice skin. Yeah, from what I could see. Yeah. Nice. Well, yeah, I I think I have pretty good taste. Pretty good taste in. But yeah, um but he was also he was also like I just like finding these people
and then and then Scribbles would like let me um Scribbles is he said he wants to be the next IP2 or ice he wants to be the next Ice Poseidon and he was like so the funny thing was so he went to Vegas and he's like okay he has a tattoo it says life or something tattooed across his face and he's like a real tough looking guy right? Yeah. like tattooed right across his cheeks and stuff like that. And he has and he's like really like he reminds me like a
Sublime fan or something like that where he's like I don't know he's like it's kind of like where he's wearing a flannel shirt kind of stuff and but he was in Vegas and stuff and he's real big. He's like well he looks like a big guy, right? So he's in Vegas and there was these show girls like on this on the on the out on this on the strip and stuff like that and they were like and he's like oh this is content. and he's like going behind them and filming their butts and stuff like that. And he's and he's like he's like, "I'm going to publish."
He's like, "I'm going to pub." And they're wearing like these little kind of g-string stuff and they're like, "Can you can you please leave? Can you please?" And he's like, "Okay." And then he's And then this this the pimp they're on the strip and stuff like that. The Vegas strip their pimps running he comes running up to running up to the guy like with like he's like, "Hey, this guy's coming up on me." And he just like pulls out a can of mace and just maces the guy in the face. Yeah.
Oh my god. And then and then some other gangster or some other guys were like smoking in the alley or something like that and he goes up and they're like and they come up to him too and he like pulls out the mace and the guy just runs away like it's like it's just he has this can of mace and then he got all these fights and stuff like that. So yeah, it was I mean it's just interesting. But he's he's like a really sweet guy though and it's like you know he's probably been through a lot of stuff and he doesn't take any and
stuff like that. He fell asleep last night. He was just doing a sleep stream at this person's house and and he had there was an Alexa playing but there was like a some other like automated voice thing and it was like telling Alexa it was like they're have the the the AIs were having like a conversation and it was like Alexa full volume Alexa play traditional Chinese folk music. It was like and then it was like playing on full blast and there and
Alexa was talking back to it and like it was stuff like that. It was so funny. And then today he was like I breakfast with his wife and stuff like that and he's like yeah. He's like Psyche um he's like um plug your channel and stuff like that and he's just like really like cool guy and he knows I'm gay and stuff like that. He know it's like a but not the kind of guy I would like hit on because I'd be kind of afraid but but
I think he's in like LA though and he's like I was like remember Dondo I was like I was like you can come over here or come like over here we can go to the pier and like do like streaming one day if you want. And he's like sure I'd love to do that. and he's like, "Plug your channel, everyone." Like, he was this really cool guy. So, yeah. You saw that Tree Frog, you saw that crazy Vegas stream. Oh, Tree Frog, did I meet you there? Or or or because I've been and he modded me right away. This guy like
because I guess they have a hazy in the chat where if you're not like a mod in the chat, they will like time you out for like 10 seconds over and over again and stuff like that or like So, everyone's like, "My boring actually." They were like, "Mod Psyche. Mod Psyche." Oh, yeah. And then he's like he said then he said he got and then he oh he walked up to this one guy and he looked just like um one Sonic. It looked
like one Sonic's like doppelganger. It was like exactly like one Sonic. Yeah. And then the guy's like he's like please step away from me. And then then he's like I see you re and then he's and the he's like I can have you removed from the strip and stuff like that. I can have and then he says like he was like said oh you so Tree Frog might be from there. Yeah. So look and like I mean people from there too. Tree Frog.
Do you want to be a mod here? I'm going to mod Creep Frog because Yeah, because uh yeah, I do like to mod um I do like to mod people here. Um, also just so I know um I know you know I know who you are and it just means I trust you and you don't have to do anything but it's like you can it's good that you can uh
Danny has the advice to where he mods people so that if someone else comes with their name he knows it's not them because that p the real person mod and that help a lot with like certain types of trolls that would try to impersonate each other right because it's really easy you can put any any name you want basically um as your as your us your name and so and people will play around with that and
stuff and have fun sometimes but yeah it's like you we want to know the real person and not have like a people imitating you and then and then they like make a lot of then you all of a sudden you know your band and stuff like that so yeah it was a crazy Vegas I'm glad you're here Tree Frog and everybody here then pie posted the Discord I'm gonna grab my I got some new
a new kind of drink tonight let me see what I got drink you they're my fridge.
I'm saving up a bottle of Cuban rum for my friend who's cutting drinking. So, when they finally like I don't know how long they're going to cut for, but when they get back, we're going to celebrate together because it's been a long time. I'm really happy. Awesome. I'm having a pink I'm having a pink m peach mango smeirnoff. I just got a
couple. That sounds delicious. Yeah, I'm just having a few I mean like last night I last night I drank a little bit like that's why I was like that's why I was probably like, you know, being an in the in the chat and stuff like that. And I got banned on all my accounts and well, not banned on when I
was at this other chat. Um but I was going in and like I was like the mods would just get me immediately and stuff like that. Um, and every Oh, you saw one Sonic and Y ad on Chicken Andy RV. Oh, yeah. I saw the Mold Mansion stuff. Hey, Mary, what's up? I saw the mold man. Oh, the mold mansion when like one Sonic was like hiding in his room and like Saint
was being all drunk and you know how Saint is like, you know, he can be like get a little bit like drunk and and like loud and stuff like that. And one Sonic's like hiding in his room all quiet and stuff like that. And then they like and then they got in a fight and the TV fell off the wall and stuff like that. And uh then he's in prison now. S was like,
"Oh, you're sad about what?" That he's in prison now. Oh, yes. Yeah. Unfortunately, I'm saying I think he has a one felony charge and um and misdemeanors and so, you know, probably won't be probably won't be that long. And I hope everything works out for him. He's a good guy. He's a really nice nice he's always nice to me. And when I'm in his chat, he was like always
just like he's like, "Sye, Psyche, what's up? Hi." He goes like, he goes, "Sye, what's up?" And um and he's always like and he always and he like he um he's always really cool to me. And um so I I hope everything works out for that, you know, it's like but um you know, things happen and um
this out of hand. Hopefully this helps him like change the changes that he needs to do, you know. Yeah. you know, it's like I mean he he he uh you know sometimes he would like yell stuff out the window at the neighbors and stuff like that and you know it's like yeah I don't I won't get into his personal business but and old per
being good at providing content really really good at it and very exciting and funny for that but I guess like there's limits right and it's like yeah the first time one of the first times I I I would watch T dream. He was like out on the streets like outside like and then he's like
getting bottles of like he loves Uncle Titos or it's called Uncle Tito's vodka or something and he was like sharing it with these gay homeless people and they were they like taped a rainbow flag to his like some rainbow banner to him and stuff and he was walking around with it on his bag like without noticing and he was just like he was just a he's always oh yeah um Saint 10 he's on IP2 he's
like IP streamer he's a Hi Meline how are you are You're kissing me. You're kissing me. You were just kissing. You're kissing me every day for a really long time. So, a lot of people felt comfort in his stream, right? And you know, and then um I met people like I saw people from his stream and like this guy Scribbles stream and stuff like Scribbles is just
really really cool like and just like just just like I don't know like if you're like he's like I want to I want everyone to help each other. I want people to subscribe. I want let's all do this together and like and stuff like that. And he's just like cool. And it's like and the chat's so cool and stuff. Oh, Pebby's is on on IP2. It's not not the greatest thing. Yeah. Um, you know, I know. I I once asked Benny. I was like
I was like I was like I'd be interested in like getting on IP2 and he's like like no no. He's like no. He was just like got very quiet about it and then I got unmoded the next day from him. I don't know if that had something to do with it or I'm not sure but I just asked him about it and I wasn't I didn't even ask for help or I just asked if he knew anything and then I did submit my submit submit
my show on oh they submit your show but I'm sure like I've subbies what happened you've frozen. Did he freeze and like I'm still playing or I'm back.
Welcome back. Yeah, my phone. Yeah. S talks philosophy pot haze version. Yeah. He and he said yeah. He said there we talk about really interesting stuff and he like you know he knows about about magic. His girlfriend was his name magic and stuff like that. And uh so he knows about and he a lot of stuff. We used to have interesting conversations and he'd always be really
really um nice nice to me and he always be like psyche. and he's and uh and then I went to Trident's chat the other night and Trident was like he he didn't drink for like 40 42 days or something like that and by the time I came to the he drank like 10 he had drinking he said that was the first day he started drinking again and he start he drank 10
twisted teas already and it was like 5 in the afternoon and he was just like like I remember when he went with Benny to like um the the Pittsburgh or like the Pittsburgh like convention center and and stuff like that and they And uh and they had like the best time and they were like so happy and like they're just like having fun and like
they just you know turn upside down. Hold on. I don't know. I don't I guess I don't know. I have to I guess I guess my camera I I'm not able to to rotate it right. Let me see if I can fix it. Hold on. Oh yeah. Hold on. Click to be able to automatically rotate. There's a feature for that. I think I did it. Can I do it? Hold on. There we go.
There we go. Yeah, but and to try was like and he was such a such a happy guy and stuff like that. But he just it was like he I went on last night and I was like talking to him. I like do you know this person and he's like I don't know anybody and he just like was really irritable with me and cuz sometimes he gets really irritable. Yeah. You know he dated Alisa or not he didn't date Alisa. Alisa took him to lunch or something like that once or something like that. I didn't mean he dated. He's a little bit
young. A little bit young for Lisa, but yeah. But he looked like he was like, they went out and the he it looked like he I don't know if he had braces or something, but he looked like he he was just like had like this like kind of acne and like he looked like pretty young and stuff like that. And then he was like he was kind of mad at her and stuff like that, but he was like he was but he was always like cool to me and stuff like that. Then when he got really
mad and he like unmoded everybody in the chat and then like ever since then he's just like but then he just like really depressed and stuff. What's up, Michael? Well, I wonder if he unmodled people because like he noticed something funny was going on with the mods. You saw what happened to Ben. So, I think like he probably noticed something was going on in his too, so he was deal. Well,
he's like he's like he's like the mods are chasing people or they're the ones talking or something like that. And it's like, no, I I never like I was always I never like when I was a mod, I never like um would ban people like I banned a few people from Benny's before because they were saying really really bad stuff like really disgusting stuff and it's
like and then but most of the most most of the time I would just um I was just basically there to like um to like just talk to the chat and hang out and stuff like that. And so yeah, you make chat really fun. Like that's one thing I love about you. You're always so open. Talk about anything. Like your mind is just like the universe, you know? It's anything. I love that about you.
Thank you. Yeah. Yeah. And I I love uh I love having interesting conversations and talking about anything and being and it's like some people like it's a little bit you know I talk I think a little bit abstract or a little bit I just go from one topic to another and like my my mind works kind of fast sometimes and some people but uh I love how my mind works and it's like and I you know I love uh I
love uh you know I know I love how I think sometimes too and it's like and but it's really good to be able to um meet other people that are in the same vibe. and stuff like that and can understand you and like that and that that's what that's what's really cool about streaming is like I met so many people so many friends and stuff like that like on my level or like and get me and stuff like that you find your
audience you find people that really care about you and stuff like that unfortunately people we don't get along with it's still a good experience because it does open our view to different points of view and maybe something we can learn from that you know because I know you don't want to hurt anyone so if there's that you can learn from that then at least it was worth it you know right
I know you do and I don't want to hurt anybody and it's like and I I'll I'll forgive people it's like I just like when people like are so unforgiving towards me and stuff like that and when people will just like drop me like I just feel like I just feel like thrown out like trash sometimes you know that I think there there can't be one thing you could have done for that it must have been something ongoing because
you do drink a lot and when we do that like there's going to be things that we look over very easily, you know. So, it is it is worth self-reflection over that. And that was like when I started like I was like very very not I was a lot more shy than I am now when I first started streaming. I was like a little bit like and so I would drink a little bit much
and like sometimes I do like to party on the weekends and stuff like that and then I I do take days off and stuff like um but I like to hang out and like party and like I don't know you know just like Benny kind of like where it's like he like but it's like I but I try to like during the week I try to like take it uh take it a little bit easier but um and and I do streams in the morning
sometimes too when I'm sober and stuff like that and it's like but you know I'm really happy for you about that. Yeah, it's just but it's like Yeah, I do um you know like like to like indulge a little bit, but I'm I'm going to try to try to maintain my panel. I don't like to like I don't like to leave when but when I when I fall asleep if I fall asleep during my show and stuff like
that, I always wake up like a few hours later talking like when I'm talking to like the Yeah. It's like I'm just I'm just like still talking and stuff like that. And so um and then I usually when I do that I'll still be like a little bit buzzed and I'll go on other panels. There's like panels at 3:00 or 4 in the morning or the day out this morning I like was on this panel and I I took him outside and I like show the neighborhood
and stuff like that and they're like wow that's beautiful. you live in a beautiful neighborhood and stuff like that and I was just like pretty cool just and then um and I went to Starbucks and stuff like that and came back had a coffee did a bunch of tarot readings and they were just like such awesome people and uh but yeah I showed them the palm trees around here and it was just cool to share that's kind of like my little IRL thing where I was doing the IRL.
What's up Tom? Tom says you're really cute by the way pie. He's like who's your cute friend? Did you see that? She's cute. Who's your friend? I was Oh, you're ignored. Okay. I'm politely ignoring it. Okay. I'm sorry. Oh, yeah. Yeah, Jerry, that can happen sometimes. Um um with
the self, it's destructive and self- hurting. Yeah, it can happen um with the the creative types, you know, and it's also like gays experience a lot of um a lot of hate and a lot of like um um ostrac ostracism and a lot of misunderstanding and things like that. So, and also they're kind of like told that they're they're bad and by by
society by people and stuff like that. That's why, you know, heterosexuality, having sex for kids, that's like the most basic concept that people can wrap their heads around and they've known that for like thousands of years, but since the caveman, so for something like sexuality, opening mind up to just loving a person, that's
hard for a lot those types of people, right? And then but it's like but now gays can like adopt adopt and they also also gays by the way they adopt what are called the least desirable um children that are unadoptable basically people with like a lot of like I don't want to say like basically crack babies and things like that and and uh and the people that are very hard to
adopt and they take they like love them so much and it's like they take really like um and it's like they can have their family they can have families now and they can there's other options and they're they also have like a lot of feminine like they they all have females around um like feminine influence and like and like that kind of thing. And the kids are really I've noticed like kids that are raised by gays are very like well adjusted and they're very very like cool open-minded people um when
they when they're become adults and stuff like that and they usually you know and and also gays can have like um when they're when when they couple it's like it's called dinks. we learn in marketing it's called double income no kids but or like but they they do have kids but they still they probably do have double income sometimes and so they they
they can sometimes um you know um really have like that material success and stuff like that a lot of a lot of people in the also I think gays also support the heterosexual like all gays are most of gays are born from from straight parents a like a mother father stuff like that but also think about the the
wedding coordinators, the hair stylists, the makeup artists, um um all these things, the wedding the wedding uh planners and um in Hollywood, the fashion fashion industry, the entertainment industry. What's up, Michael? Hey. Hey Mike.
Hey, Pie. Nice seeing you again. Nice to see you, too. Nice. Thank you. I know. I'm not wearing the hoodie no more. No, I I know. I know. Psych likes the hoodie, but you know, I mean, I'm No, I like I like your hair. Your hair is nice. I like it. I'm not I won't hit on you. I won't hit on you, but Oh, you
have you both have the horn. You have the We have like the little I have that little Yeah, the little Whatever. I don't care. But you have nice heads of hair. I They were saying last night they're like, "You have a" To me, they were like, "You have a great head of hair." I have I was like, "Yeah, I'm got pretty blessed with my hair and I don't have any gray hair yet and stuff like that. I'm 44. My
little brother has gray hair. I literally have I have a gray beard. Forehead. Yeah forehead. Five. You have a nice nice forehead. Okay. Very good. Very good looking." Oh, whatever. You know DJ Oh, yeah. Jerry knows DJ Electra, by the way. Yeah. Jerry's
friends. Yeah, Jerry. I I don't know if you you saw my um my uh intro, but I she made my intro for this show and she's just Yeah, she's awesome. I met I met him I saw him in Electra's chat. Um and then um and I recognize it from Elis's because I see him in Alis's all the time and uh I Jerry, do you want to share a little bit about um your background a little bit because I don't want to like
say anything you don't want me to say about he has interesting background where who he's worked for, what he's done in his life. really interesting guy. Um, he's been wearing two hoodies to bed all winter, but you know, at least I worked for Howard Stern and stuff like that. And I think he um I'll I'll let him share if he wants to share, but yeah, I think he
also was involved. How many drinks do you have tonight? Not how many drinks. I'm saying how many tonight? How many drinks? Yeah. Like how many do you have tonight? I had one I had one of these already and this is I just started my second one. I just had a sip of it. But yeah, it's 8%
alcohol by the way. So it is kind of strong. I don't know where the alcohol. Oh yeah, 8% alcohol by volume. Peach mango 8% alcohol. So I'm not drunk. Like I'm fine. And I also have I have a nice big I have a big burrito I got from the food truck last night. And so I have that to eat. And so that'll that'll sober me up a little bit. But
yeah. And it's got still pretty early, so uh Oh, hold on. Okay, I'm back. It's still pretty early. So, I'll be pacing myself tonight. Do Am I Do I seem too drunk? I'm going to put myself No, no, no. You seem fine right now. But yesterday, like you just left you left
Maser like actually. And I'm actually proud of Mer because Miser actually held it down yesterday. Well, I know. I can trust him because well he's I don't know if he I don't know maybe he's mad at me or something because he hasn't like um he hasn't uh ridden me back today and stuff. Maybe he's I don't know but uh yeah um basically we're talking and stuff like that like you know
like a little bit romantically and stuff like that. So, um I don't know if he's considered steady yet, but I I like that's what I was saying. I have a boyfriend now and stuff like that. And I and he he I don't know, maybe we're moving too fast or something like that or I don't I don't know. I don't want to scare scare him away or something, but I trust I trust him. And he did this he did this fire dance last night. I don't
know if you saw Yeah, he did great. And he and and he also Yeah, he did the fire. You saw the fire dance where he like he like had this fire and he was like spinning it around and like and on with chains and stuff. Yeah, you have to check that out. That's what he did this fire the fire. He said it was a cleansing of the negative energy in the chat and stuff. And after that I got like I don't know the energy changed and like in a good way. We had no trolls last night and he was also I
wanted him to do his thing and like and like talk he was talking to some people in the chat. I got distracted with with Emma and stuff like that and I was I went to Emma's and then all this drama and stuff like that. Okay, so Jerry is sharing his story. He said here's here your ghostriter mass media stern from 9395 Star Trek 1987 designed Mars rovers
found Mars People 2004 wrote tons classic rock hits um for 20 artists. He's Delaware age 67. Justin says for beer 8% is decent but as for alcohol beer doesn't do it for me. 80 proof or 40% is decent to me, but I prefer cannabis smoking. Yeah, I'm not smoking cannabis right now, but that's really
Jerry, what an amazing what an amazing resume. The design Mars rovers and also has a comedy background and also a music background. Isn't that cool? Like I just I meet the most fascinating people. The fire is awesome. Yeah. Can I um can I introduce somebody for the channel?
Can you introduce somebody? Yeah. Am I allowed? I just I don't want to disrespect your channel. No. No, you can introduce somebody. Go ahead.
Hi. Hey. That's how you That's my That's my former ex-girlfriend. We're back together now, but um we're off and on. It's been nine years. So, I'm glad I'm back with her again.
You guys are a very cute couple. You guys are a very cute couple and I see your smiles. I see your smiles and it's like I feel the love right now and it's like um can she get can she get a card reading if you don't mind? Of course. Absolutely.
Let me just my cards are little bit shuffled up on the table right now. I'll get them organized a little bit and uh yeah, wonderful. I'd love to give you a reading tonight and u and also anybody else in the chat tonight. Um you know, we're having my 1500 subscriber special um special um party night where you know, free readings for everybody
and uh I just want to help people, right? Okay. So, let me just show up a little bit. And what's your name, by the way? My name is Mirina. Mhm. Okay. Okay. Beautiful. So, MNA. Okay. Okay. It spelled.
Okay. Well, so I see the lord of it's called the eight of pentacles. Okay. So, this is like and it's called the lord of prudence. Oh, okay. Hold on. It's going off. Okay. So this Okay, I'll put myself on full screen real quick. Yeah, go ahead. Okay, so you but you've been really saving Oh, this is like really saving up and increasing your material um material
wealth. Okay. Um and you've been very careful careful with money um and just like being really smart with money. So maybe smart investments too. I don't know if uh what do we have there? We have like the the Virgo sign. So this it's a very earthly card and stuff like that. And so basically um watch watching your money carefully um in the past and you've been uh also be able to save a
lot and being careful with things. Okay. Next I got for you three of pentacles. And so um working with somebody or a couple people and and doing this this is also like a very material card. Um it has Capricorn. It has Mars on it. It says the lord of material work. And so you've just been working hard on something. And so I
think that you've been saving and working and uh doing a lot really just like increasing your increasing your um your wealth in the material world also. I got this. Okay. Four of Wands. It says Lord of perfected um perfected work and so you're perfecting your work too. Okay. And this and you have a passion
for what you do too. Okay. and you are like really like um I don't know if you do some kind some kind of craft or something like that or but or like it can be artist or it could be but whatever it is it's like you are you are like you have perfected your job you and uh and you are the best at it okay whatever you do I think you're the best at it right okay I'll do a
couple more cards for you I'm a nurse okay that's awesome well we then we have the we have the two of swords Okay, two of swords. Okay, and so this is like this can be about um two of swords. It can be about a crossroads. It could be about you're not seeing something, but this one says the lord of peace res peace restored. And so I think you've gone
through you've come through whatever this uh this indecision was about something and you were able to like and there's peace restored. And so it's like there might have been like a stalemate or there might have been something that where you didn't know how you're going to move forward, but I think you were able to restore peace with with that and make the decision, right? Beautiful, beautiful card. Okay. And then finally,
finally, I have the seven of pentacles. Okay. And so seven of pentacles, it's like you still you still you still don't feel like you're at your peak yet. You still you still feel like you have you have some you have some work to do. And uh because you don't feel it looks like all the success I see and all this that's there it's like you still feel you can do better.
There's still more and you want more and so there's some kind of unfulfilled desire you have but I think that you're working hard and it's like you're good at what you do. Okay. And then and you don't have to be hard on yourself about it and you're also you know you're you're you're um you're just doing well and uh you're doing really good work too as a nurse. That's really awesome. And that's like, you know, I like I know you
love helping people, right? And it's like you love and I know nurses nurses like witness a lot of things and and and go and like, you know, are very compassionate. I know that's one of the best professions in the world. So, be proud of yourself because you are doing um work that changes people's lives and stuff like that and and helps people and it's very compassionate and so don't you
know and and you know it probably doesn't pay probably doesn't pay enough. you know, it's like you probably you probably should be paying more because you go through a lot and stuff like that and so Yeah, that's awesome. Yeah, that makes sense. that definitely makes sense. Yeah,
She's like She's like, I don't I don't believe in these tarot card readings. I'm like, oh my god, they're soing accurate. Like, yeah, but that's pretty accurate. Definitely. And the part about me improving or whatever is um I'm gonna start um becoming a nurse practitioner. So I'm gonna start that in August. So I think that Yeah. Yeah. So you are you are you are
progressing. You're welcome. And you know it's like and maybe like a lot of people are not into tarot like I have a my style of tarot is like not predicting the future. It's more like looking at the energies that are there and like giving you the best way to move forward because you make your you you you create your life, you know, and it's like you make your decisions and stuff like that and so or and you might have the higher power you have
relationship with too that that is part of that and stuff like that. So I don't want I don't I don't predict predict things. I like I will just give you the give you my best uh interpretation of the cards that come out and uh and my own intuition and stuff like that. So I hope you really enjoyed that. Yeah, it was very positive reading. And how's Yeah, and Pi's asking how the
chat's been. Oh, there people are like six inches tall. They're not looking skinny. Hold on. I'm sorry if I'm missing comments, guys. Yeah, but uh how's the chat of the race wants to know if he should bet on his friend who's 48 years old because he has a good pitching arm.
He's nervous. We got some gamblers in the house, though. That's interesting. Gambler. Yeah. So So the gamblers Hold on. So So someone asked a gambling question. I missed it. Hold on. Okay. Sporty. Okay, guys. Free readings. You're using synchronicity. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Thank
you for keeping me in line with this pie cuz that was there's a lot of the chat's really active tonight. Can I can a friend throw a fast ball at 70 miles per hour like he claims? Well, you can you guys can I don't know if that's a tarot card reading. It's like you have to get one of these machines that that that have that that take the speed of it and then and have them throw a few balls and stuff like that or like you know or just test it yourself with your glove. You'll be able to feel if it's going 70 miles
per hour. Basically, if I make if I make a sports sports um prediction, it's basically on how cute I think the football players butts look and what color their pants are and uh and how cute I think the team name is. And so that's basically my predictions of there. And my my system works. By the way, I I predicted the Super Bowl. I said um I said the Eagles um under 50
and the Eagles won and with 40 and so I if I would have made a bet I would have uh I would have won. What does she recommend for pulled muscle leg knee to grow? Oh, can can um can can ma answer the question because Jerry has like a little medical question. He has a pulled muscle leg to knee to
the groin. If she has any advice for for for Jerry, we have a medical for a pulled for a pulled me muscle. Yeah. Yeah. From his knee all the way to his groin. Oh my goodness. Yeah. I mean, I think the best thing for that is actually to
rest it and ice. It's kind of like what we call um rest, ice, compression, and elevation. So, that would probably be the best, you know, and to leave it alone so so it has time to repair. Okay. Well, thank you for thank you for your advice on that. Um because you know you have some expertise in that and I
and I think that you're helping you're helping people and Jerry's a great guy and I hope that helps you Jerry. Yeah. And then Jake Jake has advice too. He said uh heat for 20 minutes followed by ice for 20 minutes, Tylenol Advil every six hours, keep elevated. So that's that advice sound too. We have Yeah. And I love how we have like all
these different people of different um different expertises and in the chat we can all help each others and Jake says keep off it for three days. And he says there's tingling at the knee. Yeah. So tingling. Yeah. Tingling to me would be like pay attention to that to the area. There's something there's something um happening
there. There's some and it could be like it could be energy right there. So I'm not a medical expert though. So I don't want to give med like medical advice particularly but I'm saying maybe there's some healing going on there if there's a tingling and there's feeling in it and so that yeah consult your medical professional. I just and appreciate MNA for um for sharing her
expertise and uh and for uh Jake too. Yeah. And Jake says the tingling gets worse or does not go away. Recommend talking to a doctor. Exactly. Talk to your medical professional about it. Um but also like when you do with energy work and stuff like that like I when I when I learned how to meditate I learn I have this fairy book a guided meditation and I would say say start at your feet
and then you imagine like your feet start um you feel the energy at your feet and I would feel the energy of my feet. My feet would like just like disappear and then I would like then it would go up your whole body. You slowly like just pay attention to each part of your body and then you would like start to feel this energy around it and stuff like that. So uh so also you can you can and we're heal we can heal ourselves. We can heal ourselves to some extent too
and so just also have some positive thoughts and uh and uh meditation and stuff like that and and and just like relax your body and stuff like that especially if you have a full muscle but definitely definitely you want to consult your medical professional. Yeah. Awesome. How everyone doing tonight? We
have Bunky Bear says what a happy gay little community isn't it? We have a lot We have We have a lot of straight people here in the We have We have We have We have gangsters in in the chat, too. We have all kinds of people, you know. We do. Yeah, we have a Sereno We have a Sereno in the chat. Oh, not tonight. He was here last night. He's he he he's a
Mexican rapper in Los Angeles. He's really cool. His name is Noble Castro. And uh so we have all kinds of And we have very a lot of straight people. And he's like he's like he's like, "You're the coolest you're the chillst gay guy I ever met." And stuff like that. So yeah. I I'm gay. I'm gay, but uh most of the most of most of the chat is we're all different persuasions here. I have a I
have a transgender coming on um soon named Nadia Exotica. She has like the most amazing makeup I don't know if you've seen her pie. Have you you seen like Nadia makeup artist? Hi Jamie. Jamie Rose is in chat. Jamie Rose, how are you? Good to see you. I'll show you a picture of Naughty Exotica because I asked her for an interview and then she said yes. And so
I'm just gonna be working out those details. I want But she's like such a chill. They say people go they say are you they say are you a man or woman? And she's like she's like oh she's like she's like my pronouns are are um C/ urchin and she's like she's like I run the best wh house on YouTube and stuff like that. But but um I'll show you her picture if I can see it. She I think she lives in Northern California. Um,
this is Nadia Exotica. She's really She also does tarot cards, too. She's really cool. Wow. She has She has the most amazing makeup. Yeah, she has tarot. She has the most amazing She has wigs and the most amazing uh She's really really chill though. She's really chill. I'll post her her uh She has She has tarot, too.
She has not She's a big Emma fan, too. Actually, I told Emma one night. I was like cuz she she was like I was like someone asked do you believe in God? She's like I don't she like yes I believe in God. So I went to Emma's I was like she said you're she talked to you and stuff like she said your name and so Emma went into her chat and like gave her a little surprise and stuff like that because I was like I know Emma and so that's
pretty cool. That's why it's like, you know, that's why it's like I was I have such good experiences and I have such like good I did such a good interview and then it's like then there's like a little misunderstanding and then everything's thrown out the window and it's like and I it's like I'm I'm always asking for forgiveness and it's like I'm never like and no one ever no one ever like asked me for forgiveness. I'm always asking
people for forgiveness and saying I did I'm wrong, whatever. But uh and then no one then they never forgive me either. They like they were going to be mad at me for it's like I don't know. That's why I feel misunderstood sometimes. It's time to call it quits. Everyone's doing I know. But it's like it's hard when it's like you love the person so much, you know, you know, and it's like and
then it's like then you really but you do get to see people how people really feel about you and stuff like and how have our loyalty. I'm a Capricorn. Capricorns are just very loyal. Like once we love somebody, we love them for life. It's like we we love hard and stuff like that. We can overwhelm people with our energy. Also, people don't like to be like we're very helpful kind of people and then so people like resent trying to be helped
and stuff like that and so I always have to be careful like not to like I noticed that don't like the idea that someone's helping them, right? Sort of like you have to help them without making it obvious that you're helping them like make it seem like you and some people are just like that. I I'm learn I'm learning and it's like
guys it's it's constant learning process. Also my emotions um like I I'm basically I just basically I was like if I'm going to stream I'm just going to be myself like at all times. I'm going to like I'm not going to like put on a put on a fake mask and persona and like I'm not going to be fake and stuff like that. Like a lot of people will and like a totally different person behind like you what you see with me is like what you
like I'm the same everywhere. I like basically am very I'm very real and that's what someone was saying to me. like they're like you remind me of my brother because he's like he has this similar personality where he's like he's just so he's like so real and it's she's like so she's like keep being you and I'm like it's like I will you know it's like yes and I don't change for um yourself for others right yeah oh he's
fanning the smoke away from who's just bring more to you to the table I guess you know like right but also when I when I myself I don't have to like have worried about the mask dropping or something like that. Like a lot of people will have a mask on and then it's
like the mask will slip and then it's like but it's like also I can just like actually find the people that love will love me for me and not like they don't love me for like who they think I am and stuff. Are you guys having a good night? We're having having a little drinks. A little drinky food. I love I love I love your hoodie pie. You look like a Jedi a Jedi master.
My god. I don't know. I'm just It's win. It's so cold here. Like I just need the extra warmth. How cold is it over there? I don't know. It's too cold. Like when I go three layers of gloves and my hands are still cold. Okay. Um Clum Clumsy. So Clumsy, you want to you want to you want to get on the table right now? You can come up on
the panel. We can have a talk or Okay. Have you? Clumsy says that's rich. So, she's uh she thinks that oh, I'm I'm not being authentic. I'm uh I'm being fake or something like that. Clumsy, how about talking to me first before jumping to conclusions about things. Maybe there's misunderstandings. I think I've known
you long enough. I've I've uh I've I've Have I been ingenuine to you? Have I Have I always tried to help you, you know? Okay, Michelle. Thank you. Yeah, you're welcome up, Clumsy. But it's like I'm just kind of like um just for you to like um just listen to one person's side of the story and and come to a judgment about it and then without hearing my side with with a screenshot that has stuff edited out of it that was put
after it and stuff like that. I saw the screenshot, right? Yeah. It's okay, Clumsy. You can say that's rich. That's rich. Okay. Clumsy. Really? After after all after everything we've been through, that's how you're gonna that's going to do me. Okay. Clumsy. No. No. No. No. No. No. Clumsy. And it's okay, Clumsy. Just forever. You can just, you know, leave me forever. Leave me alone if you're if you're going
to do that. Okay. I don't I don't need that kind of like you have to think about that one, too. She come back. I have a question. No, I'm out. It's already I mean, it's like, you know, sometimes the damage damage is done when you see how people will um how they act because last night she was talking to me and stuff on on a Okay, she'll come up gladly. Okay, let's
have a talk. That'd be nice to like. Okay. No, but she said she said gladly she'll leave me forever. Okay. She'll gladly leave you forever. Okay. Great, Clumsy. Thanks for not hearing me out. Okay. Thanks for just listening to that that one person that I introduced you to, by the way. And uh have a nice life. I'm sorry. It's okay, guys. Can y'all hear me or No, I hear you.
Yeah we Sorry. I just have a question. What's going on with Clumsy? Like, why is she being that way? Because um because uh clumsy last night I'll tell the story. Should I tell the story again? Pie. What happened? Okay, I'll tell the story again. Yeah, I told the story. So last night, last night I was like
really excited. I went back to Emma's Discord and I was really excited cuz I had this new new boyfriend. Maybe he's not considered myself as my himself is my boyfriend. But I was just like I was just like excited cuz I'm always like the single guy that like never always looking in love. And I actually met somebody I really like. And so I was like, I have a new boyfriend. And uh and
then I then like I was went to other sections of the Discord a few minutes later and then I noticed it was a pet section. And so I posted a picture that I had um of somebody that came to my house um that I was I'm on I was on okay terms with recently. But uh and then my cat just loved him and stuff like that. And so I posted it and but it was then I noticed oh it was under the under the
where I said I have a new boyfriend. And so it looked like kind of like it was I was saying that was my boyfriend. And so then I said, "No, and but it's not this person, it's somebody else, right?" And uh and I was like I said, "It's not this person. It's somebody I met on on streaming and stuff like that." That was a really That was really cold, clumsy, by the way. Nice. Nice. Don't Don't um don't ask my side of the story. Don't even
That was pretty cold, clumsy. That to make them twitch so much. It has to be more than just that. Like there's no way must have been some kind of like all the whole time. the whole time. But anyway, I'm not going to I'm not going to slander anybody. I'm not going to um be negative, but all but here's what happened. And so I wrote, "No, I I didn't mean this person. I meant
somebody else." And so I didn't think anything of it. Then this morning I deleted. And then Pi was like, "Did you say something like you said he was your boyfriend or something?" She sent me a little screenshot. Right. He seems quite honest. Does not appear to wear masks. He's honest about his drunkenness. I think that many are conditioned to think truths are mass and
the mass imperfection is reality. Right. Yeah. Um so but anyway I'm not I'm not lying. It was like really like I was not trying to make a a gay joke or something like or offend some. It was like I was like oh whoops. And I was really I just thought it was a cute picture because it was a pet section and then he was over and so I was just
sharing the picture with the cat in my the cat in his lap and stuff like that. Not and then I was like no it's not him. It's somebody else and maybe I should have just deleted the photo. Yeah, it was a misunderstanding. It did. So, I I wasn't surprised that he thought that, but like it was nice to have a house out, but why shouldn't that have been
the straw that broke the camel's back? Like, there must have been something else going on. No, I was already I was already I was I was already like he was already mad at me because I made some joke in another chat that was innocent joke, right? It was an innocent joke and it's like and then people are choosing sides or whatever. But um yeah, today I So today I went to Traveling
Gypsies Tarot. You know Traveling Gypsy like who I have on the show. Hey Jamie Jamie Traveling Gypsy and Clumsy. They're done with me. They've they've uh they just without saying anything. They've muted me from their chat. They kicked me off their Discord without saying one thing to me without hearing my side of the story, without hearing me out. they just like took sides um immediately and with somebody I
introduced them to in the first place and it's fine but um what I'm saying is like what did I ever do to you guys? What did I ever do to them? Did I do did I listen to them? No, it's like it's over like some other person having being buttth hurt over some stupid because they got offended. Okay, which is really stupid being offended about something. How about being hurt about something? That's like your heart, right? That's
like oh my heart is hurt if you're offended. Oh, oh, oh, I you know, I don't know. It's just like, it just seems stupid. It doesn't I'm I'm hurt. They're offended. Okay. And uh and so they just muted me from their chat. They uh they um kicked me off their Discords. They just like just threw me away after everything I've done for them. Not saying not saying, "Oh,
they owe me something." I do I do things because I love people, right? And I never did anything negative to them. And so, yeah. So, Clumsy, that's rich. Okay. Yeah. Clumsy, good luck with your channel. Okay. But don't don't don't come around here no more. Okay? I'm done with you. Okay? And uh same with Traveling Gypsy. I'm done with you. Okay?
Cuz you didn't even cuz Emma at least gave me the courtesy of like writing me a message about it and and expressing your feelings. And that's why I went back to Emma because it's like I can I can I can deal with like someone having their own perspective coming to me and saying their feelings were hurt too, right? just just dropping me because this person
said this, right? It's oh god it's like it's like my skin is crawling right now. More than that for them to like all do that to you. I think it's more than just that instance. It must been things building up in the field. They can talk to you about it. And if they can't talk
to you about it that's not a good draw camels back. Okay. Well, go ride your camels into the sunset, ladies. And uh you're not getting any help from me anymore. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. And and uh and I'm glad I'm glad I got to introduce you to people to people that like them and stuff like that. Go to their channels and stuff like that and and support them and stuff like
that. But I'm not I'm not welcome there anymore. So I and I'm I'm not going to be pushing myself on them anymore. At least Emma is like will talk will talk to me. Well, even if she's not talking to me, she'll let me like she let she let me back on her Discord. She didn't kick me off for Discord today over it, right? At least I'm confirmed. That's what's important, you know.
Guys, these these are my I've known these people for for like almost a year. They're like my I I've been like I was I'm I've been clumsy member for seven months. Always intercept. Okay, you know what you were doing. You went the reaction when you're playing victim and trying to get gaslight. Everybody has nothing to do with size. Your behavior is embarrassing. Okay, your behavior is embarrassing and clumsy and you are unmoded and you are also banned from my
chat forever and I never want to talk to you again and you have to like really come back and apologize and think about what you did if you ever want to talk to me because you are you're misbehaving yourself and uh and you're not a managing moderator anymore. You are going to be timed out for um for 24 hours and you can you can come back in 24 hours and and and think about what what you said because okay, you're
you're going to you're going to put me on that. Oh, I'm gaslighting people. I know what I did. No, I didn't know what I did. I was I was very drunk at the time. I was trying. It was a very innocent thing. I was trying to talk about my boyfriend, my new boyfriend who is not that person, which I said that and you didn't see that, right? You didn't see that part, right? How it does look like it like it not always like, you know, looks can be
deceiving. Can be deceiving. I knew what I was doing. I was trying to hurt I was trying to hurt him. I was like I What? Wait, what was I trying to do? I was trying to get his attention. I don't understand. But it it looked like another gay joke. Like when I saw it, I saw it could look like another gay joke or another honest mistake cuz you were drunk and you're just your mind's
running a mile a minute, you know? Right. And it was and I was I thought it was cute. I thought it was a really cute picture and then I noticed I should have just deleted the picture and like just said my book, but I was like in the pet section of the thing. So, and I was like I was looking for a cute pet picture and I was like, "Oh, here's Trix." And we had and Clumsy, I had talked to that person about how Trix loved him so much and stuff like that,
right? Clumsy, you can come on the panel if you want, but I'm not You can't be in the chat like slandering me and saying this and I'm gaslighting everyone. Like, how am I gaslighting everyone? I'm just I'm telling my truth. Okay, this is how I see it. You listen to his perspective and and judge me on that. was on purpose. If she post it wasn't on purpose, that means everything
you're seeing after would be considered. I know. It's called It's called prejudging. You don't understand what the happened. It was It's the stupidest thing. I just posted this guy's picture that he's kind of mad at me that she's friends with and you know, and it's like and he's like he he's definitely very he's very straight because he cannot take a gauge. Like
gosh. Okay. You know, it's not that you can't take a gay joke. It's that the previously the gay jokes you were saying, people were believing them. Like that that was bothering me, too. No, no one believed it. Oh, and the previous gay joke was like I said, the first joke was like it's like we I was like and he stayed his he said his side of the couch. I said on my side of the
couch and nothing happened. And so that wasn't really I that was like the joke there. I didn't really understand. That wasn't like I said, oh, I was trying, you know, I was like I there's nothing about that that sexual. There's nothing sexual about. But yeah, I I understand how it looked bad and stuff like that, but it's like it's fine. It's fine. Clumsy,
clumsy, bad, bad, bad, clumsy. Go some. Go pull some cards for yourself tonight. Go post some cards for yourself tonight about the situation. Why don't you pull some cards for yourself tonight about the situation? Okay, maybe that maybe that will give you some insight. You don't want to listen to me. You just want to take somebody else's word for it, right? Clumsy, bad. No, no, no, no, no no. What it look like? And it can go both
ways. That's that's But she doesn't want to take your word for it. That's the thing. No, she she don't want to hear my side of the story. She She didn't even ask my side of the story. It was just like listening to that person. And also, her conversation last night was very I don't know. Someone ran to her and said he's on clumsy's chat. Like what's going on? Like there's all these people spying on like my beh like what I'm saying in chats and stuff like that. What is this
about? Yeah. She's like, oh, she's like she she's like, what are you what's going on? Why are you in Emma's chat tonight? Like, okay, so someone's running to your someone's running telling you. Like, I hate how it's like such a third party situation where it's like, oh, I'll go run to this person and tell them, oh, what's going on? Like, what you know, it's like Jesus Christ. Yeah, it sounds like people are
Yeah. You don't want to talk to me personally, you know? Listen, listen. Do you understand loyalty? How how like I was loyal through through it all. I'm just trying to gaslight people. Gaslight. Yeah. Why do people use a word gaslight Jamie? Because people dual gaslight because it'll make you think that you did something wrong when they actually they're doing something wrong. Right. Right. I'm not saying clumsy did
anything wrong. She's she's welcome to like um bang from her Discord and and not talk to me and not tell me anything about it. I'm not It's fine. Okay, that's fine. But it's like I'm not gaslighting by saying I feel hurt and it's like and I wasn't I knew exactly what I was doing. Clumsy, right? Yeah. Really, Clumsy? Was I in the right mind last night, too? Was I
Wow. I was extremely drunk. I was like not I don't know. To help you, you know, like when you when we get drunk, we lose a little bit. Yeah. Guys, guys, you got to be careful. Have fun with that person. That's that's who you liked all along. He was the one you modded.
He was the one that was your actual friend, right? I was just there. I was just your sucker simp um subscriber that was with you for seven months and uh donated donated a lot to you and was always there for you and they listened to you. Okay, whatever. Go ahead, Clumsy. That's really you. That's another thing, too. Why didn't they want to work things out?
Like, do they feel like they could? No. No. Because there there are these they're like they're in this fan bang girl mode where this person can do no wrong. This person can do no wrong and this person is always wrong. Right. It's okay CMC. Why clumsy are mad? Because I posted because I offended one of their friends
and then he was like he was like oh unsubscribe to him or don't talk to him ever again. Right. It's just they're not even gay Funky Bear. They're not even gay. I'm the only gay guy here. Okay. It's not gay homosexual drama. Yeah. But it's like people being offended over gay jokes, but you know, people say about gay people, but you can take a dick, but you can't take a joke. And so I'm always expected to take every joke. I'm always
expected to always laugh and be the clown and stuff like that. Like, right? And it's like, nobody else. No, straight guys are off limits. There's no gay humor there, right? Gay guy can't. Straight guys can make jokes with each other, but if a gay guy makes a joke with a straight guy, oh, that's that's the sexual harassment all of a sudden, right? I don't know. A little bit of a double standard, I would say.
It's okay, Clumsy. Clumsy. You said gladly. And then then you came back and said, "Oh, I'm gaslighting. I'm I knew what I was doing." Blah, blah, blah. Um, it's okay, Clumsy. She thinks then she must like feel really, you know, uncomfortable that you're lying, that she thinks you're lying. Remember that. She thinks you're lying. You got to think of it that way. She's going to lie. And I'm not lying. That's the thing is like the thing is I
am not lying. It was like an innocent mistake. And it's like It's hard to believe it. Especially like when we see so many people, you know, their their masks fall. It's really easy to get worried that that's happening again. You know, remember that girl was your friend and now she's worried that you're hurting or she's seeing the real you. You know, especially like you see
it happen to so many people. Who? But she's worried that I'm hurting. She's worried that I'm hurting like that you're that you turn at this like you know that you were playing a game. Oh, please. Oh, guys, I am like guys, if I was playing a game, I would be like on her channel like begging begging begging
her for like um her channel to come to my chat and like I never promoted myself there. Everyone always promoted people would like my channel sometimes in her chat and too. I was always I was always like come to Clumsies right after this. I was like I love Clumsies. I like it nothing to do with Clumsy and I. It was like over this other person and they decided to
take sides, right? That's what it basically goes down to is like they cared more about their feelings than they care about my feelings, right? Yeah. But it looked like she feels that you made the joke a joke on purpose again like you did before, right? She doesn't believe that you was an innocent mistake. Okay. But it wasn't like was it wasn't even like a joke. It was like if it was like
a joke then would be a joke. It was basically just a different conversation. It was like different parts of the conversation. I was like, I laughed like when I first saw it immediately I assumed that it was that that it was that you made another like gay joke immediately. Thank you, Michael, for coming on by the way. Thank you. Thank you. I'm happy Michael's back with his uh with his ex
and stuff like that. It's a really cute little couple. I think you're wonder Oh, you're back. Hold on. You're wonderful. I mean, I do believe you that I do believe that it was a mistake, but that was before I heard you tell me it was a mistake. When I first saw it, I did think the same thing that it was another gay job. So, that's why like I'm mad at her for being distrustful. Yeah. Clumsy. Clumsy. You didn't She's No.
still in the chat listening. Do you know I actually have a boyfriend? And I was trying to say I have a boyfriend and I just I posted in the wrong section and then I it said pets and I saw it's like I need a pet picture. I posted a pet picture of tricks and stuff like that. I wouldn't like use tricks for a gay joke and stuff like that. That maybe it was an unflattering picture. It was maybe it was unflattering. He didn't like he had a big belly and stuff like that and and
and uh he has a different image. He he I asked him if I could take a picture. He said yes. I joke with I joke with him personally about how Trix loved him so much and would not get off his lap and stuff like that. So that's what I was thinking at the time. I was like, "Oh, look how cute this is. Like the cat loves him so much, right? And was
inseparable from him." That was like the joke. But yeah, but then I was talking about how I had I had a I had a boyfriend, but I was like, it's not him. It's like I clumsy. You didn't see that part at the bottom where it said not not Hell Walker. It was um I have a met this I met this guy on my on my stream and stuff like that and his name is Miser
and stuff like that. Mer did the fire ceremony last night. Yeah. And uh I don't know. It just it just it it just came out it just came out it came out all wrong. But it's like is this something to like break relationships over, you know? I'm not a bad I'm not a bad person. I I I don't do Do I feel bad? No, because it was an innocent mistake. And it's like, oh, I knew exactly what I was doing. I'm gaslighting. Who am I gaslighting exactly? Who am I gaslighting exactly,
Clumsy? But you can't say anything because you're banned from chat, but you can come on and and talk on the panel and you're just banned for 24 hours. You can come back and chew me chew my ass out tomorrow. I'll still forgive you. You know, but you know, guys, if you forgive, if you want to be forgiven, right? And I am I'm a forgiver. Am I mad at Clumsy? Am I mad at Clumsy? I'm very irritated with her
right now. But I love Clumsy. Like the bottom of my heart, I love Clumsy and I like I love her and that's why I always support her and uh show everything. But yeah, but now I'm now I'm in the self-destruct mode where it's like I don't care what happens. And it's like I'll I'll ruin it. I'll run it before before it can be fixed, right? Just like I did with Emma and just like I did with uh well I didn't do with anything
traveling gypsy but gosh what what little be little fan girls gossiping behind my back and talking and and saying all this right you do you still like me Jamie. Yeah I I hope I give I hope I told the story as well as I could. I don't I'm trying not to say exactly names but I said everyone's name and uh I I told the whole story. I told the whole story basically and it's like
stupid. It's just you don't understand it because it's so stupid and you're like why are these people so upset about why because they're like little fan girls, right? They're they're like, "Oh, I like this guy better than this guy." And then and so I'll believe everything he says and if he gets offended then I'm going to I'm going to leave, right? Okay. No X. Come on. I'm not on any drugs. I'm
just drinking like this is my second beer. Okay. It's like I'm not drunk. I mean, come on. I I don't even smoking weed right now. I'm the most sober I've ever been in my life. I'm smoking tobacco. I'm drinking. And I'm just being myself, you know, and I'm just like letting my emotions flow and telling my own truth, right? That's true. I mean, I believe you. No, but
Jamie. Yeah. Jamie. Jamie, I introduced you to Clumsy, too. Right. Right. Did I introduce you to Clumsy? And I introduced a lot of people to Clumsy. Right. And it's like, you know, it's like just for for um if if I didn't like Clumsy, if I didn't have a care care about her, I would not have introduced people to her because now everyone's going to be mad at me and then they're all going to believe her and stuff like that because they're going to like her better. I don't know. It's like a big popularity contest. I don't know. Maybe
she's jealous because I have more subscribers and stuff like that in a shorter time. But who knows? Who knows? Who knows? Who knows? Like I don't think someone should be jealous of you over over that because if anything you could help them more, you know, you always I tried. I tried.
Every show. Every show. Every show. I Yeah. was like, "Share your link. Everyone post your link. Everyone go to her show after this." After this, right? I was like so helping her. And I noticed my chat and her chat after and stuff like she has the best show. I never said one negative thing about her. She's pissed me off tonight.
Okay, who's it? Believe no one would like. What's up, my What's up, my bro? What are you doing, honey? God, I could join or something. Look at way the up there.
Are you on coke? No, I'm not. I'm high I'm high on life. I'm not my sweetheart. My No, I'm not high on No, I sweetheart. I I I have not done drugs in a long time. I don't even smoke weed. I I need to join. That's bad. I know. I need I would love to join right now. drugs.
How cool are you? Hold on. Like X. I met you. Hold on. Where? I met you at a panel. You know who I am now, I know you are. I know you are. She is so cool. Sorry to be rude. I just came up to give him some cuz he's going. I know. But my mind works that fast. My mind works really fast.
Didn't they have you on riddlin as a child? I should have been. I think I have ADHD. I do have ADHD, but I'm not. Yeah, I do. Yeah. But also um Yeah. Yeah. And uh but but like someone was telling me that earlier they're like you know gay guys have a fast mind like a mind that works in
my son was a drag queen honey in the strip joints of Charlotte North Carolina he's turning 40 four this year. Oh wow. I'm 44. I'm 44. You're the same age as my son. Okay. He was born in July when I was born in January. So yeah, January
Oh, you a January baby. 81. Yeah. Oh, happy late birthday, Thank you. This lady, this lady is so cool. I'm beat. Let me borrow the little baby bong. I promised him I wouldn't break it.
Man, I really love this channel. This channel's awesome. It is. cuz it's laidback. That's why I come to this channel. It's not Everybody's nice to each other for the most part. For the most part. Yeah. For the most part. Depend. I mean, you got few nights where, you know, Q's are
in a little pissy mood or something like that. He's been doing good. He's calmed down a lot. Q has now that he's out in California. Well, I'm in California, too. So, it's like it's like late. No, you are. You just look the part. I gave away a house in California because I hated
that state so much. I did. My father died and left me a house and I gave I I wouldn't sign for a three-bedroom, two bath gated community. Yeah. And I said, "Nah, I ain't living out there." I've been out there enough. The only thing
only thing was good was Slab City when uh north of just north of there I got my first tattoo.
Yeah, California sucks. It's You people are weird. You like night and day. I'm a New Englander. So you guys just don't make sense. They don't. Oh, them too. Yeah. California people. Oh California. California people and the them
uh Washington and oh god forbid Oregon. What do you think? What do you think about the Florida I love them. I almost went to jail there. They never met me. Y I had to leave one time. Well, when
was the last time I could be down there? I was told to leave. You were told to leave. Well, I was kicked out of Massachusetts. Oh. So, I went to Florida and then Florida the the feds told me it's time for you to go home. So, I come back up here and they let me
spend about $10,000 and uh get my license back only to take it away. And I was sober. But uh you know and gave me a felony. Another one. They keep collecting felonies. That's bad.
I know it's bad. Thank you. How do you like Jesus? How do you snap back from that? You don't. You know what? You just move to another state and go get a driver's license. Yeah, but if it keeps happening in different states, clearly you need to do some sort of change, you know. Well, I set up and got the 911 law. It
wasn't even out a month and and I was one of the ones that got set up for 911 law and a gunshot and they almost gave me 10 years for that. Wow. So, like what kind of can we help you with? You know, cuz everyone can use some. Like what would you like if you could do?
I don't know. I've never asked for help. Really? Well, yeah, I have. That's li That's lie. They were going to cut my electric bill off and I was live, right? Cuz I have my my mud puddle in YouTube, right? So, I was live streaming. All of a sudden, this broad knocks on door and she's going to cut my electricity off and
Oh no. A lot of people pitched in and helped me get the electricity paid for. You have a stream? Yeah, of course. Oh, can you put Yeah, cuz we love you.
Hi, guys. Hi, Tracy. Hi, it's been it's been it's a fun night tonight, guys. Um, it's a little bit little bit Check out Tracy. Tracy is like freaking raw as hell. I got so drunk the other night.
I drank them double nips. A snake bite whiskey. And oh my god, I drank nine of them. And oh my god, I didn't puke or one. I had hangover today. I still have that residual of the hangover from yesterday.
tomorrow. Oh, it was I had a ball. I live streamed it. I had Oh, man. I got so drunk. I don't think I want to see a snake bite for a while though. I love snake bites. You guys buy panels like she doesn't do panels. She does once in a while, but
she just, you know, she goes, "You have to watch her." It's so addictive. I've done 12 days straight on a stream. I did 12 days straight on stream. 12 days straight. I've done three day, four day streams. You know, you get sick, you're in the bed, ain't nobody talk to you.
The dogs laying next to you with cancer and dying. The cat's around somewhere. You know, you ain't You got You got to have somebody talk to. Wait a minute. Do you bring the chat with you in the shower? Uh, you go in the bathroom. I've seen Tracy's boobs before and I give it a 10 out of 10. Oh, I've been naked. I've been
black bald by YouTube twice for nudity. I got one. She doesn't do it on other people's channels. Nipples and short shorts on and I ran. They monetized me the next day. I was monetizing. I'm not kidding you. She has the best boobs ever. But Tracy, I wanted to come
up here and ask you, are you up here because Psyche is reminding you a little bit of your ex-husband? Who? Your ex-husband. Blogger. What? No, he's not You don't think Psyche You don't think Psyche looks like blogger? Your ex-husband a little bit? Or your husband? Blogger. No. No no no no.
Come on. Look at him. He has a blogger. I'm not divorced. We're not Oh, I thought you were Oh, okay. we tell each other when we get back. Well, Yeah. Okay. You're still married. Okay. Neither one of us wants to pay. Yeah. Nobody wants to dish out any money. So, we're stuck with each other.
Yep. He's doing good. As long as he stays off YouTube, he's fine. Um, Michael, who's your who's the girl you're with? What you want? Introduce yourself. I'm his girlfriend. Hi.
Hi. Nice to meet you. I didn't know you have a girlfriend, Michael. We've been on and off for nine years. We just got back together. Okay. All right. Well, nice to meet you guys. Um, nice to meet you.
They're a cute couple. I I see the love right there. I'm glad you're back. I'm going to jump off the panel. Mhm. Bye. I love you, VA. You're my girl. Okay. I love you, too. I love you, too. Bye, Tracy. Bye, Michael. Nice meeting
you. Bye. Love you.
is awesome. Tracy's awesome. Pi's awesome. Michael and Mirror are awesome. We have I just have an awesome panel tonight. I don't know what we gonna call you. We can't all be awesome. So, well, you you can call me whatever you want, you know. I don't I don't care as long as you as long as you call me in the end of the day. As long as as long as we we have communication open and
stuff like that. As long as somebody drops a dime. long as long as people people talk to me and they don't just like keep me out of their lives like a piece of trash. Like I'm like I'm a bad person. So like I'm not a bad person, don't they? Oh, they just beat the out of you. They do. I've heard some of the
they've said to you. It is, you know, they take their bad day out on him. It's okay. And I have I have a thick skin. I've been through I've been through I've been through all the hate because you're a softy, right? You know what I mean? You're a I'm a softy and I have
a big I have a heart and I like and I still love everybody my son. You ever been I was thinking I was thinking like not be said her ex-husband. I was thinking I probably remind her of her son and her son. Yeah. the same thousand miles an hour.
Always worried about somebody talking about them. Yeah. You know, take a breather. Yeah. You got to like yourself. Everybody likes you. They just they like to beat up on you sometimes, right? A little, you know, just a little punching bag. I'm an easy I'm an easy target, you
know. It's like I'm a very easy target, you know, and I'll put my I'll put all my embarrassments. I'll tell I'll talk about everything cuz but basically I I don't do it because I I'm like trying to get attention or something. I do it because I want to help people and if I can help people with my my up experiences and stuff like that, I want to help people and al so I share things and I want to help people not be
embarrassed about because we all go through some negative in our life, right? How much do you drink? I I just I drink my second um Smeirnoff and I'm going to drink my third. You drink it? No, I think I take a couple days off a week. I take a couple days off a week. Do you? Oh, excuse me. Cuz every time I do I have a nice
Right. Cuz I'm Cuz at night I drink. I like to party on panel sometime. I like it to be a party. I like it. I think you do fun atmosphere. fall asleep. That root goes deeper than that with that,
right? But you know, you know, um Yeah. But X um Tracy, I um I didn't drink very much for like 25 years. I was doing other stuff and stuff like that cuz when I was doing other stuff, the alcohol really didn't to get drunk, but I maybe once month or once every couple of months, you know.
once in a couple of months. That's not a lot. No, it's not it's not bad. That rack of uh snake bites in there in the freezer that stayed there for over a month before I decided to drink it cuz I knew if I'm going to drink it, I'm going to try and drink the whole rack. Rack
like shock. Yeah. Do you know the little nips? I've never The only time I ever seen them was in a bar. part of the bartender made them. I've never like they're little nips. They're little plastic bottles like this and you get 12 of them in a rack, you know, and hell, there's all kinds of
them. Just about anything. It's equal to a little over a shot, right? Bottles. Oh, I threw all of them away that was on the table. Probably cheaper if I just got the bottles themselves.
They don't have snake bites in the bottle. No, I mean like the different kind of alcohols that's in a snake bite and made it make it myself cuz I think in in Canada where pie is at, they have like 5% is like the limit on the on the alcohol, right? Pie. No, it's not. And the beers I heard they
don't have like the voodoo rangers in um in Canada and they don't have certain a lot of variety but we've have like even 10% beers. We just don't have a lot of variety. Now do you have a lot of micro breweries? That's the thing here. People just start making your own beer, get a liquor license, and then they open up
like a one room store. Well, you guys are 3 like 30 million people. We're only like 60 million people. So even if we have a lot, it's never going to be compared to you guys. You want to be the 51st day. Come on. You
never letting go of our Medicare. Come on. We would love to have you. You know, I'll be able to visit you if we can because I can't go now. I'm a felon. No. You know, I'll meet you at the border.
I wonder if you would be allowed to go if someone was willing to vouch for you and say they'll take legal responsibilities of your behavior. Like I wonder No, it has to be 10 years after the last felony. Oh wow. Yeah, I tried. Believe me, I got another friend Cat
that's on here and she's not bad. She's right above, you know, in the Great Lakes where the falls is. I could take the bridge over in Buffalo and jump into Canada. Canada's cold. No, no, no. Canada is cold. We like to visit the States. No, I would go up there in the
summertime. I mean, It's It's It was minus5 degrees last night. It was cold. You know, the States has the sun. You know, you could go on the beach. 30 more days, darling, until spring. 30 days. God damn. Okay, we'll be all right. We just got 30 more days.
You'll be all right. We'll still be cold. We'll still be Well, sorry about your luck. Move. You ain't got no felonies. You can move. That's true. But it takes so much money to live in the States. I have to like I paid $1,000 a month and that's cheap. Wow. My electric bill for two months
was $667. Wow. like his or the doggy. Hold on. Hold on. Look at the doggy. Oh baby. Oh my goodness. Oh sweetie. Oh, that's cool. Yeah, she's a maltese.
Maltes. Oh, my mom. So, my mom had a Maltese when I was when I was born till I was like seven or eight years old. We She had a multis named Samantha. We had We had a black dog. I like teras. I got a boy terrier with a rat terrier half got cancer in the nose though. That looks like
whatever it's called those like what it look like. Guys, how about how about this for a toxic panel? We have like the coolest people on the panel tonight. We have like awesome people. Not everyone's gonna
understand Tracy and her sense of humor and stuff like that, but she's so cool. Yeah. them. them all. Right. Why? What makes me any Why don't you just single me out, Underneath the goddamn bus, didn't you? Real quick. I see how the you are.
No. No. Tracy, Tracy, Tracy, Tracy. Tracy. Just people might say, "Oh, this you love me." They might say, "Oh, this this woman's like swearing and stuff like that and stuff and and she was talk my channel's toxic and stuff like that." I think was their first word. I think you're I think you're cool as
though. I think you're I think you're I think you're cool as I know the channel thinks you're cool as I know loves you. I think Michael and and Yeah, I think you guys are all cool as I didn't mean I didn't mean to I didn't mean to single you out, Tracy. I think I think
you're hilarious. I think you're hilarious, but then I I would I would get like I would get people in my my Discord saying, "Oh, this person's a toxic person." But I can't figure that out. Discord. I've got a Discord, but I can't figure Yeah, that thing out. Discord
don't make sense. And I' know. It's complicated. Can I talk to 0007 and there's a few late night games that if I'm up and and just want to talk then they'll see I'm on and I get on their chats, the voice chats. Yeah. Right.
Yeah. And that's what I like Discord is like but basically Discord for me Discord is like where I can have the after show where I can like post any links and and like it's like a little sleep. I sleep after my show. I sleep usually during my halfway through my show I fall asleep.
I don't know. I do I do sleep. I wake up in the morning. Go to sleep. You pass out. Yeah. I pass out. I do pass out, right? And Jamie lives in Discord, right? We guys saying St. Nikki loves you. You guys are
I used to like stay awake for days and on on end and I like to be awake and I like to be in like the full energy. Medicating. I know. I need I need some ADHD medication badly. But no, cuz you'll snort it and then you get higher. That all I had at all prescription.
Are you nuts? It's poor man's coke, right? And I do the whole little bottle in like two days. A month. Especially if it's not long acting. If it's instant. Oh my god, that's poor men's coke. Honey, it doesn't burn.
It's been around since the 70s. I remember when Adderall came out. I know. Add a It says amphetamine on it. Like on the bottle. It says amphetamine. That's what the the real counteracts. See, somebody like me, I
could take it as an adult and it'll calm me down because I get upset and if I take one of them, then I don't get upset. But I, you know, they had me on them, but I didn't like them. But yeah, there's a poor man coke, right? I finished the whole bottle of 30
pills in like in like two days. I just like take 15 pills a day and have no more for the rest of the month. sucks for the rest of the month. Yeah, the rest of the month sucks. The rest of the month sucks. So now I've been I've been off a bit during the pandemic. You can you can just go through a doctor on the the computer. You can go in like a voice chat with a doctor and then they
prescribe it to you. But then after the pandemic, they like made it illegal. Send me the link. Why ain't you send me the link to the damn doc for uh poor man coat? Yeah, it was a cool it was a cool website, but they don't do it anymore because it was like after the pandemic. Come on.
They stopped using it sucked. But there's also everything. You can go to Amazon. If you go to Amazon and they have an Amazon health perk, I can't do Xanax. I can't do Xanax. I go You loves Xanax. Alisa loves Xanax. to Alisa loves Xanax. Do Xanax. They knocked me out. She jokes
about it. Yeah. Yeah. She like she loves Xan. Well, when she was arrested, she was like, "Can I take a Xanax?" She asked the cops that and the cops were like "No I I took a qua loot before quoot." And I don't even remember the whole day. Come on, dog. Right.
Well, I just have a bad I have a bad experience with Xanax because when I was on Xanax, someone gave me a Xanax and I passed out and I woke up and the police were at my house and they're like, "Someone is come come to your house from your neighbor's garage." It was not me that did it. It was somebody else when I was asleep and but I was like all
zany zany out and stuff like that and I got arrested. So I I eventually He just pushed the wrong button. dummy. I swear to God. See that? You got to go in so fast. He pushed the wrong button
and knocked himself off. What he did? You go 100 miles an hour. Slow the down. That's true. Welcome back. Few days in LA County jail because I had the best shower in my life. I like had group shower. It was very playful. It was very fun. And I had a ramen
sandwich. I had I haven't had any in 14 years. The last time I had it, I had to buy it. Cost me $100, but he did come back the second night for free. So, I ordered a Greek with blue eyes and uh
black curly hair. He showed up at 2:30 in the morning. My roommate went, "What the hell went on upstairs? This is none of your business." And then he came back the second night. My roommate's like, "Uh, hey, what's going on?" I went, "I just rented a jigalo."
That's awesome. Well, that's cool. You know, and it's like he had to bring about the world. See, you had to bring the drug. Did you bring the drugs? I know. You should bring You should have brought you some weed or something like that, right? That That That's the first time I smoked a blunt. would have been a better Oh wow. You know what a blunt was? It w it was
we're talking 14 15 years ago back in 2010 when I bought that boy. He's a good-look man. And then he got back with me about 10 years ago on Facebook. And you can see his wife in the background in the kitchen kids. And
here he is trying to chat me up on Facebook. See if we could hook up again. And here he is fat and bald. And I'm like, uh, no, you don't look nothing like you are. And you got piece of ass standing in the kitchen. Uh-uh. I said, I don't do kids.
No. I couldn't believe it that he looked me up on Facebook, tried to talk me. I'm like, no, I don't think so, dude. He was a good-looking man. He went to hell when he got married. That's sad. That happens to be It is. Oh god. He He was a He was a
good-looking man. Cuz on plenty of fish, you can mark what color hair, what color eyes, you know, the height. You could get right down to whatever you want them on plenty of fish. Yeah. Yeah. Even like the weight and height.
Yeah. Oh, yeah. height had to be proportionate. He was about 6 foot. He wasn't that much taller than me. I'm 510. Oh, wow. Really? Yeah. He's a model. Kind of love it because I look down on people
down at you and go rip your throat out. little people. You know what I mean? I don't know. Well, damn. I came up here to smoke a damn pipe full and say hello. Slow the down. I love you.
I love you, too. Get to bed. Okay. Thank you for coming on the show. You know, I love you, too. And you're awesome person. Have a great night. What a cool What a cool lady. I love her. Yeah. How are you today, Michael and Mirina? How are you doing tonight? Are you Is
Mina Mina wanting to go to bed or or No no no no. You're all in it. Nice. Okay. You have the doggy there. It's a beautiful doggy. You guys are awesome. Family. Love hanging out with you guys. Trying to make her talk a little bit more because she's like a little shy.
A You're a little shy. Okay. Well, you're listen. Okay. Yeah. She's listening. Yeah. And it's like she's a little I see a little bit of skeptic still in her eyes and she's like that medical professional kind of nurses are very professional and they're very about business and about going.
Yeah. I think but I think I like I like the chemistry there between you but but I just I just see like really good chemistry there and like I know you guys obviously you love each other because you and I have come back together right if you really love somebody you're going to go back to them right it's like and if they don't return then you weren't not meant to be but if they return and
there's something still there it it can work and stuff and so I hope I know maybe it's not everything's not perfect okay and and there's still some stuff going Okay. But I see like a good fresh start, like a lot of forgiveness, right? And a lot of like let's start fresh. Let's uh we and
you're comfortable. You're definitely comfortable with each other. Like you're comfortable with each other. You're like I just see like I see I see um really good things with you guys. Yeah. That's really sweet. A lot. It's nine years. We we've known each other for nine years. So, we've
been through a lot together, but we end up getting it back together. So, it's a good thing, right? That's awesome. And guys, and Clumsy, I'm sorry, too. Clumsy, you know, I'll apologize. I'm saying I'm sorry if I said some some stuff when I was in a hurtful state,
sarcastic or negative. Okay. I know you're salty, too. Clumsy if we can make up sometime. If you can like hear my side of the story, if you can like know that I'm not that kind of person that will try to like embarrass people or like it's all like all all everything I do isn't fun, you know? It's like I did not mean to hurt anyone's feel. I was trying to make make Emma's chat fun last
night, but I was Nicholas Cage. I was Elon Musk. I was like in her Discord trying to post like funny stuff and stuff like so I'm not perfect. All right. I'm not perfect. I'm I'm a I'm a I'm a fool. I'm a I'm a clown. I'm an idiot. And And I'm sorry if I if I said something hurtful and stuff like that, but you hurt me. And that's like And hurt people hurt people. And I'm trying not to
go that direction. And it's like I have a sharp tongue, too. I can like guys, you don't know how much I like I hold back on some people, right? You know, I I like I I can like verbally tear somebody down and I don't do it because I know how bad that feels. but feels to me and stuff like that. And so I'm wow I I seriously I could have said a
lot worse, right? And it's like I'm not I didn't say anything I really regret and stuff like that, but if I hurt your feelings or if I said something wrong or it's like but you hurt my feelings and it's like I just I just reacted and it's like I'm my own I'm my own emot I let my emotions take control sometimes. But I really I really never did anything. I
don't think I did anything ever wrong to you for you to like just just drop me like or squash me like a She's like this big streamer. She's like really popular. She has like all much more popular than I am. Like and then she just like felt like the mean girl in the cafeteria and then there's the nerd
and then like oh you have their group and then everyone's just laughing at me and stuff like that, right? And it's like I just feel like the like the like the the butt of the joke and the nerd and stuff. Yeah, I can do a reading for you if you're on you're on the panel. Be better, do better. I can of course I can do I'll pull a few cards for you. I'm happy to do cards for anybody. And it's like I'm happy to like you know I don't
have my cash app posted or anything like that. You know, I'm not asking for for anything from anybody. All I want to do is help people and love people. And so that's why it's really hurtful when I just like I'm just loving you know, I'm not perfect and stuff like that. And I'm trying to I try to be a loving person and loyal person and I'll have my friends back and stuff like that, but it's like when they don't even
like talk to me about it first. They don't look at my side of the story. They don't, you know, they're just like willing to listen to somebody else. When they choose sides and stuff like that, it's hurtful. And uh so I don't know. It's kind of sucks. It kind of sucks. It's kind of sad, but you know, but it's also like a weird time for this to happen because it's like my 1500
subscribers, my over 2,000 watch hours, my channel's doing really well. I have my introduction tonight, um video playing tonight. It was like a big premiere and it was like then they choose this day, just this day, this happy day, this a celebration day to like take a dump in my living or right in my parade or whatever, whatever, whatever analogy you want to use. Things
are building up. Things are building up. It was bound to happen, I guess. Right. And and I and I was saying I'm in a self-destructive mode sometimes where it's like, you know, and it's like and I will I will I'll ruin the relationship before they can ruin it for me, right? So, you're not sure who dropped me. It was clumsy. It was traveling gypsy. It was
Emma. It was Galacticness. It was um several other people just through them and stuff like that. What's up? What's up, Jimnick? Jim Nick, I saw you on I watched the rest of the show and stuff like that. Later later today, I saw Jim Nick was having a good time with uh with Caesar. I don't know if Caesar's mad at me because he's not written me today and he's not been on the panel and you know hopefully he's going, you know, maybe
maybe he's mad at me too. I don't someone got to him and said, "Oh, he's saying here's your boyfriend." Yeah, for be better. Okay, so be better. I got I got a few cards for be better if you don't mind. I was I really short and sweet, guys. Um, you know, I like to keep it keep it keep it quick. Okay. So, so be better. We had the three of cups. It says lord of abundance. And so
there's like a lot of abundant happiness right there for you. And because the three is like, you know, um, the three is can do with other people and stuff like that. It's also like the party card. You're having fun with people. On the more negative side, it could be a third party situation. You know, we all know these third party situations where there's like three friends and then like, you know, okay, we can all agree
to disagree, but you know, just to drop me and just like kick me off and also five of pentacles. Okay, so you're feeling left out in the cold about something. It says lord of material trouble, not necessarily money problems, but maybe like more of a feeling of being left out of something. um maybe a feeling of like it's like either not getting the job you wanted or it's like
not being invited to the party you wanted to go to and that kind of thing. It can mean it can mean you're feeling left out of something. You know, sometimes you can just like say, "Hey, hey, remember me?" And and then they'll remember cuz sometimes people just had make honest mistakes. They forget things. Okay? And uh and if you knock on the door, if you knock on the door, the door will open. Also, I have this two of pentacles. It
says lord of harmonious change. So things are going to get a lot better for you, okay? There's going to be this harmonious change and it's going to help you. I don't know if it's a partnership or something like that or like a two of pentacles. It can be you're going to get you're going to the you didn't get the job you wanted, but you you're going to get the job that is right for you and it's to make you a lot happier. They got the three of cups and you're going to be
celebrating about something. I'll pull a couple more cards for be better. I got also the 10 of wands. Okay, so you feel like you're carrying some burdens right here. you feel like you the weight of the world's on your shoulders. They're not really that heavy because there's a bunch of wands on your back and stuff like that, but don't take on other people's problems. Don't take on more than um more than what's on your
plate, right? And and also I have the Ace of Pentacles. So, that's going to be the this new opportunity you've been waiting for, this new financials and uh this really good. It's also handed down by the divine and stuff like that. And it's like uh it says the lord of the root of the powers of the earth. And so there's something in it. There's something as soon as you kind of see
this planet that's going to be growing for you. So do not worry. You are going to be doing fine. There's going to be new opportunity. If the other one didn't work out, you're worried about that. I I sense you're worried about that. The new opportunity will work out really well. It's make you really happy. And I hope you like that reading. So yeah. How's everyone doing? She said, "Yeah." Okay. So, I I hit I hit it. I hit it.
Right. Okay. I I love I love doing that. I love being able to help. And it's like, you know, just go for it, right? Take that new opportunity and run with it, right? Hope you guys are having fun. All right. Um, me and Mar, we're going to leave for a little bit. Okay. Okay. Thank you for coming, Michael. We
love you guys and thank you so much. And, uh, we had a lot of fun with you guys and I'm glad you guys are together. Okay. Bye. Bye. Bye Mike. Yeah. Is anyone else want to hop on the panel and talk to Pi and I? How are you feeling, Pi? Yeah. Come on up. I think the link is pinned guys. It's been a
little bit of emotional night for me. It's like because, you know, it's never easy losing friends and it's like it's it's just happened before and now it's it's uh it's happening again and it's like I don't want to lose any more friends. roller coasters really, right? And yeah, and it's like and you know my life since I met my new boyfriend or whatever he wants to call
my crush. Maybe I'm just Maybe he's just my crush. He seemed more interested in in Nick than he seems to me. But that's cool. No, it's fine. No, I'm just kidding. It's fine. You know, jealousy is a natural human emotion, right? And uh you know it's like and I'm not I'm not like right with this person like like next to them where like we can like musically
connect and stuff like that. We had a connection and it's like if he doesn't feel like if he doesn't feel it and stuff like that. I know it's fine. Yeah. Whatever. Gay guys sometimes like like they bring in more people in the bed. Whoever the more the marrier and stuff like that. No, I mean what whatever it's like but it's like as long as I can have a friend, you know, it's like it's like nice to have a friend I
can talk to and stuff like that. But yeah, I got I got I got dropped like a hot potato. Hello guys. I guess he passed. He pressed the wrong button, but he'll be back though. Hey Peta, he left. Hi. Where did he go? I don't think that was an accident. Hi.
I think Mor really likes you a lot and want my a lot. I mean he did he held the panel for um like 3 hours while Psyche which I'm going to tell him like he's my brother again abandoned him and was like
again worried about that lady. We don't want to say her name again. So you got to be grateful the people that are there for you, people that have your back that are really, you know, there for your channel and love you and he'll be back. But remember, well, it was that's a nice actually
for anybody else but you. So when you leave Yeah, we all are. Yeah. So when you leave and then you come back and you're like, "Oh, this thing like ranting on about, you know, freaking that lady whatever I want to say her name again." It kind of it would it would make him a little hurt, wouldn't it? Wouldn't you? And then
he was he was like doing his put yourself in his put yourself in his shoes if for like for like a week he keeps talking about this person and this and that and here there you are just trying to cheer him up, you know, be there for him and you're just like not getting it. He's going to get a little hurt, you know? Right. I don't know. I don't know if he was hurt and stuff, but cuz I was
thinking like he was like having fun like doing readings and stuff for people and like I I didn't want to interfere and like and like two fire ceremonies for you to get rid of that bad energy. an amazing fire show. I'm not you know I know I love my point is that like when he comes back which he will please appreciate him. Forget about you know
people that don't appreciate you at the moment. They will later cuz as you're growing. Um, trust me, you know, what do they say? Count your chickens at the end of the season, they'll all be back and they'll be like, "Oh, psyche, psyche." You know, forget about that for now. Just move forward. I just felt like because I was like after he did the pit
ceremony, I was like I felt a lot of emotional energy clearing and I was like ready to like what go and talk to her and and like cuz I was off her show and stuff like that and I was like and then I then she was on and stuff like that and I was like I want to talk to her and I and I felt and I just wanted to talk to her and it all backfired in my face like you know like and I feel bad that I that I loved him
but I was also he'll be back. We're going to manifest him. He's going to come back. Just learn from it that you know what, when you lose one friend, you're going to find like two or three that are really good, you know? And I'm sorry, at this point, I don't want to, you know, poop on this lady, but she's being really mean. And
like, how many times you have to apologize to someone and it's like and for them not to forgive you. So, it's stop it. Appreciate the ones that are really, really here for you. What do you think, Pi? That's true. dwell on it. You could just keep circling and circling with that negative energy, you know, got like these people because all of them
all of them kept a door open and so I'm like there's a chance I can like make things right and so I'm like if I can and I'll just take this chance and stuff like that and cuz they they're not like blocking me. I mean I was blitzy and you did you did when you did your
apology you you left the door open and you were the bigger bigger person. So now they have to figure that out. Think about it whether they have to calm down like cool down or like figure out by experience that you're really not a bad person. your panels are the way that you want it or you know um they'll come back
the good ones. I've had that happen where people have blocked you were like, "Oh, this and that." And then they come back and they're like, "You know what, beta, I'm really sorry. I was that was unfair of me." This and that. You know, that's true. They're all going through, right? Maybe not the right time. In my experience, they don't they don't they don't come back. I'm always
apologizing. And then and I'll tell you what she said to me. Wasn't flirting. He wasn't flirting with um forget about her. Forget it. We're gonna get you out of that loop. Stop it. Um, Miser wasn't flirting with Nick. He was holding the panel until you come back. And Nick is here for you. Mer is here for you. P. Oh, look at Hi, Anor.
Hi, I love her. You know, you're making yourself like suffer over and over again. I love you. Love you, Pi. You know, I'm so glad you're back. It's like, you know, a pleasure seeing you up here. I'll be in the chat. Sometimes I have to come up here and be like, "Shake psychi." Okay bye.
And yeah, and I wasn't even think I was basically I was thinking I was like he's having fun like talking and doing readings for people and it's like he was he has like long readings and stuff like that and then he like a lot of people are like want a reading for him and stuff and I was like I'll let him I trust him and I like him I love him and so I'll trust him with the panel and he
can do readings and like talk to them and I got distracted and I feel bad I feel bad if I if I if he felt like abandoned and stuff like that or he's mad at me and because I didn't like think he would be but maybe guys I'm not perfect guys I'm like I'm like basically I just I I go where the whim maybe I should just maybe I should have just
ended my show but I was like he said cuz he was like saying to me privately that he he like was having a lot of fun on my show and he doesn't like want to go to other shows and he was like he likes meeting people here and like helping people and stuff like that and so I was like letting him do his thing and I was like and also I'm trying to get him to um to do his own stream and stuff like
that because I think he'd be he's like so smart and he would do so well like doing tarot readings for people and he was having fun doing it. So I I wasn't like well I was thinking like I'm I'm leaving him and stuff like that. I was like I'll leave him in charge because I can trust him and stuff like that. And I know Pi the same thing with you. I was like I I can trust Pi like with with the
panel and stuff like that and I'm not always like in the best state of mind and like you know or like you know I was like a little bit too too drunk probably and so yeah and Jimnick like his reading. Yeah. And so I don't know it was like I was it was not like a a like shade to him or anything. It was like basically like I trust you like I was
like go have like have fun and and do your thing and stuff like that. I don't know. Um, it wasn't like he was hosting your channel for you while you were sleeping. You thought he was flirting with someone and people can get jealous. So, it's okay to bring that up. That's what you really thought. But B was saying that it
wasn't actually flirting. He was just trying to have a fun panel, right? I don't know. It was just like I don't know. Are you a traditional person? H, he's gone again. I'm back. Oh, he's back. You're getting good at coming back sooner. I'm getting faster at this. Okay. No.
Yeah, I know. And guy guys, it's like I really I haven't been with I I never even had a boyfriend in my life. I never I' never once had a boyfriend in my life. I had like a girlfriend for like three months and it was like not even girl. It was like a lady friend. Okay. I've never even had a guy that like really like liked me and like for who I am and stuff like that. So, it was like that's why I was easily catfished by
that guy, the Marine guy. They said he was in the army and he was just he was doing this picture of this guy named Mason from the army and it was really cute and just saying nice things and like he was misspelling everything and it was obvious he probably wasn't like an American and stuff like that and I just got and it's like I get emotionally carried away sometimes and I'm guys I'm not perfect and it's like that's why I
don't I don't read for myself. I read for other people because I do much better readings for other people than I can with myself and I'm way too biased for myself. It's not it's not anything. Yeah. So me me was like it's like nothing personal really. It wasn't. And it's like I love your fire ceremony. I was just so drunk that it's like I was like useless on the panel and stuff like that. And I and you were doing such a he
was having a lot of fun. It looked like to me like doing like readings and he he's all into it and stuff like that. I was like, "No, Emma." I was like, I was like drunk trying to get Emma's attention. Yeah, I know. I know. But I don't know. Maybe I suck. Maybe I suck. But
I don't know. That's one thing I do like about you being on panel more. You're kind of advertising yourself casually. You know, it's a way to put yourself out there because I know in person you don't go out much. So, it's hard to find a a partner that way. I don't I don't go out at all. I don't go out at all. And then my neighbors had me out the other night and they they got
me really drunk and then they like ambushed me with like, "Oh, we want to take we want to have the cat. We want to have your cat and stuff." And oh my goodness. All I want I want the cats to be happy and stuff like that. This is what like whatever makes the cats happiest. Like cuz the cat like I have cats that are fighting inside here and stuff. They're like, "Well, you should keep your cats locked up inside at night and stuff like
that cuz it's dangerous outside." I'm like, "Yeah, but cats have a better quality of life. They'll have more fun when they can like go where they want to go, right?" And like not be locked up inside a house with cats are fighting with and stuff like that. And if like they're fighting with cats and stuff like that, sometimes they they they they're happy being a single cat in a household and stuff like that. I know.
Thank you, Jamie. Jamie, can you come up here? I want I want to talk to you, too. Yeah. Yeah, that'd be nice. I don't know. Maybe maybe I'm wrong. Like, guys, I'm saying I'm not I'm saying I'm like not perfect. Like, I'm really I'm not a perfect person. There's many things I wish I didn't do. And I wake up in the morning, I'm like, "What
the did I do last night? Why did I do that? I all this kind of stuff." And every morning it's like maybe I was just like I drink too much. I'm having a hard time since my dad's gone. My dad cuz my dad was like always he like he was like basically keeping
keeping me like afloat. Like he was like helping me like he like would help me with anything. And now it's like like he's gone and it's like I feel like I'm on my own and it's like um but guys this is like the first time I've had actually on Valentine's Day I've been alone for every Valentine's Day I had no one to talk to. I just been sitting alone and
no one to talk to. This this Valentine's Day I had a chat that was like and I had pan people on the panel and I like was talk I don't know it was just like the happiest Valentine's Day I ever had. And so a already like way beyond my life expectancy. I should have been like died at 30 years. I should have died like a long time ago. So everything in my life
that good happens it's like it's all all is just a bonus for me right now. think you would do better, be better. And uh everything is like a bonus for me. And so it's like, you know, I I don't expect to like live very long. And it's like I expect to be hit by a car any day and like or something bad's going to happen and stuff like that. And uh and everyone else will be okay, you know, because you
know, but all I worry about is my cats are okay, my cats are fine. I hope I don't die either, but it's like we all we all will, you know, someday, you know, it's like and that's part of life and stuff like that. I don't know if like all my hard times are just my karma and stuff like that. I probably bring everything up myself, but um I uh but really guys, I really do love you guys. Like really like every morning I
wake up and I'm like, "When can I start streaming?" And like I just think when can I see Elisa? When can I um when can I talk to Pi? When can I talk to Bea? And it's like um and I love you guys so much. And guys, I'm not kidding you. It's like really it's like you guys are my life. It's like you guys are the reason I stay alive because it's like if I didn't have
you guys I don't think I would like have something to like live for. Um you know like I know my cats will be taken care of. I know maybe people will be happier without me here. You know it's like but you guys make me think that you guys you guys actually people do care about me and people love me and stuff like that. And uh
you're a cheerful person and you're always like there for us. help us out and we love helping you back, you know, like that's why every time like you message me, I can't help but like, oh, messaging me, you know, I'm always like an arm reach away. I love talking and I'm sorry if I disappoint anybody. I'm sorry if I like if I'm not here sometimes and it's like
because sometimes I don't feel like I'm like I feel like I'm getting in the way sometimes of things and it's like I don't want everyone else to be friends and stuff like that and go ahead and go to go to Clumsies and stuff like that and like all I was trying to say is like go to Clumsy, go to Emma's like you don't have to be here it's like if you
like them better go to go to them and stuff like that. I want everyone to like meet people and like be happy and like stuff like that. And it's like I just like to be a facilitator and like a helper in meeting in helping people meet people. When people just dump me and like think and then like they just hate me and stuff like that, it hurts my feelings. Hi Jimnick.
Hi. Hi. Hi. Hi. Hi. Um I wanted to ask like a question real Hello. quick. Go for it. And I don't you don't have to answer it if you don't feel comfortable. Okay.
Um, did you feel a lot of pressure All right. growing up as a child to be like perfect or something? Oh my god. Yeah. I was almost getting punished for doing everything wrong because like I and the only reason I'm asking this is because I act kind of the
same way that you do a lot. and I felt that way. And and so that's why I'm asking if if if there's something there in your childhood that maybe brought some kind of trauma in your life that you're um
violence. There was a lot of violence growing up like uh there was a lot of pressure for me to be poker but I fought against it and I would get punished for it. So, there's definitely a lot of trauma that's like when my parents are going through a divorce, you just have to go through therapy and Oh wow.
Yeah. And the therapist was like, "This is too much." Like, this is this is a different kind of level of up. Like, for sure. For sure. It's just like So, what did they uh what did they suggest? Can I ask? I youated. They suggested that I need to hang out
with more uh positive people like um people who were people uplifting your spirit kind of thing. not just uplifting, but people who are not a bad influence because like that would just make things way worse because like I I'm really good at doing good things, but when I'm around people
who have bad ideas, I'm going to I'm going to like go with that flow and that's really really bad. Yeah, that was Yeah, that's bad. Like Oh, yeah. I don't know what else. Yeah. Like I Wow. tried to like go to when I got older, I realized a therapy like it was just so annoying. Like there was no it was just
going to be forever and like the the therapist eventually admit that yeah therapy is doesn't work that way. It's not to fix things, you know, like we're just here to help you work things out. So that's when I started thinking, okay, I got to look for something else to help me work things out because this is really annoying to like different coping mechanisms that are healthy or something like that.
Yeah. Yeah. Well, not just that, but like learning more about the mind and myself, you know, and exploring instead of just sitting in an office, you know, with some therapist and like it's not working, you know. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Well, I know YouTube's helped a lot a lot of those self-help videos just to
like be aware that there's different things out there, you know? It it is it is helpful at the same time. It can feel overwhelming too because it's just like this like intake of like so much information at one time. I think
that sometimes you just have to like you know break things down into like like the basic steps that you have to do if that makes any sense. I don't know. I don't know. I've never been to a therapist. I think the only therapist I
ever had was Beeta. Beeta is a literal oracle princess with all her advice. Like it just feels magical. I don't know what it is. I think it's like all her experience or something like you feel that wisdom is Whoa. It's really cool actually. I love that
about her. I don't think I I've met a lot of people like it's cool. Yeah. I mean, I met some people, but normally they're like Native American kind of type that um have have that kind of like wisdom and it's like passed down
generations and stuff like that. the Native Americans that I've met here, they were more uh about making money and whatever wisdom they had, they wanted to preserve it for just their own people because they were really trying to build that back up. They no longer wanted to share with like white people anymore.
Like they were done with that, right? Yeah. Have you ever been to um South Dakota? No. No. No, I haven't. Are you from there? No, no. Well, because that's, you know, Mount Rushmore and then they have the crazy horse, which is the Native American
thing that they So, basically in Mount Rushmore, they use a Native American the builder that basically made Mount Rushmore, right? Like chiseled everything. the architect um they used him and then he was like
well I want to do it for my own people and then it's called Crazy Horse and they basically it's a Native American like thing and and the government's like hey we'll help you out with like the money and everything like that and they were like we don't want your money.
Wow. So, how do they like fund it? Um, so they have like a museum and the tours and then they get just like donations and you know through the visitation fees and things like that. Well, they are more fun to be honest.
Like I remember in in high school we had to study history. Everything that was based on the colonials and stuff, it just went and wer out the other. It was just so boring. But whenever it was about the natives, the tribe, the land, that was so much more interesting. Like I passed because I was able to like learn about that much more. And luckily
the exam had more questions about the natives than the other stuff. It's way more interesting. So like that doesn't surprise me at all. Yeah, it is pretty interesting. I mean, I don't I'm not a big history person because I'm like more like the other brain. Yeah, that was high school. We were forced to learn about it. We had no
choice. Oh, I know. Is Psych going to be okay? I hope so. We can ask him to come back. Come on, Psych. We have H I can't see comments. Right, right,
Yeah, we we know some you don't need to right. hurt and I know like Oh, he says I'm a connector. I like to connect people. I can see that. Totally. That's true. Sykes has connected me with so many other people. Like I love that. And it feels it's more comfortable. I don't know. It's sort of like a security blanket, I guess.
Like when he's in chat, like I I like visiting other streams, too. But when Sykes in shot, it's like so much more comfortable for me. Yeah, I agree. How have you been to me? Yeah. Here he is.
I'm here. Not I'm never far away. You guys are having a good conversation. We just don't Sometimes we just don't know. I'm okay. I'm okay. It's going to be okay. Um, you know, I
think that you're maybe looking a little bit too in deep into something that um, you know, sometimes people just need some space, right? And I give them space, but I love these people so much. And then it's like they're just willing to throw me away. It's like without saying anything,
without talking to me first, they're willing to throw me away. Like like I'm nothing, right? Um that's true. It's not just one person. It's like a lot of people and it's like may so it's like it's probably my fault because it's like if it's so many people that are like turning against me and like think I'm bad and um
Oh, he froze. Yeah, I was like, "Is that my friend?" Um well, like Yeah, it's not just one person. It's like a bunch. And I know those people talk to each other. So I know it's not like independent, you know. No, they're all talking. They're all talking and they're all like talking behind my back and it's all like and they're coming into my chat and they're
talking and saying what I say and stuff like they don't check watch the video and stuff say what I say. They just listen to the other person and it's like they don't care about me and it's like and then I care so much that it like it just hurts because it's like I don't know. It's like they don't care enough to like see my side of things or like, you know, it's just like I'm the bad I'm always
the bad guy. I'm always like the wrong person. I'm like the evil person. I'm like the person that can be thrown away easily and then everyone else is like the angel and like the the the guardian. Like it's like I'm just like I'm just like looked at so negatively. But that's not true though. That's not true.
Wait, what's not true? that um he like um I'm not saying your feelings aren't true, but the fact that you're you're saying about yourself that you're the bad person or something and that they're interpret when they can just throw me away so easily when they can like then
they they can turn on me so easily and I would never turn on them and I would never do that to them and that kind of thing. It's like clumsy. I would like never I would never turn on her. I would never like I never did anything negative to that person. I I always like love that person. I There has to be deeper going on because how can someone just throw some They kept they could not have just thrown you
away at a snap of a finger that they're not impulsive people. They did they must have taken a lot of thought into it. So it must have been something that was building up for a long time and they just couldn't feel like they can talk to you about it. Like that's that's more concerning to me that they felt like they couldn't talk discuss it, right? Right. I They didn't talk to me.
Everyone just left. Everyone just like left. Well, Emma talked to me. I mean, she like wrote back and like gave her feelings about it and like that was respectable. The other people just like blocked me, kicked me out, and didn't say anything. Didn't say anything. like I they just expected me to find it and then like know I I know I did something wrong or something like that but I didn't even
feel like I did something wrong. I I was like it was an honest mistake. It was like it looked bad, right? It's like but you know it's like looks can be deceiving and if you know my heart you know I wouldn't try to be hurting people or trying to embarrass people or trying to like I don't I don't know. It's like um just like it's like easy to it's easy easy to throw me away
about that. Like I think wait on it like bea said maybe they just need some time you know cuz like I just can't imagine them being so impulsive you know I can't imagine like everything being perfect and then that one thing made them flip like that like that that can't be I can't imagine that. Oh, they're I think they're just waiting for
They're just waiting for something to to like waiting for like one bad thing. I think they're Yeah, I don't know. They're just like I I get no chances. I get I get no grace. I get I get no um I don't know. It's just It's just easy to throw me away. That's That's tough. But I think I think there's things going on behind the
scenes that we just don't know, you know? Like maybe we don't understand their feelings, you know? Right. No, I understand their feelings. I mean, cuz I they're just like their feelings are I'm bad, this person's good, right? It's like it's like very black. trying to laugh, but this like actually happened to me recently with like a best friend I
had for like since high school and she tried to say that I was like cheating on her husband and ruined her entire marriage and family when I the only reason I hadn't visit her was because I had so much like driving anxiety and stuff like that. And so like I got this
message out of the blue and I had done everything, you know, like gone out of my way always, always, always. And so like when I received that message, I was like, and then I got basically blocked. And it was like it was like a pretty hard it was pretty hard pill to swallow.
But at the end of the day, here's what I'm going to tell you. Psych. This is what I've learned. People are going to come in your life for a time and a season sometimes, okay? And maybe they're there for that time and season. If they're not there for that time and season, it it's cuz
they're not meant to be, right? But it's it's a jagged little pill to swallow, you know? It's like a hard lesson. It's it's like Well, right. because it makes you like it feels like you like need to like create all these like walls in your heart and you don't want to do that. I
think is frozen. I know. It's like it's like it's like I have I have all these cups and I have these cups and I hand them to people and then they like spit in the cup and they pee in the cup and they and they just toss the cup over and stuff like that. That's what it feels like. A whole face. Yeah. Emma, am I so good? No, it did not because Emma's not talking to me. She
just said I was trying to cause drama in the chat. She like um ignores my messages asking for forgiveness. She um she let me back in Discord. The last time she wrote to me, she was like, "Good luck." That's the last thing she said to me. Or the or she said last night, she was like, "Oh, oh yeah, that's the best message was, oh, good luck."
Like too much for her. Maybe it's just too much for her. You know, like not everybody wants to put so much, you know. But she can say she can say she can say she can say she can say stop talking to me. She can like block me as a block me as a friend on Discord. She can say you're you're too much. Okay, whatever.
It's like she can say something, but no, she just like has the door open like and then then this ignore ignores and it's like that's kind of it kind of feels bad. And I was like that's why I don't know. I was like I just see a door. I see open door. I'm like knocking on this open door and then like no one's coming to the door like and then it's like okay well
wait wait wait read can you read next messages right next message right now comment I'm sorry right I know she's not the whole I know it's not the whole world I know someone will come out tomorrow this is a person that I care about this is a person it's like I really care about and it's like I'll just tell you this one story so
when she unmoded me I I said when Emma hits 100 when I was a mod. Okay, this guys I'll probably look bad in this, but she I said when she hits 100K subscribers, I'll tell the story. She said when I hit I said I said in her chat when she hits 100K subscribers, we're going to have a
diddy slip and slide party here. What she said to me was like she said, "Okay, you had a rent." She said, "Okay, so basically you're saying I'm I'm a molester. I'm a human trafficker and I'm an extortionist. And uh that's what she said to me because she
she has all this. Yeah, I know. Right. It's like and so I was like I was like no I was not trying to say I was like Well, you said it as a joke. Yeah, but if she took it like she's, you know, people get worried and scared, you know, and she's always going to say what's on her mind.
Also has this, she also has a video, like a short video about diddy baby oil on her channel and stuff. And we were joking about it the month before and she's like, "Oh, well, have you heard the latest news about Diddy? What he like?" No, I don't really watch. I just heard I just know about, you know, I don't know. I was like really confused but and and we made up after
that but then I was then she never I mean she accepted other people back in her discord and and she accepted other remod other people and all this stuff and then I I was always like well there's something wrong with you. There's like she said there's something wrong with you or you said there's something wrong with her. I think he he was thinking that.
Okay. Okay. I could be wrong. I don't want to like put words in people's mouths. Yeah, but that's true what chat's saying. He just saying success is the best revenge. And I think that with the success, they'll trust him more. I think right now they're just, you know, nervous and they're trying to look out their channels too, you know, like
they're trying their best, you know. Okay. Okay. It's like, can I tell you one thing with these communities? You really need to put up some boundaries with within yourself. I'm just going to I'm going to say that matter of fact. You really do because if you want if you
want your own mental health and stuff like that, you have to do that. The point, right? And and guy guys, I do have I do have boundaries and stuff like that, but it's like also I will forgive anybody anybody that comes to me and said that I had a guy once and he stole he stole a
bunch of stuff from my house and then he called crying and he was like he was like I'm sorry I did that and and stuff like that and I was like I was like it's okay. I I was like I don't even care about anything that you stole. I was like and I was like I was like I just I forgive you. Okay. I like don't worry about I I I just felt bad that that person felt sad and I I
a Did you give him? Yeah, he's frozen. Yeah, now he keeps freezing out. Can you hear me? Oh, I think I'm here. Welcome back. Yeah, guys, my phone keeps my phone keeps freezing up and stuff like that. I will I will forgive anybody. Like you
you can like stab me in the heart and stuff like that. I will forgive you if you if you're sorry and stuff like that. It's like I will forgive anybody. It's not about me anymore. It's really about other people. Like all I care about is other people. I don't even care about myself very much anymore. I just care about are other people happy. And that's
why I can just I I know psych look I know you have a great heart. You have a great soul and that's very admirable. At one point you going to have to establish some boundaries with some people. Okay. Especially if you're streaming,
right? And guys, maybe maybe I'm too maybe I'm too sensitive to be like a a good streamer or something. You are me. And I think like and I really like basically what I love most is like when people are friends with each other and like people make friends with each other. I just it hurts my feelings when they make friends with each other and
then they they they hate me and stuff like that. That's what happened like the past few nights and it's like I was the one that you're friends with in the first place and I was the one that was like trying to say you guys will like each other and stuff like maybe I don't have to be involved. You know how you can go be friends with other people and stuff like that. Yeah. Hold on.
Jim Kitty Jim Kitty left. Oh god. Psyche. I'm going to drive over there right now. I'm going to drive over there around a couple times. I'm going to slap flying around.
I'm gonna make you go out and we're going to go out like to Hollywood and hang out. What the hell are you thinking? Stop it. I have some stinking thinking going on now. My my my heart's been broken today cuz I had like two of my like people I consider some of my best friends just this hackers on the internet. They'll like
come back around. Trust me, they'll come back around one day. they'll be in your chat like you know they come back around. You got to stop blaming yourself and like you know belittling like like you know not belittling but lowering yourself like you are a really really cool guy. And I think what Jimnick was saying about boundaries is that if you
don't have respect or you don't show respect for yourself, people are going to like think that you have no backbone and they're just gonna step all over you. I'm sorry. that. you know, have pride for yourself cuz you're wonderful. You bring a lot of like amazing people here to your channel. Look at Pi. Like, look at her. I actually I think I
wouldn't trade one strand of her hair for the whole uh existence of um Emma. Like, she's real. She's organic. You know, this is this is a real friend over here, you know? Right. I know. Focus on your real friend, not people that are conceited and they think they're like better than thou. Oh, just because she did one freaking interview for you. Well, wait till you become big.
You're gonna get a lot of better people up here to interview. And right now, like Jimnick, all these people that came up, all these random people that come up here, when you've only been streaming for like a month and a half, that means you there's like some kind of a magnetic attraction to your channel. You're just growing it, right? Stop putting yourself down.
Stop. Stop it. Don't go in one ear and out the other ear. Put some music on. Turn it around. Do what you do best. Make people laugh. Get in the tune. Do your tarot card reading, you know. Slap. Give him a little slap. Give him a Yeah. little slap high. Just a little on the cheek. Yes. Like that. Or the lick and slap so it stings a
little bit. I can't I can't be in the chat sitting there and watching him hurt like that. It hurts me and other people too. We're all We all are hurting because we don't want to see you suffer over that, you know. Yeah. It's a process, you know. Those feelings, they'll come up when you process them, then they'll go, you know, it's better.
I wish they would just totally block me. And so then I would like, no, no. Maybe the block not blocking you is like a way of saying that, you know what? Um, I don't I don't hate you, but right now we just we shouldn't. I don't know. Just Okay. So, if she blocks you, will that make you feel better? No. You're going
to even get more hurt, you know? No. If you block me, I would say it's I would say it's over. But it's like if they don't, then it's like saying there's something I could say or do that I can make things right again or something like that, right? And I could like maybe it's just time. Maybe they give me time. Mhm.
I don't know. But it's so easy. It was so easy for them to do it though. It was so easy for them to like to say, was it though? Maybe there's other things going on, you know, like they're they got a lot of emotions riing up, you know, and they need time to settle. But but Emma, it's been two weeks since Emma and then it's like nothing's
nothing's happened. Then she's just still as mad as as mad at me and then she lets me back in her Discord.
Hey, maybe she's annoyed because remember when we drink a lot that you know makes all sorts of things happen, you know. So, we have to I know and maybe I'm a drunk and stuff like that and like a little bit that's what I'm doing right now is like I'm drinking a little bit too much and it's like I get too emotional and I I just say
stupid things. I do I always regret it in the morning and like when I say stupid things I don't say things the right way. Yeah. Pay attention to what you're admitting yourself, you know, like you're getting drunk a lot and you're saying things you regret and the next day you're looking back and you're regretting what you said because you were drunk. Maybe it's they don't they don't regret it. Like
every day I wake up and I like I I go and ap I try to apologize or I try to like fix things and I like I want things to do better. think alcohol is a depress I think. Yeah, alcohol is a depressant. It's going to bring you down, you know, especially if you're not in the best mood or you're going through stuff. When
you drink, it's it's just going to make you sadder, you know. And um I don't think you should apologize every day for every time you get, you know, look at look at pie. Look at people that are here back at like all the time. They're not judging you. People make mistakes. You're an adult. You drink. Well, is it, you know, I drink um not tonight. You
know, you can tell when I'm drinking obviously I'll be like a freaking st, you know, the same way I lose control of, you know, my emotions, whatever this and that, but who cares? You're you and no one should judge you at the end of the day, you know, but they can't they can't deal with it all the time. Like if they're always getting hurt because someone's actions
when they're drinking. Yeah. Sometime a part's going to be best for them, you know? And maybe like But I I gave her I gave her like I gave her a couple weeks, you know, to get I gave her like a whole moon cycle to like right if it's not changing, you know, why why would they, you know, obviously they got to get tired of it if
there's no changes. they have a you know they don't like something and they don't know how to make room for that in their life and we shouldn't force people to do that you know I agree but at the same time I think that you shouldn't judge either you know I mean making him feel bad because he didn't do
anything crazy it's not like he porn bombed or he went on a rampage cussing her out or he could have but whatever he did he was bothering them, you know, and like I I bother people too, you know, and it's it's worth, you know, trying to figure out what it is. If we can't change, especially if like if I was drinking a
lot and when I'm drunk, I'm bothering my friends, I would understand why they didn't want to talk to me anymore. And that's something that is a good thing to look into. Like maybe the drinking is getting out of hand and you have people that love you, that want to support you. And if you need help, stop drinking. You have that support.
Stop drinking because because basically I do what like I want to do. And it's like whether whatever it is. If it's drinking, if is I I'll do what I want to do and I like I'll drink when I want. I'll smoke when I want. Oh, I I haven't smoked weed for like months. I'll I'll smoke weed when I want and stuff like
that. Okay. Come on, Nick. Okay. But Okay. I think I think drinking is, you know, all of that aside. Um, feel like I look stupid right now. I'm just I'm listening. I'm listening though. Hold on. I'm going to r myself. Hold on. No, don't leave. Oh, god. Why is he doing this always? Oh hello.
Losing connection. Okay. I like your hat. Nick. Nick is like the cutest person. How is it that I hear Jimnick up here, but I don't see her up here? Right. Technology.
Jim Nick, what are you doing? Oh, Nick did it. Nick is playing. He recorded. You're so funny. Nick, you got the cutest person. Come back. He has a neck. A, that's cute. So, we're going to make Nick water.
We're going to make Nick.
Yeah. He's so cute. He I mean like, you know what I mean? I didn't mean like that. I meant like he's like nice person. I think a I think. Oh, I'm faded. You're about to be blocked
Yay. Hope he makes me host. Be cool. It's almost like one of those bears that you squeeze and it gives you like different, you know, what were they called? It's like you squeeze and it has like different, it tells you different things. bears. Yeah, they were like, you know, I don't know. There were like these little bears and you would squeeze it and you'll be
like, "Haha, I love you." Or like those are like gymnastics like there. Oh, there's a lot of plushies like that. Okay. Those are cool. Nick's little Squishallow. Amazing bag.
It was nice having good. Yeah, it's always nice. She's so sweet. She's a really really good friend. And that's what I'm trying to tell him that people that are going to like not judge you cuz I goof up, you know, and you're they're not going to judge you. I mean, they'll give you advice and talk to you, but they're not going to shun you and ghost you because
that is hurtful. It is. It is. But for someone to do that, I don't think it's a impulsive thing. I think they were dealing with the same cycle over and over again and they must have got tired of going through it yet again, you know. Yeah. I don't know the whole context. Yeah. I don't know.
The way he explained it was that she was upset that he wasn't um that his panels were a certain way and she didn't approve of um his behavior. Something like that. But that's his channel, not her. If he's doing if she's doing if he's going over there and doing that on her channel, I
get it. But this is the way he likes to run his panel. So now she's judging him. And that's weird. It doesn't She can't have blocked him because she didn't like the way he was doing his channel. Like that can't be it. Like that. That's what he said. That's what he was explaining. That's what now I don't know
any I don't know maybe there's more to it but that's what he was saying that you know he gets he drinks and then he you know talks about something he got scammed by some guy and blah blah blah you know I don't know that'd be weird I guess it's hard to
know because it's not like she's here to explain it but yeah I hope I hope they work this out eventually you know, still really Yeah. Cuz they they've been friends for a really long time. So to throw it all away, it can't be over something, you know, that small. It can't be over
something small. It's got to be something more to it. There's no way. That'd be weird. But y'all, so who's this guy? That's Nick Johnson. He is You remember Nick? Erica Bandu long review.
He's like um skateboarder guy. Um adventurous. Just brain remembering somebody who's not that memorable. I think it is. If you're not that memorable, you gave us so much joy during Christmas on my panel when you were skateboarding
in your Santa Claus outfit. Everybody freaking loved it. Yeah, we now we're on Univision in Spanish. The Spanish Univision lady said my name. She was like Nikolas. Oh Mason, I don't know to be proud of it because it seems kind of up. I don't
know. I want them to take that down. I don't know if I'm be able to get jobs and because of this I don't know. I'm talking about the good times. I'm not talking about the last time. I'm talking about the good times. You know, all over the YouTube. Did you Did you fix um Taylor Swift?
Well, she's all folded up in the corner. He's got Taylor. Is she ripped? a little bit in some parts.
She's up. She crinkled. She's wrinkled up. Huh? Oh, she looks good. She just folded. The ecstasy tablet. I could probably do things. Those
ecstasy tablets, they make you so friendly. Oh, I can't remember the last time I did.
You You remember Nick? He came up one time and he had stickers that had your name on his chest. Oh, that's me. You look so different. I know he looks different with I was just trying to think birthday yesterday and then I was going to be Eminem was your birthday.
Yeah, he he likes to dress up in different he'll always be in different you won't recognize him all the time but I know because I see I see I know his tapestry. I just know him for you know I've seen him so much that I just know it's Nick. But one day he'll come up dressed like Elvis. One day he'll come up like he just Yeah, he does some He
did some card readings, remember? For you, the poster card readings. I was the tarot card readings. Well, maybe he didn't do it for you, but That's he he was doing it. Are you going to get Are you going to do it again? Oh, god.
I'm cold. Oh, you're cold. Okay. 19 degrees here. Oh, it is cold. My doctor wants me to take walks outside even though it's like arctic weather. So, I'm trying my best and my I'm just freezing. So, I'm just like running around.
It was your birthday. It was his birthday. Yeah yesterday. Nick, are you just joking around again? Who's birthday? Well, they're wishing you happy birthday in the chat. Yeah, they're sweet.
They're sleep. They're sweet. They're sweet. Well, is it your birthday? Cuz if it is, we can sing you a happy birthday song. My birthday's not till July. Oh, okay. So, you're a Leo when we walked on the moon July 20th. Guys, guys, take your happy birthday
wishes back for July 20th. It's a very memorable day. Are you guys both Leos? Cancer. Both. Oh, you're a Cancer. Okay. I'm an Aries. I guess you wouldn't want to answer
responded back with a battle cannabis. Oh, another cancer. I'm supposed to be really I I get along with cancers really well. Oh nice. And um I'm very close to Aries. Like we're we I guess we're like both have horns. You're I'm a bull.
We're both stubborn and um we get along really well, but god forbid we would ever go horn to horn. which I don't think would happen. Our horns will get stuck together. I remember like once on Joker's panel, we almost got into a fight, but it was just so funny that we just like loved each other after.
Oh really? That's cute. I don't even remember. That's hilarious. I know. So funny. Oh my god. Yeah, you're one of my favorites cuz like you rip into people so well and I'm like I mean
he's better than me. Jesus, Jimnick is he ripped them apart. Really? Yeah. Oh my god. Don't look at Jimnick for the little sweet right Nick. Jim Nick can hold it. Yeah. Wow. I gotta be this side of Janet. So funny.
What can we do? We were, you know, we have to compete with a lot of these men that are like whatever. Not everybody is sweet as a lot. Yeah, I can tell it taught you a lot. They can't stand you. And I feel it's only because you cut them off. You don't let them speak. I think that it
I do. Look, I just did it right now. I am trapped a lot. You're right. Well, I I don't know what it is. Are you just fed up of them talking Like, what is it? Well, they talk a lot, so I have to defend myself. And I let a lot of things go, but you know, it's like who's going
to defend you if you don't defend yourself? I defend myself and then like the people I really like. That's true. I am disappointed in you, Michael. I am. You know why?
What is he doing? What is he doing? I hear kitties. Oh wow. Cool. I see everything. So, he added me to his StreamYard and now I see all this stuff. I wonder if like I have to
restart my phone or something. Okay. So, he made you an admin. Yeah. Cool. So, you can literally when he's gone if you want you can end it and the the live or add people let people on. Yeah, you can add people on now. That's awesome. Congratulations.
I might have to leave and come back to like activate it. Okay. Okay. I'm going to try it. Okay. I'll be back. Okay. I'll be back. I'll be back. Maria, I am the governor of California.
I am the terminator. Nick lives in a museum. Um Nick has his own little, you know, um what do you call it? Antique store. You can literally go there and pick an item and you know, I bet if he had like a little a little store, people would buy stuff there all the time. How much is that tapest? Wait.
He cleaned. He's always organized. clean looking for. Nick is your spirit animal, Jake. Yeah, he is. He's really chill. What is your spirit animal? I think What would Nick What is your spirit animal, Nick? A baboon.
The red ass. Jake, you're a baboon.
Taylor, perform one of your hits. I don't know why. That was funny to me. Oh I got your microphone, ma'am. Oh I can't touch my own pants. Jamie, his favorite animal is baboon.
Did you guys know that 90 or I guess most of the baboon they're the only monkeys that are homosexual? They only make for purpose of having children, you know, and then they leave their gang and then they move on to like with a bunch of other dudes and then they go and then they have impregnate other female
baboons. Let's see. The Rock is backstage. Salam Ruby, I see you backstage, but um Pi has to bring you on. Pie or Psych Psyche,
your makes it like your head is Oh my god. Yeah, Jake, if I was to die and come back as an animal, I do want to just be a domesticated cat. All you do is sleep, eat, and just, you know, groom yourself and I don't know. Nothing much. Oh my god.
There you are. Yeah. Who's that? Do you see anybody backstage? No. I'm looking behind behind Nick, the the the paper girl with the ass. Are you able to put him on full screen? This is my girlfriend. That's Taylor's lift.
That's his cut up. Yeah. Oh my god. I like her dress. Be careful. You don't want to like uh wet holes in her. Come up here, cat, to get into the family photos. Everybody's got their family photos.
Oh my god, look at this. all this photo. I like mostly her. She could probably just stand next to like a tree. Can I ask you where you got that from? Oh yeah. Grandpa went outside walking. He get stuff too and then he wanted to leave it by the
back fence outside and I'm like, "No, dude. This is good for video. What are you doing?" And then when you brought that back, did you walk back with it or on the skateboard? He brought it back. He brought it back to that hole. What? What the hell's between the legs?
Dude, what happened there? You destroyed her crotch. Yeah, I think Yeah, he he put a he put a I think he put a penis in there or something. No, I'm just kidding. I don't know what been put in there. What? Stop saying it. Who's making that rumor? Making it go around.
Damn. If I wanted to, I could have. That's true. I think uh you somebody saying they're back. The rock is backstage or something. Oh my god.
media the rock. Okay. What is it? He's the guy from Afghanistan. Hello everybody. Hello. How are you? Hello. How are you guys?
Hi. How are you? You're fine. I really miss you. You seem familiar. I really missed you guys. You were not in live. Well, it's nice to meet you. He jumped out and he did like 24 push-ups really fast.
Oh, really? Nice. Yeah, cuz he was trying to do I challenged him and he was like I was like, I bet you can't do it. And he did it like really really fast. He's got a nice body to That's really cool. Thanks. Thanks, Ba. But you didn't give my gift. I was like, really? You know
what was your gift? I was supposed to do three push-ups and I can't do that. I'll follow my face. It's easy. It's not hard. Let me practice for like a week and then I'll I'll give it to you for sure. Can you read your tar? A I can do the feminine push-ups with the legs and the back crossed, but not the
way you did it. Hell no. It's easy. It's easy. It's not hard. Okay, Jamie's here. No. No. Jimnick. Um Jimnick. Uh Rocky is actually from Afghanistan. He speaks Farsy. Show my tattoo. Hi Jamie. Hey y'all.
Oh, here comes another Farsy speaking. Hi J. Not really. Not really. So, what are y'all up to? What happened to to uh Taylor Swift's crotch? What was up with that? Looks a little used and abused.
Looks like exploded. Yeah, the snake guy. He really needs a girlfriend. I think he's playing with this doll, this painting. You really need a gun, man. That's why you put a You put a a flashlight in there.
You really got imaginative, didn't you? Yeah. Yeah. It's like that fantasy of the hole in the wall. You know, it's the glory. He made his own glory hole. Fuzzy flashlight in there, you know. Don't break her.
You have to remember that. It's his It's important to only have Tommy Taylor Swift music right now. Oh,
he bent her legs. Sit with them. Oh my god. RIP
unfortunately.
She's quite strong and nimble. Yes. Oh my. Oh. Um. Okay. This reminds me of that guy Chance. Do you remember? You guys know that guy Chance that has the blowup dolls and he goes to Denny's and everything with it. You know him, Nick, right? Chance.
I'm just assuming. Shut up. Like, yeah. Yay. Hi, such a
panel. How are you guys? Nice. Thank you. Pi, it worked. Pi. Yes. Thank you for making me admin. Now I got all this stuff to learn. She can go live now without you. She can Okay. start the live and just go live when
you're not even there. Anything over my show for now. Yes. You can end the live when he's not there. Yeah. That I love. Oh my god. Pi is my right-hand woman. Don't don't worry about P. You don't have to don't no pressure. Whatever you want to do, but uh
Thank you. You can share Streamyard hours. Yeah, I appreciate your help. Just thank you. Don't no pressure though. Okay. Thank you. No, she's she's happy. Awesome. Jamie, how are you doing tonight? I'm doing well. How are you doing? Well, good. Jamie J, I was like stupid. I was stupid and
drunk the other night and I said stupid things and stuff like that and I just want to apologize because I feel I feel bad if I say something wrong to you and stuff like that. I don't think it's worth apologizing for honestly from what I heard. I think it sounds
and I don't think I got right. No, he's apologizing to you, Jamie. And I don't I don't think you would even did anything to Jamie. Did you? No, Jamie. I Jamie, I'm I'm sorry. I apologize to you, Jamie, because I said
something wrong to you. Okay. But I was being hercastic and making a joke about it, but I'm sorry. Yeah, Jamie, you're my girl. I love you. I'm sorry. I said and they say the same thing. I'm sorry. I'm like you're the kind of guy that like somebody runs into you and they bump you
and you're like I'm sorry when they should be saying I'm not saying Jamie not Jamie but you're like you were you say like I'm sorry. You didn't even do anything most of the time. Stop saying I'm sorry. I know. But but what I said what I say was like what I say is like I just I make jokes or like I say like stupid
things and just like that's just me. Like I just like I'm a clown. I'm like you can laugh at me and stuff like that. It's like not like meant to hurt anybody's feelings and so J I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings or if I start something wrong and then I thought you were saying I sound No, I said then I was like No, she's saying let me translate. I
know what Jamie's saying. She's saying you apologizing over and over to that lady. You shouldn't do that. That's That's what you were saying, right Jamie? Yes. Exactly. Apologize once. Not like but also also what I said to her last night before I I go through bipolar kind of stuff. I was like, "Okay, just throw me away like a piece
of trash after all I've done for you, whatever." And then I was like, "I love you. I love you. Please forgive me." Like I I like I like go through like I'll say like why so mean there? Why is it so nice? I I just like bipolar. I don't understand what's going on with me. It's like I go to the both extremes of like I'll yell
at them and then I'll be like I feel bad about and I'll say sorry and then I'll yell at them again. Okay. So Pi was right. You do you you yell and you get Okay. So, yeah. Okay. Yelling. I just I I or I was like, you saw how I was with Clumsy tonight when Clumsy came in and she kind of hurt my
feelings and I was like, "Okay, okay, fine, I never want to talk to you again." And I was like, "I'm sorry, Clumsy." You never said And you sounded like you were putting a 5-year-old in timeout. It wasn't scary at all. Yeah. You were very gentle. You're very gentle. Yeah. Maybe a little sassy. Not even I didn't think so.
Like I felt bad. I felt bad because that I was being sarcastic about it and I was like but it still wasn't mean. No, it was not mean me mean like you were just saying like you know you're I haven't seen mean yet. He hasn't seen being honest.
mean yet Jamie in on the panel. That's true. That's true. I don't know. He's like, I don't The guy's like, "Why don't you just He's like, why haven't you unallowed yourself yet?" Or, "Why haven't he's like, "Why don't you just or what did he say?" He said in a sort of way. He's like, "Lowing yourself." The Q said that Q, remember, you got You don't know.
Come on. Q. Everybody knows how Q is. He tells He's He says that to everybody. Me, Jimmy, he he's just a freaking brat. He's a 26 year old kid that gets drunk and talks crap. I I know but like that I I never met him before that and it's like that's the first thing he said to me like when I met him and stuff like that and uh that means he likes he tells you
means he likes me. Okay that's like he's he's getting you into the circle now of like I don't know is that is this is this my humiliation ritual? I mean, it's like I've I think I've had humiliation communities. It's almost like entering a sority or a fraternity. It's like you got to get beat down before, you know, but you know what I'm
saying. That's true. Oh my god. I believe it. It was like that in Aldi server. It was a lot of fun though. It's a lot of fun. That's why I love it. You know, we can all just talk to each other and play around, but it's not it's all in good fun. I mean, that's how I look at it.
Well, yeah. You have to know serious to yourself. Like, yo, everybody's loving like right now. Yo, this ain't gonna stop. Your channel's got like momentum behind it. You can do a lot. Yeah. Just keep going. Everybody wants to come here and subscribe and
Everybody likes you. everybody like this is kind of like I don't know. I think the chill vibe actually if you think that your your panels are drama and crazy. Um God, I should just go bury myself. That's why that's why I'm like laughing when people are saying your talk your panels are toxic cuz I've been on like I've been on panels where like I've had
like people scream in my ear for like 3 hours at a time and stuff like that like like horrible things. And so it's like I I know my panels are like nice and like they're not toxic compared to what I've experienced. I've experienced toxic panels. I've been on toxic panels, right? It's like and so I know toxic panels.
Your toxicity level from 1 to 10 is like a two compared to the other panels. Like you know who I'm trying to make I'm not trying to make toxic either. I'm trying to make and even if I they're toxic people sometimes I wanted to make it like where I can like be cool with them and I can like we can like talk and
really if it gets so toxic where like where the porn you can't please them all love. Yeah, you can't please them all. It's good to hear it, you know, for self-reflection because you don't want to be like stuck with just Yes. people, you know, visual.
It's like, do you know um Groovy Jimmy? I think you I don't know if you've gone in his panel, but I think you've maybe talked to him on Saman's panel, but like right now he um they're calling it Transgate cuz he was talking to a trans lady and he didn't know. We all told him, you know, it she was definitely trans. But they, you know, doxed her and found out her name is Abdul.
Yeah. And everyone's, you know, over there on Jimmy's just, you know, I was on Sam Man's channel the other night and groovy Jimmy was there and they're like, "Put put Psyche up with Groovy Jimmy." And they put just us and I was like, "Tell me about Abdul." And then he like dropped off immediately and I heard that thing. He's got
I don't know. Why am I involved in this? I I like I don't know why why am I brought to like confront him about it and stuff like and I was like that's what I'm trying to tell you that I explain that to you the other I explained that to you the other night. Sam man did you dirty because instead of him cuz he knows Groovy Jimmy is getting a lot of heat right now for
what happened and um poor poor guy didn't know he got trolled right um and then they are like okay okay he was like you know with a bisexual what is that a transsexual guy Jamie whatever so then they put one on-one with him making groupy Jimmy you know more on the spot
you know what they were doing Jamie. You know what I mean? That's that's what that's what Sam man does. And it's like instead of making fun of whatever is going on in his situation, he'll just do it with other people. I don't think I don't think a straight guy straight guy with a trans woman is even unusual or like or like bad. And so it's like I was
like this like No, it's not. But given the situation that Groovy Jimmy thinks, you know, he's like a gangster, you know, Uber gangster, and he just got, you know, they're already trolling him. Putting him one on one with you put both of you guys in an uncomfortable situation. It's not cool.
Jamie, I know you love that I know you I do love it. I know. You're that little. See, that's why your kitty is a little naughty because they learn from their parents, you know. I can't help it. I know. It's so funny.
But Jimmy does this very often. There's always some kind of scandal he's involved in. There's always something new. But this one's entertaining. Probably the worst. Yeah. Damn. J, have you heard of SSI in Texas? SSI? Yeah. Well, he's in the beef sector. So, I was in the beef, guys. I was in the
beef sector. I was on all black channels. I was like the only white guy in the black channels. They call me Jeffrey Dmer there. And I was going and then SSI, he's like he's like he's like a from Texas and stuff like that. And I was hitting on him and then like I think they he says he got like $800 in one night cuz everyone in the chat was like going off because I was like hitting on him and it
was like like all this kind of stuff and it's like and then I was like and I go in chats and say my sister's boyfriend and stuff like that and like you know and then he was making me like stick my tongue and stuff like that all this kind of stuff. But um so I'm used to like this kind of like homophobic people with the gay guy and then it's like and then
what's his channel name or is he just on different panels on a different channel
out of a lot of black channels also. Um well me too. Me too. Like I go on some black channels and like I go in the um the back chat cuz I don't I don't remember all the channels I'm on the pan I'm on a lot of panels and some it's like 4 in the morning when I'm really drunk but I go on some panels and like they just keep kicking me out of the panels and I go on some panels and the chat's like leave forever like and
they're mad. I go on some panels and I'm like we had Queen Sanity on last night and she's like a she's like they have the queen sector too. So I'm friends with like a bunch of queen they're not drag queens they're actually actually like really queen like queenly black women, right? and they're like really cool and the Queen sanity was on last night for a couple hours or an hour like getting readings and stuff like that but
and SSI like had a has humor about it and it's like I like to joke with guys and find their limits with joke cuz I'm not like there right like I'm not there like trying to like stick my tongue down their throat. I'm just like they're joking about things and stuff like that and so
I hear why did he keep, you know, freezing? Yeah, maybe he needs to restart his blacking out. But guys, by the way, I I got my um I got my I got my um core core playing on the Streamyard today. So, I can stream unlimited hours. I can play
my introduction video. I can stream in higher quality. I'll see if I can hear higher quality right now. um settings camera late. I am gonna head out though. Okay, But thank pie. Thank you. Thank you for having
Thank you. sweetheart. We love you, Pie. Thank you. And guys, also also no one's pressured to like stay if they don't want to be here or like like don't feel pressured. Don't be pressured. I I I want you guys I want you guys here as long as you can. What home? What were we looking at? We're looking at what is
Well, I just want to show Jimnick really quickly what I bought cuz I always have um problem eating. You know, I have bad appetite. So, this is what I'm I'm getting now. It's like the organic. It's got 20 grams of protein in it. It's made from almond milk and has got probiotics and MCT oil or whatever. So, I just want
to show Jimnick really quick. Thank you. What What So you guys know about what Clumsy, right? And you know how like Clumsy comes in the chat and I was like always like so supportive of her chat. I've been remember for like several months and stuff. But she came tonight and I was talking. I wasn't even talking about her or anything and she's like, "Oh, that's rich." Then she's like, "Well, you know exactly what
you're doing and uh you're just gaslighting your chat and you're a bad person." Like basically, right? and she blocked me from her chat, block me block me from her discord and u and then just like just just drop me like a like a rotten tomato or whatever it is. So that's what happened with clumsy and so I got a little upset and I said some things I don't mean don't mean to I
didn't mean to like offend her or anything. I still think she's a good person but it's a misunderstanding and she won't listen to me about it and like she wouldn't ask me about it first. She just listens to other person. I hate when people just have all these third parties and they're saying things and then without checking out for themselves, they listen to third parties and they just believe it. Yeah. Let's get back.
Yeah. But I mean, at the end of the day, do you want to be friends with someone like that? You know, if you think about it long term, someone who won't even investigate on their own or, you know, it just happened today. And and I did and I I I I I I was like, I'll just self-destruct the relationship. And I was like, "Okay, never talk to me
again." Um, go herself with a with a what whatever whatever Mandingo's big 25 inch dildo and have a great have a great life. Okay. Um, just I just cut it all off, right? But then I regret it because I was like, we were friends for all this time and I
love this person and they just dropped me and stuff like that. I don't know. I'm probably wrong. I'm probably wrong. I probably I probably did have some some cautious thing that had me post whatever I posted and that that it was maybe it was meant in like a a bad way or something like I don't know. I But I
consciously I don't feel like I was trying to do anything wrong. Like guys, I'm really into like the some cards about some kind of stuff. I don't know. Maybe I just maybe it's my fault and stuff like that. Maybe she's totally right and I'm just like a a bad person, a gas lighter trying to hurt people's feelings. I don't think so, though.
But I don't think so. You don't have to worry about it. I don't This hurt my feeling. It hurts my feelings. Imagine you have you have a best friend for like a year. You're best friends. Everything is perfect in your relationship. You introduce them to another friend and then all of a sudden like the other friend gets offended something you said and then your best
friend says I don't I never want to talk to you anymore. You're a bad person and stuff like that. That's that's what it feels like. Um okay if I explain myself right. Right. I don't know. I don't know. Maybe I'm Maybe I'm back. I'm back. You saying that? Do you feel like you lost two friends at the same time? They sided with each other
more than two friends. I cuz it's two kind of friends plus all the friends around them and stuff like that and then everyone leaves and stuff like that and it's like everyone just believes what the person But do you do you really want friends says. that you have to walk on eggshells with? No, I don't. I don't. And it's like that's why it's good they reveal it re reveal themselves but still when they
reveal themselves it stings and it's like wow I was like I was I was stupid all this time and it's like they never really I'm not saying they're I don't know I don't know them you know you know clumsy you know you know traveling gypsy beata you know traveling gypsy I love Teresa yeah she's really cool yeah so I went to traveling gypsies
today because she said she was going live in five hours I went to her chat and I typed in her chat and my comments were coming up and I was like, "That's weird." And so I went to
You got to go and start marching about it. I got some done over. I don't know what happened. Yeah. Well, Psych's shit's been up. I know. I'm not blaming you, Nick. No I'm Guys, guys, I'm sorry. It's me. It's my
phone keeps Guys, I'm just I'm a cheap cell phone. But guys, I have a I have this premium streamer plan. But you hear the traveling gypsy story. We've been friends for like almost a year. She's like, "I love you. I love you. I love you. I go on. Go on. Go on." Like, "I love you." And then a friend I introduced her to said he was offended about some stupid thing that
wasn't even meant to be offensive towards him. Right? Then she blocked me. I went to her chat today. I was blocked from her chat. I noticed my my my sensor were coming up. She doesn't see me. I was blocked from her Discord. She didn't say one word about it. It was just dropped. Just I was just dropped like a like a like a rotten tomato. Right. So that's what I'm saying. And it's like she didn't hear my explanation. She didn't hear my side of
the story. It was because I offended somebody that I introduced her to and then she likes probably better than me because I could never say, "Oh, this person offended me." She would just say, "Oh, just relax." She they offended me. Oh, just relax. You know, you know, you're just a gay guy and they know they're not comfortable, you know, because he was offended. Oh,
you're you're done. Totally blocked, you know, but not totally blocked. I'm still still add as a friend. I can still say whatever I want to that person, but so the door is open, right? But it's not really open because they'll never respond to me. They won't listen to my side of the story. They just wanted me to like beg for forgiveness, suck their
toes, um lick um lick their and stuff like that and uh and make them feel better about it. That's all we talk over. I'm trying to be like that's all he has to do. Oh, come on. Forget it. I'm not gonna forget it because it's like these are friends of mine. These are friends that were like for several
months that were there for me every day and then it's like one person can say one thing and they and everyone believes, "Oh, I did something so bad. I I I don't even know what I did wrong. I I mean, I'm still confused. I'm like, what the did I do wrong?" But they're just willing to listen to this other person and I did something wrong. Okay, it's fine. It's fine. Thank you. Good night. Good night, Pie. Thank you
for being here. You're you're you're you're awesome. Um yeah, I I just feel like I'm I'm always the one that's supposed to apologize. I'm always the one that's that's going to be wrong. I'm always always the one that's going to have to beg for forgiveness. And then they're not even they're going to like laugh at me and stuff like that. It's like they're all going to laugh at you, Carrie. Or it's like I don't know what
Dumbala Chucky I don't know. I don't know what ritual I have to bring up. Like beg for forgiveness. I beg for forgiveness. You know, you gota take I know. I don't I don't I don't beg for forgiveness. I just say for people I don't even care. You know what? Alisa Jordana loves me. I love Alisa
Jordana. I don't care what everybody says about her. I love her. Okay? And she's been there for me and and uh so and also she was there for me today and she's been there for me always. She let me She let me promote her myself on her Discord on her main page. Whatever. She never said one thing about anything I ever posted on her
Discord. I have her friends in my chat. I bring my real one. Okay. She's the real one. So I say, "Here's what here's what proves to me. Alisa Jordana is the real one. All these other are just fake hoes. And you can go go f yourselves. I never want to talk to you
guys again. Guys again. No, not you guys. I'm talking about the the fake hoes that just like just right. No I'm What did I do wrong? Psyche. No, no, no, no, no. Not you. Not you. Not you. No, no, no, no. Wait. What did I do wrong?
No. Not you. No. No. No. Psyche. I'm upset. Stop it. Stop it. Peter, listen to me, Peter. I'm just playing with you. I'm just showing you what you're doing. You just You want me to keep apologizing and you're like, "Stop it. Stop it." See, you're a good friend. Yes. Okay. Beat it. You know what you're doing? You're putting a mirror to my
Just blame everything on on Jamie. Just face. play that song. Blame it on Jamie. Blame it on I don't know up to Jake. Go talk to Mer. He's on my Discord. You can go go email him if private and whatever. Whatever he wants to do, he can do. You know, Maser has his own life. He has his own uh personality, his own moods. He doesn't want to talk to me. You want to respond
Here here's to me? Yeah, he's probably He's probably licking He's probably licking Nick's butthole right now. I As far as I know, right here, I can't see I can't see I can't see below. I can't see Nick's butthole. What's going on down there? These are probably down there. I can't tell.
I cannot tell. Yeah, he No, Nick is with Taylor Swift right now. Don't worry. Mer's hiding behind the Taylor Swift cut out and he prefers Nick over me. But that's fine, Nick. Nick, go live a happy life together with music. Okay, it's fine. Stop it.
Guys, by the way, this is called comedy. This is this is called comedy. And it's like I I know you like clumsy. I know you love clumsy, but you know, Clumsy did me wrong. And Clumsy Clumsy insulted me tonight. And she came in the chat said she said I was doing bad things. She said I was gaslighting. She said I was lying to her. She kicked me off her discord. She um she she um um kicked me
off of her chat and stuff like that because of somebody else s that was that she that's her like her brown butthole. Okay. Okay. So, I'm not I'm not very impressed with clumsy right now. I'm not impressed with Emma either. Emma, wow, you're so The more you the more you talk, the more you're going to say stuff that you're going to regret. So, just like
I don't care. I don't care. I'm done with all these These I love you. I love I love Pie. I love Elisa Jordana. All the rest of you can go to hell. No, I love you too, Jamie and and and and everyone else go to hell. Go go go go go get Emma's filing cabinet. Okay.
It's respect for women month nationally. Come on. Everyone know that. Is that the way I am every day? I mean, I like it. I think you should say what you want to say. But then the issue is like an hour later, you're
going to apologize for a week about it. So, own it. Own it. Say, "You You own it. I'm owning it. I'm done. I'm done with the I'm done with those bitches." Okay. What do you think about that, Jamie? Am I wrong? Bye baby. Bye, guys. Bye, guys. You just You Bye. dropped me like a like a rotten tomato. You like You push me under your shoe like a bug.
Yeah. No, no. I got I have I have Georganna. I have Jamie's cowboy. I have I think um I think I think Stop it. I'm just playing with you. I don't even know what's going on. I I don't know. Jimmy, Jimmy, go be a mom for Clumsy. Jimmy, go be a mom for Clumsy if you like if you
love Clumsy so much. After what she did to me. After what she said to me tonight. George, if she said she said I'm a liar, if I go into if I go into uh Teresa's chat, guys, I am so pissed off right now. I am so pissed off because these people I did
so much for these people. Did anyone Did they do much for me? No, they did not. I I was I poured my cup of love into them. They laughed at me, kicked me, kicked me down, squashed me down. They don't like me. They just they ban me, right? Even Emma is cool enough to like not ban me from her Discord and she's at
least talk to me. So, Emma's cool, okay? But traveling gypsy and clumsy just to like ban me, mute me from your chat, not talk to me about it, not say one word about it. Just listen to that little little ass hell walker. Oh, Poppy. Oh, Poppy, calm down, Poppy.
I'm folding my clothes at them. I beg for forgive after what you said to me. I pour my cup of love to them. Okay, Nick, shut up. Okay, so guys, I want to talk to you guys. I don't know. He was He was He was
mocking me and he also mocks Tero and he said he was trying He never He's just trying to cheer you up. He just mocked me. He was trying to cheer me up. Hey, cheer me up, Nick. Cheer me up. Mock me some more. Make fun of me some more, Nick. Go ahead. I'm trying to be Eminem still. Okay.
Hey, can I take that thing? Like, you're you're a good person. Okay. And uh uh from that day I meet you uh I really feel good about you. So don't worry about stuff like everybody say. And just go on pass it. Is this a rock?
Yeah. He's doing push-ups. He's not Yeah. really, you know, doing what you think he's doing. He's doing push-ups. Push-ups. I know it sounds a little exotic right now but yeah. But what I'm doing right now, what I'm doing right now is I'm I'm I'm destructing those relationships. What I'm trying to do is like say the worst thing I can think of because I'm so hurt um by their actions that I that it's
fine. I'll I'll I'll destruct the relationship so they can have a reason to hate me. They can have a reason to hate me now. And the reason Hey bro, these things came up when you are friends. Like with friends, this thing came up. But uh you just got to go on with it and keep going. Keep going, bro. Yeah, don't be sad about it.
There's little hope to like make up with these people. No, I don't like that. Like, if you're going to kick me out, keep out completely, okay? I know they're watching and stuff like that, okay? Um Yeah. And I don't And I feel bad now. Now I feel bad because I said horrible things, but also the relationships are they're done. They're done. There's there's no more there's no more love. There's no more
trust. You you you made the decision. They made the decisions about it, right? So, I'm I'm all good with that. I don't want them to like think, "Oh, he'll just come back, right?" No, I I I'll destruct it myself. I'll be self-destructive about it. I will destroy it myself. So, you don't have to worry about me ever talking to them again and
or or trying to like apologize again. I want to like destruct it myself so they can have a reason to hate me and they can hate me and they can like attack my channel. Basically, all I try to do is help them. All I try to do is help them. Did I do one thing? I can't think. They hate us because we're beautiful.
They hate us cuz we're That's what it is. Get He got frozen again. He got frozen. His internet connection is so even bad than me. I don't know why.
Yeah, you're in Afghanistan. That's saying a lot. Maybe he has bombs over. Look at my eyes, guys. Look at my eyes. Look at my eyes. The chat will
What are we What are we looking for? What are we looking at? I think Psyche's is trolling us a little bit. He's just kidding. I think Have you ever thought about that or is it just me? I mean, it's okay, guys. Guys, we're friends. We're actually friends. Like, at the end of the day, we will hug each.
We're not going to like ban ourselves from each other's lives and stuff like that. We can like actually understand each other. Like I think we're on the same level on some kind of We're not going to like shame each other. We're not going to like we can call each other and and and call me and bastard and and and the n word and stuff like that. It's
like we can like say that to each other and like we're all good. It's like lovers get to call you, right? Yeah. It's it's like it's like we're really like secret like lovers all together. We're all like in a bed like having an orgy and we can all and then the other people are like, "Oh, these guys are weird. They're all having
an orgy and right." It's like I don't know. Okay, we're going too far. But I I'll just be in a corner with a video video camera videotaping it and I will not use it for blackmail purposes. I will like just give it to you all personally for your own own personal use. Okay.
Water. Okay. Thank you. No, I And I swear I would never, guys, I would never. You guys are such good friends. You guys are real ones. You guys are not fake friends. You guys are not Oh, I'm concerned about you. That's why I'm willing to destruct the other relationships.
Oh my gosh. Am I going to be clipped? I'm I'm going to be unclipped, guys. Am I going to go viral? I'm going to go viral. You want humor? You want to hear something funny? right now. It just reminded me of that one clip and then the tiger butterfly was in it in the middle of nowhere.
It was like, yeah, demon was like pouring his heart out. He's like, "Oh, I love you, Bea." He's like, "Oh, I'm you too." And then Tiger Butterfly comes out. She says, "Shut." She's like, "No, get out of here." No, but the funny thing is like you got a clip. We all got a clip in the middle of it. This poor lady. Tiger
Butterfly. Just like, who is she? Tiger Butterfly. Tiger Butterfly. You're famous. You're famous. Tiger Butterfly. You're not famous. We have another guest tonight. Let's say hi to Hold on. Oh, Nick's back. Hold on. No, he's there. Everyone's there. I think everyone's there. Five people.
Hold on. Okay. Is But guys, everyone, if I something stupid to you, I understand. I understand. I know. We're I know we're friends. I know at the end of the day at the end of the show, we're going to laugh about it and hug each other. We're not going to like be mad at each other, right? These
people are just mad at me and it's like I don't understand. It's like all about and at the end of the day, even if like we we we pretend to hate each other or we pretend to like disagree or we call each other names and stuff like that, like we're like we love each other and we're cool. We're like family. It's like it's these people that are like pretending to be friends and like are
using maybe maybe using my channel, using me for I don't know. I all I know is like I I I introduced um um um what's her name? Gypsy Traveler, whatever her name is. I introduced her to the person that got her to over 1,000 subscribers. I She was at 500 subscribers. She got hit a thousand in a few days. Okay. I I
Shit's cutting out. Go back. Suicide. Yeah. Guys, what's going on? Are you scum? No. Come. Can you come up? Hi. Get on. Get on. Come. Come. Scum. You can get up here. We love you. Scum. I don't know what's going on.
Guys, I psych Psyche's gone insane tonight. Okay. Is my 1500 subscribers now? My ego's gone insane. You guys, Gemini and Scum, you guys love each other. Don't Don't argue. Yeah, guys, we all You guys are both really good people. I know, guys. We know we love each other. Okay, here's here. Rock wants to come back. There you go. Rock. Rock,
you're back. Yeah. Sorry. I was Yeah, I'm back. I'm back. Go on, bro. Go on, bro. Reman wants to know if you're taking questions. I'll take a question. I'm on fire right now, guys. I'm on fire. I'm on absolute fire right now. And I'm so happy because, you know, I burned away the people that the people that really were
just not really there for me. It's like people will prove themselves to you. You guys have all proven yourself to me that you guys are like real ones, like awesome friends. You put up with my my shenanigans. You understand me. You put up with me being stupid and saying stupid things, and you just don't get offended. stuff like that. And it's like
I I can say anything to you guys. You guys are real ones. And so I'm sorry. Oh, I'm another guest. Jim Nick, come on up here. I think Kermit the Frog stole my lighter. Kermit. I think um he is with Taylor Swift. He's
smoking crack with Taylor Swift over there. He's Hi, Jim Nick. He's with Taylor Swift. Lovely. Nick, am I going too far tonight? Am I Am I Have I gone insane? Is it like really is Is it uh as bad as I think it is or is it like I finally wised up a little bit? What What do you What do you think?
I know. I did. Guys, I I went viral. Are you cool Nick? Everyone good? Everyone good? Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Rock. Rock. Do you Rock? Do do you like Rock What do you think about gay people?
What do you think? What do you think about gay people, Rock? I want to hear what you think about gay people. Like, like I'm a gay guy. Okay. I'm a gay guy. If I saw you, I try to give you a hug and stuff. Okay. Go ahead. Tell me. It's not a good question to ask somebody from Afghanistan. Oh, I don't care. Am I scared of Afghanistan? Okay. No, I'm not scared.
I mean, just don't go there. No, I will go I Oh, Jamie. Jamie, don't go there. I will go I will go anywhere. I mean to Afghanistan. I mean, don't go to Afghan. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Exactly. Not don't go there. I mean like don't go. Don't be afraid. No problem. Okay. He's not afraid. I'll be your host. No. If if I went to
Afghanistan, my my head would be chopped off in within 30 minutes. I'm sure. I'm sure. Right. They would just like throw you off a building. That's what they do. You guys are actually like Hold on. Hold on. Afghanistan, maybe I'm wrong. Maybe Rocky can correct me if I'm wrong, but they don't have any um issues with gay people at all as much as like
Iran does. They actually have like dancers like belly like really really good dancers that are like Afghani dancers that dance like boys they're guy dancers they dance for other men and they're really really great
dancers you know and other guys like that the warlords I mean I hear that more Gucci boys or gotchi boys what's it called Gotachi boys botchi Bashi boys, right? Boti calling like that. But it's you you see some videos that
guys are dancing. Yeah, that's it is. But it's illegal. The Taliban here, they don't let them. It's it's it's illegal. Yeah, it's illegal. But the but you know, you can do it in your own house. That's not a big deal. As long as the government don't know. But if you if
they catch if they catch you in a big hall or something like that, that's illegal and it got a great punishment. But um then your own house, no problem. It's like that. Well, that's cool though because it's like also like homosexuality where it's like if you're doing homosexual acts in a public place, it's going to be controversial and the police will be
called, but you can do it in your own home and private. But also bossy boys I heard that like underage people stuff like that too and that's like not really cool and uh I think it should be they are using it's like using them they are like using the underage boys but homosexuality and these things you uh
alone I I told you you can do it in your home but it's illegal outside and and that that thing that the beta says that they are dancing around other men that's like some sort of using of those guys and I don't know I've seen like I don't know I just seen them be really
good dancers I don't know what's going on but I don't really know what I heard beat it is that they have the Afghani warlords and they have underage boys like in cages and stuff like that belly dancing and stuff for them that's what I heard the bot boys that's what I heard of it was and so it was the American army came in
and they were like, "Whoa, this is up." But they were like told, "Don't do anything about it." and stuff like that. It's like the cultural thing. Even even if even in in America, it's illegal to use some kid as a dance boy. Yeah. Am I right? Well, in America,
they were like they weren't kids. They looked like um girls and guys at the same time. Underage. I think it's illegal. But yeah, America America's Got Got Talent, they have like 8-year-old brother and sister doing like really they're dancing to like black eyed peas in a sec
in a weird way and stuff like that. And so Sharon Osborne was saying that's not appropriate to like teach. They have like weird sexualizing of underage people in America. They have also even beauty pageantss, right? Yeah. This is different. It's It's not good. Okay. It's not good. Yeah. It's not It's not good. It should
be 18 or over kind of thing. And it's like even like having like you know John Min Ramsey, we have this John Ramsey story. She was this beauty pageant queen when she's six-year-old. She was in full makeup, full hair done, totally in in in sexual outfits and stuff like that. Also not good. Also not good. Well, I'm I'm gonna keep I'm gonna keep listening to you all, but I'm going to
lay down. Hey, Jamie Rose. We love you, Jamie Rose. Thank you. Don't Don't sweat anything about all this dumb You know, it's I won't. I won't. Jamie Jamie Jamie Jamie Jamie, wait. I have one word for you. Jamie is sweetheart. And Jamie, you're you're like a sweetheart. And I don't mean to I didn't mean to say any any bad names to
you. I really love you. Okay. Don't recall. I don't recall. And plus, like I said, I don't take I just take Wait, Jamie, would you and Jim ever meet up? Where does she live? Very close. Texas. Hey. Huh? We should all
Well, I sent you my number on Discord. Have a good night. Sweet dreams. And I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Thank you. Yeah, I'm trying. And Jamie Rose, if you want my number, too, I'll send you on Discord. And you if you want to call me, you want to call me, whatever. But I love you. Okay. But y'all have a great night.
Thank you, Jamie. We love you. You're a good friend of ours. Wait, what? I just add that extra little Jamie's a really cool girl and there's a lot of I say stupid sometimes, but she she understands like
it's all good fun and it's like and we're going to hug each other at the end of the night and we're cool with each other, right? I can say anything to her and she'll not blink an eye. If I say one, if I say something to a friend in case he has a friend that she will not care. If I say one thing to somebody else's friend, then I'm out of their life forever. Okay? So, I understand. I just basically want people to get
along. I want people to people to have fun. I'm I'm all tonight, guys. I Tonight tonight, this is me. This is me. This is me. This is my This is my my stream is like freedom. My And it's like I know can't say it. These are for the G's. This is for the gangsters. This is for the G's.
I haven't beat this kitty. Vita V has a cane and she will beat anybody's ass that doesn't mess with any of us, right? You know. Yeah. I'll put it up there, but if they mess with me, I will mess them up. Nobody messes with my psyche. I'm very, very protective over my friends. I'll f
them off, too. And guess what? Me and Siki live close enough where we can gang up together and f them up. We'll go a No, I'm just kidding. I'm kidding. We're not doing any of it. No, and we're not. But beta, I have your back, too. If you ever need me to, I will I will uh I'll be I'll have your back.
My hoops and my heels as I have to take somebody on. Oh No, if you if you ever need help, I have your back. what I'm saying as like I I have your back always. You're you're my gamer, right? Always. Always. I know. I know. I know you understand. I
know you understand, right? I've been through.
Lenor, where are you? Lenor, I'm really jealous that you ate pizza today. Ever since like I want pizza, too. Oh my. Yeah. I wish I could have ate a little bit more, but uh you know it I don't know. It's all right.
Big little nibbles, but then the buffalo sauce is a little Buffalo sauce is a little spicy. Yeah. Little bit. It's like itty bitty. What is that song? Itty bitty titty teeny wing.
She wore bikini yellow polka dot bikini. That's your work for the first time today. Hi Janet. We got Janet. I love you. We love you, Janet. Oh, Nick, I'm sorry. Hold on. Make it go off. How do I make it go off?
Hold on. What are you trying to get off? the light. Oh, okay. Turn off the light. Daylight. Let's turn off the lights. Turn off the lights. Also, tonight I Tonight was chat and I was like I was like, "Clumsy, if you don't like me, you can unfriend me." And she instantly said with pleasure.
She gladly is not a girl. Clumsy is not a girl. It's a transsexual. No, no, no, no. That's a different clumsy sweetheart. Oh, that's a clumsy being. No. Um, Jim, he's talking about a girl clumsy. It's a It's his friend, not not the clumsy we know. Yeah. Not being gang.
I'm not even sure anymore. I'm not even Okay. sure anymore. Whatever you are, I accept you. Whatever. Whatever genitals hell you have. But you you're really funny. I mean, you know, give people space and then if they can calm down and figure out what's going on, you guys can talk,
you know, that's the best thing. I think whatever said tonight, I think I basically ruined those relation. I I like destroyed them before they could be rebuilt. And so, it's okay. It's certainly okay. I'll save five bucks a month on a membership. And uh how best if I do that one though,
share my feelings. Share my feelings. Share my feelings and my feelings. You You guys hurt my feelings and stuff like that. And I can recover they can they'll hurt my feelings and it I I can't forgive it anymore because they didn't give me forgiveness. I can't give them forgiveness. I know if
anything I say to you, you guys will forgive. Anything you say to me, I'll forgive. But if someone just like follows like listen to somebody else, first of all, it was not even like me personal thing with us. It was like some other third party that was offended and then they don't like that. I don't like
that at all. And that's not cool. That's not cool. So, it's over. It's over. I will forgive. I'll forgive if you ask for forgiveness. and stuff like that. Okay, I hope you guys are good. There's Lenor right there. Lenor, how's everything going? Lenor, Lenor, you want to say hi? Look at that face.
Kitty, it's a kitty. It's a kitty. Look at Look at his Look at it. Like, look at Lenor's mouth. Look at her mouth. Put on a big screen and just look at the mouth. It's so cute. Look at her the mouth. Well, I should try. Psyche. Put it on the big screen for a second. Yeah. Look at Look at Look at
the mouth. It's so cute. It looks like it's got I love that cat. It's like a little Oh, what a cutie pie. So adorable. No. Can I open your mouth? Can your mouth? Looks like
my cat just yells at me all the time. Yeah. Can we show your teeth? Can we see your teeth?
Just pull up there. They actually look really good. How old is your cat? How old is your kitty? She's like I think she's like three or four years old. Lor, can I see your eyes? Oh, she's Can we see your eyes? Yeah, I say she looks pretty young. She She's young. Can we see your eyes? Hold on.
Yeah. I'm sorry. Nor, can we see your eyes? Come on. Let's see your eyes. So beautiful. Green. You want to draw it? She like Halloween eyes.
Guess the stream link is coming by the way. Rock is back. Very beautiful. And and I just want to say hi to I I just want to say hi to Janet. I'm seeing her right now. Yeah, Janet is in the chat. Yeah, we got to put it on the screen where
they can see. Janet, what's up? Yeah, I basically I basically self-destructed the relationships before they could hurt me. I just said, "Okay, it's over. You want to you want it over? I'm not going to leave the door open." I basically self-destructed the relationship. I said I said, "Okay." Okay. So,
that this is why I asked how your childhood was because how was the relationship between your mother and your father? Oh, it was good. Learn a lot of like relationship patterns. My father and my mother
were like soul soulmates. Like they're like Gemini Cancer energy and they always loved each other. Like I had a happy childhood. I had a happy adulthood. They they loved each other till the end. My my parents were like very happy. So I didn't they didn't have issues. They always also accepted me. Like when I was when I came out of the closet at 13 or 14, they were like,
"Hey, well, you know, you know, we'll always love you. We we we'll never like reject you." And they were just very progressive kind of people. They were not religious people. They were not very spiritual people. They were very heart-c centered people. And they always I talk like him.
This makes sense actually. was that's a good question. It was. Bye. Big tall. Big tall. You're mad. Big tall. Don't leave. Eat a cat. No offense. Okay. I'll I'll eat some You guys, you know, I had a girlfriend once and then and I
finger she had my finger I finger banged her one time and she like soaked my entire couch in like it was like more fluid than the couch. So it was like It was crazy. He squirted it on you or something. You're like
fluid came out of that body. It was like it was it was magical experience. That much fluid cannot come from one body, right? It it would have drained her whole body. But she was fine. She was fine. And uh psych said, "I want you to eat me out." And she's like, "I'm on my period." I was like "Okay well yeah what?
What?" Oh, I would never ask that. I know. I know. It was weird. She's like, she's like, "You should be You should be like a kid in the candy store." I'm like, "Well, I'm sick of candy." No, Nick. You You can date her. So,
I think she's I think she's She's like 70 years old. I think she's 75 years old now. So So Nick, you can have her. But what? But how? I'm I'm 44, but when I was dating her, I was 33 and she was 55. What?
Yeah, this just keeps getting worse and worse. No wonder you're traumatized, my love. I'm traumatized, guys. I think this is a trauma. I I'm totally up. I'm not gonna deny it. Okay, but I I'm I'm getting better. Okay, maybe I'm not. I don't know. I I don't know what's happening.
You are You're going to be fine. We're all We all have Look, you you could you you could be Nick right now with some crazy ass on the back of the wall. I know. You could have a cardboard girlfriend named Kayla. I know. I I have a cardboard cut out, but it's a Freddy Krueger and stuff like
that. And And it has a big hole in the middle. Oh, Rudy's coming out. Rudy, you know what I'm saying? Guys, look at Rudy's coming. Hold on. One second. Rudy coming out. Big hole in the middle. Yeah. Rudy, you're saying hi. Rudy, come here. Rudy, go say hi.
laugh makes me laugh. I can't help it. I I have a good come here. You make me laugh. Do you guys see him? Come here, Rudy. Rudy. Rudy, come on. Why you got to be so rude?
Oh, where a you want attention too? Are you Are you my little tricks? You're my little cuddle buddy. You spy on me when I'm in the shower and you look at me when I'm naked. I don't know what to pay attention to. I'm like to the date.
I don't know whether to Yeah. just or the one with the lightsaber and the kitty. It's really hard being in kitty gang because anything kitty is going to distract you. So then it's kind of hard
to pay attention to wait does I'm like kitty. Yeah, he does. The car they came to the right place. Nick, you're you're so wrong about that. You're you're wrong with the firefighter. It was actually the cable guy. And um the cable guy, he said he he had knee pads on, right? But he didn't
he didn't have things with me. I was really offended. Okay, but go ahead. Do do your thing.
Read my for yourself. You can see you can see how tiny my pee pee is. You want tunic? You have pee pee. He said, "Is it true that gay men have tiny pee pee?" No, they have a Well, I don't know. I'm just for myself.
Yeah, I got a big pee. That's my card. Wait, that's my card. I wanted They want to get you or something. I don't know. I'm thinking like some kind of like trafficking ring or something. They're after you with the
trucks, so watch out. If there's a big 18-wheeler, just try to be like, "Whoa, why am I standing so close to this thing?" Okay, I'll I'll stay clear of the 18-wheeler. You got to watch out for them. They're everywhere. Oh my god. You got the truck car. You don't know
what the next couple of it could be ice cream and then you get like a truckload of ice cream. You don't know what the next two cards. So, you got to keep that. Hold that. Taylor, my assistance is coming to your Yes. Please block her snatch. Get your next card. Tape it on there.
You got a truck. There you go. So it just squeezes into her crack ever. So thank you. I didn't I was tired of looking at that. She needs to cross them straight on the cards. Not on the hole. All right. You want your next card? So we got the truck card.
Focus. This is serious business. That one hit hard. A bird. A bird. dealt with a chicken in the past when you tried to fight somebody, they were might be too chicken to fight. Yeah, that's what we think. So, she will fight a truck.
Maybe it means I just need a little more protein in my diet. You know, maybe there's a truckload of chickens coming for Jim. They're bringing it back. He's not a farmer. And then you might get the farmers and then maybe he'll move you out of the
house and then be like, "Let's do live streams all day on this garden." Oh I'll look for the farmer cart. Oh If you don't pull the right one, I'm panic now. Oh, what's that? Another automobile.
An ocean. An ocean. No, show it the right way. What? You're showing it opposite way. Turn it up the other way. They're bringing in a truckload off of the ship of chickens
for me to make her feel better. That's a pretty intense reading if I've ever seen so myself. All right,
I want to make is like the cutest person. Okay, we're going to make some water here. What the hell is that noise? Oh my god. I'm going to die of cancer. A brain of the cancer. Take that.
Jim, why did you do that? Jimnick, that was not very nice. She didn't do that. Jimnick didn't do that. Jimnick when I removed her from the stage, it Well, it probably was an accident. She went off. wouldn't do it on I know. I know. Jim, I forgive you. Dominic wouldn't do that. She wouldn't troll you if like No,
this is the beat maker right here. We can only do animal sounds right now, but we're thinking Come back. It was Jimmy. It was her mic. It was her mic. Yeah, she obviously was like spazzing out over there about her. No, I'm spazzing out. I'm having the melt, guys. This is It's my Don't Don't
Don't put on her. I'm having the meltdown. Put attention on me. It's me. I'm having the meltdown. Let me sing my song again to the audience to see if they like it. I beg for forgive
after what you said to me. I pour my cup of love to them and you haven't talked to me about it. Nick, go yourself. God damn it. I'm
Are you Are you trolling tonight? Are you being a brat? Maybe. Hi. Hello. Hello. Nick. Hi Janet. Janet, what's up? This is Janet. I had to wait. I had to cuz the echo is too much for
him. Darling, he's gonna crash out. And before you do that, my love empress is here. He just needs to take a deep breath. Okay. Me or who? You hear me? Yes dear. Oh, I I know. But no, I'm I'm fine. I'm actually fine. I'm really fine. You
you're you're you're fine or not? No, I'm not fine. I'm fine. Right. So, let's just take a deep breath, dog. This is supposed to be your happy place. Okay. This is your place. You allowed a lot of people to come here and now you understand why it goes on in the beef sector right?
You see why you do what they do, but that's not what you want, right? Right. I got trained. I was trained in the beef se. They trained me. They they trained me. I I'm like way ahead of whatever's going on here now. I was prepared for it. Right. So sometimes we just have to relax. And remember is here.
Jim Nick. Jim Nick's a great woman. She's just having technical issues. I know the stream Nick was trolling me. Nick Nick was trolling me the whole time. I know. I know he was drunk. Some people like it's not saying cheer you up and everybody's
he saying he was saying you treat tarot readers with their own taste of their own medicine and he was making fun of tarot with doing his but okay he was he was he was making fun of tarot and he was like trying to say I'm doing the stupidest like cards and stuff like that and like and he was he had his microphone all bad all the time. Okay.
Nick Johnson. Nick. Nick. I like him still. I'll let him back on the show and stuff like that. Not that it's Nick. It's that he doesn't show me the whole time. He was telling me the whole time laughing at me. Made fun of his boyfriend all expensive.
And Psych takes it serious. I know. And Lemon like um you know who I like? I like Queen Sanity who was here last night. I like Like these people have all been good to me. Yeah, Nick, I know you were trolling me the whole time. I know you were. I just thought you were cute and stuff like that. It was cute for it was cute
for like 10 minutes and stuff like that. If you ruin my show having your microphone bad and like um and then saying, "Oh, go roll up a joint with a tarot card and two tarot card readers like they like with it tasting their own medicine and stuff like that." And then trying to see my boyfriend and stuff like that. That's really cute, Nick. But I n I I I was on to you way way way before that. But I still had you on and
stuff like that when you try to He was just making fun of me saying what was he just what was he just saying? He was saying oh oh did you hurt my feelings? He was making fun of He was making fun of me. Okay. He was making fun of me the whole time. I understand. It's cool. Nick go do your thing. Go do
his thing. Do your thing. He was he was he was what they do to him all the time. So it's just kind of like a moment my love. So they do it to him. So he thinks everybody else is everybody right. Yeah. So you guys Well, you care about him, right? I care.
I love that from the sector that I always hang out in. He'd be over there in the B sector and they terrorize him with that tarot and again, that's his thing. And if stuff. And that's his thing, then respectfully, he's tired of it being a joke. I'm not I'm not going to like a nurse I'm not going to a nurses hospital nurse
and making fun of the oh the nurses the nurse is like um you know changing a catheter and stuff like that and I'm I'm not like making songs about it and like teasing it teasing like just saying the whole all over over and over and over and over like he was doing over and over and he wouldn't stop and then then Mer was trolling me too. Miser, I know. Yeah, you're a nice guy. That's why
you're not here tonight. You're trolling me, too. I understand, guys. I understand. Be beta. If you're trolling me, it's fine. If you're trolling me, if you're trolling me, it's fine. I know. I know. Because that's what they want. They want us they want to split people apart. And so, they want me to not trust trust anybody. But I'm saying I trust you, VA. And so, I will never like
I will never not trust you. Okay? Even if even if you are trolling me, I still love Why would I What would What incentive would I get out of trolling you? There's no But listen, she supports you and she's here for you. Thank you, Janet.
I think he I think he just lost a lot of trust in people. So, well, it it happens. The paranoia takes on when the echo starts cuz they want him to crash out. Mama, they came over here and did a lot to his panel. That's not what he wants.
He wants peace. And already already all my that's why I love Alisa because Alisa no matter what everyone said and stuff like she gets it like and that's why and I know you get it too beat it and it's like I know I know you get it like and we'll be friends forever as long as
you'll have me you know if you if you give up on me too it's fine you won't I won't judge I like you the way you are judge you psych I'm here you gave me a mod I'm here in your time that you need friends. I'm here. I turn on my camera. I'm laying in my bed. I'm here. I'm in
Pennsylvania. I'm 3 hours ahead. It's 1:30 in the morning here. Cuz this is serious. You just need to gather yourself. Just relax because not everybody's doing what they're doing, honey. But this is what they do and this is the game of YouTube and you know that. So tougher skin, my love. We got
this. But you gotta relax. I have I have thick skin, but it's like I have a soft I have a soft heart and my heart is trying it. They're trying it. So again, my love, we will not allow it. Vita won't allow it and neither will Empress. Yes. And then the chat. Look at the chat. Gun says we're here. Everyone's
here for you. Love you, but we just gota, you know, call's not there for me. Mer Caesar's there. I'm surprised. I'm surprised Janet is up so late. You're never up Well, I was listening, but like my heart this late. started to pound for him because again, this energy is off and he just needs the love. He's gone
through a lot. You nobody judge in our lives. But in this moment, you have a great family. You've started something wonderful. We're not going to let anyone take that from you. This is your place. This is your home. You control the energy. If you're tired, then remove them.
You know, you can get them up out of here. You paid a cost to be the boss, not them. These are people that I like I I loved that I never had a bad experience with and then they they just like threw me away and stuff like that. And then I'm like threw me away and they're like good
their friends and stuff like that. Then how come people that are like Nick comes on the panel his microphone is always bad. He's like just sitting there. He's saying in the chat oh just he's like oh treat chair reader I can't talk for someone else.
I I wouldn't want someone to talk for me. But I'm saying this is how I take it is like people that are saying when people show you who they truly are, you have to believe them the first time because they'll tell you and you don't want to believe them because he was telling me he was telling me the whole time who we are. Do you know this isn't who we are?
No. No. I'm not saying you. I'm not saying you or I'm saying Nick. I'm saying Clumsy. I'm saying Emma. I'm saying Traveling Gypsy. who are all these people that were so into the mix and so like right trying to get all into the mix and stuff like that and then
I make one little perceived mistake and then it's like I'm I don't know it's like no you've always been really cool Janet I made Lemon's channel I'm cool with Queen Sanity she came up here I want to help people like what I really want to do is help people and it's like am I am I doing something that wrong am I doing something bad.
It's not always you. You're worried about what everyone else is thinking. These are people you never know, never met. These are phone conversations with a little bit of camera added. Like, right, but it's months and months and months of love of love and like love pouring into it and stuff. It's like it hurts. And then it's like months and
months of love and then it's like, sorry key. Look who's in the chat. Look who's in the chat. I see miser. Miser, you can come up. Miser, if you like. I told you I manifested it. I said he'll be up tonight. Oh, he's never coming. I don't know if he like I think he may be trolling me, too. Everyone may be trolling me. I don't know.
You know, I thought maybe because he's so too good. I know cuz I felt I fell in love hard and fast and stuff like that. Honesty in him. I don't think he is. If he is, he's like re hard and fast with people that you don't know. And you need to stay strong to the ones that stand beside you because ones that stand with
you are the ones that'll last. You want a little bit. You don't want a lot. It's like it's a lot going on out here. All I want is the All I want is a friend. I don't even like care about having a boyfriend. I don't even care about I want a like a friend. like a like a really somebody that likes me and somebody that's not trying to like
well I can say that's cuz when you came to her channel she said it she said Janet he's amazing and she's been here since never I have gone through some things and I would tell you that yes you're talking to the right person but honey y'all both new to this
me and I I seen it all you can't is like experienced. She's taught me a lot. They literally call me a white woman. Do I look like a white woman? Yeah you're a beautiful woman. I mean, do I look like a white woman? I'm just
a biracial woman from Pennsylvania. Do you think I look like a white woman that's racist? But do you know how hard they gave it to me? So, come on. I know, but you know, that's why, okay, I don't want to be be like racial about it, but I'm saying I always related to black people because I always said I I
experienced this discrimination. I experienced like um ostracizing and stuff like that. And I always like black people are very strong. Okay, I'm not trying to be racial about it, but I'm I'm saying I really respect black people and I would love black people. And I I said there's like a black some black people will say
there's not a correlation between the struggle between gay and we love you cuz we're I'm the bee in the community. Okay. I'm older than you. I'm 47 years old but I'm still the bisexual in the community. So I've been through a lot. I know what you're talking about and I know why you can relate. But you
are vulnerable in this world. This is not the real world. If you're alone in the real world, you're doing too much here because again, you got to slow down. I'm trying to but also things are moving so fast. There things things were slow for a long
time and I was it was so slow and now it's moving so fast and it's like I can't even like my head my head's spinning and stuff like that. I understand. It's like it's happening so fast. I don't know. I'm I'm gonna be successful. You're gonna be successful. Be is going to be successful. We're all going to be successful and I want to help each other
be successful together. But I want to know that at least we have each other 40 in the morning looking crazy. VA looking crazy. Yeah. So you I come in peace cuz again love it's for fun. This is entertainment. Hold up. It is it's this way.
This way. Hold up. I can do it. Hold up. I can do it. I don't I don't spend my West Coast gang or the UFO. Well, I say we're the Wii cuz you guys are the West Coast and I'm the East Coast. Together. We're the Wii. W in sign language. I don't know. I can do a
bunch of games. I can I can do like I know every time guys I I've hung out with gangs for like the past 20 years and stuff like that. I've been on I've done meth I mean I swear I will tell everything I've done. Okay. Are you kidding me? This girl knows how to do sign language, let alone gang sign. She knows all the
I don't know. All I know is that I hung out with gang members. I hung out with millionaires. I hung out with billionaires. I hung out with with like normal people. I hung out with like crazy people. I hung out with psychopaths. I h I with everybody. I love everybody. Like I love every group I've hung out with. I can find
positive things about them. And I love them. And and like I I forgive them too. I just don't like the people that are there's something called a malignant narcissist. The malignant narcissist is somebody that will come they'll come bearing gifts. They will come love bombing. They
will idealize you. They will put you on a pedestal. Then they'll knock the pedestal down. They will discard you. And then they'll come back again with with the gifts. And so I know the cycles. Okay. I guys, you gotta avoid that. That's why I can relate to people because I like I've been through that cycle a million.
But this is entertainment. This is not real. This is to be fun. And as long as you remember that, those are the friends you can have for that. This is the most fun I've ever had in my life. But what I really want is a true friend. That's all I want. If I can't find a true friend in this life,
time will tell and people's actions will tell. Time and action will tell. You know, Peter, what I was what today I I pulled something. I pulled a quote about Capricorns and I said most people are guided by their words and most people take words seriously.
Capricorns are guided by their by people's actions. And so I've seen the people's words. I've seen people's actions and it's like I judge people by their actions towards me. They can say anything they want. They can say all these all the they want. People can say anything. You can say anything on this YouTube. You can say anything on
YouTube, right? It's how they act towards me. They're real actions. They're real heart centered actions. And it's like if if I could help people with that, you can. Yeah. And helping people is to grow for self
and loving yourself and starting to be your friend with yourself because a lot of that is when you're looking outside of self. You're not really happy. So you're trying to find something. Okay. Miser, you don't like Miser. I don't think Miser likes me anymore. It's okay. Miser, you don't like me anymore.
I'm I'm a loser. Mer, I'm I'm nobody to like even even around with. I'm a loser. I'm a I'm a Don't say that. Leave me al me alone if you don't like me. Okay, neither. Just please don't leave me on. No. All he did last night was like wait
for you and hold the panel and you know whatever you whatever happens whatever happens he's a good friend. hasn't done anything like he's never been disrespectful to anybody anybody ever on the channel in the chat. He's been generous like right just like just like Clumsy was
generous and never did something bad to me just like now you lost trust in everybody now you're you're taking your trust issues on me with another person you have to take them by their actions. So you just said that you can't take that be and empress you're the last people I trust in the world. All right. It's like
and it's like or my my family too. I trust my family. My family loves me. You guys love me. I don't know about anybody else. I don't think people I think people will like be friends with me for some reason. I I don't know why Emma was friends with me. Why do they keep their Why do they keep their chats open but they won't respond to me? Why? Why don't
they talk to me personally? Why will they just keep their keep it open so I can like make a fool of myself? Why do like I don't why why I don't even I don't trust myself anymore after all this abuse. I've been abused for like over 20 years by these people. It's like gangstalkers. I don't
know what you call it. Gangstalkers, um psychopaths, narcissists, right? I just been through it and it's like I don't trust anybody. I don't even trust myself anymore because I've just been so abused for all this time. I'm so sorry to hear that. That's crazy work.
And he froze. I think he froze. Yeah, I know. I was like, he's going to be okay. Miser will join. And then you should meet him. And you have like a really good, you know, you can just see this guy is so chill, so nice. He's so sweet. Um, he's always been so respectful to everybody and he
takes all all his time to do these like really nice card readings. Psych does really great card readings. His is on point. He does fast and then Miser does like a more elaborate one. He did a whole light like ceremony for us last night to get rid of like the negative energy. How can you say he he's not your
friend? You know, you have to have trust in people until they break your trust, right? I'm not saying trust everybody, but paranoia is is real, honey. So, we have to remember that. I'm getting I get I get like that too, you know. I mean, so many people have done you wrong on the
internet that I'm like, you know, you have your guard channel why you're in the chat talking to them. They don't respond. Feel some type of way. Come on. Like, and some people take it harder than others. Love. And he's very sensitive, but that doesn't mean he's weak. He's very kind.
When he came through the sector, the B sector, they tore him apart. They called him pink people, pink lips, pink per all types of stuff. And he wasn't like he didn't seem affected. But it does build up. 20 years of being stalked. Like I I couldn't even take it for three days. I mean,
yeah. Yeah. That's kind of like, you know, Yeah. I mean, I was just getting kind of high, acting acting real. I mean, is that Nick? Nick, he said that you were making fun of his tarot or something. Yeah, I just like to play with my coach.
And a lot of it. I just kind of was like playing like to play too. I can't play. I think a lot of times people don't understand that play, you know, because like somebody could joke and someone doesn't, you know, like find the joke funny and I feel like with him sometimes
he lets people kind of be themselves, but then he wants to be himself too and he doesn't want Well, see that um Nick is like kind of like a light-hearted person. He's goofy. He's there to like, you know, lighten things up. He's he that's how that's what he is. You know, I've I've had him on my panel many times. He just kind of
cracks the drama. Come back. You come back to I don't think he meant to be making fun of um Psyche. I think he was just trying to cheer him up or kind of, you know. Yeah, just come back to You're You're wanted on your show. Give him a white handshake. How do I do that?
aspect. See what I'm saying? It's like you got it's like you got to learn how to like laugh, I guess, about things that we don't understand. We do want you here. I I came up here for you. What are you talking about? In my pajamas looking crazy.
What do you mean I didn't come up here for you? I came up here to to make you to make you feel wanted. Yeah. Psyche. If you don't come back, we're going to leave. Yeah. We're here for you. We're here for you. You better get your ass back up here.
If he needs tickled, he needs tickled. Ma, we got to find a way to tickle him. You got to tickle his ass. We got a tickle back up here. That's right. I'm going tickle your ass. You need tickle. Look at you. You need a hug. You need some kisses. That's what
you need, honey. Empress would kiss you, darling. Right on your forehead, honey. Me and Empress will cuddle with you. I promise you. I'll turn my camera on again. It will be all right. You hear me? You just got to let it ride. Let it go. Just let it go. It's a show. You hear me? And just let it be.
Yeah. Look at Kitty. Hi, Kitty. Kitty. Look at her winking at us. So cute. Yeah, I know. All I really want All I really want is like a real friend. And I met I was
telling Pi today I was like last year I had no friends and like nobody liked me and I I was alone for Valentine's Day and I was like this year on Valentine's Day I had people people like talking to me on my panel and people like actually liked me and I felt like
was popping froze up. He always does that when it gets juicy. I'm like way over sensitive. I'm sorry, You're fine, darling. We're all guys. sensitive and in some way. And you know
what? Nick said he was just joking and he and he wasn't that serious. So sometimes, uh, Psyche, we gota just laugh, darling. It's not, you know, like, you know, like the gentleman big, tall, sexy Rob in the chat. He's just making jokes about me. I think it's funny even though I was saying I was saying you guys like
me and he was like I don't like you. And then he's like I'm just kidding. And so like I don't know how to take it. Well listen I'll tell you how to take it. You take it with a grain of salt. That's how you take it. Okay. Sticks and stones break your bones. Honey. Words should never I need I need I need a friend. I need I need a friend and I beat his beat as my
friend and and I and you're my friend. I need a friend. I need like help. We're all your friend. We We're your friend. The people in the chat, you're your friend. And then Big Paul said that I like his comment. He said, what did he say? Psych is a former Calvin Klein model and a jiggle. I think you should
tighten up. Look, he's frozen again. I'm so I'm too messed up to like have a normal relationship anymore. I'm too like psychologically messed up to like trust anybody. I'm too psychologically messed up to like believe anyone loves me and stuff like that. I know my family loves me.
I want a friend. I can't trust any friend. Like, and I know you guys love me and I'm sorry I'm like over sensitive and stuff like that. I just don't feel like anyone loves me. Oh, well, we're gonna love you. How about you share my screen? How about you share my screen and we're
gonna love you. No, no, no. In the back. It looks like Yeah, looks like I'm coming up twice. Yeah, you need to like You're going He's got to bring himself back. I gotta roll this joint, girl, cuz I'm about to do something silly to make him laugh. Where'd he go? You gotta come
back. Share my screen. It's It's the song It's the song from Friends, guys. It's the theme song from Friends. Okay. Yeah. So, you can add yourself on and then Yeah. Add yourself and they come back. Wait, his internet's probably Jack and
the internet. Why can't we be friends? Why can't we know which one you're doing? Yeah, it's the one from um friend. Wait, he's still rolling. Okay. So, do you see me like it's like a looks like I'm asking to come back in twice in the back where you add to the studio people?
Yes, I will. Yeah. See how it's asking you to invite? Yeah. All right. Are you ready? This is for you. And forgive me how I sound. All right, here we go.
Oh, sorry. I gave up. No, that was good. There he goes. I'll be there for you. Look at his face. And see, I made a fool of myself for
you. You understand? I love that. It was a good message. All right. Oh, thank you, Scum. He said he was singing it with me. There we go. Scum was like dancing to it, too. Because again, you got to change the energy, right? You're a tarot card reader. You know that the energy is
negative. You know they come for you, right? Psyche. You got to change the energy. I at this point I don't know who's for me or who's against me and who loves me who hates me. It's like it's like similar energy. Love and hate are similar energies but hate hate can be stronger but I think love is the
strongest thing. All I say is that I just love you guys and uh I'm sorry if it's something wrong tonight. I'm sorry if I'm not like perfect tonight. I know. Look at Look at Big and Toss comment that I sing like Roseanne.
Roseanne. Yeah she saying God bless America. What? She said the land of the free, the home of the brave. And she's saying the sorcer. Oh, hey. How does a spar bagel better at
Rosanne? I love Rosanne. He loves Rosanne. See how we turned that around beta? Yeah, guys. I love I love Yeah guys. I I've been around the block. I Guys, I
was trained by the beef sector. I was trained by, you know, and Lemon hates me now and I'm banned from his show. I'm banned from a lot. I have a lot of queens that like me and I I have Queen Princess Bea or Queen Princess be and and I have
Queen Sanity and I have uh my beautiful friend right here. Hold on. I have Empress. Emperor the Emperor. The Empress. All the all the queens in the deck. Empress, you're you're dead. I'm naked. Think you guys are both Capes. You guys are both Capricornies. I'm January 7th, guys. By the way, I'm
January 7th. You know, Tiger butterflies were one year from my my birthday. We're like short for like Aren't you like the like a Barbie doll? Oh my god, it looks like the Ken doll, you know.
Big screen. Big screen. Big screen. Big screen. Look at he's wait. Nope. Come back. Yep. There you go. There you go. He does have a really nice body. Randy Savage. Can you turn around one
more time, Nick? Nick, turn around. One more time, Nick. Just turn around one more time. I want to see I see I want to see the back. Dude why? What is going on tonight, guys? You have a Trump stamp. No, we No. No. No. Pull it back up. It was a tie. I thought it was Trump. No. Pull it back
up. Backwards. Tag. I thought it was a trance on backwards. Oh my gosh. Night hours. Guys, guys, no one else can make me smile. No, no one else can make me happy except for you guys. You guys are the
reason I do this. You guys, I'm not kidy or something. You guys are the reason I do this. Beeta, Empress, Nick. Every day I like wake I wake up, I'm talking to the I'm talking to my dead dead phone
and talking to the chat and stuff like that. I love you guys so much and uh it's okay if you don't like me or whatever. Something's wrong with me or something like that. But I really love you guys. I'm sorry if I do something wrong. you. Will I get in trouble if I show a gay
man my ass? I don't know. I don't think so. I think you have a great ass. I don't even know. Is that legal? Yeah, we're breaking law. We're breaking all the laws today. Go do whatever you I don't know. Am I gonna get in trouble?
Damn. Look at that booty. Nice. Oh my god. Empress just work for me. Hey, I'm mad at you. Come on. You have a really nice butt channel.
I don't want to get invited to the late night backstage party or anything else. That was for the gay man only. I think Nick got pretty excited right now. He's got to throw away his board cardboard. No more of that. M is mad at me now. Me my boyfriend's
mad at me now. He all day. And then he like he came on like 11 12:00. I know he didn't sleep for like 24 hours or something like that. He's mad at me. It's okay. Me I love you still. You're not mad. Okay. I feel like everyone's mad at me. I had my I had I had like my be some of my
best friends today all just kicked me out of their life and like I was nothing and they didn't say one word about it. They were just like running to the other person inside and I'm I'm like a bad person. So I'm like sensitive right now and I'm sorry if I like I'm not saying the right thing or like doing the right thing but yeah that Empress that was
awesome and I'm I'm sorry. My god was I love it. Thank god what's his name is not here to clip it. What was that guy? Yasine your clipped it. He would have he would have they gonna be like Janet has a wait I got a BBL. Oh
I haven't seen him around since I think that that time that you left. I haven't seen him since then actually now that I think about it. I hope he's okay. You're going to be okay. Psych. Yeah. It's going to be okay. He doesn't hate it.
It's going to be okay. It's going to be all right. It's going to be a good good life. I'm a I'm a mother. I'm a sinner. I'm a saint. I do not feel ashamed.
Yes. I'm not a perfect person. There's many things I wish I didn't do, but I continue learning. And always know that I will always love you. Guys, I probably have to end the stream because I'm just like way too drunk and I'm just sweating
with you. Bye, Nick. Bye. Thank you. I love you guys. I'm sorry. I'm sorry guys. Love you guys. I have to go. It's like five hours. I did something wrong. I probably did something wrong. I love you guys. Have a good night, guys.
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